Feels thread again. Do you feel empty?
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Feels thread again.
Do you feel empty?
>>703718731
Yep.
No, I feel good
>>703719306
You lucky guy
>>703718731
>ex is trying to weasel her way back into my life
help
>>703719621
Why did you dump her?
>>703718731
Most of the time. I used to enjoy things, but now everything is just something I do to pass the time before death.
I wish I wasn't too much of a fucking coward to an hero. I hate this place.
>>703719743
We went our different ways because we both agreed we weren't right for eachother. She started dating an old friend of mine and this was fine, since we don't talk much anymore.
Trying to be in that "not be a dick" meme, she came over univited to a party i had with just some close friends
Ended up making out and trying to give a handy to said friend once everyone else had gone right in front of me.
>>703718731
Yeah, /b/, I do.
It's been a year since my last suicide attempt. I should feel happy about that, right? But I don't.
I wish the meds I'm on could kill me, but apparently they're extremely difficult to OD on. Maybe if I mixed them with benadryl...
>>703718731
Not quite. I actually managed to score myself a gf, albeit long distance. She's the perfect match for me. I met her on one of these feels threads, actually. She really gets me, she wants me to be happy, and in general she meets and exceeds all of my standards. I'm just terrified that this is too good to be true. I mean, I'm very hopeful for the relationship, but in my life, the universe has a funny way of toying with me by dangling the prospect of happiness and then throwing it down a deep well of bullshit. And I don't want to fuck this up, guys. This is one of the best relationships I've ever had, even if it's long distance. I don't want to end up losing her because I say something stupid, or because she has enough of me having almost nightly panic attacks, and her having to comfort me. Not to mention the fact I've basically been single for years before this.
>>703720485
>>703721102
>>703721020
this was me a while back. just enjoy it anon
>>703721340
>>703718731
source on this gif?
>>703722333
Moomin, m8
>>703722333
moomin
I don't feel much. I don't feel happy. I don't feel sad. I do love my parents, but I've never even been able to tolerate another human. Nothing brings me joy, video games have become dull, TV shows are riddled with intolerable flaws, conversing with other people is just pedantic and a waste of time. I haven't had a single friend in 5+ years. I don't know what to do other than finishing up college; My classes aren't too difficult right now so I have a fair bit of free time. Even if I wanted to talk to others, which I have no desire to, I wouldn't be able to because I don't know how. I don't know what words to use or how to keep a conversation going past "hi." I feel very uncomfortable when I leave the house. And I'm rambling. But I very rarely talk about this stuff so I just thought I'd get all of this out there. I don't know if I'm autistic, a psychopath, a narcissist, or a misanthrope, or maybe a combination of a few. I just know I don't fit in with humanity.
>>703718731
I wish i lived in moomin reality
I'm pretty tired but I can't sleep
I want to dream again but I can't...
>>703718731
empty??? naa im just bored and tired of the bullshit in life that people fall for and what we have to through
I'm still waiting for her but I know she will never make contact again, I miss her so much
>>703721340
that's so fucking cringy ass shit
i was gonna ask her to do something as more than friends this weekend but tonight she texted me for advice on how to ask out another guy.
its just some high school bullshit but usually i just overthink my feelings about a girl and they fade out as soon as they come in. this was the first time the feelings stuck in years and it's got me kinda down.
>>703724094
>>703718731
yes
but with a side of tormenting pain, because of her.
it's worse than being empty.
>>703725637
when you say you feel empty what do you mean by that? seriously, what does it feel like to feel that feel
Please, somebody answer me.
Will a large amount of cipralex and benadryl kill me? Or will it make me a vegetable? What if I take a fuckton of it, and hide far into the forest so I can't be found? So, even if it DOES make me a vegetable, I won't have the treatment to help me stay alive. I'll just die.
Will that work? Will that fucking kill me?
>>703726751
get help nig nog
>>703726492
nothing
You're just a meat that happens to thinks.
No emotions, just thoughts.
You know it's wrong and alien, yet you cannot change that.
Everything seems distant.
You can develop depersonalization, then you feel like someone else standing next to you, like you're watching someone's life.
It's the most serene thing you can "feel"
You can function and appear normal, mind that.
>>703726751
I have a better person solution. Just grab your kitchen knife, right? Now, make sure it's long enough and sharp enough, and then just ram that sucked right into your heart. Or your throat. Or wherever else will kill quickly. It's much more foolproof. Just make sure to remove the blade from the wound so you bleed out faster.
Does anyone have that picture of the iMessage that reads
"I wish I could find someone like you"
"Well there's always me"
"LOL"
"Haha yeah.."
>>703727307
sounds like me except for the thinking its wrong
>>703718731
Suicide can be a relief.
Well, I'm extremely depressed and anxiety filled because of the way I look. I fell cheated out of a good life. I feel like I will never be loved by another human being.
I don't understand, all day I'll be happy, but at the end of the day I hate this world and wish I could be in a happier time of this world. What is the point of living? We go to school for 14+ years, get a career, retire, and die. There is no point in this life, I just live to make other happy.
>>703727477
gotchu fam
>>703728155
Thank you been looking for weeks
>>703727000
Nah, I just wanna kms lol.
>>703727356
Oh fuck off, I'm a pussy. I can't deal with straight on pain like that. I'd rather something that'll just give me a high then kill me.
>>703728328
~you are so dark i could never understand the pain x~
>>703718731
Just like the groke
>>703728473
ow the edge
for real though, fuck off.
someone or something always happens to completely destroy my plans every time I make them.
>>703720485
I saw this picture and I was wondering what Meryl Streep was doing behind Robin Williams.
>>703726751
Benadryl will just make you have a bad trip and you'll feel like shit the next day
My gf of 7 months ended relation with me yesterday because she said she can't handle distance, and I have been only 2 weeks abroad.. I don't have family neither friends here and I feel empty...
>>703728328
Oh please. If you wanted to die that badly, you would deal with it. Trust me, death by OD is much worse than just a quick stab to the heart. If you fuck up the OD, it could take hours, versus just slitting your own throat will kill you, or at least make you unconscious, in a minute or two.
>be me
>on the bus home from community college
>chatting with a cool dude with a red jacket and glasses
>bus stops at a bus stop, two white chicks and a nigger at the back of the bus
>1st white girl wait at the door for it to open like a normal fucking human being
>2nd girl literally stands over red jacket bro and whispers "keep talking shit and well fucking beat you up"
>nigger comes by and literally punches jacket bro in the mouth
>steals jacket bro's backpack, the three rush out of the bus
>jacket bro runs after them
>I ask the bus driver to wait for them
>he says they cant because of the schedule and they cant call 9/11 or else he would get fired or something idk he had an accent
>leave the bus, call the police, see if i can spot jacket bro and see if everything went alright
>couldnt find anyone
>bus leaves
>cops show up later while im waiting at a 7-11
>ask me what happened
>tell them
>close friend of mine picks me up thank god
This literally just happened like half an hour ago guys jesus shits, still shaken up kinda, but i know i did a bitch move for not helping out red jacket bro
Long story short,
>>703728745
how so anon tell us man?
we all suffer together
(same anon here sorry don't know what the fuck happened lol.
>>703729198
Long story short,
First time this ever happened, any questions?
I constantly do stupid shit to shoot myself in the foot and somehow dodged being found out for cheating on my gf. I got robbed for a half pound from a friend of 4 years and lost my job and my car broke down.
>>703728866
same tbh
>>703728649
aw, princess. i didn't want to push you over the edge into taking otc allergy medicine.
Is there a way to get a dream /b/?
>>703729711
Benadryl can be serious if you take enough of it, you fucking retard. I wanted to know if taking an extremely high dose of it, plus my antis, would end me with little suffering.
If guns were more easily accessible by now, I'd go with that. But I can't. So, fuck.
>>703730108
Become skilled at lucid dreaming? Kill yourself?
>>703730108
regular sleep hours, it'll come with time anon, dreams are kinda like cats ironically
not sure why i'm sending this to a feels thread of all things, but today i'm going to ask out the girl i'm in love with. when i get rejected, i'll come back here to these posts and cry
Alright, so I guess I'd like to get this off my chest. The person I'm dating right now is my cousin, in a roundabout kinda way. Our families are extremely close, but not blood related, and we've pretty much just been one huge family forever. My girlfriend doesn't seem to realize that anyone finding out about our relationship would be terrible, and has been trying to drop hints about it to fucking everyone constantly. What do I do?
Well fuck. I meant to go onto /gif/ to jerk. Now I just want to be sad with you guys, /b/ros. Have a dump
>>703730320
good luck anon
>>703730478
it doesnt seem too weird considering she isnt actually your cousin
>>703730320
Hey anon, at least you got the balls to ask her out.
I-i can do that too...
>>703730478
Uh, if you're not blood related, what's the problem? Sure, your families have been close for years, but really, what would be the problem if two consenting adults from either family decided to date?
Go with the flow. If you're that ashamed of your relationship, well, then maybe you shouldn't be dating her. Duh.
I haven't updated my folder since 2015, I should probably stock up...
Oh, a crybaby faggot thread where permavirgins bitch about their fake depressions and how hard life is in their first world country with internet and a surplus of food? No thanks. Cry more faggots. Pic related, it's a feels thread.
>>703719306
Likewise
>>703730901
oh look someone trying to act tough on /b/
>>703718731
I miss her so bad.. she still loves me but she's underage so we can rarely see eachother or communicate... I'm so fucking depressed without her, i can't even sleep anymore, i know its early rn but it'll be 4 or 5 before i know it and i won't sleep... i need drugs and alcohol to sleep... she walks around my head all night, keeping me up
>>703730642
you can do it too, anon. i believe in you.
>>703730983
Just because someones honest enough to call you out on your crybaby bullshit doesn't mean they're acting tough. I'm sure your pillow wants to hear it loser.
Should I continue the dump?
Boy, how to start?
>haven't talked to anyone new in months
>current friends never talk/text me unless I initiate conversation
>losing passion for the music that I play
I know these might seem pretty light compared to others but I honestly don't know where to go from here dudes.
>>703718731
Actaully no, but I felt empty until very recently. A month ago, I was an alcoholic in a 2.5 year relationship with an average boring girl, dumped her and wanted to change. And I'm changing. I started learning how to drive, changed my diet, focused on playing the guitar and stopped drinking. Yesterday, I took a gym membership card and started working out. I haven't felt that good in years. And everybody can do shit like this, if you want it hard enough. Every single one of you, because deep down you aren't as much pathetic losers as you think.
I used to feel bad, but then I learned how to let go, I'm not happy all the time anymore but it is better than be sad all the day.
>>703731232
Thank god a great and bold post on this shit website. Bless you anon.
>>703731114
depression is a real thing. if youve never had it you wouldnt understand it. fucking Robin Williams killid himself, he was rich and loved by everyone. still hated his life enough to end it
>>703730901
>1st world country
that's where you're wrong, anon.
I keep fucking up my admission to transfer at this university because I can't fucking pass communications. I have severe anxiety and can't do presentations for shit.
it's been 3 years now that i fucked it up each time, and ive been telling everybody each year how its the year im gonna transfer and get on with my education. so now i have nothing to do the whole year. i might have to retake that fucking class again. and i dont know how to tell my parents again that i got fucking denied admission. i was so ready too picking classes getting my financial aid ready.
i can't believe that bitch teacher gave me a d. all i needed was a fucking c to transfer. she knew how bad i am at this shit. fuck her.
it's pathetic. i haven't done anything in the past year but stay home alone and feel shitty. i barely have any friends. my parents probably think im a loser. yet i can't admit that i need help cuz that'll just shame me to the whole family. fuck. fuck fuck.
I can no longer afford bills or rent after Grandmother passing away
I am going to be homeless Wednesday unless I find a place to move into
I might kill myself in the day or two TBH fam
>>703731447
Depression is an excuse weak willed fucks use as an excuse to take the easy way out. Robin Williams was a fucking coward and so is anyone else who claims to have "depression". Get your head out of your ass, stop crying like a little bitch, and live life. If you're so frail that you claim to have "depression" because you can't handle life then you're pretty much just better off killing yourself. Don't need your pitiful existence taking up space that could be used by alphas like me.
>>703731707
NO
Please... that fucks me up every time
>>703731743
>alphas like me.
>guaranteed_replies.png
>>>/out/
>>703731743
Just fuck off already. This is a place for feels, not for douchebags.
>>703731893
>>703731913
don't give him attention you niggers
>>703731604
Get a work if you have nothing to do, believe me it will keep you busy you will get money and stop feeling useless.
Try again in the university if you want.
>>703731604
Wouldn't really shame your family though, would it? They already think you're a loser. It would just shame you, really. Get over that. If anything it'll make you more human, approachable and sincere to them.
>>703731913
Cry more you frail faggot. Your tears are delicious. This is a thread for trash.
>>703732031
Cry with us, anon. It's okay.
>>703731743
You have somewhat of a point. Depression is something you'll get over and when you do its going to feel like you were just a pussy about everything. But telling people online to pull their heads out of their asses won't really solve anything
>>703732102
LOL, faggot.
>>703732132
Fair enough. Losers need a place to be losers I guess.
>>703731232
Yeah. You're rad. You're cool. You're hip.
I like you.
>>703732174
Perfect wording. We're all losers anyway.
>>703732174
They'll figure shit out sooner or later. If bitching about it on /b/ makes them feel better then fucking hell let them. It's better to just ignore the shit you don't like on here
>>703731976
yeah your totally right. it's already out there in the open. it wouldn't shock them to hear me say it. i just feel like a jerk cuz my mom's telling me how she wants to retire, and wants me to finish college so i can help out. and i want to do that but i just keep fucking things up.
and this year was really gonna be that year. but i gotta let them down again with the news.
anxiety sucks. it's just constantly there. can't think, can't focus.
>>703731960
i'd get a job but idk how i'd do. i'd just be an anxious wreck.
>>703731383
Thanks dude, I'm not showing off or whatever but I think feels threads need a little positivity for time to time. It's good to vent out, share our pain with others but something good has to come out of it. Before, I was a fucking loser, afraid of everything, getting piss drunk alone every night, eating junk food and failing at basic hygiene. Came back to my parents', they were fucking ashamed, we had some hard words and stuff because I bottled up everything for too long. They were hurt, I was hurt, and a wreck, and I decided that the only way to get out of this was to get my fingers out of my anal cavity because I couldn't stand the scrawny, weak and apathetic loser I saw every time I looked into a mirror. I just set up some little goals from day to day, like changing the way I eat (i.e. no more fast food, processed shit etc.). It felt good. And then I took care of the rest, one little thing at the time, looking for others' help and advice, and it worked. I took care of my alcoholism too, because it was my greatest enemy disguised as my best friend. It fucked up 5 years of my life, and I started working out to get no time to ger drunk, and it works. God bless /fit/ by the way. Working out replaces emotional pain by physical pain, and it's relieving.
>>703731732
>I am going to be homeless Wednesday unless I find a place to move into
Where do you live? Because i'm surpised everytime i read that somebody is going to be homeless. It's not common in my country.
>>703732102
These threads are always so interesting from a psychology major's standpoint.
Here you have great people like you just being kind without asking despite many people simply being negative. I want to say good job sir haha.
And also
>>703732174
Everyone has something they rely on, like maybe you like football because subconsciously it helps your brain shoot out kind and happy vibes about yourself.
Some people don't have all these advantages and therefore they rely on this website because they feel as thought it's the only place they too can get happy vibes, food for thought i suppose LOL
>be anxious mess entire life
>get on pills at 21 after having panic attacks virtually every single day as far as I can remember
>now I'm just an anxious mess 50% of the time
>panic attacks conditioned me to be scared of fucking nothing
>if my stomach acts up my body reacts as if its having a panic attack, since all of it went to my stomach
>existing is emotionally, mentally and now physically painful despite being born tall, white and not completely hideous
>>703732133
You're mad. It's cool. Let it all out.
You're spending a lot of time here yelling at people so you must have something to say. Keep going.
>>703732413
you might be made fun of for the /fit/ thing haha, but as much as it means to you, I would like to congratulations, you're on the right track.
>>703732430
>psychology major
Can I get my milk double bagged please? Thanks!
>>703732614
Anytime ;-)
ITT people pretending to be strong, but are actually fucking broken and sad.
it's ok anons feel free to feel here.
>be me
>have constant headaches
>stress? brain damage? eyes bad? i don't really care
>it's getting to the point i can't enjoy life at all
>prolly gonna an hero in a week or so
>probably do something funny with it because my life is a big fucking joke
how should i do it? or should i give life another shot?
>>703732416
I live in a small suburb city in California. After my Grandmother died, we lost a huge part of our income.
>>703732773
you should see a doctor
>>703732773
You could see a doctor.
>>703732406
Getting a job actually helps unbelievably much with anxiety.
m8, hugely.
>>703732773
Watch Evangelion, it has alot to do with giving life a second chance. Well worth it.
>>703728866
Anon, I think that's Mrs. Doubtfire
>>703730108
Go to sleep thinking " I'm gonna dream tonight and I'll remember it " or something like that.
Just try to regularly think about dreams in general in the day.
Avoid blue screens before you go to sleep ( phones, computers... )
You'll be fine anon.
>>703732773
Save up some money and just fuck off cross country. Road trip, maybe.
>>703731176
yes please
>>703732962
okay, but tell me that's obi-wan on the left, right?
>>703732570
Actually, it was the /fit/ sticky that made me want to work out because it made me realize it wasn't hard and showed me the mindset to have to get better. Thanks for your support bro, I hope you're doing good too.
>>703732207
It's not about being cool, rad or hip, because showing off on an anonymous nigerian dildo weaving website is stupid. It's just that I wanted to share some good feels after years of shit and hope it can inspire other anons, and make their lives better.
>cousin texts me
>2 of her friends were tortured to death
>one was pregnant
>respond "lit"
>>703732944
>>703732947
that's the 5th rec ive seen today for this anime. time to watch it i guess. it seems a bit teen angsty tho. what do you think?
>>703733099
Where is your proof
I can't stop getting pass-out drunk and messaging her in my stupor...
I can't stop listening to this song, either.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCEr4XbyLR8
>>703733130
Uh well when I went into it, I was told that Shinji was you know a "total bitch" but I really really have to say, that in context. It all really makes sense and I couldn't put it down.
Also, check out Cowboy Bebop, it has themes of letting go and how, no matter what it is, you're gonna carry that wieght
>>703723060
drugs
lsd
a lot of weed
morphine
>>703721959
Sounds like some lazy whining bitch shit
>>703732944
I guess I should try to look for one cuz I'm not doing anything anyway right. It's just that initial part of actually trying. it's embarrassing putting yourself out there and people seeing you and knowing you have some problems.
>>703730901
>their fake depressions
OPs kill themselves here quite a lot, your newfagness is showing, but your edgiess hides most of it.
>>703731201
i know this feel
keep strong man
>>703733459
>>703718731
Is it suicide if you're ok with dying doing stupid shit? I.E. Driving like you own the road? Anyway I don't think about sadness is to drive away the pain like an edgy fagloid
>>703731114
>honest
Being keyboard cool just means you're weaker than the total anonymous strangers you're calling "faggot: for being real people with real emotions. You need more help than the suicidal people on here.
>>703733485
>>703732773
This was me everyday until I went to highschool. Just get over it, still see a doctor though
Just a stupid question: Why don't people with anxiety try talking to random strangers on Omegle ? Like, not showing your dick but finding people to talk and learn some basic conversational skills ? It's not like talking to people at work or on the street but maybe it could help ?
>>703733485
fuck
Have you guys ever had an online friend for years and then they pass away?
It's been 2 years man and I miss him so much. I miss talking about stupid shit and sharing links for stupid videos all night. It's not the same with other people :/
>>703733667
Thats super smart actually, just make sure you have good lighting and clothes on right?
>>703733778
You're Gonna Carry That Wieght Anon.
>be me
>have a very fucked up childhood
>complete with being molested twice, parents both heavy drug users, and having to stop your mom from offing herself several times
>i've repressed alot of the memories and think of them as funny
>never really realized how fucked up i should be until i was in class an we were exchanging childhood memories
>i told about the time my mom and my dad blew the entirety of our income tax check on various drugs and got so fucked up that they thought we were a normal family and so dad wanted to have a bbq so he stuck what little meat we had for that month in the kitchen blinds and started humming a kiss song, all the while mom was passed out on the floor
>i still laugh about it htough
>>703733667
not all anxiety is social anxiety
>>703733788
Of course. And show your face too, it will make people understand you're not there to get wins. Also, it will help relieve the pressure, because Omegle is like a video /b/ in the sens that you're anonymous and if you fuck up you always have a fresh start after.
>>703733929
Laughter is the best medicine anon.
I hope more people could one day be as strong as you.
>>703718731
>get sick ass contract job after a year and a half of working my fucking dick off
>have to take a semester off finishing school for it
>it's fine
>oh and it will fuck up my course progression so I have to stay a full year for 2 classes
>oh.. .that's... fine
>5 months into job
>coworkers are all busy as fuck
>or have families
>don't have friends out of work
>don't get a chance to hang out much
>friends from school say they miss me and want to do some drunken stupidity online
>fucking yes
>drunk game night happens
>I have to intall the game and they get a heade start
>we get one match in and lose horrible
>I try to play it off like a joke, but everyone else just goes quiet after a while
>game ends and entire groups disconnects without warning
>one guy says "that's our last game;)" and logs off
>they stay offline for 2 more hours, and I see some of them in a match later than night
Oh fine, that's fine. That's just fine.
I'll just drink this liquor I bought for tonight, play some dark souls, and finish the rest of this pizza another night.
Just fine.
>>703734118
God can't get over how clever that was, good on ya OP
>>703733667
I can talk to people normally, not much of a talker tho, but I can follow a conversation just fine, do presentations and what not, but thinking about talking to some random stranger in Omegle really makes me anxious for some reason, the same happens when I'm using a phone, every time I use a phone I go retarded and can speak normally not even with my own damn family, I need to be face to face with the person to talk like a normal human being.
>>703733667
This is a good idea.
>>703734292
Hey man I'd fuck wit you, me and my friends are getting into weird sven coop server's and just creepy dead games on steam.
If you're brave enough to post ur steam shit i'll hit u up
>>703734292
what game?
>>703728911
THIS.
Seriously, do NOT try to O.D. on benedryl. You'll have yourself a BAD TIME.
>be me
>25
>living the shit life
>started dating a girl at work
>22, cute, funny, clever, the works.
>been crazy about her forever. never knew until a couple months ago she felt the same
>few weeks ago had a pregnancy scare
>had bought a bunch of pregnancy tests for her
>sitting there waiting to find out if im going to be a dad
>test says not pregnant. she took one of a few different types to be sure
>fucking relieved
>took a pregnancy test myself as a joke
>turns out positive
>"haha look sweety its me whos pregnant"
>her face goes pale and she starts stammering
>"its just a joke, i was born with these parts"
>then she says it
>"anon i remember reading somewhere that if a guy tests positive on a pregnancy test... he could have cancer...."
>proceed to shit bricks.
is that pregnancy test thing true anons? im fucking scared. i cant afford to have cancer
>>703727792
I Love You.
>>703735028
yes. you should go to a doctor ASAP. not even joking
;_;
>>703735028
Uh hey was this copy pasted from reddit
>>703735316
what the fuck are you talking about?
>>703730163
Nah, you'll suffer.
Take it from a faggot who tried to sudoku with happy pills and mood stabilizers, it's not quick, nor painless.
I ended up waking up at about 3 AM after taking them around say midnight with my heart pounding out of my fucking chest. Called 911 and got myself to the hospital because I was scared.
I'd done it as a spur of the moment kinda thing, and during the moments when I sat on the couch, waiting for the ambulance, I realized one thing gnawing at the back of my skull.
I didn't want to die.
I don't care if I DO die, but I'd prefer not to honestly. Not to mention that you can leave behind baggage and bills for family and friends to take care of, which is kind of a dick move.
And if you DO ultimately decide to sudoku, I recommend jumping from an airplane. Buy a skydiving ticket, and don't pull the chute. Let your last moments have you feel free as a bird, yea? Shut your eyes, spread eagle, and embrace death.
>>703735028
I'm pretty sure it's not true. It would be unlogical in two ways.
Why wouldn't doctors use it then more often for cancer checks?
And how does a women know if she is pregnant now or just has cancer?
>inb4 the cancertest only works for men
This doesn't even make sense.
But i have no clue why your test was positive. I think you should see a doctor though, like the other anon said.
>>703734925
fuck
>>703718731
I remember when I used to feel empty and I'd post all the time on /b/ and /adv/.
Those days are over though. A mixture of antidepressants and dating has gotten me out of my miserable funk.
And honestly, part of me misses feeling miserable. Now that my life is on track I no longer feel the emptiness that I once felt regularly, and as a result I don't really bother with the things I used to do when I felt empty.
No more binge drinking, no more grasping at euphoria, no more obsessive writing - none of it appeals to me at all anymore.
Enjoy your misery while you can, /b/. When you decide to quit feeling sorry for yourself you'll miss the days when you still did.
>>703723065
Don't wait for her, you'll only make yourself more miserable. The day you start looking to other women is the day you regain your self-esteem.
>>703735474
I think there needs to be a class at the end of high school related to the phenomenon of depression and how as people become older and more aware of themselves, they will start to become worrisome about the state of their emotions.
Emotions are dependent on a lot of factors, those not being limited to the FOODS you consume. What you ate today and the day before, the amount of sleep you have been getting, how actively you have been pursuing personal goals - ALL of these things will determine how often you experience feelings of misery.
Of course, DOING something about it is extremely difficult and requires training. If you can't discipline yourself enough to do the things you know deep down you are supposed to be doing then you will always be aware of the misery.
Learn to be free from fear and misery. It's possible with practice and determination.
>>703735419
This, some dude from reddit had the same thing happen to him. Might just be coincidence
been two days since i had sex with my ex.
cant stop thinking about it, i feel like i want to get back to her
anyone else feel like feels threads have reconnected you to your feelings after a life of learning how to kill them?
>>703737549
Why is she your ex?
>>703718731
I don't feel like my life has any purpose. Due to my previous friend and roommate trying to kill himself, he moved out and then I had to move out of the apartment we shared, so I've been living at another friend's place for a while, sleeping in the same room as him. I don't have a job and there's not a single place in this godforsaken town that seems to be needing new employees.
I don't fucking care about anything at the moment, and I want to be able to care again and not be tired all the time.
>grandpa has cancer
>really agressive kind
>spread over his liver, stomach, digestive system
>he doesnt wanna do chemo
>Dont know how long he will be with us
>eating me up inside
> cant tell family cause i might drag them down with me
I'm sad all the time now and i don't know why I was never like this in the past but the last month or so i have been slowing slipping but these threads make me feel better thanks /b
>>703732773
Kill every nigger you find and cop suicide
>>703737689
I guess. I wouldn't describe it that way.
Before I started smoking pot (so way back when I was like 16) I didn't know how to convey my emotions. Once I started getting high though, I felt my emotions become real and valid. I developed confidence in my emotions because for once I believed they were actually real.
These threads are relieving because they remind us that there are a shit ton of people out there who are experiencing the same emotional turmoil as you or me. Everyone has the same fears and the same dreams but what separates them is culture, economics, and most importantly, confidence.
Learn to be proud of who you are. It's only when you start believing in what you can accomplish that you will actually begin to get the things you want.
>>703737689
Yes, me. And I learned that there's nothing shameful about having feels.
>>703737829
Look harder for a job. Having a job will DRAMATICALLY improve your self-esteem. Everything about working is entirely positive and will help you get closer to the things you actually hope to accomplish with your life.
>>703737754
we decided to break up because we stood at different points in out life due the age difference between us.
we had almost no contact for the past few months besides texting three times.
i dont know why but i think i still have feels for her but i think she doesn't.
You know that feeling of quitting something important to you? For example, smoking, you'd smoke every day, every night and you can't wait to get that cigarette in your hand and start early in the morning. You crave the dopamine, and no one blames you. Hell, you might love the sense and presence of the cigarette, the quiet moments you get to have for yourself. Then one day, for one reason or another, you stop. The cigarettes caused some health issues and you needed to quit all of a sudden. You're left without the thing that carried you through the pain, the thing that, in a weird way, made you whole. The first days are rough, your emotions get the best of you, you try buying cigarettes but you're reminded of the truth that you can never return to them. You can't get that little part of your life back. So, months go by, it gets easier and easier, you start to incorporate substitutes. They make you feel better but it's never the same. Your friends tell you that they know how you feel but they really don't, how could they? They never smoked. You delete every picture you had of you smoking, any memory that you ever had of actually smoking. Never mention that you miss it dearly because it isn't right. But deep down you do and it tears inside you.
A Year passes by since you quit. You try not to think about smoking anymore, in fact, you get angry sometimes at the very thought of it. The love you had for it is stored away and you even try to prove to yourself that you don't need it. You lie to yourself that smoking never made you feel good to begin with. It certainly was unhealthy to smoke so much but you know why you did it so obsessively. You can never go back. People will judge you and the cigarettes left you worse for wear but you can't help but remember the feeling you felt long ago. The feeling that made you feel ok and for that short time, give you peace. The feeling that you lack and think about late at night. The feeling called love.
That's how i feel about my ex.
>>703738212
Hey man, thanks for replying.
Yeah, I guess you're right. I've been around town and personally handing in unsolicited applications. I guess I should try again. Thanks, man. How are you, since you're in this thread?
>>703718731
Nope. I'm good.
In the past year, I've made 2 major mistakes:
1.) I tried to kill myself, and failed.
2.) I convinced everyone it wasn't a big deal.
It took months, but it eventually became a big deal. As the date crept closer and closer to the anniversary (July 11th), my depression got worse. I started having flashbacks. My insomnia became worse (and still hasn't improved). All of my relationships are too shallow to really talk about it. I'm far beyond the point of crying. The only real feeling I have is exhaustion and the occasional ache and pain. God I wish things could get better.
>>703738545
If you two are fucking each other and you are making threads on 4chan about it then yeah, I'd say you probably do still have feelings for her.
Having feelings for someone you love isn't a bad thing, but with a romantic partner it can get extremely complicated. One of you has to take responsibility for the breakup for the other to follow suit. What she feels for you is not nearly as important as how you want to handle the situation.
The way I see it, you have 3 options:
1) You can keep seeing her, keep it as a friends with benefits type thing, and see other people
2) You can avoid her entirely and start seeing other people
3) You can try to profess your love to her and attempt to get engaged (and then decide to see other people based on her response)
These are extremely generalized options, but I hope you get the point. Unless you two are planning on getting married, then you need to start seeing other people. Your feelings for her will never go away, but with time, they will change. Whether or not you want them to change in a positive and favorable manner depends on whether or not you are willing to start seeing other people.
>>703738737
I'm this guy:
>>703736872
>>703737364
>>703737754
>>703738110
>>703738927
Basically, I'm pretty well off. Ever since I got my shit together and got a job my life has been skyrocketing forward. Of course, I'm also on antidepressants because I became hooked on prescription amphetamines (without having a prescription) and that led me to becoming hopelessly depressed without them. My shrink put me on a stack of 2 medications that have completely restored my sanity and my mental well-being.
So the combination of that and the job have made me a better and more confident student, and as a result a better person (IMO).
The best advice I can give you is to try to stop giving into your depressing thoughts/emotions. You are probably depressed; in fact, I am pretty certain that you are. But you can get better if you really want to. You just have to push yourself to figure out whats wrong and fix it.
That's all I did and now I am free from my misery.
>>703738678
>>703738927
>One of you has to take responsibility for the breakup for the other to follow suit.
we didn't part on bad terms, but i guess i'm the one responsible for the breakup.
>1) You can keep seeing her, keep it as a friends with benefits type thing, and see other people
i don't know if i can handle this the right way tbh. i'm pretty immature when it comes to things like this.
>2) You can avoid her entirely and start seeing other people
well thats what i tried to do the past few months. but when i got really drunk i ended up at her place in the middle of the night. has happened two times already.
>3) You can try to profess your love to her and attempt to get engaged (and then decide to see other people based on her response)
i'm pretty sure she won't respond with a yes, but maybe i should do this.
>Unless you two are planning on getting married, then you need to start seeing other people.
we both did. but every girl i've met bored me out. had some ons, she did too - but when i was with her two days ago, it felt like when we were together. we had sex, cuddled, talked a while, cooked and showered together.
>Your feelings for her will never go away, but with time, they will change
i hope so. thanks for the advice, bud
>>703739245
Thank you so much for your time. I genuinely appreciate it.
You're right. I miss having a job, it was one of the things I genuinely enjoyed. I just need a job again, that'll get everything back on track. I'm applying for a 6 month speed course in Motion Graphics design starting this january, then I should be able to get going with an apprenticeship. Again, thank you.
I need to adjust my food intake, work out more and take time to actually practice the skills I want to be good at. You're a kind person, thank you.
He shook his head, realizing he had been staring at the sun for minutes. He blinked, watching small specks that riddled his vision, dancing in front of him as his eyes adjusted back to their normal state. They felt warm, too warm, but he appreciated the sun’s touch none the less. As he did, he slowly glanced to his side hoping to see the familiar figure that had been there with him, but she had likely gone long ago to leave him in a half-asleep daze on the ground with a surprising feeling of loneliness. Maybe it wasn’t as much loneliness as it was of being left behind yet again. She was always trying to make her way ahead of him and it slowly killed him inside, to the extent of which he was growing apathetic to it; maybe even to her. But she was such a bright spot in his life, such an example and a motivation that he couldn’t truly find anywhere else. He had tried, but whether his will simply wasn’t strong enough, or improvement not a big enough push, he fell short. It was always her figure he was chasing and her torch he kept lit.
>>703733298
It does doesn't it hahahaha too bad it feels like never ending sorrow
it isn't though for u sad cunt u just have to have a noble goal and achieve it then if u want to do it again it's ur choice ur not ablidged by anything. God wouldn't do that to you
Don't listen to lies, the story is never true, the reality, don't fuss if u don't know, not even them know
>>703733943
This
>>703735266
I know this feeling all to well.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8jN8SII8ytI
>>703734292
Anon, do you want to play Dark Souls together? I love that game, I love helping people out in in. If you need any help, hit me up. Just to pass the time. Some of my best friends I found through Dark Souls, game brings people together. I don't know how to access the URL for my profile but if you drop yours I wouldn't mind playing for a bit.
>>703740429
Feels like me, damn anon. You got my feels going.
>>703741640
Its a short story I'm attempting finish based on a girl I knew. I can post more if you'd like. I end up writing when I get depressed.
>>703741778
go for it
i feel empty and like a complete failure, don't know how i'm gonna get out of this one, really starting to feel the only way out is an hero.
been drinking heavily, cutting, missing work.
going to drs in an hour for psych eval, possibly going to have to spend some time in the ward.
wish me luck /b/
>>703741778
post the rest.
>>703740429
He realized it then. He was in love with time. Not the concept of it like some philosopher fantasizes about or the human representation of it you’d find in childhood fiction. No, he loved time. He fell in love with memories and parts of his life that he would never truly relive, constantly personifying them into whatever he could rationalize in his head. He raised women to these pedestals to represent to him his childhood, happiness, and countless other emotions he never truly understood. To represent all the good times he had long since left behind. He remembered the first girl he could ever say he fell for. Her name was Emily, a sweet girl filled innocence and ignorance of the world around her. He remembered when he moved, how he would visit and how he would use her like a tool to go back to those wondrous days of childhood. No, he wanted her as one wants a memory. He felt for her as one would feel looking through a photo album. All the women of his life fell to the same fate, to represent a point in his life one which was never truly as great as it once was. Lonely times represented by sparks of hope, angry times represented by moments of sight, and apathetic moments mistaken for the gaining of maturity and knowledge. He was helplessly, head over heels, and blindly in love with the great delusion of time. Lost time, spare time, old times, and new times, but goddamn him if it wasn’t the good times that were slowly killing him.
>>703742343
And now she was no different, just a fantasy, a faint hope that perhaps he never really expected to grab hold of. A target he never truly thought he could hit and when he eventually did, he’d realized perhaps he had mistaken his passion for something else, and worse yet that she had realized this long ago. He had pushed her away, exiling her to represent something beyond herself. Memories constantly relived aren’t memories, and you simply end up living in the past wishing and hoping for something to force you forward; he couldn’t, and it ate at him. Every time he tried to move he felt as if he was banging against a brick wall, simply watching others walk through and wondering why he was so unable to do the same. Simply watching as she walked through and wondering if he wanted to keep up his chase.
The sun continued to shine, apathetic to his inner turmoil and self-defeat. His arms pushed him on upward, his feet even further, and he gathered himself. Stepping up, he met the gentle slope and walked down towards the street below him. It wasn’t far, just far enough to avoid the sounds of the passing cars and shouting children.
>>703736872
I wish I could be like that anon.
It doesn't matter what I do or take, I always feel like somethings missing. I'm content with that though, I don't care if I don't feel happy, or sad, or anything. It's just sometimes it starts to eat at me, and I curse myself for it.
>>703738212
That doesn't work for me though. It doesn't matter how much I enjoy the job, I end up hating it in a couple weeks. The only reason I stay is because I need the money.
>>703718731
Few days ago I was browsing my old email accounts, found one that a girl sent me when I was 16, saying she love me.
I now understand why she stopped talking to me at some point, I used to think it was because I am a worthless bag of human cells.
According to this mail, this girl who got married a month a go was desperately in love with me 7 years ago, for few years.
>>703718731
not really empty, but im unsure if im in love with my best (girl)friend. we understand each other perfectly, she was always there for me when i had trouble with my ex girlfriend, we get along so well. 2 weeks ago i met her at a party, we had a good time, but some things she said are burned in my mind now and i dont know what to do. nobody of my friends knew her and she said things like "we love each other" "we would make the perfect couple". she also wanted to hold hands while outside. im loosing my fucking mind.
>>703743557
I hope you leave her alone. It sounds like shes moved on.
If only my ex would leave me alone and stay bring up crazy bullshit for me i'd feel alot better
>>703743680
Go for it but don't rush anything.
>>703743724
Well everyone was surprised that she didn't invite me to the wedding (we used to be close friends) AND I have a girlfriend, won't take the risk of contacting her, not even to say "hey congrats".
I'm not such a douche, it just felt really strange because I missed her when she started avoiding me, I used to dream about her being my GF when I was going through few of my teen years.
>>703744041
thats my problem. hope and anticipation are my fucking kryptonite. i just fuck everything up when i fall in love. got drunk last weekend and told her how i feel atm. and now i feel uncomfortable when texting with her.
Its been fun /b/
>>703732944
It helps but not entirely. Worked for a year and a half, still have anxiety. I care too much what I say and wish my mind was more free-flowing.
Probably chemical imbalance from quitting anti depressants and adhd medicine cold turkey
fuck why is it so hard to do things that make you happy?
>>703743350
Same. Hoping to find that perfect job with fun coworkers
Well I just fucked up bad yesterday and now I am lost and have no idea what to do
>>703741998
Good luck Chief
>>703745813
What happened?
I'm so used to being alone and not feeling anything. I met a girl and it's been weird. She went back up to college and says she likes me and misses me, but rarely texts or calls me. It drives me insane. Going on three months of this shit, she doesn't want any commitment and I can't bring myself to not talk to her. I told her I'd be there for her. I feel like I would be abandoning her. I don't know what to do and I do generally think she likes me. I just get so fucked up from this, I start doubting it and my mind wonders and it stresses me out. I'm lost /b/
>>703745942
I didn't mean to, but I fucked up everything with the girl I love and I don't think I can fix it
>>703746362
I feel you 100% but don't overthink about it. Is she coming back after tho? And trust me I had more or less the same situation and it stressed me out too and I ran all the possibilities trough my mind and it got me down. Try to stay strong, anon
>>703745095
Mostly because nothing makes me happy
>>703720701
Benadryl, alcohol, some car exhaust, and maybe some bleach/amonnia mixture would probably do the trick with whatever you're on
>>703746767
I probably am over thinking it. It's just I can't trust anyone romantically anymore. She says shes really busy with school and shit, but I won't hear from her for days.
She is coming down in October, but I said I'd come up to visit on the weekend, and she has an excuse for every weekend I suggest. I want to believe her, but Its all excuses. There are no actions to show that she feels this way and it bothers me. I really just want to walk away, how did your scenario play out?
