Feel thread? Feel thread!
i try my best to help you or just listen to your story
>>695911338
So Op, how do you get over you're ex after 3 years you break up?
>>695912578
do you often think about her?
only the good times?
do you try to get a new gf?
>>695912946
Yeah, quite often
No, only the bad times
Yeah I tried, but I just can't love again in the same way
Fiance is moving out and I've drank every night since finding out she wanted to leave me. It's tough, anons.
It's easier for me to pretend that i'm happy then explain why i'm not.
>>695913870
>>695913522
>tough
Yeah, but it hurts like hell
>>695913605
I knew I shouldn't of open This thread
>>695913257
do you have any female friends?
try to do small steps
go on dates even you're not interest in them
any hobby?
try to do things thats work for your brain
>>695913522
why does she want to leave you?
drinking makes it worse stop immediately before its too late
try to do other things that distract you
>>695913582
don't hide your feelings
that make these things worse
give me some info
a little bit
>>695913605
>>695913870
>>695913954
thanks i like these
i know weird
A lot of people are searching for happiness
They're looking for it
They're trying to find it in someone or something else besides themselves
Thats a fundamental mistake
Happiness is something you are and it comes from the way you think
>>695914284
Constantly fatigued and i have no idea why. Everyone i share this with thinks i'm just lazy.
i almost never leave my home because of how tired i feel.
>>695914284
I have female friends, but they just appear to me like nothing, also some bae to fuck, but It's not what I'm looking for.
They attract me, at least their body.
I have a lot of hobby, and I'm losing myself into, but she just keep coming back.
>>695914617
btw, to avoid confusion. i'm the third.
>>695914617
>i almost never leave my home because of how tired i fee
>i'm just lazy
I know that feel
i don't really want to share about me, i will just bump some feels img, if u guys could post some i appreaciat
>>695914284
She told me "she wasn't a one guy kind of girl". Did the whole "I love you but I'm not in love with you" routine.
>>695914617
>>695915149
are you bored of everything?
all the things that make you laugh in the past are nothing now?
overthinking many things?
for me it's sounds like a depression
any thing happend at some point or just slowly happend?
do thinks that higher your endorphin level
sun
sport
friends
but in small steps
for example go out for a walk for 5 min every evening
>>695914884
can't speak in general but for me it helped to do many things where i have to use my brain till it explode so i have no time to think of "her"
or do the opposite
watch tv/serie play games just do fucking nothing
>>695915276
pic related?!
and to avoid confusion pls link your "post number" so i know to who i am talking
>>695911338
Getting fired from my manager job at a cafe because of a bad yelp review
Feeling shitty as all fuck about it
>>695915711
Yeah, I know, I tryed and I'm still here, at least after crying I will feel a little more usefull for sharing some img here
>>695915545
to be honest thats bullshit
you have to be clear if its your fault or her
in my opinion you only think about her because you need answers
>>695915892
someone scream bait
if not thats nothing you have to feel shitty about
if your manager is this retardet its better your away
>>695916017
if it helps fucking do it
>>695915711
Sure, I'm the king of the party when I want, but after that i just sadness.
How much you have to pretend with people?
How much do you have to change and adapt yourself?
For what? A buch of people who will always look at you and laugh?
>>695915711
I don't think so... i don't enjoy a lot of things but there are a few.
Yeah, i overthink things a lot.
I don't really remember. i guess it just slowly started to happen.
I barely ever interact with people anymore so now i have social anxiety which makes it pretty difficult to go outside as well.
Being away from home for long periods of time, making 2 grand a week. Suddenly everyone eventually forgets about you. When i go home I feel like a stranger. Welcome to reality. Money doesn't bring you happiness.
Dear, Myself.
Everything will be okay. Eventually
>>695911338
woke up today, didnt drink last night. Overwhelming depression for no reason. Struggling to figure out what the fuck to do with my life. Log onto computer, play shitty game and lose. Decide to drink early, not exercise or do anything productive with my life. See so many people in this country Talk shit about Donald Trump, idk if they are trolls or not. Nigel Farage visits RNC, didn't know become happy for the country surprized i didnt see this before. Feel helpless wondering if i am so miserable, how miserable must a person be to vote for Hillary. Many drinks now, becoming enticed to respond to some shitty thread and did. What the fuck, this country is fucked. I can't even get random people on Overwatch to co-operate with the team, let alone wonder how people literally support hillary or black lives matter. Become degerate troll, intentionally feed and tell everyone they suck after consistent losses.
Feel miserable now. Drinking more and now going to attempt to watch entertainment instead of reflecting on shitty life and politics. Why am i not billionare like donald trump?
So there's this girl I like, and I think she likes me back as well, at least partially. I'm able to talk with her about personal stuff, banter, and even cuddle to a degree.
I would have wanted to get her to be my gf but there's one problem - other than me she has at least half a dozen guys which are possibly as close as I am to her, if not more.
In particular, there's this one guy, who is also one of my best friends. I don't think they hang out with each other personally but when all of our group of friends hang out they cuddle with each other constantly.
In the end though he isn't much of an "obstacle" sine I'm pretty sure that if I ask him nice enough he'll steer clear of her (he's one of my best friends, plus he generally is much quicker with the ladies than me).
I think the problem I'm having is not competition, but rather my inability to show sensitivity in public. I have no problem with intimacy in private but in public I'm just not able to. I think this takes root in some deep insecurity I have.
Sorry for the long post, this is less of a feels post but more of asking for advice. What do?
>>695913257
I know how you feel. My fiance dumped me the day after Thanksgiving. I still think about her every damn day. I think she's my soulmate, and don't even want anyone else. It really sucks!
>>695911338
Today I wanted to post a text on a "why didn't you suicide yet? " thread. Thread 404ed before I could post. Wanna read it?
>>695917143
why not?
>>695917034
Yeah but still you have to move on.
My ex became a Suiced Girl, she's now really popluar and have a lot of pics of her naked ecc.
I cry every time I see that, becouse I know that she had so much potential about herself.
In this three years that passed I made a lot of things, i became quite good in my catching my dreams, but still, what's dream without her?
PLEASE link your original post its hard for me to recall oif im talking to 5 different anons
>>695916351
dont adapt ever
it gets worse
as weird as it sound but eventually you lose yourself
try to find someone with the same interest so you dont have to adapt
never change yourself
>>695916364
you you have a chance to talk to a professional?
if so pls do it now till its to late
are you good with your mother or father
just talk with anyone who dont think its just lazyness
bust trust me pls if you dont do anything it gets fucking worse
i was the same and in the end i tried to kill myself
if my mother was 5 minutes later at home i wouldnt talk to you right now
start to do thing that you love in the past but dont set any high goals
even if you try things for an hour or a few minutes
just go higher every day
>>695916559
did you write this?
>>695916793
nice bait
but for people with this problems
concentrate at yourself not the world around you
its bad but true
first yourseld then the other
sorry for late answers
really try to help you and think about your problems
>>695917143
lets hear it, friend
>>695916793
You deserve to feel miserable because you're a crapy human being.
You deserve that unhappiness and you deserve to dwell on it.
You're a disgrace and I am sad we even share the same planet.
I hope you die quick and fade away even quicker.
Feeling really sad today, teacher I really liked left today to go back to Canada. He got me u know, anyway I never really got to say goodbye as when I saw him he was crying and didn't really wanna interfere. I got him a pretty decent gift £75 aftershave and a card but I didn't really get to see whether he liked it or not. Anyway just kinda sad
>>695916463
>>695916637
>>695916718
>>695916772
>>695916846
>>695916931
>>695917002
>>695917045
>>695918187 <is this real? really liked him
thanks for bump
>>695918074
ask for email
he will be happy if you write him
even if its just a "hey how are you, happy to be back in canada?"
>>695917774
>>695916793
im not crappy human being, i always heal or play mercy or lucio or something. People are shitty, they deserve this shit so much. You want to elect Hillary go ahead faggot, but i promise you that this country is doomed. Can't even enjoy competitive online anymore these days. Forum is nothing but trolls, its so confusing because u cant tell who is serious or not. Why not troll and feed games every once in awhile? Spread the hate, fuck this board fuck yourself also there is no reason to not be depressed and mad about the current state of this country, this internet, the gaming culture, even neckbeard guilds and clans have been reduced to degeneracy due to the overwhelming ammount of faggot that has spread around todays youth. Nobody listens anymore, everyones too retarded. It's how you plebs were raised; it's how your faggot parents failed you as a child.,
>>695918472
It's to late, he is gone
>>695917693
I'm the second one.
I'm talking with a professional but it makes me even more tired and i barely ever feel like we make progress.
I'm good with my parents but not really close. My dad has no clue about anything and my mom only barely knows anything..
I'm not sure why but suicide seems so intangible. like something that i'd never do. I'm just scared that one day its going to stop feeling like that. and that it's going to start becoming a real possibility in my mind.
thanks for talking with me it feels really nice to have someone care.
>>695917774
Started talking to her a few weeks ago. Fell hard for her. She is so beautiful and now she's already leaving. Ironically, she wants to join the same branch of the military as me but the odds of us ever really seeing each other again are pretty minimal. She's always so busy too and it's hard to hang out because of that. It's like life gave me a tiny taste of something I've never had before only to take it back and much more along with it. I literally cried myself to sleep because of the overwhelming sense of loneliness that has been plaguing me for a while now. I just wanna see her face a few more times before she goes...
>>695917002
No its fucking not. It hasnt been not proved in humans so stop making up bull-shit, prajeet.
>>695913358
Wow any follow up this just devastated me and that never happens.....the feels are real
>>695918472
Yeah it's real
>>695918735
dat booty tho
>>695918951
It's just a prank bro, why you have to be mad?
>>695919362
Yeah nigger. CTFU! Faggot, get off my \b\,, shitskin.!
>be me
>>695918564
then´just think about the good times and be happy that you found a person where you truly can say he brighten your day
sadly there is nothing else you can do if you cant contact him in any way
>>695918726
do you get any medication?
>talking with a professional
how long?
for me it was more than years after it get better
always feel its worthless
dont think about sucicide at that time
but just to throw everything away and just lay in may bed the whole day
its was like im looking at me in third person
or im a roboter
its hard to describe it
what i want to say
now im feeling better
it was fucking hard but you have to be strong
it takes time
try to find someone else to talk with
not necessary about this but anything else
your favorite game
music
hobbys
>someone care
thats why were are here
i got a person who did this to me
just want to give something back
>>695919239
nice thanks
>>695918951
>>695919362
>>695919440
for me it was like that but not much
it gets warm and your not scared
but not happy tho
>>695919499
nice dubs
>be me
be proud of that
you can be trump
thats worse
>>695917505
Well... tbh I'm thinking about suicide everyday now for almost a year now. What's holding me off is the emptiness I feel. Its not like I'm super sad or lost all hope but I don't feel anything. I just feel empty. That's why I didn't became an hero up till now. Also my family would have a bad reputation if I commit suicide. I don't really care what happens with me but the consequences for my family are kinda harsh. Espacially for my mom and dad. They're paying my uni stuff and I'd like to pay that money back before I die/suicide.
>Why I want to die?
Well I'm single for 2 years now and I don't think I will find my "soul mate". I don't really believe in irrational things like love, destiny or God btw.. Actually I'm fine alone since I'm kinda schizophrenic. My best friend left me hanging after 13 years of bromance for a bitch and 2 faggots. I also lost a very important person in my life on 2014. My grandma died of pancreas cancer. Since it was incurable, her therapy and medication was done at my parents house. That time I also lived there. We accompanied her through her chemos etc for half a year until she died. When she made her last breath I held her hand and felt her warm and soft hands losing their grip. She started to get colder and closed her eyes just in front of me... as I'm writing this I just started to cry. People laugh about rekt threads but death is a really hard thing to deal with. There's also a back story to my grandmas' illness. There was a huge family conflict between my parents and my uncles etc. and we were kinda forbidden to see our grandparents and my mum couldn't visit her own mother. Years passed by and a really good friend of my grandma called as and told us l, that she isn't in a good state. So my parents decided to kidnap her out of the fangs of my uncles. But it was already too late.
>Cont?
>>695919731
dont listen to this kids advice; it has an agenda sadly....
>scan message
>read bottom
be proud of that
you can be trump
thats worse
anti-trump troll
go kill yourself. Baiting people with real problems and trying to put a political twist in all of your answers. Go do something else with your time.
>>695919830
yes
>>695919830
Go for it
>>695920070
wow
nothing else to do?
inb4 answer bait
Sometimes when i'm walking on the street, i just try to figure out ways to die.
Like beeing hit by a car, or killed by a stranger, or anything.
I just want to end it there, I don't care that much about my life, but still living for others who will be sad if I'm gone,
Well, here we go anons, first time posting
Transgirl, family ain't taking it well, Mums just worried it;ll ruin my life and she's worried about my Dad, who's said bluntly that he'll kill himself if I go through with it. I've been sneaking to appointments for a few months but it's gonna go up shit creek soon enough
I've got a bunch of friends I talk to regularly, but they never seem interested in what I do, if I offer a party, or to go grab some food some time, no one bothers, but if someone else bothers everyone jumps at the chance.
To top it all off, depression is hitting hard, been drinking more and more, had a few near breakdowns on the way to and from work, despite the work being totally fine, hell I enjoy it. Used to play a lot of vidya, but now I just sit about doing nothing all day. Suicide has come up more and more in my thoughts but I don't have an easy way to talk to anyone about it.
And I'm alone, not friends wise for the most part, but I've been single for a few years, while people around me are getting married or are just in relationships that are stable, while I've been left behind. Never went beyond making out, hell even one of the more slutty people I know who's into "people like me" isn't interested. I just feel like I'm gonna end up a perma-virgin, and no matter how much I tell myself everyone goes through this shit at different speeds I feel like a fucking retard, even one the biggest man child fat autists I know has fucked someone, but here I am.
I sound like a pathetic faggot, but I guess that's the first step to trying to make things better
>>695919731
I'm the second one.
I've tried medication in the past but haven't really gotten very far.
A couple months... i think. not good with perception of time.
I have friends i talk to but its never in real life. just over skype.
If i get through this i'll carry that torch as well.
>>695920070
People like you who shame legitimate people with real problems that have the courage to talk about them because "they're an edgy teenager" are just disgusting.
This is a fucking feel thread, if you want polishit go on /pol/
>>695914319
This will never work for me but I know the solution
>developed brain damage a few months ago
>symptoms started easing and I seemingly got better
>yesterday they started coming back
>today they are even worse
i thought it was over and now im in fucking hell again. i dont want to go back to living like that, its like being a ghost.
>TFW not depressed, but wanna suicide
Life is just a hassle and there is no reward for it, so why bother eh
>>695920084
>>695919830
But it was already too late. They didn't give her medication for epilepsy, hypertrophy etc. and locked her inside her inside her own house which resulted in her falling into depression. All these doings resulted in her getting cancer. My uncles didn't go with her to hospital or any doctor for years.
I tried to convince my parents to kidnap her for years but they never accepted my idea. Well now my mother is depressed since her death because she didn't help my grandma out in those years of disparity. My grandma was really happy to see our faces and hear our voices after all that torture, but death took her away after 6 months....
after this event our whole family never became the one it was before....
I'm a 4th semester student btw dealing with schizophrenia and depression and an allergy against weed. My ex also left me after my grandma died because I was such a lazy fuck and a depressed slowpoke.
Now 2 years have passed and my mentality didn't really change much. I literally have 0 friends, I'm quitting my uni, everyone hates on me because I have such a dark aura around me, nothing achieved in life except my graduation from school. I don't look bad or anything. When I go to a club girls are coming to me to get my number. When we text or go on a date, they feel that super dark aura and stop dating me or texting. It's every time the same excuse. "It's not that you did anything wrong but you're so frightening", "I don't feel comfortable around you " etc. I never harmed anybody in my life and will never do it. Except my uncle maybe but that's a different story I guess. So yea. That's actually a very very shortened recap of my life- the last 5 years to be precise. Hope anybody feels better or is enjoying reading this.
SN: my first post was copy pasta because I copied the text since its so long. And yes I started crying while writing all this down. The last time I cried was at the funeral of my grandma...
>be me 27
>life has been shit for a long time
>but up until 3 years ago i met a girl, got a house, got a golden retriever
>do tradesman work, carpet, tile, industrial cleaing
>dont make much, but girlfriend has a good job
>life has been great so far
>feels like i am doing something i that gives me purpose
-but then-
>a girl i knew from 6 years ago contacts me
>says she wants a dna test for a kid she had
>she moved off to Kansas years ago
>got married to a guy
>had two more kids
>got divorced
>moved back into my town and now she wants a DNA test
>why god why?
>things were looking up
>now some bitch from my past is coming to try and ruin my life and relationship
can they force a DNA test on me ? or can i just ignore her.
>>695921387
Find someone who is okay with that aura. it'll take a while but it'll happen.
/b/ros,just got back from a shitty night. Basically those only 2 that i consider "friends",are playing the "double-face". Let's call them S and M. Basically what happend
>me,S,M and another 2 wich those were sandniggers got to M house,because they wanted to do crack
>sandniggers pull out macrospic quantity of crack and they start doing it
>S is waiting and watching,while he was last,they did give me literally a piece wich was the size of an 1 month born ant,dived for 4 people,when those 2 sandnigghers did it 2 times
>S standing up preparing to do crack
>while i was getting away to make him space i accidentally choke my foot on the table and the ashes w/ crack on it fall on the table
>i told him that i was sorry and anyway with that quantity the effect are literally zero (never did crack or any other shit,but even a fucking donkey understand it)
>he doesn't get mad but it's literally visible that he wanted to do crack
>we go to bar,and im literally angry for what happend,and because of his reaction
>walk to near park,sandnigghers gone home
>try to explain him
>S play the double face,saying everything is cool,but i told him that im not that fucking stupid
>we walk for another while cuz S wanted an ice cream
>me and M wait outside,and he clearly notes,that IM that one angry atm and S should literally shut the fuck up
>everybody goes home
I literally don't get these people. What's surprising me the most,is that S,always declared to not be a drug addict,while tonight he literally proven the opposite.
On the other side,(the only good thing that did happend)when i got home,my sister told me that a female friend that i know (6y younger while im 23) to say "Say Hi to your brother from me!". She's a solid 8/10,she finds me a funny and mature person,but we're just friends.
What do you do if you still love your High School crush 3 years after graduation...
In freshman year I saw this girl and instantly wanted to know who she was, literally love at first sight. Turned out she liked me too, but within that year neither of us had the balls to talk to each other. Sophomore and Junior year I talked to her, very frequently, you could say I was friendzoned but I never believed in that shit and honestly I liked having her as a friend because it was satisfactory. She didn't like me in the same way anymore so we just remained friends. Being around her just as a friend made me happy, much like your other friends so I figured it must have been just a crush and now we are legitimate friends, woohoo! Fast forward a year, she loses one of her other best friends to drugs (she changed mentally, didn't die) and at this time her and I were at a little discord on some things and she just decided to get rid of me all together. I literally had to beg for her to talk to me again and as soon as this happened. I tried talking to her about what was going on and that if she needed anyone to talk to I was there. Unfortunately this ended up in her just releasing all her pent up rage on me and saying how bad of a person I was when I thought I was her best friend, she brought up the kind of things that you would slap your own mother for bringing up again (Very bad childhood that she knew about). Anyways now it was my turn to dump her and that's what happened, but much worse. I took some of the things she took way too personal, even though they were personal things I chose not to forgive them. Every time she would try talking to me I would deliberately tell her to fuck off and if someone needs help like I offered, I get releasing emotions but those were true thoughts. Fast forward 2 years she has a BF of 1 year so far and they are doing great, and she's happy as can be. I'm continuing this cause it helps.
>>695921648
ignore her, she's just a gold digger, the only way she can try is on court, but she will be to lazy
>>695921763
Finishing to mention that: all of this shit happend cuz M didn't want to trust me and S,cuz we told him that those sandniggers are not to be trusted,because we know them very well. So,we could have got some weed to smoke and be chilling,instead we got a fucking shit night,that probably will have consequences on the relationship between me and those 2 fucking retards
>>695921648
the dog was fucking you gf on a day you came home ?
>>695920368
what do you like about your life?
there have to be at least one thing
>family ain't taking it well
its your life dont let other say what you have to do
how old are you?
>friends
not that are not your friends
find someone with your interest
little story from me
> me at "friends" house
> a few other people
> only know one of them
> drink beer
> They're all talking
> i say something no one listen
> play most of the time on smartphone
later
> hear them talking a few meter away
> "he is realy weird"
> feelsbadman.jpg
> say i go home because i have to do things
> no one reacts
> drink alone at home
today
> ask my "friend" what they do at night (after i went home)
> "drank some beer with friends, you should have come too"
> im nothing
> plan birthday party with a few friends
> first birthday with friends
day before birthday
> ask friends if they come to party
> "of course!"
> feelsgoodman.jpg
birthday
> no one is there
> ask friends where they are
> at the party of "another friends name"
> not my party
> im nothing
>>695920967
can someone please just say something i cant deal with this again i thought it was over
i respond to everyones post all the fucking time i just need everyone to drop the >tfw no gfs for five fucking seconds and say something anything please.
>>695922034
>>695920368
>sucide
please talk to a doc
they really help
try to conentrate on the things you like
hobbys
work
do new things even if its to go to another town
or in the forrest
talk to random people
>single
try to do small steps
go out with people even you dont would get together with
it boost your self esteem and you dont have to worry to put down
>I sound like a pathetic faggot
no
>first step to trying to make things better
it is
never hide your feelings
>>695920556
>'ve tried medication in the past but haven't really gotten very far
thats a thing you have to ask your doc
im not a professional
>just over skype
meet real people
its not the same
people need some RL connection
>>695921387
Just hang in there man things get better
>>695922034
>>695922193
sorry meant for you
>>695920463
cry
>>695922079
Wish i knew what to say or how to help.
But i don't.
>>695922381
no one ever does. last time this happened i lost my best friend. and i just dont want this to happen again. its like being a retarded ghost. you know theres something you're supposed to understand but you cant. i dont know how to run a fucking business when im like this but i know my boss would never fire me.
>>695922079
Link your steam account
>>695921683
Easier said than done. Even if I find that person in my life, what would change? I'd still be a depressed fuck and would make my partner depressed as well. That's just wrong in so many ways. I would destroy another persons' life. I just feel like misplaced on earth. It's like I'm not human at all. Have you ever felt true emptiness? Have you ever felt like an empty bottle? You feel indifferent to everything. I can put up my mask and act out everything cool. For instance with my uni "friends". But I just don't feel anything towards them. If they would die I wouldn't care and if they won the lottery I wouldn't care. I'm like a fucking robot with no emotions and no human trace inside me. Rationalism is the only way of thinking for me because it's the only 1 that works for me.
>>695922523
what? i dont play video games except for with friends.
>>695921387
Try to move foward it's hard but I'm sure your granma really love that shit you and your parent did for her, I understand you all are depress for losing her, but you did the right thing and she would love to see all of you smiling again.
love you /b/ro, sorry for my english but I don't write that much and I'm tired
>>695922193
i'm the second one.
I'm gonna go to sleep.
Thank you for talking with me
it really helps
>>695922563
>easier said than done
wiht the possible exception of breathing, everything is easier said then done. never say that ever again.
as for the rest of your post, i agree with the idea, but not the sentiment.
a woman wouldnt fix your problems. but you can.
but you dont want to hear that part im sure.
>>695921849
she took the other two guys into court she had kids with.
So IDK...
>>695922653
no problem /b/ro
please be strong
if i can you it you can do it too and can help someone in the future
good night
>>695914136
i know this. and decided to live my life on my own.
>>695917023
Be clear with her and stop being a beta fag. If it's any consolation, it sounds like all the other guys are her beta fags as well. Invite her to have dinner with her one night. If she says no, back away. A few weeks go by, invite her to dinner again. If she says no, back completely away. If she's close with you, she'll ask why. Tell her you think she's amazing and beautiful and want to have dinner with her and see where things go. If she says no...tell her you're not interested in anything else, and you hope you hear from her. Stop eating out of her hand, dude. Behave like you give a damn about yourself and don't let women walk all over you.
I need to tell someone about this
>be me, today, working in summer camp kitchen
>have underage gf, we started dating when I was underage b&
>see a like 14 year old girl that is literally the most perfect girl I have ever seen while serving
>Fucking scene girl but beautiful hair face was literally flawless had a pretty voice and body was young but full of potential and obviously going to be amazing
>literally could not help but looking every chance I had
>made eye contact and she had the cutest shy smile
> always tell my gf she is the most beautiful girl in the world and up until this day I have always believed it
Why the fuck am I obsessed with a 14 year old girl I will never know or have a chance to be with when I already have an amazing gf/ b/ I want this to stop
>>695921791
Someone I talk to is her co-worker and brings up the fact that she seems very independent and really does not let people into her inner circle anymore, she loves the friends she currently has. He said that one conversation they had she seemed very passionate about saying "Her current friends are the only ones she needs because they are the ones that haven't left her over the years" along those lines. I know these details cause it happened recently. Coming up on that 3rd year after graduation her current BF and her are almost going on 2 years and since I left her life shes been doing great. As much as it puts a smile on my face to see her happy, the fact I'm not part of it reduces it tenfold. I realized after I fucked up too hard and it was too late that it wasn't just a crush, I didn't like this person that much for no reason, it was legitimate love. 7 years into my 21 year life I've spent loving exclusively this girl, literally not even batting an eye towards another. Of course I find other girls physically attractive and hook up once in a while but honestly at this point it doesn't feel worth it.
Fuck it, I never post in these kind of threads since I find it somewhat pathetic to contribute, but since I'm. Little drunk here goes.
>mom died due to respiratory problems
>never met her so not much feels there..
>separated from my only sibling
>grew up with peasant foster parents in the middle of nowhere
>eventually decide to grow a pair and travel
>out of nowhere I run into my sister
>she was living with dad at the time
>sisters kind of bossy
>father is abusive as fuck
>wants me to partner with him at his shitty government job
> you probably figured out where this is going so why make the effort.
See you on Reddit
>>695922734
It will take years, just go on with your life
She's looking for money
>>695922324
I still like my vidya, the friends who do talk to me properly are cool, and where I work is actually pretty sweet pay and coworker wise, so that's all good, I'm 18 btw, nearly 19
My friends aren't as bad as that, if we're at a party together it's all good it's just organising is the hard part, people will drop shit for others, but even if I give warning waaay ahead of it no one bothers.
I don't think I'd ever do it, no easy way too here plus I'd hurt a lot of people, but getting away would be hard, I live with my parents for now, moving back for uni in about a month but I have to explain where I'm going whenever I leave, and keep getting shit from my mum about what I'm doing.
I think tbh on the single front, it's kinda pointless for the next month, unless I can hookup with someone, issue is travel to somewhere decent for drinking is nigh on impossible, as is bringing someone home, and tinders a shit show
Thanks for helping anon, but it feels like even with the good stuff the bads weighing heavy on me right now
>>695922199
checked
If things would've gotten better I wouldn't be lurking around here, right? Tbh I'm a newfag since nothing changed in life and I heard on /b/ are some people like me. Lurking here for 1 year and started to post for 2 months to kill some time.
>>695922734
you shouldnt have sticked your dick into her in the first place. nothing good comes out of woman except for screams.
I've always been alone.
It's hard to explain. I've had friends, family that gives a shit about me. I just never feel that they really care about me. That they're simply interacting with me because they're expected to. That they would be wrong if they didn't.
I've had girlfriends. It just never seemed like they were really into it. Like they were dating me because I was available and they had to keep up with their friends.
I don't know if I've ever felt love, or genuine concern.
I've thought about killing myself. I just never feel as if I'll be able to. I think about how people would react to my passing. Would they be happy? Would they cry? I'd love to know the answer. I'll just never get the chance.
My dad died when I was about 9, and even though I've grown up a lot, overcame a lot of hardship, and had some meaningful successes since then, I still feel fucked up in a lot of ways.
I so desperately want a man to hold me because I can't fucking remember my dad doing it. He's so blurry and hazy in my mind now. I feel like life cheated me in taking him away.
Luckily, at this point I've come to the realization that I'm gay, and that the trauma of my dad's death influenced that to some degree. I'm going to start having loads of sex, hoping that I can feel some semblance of a father-son connection. I'm lonely. Fuck.
>>695911338
I haven't washed my last pair of jeans in two weeks because I'm afraid they'll rip just like all the others did due to my recent weight gain.
my birthday is on sunday and were supposed to go play laser tag tomorrow to celebrate but i just want to cancel and fucking sleep forever.
i cant deal with the brain damage coming back. i just fucking cant.
>>695922869
Thanks, I'll take this into mind.
>>695922631
Thank you mate. Your post made me actually cry again. Fml. I don't know what's wrong with me today. I didn't cry for 2 years and now twice in 1 day. Wanna kms. I'm such a weak faggot
>>695923255
daddy issues here too. lucky enough to have a platonic father figure in my life thats kinda erased my needs for a dad sex partner.
now i just fugg qt twinks
>>695923255
see? this is what will happen if you're raised by woman. a weak pussy
>be me
>have a mother who couldn't give a shit about you, your brother or your sister.
>a big investigation happens
>they find out your mother is neglectful
>be taken to live with your father
>be in a abusive home for about a decade, honestly consider suicide and attempt it a couple times
>hate life
>another court thing happens after you go to school with red marks around your neck
>go through a entire year of investigation be sent to live with your mother and new step father
>funny thing is your step father was also a janitor at that school
>he's a very nice man
>your brother becomes a drug addict
>deal with it
>life is slightly better, but not that much
Thoughts?
>>695923022
lol she actually told me this,
" i dont want your money, i make good money, i just want to know whose child he is, he asked me the other day why he doesnt go visit his daddy when his sisters go visit their's and it broke my heart, so now i need to know "
>>695923693
consider suicide
Anyone else still waiting?
>>695922686
I'm trying to fix it but that resulted in my getting schizophrenic... that's why I gave up on it. Nobody really understands me. I had my best friend I could talk to but you know what happened and my family is already fucked as it is now. No need to fuel the fire.
>but you don't want to hear that part
I'm not an ignorant fuck. I know that I'm the problem but It seems like impossible for me to find a solution. That's why I gave up and just stuck with breathing.
>>695911338
Thanks OP for your advice i ended all the img so I'm going to sleep, nice travel
>>695924173
>nobody understands me
you sure? i have legitimate fucking brain damage, but someone was kind enough to actually respond to your posts.
>>695911338
Been flaking on my friend a lot lately. I withdraw when I fee stressed or shitty, and I don't have to words to explain to him that I just need to be alone to sort myself out.
I think it hurts his feelings and I feel bad about it, which makes me want to be alone more.
I need to find better ways to get this out of my system than drinking on my couch all day and blowing people off, but I can't think of anything else to do.
>>695923883
Be cAreful with that edge
>>695914617
Sounds like legit depression. See a psychiatrist. Seriously. It's not laziness.
>>695920967
>yesterday they started coming back
any reason?
medication?
can you talk to someone in RL about this?
>>695921763
>>695921875
will try to help you but need some time for reading
>>695922987
>father is abusive as fuck
can you help your sister in any way
>wants me to partner with him at his shitty government job
1. say no
you dont have to do this
2. say yes
be in contact to help your sister
>>695923084
>no one bothers
did you try to talk with them
maybe they dont know that this bothers you
>getting away would be hard
was an example
sometimes its the small things
like go to random playces you never saw in your town
>uni
try to conentrate on this
be strong
if you finish this and get enough money move out
>single
you have time for that later
if you need someone now try to get "some feelings" from friends
for me it helped if i go out with friends so i dont feel alone
>Thanks for helping anon, but it feels like even with the good stuff the bads weighing heavy on me right now
to be honest theres not much you can do about now
but if you go your way there will be a time were everything gets better
i know its tough but its worth
>>695915711
This picture gets me incredibly fucking infuriated. I cant even finish it. My parents don't give a fuck about my feelings they just want me to be proactive because doing nothing is getting nothing done.
>>695918735
>>695922079
We are all reading bro you are not alone
>>695924527
>any reason
dunno. i had half a beer on tuesday and it started getting fuzzier since then, but i had heavier drinks in between the brain damage and that beer with no issue.
>medication
nope
>can you talk to soemoen in RL about this
calling my doctor three days straight. wont call me back.
tried talking to my mom
>you're putting me in a mood
>sorry if my brain damage put you in a mood
>you know thats not what i meant
>>695923730
it's up to you anon, if you want to see that kid go, but nothing good will come out of her, maybe just out of that kid
>>695923455
Don't kill yourself, I don't belive in the world after dead, but if it's real you don't want to go there and see your granma sad because you comite suicide, don't kill yourself, smile and live a happy and long life and in the end of your days if that world is real and if you see your granma look at her eyes, smile and say "I did it, I was happy down there, I made it, for you granma, sorry for be late, but now I'm with you, love u"
>>695916772
Was waiting for the last line as soon as he mentioned 2am, knew exactly what he meant.
>>695924350
I appreciate all the responses I get. 1 post made me cry. It's not like people understand my situation. It's more about the feeling/non feeling I carry with me. I don't think there many people out there in the same spot as me. I just wanted to share my story with you guys. I don't post because I needed pity. I just posted here because there are some people here who got fucked from life in their asses.
>tfw you go to wash your hands and realize you bought soap that smells like her hair.
>Feels too Strong
Man i really cant get over 1 person, i wish i could, but even as i am typing this i miss her, and i feel like i Will never feel her warm hug around me. Even thinking about that makes me feel sad.
And Has anyone seen "Enter the void" really weird Movie, kind of undertone depressing for the other half of the movie
>>695916846
The first 3 lines triggers me
I hate I actually just used that word describing how I feel, yet it's true. I am that clown
>>695925096
Btw try to cry more often, tears help to calm the mind, I wasn't able to cry for years, even when my uncle died, and it feels fucking terrible
>>695921763
stop doing drugs
i had these "friends"
in my opinion durgs are more important to them then anything else or they will be such a person i the future
>>695924531
>doing nothing is getting nothing done
sorry but thats true
do you really do nothing or do you things that your parent dont approve?
>>695924691
>dunno
try to find the reason
>medication/doc
try another one
this seems very bad
>mom/you know thats not what i meant
maybe its hard for her too
sometimes people get angry because they cant do anything to help you
any other you can talk to?
>>695925096
Dude... you're way too positive man. If you're the sun then I'm the bottom corner of our universe. Wish I could be more like you.
>>695925459
I know the feel, everyday i feel like shit, but i cant cry anymore, because im too used to the daily misery, i usually Just walk to store and Look around me, and feel like shit.
Just need to vent. pretty drunk right now. feel like a failure. I was set up to fail by my own family. Work 50 hours a week for shit pay and barely scraping by. famil doesn't speak to me. nobody calls to ask how im doing. nobody ever wnts to hang. feeling like I should end it all.
>>695925459
Yea I lost a shit ton of relatives in the past 2 years. I was on 7 funerals in a time span of 4 months and I didn't drop a single tear for them. I kinda felt dead inside but also miserable because I wasn't showing my sadness.
Construction has been going on outside my place for so long now. I am so sick of hearing the trucks and that FUCKING BEEPING.
BEEP BEEP BEPP BEEP BEEP BEEEEPEPEPPEEPP
I AM GOING TO FUCKING SHOOT EVERYONE THERE
I'm pretty sure my asshole of a dad has anger issues, sometimes he comes home pissed off for no reason, when he opens the door he doesn't say hello, he doesn't kiss his wife after not seeing her for an entire work day, he looks around to see if there's anything wrong with what we are doing and gives everyone shit for any little thing he can find and pisses everyone off
Story time bitches
> be me
> couple years back I was 16
> dad comes home pissed off as usual
> sees there's nothing wrong
> comes and looks at me to see if he ca n bitch and complain about something
> decides to go for the "you've been playing too long" topic
> he's standing there screaming at me and since I'm used to it I just say OK I'll get off soon
> not good enough.jpg
> screams at me some more
> he sees he's just being a nucense and family is staring at him like a physco
> speeds off into his room and shuts off cable and wifi
> fucks me over
> fucks grandparents and mother watching TV
> fucks over brother
> I go to the room to ask him why he did that
> everyone's listening
> tells me I've been playing for too long and I need to go do something productive
> mfw middle of summer break
> mfw no one and nothing to do anything with for miles
> keeps screaming at me for more nonesense
> after really heated argument he tells me, I disconnected the PC from the router
> disconnected cable
> disconnected sim card from phone
> had enough.jpg
> tell himmoff on how he's been a piece of shit all my life and how he pisses everyone off
> storm into room
> rest of the summer sleeping in bed doing nothing
> absolutely no connection with Internet for months
> got a job a couple months after that
> buy my own phone
> my own wifi network
Been doing this for a couple years now
We almost never talk, gonna move out of this shithole if he doesn't get his shit together.
What should I do
>>695922079
How does the damage make you feel how could you tell it was going away and how can you tell it's comming back ......no sarcasm genuenly interested
Does anyone go to sleep and when you wake up still disappointed you're still here?
>I do.
>>695925529
I only did smoke weed,nothing else,and i assure you 200% that im not addicted in anyway. It is I,that i don't understand how other people cannot self-control in front of "drugs". S and M only do other drugs occasionally from what im hearing to them. (something like 6 times a year)
>>695917578
That sucks man I'm sorry. I don't think I'll ever find someone else, but rather just be alone from now on. At least on the bright side I ended up with our dog. Silver linings, right?
>she's always there.
>you could always talk to her.
>maybe, you think, something can be salvaged.
>but you must realize there was nothing to begin with.
>you were merely a tool.
>you outlived your use.
>she tried her best to let you know this.
>the last thing she ever sent you was a picture of her and him kissing.
>the man that was always there.
>better than you.
>you were a sidepiece.
>you were and are nothing to her.
>she was your everything.
>you could ruin her life with the dirt you have
>but you cannot bring yourself to do it.
>despite everything,
>you love her too much.
>even though the feelings were all fake,
>yours were always genuine.
>>695926186
I go to sleep with your mom, and feel disappointed
>>695926279
Imagine how she feels.
>>695926279
>congrats
You got AIDS
>>695926194
dogs are friends forever
>>695926435
She didnt feel a thing.
Not depressed here, just sad. How the world has really just gone to shit recently.
I believe that wonder of being a child and growing up oblivious to real problems has finally full worn off.
Seriously though.
It's everyday that there's some shoring in Europe
America has the problem with gun control, corrupt law enforcement and its presidential campaign.
The Middle East is utter shit.
Putin and Russia.
Britain leaving the EU.
North Korea.
Nukes
Death
Destruction.
Does the future get better 4chan?
>>695926547
She's an awesome dog too. I technically rescued her, but it's more like she rescued me.
>>695926212
>but it's okay.
>you realize you have something better, now.
>you have someone better.
>someone who loves you.
>all your quirks,
>your flaws, your mistakes,
>she loves it all.
>she sees herself in you.
>she wants to be there, in your life.
>she understands every bit of what happened in the past
>because it happened to her too.
>even though the pain never goes away
>you know that you are truly blessed.
>she loves you, and you love her.
>you just wish she was still alive today.
>>695926720
Everything decays anon, it's the law of the world.
>>695921387
sorry that i dont answer you
do you need some advice?
im not a professional but i do what i could to help you
>>695925968
there have to be a reason
find the reason to get a solution
>>695926192
>cannot self-control
most people cant do this
im was like you
only smoke weed and only if i have time for that
friends start with other drugs
gets worse
>what im hearing to them
same
then i hear more and more
they do to much to the "passed out" state
i dont know them so i cant say much sorry
>>695926212
>yours were always genuine
stop that
its bad but the truth
first you than all the other
thats how the world works
try to find other people
there will be a time where you dont think of her anymore
do you have anything to distract you from thinking of her?
>>695925529
>try to find the reason
im regretting insisting on getting a response now. you win.
>try another one
i can but i cant really just call other neurologists at 5pm on a frida.y if mine wont answer why wont anyone else? yes long term, sure, but for the immediacy of trying to stop this, im fucked.
>maybe its hard for her too
im sorry if my brain damage is hard for her. im sorry if my brain damage puts her in a mood.
i get it, its tough, preaching the brain damaged fucking choir. when she tried to kill herself, i was the one who talked her through and out of it. when i get brain damage
>you're putting me in a mood.
fuck it.
>other people you can talk to
i talk to my boss about it but it circles the drain. my dad never called me the first time it happened not expecting anything this time.
doctor finally answered. was surprised to elarn he told me to just 'go home and wait' last time.
>>695926764
This is mine, he's quite old, but still the best friend so far
>>695926010
the main thing is like a cloud. its like theres a part of my brain tahts covered in a cloud and i cant thinkg thorugh it, all the thoughts come out distorted you understand that these two things are supposed to connect but you cant quite figure out how, and it keeps spinning around and you're like 'why?'
then theres the dizziness which i have now but its minor and the doctor keeps saying 'JUST DONT STRESS OUT' and though theres lots of treatments just told you to go home and fucking wait.
i can tell its coming back as soon as i started the dizziness, its peculiar type of dizzy namely this weird thing where my eyes arent seeing everything they should
>>695925575
I'm everything but positive, I hate myself every fucking day, everyday I feel useless, I feel that the only thing that keep me here is my little brother, because if I die my father will make my brother's life a fucking hell, I'm here to be my brother shield, some "friends" are always telling me their problems, but never ask me how I'm doing, everyday is a fucking hell for me, but not for my brother, that little faggot is the real sun, buy for him and for the other people that count on me for their problems I need to smile and move foward, for my brother, for that people, for you little faggot, try to smile, even when the tears are all over your eyes, because if you don't do it, no one is going to do it for you
Love you
>>695913582
yeah hiding feelings, especially from yourself, can lead to things like depersonalization
>>695925968
Just move out. I have a similar experience with both my parents.
>>695925968
> Move out of this shithole
If not, wait until college and he probably will pay for it to get you out of the house
>>695927077
That's a cute pupper! Mine is only like a year and a half old. Her name is Grace. I'm not sure what breed she is, but I think mostly coonhound.
>>695911338
I can't stop fucking cups of jello not even trolling Like I need to fuck it at lest 5 times a day
>>695922832
I kind of just accepted it. I'm not a person who has a lot of friends. Sure, I've had my share of gfs and one night flings, but nothing compares to having a true friend. Someone you could immediately go to comfort for if your mom died. Nah, I don't have those relationships. At best I'm an acquaintance to most. It's fucking sad, but I've come to accept it. There's something beautiful about know yourself and being your only friend.
>>695926919
Do you distract yourself with stuff to forget the problems?
>>695927209
I really want too but part time job does not pay nearly enough
>>695927475
I feel your pain.
>>695927475
What line of work are you in, anon?
>>695926947
>try to find the reason
but doing nothing doesnt help you
you want things to change? than do something
i know its fucking hard
> im fucked
yeah mean for long term
your right sorry
>im sorry if my brain damage puts her in a mood
i know its not your fault
but have in mind that maybe she has it as hard as you
talk with her about this exact thing
she doesnt want to hurt you
say something like
i know its hard for you two but we both have to be strong
inb4 cheesy
>other people you can talk to
friends are better
someone who maybe know what shit you go through
>>695926934
Sharing is caring. I just uploaded to contribute. If I need help? Hell yeah! Will it help though? No, not really. I'm just waiting for the reaper to knock on my door.
>>695927285
Mine have like 15 or 16, he's name is Jolly and he's a bastard, like John No nothing Snow, but he's the boss of the house
>>695927673
I'm a chasier at a restaurant, $10/hour
>>695927370
Not really, I just live small scale and in the now.
For me it's liberating knowing that it all goes away eventually, gives you the freedom to do what you'd like.
If I'm going to go in the ground without question, why would I concern myself and live my life worrying about wars too big for me to fight?
Feels thread? My gf got shot in MUNICH TODAY and IM IN FUCKING RAGE!
Already written my story in the last thread but it helps me so im gonna write it again
>21 y/o virgin
> Afraid of people,can't talk with them
>been nolifing for 5 years
>Decided to leave from that shit
>Had no experience with girls
>Met a girl who splitted up with her boyfriend
>Been doing everything to make her feel better
>Fell in love but she feels nothing to me
>Being friend for her who listens even about her period
>Got stoned cuz of her many times
>Think about her every fucking day,every fucking hour
>Got into friendzone
>I know it not gonna work and that kills me
>Have nobody to live for
>Have no reasons to live
>Don't understand that fucking world
>Will have to get back to nolifing and fapping
>At least I tried
>>695928144
Paperwork, counting money, that type of shit
>>695927853
>doing nothing doesnt help you
im aware, but its not like you can find the answers by sufing the net on the weekend. no neurologists are seeing people on weekends outside of emergencies. im being referred to a doctor i can see next week.
its not about hard or easy, its about the literal inability to do something right now. its not liek manning up and talking to the chick or telling your dad how you feel or whatever problem. the doctor keeps insisting its stress and i can do more tests, but in the now of this fucking ewekend i cant do shit.
>yeah mean for long term
i know. thanks for pep talking me, but i know, im not sitting here like 'whelp got brain damage guess its permanent'
>has it as hard as you
gonna go with no.
>friends are better
i have two friends, or had. one stopped talking to me last time i got brain damage. the other one says 'you'll be fine, HURR DURR SUICIDE SQUAD'. didnt bother bothering him with it today, his girlfriends in the hospital wiht some stomcah virus.
im thinking of just going to my boss' and watching TV. theres nothing to do here tonight.
>>695928319
Is she alive?
>>695928020
Aren't all dogs bastards? Do people have dog weddings? Grace is a big baby. She weighs 65 pounds, but wants to be carried all the time.
Went to an optician last week for a check up on my eyes. Got told i should see an eye specialist.
Went to the eye specialist this morning.
>Anon, I can't confirm it, but you might got cancer in your left eye..
>wat?
I don't know what to think?
>>695928360
Nearly the same. I had a good social life, kissed and fucked a girl but I feel empty without her.
I libe trough every day without knowing what will be in my future.
I just cried
>>695928383
Cool. That's not bad. I was a waiter for years. I got an associate's degree in computer drafting like six years ago. I make 19$ an hour now. I really like it, but I'm still depressed from missing my ex.
>>695923693
When you brought up your brother I felt bad. My older brother is now a heroin addict. His first child was taken because he was born addicted to opiates. His girlfriend is a whore who got him stabbed in the fucking neck a year ago. I saw the guy that basically was my role model all through elementary school and middle school breathing through a fucking tube. It kills me to see his life spiral down. I want to call him, but he doesnt have a job so he doesnt have a phone. I have no idea if my bro is dead in some
>>695928797
Feels bad anon, we both feel like shit don't we
>>695924052
Everyday without a goal or something to achieve.
At least I got many people who care about me. They keep me alive
>>695928693
If my doctor said "you might got cancer " i'd find me a new fucking specialist because clearly the one I'm seeing is retarded.
>>695927127
Thanks mate for that speech. In my very first comment I told, that I'm living for my familys' sake. Another loss would probably finish all of us. Other than my family there's nothing left in my life. I'm smiling everyday I to the faces of my flatmates but I know it's 100% fake.
You know, what's funny? A few years ago I finished a smiling/laughing contest on 2nd place. Pretty ironic that someone like me wins that contest. I can smile as much as I want and act as much as I want. As soon as I enter my private area my inner person takes over. It's like a switch, I don't have control over.
>be 18 4 years ago
>meet qt and move in with her
>have a blast doing drugs, going on adventures and fucking for 4 years
>she comes into a lot of money
>convinces me to quit my job and go to college
>okay.jpg
>she cheats on me 4 months later
>confused cause she's pretty much supporting me but she fucked me over
>break up with her
>can't afford school
>don't have a job
>move back in with my parents at 22
>crippling alcoholic
>crippling depression
>want to kill myself
>too scared
>too depressed and anxious to get out of bed
>need to find a job soon, but too depressed to care
Should I kill myself /b/?
>>695918473
You mention how nobody listens anymore and that's exactly the problem that you are attributing to by being as ignorant as you are. Remove your ego for 3 seconds and re read your own comment. You think your problems in Overwatch are as relevant as Hilary and Trump, I think you just need to get gud, that's your problem friend. That's why you aren't getting better, you already think you are the best
>>695913358
no way is this real pls don't let it be real
>>695928556
There are also race dog
I don't know, but find it quite funny, at least I laugh at something here
He's like, i don't know, this picture is old and I'm not in the mood, but he have some heart problem right now, and I'm scared like hell about him, more than my fucking life.
Take me and safe this fucking dog
>>695928946
Yeah. I really want some weed. I haven't smoked since like October because I take Suboxone and the I'd get in trouble with the dr if I was positive for anything I'm not prescribed. Weed would totally cheer me up.
>>695927127
Forgot to mention. You got my mad respect, that you're fighting for your bro. Stay strong and be an idol for your bro, since your father seems like an asshole. You honestly deserve more in life for being so strong. I don't k is If I could be that strong.
>>695929247
No. I'm the guy who just had his fiance leave him and I'm also a crippling alcoholic. Don't take the cowards way out....it'll get better.
>>695929283
How long have you had him? I got Grace with my fiance in February 2015. She had a Facebook friends that was gonna take her to the shelter, so we took her instead.
>>695913582
This is a great quote and it's the same for me.
>>695911338
>broke up with gf of 5+ years roughly 1.5 years ago
>a couple of weeks after she left me, I found out she was pregnant.
>on father's day (weekend).
>offer to get back together for the baby (I wasn't wanting to break up anyway.)
>she says not just no, but would rather stay single for the rest of her life than date me again.
>a week before my birthday she has an abortion; and she's already dating other guys.
>texts me happy birthday that year, tie up loose ends.
>a whole year passes with no contact.
>spent months just fucked up emotionally. >Can't do drugs or drink because reasons or allergic so bear it all sober.
>a year goes by, feeling alright again, found a suicidal girl I helped out of a rough spot, I was there myself not too long ago, least I could is do what I can.
>as this type of story goes, I fell for her, and thankfully she seems to be doing better now.
>ex texts me on birthday, nothing much but any reminder of her is enough for the mind to go back into "wat. why." mode.
Fucking hell, I was doing good too... aemotionally, at least. Well, better anyway. Her birthday is coming up in a month. Can someone tell me to continue not giving a fuck or to be bitter or anything and just not text her anything?
>>695929209
Perhaps, but not much can be done at this time. He kept taking pictures and scanning my eyes.
He believes that it's probably a temporal macula (blood mass) in my eye, but as he said, he wants me to come by each year from now on.
but shit, I didn't see that coming.
>>695927997
>Will it help though? No
your right with this in mind you dont get better
do small steps
get professional help
i know everyone say this but for me it really helped
>>695928319
bait oder ist das dein ernst?
>>695928360
>21 y/o virgin
not old
you have enough time
> Afraid of people,can't talk with them
do small steps
even its a hello or thank you when you buy a coffee
>Have nobody to live for
try to find friends with the same interest
>nolifing
start with small things and do more and more
find new playces you never visit
>At least I tried
be strong
sometimes you have to get trough this shit to get better
i know its hard but fucking worth
>>695928515
>i cant do shit
i can only say be strong sorry
>gonna go with no
>when she tried to kill herself
thought your braindamage/bad mood was a reason too
>>695928515
>friends
doesnt sound like good friends
maybe try to find someone with similar problem?
>im thinking of just going to my boss' and watching TV. theres nothing to do here tonight.
have fun /b/ro
i hope you the best
good luck
I've felt empty throughout my whole life, every single thing that I've achieved that was supposed to make me happier hasn't actually changed anything at all.
I used to be overweight when I was younger, and I felt completely ashamed and depressed due to it, but I started working all my way up to fixing it only to find that it wasn't actually the cause of my sadness.
After that I thought that maybe I could work hard on something else to keep my mind busy so I wouldn't have time to think about my depression, I started studying more and I graduated with the best academic results of my school. Guess what? Nothing changed.
I started to face my social anxiety and made new friends and spent a lot of time with them, I pretended to have fun, but actually I didn't, everything was still the same and it didn't matter how hard I worked on something, I'd never feel happy about it.
My last hope is that perhaps one day I'll meet someone who can actually make me happy for once in my lifetime, but I'm afraid that it might end up being the same way as everything else, I'll still feel sad and won't know how to change my mind towards something that could make me feel better about myself.
>>695929517
Has it gotten better? I can't stop thinking about what she did. I thought she was better than that. I knew she was better than that. It feels like in can't trust anybody. My parents hate me cause I'm an adult without a job and I'm not going to school. I feel like absolute garbage as soon as I wake up.
>>695929705
since 2003-2004
he went from one family to another, and no one took care of him, then I just lost a dog who saved my life and another one that run away.. so i took him.
Play with her, take her out, do stuff together because you will see that she's you're best frined and will always be there for you
>>695923385
Maybe some distraction is just what you need
>>695929944
Double checked.
I can't get professional help because of my parents... don't ask why. It's just the way it is. I wouldn't mind to see a doctor but it's impossible.
>>695930156
thank you. maybe. i dont think im gonna cancel unless its so bad i cant stand tomorrow. well see. just tahnk you.
>>695929516
Nah, he is not such an asshole, the problem is he is dipolar and his mind is fucked, I don't blame him is not his fault
>>695928319
Go troll somewhere else.
>>695929964
>My last hope is that perhaps one day I'll meet someone who can actually make me happy for once in my lifetime
It's the only reason that has kept me for taking my own life. It's fucking scary to think that we sort of feel the same way.
I also changed a lot of thing about myself, for the better, but I still feel the same.
>>695929944
>she tried to kill herself
and when i did i was a dutiful son and helped her through it. now said son has brain damage and all she can say is
'you're putting me in a mood'
fuck it, im done thinking about her before me.
>>695913358
Oh my fucking God i'm in tears
>>695929964
Sounds like a chemical imbalance to me. I know it's the last thing you want to hear, but some peoples brains are just wired wrong. You have no reason to be depressed. Prescription medication can actually help if it's a chemical imbalance.
>>695916931
I dont even have friends online
>>695930066
It has gotten somewhat better. I'm starting to come to terms with it, which has me optimistic. However, it was bad for the first few weeks. I mean I still drink, but 5 drinks a night has turned into 3.
>>695929964
How old are you? You have kinda the same problem as me.
If you're interested feel free to read
>>695917143
Click yourself through. You know how if you're not a total newfag.
>>695930624
you're here, and /b/ is like a family full of shit, so you have friends m8
>>695929742
>Can someone tell me to continue not giving a fuck
you have to do the step
if you search for a confirmation you doing it wrong
>>695930258
>can't get professional help
at least find someonte you can talk to please
>>695930535
its bad but the truth
first you than all the other
thats how the world works
>helped her through it
thats very nice most people wont do this
i wish i could do more
try to be strong /b/ro
>>695930136
I was more of a cat person before Grace came along, but I really love her. Taking care of her really helps me too, just like the routine of taking her out and getting ready for work and stuff. Sometimes I wonder if my ex ever misses me or even thinks about me. Or if she ever misses or thinks about Grace. It's ironic, we got her from someone who was a couple that broke up and my ex said at the time that she'd never get rid of her if we broke up. My ex said a lot of things that turned out to not be true.
I always hate summer vacation. It's just two months of being alone for me. Barely anyone ever wants to go out of their way to hangout or talk with me, even the girl I'd say I'm closest with barely talks to me now. It's been weeks of this boring cycle and most of the time I'm just waiting to go back to sleep, I can't even get a job because of an injury I got earlier on. At school it at least forces people to interact with me, which is why I'm going for a 5th year
I usually just lurk but I'm feeling pretty shitty tonight
>>695913358
this is heartbreaking. Going through this with my kids and their mom right now.
>>695930379
Yea psychological problems are really hard to deal with for both sides.
>>695913870
this one hit me hard. I apply to way too much of these, I really need help.
>>695930876
I'm currently 18 years old, I know most of you would tell me that I'm too young to feel this way or whatever, but I can't remember the last time that I was actually happy, and it doesn't matter how hard I work towards something, I won't feel satisfied
>>695911338
Went to uni for molecular biology hoping to be a technician.
Found out you can't do shit unless you get a PhD. so I applied. Didn't get accepted.
Now doing BLET to become a police officer because I'm so insanely in debt.
Never really felt depressed. Starting to now.
>>695930902
Words are words, and action are action, you took her and know she's yours.
I think that you find a better girl that your ex, and if she don't write you or come to visit her she don't care, and never will.
But you have a Grace in your life
>>695913605
omfg....
>>695931060
Stay strong, it will pass, just don't hide what you feel and don't be scared of crying.
Also tell me more
>>695931164
About?
>>695931243
Her name is pretty fitting for the situation, huh?
>>695930892
I guess that works just fine
>>695925529
>>695924531
I don't do nothing. I read a lot of online articles about many different things. Lots of vidya for sure but not as much as they think. Every single family meeting it's always one of them that 'jokingly' brings up the amount i play video games taht goes on for an hour. By doing nothing they mean nothing necessarily by choice. I pay sports and work out but exclusively that. I don't go out and talk to people because I really hate a lot of people. Call it selfish or ignorant but I truly think 90% of the people I'm surrounded by are dumb and I jsut don't want ot be around them. I'm perfectly happy with the people I meet online and through my sports practices/games. I play Rugby and Hockey every week and Work out everyday but other than that I'm a hermit. Take my word for it that the things they say and their own motivations are extremely irrational. I have severe depression and the only thing my Doctor said I didn't max out on the test he gave me was my apparent self-awareness of suicide. I truly don't think I'll commit suicide but he doesn't want to test that potential lie i'm telling myself
>>695931523
Yeah, like mine, he's my last chance in this life, he's the "Jolly" card.
>>695930896
Did you read my posts? I don't have anybody left who I call a friend. They either died, moved away, left me hanging or whatever thefuck. That's also one of the reasons I got schizophrenic...
>>695931683
here is the same sorrow, so just wirte down, someone will write back
>>695931774
Nice. How did he save your life?
>>695931498
not really sure what you're asking, but i'll go ahead and explain my story.
Truth is, i'm way too fucking sensitive and thin-skinned. I'm never able to defend myself and I always take things the wrong way and start crying. I would go back to my therapist but I honestly feel like that would make things worse and be admitting defeat. I'd rather not go into anymore detail, but thanks for reading.
>>695931201
Well since puberty isn't over yet I wouldn't give up yet. If your problems are still the same when you're 21 get professional help. As >>695930621 explained it. It seems like a forced depression. A chemical imbalance in your brain. It has got nothing to do with you. It's just like a malfunctioning of an organ.
>>695932095
He was always there, when I was alone, when I was afraid and also when I was happy and I didn't care much about him. He was there. Always.
Isn't that enogh?
>>695925968
to be honest your father sounds a lot like my father but your father is purposely trying to do this shit. My dad seems to mentally not understand why we get mad at him getting mad at us. I want to kill him and myself.
>>695931060
long and short
>mom has perosnality disorder
>literally doesnt even comprehend when she is being psycho
>ruined everything for last 10 years
>kids having real issues forgiving her
>she threatens suicide a few times to me
i dont know how much longer i can deal with the guilt train.
>Lotta feels on here
>here's my story
>>695927116
Out of curiosity, what is defined as brain damage because you just described my fucking life for the past 8 months. My doctor doesn't understand what is wrong, now im pissed.
>>695930876
I've read your posts, we do have a similar problem, but I've never thought about killing myself, I'm just empty and frustrated because I can't seem to fix it no matter how hard I try, perhaps one day I'll get tired too
>>695911338
im in love with her. we worked together for 3 years already. but just over the last 4 months we got to know each other a little better, been talking a lot. phone calls of 6 hours at night... she has a boyfriend. but he is a complete asshole. she loves him tho... shes dumb. and i fell in love... because she blew me... twice. and kissed me occasionally... but were just friends. she likes me. but she wont ever love me. thats for sure... i dont even think we could get along in a relationship. but i love her anyway. sucks... and i dont know what to do. i want to fuck her so bad... and she says she thinks sex would be great. but it will never happen... damn... its always fucking complicated when i fall in love.
>>695932132
Sometimes losing a fight is better then losing a war. Try to understand what you want in your life and if you need someones help ask.
Who cares if they laugh, you are not doing that for them.
>>695932471
no
leave that part out - you can tell her she is the reason for you living each day to its fullest but dont guilt her
Best friend of 6 years randomly stopped talking to me 2 years ago, still hurts. Still don't understand why.
>>695925274
was waiting for him to hold backspace and type the backwards smiley face. That backwards smiley face always tells you something is up.
>>695932612
thanks so much anon. that really helped.
>>695931753
to be honest there isnt much you can do right now
do your best and try to ignore the things they say
concentrate on what you like and if you have enough money move out
>>695931821
i know but there people
try to find them
there have to be someone with the same interest or hobbys
thats a good start
>>695931753
>>695931821
sorry but have to go
im too fucking drunk now and have to think about some things berfore my head explode
OP HERE>>695911338
im the guy with the "tldr" post who try to help most of you
why am i saying this
am i proud of this?
no
just want to say be strong anons
if someone really need help
PLEASE help
at least try and listen to them
as you i saw no solution
fuck i even tried to kill myself
but the fight was worth it
i wouldnt write this and be here if there wasnt "this one person" who helped me through some shit in the past
i wish you all good luck in the future
be strong
good night /b/ros
>pic
some good/sad story
worth the reading
>>695932285
Yeah for sure. When I think back now it makes me feel really bad because of the times when after she dumped me I'd go back to our apartment and pretty much ignore Grace because I just wanted to see Tori. Even though Grace was actually happy I was there, and Tori didn't care. She wasn't even grateful at all that i was still paying for the apartment for her and her mom and brother to have a place to live.
>>695932422
First, where do you live, what country?
Second, does she has some friends?
>>695911338
https://youtu.be/wrCRSzg76qI
>>695932482
brain damage is any done to the brain. minei s brain stem related, but ends up efefcting the rest.
if ur able to drive, you're probably fine. just being on the bus made me sick, couldnt eat more than half a cup of greenbeans, and i needed head support a lot of the day, even walking down the hall id trip a lot.
out of the week there'd be maybe ten minutes where i didnt seem to ahve dizziness, and thats it. mornings were easier but by afternoon i might not be able to get home without a ride cuz the 9 minute walk was too much
>>695932484
You know I'm just considering it because my life starts to annoy me. The fact that I'm still here means I'm not making the mistake or get weak. The thing with us 2 is, that it doesn't matter for us if we die or not. We have have nothing to win because we don't feel anything positive, but we nothing to lose as well since everything's shit anyways. So why even commiting suicide? Being alive or being dead doesn't make a real difference anymore.
>>695913358
Faggot deserved it, had a caring mom, shit on her.
Hope he killed himself too.
>>695929742
Don't get me wrong, you love her and thats that. Tell her to stop texting you and that its for the better of you. She said she wouldn't ever get back with you and that should mean that. Tell her that if she really wanted to tie up loose ends she wont speak with you ever again. If she ever texts you again it's cause you know shes fucking with you. If you think you two are ever geting back together off a text, think again fam. She aborted your fucking baby before your birthday and bothered to text you on that day, when she knew you loved her... why would she do that. Shes a cold hearted bitch.
>>695933210
This
>>695932849
woman sometimes are like that, they don't care about things that you care the most and you have to pretend to care about shits that they care.
It's life.
I'm sick and tired of their shit and I bacome a hater, but right now I'm chilling down, I want to focus much more on myself... But tomorrow I will go to a festival and see her again... and my dog will be here, at home... I don't even want to go there, but a lot of people are waiting for me because I'm the "jester", just like my dog is Jolly
>>695912362
>>695913522
Count yourself lucky you didn't get married first anon. This is a blessing in disguise.
>>695933375
To add onto this but the trick to not being angry or bitter anymore is to just get so angry or bitter in one go you can't even feel it anymore for that person. It works with me all the time. Get really angry and punch a brick wall. If you break your hand remember when you go to the hospital remember to say you also hit your head so you go to the front of the line.
>>695933168
Exactly, that's why I'd rather keep waiting, if nobody appears or nothing happens, everything will remain the same, but perhaps there's a slight chance for something positive to happen eventually, and maybe our patiencw will be worth eventually
>>695911338
I feel great.
Just came back from having a few rounds of beer with old friends, and before that I was out in the cabin with my dad on an island an hour away by boat. My kids loved it. Summer is over soon, and it's the first summer in many years where I'm sad to see it go. We've been fishing, we've been hiking. The kids (and I) have learned a lot about picking mushrooms, we picked berries and we caught and studied strange insects.
Life's great anon. Savor it.
>>695913358
This was actually really sad.
Ever since i broke up with my ex ive been boning too many girls. I got chlamydia from one of them, and yesterday night while this girl crawled on top of me i had to tell her we couldn't have sex because my dick is infected.
>>695933555
checked
Life is so much easier when you just decide to kill yourself. All the worries and pains just melt away when the end is in sight.
>>695933460
I haven't seen my ex since like February. I've just been focusing on work myself. I definitely don't have much of a social life. I feel like just empty inside.
>>695933507
It's everytime those small things in life... that one little chance to maybe find someone to be your savior. It sounds so stupid and impossible, that it's actually quite exciting to wait for that moment.
>>695933850
I don't know what to do with my life, and I'm always going to check her on face and stuff.
I really should stop doing that.
Why you feel empty?
>>695932928
Yea, it's deffinately not to that degree but when you mentioned the tunnel vision and incomplete thoughts those were red lights. So many times (at least 1 time per conversation) I COMPLETELY lose track of waht I was saying or even the topic of the conversation
>>695911338
I don't fit in any where. Otherwise, I'm successful. The only conclusion I can come to is that my personality is just shit.
I don't feel as if I can join in these threads...
>great family
>few really good friends, alot of casual friends
>getting closer with crush
>no illness, good education, not ugly
I just feel like there's something missing. Since my first "love" feeling, nothing was ever the same... it was still one sided. Though I feel ashamed of wanting more because people have it so much worse than me. One part of me is happy, other is just confused.
>>695914617
I've slept all last night, and most of today. I am always tired, my head hurts, my heart hurts, and I am just done. I don't want to ask for help anymore, I've tried, they told me to do it myself, these fucking hypocrites. It hurts so much when it's just you in the world. I am going to kill myself soon, probably next month. I used to think about what would happen after I died, now I am just looking forward to the nothing. I don't care what happens.
>>695934098
I thought had everything planned out. I thought we were gonna get married and have kids and everything. I thought we'd be together the rest of our lives. I thought she loved me as much as I love her. I just feel so hopeless now.
>>695934310
that was me when i was in recovery mode. was forgetting everything. thankfully my boss gives zero fucks so its been a non issue returning to work. honestly even when it looked like the brain damage might not let up he was determined to keep me there.
>>695933555
Deserves the Double Triple for being good dad. Please don't ever, for the love of fucking christ, change
>>695934085
Indeed, just remember, the only way to preserve those small odds of finally changing our mind is to keep alive, even though it may seem almost impossible, it's not entirely impossible.
>>695934359
Saying you can't be sad because someone has it worse is like saying you can't be happy because others have it better.
What is your feeling though, is it existential?
ALSO someone make and link a new thread b4 this 404s
>>695934405
I know, but she wasn't the one, don't worry, you still have time you just need to go for a walk with Grace
>>695934098
If this thread 404's and you want to talk more my email is [email protected] it's been cool talking to you.
>>695934359
Telling someone not to feel bad because others have it worse is like someone telling you not to be happy because others have it better. Robin Williams had all the money and support he could have had in the world but it gets to the best of us, even our role models (tearing up a bit).... It's ok to feel like somethings missing and I feel like with you it's not that something is missing, you are just used to having every hole filled, lol, holes filled. You are in a rut, go out and do random new shit. Something I saw on reddit is to watch Yes Man. That movie truly changed me and anyone feeling down needs to see it.
I'm looking for a girl but it seems no matter what I do I can't find one. I like to think I'm confident. I getc nervous approaching girls but I still end up asking them for their number or whatever. I also feel like I act like a stereotypical nice guy. I know girls don't reject me because I'm nice though so maybe I'm not too far gone. I've also always felt like getting a girl is my only way to be happy. I guess what I'm asking is how do I get a girl? Or hiw can I just be happy without one
