feels thread
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
feels thread
I would post a story but I forgot what it is like to feel.
bump. would contribute but my phone is being weird and the app crashes when I try to upload a picture
Dumping sad birthdays and other occasions. Starting with the classics and moving onto some more obscure ones.
(1/?)
>>697573083
That's not sad. She's dating a chad.
>>697572765
Fuckers got Peanut Butter Crunch. It ain't all bad.
>>697573083
jesus christ, shes way too hot to not have any friends.
>>697573330
(6/?)
dementia patients
>>697573083
I'm sure she went off to college and lived life, met any dude she wanted to, etc. The 20 year old dude above her (fucking old pic) either he got some confidence, got a job, moved out, or suicide.
>>697573499
(8/?)
look at his face
>>697573714
(10/?)
>>697572765
I bet they're happier than we are
>>697572765
Those are good kids. Hope it got better for them.
>>697573840
(11/?)
>>697573228
The slightly askew picture on the wall makes this.
>>697573995
(12/?)
>>697574120
(13/?)
>>697574198
(14/?)
I thought I was over this girl.
I thought "she moved on and thinks she's happy, or maybe she really is, either way I need to move on too"
And for the past couple of weeks... I felt great. I'm making a lot of money in my job I fucking love. On my way to a happy life.
Tonight the feels are back. I had so much fun with this girl. We shared so many memories together... we REALLY WERE perfect for each other, even she knew it. But she didn't want a LDR and she has a problem that I'm not sure what it is, but I suspect it's borderline personality disorder.
For a while she'd go back and forth between hating me for no reason, just start screaming in the middle of a conversation. Then a few nights later she'd send me pictures of her dog or whatever to try to initiate conversation with me. And I couldn't help it. I loved her so much I just kept subjecting myself to it.
but she hasn't talked to me in probably 2 or 3 weeks now. I feel empty without her companionship, even just as a friend.
My feelings can't and won't change for any reason anyone posts here. I've had this happen with other loves before and the only way to get over it was to wait a year or two after they stopped talking to me.
>>697573995
It's the fucking "grandma party". Let her do it to be happy for her grandson and shit. Hopefully he ate some cake with granny then bailed to smoke with his friends later. Same with all of them.
>>697573840
I always feel really bad for this guy when I see it.
>>697574401
(16/?)
>>697573714
i hate that when someone clearly has social anxiety, the usual response is ridicule
fuck this guy's mom. what a bitch.
>>697574479
(17/?)
>>697574582
(18/?)
>>697574120
where is he. ill celebrate with him.
>>697574582
You're a loser, Harry.
>>697574709
(19/?)
>>697574432
This makes me feel better. Hopefully these older kids are just having a real party later in the night...
>>697574451
Me too. I'd go to his moms house for cake and ice cream.
>>697574582
"Must get this over with, then weed and /b/..." kek
>>697574766
(20/?)
>>697574709
This is not sad
>>697574849
(21/?)
>>697574939
(22/?)
>>697574849
That's actually not bad. He lives in a nice house.
>>697574829
I think "some" may be challenged/autists.
>>697575011
(23/?)
>>697574401
idubzzz?
>>697575091
Last one. Ending on a lighthearted note.
>>697574849
fucking brat will be there until 30.
>>697575091
Omg this is very sad
>>697575067
I know these threads are supposed to be sad, but I just don't believe it. I was a sad loser in school, but I still had a few friends... like 2 or 3 that were sad losers like me
>>697574939
small cake means small celebration. probably just a family dinner. she's well-dressed, clean, pretty cute, my guess is middle class and with a decent relationship with her family. 0/10 not sad at all.
Why do you think that just because there's a photo of someone alone with a cake that they're lonely. Someone has obviously said "Let's get a photo of just you with your cake."
Idiots. Plus, I don't get why anyone would want a feels thread. Cheer up you miserable fucks.
Every day I feel like I'm sleepwalking through how humiliating it really is.
>>697574120
>lighter on the chair next to him
>he lit the candle himself
always gets me
Why haven't we an hero'd yet, /b?
What is the point of living when our minds have evolved to such a complexity to understand true depression? Why are we smarter than the birds in the trees or the fish in the water? Why can't we be so simple that we do not think of what it is to be truly alone and truly sad?
Good bye, /b/rothers.
>>697574120
This is clearly setup
>>697575455
are you talking about OP?
>>697572765
>>697572960
>>697573083
>>697573228
>>697573330
>>697573425
>>697573499
>>697573638
>>697573714
>>697573840
>>697573995
>>697574120
>>697574198
>>697574285
>>697574401
>>697574479
>>697574582
>>697574709
>>697574766
>>697574849
>>697574939
>>697575011
>>697575091
These always get to me. Im 19 going on 20 and have spent every single birthday of my life alone with my mom and sibs. I know what its like.
Oh I'm feeling down. Lemme post a green text story with "feels thread" by it. Oh what a massive faggot I am. I better pick up smoking and drinking. Yep just drink away. Some nice captain Morgan till I forget about her. She just left me. She fucking left. She pulled me from suicide and convinced me to stay and she left. We made out under the stars and then she left. She never fucking said a word about it, she'll never miss me. Every word I try to contact her with will just bring us further apart. Why'd she leave.. WHY THE FUCK DID SHE LEAVE OP
>>697576472
How big was your school?
Do you like to play video games or watch cartoons? You never met anyone else who liked those things at school?
>>697576624
>>697574401
what's sad about this? it looks like pretty rad for the early 90s
>>697573324
What the hell makes you think she hasn't got any friends?
>>697576472
yep, same
>>697576472
You by any chance live in or near the 614?
>>697572765
wish the best for these two
>>697576331
I'm talking about all of you.
If i roll dubs everyone in the room is banned
>>697576689
Homeschooled.
Still have no friends.
Have a gf who i love dearly and i have /b/. Thats it and i love each and every single one of you fags.
>>697576942
Naw man 573 here.
>>697577200
Including you?
>>697577200
OH SHIT NIQQA
>>697577200
tophee
>>697577200
fuck dude
>>697577200
b-but...I like it here...
>>697577191
motherfucker
If I roll dubs we're all safe
>>697577200
Good thing we don't have 'rooms.' We have threads.
>>697577200
MY TRIPS NEGATE YOUR DUBS
>>697574322
2 tears for that pic. Fuck.
>>697577654
That smile is either (a) totally insincere but forced anyway because he doesn't want to make a scene or (b) a truly grateful smile, a result of the fact that he knows that that's the closest he'll ever get to a sexual encounter with an even moderately attractive woman.
I never noticed the guy staring at them before. That only makes this that much sadder.
>>697578072
its an insecure smile look at his arms
My boss who is like my second mom just got diagnosed with breast cancer. My other boss told me in secrecy because she doesn't want to tell me yet.
We work in a small music store, she has owned the store for 30 years and recently took on 2 partners as 33% co-owners. We don't know what stage yet, but she never goes to the doctor so who knows how long it has been developing.
Real sad m8s, she is the nicest old Jewish lady you could ever meet. She hasn't taken home a paycheck in 5 years, she truly only ran the store for the sake of the kids learning. We don't even sell things, we really only do lessons so 60% of the profit goes straight to the teachers, who are also only scraping by. I really hope she lives a while, the store recently moved locations and we are having trouble getting started back up. She has been nervous about the store getting ready asap for a while (opened in November) and I am beginning to wonder if she has known for a while.
is this the most doomed feels thread ever? what with the number checking and the guy dumping bday party pics, not to mention how far down in the catalog this thread is and how few people are in it, how could this thing ever recover?
>>697576472
Same here, once I invited some people to my birthday party in 3rd grade. No one came, I wasn't surprised I just did it as a test. Everyone said they'd be there too so it kind of hurt. I asked my mom to never celebrate my birthday again, no more parties. So yeah my 8th birthday party was my last one.
>>697574766
That's an expensive and very well made cake, I'd be happy to get it
Been thinking of doing a an hero but I have a younger siblings who I love so much, i cant leave them alone. My parents make life unbearable. I want to move out but then I won't see my siblings. Fuck. My life is garbage.
>>697577654
That's looks hauntingly like my highschool's walls. So glad I dropped out though, couldn't have made a better decision
>>697577654
What a cunt
>be mid 20, quit job to go work for another company, still live at home
>couple weeks before 21st birthday, realize it will fall on a Friday
>have no friends, best birthday up to this point was my 18th when I signed up for the selective service
>ask manager about day off, he asks why
>explain 21, on a Friday, even with no friends I can legally go out to bars and shit
>dude stares at me, stands up, and says "fuck yeah" and gives me a high 5
>word spreading around about my birthday, people I don't even know saying if I go out drinks are on them
>big day comes, wake up at 7 to get a shower and head to clerks office for that fancy license without under 21
>get there, looking good and feeling good, clerk takes my pic and starts about being 21, all the secretaries laugh
>fucking judge comes in, asks whats funny, clerk tells him its my 21st, judge says he'll buy me a stripper
>go home, take nap, get up and clean up, get my nice pants and shirt out, iron the fuck out of them
>around 3 or so, dad comes home, asks if I'm ready to go to work
>tell him about birthday, day off, you remember?
>dad goes off about being a POS, lazy, shouldn't of quit job working with him, the whole thing
>looks at me and says get the fuck in the car
>scared shitless of dad, get in car, he takes me to work
>clock in, people looking funny at me, boss asks whats up
>tell him I need the cash, he shrugs it off, first shift crew leaving asks if they'll see me out
uh.....sure.jpg
>work till 10 p.m., get off, nobody to get ride with, walk home 6 miles
>get home at midnight, no cake, no presents, everybody in bed
>turn on Playstation 1, play Jet Moto till I can't see the TV for the tears
>turn it off and find Hostess cupcake in cabinet
>put candle on it, sing Happy Birthday to myself
cont.....
>>697575827
This isn't sad. It's fucking hilarious
Im going to start dumping hard shit
>>697580077
Yes please
>>697580077
>sister comes in, woke her up on accident, he's 9, asks if she can have some
>split Hostess cupcake, she says wait a minute, comes back with a card she made at school
>has macaroni on it in the shape of cat, says to the best brother
>eat our cupcake, talk, get her back to bed
>go to room, go to sleep
>wake up next morning, dad pissed off somebody ate his cupcake
>feel like a gangster
>>697576472
I was the same. A few years ago I decided to throw myself all the birthday parties I never had growing up. I had a Star Trek party, a shark themed one, Fantastic foods (miracle berry party and watched Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs), time travel party. All with games and party favors. Did this every other month for over a year.
Social circle doubled in that time. Am now a legend among my friends.
It can be better, you just have to work at it.
>>697574322
That pic made me tear up damn son that's fucked up
>>697580570
You're a fag for making me cry
>>697581920
its okay anon
>>697573083
>>697572765
and how exaxtly are these 2 sad ?
first one is a poor but united familys christmas
second is either a lil birthday cake and the party will still happen or they just didnt have the money.
they show literally 0 signs of being unsatisfied with anything in their lives.
>>697580503
Woah...
>>697580602
wtf, it just cut off.....
>best gift I've ever gotten is my macaroni cat card
>few years later, sister graduates high school
>dad still a dick, tells her to get a job
>call her up, ask if she's got plans for after grad party
>she's not going
>tell her I'll be by to pick her up
>drive around, talk, go to my house
>sask her if she remembers the macaroni cat card, she does, we laugh
>tell her I got something for her, give her a envelope
>she looks inside, its a little book
>tell her I knew dad or mom wouldn't take care of her so every week, I put as much money as I could in an account for her
>it wasn't much but enough to get her started at college for tuition and books
>she starts crying, tell her I got something else for her
>give her keys to the Gray Ghost, my old 89 Grand Am that I had when she was a kid
>sign the title over to her, already had it insured in her name
>sister still crying, asks why
>tell her that macaroni card was the only gift I got and she took the time to make it for me
>she smiles, get a hug, tell her to go out and have fun
>I never asked but I hope she did
>>697582475
Nice.
>>697582475
>>697580602
>>697580077
Goddamn, I got something in my eye.......you're a good man anon, a damn fine man.
Continued from >>697579542
>It's now mid-March 2013
>Happy 28th birthday, Anon
>Running out of time yet again
>Find out the first agency I went through way back when has openings in a different housing program
>Transitions into the government housing support as openings are available
>Hell of a waiting list for the government system; I just got in a couple months ago
>I fill out the paperwork with my case manager just days before the next round of applicants would be chosen
>He calls me the Friday before and asks to meet on Saturday
>We missed a page
>They're going to chose first thing Monday morning
>Fill it out, he says he'll make sure it gets there before they open
>He drops it off at 8:30am Monday
>We meet at 10am that day
>Only a couple days left at the shelter
>He gets a phone call shortly after we meet up
>Last second bacon-saving happens yet again
>They had my application for less than two hours
>I've been approved
>Shelter gave me an extension
>If you get housing assistance, they will extend you until you move in
>Did it smart this time
>Found a very nice (if small) apartment that had been recently renovated
>Rented a box truck
>Contacted a furnature charity
>Moved in
>Still living here now
>Tried to go back to college again
>Got a lot closer to finishing this time
>Burned out
>Wasn't a total loss, though
>Bought a beater pickup
>First vehicle of my own since 2007
>People I know helped me get a job delivering pizza two years ago
>Best job I've ever had
>Still working there
>Longest job I've ever held
>Love my job most days
>Get by with just the government housing help
>Not a bad life now, all things considered
>Still, I come to a feels thread and it all floods back
>All the pain, fear, self-loathing...everything
>And I remember I'm still just as broken as before inside
End.
>>697572765
>>697572960
Man, these are some old school feels. Why the fuck am I still here?
>>697575091
nigger,stop posting 80% of these
they arent sad,lots of people have a small birthday cake at home in the right day and then a party when it fits better(weekend)
have you ever had someone celebrate your birthday ever ? jesus...
>>697581300
Fuck yeah
>>697582154
wow
>>697582475
You are a good man anon, it's raining in here
>>697582816
Holy shit man, you've gotten this far just keep on doing what you're doing. I definitely wouldn't have lasted as long as you have. You have my respect.
It was asked for in the last thread, so here it is.
>>697580503
jfc man that literally makes me feel so depressed
>>697574322
God damn.... Tore me up
How can i commit suicide /b/
>>697572765
>Sad photos
They are well clothed and have a roof over their heads. And someone loves them enough to buy gifts even if it's all they can afford. maby people in this world would kill to be In their position
>>697584491
Find a gf, fall in love, live with her for months and years. Stalk her FB after she left you.
>>697573714
This is exactly why I always insist on never telling the staff about my birthday. Thankfully my parents got it through their heads.
>>697578514
>old Jewish lady
I'm :^)% mad
>>697584643
I've given up on that, can you OD on antidepressants
>>697584491
Helium tank, CPAP mask + tubing, you're ready to go. Kills you via suffocation without the feeling of suffocation. It literally feels like you're going to sleep.
WARNING: Do no fuck around with this suicide method for attention. It's incredibly efficient. By the time you feel the effects, it's probably already too late to take the mask off. Only do it if you're absolutely fucking sure you want to die.
>>697584910
>>697584491
Most of helium tanks aren't 100% helium anymore but got 20% of air. It won't work.
>>697584610
It's not a contest. By that logic, nobody has a right to be sad because somebody always has it worse.
>>697573840
I hate niggers but this actually makes me feel bad.
>>697584904
>can you OD on antidepressants
absolutely not
>>697584910
Thanks anon I'll keep it in consideration
>her name was Yvonne
>I was 16 and she was 17, she wasn't the prettiest girl on my school but for me she was a solid 20/10
>you know, when you're in love you're stupid and blind, she was the only girl in my world
>she had issues you know she wasn't the kind of stupid "I has issues so I cut myself" girl, she was the kind of "I don't like you so I'm gonna kick your ass"
>I remember the time when I had to restrain her because she was smashing the head of some poor bastard who dared to touch her butt
>she was a fucking time bomb and I loved her
>it was the kind of love that will end on a Tarantino movie
>she was a dream come true, but one day it ended
>we just had sex, she was fucking wild I ended dry -as usual- and tired, she had that smile on her face, the smile that she always had when her evil mind had an idea
>Anon, I it was good but I'm leaving you...
>wait what? - I laughed at first, since I thought it was a joke
>yeah I want to date (some stupid chad)
>she broke my heart that night... I broke chad's nose and he broke me a rib (you know, we were rally classy)
>she saw when chad and me fought, she was laughing (a real cunt)
>time passed, lost all contact with her or chad
>she contacted me last year (fucking facebook)
The blond, crazy girl that I loved with all the crazyness of my heart, she contacted me and she said that she always remember "our time together".... for a moment my heart stopped, I became the stupid teenager from a decade ago
Until I saw her, she was fat, "reborn christian" and single mother of two chadspawns after chad left her and now she lived on a RV somewhere near San Antonio
I dodged the bullet
Alright /b/, get ready for this one
This story takes place over the first few years of my high school career. Located in a small midwestern school of about 250, just graduated last year. I, for whatever reason, have always seen an undesirable woman as desirable. Someone that I can make whole again, someone to save, if you will.
>Freshman year of high school, feeling cool because I'm in the advanced math program
>Have friend James
>James is extremely popular with upper class-men because of his slutty older sister
>James recognizes a Sophmore in our class who had to retake the first semester
>WinRAR.exe
>James talked to Erin every day
>James sat by Erin every day
>One day, James is gone
>get idea
>Go and sit by Erin at the beginning of class
>Hit it off really well.
>Mostly just making sex jokes
>Continue to sit by Erin for the rest of the semester
>Begin to realize a few things
>Erin has boyfriend whom she lives with
>Boyfriend hits her regularly
>Erin smokes weed regularly
>"Its okay, she just needs a bit of help," I convince myself
>get number and snapchat
>see her next day
>blocked my number and snapchat due to boyfriend
"It's okay," I tell myself
>she copies my homework every day at the beginning of class
>develop cheating system so I can help her pass the class
>never get caught
>semester ends, she breaks up with her boyfriend
>doesn't have a place to stay
>let Erin stay at my house
>sneak her in every night
>she sleeps in my bed
>I sleep on floor
>Continue doing this almost every night for three weeks
>her parents let her move back in
>"Thanks, Anon"
>Rest of school year consists of me always asking to go to the bathroom during 6th period
>actually sneak into the art room to talk to Erin
>continue to bond over the rest of the semester
>Summer goes by, minimal contact
>school year begins, continue to grow relationship
>Turn 16 in November, parents allow me to go on dates
Part 1/3
>>697584790
I am literally the definition of an Aryan stormer, but she was always the exception. Also she hated sandniggers and fags so she aight.
>>697586331
>Take Erin to the midnight premiere of Hunger Games Mockingjay Part 1
>I have no job, saved up all my allowance for this
>Drop all my money at the theater to get popcorn and drinks and two tickets.
>choosing our seats
>Erin goes to lift up the armrest, but it doesnt move
>Later find out all other armrests move, fuck me
>Erin asleep 10 minutes in
>Wake her up and take her home
>Be 2:30
>Lean in for kiss
>Erin pulls away, gives me a hug instead
>Door closes
"It's okay," I tell myself
>Winter formal dance approaching
>Plan to ask Erin
>can't bring myself to ask her
>Go stag with a few buddies of mine
>Working at a ski resort to make some money
>After work always stopping at Subway to visit Erin at work
>Eat together 2-3 times per week
>Valentines day approaching
>Saved most of my money to buy Erin a gift.
>Purchase $200 necklace
>chocolates and roses as well
>Have plans with Erin on Valentines Day
>Cancels day of
"It's okay," I tell myself
>Give gifts to my mother instead
>"Thanks, Anon, what a lovely thing to do."
>Snow melting, season over
>No more job
>Erin has a new boyfriend, Dustin
>Dustin is a complete faggot
You think Im biased but seriously 90% of the people in the school hate him. Anyways,
>Prom approaching, plans to ask Erin cut off.
>Don't go to prom
part 2/3
>>697586518
>Dustin and Erin break up
>Begin talking with Erin again
>Encourages me to work with her at Subway
>Manager hires me, schedules me only with Erin
>School ends
>Erin has new boyfriend, Josh
Josh is actually a really nice guy. a clean cut, hard working, honest man.
>Josh doesn't like me working with Erin
>Continue working at Subway through my Junior year in High school.
>Turn 17
>approaching WinterFormal dance
>Erin is free
>Ask Erin to the dance
>"Awwwww! Anon, I can't believe you would do that!"
>proceeds to say no
I shit you not she seemed so happy, then proceeded to say no
>what.jpg
>"Umm, no."
"It's okay," I tell myself
>go home
>cry myself to sleep
>prom approaching
>flashback to winter formal dance asking experience
>decide not to ask
>help Erin decorate for her Graduation party
>school ends
>at Erins party
>Joshua present, aparently they are back together
"It's okay," I tell myself
>Still working at Subway with Erin
>Erin and I begin to hang out after closing each night
>Smoke weed for the first time
>continue to smoke almost each night with Erin
>lifeisgood.jpg
>Quit job at beginning of senior year
>Never see Erin again
To this day I cry over her. She never once saw what a great friendship we had, and what a great exclusive relationship it could have been. I contemplate whether to reply to her halfhearted texts or to let her know that I am disappointed. I am the only one to initiate conversation. She always suggests hanging out sometime, but I know she is just trying to make my fall a little softer.
How do I get rid of these feelings /b/?
How do I stop myself from getting fucked over /b/?
>>697586477
my bad, she honorary <3
>senior year of high school
>confess to girl and ask her to date only to have her want to remain friends
>Not giving up since some stupid part of my head still thinks I have a chance
>Met new girl online and find out she lived near by
>Become good friends and not pursue much because still thinking about girl 1
>Hanging with girl 2 and not sure how but we both fell for each other
>Suddenly gf get and girl 1 is out of my head
>End up going to college out of state
>LDR time
>Summer still fun since I come back home to gf
>House foreclosure happens, forced to move 30 minutes away
>Drive not too bad but still hurts relationship
>3rd year of college
>Dad gets job out of state
>Family moves
>Full blown LDR
>Graduated
>22 with no money
>Only able to visit summer and winter
>Stay with her family during visits
>Her family is shit and treats her like shit
>Respects me for whatever reason and makes comments like "I'm so glad your patient with her" and shit like that
>Want to fucking punch her dad's face but then I'll get kicked out
>Last visit was a few weeks
>Best few weeks of my life with her
>Back home and miss her so much
Sorry for posting, just wanted to vent a bit. I know I'm lucky that I at least have a gf, but I still feel shitty. I miss her so much and she misses me too. It's like the world keeps trying to separate us. She's my motivation for trying to get a job and finally save up cash to move with her somewhere where no one can keep us apart. It's just so hard and it hurts not being with her. She changed my life and I just want to make her happy...
>>697580503
fffff-fuck.
Bitch called me a tool.
>>697575091
that dog is burning
>>697587013
What a bitch
Last thread 404'd before I could post my story
I typically feel like I'm complaining for nothing when I "have a good life" but in reality I really don't feel that way.
>Be half deaf, also lack total common sense
>People judge me all the time
>Girls have rejected me because they think I am retarded
>I don't even know what I want to do in life
>I have 2 small jobs that I constantly fuck up in
>I have a girlfriend who doesn't even talk to me anymore
>I work so much I barely even hang out with friends at all
>It's not like I can because they are "bad influences"
>4chan is one of the one places I feel I fit in
Godspeed you magnificent bastards
>>697587302
If a deafperson falls inna forrest. Does it make a sounf?
>>697575091
Way too hot for this not to be a family thing. Probably hit the club with her friends the night before.
>>697587479
RIP spitfire
>>697587884
>Spitfire
Naw
Was a P40
>>697588028
My bad, I typically get the two confused as to the fuselage looks similar
>>697588191
Understandable
>>697578525
As long as 4chan exists, feels threads will exist. I guarantee it.
>>697588223
Favorite WWII plane?
>>697588397
I'm a Bomberfag I'm a fan of the B17's
>>697588521
Ah, I like the attack planes, my favorite being the P-38 Lightning because of its unique design.
>>697582816
Thanks for sharing, man. Keep going, and things will turn out fine for you, I'm sure. Hope you live to have a damn good life after all that shit.
>>697588700
P38 often makes me think of this crayz thing. P82 I think?
>>697583610
I know this is a fucking novel, but it's worth the read. In all honesty, you all should save it and read it later so the thread doesn't 404 on you.
>>697573840
this one always gets me man, poor Julius
>be me, age 16
>move to middle of nowhere town far from home after running away because of fight with stepdad
>no friends in this country bumpkin hellhole
>meet one grill who I confide in
>she's kinda ugly but hey I'm done w sluts man I want this pure ass beiiittchh
>spend every day together
>it kind of became unhealthy
>I don't wanna spend time w anyone but her
>I love her
>she moves to another state after about 2 years of us spending all our time together
>she dumps me obviously
>bigger n better things
>lost, without any college or career opportunities, join the army
>they bar me from pretty much everything but infantry and artillery because of my assault charge from when I was 13 (later learn meps fucked me, coulda been anything)
>pick infantry
>in basic the topic of duty stations arises
>fort ____ is near my ex
>she said if I lived closer maybe
>maybe
>push through it all for the maybe
>against all odds I get fort ____
>we've been writing at this point, I tell her, she's so pumped
>she can't wait to hug me
>can't wait for me to rescue her
>during FTX I tear my meniscus but continue a 16 mile ruck march
>get to Fort ____ after graduation, first night there I take a taxi to her.
>everything went so well, like old times. I'll spend every week in this hell unit if it means I have my happiness again
>ignores me for five days
>"I'm sorry anon I can't do this"
>she starts dating some guy that she met like a month before
>now I live a life waking up every morning to run six miles in the woods
>pain
>>697588938
F-82 double mustang, and that is understandable as well. I also believe it looks like the 9-61 black widow.
>>697588753
Problem is, everything I've been through (including the hell that is junior high for the fat kid) has left me very insecure. Anxiety still kicks my ass. I'd like to be more social but keep expecting the freak out (it still happens.)
I've come so far yet feel I have nothing to show for it.
The only thing keeping me going is faith.
Someday, the world will recognize who I am, and I'll hate a fateful encounter with a girl who will complete me, and we'll have a happy relationship together.
I've conquered my autism, I'm no longer literally a savant that can't deal with people, I have many real friends and am constantly described by my peers and acquaintances as Charismatic and full of life.
It was lonely being at the bottom, not understanding anyone, not even trying. Failing at school, not having friends, it sucked.
But, you know...
Having achieved self-actualization, getting my act together and doing so well in HS that I'm going to college this year absolutely free. After going through so much to become myself, and defeat the darkness in my heart after wanting to kill myself a few years back,
I've found that being where I am is also truly lonely.
No girl that I've found has been complex enough to keep me interested. They're all so shallow... They don't carry any desires or dreams. They're pessimistic and materialistic.
I have a genuine love of life. Agape love, almost spiritual, that has no boundaries.
I've gone past the point of being desperate and wanting someone, anyone, to love me and be with me.
I'm at the point where I'm looking for someone who can fully accept and reciprocate the love I want to express. Someone who can withstand a world's worth of adoration.
My single greatest desire in this life is to find someone with enough passion for the things that they do that they'd make me feel inferior. Someone who makes me feel inspired to hear them talk, earnestly moved by their personality, and makes me want to improve myself even further.
I know that my standards are exceedingly high. But that's why I just have to believe.
Someday, somehow, I'll meet her, and she'll become the center of my world.
Until then, I am lonely, and yes, a little bit melancholy.
I don't think there's a person alive that genuinely wishes to be alone.
>>697573638
Fuck off, this is clearly just moments before a party and the pic just caught him in a stupid split second.
>>697589724
>Someday, the world will recognize who I am, and I'll hate a fateful encounter with a girl who will complete me
Sorry Anon but life doesn't work like that. Life is about trial an error. To find the girl you really love you will have to fuck - and get fucked by- a ton of whores
Don't get me wrong, it's good to have high standards, but you need experience and the only way to get that is by making a lot of mistakes. It's going to hurt, sometimes a fucking lot, but when life kick you in the balls you need to be stronger and endure
>>697582154
You fucking traitor.
>>697572045
Just wish I could turn back the clock and make all the right decisions this time. I just want to go back to Day 1 of my college career, major in the right things, focus on what was really important, and do everything I could have done in my power to stay where I was.
>>697582154
Just fuckoff
>>697583610
Man I remember being in that thread, many feels and slow flowing tears...
I miss you Kayla
>>697589551
You've made some improvements in yourself, and that in itself is something to show. Keep going, and I'm sure shit will get better for you. If you ever feel up to it, finish college, or do whatever the hell it is you want with life. It's yours for the taking, and while a year ago I couldn't have said that, we all can change and improve. So you just keep on fucking going, and know that at least one person out there cares.
>>697574766
Your options are eating the yourself-cake on your own until you get sick, throwing the yourself-cake out and into the trash or watch the yourself-cake slowly rot.
>>697586606
She sounds like a huge slut, Anon. Honestly, I think you dodged a bullet.
>>697590398
is this a guide on how to be a complete tool
>>697589480
I'm always going to miss these old warbirds
>>697573133
Top kek
>>697590546
Why is spiderman sending him the coffe
>>697590951
Trips cheked
>>697591059
Is big spiderman hand he has so he can always sending cofee
>>697572045
yeah but now you get to play ps2 for eternity because shes never coming back
>>697573638
It looks like he's jacking it into that balloon
>>697590951
Same, their elegance will never be overrated
>>697574709
I have to go but I really enjoyed your dump, the socially awkward loners pictured is very relatable to me, unlike the love stories that usually fill these threads.
Thank you anon.
>>697580503
holy shit man.
>>697572765
>that IV dripper in the background
this was in a hospital
>>697591414
You're welcome, anon. Any time.
>be me
>married
>get a strange friend request on Facebook
>looking at first name and picture
>dig up a video on YouTube
>say fuck it and said it with nothing else
>she replies going ape shit
>first girlfriend from when I was 14
>catch-up
>find out she is married with a kid
>find out she waited until she was 22 for me
>she didn't know I had left for the military
>she kept waiting for me
>she brings up old feelings and memories I thought I had forgotten
>she wants to meet
>scared shitless
Melissa...... ..
>>697583610
And I'm now leaving this thread. Too much, shit was heartbreaking
>>697583610
NO FUCK YOU I READ THAT ONCE I REFUSE TO GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN
God damn this thread is so painful to bear
I did it to my self
>Be me
>girlfriend dumps me
>get depressed
>drinklots.jpg
>become hikkikomori
>push everyoneaway from me
>years later now im complete alone and its scary
I did it to myself
>>697574322
That fucking pic/story made me fucking lose it. Holy fuck I don't even blame that anon. That's fucking unbearable.
>>697574322
i've seen some intense feels posts... but that one was the saddest.
I just miss her
>>697586072
Bro that is so much fucking karma
>>697588984
So true...
>>697582475
Got me like a little bitch anon
>>697574322
At least he got to experience pure and amazing love, even if just for a short moment. Maybe it was worth dying for.
>>697583273
I haven't, actually.
>>697575991
:^(
I dont know wether this is sad or hilarious, but here goes.
>Be a kid
>Slightly obese
>Go to school
>Be the laughing stock of the class
>Still make a few friends
>Stick with these friends through thick and thin
>Still being the laughing stock
>This goes on for six years
>No self worth anymore
>View myself as this disgusting blob
>Imagine that this is what others see too
>Never talk to girls
>Never expect anyone to care
>The only major accomplishment in my life has been to graduate from school
>Keep telling yourself what a pathetic failure and waste of space you are
>Gain weight after school, because you dont care
>I'm now 24. Fat, ugly and useless
>Be too much of a coward to commit suicide
>Keep putting on a bit of weight each year
>It's my shield, to keep people away. Nobody could ever love an ugly fat, vaguely human shaped mass, right?
>It's my "Exit strategy" To die of heart failure, all alone at some point in the future.
>I'm not even bitter... Or angry... Or even sad. The years of abuse have instilled the mentality in me that they're absolutely right. I am a waste of space that deserves no love.
I used to wish I had the guts to just end it all. But then it just kind of stopped... Replaced with a form of acceptance. This is my life, and I'll see it through, even if it leads into an early grave and and an empty life.
Nobody left to talk to, scared of letting my vulnerabilities show.
>>697592944
That cake looks like a loaf of bread.
>>697582154
Y cat? Y
>>697582154
ayylmao
>>697572960
why tf would you even need a cake? hes 20 fucking years old besides, a home made cake would be badass
>>697573083
shes hot af and probably did something with her friends on a different day, shes 18 guys relax people dont need birthday parties youre not special snowflakes
>>697573228
shy of being on camera
>>697573330
clearly just focused on grabbing pizza I would shit my depends if someone got me a pizza that big hell yeah
>>697573425
these niggas dont even remember whats going on or who their families are, at least theyre doing something
>>697573499
just an average 20 year old dude who doesnt give a shit about fake smiling
>>697573638
hes been dealing with a christmas birthday all his life, you dont know why hes upset, the party room is lit and hes got sweet ass crocs, hes fine
>>697573714
family outtings are always awkward unless youve been close growing up
>>697573840
could be sad I guess, I know alot of people that have tons of friends but arent going to come to a grown mans birthday party unless it has lots of alcohol. and no bday likes does not equal no friends
>>697573995
taken while he was looking at the cake it looks good as fuck and the candles are retarded
>>697574120
depressing maybe, but he has a whole counter of alcohol and Someone took the picture
>>697574198
he looks like hes retarded, retards have it hard but he looks like hes in his own little happy world
im not going through all of these holy shit
bump for gods sake I havent felt this way in a long time.
1/2
>Be me
>Born in Russia
>Have a dutch father, russian mother
>Had a normal, Dutch name. (6 letters)
>Father sent off to war when I was small, never to return again
>Mother remarries russian with a long-ass gypsy last name (14 letters)
>Forced to take the last name of my stepdad
>Mother divorced him after a year, but never got the formality done of getting my former last name back
>Move to Netherlands with family.
>Being Dutch, I still got labelled as an immigrant in my own country because of my stepdad's last name
>4 years ago
>be 20
>Had a fucked up childhood.
>Family was poor, didn't know my father, no social skills,
>Be depressed
>just got out of boarding school/mental asylum after having been voluntarily admitted there for over a year.
>Couldn't afford own place yet, so went back to live with mother for a while.
>Get into college
>Be the only male in the class.
>Kicked out of college after 6 months because I couldn't find an internship.
>Get kicked at a time where it was too late to sign up for another course for the year.
>Ended up working part-time for a year to get experience.
pic unrelated
>>697595038
cont.
>Next school year starts (2014-2015)
>be 22
>Started studying audio engineering.
>Good grades, meh attendance.
>Fell in love with a girl
>Have a crush on her for a few months before finding out she isn't into men.
>Girl ends up becoming my closest friend.
>Had a scooter accident half way through the year
>A fractured skull, a subdural hematoma and a heavy concussion were the result of the crash.
>Kicked out of school because I missed too many classes due to said accident.
>Fast forward to 2015-2016
>Be 23
>Finished paying off huge debt, because medical bills.
>Get into a college for the third time.
>Discover amphetamines
>Become honor student. grades are all above a 9, attendance is still meh, but become teachers' favorite anyway.
>Was in love with another girl whom I met the year before.
>Had crush on her for a year or so.
>She tells me she's not into men as well.
>Ends up becoming very close friend as well.
>(is it still friendzoning if the girl isn't into the same gender as I am?)
>Few months ago
>Friend calls me up and tells me an apartment freed up in the same block two of my close friends live in.
>Started gathering all the money I could to move out
>Got the money and called the real estate agent to ask about that apartment
>Get told that someone moved into the apartment I wanted around a month before I called.
Last 2 years - Now:
>Paid off huge medical bills I got because of my accident
>Fixed social skills
>Finished first year of college. Straight A's
>Starting internship at university next year
>Started own company (event organizer)
>Working on getting fit
>Have an above-average income
>Smoke weed almost daily
>Have issues focussing
>Take ADD medications focus-issues almost daily.
>Not diagnosed with ADD, so I have to get those meds from some friends who have a perscription
This doesn't cover it by a long shot though. If I'd try to type all of it, this post would end up becoming a Masters' thesis instead of just a greentext.
>>697582154
I'm not sure how to feel about this
>>697574709
>16
>above average looks
>loner
you're retarded. Good dump overall tho, but this pic isnt sad.
>>697580503
fuck, man.
I don't even know what to say.
>>697595093
You seem very focused /b/ro, I'm sure you'll find a perfect girl and don't let anything stop you in life.
>>697591059
It's Big Boss you pleb
Oh look, another weak willed faggot thread where beta permavirgins cry about their insignificant lives and fake diseases of "depression". No thanks.
>>697595093
well anon i do feel for you in the end or atleast now it seems like everythings working out for you. Atleast better than me.
>>697594035
Just go to /fit/ and work out, find a sport. Start jogging, get endorphins moving, try and be happy and smile all the time, even if you have to force yourself. Pull yourself out of the pit anon, pull yourself out...
ME HOY ME NOY
>>697596119
Not baiting. Stating demonstrable facts. Instead of being a crybaby bitch get off your ass and become the masters of your own destinies. Either that or have fun bagging my groceries plebs. You live the life you choose.
Everyone who wants to have the greatest feel, go and read this comic. It's called "Hearts for Sale". It's pretty short, only 21 pages; but it has me in tears every time.
>be me
>depressed whole life
>No big deal
>hit rock bottom
>decide I'm only going to stay alive because I haven't met my best friend of many years who I know through the Internet
>Tfw I'm in love with her
>Tfw she always talked to me
>Tfw she stops talking to me
>Tfw you realize you were replaced
>she goes from kissless virgin to dating a fur fag, having bloody wild sex 2-3 times a day (I know because she told me in detail)
>my dream of meeting her, making something of us,
>shattered.
>the reason I wanted to live,
>gone.
Feeling betrayed, used, having your dreams crushed and life turn back into meaningless garbage. I gotta say, I haven't felt this alive for some time.
>>697574322
Just let go anon, you love memories, not her
>>697596255
Link?
>>697596015
fk you
>>697581300
I really hope you're right, because I am right on the verge of killing myself.
I need to say something.
on /b/ my life has changed for the better. I have no GF still very unfit 247 pounts and 6 foot 2.
I can make friends easily but sometimes the relationships never last long Online ones especially.
But on /b/ i feel at home. No matter how shitty I get treated for being a /b/ tard in real life by my family and people around me. You guys make this my home. The daily laughs, the weekly cries, you guys make life for me great. To the racists, the jokers and the plain old perverts and just overall /b/ tards.
Thank you.
All of you did so much for me.
/b/ forever, forever /b/
>>697596400
Dude, If you can't be happy by yourself, you won't be happy with someone else. Try not to place your 'reason to live' outside of yourself, or you might end up getting disappointed.
Anyway. If you think you have no more reason to live, go do all of the crazy shit you always wanted to. You might find your "reason to live" while doing one of those things.
>>697596255
Oh dear god. I'm crying.
>>697596542
http://heartsforsale.smackjeeves.com/comics/1905831/cover/
>>697582154
not risking it tbh. I love my mom too much
>>697595962
Believe me, friend. I tried. But there was always someone to prove how useless it was.
>>697583610
Crying so hard right now
>>697573228
I don't want to say I know this grill because that makes me a faggot on b publicly, but I know this grill.
>>697582154
pls dunt kill mommy
Gets me every time
>>697596991
different fag here.
How can you do the stuff you want if u dont have money?? like that kinda sucks.
>>697598038
I believe you. What's her name?
Also, I know this guy: >>697592944
>>697598094
Kidding, just trying to lighten up, though this one may be pretty depressing
>>697592912
I've waited for like almost a year for someone to post a Rick and Morty quote in a feels thread.
>>697581966
This hits me so Fucking hard. I've always loved animals and I finally got a cat around two years ago. I love him to death and would do anything for him, but I always feel like it isn't enough. We play, I feed him chicken, take him on walks for as long as he will. But I feel like the biggest piece of shit when I leave him home.
>>697582154
Thank you immunity cat
>>697582154
>697580886
the irony is that cats a female
>>697583610
wow
>>697594035
Same.
>>697598883
thanks for the help anon.
Who has the one with Kristen and Alexisonfire band?
>>697580503
The article on his death was from July 8, 2011 and said his death was May 4, 2011 but the thread was October 28, 2011...
>>697599251
Yeah it might be fake
>>697584491
honestly i wouldnt do it, all pain goes after a while, but if you are amendment you want to do it ODing on opiods or other pain killers would be an easy way to go.
Seriously tho dont do it. find something to live for
>>697580503
Confirmed fake
>>697586683
Stay strong.
I've been in a distant relationship for a year now. Its hard, but if I can make it, anyone can.
>be me, 14
>be nigger
>no friends because slightly smarter nigger (too smart for mainstream nigs not smart enough for smart nigs)
>fall in love with blonde girl with gunmetal blue eyes
>work up the courage to ask her out
>she says yes
>everythingwentbetterthanexpected.wav
>ask mom to drive me to bookstore (where we agreed to meet)
>Aryan girl isn't there
>"she probably just forgot"
>go back to school next monday
>ask her what happened
>"Oh yea, sorry. When i said yes, I meant to say no."
>wtf
>find out she's dating some whiny christian who annoyingly drank starbucks coffee each morning
>wtf
cont'd
fuck life
>>697600116
>Yes
>meant no
That's just wrong man
>>697600134
I know the feel man
You know, in the day-to day trenches of adult life, there is actually no such thing as atheism. There is no such thing as not worshipping. Everybody worships. The only choice we get is what to worship. And the compelling reason for maybe choosing some sort of god or spiritual-type thing to worship -- be it JC or Allah, bet it YHWH or the Wiccan Mother Goddess, or the Four Noble Truths, or some inviolable set of ethical principles -- is that pretty much anything else you worship will eat you alive. If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real meaning in life, then you will never have enough, never feel you have enough. It's the truth. Worship your body and beauty and sexual allure and you will always feel ugly. And when time and age start showing, you will die a million deaths before they finally grieve you. On one level, we all know this stuff already. It's been codified as myths, proverbs, clichés, epigrams, parables; the skeleton of every great story. The whole trick is keeping the truth up front in daily consciousness.
Worship power, you will end up feeling weak and afraid, and you will need ever more power over others to numb you to your own fear. Worship your intellect, being seen as smart, you will end up feeling stupid, a fraud, always on the verge of being found out. But the insidious thing about these forms of worship is not that they're evil or sinful, it's that they're unconscious. They are default settings.
They're the kind of worship you just gradually slip into, day after day, getting more and more selective about what you see and how you measure value without ever being fully aware that that's what you're doing.
Me? I worshipped love.
>>697600116
Sorry to hear nigga.
These kinda stories from a regular nig make me feel bad for my casual racism. But you cool man
>>697574451
yeah :(
guy just wanted to share his ice cream cake. kept trying to share it... ugh.
>>697600116
I like this so far
>>697600582
I worship George Carlin.
>>697600582
>You know, in the day-to day trenches of adult life, there is actually no such thing as atheism.
>There is no such thing as not worshipping. Everybody worships.
Great. Atheism is the lack of belief in a deity, you clown.
>>697594035
I've got the same mentality, but I'm a disgusting sack of fucking bones. Why is suicide so hard? It's not like anyone will miss my dumbass.
>>697598383
>this one may be pretty depressing
YEAH NO SHIT BUD
>>697572045
Things could ALWAYS be worse boys trust me. Life doesn't stay the same for long, be happy while you can, have no worries and be kind to fellow humans. The rest is down to opportunity and will.
Heres some fresh feels for you guys
>Be my life
>Working hard in school, best grades in middle school
>constantly striving to be better
>Have brother who refuses to cooperate with anyone or anything
>failing school
>Im working my ass off for all A's
>Get no recognition from my parents
>Figured they don't care
>I pretty much raised myself
>Have a hard time communicating with some people
>People resent me for what seemed to be no reason at all
>Bragged a little on my grades to my parents
>"Yeah thats nice"
>Brother brings in one C and others are just Ds and Fs
>I get nothing and he gets 20$ and a trip to the zoo
>wtf.jpeg
>start figuring that the rest of my life is just going to be me getting tossed to the side like a piece of trash
>Depression kicks in
>Dad wrecks his truck one day
>Brain injury eventually turns into schizophrenia
>I never went to church, was never religious
>Got shunned in school for it
>Got kicked out of band because i couldn't pay for a pair of fucking socks
>Parents didn't care enough to give me the money
>Brother join football
>School lets him play even though his grades are too bad to play legally
>Gets nothing but praise
>I get more depressed from being completely ignored
>Dad loses his mind completely when i turn 14
Countinue?
This is the only place i can vent my problems so here you go.
>manager at work has a crush on me
>we hang out and smoke a lot of weed a few times
>one time i man up tell her to sit in my lap so i could kiss her, it worked and we fucked that night, i was a virgin so it was mindblowing
>i'm 20 but i'm still living with my parents, they don't like me breaking the rules and staying out all night with her (fucking)
>so my crazy ass step mom stole my key to my car
>wont give it back to me
>have to explain to my friends and girl friend that at 20 years old i'm practically grounded
>no money to move out
>they wont let me pay the insurance and sign the car over to me (it's mine but due to me not having a job at the time it got signed over to my dad)
>gf invites me over tonight to smoke a blunt with her and fuck
>cant
>tfw
>>697601316
Continue anon
>>697601319
i forgot to mention i'm all out of weed too, it's my night off and i feel so shitty i don't know what can make me feel better. Bored of my video games and shit it's brutal.
>>697601316
>start figuring rest of life/ tossed like shit
Implying you can foresee the future. Sounds like youre looking for reasons to complain kiddo
>>697601319
Dude, you're fucking 20, go get the keys to YOUR car and leave the house and go and fuck your gf.
>>697601319
i wish the best of luck to you /b/ro. but atleast u got a grill
>>697600116
Cont'd
>Fast forward a few months
>8th grade dance coming up
>planning on asking out girl that people rumored to have a crush on me.
>but also planning on asking out girl that i used to be friends with
>wat do.mp3
>end up not asking anyone out
>night of the dance
>a few friends are there but no sign of either girl i was planning on asking out
>decide to give up on dating for the year.
>girl that i was going to ask out walks in
>nofeelings.midi
>walk over to her because we used to be friends
>"hey"
>girl frowns
>stands up
>walks away
>wtf
>what the actual fuck
>people think i tried asking her out
>"lol, anon got rejected by the nerdy girl"
>what
>eat candy to forget, because 8th grade
>time to leave
>standing outside with one of my friends
>thunderstorming heavily
>lights go out inside school a few times
>girl walks out of school
>"hey"
>fucking mom calls on the phone
>answer phone like the autist i am
>make an actual innocent "hold on for just a sec" face
>girl thinks i'm rejecting her
>everyone thinks I'm rejecting her
>what
>"wow, holy shit nerdy girl just got rejected by kid she rejected"
>what
>go home
>don't know whether to feel good or bad
>decide to feel good
>feelsgoodman.jpeg
I just want to sort my shit out and enjoy life again instead of fucking stressing all the time and I wish I could see her again but I know that it'll never work. I wish there was a restart button for life.
>>697601672
Cont'd
>few days later
>hindsight
>remember really popular girl looking at me
>nah
>in class with popular girl
>she gives me that same look
>nah she can't be looking at me
>last day of school
>signing yearbooks
>see popular girl
>"hey"
>"hi"
>bell rings
>fuck
>school ends
>wave of people running through halls
>lose sight of girl
>never see her again
End. (i think)
>>697574939
she looks so nice and kind
her smile is so genuine and warm...
I'll never have a girl with a smile so pure.
I just want to go to sleep anons.
I'll never know what it's like for a girl to love me and be nice to me.
I'm just a fat white guy, nothing special
But I'd give anything to have love, and even then, no girl has ever loved me.
>>697600934
Atheism is for edgy teens with too much time on their hands and act incredibly pretentious for being so fucking stupid
Hey guys,
I just started dropping my Lexapro dose from 20mg to 15mg. I'm feeling depressed, which I haven't felt in months. Is this from the drop in the dose even though I literally started 15mg instead of 20 last night?
I'm not getting the brain fuzzies like when I completely miss a dose.
>>697580570
You wanna know what's sad? Having a gf and this text still being true. Fuck me.
>>697601316
Continue please
>>697601840
AMEN!
I've spent the last six years of my life pretending to be a girl/woman on the internet and have trustworthy friendships with people that have spanned over years.
I'm 21, never had a job, do nothing but chat all day.
Reply and I'll give details on how sad this shit is.
>>697583610
holy shit that was long
also didnt cry
also nicole best grill
Wanted to post this before bump limit reached.
>>697601316
Continue please
>>697572045
If dubs everyone who posted before me, dies
>>697583610
I have this saved on five different PC's and a couple different flash drives. I just want love.
>>697601575
It was a repeating pattern in those days.
i guess i should have elaborated on that considering i never complained about it to said parents.
>>697601549
Sure
>(Dad loses mind)
>Have to move in with grandma and grandpa
>Things get a little better
>Grandma recognizes im doing well in school congratulates me and gives me a hug
>Grandma worked hard her entire life, but now since her retirement she just plays RPGs on the PS2 and older consoles that she bought out of boredom and curiosity.
>Get in to little debates on what going to happen next in the story lines of the games she plays
>both have fun
>studying harder than ever
>Grandma has been sick
>Getting worse by the day
>One day, her lungs collapse and she is rushed to the hospital
>Too afraid to go see her in her condition
>Afraid it would damage my psyche even further
>Finish school that year with all As again
>Finally muster up the strength to go see grandma
>She cant even talk
>She can barely move
>Go to sit beside her
>She rests her hand on mine
>Say "love you grandma, hope all gets better for you"
>Leave
>Get home, mom contacts me and says i have to move in with her because grandpa can't afford to take care of me anymore without grandmas retirement check coming in
>"doesn't it still come in when as long as shes alive?"
>Silence
>Then it hit me
>Grandma passed after i had left
Contd.
>Still worried about grandma
>Go to see her
>>697602380
So essentially I took on the identity of this girl I only ever talked to once in middle school. Makes it essentially impossible for anyone to ever reverse search the images and find them online.
I know everything about her and translate all that she's done/is doing into the identity I've made.
>>697602765
Sounds like a fun grandma
>be me 21
>no job
>lost my first pickup I ever bought due to a collision with a semi
>fucked my back up, had to go to chiropractor consistently for 6 months
>lost the best job I ever had 2 months after my wreck
>took months for me to finally get a check from the company of the guy who hit my truck
>hadn't had a job for 8 months due to no vehicle
>lived with parents
>got the money,
>bought another used pickup
>fucking transmission shit out litterally 3 days after I bought it
>brought it into shop to get it fixed
>dumb fuck mechanic charged me like 700 bucks for basically nothing, didn't fix it
>finally got a job as I meat cutter at local grocery store
>due to my back injuries I can't stand in the certain pose for hours a day and do all the clean up after hours myself
>ended up quitting
>Can't find another job because job oppurtunities suck now.
>be me
>Start out open, friendly, good at talking
>First year of middle school, everything breaks down. Friends mature, I lag behind, become 'weird kid.'
>start trying to make friends, grades drop
>start raising grades, lose the two friends I ever had
>become low-key furfag, tell one person
>totally ostracized becaus small town midwest
>Throw myself into the internet
>spend five years roleplaying in chat rooms
>eventually lose interest in that
I've learned that nobody really cares about you unless they get something out of it.
>tfw the only thing you have left are the silent hours of the night, wen you can drown in your own thoughts and pretend for a little while that someone likes you, needs you. when you can pretend that you're good at something, anything. when you can pretend you're not broken inside, and don't have the strength to even joke about fixing it.
>>697602765
Dont know why some of those got scrambled but here
>Too afraid to go see her in her condition
>Afraid it would damage my psyche even further
>Finish school that year with all As again
>Still worried about grandma
>Go to see her
>Get into the hospital but just sit in the visitors room for about 15 minutes
>Finally muster up the strength to go see grandma
>She cant even talk
>She can barely move
>Go to sit beside her
>She rests her hand on mine
>Say "love you grandma, hope all gets better for you"
>Leave
>Get home, mom contacts me and says i have to move in with her because grandpa can't afford to take care of me anymore without grandmas retirement check coming in
>"doesn't it still come in when as long as shes alive?"
>Silence
>Then it hit me
>Grandma passed after i had left
>>697602765
>silence
I felt that shit
