Feels thread.
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Feels thread.
>>696110885
dumping my pics
>>696110885
lurking, wont post much though
Get some good feels images in here. I need something strong to fuel my suicide
This is samefag from "Stephanie" the monster ex GF feels thread, anyone want cont?
I didn't get screen caps of my other stuff, I was busy writing
many lurkers?
>>696112188
aye. no really though please dump
>>696112188
Yes
>>696112188
I'm lurking as well. Just taking in the images. Maybe, I'll post again later.
>>696112336
>>696112527
continuing
im drunk enough to text "her". should i do it /b/ros? because whats better than drunk texts for both the sender and receiver right?
>>696113092
No.
Go to bed anon, you're drunk.
>>696113092
whats the backstory bro? ex, crush, admirer?
>>696113092
give it a shot man, it's better to know now and not regret missing a chance you could have taken because you were too scared to do anything. Trust me, I know from experience.
I will help contribute
>>696113361
thanks, good one
>>696113211
>>696113190
i suppose you could categorize it as crush. its particularly difficult for me because for whatever reason she never expresses any emotion whatsoever, i dont know how the fuck to handle the situation. still i cannot keep my fucking mind off of her, goddammit brain...
story might be sloppy, but again am drunk
>>696110885
May as well contribute
>when you lie awake at night knowing there is nothing worth staying alive for, but you do it anyways because you dont know how to stop
>>696112817
This one hit home.
>>696113609
crush? yea try it facebook message or text and let us know what she says. liquid courage helps and I think most of us are drunk here, at least I am
>>696113677
Same with me.
Kind of the reason I decided to add to the dump.
>>696113609
samefag here. fuck it ill do it. if i regret it in the morning then at least i wont regret it for the rest of my life
>>696110885
I am the kind of person who can will myself to forget things that hurt me very deeply.
Today I learned that those things will always resurface though, and they hurt just as much as they did when they occurred.
Around three years ago I found out my spouse had put up a hookup ad on Craigslist.
Because I found this out looking in their phone I didn't know how to approach it or say anything, but I was crushed.
It took my already low confidence down to zero, and destroyed the little trust I was able to display.
This just came back up in my mind today and I feel fucking awful. I feel worthless and like I'll never be good enough, like I am a waste of space.
And the best part is that I know I won't leave, even if I found out they went through with it and cheated I wouldn't leave because I'm an idiot who can't exist alone.
still some /bawww people, been sort of quiet here
I'm glad I'm not a boy. It feels like boys have a hormone that makes them feel like life is pointless if they don't have a mate where girls are just OK with it most of the time. Sorry anons :( I don't know your pain. Even when I felt some unriquitted love in my life, it was never like this.
>>696114205
Plot twist of the century god dammit
>>696114912
Man...that was deep
>>696115572
likely has to do with natural selective pressures. dont want to get into it but yeah youre correct
You know, it would be nice to run into one of these threads and feel a sort of sullen nostalgia for days gone by, knowing that I don't have to feel this way, anymore.
Instead, it just keeps stinging like a fresh wound, every day.
This one hits hard right now
>>696115757
Indeed it is. I remember my first time reading it.
>>696115572
Not really true, I'm female and married and I'm pretty sure I'd feel like everything is pointless either way.
Love doesn't take away that pain for anybody, myself and the anons who feel similarly can't be helped by anybody but themselves.
Fuck guys. I think my girlfriend may be cheating on me with some fucker in Cuba.
She's been there three times now in the past two months, claims it's a "friend" that chills with her and her friend. Huge red flag. I'm getting serious anxiety just thinking about it. Plus we've been on a break the past few months too. She's had multiple opportunities to break up with me but I think she just keeps me hanging on cause she's afraid of how I'd feel. And we still see eachother here and there and everything seems okay when we do. I mean fuck I buy her shit too. I feel like I'm just in this place of uncertainty right now like I don't know what the fuck to do.
>>696116262
fuck that's rough, confront her and ask her if she's playing around. have to do something that doesn't sound right and keeps making you worse
>>696116475
That is an awesome one, haven't seen that, saved
>>696112817
fuck my life
>>696114098
I'm down for some feels, but you can stop posting these angsty overly self important teen monologues about how no one will ever understand what a special snowflake you are. If your lonely go fucking talk to someone, and fuck off with all this defeatist bullshit. Your not "isolated because your such a special snowflake" It's because you lagged behind in making and maintaining social circles, and people meet people through other people, so your 0 friends turn into 0 the next year because your unwilling to put in the effort that EVERYONE else does. Fuck your social anxiety, there are people with actual problems out there while you cry at home alone about how no one will solve all your problems for you. Jesus fucking Christ, you delicate little flowers would snap in the comparably gentle breeze currently buffeting off of my train wreck of a life. I honestly think you would completely shut down and will yourself to death at the first sign of an actual tragedy.
>>696114490
I don't get it
>>696117225
Beat me to it
> underrated post
>>696117177
Life lesson. why does the big fish seek the little fish's approval/attention/ validation?
why are depressed people so pathetic?
>>696116536
That's the thing I cant if I do it'll just make her angry and if I'm wrong and just Overthinking then I'll make things worse than they are. Fuck.
>>696117225
>>696111632
What a little vindictive little bitch. Would they even recognize someone smiling at them in the first place?
>>696117573
yea I feel ya, if she goes again have to think of something to say or if you can contact her 'friend' there to see if they are real or may have to take the risk on confronting. If she keeps going that is kinda suspicious
>>696112817
stop being so fucking needy. All this depression boils down to constantly needing so much validation from others who barely know you. What sucks is the people who do care about you probably dont even register.
I'm so sick of helping you fucks out all the time, i'ts draining. I'd be lying if part of me didnt feel superior for knowing how to be mostly happy about what little i've got.
>>696117573
My wife does this to me. She lets her imagination run wild, thinking I'm doing all sorts of crazy shit. So finally one day I actually did it, I went and fucked a different chick for five days straight. I regretted every one but the next time she accused me I came clean and asked her if it felt good being right for once. I haven't cheated on her since and she never let her imagination get the best of her again. It's been nearly 7 years since that happened. We talk constantly and our marriage has only gotten better.
>>696115986
actually made me cry a bit
>>696118190
whether or not you are right, thats not how you help depressed people anon. i know its /b/ and whatnot but if you really wanted to help these "fucking needy" people, youre not doing a good job
>>696118190
>>696117490
>>696117374
>>696117225
>>696118733
One day I grew tired of being the clown,
and then they all grew tired of me.
Fuck it. Tried sleeping, but all the feels of my mother dying keept me awake. Seeing her battle cancer for 4 years and aging 40 years in that timespan. Im 34 years old and i spent a night crying becous I miss my mother.
>>696111440
>They all clapped
>They all
>They
>>696116262
>I think she just keeps me hanging on cause she's afraid of how I'd feel.
This was me. She said she'd always love me and we'd still be friends. Then I realized that I was the only one really interested in that. The last time we hung out she was getting her phone blown up by some guy I'd never heard of before. She lied to me twice. Said it was one of our friends and then said there was no one else and that she didn't think she'd be with anyone else for a while.
I've been free ever since. I don't know if your situation is the same or not, but the best thing you can do for yourself is just let it go.
>>696118494
I saw him say that quote. he never said that last part. you soggy waffles are so soggy and sad.
>>696110885
>Be me
>Younger, still a teenager, don't have many friends since my dad left me
>Take to lurking on the internet
>Eventually started browsing some social networking sites
>After a while, find this profile with some white furry cat as a profile picture, though it's well drawn
>Send the person a message, introducing myself and complementing the picture
>Person sends a message back, says she's named Sammy, and even though I didn't ask, states that she was only a year older than me
>I send another message, and we start to chat
>We have similar interest, and become close friends
>Send her messages everyday, and we talk and talk
>The best feeling I've ever felt in my life
>It's been about 3 years since we've been talking
>I'm an adult now
>I accepted that I loved her a while ago
>I'm about to send her the message, but she sends me one first
>"I feel off a building during work today."
>Im concerned, ask her if she's okay
>She says she has some lung injury but she should be fine
>She's taken to the hospital, it's clear she's not okay
>I skype her everyday, and watch her condition get worse
>I try to save money to fly up and see her, though I just can't make enough
>They've been trying everything to fix her, nothing is working
>She says they are going to try one last surgery
>On the skype call that day we talk about when we were younger
>Finally, I say it "I love you"
>She smiles, "I love you too"
>I tell her i'm going to go see her, no matter what
>>696119673
>I think my life is going to be happy
>I take out of my rent money and food money, I don't care anymore, I just want to see her
>I get to the airport, and my phone starts ringing
>It's Sammy's parents
>"I'm so sorry"
>She was dead
>The only person I ever had loved was dead
>I spiral into depression
>I try to poison myself, only manage to fuck up my brain and get sent to the E.R
>Now I sit at home every day, and think about her
>I don't believe in a god, but I think about seeing her after I die every day
>And every time those last words she said to me ring in my head
>"I love you too"
>>696119621
Not him but wasn't that pic from when Bob was battling cancer?
>>696119929
It was after his wife died of cancer.
I keep searching for the truth about humanity and what its worth but all i can understand is that people only care when its convenient
>>696118455
with all this patronizing attitude that you promote, depressed people are given an environment where their depression can flourish and fester and grow out of control, like mould. Maybe they need a little harshness like a high pressured water hose spraying off all the dried caked on mud on the concrete. Depressed people are needy clingy fucks who need to train their brains how not to seek happiness and validation from so many unreliable sources.
>>696119929
he must have said that line multiple times then. I've only heard him say it without that last part.
>>696120261
I can just tell you don't understand depressed or suicidal people so maybe just stop talking because there may be a lot of them in this thread enjoying what we are posting.
>>696119810
Jesus fucking christ dude I am so sorry. So sorry.
>>696120261
Not that anon, but the depression I experience is a result of not reaching out at all, even to reliable people who I know care. I actively push my loved ones away because of it, which digs me into a deeper hole.
Not all depression is the same. People deal with their depression differently, and your mindset only hurts the people who withdraw.
>>696110885
ok /b/ mai story so fuck off
>raised by grandparents
>parents drug addict runaway carnies
>never any friends
>dad died day daughter was born (i was 18)
>wife left me a month later
>find new woman
>happy for a couple years
>we became heroine addicts (still are)
>had our daughter be born still in may
>found out this week she's been cheating on me
>may be pregnant
>no where else to go or live
>i wanna die
i love you guys
>>696120482
>I dont understand depressed people apparently
>enjoying what we are posting
>posting depressing things that are depressing
No. I think you're severely wrong. Taking that oh so popular modern approach that solves nothing by patting everyone on the back. People are more resilient and need to be treated like adults. Not children in a nursery with fragile little feelings.
>>696120482
We dont enjoy it. We just feel welcome here.
What do?
>accept help from someone who abuses you just to keep living the way you prefer
>move back in with parents and let them see how depressed and damaged you have become
>>696101866 → ## N
>>696120261
do as you wish anon. i only speak based on my own experience. as someone who is frequently depressed, the one thing that would mean more than the entire world to me is if someone would notice that i am in pain and attempt to empathize and understand. hasnt happened once...
>>696120865
I say move back in with your parents. Put your pride aside. You lost that a long time ago. Just let them help you
>>696120755
Love you too, anon. But do us a favor, get yourself in shape. Quit doing drugs, anon. Do it for your /b/ros.
>>696115396
...Did a Pokemon movie just make me feel...?
>Feels thread
Look at real life fags.
>>696120754
everyone around me is depressed. Maybe I'm lashing out because that's kind of freaking me out. Every friend from highschool. Every friend from college. all on meds. What is happening? I'm the only fucker I know who's not had a close brush with suicide.
Frankly I'm more than a little bit worried and all the therapy and coddling doesnt seem to be helping any of them at all. so naturally I want to slap everyone a bit.
>>696115545
This stupid fucking site :,)
>>696120755
>>696121169
Yeah man you can do it we believe in you. Get yourself back together. Love you too fam
>>696121431
Hahahah :,,)
>>696121413
Go for it! Some people might appreciate a kickstart to get them rolling
>>696120888
And it is never going to happen. Everyone's too busy dealing with their shit. you have to stop feeling so sorry for yourself. So much self awareness is killing everyone. Get busy with shit. stop trying to find a deeper meaning to everything.
>Be me
>Just out of my ex-girlfriend's shadow, after trying to follow her after we broke up, she hung it and told me to never speak to her ever again.
It tore my soul and freed me in a strange sense.
>I am finally free of her, when she really never cared of me.
>Be me, right now
>Trying to go on with my life
>>696121169
>>696121485
thanks guys. Im trying here. I've just been so dead inside since i was a kid that numbness is home. thats why the drugs are hard to quit
>>696121356
>>he says as he sits at his computer by himself
>>he says as he takes time to post in a thread that he has no intention of being a part of
>>he says ignorant to the fact that we have looked at the real world, and that's why we are here
>>696120812
Yeah, this. We don't enjoy feeling this way, it's just that everyone out there is either at peace, or pretending to be. In here, we can be honest about "I'm fine" not really meaning "I'm fine." We can breathe out.
>>696116154
i know it's simple but this is the hardest hitter on here to me
>>696121413
I think we all are to some extent... The world is a harsh place and it's hard to deal with.
Maybe those people don't bother me because at least they actually have the strength to allow help and I'm just not capable of that.
I can understand where you're coming from though, if you're a person who hasn't experienced that it can look like everyone is just overly fragile, or not equipped for life.
Take it easy on the folks here though, for me this is the only place I can go where I don't feel pitifully vulnerable about letting this shit out. Gotta feel the feels sometimes my friend.
>>696121704
as i said anon: do as you wish. all i ask is for you to understand that not everyone thinks as you do
>>696121756
How old are you?
This shit happened when I was 18. Tore me apart. Had to keep it all hidden away too because it was a gay relationship and the family and friends who "cared" the most would not tolerate that shit.
I hated anyone who told me "it gets better" but it did actually get better. i've not thought of that person for months until your little story reminded me of him. Managed to build something so much more using that shitty relationship as a jumping off point, and a safeguard from making similar mistakes in the future.
I was wondering if any of you could help or give advice... I feel like I'd just be told to fuck off if I asked for advice but I have nowhere else to turn or anyone to turn to..
>>696120450
there you go.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ugJfjmxOR2I
>>696121756
>Trying to go on with my life
That's all you can do, Anon. Just try and get comfortable with yourself. Once you've got that you can find somebody else.
My turn
>Be me
>Nearly 20
>Had abusive childhood
>About to graduate
>Had good hopes
>Got sunk by false sexual harassment accusation, forced to graduate early
>Got proven innocent, hopes back up. Interview for good job coming up
>abusive mother breaks it to me that when we moved to US it was because she got beat by her ex husband because she wouldn't abort me
>She says I wasn't worth it
>Idk who my real father is now
>She tells me I was illegal for 8 years
>Legal resident now but green card has error so can't legally work
>She's upper middle class rn, and current "father"
>Both refuse to pay small fee for new card so I can work and leave because it doesn't "benefit" them
>So I sit here daily with nothing but a phone with no data or calling and you guys
>Also dealing with sexuality issues and the fact my first 3 sexual encounters were forced
>Have medical issues that get worse weekly that they don't care about getting fixed despite having the funds
>Can't file form for card myself because it requires info only they know
>I had a chance and it was taken and crushed
Why shouldn't I KMS at this point TBH?
I e been sitting here months just doing their domestic work (feeding horses, cleaning)
Some weeks I don't get my grocery money I earn, so I eat one meal a day, and that's like a pop tart or some shit
>Almost got them to submit form
>Changed mind and won't even let me bring it up without fighting with me because I didn't mop a floor the way they wanted
>>696122214
That's why we're here, man :)
What do you need? We'll do the best we can.
I've read many a feels thread and I've never responded to any, except for now. I'm here because I'm an empty individual. I'm a talented individual, don't get me wrong, but I'm just empty. I have a lot of useful skills: I don't have a fear of people or crowds, I've spent a lot of time learning facts and preparing myself for new situations, I have been involved in plenty of athletically taxing hobbies (namely parkour, basketball, HEMA, and most forms of hand to hand combat), and people say that I can convey information pretty well in two languages. Beyond that, people find me funny and pleasant to be around. Of that, I have no clue why, but apparently it is so. I have a long history of doing things to myself to make myself better. I had always been interested in science, but I never had Guinea pigs to test anything on, so I turned to myself. I'm a person of bad luck and have had some bad things done to me by bad people, but I must admit, none of the trauma I've been through from others has come close to what I've done to myself. It wasn't for the opportunity to show off to Facebook and be famous for a brief moment or some shit like that, it was for me to be closer to perfect for whoever decided that they wanted a lasting relationship with me.
A substantial amount of time after I've acquired such a relationship, I just don't know what to do. I'm empty inside. I'm empty and I don't know what to do about it. I've turned to so many sources that should've told me what to do, but I just can't find anything that helps. Logically speaking, my relationship is perfect. Logically speaking, I'm geared for success and can only be a success. Logically speaking, I've no reason to be sad at all. But for some reason, I am. My dreams have come true. Why am I not happy?
>>696120638
Thanks man, but I don't know what to fucking do these days. I haven't tried killing myself again, but fuc, I really want to. What's the fucking point without her?
>>696122086
that right there.
>overly fragile, or not equipped for life.
why is that happening so much more lately? I cant help but feel like psychologically, with a lot of the increasingly coddling rhetoric, media, education etc.... there's a bit of a snare being set on us as we just begin to reach adulthoood. During our teen years, shit always gets weird in and we're told so many things about ourselves. But the problem is, during these years we tend to try and make sense of our lives by latching onto specific things that "seem" to fit. instead of letting ourselves grow into a different shape. we hold onto that "fitting" ailment and let it define us. It festers it grows out of control. it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy on our lives.
I cannot be the only one who feels like this is happening to us ...not a conspiracy so to speak. just a really shitty side effect of the way we treat each other, and our tenancy to be vulnerable to certain ideas. I feel like i'm going crazy here.
>>696122392
So long story short
>be me 18 and male living in own apartment, NEET, can't handle social interactions yadayada
I don't know why but part of me wants to transition to female... I can't get it out of my head and its ruining my life I hate that I keep having these thoughts and I want them to end and I don't know what to do, I've started self medicating and meditating / self reprogramming / journaling and nothing is working I don't want to end up a tranny but I don't understand what's going on in my head anymore and I can't make it stop.
I'm sorry I know I'm such a fucking faggot I just want to go back to normal again and not have these horrible thoughts anymore.
I don't know why I haven't killed myself yet but I may in the next few weeks if nothing changes.
>>696114912
that one had such i happy ending but im still crying from the rest of thread
>>696122950
Probably because females have all the power and esteem in society and males are worker drones
If nothing has made you cry yet, this will
>>696122246
It's time to seek outside help (there are govt. or private agencies I'm sure) because your parents are obviously horrible people who enjoy the power they hold over you.
>>696123304
This is fairly accurate. They have power and esteem for no damn reason other than a hole between their legs.
>>696123444
Well some shit happened, I didn't think this posted, so I posted again with pic
>>696118207
This shit and the mimikyu always get me
She was everything I ever hoped to find. A dream come true. I never thought I could be with someone like her, but we stayed together for 2 months. I was happy. I felt like I could do anything, anon. I mean, If a girl like that was dating me, maybe I had some value, right? Then she left me. And I'm here doing all those things trying to distract myself and to make me forget her. But, in nights like this...Oh, boy. I wonder if she still thinks about me. I miss her so much.
>>696122950
I dont know why that idea has become so appealing to a lot of men lately. Probably are westernized society pushing so much goddamn shame onto the male gender. It's madness. transitioning to a female is your way of escaping that shame maybe.
what's so great about being normal in the first place? what's so bad about wanting to transition? you did say you are a neet right? wouldnt socializing online be a great way to realize your actual female self? why give your physical appearance so much stock just yet? could be something you do after finding a good set of friends who can support you, but for now why not explore being socially female online?
>>696123444
Them trips definitely made me shed a tear
>>696123444
Think you forgot the pic, anon.
Also nice trips.
>>696123304
I just want these thoughts to stop.. I've spent the last hour sobbing over it like a complete faggot for the first time in 8 months and I don't know what to do anymore maybe I should just kill myself.
>>696123628
Hahaha
>>696122897
I think there is some truth in what you say. Things like depression and anxiety are things that everybody deals with, a piece of the flawed human brain that can't always deal with the stresses of the world. Some people use these things as a crutch or an excuse to not function.
But just because most of us deal with these things at some point in our lives doesn't make them any less real.
For every person using their depression as a cop out there's another who suffers through it in silence and will not reach out.
I don't define myself as depressed. I'm aware that I'm struggling and that's about the extent of it, but in my public life I do not let it cripple me. In my home life it certainly does, but that's my own fault.
Some people need the harshness to get through it but you can't throw tough love at everybody and expect it to help them.
>>696123304
Thank god dad was always there to remind me never to be ashamed of my masculinity. He was a prick sometimes, but nowadays I only remember him in a good light. He was shockingly red pilled too, for being someone who never even learned how to use the internet.
It's crazy how much of my friends are so ashamed of their male gender. Maybe that's where a good chunk of this depression is coming from...
>>696123599
Because I know I'm male and I want to stay that way, its like a haunting voice in the back of your head.. it just won't go away and I want it to stop I just want to stay male
>>696123626
I remember this from 2008. Never read it though because the font size and the color make it nearly impossible.
>>696113573
tfw you've been doing all of those, tfw you've been friend zoned without her even knowing you like her.
>we can live in a home together as friends.
:(
>>696123506
I'ts fairly biological. Before we were even humans we always held women in high regard. We protected women because they had the babies. Men were always expendable. We've developed from that mess of a setup.
>>696122246
Get yourself legally emancipated, if you aren't already.
There should be no information about yourself as a citizen that only they have access to, provided you really are legal.
>>696122246
(cont., forgot a few words)
And at this point it's just wake up
Feed animals
Eat a small meal
And lay in bed on here all day
Nobody who has had romantic interest stays because they see I'll never get anywhere
And honestly? It's shit
I try to stay optimistic but it gets harder daily
It's at the point I'm only here out of spite
>>696122638
If she loved you she would want you to try and find something approximating the way she made you feel in another person.
I don't believe in an afterlife, but if I was forced to watch someone I loved from the other side, nothing would make me happier than seeing them able to be happy again, as long as I knew they never forgot about me.
>>696122246
Your mother sounds like an evil whore
js
>>696123955
it's just an idea like anything else, can be disregarded. it sounds as though maybe this is a symptom of OCD, where some of your least wanted thoughts are given an obsessive spotlight against your will.
Intrusive thinking...is that how you would describe it?
>>696111632
I'll prefer to push you your life is worthless
>>696110885
I drunk, 1.8L of weiss and the same of red ale today sharing with friend, I am more than 1 year without woman relationship, but today I remembered even about my first ex.
I really need woman now, not a lot of nameless girls, one, JUST ONE to hug and sleep as I was used to do till last year or so,{
Help life is shit, I'm depressed and alcoholic an can't sleep but have to see F1 tomorrow 9 A.M. because I love it.
>>696124119
That's the thing anon, I can't get any of the info. Even if I did, and I think I can (will try tomorrow), I have no money, and no way of going to get the biometrics done.
And she threatens to have me arrested because she apparently has some shit from when I was a young teen
And she tries to make me pay Ny money I get to "pay her back" for when the school district made her get me help for my depression (she got the bare minimum and stopped as soon as they let up), and for accidentally breaking her cars window at 14, even though she's far from poor
>>696124721
Yea, she is. Nobody I know who's met her has enjoyed her presences.
Volatile, greedy, and frivolous. Attitude is only good when she wants something from someone she can't berate into giving it
>>696124740
Yeah, my bio dad was majorly ocd, and I'm also schizophrenic.... badly.. but I think that is probably the case and idk if the scyzophrenia or the fact that I have slight asbergers or whatever its called (form of autism)
>>696124108
Yeah, even Tesla hypothesized a society where women are treated like "queen bees" and men are just the "worker bees."
It's not fair, honestly. This is what TRP is all about. That's why some (myself included) are departing from the norm. I don't care to find my "soul-mate", which, might I add, is a real pansy idea. I'll die alone. Who cares. We all die alone. In the meantime, I'll keep myself busy, trying to find answers. I'm just doing my time. Reading about philosophy of religion, government, and so on. Hopefully something lies beyond this seemingly pointless life. That's what has had me down now for the past few months.
>>696112188
these threads probably have more lurkers than people watching twitch these days
>>696125077
>cont.
....but idk if it is related or not..
I feel like I've majorly fucked up with my crush.
Beginning of the summer I've had a lot of fun talking to her on skype and playing vidya games, but the time we spent together started slowing down the past weeks, I'm always the one who confronts her and asks her if shes down to play something almost every day and I still haven't confessed to her because I'm too scared to destroy our friendship but I feel like my clingyness is already breaking it apart.
I'm not sure if I even want to take any advice since I've never been more hopeless, but it's still relieving to write the problem I'm having right now out.
>>696119604
It's our four year anniversary in a month. I want her to be happy, and just not make her feel like I'm dragging her away from her freedom. What was this whole relationship fucking for if she wanted to be her own person.
I'm so confused, I just don't have the heart to break it off.
>>696124850
Yeah your mother is an evil whore
There are definitely government advice agencies with people who know all about this kind of shit who can help you though anon
There have to be some jobs that dont require lots of paperwork to get some basic change behind yourself, illegals manage to find work after all
>>696125077
Try to recognize these unwanted thoughts as a symptom and not a course set in your future. isolate it and label it for what it is. It should not have a lot of power or distracting presence if given that framework.
>>696125368
I've tried for around 2 years now.... I kinda just want to end it all at this point. It feels like quicksand.
>>696125176
Too bad the actual posters are "depressed" because their "first crush" broke up with them. Aww.
Don't get me wrong, some go through a lot with their SOs and their presence here is perfectly justified. But some are just whiney pricks.
>>696125366
I wish. She's gone out of her way to turn off calling and SMS on my phone even though I work for them
To "pay for it", even tho I get nothing from if, and I live 20 miles from the nearest work with no ride, In the Goonies .
Gonna try saving cash when I rarely go out with my current partner (Having the right to go out with my 'friend' is a pain, have to work for it.), and give my 'father' all the money and demand he do the form at this point.
I'm not the only one who contemplates suicide over and over again because of how lonely I am?
I've finally met a girl and we've gone out twice, How do I know if she even likes me? I'm not even sure how much I like her, maybe I've been lonely so long that anyone who shows me attention is attractive to me. I don't even know how to open up to people, I don't think I can ever be more than friends. Part of me wants to keep seeing her, but another part of me knows it wont really work out. I don't want this to end so soon but it feels like a dream. Time moves twice as fast and I feel like everything is great. Afterwards I feel like everything is shit, I don't even drink and I reach for the bottle. I can't enjoy anything anymore.
I'm probably not meant to be happy.
>>696124432
Can't you find someone to give/lend you the money for the fee (I would if I weren't broke) or even do small Jobs outside? As it seems, your only problem now is living where you are, can't you find a job and rent a house?
Mu suggestions may seem shitty, sorry, I don't live in the US so I can't know how things work there. This would be reasonable here where I live, anyway, good luck Anon.
>>696123569
>>696125545
>>696125827
Well that rustled my jimmies.
>>696124037
Very one in my apartment do,please knew who Ugly was. ugly was the resident tomcat. Ugly loved three things in this world, fighting, eating garbage, and shall we say love.
Ugly should have been a dark tabby, if it weren't for the sores and scabs covering his body. His tail was long gone, and only a stub remained, and his eye and ear, on the same side were both missing.
If you ever picked Ugly up, he would try and suckle onto anything he could, or try and head butt your hand in an attempt to get you to pet him.
Whenever Ugly would see or hear kids playing, he would come running, begging for affection, unfortunately, all the kids were warned to stay away from him, and the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him, kicked him when he came inside their homes, and even shut his paws in the door. Every time his reaction was the same, if you hosed him, he would sit there and take it. If you threw rocks at him, he would curl up at your feet begging for your forgiveness.
One day, Ugly shared his love with the neighbors huskies. That's didn't end well. From my apartment I could hear his screams. I ran to help, but when I found him, he was lying in a puddle of blood, badly mauled, his rear end and legs twisted out of shape. I picked him up and hurried him back to my apartment. I could hear deep wheezing and thought I must be hurting him terribly. Then I felt a familiar feeling. Ugly had moved himself to be able to nuzzle my hand, asking for affection. I pulled him close, and he began to suckle my ear. In such great pain, all this cat wanted was a little affection, a little love. As he turned his one golden eye to me, I heard the distinct sound of purring. Ugly was, at that moment, the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. Not once did he try to scratch or bite me, try to get away from me or struggle in any way. He was completely trusting in my to relieve his pain.
Cont.
>>696125141
was almost 24 years old when I finally got around to dropping the religion i was raised into all my life. The amount of damage it caused my development still depresses me when I think about it. For me, nothing is more freeing than the most honest pursuit of scientific discovery. No fluff, just cold hard fact. and measures to ensure that such facts are as accurate as possible. it is the one thing that transcends our flawed human experience. Because it can be perfected, it can be organized into a clearer understanding. it is a big work in progress and it gives me hope that so much remains unknown.
Whenever shit feels pointless, I always try to focus on that big blank area of the unkown. Not ghosts or spirituality, but dark matter and space-time. Where does it all go? What brought it about? Can we ever know?
the fact that we crawled out of the sea and ceased being formless sludge to the point where we can actually perceive and appreciate the universe we are in is kind of amazing.
>>696126007
Why that?
>>696125822
Pikachu is an attention whore who will overdose on drugs. You're better than that ghost pokemon.
>>696126019
Ugly died in my arms before I got to my apartment. But I held him for a long time after. Thinking about how one little deformed stray could alter my perception on what it meant to love purely and truly.
Ugly was scarred outside, but I was scarred inside, and Ugly taught me that it was time to let go, time to give my all to those I cared about.
Some people will try to be prettier, richer, or more successful, but me? I will always try to be Ugly
>>696125822
I tried. Not many, it's $85. Not much but a lot at the same time
Then there's the issue of the form.
And I can't get money from outside sources or they take it. They're truly despicable people.
>>696126320
Not just that bro, it seems like everyone that sees this guy gets sick or something .... really depressing.
>I fell in love with a girl from Glasgow who was friends with my friends.
>We flirted online a lot, and one day we arranged for me to go visit them, and get high with them all
>We both knew it was just for us to see each other
>Get there, she makes first move on me
>"So, we gonna fuck or what?"
>In front of everybody, first time anyone ever been like that to me, made me feel great, like someone wanted me and wasnt ashamed of it
>Cue 2 year relationship
>First year is amazing, we live together, are each other's pillars, madly in love, amazing sex
>She slowly becomes increasingly tumblrina and less chill stoner as time goes by
>Begins to feel like she uses me as an emotional crutch and to financially enable her psychological weed addiction
>Begins self diagnosing herself with tons of shit like PTSD, IBS, autism, anxiety, eating disorders
>Watch as she slowly sabotages herself as a person and her personality is subsumed in to this weird tumblr "Everything is about social power dynamics" SJW creature.
>She fails uni, I don't
>We stay together, she is NEET and quite ill
>Still feel used, having to support her while doing uni is hard
>She acts like I'm being abusive to our friends, gets really offended when people point out I'm looking after her and supporting us
>Tells me she's "gender nonbinary" wants to be called "they" not she
>This is about a year in
>This all continues and gets worse
>Now after a year of no sex, arguments and her using me for weed money she tells me she thinks shes actually a dude
>We break up because I'm not in to this any more, I wanted te funny happy sexy girl I started going out with, not this surly celibate SJW dude she morphed in to
>I feel like the girl I started going out with basically died, I miss her. It's like I'm in mourning.
>We had a dog together, and a house, it feels like a divorce.
>Want to kill myself, I have no friends any more, no one gives a shit about me.
>At least I'm still at uni but it feels like my life has stalled.
>>696126463
How would they know you have money? Shit man, really wish I could help you
>>696125521
i still have some pretty violent intrusive thoughts. to the point where I become frightened when i'm near small fragile people. I feel like my hands will suddenly go out of control and i'll end up punching someone's lights out when my every fiber of my being wants to protect them instead.... I 've learned to cope by putting my hands behind my back like some kind of weird professor. it surprises me how much that has helped. I'm wondering if a simple distraction like that (maybe some kind of communication with someone who can anchor you, or a habit of some sort can help you.
>>696126665
Fucking tumblr, I knew somebody would experience something like this...
>>696126896
When I was in high school ID come home to all of my drawers and mattress etc turned over, clothes and shit on the floor etc to make a statement that I am her property and she finds everything so you can imagine
>>696126963
you should talk to a therapist m8
you dont want to slip up and fuck someone up, it'll cause you tons of trouble if you don't have a documented history of this being a pre existing issue
also some small person will get fucked up because you're not well and that'll be lame for them too
>>696113447
Implying she'd be worried enough to reply back more than once....
>>696114912
that's not feels. that's genius.
>>696124432
Man your parents won't pay the fee because they're using you to do the shit they're too lazy to do. If you hate them so much, then just stop doing the shit you're doing. You're stepfather beats you? Go to the cops. They starve you? Go to the cops. It's not like it's your fault you can't get a job.
Just stop doing the shit they make you do. Make them get off their lazy asses and do it themselves. You aren't their fucking slave. Make that point known.
why is it that mental illnesses arent considered serious if youre middle class? i got diagnosed with depression/anxiety when i was in middle school, but nobody treated me seriously. even my parents were like "you just need to suck it up." maybe thats where my hatred of "normal" people came from, and why you guys seem to do more for me than a psychiatrist. because you guys get it.
its comforting to know that no matter what, our /b/ros will always be there for eachother.
>>696126463
How do they find out you got the money? Hide that shit somewhere
She doesn't love me anymore
I don't know why.
>pic related
>>696127547
This.
They are on a powertrip, it's your job to deny them.
>>696127547
I'm just really scared as she's violent and doesn't really have boundaries. I'll get through or try if my first plan doesn't work
Michelle, I miss you. I regret leaving California when I did.
I love you
>>696127139
She was perfect as she was man
And it's like that site made her hate herself for being normal until she turned in to this surly trans man who cares about nothing but social power dynamics, and unironically gets triggered at stuff, was offended when people criticised otherkin and shit.
She was the funniest person I'd ever met, shared my dark as fuck sense of humour when we met, like this skinny little stoner chick, 5'4" with an incredibly ass and tiny tits, and a face like an angel.
Then she started dressing like a dude, eating more intentionally to lose her feminine figure, completely stopped wanting to have sex, stopped making jokes for fear of offending people.
I feel horrible for saying it, but it would hurt less if she had died. Rather than having to see her being this weird completely different person that now walks around in her skin.
Its left me shaken, thinking that no one is really who they are, and everyone I ever meet and love is gonna shift in to this different person over time.
I've always had a cycle of happiness and unhappiness, but over time, the periods of happiness have become shorter and less significant while the periods of unhappiness have become longer and heavier. I don't think I'll ever be happy in the future. I'm not motivated to do anything anymore. I just feel like a shell. I want my life to just be over, but I don't want to fuck up my friends and family with my death. I'm stuck in this life I don't want for the sake of other people. I don't know what to do and Im actually feeling scared.
>>696127936
Well you have wifi, instead of sitting on /b/ get some Internet fighting tips. It won't get you master level, but it to help in a fight
Just remember we're here for you
>>696126665
Fuuuuck me. That sounds like you pretty much witnessed a gradual death of something beautiful. I'm noticing the same thing happen to my husband in law's sister. She's been on this very fast downward spiral ever since that tumblr social group got their ideas in her head. Now she cries to everyone about everyone. for any reason. she just cries for no reason. had a cry tantrum a few months ago. Like a little fucking child. She used to be such a sweet girl, optimistic and cute. But tumblr made her gain 140 pounds and a very aggressive set of ailments...new ones each goddamn week it seems. This is happening everywhere.
I swear to god, i'm going to start some kind of counter social movement in favor of mental stability, strength, and people who just love to have fun without all these ridiculous strings attached.
>tfw my first love dumped me for another guy
>tfw i want a relationship but too scared and doesn't want to get hurt again
I still thinking about him from time to time ;_;
>>696127775
FUCK
>been suicidal for years
>started so young I am just numb to my depression
>Actually want to kill myself
>Drive to bridge
>JustDoIt.jpg
>Pussy out
>Actually diagnosed, not a tumblr self pity faggot
>Think about how good it would be to kill myself daily
>Literally everything in my life is torturous
>Hopelessness.png
>Talk to parents
>Begin weekly therapy
>Start smoking weed every day of my life
>Not so bad
>I am now 16 got a job at taco bell
>Used to have about 4-5 extremely unloyal "friends" that I had nothing in common with
>Now have a few stoner friends that I can count on
>Recap; I have a job a small social group a job and am starting to make friends at my job.
>Tears of joy at night because I haven't been happy in over 10 years but things are going well now :)
>>696128115
I try, anon
Im an underweight neet and she's a big woman (for me), very Stronk
Will try best
>>696127397
It's actually subsided a great deal since i've read up on OCD and intrusive thoughts. I've not had a scary moment in a while. I'ts just something i recognize nowadays. a distant non issue.
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>>696127708
Yeah, that's what I thought, but then I don't know the exact procedure to get your documents. Good luck /b/ro
>>696128102
cont.
It's weird, because the girl she once was loved me, and I know she did, I fucking know it.
But the dude she turned in to was too self absorbed to give a fuck about me beyond the ways in which I was useful to her, and I kind of hate him for it. It's like I think of them as two different people, and one is an impostor who stole her from me.
>>696113351
Edgy
>>696128323
>I am now 16 got a job at taco bell
wow, /b/ is actually filled with underage b& faggot
>>696128391
fairs man, dont let that shit sneak up on u tho yeah
I miss Harambe so damn much...
>>696128102
this seriously bums me out. I want so bad for you to find someone else who can make you forget about her eventually.
>>696128795
I heard the females he lived with started showing signs of primate depression
Something wrong
I hold my head
Harambe gone
A nigga dead
Just found out my wife slept with a coworker. I'm utterly alone and have no one to talk about it with
>>696128755
the fact that I've managed to subside those scary violent thoughts myself through knowledge and healthy thought patterns. (as well as talking about it like this) has given me so much more control over other aspects of my mind. I think things are going to be just fine.
I've had a dog since I was a kid. When I was 3 my parents got me got me him for Christmas. He's a golden lab German Shepard mix named Sarge, and he is the most benevolent dog you could ever meat. Not once has he barked like crazy at people, or stray cats or other dogs. He simply watches them. We leave our front door open in summer so confident that he's never going to act up. Well, times change, and Sarge is getting old. He still dosent act up, but the way he learned to lay down was to drop his back legs out from under him, then slide his from legs out in one motion as he hit the ground. As you can imaging that's not good for an old dog. Every time le lays down he shakes out house, and we all die a little inside. He's having trouble walking and even getting up, and we have to carry him up and down the stairs, which is problematic since he needs to be around us if one of us is home. I know the choice is coming /b/, I have for years. But I don't think I'm ready. This dog has been my companion and my best friend for as long as I can remember... How can I cope with losing him?
>>696121342
I would kill myself tonight, if I were sure hell didn't exist.
>>696128966
thanks /b/ro
I think I need to try and gravitate towards more mentally strong people
I think it all stemmed from this kind of weird lack of integrity in her character, where she didn't have a solid idea of who she was and wanted to be
So she found tumblr and used it to redefine herself every 20 minutes
And that's hard when you love someone and watch them gradually rebuild themselves in to something completely different. It's like watching them die slowly, but rather than dying at the end they're just a new person who resents you.
I think I need to focus on fixing my head after that fucked up relationship so I can be good to the next person I could end up falling in love with.
>>696128461
How much is the fee? Go out when you get groceries and buy a wallet. Have it on you at all times, and ask for some money from your school friends, explain your situation and someone should help, I know I would. And carry the money on you. Never leave it at home. Switch it from pocket to pocket of clothes, or keep it in your bag if they don't check there. Apart from that, what information are they keeping from you?
so, I've reached the point in my life where I'm just not happy anymore. I might laugh from time to time but I'm not happy. I used to dream that people cared about me, about caring friends, about her. But the even in my dreams they hated me, so I started to dream about people I've never met before and even this fictional people hate me now. I'm not even happy in my dreams.
I think about dying a lot, but I don't really want to kill myself. I fucking hate feeling like this
so recently I just messed up with this girl I really loved. ive known her for some time now and just got together a month or so together. she's a broken girl, I'm a broken guy, but I love the fuck out of her. a few days we had a stupid fight that I can't even remember what started it. what happened was that she considered leaving my life because "it's best for you". I keep saying the opposite and that I need her, after all, she saved my life at a point where there wasn't any reason to live and has since been the only person to ever give me this much happiness, care, and love. we've had fights before and every time it feels like she's slipping from my grip and instead of being seen as that cute boy who mattered the most to her, it feels like she sees me as some shitty burden that she needs to keep alive so that no one feels sad when I kill myself. I'm so fucking terrified that I'll lose her. it really feels like she's the one for me, but I'm not the one for her. yeah, call me a beta shithead fucktard, I don't care, but it's becoming harder and harder to not break down. I'm sure a lot of /b/ has felt stuff like this. the worst of it all is that if we DO break it off, we'll go back to being just best friends and I know I'll lose her to someone else. I know she'll find someone to be better for her than I ever could be. what hurts most of all is that the chances of recovery is slim and that I'm going to have to sit there in severe, aching pain, taking in the rusty, suffocating air as she gets together with other guys and eventually marry one of them. I want to kill myself, /b/, but I'm too much of a pussy and I'm scared that she'd follow me.
>>696116122
I tried doing this, but i stopped talking to 3 friends.
I think that the only thing is left to me is to be that guy who is always sayin "hi!, how are you?" just to talk to someone.
>>696129300
I could really use some help, and my phones about to die... Some of you might tell me to "look up coping tips" but it dosent work,mi need tips from someone who's as sad as I am about losing a family member. So, you know, it'd be nice.
Ever since harambe died, the world has gone to shit. Terrorism has gone haywire, britain leaves without knowing the consequences, the american election is under huge scrutiny, and life in general has been bleak.
I just miss her you know.
What's her name Anon?
>>696130458
but what does Harare have to do with this?
>>696130167
Its time to nut the fuck up anon
You have to step up to the plate and be the guy she first fell in love with again
It sounds like you're depressed as all hell
YOU need to take charge of getting yourself treated. Your illness is weighing on her, and she can't fix you. YOU have to fix you.
Fix yourself for her, make her feel special again, and she will make you feel special in return.
You are ill, and you are letting your illness win, and its killing your relationship.
>>696130726
fucking autocorrect, what the fuck is a Harare
>>696130595
What a cunt god damn
>>696130851
B-but I love her.
She was the love of my life.
>>696130762
I'm really thankful for the advice /b/uddy, but she's hurt too. she feels like she's the blame for why I think so badly of myself but she's far from the reason why I do. she's as stubborn as I and won't believe that she isn't. it's shit and I'm trying to fix it. thanks for the support though.
>>696131033
I just tried to like this picture.
I think it's time to stop interneting
