How often do you think about suicide?
>>703455973
8 days a weeks
Nigga daily wtf
>>703455973
Seriously? It's been years.
>>703455973
More than should be considered normal I think.
It's usually like; "Aww man - life is soooo hard. How easy would life be if I wasn't alive anymore?"
>>703455973
Never, kys
>>703455973
Every day anon, every day.
if only i had the constitution to do it...i think about it more than whats healthy...
>>703457082
> "Aww man - life is soooo hard. How easy would life be if I wasn't alive anymore?"
The answer is super fucking easy.
Enough
>>703456317
this
what time is it? thats when
>>703455973
>whenever i see her with another man
>>703455973
Every time i come on /b/
like, ive wondered if it would hurt...like, shooting ones self? i gotta .45 cal on my night stand and ive pondered where the best shot placement would be ? would i survive it? if i did, how bad it would hurt??
Every waking moment is endless gut wrenching pain there's not a Monet in my life I'm not begging for the sweet release of death
>>703455973
i USED TO DREAM ABOUT IT A LOT, BUT NOW i HAVE WONDERFUL GIRLFRIEND.....NOT AS MUCH.
>>703457721
straight to the side of the temple. guaranteed you wouldnt even feel it. websites down or id link to alt suicide holiday. that was the place to discuss methods back in the day
>>703457770
dude, almost quads...thats worth living for
>>703457799
dubs bro. life isnt so bad after all..
>>703457898
Yes, karnt, that's true...............
>>703457824
temple? i was always wondering if i shoot do it, barrell in mouth..straight through the back of the dome..
>>703457898
Every time I fuck her tits I KNOW life is worth living......
Probably anywhere from 15-30 times a day depending on my mood.
>>703458014
thats fool proof honestly. you cant survive your head exploding
Suicide is a blessing, don't take it for granite
>>703455973
Often, pretty much several times a day.
I've gotten to the point where I simply don't want to love anymore. The little enjoyment I get from doing shit and the stupid people I have to deal with doesn't outweigh any of the other negatives of living.
Even if I had a girl, I don't think it would help in the long run. I'm trying to get one just to try it but my hopes aren't high.
Straight up, Im not sure I'll make it past next year
>>703458067
pics?
>>703458101
>granite
>>703458014
Don't man....trust me that things WILL change....
usually when i wake up because i realize I'm always happier when im sleeping and why can't i just sleep all the time like what if i went to sleep and never wok-
>>703458101
>granite
>>703458104
Stay strong dude....things WILL improve I promise....
>>703458273
how does one get into a coma? this is a good idea...
>>703458224
WILL they, eh bud? What do you mean change? Will my get objectively better or will I maybe start to align with society's idea of "getting better" ?
>>703458433
Will my life get better
>>703458378
Drink vodka till u r PHARK.
>>703458433
dubs
>>703458433
Dude, I am 46. I am soooooooooo much happier than when I was 25. My 25 year old self is but a distant memory...
>>703458378
I know right you don't have to do anything and can just enjoy juicy dreams all day
But when i sleep too much I end up feeling worthless and suicidal more often, so i usually suck it up and wake up. Feels better in the long run
>>703458433
>>703458464
nah you get set on a mindset once youre of a certain age. ive been on mine for years. there are brief moments of joy though. no matter how brief. but eh. overall thats what depression does. sucks the will out of you more than anything. the strive to actually do better is gone more than "oh im sad all the time"
>>703458570
I'm now going to make it to 45, let alone 25
>>703458577
i fought Bane in my dream the other day...
>>703458664
Im *not
>>703455973
maybe i don't think about suicide everyday but i wish death like every 5 hours niger
>>703457831
You're right thanks anon ;u;
>>703458661
Thats what's I thought. So what keeps you going?
>>703458667
What broke first? Your spirit, or your body?
>>703458795
actually i was doing pretty good until catwoman showed up...
>>703458664
Dude....you WILL feel better in a few years.... I GUARANTEE |IT. I can remember being suicidal in my twenties....and now it would feel absolutely ridiculous to feel that way....
>>703458855
Nobody cared who she was until she put the mask on
>>703458855
dubs! this is gonna be the second best 9/11 ever.
wot
>>703459000
dude, trips? you lucky bastard..
>>703458903
Thats cool. But like I said, I don't think I'm going to make it that long.
You *saying* it will get better is fine but without tangible proof of that being the case in my situation, I dont believe you.
never. life is awesome.
>>703458754
really nothing. well, thats not true. i live for a sense of "escape" if you can call it that. bury myself in video games or shows or chatting online or even here on /b/. it feels good that nobody gives a shit about me online and that i dont have to give a shit about anyone else either. theres a certain expectation out in the real world that i dont like but so many people just accept. there are no expectations here. i can be dull when i want to or chatty when i feel like it. basically, i dont really live for anything. i just kind of go with it. if that makes sense.
>>703459121
I'm mentally fucked because even if I had as much money as Facejew, Id still want to die
>>703459112
Yeah well all I can say is I promise it DOES get better......you just will. I promise my friend.
>>703459112
my tendencies are always there, but if u really are thinking of it, have you tried therapy??
>>703459143
I understand but that meaningless life is what is killing me the most
>>703455973
Never.
But sometimes I think of disappearing forever. When I feel like my friends are using me. When I am stressed out from school. When the organization I am part of feels like I am doing all the work. When I don't have money to pay the bills. When I remember of all the times I missed the opportunity to talk to that girl or when I did talk to her and then the thoughts of "she won't love you, she talks to you like she talks to every other guy, why are you trying?" and end up ignoring her just so I won't get hurt again.
Sometimes, I just want to run and disappear. Make a new life, new name.
Usually when I'm drunk and alone so almost every Friday night.
Whenever I see these threads, you sneaky dog!
>>703455973
I think about suicide so many times daily i can't even count it.
It just feels so right to just to end it all.
I have tried it once but i pussied out of it and called my sister after i took the pills.
I have so many pills in my house i could probably an hero on stream.
>>703459213
Well, you can tell that to my obituary in 26 years after my mom cuts it out and mails it you.
I'm sick of the pro-life cult. If you really wanted to make people stick around, you'd do something more while they were alive than shitposting on a Taiwanese rice paddy board
>>703455973
Everyday
>>703459143
i get by with a pretty lonely existence. lonely to normal standards. i dont have a girl, i dont want one. no friends by choice.
>>703459226
Fuck therapy. I'm now paying someone to tell me "it gets better XD ur just experiencing a bad spot ;_; cheer up sport"
>>703459213
thats another thing i dont like so much. people (even those who have dealt with this) often say "it gets better" without any other explanation. "it gets better trust me" okay thank you that was as vague as it could possibly be.
>>703459228
it helps me to realize that its not just meaningless for you. its meaningless for everyone whether you realize it or not. everyone lives a meaningless existence.
>>703459367
same here. im very happy being alone. and prefer it to be honest. total loner. i see no problem in that.
>>703459345
I don't know what the fuck you are talking about dude....just hang on....it gets BETTER.
>>703459475
I'm *not
Jesus H. Christ
>>703459478
It does get better....I have lived it......
>>703459143
Yeah, society's expectations are so backwards.
First they push you in school to do some random shit, and then they expect you to develop an interest of your own. And after that, almost certainly, you will work the rest of your life for some other people that are taking the cream of it. It's just a huge cuck if you don't lie yourself into thinking you are doing this for yourself. The ego and emotions are the problem.
>>703459475
well, theres always a root to why one feels This way. so, not sure if u wanna find out why u feel said way or maybe just get some positive people in your life to talk to.
>>703459478
Most people know it's meaningless but most people can over look and just love their life. I cant
>>703459500
dubs!!!!
>>703459587
Find something you LOVE doing dudE AND YOU WILL NEVER WORK A DAY IN YOUR LIFE.....JUST MY EXPERIENCE....
>>703459175
money's not the most important thing anyway. obviously environmental variables play a contributing part when it comes to depression and suicide but it all depends on the individuals circumstances and character.
at least 10 times a day. it stopped being uncomfortable after 10 years of it.
>>703459623
The root of the problem was my dad fucking my mom when he was 18 knowing he had mental issues that had been in his family for generations.
Im lucky enough to have been born and to have inherited those issues. Life is so wonderful
>>703459697
I already realised that, but thank you nevertheless. Life isn't about the money, but society is trying to make you think it is. That was also the point i was trying to get at.
every week or so
>>703459778
is that sad? it used to scare me why i thought of ut so much or just the thought of death. but now the actual prospect of it aint so bad. like, Get me outta here.
>>703459815
Yes.....all I can say is that I am soooooooooo much happier in my 40's than I was in my twenties.....
Every day dammit.
>>703459790
what kind of issues? how did your dad deal with them? have you been to see a doctor/psychologist/psychiatrist/scientology e-reader/guru/tony robbins DVD about your problems?
>>703455973
I'm a suicidally depressed ex drug addict. I think about killing myself every day. At the rate I am going I'm just going to die of lung cancer (smoker).
>>703459790
i gotcha man. im in the same predicament. both my folks had so much shit, genetically, wrong...depression to the umpteenth degree, propensity towards violence, social issues...
>>703459964
What's I can't believe is you're still going. Either actually disillusioned or the world's worst troll.
Bravo
>>703460028
If you WAIT.....the happiness WILL come.....I am living proof my friend.
>>703460053
ooooh, i hate when ppl play with my feels.
time to time
>>703460053
Haha, the wonders of being anonymous
>>703459575
that may very well be. but not offering any other information makes it an empty gesture. no offense meant really but ive heard that from plenty of people. the same exact line. and when it doesnt get better after years of it i start to think its just meaningless words being spewed to make it seem like you care. doing the absolute minimum.
>>703459587
exactly. and they expect you to develop an interest but only if its in the curriculum that they offer. (high school at least) and when they dont offer you room to express yourself and actually pursue shit you want to do its disheartening. i was interested in art and got yelled at for drawing in class all the time.
>>703459629
im with you. didnt say i dont agree it just helps a little. thats why im in this thread with you. like i said i lose myself in media. youtube is my new tv. video games and sleep help take me away from this shit a lot of the time. its good to be ignorant. well it isnt good but its better than being in my head all the time.
>>703460018
Depression, ocd, other shit that hasn't been entirely revealed but stuff like social anxiety and whatever. Typical stuff that must shouldn't be keep going.
He takes drugs now which is not something I'm going to do. He's been to therapy and shit but fuck that to. Death is a permanent solution to this that doesn't cost me any more worthless time.
>>703455973
I left those dark thoughts behind about the same time I left the hospital. After waking from my three month coma I truly believed I must be in hell suffering for my sins, I begged to die non stop for 9 months, but I left that behind. I live as a part time student, spending my free time with friends, lifting, or playing video games. I survive off the 900 the government pays me a month for how fucked up mu injury made me. It is a frugal simple life but I'm am happy and I am healthy. The idea of how badly I wished to die makes me sad now, I thought my world was so dark and that there would never be light, but my oppinion and attitude was 99% the cause of my dispar.
>>703460053
No I'm not a troll......just a guy who finally grew into himself if that makes any sense......
Only when a plane crashes into the trading tower I'm working in and I can't escape
>>703460296
Haha,
>>703460196
sorry bear with me im typing as fast as i can collect my thoughts into a worthwhile snippet.
>>703460196
It's only been my experience dude.......what I'm trying to say is that the worries you have NOW will be gone in 20 years....guaranteed my friend.
>>703460155
oh hey, Dubs! right on...
>>703459790
this is the main reason i don't want to have kids.
imagine creating a life just to suffer as i have/do, or even perhaps worse... how fucked up is that.
>>703457093
Lol never holy fuck hehe kys woah haha I just began using 4chan because I wanna be cool woah haha I'm so cool I love dark humor, by the way you newfag fuck off till you're actually 18 yea
>>703460395
I'm sorry but you are so wrong my friend.......
>>703460395
I came to that conclusion a year ago. Shits fucked. Now I really have no purpose to live. I won't procreate, nothing makes me happy. Life is a chore I do to make my family content
Honestly probably 2 or 3 times a week. Everytime I fuck something up really bad at work or look like a complete Autist in front of a beautiful woman. My life sucks man. I'm ugly inside and out. There's no recovering from this. Thanks for the entertainment /b/.
>>703460196
Yeah, when I was a kid I actually heard some stupid kid say the point of life was to get rich and have children. He was precisely picking up on what society wants you to do (also conveyed through media). I was absolutely disgusted by his answer, and am still now to this day.
>>703460395
i get what you mean. ever seen True Detective? matthew mcconaugheys character has a pretty interesting take on whether or not humans should keep breeding or just walk hand in hand into extinction.
Everyday m8
It's just modern life bro, its fine bro, deal with it
Everyone wants to die, it's how it do.
get those education points, work 5 days a week
slave away and be stressed from bills and monetary worries
LIfe
fucking immigrants flooding in making it harder. I want to fucking kick them in the face when i hear that brown language and those cunty looking imigrants here for the opportunities that the natives have slaved to create.
fuck out of here. One day I am going to smash the fuck out of one of em.
If you killed yourself, that cute girl you had a crush on but were only acquaintances with would probably make a post about you on facebook/instagram.
>>703460517
Thats a funny way of saying "so right"
>>703460517
so i get that it's not guarantied, but can't you not imagine the feeling knowing you created a life that spends the majority of its time feeling bad enough that it wished it was dead? not a risk i'd like to take.
>>703460522
same
>>703460391
its not so much the worries. i know ill be fine whatever happens. its the constant drain of motivation to do ANYTHING or better myself in any way. anxiety doesnt help that either.
>>703460538
exactly. CONSUME. SPEND. REPRODUCE. i swear to got i have the glasses from "They Live"
>>703455973
Hey OP
Almost commited maybe 45 minutes ago.
I think about it maybe too often.
i take care of my folks. my dads falling apart and mom has dementia. i wont say that im gonna kill myself when they die, but theyre the biggest reason for me to put my feelings and wants on hold til they pass.
>>703460542
I have but I can't remember that bit, it was a while back i watched it and my memory is shit for things liek that. I agree though. everyone thinks its their right to pump out more people, when such a huge proportion of problems in the world are caused by there already being too many of us.
>>703460773
Best reply ITT. good job at defending your position
>>703460607
and thats kinda hot if you think about it.
>>703455973
Daily. Though in the context of "I wish those idiots would just kill themselves.".
>>703460833
I'm just being honest......
The only meaning to life is the will to live.
Deep inside us, the reason none of us have killed ourselves yet is an animalistic urge to grow, consume and fuck. It's what life does, it expands. Your cells reproduce and grow through eating food, You spread life through reproduction. Any other meaning given to life is our consciousness trying to justify these means through reason and emotion. You can either choose to give into life's curse or break away from it. There are two ways to break the curse, kill yourself or trick yourself into thinking life is worth living because of beauty, art or spirituality. Some people can go on living a lie, Some people can just accept life for what it is, Some people say fuck it and murder themselves.
Guess which one I am.
to answer your question OP, it's every motherfucking day.
I believe depression, sadness and suicide is an evolutionary response to societal rejection. Love is the opposite, as evolutionary confirmation, explaining why we are more happy if we have a partner. Fuck society and, while your genes might not, you as a human will LIVE.
>>703460833
I'm in my forties.......I have sex every night. That would have seemed an impossible dream in my twenties......
well this threads turned to shit. i was hoping we would exchange kiks and meet up once a year and hang out...pfft, 4chan...you promised so much...
>>703461140
is she at least hot or did you settle with a whale?
>>703461257
People who hate people, UNITE!!!
.......NO!!
Every hour it seems, I plan on doing it soon . I'm transgender and it makes my life unlivable . I was considering ordering heroin and injecting as much as possible to OD, but I'm scared of being conscious and choking on my vomit and stuff
>>703461420
i hear heroin OD isn't the blissful floating off into the netherworld one would imagine dude.
>>703455973
Two times in my entire life have I contemplated it seriously, I'm 50.
The thought does pop up from time to time, but more as a concept, not as an urge.
>>703461420
Being transgender is not compatible with life, you should probably do it fam.
I mean gender exists to promote biodiversity, if you feel you do not accurately represent your chromosomes you're incorrect and probably have some sort of mental illness are better off removing yourself from the genepool
>>703461127
nice theory
but already has been proven to be somewhat wrong
as many "successful" (in all aspects of life) people just suffer as much from depression as the rest of us
>>703455973
multiple times a day. not existing just sounds so awesome.
>>703461140
What this oldfag is saying is that it can get better, but you'll never know or be around to see if you end it now. You're going to die anyways, so stick around until your time or your body's fucked to see where the years take you, because it could get better.
>inb4 but killing muhself is easier
And it could be true that you spend eternity getting raped by thorny demon dicks for suicide
>inb4 lol dat shit ain't real! Everything just ends
For people who think they cannot see where the life they are living right now is going or see any possibility of it ever getting better, they sure somehow know a fuck ton about what happens after life to say with certainty that there is nothing more
tl:dr don't kill yourself, and don't be a lazy faggit, actually read this.
>>703461704
+1
Having a partner doesn't make you any less depressed. Having friends doesn't make you any less depressed. Depression is just refusing to play the game of life. It's not wanting to get up in the morning and deriving no pleasure from your accomplishments, no matter how successful you are.
>>703461704
Hm. Maybe they don't feel accepted. Life's just a theory anyway.
>>703461667
true. when did this become ok? why are parents not killing their children for this...
>>703461667
> t. someone who doesn't know what he's talking about
>>703461957
>why are parents not killing their children for this...
holy fuck, what's wrong with you?
>>703461841
i hope so hard there's no afterlife at all... i mean that'd completely void all positive anticipation i feel towards death. what's the fucking point if you're still in any way conscious? It's hope anon, even suicidal people have hope, just theirs is in death resulting in a total lack of being.
>>703461957
Parents fucking encourage it.
Everyone has had feelings of desire to be the other gender. It's our mirror neurons relating to those who are different than us. Imagining and fantasizing about being another gender is just another step in understanding the other gender. Parents of transgender children and transgender communities blow these fantasies out of proportion and allow people to mutilate their bodies to live out a hypothetical.
>>703461420
if you haven't already at least try hrt and see how it makes you feel. it can help a little even if you have no hope to ever pass.
Once every ten minutes. I get about 10 to 15 seconds when I wake up and I have no anxiety no thoughts and it's the best time of my day sadly.
>>703455973
everyday since many years ago
>>703455973
Bout every damn day.
>>703462234
You should try meditation really. Introspective thinking and clearing your mind of all thoughts whatsoever can help with anxiety.
Whatever you do, life will be over at some point. No need to cut it short even if it's shit. Ask yourself the question: "What is shit?" It's all perspective at this point. Will it even make things better if you don't exist? Losing everything you have had up to this point?
>>703461897
yep. i spent my entire 20s thinking that when i finally got a proper job and a hot gf who loved me i'd be better. both those things happened, life sorted itself right out, still wanted to die.
>>703462356
I'm actually gonna look this up thank you I've tried everything.
>>703461667
Nah fam, it's relatively compatible with life, there are a lot of people who are trans and manage to live happy productive lives. Years from now, when all the fucktards that subscribe to Abrahamic religions die out it won't be that big a deal. Unfortunately not everyone is given what it take to deal with. Shit does suck and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone
>>703458476
Who is she
>>703459575
Who is she
>>703462213
Thank you but I have. I need to pass to live but that's not possible. After getting on HRT all the pain I suppressed for years returned exponentially, and when it came it stayed
LETS RAMP UP THE PSYCHOSIS UP IN HERE!!!!
>>703460391
Sauce on dat gif by the way suicide is a blessing
>>703459112
There's no way to know unless you stick around.
Like literally, you can't know what will happen. Ricky gervais was a loser on social security into his 30s. Then he wrote a sitcom, sold the rights, and he is rich enough to own or do anything.
Anything could happen tomorrow.
>>703461841
Once again, and this goes to any of you faggots who say this, what the hell does "better" mean? Money, pussy, kids? What's? I'm sick of hearing about it. Fitting in with what society says you should do is not better.
Kindly fuck off
>>703455973
currently an heroing on water intoxication as i speak
>>703459112
Also if you're at this stage, why not try anything? For me it was liberating to feel at my lowest because I could do anything I wanted and not care.
Try some lsd or shroom micro dosing for depression?
>>703463230
I don't know what's could happen, you're right. But I know, deep down, that nothing that could happen could make me feel the way I yearn to feel. Well, anything short of divine intervention. And God isn't going to come out of the sky to make me feel better.
Im sure i could all of the things I "want" to but none of those things are going to bring me happiness, even if I did everything
>>703463295
Don't have money for drugs. Don't want to do drugs.
>>703463435
You: "A brain filled with flesh eating maggots is better than a slightly altered one"
>>703463723
Yes. I am the way I am. I dont want to change it so that people maybe see having kids isn't the best idea
>>703463819
Ok then
>>703463723
psychedelics change the way you view life forever i wouldn't recommend them for anyone, especially not for therapy. Do them if you want to. That shit is serious, one of the most influential moments of my life was my first shrooms trip
>>703460121
Fapped
>>703455973
I love myself too much to wanna kill myself.
>>703455973
every work day
and sometimes during the weekend if i happen to work through it
and the thing is i talk to people about it
i tell you man, every single day i talk to someone about suicide
sometimes they don't even want to talk but i somehow manage dig a hole and they walk straight into it
it only happens at work though
sometimes it's going on the whole fucking day too
oh well, it's a bit late to change professions now
and i kind of like it tbh
and i've worked quite hard to get here
>mfw i'm a psychiatrist
>>703463819
>>703463887
I'm sorry I didn't realise your will to pass on good genes. I didn't do them either.
>>703462384
i hear you anon
>>703463927
thanks for letting us know anon. i'm glad you had a nice little orgasm. now go kill yourself before the shame of fapping and then announcing it on 4chan wears off.
>>703464140
I'm totally fine with not reproducing. We might be a lucky case, but we sure aren't perfect. And I don't agree with the pic. I don't fap to hentai.
>>703464264
Probably will eventually.
Some good ways.
http://www.depressed.net/suicide/suicidefaq.txt
>>703455973
At least twice a day.
