Today is my birthday, I'm drinking by myself. Feels Thread
why the fuck are all of you so obsessed with the fact youre alone. we all are.
everybody here is fucking alone, deal with it. you dont need friends or girlfriends to make yourself happy because im still fucking depressed and feel alone even with a gorlfriend
Happy birthday bud, sorry your drinking alone
>>698998283
Don't drink alone, invite a friend over. What's your location?
Happy birthday anon.
the only reason why i havent killed myself yet is because my mother wont be able to handle losong another child to suicide
Guys, I need advice, here's the short version of the story:
>As of today I left my job where I was underpaid to work for a drunk that's my only friend
>He already payed half of the money, saying that money up-front is safer so I don't bail.
>It's twice as much as I used to earn a month
>From what I know, I'm driving a couple of people away from a pawn shop robbery
>I'm starting to feel a bit nervous
Does anyone have any tips for me? Also, if anyone could send me some music that would be chill while working like this, it would be greatly appreciated
And hell should I bring my gun with me? I have a HK USP Tactical 45 on me. In two hours I'm off to my work, any tips you fucking cunts? Please?
Also, happy birthday man, I'd send you money if I had any
>>698998992
yes, bring a gun to make your prison sentence 50 times longer. what the fuck would you need it for? shooting at the cops? good luck getting away, no matter where you go they will find you
>>698998949
just kill her too so you can both know peace
>>698999137
the route is already mapped out, the police responce time is roughly 90 seconds. Enough time to drive away in my opinion. And why would it be 50 times longer? I'll be dead by the time it finishes.
>>698998992
My advice is to keep a sharp eye on the door. Be ready to kill, and have your gun at the ready with safety off
Happy Birthday! But isn't drinking by yourself the best kind of drinking?
im here for you bro
>>698999446
no it's boring with nobody to talk to. not like getting high
>>698998058
happy bday anon, im going to a party now. Ima drink one for you
>>698999650
thanks for nothing chad
>>698999744
my gf just dumped me man, gotta get back out there.
>>698999941
i feel you, this girl dropped me after being with her all summer, she just changed barley notices I'm there anymore when I'm with her. Should I give up on her? I mean shit I thought I actually loved her.
Happy birthday Bro..I don't have my feels folder on my phone but if you want I can suggest you some awe inspiring non corny sad songs
Happy birthday
>>699000436
sounds like you need to drop her to me man. My ex kinda forgot about me too, but im just too much of a pussy to drop her. Dont do this to yourself, you're worth more than this.
I haven't cummed since I was a teenager, physical issue with my proception or lack there of with cable or breach tube on un-to my ball sack with out shots and it the was pain is hard to bareabel
original grand canyon OP here. Gonna repost my story because that's all I've really got to share today. Happy Birthday >>698998058 Here goes.
>be me
>13
>7th grade
>haven't hit puberty yet
>constantly picked on/ beaten up for it
>chads at my school make fun of me for not having hair on my balls yet
>humiliate me publicly by beating me to the floor in the boys locker room, drag me outside and pull my pants down
>basically constantly humiliated in front of girls
>hate myself, want to an hero
>one day after being beaten to shit on the way home from school, I felt a presence help me back up
>heard the sweetest voice i've ever heard ask "are you ok? do you want me to get you some bandages or something?"
>open my one good eye (one was kinda swollen shut I remember)
>just kinda smiled and said yes
>prettiest thing I'd ever seen
>forrest seeing jenny for the first time is a good analogy
>she held my hand and walked with me to her house
>first time someone who wasn't in my family showed me affection or compassion
>I fell for her right then and there
>she took me inside to her living room couch and sat me down
>brought me some ice, band aids and a glass of lemonade
>just kinda laid back while she iced my face
>that was some warm ice
>end up just watching TV together while she tried to get me to open up and talk to her
>eventually broke down
>close to tears, just tell her everything
>tell her I hate myself, I don't know why people are like that to me, never did anything but be nice to them
>>699000951
from what i could read of that you need to get to know your prostate
>>699001033
>she just hugs me
>after a minute she whispered "well I like you, you're nice and I think you're cute"
>adrenaline.gif
>what the fuck
>I was cute
>a girl liked me
>watched TV until 8 or 9
>she fell asleep on my shoulder
>didn't want it to end
>eventually her dad came home from some dinner thing he went to
>wasn’t mad or anything that I was there
>I think he pitied me
>got home at 9:15 or something
>parents were pissed at first, but they saw that I got beat to hell again and let it go
>start going over to her house everyday after school
>become closer as the year goes on
>her family eventually gets to know me and adores me
>almost like part of her family, over there so much
>gets to the point where we are inseparable
>chads begin picking on her too because she's seen with me a lot
>she doesn't seem to care but I feel terrible because of it
>slowly cut off contact because I hate seeing her get picked on
>She catches on and tells me she doesn't care and to stop
>cave in immediately
>sometimes when I had a really bad day I would sneak over to her house at night and cuddle with her
>thought her dad caught me sneaking over one night, turns out his family knew a lot more about what was going on at school than I thought
>her dad kinda knew already, totally fine with it
>tells me I'm always welcome there
>says just ask if I need something
>>698998992
If you want to act like a nigger listen to nigger music
>>698998058
My birthday is on Monday. I normally sit by myself on my birthday and drink. But it's a choice. A reflection on the past year I guess. Look at what you have. Think about what you want. And plan to take it. Don't be a pussy.
>>698998992
1. don't listen to any music/distractions, if you're planning to keep this job and get better at what you're doing, get used to the silence & be very aware of your surroundings.
2. You shouldn't need to bring a gun if the rest of your group are armed already, however if you do, put it in your glove compartment.
3. At first you might be nervous, but don't sweat it, your fight/flight instincts might kick in but remember don't drive away until all the guys are in the car + the loot. It might be scary and tempting but don't.
4. Just do as your told & nothing less until you have clarity of thought in these stressful situations. As you keep doing these jobs, you'll be able to think more clearly and for yourself during adrenaline-pumping scenarios.
5. should you have to use your gun, you don't only have it so you can shoot, it makes your voice even louder to whoever's face it's pointed at. Use it to deter people away who are calling the police etc etc.
6. Unless the car you're using is disposable, use a fake licence plate and take it off when the situation has calmed down. Use a different licence plate for each 'job' you go on.
7. good luck.
>>699001136
>cuddle her to bed a lot more
>feelsgoodman
>life went on like this for a while
>summer came and things got better
>did everything together that summer
>got invited on a road trip with her family to the grand canyon
>a lot of the trip was her sleeping on my chest or me sleeping with my head in her lap in the back of a suburban
>when we got to grand canyon national park we spent 5 hours feeding peanut butter crackers to chipmunks with her brother
>walked around some trail with some BS special significance to see the sunset
>it was special to me for a different reason
>held her hand
>basically just walked around smiling like a tard
>trying to go somewhere with no people
>got to this half ledge thing and sat down
>kinda stared off for a while, very scenic to be honest
>then she leaned over on me and whispered
>"you know anon, I love you, really"
>kinda froze for a sec
>I don't know why, looking back on it, but I wasn't sure what to say
>she seemed to get kinda nervous
>"do you love me back, anon?"
>looked at her and told her that I loved her since the day she put ice on me when I got beat up
>stared awkwardly at her for a good 60 seconds before I finally worked up the balls to go in for a kiss
>I wasn't very good, but she was
>fucking perfect
>we sat there for a long time after the sun set
>I just held her in my skinny arms
>kissed her a few more times
>we forgot to go back 5 minutes after sunset like we said
>her dad came looking for us but was relieved to see we were just sitting there, not dead or stuck
>kids had their own tents that trip so I got to cuddle her to bed too
>>699001223
>rest of the trip was a haze, don't remember the trip much, but I remember her on the trip
>the rest of the summer was magic to me
>I loved her as much as a 13 (and 14 later) year old could love someone else
>people picked on me less during 8th grade year
>didn't pick on her at all, just tried to steal her away from me
>so many guys liked her, didn't understand why she would want me
>to be fair, I didn't either
>Towards the end of 8th grade year, we figured out that we probably wouldn't be going to the same highschool
>didn't care too much, saw her every day for 5 hours afterschool anyway
>but we promised each other we would be each others homecoming dates and prom dates and everything
>but as highschool went on we naturally drifted apart without realizing
>still close, but couldn't always see each other, busy with school stuff
>she played volleyball and was a cheerleader, which took up lots of time
>eventually, some guy was always around when I came over
>she always insisted it was just a friend, at the time, i'm sure it was
>summer after sophomore year she asks if I'd be ok with her going on a date with some guy
>says it doesn't change anything between us
>IGuessSo.jpg
>obviously, it gets more serious, she eventually becomes his girlfriend
>at this point my balls have dropped, I'm rapidly gaining weight and height
>agressive as fuck, nobody in their right mind dares touch me
>yet I can't say no or even be assertive with her
>just kinda watch as that guy starts to control her more
>he eventually gets her to block normal contact with me
>I came over to her house when he wasn't around to ask her a few things
>she seemed almost surprised that I was there, like I wasn't supposed to show up
>she tells me it's no big deal and she just wants to date around, that it wont change anything between us
>point out we hardly see each other anymore
>she says it's "because she's busy with school and sports"
>I know it can't be volleyball she's going to on sundays
>>699001281
>tell her the guy she's dating is a bad person controlling
>just makes her mad, she yells at me
>start to break down
>tell her I love her and I don't know what I did wrong but I just want things to go back to the way they were
>she says she'll always love me
>hugs me
>says she's gotta go but we will talk again soon
>I wish that had been true
>we never talked again for a year
>I start becoming very angry, start blasting steroids, constantly eating and working out
>I've become the freak I always wished I was so I wouldn't get picked on, but I don't care just want her back
>Everyone at school is afraid of me now
>I have no friends now because I'm 6'4, 215 lbs at low body fat and rage at almost nothing. total dick for little/no reason
>complete asshole to everyone except little guys that get picked on by chad
>got suspended for fighting 4 or 5 times before I start to calm down a little
>life is still generally the same though
>angry about that fuck who stole her away
>towards the end of the year I start hearing about some girl who got in huge trouble because a bunch of nudes and shit of her were leaked and circulating
>Eventually it was cleared because she didn't consent and was apparently sexually assaulted by the guy who took the nudes or videos or whatever
>that's what got my attention, hoping it wasn't her, but deep down it sounded like the exact thing her asshole "boyfriend" would do
>of course, it was her
>I was actually pretty calm the whole day at school I heard the news
>but I was gonna fuck that guy up beyond recognition
>I knew he was a huge stoner and druggie in general so I consulted the kid who I bought my roids from (deep web drug dealer)
>he knows his friend and him pretty well
>>698998283
A gorrillafriend?
>>699001281
>get the kid to get his address from his friend
>it's fucking going on now
>showed up the friday night of that week at his house
>pretty big party going on
>perfect, nobody will call the cops and I can walk in without raising any eyebrows
>he's in his backyard with some other girl
>I'm sure they were about to fuck or something
>swing at him before he even sees me
>KO'd on the second punch
>sit on him and beat his face in
>That night I felt better, but the next day I knew I may have ruined things with her
>I guess she was relieved I gave him a free facelift because of what she told me next time we talked
>3 weeks later she showed up at my house at night bawling her eyes out
>mad at her but of course I can't say no to the only thing i've ever loved
>let her in
>we sit on the couch and she dumps all her feels
>says she's sorry she left me for him
>I was right, he was terrible to her
>apparently he hit her a lot and raped her
>constantly cheated
>made the school think she was a complete whore
>she told me she still loved me and just wanted to go back to the old days
>fell asleep on my couch
>I slept upstairs, I was pretty upset to think she fucked me over like that and now wants me back
>I came down the next morning and she was still there
>I figured I should at least communicate with her exactly how I felt, regardless of how things were gonna end up
>sat down and told her we needed to talk
>>699001327
>>699001395
tagged wrong post
>was honest about everything and told her she really fucked me up when she left me for that guy
>of course she was apologizing profusely the whole time
>She gave me that look, like at the grand canyon
>"anon, do you still love me?"
>fucking melted right then and there
>since then I've been talking to her again regularly, she always wants to see me
>i'm kinda torn though
>I still love her
>more than anything
>but she gave her virginity to the other guy
>something about it just doesn't seem right
>something that was flowing freely before is dried up now
>the next night she came through my bedroom window at 1am or something
>Freaked me the fuck out
>Was about to lunge for my shotgun
>but then I heard a sniffle
>knew it was her immediately
>"sorry anon, I just needed to come see you"
>she kept telling me she was sorry and she loved me
>crying hysterically the whole time of course
>eventually just told her to calm down, grabbed her and pulled her over to me
>cuddled to sleep
>felt so nice
>she pressed her face into my chest like she used to
>wake up at about 7
>have to wake her up and walk her home so my parents don't come in and freak out for obvious reasons
>She knows how to fucking melt my heart
>Obviously, I still over her. A lot
>>699001497
>I'd gladly sweep her off of her feet and steal her away, but I have just one reservation
>Could she do this again? I know it's not likely but I don't even wanna take a chance
>I won't be able to do this again unless I know she's 100% committed
>decide to drive with her to a mountain ridge that overlooks the city
>just told her I wanted to see her again (even though I had seen her the day before)
>figure I’ll just tell her exactly how I feel and why I’m hesitant to get back with her
>quietly left my house, drove over to pick her up
>got to her house, snuck around back to go to her room
>familiar hand on my shoulder
>her dad stopped me again
>tell me he knows about all of it, appreciates me beating the shit out of that guy
>tells me she’s up all night crying about me most nights
>she’s still a complete wreck from that guy
>he really beat her bad twice towards the end of their relationship
>her dad was trying to track him down but apparently I beat him to it
>tells me she needs me more than anything, and he’s glad i’m still trying after what happened
>ask him why she left me
>he says he has no clue
>go inside, to her room
>just kinda brushed her hair off of her face to wake her up
>she just smiled and got up
>hold her hand and walk out to the car
>I kinda keep the subject on unrelated things on the drive up
>want to save it for when we’re sitting up there
>only thing I really remember about the drive up was almost hitting a massive bull elk
>sit down on a rock wrapped up in a big blanket together
>Feels really good
>you have no idea
>>699001545
>feeling her warmth, cuddled up against me, looking down at the city
>”why do you still love me anon?”
>tell her because every little thing she does makes me happy
>ever since that day in middle school I just feel like she’s the greatest part of my life
>ask why she left me for that other guy, and tell her it’s the only thing holding me back
>can’t understand why she would do that
>she says (holding back tears and sniffling, gets really emotional now) that she doesn’t have a real answer
>she was just acting on physical attraction and his chad personality took easy advantage of her dumb teenage self
>not some magic fix-all answer I was hoping for
>but she also told me I did nothing wrong and she was sorry for everything
>made me feel better
>since /b/ put it into perspective and I gave it some thought, I realize how childish the whole virginity thing is on my part
>I love her and that's all that matters really
>figure I should just 'make sweet, sweet love to her with my chad body'
-quote from some anon last thread
>not gonna be like that guy, obviously
>wait until she's comfortable again
>started to get windy so I took her home for the night
>fell asleep on the ride back, so I carried her to bed
>she woke up halfway once we got inside
>laid her down on her bed, kissed her on the forehead
>start to walk away, and hear "please stay with me"
>can't resist for a single second
>nothing happened that night, we were both tired, out right away
>wake up next morning
>about 10
>>699001594
>make pancakes in the kitchen, which we used to do a lot after school
>screw around and play fight with all of the ingredients, make a huge mess
>eat and then clean it up
>"you should probably shower, I definitely beat you"
>make some joke about how she cheap shotted me, tell her I have no clean clothes
>"I'm sure I can figure it out, let me show you how to work it and where the shampoo is"
>I was actually too retarded to catch onto that cue
>"I can wash your clothes"
>give her my shirt and shorts
>she tossed them outside and just stared at my SuperChad physique for a sec
>not gonna lie that made me feel satisfied in a cocky way
>looked up at me and smiled
>I kissed her
>took her shirt off
>primal instincts and excessive testosterone/DHT levels take over
>carried her to her bedroom and tore the rest of her clothes off like an animal
>I did stop for a moment to just look at her bare body
>I was extremely horny and wanted to absolutely go to town on her, but it was balanced by me being afraid of hurting her or being too rough
>ended up making love to her for almost 2 hours
>totally exhausted afterwards, fell asleep with her on top of me in my arms
>woke up a little while later and went out to lunch
>Took her back home and made love to her on the couch in her living room
>watched TV on the couch together until her dad came home
>he was really happy to see us
>I had to go home for a while, but he asked me to come back for dinner
>Ate pot roast with the stupidest grins on out faces, a few other people came by for dinner
>her dad says pretty much out of nowhere "I really appreciate you and like you, anon, I hope you become part of my family"
>I felt at home for the first time in a while
>>698998992
No they're bringing you as the getaway..let them handle the dirty work that way if you are caught you get an easier sentence..also don't be a fuckin rat if you get arrested
>>699001655
>that night she asked me to sleep with her again
>I was totally depleted after that day, so we pretty much just cuddled
>talked about what we want to do in life
>Talked about our dream house, dream job and what the perfect wedding would be like
>tells me every secret she’s ever kept
>says she doesn’t want anything between us
>asks if I have any secrets or stuff I wanna get off my chest but haven’t told anyone
>tell her I used steroids, but make clear it was light cycles at minimum doses
>tell her how badly I wanted to tear into her like a fucking animal, but was afraid I’d hurt her
>tell her I was afraid I wasn’t doing a good job
>she laughed and said I was more than plenty and was glad I was gentle
>says she doesn’t care about the roads, just wants me to stay healthy
>fell asleep on me like usual
>I was so blissfully happy that night
>fast forward ~two weeks
>she'd been acting increasingly remorseful for leaving me
>if I ever brought up that I was worried about trusting her or I was scared she would get anxious and nervous for the rest of the day
>constantly trying to prove she was 100% loyal
>one night she literally broke down crying on my chest and told me how sorry she was and that she loves me
>told me that if I want to have another girl then she understands and is fine with that
>I calmed her down, obviously, and told her she's all I need, I just am afraid of losing her because I did once and it hurt
>tell her I'll never leave her and I don't want any other
>seemed to make her feel a lot better
>>699001751
>about two weeks after that incident
>my cousin and her aunt were coming to stay at my house
>cousin flew in night before aunt
>I had to pick her up at the airport
>hadn't seen her in a while, she looked like a woman now
>nothing like her but she was attractive
>got her bags and went to my house
>all I did was help her carry bags in and get settled in
>but I didn't tell her my cousin was staying
>she thought I was mad and wanted a second girl
>ran home before I noticed she was there
>call her because I was expecting her to come over about this time
>no answer
>wtf
>head over to her house
>get to her house, walk in
>her dad isn't home
>call out for her
>no response
>walk into her room
>the light is on in her bathroom, door closed
>I can hear muffled sobbing
>knock on the door frantically
>yell her name
>after a few seconds I hear her faintly say "I'm so sorry anon. You deserve her, not me."
>ask her what she's talking about
>just more sobbing
>pretty freaked out
>>699001870
>kick in the door
>she's in the bathtub
>the water is bright red
>flipped the fuck out because I thought she had/was trying to kill herself
>grabbed her out of the tub and ran into the kitchen
>set her on the table, trying to find where all the bleeding was from
>she just had a few shallow cuts on her wrist and thigh
>wrap it in some gauze I found under the sink
>calm down a little and realize she's probably not dying or even close
>ask her why she did this
>ask if her old boyfriend did something to her
>she says she couldn't bear to see me with another girl
>ask her what she's talking about
>don't remember exactly what she said, but at this moment I realized she thought my cousin was a girl I was seeing
>explain that she's my cousin
>explain the situation with the airport
>she believes me after I explain
>carry her to her bedroom
>set her down on the bed
>drain the bathtub
>help her get dressed
>broke down because I was so scared just then
>yelled at her
>told her she can't do this to me, I already lost her once and I can't bare to not have her
>the yell eventually reduces to almost soft enough to be a whisper
>tell her I trust her now and I know she would never leave me again
>don't want another girl
>>699001905
>I'm just terrified she'll love someone else someday
>she reassures me that will never happen
>tell her to forget about that guy and leaving me, it's in the past
>I need her now
>eventually reduces to just some sappy "I love you more, babe" shit that would make most of you cringe
>I realized then that the guy she had been with probably fucked her up mentally too, to a good degree
>our relationship has been a lot more stable since
>no more than a few nights after that, she asks if I'll ever marry her
>hadn't thought about that until then, but the thought of it made me pretty happy
>"Sorry, that's probably really pressuring. I didn't mean it like that"
>tell her to shush, and say of course I'm gonna marry her
>her face lit up
>didn't even make love to her that night
>just kinda laid there and felt each others warmth
>slept really, really well that night for some reason
>next morning she asked where I wanted to get married
>brought up the grand canyon
>told her I didn't want to decide yet, but I wanted to go to the grand canyon with her again
>a road trip, just her and I. Soon, asked if she wanted to start planning the trip now
>she said yes right away, got all excited
>>699000885
Thank you for the advice anon.
>>698998058
Also happy birthday anon, cheers to your birthday I'll take a swig in your name
>>699000831
I remember something similar happened to a girl in my school in elememtary school. She invited everyone but only me and my mom went aside from 2 others from her family. We were friends for 2 days after that, gave her some cash.
>>698998058
happy birthday, anon
finish your drink, then go out to bars and acquire drunken women
Happy b-day anon, I raise a pint to you. How long have you survived on this earth for?
>>698999422
I don't want to kill anyone, atleast not yet...
>>699001140
I don't want to act like a nigger, nor do I listen to nigger music. I just want to live.
>>699001167
This seems like solid advice, already put up a fake licence plate and the gun is always in the glove compartment. Thannks man..
>>699001671
I haven't ratted people out, even when I was a little kid I didn't tell on anyone, even if it meant getting into deeper shit for myself.
Well, I'll report to you people tomorrow, I'll refer to myself as the getaway anon if I get through this night.
Happy birthday OP.
I plan on killing myself today.
But I'll take some swigs of booze for 'ya before I off myself. :)
>>699002451
good luck /b/ro
>>699002451
Don't try to OD, I've failed at three attempts already.
>>698998058
>Today is my birthday, I'm drinking by myself. Feels Thread
Happy birthday, amigo.
I read this shit this morning. I still haven't fully recovered.Created a Feels folder just to save it.
>>698998992
Assuming things go south, you do NOT want a gun involved.
>>698998058
Happy Birthday man, how old are you?
>>698999444
no? no one else ?
Check'd
>>699002664
>>699002795
Eh, life sucks. I'm just gonna try whatever. Divorced parents fighting over who is the better parent.
Got kicked out of house cause mom hates me cause she is drunk.
And life has been just real shitty for then last 18 years.
I'm just gonna see where tonight takes me.
If I survive. I survive.
If I die. Welp. Alright.
>>699001936
Thanks for sharing this anon
Planned on breaking up with my boyfriend today. We got into last night and I was fed up with the immaturity and rudeness. This morning told him I wanted to stop by for a bit before I saw my friend. So he might of had an idea.
> smashed his toe at work. May be broken is in ER
> saw pics looks bad
> he's now all upset/being suicidal about his life.
> is kinda taking it out on me by ignoring things I say and reminding me that he's crying and in pain.
> trying to be super sympathetic because I'm not heartless but annoyed with the " I hate my life"
Guessing today would be a bad day to break up with him? 4 month relationship ltr as a friend.
Should I go get him a get well basket. It'll probably look dumb if I gift him then break him.
What do?
>>698998058
Happy birthday anon. I'll do a shot for ya tonight.
>>699004053
If he offs himself not your fault, I'm nit heartless either but thats just how it is.
Happy birthday anon. We're all virtually with you
>>699004053
if you're going to break up with him, just do it. prolonging it to make him feel better isn't going to accomplish anything.
rip that bandaid off quick.
>>699004560
Thanks I appreciate it
>>699001348
yes, the only one to never let you down...
>>699005166
>>699004053
im not your bf but my gf in is the same position you are
how would your bf be able to win you back or convince you to stay?
I'm with ya
I'm spasming out
such is life when you have been alone for 20 years
I'm close to killing myself
But hey I am a white male so I got that going for me.
>>698998283
Well maybe with a gorlfriend...
>>699005123
No problem anon, I mean it sounds heartless but anyone who wants to kill themselves over another person isn't smart enough to realize they won't exist and the other person will live on
>>698998058
Happy bday dude. Where you from, what you drinking?
>>699005239
you'd have to have a heart to heart with the person and ask what the underlying problems were. even then, that's no guarantee things will magically go back to the way they were.
sometimes things fall apart no matter how hard you try, and you just have to let that person go.
be honest with yourself if it's really even possible/worth it to save the relationship.
>>699003377
Woah checked
>>698998058
It's alright OP, I've had the SPOOKs come together to make a birthday party! Get there quick! Everyone wants a taste of the SPOOK cake!
>>699004053
Kill yourself then kill him?
off topic but im thirsty. Real thirsty, I havent had a drink in two weeks.
problem is a i dont have an official ID. will a school ID + birth certificate fly?
>>698998058
Today is also my birthday as well! Ill smoke a fat bowl for ya!
>>698998058
Celebrated all my birthdays alone since 15. I'm now 28. It not bad once you get use to it. Past few birthdays I've order stuff on amazon and picked the slowest delivery possible. Had my order actually get there just before and the after my birthday. Pretty fun.
>>699005239
If he showed me he really cares.
Anytime we fight he runs off and texts me.
Insults me alot even when I try my best.i don't make him happy but he's gonna try to tell me i do. I think he dosent like being alone and is settling for me
>>699001936
u r gay
>be me
>have major crush on qt3.14 grill
>we've been friends for a while, played lots of vidya together
>finally tell her I like her
>"really?? I like you too, anon! I never thought you'd felt that way about me"
>holyshit.png
>it's long distance, but no worries
>we decide not to d8 because of the distance, so we just act like we're dating
>get really close, know nearly everything about each other
>talk everyday despite having work and responsibilities
>call almost every night for a few months
>one week she messages me less and less
>"I'm so sorry, anon. I'm just so busy with work and making the money so we can meet."
>ohokay.gif
>lifeisgood.png
>until it's starts getting worse and worse
>no calls
>less texts
>same excuse of having work and being too tired to talk
>finally tell her we should go on a break for a few weeks
>I didn't really come up with the idea originally though. She did and I ended up calling it.
>she messages me every week saying "X weeks left!!"
>it's now 2 more days until break is over
>no messages
I don't know what to do.. I can't tell if I'm being cucked or if she doesn't like me anymore.
Tl;dr may be the end of a kind-of-relationship. Don't know what to do or what to feel.
Can't wait until VR gets that good. Going be a blast. My VR girlfriend is going you do such filthy things, it's going to be great.
>>699006312
Even as a kid, I always found celebrating my birthday just super tedious, I know now that it was more for my mom than anyone else, but around 14 or so i kinda just shunned celebrating it at all, and only a handful of people know what day it really is.
>>699006239
Same here
>>698998992
Wear a mask
>>698998058
>>698999645
I have those exact same sunglasses
>>698998058
Today is my birthday too anon happy birthday.
>>698998992
Only point your gun at someone if you're going to shoot them. ONLY
>>699001936
Long ass story, pretty deep. Hope you guys have a nice life
>>699001936
This was a damn good read, thanks for your effort.
>>699006607
Yeah it was similar with me. Up until my fifteenth birthday, my mom would try to get home early enough to bake me a cake or something like that. I figured it was being a hassle and I was feeling too old for it anyway. So when my fifteenth birthday was approaching she asked what flavor cake I wanted. I told her not to bother, no need to rush home. So she got to relax with at her then boyfriend's and I got the house to myself. Actually slept the night day away haha. After that I'd just celebrate by buying a book I wanted or working on my single player D&D campaign I started on my 17th birthday. I only continue the campaign on my birthday. Tradition still holding strong til this day. Of course different campaign, but still fun.
A little back story but I need advice
>be me 10
>grew up with no childhood friends
>have only girl I liked leave me for someone else
>was fat lazy, emotional because family men were buff guys who wanted "real men"
>beaten up in school and avoided by girls because I was ugly and poor
>one day decide to join a sport
>hell broke loose
>everyone who was in soccer or loved soccer wanted me out bad
>beat me up, threw stuff at me and even got stabbed in the hand with a pencil
>one day got jumped by more than half of my teamates at lunch in the bathroom
>had most of my things stolen my bag torn up
>leave the bathroom with my things torn up
>teacher asks me why I dont have a proper bag to hold my things
>tell her I was jumped by some of the students in the soccer team
>says "oh you boys roughhouse too much"
>gives me a plastic bag to carry my things
Our school sport was only soccer so we needed all the players we could get
>I sit down on a bench the rest of that lunch alone all hope gone and empty
>constantly wished it was like a movie but never happened
>no teacher giving me life wisdom
>no special person to become my best friend
>ask mother but she tells me to fight the bully offers nothing else
>father was busy with his new family
>I sat in the backyard the rest of the day
>not understanding why any of this was happening to me
>when practice started my things would get thrown in the toilet hoping I wouldn't play
>played wet
>practiced with nothing left to lose
>eventually I had enough and decided to fight back
>5 day weekend
>practiced with no breaks day in and day out
>only relied on myself to help me
>eventually I was standing up for myself
>got leaner and stronger and eventually fought back
Cont if interested
I suck at green text btw
>>698998058
happy birthday anon, we love you verry verry veryy verry much
>>699006592
Kill self then kill her?
>>699009301
Plz try this anon
>>698998992
no gun, i would sneak on a different license plate and make sure you dont drive fucking crazy to draw more attention to yourself, if you get caught deny deny deny say you didnt know what they were doing you were just driving. and dont drive your car for a awhile and keep it in a garage or anywhere not in the open
>>699006592
Go get a hooker?
>>699008516
Yes, cont pls
>>699006592
You were just her emotional dumpster until she didn't need you anymore, while some Chad was fucking her all the time.
>>690000000
>>699003713
>>699007594
>>699007804
thanks guys. Also. Any advice/tips you can give from your past relationships/experiences would be nice (if applicable)
>>699008516
>started to become more reliable on myself
>but I was still getting beat up
>eventually I beat up the leader of the group who always messed with me
>when soccer ended I was concideted the best on the team
>never went back
>started to focus on me and just wanted a better life
>growing older I only looked after myself and a few others
>taught the weaker people how to defend themselves in exchange for helping me on my homework
>eventually as time passed I got to high school
>I only worked for my earnings and my grades and joined some sports
>helped a few people get what they want
>in junior year I was asked by a student in my class why I was never with anyone while I study
>I shrugged my shoulders and asked her to leave
>wondered if I ever went to a school dance
>told her that it was a waste of my time and that I needed to get my work done
>she left
>at this point I never went to a dance or even had a gf
>at the end of senior year I was asked out to a dance by one of the volleyball girls
>I was surrounded by her friends but I just said no and she cried
>was told off and was called a heartless loser
>graduation came
>family was busy with other things and only my mom came to see me
>got my diploma and waited for a while to get a few medals from the sports I did
>sat down on a chair alone looking at my diploma
>no one asked me to join in on group pictures for the teams
>began to feel like elementary school again
>went home and stared at my diploma realizing it was all I wanted
Cont
>>698998992
Drive, how come nobody gets the fucking reference
>>699001348
smh he just misses Harambe man leave him be
>>699010423
I think so..
Shes really nerdy though and really introverted which makes it weird
She's also a virginfag and planned out out trips for meeting each other
Feelsbadman.jpg
>>699001936
that's some feels indeed
>>699009301
Not a bad idea
Will think more on it
I was falling into alcoholism because of horrible apathy and lingering depression (or maybe i'm depressed, idk)
I got a dog recently and that helps
3Days ago i crashed my car black out drunk (I really don't know what i was doing in that car), i don't have any damage but th ecar was fucking wrecked, my dog was next to me and ran away, My girlfriend found my dog when i was panicking liek fuck and i was really happy about it.
My car is fucking destroyed and i lost my drivers licence for 3 months too.
I could have killed someone easily too.
I'm really confused about my life now. I wan't to get out and go adventuring with my dog. But i probably need a bit cash now
I'll just work for a month and i'll see afterwards. I don't know about my girlfirend. I feel very trapped and i can't choose.
>>699010881
>I moved out with the money I had saved to leave my house
>mom just asked me not to go to jail
>I took all my things
>skipped out on college because I havent decided on a career yet
>did research and not many jobs can get you what you want in life
>for a whole year I just been working
>I find myself staring at my diploma at times knowing as I got older I just wanted something that I could never find
>one day I meet a girl who thought I was cute
>asks me if I wanted to have fun to join her sometime
>I call her up
>she shows me drugs and alchohol
>get fucked up
>go home on after a trip on shrooms
>saw her naked beside me
>got up and left
>never called back
>wondering if there's more to lig than just working and getting high
I just hit a dent in my life, don't know where to go. Ultimately just feel down right depressed, not sure what steps to take what to work towards. Just find myself sitting at home scrolling through the internet.
>>699011951
Fuck that sucks man. I feel some of your pains. Congrats on not killing anyone
>>698998058
Happy B-Day man, it's my birthday, too!
Heads up, we're both drunk right now. Where're you from?
>>699012171
No there is not more to life than just working getting high and trying to make someone else love you. That's it
Eh... would an elastic, plastic bag, winter gloves and a shit ton of sleeping pills do the trick? I just really want to end it all man, life of a failure I can't do this anymore. I'm going to try it tonight and see what happens I have nothing to lose and nothing to live for anymore. Thanks for the thread gentlemen.
>>699012171
enlist in the marine corps
>>699012762
The bag itself will do it. If you start feeling chicken get drunk as shit. You can do this. But don't, remember we love you very much anonny poo
>>699012788
I was told this before, the recruit officer spent months trying to get me to reconsider. Maybe I will.
>>699011951
>girlfriend and dog
fuck man, grass is greener but I'd do many things to have that
>>699012762
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0MfFoiPCU0
>>699013070
DOg is awesome, gf is awesome, shes nnot even slightly mad at me, butthis life is killing me i'm mostly withering away and just working enough to pay my bills. Fuck this i'm bored, i'm tired of trying to fit in. I don't i don't even want to.
FUCK THAT SHIIIIT
>>699012969
You'll get some graet world perspective. If after 3 years you feel done, you can be done. If you've found your purpose in life keep going and get paid more. You could even try out for MARSOC which is marine spec ops.
i don't like to check my emails. i don't like to check texts. i don't like to check my grades. i don't like to check my voicemail.
these things cause me anxiety, because i'm afraid of what i have been sent. for some reason, putting things off until i have missed the deadline gives me a sort of catharsis.
i don't know why i do this, and i want to stop doing it. its not that i have a problem replying to messages, its just that i can't bring myself to read them. my inbox is full of unread messages. facebook messenger is full of unread messages. i check my grades maybe a few times a year.
its like i lack the motivation to check these things. it bothers me that i don't read them, but not enough to actually read them.
please advise.
I'm not sure which is worse
>not having love
>having love then losing it
I havent had sex in 4 years and have zero 'game' or social skills. Should I just hire a prostitute and get it over with?
>>699013941
Yup
>>699013898
OP of the grand canyon story here.
Impossible to say, because no man can ever experience both. I'm sure they're very different kinds of pain even though they're so closely related. I know both are awful.
>>699013760
Nothing else seems to be going good so I guess I'll do it
>>699014073
Any experience with that sort of thing?
>>699014357
I've looked but never bought. Had a buddy that's done it though. Highly suggest window shopping for awhile and learning the signs of cops and fakes. And this goes without saying but don't bring them to you actual house
>>699014892
Dat file name... damn
>>699013788
You're missing out on life. Could have more friends and shit. Some cutie pie probably hit you up. Go check them all RIGHT NOW.
-Love, Dad
>>698998058
>>698998058
Happy birthday op.
>>699014951
I really dont want to have to go 'cruising' or anything like that. Would hope to find a friendly brothel and a gentle whore.
>>699015581
Nigga this ain't the 1800s. Shit is done online nowadays
>>699015581
just go to nevada, it's legal
>>699015791
In the UK.
>>699013788
You need to start doing well in school. I mean really well, because you will fuck your life over and get absolutely nothing in return if you don't.
It is probably the most corny, parental like advice to give, but it is really important because without school you will have a hard time getting a job, and being an unemployed poorfag living with his parents is something you do NOT want to be.
T. Unemployed poorfag living with his parents
>>699015344
Listen to your father
>>699015905
How old you is?
>>699015676
Less chance of dying from a STD, so thats a plus.
>>699016144
nigger.
>>699004053
You've been together for 4 months - wow !
Longterm relationship if you are 13.
On a serious note, don't delay it if he tries to commit suicide you can't help it. Had an ex threathning with killin her self. I dumped her anyway. She ate a shit load of pills and got to the hospital. She survived I dont feel bad, but I might had if she actually died. But it's not your responsibility what he does or doesn't do.
>>699016294
N word
>>699016383
Lel
>>699016082
Dude just go online. Find you a hooker. Plow her good n deep. Profit. Don't get scabies
>>699013788
>>699015905
i'm going into my third year of chemical engineering now. i fucked up bad last semester and failed a course and got two D's.
i skipped a lot of class and by the time tests rolled around i was miles up shit creek. no paddle was going to get me out.
i want to do better this time around. i talked to a counselor and she said i'm not actually that fucked. she says some seniors come in and they don't even know their GPA.
did you drop out or did you not go to college?
>>699016595
Googling 'where the hookers at' as we speak.
>>699016681
NOW we are talking. Do they not have backpack in britain?
>>699016641
I dropped out and made 75.000k my first year doing it-support 24/7
>>699000831
I would of when...free cake
>>699016842
Wtf I went to college and you make more than me. Fuck school other guy drop out
>>699016765
Backpage you mean? On there now. What are the odds any of these girls look like their pictures?
>>699016969
Second year was 85k
>>698998058
Holy shit.
I am doing the exact same thing and it's my birthday also
>>699017026
Yeah sorry autocorrect. 50/50 if you're feeling cheap haha
>>699016842
yeah but you're doing it-support.
>>698999645
You're pretty young huh? Weĺl, happy bday anyway. Life's long and mostly pointless but there's shit worth suffering for so, good luck.
>>698998058
Happy birthday. I've been drinking alone for 2 years now. I know full well how you feel.
>>698998992
Drop the gun. Pretend to be blackmailed.
>>699017070
Why the fuck did I spend all that money then. I'm 24 and only in the 60s now
>>699017188
Pro tip: In berlin they have flaterate brothels where you can fuck and drink all you want for 100€
>>699014892
This pic just destroyed my feels and made me happy for like seconds
I am not into that cancer stuff like "oh lo lo your nat uselesss dan't fargett whare u're frum"
But here the message is so true
>>698998058
>>699016073
20, I could be in my own housing, asleep and ready for work tomorrow if I had not let all of my fucks go when I needed them the most. Now I'm stuck at home for at least three months more and it is such a waste of time and money.
I really hope you'll do better than this.
>>699016641
I did not go to college, I tried to unfuck myself by joining the military after high school, and while that went pretty good they aren't really that desperate for manpower in my country so I got transferred to the reserves after a year. I also have no drivers license, but I am currently in the process of getting one and as soon as I have it I will apply for services in other parts of the military. If everything works out I will have a full time job and my own place to sleep in less than five months, and that is all I wish for right now.
I wish you the best of luck in college, I hope you don't get bogged down by laziness like I did.
>>699001936
what the tl:dr version
>>699017217
2'nd year I Became a incident manager
>>699017390
That sounds incredible. I could drink 100 bucks worth alone not to even mention the whooores
>>699017188
Probably not a good sign that I'm getting stressed out at the though of even calling one of them. Why cant I just be a chad? Fuck this life.
>>699017482
>incident manager
i mean are you happy with that? more power to you if you are. it just seems like you've limited your options.
>>699017454
Meh fuck it dude I live at home. Got a good job and a degree. Sometimes you need a transition period. I live at home cause I just moved back in state
>>699017297
Exactly if you got a decent IQ and ambitions, and just keep going you'll hit it. But I did manage a bachelor degree, one course more and i'll have my second. Only two semesters off finishing my master. But I had to drop out because I needed money.
>>698998283
because we're brave enough to admit it
>>699017619
Give me the number and the address of a hotel. I will call for you. We are friendos, I'll be your Chad in shining armor
>>699017500
Drugs are cheap as well and you can go clubbing 6 days a week nonstop, pretty fun place
>>699017809
How old you is?>>699017809
>>699017243
Fellow alone drinker here. Cheers to you buddy.
>>699016294
Nigger
>>699017454
thanks.
i just need to nut up and be a big boy but i don't want to yet. i just want to do drugs and play video games and fuck bitches.
the thing is, this is the time for me to go to school, and if i fuck it up, that's on me. i have to live with those consequences.
going to school for a couple of hours a day is probably a lot nicer than working for 40 hours a week.
>>699017688
I keep educating my self. I like incident management, but i'm going back finishing my degrees eventually so they can bump me up for a higher position
>>699004053
He's getting suicidal about a smashed fucking toe? Dump his pussy ass.
>>698998058
happy birthday mate
>>699017960
Take a shot
>>699018050
I did drugs and fucked bitches and played vidya. You can do it all
>>699018191
Gonna guess 27
>>699018202
Playing vids high on drugs, getting a bj. It is possible with the right kind of girl
>>699018291
33. Did a couple of years of service before studying at the University
>>699015905
meh, I have no college ed and still got comfy e-commerce manager position recently. It's all about skills, you can get them on your own whenever. Internet.
>>698998058
Happy birthday, Anon! Have this Ultra-Hi Def Biker Pepe™ as a present. Also, if I can find some dubs, you can have those too.
>>699018318
And the right kind of drugs. Do not do shrooms while playing dead space and expect to be able to get a bone much less a blow job haha
>>699015581
>gentle whore
what a term
if only whores had the self respect nowadays to at least give their patrons both emotional AND sexual comfort. They make it quite clear nowadays that service is purely sexual.
>>699018202
my problem is that all i do is drugs, sluts, and games. i skip class and then in the week before the test i'm teaching myself organic chemistry from khan academy.
if i had an easier major i'm sure i could do it, but the lifestyle i want to live is not conducive to an engineering degree.
>>699018414
Oh cool man. What kinda money you making now? If you don't mind
>>699018050
Never too late for college man, just be ready to nut up later when no one will pay your way.
I partied in my early 20s, went back to school at 25,l. Do a few cores at a time at community college while working multiple jobs to save for big boy uni and hope you get scholarships you applied for. FAFSA helps. School need based grants.
Shits expensive but it's so worth saying you paid your own way through hard work and dedication.
Your life, your choice.
>>699018500
True, I like just weed for those ocasions, sex on shrooms can be really wierd and fun. I like 5-meo-dipt the most. You get insanely horny.
>>699016641
>>698998058
Take it from a guy who's fed up with his current relationship. You're better off that way. You can do so much more with your life without someone else dragging you down.
>>699018519
I mean, some advertise the 'girlfriend experience'. I assume that's a bit 'nicer'.
>>699018566
You should combine you'r interest... Chemist background + druggie= start making drugs? Learn chemistry, get high and payed, plus it's a sidejob that's related to your study
>>699018646
85k
>>698998058
Dude don't you make me wanna cry
>>699000831
ages 5 through 8 were like this for me.
someone showed up for free cake on the 9th
>>699017711
I could stand living at home if I had a job, making money for moving out but I just feel so bad about being at home doing nothing and generally being a burden to my parents.
I try to pay for myself because we are in a bit of economical trouble, and it burns right through my savings very fast.
>>699018050
Trust me, you don't want to blow your chance at doing well in school. As long as you get good grades and a degree then you will look good on paper no matter how many bitches you fuck or games you play.
If you blow your chance at school then you will have nothing to show afterwards, you will just burn a ton of money and still get kicked back to square one at the end.
>>699019099
Nice I hope to be around there when I hit like 30 as well
>>699018680
i mean that's true, but i don't want to risk it, nor do i want to blow the free money i'm getting right now.
i can't tell you how many friends of mine have dropped out and gone back home. there is no fucking way they're going to go back to college. they're going to bartend, and work at restaurants, and sell drugs.
i had a girlfriend who was going for a marine biology degree, free of charge with the GI bill. she failed every single class and went back home. she takes a lot of acid and is a bartender now.
>>699019307
It was hard work getting there tbh. No social life for the first years
>>699019455
You got a wife and shit? Checkin your dubs while I'm here
>>698998058
>>698998058
Yea after she left, my life is pretty miserable. And i can honestly say I have no more passion, goals, ambition, love or dreams anymore.
Mainly because she was all of the above, and thats the sincere truth.
>inb4 just some girl
She was way more then that I knew her my enitre life, and secretly liked her when we were both teenagers even though we weren't friends at that time.
>just move on and find someone else
I have and honestly I cannot love or have feelings for her at all. Don't get me wrong shes really nice, sweet, and cute.
we have meaningless sex, and she fucks my brains out and take loads in the buts it not even fun for me anymore.
I just feel broken on that level
>do something with your life
I recently got a newer higher paying job that im good at but im apathetic anymore.
No one there knows how emotionally dead I really am, I just use my naturally charismatic personality and it hides it well.
I decided I want to die soon, Im taking my time figuring out how I want to do it. I want to be happy when I pass, I dont want it to be terrifying.
All I wanted to be was happy. I had exactly what the fuck I wanted out of life.
And now its gone, probably fucking someone else, and the cycle continues.
I seriously pray sometimes when I go to bed that I just wont wake up. Its not that I cant handle the world, work, get sex, and have stupid material possessions.
I just feel completely soulless now and I've never felt that way.
>>699018466
Thanks for sharing the advice, I'll look into self education courses.
>>699018961
If only hookers around here did that. Whores are (or can be) a wonderful bastion of community morale support. Imagine how much happier and productive things would be if all the undesirables got both. The hookers would make a dickload of profit and some of the undesirables would become more motivated and happier. Im sure something like this wouldnt change most individuals that significantly, but fuck, it would at least make a slight differences in close to all.
>>699019604
Wife and kids, house, car, exotic vacations
>>699019670
Take a fuck load of pain pills drink a fifth of bourbon and pull the trigger with your toe. You won't be scared at all
>>699019670
Oh and def not the 1st love of my life had plenty before that so yea im done with dating and relationships its the stupidest shit in the world
>>699019957
Cool man I want all that except the wife and kids. Wanna work hard and spend it all on me haha who knows though they say that changes
>>699019382
It's a hard lifestyle to just drop, I have plenty for friends and family who did the same and never wentry back. Good luck man, hope you find a happy medium for play and responsibilities.
waking up sad is a daily occurrence.
>>699020226
me too.
>>699020516
>waking up daily is a sad occurrence.
FTFY
>>699020599
Ha too true
>>698998058
Cheers buddy, you're never drinking alone on /b/.
>>699020599
so true it hurts
but then again, everything hurts today
>>699017468
guy meets girl
guy goes on roids
guy gets cucked
girl is sorry
>>698998058
Anon, it's impossible to get a girlfriend if you're not happy being single.
Besides which, it's actually not that big a deal. Life is still life, girlfriend or not.
i don't think i could ever an hero, but i find myself constantly thinking about being killed somehow and am usually disappointed it doesn't happen. like being hit by a drunk driver while running or something.
anyone else do this?
Happy birthday anon
>>69900295
Im happily married & that Monkey Island story had me in tears just thinking of losing my wife. Hardcore.
Kept waiting for the Grand Canyon story be ing updated in this thread to turn tragic too... hopefully it works out for them.
Lately I have come to feel like (or realize) that I won't find love simply because it is not meant to be.
The thought came to me so naturally the other day, like the same feeling that I know that I can not walk through a brick wall simply because that is not how it works.
Honestly it is relieving in a way, although I still feel lonely I do not feel as alone anymore.
Anyone else have this feeling? It is not as a conscious decision to give up on love, but more like a sudden realization that it just will not happen to me, it is impossible.
>>699002950
Is the post referenced in
>>699022776
>>699022408
Yes, daily.
>>699019959
I dont want to use a gun. Because:
>I dont want to be tempted to hurt someone else. So no.
>I have reoccurring nightmares of being shot
Ill sort it out either way and find a method that works best for me.
>>699022408
Sometimes. If I die young I hope it's because I finally had the guys to suicide rather than be a victim til the end.
>>699022957
I do feel this somethimes but it doesnt make me any less lonely. In fact, the thought of a few more decades being this alone makes me feel ill.
>>699023178
Shooting yourself in the head with a shotgun will make those nightmares stop and make you hurting someone else completely impossible. There I solved all your problems
>be me, 22
>never fell in love
>once kissed while drunk but never had any lover or dated anyone
>thought of having sex with someone makes me feel very uncomfortable, embarrassed and a bit grossed out
>bullied in elementary school and never fit in while in high school, because I was afraid I am gonna mess up
>something is wrong with me and idk what
>take a gap year and instead of doing shit like I wanted, just procrastinate and be depressed
>got into med school and very worried I am gonna be a weirdo again there
>parents hate each other
>I don't really like my friends, go out only because I am supposed to, feel almost nothing towards them
>feel stressed all the time
>my strong side is supposed to be studying but I can't get myself to do anything
>antidepressants made me feel good but doctor stopped prescribing them, thinking I am okay
>don't know who i am
>on a verge of a normie I always wanted to be and an absolute weirdo
>used to look good but for some reason hate my face now
>honestly helpless now, feel like shit all the time, no self esteem, robotic when talking to people
Sums up how I feel. I guess I still have it very good, but I wish my life somehow started... I feel so unfulfilled and empty.
>>699002258
I have this saved on my computer. I love it.
I can almost imagine my pistol in it's safe calling for me to feed it with my brains.
>>699023470
Nigga this is my death, I'm gonna do it whatever way I like.
If your such a fan of it do it to yourself.
>>699023950
I'm not the little bitch whiniNguyen about thinky pains and wanting to off myself on the internet. I'm fine Lil nigga
>>699024376
Yes whynguyen... not whining
Why is this still a virgin?
>>699022957
Bullshit.
I've met so man dudes who say shit like this & have had a few friends like it too. #1 common denominator: you'd think it would be no self esteem, etc but its the opposite; this ridiculous "standards" mindset.
One dude I have known for years is the epitone of this, Allen. He says hes lonely and wants love but then EVERY SINGLE person I show to him "No man, not her too ugly. No man not her, shes stuck up. No man she won't like video games" Same shit, excuses, excuses.
You're not going to get a model if you look like shit, it doesn't mean then that you're doomed just date someone like you who isn't perfect. I remember showing Allen this chick at Starbucks who was overweight, but had a great personality & really cute eyes & hair. "Nah man nah" well fuck you, die ALONE then you fucking picky cocksucker.
Dont be picky when you have no right to be. And if you dont "feel" the chick right away give it time because people do learn to fall in love with people over time... sometimes it doesn't hit you right away.
>>698998058
Happy birthday! Don't drink too much or you might do something silly and then we'll miss you. Promise?
>>699023950
i've thought about it a lot.
at first i thought about doing it with a shotgun. the problem is you can fuck it up and blow your face off or end up a retard or a vegetable. look up failed shotgun suicides its awful.
next i thought about a heroin overdose. you drift off to sleep and that's it. problem is, its actually scary because you can tell that you aren't breathing. also, if someone comes and gives you a shot of narcan after you've stopped breathing, you can be retarded or a vegetable.
the best way to do it is exsanguination. if you slit your carotid arteries and jugular veins, you'll pass out in four seconds. you could do it on an operating table and the best doctor in the world couldn't save you.
i've read reports of soldiers in battle, and people on the operating table. when you bleed out it doesn't hurt in any way. you get a bit nauseous and tired, then you drift off.
the way i would do it is i'd get fucked up on painkillers or xanax or something. then i'd inject lidocaine or some other local anesthetic in my neck. then i'd take a sharp blade, stick it in deep, and run it from ear to ear under my chin.
lights out in four seconds.
alternatively you could build a guillotine. that's the fucking way to do it. you could even build a system so it goes off randomly, and sleep with your neck in the guillotine.
if i ever get alzheimer's or some other incurable degenerative disease, exsanguination is how i'm going to do it.
You're gonna carry that weight.
>>699024568
This.
Happy birthday, homie. I'll have a drink to you.
>>699024568
the thing is, its fucking EASY if you expose yourself to other humans. people who give up on relationships are people who stay inside all day.
if you join clubs, go to coffee places, go to concerts, etc. you'll naturally meet other humans that like the same shit you like. generally, about half of those people are women.
you have to actually talk to them, but once you have enough practice its easy.
and having a girl say "i love you" isn't great. its sort of scary especially if you don't really love her back.
>>699000436
Update from this. I was just looking at her insta and noticed the dude shes friend with posting flirty shit. Guess this is why.
>>699025239
Kill yourself then kill them?
>>699025239
cut her loose.
she's not so special.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yjM63BFLl7E
>>699025394
>kill yourself
>when you're dead you kill them\
>>699025506
i guess i will need too.
i like the song by the way.
>>699024731
I think I'm just going to either poison or hang myself.
Somewhere innawoods, set up a little camp, drink some, smoke some, reflect upon the happiest moments of my life, then just end it.
Ill leave a note for where my body can be found.
>>699026250
or make a guillotine. cmon how cool would that be‽
>>699025089
This 100%. Like I said you have to put yourself out there even if you aren't madly in love at first site. Get the practice. What's wose than getting told no? Being a 50 year old virgin untouched by a woman in any capacity.
My birthday's tomorrow, Im not 100% happy, fuck getting older, but I have a great time in public. I don't give a fuck what people think of me & that confidence is contagious. I have gained weight , etc but I carry myself like "I'm dead one day, we all are, is being laid back and friendly, regardless of the outcome any worse"?
My wife gets after me all the time for talking to grocery clerks, waitresses, etc. and her friends put me over to her all the time pising her off. I respond with " You're angry your friends envy you for having a cool, fun husband?" I love my wife even though I know I could fuck 50-60% of her friends no problem. Good for the ego.
Go do likewise you fucking infants.
>>698998058
Happy birthday anon, hope your day gets better. My bday is next month and I'm not excited at all
>>699026387
Are you gonna help me drag the guillotine through the woods and help me set it up????????
>>698998992
real human bean
>>699027424
just do it in the middle of the street, or you could lay down some newspaper in your garage and do it there.
