Feels thread. Gather round Anons, and let us try to feel your feels and help you carry them.
>>700429314
Who /alcoholic/ here ?
>Be me
>16 yo
>Life is good
>Beta but good
>Sleep with my best friend
>No more V-Card
>Tell me she loves me
>I'm happy as fuck
>Agree she becomes my gf
>3 days later
>Party
>She sleeps with another guy
>I'm sad, angered and bitter
>She's mad because I don't want to talk to her
>Feel crushed
>Think about having a drink
>Never been drunk before
>She's friends with my friends
>things start getting sour
>Pick up drinking
>herewefuckinggo.jpg
Anybody interested in the rest of the story ?
i know this feel
>>700429314
But every day our love and strength and passion grows. It never dies. Retard.
im drunk and horny and feely I guess idk give me attentions
>>700430179
>Our love and strength and passion
>Growing everyday
If that's your case, that's good for you anon.
>>700430237
>(You)
>>700430460
meowwww~~~~~~ cats
>be me
>17, not ugly nor beautiful like a model
>never had a girlfriend
>virgin because I never understood how you get a girl to fuck even though I tried multiple times
>meet this girl
>brown hair, small tits, a dream ass, she like video games and anime
>we get along very quickly
>2 weeks later she becomes my gf
>start to get pretty down and dirty with her
>after 3 months together, I ask her of she wants to come to a party where I know we'll be able to fuck for the first time
>"i dunno, i dont feel the same thing about you as i did a few month ago"
>bitch dumps me by text
That was more than a year ago and I still can't get over her, she was the first and obly person so far with wich I had a real emotional bound. She was the first person I truly loved and she broke me.
Since then I feel like shit all the time.
>>700430319
You love more and more things everyday. So many more things to learn and love. Go find something to love right now. So many cats out there. Pretty girls. Good books. Flowers to smell. Beauty in all the most obvious places. More and more. Never less. That doesn't make any sense see?
>>700429739
Con'td
>Have a few drinks a home from time to time when parents aren't there
>Tequila, Vodka, Whiskey, Rhum
>Start drinking rhum every Thursday because I start School at 10 am on Thursday
>Start drinking before going to bed
>Can't sleep when I haven't had enough
>More angry and pessimistic
>Lose most of my friends
>Parents think I'm a braindead alcoholic moron
>End of schoolyear
>Spend 2 months at grandparents in the countryside
>Cousin J is here
>Cousin J is a total bro
>Huge comic fan since the eighties
>Always up for a night on the Megadrive
>Always has great life advice
>Helps getting my shit together
>Helping Uncle doing farm work
>Helping cousin J's brother build a shed
>Life tastes good again
>Stop drinking
>For now
>>700431188
Seriously tho, wtf kind of bitch dumps by text anyway. You dodged a fucking bullet man. I had a relationship with a girl for 3 years once, and when she dumped me, it fucking broke me. Tried to kill myself twice, but I can confirm, 16 years on, that it does get better. It just takes fucking forever.
>>700431894
Could you not die because your immortal? JW.
>>700432021
First time my dad found me and stopped me and second time I actually came to my senses just before jumping. But being immortal would work too.
>>700431781
MOAR
>>700431188
I know that feel Anon. You loved her and got fucked. You probably heard those advice a lot of time but try to focus on hobbies, or work, party with your friends, practice a sport, weave dildos or whatever, as long as it keeps your mind occupied. Picking up girls isn't that complicated theoretically, you just have to know the right method, and practice a lot. A fucking lot. And get over your shyness, which is the hardest part.
>>700432338
So you never got through with it. Still a pretty good chance you're immortal and just don't know it yet.
>>700432610
Very true.
>be me
>9yrs old
>Life is going well, smart with good social life
>hot summer day
>take off shirt at house
>parents find a lump in my back
>take me to doctor
>get referred to hospital
>scoliosis
>6 months later get brace to stop it getting worse
>wear brace for 2 year for 23 hours every day
>12 at this point, finally get a date for surgery
>doctors get a reading for the angle of the scoliosis curve
>circa 60 degrees
>doctors cant fix scoliosis completely
>get surgery for about 40 degrees
>arterie collapses on bowel
>stuck in hospital for whole of summer
>given crappy milk feeds for weight gain after surgery and collapsed arterie
>still on them to this day
>barely alive
I give myself about two years before everyone I know goes away. I won't blame them, I wouldn't want to be around me either.
>My attitude is shit (sarcastic, cynical, cold, distant, I voice my opinions disregarding others' feelings, all around a really big piece of shit no one would ever hang around with)
>I'm unsurprisingly still a virgin, but I've basically resigned myself at this point, I'm probably not suited to have sex anyways and my hand has done a pretty good job so far
>I have essentially no real life friends since I keep severing my ties with everyone I meet because I keep moving all the time and (almost) never talk to them again
>I'm probably very hard to approach anyway, since there are more attractive/interesting/happy people out there and my quasi-permanent frown is surely not very engaging (that time I passed my driver's license's theoretical exam the guy who gave the results wondered why I didn't look happy about it)
>Either I don't talk at all (most of the time) or I talk too much (if I can find someone smart enough to converse with)
>I'm not exactly insecure, I'm still somewhat proud of who I am, but let's just say I'm not an alpha male
I know I could fix all this, but this wouldn't be who I really am. I don't want to lie to people to befriend them and then have them go away once they figure out the truth. I'm probably gonna end up working most of the time, eating/sleeping/playing vidya the rest of the time, and end up a miserable husk of a man living comfortably but alone. And I've come to terms with it.
I'm just kind of disappointed I'll never be someone relevant. Nothing more than "that weird guy at work who doesn't do anything and talks to no one". I'll most likely never be a family man. Have a wife. Kids. Watch them grow into decent people. But on the other hand, as a certain anon said : "The world is [my] oyster." I'm just thinking that, while this definitely sounds enjoyable, it'll still leave me as empty as I am today.
>>700432919
continued
>social life has died
>havent even kissed a girl
>awful attitude towards life
>suicidal thoughts
>insecure about body
>bullied in school
>socially awkward/socialphobia
>wondering how long i can keep living like this
>>700432843
That's why I think about killing myself every day. Finally find out I'm immortal. I'm just not 100% sure you know? Like completely sure but you want to be 10000% sure before you do something like that probably.
>>700431781
>Fast forward four years
>Still not alcoholic like before, but drank a bit more than the others
>Broke with 1st gf, amazing girl but suffocating
>2 month after, new gf
>hipsterish girl with short hair, she's super into me
>Seriously, three weeks after knowing her, she asked me why nithing happens between us when we walk bakc to my school each day after lunch
>whythefucknot.gif
>We get together
>HUGE ERROR
>I REPEAT:
>HUGE
>MOTHER
>FUCKING
>ERROR
>bitch is possessive but flirty with other guys and girls while fearing that I might leave her
>We only fuck twice and she does the starfish
>Always startin shit
>Always very convoluted
>Start drinking beer when she calls me
>Beer becomes Vodka
>hellodrunknessmyoldfriend.png
>>700431781
Continue
>>700432919
Pretty sure you can find someone who likes you even though you have scoliosis bro. Just be beautiful.
The walls of my room are Red, Green and Blue
I couldn’t decide when they asked me so I got them all
The ceiling is brilliantly white
Video game characters form like constellations upon its roughness
The carpet is white and a two-toned blue rug is stamped into the middle of the room
Above, a light-fan unit hangs
A frosted glass shell encases the lightbulb
Softening the glow
A few worn clothes are strewn about
My bed lies parallel to a window that takes all my strength to open
When they put me to bed I can’t ever sleep
If I don’t play battle arena with my plush toys
I like to open the blinds and gaze into the starry sky
Every night an orange light struggles through a fog
It seems like the dark mountain is being set ablaze
Lights twinkle on the mountain and I try to look closer
I giggle into my blanky when I realize I’m watching someone watch tv
With a huge grin, lay down in my bed made with fresh sheets and fall asleep
Wake up on my bed with a fuzzy blanket draped over my legs
The fitted sheet is peeling off a corner from repeated use
A headboard and drawn shades block the Sun’s rays from coming through the window
I turn over and glance at the ceiling
Marred by a brown rectangular stain
A poster was there a few years ago
Getting out of bed I step on a mass of clothing and bedding
Another step takes me over a pile of take-out garbage
Stacks of chew tins litter every surface
The scent of wintergreen is offensive and thick like spoiled milk
I don’t even notice the fading of the red wall’s color above me
The other walls have long since been painted over
Tan-beige, blends with the ceiling
I didn’t care to pick a color so they picked for me
Accolades of minor achievement are proudly huddled behind miscellaneous junk
The frosted glass casing has been lost for years
Harsh shadows are cast in all directions
>cont
>>700433966
On the dark mountain
A dying light struggles through a fog
Sitting alone at the peak
Yearning to clear that fog
But unable to do so
That fading light reflects back towards the source
Blinding all else from view
Lonely and discouraged
Fog swarms that light
Until condensation drips to the ground
>>700433956
I do have a tiny group of friends (most of whom have problems) but other than that I'm a social lemon
>>700433668
>Best "friend" (I didn't have lot of friends) goes to sleep at her place because he couldn't stand his parents
>twice
>gf: It's okay, no worries, there's safety distance between us in the bed
>What ?!
>Get internally mad as fuck
>then think: don't doubt of her, she's not a slut
>Oh boy was I wrong
>dead fucking wrong
>Get into arguments with gf
>been together for a month
>don't want to live with her or have children
>tell her again
>She answers me : But if you don't want children, why are we together ?!
>Break up with her one week after that
>the following week, my cellphone rings
>I answer, it's that bitch
>What the fuck does she want ?
>"Anon, I haven't had my period in two weeks."
>>700434215
Just try saying hi to people. Showing your social presence is desirable, sexy, don't care, or you're whatever. Then walk away like you have some important shit to do.
>mfw mom and grandma's from both sides of the family been diagnosed with cancer all in just 3 months
I need some life advice guys and I don't have anyone to ask in real life.
Im 20. I live in a dead end town with my family. They struggle financially and I feel like a burden on them. They don't like me all that much and I don't blame them.
I am really struggling to find a job because there aren't any. It's a known problem in this area.
I decided to start a community college course this September then hopefully go to University in two years. I don't see any other way out.
The thought of staying here for another two years makes me really depressed. I'm not happy. I'm lonely.
What should I do? I just want to get up and leave the country honestly.
>>700434858
Hope treatment goes well. Make sure to be there for both.
>>700435148
appreciate it
>>700433966
>>700434008
Shit Anon, that's beautiful. Did you write anything else ?
im so pathetic guys. i'm learning to play the guitar to impress my best friend while i'm getting cucked by some faggot. learning that sappy love song Grow Old With You by Adam Sandler. almost cry every time i sing it. can't stop playing.
>>700434745
Thanks for advice.
Looks like 4chan isnt all child rapists and murderers
>>700431424
your life is different than than the next. even if we are all constantly learning who says what we're learning is worth loving or upbeat?
>>700433966
>>700434008
I wish I had even an ounce of your creativity and ability to articulate anything properly.
>>700435232
Don't mention it. And if you really do care about both your mum and your nan, you'll really want to make sure you're with them all the way, because if it gets from bad to worse, you'll kick yourself everyday if you realize you weren't there enough.
>>700435421
Well, that ended with moot becominga PC fag.
>>700435287
>>700435547
thank you, that means a lot. i have written some other stuff. taken up poetry as a hobby lately.
A wet man does not fear rain
He smiles despite feeling pain
Invisible knives protrude from the heart
Make sure they don’t twist or be torn apart
Master self directed lying
To keep the fire from dying
An arid desert to keep from crying
With energy to continue trying
A man seduced by forbidden love
Always must brandish a glove
Blinds half drawn, half light shines through
When he speaks the meaning numbers two
A boat floats away untethered to the dock
The captain is crazy, headed straight for a rock
A bird flies away from the flock
With a key to a chest with changing lock
What if a man gave it all away
Trying to clear a cloudy day?
Could you blame him if he lie
In the single ray that shine from the sky?
>>700435106
Are you on unemployment? Save up. When you have savings you have a great control on your life and feel a lot more at ease, a lot less stressful. Get a good apartment. Make friends around you, branch out and make your life what you want, enjoy that shit you little bitch.
I hate you like I hate niggers
>>700435845
So you'd take our cocks up your ass then
>>700435916
I'm not in prison like a nigger, though
>>700435755
You have a black belt in feels, sir. I salute you
>>700436075
>>700435916
>>700435845
I'm glad /b/ still has these meaningful, productive convorsations
>>700435488
There's billions things out there to love for every single person. Facts.
>>700436075
That can be arranged : just run naked on the highway and you'll get in, I promise
>>700436213
Obviously
>>700429314
hey guys, feelz threads are best accompanied by music.
post feelzy jams/artist who make you feel
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJUuDoRZpyU
>>700434726
>What in the holy mother of fuck ?!
>Tell her that I don't care, and to get a pregnancy test
>Then, I go have a few beers
>Later that day
>Phone rings again
>What now ?!
>"Anon, it's friend. I wanted to tell you about something hard but just, directly, so you don't get mad. I'm in a relationship with ex-gf"
>Put phone away
>Laugh nervously for twenty seconds
>Answer him, okay
>This fucker makes me a fucking speech about friendship and girls
>End of call
>Take vodka and bottle of Coke out of fridge
>Have a few glasses before sleep
>Think a bout it after that
>Whelp, I got fucking fucked
>Receive message from fucker
>Call him to tell him to go fuck himself on an army of spiked dilfos forged in Khorne's kingdom
>ex-gf kinda mad after that
>Explain her my top twenty reasons why she should kill herself (You won't believe number 8 !)
>Offer to buy her the rope and the chair
>Don't think about it after that
>>700436439
>Explain her my top twenty reasons why she should kill herself (You won't believe number 8 !)
>Offer to buy her the rope and the chair
Made my night, thanks fam.
>>700435714
I do that sometimes
>>700435755
I envy you, I desperately want to be an artist of some type, to paint, to animate, to write poetry, to sing, to play instruments, but I fucking suck at almost all of those
>>700435755
Holy shit dude, that's really great, it's fucking well-written, emotional and simple at the the same time. It would make great lyrics for a song. Screencapped for posterity.
today is my wedding anniversary. seven years down the shitter as of last night. i waited three years, faithfully while he was locked up for some dumb shit.
he comes home and cheats a year lafer.
i just found out two weeks ago.
tried to give him the chance to straighten up but he can't handle the guilf.
he has been verbzlly and emotionally abusive ever sice he cheated. working his way up to physically abusive I'm sure.
he wanted to. onfess and have it all go away. meanwhile he is still flipping out and trying so hard to share the blame that i can no longer deal.
I'm not an ugly woman at all. I'm fantastic in bed (not bragging just saying).
please talk to me. i need distraction. i did nothing wrong and don't deserve this treatment.
so why?
>>700437119
>inb4 falling for it
we're gonna need tits first off, second, why are you still bothering with him if he's such a problem?
>>700437119
1) tits or gtfo, you know the rule
2)
>so why?
>he was locked up for some dumb shit
well there's your problem hun.
All jokes aside, I think it's time to leave. There are better men out there who'd want and deserve your skills more than him. Make what you will of that.
Otherwise, I guess /b/'ll keep you company.
>>700437119
Our society is shit, everyone is a special snowflake and no one cares about anyone but themselves. Everybody cheats. It is heartbreaking for the maybe 2% of the population left that are loyal and crave a lifelong commitment.
>>700436185
haha too kind too kind
>>700436837
you can do these things if you believe you can! i know that sounds stupid and cliche but its true. keep practicing no matter what and you'll eventually become great.
>>700436974
:') that's really great feedback thank you.
>>700436439
Continue, i like to listen bro
>>700429314
>be me
>trying to find meaning in life
>3 months struggle
>3 months happy
>vicious cycle
>lel.jpg
>>700437359
really? even here? and did you read the part where i said he's my HUSBAND? I took those vows very seriously. look, i came here to talk not show my tits. I'll send through an old pic but I'm at a fucking shelter so you don't get a time stamp. and you should seriously reconsider yoyr life when a woman can't even talk to you w/o showing you her tits first. are you a loser? is this the only way you get ur kicks. I'm not trolling the dick rate thread it's a feels thread asshole. wait for pic. enjoy. then kys
>>700429314
I have no real motivation for living, is like the things whe do, they are useless, the work, the family, everything is like whith no real sense, i haven't got any relacion in years, i never fucked a woman, so that can be a thing, but is a real shit feel
>>700438003
Incoming catfish detected
>>700436650
>>700436650
You're welcome fam, the best is yet to come.
>See her with her bf at gig
>Already at my 3rd pint
>See them look at me
>Look him into the eyes
>And I utter these words of defiance and dignity
>"What's up motherfucker, you took your bitch out for a walk ?"
>Fucker throws his cig in my pint and walks away
>Throw it out of my pint, keep drinking because thou shalt not waste beer
>Spend a chill evening occasionnally flipping them
>Fast forward another week
>In math class
> It's hard and kinda boring
>I never liked vectorial spaces
>Message on phone
>It's bitch
>"Anon, you're gonna be a father. What do you think about calling him(or her) Jules or Lisa"
>Have a litteral brainfuck, heart racing out and huge need to take the most liquid dump of my life
>Ask her if she's sure
>She is
>Next day
>Message from bitch
>It says basically lol jk
>RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
>>700438003
>>700437359
there. i know the rules assholes. you ever wonder why you lonely fucks are all dicks in here?
>>700438304
lool, nice
>>700438304
i am gonna vomit
>>700436249
It must be nice being this optimistic
>I envy you, anon
>>700438304
Sausage tits
>>700438304
You obv don't, Timestamp. Tits.
>>700438003
>you have activated my autism card
Yes, I am a loser, I'm a virgin and every relationship I've been in has only lasted a couple months, and I fear that the current one I'm in at the moment will fail as well. I'm on and off about my plans, I have huge aspirations, but then I look in the mirror and think to myself "look at all of those opportunities you had to be better, Matty boy, what makes you think it's gonna work out this time?"then I go into a spiralling depression for months or years even, then I get to the point where I go and see a doc because I think I'm legit gonna kill myself. Well that's my loser story, but the thing is is that I can almost guarantee that almost anyone who is lurking this thread is a damaged borderline autist who's either too scared or too autistic to try and vent irl. We're all losers her, sugar tits
>>700438304
>>700437359
there's your time stamp.sorry for the sloppy pic. and if you ever get in a real relationship you'll understand. i am done with him. still sucks to be unappreciated
Real answer wanted. Is there a word for the object you've spent your entire life working for?
>>700438749
wow. virgin says what?
>>700438986
21/06/8
pretty old timestamp
>>700439022
Money?
Death?
>>700438986
close
Once I was able to see through the looking glass
Faraway images had great clarity
My chest would swell
My eyes shone
My cheeks would flush
Until my sweaty fingers dropped the telescope
Now I am here with a glue stick
Pasting shards together
My knees are raw
I want to put my hands over my ears
And scream
Or live in an endless dream
Soon I will be like a cloud
Taken wherever the wind carries me
I hope that I should be filled
So that my rain will touch the hearts of strangers
And once I’ve given all I have
Live forever in the Sea
>>700439022
Happiness
>>700438986
I was in a real relationship, she is going to die in a few months, and there is nothing I can do about it.
If you are done, be done, wrap it all up and get it over with. Don't get dragged down by it.
>>700438531
Just go pet a cat and tell me life ain't beautiful. Be beautiful, make beautiful things, have a beautiful life. Everyone's out here making this stuff happen you see. It's work, love. It's easy to be depressed. It's what happens when you're not working at making your life everything it can be.
>>700438250
NEXT.
>She won't get away with this
>Oh no she won't
>Things start to sour a bit between her and the other jerk
>But I knew that a lot later
>Fast forward a few days
>Message from bitch again
>Expect her to tell me that her vagina is haunted or that nazis from space stole her imaginary baby
>And then I lay my eyes upon the illustration to the Oxford definition of tl;dr
>A fucking China wall of text explaining me she's really pregnant, that she's gonna keep it and I'll have to face what I've done
>Spend the rest of the day searching the secret country where all the dindu fathers have fucked off
>Don't find it, settle for Siberian penitentiary
>But
>Search somthing in my pocket
>pack of condoms
>Wait, what
>Remember when I fucked bitch
>Always had my preservatives
>Never fucked her without a condom
>tell her
>"You can't do paternity tests, anon".
>Sheeeeeiit
>>700438899
exactly. which is why the insults don't hurt me. my self estem is just fine. merely venting. i don't need the approval of people on the interney. and my "sausage tits" get me plenty of attention. shit most of you would love to have mine or any other tits. now that you know I'm female you can suck my aweful tits! oh lols! you guys are something else. but i still love it here.
>>700439225
sorry. i had to write backward and obviously fucked it up. autistic retard. remember?
pretty sure you can figure it out
>>700432919
>Circa Survived
I lost mate
>>700439746
When I die I want to be able to follow you around and watch as your life progress into either a successful one or something like mine
>>700440026
or you another /b/,or you just fucking retarded and think everyone is dumb like an american
>>700439556
wow. now that's what i call perspective. thank you.
and for what it's worth i am genuinely sorry to hear that.
>>700439806
chill down sugar tits, I'm not insulting you, I was simply following guidelines, which happen to include your tits.
also, my self esteem is fine, I think, it's a motivation thing because shit for me keeps going wrong despite the effort I put into it.
Every week I go to the nearby lake and just sit there for a few hours staring at the water. It's probably not healthy but whatever.
>>700440260
wow. i really feel sorry for both you, and any idiot that would troll hete. but you have succeeded in making me feel better. i may have wasted seven years of my life but at least i have two beautiful girls now. and at least I'm not as retarded as you
>>700440231
When you see me naked will you watch my eyes and soul, or just my phlacid dick?
>>700440694
Your ass
>>700440292
hey hey i get it. i didn't want to and it took two seperate pics but i delivered. i always do when asked. I'm on here a lot. I'm also kinda salty at the moment. being screwed over isn't nearly as fun as getting screwed. ya know?
>>700432971
The world IS your oyster. So dont say bad stuff about yourself. The intelligence you have makes you recognize the bad factors of yourself, so instead instill good ones you can focus on. Help people on the street, do some good shit in the world to make your impact.
Shittier people who do a lot worse stuff and have a lot worse personalities have people gravitate to them because they are too stupid to think about how what they do is negative. That gives them confidence in themselves which attracts people. So use your intelligence to do more good, you'll have a more positive outlook and people will gravitate towards you more. You'll also be less cold and cynical, or at least hilariously cynical which people will understand you're just trying to be sickly funny.
>>700440512
why wouldn't that be healthy? unless you're remembering all the bodues you dropped there
>>700438986
Mmmmm, ginger
>>700440767
I'd watch you watching me. It'd be hot or something.
>>700439773
continuation please
>>700440292
btw.... sugar tit? better than saysage tits but is that like your thing? sugar tits? you're silly matty
>>700441018
>tfw don't know because I've never been screwed irl
>>700440267
She had the same issue, and stuck with an abusive ex for far to long. It took me the better part of 3 years to ease those scars, they run deep.
Don't. Stay put. If you are truly done, GTFO, before you get damaged too.
>>700441142
I'll neither confirm nor deny that there are bodies in the lake.
A compact room was lit by candlelight
Music oozed through the walls
Many people chatted merrily inside
It was warm and cozy
The talking stopped and people left
Music pushed through the walls
The compact room was softly lit
It was warm and cozy
Music reached through the walls
Voices were heard but not seen
Candlelight covered the vacuum
It was warm and cozy
The candles die out
The music is paused
Voices smile crookedly and argue
I sit on a stone floor
Clutching my knees in a dark cavern
With a cold blank stare into oblivion
I smile and laugh
It is warm and cozy
It is warm and cozy
It is warm and cozy
>>700441294
yup. and i have no sole. i suck the soles out of lonely men i meet on 4chan. so.... you got a sole?
>>700441112
Mighty sorry about those missed quads there. And yeah, I was thinking of doing something along those lines. So at least, even if my life stays shitty, others' might improve. And at that point, that's the best I'll get. Knowing someone's doing better thanks to me will make me depressed but content in the knowledge they're happier now.
>>700437119
Not everything works out, I'm sorry.
Stay away from jail time guys. You deserve better. I know love makes you want to stay with someone, to help to see them the best they can be. But no one will be the best they can if they are not willing to work towards it with you. He's dirt. Wash your hands clean of him.
You're strong for trying with him for so long.
Also, show pussy
>>700441454
I'm a silly guy
I could honestly go on about how I go from charasmatic and silly all the time to serious and short-tempered which always fucks me over but this thread is giving me a whimsical feel that I'm gonna savour
Like a girl, she may like me back, can't help but feel sick to my stomach and full of self-doubt. I had honestly thought I'd grown past this.
>>700439773
continue, pls
>>700441582
i won't go back. i don't want to become damaged anymore than i already am. i was already carrying around trust issues before this
>>700439773
Con'td again, last part of this fuckery
>I get madder than an Isis member unable to find his goat
>I lose my shit
>I get myself together
>What does she love
>Children
>Folder of child gore I gathered from rekt thread on my favorite asshole pf the internet
>Send them all to her.
>One
>By
>One.
>Get outraged message from her
>later fuckhead tells me that I harass her and I gonna have to be Jamal's fleshlight in prison
>Topkek
>End of the schoolyear
>Asshole dropped out of my school
>They broke up
>Get again wall of text so shitty that mexicans could pass right through it.
>Long story short, it said that I was her friend and her lover, she's gonna abort all alone and I'm a monster for not supporting her in this situation, I'm worse than Hitler
>It makes me feel all watm and cozy, and brings me a huge smile.
>Answer "Ok. Have a good day :)"
>feelsgood.pepe
>learn later from a friend what I've been suspecting, she got knocked up by fuckhead when I was still with her, and she wanted me to take care of baby with her
>Today she has fucked off to bumfuck nowhere
>And the dude is a crusty punk wrtiing self aggrandizing articles on a shit blog
>I won. Against them.
>I couldn't see my worst enemy.
And that's where we get to the feely part anons.
>>700441860
okay
>>700441454
I just now realised that I've used sugar tits more than once in this thread, this lack of variation is gonna kill me.
I guess I ought to either get used to sugar tits or mix it up.
>>700441611
Holy shit.
>>700442133
once again sorry no stamp but its my pussy and that's more than anyone else is getting!
>>700442333
i like it
>>700441671
Naw, helping people should give you the warm feelies inside. It also attracts other people who wish to help people to you. You will have beautiful moments with people, and you'll also grow bonds with people.
I actually made a deal with myself after battling with depression and suicide. Help 10000 people, or save 10 lives and I can kill myself after if I still felt like it.
Hundreds of people and 2 saved lives later, I don't really feel like it anymore. Just wanna see the bigger impact I can make in the world for the better.
Chin up mate, peace work is the most fulfilling but hardest shit in life. But then again, when does such beneficial stuff come easy?
>>700432971
Nobody replied to you and I feel bad because I can relate, so here's my advice:
>the self is an absurd concept created by by the single perspective of life. The only person you are your "self" to is you.
>there's a difference between trying to be someone else and trying to be the best version of yourself.
>humans are creatures of habit; however you want to be, make a habit of thinking in those terms.
>you're also one human among many, don't devalue another person's opinion just because it's not your own. People just wanna feel accepted.
Don't mitigate your own potential by relegating yourself to the person you were in the past, and move forward into the future aware of all the possibilities.
Also:
>take hallucinogens
>>700442474
I think I'm going to namefag as the "Whimsical sweet teet'
>>700442133
Wow, I didn't think you'd actually do it.
>>700441875
you sound like me. and double the whimsical feel.
>>700442674
why not? I'm having fun now. you deserve it. also, he trolls here all the time and he would throw a shit fit if he saw that
>>700431188
>>700442670
oh wow! toppest of keks to you
>>700433657
I have a theory that we are all immortal. All of the people we meet are mortal, but for our timelines, we always narrowly escape and at the end of our lives, the eternal goal of achieving human immortality ends up succeeding somehow for us and we live forever. And this occurs for different timelines for every person.
>>700441875
I'm exactly like this too man. Feels.
>>700442928
Eh, I was ending it as a little counter balance to giving advice, like a little stupid humour at the end.
He should be livid if he's lurking. Honestly, if someone stuck through my shit that far I would be off my rocker not to treat them right. My stepmother helped my father off his feet after getting out of jail a drug addict, he had the option to change his ways and he started making a big impact in the world because of it. You offered him a lot, he turned it away.
His loss, stay strong, and sharpie in the pooper.
No guys golden, but theres sterling silver somewhere for you.
>>700434858
Prayers out to ya mate
>>700443369
please oh please can i get some of what you're on?
>>700437119
Why is it that women forget how to spell when they are angry
>>700443581
God doesnt' answer prayers, but science does.
>>700443669
prozac?
>>700442083
heyy, that's pretty good
>>700442083
Next ep: The Worse Awaken
>Get back with first gf
>It's not too bad
>Have a fun summer
>yippee
>But I'm my own worst enemy
>School year is fucking hard. Friends and my not-too-bad gf, but still not talking a lot
>Still with strict parents and extremely stubborn mother
>Still drinking
>2 or three pints 4 times a week always at the same empty bar but there's a guitar and owner is cool
>Fuck up more and more
>School gets even harder
>Mother often furious because I reek of beer when I come home
>gf mad at me because I always drink more than her
>It's our "two-year anniversary"
>i.e. we got together and passed one year, broke up, bitch saga and then another year with her
>I'm half an hour late
>piss drunk (it's friday)
>And she is fucking furious.
>>700443749
Most retarded shit I've seen.
>>700443369
I have a similar theory, but instead of being immortal we all just begin our lives over again. Living, dying, and reincarnating as ourselves on different timelines, but each one overlapping with each other in such a way that we're only ever aware of one version of everyone we meet. That's where things like deja vu, gut feelings, and natural instincts comes from. Life is one giant learning experience meant to prep souls to ascend to a state of personal godhood.
grandma had a heart attack, no money, car broke down and had to be donated, the depression meds aren't working
and on top of that they're putting down my puppy that I've had since I was 8.
Life fucking sucks
>>700443369
I always imagined that those times you narrowly escape death are the times you end up dying in another person's reality, but in your reality you have to go through all your life, which is your judgement to what you become in the next life. You see people die, your universe becomes separate from others, and this is where multiverse comes into play.
I've also imagined that the whole human race is just an entity split into billions of separate, smaller pieces because it got bored of existing by itself. This split in turn destroyed it's memory into a collective, sub conscious.
at least youre not this guy
>>700443797
That shit's fucking awful.
I don't really want to explain more than I want to cry about how I can't.
>>700444226
what, you don't have a mirror?
>>700444269
ya exactly
>>700442489
I know it should, but it just makes me realize how hypocritical I am. I can't even help myself. "Help yourself before you help others" or however it goes. I guess I'm repressing an inner desire of being helped by someone else because it's become very evident that I won't be able to do it myself.
>am... am I tsundere? Oh god, where's the bleach
I'll gladly help others. But it's not gonna be for myself. It's gonna be for them and them alone.
>>700442642
>there's a difference between trying to be someone else and trying to be the best version of yourself.
The best version of myself is someone else. I know that sounds generic and stupid and attention-whoring, but I have tried to better myself and I just ended up realizing how unlike me that was. I felt fake. Emptier than I was before. So I am me. Shitty, but whole. And like I said, I've come to terms with that.
>take hallucinogens
I'm the whitest of the whites. I'm not cool enough for drugs. So no thanks.
I have this theory about this commercial. Moot has left us in return for immortality from Google. He gets younger and younger and I have seen the same kid on the commercials for a while now. I miss moot
>>700443577
thanks. and congrats.nthats the first sharpie in the pooper I've gotten. something the ex warned me about.
i know there's better. and you are right. nobody is golden. part of our problem was that he fucked up so muvh and so badly that i looked golden by comparison. at leadt in his eyes and he resented the shit out of me for it. he has serious issues with accepting responsibility.
>>700444325
didn't really work for me. I had to get out of my hellhole of a school before I could go a day without wanting to kill myself
>>700444540
Shit, are you me?
>>700443703
omg i know. oh dragon ball is on! yay!
>>700444096
Go on
>>700444739
I mean im not a faggot so probably not
>>700442727
Describe yourself exactly, I'm curious
I have a story that could put me into perspective, but only if the anons are interested
>>700443797
yeah. i am supposed to be on something else
>>700441969
Good. Make that a promise to yourself, and keep it close, because the temptation will be there.
Serious discussion now over with, moar pictures? =d
I chose the bottle over the love of my life. She waited up all night for me so many times, when I lied about where I was. She held my head up in the tub as I lay trembling with alcoholic chills. When everyone else tried to knock me down, she stood by me in defense. I kept pushing her limits and eventually pushed her into another dude's arms, by being unfaithful and selfish. I didn't learn my lesson after her, and sabotaged 4 or 5 other relationships through my indulgences, but I am not gonna make the same mistakes with the newest girl I'm seeing. Weening myself off the liquor and learning to be a one-woman man.
>>700443506
It's a bad feel when you know you have the power, but no way of knowing how to wield it
>>700443070
memes be with you
>>700444967
honestl looking at that picture of that little syrian kid omran does more for me than 2 years of therapy
>>700444325
I've been off it for two years. The fluoride complacency chemical has permanently scarred me after taking it for 3 years in combination with adderall and Xanax while heavily smoking and drinking. Currently 18
>feelsbadman
I blame it all on the Prozac for making me want to kill myself and need an escape.
Currently off all mess just smoke weed every day and occasionally drink with older friends that are 27
I made it out on my own through getting kicked out of schools and a sting of programs and rehab.
working 7 days a week.
Kind of want to mill myself again.
Guess we will see what happens.
>>700443833
Thank you anon. But this part isn't gonnabbe funny
>She's beautiful
>Black dress, no bra, red wine on the table
>Delicious dishes
>And I'm late and piss-drunk
>The next hour or so is a wihirlwind of insults, belittlement, screams and cry coming from her
>I say no word, I'm in my alcohol-crafted mental fortress, invulnerable to words, emotions and reality itself
>She leaves and go have a drink with her friends.
>I stay there
>And I have a terrible idea
>I start eating what she made
>I always have bad ideas while drunk
>And go to sleep
> Be me
> Have female childhood friend
> Since we were young both liked each other
> We dated a few times and it never ended well
> I was told by everyone that I did quite well and was good boyfriend
> She didn't care, she still lied cheated etc.
> Ended up giving far too many chances and eventually got hurt far too many times
> One time even caught her making out with another guy then continued to do so in front of me
Cont. ?
Hopefully my idiocy can amuse you /b/ros
>>700444436
The whole help yourself so you can help others is a little lie imo. People often not stop helping others and only help themselves as they realize it's a quick fix and gives them more of an advantage in a world where many people already only do that.
Thing is, society can't help you unless you help society. It's same thing when you do the opposite, commit a crime and society punishes you. Plus people become less willing to help others in a crime filled world.
By all means, help yourself a little. It does aid you in contributing to society. But there's stuff that helps you while helping society, like working hard at your job or talking to someone like how I am talking to you right now. I'm being supportive of you, but also giving myself a good mentality and a psychological go through.
Well either way, I'm getting redundant at this point. You have potential mate, tap in to it. Both for your benefit and the benefit of others. There's people out there willing to help, so spread the love. A ripple effect works the same for kindness as it does hate.
>>700445559
she's a faggot leave her. Just because you know her better than anyone else doesn't mean she's good for you
>>700445559
Go for it !
>>700442083
CONTINUE NOW YOU SLUT
>>700444439
well, first of all, you need to back up a minute. I sadly understand how it is. I am in no way an unattractive person. Just a bit of an introvert. Becoming self aware can be a good thing if it gives you an opportunity to be reflective and gain perspective. however you can't forget that these women are attracted to you for a reason. I have limited experience with you, but your personality seems quite nice and enjoyable. I know that I manage to keep it fun and free until a person shows interest. then i fall apart as well. i suggest taking it slow and being honest early on when you feel yourself losing it. women can be surprisingly understanding and compassionate.
as for myself, i throw too much of myself into a relationship and inevitably end up getting hurt. i have ample opportunity. like i said, I'm not a bad looking chick. its just that i usually pick the wrong guy
>>700444949
exactly? like what do you mean? and we wanna hear your story
>>700445755
Thanks yeah I agree and I eventually did but after a fuck ton of bullshit
> So I find out that she has personallity disorder
> Explains a lot, apparently she loves to get any attention bad or good
> After catching her doing that shit (I.e. making out with the other guy and her continuing) I decided I didn't want anything to do with her
> Be me, a fucking idiot
> She apologized and I take her back stupidly.
> We ended up having a real relationship this time
> Kissing intimacy caring... Momentarily.
> "Hey at least we get to fuck"
> Immediately regrets thinking that shit
> Accused me of rape.
> Decided that was enough
> Ended the relationship after that plus a bunch more like her treating me like shit and even my "friends" (like 1) were concerned.
Cont.
>>700445012
>>700444509
First sharpie in pooper, but you ain't given me my first sharpie in the pooper. ;)
It sounds like he's the type of person who wishes to be better, but won't work towards it and will instead hate on those who try to better themselves. Lash out at them for lending a hand due to a certain amount of set pride.
Basically what you said, but yeah again, you can't help him if he doesn't truly wish to work to get better. It's the same thing with addicts. You can't force them to quit, you can show them the problems and go blue in the face but they can not quit until they genuinely wish to. It's sad, but there's not much you can do. You shit gold in comparison and they want you to be under them. To feel like they are at least above someone.
My apologies that you've dedicated so much time to someone who wasn't ready, but at least it will give you insight on finding someone who wants to stand level ground to you. Maybe this will give him the insight to change as well.
Who knows. Anyway, I wish you the best.
>>700444436
>>700442642
The Beatles were whiter than you'll ever be and they did approximately all the drugs. Just saying, hallucinogens can help you expand your mind and be able to differentiate the way you view the world. They were deemed a drug long ago by people who didn't understand them, and ignorant pride has kept a legal stranglehold on medicines that can legitimately help people.
The you that you feel like you need to adhere to is the result of a lifetime of cumulative experiences taken from a single point of view. Our brains are really good at finding patterns, and the "self" that you you identify with is the resulting pattern drawn from those experiences. It's hard to describe in words an undestranding that needs to be felt, but I did my best.
>>700445012
one moar
>>700446646
spank it
>>700446646
Oh, yes please. That is a sweet, sweet ass.
>>700446579
> Next part of my idiocy don't worry /b/ros it gets more pathetic
> Decide to go hang out with friend outside to get coffee and talk about shit
> Friend gets distracted by his old acquaintance
> Decide "hey that'll make me feel better I'll try to get affection from the acquaintance"
> Tries to kiss out of nowhere she almost slaps me
As I'm writing that I'm actually laughing it's so stupid
> She starts to walk away seeming so disturbed
> "Friend" decides to go after her than stay with me
> Walks home alone feeling like shit.
>>700446646
>>700446822
why r u still whoring yourself? u were all like nuh-uh tits or gtfo is gay in the beginning
>>700446712
thanx. and i gave you a shot of my pooper (kinda) but sadly i am at a women's shelter and there are twenty other women here but no sharpie! maybe next time
>>700446197
How honest can I be, I met her on omegle under the depressed tag, I told her the day I met her how my mental issues have led to me to the point becoming violent with others.
I thought of formulating some kind of scenario where she would have to ask me what's going on, then at that point I would basically type off a script to explain the situation. I guess the honest truth is that every time I get into a relationship, I just don't know when to admit "I have feelings for you, and I want to progress" Or something along these lines, essentially, I'm a great friend, but horrible lover.
Also, if you're the same chick throwing nudes out here and there, you're a damn good looking chick, and sorry about the situation
>>700447075
thanks! and i sure hope i find someone to spank it soon! i have a hard time finding partners extreme enough to satisfy me. i know women say that but most are all talk. i genuinely love the rough stuff so it gets a little lonely.
>>700447405
Eh, was worth a shot. Things will get better. Just wait, you'll have to put in a little extra work but it. Will. Get. Better.
Take care luv.
>>700447267
> Hilarity ensues
> Text "friend" like what the fuck you ditch me for someone you don't even know?
> Starts going off about how I'm the asshole and that it doesn't matter if I'm dealing with shit
> I mean I was kinda the asshole but still
> Apparently when I talked to him in person the next week he wasn't typing it was the girl.
> Obviously lying
> He has IQ of a fucking Squirrel
> Still gets more girls than me
> Fyi I got the whole one
Still fucking funny
> Decide hey, friends with a shit person is better than being alone
> End up realizing maybe not.
Cont?
>>700446078
BUY A FUCKING PAIR OF GLASSES CUNT, IT'S HERE
>>700444096
>>700445264
>>700444096
>gf comes back
>Wake me up
>Wake me up inside
>(CAN'T WAKE UP)
>godwhathaveIdone.tif
>Screams start again
>Throws me a blanket and I sleep on the couch
>It got better after that
>I stopped drinking when I see her.
>Only when I see her.
>Be me
>Now
>Have a paid internship
>Alone for the first time in a month
>Go to work
>Eat
>Back to work
>Come back from work
>Go to bar
>Get drunk calmly and discretely
>Go home piss-drunk
>Fap
>4chan
>sleep
>Rinse and repeat everyday since the beginning of this month.
>Parents back tomorrow
>Don't wanna see them nor go home with them.
>And it makes me fear when they'll find out about it.
IThis was my story, Anons. Thanks for reading it.
>>700447346
hey i said it's a bit much for a feels thread. and i don't see anyone giving me shit for those pics. girls just wanna have fun. I'm unattached for the first time in over seven years. so what if i decided to loosen up and have some fun? you don't like? you don't look.
>>700446822
Thank you. I seem to be enjoying these.
>>700448113
I came, thanks
>>700447593
Is it weird if I'm still taking to a girl I met on omegle 3 years ago without ever actually meeting her?
>>700448078
SEND A PIC OF YOUR DICK YOU WHORE
>>700447593
i am. and thank you.
seems like you need to figure out why. I have had a lot of guy friends like th9. they are always the ones that throw themselves the hardest into a relationship when they finally say fuck it and give it a try. they also hurt the most when it doesn't work out.
one punch man! love it!
>>700447789
thanks you too
>>700447744
wow you're quite the little bitchy cunt aren't you
>>700448419
np? you made my night!
>>700448760
well....
>>700448527
Do you guys talk anywhere else besides Omegle? If you talk outside of Omegle, I would say it's more like a friendship, and there's noting weird about that at all.
>>700447895
> Alone for months "friend" decided to only come over when he knows that we get takeout or whatever
> Always apologizes for not coming over as often
> Whatever
> Basically alone
> Decide to message a girl I used to have a crush on
> Was too beta to talk before, gained confidence over time
> I was a Social anxiety depression faggot
> So I message out of the blue y'know the usual shit
> Talks for a while (like a couple days) before telling her I used to have a crush on her
> She says she's flattered but doesn't want to date anyone at the moment
> Ends up asking her to the movies
> She says yeah sure
> Go to movies
> It seemed like she liked me so afterwards I tried to kiss her
> Fucking moron
> She gets all awkward
> I apologize and try to just end it there
> She ends up asking me back to the car to talk about it
> Alright...
> Basically tells me she doesn't want any of that. Not sure why she does but she does.
> Pretty sure it's just me.
Cont?
>>700448760
if you want me to simmer down then play nice. kitty got claws but i can be quite nice too.
>>700449424
Dude, do you always go in for a kiss so early in the game? Most girls don't like that you know?
>>700449424
go on
>>700449475
You have a few assets that are quite nice if you don't mind me saying.
>>700449475
nah you're the kinda person who would block someone on fb for not texting her back
>>700449424
> Realized I either have shit luck, bad with girls, or am really unattractive
> I don't think I'm bad with girls, but it's usually the case with people who think that
> I don't look /that/ bad, still kinda unattractive
> "Oh well"
> Attempts to move on
> 5 months later of being alone
> Ex texts me
> I'm so sorry, one more try, etc.
> Stopped listening
> I tell her that what she did over all the years was unforgivable
> She agrees
> Claims she's changed
> I say fine, tell me in fucking person how you're gonna bs your way back into my life.
Cont.
>>700449765
thanks
>>700446417
Well, it can go like this, I tell a story to sum myself up, and you do the same.
I'll tell a story about my first crush, and for years after these events transpired, my obsession, my eleven fourty three
back in my middleschool/highschool days
>it's like 8th grade
>be youngfuck, there's this girl, she hangs out with the "gamer girl" types, but it's obviously not her crowd and she's stuck with them
>the year progresses, and she starts to hang out with one person in particular, which reminds me of myself when I was in 7th grade, had no real friends up until that year, this is when I start to take notice of her, one problem, her bf. year keeps on trucking along, and eventually we end up in a class together, and then the stars align, she breaks up with her boyfriend, not that she wanted to though, he moved, and their parents didn't like each other I don't think, but anyways, we were both the akward kids, didn't really share hobbies with other people, we naturally drifted to each other, I was a great friend, up until the point where I had to think about being a lover ( I know this sounds retarded, it's 8th grade drama, but it's still a great representation of me ) She told me before getting on the bus one day, "matt, I think you're kinda cute" I know it sounds wrong, but I don't feel like I aged a day since, that gaze is haunting, maybe it's the fact that it was the first time someone had ever told me I was attractive, who knows, I told her in a quiet, flattered type of voice "I think you're cute too" I know this sounds retarded, but what matters is next: the next day, I find myself in a situation I don't understand, it's like there's this invisible wall that I'm supposed to climb over, and then we're a couple, right? Well, the spaghetti ensued, I shut down for days, realising what I was doing, but I persisted, didn't talk to anyone for very long for a while, then my autism flared will cont, too long
>>700449232
Oh yeah, we moved on to KiK the first night. A year later I told her my real name kek
>>700449772
not so. why? do i know you? I've done that literally once. and i was being an over sensitive bitch. I'll admit to that. but we all have our moments
>>700450254
shit looks like I struck a chord lol chil the fuck out
>>700450254
Aye, don't ya worry yerself now, luv.
>>700450129
while you type the rest I'll start mine. wait for it. it's kinda long but its recent and exactly the incident i just mentioned about the facebook incident
>>700450254
>>700449620
Not usually but the last relationship really took a toll. Not an excuse just shows that I'm too vulnerable.
> We meet up and then we go to a park
> I'm so sorry anon
> I made the biggest mistake of letting you go
> Fine whatever
> She kisses me
> I feel like it shouldn't have happened at the time even
> We talk again and she made me believe she could've possiblely changed
> I was an idiot
> Hasn't changed still personalty disorder as fuck
> Gets in fights (verbally) every night for two weeks
> I show up at her house one day to hang out
> She's in her room
> She looks at me and asks me to lay next to her
> Fine alright
> Starts rubbing against me
> Then stops looks at me and accused me of rape again
> "Fuck it I'm fucking done"
> I leave, she continues to text me about what a shit person i am
> Realized I shouldn't have texted her back that day
> Gtfo of my life
> Stops talking to me, blocks me, etc.
> Fucking done with this bs
> Right up to now and where I'm alone again right back where I was alone.
>>700450791
After all was said and done, after each time kept find out out shit I really wish I didn't.
She was my first time my first kiss
It kinda sucks.
Don't care for her anymore, just want to be able to find someone good.
Eventually I found out she was doing a bunch of really shitty things behind my back
She cheated, used a bunch of drugs took pills, lied to my face about some important stuff, manipulated me, etc.
Not a fun time of my life.
Anyone have any recommendations for songs? Girlfriend of 2 years just broke up with and it feels pretty fuckin bad
>>700451192
People like that are easy to find. They jump from person to person, burning everything until all that is left is to set themselves on fire. You'll meet someone worth your time. You just gotta keep going, as you know. It's shit you've heard before time and time again, but it's true.
The best things in life are always the most difficult to discover. Once you're there, you forget the times you never had it. You live in that moment.
>>700451480
Look up the song "a warm place NIN", it's more of an ambient song, but it's a really feelsy song
>hoping you find someone else anon
>>700451585
Yeah thanks, it's good advice for me personally I would never do anything to hurt myself or kill myself whatever, so I do have to keep going but I agree with what you said. It's been really helpful to talk about it too, you /b/ros are always very helpful
>>700451480
https://youtu.be/toov9fWsSkY
>>700450129
found out the hubby cheated.
I've always been the type ro keep to herself but I have diagnosed mania, so soon after I have a manic episode and say fuck it.
i started taking better care of myself.
guys took notice. usualky i would laugh itvoff but I'm feeling vengeful.
since i had separated from my husband he was still hanging around. trying to find a way to fix shit i guess.
i start spending all tjis time away from home. collecting numbers and attention. anything to make me feel good.
i finally get a guy's number and i like him enough to text him. he texts back. we go pretty strong the first couple days and end up hanging out
i think my personality is a bit much for him. i am realky,nrealky flirty. That is just who i am.
well, he begings igboring my texts. i ask if something is wrong. He says no but he gives me the busy excuse.
i decide that's bullshit. so i tell him off. i block him on fb. well, unfriend him.
i know it's bull on my part. i took my frustration out on him.
worst part is, i kinda started to like the guy.mi was so afraid of rejection that i was a total bitch
i could've been happy being friends.
i wasn't even ready for a relationship.
I'm really a pleasant person. i just get over the top at times and either let it deoress me or i go all manic and flip shit. usually at the most inappropriate times.
>>700450471
I'm good! And you did.
>>700451664
>>700451819
Thanks guys
>>700451664
luv that one
>>700452012
don't worry anon just don't be such a sensitive attention seeking cunt in the future and you'll be happier for it. We've all been there. Being happy with yourself will make you feel better than having other people be happy with you
seriously sometimes i laugh all retarded because i notice my brain failing me more often. it's pretty disheartening but whatever lol.
>>700450129
I just realised how bad I fucked that greentext up, but anyway
>my autism flared
>there was this one chick I knew, not her, some extra in my story, she accidentally left her bag one day, so I decided I'm going to just be nice and give it to her the next day, no biggy, just being polite
>ihavemadeamistake.cmd
>she gets all giddy, I'm still in quiet mode, trying to process how to progress with my crush, but then the chick that I helped out asks ME out
>I don't know how to react, don't want to be rude (this sounds retarded I know) and maybe sub-consciously, my brain told me "this is how you end this war in your head about your crush, take her out of the equation" This is the most retarded part, I didn't know what to do, I was the shy outcast weirdo at the time, and I admittedly don't like hurting people, and the giddy chick I helped out was the "damaged" type, I thought I could maybe cheer her up. Needless to say, this pissed my original crush off
I didn't consider it at the time, I was a bit flustered, but I can't imagine how she must have felt, which is ironic considering she's the last person I wanted to do something like that to.
Worst part is, next year in highschool, after I learned that the giddy girl was a whore and a cheat, 11 43 gave me another chance, and the same thing happened, except, with more awkward silences and moments, and this time I didn't get another gf or anything, in fact, I'm content with the way it ended between me and her, we just drifted apart, awkwardly, sure, but I think that if she thinks back on me, she won't think of a bad person, but a shy one, she surely knew how I felt for her, and if we are as alike as I think we were, then she knows why I did what I did. I find it funny and tragic that the reason I am as charismatic as I am today is all because of her, she brought me to my senses,and that now she won't be able to experience me at my best, I wish I could thank her somehow, haven't seen her for years though.
>>700436439
Well fuck. It just does not stop. Hope you're doing better now with a better girl bro.
>>700452086
https://youtu.be/QHLWGRJwA28
https://youtu.be/1oMtZn2FGEM
https://youtu.be/5vRlJrkxsqo
>>700452360
well that does be the moral of the story. saddest part is that i didn't eben want to do tjat. I actually have ok self esteem. i just let that situation get on top of me before i could get control of myself.
also, i have an actual diagnosed condition fag boy. it makes you act out. just glad my episodes are of the mild variety. people with serious mania do a whole lot worse! i got to get back on my meds!
>>700451925
That fucking sucks
I know that feel, when you rage over knowing there's some bullshit afoot, even though it's just a suspicion.I usually have better control over my actions though, I usually wait until it gets to the point where it's undeniable and I'll confront whoever it is.
>>700438304
Do you have to give yourself a full Nelson to lick your titties
>>700450173
Do you guys sext and all that good stuff? You think there could be a relationship? I mean after 3 years, there has to be something there
My boyfriend finally got his shit together and actually told me we weren't dating any more. He's lead me on for the last couple of months because, for what ever reason, he couldn't bring himself to answer my direct questions. Now every area code meet up thread I go into I see him there trying to meet other people. It just hurts to see him with someone else.
I was hoping for a younger thread but I'll be up all night, I'll just catch the next one.
>>700448527
no, that's commitment, although, you should arrange to meet her eventually.
>>700452755
I'd like to say sorry for referring to my old crush as eleven forty three, it sounds fucked up and is fucked up, I have another story surrounding why I do that, but it's a bit bizarre.
>>700452755
oh wow.
that reminds me of the first time someone had genuine feelings for me. I acted all weird after he told me. I guess maybe that's why i am the way i am at times now. i am charasmatic until you get too close. then i lose my shit.
just see my stupidity in my story.
>>700451925
>>700429314
bumpin
>be me, 19 with lil bro, 12
>bro has aspergers, not that many friends
>no really close ones but he's on the 7th grade football team so he might make some this year
>he got really excited when one of his friends invited him to see suicide squad
>we ate lunch and it's all he would talk about
>fast forward to 7:00, almost showtime. I'm sitting there in the parking lot, he's in the front seat
>his phone beeps
>text from his "friend": hey man, i can't go
>his face goes from a smile to an indescribable disappointment
>"What's up?" i ask
>"He can't come."
>"Ask him why. It's gotta be a good reason, nothing much happens on saturdays"
>he types on his phone and sends it
>about 30 seconds later it comes back: "I just can't go."
>I see the movie with him and he's dead silent and doesn't laugh or cheer at anything
>i come home and he goes to his room and locks it, it's been dead silent for three hours except for him crying
He's ignorant and doesn't know he has aspergers, so he just thinks he got stood up for no reason, but I just fucking know he stood him up because he's on the spectrum. He used to get in fights but he's been doing really good and he got held back so he could be with his age group but the kids treat him like shit just the same. How can i comfort him?
>>700438304
anon the attention whore
>be me the other week
>held a secret of me being abused and molested by my best friend (at the time) from my mother, who is my hero
>tell her the other day, and we open up to each other after a huge argument before telling her this secret
>we are days away from moving
>whole family not including little sis is all bitter with each other
>I feel like things are severely changed in the course of just today and the general vibe because of said "fights" and arguments
>just want to move out asap now before shit hits the fan
>don't want to do this to them in such a shit time but could set up the opportunity
>hate myself again horribly, after just convincing myself it's not worth hating myself anymore after years of silence now being broken
>immediately feel back to where I started and feel alienated and distant
>want to die
>>700453612
If your boyfriend is out in area code threads trying to hook up, he's a total loser and you deserve better. You think you were waiting for him to not want you anymore, but you actually knew you no longer really wanted him anymore cause that shits whack. It hurts to lose someone, but come on. A guy on /b/ out meeting random as fuck /b/ tards? Thats kinda... Bleh
Also, post penis.
>>700453022
Appreciate it.
>>700453365
to be fair I usually do too. like I said, i had an episode. i go into superman mode and become the center of my own little universe. gotta get back on meds because i hate myself when I'm like that.
that's kinda another reason why i stay to myself a lot too though. i watch and analyze everything before i even join the conversation or situation
>>700453581
?
uhhhh no
>>700453869
poor little guy.... unfortunately, he'd probably have to get used to this. What a scummy little shit that kid is
>>700453869
Might have been a girl that he built up the confidence to ask to the movies.
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>>700454190
srsly this guy's a faggot and not the okay chill gay kind
>>700453887
now now.
>>700448078
damn, that's rough.. i'd consider rehab anon.
>>700451480
Megadeth - In My Darkest Hour / Megadeth - A Tout Le Mond
>>700448078
Ty Anon
>>700454190
I really don't want to post myself. It's really flabby down there and generally unattractive.
He's not really into casual hook ups but that doesn't really change anything, he's still trying to find someone else.
No, I still want him, he's still a great guy even though he doesn't want me any more.
I just want this pain to go away. I can't even fap
>>700455085
dude if you're gay you can get all the amazing guys seriously you don't need to settle
>>700439773
dindu fathers hahah
>>700455212
and if he doesn't like you now, he never will. Dump his ass
>>700453760
Yeah, I guess that's just the problem, closeness
On another note, I sent a simple "hey" message to that girl I'm talking to, I haven't got a response, she uses skype her profile didn't go online once today, and she's a busy person, she could just be busy, but the day before, I told her I had to go for a bit, just a heads up so she'd know why I wasn't responding, it was super late, and when we were talking she was in bed, and when I got back she didn't respond to my messages, I waited for a bit, it said she was away, so I told her that I assumed she was passed out, and I told her the usual goodnight, sweetdreams and such, and I went off.
I hope that she hasn't noticed my off behaviour, sometimes I feel like she's sizing me up and waiting for a sorry message for assuming she was asleep. I'm gonna try and message her tomorrow. I'm gonna go mania like you, I feel like there's something up and I'm gonna go off.
breath in
1 2 3 4
exhale
and repeat
>>700455041
>>700448078
Buckethead - Soothsayer
>>700453596
Yeah, I literally have hundreds of photos of her. I had to delete some awhile ago tho because they were technically cheese pizza. There's definitely something there, but it's a fantasy versus reality thing. We're both people pleasers so it's hard to tell how much of what we say to each other is bullshit versus things that are actually feasibly possible with life circumstances.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YbToYMX6cCg
>>700445559
bumpt
>>700455212
>>700455340
He dumped me. He even asked for me to pay for his ticket to this fucking Tall Ship show in Duluth today (the crowds and the company's foot-traffic control gave me an anxiety attack, I was ready to kill someone). I wouldn't even know we were dating if I didn't absent mindlessly ask him if we were still dating.
When we were leaving, I told him that unless he tells me otherwise I'm going to assume we weren't dating. I don't know why I still drove him to Duluth. I realized that his silence meant we could fuck other people (implying I don't have to pay for it) but the meaning of his silence didn't really sink in until later, at the ticket booth when he explicitly told me.
>>700455805
Already pretty much finished it /b/ro
>>700455085
Don't actually want you to post yourself either. Just jokes.
It hurts, I know. It sucks. It feels like shit. It drags us down and rubs us in the dirt. But it eventually gets better, the pain stops, you think of other stuff, they slip your mind for longer and longer periods of time.
Meeting on the area codes threads is still... Sketchy. Nice guy and all, that's still a little brutal and you'll find someone who's a better match for you. You will love again, you will feel something for someone again. It may take time, these largely take time. But take that time to take time on yourself and take time to take time with the time taken to take more time to be timely taken by time to a new time to take.
But really, time is the ultimate healer. You will make someone smile again, and them you. Theres so many break up stories in this thread, it's hard to find the right person within these billions. But every good moment we have with someone is a moment to cherish, although it may hurt to cherish those moments right now, they will always be special. You helped change someone and they changed you. That truly is special.
So do good and do yourself good. He focuses on meeting people in an area code thread, you focus on making yourself better for other people.
Plus to make that guy jealous as hell that you're all that and more. Amirite?
>>700455597
I know it sounds weird form me to be paranoid over a single un-answered message, but we have been talking almost every day since May 31st, we share each others art, told each other sweet dreams, she showed me her tits, and was okay with the fact I can't return the favour with a dickpic (phone got fucked).
Something feels off, I think she's noticing me type weirder, maybe, maybe I'm less relaxed, who knows, could just be paranoid
>>700453869
unfortunatly, childrens and teenagers are typically huge motherfuckers
I injured my arm and lost a lot of my muscle mass. Now I look thin and weak and not confident enough to talk to girls.
