Feels thread anyone? Tell us whats wrong anon
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Feels thread anyone?
Tell us whats wrong anon
A few days have gone by with minimal sleep, my body always feels tired and I can't seem to ever fall asleep at a decent hour. Insomnia has gotten the best of me and my anxiety is spiking because of it..
>>695134937
That sounds like how my girlfriend is. She lives kinda far away and i really wish i could be there for her more
Feel like I can never find happiness and I've had suicidal thoughts for months
>>695134937
Bump for OP's good intentions.
>>695135224
When you live with your girlfriend of 3 years and she can't stand your fucking guts anymore. I think being separated makes you love the person more because you're not seeing each other every day. I think the spark died in our relationship and we're standing on a sinking ship.
Bump
>>695136300
Im sorry anon. One thing thats helped me is just moving on. Honestly dont dwell on the past. Dont think about all the stupid stuff or things you have done. There will be others.
>>695135261
Welcome to the club.
Existential crises happen to me on a daily basis, the tedium of work home school is more of a chore than anything else.. I'm reaching wits end.
I got laid at age 16 and haven't been laid since. I went bald at age 17.
I feel as though my partner deserves more than me. they deserve so much more and it breaks my heart to see them settle for something less
i just want them to be happy
>>695136300
You're situation sounds similar to mine. My high school sweetheart and I have a 3yr old son and we've been together for over 7 years. I don't even know how it got to this part. I am literally texting her right now because she ignores my calls, begging her to tell me what has gone wrong or what I need to do and she is ignoring me. I feel like I am less than nothing. I don't know what to do and it all just hurts so much. I held my son for the first time in weeks this morning and he was so happy to see me and I almost cried
>>695134538
all my good friends are heroin junkies now. have no one to talk to. getting evicted from my house at the end of the month. got nothing but a laptop and 4 changes of clothes. feelsbadman
>Father constantly reminds me in not good at things
>Points out and exaggerates all of my flaws
>Asks me why I don't go out with people
>>695137999
Op here
My best friend from my childhood became a druggie. We were the best of friends. We hung out almost every single day. We had so much fun together and were even fwb. Then he started smoking pot. I smoked with him and it was fine. Then he would go to parties and do harder things. Then he moved to his moms house because she gave him anything he wanted. Thats why i hate drugs so much. They ruined my friend
> Nearly died a few years ago by gas explosion.
> Cried like a little bitch for about an hour afterwards realising how real and unexpected death can be.
> Try to make the most of life from then on.
> Realise death is inevitable and everything I have and do is temporary.
> It doesn't matter if anyone remembers me, because I won't be able to know.
> Stop trying to succeed academically.
> Moved out of mum's place and now basically do whatever/ get high.
> Nothing to 'live for' but no real reason to become an hero either.
> tl;dr self-aware waster edgelord who needs to get over the fact that life is pain.
>>695139700
Same here, but I take comfort in it, like watching rats in a maze but they speak and tell you if you don't start running you will never reach the goal.
I simply say fuck the goal I'm happy doing what I do.
>>695134538
Listening to that album right now, flatsound: sleep
It's pretty good
>>695138975
You sure ya ain't sad cause he found something he prefers over you?
>>695140303
It's good when I feel down but sometimes I realise that there ARE things I want to, and that I have been wasting my time. Then I remember my goals are impossible anyway.
>>695140651
I mean if it was something else it would be fine. If he suddenly loved video games more than anything and we didnt hang as much it would be cool. But he started doing something that actually kills people. He has done heroine and coke.
>>695134538
I don't particularly like being alive anymore.
Which leads me to the inevitable logical question: Why keep doing it?
21 kissless virgin, 187lb/ 5.9ft, ugly as fuck, no confidence nor self-esteem
haven't spoken with anyone in the last 2 months and it doesnt seem that it will improve
everyone around me are having sex, traveling and i just sit in my room listening music and lurking 4chan even though that usually am a (kinda) funny person and people hang a little with me in collegue (medicine) no one talks with me outside of it and am too afraid/shy to start a conversation or even having a conversation with a girl outside academic things and much less invite her out
sorry if there is any misspelling, latin/coffe-bro here
>>695141199
Just keep finding things you enjoy till you hate them, then find something else.
>>695140760
Then the problem is you and you can change that, if you want to do something go do it really is that simple, if you can't seem to muster the will to do so then the issue really is that the drive you have to obtain this is being diminished by your reluctance to do so.
>>695139700
Sounds like PTSD, course I could just be talking out my ass.
Im lonely. So, so lonely.
>>695141705
Shit wrong picture.
>>695141789
I'm here Anon
>>695141433
There really isn't anything anymore.
I haven't felt joy in a time frame measured in years at this point.
I don't have anything I enjoy. Just a collection of things I do. Hell, I don't even really taste food anymore.
>>695141041
You equate the use of drugs with his death.
You fear losing him yet you let him go anyway cause he wants drugs more, but you still tear yourself about this, your problem is you can't decide now your left watching it unfold and are growing more anxious as time passes.
>>695142119
I havent talked to him in like 2 years. And im one of those people who lets people do what they want. I really dont give a fuck about my feelings so long that others are happy
My ex is infiltrating my old friend group, whom I've left behind for my own reasons. He has hit me up a few times the past month asking me to be friends and saying that he would have married me and that he loves me when it's an obvious grab at trying to get pussy.
I went through a lot of shit with deaths in the family and personal health issues, and he was never there.
I don't want to be angry but I am.
>>695142008
I would suggest doing something abnormal, truly freakish to your nature and see if your heart beats again.
Btw Not talking about killing dogs and wearing their skins, you know your own line!
>>695142336
Then why does he concern you?
>>695138748
Have you ever thought that just maybe he may have some valid points when pointing out some of your flaws and wants you to work on them? Not necessarily siding against you, but is he coming off as a dick? Maybe he wants you to improve on yourself as a person because he cares, I dunno.
Haven't had a dad in 16 years. I guess that's how I'd look at it.
I haven't eaten anything today and I've slept for almost two days straight. No one has talked to me except for two people who only come to me when they need something. I feel empty. I have no one to talk to except for people I don't know on a fucking imageboard because this is how desperate for attention I've become. I'm so sick of being alone even though I try my hardest to do stuff with others. I'm just ignored or excluded.
>>695139700
You sound attractive
Earlier I acted on impulse to speak with a girl who's backstory related to mine by impossible odds. It went very well, and I need to stop psyching myself out. I always do better unimpeded. Still, a lot of the details surrounding the situation are deeply unsettling, even though she's a really cool chick. I think I'm going to be confronted with a very tough choice soon, especially because my mind has been syncing up with various peculiar circumstances that revolve around recall. Even now I feel possessed, because I was too slow to pick up. Wtf.
Anyway, that sent me into a very minor panic attack. That world is pretty frightening, but what if things go well with chicks, not that she will be, but what if she ends up being perfect then bam, I'm forced to choice between that and the equivalent of leaving the Matrix.
Man, I've been slowly losing it here recently.
>>695141678
I agree, but there are some things you cannot change.
I'm reluctant because whenever I get the drive to do something I'm met with disappointment.
Any time I have had any real aspirations I just get frustrated and don't stick at it.
I realise this is also a personal failing that can be changed, but I just don't see perseverance as being worth it.
>>695142607
What are your hobbies and Interests?
All these people talking about their female problems and im sitting here not being able to relate, had one girlfriend my entire life and it didnt last 2 weeks.
>>695142673
Actually made me do that shitty exhaling through my nose laugh, thanks
>>695142607
That last sentence. I can relate :(
>>695142671
Is that a hint of sarcasm?
>>695143102
at least you had 1 gf
>>695142673
I needed that. Thanks, anon.
i just wanna do this
>>695142384
> tell him he's a jackass for not being there
> call him out for just wanting pussy
> give zero fucks
> do something fun to get your mind off the anger
>be me
>21
>parents divorced at 7
>mom died at 9
>bounced around family because no one wanted to take care of me
>dads a drug addict and alcoholic
>dont even know the meaning of happiness
>get sent to boarding school because family hates me
>come back to live with evil grandmother
>meet my otp in school
>grandma kicks me out
>forced to live with shitty father
>constant yelling and death threats
>finally get sick of his shit and hit him
>break his jaw
>kickoutagain.jpeg
>move in with fat ugly gf
>break up because she's abusive
>move back in with father
>awkward af
>move out when i get enough money from shit job
>spend my days playing video games and watching anime because its the only thing that keeps me sane
>fat
>no friends
>family hates me
>have suicidal thoughts daily for years now
>have a big dick but no self confidence so i only go after fat chicks
>meet current gf
>she "loves me"
>cheats on me the week after saying that
>still with her because i dont want to be alone
>too much of a fuckup to even kill myself. Tried 5 times 2 should have suceeded
>tldr fuck my life
>>695142825
Of course your met with disappointment life is full of that.
Your goals should have road blocks and everyone should tell you will fail, cause when you work through it you and succeed you have achieved nothing.
The journey to the goal is the real object if your not willing to take that your not willing to take anything.
Your looking at life as if your missing something cause you don't have your "Goal" obtained yet, when you need to realise that each step you take towards it is what you will find some comfort and value in.
>>695143189
Sometimes I wish I never dated my now-ex.
I didnt have this crippling loneliness before her.
If youre all under 25. Only focus on you. If you do that the girls will come. Its nothing to bitch about. Im 33. Had one 10 year relationship and a few crap ones. But shez still the only one that matters. Ive been single for a year. Working on my addictions. It gets harder so plan your shits. And after taking them dont wallow in them.
>>695141826
It's bless, fam.
>>695142865
Cooking, occasional reading, tending an herb garden, and playing video games.
>>695134538
I am terrible at writing, but I decided to start writing one about my life and the current situation im in. Here is the intro.
It was July 2016 and I was sitting in the back seat of my car near a park in San Francisco. The weather has been near perfect, high 60s and sunny. Its nearing the late afternoon and the fog can be seen rolling in the distance over the hill. All I could think of are the decisions I have made since I turned 30 that led me to this point in life.
It took some thoughtful consideration and balancing of all the consequences to come to this point. At almost a year after I made the decision to create a new lifestyle that spends more time outside and is removed from the rat race, I find that I still haven’t reached my goal. The only real accomplishment has been made is that I reduced my expenses to an extremely low level. This was at the cost of my relationship with someone I had true feelings for. It was to the point that I would have spent the rest of my life with her, but there were issues. We needed things from each other that the other couldn’t or wouldn’t provide.
She wanted someone that can provide the socially normal American dream. A true in spirit marriage that provides love and companionship until death. This wasn’t news to me, she wanted this since day one even before we got together. There was also the desire to have children, something that was even more important than the marriage.
I wanted someone that had alternative desires in life. One that is filled with seeing new sights and adventure. One that has the no restrictions and is capable of taking any opportunity that life offers. Another important aspect is a healthy lifestyle, which includes both diet and fitness.
Despite my desires, I never wanted to end things or create any ill will. I wanted to give her the opportunity to decide for herself what she valued and work towards. In the end she made a choice that didn’t align with my own, and it hurt.
>>695142551
I was replying to that other guys post about his friends leaving for heroine
>>695143500
its not as great as you think. it will end eventually. it always will. no matter how absolutely perfect it could seem in the beginning, it can and will fade away into nothing. all love is fleeting and anyone who tells you otherwise is lying.
I've been feeling happy lately, but I know my depression is still there under all the medication and it's going to come back soon enough like always, and I'm going to lose all of my supportive friends and family who will become irritated with having to listen to my suicidal thoughts.
>>695143768
Where are you from? I think I've of someone similar? Does your name start with an B, D or G?
>>695143919
Thats cool, I share most of your interests and many people do, if you really want to turn these into a social thing for you then seek classes or groups that share your interest in atleast you have then a common interest a starting point to discuss and learn more about someone else.
Don't go to them in mind of making friends but being who you are and showing them you have interests, be polite and mildly open (No I dont talk to people) just talk to them mundane chatter leads to people talking more openly.
>>695142384
We were together for almost 5 yrs. We broke up in Oct then started seeing each other again. I asked him to hang out on Valentine's day and he reluctantly said yes. We went to my friends house to drink and I looked at his texts. Some girl hit him up about vday and he said he "had plans with some friends but if they fell through hed hit her up".
I couldn't get a straight answer regarding whether or not we were a couple. So I stopped having sex with him when we hung out. He tried shoving his dick down my throat while I was asleep and that was it for me.
A month later my dog died. He meant everything to me. The night before I invited him to see him one last time, he never came or responded. When he found out on Facebook he posted all sorts of shit about him. I text him a few weeks later just wanting to talk about my dog. I said "things have been really hard since everything" and the ex thought I was talking about him and I. He said that I'm making it harder and it's like we have to break up every other week. I clarified it was about my dog and he said oh, we can talk about him.
Now I suppose he realizes he won't be able to do much better and is trying to come see me to pick up his belongings and "catch up". I told him absolutely not.
Idk I'm trying not to be upset or sad but it's hard.
>>695143789
What I mean is that I can't imagine that there is anything to 'achieve'.
Once you die whatever you did is gone.
>>695143829
Same here. I couldnt get girls and i started finding them on omegle text chat and talking to them. They would always friend zone me and i felt like shit because when they stopped talking to me i realized how alone i was.
>>695144196
Are you not OP?
>>695144625
I am op
>>695144343
Florida and no
>>695143576
I did and I'm trying but it's difficult.
I'm a herion addict, recently got clean. So much wreckage in my past. Hard to find joy in anything and no love in my life. Still better than sleepin under a bridge, but still feels bad man
>>695143829
Yeah, I can relate.
>>695143500
Checked. It honestly is one of the most comforting feelings you can experience if it's from that one person you live the most, but once you lose it, and lose it for good... it destroys you. You will never be the same person after that kind of loss.
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>>695144597
So are you not alive now.
Life is short, death is endless the only meaningful things you can do are in life, they have meaning because of death.
People equate the fact that they will soon die as meaning that all they could ever do is pointless.
My life is the same but I find comfort in helping others through it, they might find joy only for a second as my words turn to ash, but atleast I brought them that second of joy and I know I left this world having added to it as a collective.
I'm not asking you to become the best at something or change the world just keep searching and trying and try to find something that brings you even the briefest of joy and to cherish that.
>>695134538
FLATSOUND my nigga, you got some sweet taste
>>695144914
Well, best of luck to you, anon :)
Just try to remember that letting him alter your emotions will only bring you down. If you're truly over him, his words and actions should pass right through you.
>>695144741
Im so confused
My posts are
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>>695135261
You let others dictate the world to you, you feel like nothing you have or ever do will have value?
>>695142706
Don't mean to sound rude, but what the heck are you on about?
Not understanding your post one bit.
>>695145352
I always do.
That feeling is all there is to live for.
Thank you, Anon.
>>695134937
fuck me
been like three weeks of shit sleep
its like i need to change everything
finished my 4th year of college as a computer engineer, going into my 5th and likely last. I didn't know how to balance the long distance relationship I was in for the first 3 years which ultimately ended. As such, I poured too much of me into that relationship (and ignoring depression or whatever you want to call it) and ended up not doing college things like fuck around and make awesome friends. I'm not really an autist or anti-social by any means, but I feel like at this point people my year don't really look to meet new people, as they already did all that shit their first two years. Spent 4th year fucking around thinking I wasn't gonna date. Ended up dating. Wish I didn't but not the end of the world.
I also looked for internships late (a must for my major and what I want to do while I'm in college) and didn't get any of the ones I applied to for the summer. I have no real applicable programming experience so I'm trying to man up and finally git gud.
But I haven't really tried. I'm a waste with no job and my parents are probably only tolerating it because of the depression fiasco I went through at the end of my third year.
Trying to get /fit/, trying to sleep better (succeeding so far) and then gotta force myself to do programming shit so I'm not useless.
Also sort of want to reconnect with hometown friends while I'm here, but maybe we're all just meant to go our separate ways at this point.
I frequently need to actively tell myself not to crash my car while I'm driving.
I was more emo and angsty about this at one point but I guess now I'm just tired. I want to put behind this part of my life I've felt like I've wasted and maybe I'll just make up for everything after college--socially, fitness-wise, career.
I'm tired of being empty, feeling useless, and being alone, but maybe that's exactly what I need to push through and experience to grow the fuck up.
>>695145998
You brought warmth to me tonight and I thank you for this.
I like the way I am. Neurotic, obnoxious, awkward with a bit of self esteem issues, anxious, loud mouthed and otherwise intolerable.
I would of improved myself a long time ago if I really wanted to. I could of walked out of my college with an associates degree instead of smoking pot with my best friend. I could of got a better job but I fucked up the interview. It's always that with me.. "I could have done it"
The only thing I should add at the end of "I could of, but I didn't because I'm a coward too afraid to grow up.
>>695136300
Shit man this is exactly my problem right now. I'm in the same fucking boat anon.
We've been on a "break" for like a month and a half now. We still see eachother here and there and act like a couple but it feels like she doesn't want this relationship, like im just dragging her down. She told me straight up the other day "I don't know what I want".
She says she's Content with the way things are and this break is going to help us. I want to believe it will but the pessimist in me begs to differ.
I mean I've been trying to be more positive lately, I've had a few good days lately but I always think she'd be better off without me.
>>695146282
Grow up with me anon, it ain't too late
>>695134538
"Happiness" or "being high" isn't the object of living. Get outside of yourself, and stop catering to your ego & your own desires. Helping others is where life's meaning exists. I'm 50, and just earned a teaching credential. Stop making it about you, and help someone. It will bring your life's purpose into focus, and you'll stop wanting to die and/or take drugs.
>>695146282
Your not afraid to grow up, you just truly feel that their is no value in these things, then find what you do value, even if its sitting in a room and smoking pot with your friend atleast it makes you happy.
And if that makes you happy then you will do what it takes to be able to do so even if that means a dead end shitty low wage job, because the job isn't what makes you happy its being able to do what you want that makes you happy.
Not everyone finds happiness in work and you already have one of the most powerful things, your proud of what and who you are, your problem is you just haven't found what in life makes you happy.
>>695144807
damn, if you were local, maybe i could give you a place since i need a (sad) roomie
>>695146765
Literal oldfag
Slightly off-topic: can anyone recommend a good feels playlist? Preferably one on Spotify?
I feels hungry.
>>695146832
Living with my cheating gf so no worries.
>>695146909
Thank you my friend, many think we are cruel we are just who we are if you want help just reach out a hand to us, but we will still call you a faggot.
>>695145984
It's okay. The way I think is very abstract and personal because I'm slightly autistic, so that makes it even more difficult to communicate with the average person.
To sum it up as crudely as possible, imagine you met someone by impossible odds, clicked on every level, became deeply enamoured, only to have the Devil meet you in a month with a ticket into another dimension saying "Me" or "Her."
>>695146194
and I should stop posting in these godforsaken threads. It's great that we're all here and supportive and shit but I think for me, being self indulgent in feeling sorry for myself and searching for sympathy is exactly what I don't need. I know we don't need to go at life alone, but I think I need to learn to stand on my own two feet, without a cushion to fall back on.
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>>695138975
My posts are all these
>>695145625
I've been losing pieces to my Ashura Temple
>>695147108
That makes more sense.
But what is that devil? A career path that may tear you two apart?
>>695147073
yeah but thats not a good home man, especially considering how she doesnt think fondly of you
>>695142384
why would you care if he wants your pussy
>>695147181
Your almost there, nothing wrong with sharing, nothing wrong with feeling you fucked up and there is nothing wrong with falling on your ass.
Having a cushion can help you, what your talking about is having a safety net, with bungie cords to slow your fall so you don't hurt yourself you just need to get out there and do what you got to do and if you fall and hurt yourself get back up on your feet but it helps if you have a friend willing to pull you up again.
>>695147454
No one does or ever will. Ibe come to terms with that. My otp was my one shot at happiness but my gf kicked me out and i moved 8 hours away. She's married to some military fuck now and loves in south Carolina
>>695134538
That image is dumb OP.
it should say
> how can you expect to find something worth waking up for, when you sleep all day
I'm having a hard time right now, everyone at home expect me to get married and have a normal life, I managed to get a decent job somehow but I still have to deal with SA, the last time I ever talked to a girl my age was 6 years ago, I wish my mom and dad stop pressuring me to get married, my co-workers also make fun of me and call me gay, even my boss said I'm kind of weird for not dating anyone, this society makes me sick even more.
>>695147300
Ahh im truly sorry I've re-read them and I made a mistake.
I'm trying to go out and get over things but no one will go with me.
>>695147728
Grandma* tired af but no sleep as usual
>>695147439
>A career path
Odd terminology. It could be seen that way, but a new way of life that I'm fascinated by.
Good night, anons. Hope you all have a great day tomorrow. We're going to make it guys.
>>695134538
flatsound sucks. dandelion hands is better.
>>695147728
if she's married to some military fuck now then she wasn't the right one for you
I mean just me personally I don't think there's ever really "one right person" for all of us. I think finding the ideal partner--soul mate is what people say--is more about building a relationship than it is finding one if you catch my drift
>>695147828
If you don't see value in changing these things then why do you care what they think, you don't need social acceptance to find love nor happiness.
My GF's ex messaged her today asking how she's been. she always says how he was an arsehole and regrets even dating him. I asked her if she was going to ignore him and she said 'if its a convo i will but not if its important idk'. I asked how it could possibly be important, to which she replied 'idk'. I'm not sure how to interpret this and her reaction. also would it seem untrustworthy if i asked her if she ignored? i'd be annoyed if she replied. She's claiming she only replied to make sure nothing was wrong and then ignored. Not sure how to handle it but I'm not happy about it
I saw a beautiful girl in a dream I had once
Taller than me, long brown hair, sort of slender
I remember us getting separated in a crowd
I couldn't find her
I couldn't fucking find that girl in the crowd
I just kept running around looking for her
I cried when I woke up. What kind of connection did I have with this girl I'd never seen? What could've been so bad about being separated? So bad that I was still crying when I woke?
>>695147793
And thus the cycle begins
>>695147845
Its all good
>>695148000
Checked. But i was gone never moved back and we stopped talking because it was too painful for me. She married i dont blame her for that just wish it had been me
>>695147846
Holy crap. This.
>>695147728
Geez, anon, you're placing yourself at a dead-end if you think like that. I suggest you thinl of her as a...less-than-good "friend" and sorta cut most of the romantic stuff. Improve with her on mutual terms and it'll help somewhat. Relationships take work to build and sometimes some ships just aren't meant to sail or poorly built. Like a puncture in the hull or something.
> 35 yrs old
> Social anxiety
> made fun of my whole life
> I am slow witted and weird accent
> I have chronic migraines
> inherited 2million dollars
> Married to chronically ill girl
> She probably doesn't have much longer to live
> She in hospital
> I never see her
> 8 years married
> I cheated on her multiple times
> tired of sex
> don't care about money
> shit post on 4chan all day
> What is life for anons?
>>695147846
Because you're a mopey bitch who expects everyone to carry them, when their busy making themselves happy to take the pressure off of others.
>>695148433
We havent talked in over a year. Im sure she's forgotten all about me
To they people relating and metaphorically holding your hand or feeding you excuses in this thread fuck off. I understand ligitimate depression, but see a therapist and get on meds. Life fucking sucks yeah, but there's also so much beauty. Get up and do shit, go on walks, go to a rock climbing gym or a real gym, go play pool, meet new ppl. If it's crazy hard for you get laid go do things you like to do and you will meet likeminded girls. Or just get on dating apps, mad desperate girls there. If your only minorly depressed just go sit outside you lazy fuck, sunlight is proven to help. Sitting in your own shit and missery will make anyone depressed, you gotta try new shit or just get out and do what you like to do, and more than likely if you just do that you will feel better and make friends and probably make a girl. If you want to kill yourself and are thinking about trying go out and do crazy stupid fun shit, talk to people, drive fast, just be reckless, worst that happens is you die or go to jail which you were going to die anyways.
>>695148597
Sure thing dude you know me all to well. Or you're just projecting too hard.
My vote is on the second.
>>695148170
bumping
>>695136300
If you're still together and you love her.. Sit her down and ask her what's really wrong and what "we" can do to fix it.
>>695148482
Give me 100k and ill show you
I'm super self conscious about my body. I have a super high metabolism so i can't get any fat. Sounds great but it's a double edged sword because I cant retain muscle mass. So i'm a skellie. Get made fun of multiple times from people for being skinny and not strong.
>>695149246
give you my last bit of hope on earth to buy comfort? No thanks.
>>695148170
Don't handle it. She's your partner not your kid. If you want to know anything about how she feels then ask her. If you aren't used to being direct with her then your relationship will be based on detours.
High school junior. GPA is less than 2.0 because I got so depressed I gave up on school. Marching band was the only thing keeping me happy. Got kicked out because of my GPA. Made a huge effort to fix my shit second semester, but ultimately couldn't raise it because of a programming class. Try going back to band, everything seems great, until I audition for the band I got kicked out of, and don't make it. Now I can't even go back because I owe them too much money, and even if I managed to pay it off, I still couldn't march because of my GPA. I don't have anything to be happy about anymore.
>>695148170
Could be that, while the dude was an asshole, there's cause for your GF to be concerned for his well being. I'm talking like suicidal or potentially harmful to others.
Maybe talk to her in a bit and find out what she means by important; try to be as non-confrontational as possible. Could be a misunderstanding my dude, try not to jump to the worst case scenario--as far as you know right now, it could be 5000 different hings.
>>695148863
>or you're just projecting too hard
>FEELS THREADS DUN HAVE A PREDICTABLE DEMOGRAPHIC, WERE ALL SPESHIL SNOWFLAKES, SEE MY CHEESY ONE LINER ABOUT HOW MUCH I'M IN PAIN? I WORKED REALLY HARD ON IT.
>being this offended
Obviously touched a nerve and you're so deep in denial about how harsh that reality is that you have to flail out and accuse me of projecting, the rhetorical equivalent of no u.
You're not fun dude, as evident by the fact you're here bitching about it.
It's obvious to everyone but you, and that's why you're alone.
Eat shit, fag boy.
You depressed cunts need to get off my /b/.
Pic related. This is how you fix your problems.
>>695147589
Because we were in an intimate relationship that went far beyond just sex. Now it seems like that's what he wants. Its like being stabbed in the gut
>>695149482
I know she isn't cheating or flirting with him, I just don't think ex's should speak when one is in a relationship.
>>695148863
DON'T TAKE >>695149597 's B8 MY BOY
>>695149597
Literal newfag
>>695149453
There's always a way friend. I messed up in highschool, my gpa was like 1.5. I did bridging courses, put my head down and worked my arse off. I'm now in med school. Find what you want to pursue and give it your all
>>695149354
Well ill do it for free, but it's going to cost money, not much but still some. Also you thought about investing? Could turn that 2 mill to a lot more.
>>695149337
Work out then, dude. No matter what your metabolism is like you can gain muscle mass if you put in the effort. Also, a fast metabolism probably means you'll end up looking like Bruce Lee from your gains. Bitches love Bruce Lee
>>695149718
I can assure you that isn't all he wants. That is a common misconception among couples. My ex thought the same way about me but it just wasn't true, sex was just something I loved about her, not the only thing I loved about her. When you start having sex for the first time and it is new it is exciting.
Truth is though, some females don't enjoy sex as much as others. Many times it is just because it takes longer for a female to enjoy the sex.
>>695149733
I suppose we disagree here.
I know it's relatively common for people to hate their ex's guts for one reason or another. But me personally I'm actually good friends with my two exes. We were in a relationship for a reason; we liked each other, loved each other in the case of the first but things didn't end up working out. In our case, it wasn't due to some fatal character flaw that the other couldn't stand--it was just life.
I guess what I mean is, while your ex says she hates the dude, there's more to the story, you know? Especially if you're confident that she isn't cheating or flirting or any of that. Maybe she's just lookin out for a fellow human being
>>695148482
I feel you, anon. Do you want to continue feeling like that? Well first, go out and join a local theatre group or take up voice acting, it will help you fix up your accent if you continue at it. Do you love your bed-ridden wife? Well, if so, take your time constantly visiting her even if she's unable to speak. Talking out your pain to someone can do wonders.
On the cheating note, cut that out. Expecting to be faced with sympathy while giving your own wife shit treatment is shameful. Have pride for the fuck-up that you are and work towards not being one. Cheating will only place a burden on yourself if you don't particularly enjoy it.
>>695148671
I was talking about your cheating ex you live with, bud. Work with her mutually and see if that improves.
>>695149453
Take up another hobby in music. Experimenting with music can bring you out of awful times. Dropping out might be a good option if school is such a burden for you at this time. You can always get your GED and with that, a chance to go to college
>>695134538
This person i considered a friend, the person by which i had a mental breakdown because he tried to kill him self, after my attempt. This person i called a friend, just told me that he thinks of me as a person who is unlawfully trying to push into his life. We used to talk for days at a time, but our suicide attempts ruined our friendship.
>>695149686
>>695149597
>Obviously touched a nerve
>TLDR rand
>being this offended
Obviously touched a nerve. It's cute how you pulled the rhetorical equivalent of 'nuh-uh! you!'
>>695150027
I'll give it a shot bro
>>695150184
P.S. Also I still love my ex, even though she moved away. we almost got married but she dumped me because I was practically begging for her pussy every second :P
I'm balanced precariously between depression, which I've had for years, on one side and instability/anxiety on the other. Pic related is currently my waifu. She makes the depression go away, but the associated patterns aren't formatted in a way that's stable.
>>695150251
I think it stems from earlier in the year when a different ex was blatantly trying to sleep with her. I asked her to block and ignore but she turned it on me and said I don't trust her. She ended up deleting/ignoring him but the fact she didn't immediately do it and tried to turn it on me didn't sit well with me. So I think I feel like its a repeat of that.
>>695150438
not >>695150027 this guy but working out is definitely an often overlooked thing that can help a fuck ton. Even if it's for running 20 minutes a day. Shit, even if it's only TRYING to run for 20 minutes but ultimately only running for 10. 5. Whatever.
If you have any questions and you can stand getting memed on for a bit, you can always take a look over at /fit/
/fit/ + bodybuilding forum + google + a willingness to
>make it
can get you far
>>695150302
Not sure how to join theatre, plus I am 35 you think they would take me in?
My best friend is getting the girl I've been going after for years. I always seem to come second to him. Shit like this always seems to happen:
> Be me, 17 year old faggot in high school 2 years ago
> Best friend got some sweet puss
> Bitch broke his heart
> She wanted me for her own
> Went with it
> Shit was cash
> Find out she never wanted me
> Find out it was to hurt my best friend
Why do I always come in second, /b? How can I be alpha?
>>695150563
I gotcha dude, that's totally understandable. And hey if anything I'm on your side and think she should have like immediately blocked and ignored the ex--I actually had a similar experience with one of my exes. So yeah while it's kind shitty to be given the cliche "hurr you don't trust me" there is a bit of truth in it. I know you trust her and don't think she's some cheating skank and want her to handle the situation as ideally as possible, but to some degree you gotta let her do it on her own.
>>695148234
Damn, man.
I am still trying to figure out how to tell my Fiancée I smoke weed and will continue doing it, when she is completely against it. I keep saying that I will tell her it's just a part of me, and we have to find a way around this, or come to an understanding, and if she pulls the me or it thing, it's over.
Still trying to figure out if I can actually go through with letting her go. I have given two years of my life to her, and we genuinely love each other a lot.
>>695151105
bros before hoes
>>695151160
Thanks for your words brother! I think its just who she is and I gotta either accept that or end it
>>695149597
Justin?
I usually never post but here we go. Also sorry for not being able to green text well.
>be 3 years ago
>devlop a deep crush on this woman
>everytime I look at here it's like extacy
>Never had the courage to say anything
>see her again on a teusday
>look on facebook see all these rip
>I get a messege from someone saying they want to talk to me
>start talking to them
>tell me that she commited suicide
>speechless.mp4
>I walk home and I cry like a bitch
>I lost the only person to laugh at me no matter what
>Fast foward to 3 months ago
>Find out we have so many similiar interests
>we talk on skype all the time
>month goes by quickly
>I start to realize I can't get intamate
>We try to be intimate but it just feels like a wall
> I die on the inside because I know why
> 3 months later we end it off because of the way I treated her
>asshole.jpg
>My dad offers for me to come and visit him
>I go visit him
> goinggood.png
>last night
>about to go to sleep
>thinking about how I'll never be able to get over the 1st woman
>never be able to get intimate
>life still goes on
>still working toward my degree blindly
>>695150184
Ok, this isn't about me not enjoying sex with him. It is about the insult that after everything we've been through, after it didn't work out, he can hit me up telling me that he wants to see me, he'll always love me, blah blah blah.
All of the "I'll always care about you" shit had been said. How he thinks we can be friends is insane to me. It's been too short of a time period, and him telling me he'll always love me is emotional manipulation to get in my pants.
Fuck. That.
>>695151228
alright first you probably shouldn't get let it get this far without telling her you smoke weed, but you're here now.
If you've built of a good relationship with this girl, then there's a good foundation of being able to communicate with her about this some way, some how
>>695150863
Believe me, local theatre tropes are everywhere. Some have more teenagers and some have more adults. It's rare for them to have an age limit. There is so many things to do within theatre too such as costume and set design, acting, lighting and music management, even stage management (if you have the experience).
Signing up depends on the theatre troupe so look up an adult trope within your area.
>>695150465
I still love him too, but he fucked me over. I guess he thought he'd be okay with it.
>>695151384
I gotchu my nig
Best of luck and I hope everything works out
>>695150760
I'm already a runner, like shit I ran 5 miles today just for fun, and I lift weights occasionally. However nothing seems work. But yeah ill look into those things you suggest
>>695151437
Bono.
>>695150401
>implying I was accusing you of projection instead of just negating the initial claim.
Stupid AND lazy. No wonder nobody wants to hang out with you.
>>695145210
Any more info on this anon soundcloud or movie ?
>>695151664
I feel you on that; used to be a marathon runner but I guess running eventually just became such a norm to me that it didn't really do anything for me anymore
But there's something new out there for all of us to try that will work, and I believe in you
nigger
>>695151105
You can be alpha by finding an even more beta friend and trample over him in your accomplishments. Other than that, go do something adrenaline-rushing like >>695136371
if anyone wants some info on this tell me
>>695151809
That's not me.
>>695151105
Fuck that girl, anon. Find someone good for you.
Leo si ves esto eres un marica.
>>695151986
Oh.
Probably why it seemed incoherent.
>>695151462
Oh so you decided some how some way that you two weren't right for each other.
Maybe he doesn't feel that way and feels like you are being mean or hateful in however you came up with that decision.
That is my only guess why he would treat you like that. It isn't that he hates you.
He sounds immature though, sorry he would be that way. Maybe just work on what you guys had before if you still want to have a relationship, if not just ignore and move on?
>>695151461
She's dead anon. She missed the opportunity of being with you forever and she should've thought of that before dying. Pop a bottle in her memory then find yourself a nice man.
>>695151963
I remeber him i think..he killed himself yes ?
>>695151898
Thanks for the inspirational speech
fag
>>695152461
yes he did but the girl got married
>>695151914
Not a bad plan, /b/ro. Get trips and I'll do it to me mum.
I've had anxiety and self confidence issues my whole life. I've tried to get good at things, in order to boost my confidence. I work out, I play bass and I am a blacksmith in training. And even after all that, I think I realized something. I don't want to have self worth, I want others to think I am worthy. I'm not asking for love, I'm just asking for someone to say, "Wow, you sure are a great guy!"
>>695134538
I literally have 1 friend that I still keep in contact with from high school. I have a shitty father that keeps telling me my whole life that I am worthless. Any thing I had passion for he killed because he thought they were useless. I never go out, and im always at home. I would go out to try and socialize but my social anxiety cripples me, and the hours from my job by the time I get out i am too exhausted to do anything.
>>695152103
Thank, /b/ro. Any feels to share?
>>695152698
Better said than done
>>695151504
I didn't start until November in 2015, had already been together two years then. Going on threek this year, and I really didn't realize this is something I want to continue doing until March in 2016. I really should have said something then, but I am so fucking scared.
She believes all the bullshit about it, it is addicting, it causes untreatable strains of cancer, there are no positives to it, etc. She is so 100% against it, and although I have known she was, I literally did not understand she has a borderline hate for it, and she is one to rarely ever hate, even those who deserve it.
So although we have good communication, I am just so fucking scared of loosing her, and I just feel like there is no good end to that conversation. Or that even if there is, or that there is a good one, she'll eventually grow to resent me.
Sorry if it doesn't green text I'm on mobile.
This is the only time I've told someone about this besides the therapists that I have talked to, and this happened this year
>be me, senior
>New student from west US
>her name is Sophia
I guess you could see where this is going
>eyes grey like mine, looks like a fresh blanket of snow
>hair brown and smooth, like spiders silk (except brown)
>datbooty.jpg
>she's in my English and social studies classes, the first two in the day
>whenever she enters the room, good vibes all around, I wish it was like that still
>spend all of English and social studies talking with eachother
>we always sat next to eachother, my last name being bre-----and hers bra--
>be lunch time, I'm the kid always getting in trouble
>2nd most detentions in school history
>fame.avi
>1st lunch there are lunch aids, because we are not to be trusted
You probably saw this coming
>I have huge crush on SopHia
>joking around at lunch again
>talking about hillary Clinton, and how she is brain dead
>lunch aid comes over
"What did I you say mister bre----?
>that's my father
>tfw I'm mistaken for an irrsponsible drunk who beats his children
Gave me a concussion, stole my money and gambled with it, owes my mom $20000 in child support
>not the point
>lunch table laughs, even though it's like the oldest joke ever
"What did u say about hillary--you know what I don't care, just don't joke about politics"
To which I reply "you must be a hillar supporter"
>my table and 3 others around mine riot
>causes irrational scream ing throughout cafeteria
>sophia, at my table, heard it all, obviously
>she snaps
"Could you just grow up? You're so immature..."
>she says that alot, but jokingly normally
>cafeteria too loud to make out manner of which it is said
" I'm so glad that the youth can't vote, for the uneducated voter would make the decision that would hurt the country the most"
>took that quote straight from the social studies textbook
1/2
>>695152264
He came up with that decision, not me. I didn't want to but he kept playing games with me so I had no choice.
He put all the blame on me, made me feel like a bad person, and refused to recommit after the first break up.
He disrespected me and took my dignity away. He fucked me and left one night while I was crying for him to stay. He wasn't there for me when I had deaths in the family.
He fell out of love with me and now he's regretting it. He can go fuck himself.
>>695152653
Fuck that cunt
>>695151963
Why the fuck would you kill yourself over a woman?
Help. Fresh out of high school. Ugly, out of shape, no friends. I was bullied in middle school because of my voice, so I never formed social skills, and now I'm awkward and have no friends. Im out of shape, but can't find the mental will and energy to do everyday activities, much less exercise. I have a face that is ugly enough to make a nun swear, and a nose like mount everast. Im awkward, have no lite, no friends (and no social skills to make them) and I'm the black sheep of my family. Im not saying pity me or saying im unique, but I don't know what to do.
>>695152836
do you still live with your dad?
also like most of the people that left my town and ended up being successful and shit mostly ended up cutting ties with high school friends for the most part
not that i'm saying you should cut ties with that friend, I just mean it's no big deal if old friendships fall by the wayside. I know people suggest this a lot, but I'm super fucking serious because it worked for me: join a gym and/or sign up for a class. EZ excuse to meet new people. And you're forced to stay with em for awhile so you'll eventually build up a rapport.
2/2
>triggered.png
>she responds with
"I'm sorry, are you the one with a paralyzed family member and custody arguement at home?I don't Think so"
>I can tell now she's serious, and somethings taken control of me
"Are you insane?" I yell "ARE YOU INSANE?"
>I yell so loud I scratch my throat
>argument mode engage
>I list off eeverything wrong with me
"Do you have clinical depression, anxiety, custody arguements, an abusive father, Impulsive adhd, dylsexia, a close friend (former baseball coach) with cancer? Sophia, you're not the only one with problems"
>I have previously told about how I got in physical fights with me father
> I told that I've tried to hang myself both times the fight has finished
>I remember her telling me eveything I do that is perfect, I felt light as a feather
>be now
>telling me to end my life
>I yell whilst crying
"Its not that I can't help my immaturity. I chose not grow up, I never will. Because I know if I do grow up I'm gonna realize how terrible everything is"
>anxiety takes control
>cry
>get embarassed
>vomit
>pass out
> I try to kill myself again
>My belt is around my neck
>My phone on my bed
>I feel the belt tighten, I think to myself
"Its finally happening. For you Sophia. "
>hear something amidst my crying
>my phone
>mom
> pick it up as fast as I can
>she just talks, I hear her voice
>parents are divorced in at dads house btw
>tfw your mom legitimately saved your life
>choking back years I don't tell her.
schools out now, I just avoided her forever, but I'm not over it. I've hurt her, she's hurt me, but I ha e forgiven her. And if she is worthy of me she'll forgive me. If not, then so be it. I went to inpatient, I go to therapy now, and everything is getting better now. The custody case is still open so there is hope. Good night /b/ros and his bless.
>>695153380
love is a strong thing
>>695153232
>>695153585
Lmao forgot to tag previous sorry
>>695148234
If she had a face at some point you have seen her in the life your mind can make up a person but struggles to make a face it will always use a face you have seen in the past, so if she did have a face you have seen her IRL
I feel like I'm not going to get anywhere in life. My extended family are a bunch of niggers and since I'm a half-decent human being my parents think I have the capacity to be some world-changing God if I apply myself, but I don't see that in myself. I procrastinate the fuck out of my studies, like I'm doing now, and it terrifies me how close to catastrophic academic failure I am sometimes, even when I end up getting a good mark. I feel like I don't deserve the two amazingly caring parents I have, but at the same time I'm always being a little shit and taking advantage of them.
I'm slightly overweight, have a noticeably receding hairline, have a slightly below-average penis, and am a kissless virgin at 21. Socializing is not a problem. I have plenty of friends, and I even spent last night at a house party until just before dawn (we were going to go clubbing but everyone ditched). I hate clubbing, and I had infinitely more fun just crashing on a couch with a few buddies, finishing the last of the booze and talking about really dumb bullshit at 4AM after everyone else left.
I distract myself with vidya and my hobbies and what not, but at least once a day I remember how lonely I feel and how uncertain my future seems to me, like now, and begin to feel absolutely miserable. If there's no one around, I'll inevitably punch a wall or bang my head on something until I can get it out of my system, but there's also times like now where I can't, and just have to hold it all in.
I was trying my best to post replies and try and help out those I could with what little advice I have, but going to save time and just post this and go to sleep.
Life isn't meaningless because you die, that is what gives it meaning, death is endless and nothing.
You need to shut the fuckers down that ruin your happiness and move on fuck those people whether its your Dad or your mum, they are destroying you because your you and not them.
Find something anything if it makes you happy even for a second then that is what is worth doing in your life and you will take years of pain just for that one moment.
Life is balance pain and joy, if you want joy find the pain your willing to take for that and you will find happiness.
>>695152839
Damn, I wasn't planning on saying much in this thread, but alright.
My girlfriend says I'm being controlling and it's starting to take a toll on our relationship. I don't know why I feel like I need to be in control of everything, but I don't do it purposely. I need help, man.
>>695153751
I feel as if somthing is missing
>>695153099
alright I know you respect her and shit so I'll go ahead and say it for you:
holy fuck she's an idiot (when it comes to weed)
that aside, maybe if you could bring some humane element into getting her to understand. Medical benefits and whatnot. Maybe there's something deeper that's behind her hate? My ex was super against weed, and I found out that was because of her upbringing and what she saw happened to people that just kind of let it take over their life.
Unrelated: that same motherfucking ex ended up trying weed not long after we broke up. I purposely didn't smoke for her. Motherfuck man
Got quite a few problems, but the one troubling me the most right now is the fact that I'm too socially inept to ask one of my coworkers out. She's fucking amazing, but my insecurities about myself constantly hold me back from being able to hold a conversation with a lot of people, let alone her. I thought maybe working in retail would help with it, but its been a year and I still can't hold one with her.
>tldr: Having trouble asking a girl out because I'm a sperg
>>695153715
I don't get it. Do you mean 'lust'? Because I totally get that.
>>695153824
If anything, you're incredibly similar to me. I'm a bit of a control freak.
Did anything specific happen to make your gf think you're "too controlling"?
>>695153957
What do you mean?
>>695153290
Sorry to hear, the games men play are usually because they are being told to do so from their dad or peers. My dad told me to date other women to make the one I loved jealous, that didn't work out quite well.
>>695152698
TRIPPU
>>695154232
what would i know about love
>>695154081
How often do you work together? If you're into normie shit like getting coffee, you can always invite a few coworkers + her if you have any kind of rapport with them. If you're drinking age, could always invite people out to a bar after work one day, too.
I'm gonna tell you this now: there's only so much premeditation and thinking you can do that will be productive when it comes to socializing with people. Eventually my dude, you just gotta fucking go for it. I know those may seem like empty words to you with all the people that are bound to have thrown them at you, but you gotta just make that jump
Worst case scenario: you fuck but but the most god damn important thing
And I mean the most fucking important thing you spergy fuck
Is that you tried and failed and you're a tough motherfucking that's gonna try again
Best case scenario: sick you're hanging out with qt3.14 coworker, dope good job
>>695153553
I can't cut ties with the only friend I have left besides him and the 1 cousin I keep in contact with my family they're the only ones keeping me afloat. Yes, I still live with my father.
>>695154690
*you fuck up,
but i mean if you can somehow make it so fucking is the worst case scenario, dope
this girl broke my heart.
>>695154294
You never really gave detail about your relationship with her. Ex strangers/friends/?? It makes the story seem as if a girl u liked but rarely talked too made u almost kill yourself in one conversation.
>>695154843
details?
>>695154843
her number's (205) 393-0449
>>695154754
As long as it's a healthy friendship my dude, it's all good. If it isn't, try your best to make it one.
How realistic is it, financially, that you can move out and live without your father? Like fear and such aside. Because I know it might suck and maybe even unfair, but I've had friends and heard from people when I was in this hospitalization program for people with depression that were in situations where, while it sucked and was hard, one of the best things that could do or did was moving out and distancing themselves from toxic family/relationships
>>695144035
Thats actually pretty good, ill be sure to buy your book.
>>695154905
My apologies, anon. We dated from about late September until Early November. We broke up but proceeded to be friends.
I dont understand you people who fail to find comfort in isolation. I always get told buy my fam and some friends that it is unhealthy and that I have changed but I dont get it. It's the best fucking shit ever. i fucking hate real life people, if i need to talk about something, i come here where i dont know nor give a fuck and just speak about things I care about and as openly as I see fit. This site is the best therapist and friend I ever had and ever need and all the communication/attention I demand, how can you all still sit here a cry about nogf.jpg and no friends, what makes you think that they are better than this? Than hundert or thousand of people feeling and speaking as one. Dont foul yourselves, life out there is shit, it is superficial a joke and a lie, search for a decent hobby and for inner thruths.
>>695143420
Why does that make me feel more sad
Anyone else here wish that they didnt exist ?
I wish we had a choice like if we were shown a preview of our lives and could choose to go with it or just pass on it. I never wanted to get on this ride. Then agian i guess thats whats suicide is for.
>>695153802
Thanks, this helps
>>695154005
I don't know why, but she thinks it changes people. My most active and successful friends are Stoners man.
But yeah, I have been talking to her about it a little bit like that, just political talk on weed and shit. I think she is starting to suspect a little, but nothing more than that.
Maybe she'll change, she is really smart, but even through that she can blindly follow things with a passion sometimes, without really understanding both sides of everything though.
I don't know who you are, but thank you random Anon, just feels good to talk about this.
>>695155329
people are different, and putting aside the strong desire you call you typical 4chan btard meme shit, I think it is important that you (eventually) realize that different people are into different things.
>>695154690
We're in separate departments, but occasionally she has to take up the register where I'm at. I think knowing that I have to take the chance either way is what hurts me the most. Part of me knows that it'll be pointless either way, but the other pushes me to do it anyway, and that side of me will win, it always does. Guess the only thing I can do is start small and keep pressing on. Thanks for the push.
never had a gf
>>695155504
I wish you the best of luck man, I know you can make this shit work if you really love this girl, and she loves you too.
Of course my dude, I'm glad you could talk shit out
>>695155228
This fills the gaps
>>695155445
No.
Thank you and may I ask you one favour, try your best and you will fail and you will feel dark again but your just trying to find your balance, while your on the journey find comfort in the fact you can help others.
IN HOC SIGNO VINCES - In this sign thous shalt conquer
>Feel distant from many of the people that I want to be closest to
>Still haven't entirely recovered from last relationship
>Which ended in mid-November
>Haven't felt sexual or romantic satisfaction from a girl ever since
>Too inept to just hook up with someone
>Have huge crush on girl since December
>Found out last month that she's gay and has been dating a girl since April that she introduced to me shortly after we met
>See girl I don't see very often that I also have crush on yesterday
>Spend time with her at convention
>Suggest going to Starbucks sometime this week before leaving
>She says that sounds good
>Today
>Message her to tell her when I will/won't be working
>She says she'll be busy all week
>Feel like she secretly doesn't like me
>feelsbad.png
tl;dr I'm a lonely faggot who's sad that he can't get a girlfriend
>>695155624
I think one of the most important things you're gonna have to learn in life is that you HAVE to take these chances. You could maybe float on by through life making all the safe choices, but more likely than not, it'll be the choices you make where you have no ensured outcome that you'll find the most rewarding.
You are going to regret not asking her out more than you will regret asking her out.
Trust me.
Posted in another thread but posting again
>be me 19 yo male
>Not kissless or virgin but never GF
>Be inna eternal depression
>Meet really cute girl
>She like everything I like
>Can really be my sarcastic asshole self around her
>Been texting for 2 weeks straight
>Hanged out like 4 times
>Late night hour long calls and and the shit
>She says she has bf
>Bf and her going to couple therapy?
>Question why she be talking to me every night and not her bf
They been dating for 6 months
I wanted the feels but now can't run from the feels
>>695156094
You gotta do your best to do shit that you find fulfilling for yourself before finding fulfillment from others my negro
>>695152839
>>69515424
I sometimes tell her to do better at things such as conversing with me. She gets annoyed because she doesn't feel like changing herself for me.
She says I'm manipulative.
I make her feel bad when she doesn't give me what I want. And she doesn't like to say so because she doesn't want to make me upset. I usually tell her she's been difficult when she doesn't do what I want.
Damn, I directed that to the wrong person
>>695155170
There is no way I can afford living on my own. I have no fear of being on my own. I'm just waiting on this promotion at work and once I get it and I establish myself in it im moving as far away as I can.
>>695156301
Don't fux too hard with a girl in a relationship man. It's okay to keep talking to her, but I think personally only with a safe amount of emotional distance. Basically force yourself to expect, at the most, only friendship from her and nothing else.
That way if shit doesn't work out and you come swooping in and you live happily ever after: dope, expectations exceeded
Short story time.
I used to be a huge beta faggot, but then I started lifting and taking care of my body and mind. I'm on the right path, and I'm going to stay on it because I like the new me.
So there's this girl I met at college, freshman year. She was beautiful, but reserved - and not many guys noticed her.
But I noticed her. I, being the beta faggot I was, couldn't work up the courage to talk to her.
So I thought I could get her to notice me through other means, whether it be wearing a Romney hat in liberal land or spending a shitload of money for pies in some forgettable class.
Then I thought if I lifted, maybe becoming /fit/ would get her to like me.
But I still didn't talk to her, though some girls came up to me. They were babes, not a single girl under 7/10, but they just weren't her. There were girls that were much sexier than her, girls that I had a chance with, but I turned down because I put her on a pedestal and worshipped her like an idol. They say that the things you want most in life are the things you can't have.
Never has that statement been more true than when she died. It all happened so fast, the police reports said. When a motorcyclist comes down on the wrong side of the road and you swerve to avoid them, you don't expect that you'll wrap your car around a telephone pole. I cried so hard that night. My dad overheard me and gave me a bottle of Jack Daniels without saying anything more than "drink up". I drank until I passed out.
I want you Anons to know that you need to stop being afraid of talking to "the girl". You know who I mean. The one that you think about before you go to bed. The one that you daydream of when work is slow and you can afford to fool around. The one that might have liked you back, but you never bothered taking to her.
Don't let your dream die in vain.
Don't let Regan die in vain.
>>695156429
How soon's promotion? Make that shit happen bro, you can fucking do it
>>695155435
I never wanted to get on the ride either. I know my father regrets me being born. He's told me many times he treated my mom like shit when she was pregnant with me because he resented her for being pregnant.
>>695156777
and I mean I got trips, so don't waste that
>>695156700
I'll try, and I'm sorry
>>695157033
This anon speaks the truth!
>>695155545
>and putting aside the strong desire you call you typical 4chan btard meme shit,
Need explanation on this part. Is it a btard meme shit to want a gf and be a part of society or is it a meme to not want any of this? I can only speak for myself that is true, doesn't mean there aren't people out there that think like me but still don't know it. I am not a prophet of some kind but if I can help someone on these forums to escape the illusion of happyness they call gf fam whatever bullshit is one more anon whose worldviews are changed for the better. It is not a reliable path to selfpity oneself and hinders oneself on the path of progression.
>>695157033
Lol I wont waste your trips promotion is for a couple of months. Anything can happen between that time frame.
>>695154434
Sounds like a bad idea. And you're probably right.
>>695156700
I came her to feel something in my pathetic life. Thank you
>>695157916
shit
>Living with ex-fiancee of 6 months because she doesn't want to go back to her home because of 1 sibling being a dumb slut and a 5 year old child (she's close to 18 and still throws tantrums, was never disciplined growing up like ex and her brother)
Still feel like I want to be in a relationship with her but am not sure because she has DEEP social anxiety, has not left the apartment in 2 years. I do all the shopping and washing and everything. It wears on me, /b/... it wears on me so much. I don't spend any time with her because she wants to play shit games I don't want to play and she can see it bores me to tears, but she doesn't want to play stuff I want to play, so we just ended up not interacting too much and eventually, I got so pissed off that she wasn't helping me with ANYTHING that we "tested" a breakup out for a month and finally she cut the cord. I feel so free but there's nothing for me to do with that freedom that I didn't have before.
>Not sure what to do. Co-workers say to kick her out but I can't just kick out someone that I've loved for six years. Easy to say when it's not you, fuckers, is what I want to say to them. Doesn't contribute much financially, gets money every now and again from Amazon Turk for food that I have to go buy for her.
Told her she has to pay for 1 bill a month and if she doesn't she needs to leave starting next month.
It's so fucking weird living with her. I'm the kind of person that loves hugs and kisses and stuff and just cuddling, reading a book to her or watching something, but apparently that doesn't count enough as "spending time together" so she just plays WoW literally 24/7. I'm not even expecting her to make that bill money next month. I just ask her for hugs really and she hugs me but it's so hesitant. Like I can tell she doesn't love me at all anymore.
I just want her to leave so fucking badly so I can stop enduring this pain. Every day I act like everything is fine but it's not. It's fucking not.
>>695157967
i goofed
>>695157503
lol I was mostly just being facetious and was referring to the likelihood of people calling you a beta autist or an edge lord or whatever derivative people throw out these days.
But for real I think that while I understand your intentions are good, people may not like it when you approach their problems with a sense of "I'm above the emotions you're experiencing" and shit with the air that you do. Helping others need not come at the expense of tearing them down first.
Sure there's some situations where that's maybe appropriate, but I think those situations come by a lot less frequently than you think. But I digress
>>695156862
I keep having money for the "helium exit bag" strat but I end up losing the money that week for some dumbass shit. Loaning money to people or needing to buy emergency food (i.e tons of ramen)
Plus I can't find a good reliable seller that has 100% helium tanks in the U.S. really. It's the only way I want to go besides lethal injection but I'll never be able to be put to sleep.
>>695155380
Because it will be never your reality
>>695156862
Ive been a huge dissapointment all my life i could see in my fathers eyes.Even my family relatives. I was never good at sports and this made my father dissapointed with me mostly i guess i never made him proud. I see everyone around me having the time of their lives and they see to be moving so damn fast. Its like im a stone stuck in a river. Why was i born to be a failure of a human being why couldnt i be just like all the other kids ? Why did i be that kid that was always forgotten or picked last? I never asked for this i just to go back to when i wasnt even an idea in parents head.
>tfw you write a post to the character limit and you're so disgusted with yourself that you just delete it and then you feel anguish and start all over
I lack motivation. I lack the motivation to change. Pls help.
What do I mean by this? I mean to say that I can tell I'm in danger economically and of leading a hand-to-mouth existence despite working two jobs. I work two part-time jobs (one's 75% at 30ish hours, and the others 20ish hours). Anyway, I hate what I do. I'm a glorified door man at my current job and at my other job I get to observe people living their dreams. I'll leave it at that other than to say I work in higher education.
Even now I feel weak and effete, like someone's siphoned the testosterone out of my testes. I wake up and say this day will be different and then at the end of the day I'm too tired and beaten to affect real change in my life. I'm thinking of getting a second bachelor's in computer science or attempting to become an actuary. I just want a job that will afford me the ability to live the life I want. I know I'm lucky to work two jobs, but I don't make a ton of money and I had to move back in with my parents.
Anyway, any advice on motivation? Changing your life? etc.
I...just...want...to...sleep...for...a...long...time
>>695158726
dont fucking off yourself you cunt or ill kill you
But really please don't, I've had too many people close to me and even people I didn't really like that went through with it to let even a fucking anon like you to go through with it.
don't you dare, you are worth so god damn much
She was interested at first. We hung out every day. I got dressed up to ask her out and I saw another dude with his arm around her.
>>695158075
Are those feels for ants?
So I just turned 18 today. I have plans for college in the fall. And I have a decent summer job at Walmart right now. But, I hate my home life. I feel like my mother wasn't prepared to become a parent whenever she had me, and she is failing hard at it (because she couldn't keep the mortgage payments up, my grandparents pretty much own our house, which is falling apart as I speak, and they also own both of the vehicles in our driveway.) My mother is horrible at managing money, and when I offer to help, she just brushes me off. I mean, she has an outstanding credit card debt on top of the house payments, both of which she's behind on.
While they have helped us quite a bit, my grandparents act way too much like my parents in the sense they have to know exactly what I'm doing 24/7. And I'm decently sure they hate me since I "remind them of my father".
Speaking of which, my dad's a lazy bastard who's in Michigan right now. Haven't talked to him in about two years.
The rest of my mom's family are like my grandparents on the controlling level. The only people I can stand are my two cousins, who're my age.
And last night I got pretty drunk and told my friends I've thought about just leaving and never coming back. Considering my situation, they were okay with the idea. I'm really thinking about doing it now, /b/. I have a close friend in Portland I could stay with and it'd just be a train ride away. However, if I did so, it'd be after I'm paid. What do you guys think? Should I do it? Just leave?
>>695146369
in the same situation as you anon. I've been with her for 4 years would be 5 if she didn't want this "break" its been 4 months and all I've been doing is holding onto the past but she says she doesn't know if she wants a relationship or not. She talks about how she wants to live together and get married with me but yet does not want to talk about us being a couple.
I've been a lot more positive and trying to move on but shits hard when you actually fell in love with someone.
I hope things get better quickly for you though anon..
>>695134538
I haven't eaten today, and I've been drinking since I woke up.
I feel really weak, and more drunk than I should feel for what I had... All I want to do is go to sleep, but I'm afraid I won't wake up.
>>695159238
Nigga go to college.
Living at home, on campus, or off campus+not at home for college
>>695158345
Oh yes I understand and will improve it, thank you for your clarification. I was too in this situation but somehow, I learned to cope with it and am just astonished how so many people, despite beeing so long in this situation, haven't learned to feel the same. Doesn't mean I dont understand the concept of diversity, humans being different and all that, but after a while I just wonder if people truely like to live in that kind of illusion and if it wouldn't be better, just to leave it be, concentrating on different things that maybe one of the paths to happyness, because selfpity truely isnt (at least for me) and seeing how many people never had any relationships be it girlfriends or friends, I try to input my experience and tell them that this here, has far more sentimental and emotional worth than most of the people out there, who never felt the same as most anons here. In the end, hwo do they want to form a relationship if they never learned, why do they want to do so if they never knew. Sharing my knowledge is the least I can do and I will work on myself to do it better than I did it with the previous post.
>>695158960
This
>>695159069
Dude I cut ties with my family, I'm the guy that posted >>695158059 but it isn't even over the girl. Life just... is boring. I'm never going to be able to make boatloads of money because I'm fugly as fuck, skinnyfat and have no personality. I go to my 9.25/hr job every day at a convenience store just for a paycheck to just... exist. I've stopped playing video games because nothing interests me anymore, I don't want to pursue women because I don't want to go to jail, all these stories about false rape and going to jail and shit, fuck that. I'm not even whining here, this is my thoughts every day. I don't even have low self esteem. Or at least, I don't feel like it at all, I'm very confident in my actions and talking to people.
My only dream right now is to just have a fuckton of money and never have to worry about anything ever again but it's just not feasible.
>>695158960
I know that feel. There's a song by the Dandy Warhols about that.
>>695159429
You will wake up, buddy. Drunk sleeps aren't so bad if you are intolerant to hungovers.
>be me 6 years ago, 14
>be in "depressed" part of mid-atlantic
>there were lots of people in my school that were emo just for attention
>have friends with actual diagnosed mental illnesses
>is never taken seriously by school officials
>I have to prevent suicides alot
>by junior year i am the depression godfather in a sense
>move to new school
>keep all friends on crappy iPhone 3GS (also new school 2 miles away)
>guys at new school have never experienced a feiend being depressed
>one day best friend wants kill himself really bad
>have to ask a bunch of people to text him positive shit
>this includes my friends at new school
>actually they're not mad at me for being depressing
>surprised.jpg
>2 years later that friend and a bunch of others go on 25000 mile road trip
Feels good
>carloss unrelated
>>695159746
I gotchu dude, thanks for clearing it up for me, too. I think your experience and insight could be helpful to a lot of people, and I hope you continue to do so in a way that will be the most effective.
we all want to get from point A to B in life, but we're all bound to take some weird fuckin detour on the way there. So yeah some people are still convinced by this "illusion" you refer to, and maybe we can't help them directly to their point B, but maybe we can help them along the points in between, naw'm'sayin?
Girlfriend broke up with me because I don't take anything seriously because I can't handle emotions like a human being.
>>695158832
I always wanted to try new things. I loved science and art growing up. My father had little to no patience with me. I remember him telling me as a kid
> if you don't answer this question right I'll leave.
>I'll pack up my things and I'll leave you'll never see me again
>is that what you want? Do you want me to leave.
I remember balling as a kid begging my father not to leave. I wish he would have maybe I would be in a different place in my life. Maybe I would actually be happy.
Sorry if green texted wrong but too tired to care. I need to go to bed soon anyways have to be at work by 5. Maybe this time I won't wake up.
>>695160288
I'm pretty prone to hangovers. I might just make a quesadilla and have some water, then another drink and see how long I can stay awake.
Not eating is always a bad idea for me, idk why I do it.
>>695160236
I know this is gonna be some bullshit cliche to you, but since you mentioned being skinnyfat, I highly encourage you to take up going to the gym.
>look better
>feel better (i fucking mean it and guarantee it)
>learn more about yourself through discipline and other normie shit
>>695154659
I don't know why this got me. Fuck.
>be me
>have permanent nerve damage
>everything twitches
>every day
>can't afford doctor
>even if i could they'd just hook me on painkillers
Honestly, I feel like I'm living because everyone else wants me to, and not because I want to.
>>695160581
Then fuck it dawg, let's learn to take things seriously and help you handle emotions like a human being, where do we start?
Some people aren't worth a full life
>>695161089
Good thing you aren't one of those "some people", right?
RIGHT YOU FUCK?
>>695145210
Does anyone have the link to the music?
>>695160623
I want to get into computer science but im scared i wont be good at it. It looks like somthing i would have fun at and i took class in highschool on it.
>>695150251
Ruben get off 4chan
>>695134538
You really don't want to know.
It is that horrible and depressing.
Lets just say that I'm a quantum wizard...
>>695160782
Yeah I have a friend who was a personal trainer (or so he says but he's got the pictures to prove he knows what he was doing) and he says if I start exercising I'll jump-start my metabolism and get skinny really fast.
But I like being lazy and living how I want to. I've thought about it before, particularly upon leaving the house for work a lot but by the end of the day I'm fucking beat and don't want to go to the gym.
It's like my energy reserves are nil, I just have enough to get through the day, get home and collapse and do nothing.
>>695161174
I'm gonna have physical pain for the rest of my life
