Anyone else alone on a Friday night?
I'm pretty down right now.
New feels thread incase anyone wants to join in this one.
will join. I miss her. been alone every friday for a year now. wish she had gone to the doctor earlier.
Gf won't come over because it's too far, but is staying the night at a house with a guy who lives 10 minutes away. She's also an alcoholic and gets real handsy when drunk. She also has a record for making out with and fucking other guys.
Kys
Kill yourself
>>699224555
Im home alone watching the dogs while my wife is partying in Steamboat springs with her friends
>>699225132
This.. This right here made me tear up.
You deserve better anon, you truly do.
>>699225132
Why the fuck would you keep her?
>>699225132
You're an idiot dump that bitch
>>699225361
Colorado or NV?
>>699225132
This is a feels thread and I'm mellow high so I'll spare you rudeness and just say, man, you need to drop her. Get a good woman. Despite what the Nice Guys, autists, and women hating betas on 4chan say, there are actually good women out there. Find one.
Sitting her,e listening to music and having a few drinks. Been rather down for a while but I have no excuse to be, which makes it worse.
Don't have any feels stuff but ill bump some comfy stuff for you anon.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RScZrvTebeA
>>699225929
I was in your exact position for the last few months, still haven't kicked the drinking but it gets better anon.
And don't feel bad for being down for no reason. The suffering is legitimate, it isn't a competition to see who's the most deserving of it.
The worst thing you could do right now is spend all your down time by yourself and wallowing in it.
Go out, get some sun, spend the days outside and around people, even if it's strangers.
https://youtu.be/clI-Oswg1ZA
>>699225462
She also knows I have clinical
depression and extremely bad anxiety
>>699225514
>>699225621
I'd dump her, but she's the girl of my dreams and the only girl who can stand me.
>>699224555
>>699224964
>>699225132
>>699225202
>>699225361
>>699225462
>>699225514
>>699225654
>>699225748
I feel all dis .. put on some music you love, put it on loud, have a drink, and buck up dudes. Fuck this shit. Been alone long enough (after numerous "serious" and racy relationships) that it's now a lifestyle i embrace. There's only so much bullshit one soul can tolerate before before you realize you're better off without it. Doesnt make it easier, but at least it has its own brand of satisfaction. May you all find your peaceful place.
>>699226421
Your dreams are of a girl who is unfaithful? You need new dreams.
>>699226615
Not the unfaithful part. We took a break for two months and she seemed a lot better, then I found out she isn't.
Kept making major mistake with my ex still really into her. We didn't talk for a whole year yet she came back and made me fall for her again. I've liked this girl for 6 years now my entire high school life and most of middle school. This summer we had a fling we fucked for 7 hours while her mom was out of state in her room. We went on one date and when she broke up with her boyfriend she came to me for comfort. She always comes to me. She won't date me though she will swallow but won't date me. I should feel good because I get benefits of dating without commitment but I'm not happy with it I want her to be mine. We are seniors in high school now.
>>699226421
Hey man there are 7 billion people out there, half of them are women, I'm positive you can find more then a handful that will care about you. She sounds like a pos, dump the hoe.
>>699225132
^continuation^
I just found out it's not only her spending the night there, but it's also a big party.
Oh neat a feels thread.
>meet girl
>really just want a friend because I'm lonely as all fuck
>she only talks when she has problems or wants to get fucked up
>constantly have my own shit slowly destroying me and making me want to shoot myself
>no reply whenever i want to just talk or chill
I've already deleted all of her shit but god damn man I just want someone to put in a little bit of fucking effort.
>>699225132
>>699227102
Step 1: Crash that shit
Step 2: ?
Step 3: Profit
>>699227184
This shit runs deep. Everyone wants you to be there for them but that's it they won't be there for you and act like you don't exist after they've used you.
>>699227184
You got a kik?
You can tell me your woes as they come, I work but I would try my best to reply promptly and help as much as possible.
I know what it's like to trap that stuff inside, it will eat you alive.
>>699227184
Literally same situation anon (:
http://www.youtubedoubler.com/?video1=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3D_fB_r_tan20&start1=&video2=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DRScZrvTebeA&start2=&authorName=SafetyMoose
>>699227184
That's how I was with my girl for a while
I'm the feelsfag with the unfaithful gf now.
>>699227184
Hit me up I'll put in the effort to have a nice chat with you
>>699224555
Why are you not smoking some weed bro . Weed plus Ted and pizza is life
When I get really drunk alone in my apartment I listen to Dixie's Land and cry.
Mississippi transplant here.
Those soldiers died fighting for their home, their land, and their family, and the whole country thinks they were fighting for slavery.
Never forget the brave souls.
>>699227465
This offer applies to you two as well.
>>699227463
>>699227466
>>699227102
You know her better than us, anon, but i remember a time when the girl i loved was invited to a big halloween dress-slutty party, supposedly no extra guys. I was super pissed off, but through circumstance (smallish city) i ended up there anyway. I remember how stupid i felt about being pissed off about it because it was lame and boring as fuck - it was only my imagination that made it out to be some kind of orgy fuckfest by implication. She left with me. Get over it or crash that shit. Or SWAT it? Whatcha gonna do?
Just moved back in with my family, smoking a bit so i look normal and they cant see that i hate myself more than i hate living.
>>699225132
Dox her shit mane
OP here.
Its Saturday now but still im gonna say it's Friday. I didn't post my woes yet so here goes.
This is a long read so I thank you for reading if you do and also thank you for joining the thread.
I Got off work about 11:15pm and then on the bus home, the loneliness started to kick in.
New friends I made don't bother to make any effort to hang out with me and I'm the one that has to make plans only for them to make an excuse as to why we can't chill.
Old friends never stay in contact or just ignore me completely or make excuses.
It's been atleast a couple months now since anybody has invited me to any kind of event or night out.
My best friend moved and cut himself off of social media and never replied to my last text I sent him and that was about 3 months ago.
I guess I'm somewhat to blame for the lack of people I have left in my life . When I started dating in my last year of high school, three and a half years ago, my world just revolved around this girl and I cut off a lot of people but tried to retain the friendships I had.
So I convinced myself to believe my only source of happiness was her but recently weve hit a rough patch in our relationship and we've been on break for a while. We still see eachother here and there but it just seems like she isn't really into us anymore. I get it she's young and the world is her oyster and I told her time after time if you want to end this then it's your call don't let me drag you down cause I'm a failure who hasn't got his life together.
She probably wants to end it and is just scared of hurting me or scared that I might off myself or hurt myself.
I guess I'm just coming to accept that nobody really gives a shit and the most I can do is take it day by day, tend to myself and work on bettering myself and hopefully I can prove myself wrong.
Day by day.
>>699226421
Shaun?
Thanks for the support bros, >>699227184 here, I don't want to inconvenience anyone, just really needed to rant somewhere
>>699228368
I got you bro. If you need to you can post your worries here and I'll see if I have any advice to offer, if anything I can offer my sympathy.
>>699228001
My social anxiety makes it really hard to go to high population areas and talk on the phone, believe me if I didn't have it I would totally crash the party. Thank you for the advice though /b/ro
>>699224555
Nice trips.
please respond
>>699228360
>>699228227
fuck man :( If you're sure she's not into the relationship anymore i'd say just end the relationship yourself. Especially if you feel that she's scared to break up with you because she worries that you'll hurt yourself. If anything my man she's keeping you down. If you don't already, start working out, eat healthy, keep yourself busy doing what makes you happy.
For the friendless thing, that sucks but it can be improved. Whenever an artist you like is in town, go to their gig, talk to people, buy drinks, get numbers, etc.
I hope it will get better for you Anon. I really do.
I just want you faggots to know that even though I'll never truly know you homos, I love you guys.
>n-no homo
>>699228360
SHAAAAAUUUN!!!
>>699224555
I'm alone every night. It doesn't matter. In a few short years, I will have been single for as long as the entire duration of the Qin Dynasty.
I'm just glad there's /b/ that I can vent my frustrations to/with. Tonight, I was fantasizing about finally telling my biological dad's side of the family that I can never give them or my parents the son they really wanted (soldier, Christian, etc), so I'm done dealing with them and no longer want them in my life.
Someday, and someday soon, I'll do just that.
>>699228900
Not Shaun
>>699229055
>>699228578
Mostly just the usual depression/self esteem attacks I get at night. Been seeing a counselor and trying pills for 2 years but they jerk you around so goddamn much with medicine i still havent found anything that works.
Going to lurk thread and post pictures to bump noq
Alright bros idk wtf is wrong with me I got a decent amount of friends that I could go hang out with or talk to but tbh I never really feel like doing anything... I just sit in my room doing pretty much nothing all day and i just feel empty as fuck have no motivation to do anything at all and I have no idea why also get really irritated, annoyed, and pissed off at the smallest things for no fucking reason
Hey /b/ros
>>699225132
Here. Just want to just thank all of you for cheering me up a little bit through the night, I think I can sleep without a seizure tonight and maybe I'll grow the balls to dump her
>>699228368
>that image
Holy fuck I know that feel all to well. As soon as I get home from work it hits me like a ton of bricks.
I'm almost 19 and have never been in a relationship before. Couple months I just started making conversation with a girl I knew through a friend. We started talking more and me and it was obvious we liked each other. After a month or so of flirting over text and stuff she tells me she really likes me but because she's Mormon she cannot date and has to go on group dates with other Mormons. I was so bummed out about this but we still talked regularly until recently which we don't really talk and I have no idea why. She's easily the most beautiful and kind hearted girl I have ever known and it hurts to know I can't be any closer to her. She seems distant to me now and I would give anything to have that feeling that someone reciprocates your feelings towards them exactly
>>699225929
Holy shit thank you for the music real fucking comfy ty anon
>>699229953
Anytime anon
>>699229528
Have you tried 5-HTP? Not perscription and you can get it at like Walgreens or rite aid.
You just can't take it and drink.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NpOtkhBcc8k
>>699229584
Sounds like some kind of depressive disorder. Have you always been that way or is it recent?
Okay guys here's my feels:
Ever since I graduated high school all my friendships have slowly disappeared. I no longer talk to any of my friends. It's been 4 weeks since I've hung out with a high school friend and 3 weeks since I hung out with other friends. It's all because I never message any of them and they never message me. It all just makes me tired of people and I want friendships but fuck man these "friends".
Pic semi related
>>699229342
That's probably my favorite image from every few feels threads. It really does hit close how true this is, as dumb as that sounds.
Does anyone have that picture it was ingame of club penguin and it was a kid saying " i love this game .. My parents have been fighting recently " something along those lines
>>699230382
Relatively recent ig past year or so i'd say
>>699230456
>implying women can't experience loneliness beyond shallow FB tier neglect.
>>699228985
OP again.
Thanks anon. I just don't have to heart or balls to do anything like that especially when I could just be overthinking due to my insecurities. I'll just play this by ear for the time being. Hopefully she'll fess up some shit soon. It honestly feels like this isn't bothering her as much as me. She has a lot of stress to deal with as it is and I've come to accept that I'm the last thing shes worried about which sucks but we'll see how things play out.
I just wish I had friends to take my mind off shit and actuslly put half the fucking effort I do into maintaining decent friendships.
I wish I wasn't so socially anxious I could just stumble into a bar or group of people too.
So the least I can do right now is tend to myself. Make some good changes for my life and starting tomorrow I'm gonna start eating better and hopfully quit smoking as well.
Thanks anon.
>>699225929
Damn I like it.
>>699227466
I relate to this image. I haven't messaged anybody in like three days now but I'll cave in eventually.
>>699230262
No, haven't tried that. Been through most MAOIs and the standard shit. Actually got to have a genetic test recently for it, but apparently the insurance requires me to try the shit listed as "mildly resistant" before i can try something in the recommended column.
>>699230752
Relatable i just genuinely want a girl that is interested in me.
>>699230953
I stopped messaging " her " and guess what happened , nothing but i guess its for the best.
>>699231204
me & heroin
Ask yourself.
>>699230983
>MAOI
I don't quite know what that is.
Your insurance sounds pretty terrible. What do you do in your free time?
Im at that point where i moved, but none of my friends answer my messages or calls. They didnt help me move. The 2 who were willing ended up flaking on me. So i moved alone. I helped all of them move. I even got pizzas for us. So now i have a weeks worth of pizza. Fuck my life bros
To be honest, I kinda just wish I had people to hang around with now and watch some shit or something. Its camaraderie I miss.
I'm in need of some good venting myself. And this may be rather long...
Basically the back story. When I was 5 i was molested. A month later my dad died. A few months after that my mum went full mental from all the shit. After her having a few abusive relationships and constantly packing up and running away every few months dragging me with her. I realised one day I was 16 and had no friends. No confidence. But thankfully my cousin introduced me to his friends who really took a liking to me. Spent the next 2 years learning how to socialise with people enjoying life and living the moment. Purely the happiest ive ever been... Made out with a few chicks but never fucked any. Always got friendzoned but didn't care. Then at 18 I freaked the Fuck out one night while in a different state for a family members birthday. And that was the start of my anxiety attacks. Got so bad I locked myself away for the next 3 years... When I finally found the courage to leave the house and start to talk to people again. They wanted nothing to do with me because I vanished and got sober... So I was boring. So back to being alone. Then I ended up trying to pick my life up though. And got a job. Met a chick. We were both interested in each other. Start dating. Then finally slept together. Which she walked out halfway through sex and broke up with me via text the next day... With no reason. Lost my job a week after that. That got me pretty bummed... Then she started playing mindgames for the next 2 years... During this time though I managed to find some really good mates. That I spoke to daily. We're always there for me. As I was there for them. So was no longer alone. Then after the mind games with ex stopped. I ended up getting out and meeting a new chick. Started dating her. Lasted 8months. First serious relationship. Loved her. But due to my mental problems took her for granted and treated her like shot without realising it. Broke up with her because we only fought when talked.
Cont
>fuck my life
GF broke up with me 4 months ago. I'm over her, but it lit a fire under my ass.
Been working on myself, making progress. Got a raise, bout to get a promotion, working on a car, planning on going to school in the Spring and get a bunch of extra shit done between now and then.
Wish I had a solid friend though. Got some co-workers I enjoy working with and I've always got my brothers but I'd like to have someone a little more relatable. Wouldn't mind a new women either, but I'm not worried about that too much.
>>699231609
MAOI is just the standard prescription stuff. Haven't done shit with my free time for the last year. Literally stayed in bed for days, getting up for a few minutes, watching some vids then getting back in bed because fuck it.
Starting college next week so I'm actually hoping to become a decent fucking human being who goes out, works out, and is generally not awful to be around.
>>699231701
Pls
>>699231632
You are literally me. And now that I moved they don't even bother to text back anymore usually. I went to visit a couple weekends back and thought I had plans set up with a few of them, particularly a girl who's helped me through so much I've gone through, and that I've helped as well, who I'm fuckin in love with, and even she flaked. I spent my birthday there visiting alone, getting fucked up and nobody even said happy birthday.
>>699231247
What?
>>699231701
Sorry for the long story :(
Hit the bottle pretty damn hard after that. Started throwing up blood. Tried to kill myself daily. But stopped last minute because I'm a gutless coward.
Tried to get back with her. She rejected me because of how much of an unstable cunt I am. Got drunk and suicidal again. Friends tried to cheer me up but didn't work. Turns out she rejected me because she had moved on and didn't want to tell me. Few months of drinking and just talking to my mates. Finally decided to try dating again. Finally met a chick. Hit it off instantly. Was like love at first sight. Same interests. Ideal woman to me. Both liked each other. Then one day I found her in bed with my best mate. Freaked the Fuck out. Got into a massive fight and ended up just walking away from all of them. Lost all my mates. The chick I liked. Hit the bottle started to throw up blood again. Realised I needed to change. Got on antidepressants. Got a stable job. Move back in with mum to save money. But I'm still alone /b/ and have no idea what to do... Daily thoughts of offing myself are shitty. Any attempt at finding friends or a partner. They end up just not replying anymore one day. And all I have in my life is work and you guys...
Does anyone know a good book about depression and drugs and how they got better (kind of like a autobiography)
>>699232291
I moved on the day before my birthday... i know the feeling. The day after it was just me, a few pizzas and boxes of my useless crap.
>>699232017
Gotcha. I'm not too familiar with medications and all that.
Until you go to college do yourself a favor, force yourself out of the house for three or four hours a day. Not out of necessity, but in recreational time.
It will be difficult, you will hate it and think it's stupid but it will help quite a bit. Somewhere by the water is your best bet, you can bring your phone if you have one and browse /b/ but at least you will be outside.
College could be very good for you, an easy way to change your habits in a new environment.
>>699224555
im with you op. trying to distract myself from the self-loathing with this.
>meet gf 4 years ago
>instantly fall in love
>gf was taking accutane at the time we met(medication for acne)
>one of the severe side effects is depression
>gf starts to suffer from severe depression
>i even walked in the room once when she was about to cut herself
>always there for her when she needed me to be
>cancelled plans several times just to stay home and comfort her
>>699232637
gaaahhh it flipped. whatever..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gIxuJQ1HAmc
>>699231456
I've never been held, but I've held another
>>699232637
Looks good man. Reminds me I was gonna buy some beers and a bottle of whiskey for myself just to numb this emptiness and completely forgot to before work. Fucking hate the early closing hours on liqour stores in Canada.
Tomorrow though.
>>699232515
You aren't alone for sure /b/ro. My move was supposed to be a fresh start, a reset from all the bad decisions and memories and shit from that town. Spent my birthday day waiting on messages or calls from friends who were supposed to hang out with me, driving around and seeing my first apartment with my ex fiance, revisiting old memories I'd made with friends who aren't interested anymore, etc. The next day I was supposed to see at least that girl before I left, but she wouldn't even answer me until an hour after I said I was leaving to tell me to let her know I got back. I never did and she didn't ask again.
>>699233152
shit, bro. what's the closing time there?
>>699224555
You're gonna be OK, anon.
>>699232788
>friends distance themselves for me
>didnt care because I loved her despite her flaws
>made me the happiest i've ever been with someone
>fastforward 2 years
>gf is a lot better
>depression hardly affects her now
>gf finds new group of friends
>im happy for her
>>699228227
I don't know what to say anon but I want to say something just to let you know that I care for you. No matter who you are, I think you're wonderful.
>>699232528
I'm looking forward to it, I figure I can either finally get my shit together here, or i can at least say i tried and just end it without regretting too much. Really want to go out and run but its been 87 and up with 80% humidity the last week and a half.
>>699227184
Dude holy shit are you me.? Literally going through this bullshit right now, it sucks. We will find somebody who actually gives a fuck someday anon.
>>699233152
The LCBO near me in Rosedale is open till 10 thankfully. Picked up some Canadian Club before she closed.
>>699233407
It's bullshit bro, fuck people like that. I confronted her about it and I got a small paragraph about how I'm her "best friend and would never use you" I've known her for like 2 weeks and we're best friends? Get the fuck out with that shit, toxic whores man.
>>699233266
I dont even feel like charhing my phone anymore. None of them have messaged me back save for the one asshole asking for some cash for weed. I dont want to live here, but its my only option. I dont want to talk to any of them even if they message me now. Its been 2 weeks. Ive gotten 3 messages total since i moved.
Yeah life sucks whenever you figure out the trick to immortality and have to conceal yourself from worldy affairs in order to do the bidding of God.
The worst part is dodging agents who try to classify you as insane and realizing that there's is genuinely no body to trust or hold on to, because they aren't. fucking. real.
>>699233407
>>699227184
https://youtu.be/VOyYwzkQB98
Relevant to my feelings as well
>>699233346
>gf is completely ok now
>i think she realized she doesnt need me anymore
>she's always with her friends
>theyre all single
>i think they influenced her in someway to break up with me
>she broke up with me like 2 weeks ago
>its like she only needed me when she was sad and now thats shes okay she doesnt need me anymore
>im torn
I love her so much. it was literally one day to the next. like she just woke up and decided she didnt want me anymore. I feel so empty without her, so torn. feelsbadman
>>699229655
do some exercises get your dopamine level up, if your sad for no reason its because of bad brain chemestry
>>699234056
at first she said she just wanted a break, but now she says she just wants to break up completely. i dont get it.
>>699233723
I'm convinced that we were speaking to the same girl, got the same shit a few weeks after we met, must be a crazy bitch thing.
OP still lurking. I'm in other boards aswell I cannot sleep.
>>699233380
Thanks buddy. I wish I knew most of you guys in real life. It's crazy how close you can feel to strangers. Thanks anon.
>>699233413
>>699233280
Fuck dude. I wish it was open later. The LCBOs and Beer Stores around me close at 9 and I didn't even have time to grab on my lunch today.
I hate being sick. I hate it. I hate it.
People see my awkward/stumbling gait, the slurred speech, the bracers on my wrists and hands... The etc....
I never thought it really bothered me until I was going about my business, and a kid stopped and stared. The mom tried to tug it along, but it was staring at me. I made eye contact, and it got scared, and hurried up. That just... It's such a small, insignificant event, but it hurt me.
The other day I was feeling very shitty. I got home, and I took off the bracer on my left wrist, because that one generally gives me more trouble. I looked at my wrist for a while. I was so angry, angry at getting the short stick, at not being able to do normal things without pain, at being left out of everything. I was so angry, but I regert what I did next.
I gripped my left hand with my right, grit my teeth, and forcibly regained a full range of motion on my left wrist. I wanted normalcy, I wasn't thinking straight, I was so angry and jealous. It was so painful it transcended past excruciating into numbness. For a few seconds i could move my wrist so normal and it was so perfect. Ihate being sick , i hate it so much
>>699224555
Massive fuck up in a family of worse fuck ups, family of 6 and 5/6 have some form of severe mental illness. Only ever had attention from women, but due to abuse from females(mostly from family and before the age of 16) I hate them. So I'm essentially alone, especially now as I've sabotaged the best group of people I've associated with in my entire life and cut the two women I had in my life out. Extremely young and attractive girl wants my attention but I feel like I have nothing to offer her and I feel like she would bore me to death...
All I do is study and try to work on a project, just want some one like me to talk with consistently(which is difficult because normies and complete autists enrage me, but I'm so fucking eccentric.)
I'M SUCH A FUCKKKK SOME ONE HELP MEEEE. REEEE
so I'm alone tonight.
>>699234056
She probably feels that if she doesn't listen to her new friends she will lose them and spiral back in to depression.
Unfortunately if she broke up with you that means this new group of friends have become her new emotional crutch and they may nit be as supportive once they have to take all the weight with you gone.
Im convinced she will slip back in to depression once her obviously very shallow friends alienate her. If she comes back to you, you need to make the decision thats best for you, but dont let her take you on a rollercoaster ride of emotional BS.
>>699234056
I'm starting to feel the same way about my girlfriend, afraid she won't want/need me around anymore. We got together when we were both unhappy. She was really down and so was I. Now I feel like she's happier and just doesn't need me. But it's only been two months. Idk man, I just don't want to lose her.
>>699229342
I've got that saved, one of my favorites
>>699234360
Yeah well I guess the perk of living in downtown Toronto is shit stays open later.
When I lived in Peterborough and London it was a pain since they all closed early.
I just got broken up with. Again.
>>699233394
I believe that you can. But don't expect the change to come to you, you have to make it happen. You won't get to college and suddenly be made of different stuff, you have to work towards growth.
And heat is the enemy of any person looking to become more active. Where do you live?
I found that life always felt better in cold climates.
>>699234336
Think its standard crazy bitch tactic to make you think you matter to them so you'll keep being there for when they want to leech some more. Fuck that noise, I don't let mosquitos drain me, why let some cunt with a pretty face and shit personality.
>>699233833
I'd like to say it gets better or easier or you can find new friends or what the fuck ever else consolling can be done, but i'm over 2 months after my move back to my hometown and just drink every fuckin night and want to off myself. My best friend of 20 years is currently fucking my ex that left me, and he was the only one I thought I'd at least have to occupy my time with hanging out once I moved. It doesnt seem to be for me, but maybe there will be some balance in the universe and i hope it gets better for you man.
>>699234798
US, Ohio specifically. Pic semi-related
>>699234657
i know what you mean, man. but me and my girl were together for 4 years. we literally did everything together. i couldnt even take a piss without her following me to the bathroom lol she was like my best friend. and all of a sudden she just broke up with me. just like that. i feel as if a piece of me is missing.i just feel empty.
>>699235095
I'm from upstate NY, not sure how similar the climates are... Short hot as fuck summers and longer freezing snowy winters?
Either way, are you looking to exercise for the activity or for weight loss?
What if im that asshole friend, maybe thats why noone want s to tlak to me
>>699229342
I'd be the dude who still takes a bite of the sandwich, nothing here really weirds me out anymore after I literally fixed my own ingrown toenail.
>>699234827
Good to hear anon, time and attention are a limited resource, why let some parasite have it.
>>699224555
i went to the bar after a long day at work with my friend
she's really pretty but i'm not too bad
she gets hit on by many guys and i'm sitting next to her, sipping on my cocktail and being ignored
finally i decide to leave
as soon as i stand up, a guy takes my seat and start talking to my friend
great night
>>699235339
Last few years its been long, humid as all fuck summers and average cold as fuck winters with little snow. And both honesty, gained a bit of noticeable weight during my year of isolation, used to do martial arts and work out regularly.
>>699235095
Hey im an ohio anon as well good shit
>>699234753
Damn man. I'm only an hour out side Toronto. This heat is killing me.
>>699235299
That's what scares me most about being in a relationship, that the other person, the one that you love, can just end it in a second and leave you broken
>>699235095
Fellow Ohioan here, just wanted to say that picture is fucking glorious and sums up things pretty well anon (not only like how I feel about stuff I've been going through lately but this God awful heat shit that's been sticking around :|). I just entered this thread but that made my night a bit better, thanks :)
>>699234038
Damn this hits close to home anon
>>699235361
they're wrong, not you
>>699234657
>>699235299
Fuck are you guys me? Did you ever go on a "break" with your girl only to realize that she seemed like was a lot happier without you around before she ended it officially. I'm afraid that's where mines headed.
>>699235870
>>699235670
I'm so sorry to both of you. And yes, this florida weather needs to get the fuck out, if i wanted to live in a swamp I'd move south.
>>699225132
Aaww man why would you put up with that shit. Even if she fucks like a world champion grow some balls and find some dignity.
>>699235666
Sorry to hear that man. In the future you might want to consider relocating to somewhere further north, in addition to exercise being less unpleasant a new start is a liberating thing.
For your weight loss from what I've seen low carb and weight training is going to be more effective than cardio.
>>699236068
She asked me today if we should take a break. She said it was up to me. I said no, that would be the worst thing for me right now.
>>699230693
I'm fat tho
>>699229614
oh god this gets me... I'm so not ready to transfer to my four year college. I know this will be me. :(
>>699226421
Wow youre a complete cuck
>>699235950
https://youtu.be/uQ6iaHt9DN8
Also this
>>699230456
this is true
>>699230937
women have it easier when it comes to relationships. A hell of a lot easier.
>>699236744
Loneliness is not exclusive to single people.
They experience the same feelings as you do.
>>699236135
Thanks for the advice, I'll defintely go for weight training rather than full cardio, you're pretty fucking rad.
>>699235861
yeah dude, and i forgot to mention that my mom kicked me out 4 years ago because i was always here at my gf's house being here for her. gf's family took me in as their own.but now that she broke up with me, it feels weird being here. And i still live here but just sleep downstairs now. i still see my gf everydaybut she hardly talks to me now. she even avoids me. idk life sucks rn. and she's at a party with her fucking friends right now feelsfuckingbadman
Everyone around me would rather see me alone than debase myself to appease others. I don't get it. It's commonplace for people to make jokes at my expense about how I'm going to shoot up the place. I used to laugh along. I probably even started the myth sarcastically, but to see how swiftly people will eat it up and weaponize it reminds me how hideous I genuinely do find people. People are confusing and contradictory. It makes me head hurt. I need a fresh perspective, not just the stuffy bullshit that fills up my head everyday.
>>699236084
Right? I used to be stoked I lived here cause I was obsessed with the song "Ohio Is For Lovers". Then later on down the road reality set in, things continued to transpire and let's just say I wouldn't mind getting away and starting anew...AND GETTING TO SOMEWHERE NOT AS FUCKING HOT. Like shit seriously man, you hit that right on the nose, like this heat is just fucking relentless, it's the humidity that gets to me, the AC is busted in my car too so it's not a very nice mash up. I noticed you said you run! That's awesome I do as well but again, good lord this heat, I mean I guess it's good for cutting water weight but you also run the risk of having a heat stroke so...
>>699236986
You're welcome, you seem pretty rad yourself.
Like I said, if you have a kik you could message me whenever you need help.
>>699237167
Now I have to go listen to that song. Hawthorne was so good back in the day.
>>699232494
if you got nothing to loose, go to a comic convention or larping, look for DnD groups. Want a mate? Try tindr, maybe spruce it up about with your fashion. go to /fa/. Also try going walking every day or every other day. it truly helps. Just slowly open yourself up,it's okay to have walls but just open yourself up.
>>699230557
Pic related is this week. Got a relationship, then got dumped.
>>699237429
Pic* not pic related
>>699237123
I'm so sorry to here that man, it sounds really rough, i couldn't even imagine... Have you been looking for a new place or anything?
>>699237240
Sure man, my kik is Thawk47
>>699234056
from this green text, sounds like we are mirror images...
She'll come back. Don't take her back.
Some women are like children, they want you to take care of them.
Other women are adults who want a exactly relationship and not a father they can fuck.
Anon, it'll sting like a bitch but when she comes back, reject it. slowly work on meeting new people. Listen to some new tunes. You are the same person you were yesterday, don't try to be the same tomorrow either.
>>699237127
I feel you anon, it's amazing how petty people can be.
>>699226852
Do something about it. Say something. And if she declines then she wasnt right for you
>>699237167
I don't hate the state as much as I do the weather right now. I'm in the south so it's actually pretty with the hills and shit. Haven't ran in awhile, used to do it like fucking crazy back in 2011-12 though.
>>699237379
Right? I actually had to take a listen myself, old Hawthorne will always have a place in my heart for sure.
>>699238217
F U C K
U
C
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This is why waifus > gf
/thread
>>699225132
Here, folks, is a literal cuck. Bravo mate.
Thread is dying, bumping with greentext.
>>699229771
There'll be other girls. Trust me
You nerds need to go outside, for fucks sake.
But in all seriousness, don't let that stuff get to your heads anons, it's bad for you. Don't let your nightmares dictate your life.
>>699238947
Fucking spoiler alert plox
>>699228227
Hang in there anon, i know, everyone says this all the time, and it sounds like bullshit right now, but it really get's better at some point
>>699232293
Goddamnit. Too real
>>699238180
Ah you're not wrong, the state itself isn't bad, I'm from the southish as well, the 740 area. I definitely do like the nature aspect if it wasn't so muggy as of late, past few years our weather has just been completely wack. Dude same, it was just this year I got back into it but I was crazy into it awhile back but then I let myself go, you know how it is like..shit just happens that shakes you, take some time to try to repair and then it's like where did the time go, and then things just kinda outta hand. I gained weight for awhile there on my time off and after everything that transpired I was just stuck in a perpetual cycle at the bottom of a bottle, trying to find an escape..then it ended up pushing away the love of my life and it just went downhill, I finally fought back this year which was hard because not only was I battling the drinking but my depression as well so it was like a war on two front but..somehow I managed lmfao, I haven't drank since February and I've been getting a lot more healthy again, ex never replied to my message about being better but I don't blame her...but I felt better after sending it, guess it was my way of Vegeta's Final Atonement, shit I'm sorry, now I'm ranting. POINT IS, the hardest part is starting again, but once you get past those initial roadblocks dude you can feel it again, the way you felt before when you were running, it's awesome, it really helps me with a lot of my bipolar shit and anxiety, idk how but it does lol, I'd definitely recommend it but in this shit just stay as hydrated as possible man!
>>699234454
I cant even imagine. Im sorry
>>699234773
We've all been there. It does get better
>>699239456
Thanks bro. I'm really trying to.
OP here again. Still awake. I thank all of you /b/ros for joining in tonight and sharing your troubles and keeping this thread alive. I really hope your lives turn around for the better. I hope mine does too eventually.
Love you all.
>>699238415
Truth
>>699224555
That is literally the worst way to get someone to hang out with you.
>>699239104
Goddamnit.
Reposting this magnificent story. copy/pasted the updates, too. Will post those in a minute
>>699239768
Thank you for starting this thread. I need these more than I like to admit.
>>699240125
>fast forward ~two weeks
>she'd been acting increasingly remorseful for leaving me
>if I ever brought up that I was worried about trusting her or I was scared she would get anxious and nervous for the rest of the day
>constantly trying to prove she was 100% loyal
>one night she literally broke down crying on my chest and told me how sorry she was and that she loves me
>told me that if I want to have another girl then she understands and is fine with that
>I calmed her down, obviously, and told her she's all I need, I just am afraid of losing her because I did once and it hurt
>tell her I'll never leave her and I don't want any other
>seemed to make her feel a lot better
>about two weeks after that incident
>my cousin and her aunt were coming to stay at my house
>cousin flew in night before aunt
>I had to pick her up at the airport
>hadn't seen her in a while, she looked like a woman now
>nothing like her but she was attractive
>got her bags and went to my house
>all I did was help her carry bags in and get settled in
>but I didn't tell her my cousin was staying
>she thought I was mad and wanted a second girl
>ran home before I noticed she was there
>call her because I was expecting her to come over about this time
>no answer
>wtf
>head over to her house
>get to her house, walk in
>her dad isn't home
>call out for her
>no response
>>699240389
>walk into her room
>the light is on in her bathroom, door closed
>I can hear muffled sobbing
>knock on the door frantically
>yell her name
>after a few seconds I hear her faintly say "I'm so sorry anon. You deserve her, not me."
>ask her what she's talking about
>just more sobbing
>pretty freaked out
>kick in the door
>she's in the bathtub
>the water is bright red
>flipped the fuck out because I thought she had/was trying to kill herself
>grabbed her out of the tub and ran into the kitchen
>set her on the table, trying to find where all the bleeding was from
>she just had a few shallow cuts on her wrist and thigh
>wrap it in some gauze I found under the sink
>calm down a little and realize she's probably not dying or even close
>ask her why she did this
>ask if her old boyfriend did something to her
>she says she couldn't bear to see me with another girl
>ask her what she's talking about
>don't remember exactly what she said, but at this moment I realized she thought my cousin was a girl I was seeing
>explain that she's my cousin
>explain the situation with the airport
>she believes me after I explain
>carry her to her bedroom
>set her down on the bed
>drain the bathtub
>help her get dressed
>broke down because I was so scared just then
>yelled at her
>told her she can't do this to me, I already lost her once and I can't bare to not have her
>the yell eventually reduces to almost soft enough to be a whisper
>>699240433
>tell her I trust her now and I know she would never leave me again
>don't want another girl
>I'm just terrified she'll love someone else someday
>she reassures me that will never happen
>tell her to forget about that guy and leaving me, it's in the past
>I need her now
>eventually reduces to just some sappy "I love you more, babe" shit that would make most of you cringe
>I realized then that the guy she had been with probably fucked her up mentally too, to a good degree
>our relationship has been a lot more stable since
>no more than a few nights after that, she asks if I'll ever marry her
>hadn't thought about that until then, but the thought of it made me pretty happy
>"Sorry, that's probably really pressuring. I didn't mean it like that"
>tell her to shush, and say of course I'm gonna marry her
>her face lit up
>didn't even make love to her that night
>just kinda laid there and felt each others warmth
>slept really, really well that night for some reason
>next morning she asked where I wanted to get married
>brought up the grand canyon
>told her I didn't want to decide yet, but I wanted to go to the grand canyon with her again
>a road trip, just her and I. Soon, asked if she wanted to start planning the trip now
>she said yes right away, got all excited
>spent that afternoon planning a trip out on google maps
>thinking about what it would be like to marry her one day the whole time
>a little while after that we had the trip planned for the day after my birthday
>going grocery/supply shopping few days later
>kinda early but I just love doing stuff with her
>going to costco is fun when i'm with her
>since the trip is still three weeks away, we decided to go on an adventure in a pickup truck to the mountains that night
>>699240470
>put blankets in the back and pillows
>drove up a secluded and scenic mountain road
>laid there and stared at the stars and moon reflecting on a mountain reservoir
>made love beautifully to her there
>eventually fell asleep
>woke up just before sunrise which was cool
>watched it come up over the mountains with her
>told her I'm so glad she came back for me
>promise her I'll marry her one day
>forgot that stuff like that makes her really emotional
>she burst out crying of course
>at least it was a good crying
>held her and told her sorry for upsetting her
>told me she feels loved and is just overcome with emotion
>says she can't wait till we can be married one day
>play with her hair there for a while
>eventually head down the mountain, but wander around woods for a while in the truck
>super cliche, but we carve out names in a heart into a tree
>be me
>molest sister
>parents find out
>get sent away
>parents still try to help me out and come visit me with little brother who loves me and doesn't know what happened
>one year passes
>all of a sudden the true fully fledged realization of the horrible calamity i have befallen upon my family hits me
>soul crushing guilt hits
>start spending more and more time alone in computer
>a year goes by again
>realize i have become a sniveling wreck of a person
>extremely anorexic but not from fear of eating just complete lack of will to eat
>realize that feeling all mopey will do nothing to help my situation
>start lifting, eating, gaining weight and getting grades again
>graduate with honors
>sister goes on summer exchange program
>come back to home country
>parents are happy I'm doing well
>spend lots of time with little brother
>he still loves me so much but is 12 now and starting to become a real person now and not just a kid
>go across country to make my life and eventually pay for college
>get there
>2 weeks go by
>doing well and making money
>start getting texts from little brother
>his bar mitzvah is coming up
>asks if I will be coming back for it
>I want to so much but my sister will be there and I cant jeopardize her well being
>cant tell little brother this
>say, I dont know, Ill have to see my work schedule first
>he says, 'thats what i was afraid of.'
>.....
>first time ive cried in awhile, and it's all my fucking fault...
>>699225929
11/10 post thanks g
>>699240527
molest your brother, problem solved.
you're welcome.
I'm no good at Green text so I'll do it in story form
This is a personal experience about 4 years ago.
I was in my sophmore year of highschool, everything was going great until the end of the year. I have an LD in math so I was scared as shit I was going to fail and be held back, but that's not important.
I had a girlfriend at the time 10/10 perfect, turns out she's perfect at cheating too. She's really good at deception, proven when she convinced everyone (even my own friends) that I was the one that cheated, resulting in a loss of multiple friends. Not a day goes by when I don't miss her though. She fucked me over but God damn she was the best girlfriend I've ever had.
Fast-forward to summer. I got a shitty job at some local farm and all was well, making money and shit, hanging out with friends, etc. My mom gives me the news that she got a job about what hours away from home, and here is where it all goes to shit...
So we packed everything and moved, two hours away into the city. I went from a highschool of 150 kids to one with over 2.5k, anxiety overload. Anyway, spend all my time in my room upstairs playing video games with a couple of friends from back home, no social interactions. I spent the whole school year in silence. I sat alone, every day at lunch. Same shit every day. (This was in my junior year btw). Anyway, my mom forced me to go to one of the football games and then forced a friend onto me, we texted for like a month or so but I could tell that he couldn't give 2 shits about me so I quit texting.
All of this time I'm still torturing myself by keeping up with my ex and shit, talking to people from back home I won't see for a while. Even after my junior year I had no friends and spent that entire summer in my room. No social interaction...just alone with my thoughts...and they really fucking get to you...
I know this isn't as bad as most people's but for me it really fucking sucked. If anyone read this whole thing, thank you.
>>699239768
I guess we all need these threads some times...thanks anon
>>699240749
i know this is /b/, but fuck off you absolute nigger
>>699225929
nice
>>699239568
Sometimes you just need to rant a bit, the best thing to do with messages like that is to not expect a reply. Do it for you, but don't expect them to send anything back, that's just setting yourself up for bad feels.
i have been alone every friday night of my entire life. No exaggeration either. i have no friends, no girlfriend, no job, no money saved, no car and tens of thousands of dollars in debt that I took out to help my family stay afloat financially. I live in a rented shithole with my parents and my dad is mentally ill and constantly yelling. Oh, and I'm 27 and a KHV too. You don't know what "down" is
>>699229614
feels bad
>>699241020
you can do it
>>699240521
The feels are good but sad at same time. Feels are strong.
I think I've found someone online through vidya I can finally talk to. It helps the loneliness a bit I guess
>>699240527
Good I hope it hurts, your a child molester anon.. you fucked up a whole life, own it..
Should i even charge my phone? I don't receive any texts i only use it to listen to music and look at stuff
28, never had a girlfriend, watching the stars right now and listening to chill music thinking how alone and pathetic I am
>>699227466
This gets me. It feels like 80% of any sort of social interaction my entire life was initiated by me. It doesn't feel like most people care about me in anyway. Every time it feels like I have a legitimate connection with a girl I have to stop messaging her first just to see if she enjoys my company enough to start a conversation. And she never does. That's always how it ends.
>>699242056
i was a kid then too but eventually i realized it was wrong
I wish I could decide what I want to do in life. I;m great at everything I do but I'm not the best at anything. I cried during the Olympics today because it's too late for me to complete at that level in anything. I wish I had played football in high school. I want to start a band and not get famous, but have a loyal online fanbase.
>>699242326
everything you just wrote relates.
>>699242526
>>699242326
Damn, my feelings put into words. This hits way too close to home.
>be talking to ex two days ago she still wants me.
>Ended mutually and didn't feel bad so I brushed her off with let's just be friends since I'm four hours away.
>FF to last night @femanon has a new post on Instagram.
>It's a screen cap of her and a guy talking he's calling her babe and she's saying she loves him.
>Feelused.joeg.
>3 in the morning right now in a cramped hotel room on vacation with extended family thinking of going down to the lobby and playing some ss13
>Maybe once I talk here a bit.
Fuck the green text.
>>699242195
you're not pathetic anon, we are all in this together
>>699242739
Is that a pb&j i had one a couple minutes ago (:
>>699242739
Wait so she says she still wants you, but two days later is publicly telling a guy she loves him?
Last gf broke up with me 4 years ago (we dated for 3). Next week she's moving out of state with the guy she left me for.
>>699242739
That bastard is getting used as well, he just doesn't know it yet.
>>699242902
It's a egg and cheese on whole wheat I made a few days ago...I like to cook haha me and her bonded over cooking alot, we both worked at a DQ a year ago.
>>699242728
>>699242326
If you guys wanna have a chat my kik is always open
>>699231247
I did in january. Still think of her every day. We were together 6.5 years and have been separated for almost 10.
>>699231311
Me too.
>>699242968
She's a fucking skank, I think me leaving on very short notice broke her.
>>699242968
Not the guy you addressed but had a bitch do something like this to me before.
I have been "in to" a girl in so long I had forgotten what it feels like. I started talking to a girl about a week ago, long gaps in the replies (30 mins to 2 hours) but it doesn't even matter. She's one of those girls that you fall in love with everything about them. She's so fucking perfect, but like always, live across the country. It sucks because I'm really in to her but I have no idea how she feels and I don't wanna fuck it up...it's so nice having someone I can actually talk too.
>>699242326
This happens to me a lot. Not every time, but a lot.
>>699243213
Then just keep it friends, better what you got than nothing.
>>699243092
What's your kik?
>>699243349
ayy_lma0
>>699229342
I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS FOR LITERALLY TWO MONTHS, THANKS YOU ANON I LOVE AND WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU
>>699243176
Sounds like all kinds of fucking nope bro. Stay away from that
Life is less fun when you care about yourself because you expect happyness but when you just want to do is die you don't expect to feel anything but emptiness and the tears with no feeling run down your face because all you want is to feel.
>>699244249
Haha haha like I broke up with the only girl who was marriage material for her hotter dumber friend, I could do a seminar on regret 101
>>699225132
leave her u retard. shes obviously cheating on u. u might aswell turn into a sissy cause u love being cucked if u haven't left her and are still reading this.
>>699244646
I did the hotter and dumber thing my senior year of high school. 2/10 learned my fucking lesson. Also learned the hotter, smarter, but also an empty husk of a bitch lesson that year.
>captcha: select the street signs
>its a close up of a FUCKING TREE
WHY.
>>699229342
Everyone is crying about le ebin no gf, relationships dont bother me, the only thing keeping me down is my dog who died when i was 12. Never gotten over it.
>>699245429
Lmao that tree made me laugh my ass off just now.
>>699245810
My first dog died when I was 10, and I made the mistake of reading Where The Red Fern Grows a few months after.
>>699245902
I hate that shit more than the "store front" where its just ambiguous pictures of fucking buildings.
>>699246598
"All pictures of Juice"
>All pictures are of glasses with liquid in them
>>699240527
Sister molesting kike piece of shit. Removing yourself from this existence in the most painful way possible is the only way you can atone for that level of atrocity. You deserve less than shit.
>>699246598
I just got that one LMAO I feel kinda better I'm gonna go play some ss13 if anyone's lookin for an interesting free game look it uo.
>>699245810
My dog is about to die as well :( she's 16 and really not doing well. She's almost as old as I am...
>>699246814
18 or 19 I assume.
>>699224555
seeijng this thread made me realize what a fucking loser i am and that i can change but i know i wont. i have almost unlimited potntial to do whatever i want but ever since the hospital and medicine ive been home for months. All work and no play makes Noah a dull boy really speaks to me right now.
>>699224555
Noice trips
Her language is too robotic and emotionless, she's obviously a body snatcher. Clout her over the head with something heavy, and tie her up to interrogate her, that way you can find out where your real mother is.
>>699225132
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Honestly 99% of you should be banned from real-life contact with females. You don't know how to do it. It's like watching a puppy drown. Fucking hilarious.
>>699247020
>tfw no one replys to your post and all you want is someone to talk to, even if it is some anon on 4chan
>>699247586
Talk to me on skype
joshupe3
This goes for any anons out there actually.
Be my guest.
Maybe you'll hear my problem as well
>>699247586
There's another feels thread up buddy, might have luck in there
>>699247586
You can talk to me on kik ayy_lma0
>>699247020
I definitely know that feel. Allegedly unlimited potential and opportunity, but I really just don't feel it.
>>699247732
As much as i would love to skype i dont have it
>>699247911
Link? This one seems to be dying off slowly
>>699247953
then fucking email me and ill give you my number.
[email protected]
>>699247983
>>699236087
Sorry, on my phone or i wouldve done that in the first reply.
>yesterday i met up with the girl who i had something going with for half a year
>she ended things with us to be with her ex
>months passed with no contact and we started texting again
>she started reminding me of things we had
>she came to my city for her country trip
>we had 2 nice days
>talked about everything
>she still has feelings for me
>told me she wants no contact at all
>deleted each others numbers
the sad part about this was
seeing this outgoing girl
always happy, making others feel happy when youre around
start crying, tears running down her eyes
and genuinely looking sad
