Why am I not happy /b/? I have a home, I have a girlfriend, I have a car. I have the american dream, what I was taught I needed for years and I am miserable. I don't know if it is depression or if I just can't feel anymore.
I hate my life, I hated my job so much I stopped going and got fired. I hate everything now. I just want my family back and alive and I can't have that and I have to live with that. I have a girl and she is wonderful, but she doesn't replace everyone I lost.
I don't know what to do, I am struggling inside, I go to therapy once a week. I feel like I am spiraling again and I will end up dead if I don't fix this soon. I already was addicted to heroin and I am scared I will go down that road again.
Here is a funny picture for reading my feelings.
>>698469720
Either change your mindset and cheer the fuck up or stay sad and stagnate, no one else gives a shit either way so do yourself a solid.
>>698470217
and how the fuck do you do that?
not op
>>698469720
meditate, curiously it worked
and it worked pretty well
do shrooms
meditate, is the best advice I can give you
>>698471038
You do that with A LOT of conscious effort, which is hard, but what choice do you have? I used to be horribly, horribly depressed for years before i made the choice to actually try break out of it.
I know people in much, much worse situations than OP who never complain and only strive to improve said situation. Complaining and brooding never got anyone anywhere.
>>698471038
I have done shrooms. LSD, DMT, some 2c whatevers. I have done heroin and meth too.
It is hard. I don't understand where to go or what to do. I feel stagnant and I hate it.
>>698469720
Ditch the girlfriend. Find another job. Live quietly.
>>698471682
masterba te furisously
>>698471571
I have tried to break out of it. You think I am just depressed. Everyone I have ever loved is dead or just disappeared. I had buried 3/4 my family before I was 22. Watching someone die right in front of you changes you. It changed me.
I am fortunate that I have what I have. I earned my home and car, but that doesn't change the things that have happened and I don't know how to handle that.
>>698469720
Because you're a hweoin addict and an idiot. A girl is literally any girl not a fine chick. A job. Sure your heroin got y9u manual labor position (inb4 you're an executive lol) and you live in a trashy 3 bedroom in the slums driving a Honda. Woo the american dream buddy. Thats not a real life
>>698471897
She shouldn't even be with me. She could find someone else way more attractive. She chose me because of this and I can't figure that out either.
>>698471682
I'll tell you what to do.
Everytime you find yourself focusing on what you don't have, the negative things in your life its so easy to fixate on, you have to call yourself out on it and change your thought process. If you focus on the negatives guess what? you're gonna feel exactly that.
You need to actively focus on the good things you have and you need to strive to add more good things to that list. That's hard to do because most people don't have the stones to put in the work it takes to actually get what they want but if you work at it and constantly appreciate what you have life becomes alright, then good, then awesome.
>>698472169
You are just depressed, everyone w
atches people they love and things they love disappear. Its life. You think you're the only person to experience loss? Get a grip.
My cousins lost both their parents to cancer in the same year and then the person who took care of them developed cancer and died too, i have never once heard them complain and they're both driven, happy individuals.
>>698471571
idk man, it may have worked for you but ive been pretending im happy all my life and it doesnt work that way
in fact im the happiest when im not trying
Im told all the time to snap out of it, to make an effort
I do but it doesnt get rid of my depression, I end up pretending I want to do all of those things that I hate and end up exhausted and wanting even more to be alone
do you know how awful is to fuck when you are depressed?
I thought there is no way to not enjoy it, I didnt even think you could hate it
>>698472489
mm thats suspicious
are your cousins radioactive?
>>698473304
>Pretending
Who said anything about pretending to be happy? Happiness is a byproduct of a changed mindset and it takes time, you cant fake it till you make it.
Not trying is how you stagnate and stay where you are. If you tried as hard as you need to, you wouldn't be depressed and if you're not willing to put in the leg work then quite frankly you deserve to be unhappy.
I've been a depressed drug addict for most of my life to date, i know the ropes as well as the next mopey dickhead.
Bumping this thead because i too am generally unhappy and could use some advice
>>698474019
Alright, tell me what you'd like in life and then tell me why you dont have it.
>>698472489
You know people who have had this happen and just exist through it. Have you ever actually talked to them about it and how it impacted them? You bring up your cousins yet you do not reference anything you have lost. I assume because you still have your family together. or you had it all together until you were old enough to actually understand death. I was an orphan when I was 10. I didn't get to spend time with my parents like everyone else did. Like I am sure you did. I just want everything to make sense again.
I am not complaining, I am trying to reach out to others who have been through what I have been through so I feel less alone.
>>698474465
Thanks, I needed some cheering up.
>>698469720
You got everything you were told to want, without realizing that having it requires constant upkeep and money. Enjoy your American Dream.
>>698475952
I thought this is what you were supposed to get?
Same pic different caption
do some exercise, youll fell better if only for a little, youll have a clear mind to think, I have my folks but theyre old and Im very scared of they day they wont be around, maybe talk to someone older who doesnt have his/her family?
>>698477755
>>698477752
Kek how?
>>698477240
this always get me lel
Reminds me of michael from gta v
>>698477972
It was the gloryhole.
>>698477933
I have, they are like me, but older. It is the same cycle. there were 50 year olds at the call center where I worked at.
>>698478645
>so find some that are happy, simple
>>698478811
>>698478645
that wasnt supposed to be greentexted
>>698469720
The American dream is to become rich and have all the free time in the world. You weren't even close lol.
>>698469720
Just don't life hurts for us broken people but don't you dare drag others down just because your dead inside doesn't mean that you should bring other people to that point. So just put on a smile and pretend to be happy, because you'll never really be the way that you pretend to be. But that doesn't mean you should ruin the lives of those who truly are happy. Just do what I and everyone else on this site does. Suffer in silence until the day that your set free from the heavy shackels of life and into the sweet merciful arms of death. Goodnight Anon.
>>698474204
I dont know what i want. Everytime i think i do ot doesnt satisfy or isnt at all what i expected.
Anybody still in here?
Tricks to stop being addicted to adderal, plz help /b/ I need to get off it
>>698478811
Where? They all lost people in their 30's and 40's. I never met a rich orphan before. not one that wasn't a trust fund baby. I want to find a nice job so I can save and invest, but it is hard.
>>698478944
I am 24 and I just started living alone. I have more than most the people who I worked with. Most of them rented homes and and apartments. I don't care about having a lot of money, just what I need to survive and be comfortable. Sitting around doing nothing leads to bad things for me.
>>698479335
That is what I do every day. Wear a smile when I don't feel happy. I try every day to change my mindset. It is hard.
I wait for death to finally take me as it has taken everyone from me. I know it will come eventually and all I have to do is wait, or get tired of waiting.
>>698479589
Yeah, that is how I feel. I would like to work for a car dealership, but I doubt I will ever get a nice job like that.
>>698480555
Just stop. That is the trick to quitting drugs, you just let it go and stop taking it. There are no other tricks behind it than that other than going to meetings. DO yourself a favor and stop drugs entirely, don't smoke weed or drink, it all leads to a path of drugs all over again. Some people can smoke and be happy, some will eventually get tired of the high and want more.
>>698469720
I wonder if people like you are the reason why many say "money can't buy happiness".
>>698479335
>can't wake up
>>698482044
Checked
>>698481277
How many close friends do you have? Havong people tjat help you stay out of your head helps. People that you can get stupid with.
![qbssznmueggefpbwjg[2].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/51HQy8S.jpg "qbssznmueggefpbwjg[2].jpg")
I didnt read any of this thread, but im just here to say that iv been practicing solitude for 8 years and I have never been happier.
From high school on I have been the one who always 'had their shit together'.
Moved out at 18, worked hard and started a successful business at 21.
Got married four years ago. My marriage is awesome and I love my husband dearly. We are very devoted to each other.
But...the most important thing in the world to me was my dog. My best friend, my baby.
The last ten years we were inseperable. He came to work with me, traveled the country with me. We never spent a day apart.
I lived for him. Taking care of him gave me purpose and was the most meaningful part of my life.
Cancer took him seven months ago. I wish it could have been me instead.
I have to pretend I'm okay. People kind of expect me to be 'over it' by now so I have to hide the constant crying.
I hate waking up every morning. I don't know how to live without him.
>>698483435
tits of gtfo
>>698483435
Everyone deals their own way. Focusing on good memories helps. It doesn't sound like your friend had a bad life
>>698469720
>I go to therapy once a week
Aaaaaand there's your problem.
"Therapy" is what fucks you up!
Think about it.
It is a system whereby you pay some fucking moron to ask you how you feel yet if you ever get better their gravy train stops, so all they do is try to surreptitiously reinforce your problem and grow it. If they don't, then they are the ones with all the anxiety, problems, crumbling life, etc.
"Therapy" is an invented profession of the past 2 decades whereby an idiot, who took a psychology class or three (perhaps the easiest classes/major in all of college), i.e., not a doctor, not a lawyer, not an engineer, nobody with half a brain, but a lowly blow-off class motherfucker who smoked dope all the time and was a burnout through college, is now going to tell you how to live your life and what YOU are doing wrong.
You have to be a complete imbecile to go to therapy. I have friends who are PhD psychologists, several of which are heavily published and considered to be at the forefront of their field, and I make fun of them all the time for being snake oil salesman--and they can't and don't deny it. No true psychologist believes in therapy for 99% of the population. If you are a psychopath, drug addict, serial killer, sure. Otherwise, their job is to make your problems and anxiety bigger.
Take my advice anon. Leave now.
You do so, and you will remember this post changed your life for the better.
>>698482830
2 Maybe. The GF is the closest person in my life right now.
>>698483435
I understand. I am sorry to say it never goes away. Personally I do not understand such an attachment but then again I have never been attached to someone that long. They are usually dead by year 10.
Go to a therapist regularly before you end up like me. It is so much harder after you made the mistakes that come with pain.
>>698483802
Never said I was female you faggot
>>698473304
Try working out. Got me out of a depressive episode. Was stuck in a shit job that was way below my skill level but I was afraid to look for something new because of an irrational fear that I may fail at something which demanded more responsibility. Was also stuck in a shitty relationship with a parasitic gf who seems to get off at demeaning me.
Then one day, decided to take a walk, which became a jog halfway across town, and when I got home, I felt better. Life circumstances were still shitty, but I felt better and actually felt like doing something about it. Within a month, started eating healthier, broke up with my parasitic emotionally abusive gf, moved to another country for a job that actually challenges me with gym membership perks. 3 years and counting, never looked back.
>>698473470
most underrated comment in this thread
>>698484104
>let me offer advice from the pit of despair
Can't imagine why no friends
>>698483905
My therapist does this for free. Initially she waived the co-pay and then she waived the entire fee because she wants to help me. There is no gravy train, she doesn't want me to end up dead because I keep talking about it. She is a nice person who has tried to help me keep my shit together. With nothing to gain.
>>698484227
Then you are the faggot.
>>698484227
Shut up queer
>>698484449
Oh, plenty of people like me. I had plenty fo friends at work and people that I kept talking to but I just choose to not get close to people. Girlfriend was different, I couldn't stop that and I know i will get hurt again. Everyone dies or leaves in the end but I am not stupid, I know how to prevent people from ending up like I did and if people would have told me the same things earlier before I got into drugs I would have kept my life together. She doesn't have to be like me, she has the chance to fix her life and be happy again. I don't ever think I can be happy again and I don't want another person to suffer that. This is a miserable existence and if I would have gotten help then I think things would have been different for me.
>>698485187
Him not her.
Sorry anon, just now read that. Thought with the husband you were a female and assumed. My bad.
Thanks for the Sesame Street.
>>698471682
How long ago did you stop using meth? It COULD be Anhedonia, which almost always comes immediately after giving up a speed habit. The duration of the Anhedonia varies based on lots of things though.
>>698484478
It seems like you should be a lot farther along if she is helping you so much, instead of so dependant on others to help with crisis.
How does depending on others condition you to solve your problems?
(It doesn't)
>>698484478
>My therapist does this for free.
Bullshit
No even semi-decent therapist provides ongoing therapy for free.
You just lost all credibility
Either that or you have one shit therapist.
>>698485187
You need to grow up.
live in the moment, stop thinking about what you need every waking hour.
>>698485892
>bort
Kek
>>698485187
Sounds like you've got the answer. I'd suggest a closed space, a running car, and sleeping pills. Just let go and sleep the good sleep.
>>698485476
I only did meth once. I was a junkie. I preferred heroin a lot more. Meth made me feel dirty and disgusted with myself. Heroin was nice and made me numb. I don't miss my life spiraling like it was but I do miss heroin still.
>>698485499
I was further along. I slipped and fell back again. If I hadn't gone to see my therapist I would be using H again or dead by now.
I know I am a fucked up human being and I know where I fucked up. But I also understand that it wasn't all my fault either, I was a kid in a bad home who watched people die and instead of getting help I used drugs. It is the same story over and over I hear it from others too. Someone dies or they have a really bad break up and start drinking if they do not know where to get drugs or start doing drugs if they do.
>>698486349
>let me just sidestep your point not learning my lesson already
Did your therapist teach you how to do that?
>>698469720
Try acid op, I experienced ego loss and have been much happier since
>>698486349
I see. I'll hafta check real quick, but I'm fairly certain that Anhedonia can follow a junk habit too. Based upon what you've told us throughout this thread, I'd hafta say that that's what you've got, INSTEAD of Clinical Depression. The two diagnosis are similar and are often mistaken for one another.
>>698486349
See, you know that you are a defective product. Just shoot yourself and go back to the maker lol
>>698469720
If you have a girlfriend and are not happy, you don't have the right girlfriend.
>>698469720
Happiness is a lie
Kill yourself and then you will find happiness.
>>698486941
Dr. Downatello, PHD
>>698485671
You honestly cannot grasp the concept that one person wants to help another person? That she sees someone lost and wants to prevent what usually happens? I bet she has seen hundreds of assholes like me come through her door strung out on drugs and watched them succumb back to it. She knows I need help and is trying. You do not understand how close I am to actually just eating a 9MM one night instead of dinner. she does and doesn't want that to happen.
>>698485809
Trying to, there is far more to this than just growing up.
>>698485827
Again, trying to. Being with her is a nice distraction but I know soon bills will be due again.
>>698486251
I already picked my method.
>>698487227
>more to this than growing up
Who are you trying to convince?
>>698487214
You've Unmasked Me!!
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/02/12/post-acute-withdrawal-syndrome-addicts-alcoholics_n_4775009.html
>>698487227
>you honestly cannot ask for advice and accept anything other than your own beliefs parroted back to you?
Autism.
>>698469720
Taking 375mg of Venlafaxine each day was the only thing that helped for me.
>>698486879
>Did your therapist teach you how to do that?
Proving this >>698483905
was the only correct answer in this thread.
>>698487227
Really? You want to use a 9MM? Trying for sympathy by not even killing yourself right? Go 12GA or just keep pissing all over/b/. No one wants to pay for your medical bills when that weak bullet doesn't finish the job.
>>698486916
I have. I nearly killed myself on it. While I was on it I realized that realistically there is no fixing me. I still am trying though, I promised someone I would.
>>698486941
I have been off heroin for a bit. I am clinically depressed, I have ptsd too.
>>698486879
You have never felt the pain I have. It always comes back. I have tried everything to make it go away chemically and it doesn't work. If I can't do it with the help of a professional there is no point, but it is worth trying, at least someone sees that.
>>698487070
There is no god.
>>698487118
I am better when she is around. I probably wouldn't be as sad as I am now but just being in a relationship doesn't fix everything. I thought it would, I really did. It doesn't change anything if you can't change yourself. That is what I am trying to do, I just don't know what the hell to do to do that.
>>698487906
You mean when he blows his jaw off because he wanted to look cool "eating it" instead of aiming through his brain cavity like someone in pain with real conviction?
That never happens.
>>698472169
No it doesn't pussy. I've watched a lot of family members die. People die, its literally half of what we were born to do. Fuck, quit whining and do what you want. There is no plan, there is no set goal of happiness in life, its up to you to do it yourself. Grow up or pull the trigger OP because all you're doing is bringing others down with you.
>>698487227
>You honestly cannot grasp the concept that one person wants to help another person?
Nice job changing the subject and then making an argument that paints you as being in the right based on your chosen premise off-topic.
It seems therapy works wonders on you.
You clearly want attention and you clearly like to contradict everyone and argue. You aren't here for help.
Go fuck off, asshole.
You'd do the world a favor if you killed yourself.
Pretty much everyone in this thread has intimated in one way or another that you are a complete asshole.
If you are so easily exposed here as such, why not just reconcile that within yourself and do the world a favor and end it now.
Why?
Because you are a fucking coward on top of being a mega-asshole.
Go swim in your feelz more and post for advice on the asshole of the internet, then argue with everyone that tries to help.
Loser.
>>698488133
I have cut myself on your edge. Ouch.
>>698469720
There's this concept in psychology called The Hedonic Treadmill.
The idea behind it is that no matter what happens in your life, you always come back to a certain resting point of happiness.
You could get crippled and if you survive the ensuing depression, you'll feel more or less the same (at least when it comes to happiness).
Same goes for winning the lottery or, in your case, having the things that people said would make you happy.
There's not many solutions to this.
One that ultra successful people do is constantly get involved in new things, always seek out new challenges to conquer.
Another is to give up on happiness and seek serenity instead. But that's even more unlikely than the first option.
Maybe the best you can do is come to grips with the fact that you'll never be happy for very long.
>>698487227
How long has it been going on? Does it come and go at times? It's an internal struggle that people who've never felt won't understand until it happens to them. Try watching the olympic games on a device that you're familiar with. It may take your mind off of things. Get busy, it's easy to get depressed in front of your computer screen.
Find something that will attack and overwhelm/overshadow your source of depression. Like a hobby, and do it.
>>698487394
Nobody, myself. Anyone who is actually reading this.
>>698487574
Drinking probably made this worse. Probably wasn't the best idea to start that back up. She wanted to have fun with me and I wanted to have fun too.
>>698487595
Oh no, I would love advice, I just know hearing "change your mindset" is bullshit. I have tried doing that, I went from being a junkie to having a job, friends and a girlfriend in 6 months and yet I am still depressed, I still am in pain and I don't know what to do or how to fix it. I am trying, but I don't know where to start other than where I have started.
>>698487651
Can't take SSRI's. Causes serotonin syndrome in me.
>>698487906
12 gauge would make more of a mess. I know some poor asshole will have to clean it up and I want to make the least mess possible if I do it. Shed is a good place but it is going to be louder in there since it is all steel. I know where to aim.
>>698488628
I know getting busy isn't easy, but when you've built up enough mental strength to do something, do it. Find that hobby that will attack your depression. If you feel like it's something objective that's keeping you down, you can figure out where to start
This hijacked-into-a-sesame street thread is fuggin brilliant
>>698469720
Do you drink coffee?
You need some warm dopamine, maybe a little chocolate. Coffee every now and then is good for your emotions, and meditate
>>698489014
>nobody, myself....etc
Can't answer real questions?
>I love advice
You mean attention
>muh lead sandwich
That asshole will get paid well for it and doesn't give a shit about you
>>698489014
Buy yourself some new clothes. When was the last time you did that? Buy new things, a pet dog. Something that you can look forward too and help you keep busy.
>>698489722
Someone just kicked this shit up a notch.
>>698489855
>can't take care of self
>purchase innocent souls to spoil
Genius
>>698490216
Well, that's enough Internet for tonight.
>>698490036
He never said he couldn't take care of himself, he said he's struggling with depression and he's not happy. Purchasing a pet could help keep him busy. It would be a mutually beneficial relationship.
Nice try though anon.
Anyone have the full set of vietnam ones?
>>698489014
Make sure you're talking about your PTSD with your therapist. Find something that will overshadow that PTSD.. it may be the source of your depression. A mental roadblock that needs to be confronted in whatever way you can.
>>698490361
It doesn't matter what he said. He is a pathological liar and you're a fool. He will just sell the dog for smack.
>>698488210
Yes people die. I understand that. Have you watched them up close, every day? Taking care of them? Wiping their ass when they shit themselves? Watching them lose their mind to the cancer in their brain? Watching the life literally leave their body? It fucked me up. I would really like to know how you made it through all that intact. Unless you were like most and it was a dying aunt or grandparent you didn't live with and only saw periodically while someone else bore the actual burden of caregiving.
>>698488416
I am an argumentative person. You arent here to help, you are here to encourage suicide in someone who shouldn't be hearing that shit, especially being encouraged to do so. Who is the bigger asshole?
There are people in this thread genuinely wanting to help me and I cant show them how much I appreciate it but I can tell you that you are a far bigger piece of shit than I am. Now what is your excuse?
>>698488567
That is what I am afraid of. That I will just have small moments of being happy with huge gaps of pain and I don't know if I can handle the pain.
>>698488628
Since I was about 10 when I became an orphan. It was like this as a kid, I was depressed but watching both my grandparents die and being a caregiver for them was hard, a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. It hurt me in a way I do not entirely understand. I don't just feel depressed, I feel broken.
>>698490688
>let me add labels to disguise your shortcomings
Inb4 OPs best friend
>>698469720
You're coming to terms with the fact that it's all meaningless and nothing really matters. Yeah, it sucks.
But take heart in the fact pretty soon you and everyone you've ever known will be dead and not too long after that the whole species will be gone, so nobody will know or care that you're unhappy right now.
>>698490767
Hold on anon. I called the wahmbulance.
It's only because our society is largely inoculated from up-close experience with death and dying. In every other time period and in many other countries in this time period, death is a much closer experience and they don't try to get victim sympathy for something that literally every person on earth has or will experience. Toughen the fuck up, faggot.
You need black cock in your life
>>698469720
>>698490986
And to top it all off, every living thing in this universe is going to buy it eventually.
It's only a matter of time before entropy destroys everything forever.
So maybe get out of your own head and enjoy a sunset every now and then?
>>698469720
too much money sometimes makes people unhappy. wire me some of your money to see if it makes you happier. repeat until happy
>>698491279
This fucking guy
>>698491279
I think Buddha did this. His statues are always happy as fuck.
>>698489438
I did at work. I don't when I am at home.
>>698489527
Can't give you the answers you want to hear. I know there are assholes here, I know that there are people here who have possibly felt as I have, been through what I have and possibly gotten through it. I want to know I can make it through it, I need to know if it gets better.
>>698489855
A while. I will when I get another job. I have a dog already and he is a handful. Literally a handful but you get the idea.
>>698490688
We do talk about it. She wants me to see a psychologist to get another opinion before being diagnosed fully, but I need insurance for that, a job, so on and so forth.
>>698490721
Everything I have said is the truth. I know I made stupid decisions, but I don't use anymore. I would never get rid of my dog unless he was in pain and even then I would just put him to sleep. You offer nothing but accusations and encouragement to kill myself. I am actively asking for advice for my situation and you shit on it as it is some personal slight against you.
>>698491276
You're a faggot. Not the guy you quoted...just you.
Dunno your age anon but Im 35 and all I can tell you is:
It's not you,its all of us,we all react that way.If you were to let this girl go and go back to your old life,you would miss her and be posting about her instead of this,we're wired this way,its how and who we are
>>698491670
Whatever, it's all meaningless anyway, faggot.
>>698491562
>tell me what I want to hear
>advice
You ever hear of a circle jerk anon?
The feels. Stay strong, anon. Being alive is the main reason why life is worth living. You only have one chance to live, no matter what. Your family had that chance, maybe they enjoyed it, maybe don't. But come on man, remember them by living the life they would have liked you to live. Even without them, try to live your life happy, as happy as you would be with them. Idk man. Just stay strong.
>>698491562
>I'm a faggot but don't want to be treated like one
BOI.jpg
>>698491965
You want to translate that into non stoner there one love?
>>698487394
>here's my stupid opinion
>actually that's not right
>WHO ARE YOU TRYING TO CONVINCE?
>>698490986
Yes, it does.
>>698491048
Are they bringing wahmburgers and french cries with them?
>>698491142
As a society they are taught to cope at a young age and understand death and the impact of it. My parents never talked about death with me. I learned about it when my dad died. Trial by fire i suppose.
>>698491229
I am not attracted to men, sorry.
>>698491279
You are right though, money does not bring happiness.
>>698491675
24. I probably would be depressed. Shit who am I kidding I would probably end up dead. I don't know if I can handle more pain. I am kind of tapped out
>>698491850
Yeah, ever tried to not be a prick? Try it sometime.
>>698491965
Thank you. I needed to hear that.
>>698492322
>the butthurt dam begins to crack
Or am I being obtuse???!
>>698492367
>let me just turn this into an alice thread
Attention whore r u
>>698488416
Go to bed kid.
>>698492109
>>698492322
I wanted advice, not to be shit on to be made to feel worse. I forget this place is full of narcissists and sociopaths.
>>698491562
I was depressed for years before realizing I liked being fucked in the ass. I thought I was straight to years but then in college started bottoming and I realise that was a good choice.
>>698492632
Just like you
>>698469720
You need God
>>698492632
>what is tough love
>baby don't hurt me....no more
I know you are but what am i
>>698492813
I know YOU are but what am I?
>>698492564
What?
>>698492663
Glad you found happiness in buttsex. Not for me though.
>>698492912
No me
>>698492912
Is it a kitty?
>>698492780
If I was a sociopath I would not feel this pain. Would be a slightly better experience.
>>698492809
There is no god.
>>698492813
A prick.
>>698493091
I don't KNOW what are you but am I?
>>698469720
I am nearly 50 years old. I have no car, no insurance, no pets, no wife, no family, no mortgage, no credit cards, no necktie, and no boss. I have never owned or even used a cellphone. I own only two pieces of furniture: a desk and a chair, and I salvaged both from the trash. All my worldly possessions except my computer can fit in a single backpack. For the last 30 years, my income has not gone over $10,000 US per year. I sleep on an old piece of foam in a bare, unfinished, concrete basement in a hundred-year-old building which used to be a factory, and was abandoned for a decade before I got here.
And I have had an amazing, thrilling, adventurous life I would not trade for all of Bill Gates' riches. I spent a year living in a tent; I've run for public office; I've been to prison; I've hosted two different radio shows; I've been published as an author; I've been on the cover of every newspaper in the country; there's a Wikipedia article about me; and I once spent a night hiding in a burned-out car in a swamp while someone hunted me with a shotgun.
You need to simplify your life, anonfriend. All your "things" own YOU, not the other way around. If you want to be happy, you need to find out what you can live without. I haven't worn -- or needed to wear -- a watch in more than 25 years. I don't even keep track of birthdays. My biggest indulgence is a small collection of smoking pipes which I enjoy smoking on a bench in the park or down by the river as I watch the cargo ships chug by.
"Give me the poverty that knows true wealth." -- Henry David Thoreau
>>698493227
Dante? The hell are you doing up this late?
>>698493217
Just another prick in an ocean of needles. Get used to it kiddo.
>>698492449
I'm calling your post stupid. Are you just pretending to be even more stupid? You better not be.
>>698493217
You are in pain and a psychopath
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>>698493391
You think age would have taught you to be humble while conversing on the jewtube.
>>698493391
>I've been on the cover of every newspaper in the country
I would have liked to at least pretend to believe some of this.
>>698493391
Interesting concept. I have thought about selling everything and buying a van and making into an RV and travelling with it. Do not know how I would pay for fuel though.
>>698493570
Coming from you, Dr. Anon? I am sure your medical opinion is entirely valid.
>>698493566
>I'm insulting something I can't accept
Good for you.
>>698493391
>there's a Wikipedia article about me
wut? one you typed out five minutes ago?
pics or you know the rest
OP you are a shitshow
>>698494295
I know I am. I am a fucked up person.
>>698493763
The noted theologian Charles Spurgeon wrote, "Humility is to make a right estimate of oneself." It's not humble to pretend not to know your own strengths.
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>>698494128
Why does this happen every time I talk about *anything* in my life here? Is it really so hard to believe that there are people here who aren't white suburban teenyboppers?
>>698493979
>Do not know how I would pay for fuel though
I make a small income doing tarot reading on a little folding table on the street. It's not great money, but it's enough for my simple needs plus enough left over for the occasional pouch of pipe tobacco.
>>698494741
>what you said went right over my head so here's a quote
You are a 50 year old idiot.
>proving my anti society values by bragging on 4chan
Go smoke your pipes
>>698494741
I don't think there is great money in doing anything except selling drugs.
>>698494839
I came for help, but I know I am fucked up as a person. I need to fix that but I am struggling to figure out how. Doesn't change the reality that I am pretty much screwed.
>>698495260
You came to gripe. Which would be fine if you'd stop being a faggot. But you won't, because you'd have to admit you were wrong and that would just shatter the complex image you have in order to keep yoyrself confident in the face of any adverse experience.
You're broke and interpret advice as danger...so you're a litte bitch about it. There's your real honest advice. Fix yourself.
>>698495103
Why are you so angry? Are you jealous that I have a better life than you? If so, you can have my life any time you want it. It's easy. Just give up your stuff and learn how to live simply: that is, live using the smallest amount of stuff necessary to make you happy. On the other hand, if you hold me in complete contempt because you already have a wonderful life superior to my own, why waste your time trying to berate me?
And just incidentally, you say your point went over my head. Perhaps I'm stupid, so could you explain it? You told me I should be humble. I explained that Spurgeon -- who was writing about the Christian concept of humility -- did not regard false modesty as being humble.
>>698495883
Get off Spurgeon's nuts
>>698494741
>Why does this happen every time I talk about *anything* in my life here? Is it really so hard to believe that there are people here who aren't white suburban teenyboppers?
not at all
It's hard to believe anyone that has been in newspapers and wikipedia for something other than lighting their own farts is on /b/
So, unless ur Mr Fart-lighter of Why-does-it-smell-like-burnt-hair-in-here Lane, pony up, bitch
>>698495732
That is bullshit. There is no substance to telling someone who is depressed to just fix themselves. If you knew anything about depression you'd understand that but you do not. You came in here to start an argument and you got what you wanted. You wanted to be a prick, I just want help. Not just the same bullshit of fix yourself. I know that, I don't know the rest of the shit that comes with that.
>>698495883
>why???
Because it makes me feel better to know I've accomplished twice as many immaterial goals in half as many years.
But go ahead and pluto the fuck out of whatever I say. I envy nothing about you.
>>698496440
>does exactly as quoted
>paint me surprised
>>698496217
Fine. This is me:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andrew_Nellis
I've been in the media spotlight for the last 20-25 years, as a Google news archive search will tell you. And I made the cover of every newspaper in the country last year as organizer of the Street Labourers of Windsor, a union for people who make their living on the street, such as buskers, scrappers, and panhandlers. I am also in the middle of renovating this hundred year old building into a sort of cultural centre and union hall celebrating the traditions of hobo culture.
Pic related: me. (Pipe is a Brigham Voyageur for those who are curious.)
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>>698497389
It's actually a photo from the newspaper article. As I mentioned, I live a life of voluntary simplicity and don't own a cellphone. But here, have another picture of me taken from a different newspaper article.
>>698497637
18yo senior btw
Anyone in here besides OP and the delusional hobo?
>>698497827
You have my name. You know where I live. I'm in the book. You could always call me if you're that incredulous. I'm sitting right by the phone.
>>698496952
It says you're a sex offender
>>698498161
No. It doesn't. Andrew W. Nellis of New York is a sex offender. Andrew B. Nellis (me) of an entirely different country is not.
>>698498114
So what actually affirms your hobo status? Poor dress and bad hygiene? You seem pretty well off and properly material stupid.
>>698498388
What kind of sex offender are you?
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>>698498388
Y-y-you... uh... haven't spent much time on teh /b/ have you?
OP here. I am off to bed. Thanks for the advice of people who wanted to help, I appreciate it. Fuck those of you who were dicks, words still hurt.
>>698498618
I hope you have wet dreams
>>698498442
I'm not a hobo, I just promote the history and traditional handicrafts of the hobo arts. Hobos are men who travel from place to place looking for work. I live a life of voluntary simplicity, as did many hobos. I *have* been a hobo (or more accurately a tramp: tramps work only when they have to, while a hobo's main purpose in travelling is to find work), but I am not a hobo currently.
>>698498618
Too tired to be depressed huh kiddo?
For one do not take amything from this board seriously won't even try to define /b/ but ine thing is not....a place to obtain sane judgement..
Also.seek answers in your.childhood what is stopping you from becoming what you want un life...peace and love from Mexico
>>698498992
Taco Bell and good fortune to you, Chalupa
>>698498612
I've been here since the very beginning, as it happens. I was an early adopter; I've been online since before there was an Internet. I used to connect to the university mainframe from a TTY teletype terminal with a 110 baud modem the size of a toaster oven. /b/ never used to be like this. There was a time I could refresh the front page and find two or three entertaining yarns by interesting people with a good story to tell. Now I can refresh for hours and find nothing worth reading. I try to be open and honest here not because I don't know what /b/ is like, but because I do.
>>698498775
So you pretend to have nothing in order to get things? You're voluntarily simplistic in order to raise awareness about a voluntary movement?
A movement which in its infancy was about avoiding awareness and responsibility?
You should stick to quoting things
OP after thoroughly reading through every one of your posts I figured out what would make you happy. Become a Transgender cause you sound like a little bitch.
>>698499168
Taco Bell ( a USA franchise) you dont deserve the internet sr. Go back molesting your family hick
>>698499471
What are you talking about? I live a life of voluntary simplicity. This is not a new idea. It stretches back at least as far as based Diogenes of Sinope. Happiness is not found in things, and in fact, it's those things -- and what one must do to acquire, retain, and sustain them -- which makes a person unhappy. The hobos know that, and so do I. I'm not quite sure what you're trying to do here. I'm clearly not mad, and you can't troll someone who is willingly participating. But here, have another picture of me being awesome.
>>698500071
Give up all of your things. ALL OF THEM.
>>698500071
Tell yourself someone is trying to troll you and that you aren't actually retarded. Its not like anyone is listening to your regurgitated crap.
>>698500718
But then how would you be able to.tell everyone how hoboifically pious you are?
>>698500718
Why? Simplicity isn't about stripping yourself naked for the sake of scourging the flesh, it's about reducing the things in your life to the minimum necessary to achieve happiness. I have my computer and my pipes and my tobacco, and these things all make me content. I'm trying to tell you that you'll be much better off when you free yourself from the shackles of *excess* stuff. If you can be happy with three pairs of pants, why own ten? If you can be happy sitting in the park and smoking a bowl of fine Escudo Navy Deluxe pipe tobacco, then why own a bunch of game systems and a television set?
>>698501210
Better at what?
>>698501210
>I sit on the computer and smoke
>not a neckbeard because my tobacco has fancy names
Still waiting on that midlife crisis
>>698501210
>wear a fedora, sleep in abandoned building with a computer
>euphoric autist or enlightened hobo...you decide
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>>698501737
Well, OP is gone, and anyone who cares to read what I have to say has done so, so I'll bid you adieu. Enjoy a picture of based Bukowski, another man who understood the benefits of a simple lifestyle.
>>698502209
Bye felicia
>>698469720
i hate people like you almost as much i hate niggers.
>>698469720
you know exactly what to do!
but try to kill some other people before kill yourself
You need a hobby... stamp collecting is good.. or maybe masterbating to Brazillan fart porn.. at any rate find some way to keep yourself busy.
