This night needs a Feel Thread
Let's do this /b/ros, post your greentexts and lshare your feelings
Shameless self bump
>>695957249
Goldmund- Threnody
If the thread dies.. know /b/rother.. you're not alone tonight
>>695957420
Read it time ago
Worth the read
Bumping for feelings.
Classic Julius
Why is depression a thing
>>695957961
God fucking dammit. ;_;
Every tiem.
>>695958174
idk if you feel as i do but everything birthday related punch me deep
>>695957961
I feel bad. I guess the liberals white guilt wasn't strong enough to show.
>>695958814
Honestly, there are few things sadder than lonely birthday parties.
>>695959232
*to me
On my 16th birthday i spent the whole day crying and getting stoned never celebrating a birthday again
I haven't spent my birthday with people since the fourth grade because i was too scared people too ask people, and too scared to be rejected
My exfiance cheated on me for my friends. I walked in on them fucking and just walked out. Went for a little walk and just thought about life.
Every girlfriend i've had cheated on me. Eventually.
I have never in my life had a birthday party
My wife tried to throw one for me when i was 22 and i got in to a fight with her friends boyfriend because he was drunk and decided to take a swing at me for no reason.
Everyone blamed me and never spoke to me again even though he admitted it was his fault and i was sober.
Im 27, and that was the last time i ever had a birthday party
>>695960655
>>695961483
At least you had the balls/will to do it. I just sit at home all day immersing myself in vidya trying to forget about the world.
>>695961483
Why?
>be me
>7 years ago play some dumb game online
>tons of filipinios
>one guy named camz offers to help me out and show me the game and translate
>we become good friends
>add him on Facebook when it came out to general public
>would talk and pen pal
>stopped using Facebook a while after ex was harassing me
>keep talking to him every so often
>now three years ago
>he sends "happy birthday anon today I join Filipino Ejerció (army)
>come back online yesterday
>4 unread messages
>1: Happy birthday anon, I am here if you want to talk
>2:happy birthday anon I am joining front lines of army
>3:happy birthday anon I will not have Internet I am going on year long fight
>4......
>his girlfriend writes from her acc
>Hello anon I am camz gf (she added me as well) "On November 13th Camz left this earth after he was shot in duty"
>he was shot and killed on my fucking birthday
>"I know he would always send you happy birthday because nobody else did"
>"I like to think he is your personal angel now because of what happened, please take care of him anon and know he is looking out for you"
Is it weird I feel oddly close to you guys? We're all so different but so similar. The only thing we have in common is the fact that we all hate each other but that makes for surprisingly effective common ground. It's almost like we aren't even individuals anymore. Just a big amorphous mass. I love you guys.
>>695962304
Sitting here fucking crying because it still feels absolutely unreal
>>695962380
Love you too anon. Love you too buddy.
>>695957249
I have no empathy
>>695961960
I have no idea. Just bad luck, I guess.
I just dont know what to do anymore I just dont know please help me im just scared of everything why cant I be okay please help oh god I hate this I hate this I hate this
>>695962380
You know your life is godawful when you consider yourself close to a bunch of anonymous kids on the internet.
>>695963011
Fuck off, dumb-fuck. No one cares about your issues.
>>695962471
im sorry to hear that man :/
>>695958814
oh lawd!
>>695963056
I disagree.
There's something everyone in this thread shares and maybe you don't feel it be aside from having something happen, there's a mood that I feel when I type this and when we go through and back and forth
We all share something and that something is nothing
>>695958814
>had someone take the picture
Yeah, he totally spent his birthday alone.
This is fucking true.
>>695960655
I hope you off yourself after killing them.
>>695958174
Yea if this happened to me I wouldn't give a single fuck but seeing it happen to this guy hurts me inside
Rolling out some feels
1
There were no children in my neighborhood when I was little except for some girl around my age.
She was my only friend for a few blocks. Everyone else from school required a good 20 minute drive.
>This anon had no friends, even when the internet was new
I was in sixth grade, and this was my first year at my new school. It was one of those shitty catholic schools where there is one class per grade and shit. The guys in my class hated my guts simply because I was different. One of them had an end of the year party for everyone in the class, however I was the only one that wasn't invited.
>>695963543
The only feeling I have right now is cringe from reading your gay posts. "We all share nothing." What does that even mean?
>>695964076
7
I'm head over heels in love with a woman, I'm married, and it isn't my wife.
>>695963627
O shit
>>695964216
Legion is not here right now, if you'd like to leave a message, please press 1.
>>695962975
i feel similarly. don't really give a fuck about people's pains. i know it's a very harmful way to live life but i don't know what to do.
>>695963627
tbh fam that was pretty gay
>>695964216
Just leave then man, you're not here for the intended purpose of the thread
>>695963696
That was actually pretty fucking tempting... But these events were in a time long forgotten.
>>695964448
You're right, the depressed 20-something year old losers are here. Wait a minute, that is legion.
>>695964538
>using /b/
>trying to come off as a decent human being
Drop the act. You know you're here for gore threads and tranny threads you blazing homo from the third circle of Hell; gluttony for cocks.
>>695964496
Just contributing. Never went though it myself. I wonder who has?
>>695964780
Apparently just you man
We were all having a conversation before you came in here with the typical /b/tard shit continuing to post to someone whose just trying to get through the rest of the day
>making me reply 1/10
>>695964076
Keep it coming
Guys, I'm going to tell you how I feel and I want you to give me a diagnostics of what's wrong with me.
It's not much really, I'm not socially awkward or have any kind of disability. In fact I make friends without even trying, however I never really bond with any of my "friends" because I feel I won't have any real connection to them.
When I go out to parties I leave the house happy and when I arrive I feel all the joy sucked out of me.
I don't know but I hate socializing a lot and I'm starting to feel lonely but when I interact with someone who isn't my family I begin to hate it even more.
I hate why I'm like this and I'm trying to change but this fucking doesn't work for me, I try to be happy only to get it sucked out of me and I fucking hate it. Idk /b/
The world seems really gray to me. Nothing excites me anymore, not love, not games, not friends, not anything. Hell doing dangerous things doesn't even get my blood pumping.
Thoughts /b/?
is not a feel thread without Ella
>>695965355
Stop being an narsissitic fuck, Then ull be fine.
>>695965355
Sounds like me, off my meds, depressed af
>>695965133
fuck
I'm having to sit up due to the tears going into my headphones.
>>695965883
You and I both man..
Im starting to get my life together which is a really nice feeling :> dont get me wrong, my life overall is still in a pretty shit spot, but i finally landed a job. been depressed for 5 years now after my parents got divorced and im finally starting to kick depressions ass. :>
>>695965567
Last time I checked I don't obsess over myself. Nor do I put myself above others, especially ones who don't have the luxuries I have.
I actually hate people who think they are and will always will be better.
>>695963983
sounds pretty rough for anyone at that age really. fuck those assholes
Seeing this thread reminded me of someone who I hadn't talked to in a long time.
I sent them a message and though it may sound cringey, I wish to share it with you.
I've known this person for about 4 years now, I jumped from account to account and they stuck by me.
They've been with me from my super cringey period, to my super edgy period to now.
I don't know what else to say, does anyone have a clue?
>>695963983
Fuck that's kind of brutal. But I think the flip side to that is even worse.
My senior year in high school there was one guy...
>he was big, ridiculously awkward
>not the best with his hygiene
>didn't know his name
>study hall in library
>I'm in one of the aisles checking out artsy nudes in the photography books to kill time (but still look like I'm working on a paper or some shit)
>he starts talking to me through the bookshelves
>says he saw what I was looking at
>I'm like, yeah you caught me these chicks are hot
>he comes over and shows me his favorites in the book
>he had all the page numbers memorized and flipped right to them
>I'm bored so whatever I let him show me
>study hall ends
>never talk to him again for months
>literally last day of school (before senior ditch day)
>hanging out with friends in the hallway
>see the guy handing out flyers
>he's inviting everyone to his graduation party on Saturday
>invites me to his graduation party
>flyer says there's an awesome pool in the back yard and there's going to be all kinds of food and a DJ and a photobooth etc etc etc
>Saturday comes around
>me and car-full of friends are heading to a buddy's party
>on a whim we decide to swing my the guy's party
>drive by and we can see the backyard
>decorations everywhere
>bounce house
>a giant buffet of food and drink
>tables and chairs all decked out
>dance floor with a bored-looking DJ looking at his phone
>then we see the guy sitting on the end of the diving board over his pool
>NOBODY ELSE is out there
>nobody came to his party
>my friends were laughing but I felt so fucking bad for him
Fucking hate this world.
>>695966877
Did you stay and spend time at his party
>>695963712
same
>>695966877
god...
>>695963577
his mom took the pic
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9CzcOcBb_ms
>Have girlfriend I want to marry
>About to graduate college
>Quit job so I could move across the state to be with her
>She dumps me before graduation
>Get another shitty job
>Eventually get fired
>Decide to move across country
>Get fucked up and get arrested
>Can't move for months
>Have no money but move anyway
>Four months later dad dies
>Move back home
>None of my friends back home want to talk to me
>Alone every day
>Never leave the house
>Mom doesn't talk to me anymore
>Been living on dad's life insurance money
>Need to get a job soon but don't see the point
I wish I would die already.
>>695967588
dam son das good
>>695967355
Shit I would have. Guy sounds like he has money and is pretty chill
/b/ros I have to admit that I just beguin using 4-chan for kek's and porn/hentai but once everytime these fells theread make me realize what we really are and that we are all the same,I thougth that my life was nice and etc,a cuple of friends but just 3 that i think that will stand by my side,no gf ever and i am fucking 19.Maybe i am a jerk sometimes but really try to help out people when I can,indeferent if friend or not.I have lost the trust on people and I hate that,I had the hope of honest humans on the worl and just get backstabed one and another time.Never thougth that this motherfucking site could bring people closer.Lets just nuke the world and go live on mars
>>695967964
Fuck man, that's really harsh
>>695966877
jesus man that fucking sucks so hard
>>695967355
No I wasn't driving. And there's no way my friends would've let me get out.
But I don't think I would have even if I could. I just didn't know the guy at all. I remember overhearing later that night that someone else had driven by his house and saw the same thing. We drove by in the early afternoon and apparently he was still out there waiting for people to show up at like 10pm.
Fuck me just remembering him sitting on that diving board surrounded by an enormous, elaborate, and EMPTY party... His sadness and disappointment was palpable.
Anyone have that image of that old russian veteran sitting alone and his comrades in spirit form comfort him from behind?
>>695957420
Fuck, anon.
This kind of stuff usually doesn't get to me but this is something else.
>>695968225
How is saying I would hang out with the guy harsh
>>695968943
because he looks at porn and porn is sinful
>>695969037
I was art. No pussy lips or buttholes = art photography.
I got a story. Probably shit, but I'd like to contribute. Never done green text before, so if it doesn't work that's why.
> Be me, move to a small town in southern Virginia.
> Autistic high schooler, only had one or two friends before.
>New school, don't know anyone, socially awkward and don't really talk to anyone
>Meet 6.5/10 Asian girl in P. E class, out of district transfer, loner like me.
> Get to know her really well, I'm crushing hard.
>Never had GF before, she seem into me
Continue?
>>695968943
I didn't mean it like that, i really don't know what i meant in that post, i fucked up inthat one
>>695966877
Yeah, that's why I haven't had a party in years.
>>695966877
ah ffffuuuuuck this made my chest tighten up with anxiety
>>695969395
Why not, moreeeee
>>695969395
continue anon
I'm a survivor, I got tossed out into the streets at 18 with no qualifications, no money and just the clothes on my back and I broke into an old building, stole old clothes from charity bins and stole food out of bins until I came up with a plan, that plan failed.
I never got into the IT sector despite knowing more than most level 1 and 2 tech support lackies and lived on the streets for a whole year without begging, hell i even beat up another tramp and stole his shoes, when I was kicked out of the house I'd never so much as looked at someone the wrong way.
Now I live in a shitty 1 bedroom apartment, haven't talked to anyone in over 2 years, mail only, sponge off benefits and going outside scares me, took me 4 months to afford the worst laptop the second hand ads could offer in the local paper, feels good to be on top.
Completely and utterly true, I snapped on the streets when I was beaten up by kids for falling asleep on a slide in a park one night, I've been in battle mode ever since.
>>695969643
At 18 I was tossed out because I was doing nothing with my life. no friends, virgin, no schooling, I was a shit stain to my parents.
My first night on the streets was hard, it was -5c, I remembered this old boarded up house a few miles away, so i walked there, spent a good half hour kicking off some of the boards to get in, then slumped in a corner, i thought i was going to die there.
the next day I sat in there worrying, on the night the cold crept in and i sought to stay warm, if i got sick i was dead, i wandered around for trash bags, cardboard, anything to stay warm.
I saw a blue charity bin outside an oxfam shop unlocked, win, i ransacked that motherfucker and ran back to my hovel with 6 bags of rags, they were very heavy but i knew they wouldnt make the same mistake, better to have too much than not enough, i smothered myself in the rags to stay warm and it worked okish, i more or less fell asleep in the pile, shit felt good, felt that evil in me start to sprout.
few days later my hunger was killing me so at night i lurked out again, diving into bins for half eaten kebabs, bottles of pop etc, it was disgusting, but it kept me alive. i lived this way for about a month.
one night after wandering i fell asleep on a park slide, i promised myself i would just rest my eyes, i woke up with a boot in my gut, i was being kicked, punched, stomped by a group of 14-16 year olds, i tried to run but they ran after me, i made it into someones back garden, but i was cornered.
I grabbed the nearest thing, a broken off rusted gate, and began violently swinging it, i managed to get 2 of them in the face, they gave up and i collapsed, then the owner came out screaming at me so i stole the gate and ran back to my hovel.
wanna know more? im not typing this all up if its to be ignored
>>695969728
my midnight raid routine continued for months until i started to get real pissed off at everyone, no fucker was helping me, so i had to help myself, so i started raiding residential neighbourhoods bins, they had to have better shit in there, more wasteful the better, I'd leave bags torn wide open, chicken carcus or whatever i could find thrown all over the street, and this was fine for a while until i started wanting more than just mere survival, i wanted money.
I started breaking into old cars, my trusty fucking brick was my weapon of choice, many satnavs, phones, wallets, expensive shit fell to it's power, id beat the fuck out of locked glove boxes to open them, retards thought if they locked it i wouldnt look, fuck me if it was locked i KNEW something good had to be inside it, i pawned that shit and started saving money, money was good, i could afford to buy pizza rather than eat filthy stale crust out of the bins, and i kept my money in a pair of thick tights i wore on me under my jeans.
>>695963627
beta uprising lads, get ya guns, get ya ammo and we will kill all the normies, for the cause.
>>695969757
eventually I had 1000 quid, the pawn shops i sold my shit to ripped me off because they knew the stuff i was selling was stolen and they needed money to keep their mouths shut and i didnt have to sign any forms saying i used to own it, fair enough, as long as i was getting money.
With that 1000 i made a plan, i went to the council house and bought a new birth certificate to proove my identity, then i started sleeping in an internet cafe every night, they had nice big chairs and at 15 quid a night i could internet and sleep as much as i wanted, 10pm til 8am.
Using the internet cafe i started researching what i needed to do to get off the streets, things were looking up for me. i thought my year of hell was over.
>>695969836
I looked online for jobs and how one would go about getting housing without any real ID, and I was fucked, I needed the chicken before the egg, in order to renew my passport and driving license I needed a place to stay, so i asked marvin if i could put his cafe down as my residentual address, he told me to fuck off, so i had to find a hostle, they wouldnt either, and i fucking raged, i was trapped on the streets, without i could prove who I was, I couldnt get anywhere, eventually my 1000 turned into 200, i was running out of cash fast, so i decided to start sleeping in my hovel and eating out of the bins again.
That was fine, my money was saved until i could figure out a way out, until one night i was having a wash in a public park toilet and I was mugged, they took my money and beat the shit out of me, all i was left with was the boxers i was wearing and i found my jeans half way accross the park.
I was back to nothing, many nights i cried, i didnt want to go back to breaking into cars and pissing people off but I had to, so a few nights later i did, i found another brick, and i broke into a brand new BMW, one with great alarms and all the bells and whistles because i spotted a purse on the passenger seat, it was worth the risk.
>>695958209
How about the people who work nights or have insomnia? Fucking faggot.
>>695969948
in the purse I found jewellery, 150 quid, credit cards, debit cards, pictures etc, of course i took the jewellery and pawned it, and i was back upto 240 quid in a single night, rock on.
i thought of a way out, it was risky, but fuck it, i was so used to stealing everything else by now, why not pretend i lived somewhere right? right. i searched around for a house that was abandoned, the hovel i was living in was obviously condemned and would have sent alarm bells ringing, but this one house seemed recently vacated, a council house obviously, metal grills meant council.
I waited until night then I snuck around the back, to my fucking astonishment there was a locked dog flap, it took little more than a good fucking kicking to get in, i now had a residential address, now i needed a passport application and driving license, i went to the post office the next day, filled out the forms, the day after that, got a passport picture done, got my doctor to countersign, and about a month later, i had 2 letters with my name and address on it and some government approved ID, NOW things were looking up, i could apply for jobs.
>>695970018
in the purse I found jewellery, 150 quid, credit cards, debit cards, pictures etc, of course i took the jewellery and pawned it, and i was back upto 240 quid in a single night, rock on.
i thought of a way out, it was risky, but fuck it, i was so used to stealing everything else by now, why not pretend i lived somewhere right? right. i searched around for a house that was abandoned, the hovel i was living in was obviously condemned and would have sent alarm bells ringing, but this one house seemed recently vacated, a council house obviously, metal grills meant council.
I waited until night then I snuck around the back, to my fucking astonishment there was a locked dog flap, it took little more than a good fucking kicking to get in, i now had a residential address, now i needed a passport application and driving license, i went to the post office the next day, filled out the forms, the day after that, got a passport picture done, got my doctor to countersign, and about a month later, i had 2 letters with my name and address on it and some government approved ID, NOW things were looking up, i could apply for jobs.
>>695970018
i can just about laugh about it now, but that gate kept me safe when i was asleep, id sleep with it next to me in the hovel, it was too heavy to use as something like a bat, but i could carry it, and i could swing it, and it proved it use.
I started applying for jobs, this was 2 years ago, recession, no fucker was hiring anyone with no skills, everyone who had been laid off had already snapped up jobs, i camped out at the job center for 2 hours a day begging for a job, any job, but the way i looked, the clothes i wore, the way i smelled etc, i wouldnt have got a job even if i was offered one. I suppose they saw that too.
I needed to clean myself up, but how could I? endless fucking challenges, nobody is going to leave a suit, shower and razor set in their car, and breaking into houses was out of the question, with around 90 quid left spent from getting my ID (yes, it is that expensive).
I took a chance, went to primark, bought my shit, 2 sets of casual clothes and a suit bringing me down to 30 quid, went to a local swimming baths, snuck into the changing room, took a shower, stole a jacket someone had left on the coat hooks on my way out, that night i went to 24 hour asda, bought a shaving kit and scissors, shaved in the bathroom and cut my hair before getting swiftly kicked out.
I looked semi-presentable, and low and behold, the job center started giving me the time of day, and finally i started getting somewhere.
Anyone have that greentext story about the guy who basically molests his friend's sister but they end up sort of falling in love and then the dad catches them and they never see each other again? And there was something about a baseball jersey.
That story was hot as hell but also had sudden feels. It was like a romance story for /b/tards.
Someone post it.
>>695970134
there was an opening for an IT temp, no quals necessary, i fucking jumped at it, the company was small but it looked promising, very fucking promising.
I was wrong, despite knowing my shit i was looked down upon, it was obvious i was street shit, however there was ONE girl who kind of looked past it, and at lunch she started talking to me.
She was polish, didnt speak english very well at all, but even though i smelt like sweat and shit, she tried to make conversation, unfortunately my time on the streets turned me fucking nuts, i didnt trust people. i hated everyone, and i knew she was only talking to me out of some sense of obligation, she didnt actually like me.
>>695970195
one day after work i started walking home and she asked where i live, i didnt tell her, i said it was none of her business, she looked at me point blank and said "you're a tramp aren't you, its obvious, the way you look, smell, act, it's written all over your face" and i started crying in the street, and im not talking weeps, i cracked and let it all out, slumped down next to a wall and she just stood there looking at me, when i let up she said "I'll take you for something to eat, but only if you promise to tell me everything, i can help you", fine, she didnt say it in that grade of english, but give her a break, shes fucking polish, i dont speak a word of pole, and for once in a year and a half, I reached out for help, real help. she took me to fucking papa johns, bought me a huge cheese pizza, and I spilled everything, where i was, what i was doing, the stealing, the struggling, the muggings, the beatings, everything, and then she said something i'd fucking wanted someone to say to me for a long long time, "It's going to be okay, I'm going to help you", i didnt care people were staring, I sat and silently wept as she told me what she could do, what i could do, places i could visit for housing, benefits i was entitled to etc... it was amazing.
>>695969757
Please continue
>>695970259
over the next few weeks she bought in forms for me to sign, they were tenancy papers, and every night after work we would go to the same pizza place and sign forms, she would talk me through processes, she told me how my squatting would eventually land me in deep shit and asked if i had anywhere else to stay, a real address.
I told her i didnt and she just said "oh... thats bad", i never expected her to be able to help with that, and i thought we hit a dead end again, she said she would find a way around it, and a week later, sitting at that pizza place, i was filling out a income support form, she said these exact words "i fill in addresses, you will stay at my, you will work, no free ride, and you not stay forever, this is just helping"...
I looked up, and i swear if i never thought it would be a deal breaker, i would have jumped over that table and squeezed her until her eyes popped out, i would scrub her floors with a toothbrush if it meant actually being able to sleep lying down in a safe warm place again, things were moving along great, at the end of the month and a half I was paid, 100 went to her for rent, and i was told to buy my own toiletries, clothes and food with the rest, things were looking up in a major way for me.
>>695970313
the first night i met her near our workplace, all of my "things", "things" being the clothes i wore, the documents and passports in my jeans pocket, and we waited for her bus, she started laying down all the ground rules, "no dirty, no leaving, no complain, you do as i say, you eat what i eat, you wash when i tell you" etc etc, all more than agreeable.
She seemed liked she was having doubts about me, understandable, she had known me less than 2 months, her good nature was the only thing keeping her from backing out and there was no fucking way i was crossing her, not after all she had done for me, i listened intently and mentally noted all of her conditions.
her flat was normal, clean, furnished, warm, safe, she lived in an ok neighborhood, still plenty of crime, but as near as bad as the shitholes i was rolling in, she opened the door and said "yes, and you no key, we work, we come home, that is all, if you need shop, i tell you", again, more than agreeable, it might sound prisonerish to you guys, but honestly, this was all pretty fantastic to me, i was amazed i was actually there, i felt warmth in me i'd not felt for ages.
She showed me into her livingroom and there was a cot made out for me, she said "this is where you sleep. this is where you live", it had a thin mattress, a sheet, a duvet and a pillow, it was old, obviously pre-dating her moving in, probably found in the heating cupboard, but to me, it was as good as a fucking emperor sized bed with a foam mattress and egyptian cotton sheets, it was amazing, youd think it too if you were sleeping in piles of diry raggy clothes for over a year
>>695970370
i stood staring at her, trying to hold back my tears, she said "This is home for you now... only for a little while, welcome home", I was so happy i started crying, my smile was genuine, from ear to ear, I went to hug her, but stopped myself, i didnt want to threaten her, she smiled and extended her arms, and for the first time in a long time, i had a nice, long, comforting hug...
im crying right now just remembering that moment, it was amazing.
>>695970195
There's a fucking picture to go with this
>>695970423
she went into her bedroom and threw a bag at me, inside i had 3 towels, 5 sets of socks and boxers, 3 sets of bed clothes and some shower gel, she said to me "this is start, you give me your bag, you wash really well, clean shower after, i sort out bag while you wash" and while i washed, she went through my things and picked out things I could use and threw the rest.
When I came out of the shower in my new things she smiled and said "haha, it is good start, we sleep now, you do not come out of room" she waited until i was in bed, turned off the light and closed the door, and i cried myself tears of happiness until i fell asleep.
>>695970517
my forms came back, I was officially on the housing list and every day for a long time things went smoothly, wake, shower, eat work chores eat bed, over the weeks she worked on reintegrating me, took me for a haircut, helped me get things like clothes, taught me some of her cooking (I cook blitz's and Kurczak de volaille all the time), taught me how to pay bills, took me for a new bank account (I was getting paid in pay mandate slips that I could take to the companies bank before hand), and started making me feel like a person again
At home before bed we would sit, watch TV, talk about things, i learned alot about her life and friends back in poland, why she was in britain (pay in poland is crap and even with the british cost of living she was sending home more than she she could spare when she lived in poland each month), and every day I told her how greatful I was to her.
Slowly, I started getting privileges, like her trusting me to watch TV while she went to bed, being able to go to the toilet at night, being able to go shopping and come back, I really was beginning to feel like a person again, to the point that my humanity started returning, i started being sociable at work, keeping our secret of course, and for the first time in ages, i was happy, really happy.'
>>695970552
skip ahead 4 months, she completely trusted me, and I'd never do a thing to harm her, in fact I became very protective over her, she was a goddess to me, something to be guarded, she was the only friend I had in the world, of course I'd be like that, then she started doing little things i look back on now and see as signs.
Before i was completely oblivious, she would rest her head on me when we watched movies late at night, share food from her plate, steal things off mine, wear my clothes to bed and act like hers were all dirty or say she liked mine better because they were baggy.
It was november at this point. One night, she said "We need tea, milk, butter, break, can you go?" and as always, I'd grab my wallet and head for the door, walk to the supermarket a few blocks away, collect up what we needed, and when I came back, the cot was folded away.
>>695970596
I looked and it was gone, she looked at me and smiled, and said "It cost too much to keep warm at night alone, we can try tonight sleep in my bed, I think you will be good", dumbfounded I nodded, took a shower, put my bed clothes on, and we got into bed, I couldnt sleep a wink, this was... woah to me. completely unbelievable, remember I'd never been in a bed with a girl before, I didnt know what the hell to do, but i knew one wrong move and I'd be out on my ass and straight back to square one, so I just lay there, then she started talking, word for word, she said this
"Hard to think months ago you were tramp... you are such gentleman now, you make good start, you work hard, haha, and now you are in my bed and i like it... you do good when you try"
i said "Well i owe it all to you... everything, if it wasn't for you I know where I'd be right now"
"sleeping in filth?"
"... yeah"
"You are real man, you try hard to be better, filth is for pigs"
"... Thanks... for everything... I really mean it"
"If you mean it, then let me do this, you do nothing ok?"
she took my arm and slowly rolled me round to face her, then came in close and snuggled upto me, then took my other arm and folded it over her, she said "stay like this..." i really couldnt have moved if i tired, i was happy and petrified at the same time, my heart was going a mile a minute, she caught on and said "shhh... we are keeping warm, go to sleep", she fell asleep first, and after lying there, mind completely blank for hours, i did too.
>>695964763
Now stop posting the story. It's spam at this point.
>I have had a crush on the same girl for 8 years now
>multiple relationships over the course of these years
>fucked 5 girls since I first met her
>still too much of a pussy to even talk to her
I dont fucking know why Im such a fag. She feels like a final boss of some game or something.
>>695970657
oh you're no fun.
>>695970773
Do you know why is it called "crush"?
Because in the end, it crushes you.
I turned into a fuckbou because of her..
>>695970781
this story always gets me.
>>695964478
I fucking love Avatar. Probably my favorite animated show of all time.
>>695969395
OK. Cont.
>I get to know her really well, but as we grow close together she begins to distance from the few friends she made
>Enter second semester, We share a lot of classes, I start Flirting
BTW I will refer to her as J from now on
>She seems to respond well to it, I ask her if she wants to go to the upcoming school play
> Throughout the play she's leaning on me, lots of playful touching
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>Same way on the bus, she snuggles up against me while we talk.
>She starts asking my opinion on clothes, dresses more the way I liked.
>Decide to ask her out
>Wimp out for a few weeks, finally do it
> " J, I like you a lot, I think we should be more than just friends"
>"What!? Anon, I'm gay, eww. "
RIP my life
>Being the Beta Faggot I am, I Kiss ass and apologize " Can't we still be friends"
>She keeps me around, constantly talks about her GF and how they have great Sex.
> GF cheats on her, she complains to me about it.
> I talk her out of suicide twice.
> I realize now she was constantly fishing for compliments.
>Over that summer she admits she only acted like she liked me to keep me around
>She liked the power she had over me
>She intentionally went on about her GF to make me jealous
> meanwhile I'm falling into depression, almost kill myself at a motel in middle of nowhere Texas during a drive across the country
>She constantly whines about her life, and acts like I'm some kind of robot, only there to abuse and to relieve compliments from.
> eventually we stop talking for a while, I move to California.
> We still talk, I love her, but at the same time I hate her So much.
Feels bad man, what do?
I can't express what goes on inside of me because I come off as crazy when I try so I keep quiet and it only gets worse.
>>695971973
Sorry for late reply. It's late and I'm on mobile
>>695965355
Depression, go see a doctor
>>695962380
I thought I was the only one
>>695965539
how the fuck am i meant to read this?
>>695972211
>>695965539
totally worth the read
>>695970656
Good to hear you got out of a spot like that
>>695971973
I feel you, I was in a similar situation before.
>>695964763
holy fuck
>>695957249
My biggest issue right now is my underage coworker. She's 16 and cute as hell and keeps flirting with me. Trying not to respond to it, but it's tempting.
>>695970781
Damn..
Pretty much every night now I lie in bed and wrap my arms around myself while thinking about how badly I wish a girl were there to cuddle with me. I had a taste of it once and it only made the loneliness that much sharper.
>>695957249
I pickle they.
>>695963011
we gon be alright fam
>>695972412
Sucks doesn't it.
Now I'm depressed, suicidal, I've completely withdrawn socially, I struggle with trust and a that other pussy shit. And I'm still autistic.
>>695972636
This happened to a friend of mine once. She was batshit crazy and couldn't get it through her head that he wasn't interested. She wouldn't leave the car after their date (his main mistake in this situation) until he kissed her.
>>695972719
same anon
Thanks for the feels bros , gotta go sad jerk it now so I'm not crying in my sleep, also you should probably all sleep, it feels good
>>695971973
She's a bitch
Seems like a very generic thing to say but it's true
>>695964216
Fucking faggot
>>695972719
I feel you. I'm so lonely. I can't sleep of I'm not off on some fantasy where a girl actually loved me.
Lost over a thosand dollars on astralis today FeelsBadMan
>>695957961
i know this feel my last birthday party was when i was 8 im 29 now and never celebrate because of this
i invite poeple but they always come upo with some bs excuses then i few days later i find out they were hanging out with someone else
>>695972947
This girl isn't crazy.
I think it's my fault. I've been helping her out because she's new. If I had known she was underage I'd have kept my distance a bit.
>>695972719
I do the exact same thing
>>695971973
jesus anon that sucks, what a bitch though. Cut her off completely though it's hard but time will heal. Best of luck anon.
>>695973521
>tfw nobody told you to hang out with them
>tfw they're probably hanging out together right now
>>695962304
What game because i am filipino too
>>695964763
read it a while ago, one of my all time favourite feels stories worth the read
>>695973907
God's of War or something like that, came out a long time ago, it was alot like Ragnarok online but made.by Polish guys I think
>>695965539
Fuck man that's sad. Though I'm beginning to think I have an issue in that I never cry about sad shit? Am I just way too emotionally detached or what? Like I feel like I was supposed to be crying by the end of this.
>>695973521
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>>695963627
this is so gay
>>695973521
I'd go to your birthday parties, anon. I love birthdays and parties!!!!
>>695963861
His wife just died by the time that was shot
The girl I fell in love with two years ago has a new bf. The girl I thought I fell in love with/still do think idk man, is why I stopped talking to the first giel. Guys, I'm so confused, I've been confused for so long I don't know anymore..... This first girl, let's call her amy. Amy and I met first year of highschool, and became really good friends, talked everyday, during and after school. Constant messaging and facetiming, whatever. We really knew each other, it felt nice being around her. Now this second girl, let's call her jess. Jess and I became friends towards the end of my second year of school and we still are. Howver, jess and I began to flirt and talk more the summer before my 3rd year. I started talking less to amy and we began arguing more and more because of this. Amy also moved away to another school and town, so I couldn't really see her. We had one big fight too that I remember, which pretty much ended in me making her cry, something I regret so fucking much. And we kinda of drifted apart. While this was happening jess stopped talking to me during the summer before my last year of high, and she began going for other guys, and later some of my close friends. I mean, once that happened I realized she was a hoe kind of, but, now we've begun talking again, but I just can't get amy out of my mind. I'm already in college, but I can't stop thinking about amy. I want to move on, but I cant. And don't get me wrong, jess is a really nice girl too, but I just got led on by her twice. Guys, did I make the right decision of going for jess those years back, or did I mess up by letting go of amy? fuck man. im so confused.
>>695967903
Be brave man, look for a hobby you didn't know you enjoy, maybe something related to art, leave you house one in a while, I hope you can keep up.
>>695974658
Sorry if it's hard to understand what I'm saying, I'm not too good with words
>>695957961
Something about this tonight just doesn't sit well with me. I've seen it before...but like a close member of my family just got lung cancer and we used to live with him when we were homeless. He never celebrated birthdays until we got there to show him it's not just another day. I haven't spoken to him. But I don't want to be awkward
>>695972267
I would date her. Sure she would be really loyal and prime wife material too.
>>695968174
Nah the world is full of good people, I will say you need to travel, and know new people, i'm not saying new friends, that's hard to find, but maybe new people with stuff in common with you (sorry for bad english)
>>695957249
I put on a happy face every since day. I have friends who've told me I'm the happiest person they've ever met.
But honestly I fucking hate myself and wish I could just disappear from the face of the earth.
I've been an emotional crab for my entire life, I cannot show any vulnerability, I put on this mask every god damn day and then go home and cry like a bitch because I am alone in my emotion, and I always will be.
I can't talk about shit with other people because it's instant tears, and I just absorb everyone else's problems and insecurities.
Maybe I'll just get hit by a fucking bus and die so I don't have to live with this shit anymore, I'm tearing myself apart and there's nobody I can turn to for help.
>>695974205
Not OP, but you're awesome.
>>695972267
I actually would love a girl like this.
I don't think she's that ugly. But I've grown emotionless over the years. I just want someone who respects my space that's like 10 miles wide
>>695974942
Thx me not engrish wel to
>>695974658
You messed up.
>>695970656
this story makes my everything smile
thank you so much, are you still with her?
Good night everyone. Sleep well, sweet dreams. Dont let the bed bugs bite. Dont do drugs. Lock your doors. Turn the oven off. Take a shower. Dont forget to feed the dog. Wash your clothes. Clean your house. Anyways goodnight fellow anons
>>695975497
Don't leave me...
>>695974981
Go see a therapist, they can help people who struggle to emotionally express themselves like you
Some times I like to just zone out and feel myself rot.
>>695975497
good night and dont say why i shouldnt smoke weed
>>695957249
My freshman year in uni I caught the oneitis for a friend. I didn't think she was interested in me and we were part of a larger friend group I didn't want to lose, so I kept the feels inside. Shit went on for 8 months and was complete torture. I'd look forward to the days I would see her at meetings of the club we were both part of. I'd get really sad afterwards. Several nights a week I would walk across campus at 3-4am to cry in peace where my roommate wouldn't see. I channeled my feels into a depressing short story. My grades were decent but I had to drop too many classes. As soon as the spring semester ended, I went home for the summer and my feelings for her were gone by the next time I saw her. Maybe getting her hair cut short was what did it (I'm much more attracted to girls with hair at least shoulder length). In any case, I was relieved it was over. Sophomore year, I had a single dorm room. I did significantly better that fall, but I really had to work to keep the loneliness at bay. Through shameful internet-based methods, I managed to get a couple of ~5/10ish girls to agree to cuddle with me (not at the same time), which led to pretty much everything short of sex, since I couldn't get it up when it mattered most. One of them caught the feels for me, but I wasn't all that interested in her. She was taller and heavier than me ( I was 5'11", 170lbs then). I felt really bad because I knew what it was like to fall for someone who doesn't see you that way, and I planned to break it off. After winter break, we got back to our usual cuddling/fingering/stroking thing, but I got much busier with homework and I wasn't getting enough sleep, so I had to put an end to it. She had more or less gotten over her feels for me by then, and I didn't feel as bad for cutting her off, but I still wonder if she's okay. I'm not interested in her sexually, but I don't want her to think it was her fault, or that there was something wrong with her, because I know that feel.
>>695975786
Why rot? That sounds exhausting.
>>695963627
that ending was pretty gay.
But what was I expecting from 4chan
>>695975558
Even though we will part ways for now, anon, I will always be right there next to you.I promise.
>>695975762
I think that lack of being able to allow vulnerability would extend to a therapist.
My mom made me see one in high school, it was pretty much just me making jokes about my feelings and trying to change the subject. Which worked pretty well.
>>695975991
Because there's no other way to wake up to what a worthless piece of shit I am.
>>695964763
tbh teared up a bit
>>695976085
You know what you need? You need a friend. One thall look past your bullshit and finally reach your core.
>>695976085
I'm pretty sure you're a real life Joker.
Does anyone know the animation that's about a husband and wife going through time and the problems they go through and the dad starts getting angrier as time goes on and tries to turn back time? It has a nice song and it looks like it's pencil drawn
>>695975364
What should I do? Amy has a new bf now, so I mean she's happy, but I'm not. It may sound selfish, but I at least want her to know what I'm feeling, I doubt she wants to see me though. Should I apologize or will that make things worse?
>>695976085
That's literally me with all my therapists. I've tried both male and female, young and old. its a waste of time. No one will ever be able to help me
>>695962380
We love you too, anon.
a few years ago, my mom got cancer. think it was kidney cancer. she also had hardcore anxiety from my dad being in the sandbox. she was taking at least three different prescriptions for it. when he got back, she was scheduled for surgery. when the day rolled around, i was in school, reading some gay-ass book because the rest of the class was slow as hell. i got called up to the office and in my mind im like "fuck yeah dude i get out early." i didnt even care that my mom just had surgery and so many things couldve gone wrong. but when i saw her in that hospital bed, with a dozen tubes and pipes sticking out of her, it hit me: my mom, the one person on this godforsaken earth that i love, could have been a corpse. i just broke down crying, hugging her, pleading with my dad to let me stay overnight. i didnt get to. i also didnt sleep at all that night. i make sure that i say "i love you" to my mom just in case its the last thing she hears from me.
sorry if this was shitty, im on mobile and just wanted to share.
Goodbye brothers, have a great night
>>695970656
Are you the real tramp anon?
Been a loner my whole life, had only about 1 real friend this whole time. called faggot or school shooter by my classmates cause they don't like my clothes. never fit in. I find a music genre, Hardcore Punk. I identify with the lyrics in these songs, feel like not such a fuckin loser for once. start really getting into this punk thing. Shave my head, get some doctor martens. Hate my peers and have a soundtrack to go with it. the best advice i can give is that You need to be exactly who you want to be and do what you want to do. I am he and she is she but you are the only you. if you dont like religion be the antichrist, if you dont like politics be an anarchist. there are options, if you dont like the way things are, get up and change them because nobody on this earth is going to live their life to benefit you. Get up and make change and always remember to be you, and if anybody tells you otherwise tell them to fuck off. Make sure to have that PMA (Positive Mental Attitude)
>>695976751
You'll be back, right?
>>695976621
Apologize. You never know what her reaction could be, but it opens the door for repairs.
>>695976378
I've got one, the one time I tried to be feelsy I couldn't really articulate what was wrong and he got pissed. So that ain't happening again, I can't deal with that.
>>695976410
What
>>695976645
Sucks to hear that man... I feel like a really accepting old person would be the best bet, but I don't know.
Nothing ever goes right, you get a taste of happiness only to drown in pain for the majority of life. Try as you might you can't have a perfect medium. I'm gonna volunteer for the first 1 way mission to Mars. No reason to come back here.
>>695976706
holy shit anon, I should say I love you to my mom more often too...You just made me realize that. Thank you
Well... this is mine
>Be me 13
>New kid comes to town, Joe
>my cousin is in love
>I see the guy he's got one of those smiles I just wanted to be friends with him
>too shy
>Cut to me 16
>Joe is friends with my friends and starts hanging out with us
>athletic guy all girls love him
>ditches girlfriends to come play vidya with us
>starts showing up at my house randomly with my other friends
>I finally start to feel like I'm fitting in
>Joe becomes one of my best friends
>goes out of his way to include me in stuff
>makes sure I'm doing okay
>comes over for no reason uninvited just to come take me out
>Joes goes to college while I'm still in high school
>drops out comes back to town
>hangs out at my house every day after I get home
>tries to mentor me
>I turn 18 I leave for college
>Joe stays
>I start smoking pot
>joes gets new friends starts working gets engaged working towards accounting degree at community college
>I get back into town send him a text seeing if he can find me drugs
>He says he'll try but i know he doesnt want to see me
>I go back to school.
>Joe dies in an accident
>lose my mind and consume every drug in the area
>miss his funeral
Everyday I wake up and think about that summer I spent trying to just smoke weed. I could have been spending time with him. I regret not going to the funeral. He deserved for me to have gone. He was the best person. I miss him everyday.
>>695973571
she look decent? drop description
>>695971973
Don't be autistic about it just say it to her disgusting face how she is.You can clearly see she is just using you so don't just take it.Some times you have to give it back.
>>695976989
Yeah, I'll do it then. I mean, as much as I want her to, I know she's not going to take me back. At least it'll give me peace of mind, hopefully. Thanks anon
>>695974658
from the sound of it you messed up, you should try to get in contact with amy if possible, and apologize
If any of you are still in school just take like 1 or 2 mg of xanax for a couple weeks and youll be the most popular kid in school. Once you are confident just stop taking them or throw them away.
>>695977811
Nigga where am I supposed to get xanax?
>>695977595
Yeah, according to one of our mutual friends, she's moving to my town. So I'm gonna maybe ask her if she wants to meet up and talk for at least a little bit. I'm just really nervous.
>>695973571
Just...tell her you don't fuck with underage girls...???????
>>695974981
Doesn't everyone put on a mask to fit in?
>>695978099
Masks come in all shapes and sizes anon
>>695962380
The one time anyone was real on /b/. You have said what none of us will because of everyone calling us a faggot. Let's keep in mind that we're all faggots. Love you guys.
>>695957249
It's been a while since I told anyone my stuff, I guess I can get it off my chest while I'm traveling.
>be me have childhood friend since I was 6
>met in kindergarten by some stupid sand castle building in the park
>go through elementary by goofing off and being mean to one another (she's a tomboy by then no one thought she was pretty)
>going to middle school she was getting prettier
and she only nagged at me to do my work so we can play SSB melee
>come high school she was happy we went to school together
>hang out every day after school and urged me to do sports
>I did boxing/wrestling and she did volleyball/kick boxing
>by then I only relied on her to be my only source of social connection
>never got along with anyone and I loved every minute of us being together
>she became captain of the volley ball team and took on a job
>stopped bothering me to my work everyday and we faded by junior year
>I got a job and only did school work,go to work and worked out
>I had no one to talk to at all
>I enjoyed the silence for the rest of the year being anti social
>come senior year
>we didn't talk at all and she hung out more with her friends and some football guys(sound like a movie, right?)
>one day I try to talk to her and one of the guys stop me and get his friend to tell me to leave her alone
>I don't ask why and get in a fight
>I couldn't handle a 2 on 1
>I get yelled at for acting rash
long story short. She ends up with the guy and are now engaged. I am 23 years old and after years of therapy and medication I have decided to end myself. However I'm going to Canada to do it, my plan is to visit the calm forested area to the west. I'm going to starve myself looking at the sunrise. I so far was robbed from the cash I was carrying and I'm half way to Oregon. Either I make it to Canada by foot or die getting there. I'm in my friends house in Redding using his computer, I will post again in a few days when I'm half way past Oregon.
>>695976706
my dog died last year. his name was jax. before you go "lol fag its just a dog," i grew up with this dog. we got him when i was four or five. for most of my life, he was there for me. no friends? jax is there. moved again? jax is still there. sister being a cunt? you guessed it, jax is there for me. he helped me get through some rough spots. when the rest of the family went to the vet to put him down, i knew it had to be done. he had been hurting for at least a year. could barely walk. but he was still so happy. the last time i saw him, i hugged him so close and cried for the first time in years. i miss you, boy. sure hope theres gardens to dig up in heaven.
>>695978099
Pretty much anon.
We are who every wants us to be.
People are scared to even poke a toe out of line in fear of being rejected.
>>695978099
I guess so, but a lot of people don't when I talk with them.
It's hard to hold all your own emotions in and still try to help other process theirs.
And the worst part is I have no problems that I should be suffering with.
It's like I have papercuts while everyone else is waking around with axe wounds, how can I be crippled by problems that only exists in my mind?
>>695978369
jesus dude...
>>695978369
Do yourself a favor and stop in Bend, its about 20-30 out from Redding and browse the local pot shops. Its cheap and might make the journey a little easier friend.
>>695963817
Fuck you. You broke me.
>>695970656
Moooreeee
>>695978480
Man, it's going to suck so hard when my cat gets put down. Everytime I'm crying, my cat recognizes it and comes running and purring to me. We lost our home and had to live in a shitbox. She was the only thing I looked forward to coming home to. She's 8 years old now and never likes playing anymore.
>>695978369
The one thing I feel guilty for is hiding the real reason I made it out here from my family friend. She's old and I don't think she can take the truth kindly. Anyway have a good night anons and take care.
>>695970656
Congratulations dude, seriously, you are amazing
>>695978369
Shit like this makes me hate humanity. (not you of course)
>>695962380
I obligatorily want to call you a faggot almost, but I feel you man. Love ya too, ya huge cocksucker. No homo.
>>695964564
This faggot
>>695957249
Alright, guess I'll unload
>My family is shitty
>Naturally anti-social
>Don't care much for people
>Act total opposite of my actual feelings
>People who remind me of myself I push away
>People who are different than me entirely come to me
>People think I'm insane
>I can't stop watching incestual anime due to never having any siblings that didn't try to screw me over
>Weird little sister complex
>Both little sisters I hate and are total bitches
>Fantasize about imaginary little sisters
>In college
>Haven't ever been invited out to do anything in my life
>Family always laughs at me
>Plays games, do insane shit, and watch anime for escapism
>Fucking hate Japan, nerds, and idiots
>Every day contemplating suicide
>Every day wanting to find someone to love
>Every day and night is the same prayer:
>"Lord, I want someone to notice me. I want to be loved and I beg of you, have me find a group of friends who will actually like me."
>I put myself out to others as much as I can
>Never been noticed
So /b/, that's what I deal with every day. Not a big deal, but still gets to me every day
>>695969757
continue please, i dont know what I would have done in your situation, probably just killed myself but you somehow survived
>>695978369
Anon, I won't tell you to stop, but rather this:
Why not instead of ending yourself, end the source of the pain? Yeah, you may be the source of it, but from my point of view, he is, and so is she. End them instead anon.
In High School I had no friends,and just drifted from group to group as I needed to survive.
However, in college, I made what I thought to be a very strong core group of friends that I loved to hang out with.
Every year this group of friends meets up and has a big blowout gathering. I've never once been invited.
Literally nobody I have ever cared about outside my immediate family has ever truly wanted me along for anything.
>>695979656
I have a big brother complex...
It feels really strange.
Anons, I am going to tell you about the love of my life and how shit went down during High School.
I will refer to her as Wife, of course.
>Enter high school 2001
>Nerdy, 5/10, fat neck beard.
>Have all my friends and my GF from 8th grade still.
>Meet new people
>Meet Wife in math class
>We hit it off pretty good
>Pretty good friends over next few months
>Current GF insults her all the time
>Eventually Wife gets Boyfriend
>They seem pretty cool together
>Later we find out he's a massive cunt
But we'll get to that later.
Anyone interested so far?
Should I continue?
i hooked with some girl in middle school, whose name is rather unique so im not gonna disclose it, and i loved her so much. i hated my life, but when i saw her face, and her adorable poofy-ass hair, i was ecstatic. i had been crushing on her for a year before i asked her out, and when she said yes, i couldnt believe it.
which made the breakup so, so painful. i considered suicide several times a week. none of my "friends" even really cared. but, i moved on. i live pretty far away now, and its been six years, but i like to think that somewhere in her heart she remembers me. i havent had a girlfriend in over a year. the last one was some white trash bitch who basically guilt tripped me into staying with her. i take antidepressants, but i honestly dont thinm they help. when my mom asks "do you feel okay?" i choke down these shitty feelings and smile. i dont know how much longer i can hang on, guys. i dont have dreams or goals or anything.
sorry for the wall of text. i just like to vent, and i feel like you guys care.
>>695979978
It would be strange to send an invitation to someone who is already your pal, no? Perhaps they plan it and whoever goes just goes
>>695980162
Yess
>>695965598
I've always wondered, do antidepressants actually work? Do they just make you superficially happy? Do they make it so you can't feel anything? I keep lying to my doctor about depression symptoms because I don't want the stigma and I don't expect treatment to do everything I hope it would.
Samefag as >>695979656
>>695980074
Yeah, it's weird. I'd never fuck my sister, but it's just a thing. I've never had a good little sister who cared about me or was a decent human being, so it's just a thing. Meanwhile if I ended up with someone I'd probably have some pretty...well, interesting things to act out
>>695976948
He will. No matter how much we hate ourselves and each other, we will always be there when we need someone in our lives
>>695957249
Feeling numb right now, my girlfriend (well, ex now) and I broke up yesterday after almost 5 months of what all felt like a dream. She's moving away soon, and we knew that our relationship couldn't stay exactly the same if we were apart. We decided it would be better for us just to end it early rather than attempt long distance and have it end badly after one of us cheated on the other or something like that. It's just frustrating because we both still love each other in a major way, but don't feel like we can stay together given the circumstances. I don't think it's totally hit me yet, I'm just feeling rather numb right now. Pic related, she sent me that right before she came over and we broke up.
i gotta spend time with the family tomorrow, so ill be going now. night, /b/. yall are pretty cool.
>>695980465
Godspeed anon, and good luck, you will need it.
>>695980162
I was heat broken a little over a year ago and recently got over and a new girl comes into my life and we mess around and i think im falling for her and i think she likes me too. Im used to having sex with random girls from tinder and just friends from high school but im terrified of getting my heart broken ago. it started as a drunk one night stand and i kept talking to her so i don't seem like a cunt and i hungout with her and her friends and i dont know what to do. life has gotten better since a month ago but i dont want to be devastated again. Any thoughts /b/?
>>695978328
I feel the same. Even though my life is going pretty good, I still feel empty inside, as I try to find a lover that doesn't exist.
>>695980610
Thanks, dude. It just feels good to vent right now.
I am crying reading this thread. About 2 hours ago my wife who has recently come out of a turbulent and depressed period wrote me this.
I remember that one time when you told me, "If you are always paralyzed and overcome by all the obstacles in life and unable to even try or fight, then you might as well be dead". That is so fucking true! It made me stronger, made me try and fight, it gave me the will! Every time I feel like giving up, I think about what you said, there is no more giving up <3 Thank you for all the help my love <3, you have made me a stronger woman than I ever were!
>>695971973
On some g shit just stop talking to her all together, block her on everything, it's gonna be hard anon but after a few weeks things will start to feel better. For you and anyone who is reading this, never make your life drive about someone else because people will always find a way to let you down, everyone needs a drive, so have it be a sport or a hobby you enjoy. If you decide to make someone your goal make sure that they've made you your goal, otherwise, good luck, it's gonna be a shitty life for you.
>>695980741
Go for her, you will be happier. Fuck fear
>>695980206
just hang on dude, love might find you. replacing her would be the best bet, or try to get her to be a bitch to you so can try to get over her. Youre better than suicide anon.
>>695980465
fuck anon that's actually my worst nightmare, idk if I could go without killing myself if that happened to me
hang in there /b/ro
>>695980465
it'll be aight anon, you'll pull thru
>>695964244
I damn near cried reading this, holy shit.
>>695977271
:,) To joe!
>>695980952
Thanks bro, i have trust issues and i feel like shes too attractive to stay with me. Ive been told im good looking and can pull hoes easy but idk, something just tells me im not good enough for a relationship.
>>695962380
I stand with you, faggot.
>>695980206
We do care, even if we don't respond right away.
>>695981335
DO IT. Go for her and never look back, and never ever let go
>>695963627
fucking kys
>>695981461
You're right man, thank you. That's the motivation i needed.
>>695962380
[cringe]
>>695978480
This was that only thing in this entire thread that made me shed a tear
>>695978480
Dogs are good people anon. Holding my dog as he was put to sleep, was the hardest thing I have ever done.
>>695972719
I know the feeling anon. I usually try to escape reality by playing games, watching anime, and overall being a different person. I put myself out there for people but get ignored even when I try my hardest. You may be under some other circumstance, but I get the feeling of solitude
>>695981604
No problem, I just hate to see people make the same mistakes I did.
Okay don't know what the fuck to do.
>I am /fit/
>Even though I look good and have a decent body I am a social outcast
>I ever had 1 real friend from like 5 years ago that lives in another country
>Don't know what the fuck to do with my life
>I am going to a new school on the 4th of august, don't know anyone in the fucking class
>Literally always an outcast in the class
>Everyone compliments me on how ripped I am although I fucking hate it
>All the fucking "boys" make jokes that I could fuck them up
>Also dating doesn't fucking work, used one app this lovoo bullshit was successful in the past but no one fucking replies there and writes me now
>How into friends?
>pic related my body
Just fuck me up getting fit doesn't help shit
>>695978099
No one cared who I was until I put on the mask
>>695981809
>>695978480
That did it, just those two made me cry. Good work guys. Im sorry for your lose of a family member.
>>695978369
Anon I think you can get through this, please think this through again.
>>695963817
Holy shit, can anyone actually confirm that this happens? That's terrifying dude holy fuck.
I wake my boyfriend up in the middle of the night very often to let him know I love him. I often think about him dying in his sleep. I know it's irrational because he's healthy, but you never know what might happen.
Plus I am so grateful for someone who loves an annoying, needy bitch like me. I'd be so alone without him
>>695981937
Get a cool haircut and stay quiet. Someone will want to be your friend. Ladies like that shit.
>>695981937
Only one right answer: get more and more /fit/ till you have unlimited power
>>695981896
Go on..
>>695981947
Sad but true, also
>You are a big guy
>>695965539
Holy shit. Feels fucking bad man. That was a great story.
>>695981345
Population control.
>>695979656
>on 4chan
>religious
pick one
>>695982236
Trying to leave humanity behind like my old natty bodybuilder Rich piano
>>695982229
Never got a approached, by a girl even with a fucking good haircut.Am I that fucking scary? Jesus fuck this life
>>695982259
Haha you don't want to hear my story.. Ill just say that I let go and lost.
>>695965133
Holy shit, that one got me
>>695966605
I still have a friend a lot like that. She's known me for years and we've had on and off periods but we're thick as thieves. You have to go in the moment. You can't tell yourself you want to care about them, you just do, and everything happens naturally. It's a lot easier because they are online, and it's easier to cope with anxiety in that regard. Just hang out again.
>>695978369
Please don't do it man, there is at least one person who cares about you. You wouldn't want to cause them grief, would you? Being an hero isn't as great as it sounds. Also, starvation takes a really long time.
Kinda more beta related
>be me beta fag in high school.
>cutie 3.14 girl I talk to says she noticed me at football practice.
>fast forward a couple of weeks, we flirt and go to varsity games together.
>homecoming comes around, ask her to it, she says yes.
>beta fag me is excited get a limo with own hard earned summer money cuz I wana impress her.
>two days before homecoming, senior beta fag who was on the swimming team asks her to homecoming. Her brother is swim team captin so he convinced her.
>tells me she's sorry but want to go go with swim fag.
>heart crushed, what could have been.
>cry inside the limo all night long the night of home coming, limbo driver gives me a hug at the end of the night.
I should stop coming to these threads, they make me more depressed that I should be. Im a recovering addict so life sucks in general. But things are going good, job car place ect. Only thing that sucks is i really want my ex back and havnt gotten pussy in a few months. But seriously all you beta fags living in the basment killing yourself slowlt, to pussy to just get it over with, I was chronically homeless, lived under bridges and shot speedballs and meth, been to jail, have a record, burn a lot of bridges and i managed to pull myself out. And that's the short version.
>>695958781
Goddamit, I-just...
Goddamn.
>>695981937
Be like the dude in Paper Towns. Just stay quiet as possible and eventually some mysterygrill will spark a conversation and you'll slowly John Green into a full relationship.
>>695980741
If you break up it won't be as bad as last time. Go for it
>>695966605
Tell em u need them in ur life again
>>695982558
no, youre muscular, not jacked. I wouldn't be scared by you. Just approach someone and talk to them, find common interests and just go with the flow. Pussy isnt the main point of life, just focus on what you want to do and try to make friends along the way.
>>695978369
What compels people do this kind of stuff? Sounds pretty ridiculous to me, I just don't get it.
>>695962380
It is said: if you want to know a person's true self, give him a mask.
>>695981937
Do you do any activities? Shit like band is an A+ way to make friends. Drama and choir too, but band usually has the most diverse social variety that it's very possible to find a clique within it. Doesn't matter if you don't know shit about music, somebody will be willing to teach you. Doing shit like tuba in marching band is also a good way to show off that /fit/ness.
