Feels thread? Feels thread.
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
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Feels thread?
Feels thread.
Longest read, but fucking sad as its probably true.
everyone gone?
>>703779227
Just lurking
I'm tired
>pic related
Anyone have the one with the divorced parents, mom convinces son, dad is a douche bag, son hates dad and dad really love him, it makes me choke just thinking about it, son finds out dad dies, son goes to clean out his house and finds a stash of video game magazine's labeled "games anon might like" fuck that's horrible having a bitch mother like that.
evening /b/
any woman insight anon available?
so there's this girl, who after a year still longs for me
yet decided at the beginning of that year she needs to go back to her ex
why?
because she, and that we both established
>fears to be alone
>knows what she's getting out of him
>thinks he is immature (she is his first), childish at times and inexperienced
>she sees me as her mature, experienced guy
>she's clinging on to that teenage relationship because every other failed around them and she wants to show everyone that it can exist
two days ago
>can we get some more distance between us? aka not write with each other?
>need to make myself clear what i want
>writing with you is making me sorta just look into one way
now what do?.
>>703780017
She's the immature one for caring about such a bullshit thing as "showing everyone it can exist".
Remove her on social media, delete her number and ignore her. Move on with your life and don't be a beta faggot backup plan for that girl.
>>703780332
i believe that is the only correct thing to do eh
Feels threads aren't what they used to be.
All these fucking newfags try to be edgy and mysterious, look at this shit
>>703779710
cocksucker attention seeker trying to bait other newfags.
Come and post here when you have a story to tell, not shitty poetry or images of media stars we've seen a thousand time on other social media.
Fuck normal fags
>>703779859
Are you talking about this one? Doesn't exactly fit your described story but anyways.
>>703781232
Picture didn't get included.
>>703776954
This is the only pic I ever saved from a feels thread, Because its so damn relatable
>>703776954
>Feels thread.
Here this is one of my favs, especially on certain day.
Still got like an hour left maybe I should just go somewhere?
But I don't know.
How does someone get friends?
It's a rhetorical question btw and I don't like attention anyways. Just needed to get it off my chest.
I'll go back to lurking.
>>703781477
that one always gets me. I would be friends with him
>>703777123
If you don't like you, then why would anyone else. Make friends with yourself. Fuck that, make yourself your partner in crime. You and yourself against the world.
I'm 33, have been struggling with bipolar my whole life.
The med's help, but lately I can't stop thinkin about killing myself with an electric chainsaw. Or by jumping into one of those huge woodchipers with the chute turning around so my shredded up giblets fly everywhere
>>703781785
Same. You see this vest he's wearing in the profile picture? He got this job a few weeks before and I remember the posts of him(I don't have fb just read them here) and he was so fucking proud and all.
Why are people like him ''the losers''?
Because we're not cold hearted selfish people?
I can't...
>>703782575
Same anon here: cause people fucking suck. like even though years of /b/ have made me cold to a lot of shit. This kind of stuff will always get to me
Don't let the thread die
>>703781477
He's not alone i don't even put my bday on facebook. Only my mother wished me happy b day.
I did some kind of party and borrowed even consoles from my neighbor and nobody come even thru i invited my whole class.
I stopped giving fuck 8 years ago when i entered high school and the only thing i got was hate.
Any of you guys have the rest of this?
Bump
>>703776954
Never let your despair become who you are. It'll only end in death either yours or another's.
I know it doesn't mean much and the Internet is vast and disconnected but...
I care about all of you.
I went to europe for vaacation, having to drop uni for a semester to do it. I thought that here i would stop being depressed and drop my porn addictiom but its just the same as where i live. Should i kill myself b?. By the way i am in Madrid
>>703783501
Same dude, b made me cold as fuck, I stopped loving or caring about almost everyone and everything yet I feel more connected to this place and the people on it than anything else
>>703783699
Nah just get a trunk, run a few people down the police will end it for you. Bonus you get your name remembered... maybe
>>703783844
I just said to my gf last night all I need in life is her and /b/
>>703783993
wrong reply my bad
>>703781477
Just a normal, hard working guy trying to share some happiness and everyone ignores him.
I could less about you whiney nerd slobs but that's genuinely sad.
>>703782874
Iktf. I'm edgy as fuck all the time and post shit that makes even people on /b/ hate me. But it's the only way someone will ever notice me.
>>703783038
I don't have fb, but I know what you mean I guess. I always try to convince me that I don't care about it.
But now I'm sitting here drinking alone until I pass out like every year.
And I can't lie to myself anymore. I hate to be alone.
And I often act like I hate everyone, but I'm just mad because no one cares about me.
I'm crying like a baby and the worst thing is that I understand why no one likes the person that I am.
I just have to live with it.
>>703781889
I have never understood this logic. My psychiatrist gave me this bull shit all the time.
If I already hate myself how am I supposed to trick myself into thinking differently?
>>703776954
Feels initiated
>>703776954
Robin Williams was a self absorbed prick. I will never watch anything he was in ever again.
>>703784586
fuck off
he's the most hilarious comedian
>>703784586
Oh, did you meet him? Did you meet someone who knew him well?
No? then fuck off.
>>703784327
Is it worse to be who you truly are and hate yourself for it or not be yourself and hate yourself for it
I am sick, sleep every night alone waiting for that one girl...tfw no gf.
I cant see my future being anything but misery
>>703784289
My friend at uni msg me what's wrong tell him the truth told me to grow up.
Yesterday he msg me how i'm just ignored him.
Kindness is the worst form of a lie, I'm slowly going insane and hate that i'm alone.
I see them going to parties and shit no invites ever.
>>703785043
OKC my friend. I was in a shit relationship years ago, made one as a joke and this Saturday I'm with current gf for 4 years.
>wanna tell her how i really feel
>know she doesn't feel the same way
>also know that if i do tell her the ensuing awkwardness will push me away from the last meaningful friendship i have
should i just man up and do it /b/? lose the last person i can tell my feelings to just for the peace of mind in knowing that we'll never be together?
Anyone here actually HAVE a gf and just know you're the worst thing that ever happened to her? I wish I WAS one of the "tfwnogf" people, at least she never would have had me fuck her up.
>>703784586
Self absorbed is kind of that last thing I would use to describe the man.
He spent his life making others happy despite being super-unhappy through most of it. He lived for other people you uninformed edgy little teenager.
>>703779859
u mean this one?
A classic
makes me cry every time
>>703779910
Too much
>>703781006
cuck'd
too lazy to write greentext sorry bro, would love to write one tho
>>703785043
You know what is worse?
I wen't to a con 300km away, i fell for a girl there and she liked me got my 1st kiss there, it was my first love holding hand and shit.
After 2 day i go home, we exchanged numbers and skype.
After a week she told me LDR aren't for her.
3 years later i'm here sitting by myself again.
>>703785259
Me kinda,
I noticed Im such a bad influence on her, I did drugs, Still drink and smoke but currently focusing on school right now but since im together with her, her behaviour is turning to shit, Drinking more, picked up smoking, Stopped doing most school related shit. Her mom kind of hates her now and so does her sister. She's just too blind to see im the reason it all. She was a nice almost non drinking nerd before she met me.
>>703785181
Do it. It only becomes more painful to be with her but not "with her" the longer it goes on. Trust me. And who knows, maybe things will work out
>>703782005
Don't do this
Well, here we are.
>>703784262
>Just a normal, hard working guy trying to share some happiness and everyone ignores him.
That's why it's one of my favorites.
>I could less about you whiney nerd slobs but that's genuinely sad.
Yea, sorry. I really hate attentionwhoring, but something inside me screaming for atleast 1 person wishing me...you know what people say on days like this.
I've given up.
>>703785109
>My friend at uni msg me what's wrong tell him the truth told me to grow up.
That's normal.
>no invites ever.
Okay, that sounds like a shitty friend to me.
>>703776954
>>703785274
Regarding OP's pic. sometimes you also happen to be a professional comedian getting paid to be funny.
I mean, he wasn't exactly a fatass pigeonholed nobody living in tatters somewhere forcing a smile for every stranger.
This nigger was filthy rich, and lived well, with a net worth of over a HUNDRED million dollars when he died but sure, the nostalgia goggles fit, right? Just a disenfranchised man meagerly getting by, living to put a smile on your face, right? lol
I'm not hating on Robin Williams, but he wasn't some starving artist, nigger.
>>703782005
dude, do you want to die, or be a mangled freak? just shoot yourself in the head, damn.
>>703784897
I don't want to hate myself. I don't know how to stop.
It's not as simple as "doing what I want to do". At the end of the day I regret everything.
>>703786180
you can be unhappy without being in abject poverty
>>703786338
Yeah, and that usually means you're a selfish or entitled prick.
>>703786338
without being in abject poverty?
Hang on nigger, let's get on the same page.
RICH. he was RICH. He had many tens of millions of dollars in visible assets, let alone whatever else he had stashed away. Let's just be clear. He was really fucking wealthy
Hey guys, who here thought specifically about how to kill themselves today? I know I have been!
>>703786782
>>703786619
Okay, so money really IS the root of all happiness. That makes things a lot simpler, thanks.
>>703786801
jumping off a cliff :'( i honestly could you know and i know how 4chan is "do it" "stream it "
>>703786948
Jumping from high places can be unreliable, especially natural formations. You might just hit a lower slope and brake your spine, lay there slowly dying in your own piss and shit for days.
Much better a high-caliber firearm, right to the face, like Hemingway.
>>703786801
Yea I do.
But something prevents me. I don't know what it is.
>>703777584
I had that.
Then I fucked it all up.
>>703786801
Go to my local train station, Use the ladder to get to the roof and jump off (Its on a pretty high hill)
>>703786923
I'm just saying, dude, perspective. It's like his legacy is being pushed as a life of selfless giving, which is great speech for the funeral, but this is reality, dude.
He was a well paid actor with personal drug problems, what the fuck else is new? Praise hollywood?
>>703785179
Hey same anon here, Nice work lad. Glad that love is smiling at someone
>>703787426
jesus fuck, no one is saying the man shit gold. some people enjoyed his performances, and all told, he was not a bad guy. there is no need to shit all over those of us who'd like to remember him fondly.
>>703785584
same anon here, yeah i feel you. LDR is shit because in the end it doesnt really work out
> lurked a lot so fuck off about greentext first time posting. > be me. > be 19 > find out gf is moving > talk to her on phone > decide to go see her after 4 months of being apart > find out she moved because she was being stalked and then got raped > finally moved when she got death threat > the feels
>>703781349
Fuck this one always gets me.. christ
>>703776954
Robin Williams was on Dave letterman's show after a heart transplant, he told Dave "Hopefully it lasts the next 15 years" This man was not suicidal, especially not enough to kill him self just before his daughter Zelda's birthday. He loved her, he was happy at the time of his death. Someone killed him but we'll never know who.
>>703776954
>>703787649
>He lived for other people you uninformed edgy little teenager.
I'm responding to this, not demonizing some dude I never met. He was a fucking actor, not a messiah. I laughed at him, too. Not hating, and you can believe whatever you want about the guy, but talking about it in public and acting like he's some paragon of selflessness opens the conversation for dissenting opinions
>>703786801
Consuming a vast amount of energy drinks, leaping from a tall buildig or hanging myself in some amusing way
>>703785443
> too lazy
Exactly the problem with /b/ today
>>703787906
I think it's clear that he was drug overdosed on purpose and posed to look like a suicide.
His net worth was well over a hundred million dollars when he died by all accounts. He wasn't having money problems.
He didn't have any reason to kill himself, but a lot of people around him stood to gain much from his death.
>>703787407
Isnt that the self-portrait of the painter with that one memory disease i cant remember?
>>703786237
Time to accept things for the way they are, anon.
>>703787297
>tfw I'm replying to myself just to see how it feels
I've never finished anything i started as a hobby, i've never impressed someone i just met and got them to compliment me, never have i got my own parents to actually tell me that i did good,i am a huge disappointment to everyone...might as well leave my life half finished.
>>703787807
feelsbadman
>>703788301
yeah, progression of Alzheimer's or something
>>703788632
yeah its really sad to see
slowly losing the sense of memories
>>703784327
Same with my shrink, she even makes me hug a child representation of myself, pretty weird and difficult
>>703787906
His ex was the end of him, he mostly did shitty movies to keep the alimony rolling
>>703788428
booh-ooh my life is so tufff guiiseee ;((( weeehhhh weehhhhh. Pull the trigger, self centred asshole.
>>703783776
Still?
>>703789068
what the fuck is more self-centered than going out of your way to berate depressed people?
My first girlfriend was a Skyrim companion mod, I knew it was pathetic at the time and didn't care, I loved her. had to format my PC and forgot her name, can't find her anymore
>>703788285
> He didn't have any reason to kill himself
Really? How the fuck can you know the whole situation?
Stop posting.
>>703786113
Fuck anon... this one gets me every time
>>703786180
Funny how depression doesn't decriminate
>>703789322
What the fuck? How?
>>703778499
This...
>>703781477
>tfw I don't even remember the last time I had a party or celebrated my bday
I'm dead inside
>>703788285
>if you have money, you have absolutely no right to be unhappy about anything
>>703789312
not him. But, hanging around in threads like this where you can "relate" to other peoples feelings and getting stuck in a cycle of self-pity isn't going to help anybody.It's not healthy
>>703789613
so going out of your way to make people who already feel bad feel worse is helpful? I don't think anyone here came looking for solutions.
Im thinking about becoming a cuckold
>>703781477
He probably feels out of place because he isn't a dindu. Poor little bugger.
>>703789769
sorry, but anybody in this thread is here to make themselves feel worse. Why else would you be here?
>>703777667
Pussy ass bitch.
>>703789880
it's our fucking business how we want to feel. fuck off.
>>703789561
That's not what I'm saying, but it's close.
Honestly, grow the fuck up if you think life is so hard when you've got $130 million fucking dollars at your disposal.
Fuck, just think about how hard he must have had it. oh the fucking agony, faggot. As if he could just change his life completely in any way he wanted to. Get real
don't blame me if you cry.
>>703776954
Robin was a good egg.
>>703788285
> He didn't have any reason to kill himself
That's the funny thing about depression and suicide. You don't have to have a reason to. It's literally your brain being broken or sick, just like any other organ in your body.
>>703784327
>If I already hate myself how am I supposed to trick myself into thinking differently?
If you hate who you are, change who you are. Or, learn to love who you are.
Either one.
>>703790038
if money is the cure to all unhappiness, then the average person is even more fucked than I thought.
>>703778499
well it has kind of happy ending
>>703790025
I don't think you "want" to feel like this though. I'm not attacking you, I'm just telling you that you're stuck in a cycle and these behaviours are self-destructive and not helping any depression you may or may not have
>>703777123
Right in the fucking part that I leave hidden deep down.
Also, a little something that I wrote:
We sit here, the sorry lot of us.
Making jokes about things that anywhere else are taboo
Posting porn only one small step away from bringing in the FBI
Laughing at people being maimed and killed.
Why?
Because underneath that thin shell of hate, cynicism, and disregard, lies a broken thing
Cast about in the sea of life, to drift up on it's shores, alone, forgotten.
And sometimes, the shell shatters
The hatred and depression, the sadness, the emptiness, it builds up and bursts forth.
But then we move on.
Back to shitposting on the ylyl thread.
Because once we have rebuilt the shell, the carapace, we cannot let our weakness show
Because that is why uncle came in.
That is how the depression so bad that you are to apathetic to kill yourself sets in.
Welcome to 4chan.
>>703790025
No, it's not. You are owned. Pull the trigger, end your misery. Sad degenerate scumfuck. Weakling.
>>703790362
YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT WE WANT, FUCK OFF, YOU ARE NOT HELPING
>>703790038
It's not about life being hard fuckstick. It's a goddamned sickness.
> Got AIDS? Don't be a whiny pussy you have money.
>>703778499
I fucking remember that one, pic related when she dird
>>703778499
Don't even know what to say about this..
my ex girlfriend cheat on me multiple times while together, had emotional breakdowns and cut her self frequently but I always loved her, she left me for a gay guy turned straight and won't talk to me anymore. I never stopped loving her and she is my first thought every morning.
>>703790269
Sounds more like an entitled rich fuck with a drug problem.
For all we know this nigger was an erotic auto-asphyxiator and died in the throes of orgasm.
all I'm saying is that this was a talented and well paid actor, with money to do almost anything he wanted with his life. He could have moved anywhere, bought almost any house he wanted, hired staff to wait on him, whatever the fuck. It's surreal. Unimaginable.
I've know people with Parkinson's. That's a brain disease. Depression seems like some bullshit to normal people, but depressed people are like "Oh no, it's just how we are" Well, fuck that, that's bogus.
I think the saddest thing Ive witnessed is losing wonder in the world. I used to look at this place like it was so beautiful so pure every human had good in them right? No. I grew up. Saw everyone is fucked up damaged or still asleep to Whats going on around them. Then. Then I saw him. This beautiful fucking human who processes things so amazingly. Gets the world is a fucked place so in turn he is just as fucked. And guess fucking what guys. He loves me. With all my bumps bruises all my baggage. Just two fucked up weirdos that don't see the glimmer in life anymore. But when we see each other. We find it again.
Then I have this vulnerability.
Everyone is bad remember. So how could this person be good.
Ever loved something so much it hurt.
That's where I am. Stuck in a never ending loop of bliss and depression. Seeing the good and the bad.
>>703783167
I'll dump the rest of this story for you anon
>>703788974
The thing is Robin Williams has never been a comedian, but a character-actor, I don't know if this is the right translation, instead.
You can tell by his expression that he's never happy in every movie he has made. Even though he's rich, it may seem that he has everything.
But, like everything looks so forced.
The tears of a clown are hidden behind a facade and nobody will ever notice. And when it's too late, people will act suprised and tell you that they didn't notice how he felt like.
But infact they didn't care.
Selfishness is just a human characteristic.
>>703789838
I'm thinking about swallowing a bottle of sleeping pills and while singing ''Happy Birthday to me''until I'm getting cramps and my mouth starts foaming.
>>703789876
>He probably feels out of place because he isn't a dindu
He's good the way he is. And don't you wish you would be like chad sometimes?
>>703790699
How did bob do it?
Wife dead, kids dead, but he still seems so happy and with passion about his art?
>>703790572
you're speaking on behalf of yourself and yourself only, don't assume that everybody in this thread thinks in the same manner. With your responses, I can tell why you're depressed you confrontational little bitch. You're telling me that you want to feel this way? then fucking go ahead, be unhappy purposefully. It's nobodies fault but your own
>>703780017
luke?
>>703790572
just to add that I may not be helping you and I honestly don't give a fuck. If my words of experience can help anybody then all the better, I'd rather risk pissing you off and possibly helping somebody else than not saying anything at all
>>703790927
>>703791173
fuck this story always gets me
>>703786801
>>703791173
>>703783235
Dem feels.......
>>703791131
why the fuck is your problem? has our being unhappy somehow made your day worse?
>>703790572
>>703790618
this is the shit I'm talking about, nigger, your mental issues are a self-fullfilling prophecy. Most of you people are addicted to being a victim and using that to leech sympathy from people and it becomes your nature.
Fuck that shit. Seriously. You wanna fucking kill yourself? I'm not fucking stopping you.
>>703791129
see my further response
>>703791206
>>703786782
And yet all that money couldn't cure his crushing loneliness.
Think about that for a moment.
>>703790941
No, Robin Williams was a very prominent comedian.
Say what you will about joke thievery or ghost writers; the man got his start in stand up and continued on for some time.
>>703791361
i guess he's arguing that money should make you feel good in and of itself.
>>703776954
>>703791129
I don't give a fuck who's business it is, if you air your issues in a public forum, you invite debate and possibly criticism in addition to maybe understanding and sympathy if you aren't a dickhead.
This is 4chan were all dickheads
>>703785570
Man when my dog dies I am going to fucking lose my mind. How do people cope with death?
>>703790849
Depression isn't really any different than any other brain disease like Parkinson's. The tricky part is that it's often over-diagnosed kinda like ADD, and now suddenly everyone has it.
Depression isn't about being sad. Depression is about not being able to escape that sadness, no matter what you do, or in this discussion, how much money and fame you have. Someone could do literally everything you've listed to avoid it and still not find enough joy to escape the void. If it were as easy as 'choosing' to be happy, whether through temporary escapes or sheer willpower, you wouldn't have nearly as many people killing themselves, especially someone with the resources that Robin Williams had.
>>703791429
I was referring to his movies. Watch them with what I've said in mind and you'll know I'm right.
And just for the record, I like Robin Williams.
>>703791361
I know people with real fucking problems, m8. Everyone is lonely, ffs. Try being lonely while deep in debt with nowhere to live. Money is power and power fixes problems if you aren't a fool.
>>703791701
Death happens, it's no different from meeting someone on 4chan, having a good chat for a thread and then never seeing them again and you do that every day.
>>703776954
I honestly hate myself and my life.
I've done everything I could to do the right thing. Be a man, get up go to work, take care of a family.
But it feels like this world is pushing me down harder then it ever has.
The day she told me I don't love you anymore was the day I died.
I get so angry/sad all the time when no ones around.
I think about dying everyday.
I only have one friend and its some cheating housewife.
I got chewed out at work over something I didnt even say today. I fucking work hard and loved my job even though its not the best.
I really have no reason to live anymore.
Everything feels so hollow, and I cant help but feel I've failed in life.
>No one cares
>No one can hear you scream
>You wont be missed
Thats the truth of my life. But I'm taking steps to handle this.
If something is in pain you don't let it suffer.
>>703791586
we weren't trying to debate anything, we were attempting to share with like-minded or temporarily like-minded people. just because you see two people talking in public doesn't mean you should butt in between them and start 'debating' their point with them.
>>703791586
I'd just ignore that retard. He's clearly on a journey of self-pitying, victim playing faggotry. Kids think it's cool having mental illness, this kid being one of them. Doesn't understand the damaging effects of fuelling others with actual mental illness
>>703791387
fuck, this one got me. knowing that one day i'll be in the same position as this guy.
Money is power Wtf
If all you want out if life now is money kill yourself now.
Ive been homeless Ive been on the streets. That makes me stronger that makes me powerful. Money may own this world. But I rule it with how I think how I create and how I act. Fuck your money bullshit. And fuck you.
>>703783501
I've never felt more understood or accepted than on /b/.
I know we get a lot of hate from both within and the outside world, but it can't change how I feel here. I feel at home.
>>703777777
>>703791978
>>703791978
you don't understand how dangerous fuelling somebodies mental illness with shit like this is though
>>703791965
Wise Old Fag here.
I can see your problem easily - you put your happiness into the hands of others. Ex-GF, boss, friend, etc. It's up to you to be happy with life, don't blame them.
"Life is meant to be enjoyed. If you're not enjoying it, you're not doing it right"
>>703791701
Everything and everyone dies. You and me and the cup of tea all have their beginnings and their ends.
But take heart, because nothing truly ends, but simply changes.
Look everyone's damaged. Everyone's fucked. Everyone is alone.
Make something of yourself for yourself. Otherwise your time here is useless. Waste of space.
>>703792259
WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU HERE?
>>703792339
While this is true, humans also enjoy having emotions and having relationships. It's human nature, we can suppress all of that but then we never really live.
>>703792441
how's about you just ignore me, I'm not here for you
>>703792339
It's the meaning of life at this point. At least the closest one we have
>>703791858
>Money is power and power fixes problems if you aren't a fool.
Spoken like someone who has never had a ton of money.
>inb4 mo money, mo problems
>>703792636
mo money, different problems
>>703792109
lol, don't you know, money and happiness are exactly the same thing. if you have money, and you're unhappy about anything at all, it makes you a self-centered prick.
Some of you sad fucks need to just end it. You're stinking up life with your loserdom for everyone else. Smells bad.
>>703792441
you really are pathetic aren't you? What exactly is your purpose?
>>703792841
Hahahha couldn't fucking agree more dude.
>>703792777
wasted trips for a stupid comment
>>703792764
mo money, most of the same problems
>>703782940
I hate you.
>>703792636
Dude, are you stupid? I had a family friend who was diagnosed with brain cancer. The surgery is over half a million USD. $500,000. she can't afford it and insurance won't cover, so she's going into hospice and getting irradiated to death instead to get another month or two out of life.
You have no fucking idea, son. Seriously.
>>703792880
what's yours, trolling feels threads?
>>703790803
i feel you /b/ro... got cheated on, lied to and stringed along for about 4 years.
couldn't stand it anymore when she told me to have a break one last time. whenever my phone rings, whenever my messengers bleep, something insides me kindles in desperate hope.
i hate her, i love her, i hate that i love her.
>>703792636
Yeah, nigger, money doesn't solve problems, huh? Tell that to Magic Johnson or any of the thousands of wealthiest people on the planet who live through shit that decimates everyone else without the money to fight.
>>703781006
>Be me, circa 2003
>Age 13, midway between beta and alpha as fuck
>I could take charge when I wanted to, looked decent (minus acne), reasonably smart, and still did swim back then so I was buff as fuck, but I was lazy in class, antisocial (even though I was really charismatic, this will come into play later) and did not know a thing about fashion (which counts in middle school).
>Meet this girl beginning of seventh grade, she's not the hottest of the bunch, but decent looking.
>Get talking, she's pretty cool. Half Korean, half Portuguese, into older games (nineties back then), animu, shit like that. She also did MMA and Krav Maga
>By the end of eighth grade, we are a couple.
>These next two years are the best of my fucking life.
>We were everywhere together. All the time.
>And when we weren't together, we emailed, talked on the phone, etc.
>I quit swim to join MMA, and got an emergency provision licence (I was on a ranch) just so I could drive to her house.
>I loved her so fucking much
>Lost my virginity to her on my sixteenth birthday
>The last time I saw her was Nov. 16th, 2006, I was a sophomore, had turned sixteen four days ago.
>Life was good.
>Come in to school one day, she's not there, and her friends avoid me. Don't think to much of it, because of a test, but think she would have called if something had happened. Like I said earlier, she did Krav Maga and shit, so she occaisionally was hospitalized for a day or two after competitions.
>About halfway through the day, get a call to come to the office. A cold wave of fear rushes through me, this hasn't happened before.
Cont?
>>703792636
I have 200K liquid cash on hand. Money doesn't do shit unless unless you have a shit ton of it. 200k is just nothing in real terms. To get where "money is power," my guess is you need 8 mil or more. Then you have some sway.
>>703793168
Weed out the weak. Don't want to be here dont.
>>703792441 im depressed guise i am cool :^)
>>703788072
>tie rope around feet and wire around neck
>go to tallest building you can find
>hot glue hands to face
>jump off building
>wire cuts head off from torso
>body kept in place swinging
>hold head off of body while dead
best suicide ever
>>703791965
I know I'm probably not lucky and this is a stupid question, but are you in North Germany?
And if, would you like to have a drink?
I'll pay :)
Btw I found this album recently https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVqPx5mUj0g it's the first time in like 10 years that I've listened to an album from beginning to the end.
pic unrelated
ITT: Faggots
>>703793343
We were talking about robin williams, whose net worth was over a hundred million dollars.
>>703783235
To Eight-Beers McGee
>>703793168
Where am I trolling man? You're the one being confrontational.
>If my words of experience can help anybody then all the better
> I'm not attacking you
> getting stuck in a cycle of self-pity isn't going to help anybody.It's not healthy
You haven't addressed any points I've made, you just avoid questions like the plague. What is your purpose?
>>703781477
Brought tears ro my eyes, seriously. Too much to handle, so sad
>>703793319
Please cont
>>703792477
I don't disagree, but when you base your happiness on selected individuals, you give up control of your own emotions. Find new individuals to share emotions with but don't require their happiness or approval for you to be happy.
>>703786801
If i ever grow the balls to do it, I'm probably gonna go out with a bang.
We're friends with benefits, both single. We watch Dexter together and fuck, we cuddle a lot. We talk about our lives and vent to each other.
He makes me feel beautiful, and important, and he's very kind. He makes me feel comfortable and safe.
I think it will only last until he finds someone he actually wants to be with, and I'll be alone.
I don't want to be alone.
You young fags may not remember this; but you ever see the episode of ER with Ray Liotta?
That shit made me cry like a little bitch.
Think you're a tough guy? Go ahead and watch it on Netflix.
>>703793545
Gotcha. Sorry. With that much, I think I could solve most of my problems.
>>703791387
I'm so fucking done, I don't want to remember I will grow old and be alone.
>>703792339
I try to make myself happy. I really have nothing going for me at this point. Im a hop skip and jump away from being on the streets with no vehicle.
I was so different before people dont even respond to me the same anymore. Everyone tells me I'm cynical, stuck up, angry, retarded, stupid, and a cunt.
Im a very intelligent, caring, kind, loving person. Sorry I see through all the bullshit.
If this is the world we live in now then nvm I don't want to be a part of it.
>>703792477
>>703792549
Giving someone the ability to crush your entire life is something no one should ever posses. And Ill make sure I give my heart to no one ever again.
Remember pirates of the Caribbean?
How davey Jones locked his heart inside of a chest? Because he was so heart broken and he didn't want to feel it anymore.
I always thought that was such a cruel fate.
Thats where I am now.
>>703794248
Same dude... by the way, you got the source of that gif?
>>703794283
I'm talking about happiness. And I don't even know why I am here. I just am. Guess I am missing something that I haven't figured out yet.
Pic related is how I feel. Staring into random shit trying to figure shit out.
>>703794254
Same here. I know I'd hate it, I hate it when people see through me like that, but I need it.
>>703794283
I handed someone that power. Know what I do most days? I live in fucking fear. How do you pull back when Youre too far gone. To love someone so much so innocently it hurts you. Kills you. You took the easy way out. I still feel. One day maybe he'll crush me. But maybe he wont.
>>703794496
Sound! Euphonium
>>703794811
Thanks, anon. I love you, too.
>>703782940
I didn't have sex until 25 and gf until 26.
I would give a finger to fuck the shit out of a top tier teen booty but I am also very glad I have never known in my weakest of moments this immense pleasure.
There are some things/events so powerful that you just can't handle in the weakness and fragility of being young. I can only hope I get a taste of young pussy in this life. As for the bills, loans and shit... I am sorry mate. That's the game.
If life was an rpg you would still have to level and take care of what skills you evolve. You would take millions of damage in your journey to end-game but only through that struggle you would become an artisan of whatever skills you choose to have and enjoy the fruits of your labors.
This is why I chose a fat gf now. She is tremendously hard to deal with but by the time I have taught her how to love and take care of herself... man. It 'll be worth it.
>>703793912
How do you know he doesn't want to be with you? For God's sake don't ask him that. Don't plant that seed of doubt in his mind. Don't give him a reason to look for someone else. He'll hate you, and you'll hate yourself.
>>703794811
Thank you. For some reason you made me smile
>>703793720
>The cops are waiting for me.
>She's dead
>Killed
>Some fucker in her Krav Maga class killed her, stabbed her in the heart while he was supposed to be practicing, under supervision, with a real knife. The instructor looked away, and this fucker killed her.
>He was a Mexican, so I'll call him Juan.
>I had met him once, at one of her comps.
>The guy was a total gangbanger, like full on fuckbucket. He had tattoos everywhere, los sarinos mark on one hand, etc.
>He was doing Krav Maga for "rehab" and he fucking killed her.
> I go apeshit inside.
> I tell the police what I know, which wasn't much.
> Then I drive down to our gym
> Hi anon, what can I do for you
> Jaun Sanchez, where is he
> Anon, I'm sorry, I don't know
> Master Anon, I'm not going to kill him, just talk
> I truly do not know, anon.
> Master, please, can you just tell me where he lives, I want to speak with his family.
>Alright anon, he lived at 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue, Washington, DC
> Go to Juan's house
>Exactly what you'd expect, a run down shithole with a bunch de mexicanos outside
>Get out of care. One of them is carelessly brandishing a knife
>Walks over to me, before he can talk, I have his knife and him on the ground, fucker was sloppy as fuck.
>two guns pointed at me.
>Alright guys, lets talk. I need to know where Juan is. I have three hundred dollars that I can pay you, but no on me.
>One of them used to know her, says that they have ostracized whuan. If I can let su compadre go, they'll help me find him.
>Apparently he is staying with another clique in the gang, and that they usually hide out near an old water tower in the country.
>I ask them for a gun, let their guy up, and go after the fucker
>inb4 this is fake
No, I assure you, this is legit. Los sarinos don't like police attention, the mostly do drug stuff, and anyone who kills anyone, especially not in a gang, except to protect the drugs, is fucked. Don't ask how I know this.
Cont? Still emotional, sorry for shit writing
If anyone of you were in Oklahoma, I would buy you a beer and listen to your problems.
Hopefully, you would listen to mine too.
You guys are such nice anons...
>>703781477
I hate that I never see shit like this until it's too late. I would've went to his damn birthday. If he was too far I would at least send a fucking email or message. That doesn't cost shit
>>703781477
Happy birthday. :)
>>703793937
Episode number?
>>703795082
I'm definitely not going to ask him that. I don't want to do anything to hurt him.
This movie fucked me up, since I was abused as a child. I teared up this whole movie and I watch it regularly when I feel down
>father used to beat me
>bullied at school
>my first two girlfriends cheated on me
>have commitment issues
Except, I'm not good at math, but my 12th grade teacher thinks I'm a English prodigy. I'm hoping to leave the south soon, since he made me keep good grades throughout highschool. He's been my therapist, and I'm going to apply for Yale, or if I don't make it, then Penn state.
Wish me luck, the most beautiful things in life are poetry, and books. And a good woman, but I hope you guys do better also. It's just threads like these tear me up, because this is my last year in high school and I turned 18 two months ago.
>>703788301
too subtile for
>>703788632
>>703788889
>>703783954
goddamn this is even worse than a depression.
I'd rather cry and feel better after crying.
>>703795235
How do you like Oklahoma?
>>703794700
>You took the easy way out
By how?
Pouring my feelings out?
Staying till the bitter end because i'm loyal?
Raising armies, raising hell? Because you wanted better for everyone else?
because you took on the burden of the world just to be told "so far, so good, so what"?
>>703784666
Checked
i come in a time of need feelers. please tell me a quick easy way of death.
>>703791701
You have someone close to you die. You take a couple months to get your bearings together and you realise the next person you care about who dies, you will feel less sad about. And then it keeps going and going until someone close to you dies and you no longer feel anything. I don't believe you can truly cope with death, as when someone you know dies, they take a little bit of you with them.
>>703795495
Well good. Just enjoy what you both have: each other.
>>703795503
Good luck, from a fellow childhood victim of abuse. You can do it.
>>703788949
It's also bullshit. Get a different shrink.
Source: Studied psychology. Doesn't make me an expert, but I haven't seen shit like this even once during all my years of study, or during my own experiences with mental health professionals.
>>703795784
go elsewhere for that. we've got an armchair psychologist in here.
>>703795597
I'm stationed here [Military]
Most nights I stay up until 2 or 3 wondering if I should end my life. But just shit there depressed as hell,(I cannot cry for some dumb reason).
I just hate what I am doing with my life, but I am going on a medical leave and going to smoke some bud with my uncle who I haven't seen in years (first time smoking too).
Hopefully it calms me down, and I can relax.
>>703795158 cont
>>703795817
I am. He's lots of fun and spending time with him is the best part of my week.
>>703794908
>>703795116
N-no, I have to thank you guys.
>>703795318
>tfw when I'm happy, but...crying
Thank you, anon.
Feels good to know that someone cares.
>>703792005
>>703794248
>>703794496
if you run away, nothing will change. if you dont want to have regrets, do it now. you know its true. dont close your eyes, go for it.
>>703782940
>mfw you've missed out on the most beautiful thing in this life
It's not really all that beautiful. It's the most commonplace and unspecial thing ever done - done to death and exaggerated to hell.
>>703796175
Then I don't think you have anything to worry about. Take care. Peace out.
>>703796075
I can't tell what you want to do my bro but I will give you some advice and you can chuck it out the window if you want. I'm a lot like you, and I smoke a little bit of weed every night to help me sleep. Nothing what else works. But when I'm high, that's when I really get suicidal. So my advice is take it when you smoke, just smoke a little bit - a very little bit and see how it works for you, don't try to be Cheech & Chong in one night. Bad things could happen.
>>703795158
Don't ask just cont
Well guys, this thread is so depressing that I don't even feel like trolling. Damn.
I miss her so much /b/ros.
It's such a long story and I still don't know how I feel about the situation.
>>703781422
> no, i just found it by accident...
> i properly lurked the first year, even lurked some now epic ones....
> i remember my first raid though....it was habbo hotel.
> i was there during "show bellybutton and go to bed"
> among those who dun goofed
> the day my feelings went numb was before i came here though, it was the night i witnessed a murder, the rape didnt help either...after that i was kinda made for this place...i have left, but i always return...i hate this place, myself....this place fits like a tailor made suit now, i hate it.
>>703796327
Just know when a feels thread pops up, I'll be there anon. Some of us really do care.
>>703796659
Got it, thanks for the advice.
>>703796949
what isit about shortly?
>>703782940
What's even worse is when you are reading this in the age of 16 and knowing that nothing's going to change.
>>703795601
>>703795601
You took the easy way out.
You got hurt so now what you'll never do it again? What if the person who is going to love you so whole heartedly so perfectly is out there just waiting but you. You got hurt once so fuck that do do it again right? No suck it up. Youre gonna fucking get hurt alot often all the time but the times you dont get hurt make it worth it. Allow yourself to feel or there isn't a point to this all.
Someone like you. The way you think you deserve to be loved Youre beautiful. Youre human. Dont let a hurt destroy that. Dont let it define you. Let it build you.
>>703795841
Thanks, my English teacher told me that sometimes pain, sadness, depression, education, happiness, are the most inspiring aspects in life.
He's been a father to me, he takes me to museums, conventions, events. He's awesome
Hello feels thread,
This is my first time sharing here.
So my be like,
>From childhood through education, I have had like friends, maybe good acquaintances with other kids, but never really what you can call friendship,
>In higher education, I never stuck in Any group, I simply hung out with anyone I wanted but not dedicated to a group of guys.
>I think I have always been self content or just used to being lonely.
>I even have the tendency to forget names of people whom I haven't seen for long, so I am not even in touch with anyone.
>I know what friendship is but now I am a 21oldfag, I have become a seaman, even in my career as a trainee, people who didn't have anything to do with my work would finger/complaint/make my life miserable.
>I asked a colleague whom I spoke with alot, I asked him whether there was a problem with my personality or my way of speaking with others, he simply said that they were jealous..., jealous of what, I don't have money, no gf, no bff, I slogged all day and everyone knew about it.
I guess this is my share.
>>703796659
I know how you feel, i just think about stuff when im high that i always try to ignore when I'm not.
>>703796151
OK nigger. You faggots are getting the short version, I just smoked some weed and am preetty high
>Drive to the faggot Juan's hideout
>See him standing outside.
> I drive past, park the car around the next bend, and sneak in via the woods (like I said it was in the country)
> As I'm sneaking up on the house, he walks around the back
> Whip gun out. Why the fuck did you do it nigger
> He takes one look at me, scared, angry, and holding a well aimed gun to him
> fucker pulls his own gun, a revolver for some reason, and shoots at me
>It was a quickdraw and he wasn't the best shot to begin with
>I fire back, about 3 yards off (I'm like twenty away), and duck behind a tree.
> I hear the fucker trying to flank me
> atleasthesnotretarded.jpg
> I turn round the tree
> Fucknugget got to close
> Shoot him in the back of the head
> Drive off
> Return gun
> See on the news that a Mexican gangster was found shot dead near a hideout.
> huge bust
> The killing, according to the police, was done in self defense
> I am haunted to this day by the sound of his body crunching to the ground
> The cold anger slowly fading to grief
> The weeks after. the funeral
> Two months later they find me
> Am proved innocent, get off
> Today I am a fat beta fuck into vietnamese porn living off of NEETbux checks
> I may take all of my drugs and OD now my story is out there.
>>703797207
Sounds like a cool guy. He isn't wrong. Some of the most successful authors, poets, and comedians had really rough lives when they were younger.
>>703797195
We've known each other for years. I moved far away 2 years ago and we fell in love with each other despite the distance.
We decided that until we met up in person which was supposed to be next summer, we weren't gonna be in an official exclusive relationship, we were just gonna be upfront about our feelings for each other. So basically we could see other people as long as there was no sex and it was extremely casual. We both followed these rules.
I kissed an ex at a party and she flipped and hates me now. This was a month ago. I've tried to fix things but I've probably made them worse by not giving her space. She's blocked me on everything now. I have no closure.
She has also found a new boyfriend. I don't know if this is a rebound because it's only been a month. I don't know but either way I'm very lost and very hurt. I feel like I haven't broken any rules (although I feel guilty as I obviously hurt her) but I'm still getting punished. I cry about it almost every day. I love her and wish I could be with her. We would tell each other we loved each other several times a day and we both meant it and now I'm broken. I've never felt like this before.
>>703795601
Id love someone like you. You think Youre broken. Id live to show why Youre not.
>>703782940
It's overrated. Don't believe the plastic fantasies you see in the nostalgia goggles. Love is everywhere, not just in teenage high school halls and big open fields. Not in the US but I'm sure it's the same everywhere there's people.
By the time I was 7,, I was making out and stripping the clothes off and doing shit most adults don't do with my older 8 year old neighbor girl that would come over to play. I could look back on it with some retrospective emotional backdrop of some great time, lost to the ages, never to return, but in reality, we could have been doing anything else fun and exciting like playing air hockey or some shit, but instead we were poor as shit and unguided so we took our clothes off, ate each other out and kissed everywhere instead. Great fun, Good memories, but to idolize those experiences of youth as the only thing with purpose simply because you missed out is unhealthy.
>>703778499
can i get a tldr? seriously dont have time for that shet
>>703786801
thinking about it is for people who havent decided already, i live near farms....dynamite is readily accessible....im saving a stockpile.....il take a meth lab with me when i go.
>>703797528
If you went through all that trouble to kill him, how the fuck did you get off with self defense when you had no business being there on his property?
And how did they find you in the first place?
>>703797158
>Just know when a feels thread pops up, I'll be there anon.
Then we'll probably talk to eachother again.
I'm everyday in atleast one feels thread.
I'm thinking about leaving the house and sit at the lake across the street I live in just to feel like...like I did SOMETHING today.
Should I?
>>703798247
>I'm thinking about leaving the house and sit at the lake across the street I live in just to feel like...like I did SOMETHING today.
Dude! totally. I'm not that guy, but I do shit like that all the time when I'm restless. If you're feeling restless or anxious, it's such a relief just to go do something, anything that you can feel good about instead of letting the walls close in.
Even just a walk, or a trip to the store in the open air. Something where you can stop for a moment and appreciate being alive. Everyone needs that. Especially these days with everything so crazy.
>>703781349
holy fucking shit I'm crying because this is almost exactly what happened to me except my dad offed himself when the courts gave full custody to mom
jesus christ I wish I could kill both my mom and that judge
>>703798564
You know what, I'll do it!
And thanks to everyone ITT even the shitposters.
You made me feel like I'm not alone on my my 26th birthday.
I love you you all :)
Bye guys
>>703797206
>You got hurt once so fuck that do do it again right?
No this is isnt the 1st time I was in love with someone it was the nail in the coffin. It felt like my entire life was finally coming together, destiny, fate all that good bs.
>What if the person who is going to love you so whole heartedly so perfectly is out there just waiting
I can't feel anything at all for anyone I've tried.
I've dated around and was successful but its like im incapable of feeling anything. Don't get me wrong. I'm nice, sweet, and respectful. And would never do anything to hurt them. But at the same time I wouldnt be sad if they just left.
I don't see any real future with them
>Allow yourself to feel or there isn't a point to this all.
I do and its always misery. Sometimes Im happy but trust me something always comes along to screw that up and its not petty problems either.
I've tried to make myself happy.
>Let it build you.
Ive been broken down and rebuilt so many times. Each time I did it to become a better person.
My life just keeps repeating in vicious cycles.
I've tried every thing different every time and it makes no difference.
I'm giving it one last go. If I'm not happy with my life or have made a major accomplishment by my 30th b day. I'm going to respectfully decline any further existence.
This world is so fucking alien to me anymore.
hey anons
its her birthday we havent talked/seen eachother since ~4 months i thought about calling her
i just hope i`ll get invited to her birthday party :(
>>703776954
But that's just a load of overly-introspective bullshit, OP.
Robin Williams did what he did for millions of dollars. Not for free. He wasn't a pro bono birthday clown.
People are so naive...
>>703797204
MODS
>>703785109
Alright that last line is just stupidity. When you're all depressed and sad it radiates off you and everyone picks it up. No one is going to invite a debbie downer to their parties.
>>703797281
Same
>>703792636
Money may not be able to buy real world power, but it damn sure can put a down payment on it.
>>703799910
Then let me love you. Let me try.
You deserve it. Ive talked to you for fucking 5 minutes and I can already list shit that's great about you. You justbhave to see it too.
>>703785840
I always feel envious of these accomplished depressed people. Because I have the same shit, except there is no reprieve. There is no balancing force that makes me really, really good at something. That makes me seek out success. I just exist, as a pitiful person with nothing to his name, and no loved ones who aren't family. And I despair about my parents, because they worry about me. I wish they wouldn't. They don't need to. This condition is not their fault, nor mine. It can not be changed. It simply is.
And maybe having a nice house and calling in life wouldn't make my issue disappear. But it would make it easier. The worst feeling, is the feeling of being useless. And when you really ARE useless, you can't reason your way out of it.
>>703797973
This stuff happened and it was sads
i aint never had a friend like him
>>703786801
I dream of a glorious death. Childish, perhaps, but the idea of redeeming my life in one, great action appeals immensely to me.
>>703790453
What are you fucking gay?
>>703799993
Call her.
Right fucking now.
Do it for me, us and especially yourself.
You got nothing to lose.
Don't be like me please you don't want that.
JUST DO IT!!!
>>703799539
Damn. Sorry, /b/ro
>>703795235
What part of Oklahoma?
>>703776954
I haven't seen this one for the last two years in feels threads, but I hope someone has it. I need it tonight.
It's a non-greentext story about anon and his father, being an immigrant and not having much. Anon's father made him a little videogame for his birthday with a virtual birthday cake. It's a really long story.
Feels are for gays
>>703792303
thats yellow motherfucker
I never had my truck tire moment when I was a kid, and I never will.... https://youtu.be/PLOAIMhUOPY
>>703786180
>with a net worth of over a HUNDRED million dollars
Maybe not. His ex-wife absolutely gutted him in their divorce. That was why he did Night at the Museum 3, because he really needed the money.
Now, he was still rich. But clearly his finances weren't in a state that he could just do what he wanted and not have to worry about money.
And it doesn't take a genius to draw a line between the collapse of his marriage, subsequent financial troubles which led to him taking on shitty projects that he hated, and his suicide.
>>703800718
Try reading the Poetic Edda, in particular, Havamal
The High One´s Lay. It is supposed to be laws by Odin, himself, which of course is the high god in the Nordic traditions, with his court and all the Einjerar and Valkyries, etc.
There's a lot in there that will ring your bells. Just remember it was written for a different time period.
"Abandoning in the field his arms, let no man take a foot's step forward for noone can know when he will need his weapon."
That's just one of many "Laws from the High One", to live by that still stand out in my mind to this day even though I haven't read it in years.
>>703783271
Feels pretty fake, yet gave me the will to kill myself. hoo wee
>>703793484
Not the guy you replied to, but what city do you mean by northern germany?
>>703801873
Honestly, when I heard about the scene of his death, the first thing I thought of was, "Oh shit, this guy died doing auto-erotic-asphyxiation" Maybe I've been on /b/ too long.
But honestly, who hangs themselves with a belt from a closet door?
>>703801937
Different anon here, I'm going to look into this as well.
>>703800431
I appreciate it I really do.
But trust me you have no clue how broken I am inside.
It's really hard to watch a kid go and never see them again.
And not be able to do anything about it.
But shame on me I guess.
...
>>703802145
>>703801937
Thorpe's translation is probably the best. You can find a pdf free online, and you can definitely order a book if you want to
