I fucked up two years ago. It's the final straw.
So within 12 hours and a minute, I will be killing myself.
Why 12 hours? Last day ever for this meat sack and his memories and will for living on this planet is over.
Despite that, I'm writing my life as much as I can, I have to say it's surprisingly interesting.
General random thread, y'all see my photos pop up. Most likely to get buried.
Picture was too big so yeah PST
BRO DONT
Bruh no don't do it
>>698914333
Trips for truth.
How did you fuck up 2 years ago?
dont jew it mayn, tell story and just have fun for a few days and then see if you wanna off yourself
>>698915081
>chose family over career
>Family fucked me
>Career is completely out of question now
How's it feel to talk to a person who will cease to exist?
I'm not saying do it but I do inquire on how you're going to do it.
>>698914333
post pics anon
>>698915575
I got a small handgun and I'm planning on using behind the ear or just under chin.
Suggestions? Fuck me if I become a retard.
>>698915613
Alright, give me a sec
>>698915745
What caliber because anything to small has a chance of entering and not doing the job. (I.e just rattles in the brain bin and doesn't do much damage) on a side note I always said if I was going to off myself I'd do some crazy drug then use a shotgun to the head.(secondly don't do under the chin has a chance of avoiding the brain all together)
>>698914333
Don't let these faggots fucking dissuade you from your fate, fucking do it OP. You fucked up and now you must pay, I wish you luck on the long journey I hope you'll embark on soon.
Just watch shitty vlog channels and then work at mcdonalds, it fixed things for me! 8)
>>698915540
Pretty cool, this message will not be remembered yet at the same time remembered for this short period of time, death is what you choose over perception... How are you choosing to an hero?
>>698914830
>>698915031
new 4chan is full of sjws apparently
>>698915745
>>698916201
Also a fun creative way is use really thin and strong wire for a noose and super glue your hands to your head so when you jump and your head is separated it looks like you pulled your head off
>>698915613
>>698915540
Well OP, its a little fucked up, but i had an old friend die recently, whom i saw and very quickly chatted with while stopped at an intersection. Hadnt seen him in years, then 2 days later he was killed in a car crash. So you wouldnt be the first.
And fuck it man. You had morals for choosing family over career. Hell, you may have ended up just as miserable if you made the other choice.
>>698916326
Haha please tell me how there sjws again. I am starting up my hack client but you can try and convince me why i shouldnt ddos you
>>698914333
Nice trips before your trip off the planet. Stream it for us?
>>698916201
9mm Win Hollow point, or just regular 9mm if you think that'll work. I doubt I'll need higher. I possibly got a 357 laying around, if needed.
>>698916209
Don't you worry your pretty head, I won't pussy out. This is the end for me.
>>698916216
Too much pride in me I guess, I applaud you for getting over it, I guess.
>>698916547
Shit doesn't work, I've been called to it before.
>>698916631
I'm sorry to hear that. Don't worry, I don't have too many friends, especially any that would miss me at the least.
Car in a garage turned on with the windows down. Eazy.
Ensure you have a full tank of gas
>>698916998
Hahaha
>assuming
I wish I had a garage to croak in. Surrounded by my work shop sounds nice.
I won't tell you to not do it op because I'm not a Gaylord, but what country/town/state do you live in? Wanna look it up tomorrow. I'll have a moment of silence for you too
If dubs write TRUMP 2016 on your head before you an hero
>>698917149
Ah nice, I doubt they'll find me. But north of Seattle, near Northgate.
>>698916563
cool watch
>>698916968
Well before you go I'd like to here more about the super glue idea and fuck it might as well use 357 for extra effect I mean it can't hurt... on a side note wanna explain how the fam fucked you over? Greentext this bitch as well
Tell Harambe we all miss him when you go to the afterlife.
Put a pillow case over your head so you save the cleanup team some time btw
>>698916695
>threatens to DDOS
>doesn't know if it was posted in public place or not
>doesn't know wether or not ddos threat was reported
you sure are reckless anon ;)
>>698916547
Kek
>>698915745
Dont do that, its just a super mess to clean up and if your angle is off then you're just defirmed or a vegetable. Get a helium tank, trash bag, and a belt. Helium in the bag, bag over head and belt for the seal. Breath deep and you can fall asleep to the music of your choice.
Good night sweet prince. Why wait 12 hours? Do it now faggot
Dont do it op. Enoug
>>698916998
He will be with Harambe soon
> DicksOut4Harambe
>>698917370
>mfw he ddos entire 4g sprint network
>>698914333
trips of truth
kek wills it
surely OP will deliver
>>698917502
lmao you used a phone?
>>698916547
Holy shit thanks for the belly laugh
>>698914333
Don't do it. Really don't. A friend of mine recently tried to kill himself by overdosing, he said it was the most painful thing he had ever experienced and that he was beyond scared, he realized that he didn't want to die. He is still in the hospital.
I don't know you. But I don't like the idea (even if you are trolling) that someone would say this and proceed I didn't say something to dissuade them. Please, don't end your life. Its the only one you have.
>>698917320
Thanks, served me well. I will happily use it in the dirt/asheswhere ever I get sent.
>>698917362
Heh, in a bit. The super glue? Shit just hurts from what I saw, took a good portion of the scalp. Lady thought she'd give us a surprise when we walked in.
>>698917365
I'll pass along the message. Thanks for the tip!!
>>698917390
Fuck, I'll consider it.
>>698917739
Fuck yeah I do. I went over to my comp to post old ass pic
>>698917105
But on a serious note before you an hero just smoke a shit ton of DMT or take alot of acid and mdma together if you still wanna off yourself after you experience a candy trip there's something wrong with you.
>>698917943
Kys
>>698917943
His entire life is fucked anyway anon
>>698917943
I'm sorry to hear that. I really am. As a random person on the internet, 4chan of all places, I'm super sorry to hear about your friend and the wake of what happened.
>>698918047
Smoking weed and drink rum, is that good?
>>698918080
Yeah it is.
>>698918078
Quality post
If you want 12 more hours to your life before you kill yourself, then you shouldn't do it. There's still that hope. You can kik me @a.riri if you want to talk
>>698917958
Also if you do go through with it OP godspeed man. Wont tell you how to live your life or end it. It was good knowing you /b/rother
>>698917958
>implies that it is impossible to upload images saved on phone downloaded from internet
i'd tell you to kys but i imagine you must already be preparing for that so...
>>698918207
Those are so boring compared to mdma and lsd but if you're drinking might as well get alcohol poisoning.
>>698918297
Thank you, I been at this site since 2009, time to give you guys whar you deserve.
>>698918295
Thank you, but I have to decline
>>698918363
Ayyy, yeah 4chan told it was too big
>>698918463
Oh dude screw the alcohol poisoning, I just want pain to go away.
>>698917317
If you're near Seattle go jump off the tower thingy
>>698918295
This.
The fact that you are allowing yourself to live even longer in your apparently hopeless and shit life, has to mean something. Maybe youre trying to find someone to change your mind. I don't know. Don't kill yourself.
>>698918576
Space needle? I don't want that kind of attention. Which would raise questions about this post.
Here we go again. So, OP, how specifically do you plan to commit suicide? Details, or call bullshit and hope you do die in an accident.
Myself having a foot in the grave, I'm sick of these fucking threads.
dude. Just take all ur money and some food. Just start walking out of town. Sleep when u get tired. Eat when u get hungry. Walk until you dont want to die anymore. Worked for me
>>698918504
it was nice knowing you, anon, even though they were just 5 minutes. good 5 minutes at that
>>698915540
>How's it feel to talk to a person who will cease to exist?
Don't actually care in the slightest. This does mean traffic will be slightly lighter somewhere in the country, so that will be nice.
>>698918571
Well if you just want the pain to go away that's silly to shoot yourself then because nothing is instant so think about all that pain you'll feel for that split second. Just some food for thought.
>>698914333
No one cares. Suicide is the cowards way out, and is only good for weeding out the weak from the gene pool.
Do it, so we can all quickly forget you and how little you mattered.
>>698918594
Nah man, in 12 hours, every possibility of me having a good life is gone. No more wishful thinking or hopefulness.
>>698918576
Read above, handgun to head behind ear. That's all the planning I need.
>>698918807
Huh, nah, I'm brown, no need to get shot.
>>698919012
Ah, if you're in Seattle, it won't get any better lmao
>>698919023
I've been wanting to do this sincerely I was in 5th grade. There was always hope then but not this time
>>698914333
Shill.
>>698919125
You're right, I wasn't able to do as others, even to lowest level.
>>698919125
Don't worry, my time will come
>>698919225
I hate hiliary
>>698918702
Yes, that thing I was gonna say that originally but I don't know if I was right or not.... but come on I've been giving you fun ideas left and right do something spontaneous to end it all or right before you do it
>>698919397
:) Heh, don't worry, I've done enough. Thank you, I appreciate it.
So. I don't really care if OP was a troll and I haven't been on this site in a long while. And quite frankly, I'm pretty inebriated off my ass atm. But that is beside the point. Time after time I see people posting online that they are taking their life. That's fine and dandy, but why not try and live out just a little longer for all those who have died before you. Life out your life for those who couldn't. I totally understand that from certain points of view it is your life and you can live it how you can see fit, but why not continue on for those who had no choice. I don't mean to diminish the worth of anyone's life, but the opportunity to exist within this world is something we currently don't understand.
I completely understand and respect your decision, but I'd like to be selfish and tell you to consider all those who have fallen before you. It's a huge cliche, but life really is precious to those who have fallen before you.
It doesn't hurt to take a chance on continuing on, and certainly being given the opportunity to feel such strife may be better than the possible alternative.
The world may be shit, people may be shit, and your life may be shit. But at the very least, as long as you are alive, there is one possibility. The possiblity of change, the possibility of your influencing your destiny. Death, as far as we know it, is an absolute. For better for for worse, At least by continuing your journey you know there is a possibility of it getting better. Seriously.
So what's the digs, OP? What's so worth living for that without it, it's not worth living?
suicide pics thread.
>>698919647
andddd im not reading that
OP, if you are willing to do some good before you go, would you mind mailing out a letter to a few news organizations saying you are going to turn in Shillary for one of her murders.
Screwing up her election chance would be a nice way to go out man.
>>698915540
You really did fuck up. My mother told me back when I was just getting min wage workin' some crap customer service job straight out of high school that work always comes first, family comes second. "Even if I'm in the hospital you should go to work anyway" she said. She told me to not spend my money and to save it up. That encouragement and the fact that I started to work a more manual job caused me to like working and work became not a "job", but a passion. If I was brought up with your mind set, I would be where you are today. YOU should only put yourself first, or you'll be a bald fat 38 year old retard who hates his job and his lonely life. It may be too late for you but I'd become a night stocker if I was in your shoes, that's where most people who screw up in life go to correct it and I know that because of the people I met working that job, it's where you can prove yourself by working hard, not by who you're friends with or how good you look and how good your personality is. And it's fun if you like hard work, they pay okay, and you can keep your life a secret, trust me, I'm assistant manager to a man who hardly talks. For me work is a hobby that keeps my mind of of the mental illness that has been crippling me for years, it helps me deal with it all in a way nothing else can.
>>698919386
If trips is get then give coordinates, some /b/yard will find you and post it later
>>698914333
>>698916547
Listen to this man anon, he knows what it takes to an hero oneself.
>>698919647
I would copy that down, it's truth. Frankly though, I'm kinda just down with going through my life and just remembering it. No else will.
>>698919649
Be happy and content. I was content, now there's not much else.
>>698919727
I got less hours on this planet than you and I fucking read it.
>>698919767
Sounds pointless, why the fuck not.
>>698919836
Any under age b& should write this guy's words down. Fucking, the guy I first responsed to as well.
>>698919970
Fuck no, I want to go missing first.
>>698920056
I know right, y'all should spread the word of wisdom
>>698920423
Fine, but if trips is get mail the coordinates to some faggot do you will be missing for a few days
>>698920763
ha!
>>698914333
Hey man I'm not telling you to kill yourself, but if you actually go out with it can you focus on my energy and visit me, even if I can't see you?
I love paranormal stuff.
>>698919666
anyone for numerology?
>>698921023
Fuck yeah, I was totally into that shit! I was supposed to be some important spiritual guardian but, fucking, look where I am now!! Give me a personal phrase that only you know and I try to use that 'energy' to find you.
If it's funny it was me
>>698920423
Anything you can do to help stop her, the better. E-mailing wikileaks right before you kill yourself, with your name etc. and that you have evidence, and are going to the police to turn her in, would be great!!!!!
>>698921215
Nice gets on this bread, even satan himself
What's a good cell phone streaming service?
>>698921392
Tell me this phrase, or something similar:
"King Will Provide"
Not many people know where it comes from.
>>698921589
Fuck yeah /b/to I hate that cheating cunt. As much love I got for the feds of U!S!A! I think the feds shouldn't be president.
>>698921816
Uhm, I'm already getting a big 'X' on this phrase. It's gotta be personal. Only you, otherwise some other shit gets fucked.
On a serious note OP, if you are for real and not just trolling. Organ donation is you last chance on this earth to do something good for someone else. If you are determined to off yourself, walk into hospital emergency room, hand nurse a signed donor consent form, and then pull the gun out and pull the trigger. Your organs could help several other people, who would like to live, continue their existence.
>>698922114
How about this one, only I understand what it means:
"The Library Card Exists"
bump
>>698922313
If I do it in front of a hospital, will they get the organs? If not then get fucked.
If so, like tell them seconds/minutes before hand, someone get me the fucking app for video streaming
>>698922492
Ooohhh, I got a tingle down my back! That's good!! Alright I'll visit on the full moon. If not, something bad is attached to you and like fuck, it's bad attached.
>>698922536
Have signed consent form, they should be able to harvest some of them at least I would think.
Any medical anon.'s in here able to speak to that? I know there a certain amount of time after death to get various organs, and time varies for each one. Anyone able to speak to that?
Update, hopefully it fits
>>698923542
Riding it out baby! You /b/ois are what I choose to fill that death clock with....
I don't entirely know what the circumstances, years ago, that have lead to this point now. Recently, yesterday, I started thinking a lot about suicide which has rolled into today, my birthday. Nothing really family related, though to say I have a family is an extremely loose term. It's more like, what else could I really expect from continuing?
It weighs heavily, but also... if all you have is a 9mm and are considering going with that I would recommend something better. It will depend on the ammunition but you'd be better served with a higher caliber from the get go. I know that a .44 Magnum JHP will definitely perform better than any 9mm of any type though your average 9mm "Home defense round" in the same configuration would work. Going for the back of the neck where your skull meets your spinal cord will eliminate any troubles you could encounter from choosing the front or side of the head.
>>698923542
See ya man, you were a cool dude even if I only knew you existed for one hour.
>>698922536
If you do it in front of a hospital, they'll probably try to save your life. Then you will be in a "state" where you really wish you were dead. But then you can't, cuz you're in that "state", and under 24/7 suicide watch.
>>698923904
Yeah yeah! Behind the ear near the soft part, I'm told. I've honestly been wantimg to off myself since 5th grade. Six attempts with me just getting by and then slugging back home. You know, branch broke for my noose, threw up the pills, passed out from choking myself (which I think is hilarious), and the usual bag over the head here and there. There just isn't a bright side, so off the side I go. Thanks for the tip, I got a 357 laying around, I'll look into it.
>>698924150
NO. Fuck no. Alright, at home or park it is.
>>698923749
Cha man, pass it on.
>>698914333
Yo bro, you got a name? I wanna search it up when the news on you comes up?
don't do it fag. Start a new life and find other reasons to live. Trust me, i have been down that road...
>>698923904
Also, happy fucking birthday! How years on this fucking rock, man??!
>>698924150
Maw man, 357 magnum to the brain, and there is no saving his life.
Bumperoni
>>698924835
Heh, nah I ain't letting them help me.
>>698924842
I could but I like it ending here. If not now then might as well
be a veggie
>>698924939
Cha, I'm taking notes here.
self bump
>>698924371
Thanks for telling us and myself more.
.357 is not an amazingly more beneficial round than 9mm but it also depends on the rounds configuration as to whether it is truncated, jacketed hollow-point etc. I am very curious as to why since the 5th grade this has been something you have wanted to do?
At the very least of what you can take out of these six attempts that have not worked out, what happened afterwards where you went and layed down in bed to go to sleep after? Did you feel anything or come to some conclusion?
>>698925136
Yo bro, same "yo bro" guy, could you possibly live stream or something?
>>698915745
Shoot yourself in the anus. You will be remembered forever by the paramedics and even the coroner who sees you.
>>698924892
Thanks, buddy. 30 years.
Don't do it, a friend of mine did it last year and I'm still crying myself to sleep every night. I know there's someone that cares about you, if you go through with it then they'll think it's their fault and could very well end up taking their own life.
>>698923542
21 minutes? Means your dead now
Dicks out for harambe
>>698925486
I got hollow points for both hand guns
Idk, I just don't want to be alive. I hate humans I hate myself I hate my mom for birthing me I hate that I feel this way. I always found a 'brighter' side but that something else comes along. So fuck it, this the threshold, I will end it tonight or I won't ever do it again. I know the answer, so I want something 'clean' so to speak.
>>698925541
Find me a phone app for it and consider it done.
>>698925866
I take a shot to a 30 year old 4channer, forever now know as a wizard!! Lmao, Happy Birthday!
>>698926297
:(((( Don't cry, it's not your fault, I don't have any friends. I haven't really talked to anyone in years. Ah fuck. You aren't responsible for what they did. So don't beat yourself up.
>>698925741
Lmao, no, fuck off
>>698926951
Good luck in the afterlife hopefully you feel better in that world than in ours
>>698927470
From what I understand, it only gets harder. So I'm fucked.
Richfag here. Will donate 5k usd for you TO NOT DO THIS.
Dude just wait an extra 24 no mans sky will give you some thing to live for
>>698927562
Nah man. Give it to someone who needs it. Money and items don't matter in death
Dude no lie I'm fucking begging you. Lost 4 people in my family this year. Let me talk to you.
>>698927558
I didn't mean that I mean look just relax dude I thought your in the brink of killing yourself right you still got things to do don't waste your life on some bull shit like family or whatever waste on what you want to do not killing yourself your just confused and feel this is the way out inb4 this is bait
>>698927893
I'm sorry, man. Believe me that you have no power in this. You can not stop me no matter what you do. Please understand this
>>698926951
Do you like writing? Is there anything that seems odd that brings you any type of joy? My point is that you've been having trouble for what I can guess is many years, if you were to like writing you could put the pen to paper and put everything out there and shop it around.
Whether the end product seems more like a manifesto and ramblings than a story of your history and what brought you to this minute in time is up to your skill.
>>698928047
All hope for a good life is gone, why go on with such a worthless life? All this pain for a cockroach life, scraping by with no soul or happiness, covered in grey until you breath your last? Fuck that noise.
>>698928198
Yeah I love writing, I'm planning on writing my life until my time runs out after this thread prunes.
>>698917943
Tell your friend that he's a little bitch for attempting an overdose. That shit will fail most of the time.
OP, don't listen to this fag. It's your life. Do what YOU want.
Curious if there's anything on your bucket list you're going to get to for sure?
op can you live stream it?
>>698929070
Not really. World peace and anonymous sex among the world. Simple really.
Livestream it
You seem like a really cool dude anon. Shame to loose you, but on the same note, fuckin cheers eh.
People I suppose are born with a fundamental choice to make and this is the choice of life and death. It's sad that so many choose death, how much potential is wasted, but it is much sadder still that so many live while choosing death. They don't provide for themselves and allow or expect others to put them on a sort of life support. They provide no value of their own into their life, and leech off of the values of others, contributing nothing. No more ignoble a man lives than the beggar, or perhaps worse yet the faceless recipients of welfare.
So OP whilst I fundamentally believe that with the right mind set and attitude you could provide the value necessary to support yourself and make something of your life, if death is your choice, then I applaud you for bravely making the choice, and not leaving your living carcass to be cared for by others.
Enjoy OP what now can be the most precious hours of your life.
>>698929253
Find me a phone app to live stream video and consider it Fucking done
>>698914830
Faggot. Do it op.
>>698928961
So is your book gonna be called 12 or something dumb or is there gonna be a meaning to it
>>698929397
You can rotorscope it or whatever people do to stream from there phones
Stream please
If 17, OP must stream it.
>>698929649
It's periscope
>>698915540
I had the same thing happen, and on my worst days I consider suicide, actually almost did so today, but the reality is that there's still time to get out of this rut so long as we breathe. Thinking about the people I'd hurt by doing so is usually what keeps me going. You should do the same.
Livestream on periscope
>>698915540
We're all going to cease to exist eventually..
So you're killing yourself over money?
My suggestion, if you're really all in, find a friend to do it for you so you can't back out, and they can put you down if you fuck it up, so you don't have to be a Shaivo.
I'd offer to do it myself, because I've killed people when I was in the service, and I know it wouldn't fuck me up.
>>698919836
Your amerifat system is fucked up. In modern first world countries people get a day off work if their relatives are seriously sick. God, I really hate your country. At least Trump is going to fuck your shit.
>inb4 hurr durr muh freedums
>>698916968
You have more pride in killing yourself than getting a job and helping society? God damn my fucking retard meter just spiked
>>698930071
Or at least have them on standby, like that guy who stands behind the guy who's commiting seppuku.
Well if you are gonna really kill yourself and there is nothing we can do to stop you... PayPal - [email protected]
>>698929385
Fucking thank you. You have described my reasoning better than I ever could've done. I can't go others anymore than I have, I can't provide the quota, it's not possible. Thank you. This is also a truth. I will say it's not without it's hardships. I choose you, it's been a while since you guys had a 'real' good thread. Suicide sounds good to fucking me. Time to you /b/ois
>>698929399
10 hours and 5 min left /b/oi
>>698929649
I'll look into it
>>698929680
Read the past ten posts
>>698929439
Nope, it's just in a journal, no one will fucking find it or read it. My mom's Mexican so she won't say shit.
>>698929680
Above
>>698929955
there's no else to get hurt. Read thread, no will miss me.
>>698930071
I wish I cared about money that much. No it's not over money, thank you for trying though. You are a good person.
>>698930091
Yeah, oh well, in Russia, they have it much worse, so I mean better me than you, right??
>>698930375
I have a job but there's more than I pay with just money. It's that I always wanted this. Nothing is holding me back finally.
>>698914333
It's not what you leave on this earth, it's how you left your mark that matters
Hello anon.
Are you still here. I just skimmed your thread.
I am interested..
If you are still here. May i ask a few questions? I am interested in your memories only..
Im odd.
First question.
Can you tell me about one very sad time in your childhood, teenage years and adult hood?
Ill ask my next question if you reply.
>>698928961
Writing is not for everyone. If you can put your thoughts and feelings into words, as well as a few us believe you can, I believe that is something to think about.
I know that for me if I write about myself it brings the things I write about into something that I can look at from a different perspective.
I would figure that if you can piece it all together, coherently, it would be a very valuable piece to a great many people other than just us few here. I sincerely hope that you do start writing and find value in your own words, sentences, and paragraphs and can believe in the possibility that what you have just marked down if seen by others would affect them.
>>698930828
in OPs case, his mark is gonna be a stain on the ceiling...
>>698930963
Exactly
>>698914333
do it. nobody cares about you and existence in meaningless.
Did you pick out all your last things yet?
Last food, drink, song, fap clip...
>>698930828
I apperently already done that
>>698930867
very one? uhm, I guess it would be when I knew everyone will die. everone i knew or talked or liked would at one point die. i got so sad. i cri evy tim. nah, it caused some problems.
>>698930963
>>698931192
you guys are fucked up, lmao
>>698931204
i know, i just want to give back to the community. fuck off mang
>>698931530
no. not really. i have been,,, touching things. not weird, but just feeling how my hands feel, knowing it'll be the last time i feel them, it's making me cry. as for music, i put it on google play radio on "in the long run" it's nice
Ketamine therapy will fix you in 45 minutes. I was where you are now. Been alive 2 years now. Go do that. Seriously.
is there anything you're proud of?
>>698930743
I'm glad that if nothing more, I could provide some moral justification to a dying man. Say. Are these last hours not rather profound and beautiful in that they're your last?
I found that when I determined to kill myself the last hours and minutes were of absolute peace and tranquility. No worries existed for existence was soon not to exist. In fact it was only with gun in mouth that I found an immense beauty in the mundanity of familiar surroundings and effected not pull the trigger.
If you'd like I could you tell you what I've learned since and why I no longer wish to kill myself. But I respect it if you rather not hear.
>>698931646
Have you decided how you are going to do it? Don't do it anywhere public obviously so you don't mentally scar other people and make sure you don't leave to big of a mess to clean up. The organ donation idea is good too if they find you quick enough
>>698914333
Have anything in your steam library left to play.
>>698932143
forgot, make sure you make a note that says the exact time down to the minute when you did so they know your organs are still good or not
>>698931646
Yo OP, if you're gonna off yourself, at least give me the gun you don't use. I'm south of Seattle, across the water from Mercer Island.
What do you think will happen when you die/are you scared to know what will happen?
you should just start doing gay bareback porn, op.
>>698931934
You should listen to the inkspots like listen to maybe or I don't want to set the world on fire good songs
Hey OP, I read through the thread and I'm sorry, I really really don't want you to go through with it but I understand you've made your decision. However, I do have a suggestion, and that's prolonging it just a little bit longer. I know you're near Seattle, and tomorrow night (night/morning of 8/11-8/12) is the peak of the perseid meteor shower, and it's especially strong this year. And you happen to be in/near Seattle where viewing conditions are prime, the peak of the shower is between 1-5 am local time. Watch the stars and see something beautiful before you take off. It's something many people will never get to experience, hell if it fits your aesthetic you can make a wish on a star then pull the trigger. I'm so sorry OP, you were a lovely person.
>>698932385
rolling for his steam account
>>698932701
Rolling for stones?
>>698932701
roll
>>698932701
trips
>>698932821
They see me rolling
>>698914333
So look, I gotta say a thing. I hate these threads. If you wanted to die, you'd just die. There would be no need for the attention and the talking and the shit.
But whatevs.
This is the thing. Your life, along with mine and everyone else's was a fucking gift. YOU managed to be what came out of your dad's dick into your moms twat. You were a born winner, being the fastest sperm.
But whatevs, yea? Free will an all that. Don't like the way life's going? Well yea you can end it. Totally within your right.
But you don't get to say that life done ya wrong. People walk around crying about getting "theirs", whatever that shit is. Like life fucking owes you something. Like just because something shitty happened to them, there is no justice in the world. If it's not perfect and not just the way I want it, I may as well give up.
Guess what chum. Nobody tried to chop your head off with a machete today. You did't have to spend time looking for clean water. You are posting on the INTERNET about how sad your fucking life is while some people are beating rocks and shit together for warmth and digging parasites out of their skin with sticks.
But you lost a hand so now you're going to fold.
News flash. Shit happens. People let us down. Shit's not fair. Ask anyone that's not a white male. Life is at best 90% shit we don't like.
But that's what life is. So if you don't want it, fine. Avert your gaze of the forest because some ugly trees in it. It doesn't affect me or anyone else here.
Just make sure you die in the woods so at least life gets back from you what it initially invested as you decompose. It's only fair.
>>698931953
idk, the stores are kinda closed near me. i'm kinda drunk and high. i'm not trusting myself not hurt someone if i go out
>>698932011
I'm proud that i was able to become my own person. It won't mean much to you or anyone in the world, but the jist (giggity) is that i was expected to be a bad person. now i'll just be a dead person. a sad one at most.
>>698932073
Your words moved me so much, i would pull the trigger faster, lest i hear your words. No really. please type/write more. i'm loving your words to tears.
>>698932385
i do. FIRST FOUR LINKS GETS SOMETHING. THINK SOMETHING CHEAP BECAAUSE I MIGHT HAVE IT. BOOM
>>698932401
I dont think that's how it works...
>>698932430
no fuck off niggnogg
>>698932486
lmao
>>698932476
i think i'll be dead and whatever is considered my soul will be sent back for fucking up. this is what i know to be true for me. but i get sent back to harder place so fuck me sideways, eh?
>>698932530
lmao no
>>698932639
Hmm, it may be worth it. but knowing my luck it'll be cloudy. it's time man.
OP give "so long, goodbye" by 10 years a listen before you go. The song I'd prolly kill myself to.
>>698918207
No, weed and rum won't do, it has to be lsd and mdma, maybe you'll reconsider after the experience,death is dull, life is full of potential
Don't die op
>>698932933
steam id http://steamcommunity.com/id/route662000
>>698933006
yeah, i want to die in the woods. i just like you faggots that i wanted to provide a show for the keks. that's all it's worth.
>>698931934
If you want a song, my personal ones I listened to as I dozed off when I took pills was I Won't See You Tonight Part 1 and the Gary Joules cover of Mad World.
Cheers, mate.
>>698933153
Idk he claimed.
>>698933061
>>698933192
>>698932530
fuck yeah i'll give them a go
Who's your favorite writer? Favorite Book? How do you feel about Beat Literature?
>>698933171
Well if you wanna die in the woods, even more reason to wait for the stars. The forecast is supposed to be clear, just give them a gander, I've imagined myself going out like that while listening to rocket man by Elton John as lame as that sounds
Hey man dude guy homie just bum it down to Cali bro man guy dude I'll smoke you out. I've met people happy as hell without careers just living day to day. It's not a deal breaker bud man bruh just liven up a little.
>>698914333
Dont be one of those faggots who waits. Do it now and livestream.
>>698914333
See what this guy said:
>>698933006
He is a prime example of people trying to foolishly get you to live without understanding your pain. Ignorance runs rampant in this cruel world, the only cure is to erase your existence from it, so you no longer have to feel that infernal pulse in your veins. So you can end this charade.
Make a periscope account and tell us the username so we can follow you and get a notification when you start the stream
>>698916695
>lel im 12 and I can use a loic
>>698933006
>fastest sperm
That ain't how shit works, anon.
TLDR: OP is worlds largest cawardice pussy and can't deal with common life problems
>>698933396
sorry, i like to write. i like to read but not as much as most real readers. But I still admire you for having some.
>>698933533
doesn't sound lame man, if it's clear you can bet your ass i will enjoy the fuck out of that song before the end.
>>698933563
thanks man, but i can't it's time to leave.
>>698933594
lmao, give it time blood
>>698933660
It's the plays' end. Rollcall is over and it's time to go.
Ya know OP Dr Viktor frankl said something along the lines of some find meaning when close to death. What is meaning OP?
>>698933034
Also waiting for the stars means more time to eat Haagen Daz or whatever the fuck else you want. Get some cheesecake. Eat a burger or the best pizza you've ever had. Food is fucking great, enjoy your last hours
You can die in glorious battle as you raid a random place and the police send you to Valhalla. Death with an axe in hand in battle is the best way to die!
>>698914333
Post some cp since you're killing yourslef
>>698931646
You have..lets say a connection to people and when you cant connect anymore it causes you to be sad. Even the thought of losing it? Interesting, anon.
Thank you.
Now may i ask of a time you became very angry. It can be from your child, teen or adulthood. Only one please.
>>698933907
Well did anyone inspire you to write? I write a lot but I don't think anyone inspired it. I think it was intrinsic and correlated to how my life played out at the time.
>>698914333
Been here myself since 2006
I won't try to talk you out of it even tho I don't agree. Not my life to live; or to end for that matter.
I'll just wish you safe travels and I hope you find in death what eluded you in life.
But I will have a drink to the soon-to-be memory of another fallen /b/rother, tho the time we shared was brief.
Here's to the ones we love the best
We love them most when they're undressed
We love them sitting, standing, lying
If they had wings we fuck 'em flying
And when they're dead
Long gone, forgotten
We'll dig them up
And fuck them rotten
Cheers /b/rother
This one is for you
Pic definitely related
>>698933660
holy shit i'm in awe. nobody understands the depth of your feelings. you might be the first human to be deeper than anyone else. you're right. you should all just kill yourselves.
Sometimes I think about the fact that I'll never get to eat Stephen Colbert's butthole and I want to die. I'm gonna do it guys. Count to 5 and I will link to the stream.
Can't be arsed to read the hole thread, so;
Where are you from OP?
If you are in the UK I'm free in 10 hours.
I'll come help you off yourself, or i'll come entertain you and live with you for a few days, see whats up.
Did you died yet mr anonimus?
>>698914333
Hey op if you really do an hero b4 that look up Briana Blair you wont be disappointed
Also listen to modulegeek- around
Or el huervo- ghost just some parting gifts i know it doesnt mean much at this point but ya'know
Listen to the full album "Hergest Ridge" by Mike Oldfield, as you are high I'm pretty sure you'll enjoy it
>>698933006
A gift not all of us wanted you fucking cunt.
Fuck you.
>>698933884
I guess, hindsight is a thing as well.
>>698933932
Be good to one another; don't fight over dumb shit, it's not worth with the short, fragile lives we have. Love is something everyone deserves/needs, even the mean ones.
>>698934031
i don't have any money left. i gave it away already.
>>698934049
nah man, they dont need that shit.
>>698934218
I can relate to people better than people relate to themselves. i understand their feelings and able to discuss the reasoning behind it. I made quite amount of good friends thanks to it in the past. As for angry, i can't pin point one. i'm sorry, for your data i mean.
>>698934227
I like to write as it helps me think and i like having a physical copy of my mental information. it was very fulfilling. but it's for naught now.
>>698934579
Just wasted 3 minutes of my time.
Don't bother OP, this guy has no clue what you are going through.
Bury your shit and make a treasure map and have a puzzle that eventually says when pieced together "congrats have my shit, I don't need it where I am going" or something like that. Try to leave some memory behind if there is absolutely no talking you out of death. Leave a mark and feel at least a bit of piece before then.
>>698934426
ey man, don't worry, i'm in the U!S!A! in Washington in Seattle. thanks though, i appericate it man!
>>698934579
>>698934592
I'll look into them, thanks!
>>698934933
i'll give a shot anyways, i only got until the end of my life~
Not that it matters, but... face reveal? Wont affect you in any way.
>>698934266
Sorry for the shitty blacklighting, but I had to share a pic of my shot as well /b/rother! Make sure to tell your grandkids about this site. Just to fuck with your own kids.
>>698935441
>ishygddt
>>698914333
Use a chainsaw, op
>>698935273
How much time left
>>698934850
I understand, anon. It is true humans become angry a lot.
May i rephrase the question. Can you tell me of a time you became very angry at somebody maybe a project you were working on. It can even be silly like just losing at a video game and breaking the controller.
I, love you OP.
Goodnight.
Whatever happens to whether it be death or life I wish you the best. Godspeed /b/rother
OP please don't do it, you don't know what's on the other side. Be strong get through whatever you're doing through. Suicide is not the answer.
Do it, no balls, you won't!
>>698935728
That much
>>698935273
I'm sorry OP, I don't know why, but I feel just a deep sadness like I'm saying goodbye for the last time to a genuine friend of mine. As sappy and dumb and beta as it is, I just wanna give you a hug before you go. Peace be with you
>>698933034
Shit dog your getting me all emotional. Know that you will have a lasting effect on my thinking and perception of life, friend.
More to what I wish to say, I find life- more than just the decision one makes between life and death-to be a practice of economics... in a sense.
Living beings are unique in that they hold the capacity to value. Without out life, the universe exists unmeasured and undefined. Without something to perceive time, time passes instantaneously. And so it is the unique position of life, to value. And the revelation (though I'm not expressing every facet of it) was that I exist as an arbiter of value, and that I hold the capacity not only to appreciate value, but to create it.
Perhaps this means little to you, so I'll move on to the point I think will more interest you
I said life is guided by economics right? Well in death, value is allowed to exist. If there no limit to the supply of life, there could be no value, as scarcity and demand create value, and with no scarcity demand could be ever satisfied and no value could be present. And so in limiting your time to 10 hours now, you have diminished your supply and drastically ratcheted up the value of your time. It's as precious a commodity as there is now. I think that's fascinating and beautiful.
Seriously looked up "so long good bye" if you haven't and give it a listen. Thanks for the read OP.
>>698935656
Count on it
Did you ever see that post about how, when you want to kill yourself, the world becomes your oyster? Don't be a total pussy and just off yourself, Go rob a store and rape a zoo animal. At least let your family be ashamed of you in death. If you kill yourself, people always blame themselves. A friend of mine I wasn't very close with killed herself 4 years ago and I still lie awake at night wondering what I could have done. Hike up your skirt, faggot, and go make your life worth at least something before you die.
What is the exact time. Assuming its 1130 right now.
>>698914333
op dont do it, we need /b/ros nowmore than ever
>>698936054
You could have been a better fucking friend you piece of shit.
>implying it's easy to kill yourself.
not trying to sound like a pleb or anything but there is so much in this world that you can do travel the world meet new people anything you put your mind too why would you want to take that away from yourself because you fucked up i would just think about everything you have done in your life and drop it as hard as it may be just say fuck it and start a new life or if you do want to take your life Godspeed /b/rother
Don't do it
>>698934348
What do you mean?
>>698936217
Punctuation is not your strong point; is it.
>>698936339
Nah
>>698935656
Why?
>>698929397
Periscope
Not that I'm encouraging it. It's your choice and I think that's awesome. Everyone has choices, even if they aren't always completely voluntary
Shit. D-don't worry about me, guys. I-it's not like I care about OP or anything!
I am fine!
On a more serious note, I feel sorry for you OP. Going through all this shit.
I'm literally bawling my fucking eyes out I feel like I'm losing my best friend. I know I can't stop you but I just want you to know You will be remembered loved and missed by us /b/ros
Make a periscope account
I hope with my entire cock that you pussy out, /b/ro. We may be approaching an age where a genetically pure ladyboy could exist. And you'll never get to see Trump or Hillary run the US into the ground. Even if life is ass I feel like there's always a reason to stick around.
>>698936532
I second this
>>698936759
yes
>>698936680
I fucking feel you man, I'm doing the same thing, I can't sleep thinking about OP, just makes me too sad
>>698936875
Completely Agree
>>698936339
Punctuation is not your strong point, is it?
I tried to kill myself and I only told the person i trust most in the world and she barely cared. Should I join OP, /b/?
8/11/2016, the day we remember our good pal OP.
Somebody else said it too, but if you have the desire to set a countdown for twelve hours then its really not worth it. You still wanna live. Pussy out for us op. Thanks
>>698937040 I know, I've been crying since I found the thread about 2 hours ago, I don't think I have any tears left to cry,
The trips is a sign you shouldn't do it bruh
>>698930867
Ur fag
>>698914333
Hey man, I want you to know I love you. It can get better. Finding a woman, starting a family, setting yourself small goals. I honestly hope you don't end up committing suicide, but in the end of the day it is completely up to you. Good luck anon.
Didn't want to read entire thread. Can someone summarize it for me?
where the greentext at?
>>698933068
This.
>>698914333
If your going to die, it should be after sweet dreams, and something beautiful. Don't you agree?
Op , its never to late to do what you always wanted to do. Be brave , ya dummy! I love you. Don't make me cry. Happy late b day
Everyone here is crying about OP killing himself. Meanwhile in jerkin it and having this thread on auto update. See ya in the next life OP.
>>698937203
jesus christ why u guys think of suicide as the solution. suicide is for pussies. and the more of us that suicide, the more of us are there to fight the good fight
>>698914333
I hope that OP will be rolling gets for us after he passes.
>>698937040
>>698937354
>>698936680
jesus christ
>>698935790
Good night, anon
>>698935847
Thank you /b/ro
sorry guys i made a bunch of responses on my phone but it fucked so give a minute. just know the good shit is in my heart forever. i read everthing here
Hey OP!
Don't do it Man!
Please for the love of God don't do it
>>698937203
You should leave that bitch and find new friends.
>>698933907
What if the play's not over yet? Do you think that possibly, you've reached a defining obstacle of your journey? Is there something you would truely regret to leave here?
Lets all live out of the hive mind. The hive mind being if "you don't have a cool career , ur shit" live op. Everyone.
>>698914333
You got any money to your name?
>>698937354
Praying that when I come back on tomorrow looking for OP I find him, I'll be back on in 20 hours since I can't be bothered with time zones, starting a thread looking for you OP if you decide to stick around a little longer for the stars.
Don't do it man
Do not do it
DONT YOU FUCKING DO THIS OP
At least 100% all elder scrolls first
>>698935939
I'm using it on you guys. So one human soul is soon to be confirmed for this board. it ain't worth much now is it?
>>698936054
i have! this is the end of that story.
>>698936095
yes, i'm in seattle so it's 11:49 pm when i posted this
>>698936652
:(((((( don't be sad, just pretend i'm a troll, yeah!!
>>698936652
>>698936680
>>698937238
>>698937354
Dont cry for me. It's not your fault. you and all your willpower and configuration of words can prevent this
OP if the threads 404's which it soon might could you make another thread?
Just do this anon
>>698938213
And the souls series
>>698914333
9 hours to go. Is it still on?
>>698938285
OP Can you please elaborate on the situation more so we can help you out, or at least try?
>>698937540
Thank you, but it's too late for that, And thank you, it was my birthday not too long ago. (Three years since anyone said that btw)
Is it too late now to say sorry
>>698914333
I never get this.
why don't you move to like Laos or something and teach english at remote villages?
Reinvent yourself.
If I hated my life I'd just get another one.
>>698914333
OP, you are tearing at my heartstrings.
Please don't do this, I can't acknowledge another death on my hands.
>>698938450
This. I want to know what we can do to help you.
>>698916695
>Being this gay
What gun op?
>>698938285
Nay, look around and attempt to deny the value your life and death have now created. And if it truly is the case that these moments feel no more special than others, would you care to explain what you are feeling, as time counts your death down minute by minute? Perhaps my thesis is flawed
Do you like dank memes OP?
