Feels thread
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Feels thread
Since the fucks were not given,lemme do the "whats wrong op?"
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>>698611791
>A couple of years ago I made a friend
> A girl
> Is not THAT kind of story
> We were just not into each other
> We spend hours talking about life, friendship, theories, people, stuff
> We didn't have to agree on everything, but it was cool to have somebody to talk to with such an honestly
> Then she got a boyfriend, a great guy
> We still hang out (now) the 3 of us
> But now we are not conected, like before
> Even now that we still talk a lot, now she seems to not understand me anymore
> I come to realize that now she is happy
> And is evident that I am not
>When the roof caves in
>And you just can't win
>You know
>It'll only get better, only get better
when?
At least I won't have a long life
Apologized to a friend about something stupid I said, and they accepted it. But now, I think they blocked me soon after.
Well, I'm in an interesting place. My boyfriend will probably leave me soon, in the next 6 weeks (but I've been predicting this for a month now). He hates how fat I am and that I am doing so little with my life. And honestly, he's right on both points.
But I do work out and I try to eat healthy (being away from home for work makes this a little difficult) but because I still eat too much junk food I'm stuck at 180lbs (160 would be best).
And I'm trying to find a decent job while planning a possible trip to Europe next summer. But I have no idea where I'm going to find it.
I just wish he loved me like he once did. That my weight wouldn't turn him off. I remembering racing to his place after I got off work or leaving too late for work the next day. Those times were great for us & I'm going to lose it.
I just want to be back there so I can ask what I have to do to be attractive again. If he refuses to answer, I'll still have my answer. I'll leave and tell him to call me if he's still interested inside a month, otherwise I'll just move on. I don't care if this is pandering to him, what he wants is good for me and he's worth it in any case.
>>698611791
I am utterly alone.
My best friend has no time for me anymore, I just sit at home and day drink and wish I was fucking dead.
Nobody really likes me, I don't even like me. I am just enormous waste of space.
The only thing that keeps me living is my cat. Something that needs me.
I think about killing myself daily, but I can't when something needs me.
I lost 40lbs in five months, and I'm afraid to let myself eat things I like again and getting fat.
I hate myself on the inside and on the outside. How do even start to love yourselves anons?
Sorry anons who were in previous feels threads, I posted this then promptly fell asleep.
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>>698616447
There's nothing you can just do that will automatically change your view on yourself it takes time and a positive mind set
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>>698616003
Dude go low carb and go low carb now.
Stay under 20g of carbs a day, the weight will come off so fast you won't know what the fuck is going on.
Net carbs are more important than total, even if you are busy every gas station sells slim jims and almonds.
The withdrawal will be a massive bitch, and the cravings will be intense, but you will lose a fuck ton of weight if you are strict with it.
I lost over 40lbs on this shit
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>>698616877
How do you even begin to start liking yourself? I'm 5'4 and 130lbs, I'm just starting to like the way my body looks after the weight loss, but I don't like what's inside.
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8/8
>>698616447
I'd drink with you Anon because I get what it's like for you. I'm not suicidal like I was but I'm fat, lonely, & very little going for me right now.
I just wanted someone special, or at least a few special friends, to find my way with so we'd have company and now I'm even losing that.
How much do you weigh now? I wish I could just stop myself from eating shit like you could.
>>698617165
I tried a low carb diet but after a week and a half of it, I felt like shit. I was away from home, stressing about shit I needed back there, which didn't help. But I'll start again.
>>698617360
You've done really well. My ex and my boyfriend were my height (5'7) and weighed 130 so I'm sure you look great too.
>>698616864
This is shit.
>>698616990
>>698616941
These make me cry
>>698617601
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>>698617789
I don't even know if I'm actually suicidal, I just think about it a lot. I believe in fate and couldn't ever accept that my fate is to take my own life.
Worst thing is I have something special, I'm married to someone I love more than anything, but he can't fix me. Nobody can but me, I just don't know how.
I weigh 130lbs now. I look good but idk how to maintain.
I'm actually the low carb person who replied to your post, that's how I did it.
It's really hard but you can always find things to eat, and after a while once you know your macros you don't need to be as strict.
I did under 20g of carbs a day and 1200 calories. Eating fatty stuff is important, if you eat too much protein your body converts it to carbs.
I wish you the best of luck my friend, it sounds difficult but it's doable.
>>698618441
Fuck it, more.
9/8
>>698618661
10/8
I don't even know why I come here, my life is pretty good I'm still young and in my last year of school soon. I go out and drink with friends, smoke weed with them too. Everything is alright but I just come here to cry for some reason. I feel I don't deserve to be here as my problems are small compared to others. Why do I feel empty and sad when i have no reason to
>>698618744
11/8
>>698618461
How has your husband reacted to your weight loss? Is your sex life better?
>>698613837
Literally in the same exact situation
>>698618461
I don't think I'm actually suicidal, I just make ironic memes about it on 4chan
>>698618814
12/8
>>698618780
I know that feel.
>Feels thread
Gay thread
>>698619059
13/8
>>698618780
I will tell you what I tell my very close friend, suffering is not a competition.
Your feelings are completely legitimate no matter how your life is, you could be a billionaire and still feel that way.
The happiness doesn't come from your friends or drugs, it comes from you. Find the things that you enjoy when the day is over and you're alone, those will get you through the sadness.
Or do what I do and fucking cry it out. That's the best way to heal up whatever is ailing you, tears are a release.
>>698619059
Sorry for not posting any content Anon, I'm saving a lot of shit for the future
>>698618895
He's been away for a while and hasn't seen me for six months, so idk how that will be.
He says dieting is stupid. I have a feeling I'll gain all the weight back when he gets home.
>>698617601
Have all my internets
>>698619251
14/8
>>698619320
No problem.
>>698619678
15/8
>>698619774
16/8
>>698618461
I figured I was replying to you because all those posts talked about the same stuff.
I didn't know that your body will convert protein into carbs. I though carbs and protein were all converted into fat. I like nuts, too, they have a lot of 'good' fat and they're tasty.
My BF talks about macros but I don't understand how they work yet.
>>698619465
Where has he been? I hope he sees what the change in diet has done for you and doesn't passively undermine it.
I don't like how I might have to permanently change my diet. I don't like passing on foods I like, though admittedly that's not a big problem.
I broke up with my ex-girlfriend eight months ago. We were both acting like children. She was my first real girlfriend, she was great when she wasn't acting out.
She has a new guy now, and I hear he's really nice and very well-off. And that's great! But the past couple days, I've been feeling lonely. I just long to hold her one more time, even though I'm the one that broke her heart.
Life's a bitch sometimes. I managed to squeak out one tear tonight but I need the waterworks.
>>698619852
17/8
I think this is all I have.
>>698620135
You get it.
>>698619039
holy shit
>>698616864
Not 4 me beatch
>>698617142
My ex is blonde with green eyes. She's "that ex".
Fuck.
>>698619934
http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/changingshape5.htm
Stay away from disinformation. You can't diet and then go back to how you lived before or you will gain it back, which is why low carb diets fail a lot. You peel off weight, but they are impossible to maintain. You have to figure out a balanced diet you can maintain without gaining fat.
>>698619934
Yeah that was mostly me.
It's kinda weird how it works, essentially carbs are converted into glucose and that's what your body generally runs off of.
But if you eat a lot of fats and moderate protein your body will lean towards burning fat instead of glucose, and usually there is a calorie deficiency since fat is more filling and harder to digest so you stay full longer.
http://www.ruled.me/guide-keto-diet/
Link related is what I did.
My husband's been deployed for he last six or seven months. He's already actively undermined it, I think I know how it's gonna go already.
He'll tell me dieting is stupid and ineffective, I'll be a passive bitch and give it up. When he deploys again I'll start to diet again.
What foods do you like? There's usually alternatives for everything.
>>698613548
God, this is... I can't
>>698619039
I wanna know what happened with them. Holy fuck though. That story should be a book and/or movie
>>698619262
Thanks man that actually helps a lot.
It's strange how /b/ has better feels threads than r9k
>>698611791
You need to shut your fuck hole. There are no feels. Only chemical reactions in the brain. Your feelings don/t exist.Live with it. Or don't.
>>698620807
very true. But that's because you don't exactly see stories like >>698619039
on /r9k/
>>698621100
>Auto
>>698620807
/r9k/ used to be what you would hope it would be, back before moot deleted it. A board full of actually intelligent, sentimental people who would spend their time talking over their mutual fears and disappointments and pondering the cruel ironies of their existence. Unfortunately it seems like all the good ones left for new homes when the board was deleted, and now it's just filled with pathetic idiots.
>>698620782
You're welcome friend. You got a kik? You could always shoot me a message when you're feeling down, sort out your feelings.
>>698621100
>>698621100
Shut up, Rick.
>>698621100
>says feelings are fake bc edgy chemicals
>trusts chemicals that tell him that
Haha, I bet you don't even floss you fucking nerd
>>698621398
I don't have a phone at the moment sorry, but if you don't mind telling me yours I will 100% save that shit for the future
>>698621646
It's all good bro.
Mine is Cligmir1054
If you need me just shoot me a message and I will help ASAP
>>698621100
This guy must suck A LOT of cock. Probably one of those really gay OPs people always complain about.
>>698620611
It was from PBS
>>698620679
>http://www.ruled.me/guide-keto-diet/
thanks
I like sweets, mostly. And I love a baked potato with sour cream, or pasta with olive oil. I can get by giving up on carbs (I already avoid bread) but I hate restrictive diets, of needing to look at what I eat. Food is fun and makes me feel good, at least some times, and I don't want to give that up. But I try, for myself if no one else.
I say the following while hating making commentary on someone else's relationship: And try to get to the VA or base hospital to talk to a marriage counselor because he's acting irrationally. I hope things get better for you.
>>698620103
18/8
Found a couple more.
>>698622005
>implying all OPs aren't extreme faggots
Cmon now
>>698621775
That means a lot to know someone can help when I need it. Lets hope that never happens tho aha :(
>>698622097
19/8
>>698622192
20/8
Don't neglect your parents
>>698622281
21/ 8
>>698621100
My name is Inigo Montoya. You killed my father. Prepare to die.
>>698622336
22/8
>>698622024
Sweets are tricky. You can have sugar free stuff or diet sodas, but be careful because your body processes it as sugar and you can go into insulin shock from what I've read.
Ain't no replacement for pasta, but my savior in this diet is chicken wings. They are so delicious and fatty, I can't get enough of them.
You can replace some stuff with cauliflower, but I got sick of cauliflower very quickly.
He isn't acting irrationally, that's just the way he is. Been like that forever.
He doesn't believe in doing things outside of his way, and he thinks exercise is the way to go with that stuff and that dieting is useless.
No amount of rationalizing will change him.
>>698622284
Never
>>698622489
23/8
continuation of >>698622097
>>698622185
I got you bro <3
I hope you don't ever need the help, but if you do I'm here
>>698622453
under-rated post
>>698616447
it may be hard to see sometimes but you have value and people like you more than you think they do.
>>698622284
Or grandparents for that matter. I live with my grandmother (late 60's) and grandfather (early 70's), and seeing them degrade day by day is the most sickening feeling I have ever experienced. They're still very competent, but its the little things like reminding them how to use the TV remote or how to set the radio in the car. It scares me at how little time I have with them.
The thing that tops the feels on these threads is when they 404.
Many people can finally get away with expressing how hellish their lives are, and it's only about an hour of fun and isolation from everything else before they're left alone, once again, as the big letters, "404," come across the screen, with that smug bitch 404 girl fuck.
>>698616990
>>698622815
I always hope that they do. I put on a front of being kind of an asshole because I'm super emotional and just want people to leave me alone because I know they'll hurt me.
>>698622850
i fucking hate dogs
>>698617534
Don't ruin this beautiful thread with that shit
Ooohhh I can feeelll, ffeeeeellllllllll...Ff...ff....fffEEELLLLLLL
>>698622633
Thanks for your help. I'll try to remember and I've saved the link you gave me. But I need to go to the store before it gets any later, other wise I'll be stuck eating at the DFAC for lunch again.
>>698623330
You're welcome, best of luck to you.
I don't know what DFAC is, but probably isn't good.
why do girl think they have to lie or else "you'll be upset"?... and why do i stay ANYWAY?!
omg I juts felt liked I farted....oh...my...god... I did.
tl;dr blogshit incoming
I went on a trip with a friend and a female friend for three weeks. I didn't think I particularly liked her, but we probed it and gradually got flirtier. I got hooked.
Near the end of the trip, there was an accident and she got an injury. I hugged her while she was getting stitched up and tried to be sweet to her. There was a morning later where she clearly wanted attention from me, and for a brief moment I held her by the shoulder and stroked her hair and whispered some sweet nothings to her. But the 3rd wheel was rummaging around in the corner of the hotel room and we needed to be going soon, so I didn't go further. I also didn't want to push her when she was feeling vulnerable and tired. These aren't excuses I made to myself, I genuinely wanted to be as tactful as I could in the moment.
We parted 3 days later. I didn't make any serious moves beyond a little hug or touch here and there, because she just seemed so tired. It felt wrong. But now I am kicking myself because I feel like I should have sealed the deal at that moment, kissed her or something. I'm fearing that because I didn't, by the time I get back she'll have decided that I wasn't really into her. Or that time will dull everything good that happened between us.
I haven't seen her in a few weeks and I won't see her for a couple more, and I can't speak to her much since she's in China where the ways we communicated are largely blocked. I completely intend to decisively express my interest in person when I see her next. That very day. Even though I feel like a child right now, we are not children, and maybe I should have hope that she won't be as fickle as that. There was clearly something between us and it should be clear to her that I felt the same, after all that happened. But the emotional midget that has awoken in me as I sit here wondering what I should have done fears that if I lose her, I won't be able to deal with it.
>>698619262
Thanks anon
>>698622850
I don't know if I need to participate in a feels thread right now. I feel ecstatic but i know that's only temporary. I get really extreme mood swings. I feel ecstatic because I just cut off all contact with all of my friends I've had for 4 years over the internet because not going outside was making me depressed and I just wanna go cold turkey to get over my video game addiction. Those guys are gonna be confused as fuck. I'm usually online everyday and they need me to help manage our team. I think I should feel bad but I don;t.
>>698621100
>>698624220
did you tell them you were going, and why? you don't have to but it might give you more peace of mind about it, and I don't know them but most people would probably understand.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owaQ5uX8ykg
Whenever I read these it makes me think of this song for some reason. I hope you all see the light
>>698611791
I remember when I was a little kid. Sitting through Sunday mass was fucking brutal. That young, two hours was almost forever. The drive from Surrey to Vancouver was like forever too. I used to fear mass because it was too long. Now I fear mass because it's too short. Time changes as I get older, and all of a sudden the age 65 doesn't seem so far away as I thought it was. Time isn't constant.
>>698624482
no I didn't. to be honest I was getting sick of them.
>>698624220
I hate saying it, but there are better things in life than video games. I struggled with my addiction several years ago, and was in the same position. The people I met in the games I played were like family, but those games were destroying my real family and preventing me from seeing the best parts of life. There are better things out there
>>698618814
You should check the nearby thread here on Hillary Clinton, it looks more like the top section of that image. Not quite /b/ if you ask me.
Pretty much sums up my life famalam
>>698624637
I know that feel. I used to hate going to church as a kid. Now, I'm pissed I have to miss it to work.
>>698624702
How is this even possible. Why the fuck would a whole fucking audience, a light show, and a professional cameraman, I can't even. That has to be fake or my perception of reality is blown.
>>698624637
>>698624664
ah, so it goes. new phase of your life, right?
I love that ecstatic feeling when you go through a big change in your life, it feels like nothing can stop you, but I also dread the inevitable moment when I come down from that high and slip back into a tedium. I think the solution is just to be constantly changing and improving yourself, never let yourself slip into a rut like that, you know?
>>698623015
you are alienating potential friends that way man
>>698625170
I couldn't have iterated this better myself. I certainly hope this is a new phase of my life.
>>698625267
I know... I have like two friends who I'm not like that with.
I'm just really afraid of letting myself be vulnerable even with the friends I have because I know they'll leave me behind like everyone does.
There isn't a person in this world who actually knows who I am.
Well, the girl i thought i would be spending the rest of my life with doesn't love me like she used to it feels like im the only one putting any effort into our relationship and im pretty sure she's talking to another guy behind my back. Im honestly ready to die /b/
>>698624931
And you know what, the concept of dying so soon isn't so bad if you believe that there's something after death. I'd probably go to mass to believe in that lie. And then my kid would ask me why he has to suffer for two hours on his knees, and what the fuck can I say? "You'll understand when you're older". And then at that point I realize that I fully understand what that statement means and think back to all the times to when my parents told me the exact same words in the exact same sequence. That's why I don't go.
>>698616447
Remember what I told you, you are irreplaceable. Out of 7 billion people, there is only one you.
>>698624783
These people and I have shared some very strange experiences. We got one of our own sent to prison because he was extorting some 13 year old girls on our team for nudes. We tipped off the FBI to what was going on, and he'll be in prison for the next 5 years. That really brought us close together, closer than I'd assume most online communities are. Even so, I can't stand the people there and I get this nebulous happy feeling when I'm socializing in the real world that I just don't get on the internet. It's time to move on.
>>698625152
Yep, at this point it's not about who I want to be when I grow up. I'm grown up, and now it's about what will devote my last days to. What will I die for?
>>698625721
look man there is nowhere to go but up from here. just try to go out of your comfort zone a little. not everyone will will be your best bud but more often than not people will like you
![JmRr7[1].gif](https://i.imgur.com/Ub3nkKZ.gif "JmRr7[1].gif")
worth the long read
>>698624220
lol they dont give a fuck dude think about if one of them left you wouldnt care right? you should make some real connections thats what will matter
>>698618461
I'm the opposite, I believe that suicide is my future.
Just not today. I've always hated the idea of growing old and losing control over your body. Someday I'll just shoot myself, so I don't have to go through having alzheimers or cancer or any of that bs.
>>698626264
I would care, they're friends. I just value my own health more than whatever inconveniences I've just caused them.
>>698626063
I hope you don't mean physically "up". Because one way or another, we all have to wind up more six feet downwards.
>>698625611
I hope so too. I believe in you, anon.
>>698618744
Fuck, feel that hard
>>698625872
Irreplaceable doesn't mean good...
>>698626063
I guess not. I went way out of my comfort zone a few months ago by telling my friend about nightmares so bad they make me not want to sleep, and I felt awful afterwards. I though I'd cry the whole time.
I can't go into anything under the surface because I just get really emotional.
Most people like me, as much as I try to be a jerk I'm inherently nice and can't escape that.
>>698626266
dont be that guy man people depend on you even if its only your family. those are the most important people
>>698618540
You can never really "get over it", right? You just forget. Forget and hope that won't ever remember. But you will. And the pain will still be there, as strong as if it never left.
>>698626428
Even though I have no idea who you are, it means a lot to me to hear that from someone.
Thank you.
Hope I do this right.
>Move around alot due to parents being divorced when I was born
>Mom finally settles down around when I'm in 4th grade
>Making new friends is just another day by now
>One friend stands out, Francisco
>Find out he lives down the street from me, always hang out
>Become a part of his family and vice-versa
>Fast forward to beginning of Highschool
>Dad raised me on motorcycles, start riding more
>Francisco wants to ride also but his parents wont let him
>Spend next 4 years teaching/riding with him daily
>2 weeks after graduation Francisco buys a new motorcycle, texst me telling me he wants to show me
>I wait several minutes, then hours, waiting for him to finally arrive at my place
>Finally get a phone call from his sister, he tried passing a truck on a off ramp, hit the railing, and fell to his death
>I start to head over to his parents house, stop half way and pull over
>Don't have the courage to face his parents or family, feel like im the sole reason for his accident
>Get sent an invite for his funeral, but I don't show up out of shame
>Wait for funeral process to be over and visit his gravestone
>His dad waited for me, knew I would come by after
>Tells me that he doesn't blame me, thanks me for saving his son from depression when he was young by being his friend
>Hands me a twin pair of brand new custom helmets and backpacks, Francisco's last gift before his accident
>Break down and cry like I've never done in my life
>Always take his backpack and helmet with me wherever I go
God dammit man, why didn't you remember the first rule of riding, don't be a fucking ass hat in a rush.
>
>>698625737
I understand bro. How old are you at the moment? I had a girlfriend of 2 years, we went through so much together, i met her mum and we had family dinners and shit, i thought she was the one, i was ready to spend my life with her, turns out she fucked some other guy when i was away for a week due to family reasons. It fucked me up. I have trust issues and i wanted to kill myself. Its been 4 years since i dated another but i have met other girls who are a lot better, much mature and more compatible. Theres no such things as the one, there are so many others you will be able to fall for, who will treat you better. You deserve someone who treats you the same way you treat them. stay alive, i believe in you.
>>698626242
Oh my fucking god that's long. I sure fucking hope so.
>>698626488
by go out of your comfort zone i dont mean like confiding in people, though that is also a good thing, i mean like go to a bar and talk to somebody or next time your bud invites you to something actually go
I'm the guy my friends turn to when they have problems. They think I always know what to say/do. I have bottled up my emotions for years, because I don't want to burden them with my problems
>>698626242
I'll save this one to read for later
>>698626266
The way I see it is that when you die everything in life will be erased. Every ounce of pain and joy that you experienced will disappear, so why take your own life?
Even if you suffer through old people illnesses you won't remember once you're dead. It seems wrong to not let it all play out.
>>698625737
it feels bad right now but she just a girl you will get over her man
>>698626242
I read this the other day. Made me feel like an actual human being. That nebulous empty feeling I experience every day went away for just a moment and I felt connected with some kind of invisible network of people all over the place. It's the saddest thing I've ever read on 4chan.
Got a contribute here.
>A few years ago I had two friends. A and B.
>One was my cousin (B).
>B moves away, leaving only me and A to do stuff together.
>We start getting closer, hanging out all the time and doing fun stuff together.
>Then I have this other guy who used to be my friend but we drifted. Let's call him C.
>C becomes my friend again and me, A, and C are all hanging out and shit for a while.
>A and C start getting closer, and leaving me out of everything they do.
>Start feeling lonely
>A and C now always talk to each other, hang out, etc. and A has even told C some stuff he hasn't told me before. Even though we knew each other longer than C did.
>Start feeling like I was just betrayed and forgotten about.
>Get into fight with A one day about this.
>Tells me he doesn't like me now because I became a cynical asshole who doesn't talk to anyone.
>Realize he's right
>Now, all I do every day is think about reasons why I shouldn't kill myself.
>Family
>The entire reason I live this painful lonely life of shit is because if I ended it my family would be broken.
Sup guys. Anyone still lurking?
I've been feeling pretty low lately. I'm happy during the day and then I get home and realize the turmoil my life is at this point. I mean things are okay, I've got a good job, going into college soon, after three and a half years of putting it off.
But the bad always outweighs the good and the bad is thst I feel like nobody really cares about me anymore.
I feel like I just exist in the lives of people I know. People I considered friends seem more like acqauintences. My family's no help with anything and I've been on a break with my girlfriend for the past two months and I cant even open up on how I feel about it without caving in on what I tell her and just continuing to go with it.
I tried to make some new friends but they rarely invite me to shit too. Recconecting with old friends is useless cause nobody puts in half the effort I want to put in to being friends.
It just all seems useless.
So, I'm feeling pretty alone but at the same time I guess it's good cause I can work on myself to be a better person and prove myself wrong about the fact that I'm just unlovable.
I'm sure things will be good eventually, just feels like I'm on a sinking ship right now.
Day by day I guess.
>>698619248
Twf depressed AND gay
Sure it is easy for someone to say- but _Regulate_. Don't let just 1 thought take control. That is obsessing and leads to unhealthiness. Illness of the mind is normally just chemicals. Don't let them run/ruin your life. Try to regulate your thoughts and it can help to regulate your chemicals.
>>698625737
We are in the same boat my man.
>>698626701
I talk to strangers all the time, but it's more out of nervousness than a need for friendship.
I hang out with my coworkers once every two weeks, and it's pretty enjoyable.
There's an imbalance with my friends because they confide in me constantly and I never really do, and I want to be able to lower shields but I don't know how.
>>698626881
you alienated yourself man. but life is about learning just learn from that mistake and dont repeat it
>>698626730
Sometimes suicide isn't pointless. Some people consume more than they produce, and are only heading more into that direction. This is common with people who are life support. Sometimes, some things have to end a certain way, and it's best for all parties even if all parties suffer.
>>698626893
I kinda wish I was gay. Seems easier to date that way. And I get more attention from gay men than from women.
>Be me
>~4 years old
>My dad is in the army, so he frequently leaves for years at a time.
>My mother was left to take care of me, but she was addicted to crack and that's all she spent money on.
>She never cooked, never did anything for me.
>We frequently go to a mans house
>My mother tells me this man is named "Lisa".
>My mom also has another friend Lisa, keep in mind.
>My dad comes home from deployment, it's good to have him back.
>He and my mom argue a lot but it's fine.
>My mom and I still go to Lisa's house.
>When we get back, my dad would ask where we went, and my mom would say "Lisa's House".
>My dad assumed it was the woman my mom was friends with
>Usually at "Lisa's" house, I would play his PS2 while my mom and him go in the other room.
>I needed something and I opened the door.
>ohshit.png
>Mom yells and tells me to get out.
>I go play more Jak II
>Eventually we leave, and we get home. My dad asks where we were, and my mom says "Lisa's House".
>Then I chime in and say, "The BOY Lisa."
Cont.?
>>698626969
that's the problem, my man.
You can hold out thoughts for long times, you can push away pain for a day, a few hours.
But if you really still feel that pain somewhere, once you do, you sink in it again, and it becomes overwhelming.
Fuck you, Alyssa, I love you still, dumb bitch.
>>698626636
I'm sorry anon
>>698627630
you have my attention...
I want to die. The girl who I love dearly doesn't love me anyone
>>698627066
i want to give you some advice but you already know what you should be doing. look the first time is the hard one. after that its all a cakewalk
I had a huge crush on a girl I met over the internet. Now she kinda annoys me but I still think she's hot as fuck. I can't go after her though because of my compulsive lying habits.
Fuck you madelyn, I wish we'd never met.
>>698626499
>>698626730
Yeah but the thing is I don't think I'm even going to have a family, I'd really like to but relationships just bring out the worst in me. Knowing that I just have to stay single in order to stay sane and to avoid being a jackass feels like ass. Not even mentioning being forever alone because of all this
I went to see a concert last night by myself
I never felt so lonely
normally I wouldnt go alone but most of what little friends I have either moved away or werent into the bands playing
but I really didn't want to pass up the opportunity to see Boris play their album Pink in it's entirety
I bought 2 tickets hoping I'd find someone to go with
I drove an hour and 45 minutes there, which was depressing as fuck
get there and watch the show which was awesome but had nobody to talk to which was depressing as fuck
and then the depressing ass lonely ride home when I wished so badly I had someone to talk about the show with
I want to do all these things like go to the beach or six flags or camping but I have no friends so all I do is sit at home
I found out the girl that I thought loved me never did she played me and I stopped talking to her she still messages me and gay shit like that and apparently her friend is coming over to visit or some shit I dont care
Whenever a girl shows any interest in me, I show too much interest too soon and scare them off.
I spent over 6 years chasing after a girl, and nothing to show for it. Almost a year ago she realized she was bisexual, and has been dating a girl ever since. I haven't spoken with her in months because I can't bring myself to be let down again. I can't get her out of my head. despite the fact I WANT to move on... I feel like the ultimate failure...
>>698621100
You don't have an opinion, only chemical reactions in the brain...
>>698628231
lol, she is annoying, you are a liar, everyone has their vices man
>>698628247
Thanks for talking with me guys, I gotta peace out
>>698627630
sure
>>698628247
you dont have parents, siblings, grandparents, cousins, or anything?
>>698628211
I guess I do, it's just a matter of taking the first step to do it.
Which is immensely scary.
>I don't know how much longer I can last >being happy, that is.
>is seems i may have something great with her
>but there is a looming cloud above my head that tells me its going down in a ball of flames.
>then I go back to how it was
>before I became so close to her
>I'm not going to kill myself
>it won't be enough pain to end it over
>its gonna be damn close though
>>698627669
Yes. Agreed, which is why the " Sure it is easy for someone to say" part, but regulation does not mean _never_ think on "bad" times, the negatives in life, but rather just don't get stuck on them. It is possible, through discipline, to begin regulating what anyone dwells on, and for how long.
Sucky times in life will always be a drag, dont ignore them but don't focus only on them either... Easy to say, but when folks "cycle" though aspects of life they can begin to gain balance.
>>698627630
plox
>>698621100
You must be real fun at parties.
>>698628485
There are other fish in the sea. I'm sure there's probably a less vexatious woman out there waiting for me.
>>698627630
yes
>>698628211
i know man ive been there. after you get over that wall tho it feels so good.
>>698618814
>And on the screen, you see the exact same words.
>>698628646
>i know man ive been there. after you get over that wall tho it feels so good.
>>698627630
>Mom sort of nudges me and asks what I'm talking about.
>I say "I just want my dad to know it's the boy Lisa."
>Dad starts freaking out, breaking shit.
>Mom is scared, I'm scared.
>Tells me to go to my room
>k
Around next month
>Mom and Dad come sit me down in the living room.
>Basically, they are getting divorced and I need to choose who to live with.
>I choose my dad because he actually cares about me
>good choice
~Next Year
>Live with my dad in the same house we were living in before.
>Mom lives in condo down the road
>Sometimes I go to my moms house for a night or two.
>At my moms house, in the T.V room playing video games
>Dad is supposed to pick me up soon.
>Dad comes rushing into T.V room.
>Apparently the condo is on fire
>Mom left something in the oven, got hammered and passed out on the couch.
>Dad carries me out, puts out the fire, and we leave.
>Mom is fine, but I don't go to see her anymore
Cont?
The girl I love and wanted to ask out moved away. We talked all the time, told jokes, and talked about personal shit. I wanted to see if we could take things to the 'next level' but she moved away without notice... first and probably last girl I'll ever feel a connection to. :(
>>698628357
same problem here bro
do I go for the love of my life if shes afraid to go steady with any guy? (so far)
>>698629243
yess
>>698629170
How did you get over the wall?
My problem right now is that I want to reach out, and I know I can, but all my friends seem so happy and I don't want to burden them with anything.
>>698629243
More please!
>>698629486
you are thinking that they are happy means they dont want any more friends. thats not what that means tho everyone wants some more friends just like you do
>>698629355
I'm the opposite, I can't show any emotion at all. Hell, if anything, I get less nice to the girl... Fuck...
>>698629243
yes just keep going
I'm desperate and when I find a girl I barely know I instantly like her it sucks because after a few months or even weeks I randomly tell her I like her and of course I get rejected but what am I suppose to expect?
>>698629486
I had the same problem. until one day I blurted out about my porn addiction to a friend while we were talking about his drinking problem. He knew I was dealing with something, and was so happy I told him. He's been helping me through it. Just reach out. They will be happy you are
What if this bitch turns out to be crazier than I am?
>>698629640
Nah man I mean with people I'm already friends with. The few that I've even let remotely close.
>>698629686
how does that work out? does the girl end up ignoring you?
As far as my experience goes, i tend to try and talk to them but ends up being too much, they start spacing out and stop replying then slowly turn into somebody that i used to know
>go to party on Saturday
>friends birthday and his cousin is there, let's call her A
>A and me are really good friends
>Evryone says me and A would make a good couple, etc
>don't talk to anyone at the party
>sick from the day before and leave
>see a message from A left yesterday
>her saying sorry about something
>says she wanted to call me earlier but was busy
>ask her what's wrong
>she responds 8 hours later
>says nevermind
>says ignore it
>ok :/
Maybe, just maybe, I'm the faller. every family has someone who falls, who doesn't make the grade, who stumbles, who life trips up. Maybe I'm our faller.
>>698622580
Thank you.
>>698611791
>>698629810
Yeah the other day I told my closest friend about some old stuff that blindsided me, he said he knew something was up but didn't want to pry.
But since then he got a gf and is so happy, I don't want to tarnish that at all with shit that I don't even have a reason to be feeling.
>>698629794
your are confusing "you like a girl" and "you are attracted to a girl" these are not the same things
>>698630113
sorry I'm retarded
>>698630112
From personal experience, you wouldn't tarnish anything. He would be glad to help
>>698621100
We all know who you are
>>698629946
Usually they keep trying for about a year, then give up (stop talking to me). It fucking sucks because even the ones I really want, my brain just defaults to this kind of, not caring mode, and sometimes I get less nice to "scare" them off a little i guess.
>>698629243
>Mom moves to California
>Does not pay child support
>Dad is struggling to pay for house and truck, and ends up getting deployed when I'm around 8.
>My grandparents offer to take care of me while he is gone.
>My dad leaves, and I live with my grandparents for around 3 years.
>Talk to my mom once a month on the phone, enjoying little kid life.
>Be 11, dad comes back.
>We go back to our old house.
>Mom comes and visits for around a week.
>While she's down, she buys me a the new ds. Very happy kid.
>Everything seems good.
Maybe 2 or 3 months later
>Dad has bad news
>He has a lot of debt because of the divorce, and he has to pay off loans my mom took out.
>House is getting foreclosed
>sheeeeeit.gif
>We go and live with grandparents, and around now my mom owes over 20k in child support.
Fast Forward about 2 years
>Be upstairs in grandparents house.
>Upstairs is one room in this house, and the room is my dads.
>See a bunch of wrappers of some sort.
>Ask my dad what they were.
>He said they were gum wrappers. I asked him for some gum the next day and he didn't have any.
Still typing more
>>698630271
I hope so. Maybe after some liquid courage, and after he gets home from his metal thing I'll talk to him a bit.
>>698629898
by friends do you mean like work friends?
if these are already people you hang out with they like you they will be more than happy to accept anything you tell them
do feel meme? how to feel meme? tel me ho
http://www.strawpoll.me/10945502
>>698630480
Well then drink up anon
well /b/ this is the story of the first girl I ever loved
>let's call her K
>K come to school in 8th grade around mid school year
>she has no friends eats her "lunch" alone
>some reason sit next to her after PE
>start talking, exchange numbers
>talk for hours on end for weeks
>one night she texts me
>starts rambling, obviously high
>everyone talks about her doing drugs and cutting
>I don't give a shit
>she stops talking to me after that
>K leaves the school for 3 months to go to Mexico
>when she comes back were are rehearsing for graduation
>during the sitting she passes out right in front of me
>teachers grab her and take her to nurse
>everyday after that leaves school early
>never see her again after graduation
I'm always that friend. The awkward fat one who makes jokes that no one laugh at. The one people only hang out with because of sympathy. The guy that no girl wants. The guy that gets shit on by everyone else for being poor.
I'm the failure in the group. There's always a failure. And it's me.
>>698620022
I'm in the same boat, hang in there.
>>698630264
it seems like the same thing but it isnt. your penis and your brain are two different things
>>698630578
Well those are the only friends I have. I only actively hang out with one.
I won't look forwards to the non-solutions I get though, none of them ever work
>>698630606
Ayyy I am now, that's why I fell asleep at 4pm on a Monday to begin with
>>698630400
Hey, i think you've got this man, now you know your biggest flaw, you can improve on yourself. Having the attention of a girl for a year is quite a big achievement. You should realise by 3-6 months in that shes interested and maybe you could go on from there?
I'm trying to change myself too, but i usually lose the girl by the 1 and a half month mark, i've realised that from now on, if i do like a girl, im going to stop being such a soft cock and give her a bit more space.
>>698630480
dont wuss out you have to actually do this
>>698626892
Almost in the same whole. Man, I really, really feel you. It's a horrible feeling, it's just too hard to accept living a day just to wait to live the next one, without any real happy moments to expect. Stay strong man, maybe someday everything will be alright, maybe don't, but I think we gotta find it out, right?
>>698622163
In a world over over 7 billion people
how many care
>>698630414
Please, before this thread 404s
>>698631210
I'm going to try, I just don't actually know where to start.
Last time I talked to him about things I asked him to not mention it in person because that's a recipe for auto-tears.
Don't know if he'll stick to that this time.
>>698630414
>Couple months later, be 13
>Dad is retired from army, has been since we moved in with grandparents.
>Robin Williams just passed away
>Watching news about it.
>People are reporting it was a heroin overdose
>I see those wrappers that I saw in my dads room on the screen.
>Realize what the wrappers were.
>Don't say anything about it, ever.
>Dad is looking for a job, can't find one.
>He has to borrow money from my grandparents all the time because of debt.
>Mom now owes us 24k in child support.
>He decides to sue my mom for child support money.
>I come with him to court.
>I see my mom and immediately start crying.
>Not tears of joy.
>I ask if I can wait outside while court happens.
3 hours later
>Dad comes out
>He doesn't tell me about anything until we get home.
>Basically, my mom agreed to drop all parental rights if she didn't have to pay child support. This means she has no obligation to talk to me or have any part in my life, and my dad wanted that.
>Immediately think that my life is only worth 24k to her.
>Get sad af
Still typing more
>>698630993
Unfortunately I figure out with in the 2-3 month mark she's interested, but I subliminally stop myself from showing emotion. :/ Just wish I could...
You've gotten further than I have by figuring out a way to fix it lol if you don't mind, whats a time you wish you hadn't done what you do?
> have best friend of opposite sex
>developed feelings for best friend
>I valued him so much I couldn't stand to lose him if I confessed
>meet another boy
>other boy obviously likes me
> I give it a shot with other boy because I don't care about him as much
> best friend says he always had feelings for me
>tears me apart
>I am stuck with other boy
>best friend never talks to me again
>think about him all the time
>check up on him via social media
I would do anything to turn back time, it's going to be 2 years
>>698631426
>13
>robin williams just passed away
>>698630796
if your friends are making you feel terrible about yourself because you feel like you don't fit in, you should find new people. I know what it feels like to not quite ever fit in, to feel like you're never really accepted no matter how hard you try, but take it from me, there's someone for everyone, you just have to find the right people.
>>698631426
Nice story but... 13 in 2014...
>>698631403
he will know not to mention it in public that was a personal thing. all you need is that one person to get you in with everyone else https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HdAkYCyCZv8
>>698631880
>>698632085
we were all young once, nothing wrong with that.
>>698617355
this made me cry.. but like happy cry
anyone else here is/was army fag?
>>698632228
I'm just gonna ignore it because this story is interesting
literally the most what the fuck ending i've ever read here
>>698632537
feelsbadman
>>698631537
you know what sucks, ive recently been talking to a girl, and before that, it was 2 years of being uninterested in any female/no friends who are girls either.
my biggest problem is i tend to fall/like/being interested in people too quick and easily.
i get a sort of high feeling when i feel that someone is interested in me.
the biggest mistake i made was talking to her everyday. i feel like at the start, maybe it was good to keep her interested right? since in my mind, if i like someone, why wouldnt i want to talk to them? i dont think im socially retarded, i can keep conversations going without awkwardness. this may sound silly but we had a snapchat streak of 23 days going and thats really where we talked, through small amounts of text written above the selfies, i enjoyed it, she was a gorgeous girl. i think i put too much importance in that streak that i mightave 'forced' it to keep going and by showing her that im always interested, i felt like she kinda had the "i can have him anytime" feelings. and you know when you were a kid, when you want something you cant have, you obsess over it but once you get it, you get over it and just cast it a side because its not that interesting anymore.
i guess i talked to her too much that she lost interest.
its sad, the first date we went on was perfect, we were physical, holding hands, touching rubbing against each other.
but everything changed on the second, i felt something wrong, even though the conversations and talking flowed without any awkwardness, when we got out of the car, i felt like she distanced herself, didnt want any physical contact.
i knew her before we went on the dates, we hung out a few times with other friends. i realised she wanted what she couldnt have way ofter she stopped showing interest bcecause when we did hang out with other friends, i thought she was way out of my league, so i didnt give her any attention or bother with talking to her.
i asked her for a third date.
cont.
>>698632537
>>698632657
>>698631880
>>698632085
I am young, yes. I'm sorry?
>Be 15, Depressed
>Put on medication for depression, go to therapy.
>Start smoking weed, it makes me happy.
>Make friends in high school, life becomes a bit better.
>Home life is still shit, my dad owes my grandparents around 200k.
>Always fighting
>Never speak to my mom.
>I'm never home, always at friends houses.
>Still maintain grades
>One night I come home and my dad is gone.
>Grandma doesn't tell me why, but he says he will be back in a couple months.
>She won't answer any questions, so I leave.
>One of my friends lets me sleep at his place for a week or so, then I go to a different friend.
>Don't come home
>Be me now, haven't talked to anyone in my family in a month. (Sorry I'm underage don't hate me)
Depressed as hell, I know compared to some I have it easy but I hate my life. I'm not suicidal but if I was at gunpoint I wouldn't fight back.
>>698632124
Eh last time he sorta did. Started to say how he'd been there and I was just thinking like we talked about this, please stop. And that was minor stuff, this is bigger.
Nice song anon, I liked it.
I decided to treat myself to some pizza tonight, so even if I don't talk to him pizza will make me happy.
Haven't had it in like six months.
>>698632790
Gonna start posting those 6 word feels:
“Wrong number,” says a familiar voice.
>>698633023
That's good. You need to have something to look forward to each day, even if it's something little like pizza
>>698631537
>>698632783
so i asked her for a third date
>me: hey i want to take you out for dinner somewhere nice, are you free on tuesday 6pm?
>her: im cool for dinner but can (her friend) come?
>me: yeah sure
turns out her friend was busy
>me: are you still keen?
at this point, shes seen the message but its been 2 hours without a reply
>me: hey something popped up from work and we'll have to do this another time
15 minutes later
>her: all g, no problem :)
i kinda figured out she didnt want to go out with me alone, and at this stage, she was taking 30mins to an hour plus to reply to my messages even though it does say she is online, and i know how she is with her phone.
this is where i realised to pull myself back and now im just ignoring her, theres no use trying to talk/get her out is there? is been about a week since this took place.
i realised if i was to do it all again, i wouldnt have talked to her everyday, i know now to stop giving her/the girl so much attention and maybe just build some tension so she wouldnt lose interest in me.
The worst part is she was just such a great beautiful girl and i wish it couldve worked out
>>698633068
Goodbye, mission control. Thanks for trying.
>>698633458
the worst thing is i dont know what happened, the way she talked, our communications habit, everything changed in a day, i could feel it in my gut but i ignored it, and when i realised i was right, it was too late
>>698622711
That was cold man
>>698632783
>>698633458
>>698634010
I get that same high, bro.
Idk if you talked too much and she lost interest, maybe just the wrong things? This one particular girl I'm so pissed about not trying for talked with me every day, just about different things every day. I guess maybe talking in person is different than virtual maybe. What did yall talk about?
>>698633463
Won the World. Lost the Girl.
>>698634215
He fell for her. Twelve stories.
>>698634471
The plague began with a hug.
>>698632362
That guy at the bottom. I can tell you what each medal means.
>>698634215
you're right, its different in person. but when it was good, when we talked virtually, it was never deep conversations, it was mostly banter, just talking shit joking around. throwing compliments and light insults both ways. it was fun and flirty. i guess i knew the moment our conversation topics changed. the way she talked changed, i dont know if i should give up now and move on or if i should try something along the line, we never really broke off, we kinda just stopped talking
>>698633112
Foods a big thing for me, brings much joy.
Will probably feel like shit for it tomorrow but tonight I don't care.
>>698634521
what is this?
I'm sad pretty frequently, but I feel like that's just part of existence. We're here to struggle. But at the same time, while we can seemingly fill our minds with an infinite number of things, the amount that we can experience in our days here is truly finite. Everything that we do has an impact on who we are, and who we will be. Why waste time hyper-focusing on the negative parts of life in these threads, or on /b/ in general? Our minds are more fragile then we like to let on, and we have to take care of them so that they can take care of us.
How often do you give back to your mind? You ever do anything good for your body? Ever actually go through the motions of meditating? Do you turn off your computer so you can get a reasonable amount of sleep every night? Do you watch your diet, and not eat too much sugar? All of these things are vital to brain health, these and many more. You can scoff, but take a look at your mental state, and then look at how well you take care of yourself. There's a reason successful people are doing gay shit like Yoga, Meditation & Pilates. It's because it keeps you physically and mentally healthy. It works you out without destroying your body by simply trying to become a Chad. You guys seriously can't complain about your state of being until you have tried everything to fix it. That being said, I don't mean to be hard on you. You just gotta learn. We live in an age where we have resources at our disposal that no one has ever had before, and we know how to use them better than anyone.
>>698617534
Fucking furries
>>698634909
Yeah, that light-hearted talk is the best... I say try one last time, then move on, but hell who am I to give advice haha. Do some interesting shit, use it as an opener and get her talking about herself.
>>698634970
I got the webm from a feels thread, and the text is a metaphor, the big thing in your life be it love/happiness/sadness=the plague and it just takes a little thing to set it off.
>>698634521
First sentient robot: “Turn me off.”
>>698616003
Kalyna?
>>698634521
This is so fucking sad and I don't even know why
The first girl I loved was named Emily.
>third grade, I was the weird kid
>she was a brunette, small, cute, had a pale face and pale complexion, we were too young to care about life
>We used to hang out every day
>We would play, laugh, do random shit that kids do
>One day she pulls me aside in class during free time
>She wrote in smudges on a desk "I love you" with a heart
>My dumbass pretended not to notice, even after she flat-out told me what was there
That was the beginning of my maximum autism, no-hope love life
>>698635480
>I pined over her after 4th grade, because we didn't hang out anymore
>I became a weird, fat emo kid
>I pined over her all the way until 8th grade
>Still think about her now
>>698635477
sometimes words don't convey the sadness
>>698635435
Click. Click. Click. Click. Click. Bang.
>>698635480
Ah, that feel of pretending not to notice or care even when they make it painfully obvious, then regretting the hell out of it later.
>>698635724
Lonely man. Artificial intelligence. Lonely machine.
>>698635435
thanks bro, if you're still the anon who cant show emotions, i think you will be alright, i feel that fuck communications through social media, just get the girl out and spend some time with her, she'll be happy to do most of the talking anyways, sometimes maybe she just wants someone to listen. you can make it work
>>698635705
The second girl I loved was Kelsey
>She was tall, dark-haired, blue-eyed, pale skin
>Sweetest girl on earth
>loved her, loved how kind she was, loved how soft she was
>Desperately wanted to date her, this is about 10th grade, she is older at 11th grade
>tell her a story about a girl I liked named "blue", just wanted to see what she would think if I described her
>tells me toa sk ehr out
>so I asked her out a few days later at a party we were at
>she says she'll think about it
>of course she says no
>pine over her for a year
>i was religious at the time, so I change churches just to be around her
>tried asking her out a couple more times, each to no avail
>pastor eventually intervenes because it's getting weird
>she, being the sweet soul she is, doesn't mind and just keeps politely rejecting me
>she leaves for nursing school, whatever
>>698613548
Well fuck.
please give may god bless you
>>698635961
social media is great but theres got to be a balance i think.
Good luck man, you got this. come back to a feels thread and share again sometime. wish you the best, mate.
>>698635929
forgot a damn picture
"love me", he said to himself
>>698617142
I can deal with sad or scary dreams just fine, u have my whole life. its the happy girlfriend dreams that fuck me up.
>>698611791
Nice Thread... i feel the same. My ex girlfriend broke up with me... with a lot of guys... I want to be happy again.
I did some stuff I'm not proud of and it came back to get me. I honestly feel like shit now and just want to die.
>>698621100
>>698621315
>>698621417
>>698621467
>>698621634
but the hidden part is that's what he's trying to tell himself to live. the img is ladder to roof. what do you do from roof? jump.
>>698635903
no, fuck it, her name is Emily Elizabeth Davis, and she was the first girl I truly felt anything for, I miss how nice she was to me, I miss love, I just want to go back and be happy guys
>>698636100
Third girl I loved was a girl named Judy
>be in drumline at my hs
>Judy is on snare line, I am on tenors
>year older than me, I previously dated her sister, her sister was crazy, knew she was too
>somehow we become inseparable
>bus buddies, we always rode together on the buses to drum competitions
>of course,t ons of drama because we love each other but she's dating some beta cuck boy that she doesn't like because who knows
>I try to get with her, to no avail
>she leaves for college, I promise to follow her (fucking retarded)
>comes home one weekend to hang out, I take her on a date
>We go to her house after, i drop her off in the driveway, and I tell her to close her eyes because I have a present
>she closes her eyes, excited
>I kiss her, pull away
>"where did it go?"
>run back into her mouth and we kiss for a solid 20 mins
>it was my first kiss, and I lvoed every minute of it
>i finally felt loved
>i felt wanted
>i felt happy
>we leave, she goes back to college, I continue to try and find a way to her
>she basically tells me we can't be together even though she wants to
>she leads me on my senior year, constantly facebook messaging me, yet telling me that our romance would never happen and I need ot get over it
>knew long before I needed to cut her off, didn't because I am a fucking moron
>I asked her to prom
>she says yes, picks out dress
>comes back to show me, I try to kiss her again, she freaks out, runs away, texts me later and tells me she will call the cops if I keep bugging her
>fuck
>text her later to forget about the dress, spend the weekend with my family
>>698636972
Fourth girl I "loved" was Kat
>in college speech class
>see weird, hipster redhead with a 10/10 body
>tell myself, "I'm gonna date her one day"
>years of being a lonely autist made em want to push myself for this girl
>sophomore year of college, I just say hi to ehr enough every day and become her friend
>we like each toehr, work on group projects
>a few months pass, we need to study for the final
>get some alone study time with her at school in a quiet room
>after hours of eating, studying, and doing nothing, I, like a giant bitch,
>text her 2 feet away telling her how I feel about her
>she is just as autistic and can't come up with anything
>I decide to say fuck it and kiss her
>"you have some balls, dude"
>she kisses back
>two hours of tongue-dueling
>shit was cash, sort of lusty and not very romantic but it was fun
>she was iffy afterwards, texted me alot, asked ot use my things, but wouldn't commit due to being in a long-term relationship previously
>tell her if she really doesn't want to date me she can say so, but I will never look back
>she doesn't want to date
>I never look back
Goodnight /b/, thanks for all this.>>698634957
good luck with your friend.
>>698626184
oh shit mother fucker you got me
>>698633463
dude
>>698623091
Fuck off, XxEdGeL0RDxX
>>698636498
They died with their boots on.
>>698637533
Fifht girl was Cassandra
>I had been seeing callgirls for a year because huge sex drive and no girl at school wanted me
>one hooker named Cassandra starts seeing me
>cute, tiny, bubble butt, weird but very nice, not like other girls
>has two kids
>we fuck at some guys house, he left it for me sometimes when I needed a place to crash
>she's super expensive because she's thin pretty and white, but lets me get away with anything for cheap
>eventually stop paying
>she and I talk for a long time, decide we like each other
>I knew this was not a good idea, but I liked being special to someone
>she is the nicest person, caring supportive, wants me to feel good
>comes to events with me, got her a signed trump t-shirt because she couldn't come to a rally
>she becomes my first girlfriend
>mfw my first relationship is with a single mom hooker
>date for three months
>she decides she no longer wants to date
>stops talking to me out of the blue
>I have met her kids, they're truly wonderful, I liked them a lot, hurt more not to see them than it was her
>she tells me she doesn't want this, promises to call me abck soon, never does
>my heart hardened after that
>that was at the beginning of this year
I have many stories with her, but you guys may not care and this thread will 404 anyways.
>>698626184
tig noooooooooooooo
>>698637598
i hope you poop your pants in your bed while you're sleeping tonight. twice.
>>698623592
is that from the suicide forest?
>>698638210
save your hooker stories for your diary, faggot.
>>698638210
I care :,)
>>698638205
She’s his love; he’s her wallet.
attached is literally like my worst fear, letting out that I believe someone could care for me, then having it be the joke
>>698638210
I feel empty. I graduated college, no job prospects, dull current job, overweight, military won't take me until I'm at weight limit, nothing is going accoridng to plan.
One of two things is going to happen /b/.
1) The crippling loneliness I feel is going to overwhelm me and I will die of carelessness or loneliness, either way I will not make it
2) this ship is going to turn around fast, and my tears will be shed for no woman, and I am going to get the body I ahve always wanted, the career I want, and the love I want in my life. Somethign will roar to life, or it will die trying
>>698630796
>The one people only hang out with because of sympathy
tfw when no one even does this for me, i have to ask if i can show up and hangout, and even then i can tell im not wanted
>>698638595
your ship is sinking! get ready to drown faggot
>>698638830
Me too, if I am ever invited it's out of sympathy and no one ever talks to em
>>698638595
attached for you, /b/ro. work out, there's some good weight losing advice at the top of this thread. If you care, fucking do it, i know you can.
>>698639025
cheetos! mountain dew! misery! loneliness! hahahhahahhhhaahha
>>698638570
thank you
>>698638880
it isn't
>>698639025
thanks buddy, Im sad tonight and lack of judgement but I know I will fight
>>698632830
hurry up you underage turd
