>feel like shit >ctrl+F >"feels" >no feels
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>feel like shit
>ctrl+F
>"feels"
>no feels thread
feels thread
>>699516197
>tfw she hasn't seemed as interested so you decide to stop texting her to see how long it takes her to text you first
>tfw it's been over a week and nothing from her
I'm here with you
>>699516719
thats painful dude
>>699516197
Hey anon, i have family, but they hate me because my parents are divorced and they had a lot of problems in their relationship, so 0 family. Only 1 friend in the entire world, i cant even do things with him because now he lives so far away from me, so no friends. i love one girl but she ignore me because she think im a weird guy so... i decided stop talking with her because that cause me several anxiety. Anxiety... i have several problems with the social anxiety, cant have friends and have a girlfriend its cool... when i had it... but kinda hard cuz i can fell the love, i can love other people, but i cant feel if other people love me, so i feel totally alone, this summer i only talked with 3 guys 2 month totally alone in my house... with my messy thoughts and crying some nights before sleep, just wishing the start of the college to at least see other people and talk with someone. Sorry about my english gammar.
>>699516719
I envy your patience
>>699516719
>a week
I am used to never
bumparino
>>699516197
....
>>699516719
i have been waiting 8 month dude, i still waiting...
>go to school basically every day
>be a really fun guy and live it up a lot
>people laugh and have a good time around me
>go home and mull around the house and cry on my bed
>feeling just like pic related constantly and hiding my pain with humor
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a little while ago. Feeling pretty good right now.
>>699519063
.....fag
>be me
>18 years old
>Gf dumped me 1 year ago
>Went through depression
>failed medical school
>dropped out of it
>no motivation
>lost total interest for almost everything
>family thinks I'm a faggot because they don't know what depression is
>still waiting for her to come back
>>699519063
hands don't have mouths
>>699516719
in what ways has she not seemed interested?
>>699519399
>>699519490
Don't knock it til you try it.
>be me
>fall for a girl hard
>speak everyday etc etc
>she invites me to meet up
>cant make it :/
>keep talking
>eventually she starts getting flirty
>fall harder and harder
>about to grow some balls and ask her out
>she says shes a lesbian
>...
>keep talking to her
>she blocks me on everything
>i literally havent done anything cringy or autistic
>hear she's dating a stupid ugly autist, literally 3/10
>skip forward a year
>feeling better, looking to move on
>fall for another girl
>start talking to her
>much flirtier right off the bat
>laughs at all my jokes, holds my fucking hands
>i ask her out
>sorry, i dont like meeting up with only one friend
>...
>she then spreads twisted stories of us together, saying i acted like a cringe
>killmenow.jpeg
>friends now hate me
>i still love her
>see her change her relationship status on facebook
>look at the guy i need to kill
>it's ugly 2/10 autist from earlier
>now have no friends, all were lost because of both the bitches being bitches
>dont go to parties so i cant drink and get an easy fuck there
>have developed anxiety when around people because of this bullshit, so hardly go out
>find myself lifting weights in my bedroom or reading history books most of the day
>mfw
>>699519488
thats rough bro, your best bet is too just keep in motion, don't get too much into your own head the worst thing you can do is shut down
Bump
>>699519839
As hard as it is, get rid of her, she send ways too dramatic
>be me
>get into a relationship with girl
>have a great time
>1-2 months passes
>girl becomes uninviting and cold toward me
>wont even give me a hug sometimes just say goodbye when its time to part
>eventually get told "its just not working out, you know"
>lather, rinse, repeat
>gets to the point where I can tell when its going downhill, can predict the breakup +/- 2 days
>try to save it every time and never can
>endmysuffering.jpg
Evening /b/ros, how's the hollow and dead feeling inside treating you?
>>699519839
pick yourself up anon. Depression and anxiety only grow the more time you spend alone. Lifting weights and reading enlightening literature can reduce their growth, but they are like cancers of the mind, eventually inhibiting you from doing anything. Get back out there, make new friends, find different love, become humans again.
>>699519506
Short answering, not trying to make conversation and not responding a lot of the time. I told her about this feel a few weeks ago, and I thought we shouldn't talk until she becomes less busy (which was her kinda bs excuse for not responding), I'd rather not expect texts from her at all than what I was getting. But she said she liked getting my messages so I kept talking with her for a while, but then she stopped caring again
>>699520410
this speaks so loud
>>699520410
i am trying to be stoic and vaguely alcoholic about it
>>699519063
boyfriend*
I dont even know why I get up anymore. I have a gun I think it about using it daily on myself but I keep holding out thinking maybe, just maybe it might get better. It never does. Hold me 4chan
>>699520614
sounds like your putting in more effort than she is, thats not fair to you at all honestly I've been in a similar situation before it's rough, it might be best to move on you should look out for yourself and try to talk to someone who will at least meet you half way
>>699521377
bro if i had a gun and whiskey id do it
>>699520460
this, its probably for the best just to throw yourself out there
>be me
>date girl for a year
>get close, good times
>year 2
>nothing happens
>nothing
>spend 2 months waiting on nothing
>decide to end it
>cold shoulder for week
>goes badly
>as in the bitch cried
>havent talked in weeks
>nothing to continue relationship
>the bitch cried
>enditnow.jpg
>was few years ago and now happy and in a better relationship
How the fuck is this relevant to any of this, this is the opposite of the thread
>>699521602
I wish I had the fucking strength to do it
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFkzRNyygfk
Anyone else got some songs that reflect life like this
>>699521602
Yeah Im thinking one of these days Im gonna go in the woods with some weed, xanax, and a bottle and just fucking do it. Im just a huge pussy is the problem
>>699518941
I dont like saying this cause i sound like an ass but im sure this is how my girlfriend feels and i love her more with every single thing she tells me about her or her life no matter how horrible it is. She has had a fucked up life and im glad i can make her happy. There are people out there anon, dont give up hope.
>>699521441
What destroys me is that when we first started talking, if I didn't respond within 20 minutes she'd be like "Don't dissappear on me now ;)" or something. Fuck I miss that so much, but yeah maybe I should move on for now, or at least be prepared to
i'll dump for a while if anyone's lurking
no booze nor benzos tonight
falling back into depression
>>699517276
Hey man, it's going to be OK. Social anxiety is the fucking worst thing you can put someone through in this century. But don't give up, because if you do then the tunnel you have mined for years and years will go to waste. You never know when you will hit that sweet spot full of treasures. The time will come my friend, do not worry.
>dont care about anything
>slack off constantly
>laze around in my free time instead of taking initiative on things I should be doing
>tell myself tomorrow I'll do something meaningful
>go to sleep
>wake up
>laze around and do nothing meaningful
why am I like this
Was supposed to go out with a friend tonight. She said she'd text me. See her snap story that's she's going out. Still haven't gotten that text....
>>699523355
Depression sux /b/ro
>>699520284
Then when someone is about to breka up with you, you split with them. For some reason, it makes you feel better inside. Trust me on this /b/ro, i got your back.
>>699523473
Ouch, I'm sorry friend, I've been there.
I go to sleep crying a lot of the times, life is shit and there is no way of knowing if the future will get better. I often think of ending it but the one thought which prevents me from doing so is that I only have one god damn chance at life and no matter how bad it is I'm not gonna pussy out. Stick out the pain and at least live to see how things play out. Take whatever chance you get at life and even if it isn't enough at least you can think well damn I stuck it to the end and didn't pussy out due to some bad feelings. Just remember once you draw your last breath thats it your gone forever. The pain is bad but death scares the shit out of me man.
>>699523473
I feel you bro. Asked a girl out just the other day and we were supposed to go out Saturday night. She texted me the day of and said "ooh shit forgot my parent's anniversary is today forgot lol, wont be able to go".
Every. Fucking. Time
>>699522558
i feel you dude that's not easy to deal with, it might be best to start looking forward and preparing to move on. Her interest in you whether it be a lot or a little doesn't define you as a person, if she doesn't care that's the way it is but eventually you'll find someone who does. It's extremely difficult to not take it to heart when someone doesn't put the same effort into a relationship that you are putting in, but you have to do your best to push past it
>>699523473
She doesn't like you. Neither does anyone else. Kys k?
>>699523864
WHY DO THEY SAY YES JUST TO FUCK YOU OVER LATER. FUCK.
>>699520284
People will always leave you, especially romantic partners. They are not worth investing in. Aquire objects instead.
May i recommend trading cards?
>>699523957
>comes to feels thread
>shits on people for sharing feels
Are the trolls even trying anymore?
>>699521770
>>699522069
thats what the whiskey is for
>>699523957
You're projecting
>>699516197
woo, lost my virginity a few weeks ago, feels pretty good
>>699523473
I know this feel friend, just try to distract yourself
>>699524049
My mint condition Black Lotus will never leave me. NEVER.
>>699523202
Thanks anon, i hope that. i dont give up but sometimes is hard as hell
>>699524069
>>699524158
Hello newfriends. Enjoying your stay?
Nostalgic for my childhood. Every day seems to be getting shorter and shorter. And things arent as easy as i thought they would be
anyone lurkin or should I just stop
> 25
> had move in with family again recently
> no gf in three years
> no education, no job
> diagnosed with some gay mental illness
> don't do anything besides smoke cigarettes and browse websites
> want to an hero, but that's weak
>>699520410
The same it has been for about two years anon.
>>699524401
we're here anon
>>699524401
Keep it up, anon.
>>699524262
Yes it can be hard as hell, maybe even worse. But once you get though hell or worse, you can look back on it it and say " If I survived that, I can survive anything." Hold on dear friend across the internet.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EHUnXkk7S8
>>699519488
same here
>be me
>15 at the time
>have qt gf
>she gets leukemia
>doesnt matter, we are still together
>i still love her
>couple months go by
>gf dies
>feel like shit
>think of all the opportunities i had and didnt take in life
>every single one of them
>feel worse
>fail almost everything at school and consider dropping out
>even consider suicide
>realise how little friends i have
>realise how lonely i am
>everyone says "things are gonna get better"
>4 years go pass
>things are still shit
>i still want to kill myself
>>699524309
>summerfag calling other people summerfags.
>>699524401
We're listening anon.
>>699523905
Thanks anon, I needed this
Dear all my lonely /b/ros out there,
It does not get better. You will not find the love of you life. Life will give you something nice to chew on then throw a curveball your way like murder, cancer, aids e.t.c.
But, not all is lost. You can make it good /b/.
It only gets better for those who allow it to get better. Have strength my /b/rethren. It gets better only when you try your damn hardest to make it better.
If your at your end and want to blow your damn brains out now, I plead that you don't. We don't know what we got beyond life, but I don't see it being better than life.
So please, lift up your spirits.
>>699524910
>summerfag calling fags fag
got married. he gets arrested. wait three years remaining faithful whole time. support him for three years while he "gets his shit together". he cheats with nastiest girls imaginable. wtf. why do we try? i'm beautiful, supportive and forgiving. aka an idiot
>>699524963
Of course bro! I'm happy i could be there for you
>>699525551
You sound pretty cool anon, he's probably just a nigger at heart
>>699525142
>Dad has cancer
>Mom's bipolar
>Bipolar myself & clinical depression
>Quit school
>Poorer each day
>Falling for a girl I shouldn't only because I miss the girl I truly love
>Want to start smoking again (and probably will)
>Drinking daily and taking benzos just to bare my existence
Appreciate your words tho. I know most my problems will go away with the right attitude, it's just so fucking hard.
>>699525740
lol he's a skinhead so don't tell him that!
Well this made me sad
>>699525142
>trying super fucking hard to not be depressed
>working out, diet, going out with friends
>night hits
>start to feel it creep in
>everyone I could talk to is asleep/not answering
>lifting weights hoping it will somehow disappear
Every fucking night without fail god dammit.
>>699524650
"Feel the weight of your father's dreams and all those dreams... all your dreams"
Speaks to failures and letdowns like me
> Be me
> Fall for a friend who happens to be the ex gf of another friend
>She moves to another country for a year
> She comes back, invites me to her birthday party (1 day before my bday, she knows it and want to celebrate together)
> I was having a bad day and I dont feel like going
> Spent 3 more months before getting to see her at a club
> Was about to grab her and finally kiss her when her best friend introduces her to a guy
> Feelsbad.jpg
> Dont talk to her for the last 2 months
> She says that while I was ''gone'' she had to find 'love' with other guys instead of me
> Calls me a pussy
> Still flirting with me but now I dont know if she will actually hang out with me
>>699525740
thanks though anon. I am pretty cool. i'm discovering this again
>>699525947
I don't know the pain you feel, but anon we're here for you. We're all here for you. You won't ever be alone anon, no matter what.
>>699526002
Skinheads are a different breed of nigger. How many swastika tattoos does he have?
>>699526028
So then stay here. You can always talk to us anon. We're always here.
Here's a poem anons. Hope you like it.
Can I?
Can I steal you for just a moment?
Can I tell you something important?
Can I ask you if you’d like to go with me?
Confused about where?
Anywhere.
Can I ask where you want to go?
Can I take you there right now?
Can I pay for everything so you won’t have to worry about anything?
To the place where dreams die?
Sure, I can take you there.
Can I ask that you don’t let go of my hand?
Can I still be brave even though i’m scared of this place?
Can I take you somewhere else?
Where did you go?
Oh right, that way.
Can you please come back?
Can you not leave me here alone?
Can you take me with you?
I can go with you... How?
Oh right... take my life.
I had a friend once. We were cooks at this restaurant and he ran triathlons and such and I was a fatty. He died suddenly of heart failure, so I took his place. I trained and trained, each day I trained I would pour out half of my water on the ground, for him. Now I am 170lbs (Down from 220) and I still pour half of my water on the ground every time I train. I do it because he travels the distance with me.
>>699526279
none. they have sharps and the such. they don't do the racial prejudice. although he has his racial proclivities
>>699516719
happened to me, we havent talked in nearly 3 months.
seriously dude, if you care about this girl at all just ask her if she has a free day to hang out, if she doesn't, move on. texting gets boring and she will eventually realize you wont make a move and she will move on. a week isnt too late yet but if you don't keep going she will move on.
wow. who knew i'd find support here? thanx b!
I 90% sure my ex killed my best friend in high school. We just started talking again a few weeks ago and she still had this creepy vibe about her.
I need help clearing my conscious on whether or not I've made the correct decision. Will you /b/ro's listen to my tale?
>be me
>one friend
>we're fairly close
>we live in a small town with a small population
>have yearly festival that makes the small population appear larger, because it's a group
>ask friend to go with me because I'm lonely
>he says okay, he'll meet me at the bridge over the railroad in an hour
>been three and a half hours, festival is long over
>I'll still wait because idk
>see his Snapchat, it's filled with photos of the festival, him and his other friends
>he's not coming I guess
>me still on the bridge
This is today.
I think I hear a train in the distance. Why not just wait for it?
>>699526341
>we're always here
Thanks fam. I fucking hate/love you guys.
>>699526967
stay away! trust your instincts
>>699526865
Pon n Zi really get me.
>>699527037
of course
>>699525142
thank you
i really needed it
>>699527037
Please share man we are listening
>>699527547
Anytime /b/ro.
>>699527037
totally dude
>>699526475
i feel u m8. here's some shit i wrote its called Ghost in the Shell
A compact room was lit by candlelight
Music oozed through the walls
Many people chatted merrily inside
It was warm and cozy
The talking stopped and people left
Music pushed through the walls
The compact room was softly lit
It was warm and cozy
Music reached through the walls
Voices were heard but not seen
Candlelight covered the vacuum
It was warm and cozy
The candles die out
The music is paused
Voices smile crookedly and argue
I sit on a stone floor
Clutching my knees in a dark cavern
With a cold blank stare into oblivion
I smile and laugh
It is warm and cozy
It is warm and cozy
It is warm and cozy
>>699527823
More accurate depiction of reality than the original. Crazy stays crazy, especially when you don't want it to
Aight, /b/ Here's the story of how I fucked up bad. I suck at greentext so bear with me.
>Be 14-15
>In school, normal day, normal me
>Talking with some other girls at lunch
> They're all taking about how much they dislike this girl but can't admit how much they don't like her to her
>Best friend and I decide to see what she's like and if the rumors were true.
>Have math class with her, she sits across the room from me.bitch fit
>Teacher stands up from his desk.
>" Today we will be getting new seats!"
>ohboy.jpg
>Get seated next to "The Girl"
> lets call her N
>I introduce myself to N
>Turns out she's not that bad, just has the occasional bitch fit.
>Get to know her over the next few weeks.
>Help her with her math, knowing that she doesn't know jack shit about math nor does she care for it.
>Still help her because I'm nice and can bear her.
>Starts getting flirty and starts talking to me out of class
>Up till that point I have never had a female friend so talking was a bit rough at the start but we worked out way up.
>Eventually exchange emails, then phone numbers.
>Everyone knows we're talking (small school about 200 or so in my grade).
>start face timing and talking a ton.
>N and I start to hangout at each others houses and go places.
>Shit is getting real.
>She then starts to show whats she's really about.
>Becomes obsessed with me, probably because I'm the only nice guy to her.
Part 2 coming up.
>>699524313
With you 100% on that one. That whole, "When you're a kid, you want to be an adult; when you're an adult, you want to be a kid" thing is really true, I'd say. The responsibilities pile up and nothing seems as simple as it should be. Then again, the other people my age (early thirties) all say the same thing.
I grew up on a farm, went to school in the town about a two minute drive away; the town is about fifteen minutes from the city I live in now. I went back out to town last month for a wedding, for the first time in about eight years. When I moved to the city, I resolved to leave that place in the past, even though its so close. Its a big city and getting lost in the present here is easy.
It was so different. The high school is way bigger and is half college now. There are new residential neighborhoods, with houses way more elaborate and expensive than I thought I'd ever see there. The old golf course is all houses now; the new course is absolutely beautiful, with this big club house on a hill, at the end of a long driveway. Everything was just so different and driving down the main drag was somewhat bitter-sweet. The gas station I used to go to was gone, so was the park my friends and I would meet at. It was so strange.
I've been going through old yearbooks and pictures recently and its really amazing. I have so many pictures of the farm I grew up on and never wanted to live on. Now, I would give anything to live there again, if even just for a week, just to remember accurately. After we sold it though, the people who bought it bulldozed everything and built a new farm from the ground up. The place I grew up is gone and its strange how far away from everything that makes me feel, even though it was just a short drive away.
>>699524401
Please go on
>>699528477
I feel you anon. Here, take another one I wrote.
Embracement of Crimson
The candlelight danced around the room vividly, with it being the only bit of light in my life apart from what stared straight into my eyes, right in front of me. Time was slow. Everything between us faded and quickly the only thing I could see was her. I stared into her eyes deeply to see that her once aqua happy filled eyes had become a sombre pool of despair. I stood there, not knowing what to do - this was the only time I would ever see the walls of her heart come down, even just for a moment. I couldn’t take it any longer - her sadness was too much to bare. I walked forward and swiftly embraced my one true love. I could hear the tears of her soul cry out to me as her heartbeat became the only thing I could hear. After what felt like an eternity, her arms moved on her own and accepted me. Time now stood at a standstill. The moment was perfect. This crimson beauty that was worthy of being known as the the red headed Aphrodite had no choice but to pull down all her walls to let out her pure and utter despair. Even though no tears were shed, I could tell that this was by far the most unsettling and gut wrenching moment of her life and my own. My time was at an end, and I had to pull away. Once I did, I found her crying. Not because I had pulled away, not because the only man she loved couldn’t be with her, not even because she was being forced into a diplomatic marriage. It was none of that. It was the simple sadness that she wasn’t allowed to have feelings, for the Queen of the Underworld could only hurt those who betray her and use all her allies as her pawns in a game of sick chess. She never asked for this. But she has to use her only pawn to continue down her path of destruction. The candle blew out, and all I could see was that beautiful crimson red hair… the same hair that I first saw on that fateful day when I died.
>be me
>20 yo
>virgin
>Im a patient TOC in rehab
>my father has terminal brain cancer
>I haven't seen my only two friends on a year
>no motivation
>I feel the loneliness so deep inside me, that I've started to simulate conversations with another people who are not there.
>I have strange feelings and conversations with myself about what it would feel to kill someone
>I feel that I'll end up in prison or dead.
This is gonna be a long one /b/ros
>my best friend
>let's call her Regina
>her and I hang out literally all the time, in all my classes, we help eachother with assignments, joke around, meme and scheme
>have a girlfriend of 4 years at the time, keep this in mind but it's not that important to the story
>me, Regina, and two other friends take a hiking/backpacking trip
>now I'm spending literal days with Regina
>some points on the hike it's just her and I like always
>fall DEEP for her. I am now crazy about her. We had things in common before and I knew her, but after this trip I really KNEW her.
>but I have a gf so I keep my feelings tucked away, and ignore them
>fast forward few months me and gf start having problems unrelated to Regina
>gf and I break up
>some time goes by, I still have these feelings for Regina
>her and I hang out like always and we're laying in her bed (we did things like that but never hooked up)
>tell her my feelings
>"listen Regina...I dont know how you feel about me..I know I might be just a friend but I have these certain feelings towards you. I'm constantly thinking about you, I'm always looking forward to next time we will see eachother, looking forward to your texts, and hearing your voice. I'm crazy about you..."
>said almost exactly that plus a little more
>she freaks out
>she's just spewing all these things how she's never had a decent relationship, how she's been in my position, and basically just throwing all her insecurities on me
>I'm crushed at this point
>she storms out
>I storm out, embarassed
>drive home listening to Foxing and crying my eyes out
>three days later I text her
>she acts really short with me and is extremely rude
>I call her out on it but didnt text me back
>a month and some change later I havent spoke to her since
What do?
>>699516197
>be me
>ugly short shitskin
>meet girl on omegle (text chat)
>talk for hours
>she thinks im cool and gives me her number
>text the rest of the night
>text all day everyday
>1 week later
>"anon, can i see a photo of you?"
>shit.jpg, this is probably the end of it
>i send it
>surprisingly enough, she doesn't stop talking to me, but doesn't comment on my appearance at all
>too beta to ask for a pic of her
>she even text first all the time
>get the idea to search her phone number on facebook
>find her profile
>she's ugly and fat (big ass chin)
>i stop texting her
>she keeps texting me
>finally block her
>be months later
>i miss talking to her
>she might've been ugly and fat but she was nice and fun to talk to
>feel like hypocrite
>now don't have anyone to text
>it'd be too weird to text her out of nowhere, she would probably ignore me
>deleted her number anyway, and now i cant seem to find her facebook
>>699519063
this fucking pasta again
>>699521377
You'd give up instead of working your ass off to become rich and fuck all the plebs?
>>699528761
great prose. solid expression through images and relation to universals.
A shotout to all you depressed faggots so close to love yet still so far away. This one is called Hide
A wet man does not fear rain
He smiles although he feels pain
Invisible knives protrude from the heart
Defend them from twisting or be torn apart
Master the art of self directed lying
To keep the fire inside from dying
An arid desert to keep from crying
Yet with the energy to continue trying
A man seduced by forbidden love
Always must wear a glove
Blinds half drawn, half light shines through
When he speaks the meaning numbers two
A boat floats away untethered to the dock
The captain is crazy, headed straight for a rock
A bird flies away from the flock
With a key to a chest with changing lock
What if a man gave it all away
Trying to clear a cloudy day?
Could you blame him if he lie
In the single ray that shine from the sky?
>>699528609
>N starts spreading rumors that we are dating
>I'm ok with this at the start but I didn't expect all the attention
>This has never happened in my life so I don't really know how to react.
>Just rolled with the flow for a while.
>Started flirting more, and the more we did the harder I fell for her.
>The rumors keep getting worse and worse.
> At this point I was purely confused.
>Didn't know if i should just keep it up or start telling everyone off.
>Texting begins to fade, less flirting.
>The face times become more like "Who can get the other one to cry/disconnect"
>One day I had had enough of all the crap and rumors I had to put up with her.
>Texted her telling her not to talk to me
>Ifuckedupandcantgobacknow.jpeg
>N becomes saddened that the boy she once liked so much is now telling her to never talk to her again.
>No communication for months.
>Move into a bigger high school.
>Feel bad that I told her off but pushed it back into the back of my brain.
>Never really wanted to be popular because of the rumors and all the stuff that had I had gone though.
>Became Kinda shallow/depressed for a while.
>Seeing her now she is the most beautiful thing ever.
>Missed being with an awesome girl because of some stupid ass rumors.
I've hated myself ever since. I just wanna go back and tell her that I love her and to correct the past.It eats away at me now.
>>699523473
>get rich
>fuck bitches
>win
You have your mission, anon. Now get to it.
I struggle with depersonalization.
>I basically feel like I don't exist, everything is fake, it's an illusion blah blah blah
I hardcore believe in c onspira cies. I'm almost 100% certain that the government is controlled by some alien beings that have it out for me.
I don't think the world exists, it's just a simulation or something, because the real world either never existed, or it ended. I'm leaning towards never existed.
I don't know what I am or how I think of these things but it hurts my head to know that my head and everything else isn't even real and never has been, it is just some immaterial thought that isn't within anything.
What am I, if I don't exist but I think??
I just want to fucking exist.
>>699516584
shit.
>>699523957
Fuck of edgy summerfag I hope you die, I'm being serious I actually hope you do, this is a feels thread it's not the place for you I actually wouldnt mind if you killed yourself
>>699529699
You should message her, make up an excuse and apologize
>>699524016
this fucking text.
have you seen this one?
>>699530256
If you have a way of contacting her bro then you should start talking to her again. There is a chance she still has feelings for you, it's never too late and you might feel better afterwards knowing you tried. Just be sure thats it's what you want.
>>699529453
You tried anon, give her nothing. don't text her. don't call her. don't bring her up in conversation. if she cares about you she'll text you back, when she does, unless she's offering you her pussy, don't respond.
>>699530236
Lovely poem anon.
>>699525947
Have you tried mechanical turk? could possibly help you back on your feet, so you can start running again
>>699531030
I do still have a way of contacting her. Its a matter of me manning up to do it is all it is. I just don't want to hurt her like i did in the past.
>>699530256
14-15 is a weird age. 9 times out of 10 "love" is just an infatuation and guys thinking with their dicks an girls expecting prince charming.
But hey, what you feel may be the genuine article. Hit her up and apologize for the shit you put her through and hang out. She might still have those feelings for you
>>699529699
don't feel like a hypocrite, there's no reason to get with a fat bitch unless she'll look good if she loses weight, and willing to lose weight. Don't feel bad just because you didn't lower your standards like other betas.
However, if you genuinely love her and can see a life with her working out and being happy then go for it.
>>699521770
>>699530778
Summer is over retard
I hope you know that some people still care; it's not me but I know they're out there.
>>699531088
Thanks dude. I was just thinking about texting her today too but I really needed the motivation not to. It just really sucks because I miss talking to her and I miss being with her. It's not so much the rejection part I'm depressed about, it's that I think I lost another friend.
>>699531466
Thanks for the recomendation. Reading about it as we speak. Making money isn't my biggest problem tho, but I wil check this out. Thanks anon, appreciate it.
How do you guys cope ? Cause I'm starting to lose it
>>699523192
I laughed.
>>699531948
Yeah and it sucks, but texting her back when she's being bitchy won't give you your friend back. You two have a lot of history so she will look back one day and feel dumb for cutting you off and overreacting.
>>699531603
Thanks bro I guess I'll try to talk to her again. I guess I'll never really never know unless I try.
>>699532215
Help
>>699526230
Hadn't read this. Thanks anon. I truly appreciate your words.
>>699531506
I think you should go for it bro. If it something you do truly regret then you should have no problem trying to fix it. Just remember to think with your brain and not your dick. Make sure you really love her before doing anything. This will eat at you for a long time so either act on it now and get it over and done with or suffer through the pain.
>>699532215
Riding a motorcycle. I'm not kidding, on a sport bike, you feel like you are flying. Free. Happy.
>>699532215
Just be tough.
>>699532634
Have u tried bettering/loving yourself and doing things that you genuinely enjoy doing? It helps me, just go lone wolf and do you.
>lost my mother to cancer
>lost my sister to cancer
>lost all my money from drugs
>lost my job of 14 years because of complacency
>my friends have all deserted me
>nobody calls me, ever texts me
>i cant go on like this much longer
someone please help me
>>699532724
Will do. Thanks for the advice /b/ro.
>>699532892
But I'm tired anon, so tired
>>699532215
we dont
and no one can help you.
i was put into a psych ward at the start of this yeaer and im even worse than before. no one wants to help you, just lock you up when they think you might hurt others.
>>699527823
Cringy pics like this make everyone in the feels thread look like cucks. The planet doesn't revolve around pussy
>>699532215
Find a hobby, travel to different countries, find a partner and forget your past. When you put your mind to something nothing could be easier. And deep down inside you know all thats preventing you from achieving happiness is your own excuses.
>>699516197
>be me, today
>on my way home from store, just got a new gallon of chocolate milk
>paper bag gets wet, glass bottle rips bag, shatters on floor
>mess everywhere, stained rug included
>I can't even get the $2 deposit on the bottle
kill me
>recently doing sports in school
>working out everyday, eating healthy, making friends
>trying to forget depression
>sike
>i relapsed like a little shit tonight
>amazing how one person can tear down 3 months work in just under 10 minutes.
>>699516197
I really did..
>>699533127
Anytime man
Before i packed my bags
And left all this behind me in the dust
I had a place that I could call home
And a life no one could touch
>>699527471
Almost everyone misses out on this. Quit being a bitch. Only chad thundercock gets to take teen girl's virginity
>>699533193
No one gives a fuck about pussy. Getting pussy isn't a problem, I can fuck as many sluts as I want. What I can't do is bring the girl I love back, nor the feelings I had while being with her. That's what the pic's about.
>>699532215
Could just do what I do and drink every single night.
>>699533870
Oh well I guess I can't comment then, never been in love
>>699533978
kek
>>699523716
This hits home way to hard.
I was really motivated to tell a girl from my uni I love her today, but I didn't. And now I feel weird, like I have no goals which I can accomplish in a short timeframe left to pursue. I feel empty, but not sad. I thought i was just being impulsive because I'm off my medication so I just went took a nap to get over my desire to tell her. Maybe I was just fooling myself. I'm too scared of getting rejected and ruining our friendship.
>be 20 years old
>have exreme anxiety after having been cheated on in the past multiple times
>have gf for 2 years
>solid 9/10 still together, took her virginity in hs, etc
>she studies abroad in barcelona for 4 months this coming fall
>she hasn't even left yet but i'm already starting to resent her for the anxiety she'll be causing me
>she's never given me a reason not to trust her
>still don't trust her
>.
>>699527471
fuck it man.... this shit made me cry
>>699524559
>Wife died
>Mum sick
>Both children killed themselves
His dad is the real MVP
I don't socialize, I don't flirt with women, I have zero game whatsoever. Im about to start college and I've never had a serious girlfriend, farthest I've ever got is kissing. I lie to myself and say that my loneliness isn't the source of my depression, but I know deep down that it is. I don't want to try because I've never had a good experience with girls and I can't imagine it ever happening. I'm on the brink of suicide, all I feel is emptyness and dread. Even things that should make me happy don't. I'm not sure what to do. Nothing makes me happy, no hobby interests me
>>699523355
feel
>>699532215
Night skating with some music in my ears
Sorry guys got to go now. Hope someone felt. Take care..
>>699527471
did that shit when i was 8-10 lucky me.
not full on sex obviously but meh
>>699535368
Legit cried. Goddammit, that's so sad.
>>699533397
How'd that happen?
>>699529699
I'm like best friends with a girl kind of like this. We don't really have any intentions of dating, but she's super sweet, and is always complimenting me even if I'm doing stupid shit, or looking ugly. It's good to have positive people like her around. I'm dating another girl whom I love very much, but the fat ugly girl is my best friend.
>>699535539
fuckin god dammit dude
>>699534948
Oh hell no mohtherfucker, I've seen this before and I'll be damned if I see this again.
I don't need these kind of feels.
>>699519488
First of all you ginormous lying faggot, no way you started med school at age 18 unless you completed your undergrad at 18 which simply does not happen.. stop lying about stupid shit online to make random strangers feel bad for you you lying sack of shit
>>699535633
I thought I was his everything but I'm really just an insignificant person lol Honestly why do I even bother anymore.
>>699534919
I think it's best you tell her about your anxiety
>>699535964
R u a femanon?
>>699536100
Ofc it's a femanon, men don't go on eating binges when we get sad. We have more sense than that.
I was finally learning how to be normal.
I felt normal, I spoke normally, I acted normally.
I could flirt and talk and do all the things normal people do but I feel empty and disconnected from everything.
It feels like the only thing I have in common with other people is that we're all humans.
I just want to go home. I want to be a kid again and have no knowledge of this world and the people around me.
fuck this stupid place, I'll never feel at home.
>>699536345
I do, I love food, i comfort eat
>>699524559
Sad
>>699536345
Right and right. Wow I feel exposed.
>>699536594
Yes but do you eat enough to undo months worth of exercise? Men tend to comfort eat less and it's easier for us to stay in shape
>>699536345
Im a dude and I binge eat when I'm sad, but that's only because I have an unhealthily high metabolism.
>>699532215
Spend time outdoors.
I like camping and fishing.
When I'm out overnight, all I worry about is physically surviving.
Catch fish for dinner if you have none.
Make a fire to keep warm and cook.
Make water that is otherwise undrinkable potable.
Set up shelter via tent or sleep by said fire.
And when you're deep in the back country with no one else around, it's just you and you're thoughts.
It all becomes insignificant. And everything seems to be put into perspective, especially with everything else going on around you.
The sound of running water.
The animal life stirring about.
The vastness of the night sky filled by an endless amount of stars.
It's all so theraputic, yet humbling.
Anyway, I digress.
Pic related. OC I took a few days ago.
>>699536852
Never done any lol
>>699536633
Did this guy cheat on you or what?
>>699536594
>>699536907
Huh I guess I was wrong. I just haven' t met any men who comfort eat, besides my uncle who has a legit eating disorder
>>699536852
I comfort eat, but not to the point where I lose months of exercising. Plus, it's gonna bite me in the ass if I have practice tomorrow.
>>699536633
There's a reason /fit/ has the "Don't lift for women" meme.
Improve not to be with someone else, but to be the best possible version of yourself. One day you might realize that the person you looked up to isn't worth your time.
Btw eating junk food one night won't do shit to your diet, stick to your routine and exercise and you'll be just fine..
>>699530631
Holy fuck
I'm here for the first time in two years cause my girlfriend just dumped me.
>>699532215
weed, valium, kratom and alcohol
>>699537026
Oh well give it a shot. Being in shape is a great feeling, even if you aren't ripped
>>699537383
I don't even wanna watch that. Fuck that move. Fuck her.
>>699537407
Stiff upper lip mate, you'll be fine.
>>699537035
He cheated on me and made fun of me to his new girlfriend. it's not like I haven't been cheated on before but I just can't get used to it.
