Feels thread.
Why are you sad, anon?
Because my girlfriend left me after I joined the Army, and in the back of my mind I knew it was going to happen.
I'm a fat bitch with no motivation.
>>699631379
I'm sad because noone understands my cosplay
i'm almost 30 and i have no real accomplishments to show for it.
Ruined my friendship with my best friend. Sucks dick.
Post sad pictures.
I feel like crying tonight.
>>699631379
Lost my job about two months. Still looking for work. Being on unemployment is a mediocre lifestyle.
>>699632625
That's why I lost my buddy. We worked together. We were already having a bit if a falling out. Boss didn't think he was doing a good job and fired him. Buddy thought I got him fired. Now he wants nothing to do with me. I miss that fucker.
>>699632625
You'll get back on your feet. Look for work in places you wouldn't expect and you'll find a lot more, possibly even more fulfilling, opportunities.
https://youtu.be/UzqNkIkj3rE
This place is so beautiful. I love you, guys. Even if I'm alone, I'm not, nor are you. We are all alone, but we're here for eachother.
>>699633174
Sorry to hear that. That really sucks anon.
I'm fucking useless at getting my shit together, haven't done essential shot for my aecond year of uni that starts in a month
The guy I'm seeing (am faget, or at least part time faget) doesn't reply to messages for hours and yet seems interested and comfortable with me in person and I'm fucking confused and a little worried because this is the first serious shot at a relationship I've had since I was 16, I'm 19 at the moment
Fuck, it's half eleven and I'm listening to feelsy music, maybe that's why.
I'll be fine in the morning
>>699633387
Thanks anon. I sure hope so. Just gotta have faith.
My lack of self-confidence is slowly devouring me. I keep thinking that i should improve it but i always end up ignoring it. Its like i have accepted it.
Its been going on for a while now and i become more sad as the days fly by...
>>699631379
Gf left me
Knew her all my life.
Im so sorry I pushed you away.
I was so angry at the circumstances and conditions. That I let it get the best of me.
I only fought for what I felt was right and wanted to see you happy.
I felt like ever since we got together all the world wanted to do was rip us apart. And it did.
The day that you left me I woke up and it felt like a spell was broken. And I could see everything I did wrong.
All life time of memories now meaningless.
>pic related
i tried to figure out why would people enjoy my presence? what can i give them? i mean im no different from other people
why would a person spend time with me, just me? why should i take that time experience off that person? girl or friend, whatever?
im nothing, nothing moar than others
i dont know why people and parents even bother being angry or lovely to me
im lonely, i have nothing but my body, a little cute one, and my words, which are the meaningless sound of my head
everynight i wish i just fall asleep and vanish
>>699635744
sad dubs
Anyone has the "you are important/we love you anon" kind of pasta? It gives me a reason to feel better.
I am not able to express my emotions seriously without either turning them into fucking jokes or by denying them completely hence I am affraid to open to people for I am scared of them turning away from me when they find out who I actually am and realize I am not as I pretend to be
>>699636530
chills needed
Just sent a message to a girl who wants to catch up with me. Wish me luck.
Today I switched the inner rubber of my bike's front tire and took it for a spin. My foot got wet in a puddle that was a little deeper than I thought. I drank a beer while I watched insects buzzing around a tree, lit up by the setting sun.
The best day I've had in a long time.
Soon I'll be leaving pretty much everyone and everything I know to study on the other side of the country. I'm not sure I know why? Just to do something with my life? I'm sad to leave this place. But I know I have to. I just don't know if I can. I'm scared of this new life waiting for me. I'd much rather just vanish.
>>699631379
I have been looking in all the feel threads recently, I am looking for a pic that always gets to me that I lost a while back. Its a screenshot of many Greentexts describing romantic things that "will never happen to you". It has a pepe staring into a sunset as the pic of the post. Anyone have it?
the other day i posted in one of these threads saying i was going to give blood, and i want to tell you guys how it went
>go to the clinic and sign in
>nurse says hello and offers me some water
>wait 30mins
>go see another nurse and fill out a questionnaire
>then taken to the chair where they take your blood
>nurse looks for a vein
>im a super skelly so she finds it fine
>then frowns, checks again, and tells me my artery is too close to my vein
>checks the other arm
>its the same
>tells me she cant insert the needle and that i might never be able to donate
i managed to fuck up the easiest way to do good in the world. considering suicide.
>>699637760
for you, my friend
dumped after 5 min in the universtity
graduation
she was also my best friend and i loved her so much well she just said ''i m not feeling you like before'' all of a sudden
Because she's on the other side of the world, and we probably will never get to see each other
>>699637605
You have to have the courage to lose sight of the shore to discover new oceans, says that one videogame trailer. There's great sentiment in that. The world is your oyster!
>>699637839
thanks anon, been looking for weeks with no luck. one of my collection to contribute.
>>699637320
This makes me happy anon, good on you
Maybe you'll eventually get to do the last bit with that girl. That would be a nice thing
Thank you for reminding me about all those little things
>>699638117
i'll dump the rest of what i have. want to dump yours too?
job market is shit where i am in Canada, girlfriend is a week from losing her job and depressed/angry all the time from it and i work maybe 2-3 days a paycheque, 3 years after my father dying my mom has finally said yesterday despite my help she cant upkeep the house i grew up in
>>699636597
youre not alone on that, since i can remember ive always ended up turning anything serious into a joke or laughing it off because i hate displaying sad emotions. girlfriends reamed me out on it more than a few times. way she goes
>>699637605
Don't think of it as leaving, view it as an experience rather. I'm sure you'll gain a lot from it
>>699638385
this one hits me hard. lost love is a bitch of a feel
>>699638451
>>699631948
lol are you retarded? less then 1%(dare I say,less then 0.00001%) of the people that ever existed have "real accomplishments"
>>699638241
I will dump them, sure. Needed more, so thanks. I like going over my folder when I am sad at nights, letting out the emotion helps me sleep.
Uni deadline coming up and all my design are shit, lost all my creativity.
and my motivation for that matter.
meh
>>699632005
looks comfy as hell tbh anon
life sucks without drugs
>>699638020
hey, while it might be logical to view things as realistically as possible, hope is what makes us human, so don't give up just yet.
>>699638049
I'm just not sure if I'm strong enough to open it.
Blew a chance with a friend I never thought I'd get to actually see (former camgirl actually, but that's a story for another day) last week by getting feels and not just chilling out. Kinda bummed, but I'll get over it.
>>699638800
a weird kind of feel
This song makes me a bit sad but also a bit hopeful
Maybe you'll like it anon
https://youtu.be/Fl6jCgD9oCM
>>699638132
No problem! Surprised me how claustrophobic the apartment can get when you don't go outside in a while or when you haven't been doing physical things, like just tinkering with a bike or sweeping the floor. Have to occupy hands, mind and body as best as you can. :)
Because I can't maintain a social life
The guy I love will never love me back.
Literally breaks my heart. I'll never be the one in his arms.
So many nevers.
>>699634200
don't put too much weight on the messaging part of a relationship - some people just don't use these things as often. As long as you feel great when together, that's all you can hope for
>>699631379
I'm so lonely
>>699637605
Maebh?
>>699637839
This gets me every fucking time.
>>699639032
Thanks, I do.
>>699631790
I get it
>>699639005
whoopsie daisy. wrong image. im a piece of shit. i've ran out now. i only started my collection a couple days ago. sorry.
>>699639383
thanks okay bro. I got more, I will keep dumping for a bit
>>699639407
>>699639486
forgot pic, sorry
>>699638831
one day at a time, I'm sure you will
>>699639383
oh, i have one more. but it's split up into twelve images. i guess it's worth it
>>699639158
>>699639274
>>699639060
>>699638681
Me too. I'm so fucking sad. I'm never someone's first choice.
I never was. I never had a BEST FRIEND in my whole life. Everyone left, or I ended up being a jerk and make them leave. Life is stupid, man. I am slow minded and I also have low grades. I suck at life but I think I'm better than everyone else, even if I'm not.
I feel better when someone is having problems because I'm an asshole.
I don't stand out and I am not a special snowflake. I am a normal human being who is too introverted.
I don't talk with people in real life about this because they don't care and they will leave.
>>699638831
I believe in you anon. If you are going to the other end of the country there must be a reason. A reason why you chose that place over any naerby places, which would be cheaper. Its because there is a future there. If anyone can prosper its you. Make us proud
>>699639674
I can't get a girlfriend.
>>699631379
Goddammit. A picture of a random street in Japan is enough to invoke ridiculous amounts of nostalgic feels for me.
>>699631379
Was about to make my own if I didn't find one. Thanks anon. I'm fucking bored. I have a date with a tinder match I flaked out on last week. She's cool about it and we will be meeting up this week but, damn if I don't still have my ex on my mind. I'm over her as she is now but miss what we were. So I feel that want. Tried to commit suicide awhile back but it didn't take, now here I am.
I need help.
I am 19 years old, I failed the first year of physics,but only because I didn't study.I had girlfreind not too long ago(for a short time,first gf),and even now I have a girl behind me. So...my social life is an 8/10,some people might not think so,but I have 3 groups of freinds,all very different from one another,and I am very close with all of them (I have my band freinds,my college, and my pc geeks freinds).
but this summer I decided to something that I have been wanting to do for years:to spend a month in total isolation,doing nothing but watching anime,reading 20th century philosophy,listening to music and jerking off.
so far it's been 16 days...and what's disturbing is...I've never been happier,I feel so good right now.
so what is wrong with me? am I not suppose to hate isolation?
>>699640159
>>699631379
jobless, no gf, living with my father, cancer and the worst i can't get any weed.
I just started my last year in high school and I'm scared shitless. My parents are moving on from trying to help me succeed and are now focused on my brother, but that's ok. I lost my job because I was kept in and out of the hospital for kidney problems so I was fired, I wake up every day hoping today will be better but before I even make it to the shower I realize it's the same stuff all over again. I want to be an American History teacher but my school isn't helping me in the slightest and neither is the local college. I feel like I'm stranded in limbo. I'm not ready for full on adulthood but I feel like I'm being pushed from the nest. It's like everyone stopped caring about me over night. I hate it.
>>699640305
>>699640421
all done. thanks for joining me on this feels trip guys
>>699639978
Don't worry, buddy. I was feeling like shit too.
You will get over it, don't worry. You need to be mature enough to realise that you are losing your time thinking about it when you could spend your time doing something better, learning a new language, going to gym, finding a new job.
Maybe it will work out for you.
>>699639947
Man up and try to talk to girls, if that's not the problem, I guess someone will come for you.
>>699640514
shit man. hits deep, thanks for posting them
>>699640135
Well, for soemone who does that everyday, would love to live what you have, so don´t waste it on a summer of isolation, it doesn´t worth it, maybe now it feels cool, but if you keep it like this, you will deeply regret it.
>>699640514
We love you
>>699640661
but it's amazing.I feel like god
>>699640135
Don't be an edgy boy.
Isolation brings boredom.
>>699631379
Is this picture real? Everything looks so clean and at its place. I love it.
>>699640135
Nah man, occasional isolation is perfectly alright. You can get tired of people and still be happy with them most of the time, it's half to most of the reason I enjoy backpacking alone a few times a year.
>>699640839
It does, now, but don´t change your life for that, it doesn´t worth it
>>699631379
Fell in love with a wife-beating piece of garbage and I actually miss him and my poor attempt to kill myself in my bathtub didn't go as expected because i'm apparently too pussy to end my shitty life.
>>699640135
The only thing that matters is that you feel good. Don't mind the people that say you're unproductive and not living your life to it's full potential. You can't be productive or live unless you feel good. There are millions of people out there that are trying to be something that they are not, something they perceive as better and are absolutely miserable
I am sad cause I haven't felt anything the last two years. But I am not really sad cause I don't feel it.
I want to feel again.
>>699640896
Saved it from a wallpaper phone thread, I'm sorry but I don't know. It probably is.
>>699638528
we're all raised to believe we're capable of great things. as children we imagine being astronauts. then we lower our standards and imagine great things for the average person--college, our own place, a car...
then we lower our standards and hope to be lucky enough to find steady work. then we just kinda hope someone randomly murders us.
>>699640933
I have more, but I gotta go anons. I might make another feels thread later.
>>699639383
and anon, good luck with your collection. It can help relieve the pain. We love you.
>>699641069
Nirvana.
I miss the comfort in being sad.
>>699631379
My wife is fat and I don't feel boner
>>699631379
I don't live in japan
>>699641325
I'm not here to laugh for fuck's sake.
>>699639931
Thanks, man.
Constant loneliness
>>699641069
Do psychedelic drugs. It will force you to feel, and may reset you a bit
>>699641285
thank you for dumping your collection. it really helped. i love you too
[spoiler]sometimes i like to whisper i love you when i go to sleep because i want to know what it sounds like. does anyone else do that?[/spoiler]
Hand-cunt, if you are here, I hope you die.
>>699640997
Yeah, love is dumb. But, coming from a guilty previously abusive husband, everyone (every. one.) deserves better. Be strong and leave, you'll both be better for it.
>>699632049
what games is this?
something 13?
>>699641559
Never done anything other than weed, what should I expect from it other than feels? Genuinely interested.
>>699641041
>>699640973
thanks...but what can I do to stop wanting to be alone.I feel like from the outside one would say I'm depressed,but that's so far from the truth it's not even funny,I'm learning more about myself and about humans in general then ever,and I think that's kick ass.part of me just wishes I could stay like this forever.but I can't...I can't help but feel like I'll be depressed when I go back to college..
hasn't anyone felt this?
i fucked a lot of girl before her but she was so different and yes i fell in love before but i dont know.she was my eveything,i grow a man with her,we did everything together we were dating since high schooli dont know what to do now,i tried suiciding but failed obviously i m desperate
>>699641692
I did leave but i regret it. It's a fucking nightmare.
>>699640896
Yeah, all of Japan is like this
>>699631379
Girlfriend completely ruined my confidence
Trying to talk to girls on snapchat but i just don't know if im sayin the right things
>for example
Trying to talk to one of my old school mates
10/10 great ass
Conversation is boring and going nowhere
I'm basically beating a dead horse with it
I'm really like my best friend ex and i know he'll hate me if i start dating her but shes really something and ive been alone for a while.
>>699631773
Whrre do you live. I'd love to fuck you.
>>699641559
fucking awful idea
Kid at my college off himself after doing LSD while being depressed.
>>699636597
Same here bro. Mum died 2 years ago and still haven't talked about it. Either I joke about it or just push it away,
My online friend's dad is threatening to kill her mom and possibly her and I'm powerless to do anything. This happened with another person before.
>>699631379
newfags on my board
>>699637765
you don't always have to do good, especially in your case as a skeleton. it's good enough that you're not doing bad, imo.
I'm coming off of heroin after the 5th try. I made it 4 days and smoked some tar.
Heroin is no joke, and quitting is the antithesis.
>>699639978
Yea, truthfully I'm just getting over the hump finally. We became friends with benefits awhile after I finally broke off all communication about 7 months ago. That shit really fucks with your head if you ever cared for someone. Just now finally trying to get back out there. The bitch thought blazing saddles was a horrible movie that was racist and uncomfortable.. I mean, what?
>>699642585
should have listened to all the other people that have done heroin ya dingus
>>699637839
almost had that, then she tells me she's poly.
No.699642069
we have a phrase in turkey
''dünya kadar malın olacağına fındık kadar amın olsun'' its something like '' instead of having the worlds just have a pussy as big as hazelnut''
>>699640290
They didnt stop caring dude they just see that you can handle it on your own now. If anything it means they have faith in you so finish school, get your degree and do whatever you want.
>>699642029
Not worse though. Don't you have friends to hang out with and help you move on?
>>699642069
If you think there's a 51% chance it will work out, do it. He'll get over it or he's a childish asshole -- they broke up.
>>699642585
That is absolutely the most difficult thing in this thread. Quit or you'll die, simple as that, and you don't want to die. Promise.
I got friends and an actual girlfriend. I thought if there were people who actually liked me, I could be happy, but now I just can't believe that they actually like me, and when I do, I still just want to throw myself off a bridge. Fucking kill me, I don't care about happiness, I just want to be less unhappy.
>Log into steam
>My German friend is online
>Date: 22nd July
>His location: Munich Germany
>We met over War Thunder and became good friends, almost like brothers
>Tells me about the fucked up shit in his life, like his stillborn brother and fathers death
>We are talking as usual
>He says he has to go
>I ask where
>Olympia shopping mall
>He tells me he will be back online soon
>I say message me when you're back
I'm still waiting for a response.
>>699643725
I am sorry for your lose man
The world is Shit and it will get worse and worse
>mfw I live in Germany
>>699643725
This one hit me hard... I'm so sorry you got into this situation too
>>699643372
Thanks. I know I have to quit.
It's just hard to pass up the most blissful apathy possible, even in exchange for your life.
>>699640290
They care, trust me. It may not look like it now, but they do. talk about it with them.
>>699644022
>>699644009
Thanks /b/ros, it was out of my control but honestly i think it was better for him. he was depressed and after all he has been through i think he is finally at rest.
>>699631379
>tfw no gf
someone send hlep pls
>>699641622
I managed to come back, I feared thread would be dead by then. And clearly not anon. Pic related.
>>699644422
Anon, find happiness besides a girl. If you gonna find a girl and think to be happy, get ready to meet your disappointment.
Relationships needs healthy minds.
I fucked up my interview today :(
probably won't get it... will read this feels thread now
>>699641838
Why cant you? This is where you have to seriously boil down your life choices and deliberate what will be better in the long run for you and your mental state. You anticipate being depressed because you anticipate doing something you dislike. Don't make your life revolve around the expectations of others.
Harden the fuck up /b/!
>>699644422
Just broke up with mine of 3 years. Make sure you trust the girl you eventually find.
>>699644422
Even just getting will not make you happy. I lowered my standards just to feel cared for and now I'm the one not caring. I'm disgusted at myself and I don't like being with her. Just because you have a gf doesn't mean you'll be happy.
>>699644967
That's the saddest shit I've seen today. I just wanna be there for him man.
>>699631379
I just moved across the country halfway through high school. Left behind girls who just about love me, best fucking friends ever, and a world-class choir that goes on international tours every year (it's a public high school choir so I was only in it for a year [cant get in as a freshman]). FML fam
>>699643548
i feel you. it only goes so far to "know" something without feeling it. these days i find myself taking much more pleasure in life's smaller details than larger social interactions or events, they help me relax and feel like myself.
Seriously, harden the fuck up!
>>699641837
The general scoop with psychedelics is that they elevate your state of mind. Not necessarily in a positive or negative way. Your senses will be much more sensitive. You feel and process stimuli at an unnaturally heightened level.
>>699631733
that is what you get for being a brainwashed moron
>>699645136
I don't have a pic of the thread, but it was posted here on /b/ when it happened. Anons sent him a card.
>>699645163
>>699645188
So if I just stay cool and not freak out it's all fine?
Thanks for advice, guess I am just gonna look some shit up with a few friends see if I can feel again.
>>699645353
That's good to know, hope that nigg be living life.
>be me
>fall for a girl hard
>speak everyday etc etc
>she invites me to meet up
>cant make it :/
>keep talking
>eventually she starts getting flirty
>fall harder and harder
>about to grow some balls and ask her out
>she says shes a lesbian
>...
>keep talking to her
>she blocks me on everything
>i literally havent done anything cringy or autistic
>hear she's dating a stupid ugly autist, literally 3/10, we'll call him eugene
>skip forward a year
>feeling better, looking to move on
>fall for another girl
>start talking to her
>much flirtier right off the bat
>laughs at all my jokes, holds my fucking hands
>i ask her out
>sorry, i dont like meeting up with only one friend
>...
>she then spreads twisted stories of us together, saying i acted like a cringe
>killmenow.jpeg
>friends now hate me
>i still love her
>see her change her relationship status on facebook
>look at the guy i need to kill
>it's eugene, the ugly 3/10 autist from earlier
>...
>fml.gif
>now have no friends, all were lost because of both the bitches being bitches
>dont go to parties so i cant drink and get an easy fuck there
>have developed anxiety when around people because of this bullshit, so hardly go out
>find myself lifting weights in my bedroom or reading history books most of the day
>mfw
>>699639352
Whats your favourite crystal gem?
>>699638884
holy shit anon, why you do this to us?
I think I may have some sort of throat cancer, will find out Thursday. Scared to death...
>>699645526
yeah, good thing we did our bit.
>>699645353
>>699645473
There's no guarantee of any particular outcome. The only thing the drugs will dictate is the intensity at which you experience yourself and your environment
>>699645926
this one is a tumblr thing, but fuck it
>>699645544
Seriously dude, think of her screaming "Eugene's" real name as her toes curl, and her heart pounds and he pumps her full of his baby gravy and drops sweat on her face.
Happening right now bro, and she's fucking loving it.
>>699631379
A good friend of mine has drown to dead recently, and I told him to take care on the beach.
My brother who is 25 just had a heart attack.
And I have to work at least another hour before I can go see him in the hospital
https://youtu.be/lCCJc_V8_MQ
Life is gray. I have friends, but I lack the energy to spend time with them. I don't talk to my family much. I'm talking to a girl but in the end it'll just amount to pain; maybe we can just stay FWBs. I exercise frequently but even that's no help. My alcoholism keeps bringing me back down. Haven't really done anything with my life, but I'm trying to keep a positive outlook. Maybe someday I'll be happy, but nothing is certain. Heavily considering armed forces to give life meaning, make bonds and to get more in shape. What is it like to be happy? How do I even achieve it? How do I stop being so numb?
>>699646483
Owh shit it's that song of me earl and the dead girl, right? That shit was sad as fuck man.
>>699640135
You are extroverted and young. You haven't fucked it all up yet.
>>699646447
Get as angry as you like. But seriously, picture them lying side by side, flushed & breathless just talking shit as his jizz trickles out of her and makes her ass crack sticky.
When she thinks about it, she gets wet.
Well, she's getting married, and not to me.
I think I'll just go do nothing for the rest of the day. My mind can't really process it.
Well. I stopped communicating with people at work to avoid personal questions. But, in return. When I small talk that no meaning behind it. I get literally ignored. I don't mind. But, the person I got it from tried to get me to ask a girl at work. I figure. They can do much better than me. Then, why so unfriendly with a little small talk? She didn't hesitate to ask me to change the garbage bag though.
>be me
>See robbery
>too pussy to do anything
>robber kills my uncle for his car
Because I'm an alcoholic at 20 and thought I was going to achieve shit with my life
>>699645163
This image hurts so bad...
>>699647044
Doubles, that means a spider man thread.
You have summoned spidey.
>>699646680
I gotta go this time, anons. I wish you all can be free of this sorrow. I wouldn't wish my feelings on anyone.
>>699647124
How'd you end up in that situation?
Im afraid of going to a barber. I have 2 years worth of hairs, never trimmered, it looks disgusting and anxiety is too overwhelming.
Can I cut myself just fine without anybodys help?
>>699641826
Space Station 13, anon
I am an intern at a small community bank, and everything feels so small. It isn't the work I want to be doing, they know it, they're letting me go at the end of the month. I can't find a job anywhere outside of my hometown. My friends are all living life and having an adventure and I am just stuck here doing nothing. I want to escape. Let me out
>>699631379
Because I'm in the rare mood to get fucked and there is nothing around except black guys which im not into. But other than that..everything else ok except the shit weather.
>>699641682
Explain.
>>699635744
I think you should seek professional help because I started feeling like that a few years ago, I haven't spoken to my mother in years despite her numerous attempts to contact me, my brothers and I don't speak either. At this point I have nothing to do with any of my family members even though there was nothing bad that happened to wedge us apart. I just lost all desire to be involved in their lives.
It's unfortunate and perhaps you should nip it in the bud before you end up like me.
>>699641838
You may be a maniac.
>>699633617
Condolences
>>699646726
yep. great film, great artist also. the scene where this song played struck a chord for me. how Rachel didn't want to be cheered up, but rather needed recognition. Greg realised this and, in the end, created a film consisting only of representations of her pain and anxieties (her being bald and everyone telling her she's beautiful, images of things crumbling and collapsing, some reborn into new objects, others withering away completely), not completely unlike Me, Earl and the Dying Girl itself. The film is hopeful but at times it's bitter and brutal as well, which is exactly what depressed teenagers like Greg need in life. Greg's film to Rachel is what Me, Earl and the dying girl is to its angst-filled viewers: Mature, respectful recognition.
>>699648148
wtf man
>>699638531
is this a ylyl thread now because that is fucking hilarious.
>>699631379
I've been stuck in a place where I don't feel at home. I can't feel anymore; When my friend committed suicide, I didn't feel sad or happy at all but I just have to "soldier through" and put a smile on my face.
I was an intelligent and extroverted child. I could do maths better than anyone else in my year, and even the year above. I could write stories that made teachers cry when I was 9. I would write and write, often in a verbose and Churchillian manner, about all sorts of events that I had not witnessed myself but could still take the reader into this little world.
I also loved to talk. I would talk my mind when I was a child all the time. Before I went to preschool I could have a logical conversation with an adult, and grew up ignoring other children so I could speak to my grandparents about the war, and my uncles about history and politics and science. I loved speaking ceaselessly to my seniors about the how and the why of the World.
Then I started going to school.
I found myself stuck in a place much alike a prison or asylum, surrounded by morons who could barely tell their arses from a hole in the ground, let alone discuss Hitler's plans and why he failed. I still wanted to talk and I still wanted to learn, but I found myself almost unable to communicate with the clan I was forced into. This was no crisis, though, as I should, by right, become the leader. If we were left on a deserted island, I would be the best qualified to be their king, and would be able to educate them all to some extent.
Alas, this could not happen. Any time I tried to take lead, and to bring something up in a simple enough way that those around me may consume and digest it, the teacher would promptly reassure me of my inferiority to her, as everyone in the class was obviously and unquestionably equal in every right. I was punished for following my instincts. I was humiliated for trying to help. I was exiled to room 101 for 12 years of my life, tortured mentally until my extroversion became social anxiety, that I may never misspeak again, and my intelligence became depression as I questioned my uselessness.
And that's all that survives of me today.
>>699648474
Yeah it was a great film, always found myself being more of Earl than Greg, just a more depressed Earl.
Thanks for giving shit everyone.
Im literally in the darkest place of my life but whatever.
Remember your all gonna die cold and alone one day.
>>699648474
also this movie is hilarious and extremely well made, highly recommend it. not so much a tear-jerker as much as a gut-puncher though, but still a hopeful film
>>699649008
>nice past m8
>>699649149
Yep but I'm going to have a fuckton of fun between then and now.
Who has the quote by anon wich says something like this ''The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest...''
>>699649327
>define fun
>Be depressed fag
>Move into my grandads house because its free, he lives a couple hundred miles away though
>Hes never here, its me
>Dont know anybody in this area
>20 y/o virgin, ruined any chances I had in my old neighbourhood & college cause I was a fucking dick to everyone
>How the fuck do I meet new people without school/college
>Looking for work, hoping to whatever deity listens that I can get a social group and just try again through work or something
>Everyone else is going to uni and being happy with significant others
>Here I am, finally trying but depression is not getting any easier
When does the pain end?
i am pretty new here and i am not very good with english sorry
i was in a relationship for 1.5 untill 10th of october 2015 (pic is related) so basicly we loved eachother very much and there was this protest for peace in turkey ankara i went there but she couldnt come
so anyway me and some friends arrived at around 9am we were meeting with friends from other cities and such and yeah fucking goatfucker exploaded near 10 meters from us (pic related took it after like 5 minutes)
anyway like 5 hours passed a really clase buddy of mine calls me and tells me that he is so sorry for what happened and said i just cant keep this secret from you anymore he told me X was cheating me with him for over 6 months
i wish goatfucker took me with him
also please dont post this photo on fucking gore threads
I'm alone, I hate school, hate my job, hate living where I'm at. I've been using drugs to numb the pain, but they don't work much anymore so I'm being forced to deal with how miserably un-fucking-happy I am 24/7
But, my best friend has been traveling with his father remodeling apartments and hotels across the states, and I'm being given the chance to do that too. It's a fresh start. A chance to learn a trade and make some decent money.
But if that ends up not working out and I'm still miserable I'll probably just kill myself.
>>699649503
sorry guys its my first time writing
>>699648148
Looks semi beaner, fuck her in the ass, dry. Then throw her out.
Fuck if I can't shake this feeling I was meant to be alone. I accepted loss at a young age, it makes me unable to really connect with anyone anymore. I'm just going to lose everyone I meant anyway, what's the point
>>699649566
>hate school
I'm a college student, not high school by the way
>>699647628
Yeah. Just buy a trimmer. #5 on top, #3 sides and back. If you run your hand over the back of your head and catch hair it isn't high enough.
>>699647996
You don't need to change the world, just do what you do well and love your friends and family.
>>699648148
Whatever man, you're still the one fucking her now. If you weren't all around better she wouldn't be with you.
>>699649616
She used to let me before, but after dating the other guy she says no now, why?>>699648148
I don't even play video games anymore. I just don't get up when I'm home. Permanently stuck in bed looking at life from my screen
>>699644887
go away.
>>699649008
I know exactly what you mean.
You'll be able to relate to Ender's Game and The Immitation Game. A lot.
Fuck irrationals.
LLAP anon.
>>699649676
>Fuck if I can't shake this feeling I was meant to be alone.
I'm with you there man. Just hold on. Theres always hope.
>>699649777
Who cares? Do it anyway.
>>699649847
No.
Someone post spooky stories
Wish I had kept my outlook. I used to write at least, chick's loved that shit, a writer... now I don't budge an inch when I have thst feeling to write
>>699649726
It isn't about changing the world, it's about seeing it and going places and taking it all in. I want to have fun, go places, see things, and meet new people. I have been stuck in this small town for most of my life. I want to leave
>>699649777
she doesn't have the same respect for you
hold her at an arms length (without being an asshole) and see if she tries to close the distance
>>699646660
Sounds like something that would be a good option to you, you already seem pretty fit and the order and regime of the armed forces would give your life direction and experiences that would really benefit your numb soul.
I truly hope you find your way.
>>699650214
>>699649777
>>699648148
Also, she once told me in a conversation that all they mostly did was fucked because "there wasnt many intelligent conversation" what the fuck does that even mean
>>699631379
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZ8so-ld-l0
>>699649897
I've lost hope a long time ago, I'm just trying to do for myself now, to suck whatever good experiences are left from my short life while I still can.
>>699649493
DUDE YOU ARE FUCKING 20!!!
Your life hasnt even began yet.
GO OUT AND MAKE SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF.
you can do it /b/ro just step up and take charge.
My advice to you is something very important may be under your nose and you just can't see it yet.
I would kill to be in your shoes.
try being 28, having it all, then lose it. Over and over again.
I turn 30 in less then 2 years I'm not looking forward to it with how my life is now. You dont wanna be me.
>>699632049
how did you ruin it? id love to hear all the details
>>699645544
Ever consider dude could be stalking you and/or ruining your reputation for his gain?
>>699650423
probably not any hidden meaning there m8
chick liked him for his dick. i'd put up with a reasonable amount of inane bull shit for a few months of great sex.
>>699649008
Damn dude. I have sort of a similar story which I'll tell to you in green text.
>Wake up 4:00AM every morning.
>Eat breakfast after reading the newspaper
>Go to school where the endless sea of wiggers and kikes await
>Feel like today is going to be a great day
>Realize that I have to go to retard class because of poor education in Hawaii
Hawaiian schools were so poor that they only gave us three days of school.
>Not as great in math as the other kids but an ace in history and science
Most days in the prison that they called "resource class" went like this:
>Go to class and sit down at my designated desk
>Teacher asks me to show her my planner like I already didn't know that
>Show her my planner
>"James you seem to be falling behind, mabye you would like to see Mrs. Grecko and sort out these problems."
>Talks to me like a fucking infant
>I set her straight and tell the principal that I want out of this outrageous program.
>Principal reeks of tears of the innocent
>"You're going to have to ask your parents."
>Yeah fucking right
>"I want out of this program, now."
MFW I got a two week suspension for asking a simple question
>It only got rockier in highschool.
>>699649566
Sounds like you have a great opportunity there that many people would be envious of. I hope you have a good time and make the most of it. Remember if you put in the effort you'll get much more out of it.
Good luck.
fucking everyone keeps dying
>>699646660
>How do I stop being so numb?
By finding passion in life. Something that makes you feel alive.
>>699650489
We all got cucked from the beginning. We are the bottom the mindless cogs of the machine that works for those sitting at the top.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXvoYGrnuv8
>>699650672
Another 20 year old /b/rah, shit ain't that easy man. I got loads of things like a gf n shit but suffering with anhedonia makes it al worthless. Age changes a lot, but it does not mean you have a life open to you.
>>699650768
Ahh I see, explains why she was so readily doing things she had never done before, like sucking me dry in a classroom and bending of for doggy style right away
I'm about to move back home. Been gone almost 7 years. It's for all the right reasons, no big deal there. I'm an addict though. Been one for a bit. I hate myself for it. I feel weak. I am raising a daughter by myself and she is the sweetest most loving little girl on the planet. All because of me. I was an addict before her, cleaned up a little, but I'm not happy with my usage currently. She is every reason to stop, but I can't shake it. I know I can, but....it's hard. Not looking for sympathy. I am the greatest father ever. Except that. That one thing. It hasn't affected her, she is clean, bubbly, and HAPPY. I am still the same depressed loser. Goodnight /b/.
>>699650672
DUDE YOU ARE NOT EVEN FUCKING 30 YET!
you better tell me your story and it better be a fucked up one.
I mean seriously you are 28 you can change your live in so many ways with so many possibilities. You should just not give up to early. hang on /bro
Loved a woman, realised I didn't.went mad, hate women. Fuck sluts, feel empty
Because my fucking nose is broken faggot
So I have no friends except this one girl from class. She has a very dark and rude humor and is really open with what she wants to say. I guess I ended up getting her number out of pitty, she doesn't hang out with guys and always gives me a one word answer. One day I decided not to talk to her anymore and just spent my time on my things. I texted her again and she was really happy to hear from me. One day we were texting and she openly called me a loser, I sent ":(" and she then said "my loser" this girl is confusing me. She says no one knows how to talk to her and I said I would try. I did flirty, mean, and just normal. I can't spark up a good convo its great to make her laugh but I can't do that. Maybe I should just give up and move on through college then find someone else down the line.
>>699649503
Why'd he take his penis out?
>>699651010
I'm going to jump on it as soon as I get word I'm hired.
Originally I was going to school for a bachelor's in electrical engineering, but I started discovering that, there's lots of things I'm really good at, lots of things we're ALL really good at, but we don't enjoy doing. And electrical engineering, physics, etc. whatever else, I'm really good at all those things but I don't enjoy doing them. And that's my worst fear, getting stuck doing something I'm good at but I hate. I've given this a lot of thought over the past few months (putting school on hold potentially forever to learn a trade) and I'm convinced now that it's the right decision for me. I could make much more money doing engineering or research in physics, but I just wouldn't be happy. And that's what's important to me.
Ultimately I'd like a career doing specialty stuff in the automotive field, like building race engines.
>>699650760
We literally have no contact with one another. He would have no reason nor means to stalk me or to fuck up my reputation. He's just a weird literal autist who has no chin and looks like an unwashed orc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=21RwqnB8GrE
You Dont have to live. You dont have to make something of yourself. You dont have to do anything you are simply the universe focused in on your psychoanalytical organism plus its environment experiencing the flow of energy.
>>699651823
Psychophsyical*
>>699642585
I am ten months clean after the first week it gets easier. And you cant hang around people who do it. Seems impossible but it will be worth it
>>699649493
>>699650672
>>699651236
>>699651315
86 year old at death bed here. only regret is i didn't rail enough pussy. you guys have got your whole lives ahead of you. brb flatlining
>>699651236
Well if its any condolences to you people percieve me as a complete nihlist now.
Witch shocks me, but upon researching it, I have learned that I have inadvertently became one.
Also all joy has been robbed from here on out(because I don't see the point cuss nihlist).
Worst part is I was very emotionally passionate, and everyone has told me my demeanor speaks otherwise. So yea
Also have gf and really dont care about her at all. I wouldnt wrong her in anyway but if she left I wouldnt care.
>>699648011
when did these threads become, "things that are currently annoying"?
anyone want a success story for hope through all this darkness?
>>699652224
shoot it
>>699651727
Naw fuck that man.
Is she pretty? do you think shes attractive? and like her personality?
>type yes to find out wat to do next
>>699651783
Be a machinist.
>>699652001
>brb flatlining
Well good for you faggot.
>another person that goes out before me
>>699652224
yeah brudda gimme it
>>699651727
Talk to her like you would to us.
>>699650423
she's fucking both of you.
>>699652376
She is, not big on personality tho
>be me
>a 21 years old canadian with irish roots
>year 2012
>have an awesome grandpa who was always down to do something new with me
>He used to teach me everything, from surviving in the wild, hunt animals with either bows, guns or even knives
>he thought me how to fish, how to raise birds, how to carve and how to smoke
>he always used to sing this song called Elderly Woman behind the counter in a small town by Pearl Jam
>We sang it everywhere, anytime, any place. We loved that song
>I used to go fish with him every weekend and he used to come to my house everyday to drink a beer and talk with me
>at st patricks eve, me, him and my whole family got drunk. It was a big party and everyone was having fun.
>he said that he would take me ice fishing the next day because he never brought me icefishing and he said we were going to have a great time.
>right after he said that Elderly Woman behind the counter in a small town came on the radio
>me and him sang it together, we knew the whole song by heart
>after the song he finished his drink and told me he was going to bed. Goodnight Anon
>It was the last time he said goodnight to me
>the last time i saw his beautiful smile behind that long grey beard
>he died the next morning by falling down the stairs and breaking his neck
I miss him so much. He was my best friend. My only friend that I had.
>>699652572
It didn't work.
