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No need for any context. Just let it all out.
I'm paranoid
People that enjoy cucking are degenerates and nu-males.
It's very difficult for me to cry.
When i want to get my cat to come to me, i whistle. I don't know why it gets him to come. I never trained him to come on a whistle. I guess that it irritates his ears or something. But if i whistle, he'll come and jump on my lap, even if he just jumped off.
For the last hour i've been whistling hotel california at him.
how do ppl get away with sharing certain material over kik group chat without getting caught
Milf porn is the cure
Anyone who's
>liberal arts major
>has kids before 25 or out of wedlock
>is not Catholic or Orthodox
is a worthless human being
i fucking hate black people so much
not all of them, just in general
>>699239471
You probably live around American blacks. American blacks hate black people too, those are the loudest supporters of black causes ironically.
>>699238532
>>699239124
Hello me
The timer on the washing machine is lying scum. It's been at "4 minutes" for the last 10 minuntes.
>>699238402
Women are better than men. They just are.
>>699239619
No?
Im worried ill run out of money.
You guys aren't shit.
I feel like life is an endless cycle of sadness and happyness. What's the point of being happy when you know you'll be sad? Life is pointless. I might as well shoot myself. Aside from that I'm alone as shit and can't become attached to anyone. Family hates me and friends think I'm an asshole. Coworkers don't appreciate my hard work.
>>699238402
I'm depressed
Been fucking her for 6 months and I wake up panicked every morning afraid that he found out.
>>699238402
I'm one of the SysOps that program the world you think is real. Our viewers are a bit bored of Trump, Ebola and no one cares about Zika. I'm thinking of adding a chimp reality star to later run for President of the USA in 2024 and maybe have North Korea suddenly explode in military might. Gary in Biologicals is crushing the idea because he wants more attention given to Ebola and Zika. Geez... our viewers are bored with that, we need more rediculous stuff to watch in your world. I want something to top Trump. Well, maybe a mob uprising against the wealthy, but that story has been repeated too often to be interesting.
>>699238402
Don't fucking talk to me like that bitch. We're the same fucking rank, you hold nothing over me. I knew where the keys were and your ass was no where near on the line. You just like taking big in front of them. You like kissing their sweet NCO ass. You're suppose to be my peer not another thorn I'm about to wildly ripping the ever living fuck out my ass. If you ever talk to me like that again I will beat the shit out of you.
I get mad when 4chan doesn't have any thread's that allow me to experience schadenfreude.
>>699239619
There's two very strong opinions about women. Either they are superior in every way, or they're disloyal whores who would ditch you in an instant for chad or more money.
I like to think that men and women are nearly identical. The only reason people have to tread one way or the other is because of Memes and stupid internet tales, which is some people's largest source about the "intricate mind" of women
>>699238402
I fucking hate that stupid meth bitch and im glad I left her nasty ass
But knowing shes doing meth now and getting raped by hella niggas and sleeping in some tweakers backseat upsets me and I feel bad
All her own fault, she used meth, I left, then she was evicted. Her family cut her off and she lies alot. I pity her pathetic existence and it bothers me that she bothers me still
>>699240455
More Ebola please.
I literally live with the perfect girl for me, but I can't be with her because I used to fuck her underage sister and now I'm in a weird sort of friend zone with her.
>>699239372
>this
I hate summer vacation and can't wait for school to start
>>699238402
I'm so miserable. I pretend not to be when I really am all the time. Dragging on this stupid ass fucking relationship, knowing he's still in love with that other woman who is better than me in every way... He only said yes because he pitied me. He doesn't actually love me. I will not and ever be good enough to meet his expectations that are way too high. Fucking fuckity fuck.
I think I'm trapped in my relationship I don't even want to be here, these aren't my kids FUCCCCK
Stop getting my hopes up then talking to other guys and flirting with them while I'm talking with you and stop being an asshole to me all I really want is your love
>>699240535
This
Vodka and milk doesn't taste half bad
fuck people that are wrong and think they're right at all times.
Blacks are super guilty of this.
>inb4 THEY'RE JUST CONFIDENT BRO
>>699240872
Literally in the same position rn
>>699241056
I mean, you're pretty close to a white russian there. Which is a great "get drunk without realizing you're getting drunk" drink.
I've been in love with the same person for nearly a year,and I had my chance with her so long ago but I was in a relationship so I refused. Then she got into one, and we kinda made each other break up with our partners, and then we were single again. Now, I though this would be my chance, but she doesn't seem interested anymore, we still hang out and such, but no signs of wanting anything more. And I tried so many times, but no progress. Can't tell her I love her because I'll choke. And now I spend my nights looking at the ceiling and thinking about why I'm such a fucking idiot for not taking my chance when I had it.
Most amazing girl I met in my life, most beautiful as well.
I can't get this uncomfortable thoughtour of my head about crushing people's teeth.
Omfg andy sixx is so fucking hot that i just wanna suck a log of shit out of his ass hole and use the log of shit as a dildo to fuck my pussy with and have the bacteria from the shit fertilize my egg cells and impregnate me with a retarded human shit baby and then I want to give birth to that retarded human shit baby and lick its retarded emo human shit baby ass crack and suck on its rock hard retarded human shit baby balls and fat fucking throbbing retarded human shit baby cock until it cant take it anymore and then shoots out a giant fucking load of retarded human shit baby cum all over my mouth and then i want to spit out thebretarded human shit baby cum and use it as lubricant to finger my ass hole with. God andy sixx is so fucking hot!!!
Everything is going pretty well in my life right now and I'm terrified that I'm going to lose it all for no reason
>>699241368
Omfg andy sixx is so fucking hot that i just wanna suck a log of shit out of his ass hole and use the log of shit as a dildo to fuck my pussy with and have the bacteria from the shit fertilize my egg cells and impregnate me with a retarded human shit baby and then I want to give birth to that retarded human shit baby and lick its retarded emo human shit baby ass crack and suck on its rock hard retarded human shit baby balls and fat fucking throbbing retarded human shit baby cock until it cant take it anymore and then shoots out a giant fucking load of retarded human shit baby cum all over my mouth and then i want to spit out thebretarded human shit baby cum and use it as lubricant to finger my ass hole with. God andy sixx is so fucking hot!!!
I'll go to omegle and say I'm a girl and roleplay with guys. I'm a straight male but for some reason I like to do it every once in awhile. Here's proof, this is from earlier tonight
>>699241509
http://logs.omegle.com/e4f2970
Forgot the log
>>699240710
More support for Gary... great. Don't you want a war with North Korea? Wouldn't a chimp for president be funny as all hell? Oh, that's right... you are in that world, would kind of suck for you.
I spent 2 weeks talking to 'survivalists' for shits n giggles. The majority of them are the dumbest, most paranoid pieces of moralfag shit I ever had the displeasure of talking to. They take the cult mindset to a whole new level. I wonder how many of them will blow their brains out when Clinton gets elected.
>>699239372
God doesn't exist.
Your priests molest children, and the church covers it up.
You're probably a piece of shit.
:)
>>699240872
at least you have someone
I'm alone
I'll probably die alone
I'm kinda in love with 2 of my friends.
I wish suicide was socially acceptable.
Most of the time I'd rather fap than fuck.
Being sober sucks.
Chipotle is better than qdoba.
Orange is the new black is dull.
Trump isn't that bad.
Weed is one of my least favorite drugs.
>>699241598
Probably about as many who did both times Obama got elected.
>>699241750
Whats your favorite drug?
>>699238402
I've been together with my girl for almost 2 years, but recently went to a party and a girl kissed me, feeling so guilty and currently my gf doesn't know. This maybe sounds a bit pathetic but what do i do? Is this even a big deal or am i making it one?
I'm depressed
i don't really want to live anymore
>tfw no gf
>>699241460
I feel that
>>699241509
Most girls on Omegle are guys who are doing the same thing. My ex used to go on Omegle pretending to be a guy.
>>699241598
I know nothing about survivalists, why would they kill themselves over Clinton getting elected.
>>699241259
Just have to slip her a roofie and cum in her butt. It's how all the kids express true love these days.
I think I'm gay, I wanna kill myself for a week or so
>>699241880
Valium was my first love, but once I kicked that habit I became a huuuuge fan of lsd and 4-aco-dmt.
Coke is pretty fun too :)
>>699241981
Yeah, the fact that I'm sure I've been on the receiving end of this makes me feel a bit better about it. It's honestly kinda fun trying to write in a way to excite arousment.
I'm sorry. I miss you a lot. It's been really hard for me lately, and that's why I pushed as much as I did. I hope we can still be friends.
Happy birthday.
>>699241954
She kissed you?
...and you didn't involve yourselfin that kiss at all?
You didn't feel like it was fun because of the fact you have a girlfriend?
>>699242004
Because they're overly emotional, mentally unstable twats with severe anger issues. Especially toward women.
The payload doesn't push itself.
>>699242182
When I see posts like this I always kinda pray it's the person who I want to hear that from irl randomly posting here.
>>699238402
bob
bod
dad
mom
elle
tit
wow
bub
one of these is not the same
>>699242044
Why kill yourself over something so trivial? Who gives a shit if you want to fuck people of the same gender? Just do what makes you happy; everyone who "disapproves of your lifestyle" can fuck off.
>>699242264
I was incredibly fucking drunk, I did involve myself in it but it was a lousy fucking kiss, and we only did it once.
>>699238402
Too many people accuse others of being gay. Last guy who accused me of being gay said "That's it! That proves it! YOU ARE GAY!" Hrmph. I swallowed his cum, whiped the cum he had on my lips off and told him "I have no idea what you are talking about."
>>699242044
That's a pretty short time to be dead
>>699242044
I thought death was permenent. Are you one of the UnDying?
>>699241977
Sorry
>>699242401
Your name start with M?
>>699242488
Then it doesn't mean shit and you're fine.
Now it's just a moral issue. How would you feel if it was her who was incredibly drunk and kissed a dude?
We're you more wrong in doing it or more wrong in not telling her?
I just went for a run and now I feel the urge to cry.
>>699241750
God i relate to that too much
>>699242793
Why?
from some angles she looks doofy af and from others she looks like angelina jolie
perspective is weird like that
>>699242784
No.
I actually was hoping yours did, too
I know i shouldn't care about my virginity, intelligence and physique. I know it's irrational. But i still do and I can't help it. I can't help wanting to be a sexy and smart and successful and king of the world and I wish I could help it, so that maybe I wouldn't hate myself for being none of those things.
I fucking hate all of you.
I would have gladly taken a bullet for you fucks.
But no. Now I see that you're lying sacks of shit.
You especially, you fucking ass. Eight years. Eight fucking years we'd known each other. We've been through so fucking much, and in ONE CONVERSATION it's all over. I honestly hope you die. I hope you all die.
And you. You fucking cunt. Three years, and you end it like that? You shameless filth. I'd give my right arm if it'd kill you. I'd sacrifice all that I own if it'd kill you.
I don't usually hate people. I usually don't hate, period. Those bitter feelings are what weighs humans down, makes them focus on the petty bullshit. Normally, I'm above that. I have more important things to worry about.
But I hate you.
I hate all of you.
I lost everything. Everything. My job is my life now. Nothing else. Why bother going back for fall term? I have no future now.
I hate.
>>699242793
Got raped during your run, didn't you?
>>699242841
Lots of reasons, but the easiest one is because I am bipolar and stopped taking medication.
I'm not looking forward to the up coming months.
I hate being poor, but I know I won't do anything about it since I have no motivation to do anything productive
I'm looking foward to getting Xenoverse 2
Some days I feel really horny then go to a state of not wanting to masterbate.
I wish I could stumble upon her again and maybe I won't get nervous and hide from her as I stare from afar.
I wonder what's after death.
I miss her. I want to turn back time and tell my past self to not ignore her. Don't ignore her because of pier pressure from the other guys at school. I founded someone who I felt happy with. I blew it. I really fucking miss her. I wonder if she browses here since she's one to do so.
>>699242727
A lot of it is just my mild psychosis making me extremely paranoid that I'm gonna be hauled off to jail even though I don't do anything wrong
>>699239609
This guy knows.
>>699242963
Sort of, by my ancestral spirit that's possessing me from the future to manifest itself physically for the end times though.
>>699238402
Dismemberment is actually difficult
>>699243136
Damn, sounds like you need to look into a shrink.
>>699242960
I hate to peck, but what is the 8 years thing about?
>>699242889
Y'know, it'd be really funny if we were thinking of the same person.
Girl, first name starts with M, last name starts with L?
I was with a girl for the better part of a year, I hated her. We broke up last year.
A month ago I found out her and one of my good friends did weird sex roleplay on paper while we were dating.
I have completely disowned the friend, am I in the right with disowning him?
>>699242953
I feel you anon
>>699243295
Me and this fuck were best friends for eight years. Some of my fondest memories were with him.
Then boom, it's over, just like that.
Can you pick which damn toy puppy you want already? Your child just shit her diaper and everyone can smell it. You have already taken over 15 God damn minutes trying to decide which damn toy puppy to buy and i cannot take your bullshit anymore. Change your child's damn diaper already wtf stop picking a toy for them for fiften God damn minutes and leave my damn kiosk alone already. I think changing that diaper should be fucking priority. Also your stupid ass kid already chose which puppy they wanted but NOOO you have to ask them 100 times "which puppy do you want? This one or this one?" until they fucking pick out the one YOU want. stupid ass bitch
>>699243446
Over a woman?
I shit my pants sometimes (mostly at home)
>>699243314
If that's all it takes to make you disown a friend, no... you are not wrong. You did your friend a favor and made him have one less shitty friend.
>>699243497
No, because I don't like liars, and I have self respect.
>>699243298
Funny, but very akward!
And nah. Last name starts with R.
Plus this is the last place she would be. Was more of a goody two shoes
i came to trump 12 times yesterday
Not sure what it is, am I ugly or just not the guy you would want a relationship with? I would at least like to know it so I can accept/improve.
>>699243446
I was close friends with this dude for 5 years and had to cut him. He wasn't the best person for me to be around. Sometimes life gives you tough choices.
>>699243293
No. They are designed solely to keep people operating within state-sanctioned parameters. I need people who know how to operate with this knowledge and hand, not people who will lecture me about how I'm crazy and need to take pills.
>>699238402
Fuck i would trade all my money for just some real friends.
I actually enjoy occasionally tripping on benadryl/diphenhydramine and think to certain people, however rare, it is addictive
>>699243719
Life fucked me in the ass. I lost the woman I thought would be the mother of my children, my house, my entire social life, and my dog in the span of six months.
>>699243793
Curious, is there really no one? Like not even one good friend?
I was fucking a married chick for 4 months, now I'm in love with her and she's back playing happy families, while I'm left broken and full of self hate
If you're schizophrenic/schizoaffective, just deal with it. The side effects of the antipsychotics are almost worse than just being crazy.
>>699243853
I'm far from home. There are childhood friends that i keep in touch with but it seems like everyone around me either wants my money or associate with me because i have money like they do.
>>699243922
Nope. Not in the slightest.
That's like telling diabetics to deal with it instead of taking insulin.
>>699243702
I've come to grips that it's my personality. But it isn't a bad thing. I get that my personality may be too "eccentric" for most, but fuck most. I don't want most. I want someone who can match my caliber. Someone who is a fit for me; not someone I have to bend and warp myself for. I'm me and if they don't like it they can eat the saltiest chocolate balls there are
>>699243823
I've tried benadryl a few times, it just makes me feel like shits crawling on me and that shit is moving in my peripheral, but not in a scary way. Made it really hard to sleep.
>>699244019
ouch.
You know, it's never too late to find new friends honestly. Are you a social person after all?
>>699243725
If that's the case, I would just try to assure yourself that any entity in your brain that is trying to take over or anything like that is not real and/or is just a part of you and you have to accept that.
>>699243922
I'm with you. I fear the day they start forcing me to go back on my meds. Playing "normal" and ignoring things other people don't see and hear is hard.
>>699244022
No, it really isn't.
>>699243922
What's "dealing" with it?
I think our sexual behavior and attraction is fucked up because our DNA thinks we are still hunter gatherers yet we live in a very different world now
I’m Rick Harrison and this is my pawn shop. I work here with my old man and my son, Big Hoss, and in 23 years I’ve learned one thing. You never know what is gonna come through that door
I'm a closet furry!
>>699243922
>>699244022
No I agree with the first guy. Meds help for a minute but always push me worse than j was before. I tried to off myself a few weeks ago. After that didn't work out I stopped taking my meds and felt millions of suns better
I want a futa loli to shit in my mouth.
I'm lonely but I don't like socializing
>>699243847
Jesus H Christ. I'm sorry anon
>>699244268
You are all of us
>>699244043
you are right actually. Still, no one ever mentions it's my personality, people tend to tell me that I am a very friendly/funny/likeable person. Ya know, occasionally I can even get hookups, but the ones I really like never like me back. And whenever someone has actually feels for me, its not the other way round.
Am I a retard?
>>699244197
I'm a closet fake furry. I do it to get my carrot wet. I pretend I'm having real sex when I'm getting furry action. Furries I know think I'm into it.
>>699244138
I said it was a part of me and am capable of identifying when apparitions are externally concocted for a longer lifespan.
I seriously feel like people underestimate how sickening mind control really is.
>>699244126
I've been told "i'm the most charismatic person they know". Definitely not shut in. But when i do try to meet some genuine people it goes well. Untill they find out the money situation. They it changes completely. Its like i have to lie about who i am.
>>699244268
Get a dog?
(Though i prefer cats)
>>699244183
I agree with you, but it's rather because people who would have died back in hunting days manage to reproduce anyway. Now we have a bunch of retarded children running around breeding and making more retarded children because everything is safe enough so that anybody can live to pass on their genes as long as they can get their dick in a pussy.
>>699244268
Welcome to /b/ and this guy says it best: >>699244366
I miss my exlover. I need fuck buddies. Would fuck a black bitch.
I really wish I haven't introduced 4chan to my friends when I was an underaged fag. I'm constantly in paranoia and fear that one day, they would call me out on a post that I would never talk to them about.
>>699238402
I want to become a trap.
>>699244316
Eh. Life goes on, I guess.
I actually have a plan set in mind. I got a few goals to achieve before I'm 30. If any of then are left unfulfilled, I'll off myself.
That's literally the only reason I'm still alive, a promise to myself that I won't kill myself for a few years in the hope that it'll get better. Pathetic, huh?
I'm going to sleep now. Have a good one, anon.
>>699244393
I kinda understand, I've had episodes myself where I've "lost control" and had a more violent side of me try to get me to kill my family. Shit has kept me up at night but everytime it shows up I always try to keep it away but just downplaying it's existence in my brain.
>>699244400
Well okay I get that I'm similar to that, but I'm average when it comes to money. Just so I can understand my anon friend, about what kind of being rich are we talking here? Like, really alot?
the best sex ive ever had was with this freak who'd have me shove hot dogs into her ass
ive been dumped multiple times trying to get other girls to do this
>>699243601
Ahh, it would've been so cool if it actually lined up.
Well, if it's any consolation, I wish you the best, anon. If you miss her, I'd really encourage you to reach out. My M's been busy this week, but I'm probably gonna get to talk with her later today or sometime soon. Things between us have been rough and this'll be the first talk in a long time, so hopefully I don't fuck it up too badly.
>>699244604
Fag, just don't give a shit what they think. Besides, them being on /b/ is equally damning. Just don't do anything stupid.
>>699238402
My current fuck buddy thinks I don't know "she" is a guy. I'm waiting for "her" to tell me so I can finally assfuck "her." The blowjobs are great, handjobs are okay, but I want to do some real sex sometime soon.
>>699244691
That's fucking hilarious. You have a fucking hot dog fetish cause of one nutcase.
I secretly like fucking tiny men of ethnic minorities because I have a hard on for colonialism.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GiqOsKngc-c
This song.
Please. Please let it be her.
Jesus Christ I feel so alone.
>>699244678
Honesty i make about 90k a year after taxes. Salary. I just hate when ever somone comes to my place it's always the "Whoa you live here?!" Or "Whoa you drive that?!"
>>699244368
Cause no one has the balls to say it to you. They're a bunch of spineless cowards that would rather not hurt your feelings thang be honest with you. Plus you can like a person without wanting to be in a relationship with them. The personality of a social friend or acquaintanceis very different from that ofor one you would date.
And you like those girls ( I assume) because they're nothing like you, and it's kind of a vicarious fuck, but since they're nothing like you They don't get your personality, and people of scared of the things they dont understand
You probably don't like the others because you know they like you and a big part of it is the thrill of the hunt.
So I decided not to stay in my room, that centipede can have it. I salvaged some things grabbed a snack and have been reading halo in my basement. Starting to feel tired but sleeping in my basement seems like a worse idea than sleeping with centibastard, I'm just gonna tough it out.
>>699244818
i really like sausage
Somewhere along the line I became an emotionally devoid antisocialite, and I don't think I'll ever be able to change that. I pretty much pushed everyone who's ever cared about me away. The last couple of years have pretty much finished me off I'm pretty much done living a passionless, pathetic existence, and I don't know how much longer I can keep this shit up.
>>699244649
If you're still up to read this, my plan is the same except I chose 40.
My first promise like this was 18, but that failed
>>699245142
Do you eat them after youve assfucked her with them?
>>699242791
I'd be pisses, and i think she has every right to be pissed at me. However, two people at the party kind of know her, but they don't really talk anymore, I'm fairly certain they saw the kiss however
>>699244653
Thanks for listening and actually trying to relate instead of just insisting that I seek professional treatment, man. Honestly that's much more relieving than anything I've spent money on.
I do downplay it a lot. That's part of the problem. It'll leak out regardless and I need to learn how to channel it into something productive, but fuck man, the walls close in a lot more than they used to, and I hate how reality itself gets stranger whenever I stop taking meds.
>>699245158
Do you work?
>>699245267
we decided that was too far. they looked really clean though
My first girlfriend fucked up my trust with women, now i found a kind of sexual chat between my new girlfriend and this other guy. She says she doesnt rememeber saying it and she was hacked. Im parinoid everyday if im being lied to, and if i am ill kill myself cause im done with trying in every aspect and only getting the pain and misery. Life almost seems not worth it. Happy 20% bullshit 80%. ...fuck, that was real..
>>699244696
True.
And ehhh. I haven't seen my M in a few years and I'm not sure that our paths should cross again right now.
But I wish you luck with yours, and remember: we will all die one day, don't be afraid to tell her how you feel.
>>699244950
Hm. What if you actually meet people who are also in that range? Maybe it wouldnt matter to them then
After years I'm still not over my ex-girlfriend. Maybe because she left me. She cheated on me but still. Sometimes in my dreams we are back together and happy. When I wake up in the morning after that I feel hollowed out and really unhappy. I know this all sounds really just like another fag crying himself to sleep, but it is emotionally extremely hard on me and my self-esteem.
>>699245273
If she ends up hearing from them in the future, it's over. There will be no argument. The fact that you didn't tell her about a kiss is no different than fuckin a rando on top of her.
The past come back to haunt you /b/ro
>>699245317
Yes I've tried making friends with coworkers but it seems to be getting increasingly harder for me to connect with anyone. I must be socially retarded or something
>>699245158
You just explained my life, you're not alone anon
>>699238402
I cheated on my gf, only because the girl was hardcore christian and offered me anal because she "didnt want to lose her virginity" and she was "in love" with me. Like how do I say no?
>>699245678
Di you smoke weed? Maybe move to a small town. [Not too small of course]
Fuck you, motorcycle asshole. Have some respect for the dead. Did you not see the flowers in the office?
i have a nice big knife and my stomach is looking prime.
>>699246009
That will hurt
>>699245831
Used to. had to quit so I don't lose my job
>>699238402
I kinda fucked up today.
accidentally revealed that I'm a poorfag
to a girl i like, and she asked if I really needed
the money she could wire it to me.
i fucked up because I went on a rant saying shit about how i'm good and other things I don't want to say since it gets really specific, but shit. I never felt like less of a fucking man in my life, wtf has my life fucking come to and shit... I think I need to "an hero" or something, the fucking shame of it though... fuck it. I don't know what else to say except that people have always looked down on me, or at least that's what it feels like. I hate this fucking anxiety and depression I fucking feel. I just lurk on this site when I'm fucking down and I need to get off to some crap off /gif/ or /b/
I fucking feel like shit.
And there ain't shit anybody can say that can make me feel otherwise. :/
>>699245283
It's no problem, I honestly haven't had a chance to talk about my alter ego coming out with anyone else before. I do have problems with it leaking out to, often giving me intrusive thoughts to try kill or rape someone. It will also argue back with me when I try to downplay it so it can make it challenging. The worst part is this didn't even show up until probably about 9 months ago. But ever since it started it just won't stop bugging me.
>>699245591
This
So much this
I actually used to be fairly social in highschool, had a large circle of friends and I would often do things outside of school with them. After school finished my depression got slowly worse, and i pushed all my friends away, i literally dont have a friend in the world.
Every so often i have dreams of my old friends and I laughing and having fun like nothing ever happened. Its so fucking painful.
>be me, fucking normie
>have relationship for 3+ years
>gf suddenly wants to end relationship over text
>given no reason other than me and her mom don't get along
>no texts back, or calls
>spiral into depression to the point where I want to kms, but can't cuz im a pussy
>can't think of anything but her
>can't even listen to music because all my music is about love
>can't smile without thinking of her right after smile fades
>call off work and tell boss i'm sick
>have to read 4chan to not think about anything about relationship.
>>699238402
i need to order new mouse feet for my deathadder and a new mousepad
>>699245515
They guys in my "group" are all one uppers. I've never been like that. It's always "look what suit i have" or "you see this watch?" kind of guys. I try to socialize with them but i don't care about that shit anon. It's a huge circle jerk or "huehuehuehue look how much we are better than you." Literally we've gone to clubs bought out the biggest VIP and just shame girls who cannot afford to hang out with us. One of them, Jared, Literally asked a girl "do you think this chateu fucking whatever is better than the french blah blah i served you earlier? oh you cant tell the difference? HAHAHA WOW GTFO" It's fucking disgusting anon.
>>699245031
Hm okay I guess you're right in a kind of way. Except one thing, I don't feel like they're that different. Like really, dont know how to explain actually. And if I try to be different, I do it on purpose to be honest.
I just hope I meet someone else/new, 2016 wasnt too good to me. Or actually maybe not, I'm trying not to think of all this stuff but it doesnt work
Imma go for a run now, thanks for listening tho anon
>>699246113
Weird. How old are you?
>>699238402
every day i feel myself slipping in to madness, i am growing more insane
Holy fucking shit I'm sick of this place it literally needs to be nuked more than th fucking Kaaba
Every day I wake up at the same time do the same shit a clock the fuck out
I'm going to go insane
>>699238402
Fuck you. Your a total piece of fucking garbage who believes he's right about everything all the time. You attempt to prove this by shitting intellectual garbage out of your cocksucking mouth, and surround yourself by yes men, as if your successful in any way shape or form. Your a 19 year old VIRGIN who has no job, no car, no scholarships like you said you would get you disappointment of a human being. You even have the audacity to criticize those around you in spite of this you liberal hippie piece of shit cuck. I hope to the fullest extent that you read this and know its about you. Do all of us and those of us who have the pleasure of not knowing you, and kill yourself
>>699246186
:(
Still, cheer up, it's better to be sad in a bugatti than in a nissan. Trust me, I don't think u would like to swap with me.
I find it a bit annoying hearing all this bullshit surrounding religion.
>Fucking godless heathen, probably a shit person
>Lol, still believing in the floating sky man, what an idiot
Like, unless you're being a major cunt about it and trying to shove your non-religious/religious beliefs down people's throats or just being a complete fucking idiot about them, does it even fucking matter what the other guy does?
>>699241718
Not even religious, this just seems to fit
>>699246289
22, honestly, I'm pretty sure weed partly had to do with it. Cause the first episode occurred after smoking. I can't really give it up though cause it helps me with anxiety and before weed I had major alcohol problems. I know with my personality that it's a vice for a vice. And weed is far less damaging to my health than alchohol.
I think i've finally met a girl that fits my shitty way of being.
I have absolutely no chance with her, not in my wildest dream.
>>699246544
Honestly once you've experienced salvation modern existence becomes pretty offensive, like now you have tolerate how bad everyone smells where previously you had no idea.
I have PTSD
>>699246122
I can feel your despair, bro. You are not alone. We want a happy social life but have no one to go to. After eroding our self-esteem we are unable to talk to strangers with the fear of being rejected or ridiculed, right? So we fall ever so deeper into the void, right? Like a nightmare you can't wake up from.
>>699239609
That fucker!
>>699246465
Honestly anon i grew up really poor. That was my drive to get more want more. Now it just feels i sold my soul. My car is just a hunk of metal with a logo. My apartment is just bricks and mortar. No real warmth is here. I've had one real best friend in my life. He was killed in Afghanistan when i served in the military. We made so many promises. "one day we'll race our best cars against each other. One day we'll do this visit here vacation here. It just seems empty now. I made it. But. Why did i have to make it alone?
>>699246652
Definitely. Does your alter-ego have a cohesive image? Is it terrestrial in nature?
>>699246807
Like real PTSD?
>>699246104
i deserve it
Waking up and doing the same shit every day, working, then coming straight home and being on the internet or playing vidya for the rest of the day...I mean, it's not horrible but I just want to be more social and out there, but every time I try, I just have no motivation. I feel trapped.
I've dated a girl for 2 years, not many friends, only her. Broke up with her and now I'm thinking about killing myself
>>699246465
BTW sorry im venting anon..im just drunk and lonely
>>699246810
At least im not alone on this.
Its just, I try so hard to improve my life. Im currently on the best wage ive ever had, enough money to move out and have my own rental. Go to the gym 4 times a week for the last couple months, im in the best shape ive ever been.
Ive met so many people between then and now, and ive tried so hard to forge a friendship from our encounter but it always ends the same. They just stop trying, like they simply lose interest in me.
It makes me feel like Im not worth anybodys time
Every time I tell myself I'm stronger or better than this I feel like a tumblr feminist desperately trying to tell getting that she's beautiful.
It's much easier just to collapse.
>>699246982
It used to take the form of Chara from undertale (yeah I know) after I completed a genocide run. It would often try jumpscaring in my mind using the jumpscare from the game. It used to claim that itself was Chara from the game trying to control my body but over time it just ended up being a darker side of me that wants to commit violent crimes. It longer has an image attachted to it but I'll sometimes to refer to it as Chara.
>>699247611
>It longer has an image attachted to it but I'll sometimes to refer to it as Chara.
Whoops, this is meant to read," It no longer has an imaged attached" but w/e
>>699247611
Why Chara in the first place?
>>699246111
Even if I said it's perfectly okay to feel that way?
>>699238402
I killed her and left her at the piano. I locked the door and wouldn't open it. My father opened it when they began smelling it. Oh, she used to play for me alone but now the keys are rusted.
>>699239124
I feel the same anon
I love you
>>699248344
I love you too
My 'best friend' is fucking my gf.
Ive recently become racist against any race that wasn't building palaces or castles, and also I'm 18, my two adopted parents have died and I'm gonna have to start adulting REAL soon, but all I really wanna do is fuck my girlfriend right in her tight little pussy, but I can't cause I'm too big for her (she's young, legal age here, but...) and we don't know what to do
>>699247537
Aww shit, I wish we could just team up on this. I'm in the same situation, except I don't go to the gym, i do a lot if self-study for my job (selling and maintenance of computer infrastructure). I bet we would get along just fine. Let me encourage you by saying you are not worthless. Damn just by definition you aren't. You contribute to society and you pay taxes. We are just so lonely... That kind of backfired. I can feel your pain, bro.
>>699248559
All races have built castles and palaces, except black people.
I have a fucking addiction to hookers. From the upscale but especially streetwalkers.
>>699238402
I'm tired. Most of you are losers. Religion is for chumps.
>>699247854
Has to due with the first episode where it happened. Where literally it felt like Chara came into my mind and was trying to take control of my body. There was even a period of adjustment when she first took control and was just getting used to my body.
This first episode happened whilst I was in the middle of my genocide run of Undertale and I shortly beat later.
My active imagination (which is enhanced when I smoke weed) also results in me often having conversations with myself or entities I create in my mind though. So it's not surprising something like this could happen to me.
>>699249046
Same here anon. It all started for me in the Philippines what about you?
I have been off heroin and opioids for almost two years now. But not a single hour goes by without me craving that sweet sweet soul medicine.
I also hate immigrants so god damn much, not cause they take our jobs or their religion. But simply because how they smell, yell, talk and walk. Europe needs heroes like Dylan Roof and Zim Zam.
I turned away my brother when he needed help most. I haven't seen him for over two years after that.
I love you and all. But fuck, you're older than me and all you do is stay home and play video games. Yeah, it's your summer break from college but you've never had a job and you need to earn yourself some money. I know talking to people scares you but just get out there and apply to places. It doesn't matter where, just GET A FUCKING JOB!
>>699249108
Re-reading this post, it doesn't really explain much of what is actually going on in my mind, but that's just another problem I have sometimes with being unable to express my thoughts into words. I may have autism I may not. I don't give a fuck really.
>>699238402
why is ryan being such a fucking bitch when she obviously wanted the d in the sleep over
Fuck it. I've been cheating on my Marine boyfriend with an unemployed, out of shape, small dicked beta and I love it. He listens to me and does what I tell him, and he eats my pussy until I can't take anymore. He worships me, and besides I know my bf is cheating anyways.
>>699249989
How'd you meet an unemployed beta and start fucking them?
I'm embarrassed of my grundle.
>>699249989
Be careful. As a Marine myself you could lead him to suicide. You do not know what he goes through. Thats how i lost one of my good friends. There is still time to fix it. Please for the sake of those lost please reconsider or leave him. Do not keep strings.
>>699250331
Thanks Ramona!
I love being a vegan.
>>699249989
Be very careful, you don't want to forget about tits or GTFO.
I feel like people only care about me because of my penis. Whenever Im out in public everyone stares at it.
>>699250331
First of all, don't give me that bullshit. I am former marine myself, and I know the culture. He's the typical young, dumb, over confident guy who will hit on any woman who would have him. I know plenty of female marines who got just as depressed over relationship shit.
>>699246129
She fucked someone else, probably black, get over it.
I used to masturbate onto birds at a local park. Not a thing that I'm particularly proud of but I became quite good at it. I was taking zinc supplements so I was shooting massive loads and it became something of a sport to me. For anyone interested here is your best strategy. first, you need to find an isolated spot so you don't become a sex offender. I found a short kind of channel area where I saw the pigeons would congregate. Next, you arouse yourself. I was usually content with envisioning the occasional jogging lady coming over and taking a shit on my chest and that was enough to fuel the fire but if you're not as sexually charged as me just take some porn on the go. After you're good an horny, get bread. My pigeons preferred white bread but healthier birds might have a taste for multigrain. Fat, unhealthy birds are slower and easier to hit so remember that. Once seated on the bench and ready to do the deed, whip your roosevelt out and scatter bread out within a few feet of you. use your judgement based on how far you know you can cum. I was a lonely and depraved soul who could hit targets the size of a thimble at distances up to 4 feet. You wait for the pigeons to begin eating and to get comfortable with your presence. At this point, you want to coo gently and talk sensually to them to gain their trust. Now you're finally ready to cum on your bird. This is a tough part because the rapid motion of masturbation is very frightening to the birds, so you have to be subtle. Once you master a technique, you simply wind it up and let it go, aiming depending on your past cumming experiences. I always came high so I would aim for the neck of the bird and catch it right in the face. It's an extremely satisfying and erotic feeling, seeing those birds fly covered in cum, transporting it to other places in the city. I haven't done it in years but every now and then I catch myself gazing at flocks of birds, cock throbbing and waiting for them to land close to me.
I want to fuck my cousin.
>>699250684
Why don't you imagine my tits and GTFO yourself while you jack yourself to sleep?
>>699250910
Don't be stingy and help with pics.
>>699249124
For me it started in Mexico. Been doing this in Guatemala and the States. It's like a damn addiction. Been doing it since I was 14 years old. I'm in my 30s now.
It's like having this fucking "mind palace" in my mind of every fucking whore I've been with. The differences and all that. It's like collecting fucking experiences. To me is hell, i don't like it. The more dangerous the better.
>>699250776
Look man i understand. I made the same mistake myself. I was you dumb and overconfident. Now i am deviorced and lonely. I'm not gonna kill myself because i made my bed i'll sleep in it. But others do not think like us. i know what i did and i accept my faults others not so much. A life unnecessarily lost is such a waste.
>>699250795
>At this point, you want to coo gently and talk sensually to them to gain their trust.
my sides have gone into orbit
>>699238402
im a closet fag and i keep pulling girls and making them fall in love with me then breaking their hearts cause i can't keep the relationship going but i also cant tell them i really just want dicks in my ass. so i make them feel like they are the ones that fucked it all up and just leave them incredibly confused.
>>699251010
And you know what's worst... my wife has even encouraged by whore mongering. I've shot videos and pics of some.
As I said. I want out, don't know how.
>>699247144
I hope this is not a made up story because its actually really touching. But oh well doesnt matter.
It's okay. I'm gonna get drunk tonight as well, probably gonna see the girl I currently like which doesn't like me back that exact way, but oh well who cares. There are people who have bigger issues, especially ones here, so I shouldn't be sad I guess..
>>699238402
I highly regret not fucking my ex co-worker
>>699238402
Pack your shit and get the fuck out.
>>699239372
>out of wedlock
>of wed lock
>wed
>lock
The word fucking says it. You literally lock yourselves down in the eyes of some organization based on lies and propaganda (i.e. the Catholic Church).
Plz stop projecting your brainwashed ways on others as a form of right and wrong. Because that's what every religious tool does. They judge people based on what they think takes precedence over anything else, namely their belief system. Isn't belief to be told like something that is purely part of YOU? Of your person? How can you possibly justify expecting other people to feel the same?
>>699251222
Still here man. Still drinking. I guess i should be grateful you know. Maybe i need a girlfriend? A real one. Not some trophy but someone who is actually worthwhile to my being. Fuck it man. Booze numbs all things.
>>699240770
Are you the anon from the other day?
>>699251222
Also man chase what matters to you show her your worth. Maybe she'll see it.
I don't understand why people make such a big deal about birthing babies who have been proven to be crippled. The kind of disabilities where they will never do anything with their lives because they got half a brain or whatever, really serious shit.
I mean in America there's the culture of "My son is a disgusting bum if he doesn't get a job by the time he's 16 and move out shortly after", and yet you're fine with giving birth to a useless piece of meat whose sole purpose and achievement in life is to be fed through a tube and pretend its actually happy and conscious, kindof like how people imprint on their pets ("Aww, the cat's actually talking back because they meowed when I said something!")
It's delusional, disrespectful and you're a fucking monster for doing it, because you're allowing someone to live a short, tortured existence where all they know is pain and are deprived of all the potential that comes with the lucky dice roll of coming into existence.
>>699238402
Your a fucking kumquat
I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO NOD THEIR HEAD TO A SONG AND THE NODDING ISNT EVEN ON BEAT! THEY JUST NOD TO THEIR OWN TEMPO, FUCKING AUTISTS.
>>699251282
>implying you had the chance in the first place
My life is better than it has any right to be. I basically lucked into a series of jobs that has me making 6 figures. I'm a college dropout with poor time management skills. Statistically speaking I was supposed to end up alone and in a dead end job I hate despite my privileged upbringing. People always tell me it wasn't luck, that I'm smart or motivated or whatever nonsense, but it really was just right place/right time several times in a row.
Because of this I really hate talking about my life with extended circle of friends. Most of them are dirt poor and have never had a steady salaried job with benefits. I'm afraid they might think that I think I'm better than them. And I'm even more afraid that I might start to think it because I have a (relatively) big house and BMW and they can barely afford rent in a shithole apartment split with 4 other people. I met most of them through the local hardcore punk scene when I was dead broke; before moving out of my mom's house was even a remote option. So it's not like I hang out with them much outside of shows, but I really consider them friends, even if they're not super close.
>>699252567
Who are you, future me?
>>699252567
Read your story, already dislike you.
>No goals in life
>No ambitions
>No talents
>No morals
>No friends
>No gf
>No job
>No money
>No desire to live
>No guts to an hero
>I am like 0, I don't mean anything, I just exist.
>>699251487
Still here too, fella.
Yeah, maybe. I guess someone on your side could make life the opposite of what it's now. You really deserve it, man.
Yeah yeah I know mate thats alcohol.
I only told her how I felt because I was wasted and angry because seing here with someone else, not with me.
Shall I ? Anon in thread before told me to leave her alone, but I guess I'll stick to your opinion. Maybe she will. Fuck I'd already be satisfied with a single kiss, just for the sake of not screwing up so badly.
Sitting here trying to come up with what I think is a cool story (/b/ro!) that you'll all respond to. Usually, that means either admitting I'm a girl, or posting my tits for attention. But I'm trying this route, we'll see how it goes...
>>699252771
Who knows. All I can say is never stop going to punk shows. Few things in life make me as happy as walking into some run down smelly club or house show and knowing 50 people there. And most of them actually seem to like me.
I posted a somewhat vague story earlier, but I didn't say if I was a femanon or not. Link that post to this one and try and guess which one it is. If correct, I'll post tits.
why do i lack energy to do the things i really want to do? it's odd.
>>699253176
Too much work to do for nothing. Hm.
>>699253520
Your loss.
those grey alien zetas claim they eat bugs and moss and their giant eyes evolved due to low light conditions. sounds like they grew up in caves.
>>699253176
>>699245084
this you?
I literally found my 'soul mate'. A gay as fuck cliche I thought I would never use but I literally have. We 'clicked, share all the same interests' and love each other madly and are happily together but because I am still 21 and so is she I think its doomed to fail and that disturbs me because she's the girl I would want to be with for the rest of my life.
Once you've accepted that you're going to die it's painfully hard to actually try to live again.
I just wish it had happened then rather than having to wake up each day and push myself to actually care again.
JAN PAWEŁ DRUGI JEBAŁ MAŁE DZIECI
>>699253808
No, I would immediately kill a fucking centipede or any other bug in my fucking house! Keep trying, though.
>>699254050
Most of us have known we're going to die since we were kids. Yet somehow, society seems to go on. You're nothing special, just a whiny pussy.
>>699238402
bitch stop striving to be like your mother she's a cunt and she fucks with your mind on the daily. Fucking bitches
You fucking bitch
All I ever do is just care for you and love you and you just ignore me and come home probably talk to other people and fall asleep no bother to text me then you ignore me for days and come back and when I ask you why you fucking stay silent because you know I won't keep bugging you because I was so broken from you not answering me I don't want you to go again so I just stop asking and tell you I love you and you tell me you would call me tonight you didn't even text me when you got home I haven't heard from you since 11am this morning when you just boringly said you loved me and said I have to goooo I gotta go to work I love youuuu and hung up
Why the fuck do I keep sticking around what the fuck is wrong with me I love you so much but I can't help but feel you fucking don't give 2 shits about me WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I EVER DONE WRONG
>>699254334
Jesus christ man, just tell her how you feel once and for all, and if you don't like what she says or she just doesn't give a fuck anymore, then gtfo and move on with your life.
>>699254634
It's hard to just give up on someone you are in love with even if they treat you like absolute shit at times I honestly can say if she don't work out I'll kill myself I'm done going through gfs I'm tired of the same old shit life is fucking boring now
>>699254235
I was diagnosed with cancer at 18 and was told my odds of surviving 2 years was less than 15%.
I made peace with myself and my family and friends and accepted that I was likely going to die, very soon, and it never came.
There's a difference between knowing you'll die one day, and a doctor telling you in a room with your family that chances are you won't make it to 20 after 7 months of chemotherapy.
I wish I had better social skills and emotional intelligence because It takes me years to actually be good friends with someone.
>>699254118
ahh, hmm how about this one?
>>699252567
>>699254772
Why are you holding onto ideals for someone who obviously doesn't care? If you were really worried about having a loving relationship, you would seek one out. Instead, you live in the shit and drama, you've become used to it. Also, relationships take work, but if you do it right, you get what you give. Get over yourself, for yourself, and find a healthy relationship.
>>699255077
Because I'm scared
This is it
If she leaves me I won't ever find a love like that again it's already been to many times
>>699254927
Oh wait, I'm a dumbass...
>>699254927
Nope. Also, this is classic /b/ humblebrag passive aggressive bullshit, which guys are famous for here. Although plenty of girls try that shit too...
>>699255213
Same
Betas unite
>>699255246
Right, so this HAS to be you then....! right...?!
>>699242960
>>699255943
No, but it honestly does sound like a girl. She might even be in a 3 way relationship? I am curious though, is it because of all the "I hate you all" comments that you though it was me, or a girl at all? Or is it because I casually put guys down with the words "passive aggressive" which I guess could sound a little feminist-y...
>>699246111
Dumbfuck, tell her this:
I dont want the money. I want the right woman. With the right woman, I'd be unstoppable. You are that woman, (her name here).
Fucking nigger faggot
>>699256407
Since this was right below my comment, what if the woman responded with:
I don't want you. I want the right man with money. With the right man, I'd be unstoppable. You are not that man, (his name here).
I loved this girl with the best personality I could think of, but she dated some swagfag who treated her like shit. But I was just some dick head that got paid to blackmail and tell peoples secrets (my school was fucked) and im pretty sure she knew I did all that, so she stayed away. I dont blame her. I actually started treating her like shit too, ignoring her every chance and just staying out of her business cause I thought she completely hated me. I stalked her a lot and got her kik without her questioning it. My friend who also liked her, said something stupid and I told another friend of mine. Thinking it would help, he spread it around school and I kicked his ass for it, just that single handedly ruined my other friends chances, who honestly was the best of us. He actually cared about her, comforted her. He really deserved her, but she stayed with the swag fag. Theres about 5 other events Im just not gonna bother with telling, cause generally they're worse and I'd rather not remind myself.
The only thing to make me cry almost all the time is when my mom's death is brought up. It happened at the worst time when my parents were going through a divorce. I stayed with my mom along with my bro and sis. We weren't doing well financially and to make matters worse, my sister blamed herself for a while for her death. My mom went to dancing classes occasionally and that night she asked my sis if she should go or not, she said yes. On the way back, my mom pulled over to help a broken down car, an 18 wheeler was coming down the road and couldn't stop in time, presumably killing her instantly. I woke up in the morning to my brother over me crying telling me to come downstairs. My dad was waiting for me a told me the news. The weeks that followed felt like hell and probably the only reason I haven't killed myself is cause I didn't want to make matters worse.
Other then mentions of that I'm almost never sad. Not necessarily happy, but just emotionless.
>>699256297
Wild guess honestly, well I sorta took the 'fucking kill any bug' thing into account and assumed you had some built up anger but I guess not, well I'll take the 'feminist' thing as a hint then and guess this one
>>699247539
>>699256901
Then say:
"Fuck you, whore."
That's the point where you grow a pair and stop being such a fucking pussy.
Yw, anonilingus.
weng is a faggot
>>699257004
Too cobbled together to be real. Calling bullshit.
like actually this weng kids retarded
>>699238402
Marvel is SUPER OVERRATED
>>699257108
Come on, man, that's not even a complete sentence! Give me more credit than that! Also, the feminist comment was meant to say that I'm not a moody passive aggressive cunt.
>>699257160
Well besides maybe lookin for a while to find the news report on my mom's death, I don't have much proof, least none I want to give out for the first story
>>699238402
sometimes i cover myself in butter and roll around on the ground just to pretend that i am a slug.
i'm a fucking leftist liberal but i hate niggers and dem refugees
>>699242960
Who hurt you, anon? Who hurt you?
I gave that bitch everything!!! A ring a car a house, a fucking baby!!!! And she sleeps with a cop while I'm at work.. 2 weeks after the divorce I fucked her best friend, but that didn't do justice .. I get to see my kid on the weekend, I never wanted to be a weekend parent.. If it was for the kid I'd fucking shoot this cunt!! Damn feels man...
>>699240455
So it is the Matrix?
>>699257429
Anything that traumatic is expressed much more clearly and precisely laid out than your story. You can literally see the random ideas coming into your head as you type them here the way you wrote this out. TL;DR - your story telling needs work.
I can't stop thinking about her, we still talk everyday but she ended it, (it was long distance) because she apparently just wasn't ready, afraid to hurt me, and she didn't want me ruining my life to come visit her n shit. I don't know what i did wrong, but she made me feel for the first time that i can remember, actually feel. 8 months later she's still the first and last thing i think of waking up and going to bed, it still hurts.
>>699238402
I by turns think I'm depressed, insane, or psychopathic.
The really pathetic thing is I'm almost certainly not any of them, I just subconsciously want to be something unusual to stop having the most average, boring, grey life ever.
>>699240383
You should be shot fucking loser
>>699242448
elle is 4 letters
>>699257670
Well I'm definitely not the best writer I can tell you that, found the news article
http://www.fox4news.com/news/1599634-story Mary was her name
