Feels thread /b/
My gf cheated on me and I've been filling the void with slutty girls and alcohol. I've never had so much pussy on demand but I'm still just as miserable as when i found out. What do?
>>698703509
Tell us about the cheating anon. I'm here to listen
>>698703509
Drink a gallon of 100 proof vodka and take 5,000 mg of tylenol. You won't feel any pain after that.
>>698703649
A guy she worked with. They went to the bar after work one night and one of my friends saw her kissing him and holding his hand. I always knew she'd do it, she's that kind of girl but i fell for her anyway
>>698703509
There's so many girls out there anon, and chances are, you'll find someone better. I know that's hard to accept right now, but you know it's true.
>>698703753
Why take 5000 mg of Tylenol when you can take 1691 mg of Aleve?
>>698703509
Keep fucking, maybe pull back on the drinking if it is getting in the way of daily life. You will pull through.
>>698703863
Damn bro I know your feel. Gotta watch them work relationships. You are better off fuck that bitch
>>698703509
I just miss her
Well not really much to go on here, OP.. Sounds like you just feel fucked. Tell the story nigger
>>698704020
>>698704171
>>698704183
I've never been cheated on before this. I was a complete sperg in high school i couldn't pull shit and then she came along and got me through one of the hardest times in my short 21 years.
Now that shes gone, i treat girls like shit. My apartment is full of empty liquor and beer bottles, i look like a homeless man and yet there's tons of girls willing to help ease my suffering with their vaginas. I'm not sure if i should off myself or bask in this glory.
>>698703509
Shit happens in life, mate. It's difficult to find someone who will be there for the rest of your life, who's worth building that life for. People do stupid shit in the moment and hurt others.
But that's not a reason to let yourself fall flat. It's a reason to keep going, pay focus on your life and expand and learn from mistakes. One day you may meet that lovely lady who is with you till the day you die, but you may not as well. It doesn't matter either way, life is strange and you might not get what you want.
But appreciate different aspects of life. Appreciate the moments you've had, and whether you end up passing the gates into the next reality hand in hand with someone or standing with the shadows of others behind you, it's you're life, so appreciate what you've been given.
Other people who wish to appreciate it with you will only come if you're giving your life the attention it deserves.
Feel pain, go ahead, but eventually you have to get up and keep moving.
>>698705104
How long were you going out?
Enjoy it friend, way to young to quit.
>>698705104
Clean yourself up m8. It'll be hard work, and you'll wonder if it's worth it, but it will be when you meet the right girl. Don't let life pass you up because some chick fucked up.
>>698705104
Keep basking in the pussy. Never turn down pussy. There will come a time when a slump happens and there wont be an option to not get laid. Clean your apartment, though. There is something to be said for the way your environment affects you.
>>698706670
Yeah I gotta replace all the art and decor she took, it looks so bare. I also figured I'd start lifting. Think i might take a break from the vagina soon and go full introvert mode though.
>>698703509
> meet a girl on internet
>start takling
>start being friends
>Talking for years (even when i had a GF)
>Start having a closer relation
>We should see this summer
>"Sorry Anon, i can't come anymore, forgive me"
>Wtf.gif
>"I love him too much"
>"Him" is a dude that hurt her, did some terrible things to her.
>Every times she was in pieces, because of him, i was here
>Telling her i understand
>"You're the perfect man, thank you to understand"
I lost the only girl i knew for years (longer relation i got was less than a year). I lost my best friend, ans the only girl i trust 100%.
>>698703509
Listen man if she cheated on you she is obviously not Wife material, so take it as a lesson learned.
As for the pain, it really just takes time. Fill your time with a hobby or something instead though because drinking and fucking are really just going to lead your mind back to her.
>>698703863
>>I always knew she'd do it, she's that kind of girl but i fell for her anyway
Be sure to put an emphasis on this statement if you ever speak to her about it. Make sure she knows her worth, or rather her lack of worth.
>>698708260
You where her emotional pillow when chad fucked her good :3
BETA
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anyone still around?c
>>698709933
>:3
Man, that must hurt. Even betafags who emoticon are calling you beta.
>>698710278
I dunno if it's a question of beta. I had some GF during i was talking with her. She was a friend, not a crush. Well i lie, she was a crush. Even when i was with another girl.
>>698703509
I'd say drink more but i'm trying to quit. Have fun with the nighmares and freezing nighsweats / 24/7 headache op...
Id suggest tmjust stay busy. Lift, get swole, work, find a hobby, make new friends.
That being said all i ever did was lift and drink so.... gl?
>>698703509
I feel for you anon. After many relationships, I got to the conclusion that men always draw the short when it comes to emotional attachments. Women always bounce back on their feet after a break-up, and a lot of the times they're the ones who initiate it (and more often than not it's through cheating). Men always take longer to recover, and not because they're pussies or beta. I don't know why it is, to be honest, but I feel for them, and I'm sorry things are like that. Women are whores, emotionally speaking. I can only hope that you find a proper specimen to be your life-long companion.
And yes, I am a woman myself, so if you have any questions as to what might get your girlfriend to cheat on you, do fire away and I shall try to answer (extrapolating, of course).
>inb4 post nudes
You guys already have them, just use your imagination.
>>698711775
tits or gtfo, slut. you are not welcome here
>>698711775
a femanon actually knowing her shit?
damn
>>698711775
id have some questions femanon
dont know how long the thread will last though
>>698703753
I been putting a handle a day of cheap swill down my gullet. Nothing but a hangover and the shakes. Took over the counter sleeping pills a few times in hooes of more fun or possible death. Just woke up outside 4 times...
>>698703509
Any plans for the future OP?
>>698711775
I know why she cheated. Her and i had our problems towards the end, the bulk of it coming back to my distrust of her. I've caught her in so many lies it's not even funny, but idk I never thought she'd go through with it.
>>698703509
You're coping with what happened, you need to start getting over it. New hobby, or the trade and true, gather up your mainest of niggas and wile out and have a good time. Meaningless sex will not make you feel better and alcohol is a slippery slope and a numbing agent. Get yourself out there and into some new things, and give it a little time.
>>698705104
Enjoy it while u can. Your dick will be married someday soon and youll hate not taking advantage of that ass...
Cut back on booze and replace with lifting and keeping your shit cleaned up. Even more bitches to follow.
>>698712920
Heavily considered the Navy. It's funny because she used to talk about being a navy wife to me and we could travel and shit. At this point, I might join out of boredom.
>>698707697
Dont anon. U make it worse. Maybe focus on finding 1 bitch or hanging out with mostly dudes but dont become a hermit. Worst thing for u.
long story short
i met a girl, dated her for half a year and she went back to her ex
we had no contact for a couple of months
started to text each other again
told me how much she missed me yada yada
she couldn't bear it
again no contact for a month
then out of the blue she asks if i'm down for grabbing something to eat
she'd be in my town for a day
and just with that, she starts texting me as if nothing ever happened
tells me she thinks she's now okay with texting me and that she feels meeting up will be fun.
now i don't care about friendzone or whatever bullshit i might've gotten myself into, i accepted that she's with that guy
but i feel that it's bringing me down again, knowing that i'll see her just for shits and giggles and now being able to be around her like i used to
i accepted the offer
and up until now she's been texting me like i was her bf, that's how i'm seeing it
she's constantly reminding me and herself of things we had
like
sexual stuff, but also feels related stuff
some anon told me that shes with her ex again for some kind of coverage
>>698713208
>Cut back on booze and replace with lifting
this
lifting is godlike for yourself
tomorrow will be another lifting day in the halls of brosef liftus
>>698713284
Do it man. You would meet a whole lot of people that are going to change your life. Even if you don't join. Just having a goal to chase after. A form of motivation. It'l keep ya going man. Keep your head up and never stop. Best of luck OP
It's good to get over this in your own time OP, you'll feel human again some day and you will be happy again
Take care
>>698712439
fire away, I'll be here a while so you might as well ask.
>>698713078
she didn't cheat on you because you didn't trust her. it was not out of spite or anything. plainly put, she did not have the emotional maturity to commit to one person and she needed reassuring when it came to her own female prowess, and she could only get it from other men. in other words, you were not man enough for her.
that, or she had always been a slut. chances are she's been seeing this dude for some time, or at least mooning over his cock, but the feeling was not mutual (aka he didn't want a relationship with her because he probably knew better), so she settled for you instead. but deep down, she still needed to know she still had it in her, after all, she was able to get a man (you), so surely she could get another (the dude from work).
women work in retarded ways, op. they are driven by hormones and menstruation induced mood swings, yet they will never admit to it because "muh sentient discerning human being".
such is life.
>>698713888
nice triples there
also i'm >>698713509
any reason behind what she's doing?
>>698713888
>women work in retarded ways
fuckin hell first and probably only time a femanon actually knows how fucked woman brains are, congrats
>>698713888
I've heard from numerous people that she's cheated on every guy she's been with. She's a really sad girl, and off walls crazy. She tried to stab me once. It's whatever though, in the end she'll be miserable and a lone because literally nobody wants to date her.
>>698703509
alcohol and my job are the only good things in my life, the alcohol can fuck it over really easily.
maybe just kill yourself if girls are that easy for you faggot
>>698714021
I think femanon said it all in her post. Your girl lost her ex, go you, got him again and keeping you on the string. Didn't take much to get you wanting more.
BUMP A BIT ANONS
>>698714448
then next time heed the warnings
>>698714708
so i'm her 2nd choice, if things go sotuh with her not ex?
>>698714876
Yeah but its never that easy when you meet someone who makes you feel the way she made me feel. She was a little ball of fiery passion, and that ass is insane. There's something special about her, even if she's a slut.
>>698714021
omg dude, stay away from her, those type of women are worse than the plague, and you shouldn't need me to tell you this.
that chick is an emotional wreck and she'll make your life a living hell if you allow her which, by the sounds of it, you are. chances are her ex or whatever can provide her with something you can't, such as money or a flat or other material facilities, or even something as stupid as the fact that he's giving her a sort of emotional stability (albeit flawed) that comes from the fact that they share a past as a couple. you are simply a means of distraction, and she will bounce on and off you like fleas on a dog. but nothing will come of it. there will come a time when her ex or current bf or whatever he is will find out about you and he'll be smart enough to kick her out, and then she'll come running to you because d'oh, you've allowed her to use you as a safety net. but she won't stick around. she'll go chasing cock somewhere else.
jokes aside, always remember that if she cheated in order to be with you, she'll cheat again to be with someone else. and fuck feels, women are not that deep. a pretty landscape can give you feels but that doesn't mean you're gonna go dry humping trees (unless you're that way inclined, of course).
>>698715372
so bad huh? haha
>or even something as stupid as the fact that he's giving her a sort of emotional stability (albeit flawed) that comes from the fact that they share a past as a couple.
i guess this hits the nail on the head yeah
she told me twice that she's sad about how things are in bed with him and that shes disappointed
>there will come a time when her ex or current bf or whatever he is will find out about you and he'll be smart enough to kick her out
that time already came
she told him about me and her
she also told him that were gonna meet up in a few days
all he said was "alright"
she justified it with telling me that "shee needs a certain freedom in her relationship and that if you love each other enough you trust one another"
her words
yeah i doubt shed not do the same shit if we were anything more than just ""friends""
>>698715185
your convenient and available and gives her attention
>>698715710
attention she is not getting from her bf, thats what im thinking
Anyone care to Bump?
>>698715264
oh I get that, took the wrong hook plenty of times and have the scars to prove it but finally learned. Usually always sirens screeching but you follow your dick and believe she's with you because you are special when anything with a dick is special to her
>>698715685
who needs friends like this bitch, really
>>698716320
explain
>>698715817
No one gonna Bump with me?
>>698715817
>>698715787
not that but more attention and from another guy and don't for a minute think there are not more guys she bounces to
>>698716450
hm i dont know
she does not have many friends
and guys, well, who knows yea
>>698716376
you're kidding, she's playing you like a fiddle
>>698716510
Oh...
>>698715817
I can dump an old story i greentexted some time ago. Not that great of a story but it's mine.
>have a crush on a girl
>ask her out a few times
>she says no every time
>we still become friends due to same hobby and studying the same subject
>give up on her but feelings for her stay
>we still hang out every week
>she tells me she has depression
>some time after she sends me a text
>"I'm sorry. I haven't been nice to you"
>ask her what that's about, tell her we're friends basically try my best to reassure her
>a few days later we were out dancing and are on our way home
>she says the same thing again
>hug her and tell her to stop worrying etc.
>ask her again why'd she even say something like that
>"I know you have a crush on me and I feel bad because I'm not interested in you"
>>698716623
i dont doubt that for a second anon
and i will cut contact come by the day we meet
>>698716856
Yes aslong as the thread keeps Bumped
Takes time to feel better, my man. Just feel it out and soon you'll get better no contact is really good for yourself.
>>698717143
how
Bumping this thread because nigger. I wish you and >>698716856 the best, you guys deserve it. I'd say you people are pretty lucky, my childhood was isolated, I grew up without friends and in my teens the only friends I had were online. Those friends betrayed me, and I did them. My only friends were /b/. You guys were there when I was blue, you guys were there when I was happy. The years of shitposting I had were pure bliss, a great distraction from my fucking loneliness. Now I'm a worthless NEET, I can't make conversation with people because I've never had anyone to make conversation with. I'm begging to die at this point. Good luck, other miseryfags.
>t. 23 year old NEET
>>698703509
My ex that I was with for 2 years, fucked my best friend in my own bed. When I found out I beat the fuck out of him, went an fucked all of my exes best friends and sent her snapchats of it. Honestly nowadays I don't care about women their a waste of time, so I ignore them for the most part.
>>698716427
bumping, don't worry, this thread is quite relevant to my interests as well.
if you're OP, please witness my trips from >>698713888 and heed their advice. to be completely honest, I'm in a similar position to this girl you're talking about. I'm borderline autistic, neurotic and suicidal, and I'm seriously considering dumping my boyfriend of 4 years because I have enough emotional maturity to know that I'm hurting him a lot. yes, chicks with issues have their appeal because, in a way, they're so fucked up they need some redeeming qualities, otherwise they'd be in a mental institution. they can make you feel like the king of the world one day and then smear you with shit and drag you down in despair the next. unless you're a qualified psychiatrist, don't waste your time with them. they are not your charity case and you deserve better. look after yourself op, please.
>>698715685
dude, this is seriously so lame. of her, mainly. I've been in that position as well, dating a dude who was shit in bed and also spineless enough to not dump me, even though I was cheating on him. nothing good came of it. in the end, we broke up and he met a decent girl and they're happy now. so are the guys I was cheating on him with, none of which are with me now.
moral of the story?
mind your own interests and well being. it is literally not worth the emotional distress she's putting you through.
>>698717606
same here minus her fucking him my own bed mang
>>698713078
My girlfriend cheated on me by kissing a guy. Sometimes it helps them value you more, if you stick by and hear what's going on for them. Why they did it, etc. it's just a kiss dude your acting like she didn't have other cocks in her before.
here is some dope sad songs. 2nd ones heavy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5tv-K-YIgcI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nc853HK0p8M
>>698717739
>>698717739
>mind your own interests and well being. it is literally not worth the emotional distress she's putting you through.
well, i have mostly gotten over it tbqh
more so than she has, as i believe
but yeah, she told me hes "the one she wants to be for her whole life" and all that bullshit
and in the same breath tells me, to be explicit, how i told her she "tastes" like orange and texts
me a lot of sexual innuendos, just for fun ofc...
>>698717739
>I'm borderline autistic, neurotic and suicidal, and I'm seriously considering dumping my boyfriend of 4 years because I have enough emotional maturity to know that I'm hurting him a lot.
Story?
>>698717971
daaaamn
>>698717550
>you guys deserve it
Thanks, I hope you still find joy in shitposting here for some time
>>698717782
Man it sucked, litterly went out the day after and dropped 1500$ on a new bed.
Your only 21 SHUT UP fucking pussy
>>698717971
The instrumentals don't even sound gloomy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgaUmBOfL4M
>>698718180
I do, and depending on how long I remain alone and isolated, I will continue to until the day I die.
What to txt to an ex who won't leave me alone? I still love her but she already found another guy
>>698718047
posted this some time ago, along with nudes, can't really be arsed to do it again. sorry...
>>698716856
femanon here, with my expertise on depressed women folk. she doesn't love you, anon. if she's suffering from depression (which is a bitch of a condition to have), chances are she cherishes the interest you show in her because it's reassuring, in the sense that she knows that there's someone out there who likes her in spite of her flaws. now, take her saying that she has depression with a pinch of salt. depression is not a joke, and a lot of the times, those suffering from it will not openly admit to having it. if her condition is genuine, try and asses your friendship and see if it's worth helping her. not necessarily because it's a humanitarian thing. if you really can do something to help her, by all means, fire away, but keep in mind that whatever relationship will emerge from it will not go well. for all your friendship and help, she may not want to be with you, because most people want to start anew once they get over their issues, and the fact that you know what she's been through will only serve as a reminder of her past.
by the way guys (OP included), I know that this was meant to be a feels thread so I'm sorry if I'm making it sound like a relationship advice thread. I can stop if you want, it's just that there's so many cases here I can relate to and give advice on, it would be a shame if I didn't.
carry on.
>>698718780
Just stop talking to her, don't look at her stuff on social media. You will get over her and you will feel better.
>>698718780
yo I've been in that position and took the ex back before. The best thing you can do is be Honest. Say how you love her but she isn't good for you and you want to move. End all contact. Youll thank me later anon.
>>698718460
>If I had a heart, it'd break in two. If I still had tears, they'd fall for you, but all I've got is my shadow on the floor
The feels
>>698717814
Cuck
>>698719167
Orrrr you can send her this song and she will get the point. https://youtu.be/SYRYVlgYMlk
>>698703509
>what do?
figure out if she's worth keeping and act on what you feel is best for you.
>>698718977
> she doesn't love you, anon.
well no fucking shit sherlock.
As I said I've given up on that a long time ago. She's still a good friend and since we share a hobby, specifically dancing, which requires a partner we still hang out a lot.
>I can stop if you want
Nah, it's good to talk about it and advice is always appreciated
>>698718977
That's what feels threads are for though, Femanon. To complain and bitch about life with one another as /b/tards dwelling in anonymity. We find those that we can relate with and talk through it. God damn, reading this sappy piece of shit of a post.
>mfw I turn into an emotionfag quick.
>>698703509
This has been pretty much my life over the last year. Wife cheated, so I divorced her and moved across the country. Excited at first to be getting new pussy, but eventually that shit gets old and at this point, I've decided I'm just happier being on my own without allowing any women to determine the course of my life.
>>698719602
That would be so cringy and gay I would an hero
>>698718977
nah
youre doing gods work, femanon
giving us guys an acutal insight in a womans brain
>>698719602
You have really faggot taste in music.
>>698704070
Kek
>>698720099
DUBS CONFIRM
>>698720121
>>698720045
Would make sense seeing I am a faggot
>>698703509
Get rid of the sluts, buy the cheapest whiskey, and SAVE MONEY.
You'll thank yourself when your head finally clears that instead of STDs, you have $75,000.
>>698703753
Nigger, a person's stomach can't even take a gallon of milk without regurgitating. Nobody can drink "a gallon of 100 proof vodka" and keep it down.
>>698704070
nice
>>698707697
good, good.
feamnon u still lurkin?
>>698720659
Did you stay for her nudes, too?
>>698720755
more for her advice actually
>>698720943
Oh.
>>698720943
what? how to get dick?
>>698717606
good for you anon. chances are there's a woman out there for you, yet there's more chances that most women you'll cross paths with will double-cross you for shits and giggles.
>>698717814
dude, please don't be retarded. if you think she only kissed the guy, boy do I have news for you. and if she did literally only just kiss him, that only makes it worse. chicks like that don't even have enough backbone to admit that they wanna fuck the guy. they're the kind of scum who accuse you of rape, when all you did was hold their hand and take them out for ice cream.
>>698718780
uhm, just block her. she's most likely regretting her new choice of cock and wants to come back to you, but you'll only be a rebound. she's trouble on two legs, steer clear of her.
>>698720099
the only thing inside a woman's brain is self preservation induced by cyclical ovulation. every now and again you'll meet a decent woman (intellectually speaking), but more often that not, that's what they boil down.
enjoy your red pill anon.
https://youtu.be/71mC-13j_PU
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Kinda feel like a dick to post here because I don't feel like I belong here. I mean my life hasn't been too bad and it's actually pretty decent in a lot of ways. I have a girlfriend atm who I trust with generally anything and I'm expecting to be with her for a long time.
I've been pretty down in the dumps lately because I'm in the DEP ( Delayed Entry Program ) for the USMC and my family really doesn't approve and it's damaging the fuck out of me. I have a few months until I ship out and it's going to suck because I get homesick easily and I'm going to be going crazy knowing that they're afraid of me dying. Shit sucks.
>>698721313
>enjoy your red pill anon.
twice i thought ive met such a woman
twice i was let down...
>>698721416
To add onto this, I said I trust my girlfriend but that doesn't change the fact that I'm going to be having no contact with her for 3 months during boot and then I'll have even less daily contact than I do with her now afterwards. Keep getting these reoccuring thoughts that she's going to cheat or lose interest in me. Scared as fuck.
>>698721049
>>698720755
there was a thread I made last year in October, it was a massive load of green text about my past misdeeds, it was so popular that it just reached post limit and went 404. maybe someone has nudes (they weren't that grand, just some tits and whatnot).
I'm half tempted to post some tits but then again, it is a feels thread so my tits have dishevelled under the weight of all these feels. another time, perhaps.
there's some nice looking porn webm's out there atm, just sayin'
>>698703509
what kind of alcohol?
>>698721416
Hope you survive, and if you do. Pray that you're still in one piece.
>>698721758
Relax, I was joking.
>you are simply a means of distraction, and she will bounce on and off you like fleas on a dog.
shit
femanon you're as right as anyone can be
further more strenghtens my decision to end all contact after we meet up
>>698721852
Thanks. I'm not really concerned about dying myself since I'm not anywhere near combat for my MOS. I mean there's always a chance of course but it's pretty low for people in my line of work.
The kicker to me is that every day of my life, people who care about me are going to be worried sick that I'll die. I've tried to tell them what I just told you, but that fear never goes away.
Listening to music is a good way to make you feel better because in the end it always feels good knowing that somewhere out there an artist has felt your pain and that they understand.
>>698713888
This man speaks truth
>>698722088
I'm afraid I don't have advice for that. They're your family so they'd obviously feel terrified, even if there was a 1/1000 chance that you'd die, they'd be worried for you. All you can do is hope that they respect your decision and wish for the best. Good luck.
>>698713509
Meet up
Fuck her again. Even if it's a hate fuck
>>698722935
i doubt she'd be into fucking
I really want to kill myself... shitty story
>be me
>18 yo
>good looking according to people
>had severe acne two years ago
>took accutane for a year
>acne was gone, I was happy and finally could look at the mirror without hating myself
>then gynecomastia showed up
>out of nowhere even tho I had it as a teen at 14 yo
>doc said it is probably from taking accutane
>right now the gyno got even worse, like I can't go outside without having those thoughts. I wear two tank tops beneath my shirt and my puffy nipples still visiable.
>mfw I sit at my house and don't go anywhere because its summer and I can't put a jacket on.
really, gyno ruined my life. I have to enlist to the army soon and I don't now how I'd take it up there. I barely deal with it when I have a shirt on so being naked around strangers gonna be hard.
>>698721758
I can't help but realize that you'd post your tits on 4chan despite the fact that you are in a relationship?
>>698723277
if she isn't down for a good ole fashioned hate fuck, then i'm afraid to say she never loved you at all.
>>698723316
You're tormenting me. Some problems cannot be fixed and at times, you must accept your fate and deal with it. Otherwise it will eat at you for years, your greatest insecurities will destroy you and will probably ruin your relationship with others. But what do I know? I'm a fucking friendless NEET who's had few friends, all of whom were online and are gone now.
>>698723791
i wouldn't even go as far as saying love was involved
more like being in love
>>698721416
>>698721753
>>698722088
femanon here. I wish there was something I could say to you, but I'm not sure what, as military stuff is not my area of expertise. you cannot blame your family for being worried sick and yes, one can say that they should respect your life choices and whatnot, but you can never provide them with the kind of reassurance they need.
as for your gf, how long have you been together? do you have plans for the future, like getting married and buying a house and suchlike? if it's only 3 months, you should be fine. but you said that you're having recurring thoughts about her cheating on you, is there any basis for you feeling that way? has she ever given you any reason to doubt her or are this just general worries?
>>698720943
>>698721161
I think you meant pussy. getting pussy is easy. you'd be surprised at how random and unjustified women's standards are. half the time even they don't know what they want and the shit they'd settle for is beyond belief.
so, uhm, yeah, don't lose hope anon.
>>698722935
>how to be dumb 101
if pussy is so scarce in your life that you need to go into hate fucks just to prove a point, then you should reevaluate your life choices.
>>698724218
>so, uhm, yeah, don't lose hope anon.
was just pulling your leg, /b/ro. but thanks for believing in me. it means more than you'd think
Talking to a girl who I was initially in to due to astronomical odds only to find out she has a boyfriend. Now I don't know what to do because she's way cool, we get along great as far as I can tell, and I have to deal with her more or less every day.
https://youtu.be/py2ikx89LUc
>>698724218
Yeah that's understandable. I see where they're coming from.
In all seriousness I have never had a reason to believe she'd cheat on me. I know there's that saying that all women are the same but I legitimately have never met a PERSON like her, let alone a woman like her. We've been together for nearly a year now but we talk about having kids and where we'll live in the future and stuff. She's also interested in living on base with me in the future.
I don't know why I'd be worried about her cheating. Maybe I'm just paranoid.
>>698725073
>seeing others talk about how happy their lives are
>>698725320
Yeah that's why I said I'm sorry since I really don't know if I feel like I belong in a feels thread. I'm probably just being a normie faggot worried over normie things.
>>698723983
>Otherwise it will eat at you for years, your greatest insecurities will destroy you and will probably ruin your relationship with others
it did, it has been a couple of months that I neglected my friends, my hobbies and other shit.
and actually it can be fixed, there is a surgery. I'm just a poorfag and can't afford it now.
I guess I'll have to suck it up and move on. thanks for the reply anon.
>>698725531
This seems fitting in an advice thread. But as the femanon said, your situation is tough. You have to make some sacrifices here, you either worry your family/girlfriend unless they choose to acknowledge your decision and see how little of a chance it is for you to die. Or to not do what you want to do for the sake of your family/girlfriend's happiness. You should let them know about how much you care about this job, if you are convincing enough they will be okay with it. They will respect your decision.
Gonna smoke salvia then jump off a bridge in NY AMA
>>698725913
It's not that embarrassing. We all have flaws, I have this fucking mole on my right arm and no other part of my body is hairier than that abomination on my arm. When I was a teenager I would hide it from other kids in sunday school but I eventually accepted it, people would ask about it and some would even laugh. But that never mattered to me, it was how I saw myself, not how others saw me. Think of your friends like /b/tards. I don't have friends but I know not to worry about things so little and petty. Right?
>>698726309
Why?
>>698723472
so? life is not all black and white. besides, I've been in a 'relationship' with /b/ for many years and the community here has helped me through depression and panic attacks and whatnot. in my heart of hearts I believe that you are all good people, posing as imbeciles under masks of anonymity because it boosts your self esteem. and there's nothing wrong with that. if some basement dwelling neet is jacking off to my tits, then so be it. it's called reciprocity. you guys brightened up my day, I might as well return the favour.
>inb4 post tits nao
perhaps another time.
>>698723316
not sure how US medication works, but were those pills for staphylococcus aureus infections? a lot of the times, severe acne such as yours is caused by that.
as for feeling down because of your body, try using it to your advantage. whenever I get anxiety or panic attacks, I force myself to do a bit of workout, like push-ups and squats and the like for 10 minutes. and I repeat this whenever I feel down, which happens several times a day. it does work, and it will make you feel better as well as look better.
>>698725073
if you've only been together for a year, that might work out in your favour. I'm a very cynical person and I do believe that love is a mere byproduct of neuro-chemical processes, bound to last 3.5 years at most. so scientifically speaking, you shouldn't worry too much. although, to be fair, chemicals such as oxytocin and serotonin need physical and visual stimulus to keep working their magic.
but hey, that's just me being autistic.
>>698725320
>seeing others talk about how happy their lives are
>in a feels thread
>>698726309
will you be missed? honest answers only ples
>>698703509
Rail through the sluts and hit the gym til you're feeling better about yourself and then try for a real woman
>>698724533
Anybody have any input on this?
>>698726517
Sick of the thought of where the world is going currently and see myself as nothing but wasted potential, also don't want to continue college even though I'm doing well because I know money won't make me happy. Would only be living to die at an old age which I see as pointless
>>698726538
Probably by my brother, my close college friends probably won't even notice cause that's how forgettable I am. Could care less about whether or not my parents do, they're both bastards who ridicule me and my mother is crazy.
>>698727081
stay friends. she'll break up eventually. console her. get puss. immediately break it off cuz we ain't on that boyfriend shit. profit
>>698726531
Same, I've never had friends. Only family, and recently my family has grown to despise me. I ponder on whether or not /b/ or 4chan in general has changed me for the worse but then I remember just like you and many other /b/tards that I've shared so many memories with you guys.
I've had so much fun, whether it be on raids or nigger story threads. And even when I'm banned for shitposting, making Risk/Hunger Games threads (usually on /pol/) I miss you fuckers like crazy. I've always wished to die, I am in deep pain and immeasurable suffering, crippled by loneliness and depression which has also changed me as a person.
My life slowly goes down the drain, and /b/ distracts me from this. So I guess you could think of it like that. I've never posted my dick or enjoyed seeing random dick and tits that belong on /gif/ but I love you /b/tards whose memories I had with are cherished and valued. Also, those tits need to be shown.
>>698727081
Be her friend but don't get attached is the best advice. Once you get attached to someone in a relationship with someone else, it kills you every day, where your just hoping for something to make you two being together even a possibility when I reality even if she did break up with him you might not even be on her radar
>>698727189
how old is your brother? sorry if i'm prodding
>>698727302
This doesn't work unless she has mental problem and is extremely insecure which is rare these days with all the female empowerment going on. Stay friends but won't likely get you with her.
>>698724533
>she has a boyfriend
there's your answer, lad
>>698726309
I'm half tempted to ask you to live stream it, but nah. my advice is considering pic related, I've been fantasying about it for a very long time. only reason I never went through with it is because I don't have any money saved up for my funeral, and yes, you could say that, once I'm dead, that should be the least of my concerns, however my parents are quite poor and it's not fair that I make them pay for me being unable to cope with life.
>>698727189
>implying that you wouldn't be in debt after college
Yeah, I plan to end it soon as well. I can't live like this, in a fucking room like this. If I could develop better social skills, get a job, a wife. Some shit like that, maybe I'd have something to live for and care about. But I've given up. I've been using /b/ as a distraction and eventually the ticking bomb that I call my life will explode. I respect your decision to commit suicide, but if you have actual people and things to live for, if it's your insecurities that have blinded you, rethink this decision.
>>698703509
How do you find the slutty girls?
>>698727573
23 I'm 20, I figured my condition will get worse once I start being able to drink legally. And I don't want to end up drunk and decide I want to crash my car to die and end up killing someone else in the process
>>698727302
Sounds somewhat good. As long as I don't attempt to sabotage their relationship then I'm still in the clear, right?
>immediately break it off
I like her though, but I do see your point.
>>698727529
I've managed to put attachment on the back burner for now, don't worry, but thanks for the confirmation. The fact she's with someone now is more like a slight bummer than anything else. I don't even know how well their relationship is going and won't even bother asking anything about it anyway.
probably not at the moment no. i have no idea where i stand in her eyes, but she makes the effort to talk with me, so I see it as a god sign that she's interested in me somewhat, even though it may not be romantically yet.
>for something to make you two being together
Nah, I had kinda planned that if she had an interest in me she'd let me know that she's single once the time comes around. If not then I'm not going to push anything and move on.
Thanks anon! You guys saved my life. I seriously thought about killing myself over a girl
>>698727081
well at least you actually talked to a girl that isn't your mother. shows effort and balls. more than can be said for a good portion of this site. just play it by ear. keep it cool, stay in touch with her weekly. if you're good at interesting/funny texts, that's also a plus and keeps you in her mind. don't come off like you're trying to get in her pants unless she brings it up and EVEN THEN if you play it cool, she'll be enamored with you. don't break up a relationship w/e you do. it's just desperate and in bad taste imo
>>698727818
>there's your answer, lad.
A lot of the time that means nothing. I only know this because I've been a douchebag who has cucked two of his friends. I don't know how their relationship is. They could be rocky as fuck and I could be a breath of fresh air. Not saying that this is the case, but her having a boyfriend isn't the ultimate shutdown, or has never been in my case.
>>698728245
No problem, anytime. And why the fuck would you kill yourself over a girl?
>>698727759
it'll work if he's at least semi-attractive. forgot that part.
>>698728334
We made plans to get married, have kids, etc. Fuck her though!
>>698728250
Thanks. I talk shit on her regularly and she dos the same so we're at least past most initial discomfort, but it's also only because I'm at work, and haven't even asked for her number yet because I feel like that's a step too far since I'm trying my best to be on good behavior and not do anything to sabotage her current relationship.
>>698727818
Seems like a interesting way to an hero too bad I'm anemic or whatever the term for afraid of blood, that's why I prefer the falling method.
>>698727832
Having good social skills and a job didn't help me, just gave me money to spend on hobbies that barely keep me entertained, and good social skills are just acting in reality, you just have to pretend to fit a certain sterotype to keep up in conversion with different people, which makes me hate the world even more because of how shallow people in today's society are.
>>698728467
>tfw you've never even had the opportunity to talk to a grill
>mfw I'll die with no one who loves me
>alone, cold, miserable
>tfw I'll shitpost to death
>>698728245
breakups are usually the first inherently sad and depressing feeling in a man's life. but it's a necessary evil. if we all went through life with nothing bad ever happening, nobody would be happy. you need a bad to make the good feel that much better
>>698728602
>Having good social skills and a job didn't help me, just gave me money to spend on hobbies that barely keep me entertained, and good social skills are just acting in reality, you just have to pretend to fit a certain sterotype to keep up in conversion with different people, which makes me hate the world even more because of how shallow people in today's society are.
The mind of a normie.
>>698703509
OP do tell about the random sluts and why you think this is happening especially since you are in this state? (you said you look homeless, i can only assume that is unattractive)
>>698728802
>mind of a normie
Sorry I'm not a NEET because my parents kicked me out and I had to grow up. Doesn't make my problems any different. Also crying over girls is the most normie thing to do. I only know how to social because I worked retail and you have to pander to every special butterfly that walks in.
>>698728111
yeah just let the relationship run it's course and strike when the iron is hot. i know this may be a little difficult to pull off and i don't have a very good example offhand, but if you could subtly bring up her boyfriend in conversation like "so, how is so-and-so doing?", then based off her reaction you could keep a tab on where the relationship is at without it looking too obvious.
>>698728790
Thanks for the kind words brother
>>698729225
Combination of tinder and knowing a lot of people. It's not challenging to get pussy, especially if they're 18, they're so gullible it's almost too easy. I look homeless but I'm still funny, and not fat, that's all you need.
>>698729479
no problem, /b/ro
>>698703509
youre doing the right thing. slowly kill a little of yourself with alcohol each day. become a robot- lose all feeling. join us.
>>698729395
that's what I had figured. I may do that, but I don't think I could pull that off without revealing hidden intent.
as a sidenote, the only reason I began talking to her at all was because i actually visited her home country for a girl 8 eight years ago, and i'm probably the only person in town who's ever been there. should i even bother telling her that? i figured i should keep that hidden as a joke until after we begin dating, assuming that even happens.
You don't need to drown in alcohol just because your gf cheated on you, speak with some friends, get out with them, lonliness is the worst thing that could happen to anyone. Get a pet or walk some pets for money, go to the gym, it will help you fix your lifestyle, hope things will get better anon! All the best from Romania.
>>698729813
>should i even bother telling her that?
i would definitely tell her. it's just another thing that she can relate to and reminding someone of their home is normally a good thing. unless we're talking like baghdad or some shit. kek
I'm feeling really shitty right now. I seriously can't get away from this feeling, it's been following me for days.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZME7HfdrKWQ
Here have some sad ukranian music. No idea what it is about, but the fact that everyone is standing up makes me believe that it is probably about some fallen soldiers or fighters
>>698730362
Idk, I feel like it has the potential to make her think I'm crazy and that I'm trying to live through her vicariously.
nah, much more comfy.
>>698729680
this image...
i've always believed, suicide is a shortcut only a coward would choose
now i can go whenever i want to
how do i know i am dead inside?
>>698730590
what country is it? if you don't mind my asking
>>698717971
https://youtu.be/RftR-G-c6XM
>>698730590
I understand where your coming from then maybe just say it was a friend who lived there instead of girl you liked, would still be a good story in that case
>>698728266
femanon here.
dude, putting all my misogyny aside, twats like you more of a problem than you think. twats like you end up causing feels threads such as these, because they damage some random chick who ends up being the love interest of some random, good intentioned soul, and then they end up feeling like shit because they don't know how to undo the damage that you've done. there's plenty of sluts under the sun. stick to the bro code and leave chicks in relationships alone.
>>698728245
>>698728467
killing yourself over another girl (or another person) is stupid and wasteful. the only acceptable time when you should kill yourself is if you have failed as a human being (especially if you've never done anything to improve your situation), if you're suffering from a terminal condition (like stage 4 cancer that chemo is doing nothing to) or if you have some mental illness (like schizophrenia) or anything that will make you a burden on the society.
let me tell you a related story that happened to my brother. he had been with this chick for 3 years and she was the love of his life and he wanted to marry her, but because he was poor, he went to work abroad for several months to buy her a ring and whatnot. while he was away, she cheated on him with some random dude she barely knew, and admitted to it. she was decent enough to tell my brother about it, and my brother dumped her because he couldn't look her in the eye anymore. 2 months later (as in literally TWO months) she marries this dude she just met. my brother was devastated. and yet, he managed to pull himself through. a year later, he has an awesome girlfriend and is working in his dream job. things always sort themselves out in the end.
>>698728666
are you a lamp post? didn't think so. get out there, work out, work on your self esteem, get a job, even if it pays shit, find some outdoorsy hobbies, meet people, become a man, get experience, get better job, get the girl. life doesn't have to be a struggle.
There is a pretty good feels thread over at /wsg/ right now if you need some webms with sound
>>>/wsg/1210784
>>698730856
>are you a lamp post
Maybe so.
>>698728666
>get avg
>enjoy the feels
also nice three same numbers
>>698731150
Really will be shitposting to death, it's a shame you can't even respond to her in a reasonable manner
>>698731269
I once had 395% speed boost on my Vistabox never felt so good starting up that piece of shit
>>698731269
AVG is the only thing keeping my thinkpad alive rn. i download all kinds of viruses and malware. goddamn video game scammers. I JUST WANNA PLAY SPIDERMAN 2 AGAIN FFS STOP TROLLZN ME!!!
>>698731411
REEEEEEE FUCK OFF I'M TRYING TO IGNORE RESPONSIBILITY
>>698731411
>>698731522
Damn I got back to back dubs, I'm finally doing something right in my life
Just give it time
One day you'll wake up and you won't think about her all day without realizing it
>>698731411
>>698731522
>>698731638
know that feel
>>698708260
I've been in a similar situation bro. Here for ya.
>>698732043
>tfw you'll never experience getting quads for the first time again
>>698708260
>meet a man on internet
FTFY
>>698730175
Thanks anon!
>>698730491
Talk to me. I'm here to listen
My ex and I have been hurting each other back and forth.
She came to Canada to stay with me for a few weeks and we re-connected. Got back together.
There's now a month left before i go to England where it could from from LDR to SDR.
I posted her kik on a kik loyalty thread because I was bored and /b/ ratted me out two days ago.
My relationship is now destroyed. We almost lasted a year.
>>698732117
stem cells research might actually help with hair regrowth so there is still hope
REEEEEEEEEEEEEE THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A FUCKING FEELS THREAD! WHAT WENT WRONG
>>698730856
>>698731411
NORMIES
>>698730856
Thanks sister! I love /b/
>>698732322
quads or above i get accidentally. trips are EZ though watch this
also posting some music i'm listening to rn. just some chill stuff that's been sampled to death
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6pG_3jZxzlo
As of today it's been a year since I last self-harmed. I honestly never thought I would be free of it but here I am. Never give up, anons.
>>698732569
>>698732902
I'm 18 now. I first started coming on this site when I was way underage. Used to see pictures like this and not get hit by the feels. I just took out my loans for college, and now that has come true.
>>698732646
bumping with chill
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DED812HKWyM
>>698732558
>Trusting /b/ ever with your private life
You deserve it you idiot.
>>698733239
I know. I almost got her to believe it wasn't me.
Then i caved in because I can't lie to her.
>>698708260
I can smell your pussy all the way from the Northlands of Canada
Why do kids now a days have such a problem chatting up some hot bitch they pass,
This online anything shit is purely pathetic
How do I get the one girl I've ever seemed to like to like me enough to either approach me or guarantee that if I was to approach her she would accept?
Im fine dying alone, it's the path I accepted a long time ago but on a biological level, I've never felt this way to a female and would maybe like to expedite touch of a girl before I die.
Any tips? I'm somewhat autistic... not a great face, working on natty gains but my ass is rather bubbly for a guy.. Idk, any help would be appreciated.
I want to avoid direct confrontation because if I mess it up, I know I'll ever find anyone like this again
>>698732828
Congrats glad you dropped a bad habit.
>>698730747
i was just kidding.
>>698732828
Stay strong!!!!!
>>698730829
I know people who browse /b/ so don't want to risk being too specific, sorry.
>>698730840
That's just adding the lie pile. I already feel slightly guilty for not telling her at all.
now i'm just being corny. still good music though
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sr3XHHMtrHw
>>698733399
Need more details, do you talk already, how do you know she seems to like you like you mention. Best conversations for me with women are about things we both enjoy cause then I'm not faking my side of the conversation
>>698732569
see >>698718977
I did ask.
either way it doesn't look like there's a lot going on so I'm going to assume that my work here is done.
have your feels thread back before it goes 404.
>>698733624
But I will tell you that the odds of meeting on of them here, not to mention actually working beside them, is slim to none,
>>698733399
>> I want to avoid direct confrontation
You deserve to die a virgin.
>>698733624
>don't want to risk being too specific
understandable
>>698733624
Why make it awkward by talking about some girl you use to like when it has no bearing between you two, you never got together so she is just like I said, was once a friend who lived in the same country there is no lie there buddy
Been falling for a girl over a few months and today she told me she wasn't sure if she felt the same for me (after saying she loved me and wanted to be with me etc). Now she's like, "I don't want you to keep your feelings in check" and I'm about to throw my hands up and move on.
>>698734090
Hmm, that's a better way to frame it I suppose. I forget that people are way more accepting of information if it's delivered in the right way, which is usually how I get away with a lot.
>>698733811
Let me clarify.
I work the same grocery store and see her several times a week.
I catch glances from her, and sometimes there is passing talk, like "hey" or "can I use this?" but nothing more. She is probably the most attractive (completely subjective) woman I've ever seen in person. Her personality seems O.K for a modern woman, but I've only seen her at work.
It kills me everyday because I think I could have a chance but don't want to fuck it up and look like a psychopath but also know that I'm not in a great position for a relationship and that my life goals don't involve a woman.
I can't tell if she's interested. Maybe that would help me
>>698717550
Hello me
>>698733875
Thanks. More than likely going to happen
>>698733663
another chill bump
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Z66wVo7uNw
>>698732430
I've had awful anxiety for the past 2 months and I'm trying to quit smoking. I had an issue with my best friend (my best is a girl I love so much, but she doesn't know that). I asked to fuck me a while back and she cut off all communications with me because A. She didn't want to and B. I was hanging out with my friends abuser (which pissed off my entire friend group). Fast forward a few months of being suicidal and lonely (friend group exiled me basically), her and the my friend group come back and say, hey we can hang again. Fast forward to today, I go up to my best friends place and see her dad in the drive way giving me a death stare. I get a text from my best friend saying "I can't hang out, my dad's pissed". I'm scared I've lost the one person who means the world to me all because of some bad decisions. I can't afford to smoke anymore but after today, it's all I can think about
>>698734112
Give her some distance, if she means what she says that she loves you she'll approach you about it, not worth your time to keep waiting
>>698734687
shauntrelliqua jackson
>>698734775
Wut?
>>698734687
Stop smoking weed while in highschool it's bad for your brain and likely giving you more anxiety. Also get new friends.
>>698734275
watch Cahsback for tips on how to get the girl
>>698734905
her name
>>698734275
Talk to her about the job which you both share would be a good starting point, then ask questions about her interest, tell her about yours, if you have similar interest go deeper into those. You won't get to the relationship part of you don't even talk to her
>>698734718
Yeah. But then she does shit like "I miss you." I think she just wants a rebound-ish emotional bracing and will clam up again if us getting together comes up.
>>698734990
It's not weed, I smoke cigarettes. I started smoking because of anxiety and going through a year of depression. I need to stop smoking to because I go off to college in 3 weeks and it's a tobacco free campus.
>>698735136
Hell of a name
>>698735238
Then tell her you want something serious or your not gonna waste your time with her, I can tell by what your saying that you don't want to waste your time with her but feel obligated too, you don't there's better women out there than leeches like her
>>698735367
she was a hefty gal
>>698735226
If I fucked it up, how do I escape the embarrassment? I remember every single negative social interaction I've ever had. Do others do this? Even if they don't, I'm not sure how I would handle it
>>698735272
That's rough, also lol how I knew you were in high school, but back to the issue does your campus allow e-cigs/vapes I know this board has a hate for those things but they helpped me and my best friend stop smoking cigs and can easily help you.
I've been depressed for like 6 years now, I am only 24 and I am balding a lot. Doc says it's part of my condition plus severe anxiety. I can only cope with myself with alcohol and that's why I drink all the time, hell even my boss is okay with me drinking since I demonstrated that I am way more productive this way.
>>698735538
I don't have that issue if anything I have the opposite, I'm 20 and can't remember anything from ages 1-16. Also dude it doesn't matter what she thinks if you fuck up, it's not the end of the world she's one person, and don't go into this with a negative mindset, you can do it and if not there's always the next qt
>>698735752
I'm not sure about the e cig policy but I'll definitely look into it. I feel so guilty about what happened between me and my friend. I want to run away from the past.
There is nothing left
I give up
>>698736112
Oh yeah and once you go to college you'll literally forget about all the highschool drama, just go in open minded and try to meet new people, usually in big colleges there's a group/club for every hobby imaginable so look into those once you start and meet knew people. so like I said in my first reply drop those friends who would ditch you that easily especially the chick if she's giving you this much anxiety those people aren't good for you anon
>>698736067
Hope your right. Might bring myself to do it.
>>698736327
I agree anon I'm just trying to help to young depressed fags on this board before they reach the point of no return At least till I run out of cash and kill myself.
>>698734658
chill bumpin
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEV-VHaJ0_g
I'll do it one night
Alone in a dark, cold room.
I'll put a stop to it all.
>>698736546
Good taste in Pokemon m8, I wish you the best of luck and hope the chick is a genuine nice lady.
>>698703509
Drink scotch you peasant
>>698736442
They left for good reason (at least that's what I think), I kept making stupid decisions after they gave me constant advice not to make those decisions, so it's kinda understandable how that can rub someone the wrong way. Without them I'm nothing and I don't know how I would survive 3 weeks alone.
Don't loose hope /b/ros
>>698736698
Damn it why'd I have to open an Eminem link, now I'm thinking of my ex.
>>698703509
>never had so much pussy on demand
>still as miserable
Fuck off. You're doing fine. Forget that bitch that hurt you. Move on.
>>698703509
OP, until you learn to deal with your pain and get past it, whether you learn to do it slowly or quickly, all the pussy on tap is not going to help you. You have to realize your own value and stop placing it on how other people view you. But you are young, and the first few times hurt like hell. Eventually you learn that the pain is fleeting and let it consume you less. I felt like the world was collapsing when I lost my first love. I was 16 at the time. 19 years and several loves later, it's not as big of a deal. I have my own worth and it's not tied to a person's love. If someone does not want to be with me, that is their loss, not mine.
Remember this: She lost someone who loves her. You lost someone who didnt love you. She should be the one feeling like shit, not you.
>>698736876
Restoringhopeinhumanity.exe launched
>>698737262
One more
>>698736821
>Without them I'm nothing
That's where your wrong, that's just a problem a lot of new age young people have, we're always so interconnected that we get attached even quicker. You need to believe in yourself, you are all you have nobody else, only you can watch you back, only you can keep your head high, you have to make yourself persevere no matter how bad it gets. No one can do that for you but yourself
>>698737349
Or maybe 2 since it's 2 parts
always remember. "A bitch is a bitch" - NWA
>>698737354
Wow...I really appreciate those words. It's just so terrifying to be alone. I feel like when I have anxiety, I need other people's help because I can't help myself with my mindset.
It feels narcissistic to say that suicide is a dumb idea, but I truly believe that. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely hate myself. I'm a horrible, manipulative, neurotic bastard and I know it. However, I value myself more than anything in the world and it's hard for me to fathom how other people don't. I feel empty and alone all the time. I am inhuman. I am worthless to society. But none of that matters to me. All that matters to me is my own happiness and personal metric of success.
not trying to sound edgy, just hoping to help some depressed anons.
>>698737427
And now how about ruining the glimmer of hope i might have awoke in you? Maybe don't read this if you want to go to bed kinda happy tonight
>>698736876
Real.
Fucking.
Beautiful.
Solid 10/10 story, moved me in a way I hadn´t been in a long time.
>>698737756
When you know that people have it worse than you, that should be a reason for you to try and realize your life isn't complete shit right?... right?
>>698736885
kek. trul sorry about that, /b/ro
maybe this will help
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1DWn7Mb0TKI
chill roll still active, but need to play street fighter. KEEP BREAD ALIVE
>>698737593
No problem I felt the same way during highschool until I started appreciating alone, because most of the bad feelings I had were due to other people. Ended up with a roommate who had really bad anxiety, convinced him to take medication I think Valium. it sure helped him, the only medicine I use is weed when I have anxiety attacks over reacting over small things because it helps me stop focusing on little things.
bump.
>>698738005
And now the finishing blow. If you ever feel sad, worthless, angry at yourself, empty, or any kind of emotion that you might want to forget about for a few minutes (or more depending on how you work), this should fill you with the kind of hatred toward someone, someone other than you, the kind of white hot rage that makes you forget about everything else than how could you find this disgusting and inhuman bitch of a step mother and reduce her face to a bloody pulp with your bare hands. The mere thought of this story will make your blood pump faster threw your veins, giving you than bit of extra strength you needed for your last km, your last swim lap, or i don't know what else.
I'm not violent. I almost never get angry. I never yelled or attacked someone. But this story... I think i would kill this woman and go to prison a thousand times if i could only be there...
Anyway, good night everyone, i'm going now
I'd like to post here, but I have a lot of trouble articulating my emotions. I feel empty. I am disconnected from everyone else.
>>698738406
My college has councilors who can help me. I'll go in my first month at college and see about taking anti depressants and other stuff to make me better person. I just don't want my parents finding out anything. I'd rather get lung cancer than have my parents know I'm depressed, anxious, and smoke.
>>698739014
Just type dude whatever comes to your mind, or take LSD then it will all come out of you if you let it
>>698739014
i have problems talking with people irl. like paying so much attention to make sure i actually listen but by the time i'm paying attention the person is expecting a response and i'll just be like "yeah, cool"
>>698704204
You post this in every thread you fucking faggot, find someone else
bump
>>698739718
Conversations are two way don't feel like your being narcissistic by talking about yourself.
>>698721753
i was with a girl for 6 years.. went out of state for one month, and the bitch cheated.. i dumped her as soon as i got back / found out.. i surprised her at home when i got back, and her face was guilty as fuck lol. i cut off contact but she kept messaging me.. eventually i allowed her to chill with me and blow me .. but i wouldn't touch her after that ... that lasted for awhile.. idunno i guess i was punishing her.. but eventually i cut her out of my life completely. some grills are fucked up anons.. the moment they think they have found greener grass, they will jump ship and fuck you over in a heartbeat.. and then try to come crawling back when they realize how bad they fucked up.
>>698734905
Fucking idiot
>>698739996
Fuck rip my quads
>>698739718
I have no problem talking to people. In fact I like it. I'm good at following conversations. People think I'm easy to get along with and funny. The problem is I'm not even sure if I _have_ emotions. Really the only expressions of my mental machinations from the past are just anger, thrill, and extreme boredom. It feels weird to talk about personal matters, so when conversations turn to that I just get upset. I immediately withdraw from the conversation and lose all interest. It's like I'm held in captivity by some unknowable suzerain that speaks through me like God. I don't feel like I have any human qualities of my own. I kind of just.. exist, if that makes sense.
I used to laugh at this picture, it was like that kind of pathetic pictures to me, you know the usual
I fucking never knew that sometimes looking at it will kill me.
Same highschool, same class, it all started by her calling me to sit down because I was sitting alone, I will never ever forget that moment, "Hey anon, don't sit alone, come here" I came, started talking it was all fine, it was first grade of highschool, I was a kid, we were friends for 2 years, said "fuck it" to myself, told her that I love her. She looked weird at me for a moment, I didn't regret it.
Sorry can't type anymore.
Last day before it was over it was all fine, no signs of anything, she said she will never leave me, next day it was over, all of sudden.
>>698740623
sorry if this sounds a bit disjointed. I'm typing my thoughts out as they come to me.
>>698740623
Sounds like depression /b/ro
>>698740668
Women are more eradicate than wild animals I swear especially in highschool sorry for your lost, hope you find a better girl to replace the hole she left
>>698730856
imo, a guy or girl, if they aren't engaged or married, they are fair game.. to pursue / ask out .. but if they are honorable / faithful / honest, they will break it off their relationship if they decide they want to see other people, or at least talk about it first rather than dating / cheating while still in a relationship. just because someone has a boyfriend / girlfriend, doesn't mean you may not be the person they are meant to marry.. just be fucking honest about this shit instead of running around in secret and cheating behind ppl's backs.
>>698741024
I'm over with highschool for a long time, not sure if you understood me right.
It just kills me, remembering all the memories, she was literally my best friend, we literally knew everythiung about eachother.
>>698703509
I know your feel OP, very well. Except I drowned my sorrows with steroids and being a huge (in both senses) dick. Gonna repost my story again. Updated yet again.
>be me
>13
>7th grade
>haven't hit puberty yet
>constantly picked on/ beaten up for it
>chads at my school make fun of me for not having hair on my balls yet
>humiliate me publicly by beating me to the floor in the boys locker room, drag me outside and pull my pants down
>basically constantly humiliated in front of girls
>hate myself, want to an hero
>one day after being beaten to shit on the way home from school, I felt a presence help me back up
>heard the sweetest voice i've ever heard ask "are you ok? do you want me to get you some bandages or something?"
>open my one good eye (one was kinda swollen shut I remember)
>just kinda smiled and said yes
>prettiest thing I'd ever seen
>forrest seeing jenny for the first time is a good analogy
>she held my hand and walked with me to her house
>first time someone who wasn't in my family showed me affection or compassion
>I fell for her right then and there
>she took me inside to her living room couch and sat me down
>brought me some ice, band aids and a glass of lemonade
>just kinda laid back while she iced my face
>that was some warm ice
>end up just watching TV together while she tried to get me to open up and talk to her
>eventually broke down
>close to tears, just tell her everything
>tell her I hate myself, I don't know why people are like that to me, never did anything but be nice to them
Quit being a whiny little bitch. Girls come and go. Fuck love.
