>>692371898 >I'm sad >I'm going to make my self forever less attractive and make people more repulsed by me because that will make it better.
Why don't you cut your face or splash acid on yourself? I mean the point of cutting is to make yourself ugly right? Like cutting is what teens do to keep them selfs forever virgins and make them selfs as unattractive as possible right?
Also anyone who self harms is 99% under the age of 17 so fuck off you child.
>>692373310 >Kicked out young. Had to learn the world on my own. >Multiple friends have killed themselves. >22 now, had a kid. In extreme debt from fighting the mom to let me see the kid. >Only thing keeping me from an heroing is kid.
These people have convinced themselves that self harm is fun, and exciting. They are useless, even without problems they do it. No fucking clue why someone would never want to have kids raised correctly, but hey, that's their choice. They will pay for it eventually.
>>692373562 I cut myself really badly last year (really needed stitches, but I didn't go, that's what happens when you cut drunk). My husband was really helpful in making sure I took care of it, but obviously pretty pissed off that I did it in the first place. Anyway, I'm turning 30 soon, and I'm a therapist (how ironic). Most people START cutting in adolescents, but just like alcohol, once you're hooked, it's really hard to stop. It becomes your main coping skill (albeit an unhealthy one). I know I will think about cutting when times get stressful my entire life. The only difference is that now I can usually replace that desire with something healthier like working out or meditating.
>>692374095 You clearly didn't understand what I said. This was done during a time where I didn't have a clear conscious. This was all done before I knew how to solve problems. Try understanding what you read before you comment or you're just like every other inbred ameripigs you fucking swine.
What does cutting do for you? Does it feel good? Is it a psychological thing? This is rude but were you abused? Or are you just a normal person that likes to cut? I mean, that sounds like an oxymoron to me.
tl;dr I don't know why people cut and I'm curious.
>>692374617 For some people it results in a flood of endorphins. Then they have a good "feels bad" cry and use the tears to jerk off while they think about how shitty their lives are. Some people want the attention, some people are just edgy, and some are just into the way it makes them feel.
>>692374970 Lol yeah, you cut yourself abd scared up your body
I am scare free
Good luck being a freak for the rest of your life you self mutilating faggot, maybe you will one day find a girl who was in a fire or had an industrial accident so you can find someone who will love you and who's body is just as repulsive as yours.
>>692374241 >the responsible parent The same one that kicked their first kid out and apparently did a piss-poor job of raising the first one? If anything, that "responsible parent" will take a second chance as an opportunity to beat their previous score--in the game of "let's see how badly can we fuck this kid over."
Hello, yes! I came here today for a reply, or even better, several replies! Please make me feel relevant by giving me a (you)! Do it now or I'll go cut myself some more! Just letting you know you have a chance to save a life today! So rev up those comments!
PS: Don't say anything hateful or I will cut myself again
>>692377986 >Kicked out young. Had to learn the world on my own. >Multiple friends have killed themselves. >22 now, had a kid. In extreme debt from fighting the mom to let me see the kid. >Only thing keeping me from an heroing is kid.
Yes, mostly to deal with depression/anxiety/aspergers. Home wasn't always great, but it wasn't horrific. Wasn't beaten by parents or anything. I was lucky in that sense, but school was a fucking nightmare. and things only got worse after I left.
Meds and therapy were working for a while but not any more, can't afford therapy any more regardless. I cut myself when it's bad, it helps, but when they're deep they leave really nasty scars that itch like hell. More recently taken to just beating the shit out of my legs/arms/chest until they bruise as an alternative/distraction, helps a little, looks hilarious though when I imagine myself doing it.
No one knows bar the one friend I have that happens to be going through similar mental health issues.
>>692377114 >let me put it simple Wow, you really did put it simple. That caps lock really got the point across. Without it, I probably wouldn't have recognized you as a mature, well-adjusted member of society.
Did the parents make the right decision by throwing him out? If it was over cutting and they didn't try to get him professional help, then no, but I don't know the full story and I'm not that interested.
Were the parents right to separate him from the kid he had after they kicked him out? Only if he couldn't care for it himself--if they're keeping him from the kid just because they think he'd be a shit parent (after not helping him themselves) then they're a bigger risk to that kid than he is. If, on the other hand, he was already struggling then yeah, taking the kid was the right thing to do.
As for keeping him from seeing the kid...maybe. As I mentioned earlier, I don't know enough to reach a definitive conclusion.
Ok but seriously why tf do people cut >be me depressed af, most depressed I've ever felt in my life >decide to cut, never done it before >shitnotgoodatall.jpg >it wasn't CUTTING it *ba dum ts* >decide that it was stupid and went out for a run and a quick intense workout and I felt as good as new But seriously WHY. Is this some sort of mental disorder, if not. Go do something productive like help out a charity to make yourself feel better
Smh when utterly idiotic people think cutting is the go to answer
>>692374267 This is what I regret. The constant reminder and having to wear my past low point in life visibly. I used to cut because I just always bottled everything up until I'd be by myself and just snap. Obviously it was a chemical fix; adrenaline and endorphines being released which made me feel better. Eventually that led to alcoholism, where I would either get blackout drunk and say some things I could never picture me saying, when I was told what I actually said the next morning (hurtful things that even disgusted sober me), or I would wake up with cuts on my arm.
Unfortunately the trend continued, but the cutting stopped for years. I'd bottle shit up. One night I got really wasted, got into a fight with my now-ex wife, and slit my wrist with a serrated steak knife. I severed 3 nerve branches and the radial artery, spraying her with an arterial mist which started the flow of arterial blood pouring from my arm so quick I was immediately lightheaded and knew I fucked up this time. My heart stopped in the bathtub, I was revived there, rushed to the ambulance, where my heart stopped again on the way to the hospital. Brought back once again.
Some other stuff happened at the hospital, but it's not worth mentioning. Now I have feeling in only my pinkie and half of my ring finger, and such a large amount of scar tissue buildup and atrophy i can't do some of the things I loved to do anymore, such as play the piano. Worst of all, any time I meet someone new and they happen to notice the massive scar on from the palm of my hand to 3 inches below my wrist, that's all they think about you; they see you as an ill person who tried to take their own life, without even taking into consideration you have a story behind the scar.
Things are better. I have a good job, I haven't hurt myself in about 5 years and I'm just.. starting to feel better. I don't know what changed, but it wasn't this episode of weakness that did it. tldr: dont let a rush of emotions define you for life
people are fucking stupid if you call people who cut stupid if we cut then theres no other fucking way you fucking retarded fucks go live your fucking normal life you fucking pathetic good for nothing fucks
>>692387046 >hurrr durr I bet you did this because of the same, common, established, reasons others do it >lol so predictable
Look faggot, first of all I stopped, aight? Second of all, of course it fucking stimulated me in some ways, and sated something inside me. If I didn't feel a need to hurt myself, I wouldn't have tried to sate that need, now would I?
>>692371898 nah. held a knife up to my thigh during a moment of desperation before but then i was just like "yeah fuck that imma just get drunk instead". i'd rather numb my emotional pain than make it physical
>>692374095 why are assholes like you so offended by it? You seriously will state that killing yourself is fine but temporarily externalizing your pain is not.
Cutters - cut, if the alternate is permanent. The assholes will scar themselves up pulling ego stunts at the same age, for the literal attention they claim you want, and will sit in a bar sad and pathetic at 40 telling the story.
You, at least, will get past your issue. Feel good about this fact. Hopefully cut less.
>>692389679 >Cutting is a sign that the individual is asking for help and/or attention to get help. Again, you're not correct; this is your INTERPRETATION of something you clearly don't understand. There is no black and white here, everyone will have a different reason and answer; no ad hominem possible. My counter-argument was just that. This IS a subjective matter.
I'd think otherwise, because I've been there for reason you've yet to list with your years of expertise.
>>692391037 Sorry, it was my assumption you had. Focus on the tiny good things, rather than the bad; it'll bog you down fast. It's too easy to focus on the shitty things, especially if you expect everything to be shitty. Random advice, take from it what you will; hope things turn around man.
Don't be fucking pussies you fucking nigger faggots, just kill yourselves. Holy shit, cutting is for niggers and faggots, if you were a real man you would cut for results you cunty pre-teen nigger sympathizers.
>>692392424 Family is dead. Don't really have friends. My life is a joke. Second puberty is rough. I just can't find any meaning to life anymore. Have to be sober. What is the point to life anymore? Why stop cutting? I cut so bad at work one day I couldn't stop the bleeding, filled the trashcan with bloody paper towels and it ended up causing a scene. Later on I counted, I cut 153 times. I can't stop or rather...I don't really want to.
i wonder how people ended up in this thread and how op started it. are you all very bored losers? i ended up here because i myself am bored. and i was attracted to the shitty thread. why do i still browse this garbage
>>692393091 Sorry to hear that, friend :< I'm sure the friends you do have care about you more than you think. Try and open up to them? Or you could always try making new friends? I agree, if cutting helps, why stop? I have schizophrenia and I use cutting to feel in control. I do it less often then I used to these days though.
>>692393333 i'd rather feel better about myself by reading about desperate fags that cut cause they can't handle life than browse one of the dozens of "pics you should't share" or "ylyl cancer banana edition lol" threads. also terrific quads my friend
>>692393333 Checked I come to these threads to see other peoples scars cause I myself have some and to hear their stories of why they do it. Seeing others also helps suppress the urge to do it, at least for me
I've been cutting for 3 yrs. My parents have brought to insane asylums, psychiatrists, you name it. My arms look like OPs pic. The other thing I like to cut, is the side of my thighs. That's where my deepest scars are.
BTW I'm a 17yr old gay boy and I believe most of my cutting stems from being gay and dealing with all that comes with that. My parents knowznut it still doesn't relieve the devil inside me.
>>692374735 I literally do it because i hate myself, thats it. Its destroying my flesh but i dont want to die, i got video games and nature and shit, but i love looking at how awful my thighs look, and i love the look of a okdy bathroom floor. Maybe it is for attention, but i dont show people, i dont do it on my arms
schizo stabby anon here. have you ever considered atypical antipsychotics? i was prescribed every antidepressant in the book to no effect, but when i started taking Saphris my whole life changed for the better.
please don't take this as an insult, just a suggestion from someone else who antidepressants had no positive effect on.
i do rarely, but not with the intent of doing major damage i get really bad anxiety-driven delusions that convince me, for a time, that shedding blood is helpful and i'll leave it in places that hold a particular importance for me i bled on the grounds where i met a good friend i don't know, it makes zero sense and sounds super faggy when i say it out loud but it makes sense at the time and it just boils in my head if i don't acknowledge it
for those of you who cut to feel the pain or adrenaline, try running or get yourself a punching bag or do what i do to relieve destructive feelings and salvage cans or porcelain knickknacks to shoot at (i live in the woods, so i'm not endangering my neighbors or anything)
everyone is always talking about/laughing at me. strangers are trying to kill me. the police are following me. there are cameras in everyone's house except mine. my house is the only truly safe place. people whisper my name when no people are physically present. no overt hallucinations but out of the corner of my eye i see shadow people and faces in the windows.
i have to close all the doors and the curtains at night or the undead will see me. the reason i cut is because if i don't, the people i love will be punished for my fuckups.
i know none of that makes sense but it does to me when i don't take my Saphris for too long. what about you, anon?
>>692401237 I see. I can undertsand that because I fear the same things. People always out to get me, cameras and mics recording me, helicopters watching me with IR cameras. Sometimes I feel there are cameras in my house and I check the ceiling for them, but other times I feel safe and don't check. I hear voices which call my name, encourage me to hurt myself, one which says "they're here" (referring to the shadow people who are from higher dimentions) and one which tells me to hide from the organisation watching me. I see shadowy/fuzzy outlines of people and frogs but they disappear when I blink.
>>692401237 >everyone is always talking about/laughing at me. it's true, but it's not everyone. happens to everyone though
>strangers are trying to kill me. maybe they're not strangers at all ....................
>the police are following me. they're 'following' everyone
>there are cameras in everyone's house except mine. there are cameras in everyones houses, and yours too. Own a smartphone or tablet with cams on both sides? yeah. that's just the orwellian world we live in, nothing special pertaining to you
>my house is the only truly safe place. then everywhere is a safe place, bc your house is no safer than anywhere else tbh
>people whisper my name when no people are physically present. they're not people, they're dark energies fucking with you because, well, they're bored stuck in the dark dimensions they hold themselves in. they need to fuck off back to the light but they dont always do that so they fuck with people who LET THEM
>no overt hallucinations but out of the corner of my eye i see shadow people and faces in the windows. they're just niggers
for me it started with my mom's voice whispering my name, then it was a nondescript female voice. sometimes she says really vicious things to me that i don't even feel comfortable repeating but the basic idea is she wants me to kill myself.
i don't talk back to the voice inside my head. some people do, but not me. i know it's a delusion but that doesn't make it feel any less real to me unfortunately.
i wouldn't wish this on anyone and will not ever be having kids.
no problem, it's my pleasure to offer solidarity and support. i actually never met anyone else with my condition. i was misdiagnosed for most of my life- ADHD, then anxiety, then major depressive disorder, then BPD, then bipolar, then finally paranoid schizophrenia.
>>692402944 >i don't talk back to the voice inside my head YOU GOTTA DO IT BRO!!!! THese lost souls have died and refuse to go to where they need to be for wehatever reason and they just fuck with the living! They want to drag you down to their shitty predicament, thus the common theme of them telling people to kill themself. You need to talk back! You need to first feel control of the situation, so that you don't project fear (it's what they like) and kindly tell them to fuck right off. I'm dead serious too, but you cannot do it with fear in your heart-- you HAVE to realise that they are powerless by themselves, and you are not going to offer your feels to feed them their energy. And tell them to fuck off, you're not going to be complicit.
>>692403005 I just want to be happy. Ever since I was a little kid I wanted to be a girl and it has killed me that I wasn't. I hate the fact that I am transgender, I really do. That is what most people don't understand about us; only AGP's want to be this way, most of us are doing this as a last resort to suicide. Unfortunately in my case it doesn't seem to be stopping that train.
I tell myself I am a freak because I am transitioning and it is killing me that I can't just me normal like everyone else. Why do I have to want this, on top of all the other shit in my life, I have to be like this too.
Why can't I just be normal and had a normal life with a normal, living family? Instead of having fucked up ideas on gender and a fucked up life of having no family left?
>>692403557 I try to keep them straight. I hate disorganized cutting. Take some god damn pride in your work at least.
>>692404424 >Ever since I was a little kid I wanted to be a girl and it has killed me that I wasn't. I hate the fact that I am transgender, I really do It is what it is man, you got the neurological physiology of a woman, but in an XY phenootype body- why can no one accept this? Whats with all the bullshit ancillary stuff like changing your name to a girls name and mutilating your genitals? Just live as a fucking women with your given name and given genitals! When will LGBTQCEI people just grow the balls (or ovaries as it were) to unapologetically be themself!!!!
>>692404424 You're trans? I imagine any transition would be a challenge not to mention having other problems as well. You have my sympathies. Sadly things rarely get better without change. Just try going with the flow of things and try putting yourself out there more. <3
>>692405524 >Sadly things rarely get better without change That's what I'm sayin! The Jews wanna sell surgical mutilation and make money in the process, selling gays a dream of acceptance, when in fact it doesnt help at all.
>>692404885 The reason nobody can accept this is shown in your post. Changing our names makes us feel feminine or masculine. Kevin isn't a girls name, it's not. No matter how you slice it calling a girl Kevin just sounds weird. I don't have a name like Kris or some shit like that.
Some people (like me) Have dysphoria over the fact they have the wrong genitals. It is a deep thing, I don't even like touching them. It feels wrong in so. many. ways. You will never understand that. We have to do this.
>>692405524 Yup. Honest injun. I honestly don't want sympathy, I just want people to accept us for who we are. So much science has been done on people like me to see of there is something real behind this and there is, I have so many studies showing that and so few with evidence against it.
I just want the hatred to stop, I know I am wanting to much in this day and age, but the psychology of changing ones entire being is rough, as rough as it was on you going through puberty. Estrogen is hard.
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