Feels thread, also "what are you drinking now" thread, "now you're thinking of her, what is her name" thread, and "why havent you kill yourself" thread
And /r/ the screncap of an anon and his loli gf "elisa" i couldnt finish the story
Bump
2:15 am here. Just want to read to some stories. Can't go to sleep.
>>692769994
Op here do you want to talk anon or just want someone to be there?
>>692770151
Nah, I'm good. Just wished there was a easier way to fall asleep. But thanks anyway.
>>692770582
I've found the easiest way to fall asleep is getting drunk while listening to music, hope that helps
This is si much true
>>692771840
I don't get it
This left me depressed for years to come 1/5
>>692769994
4:48 here. I gave up hours ago.
>>692771263
Second this, but its dangerous. I'm 18 and have 5 shots before bed.
Is thread kill?
>>692771970
How is it that you dont get it?
Tell me anon have you ever been loved?
>>692772923
>Implying people on /b/ are loved.
Summerfag
>>692773018
>>692772842
Thread is kill, like my emotions.
i dont really like the taste of alcohol, i just like the way it makes me feel, i dont drink cause is funny or to get along, i just drink until i fell down
You are my only friend anon. Or at least you listen and café for me more than the 3d "people"
Should I try to save the thread?
>>692773018
Then you should understand, we often confused love, well we all want to be loved, but love doesnt meant to be understood
Would you be able to tell to anyone that you are a crazy bastard and have peticuilar tastes?
Fuck it. Not ready for 404. Whats up with you guys tonight?
>>692773617
i can't seem to escapee depression , it's been years , i've taken pills , i've been sectioned. I just can't shake it. so the usual , you?
>>692773399
Would you try to save a life?
>>692773700
Starting to become an alchoholic at 18. Looks like an even brighter future than I imagined...
>>692773755
Already tried. He went to the hospital and will probably kill himself before going back.
>>692773700
Do the pills help? I've been pretty bad for the last 4 years, but I haven't gone to a shrink yet.
>>692773826
the only reason i've not killed myself is because i couldn't do that to my mum
>>692773617
I was going to tell you how i felt, but honeslty im just tired of everything i just want to rest
>>692769936
I know, i sat through an hour of her and the closest thing i've got to a father figure flirt because I was hosting the skype call. i bailed and they went off and fucked. she knows he was just telling her sweet nothings and she knows how i feel about her and she claims to feel the same and i know she's lying because of what she does but i can't do anything and i know i sound pathetic but she's my best friend and we've been on and off but only because we're not local and neither of us drive and i can't find anyone else and idk man. idk
>>692773987
the pills made me want to kill myself even more for the first few weeks , then they just made me numb so not a whole lot different
>>692773989
Pretty much the same. Too many people that would blame themselves for not seeing it.
>>692773617
Working, i have a bar with my family, can't leave it cause ruin and debt, but we all hate and insult each other 24/7. Dead inside, with ocasional bouts of anger and or sadness and i am probably an undiagnosed autist. I will not go to a mindfucker psych, too much fear to open and get insulted, thanks to my biological family
>>692774051
Cut her loose, at least for a while. Don't turn into a cuck, if she's worth being fucked up over she'll take the hint.
>>692774289
Oh and we work from 9 am to 4 am, all fucking day here
>>692774407
Aint no rest for the wicked
>>692773987
Keep in mind that pills don't fix depression, they just make you not feel it anymore. People should take them with the expectation that the pills will relieve the depression long enough for them to make radical change in their life.
Don't bother unless you have a plan, you'll just become dependent on the pills and become like >>692774059
any of you guys live with guilt/regret? if so, how do you cope with that?
>>692774578
I don't have a plan, but it's probably better than drinking myself to sleep.
>>692774346
tried that, we didn't talk for over a year and she claims she's not how she was but shes not but it's good to hear from her again
At this moment I'll just be happy with feeling love for someone.
I need to make a breaking point in my life but I'm not really sure how. What I'm sure about is that I'm going to have a mental breakdown sooner or later if I don't do something drastic.
>>692773910
Then you know you cant do nothing for anyone else, you can fight, you can be there, you can do your best, you can do the imposible, and in the end nothing would really matters, the same thing goes to you, if you dont want help, no one can help you
>>692774657
I am the bar anon from above, regret for this business, for my family, regret wasting a year being abused by my psycho girlfriend, getting hit, cucked an blackmailed, regret not pursuing the opportunity of being an helicopter mechanic, of not loving anyone, not being loved, not having the balls to smash this shitty life and go away to somewhere else
>>692774806
Thing is, I want it bad. But I just can't bring myself to ask for it. I feel like nobody cares enough for it to matter.
>>692774100
my mum has already said she'd blame herself for my death
>>692774708
Yeah, probably.
Good luck. You know we're always here for you if you need us.
>>692774997
I'm on almost every night. And while it's nice to be able to talk about this, it doesn't make it any easier to live with.
>>692774931
This is how i feel right now...#1
Only thing is, iam at home up to get drunk
This was written by a literary genius (Samuel Johnson, guy who wrote the dictionary in the 1700s. Also the guy in that picture of the man reading the newspaper and then making the "Wtf" face)
The more I re-read this, the more I understand what was going on in his head, in the head of a dying man. He wrote this when he knew he was dying, and depression fucking destroyed him despite his brilliant mind. His friends all died or deserted him and the world had gone to shit, but perhaps that was just in his head as depression makes you think so.
When a doctor went in to ask if he was doing alright, his last words were "No sir, you cannot conceive with what acceleration I advance towards death.".
Mfw its 5:30 am
>>692774931
You are sort of the victim of all these things. But what If you are the one that done wrong to someone else? Do you even deserve to be sad? I have other stuff going on, but guilt seems to be the most paralyzing nowadays.
Don't give up though, Anon. Cliché as fuck, but you truly have only one life. Have to take controll over it and live it to the fullest eventually.
>>692772344
FUUUUUUUCK!!!! This is the saddest shit I've ever read.
I want to find that motherfucker so bad
Goddamn that shit was cash
Atleast i have my cigarettes , alcohol and music ay
>>692774776
Well, i dont know if this would help you, but let me tell you something about me, i felt like i had to chance my life, so i move out of mi country, i left all i knew behind, mt family, my friends my life, everything. I thogh "this will make me better"
It didnt im here by my own 3 in the morning trying to get drunk, i can barely speak the lenguage and all those people that i thoght they care about me, they just seem to not give a damn about me, and i havent make any friend where i live so im alone as always
>>692775389
What are you listen at?
>>692768723
Been going out with a girl for a month now and the only "intimate" thing we ever do is like a hug when we part ways. I tried to confess but her answer was that she ain't ready yet for a relationship and all that crap. I know, /b/, I'm not buying it either, but she's pretty much the only person I can talk to irl and it sucks because I don't know what to do anymore.
>tfw you're so close yet so far away from the normie life
>>692775756
My spotify playlist but this is a pretty chill song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=luM6oeCM7Yw
>>692775798
Ever try just kissing her?
>>692775291
Of course we do wrong things, but it seems we are the only ones beating ourselves for it wjen it has passed, or it wasn't that bad anyway, but you feel so shitty you panic at the thought of having harmed anyone, or are completely oblivious, at least to me is like that
Any of you guys had a point when you thought you were ok again? Happened to me at the start of this year, but here I am, just as fucked up as ever.
>>692775318
I know right? We should spread this far and wide, not to dox the original anon, but to find the rapist and uncles, and some suicidal anons could kill them, make justice, and go to afterlife having done the best action of their lives
>>692775901
No, I'm afraid that she'll freak out and never talk to me ever again.
>>692768723
>>692774918
>>692775918
I would want to be oblivious. Again. Because like you said, I only realized what I've done after it passed, literally. I only became aware of my actions after she passed away. feels horrible. and I can't seem to get away from it. And I would'nt even deserve pity, or people to feel sorry for me because there's no good reason for what I've done.
>>692776269
Try it, but pick an appropriate time. Don't force that shit.
>>692776362
thanks, /b/
fuck you
>>692774961
True be told, no one cares, no one that you know will help you, but that shouldnt stop you for cry out for help, belive me out there are alot of people who have been miserable like we are now, and they are more than hapoy to help, cause they know the struggle, tomorrow morning go to the center of city and scream out loud "i want help", sure youll be mocked, they will laugh at your ass, but there will be someone who at least aks you "are you ok?" And that is all you need ti start
>>692776166
yeah i though i'd got over it finally but turns out i just can't i do everything i can to be happy and make myself happy , and i am but then my head will just fuck me
>>692776435
Really wish it was that easy
>>692776166
yep bro, life was good for me, had a job, had so many girls, was saving up so much money for the future, now jobless, unhappy, no confidence, just lay in bed, i just want to be back to my old self, but dont know where to start
>>692776395
The only appropriate time would be during the hug, but I just don't know if it's worth it or not.
>>692776374
I have that fear, i mean, we work and hate each other, but i think they are old, and i see these last years of their life squandered in a dying business, hating each other. When they die and the only thing i have to remember them will be their insults and cold shoulder, i will still beating myself for not being able to make thwm moserately happy
hey /b/, im just gonna let this out because to this day it still affects me.
i currently broke up with my ex who i seriously thought i was going to be with for the rest of my life; she was my best friend, we've been in love with each other for a year but was never together until recently, but then it all changed so quickly. before i was with her i was so depressed, but when i got with her, it was gone. all the suicidal thoughts and depression was gone. our relationship was something so beautiful and i loved it.
but of course, every relationship had its down moments, and we worked through it all until 4 months ago, where she just gave up. and it sucked for my part.
i was head over heels this girl, to this day i still am, im so in love with her but she does not want anything to do with me anymore, and it sucks. she made me feel like shit for loving her, she assumed so much about me when i was so faithful and loyal to her, and she lied to me about a lot of things. but im still in love with her.
i'm doing everything i possibly can to forget about her, to move on from her, but everything i do; such as fuck around with other girls, get drunk and high, or focus on school and work, just makes everything worse and i get so depressed and suicidal. i really don't know what to do, i miss her a lot.
i really just want to die because i know i will never get over her.
>"Anon, you are ugly"
>"It's fine, Anon, we'll pay you a hooker... welp, we will need a lot of money to convince her tho"
>"You'll really be virgin forever"
>"You ugly fuck"
Well, my "friends" have a great way to raise my self-confidence
you are all faggots
>>692776562
Why is not? What is the hard part? Damn anon, im fucked up just like you but im here trying to help you out, am i not?
>>692776641
I think if you try to make them happy somehow, even If you fail, you'll still feel good, because you've put in effort you know? It shows that you cared. But then again, it is very hard to make someone else happy, when all you feel is emptiness, rage, and a bunch of exhausting feeling. At least that's how I feel, I hope you can somehow reduce the anxiety what the work is causing for you.
>>692768723
I miss her every day
</3 brianna wu
>>692776166
Yeah. It lasted for about... I don't know, 10-15 hours at best? I think I was actually happen during those 15 hours.
>>692777021
Hard part is actually being able to do it. Anxiety problems man.
>>692768723
I know my girlfriend 4 and a half years, and have been dating her for the past year. The problem is that she's Muslim, and I'm Irish. She said to me a while ago that she pretty much hates herself for being with me because it goes against her religion. She goes to hell for being with me apparently. I haven't seen her in two months (Ramadan, and now she's abroad for the month).
I'll see her in August, whether it's too late and her mind is made up by then I don't know. So many things against us - her religion, her family would never allow it, her friends have been against it from the start, the distance. I'm just not there to remind her of the positives
I don't know why I'm posting this here. I guess I just wanted to tell someone. The only thing I care about is slipping away and I'm completely powerless
>>692768723
>>692768723
Rogue Society Gin & Tonic, going to grab a Beer after this.
I'm over "She", just need to improve my life in general.
Why Haven't I killed myself? Most recent reason was because I had friends who cared enough to stop me before I tried anything stupid.
>Life is just a short flick of nothing in a universe.
>You are just a slightly inteligent monkey, standing on a rock rushing through the universe 30 kilometres every second.
>Every day, you can die in a flick of the second due to bilions of different reasons.
>All the feelings; Hapiness, love are just biochemical reactions in your brain. Nothing more. Just dopamine in your fucking brain that could go off any fucking time. You can get the same effect by getting druged.
>There's no god. No heaven. No hell. People like to lie to themselves so they can hope that there will be something after they die. But there's nothing.
>Neither you nor me will matter after we die.
>No one will remember us.
>No one will remember who we were.
>No one will remember this site.
>This thread.
>You.
>Me.
the numbness is what gets me , i can't sleep a night and i can't feel anything
>>692777387
i already accepted this ages ago, the quicker you can accept it the better really
>>692774100
Oh god just get over yourself. Nobody would give a shit about not seeing it, self-centred asshole
>>692777227
she wont go to tell, unless you're an athiest, if you're christian or jewish then they consider you people of the book, dont listen to those fanatic terrorists that would call you an infidel, they have their own way, the wrong way.
>>692777119
Where are you from men? Whats your name? I live in arizona, im Esteban
>>692774625
Poor rover :'(
>>692777061
Thanks anon, you are awesome, hope it gets better for evrryone
>>692777651
I am unfortunately an atheist in this situation. I'd be willing to "convert" as in stop drinking, give up pork and all of that...but I'd unfortunately never be able to convince myself to believe in something I don't, and she knows that. She wouldn't want me to pretend either
>>692768723
Im gay, i dont appreciate you thinking only women can make you feels. Guys are just as bad as girls.
>>692776626
Laaaame. Just be a man.
>>692777949
guys=gays
>>692777630
im not even him but you obviously have no family or friends then, im pretty sure everyones mum would blame themself for not doing anything
Drinking Smirnoff and coke because I'm cheap and a pussy. Also Strongbow because I like cider. Her name is Meaghan. Haven't killed mt self because living in misery is a little better than dying in it.
>>692777949
Ok anon, tell me about him, tell me how do you feel, tell me how does he make you feel
>>692774625
God dammit...
>>692778007
Because entire months of losing weight and learning the normie ways just so I could go out with her wasn't man enough
>>692778165
:>
Tbh i havent had a relationship
Just a series of failed dates
Last guy was everything i wanted but he liked rock climbing and figured we would never work simply because i didnt like rock climbing
:c
I just met up with a new guy and saw finding dory but i dont feel comfortable around him. Now i gotta let him off as best as i can.
Why does love hurt so bad :c
I dont wanna hurt people but i cant just lead them on and hope the relationship dies on its own.
>>692778899
Again, kill yourself.
You self-centered faggot.
>>692779064
Explain to me how im self centered, butthurtanon
I used to constantly feel up my passed out drunk stopmom, she passed away, and eversince then, I live with unbearable guilt and anxiety, but otherwise I'm a person who helps others,and generally known as the nice/funny guy. Thoughts? How fucked am I in the head?
>>692768723
Gordon's London Dry Gin.
Clover.
I don't want to hurt my mom any more.
Femanon here, i date boys and break up with them over stupid shit when they start to love me.
Its fun watching them cry on their facebook about the "perfect girl" even though im dating up to 3 boys at once any time.
Then i show them the other boys i was with. You guys and your feels and suicide threads are what i flick the bean to.
Little boys getting what they deserve.
>>692779783
Tits or GTFO
>>692774625
Why did this make me feel so hard?
>>692779783
nice bait , how does it feel that even in a feels thread you managed to be the most pathetic guy here
>>692768723
Local beer.
Cris.
I want to die for a cause.
>>692780029
What did you just say to me you little bitch?
>>692772389
well worth the read
>>692780594
Is that it ?
>>692780594
For fucking why?
>>692780808
Agreed. the feels from this are real
>>692780808
>>692781675
We have to do something about this
>>692780808
It really was. I used to always skip it due to length but I finally sat down and read it....just wow
>>692781758
Find the fucker who did this to Anon would be good
>>692777918
are you me?
sorry mate but muslim/asian women are cucks to the "society" and "loving family" (who do not unconditionally love).. i hope this woman is better than that but i doubt it.
Im sorry, i wish you the best though.
Ive just been through the same thing for 3 years if you wanna chat
>>692781963
No one should have to take this shit, we have to make someone pay
>>692781758
wish I could be useful. I can't do shit in tracking people down.
>>692768723
It's all gonna be alright anons. Please believe that. Life is hard right now, I understand that completely, but please hang in there. As hard as it may be to believe, good things are on the way. Really.
Godspeed anons.
>>692782232
All we need is somo info where this hapoend when it happend and stuff like that
>>692782105
Let's team up anon. Lets murder this asshole
>>692772344
Thanks anon, needed this tonight
>>692779233
anyone?
anyone here who want t tralk?
>>692774625
>feeling like you are never good enough
fucking dammit
>>692782720
not th same but i think i kmow what you feel
not fucked at all
you can do this
talk about that with professionals
good luck /b/ro
>>692775643
what scene from saving private ryan was this
Hey anon, you made me laugh in a feels thread
Thanks, faggot
>>692782072
It does help to know that there are other people going through similar things man. Because goddamn it's a rare situation to be in isn't it? Most people get out of it early at the start to avoid heartbreak
She is literally a slave to her family. No exaggeration, they get her to cook, clean, babysit 4 kids, won't let her stay over in a friends house. She's 21, their culture is focused around family so she doesn't want to disrespect them. She's not happy, but in her religion happiness doesn't matter. All that matters is praising Allah, and they're rewarded in the next life...she has such a miserable life, and since she's met me she's been the happiest she's ever been, but still feels guilty
Thanks though man, hope all is going well for you now too!
My girlfriend left me 1 year ago, and after a lot of months feeling like shit and empty Im getting better, but the thing is that I still hate her so much, and apart from the fact that she left me, she isn't the devil or something like that, but I cant stop thinking how she betrays me with that decision after all of what we feel eachother.
I don't know how to deal with it, and I need it not for her sake, just for not being a stupid grumpy kid without logic and only rage, help me /b/
>>692783174
where do you live /b/ro, im assuming UK, but a bit more specific?
>>692774051
Same.
Hurts.
>>692776864
The only way to get over a love that strong is to find another to love.
Then you run the risk of memories of the first seeping in and you'll probably fuck the next one up then you get to go through all the pain all over again.
This is how I've lived for the last two decades and 4 relationships.
I just can't do love properly.
Try not fuck up the next one.
>>692783389
Dublin Ireland!
>>692783060
band of brothers m8
>>692783174
yes mate, more asian women with white guys now its 2/3rd gen.
I know it isnt exagerated, they are like slaves to family...will choose them because of threats...then my girl always said how family is so important. Its just brainwashing m8.
My woman was 26, and she was the same...she had to pretend she was going to cinema when seeing me...and she felt guilty as well.
We are going through the exact same situation.
The only hope is her leaving the religon, or finding imaans who are fine with interfaith weddings.
All thats left is to say you are from brum and we are the same person.
>>692783354
i dont know if thiis helps you but forme it was to find a better girl
i only get over it if i found a "new" love who show me that not every girl hurts you
to be honest ever giirl i met hurtas you from time to time but only becuse i had bad luck doesnt mean you have too
>>692783634
why you fucking bastard faggot
>be me on holiday, meet girl
>fall in love
>relationship is hard we live at other ends of the world
>she comes to my country
>both happy as hell
>after some years get married
>she gets supersick
>turns out she has HIV
>confess she got raped when small
>maybe ex-husband who cheated on her gave it to her
>she came from abusive household, didn't get much love when she was young
>basically every shitty thing you can imagine has happened to her
>i don't care bout the HIV, i didn't get it because condoms, she never wanted the pill because we wanted children and pill always fucked her up
>we manage try to make it work and it does for a while
>fighting more often
>slowly relationship dieing, she get more distant
>can't stop it
>always gave it my best
>got divoced
>my heart is torn to shreds, hard to feel happy for a long time
>recently been doing ok
>meet ex, ask her why we got divorced
>no answer..
>calls me up later to say; "I wanted you to have a good future, a kid without having the risk at getting HIV. a good wife who isn't fucked up from her past. I wanted you to be happy. So i pushed you away..."
mfw i wanted to fight against everything with her, stand by her, get trough it.
She sacrificed her own happiness so I could find happiness somewhere else.
it fucking shreds me to pieces.
I'd rather had her stop loving me or something.
this fucking life.
>>692783680
>>692783749
it not all about religion, In Islam you can marry with those who are people of book (Christians/Jews)
The problem is cultural aswell as religion, her parents probably want her to marry someone from her own race not just religion, for different reasons.
Maybe they want you to be from the same area in their home country, the same religion, the same language.
I am half English/Half Pakistani, and trust me i know, i have given up on Asian girls, they are not free.
You want a normal relationship, go on holiday, have fun, enjoy life, but you cant and it really drags the relationship down because you cant have a real relationship.
>>692776864
Anon .. i feel you so damn hard.
You describe my life so accurate its scary.
Unfortunately i have no clue at all how we could escape from this prison. Like you i tried everything for 2 straight years. Im no scared beta. Always succes with women .. but now ... i dont even want any other girls even if they like 9/10 and basicaly already on my dick.
The pic related .. i know it doesnt rly help and actually theres a part missing at the bottom where hes like depressed again.. and the words on the wall say "her her her" but at least it helped me to see that others feel just like me.
Just try to not give up. Im not far away from an heroing bc i just cant stand crying anymore.
>>692782848
Im here anon
>>692784081
make it work anon, tell her how you feel, its a meme, but don't let dreams be dreams, you will always be kicking yourself thinking 'What if...'
>>692784081
know this but vice versa
i think it was the only good thing i have ever done
>>692780594
i don't wanna be here any more
this fucking thread
>>692784637
it's to late.
There is no point of return anymore.
Plus we are both in different relationships.
At least i think, my new gf whom i really like is starting to act like a cunt. not sure if she need space or if we gonna brake up. which is sad really we are a fucking nice fit.
women are killing me man.
>>692784466
no. This guy is a kuffar made for the fire in her families eyes. Thats the main thing, her parents would be happier is he was muslim.
But ofc he/me will get judged without even uttering a sentence to them, but then we get called raycist and islamaphobic...
>>692784782
I feel you man. I feel you <3
[email protected]
In case any you /b/ros wanna talk.
Cheap nasty wine, one drink of J.D and rum and then back to more cheap nasty wine.
Not really many feels though
The only escape is laughter
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZeI0-9MX4XE
>>692783805
ty for trying but that doesnt works for me, in fact I want to stay pretty far from relationships and all of that stuff, because I have lost the ability to be happy/normal when I am completely alone without been dependant of another person, that is the main reason of my emptiness months ago.
>>692784851
yeah i know to them he is a kuffar, but really in Islam, i mean what is actually written in Quran Muslims/Christian/Jews are allowed to marry as they are 'People of the book' but for many muslims it doesnt work like that, if she marries a non muslim/a person not from the same race even, then she is bringing shame on the family and is a disgrace, which is sad, some people are backwards.
They never think, hmm can this guy make my daughter happy, can he provide for her, look after her.
the first thought is, is he muslim and/or the same race as us.
so sad.
>>692784663
There isn't anything i can say to make you feel better probably.
I keep on going, life gets better, hopefully for you to
>>692784630
do you knoew any wy to stop drinking ?
to stop feel like everything yoiu done is wrong?
to hurt even the one you would kill for
i know this sounds gay as fuck
but i would do anything to go back in time and kill myself before i did all this shit
now its too late
in can eay kill myself now but it dont change anything
>>692785535
Whats your story anon?
>>692785211
no problem /b/ro
good luck
>>692785522
anyway thank you
>>692773657
what's that comic?
>>692785495
Doesn't it say that Muslim men can marry non-Muslims, but Muslim women must marry a Muslim man? To ensure the kids are raised Muslim?
>>692785751
yeah, like we are in tribes anymore
>but the quran is relevant for all times
top kek
>>692785751
im not so sure, i could be wrong, but i believe in the Quran it says that people of the book can marry eachother, then in the hadith which is like rules and regulations that people wrote around the Prophet Muhammad after his death say that only Muslim Men can marry non Muslims.
>>692785620
cant wrtie much because im fucking drunk
but already wrote it in some feeld thread before
i lost my only friend that i ever had
she know me like no one else and vice versa
i dont loved her but we were soulmates
i nver thought that a person like this exist
she even helped me not to kill myself
i lost her because i was drunk and stupid
to this day i dont know why i did it but she will never talk to me again
since this day i litteraly feel like im dead
i jsut wander around and everything seems so worthless
every person i met are faceless ghosts
i dont talk at all
i dont think at all
i dont sleep anymore
i dont laugh or cry
but i think its better this way because now i can never hurt her again
Mu significant other is the only reason I'm not dead
>>692785495
>>692784851
You'd think since her family have lived here 13 years they'd accept that their daughter would be influenced by the culture here, and know that it's pretty impossible to be raised in a culture and not be swayed by it...but they don't, they have "parties" specifically designed to meet Muslim men. That's how the parents met too (they hate each other). Fucking crushes me to think that another man will have the life I'm supposed to have with her. We've discussed living together in future, having kids, pets...she wouldn't be happy with a Muslim man that could have other wives. I've opened her up to a new side of herself, and it's the most fun either of us have ever had
Her parents are not forgiving and do not forget anything, the dad relentlessly beat his sons to the point where they all moved to different countries and do not even speak to each other. He would kick her out in an instant if they knew about us. Horrible right? I'm not a threat to her faith, I don't want to take her away from her God, I've been supportive the whole way. Just a shame it's as if I'm viewed as "evil" or something to them
>>692768723
>Every day, everywhere you go, the person who could be your perfect partner in life, a person that will make you human again and get you out of this depressive hell might pass just right in front of you
>And you'll never know
>You'll never know.
>>692786575
Youll find the one you love.
>>692786997
or
>you found this person
>you are the happiest one on earth
>you're stupid
>you hurt that person
>you lost that person
>forever
>alone
>>692786869
mate, ive never related o an anon so much.
Your women needs to become alpha female and not get cucked by family, you need to explain how her parents only showing "love" when they go there way is not unconditional love.
Yeah you would think that, but i bet in there minds the daughter is paki/indian/bengali (wherever her parents are from)
Example, my muslim qt's parents are bengali, and they would argue when she said she is british, not bengali. Its such a shame, there is a reason we are divided, but hopefully its a generation thing...i doubt your girlfriend would treat her kids like that. (lets just hope she does not get with a strict muslim who will just keep the cycle of hate going)
>>692787048
i think im too bfucked up now
if if i found someone she never want to date someone like me
maybe the one i was before
i wasnt beta or autistic
even got a few girlfriends
but at this moment i dont want anyoneone at all
Need some advice /b/. 2 years ago i was with a girl that is in my group of friends. We were happy for a while and then she suddenly stopped talking to me and stopped hanging around our group of friends until i decided to "break up" with her (in reality we weren't together anymore anyway).
I learned that she is a huge commitophobe and that is the reason she pushed me away.
In those two years, we've continued being friends and sometimes we would get a little too close to eachother, but nothing major.
After i went through a bad breakup with my recent girlfriend, i developed feelings for her again though and while drunk, we made out again, didn't talk about it though.
I invited her over to my place (university city, she's still in our hometown) and on friday evening, we watched a movie, made out and kinda talked about "us".
I wanted a relationship again, she wasn't sure and we went to sleep cuddling etc.
Next day i kinda showed her the city, but we didn't really talk a lot. In the evening she completely closed off and we basically didn't say a word to eachother until she left.
Now, every time we're drunk, we're awesome together even if nothings happening and she seems to have feelings for me, but sober she's her usual commitophobe.
I have no idea how to approach this or make it work, but i can't really forget her because when we drink, we both seem to want nothing more than getting together again...
I know this is not really the right thread, but my feelings for her kinda pulled me out of my post-breakup depression and they never really went away in those 2 years since our relationship
>>692777718
Hi. I'm Steve.
>>692786482
I think it's because the men are the decision makers of the household, and if the father is non-Muslim, it's assumed the child will be raised non-Muslim.
But what I'm saying is consider the culture I live in, and the same culture she was raised in. A woman can just as likely be the decision maker of the house here. So it really shouldn't apply
>>692787419
Your not anon. I believe in you. Your pure inside. Its just the coating they have to get through, youll get through it all anon.
>>692786869
mate tottally understand, as ive said my mother is english and my father is pakistani, and my dad is pretty much a push over so my mother took control and westernised him, but still there is certain things he wouldn't accept, like my sister marrying outside the race. fortunately for him she did find another asian man, and honestly she is happy, but i know if she didnt my dad would have to accept it, even though he wouldnt be happy, he would never lose contact with his daughter over it.
He wants me to marry an asian woman, but i dont think i will, because of how family oriented and never stepping out of the boundaries.
I like to drink, go out, want to find that 1 girl i can go around the world with
I understand your frustrations, its unfortunate.
>>692787249
Yeah she definitely wouldn't treat her kids like that. Despite everything she's been through she's the nicest person I've ever met. She treats others how she'd like to be treated, it's a shame she doesn't get the same treatment
I don't want her to be stuck with someone she doesn't love just because she feels she's pleasing her God. And by the time she might realise that she's unhappy with him and wants to change, it could be too late. She could have had his kids by then and be married. I know it probably sounds selfish man but I think I'm the only one who could truly love her. We've both opened up to each other so naturally about everything, things we've never said out loud to anyone before. The whole beginning of the relationship genuinely sounds like something from a book.
It was perfect, she had never been truly happy before she met me. Now it's been 2 months since I've actually been with her, and another month before I see her. I just hope she doesn't get consumed by her culture while she's now abroad for the month. She's bombarded by reasons to end it while she's there, just hope she doesn't give in
>>692787624
how?
how can i be the one i was if i dont want it?
i really dont want to be happy because im not depressed
its really hard to explain
i only can say
im ok with it
i think it would be better to be the old one
i dont know
and i dont know how
thank you anon but i think i go now
i wish you good luck for your future
and please think before you do something
always
you cant take things back
dont be a fucking faggot like me
>>692787496
yep unfortunately they bring their backward thinking over here, and they dont want to conform to society rules, they move here but still want to act as if they live in their 3rd world country.
They think they are doing whats best for their daughter but its not true, in the end the girl thinks that this is the best thing for me, without having to experience anything better.
>>692788026
I'm glad that your dad would realise that family comes first and it's not worth losing your daughter to save your "pride". Had she moved out at the time and lived by herself?
My girlfriends dad is unfortunately nothing like that. Has no contact with any of his children (apart from the ones that live in the house) and he refuses to admit fault. Beat them everyday, but refuses to accept he did anything. He genuinely believes he was a "good" dad. Completely deluded
Yeah you gotta live your life for you man, not for your dad. It's your life and your choices. As you said it's something that he'll have to accept eventually
>>692777387
I bet you thought this was deep when you typed it all out...
Ohh to be 16 again.
I like these feels thread. It makes me feel something other than.. nothing?... For the past few years, everything have been a routine. I sleep, wake up, study/work, go home and play video games/watch anime, and sleep again. The only human interaction I have are the occasional 'hi' and 'byes'. It has gotten to the point where I can't look into people's eyes or hold a normal conversation. (I'm fine on anonymous image boards though)
An the worst part is that I don't want to change. This routine is comfortable and peaceful. It's empty, but at the same time makes me feel safe. People have approached me, but I've always turned them down with a smile, and in the back of my head convincing them that they would have a better time without me or just hate my personality to justify that.
So yeah. Thanks for this thread OP
>>692777630
This is the saddest post in the thread.
I'm afraid to think of the possibility that the girl I fell in love with no longer exists.
She is still here physically and so am I, but there are a thousand miles between us. I'm a different person now then I was all those years ago, and I can only assume she has changed as well.
If I met her today, would I recognize her? Would she still be the same person?
I'm afraid to think the girl I loved, and continue to love every day, is nothing more than a memory of someone who no longer exists.That she's no longer the helpless girl that I could protect and hold. That I
I'm afraid to think I'm consciously lying to myself instead of facing the fact that she's never coming back.
I'm afraid to think I'm alone.
>>692777018
What do you need to talk about, mate?
>>692789391
Everybody in these threads is alone
I have a job, nice colleagues, several friends, a loving wife, 2 great kids...but I feel like the loneliest person, because nobody of them understands me...all of them only see the person I want them to see, not who I really am, as that would certainly drive all of them away.
>>692790224
That might be true. But what if they see your true self, and you just see your demons? Don't give up, they love you.
>>692788678
>not knowing pasta after reading it
Welcome, newfriend :)
>>692780594
take me out of this train
I'm abandoning this ride
it's too much
>>692774657
I regret starting to cut myself when I was 11, now 7 years later I can't get a job, it hurts, and I can't even see blood run to comfort myself
>>692783634
made me cry
>>692788712
Amen man, anon delivers. We will always be here.
>>692777199
>e
holyfuck annon.
>>692780516
>>692780539
>>692780555
>>692780569
>>692780594
Yiff in hell fur faggot.
Sup bro's, been feeling blue this weekend but idk why
I don't think any of you will take your time to read this, but I just feel... I feel like I need to type this out... to relieve myself I guess.
>be me, 20 years old Europefag
>signed in the army
>sent to Afghanistan
>boring as hell for a first few weeks
>sent on a patrol mission
>sitting in a truck
>suddenly, we stop
>leading truck stopped coz some kid had run on the street chasing a ball or someshit
>they told us NOT to stop because of kids and that on occasions like this, there's usually trap
>Guy in the leading truck scares the kid off
>we slowly start to move again
>guy next to me starts laughing
>"Fucking shit, I expected some towelhead to run at us with a bomb or somesh-"
>suddenly explosion
>leading truck got hit
>ordered to get out
>shots everywhere
>jump into the ditch next to the road
>see a kid behind nearby tree hiding something under his clothes staring at me
>hear someone yelling
>"Shoot that lil' fucker, he's got a bomb"
>Shoot without thinking
>kid goes down in a second
>shooting's over after a few minutes
>go to the kid
>no bomb
>no gun
>just a ball
I'll never forget his eyes. Never.
I just miss her.
I think about her every day, every minute and she doesn't think about me anymore. Now she's probably having fun with friends, with her family, perhaps even with a brand new crush.
And I don't have any friends or family or any kind of crush (and I'm too ugly anyway).
I just miss her.
>>692792454
Jesus christ anon, then where did the shots come from?
>>692792454
Dude you don't feel bad when you shoot a deer, humans are just animals with a sense of superiority. Kid may have grown up to kill people and treat his wife like shit, especially living in poverty in a war ridden country.
>>692792709
This
>>692792689
this isnt a YLYL bread m9
>>692774961
This one hit home. First time I immediately teared up, by looking at a picture.
i dated my ex for 9 months, we were living together for a while, it was somewhat serious - but she was a total whore and crazy bitch, feminist, etc.
When I left she got a new bf one week later, moved across the country with him 3 months later, and now, 8 months later, they're engaged
he's a weeaboo who just got his first bank account at 24 because his rich parents have babied him his entire life
not sure how to feel
>>692792617
It get better /B/ro
>>692790516
y..you too thanks
>>692792759
This is a feel thread.
Happened or not, I just want to feel something other than emptiness
>>692778808
that was no-man at all.
You shouldn't lose yourself, you shouldn't do it for anyone.
>>692793596
She left me 2 years ago
>>692779233
You are only fucked for those who know you are fucked
Her name is larissa and she's the first person to make me not want to be alone. She's also the first person to make me feel lonely.
Mfw I have no clue if she cares a spec about me
This is hell /b/ what do I do
>>692793172
>she was a feminist
>not sure how to feel
Feel happy you dumb fuck. You dodged a god damn bullet.
Feel sorry for that dmb fuck she married. You know she's just going to take all his money and fuck as many chads as she can. Poor cuck.
Not drinking anything at the moment (thanks for asking)
Savannah
Her and my fellow /b/ros
>>692794432
Leave and come back when you're at least 18 years old.
>>692768723
Drinking Jameson. Pure, no ice and listening to Neil Young.
No point in getting sad, no point in getting angry, just enjoying my alcohol-induced bliss for a few hours so I don't have to face being lonely and depressed for just a few hours.
>>692794637
Tom Waits ftw
>>692768723
Not drinking anything because I'm too broke to afford drinks.
There's no one at the moment which is almost worse than missing someone.
Still have a little bit of hope that it'll get better.
>>692794759
As soon as this song is over I'm jumping over to him. Think it'll be some of his early stuff, like Better Off Without A Wife, because fuck it I've tried and I doubt I'll ever want to get tied down to that shit ever again.
>>692788060
>treats others how she'd/he'd like to be treated
I don't understand how parents fuck up the easiest thing in the fucking book
>>692794455
my sadness comes from the possibility that the guy is so autistic that they'll live happily ever after, I think
But your comment is correct. I had no desire to stay with her and regret being with her from the first month onward.
It would just be satisfying to see her crash and burn. Likewise I'd love to see the weeb get rekt as well.
I'd also like to stop thinking about it
We`re all anyways dead right?
>>692786621
I feel you /b/to
The only thing that stops me from eating my gun is what it would do to her. She doesn't deserve that kind of baggage, and that's all that keeps me going.
>>692795304
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-X2atEH7nCg
>>692768723
Never give up, snack machine! <3
add me /b/ros, need people to talk to, and its nice people all around the world are going through similar things
my kik is Has_Ja3
I love you guys. Reading your problems makes me feel like mine's are lighter, you saved me from a breakdown and a restless night
>>692797220
agree /b/ro is nice to know that some people are going through similar problems as ourselves.
>>692768723
i m 29 virgin ; in a job ; looking fo rthe job of cop faiing since 6 year ; feeling like everythign is impossible ; born into failed family of drug father and quarelsome mother ;raised my grandparents; GF just left in december ; i feel the world has ended for ; i would never be able to find job never find love no family ; and this nigger country full of nigger is so depressing ; wish someone see the world through my eyes and beleive ; i dont know why we live ; would be greatfull to god if he give me death other then suicide ; coz of afraid of failures ; i am afraid of life ; life is failure ; and i am loosing hope; there seem no hope ; tried praying to god but seem like i am cursed from the day i born ; my hairs are falling a lot too ; seem like i will go bald ; watch rekt videos ; thin khow lucky people are when they die; death seem heaven for me ; life is so bad teh world of god is so ugly so bad that i think why it existed on first place ; sometime i think this is my hell ; and it is keep getting worse
>>692783634
;-; dogeee
>>692797801
This post gave me eye cancer.
>>692797801
where do you live?, somewhere in south america?
>>692798809
one of the worst place on earth ; no its not africa or islam; and u will never understand if u werent here its problem
I live currently 700km away from my gf, she found a job adn went there, my contract ends in a month, and I'm moving there, but she's really apathetic and depressed since he went there 3 weeks ago
I don't know how to cheer her up, and it's taking a toll on me, as I was always the optimism inducer when things went wrong, but now I ran out of ideas
>>692799422
As you can see english ain't my first language, and the latter half of the post didn't go through because I'm fucking stupid
Talking about stupid, I'm afraid of moving there, got no higher studies, got no skills whatsoever, my work experience is only in a factory, and I don't even have a driver's license.
How can I survive there? I don't know, but my fear is gaining weight on the scale positivism/fear. And she being prone to depression ain't helping, she just gets more and more anxious and makes me be like that too
>>692787427
sorry dude just let that one go. you deserve so much better than that.
i'd still leave the door open in the future, you never know. maybe something clicks in her head and you're okay but don't waste your youth waiting on someone
>>692780029
Savage as fuck mate
http://www.pomfpomf.moe/doujins/277/
I love my wife and she loves me. She is as happy as shes ever been in life
But how do i love myself?
>>692799422
700km away?
She's fucking another guy.
>>692801561
Why do you feel the need to try and hurt others?
I wont call you names or berate you, but im genuinely curious
>>692801691
not him but; probably because it is easier to put people down then to rise above them.
So many people do this.
Make others feel shittier then you so your life looks a lot better then it actually is.
>>692801691
because there's a 99% it's true
women are awful
>>692801919
I cant understand how someone like that can live with themselves
>>692802010
Mate, it aint. Try dating someone outside your usual archetype of personality. Id wager to say 85 percent of women will remain faithful. All you gotta do is find one
>>692802219
because fooling yourself hurts a lot less in life.
anons why are girls/dangerous? I found the hard way, just never the why....
why is it that I can't get one out of my head out of billions of other girls why her? or the fact that I lose sleep? why is it the fact that I miss her dorkyness? why the fuck do I feel so empty inside with other girls? how can someone with a severe case of misanthrope feel all of this for one dorky, quirky girl? who is the total opposite of me?
>>692803354
you more than likely put her on a pedestal that she more than likely didn't want to be on
remember anon, she wanted to fuck you because you're better than her. she was your queen aka the king's main bitch. just find another main bitch and you'll be just fine
>>692769936
>Mfw my gf does all those things
I don't want to die.
I just don't want to live anymore.
I'm feeling super sad and depressed those days..
It's been a long time since the last time that I felt alive.
My everyday life is a fucking routine and my whole file is falling appart.
I want to be a hero guys. But ahahI'm too scared of this shit.
I was finally a little happy because the person that love told me that she was in love with me too..
Too bad she lives far away and doesn't want to start a relationship.
I don't have any friends here,and I'm just making my parents sad because they see me acting like a vegetable.
I want my life to change but..I just don't know how.
Any advise is really welcome.
>inb4 "killyourself faggot."
>>692774625
>space is real
>>692780594
Would've been sad without the furries
>>692772611
Why the black mesa shirt tho?
>>692783354
Girlfriend I've been with for 6 years give or take broke up with me and I feel exactly the same. I'm just dead inside and I can't stop thinking about her even when I'm with other people
whats up with 4chan today? whats up with this thread?
>>692783354
I know your feel, m8
Going for 2 years now
