Tell me something bout yourself anon. It can be anything.
>I really like the metal gear games.
Nothing makes me happy anymore except for weed and receiving a like on dating sites even though every single time it has either been a mistake or they never respond to a hello.
I'm not even that bad looking face wise. Just a disgusting fatty
I hope you have a nice shit anon
I am really sorry to hear that man. An online stranger can not do much about your situation. I do hope you can find some motivation to attempt to keep trying and escape the rut you are stuck in. Here is a song which i think is very motivational and i like a lot.
Sleep tight anon
I know that fear. I do not know how your life will turn out, but i hope you will be able to hang on for now.
How. Currently I've been starving myself, not out of choice or a disorder. Just food in general doesn't appeal to me at all.
Been skateboarding for exercise. Got Bigass paved bike trails near my house that go for miles and I ride those.
Can't bring myself to go to the gym because of anxiety and self worth bullshit. You know how that song and dance goes. Or have at least heard of others like that.
Can't talk to people about anything except vidya.
Don't know basic conversation starters and how to keep one going. Just devolves into "oh yeah?" and "aww nice!"
Been stuck between 248-245lbs for a year.
Only girlfriend I ever had was out of sheer luck. And I couldn't even talk to her. Somehow she stayed with me for a year and when she finally got sick of my Shit and left me. I lost 40 pounds in 3 weeks.
I am not a well adjusted individual.
I've tried killing myself but I'm too much of a pussy to go through with it.
How could I possibly get better
Thanks anon. I'm currently kind of okay, mostly because I'm still only 16 ( yeah i know youngfag ), but i've allways had this in the back of my mind, and I'm doing nothing to help it.
skating and biking is better than nothing, but hitting the gym is much better. Try listening to something to make you forget about everybody else at the start and after some time you'll get used to it. Or go with someone and ask them to push you inside if needed.
This is probably really obvious but go to some event that has something you like and try to talk with a few girls. Do it with friends if that helps. If you have no friends than you can work on making some there. I get that you may be scared of that and i am the last person who will spout the "Just BEEE yourself BS. Just try to do the best you can if you like my idea. You can start out with saying that you like someone's shirt. or some other easy shit.
Change your attitude.
The only thing I talk about is vidya aswell but I can bullshit pretty well. Just talk about random shit and see that the person doesnt lose interest and give you "automatic" answers like the ones you give to people. If you say that multiple times people will think you just dont give a fuck. Also if you dont know anything about a topic ask questions about it so it seems like youre interested.
i just had surgery this morning. loose-skin removal because i used to be a fat-as-fatass. pic related, me right now.
same fam. love them. put in hundreds of hours.
I hope you are feeling well after your surgery anon. I think i played more than 400 hours of peace walker on my psp. I am probably gonna play the shit out of the PS3 version as well. I am playing all the MGS games together with my friend. I have not even played 5 yet so the playtime will be insane. Shit is pretty lit tbh.
5 is great. I love managing my base and my team and infiltrating enemy FOBS. havent even touched the multiplayer more than 2-3 times, and havent finished the main storyline either. I got distracted with Witcher 3 for a long time but it's good to come back to it.!
Thanks for the well-wishes
I ate 6 pears today. I dont even like them that much. Just bought them and they start to turn bad so i need to eat them asap. And that was the most interesting part of my day.
How interesting anon. I started a pear thread before this one. This one seems to be more liked though. Have an image of wet pears anon.
Check out these apples
>witnessing the 88 is another 88
i know how to get CP without mods knowing
Is it not degenerate enough for you, /b/tard?
Same, I hope he has a good career
Glad to see we both have similar interests
Why do you hold that opinion bro?
That's pretty cool man. How long ago was that?
I once walked home in a flood in the middle of the night...alone.
I'm starting to worry that people aren't forming their own opinions on things anymore.
That actually sounds kinda comfy. Even if you do not agree it is an interesting thing to do imo.
Always nice to encounter another mgs lover online. Those custom tanks in peace walker sure are a bitch ha?
I believe no one that I have ever met should be my friend, but I still "make friends" cause of social norms.
Am having a fun time replying to anons and just chilling up in here. Will continue to do so. Any lurkers afraid to post please don't be. All anons are welcome to tell anything about themselves or to just chill. Anyoen else like Zero Punctiation? Watching that between checking out the thread.
Help change what being black means, anon.
Be a good man. Be a good dad (if you aren't foreveralone.) Work hard. Make something of yourself. Make it so those who come after you can legitimately be happy being black.
Socially accepted ignorance. For instance the Orlando shooting was taken off of Wikipedia's list of Islamic terrorist attacks.
Doesn't work. What I've learned, is that blacks love to perpetuate their own problems, and hate, hate, HATE anything that runs contrary to what they deem as 'blackness,' even if it's self-improvement and group-economics. To put it simply, blacks are like a monster that hurts itself and rejects any attempt at healing, even if that attempt comes from within. They reject the 'medicine,' alienating any black who doesn't toe the line of their "standard of blackness." At this point, I wouldn't even be upset if other races banded together to start genociding blacks.
As for children, I don't intend to have any. Ever. I've been single for the last 11 years, and I have very little interest in women, relationships, or sex at this point. This is not to mention, of course, that marriage is a business; an institution to benefit women and society at the expense of men. No thanks.
I'm gonna be a little contrarian here even though I hate Islam.
Omar Mateen was a homo, a closet homo, a steroid abusing cop-wannabe who worshipped the NYPD and wanted to be an alpha male dudebro instead of a fag that his dad hated. He roid-raged and killed a bunch of gays in a beta-ass rampage.
It really wasn't much to do with Islam.
damn, a red-pilled, racially aware black man
"I've never been interested in other people's lives."
I'm in love with a girl named Nikki Spiratos. I just wish she knew. Lives in Chicago, perfect girl. fuck man. just fuck.
this man sounds like an upstanding black man and for once
is not a nigger
my urge to purge you from the gene pool is lowering anon
i would suggest you listen to milo's advice to that one black fan at one of his debates or whatever...
this shit has literally been happening to me all day
no joke like the 20th+ time i was 1 away from trips today
No, you can purge me. If reincarnation is real, then I might be reborn as a non-black, maybe a Korean instead.
If it's not and a person just 'dies,' then nothing of value will have been lost.
I have succubus bitches chill with me all day.
>Tfw spectral blowjob
Don't throw yourself away. There were black Nazis, after all.
It's the non-SJW counterpart to Reddit, I think you might find interesting. Just don't subscribe to v/fatpeoplehate as it's pointless and spammy
I wish i was more like big boss tbqhwy anon.
Feels like there is a hole in your chest right? That shitty feeling of hopelesness. I hope that if it does not work out you can get over it in your own way man.
I just don't like people, and I have told various "friends" this, but they still want to be friends with me. So at that point I didn't try to stop them.
Yo get some friends you can relate to then
Thanks for explaining anon. No one can tell you that your way of life is wrong if you are okay with it. Thanks for the cute grill picture.
No hands orgasms are the fucking best. Also that hentai...You have good taste anon.
The only friends I have are ones I met online actually.
>also, you like Lost Pause?
No problem. Have another one and this pic also:>>692350289
I plan on getting this surgery eventually, haven't looked into it yet though. What's the recovery time? Pain?
How much weight did you lose?
I went from 276 to 173 so far and now my stomach, and inner biceps are gross. Same with my inner thighs. I'm stretch marked to fuck and look like I got mauled by a bear.
It's been 768 days since I saw her last. I'd do anything to make it work between us. anything. she knows who I am too. somewhere in her, I know she still loves me as much as I love her. she is what passion means to me.
I browse /d/ and some of my friends know this. I also like to post my nudes on /b/ whenever I have the excuse to do so. I'm a dude, tho, and that occasionally creates confusion.
Yep lost pause is pretty funny on occasion but his videos are more awkward than funny
But he tries
Just cause he tries makes him better than some.
Thanks you for the picture anon. Stay welcome
May i ask why? Not gonna be like "How dare you have a different opinion" Just wondering since i like it so much.
Thanks for showing that feather up my ass anon. Hope you all are still liking the thread.
nah jk haven't played it tbh. have seen a couple screenshots and read the plot and it seems okay. specially the end part with the boss. when i read that it was like snake eater feels all over....and i haven't even played it!
When I was younger, people failed to understand me (people still fail to understand me, but that's besides the point). They would come up with wild theories, and ask me questions. A lot of the times, I would just do things, or not care about things. When they would ask me why, I wouldn't have an answer for them. Why would I do those things? I don't know. Why don't I care about things? I don't know. They would keep poking at me, asking me about it, so I Would eventually just say something like "yeah, sure" to get them off of my back.
I ended up developing a habit of agreeing with people even when they were completely wrong about me.
In middle school, I was generous and kind, I would give people a few bucks even though I was poor, so they could get those extra snacks.
I just did it out of the kindness of my heart, but I didn't know how to explain that.
People would keep asking me why I was giving out money so much compared to everyone else. Eventually, even though it was not true, I said it was because when you give out money, bitches would come. That was in middle school.
The agreeing with people even though they were wrong developed more strongly in high school.
Now, my friends from high school believe all kinds of stupid bullshit about me.
They also seem to fail to comprehend the growth of humans.
I don't stick to fixed beliefs and values. As I gain new information, as I ponder things, my views change, and I change as a person.
I've changed a lot over the years, yet they still seem to speak as if I'm still as ignorant, lacking of understanding, and lacking of skill, as I was before.
Even though people are completely wrong about bullshit and or are speaking out of their gaping asses, I still have a habit of agreeing with them anyway.
This may have led one of my friends thinking he is of having superior knowledge and understanding to a subject over me, despite how he's just blatantly wrong and obviously blasting bullshit out of his asshole.
He tries, whether he knows it or not, whether he's just acting impulsively or consciously, to assert himself as a teacher, put me in a position of student, even though my knowledge and understanding is miles above his.
The ignorance, the delusion, it's everywhere, and it's always staring me in the face.
It's partially my fault, but the lack of knowledge, and the stupidity of everyone else, plays a large role.
I don't get how ign gave it a 10/10 from what I've seen and heard. The open world seems like another car cry with outposts after outposts but less dense and entertaining. Because it doesn't have the crafting component and hunting like far cry. And the story seems very mediocre
The people I interact with the most are ignorant of logic and reasoning, and fail to develop and skills of logic and reasoning.
So, it's ignorance and delusion all around me, all of the time.
So, it's just bullshit all around me, all of the time.
>I like the horror, madness and apocalyptic look of my country. But still i want to run away from here, as far as eyes can see.
I never really feel motivation and passion anon. Maybe only when it's about getting a special weapon or reward in some game or something. But i don't think that is what you meant with "real". I like nothing and care about nothing aside from biological urges enough to actually do something with my life. When i fuck something up i am mostly afraid of other people being mad at me then the consequences that influence me.
Can we get a feels thread?
Yesterday i lost my girlfiend of 6 years, a drunk driver. She died instantly. I can´t stop thinking about suicide, i need help and i feel alone, i don´t have many friends and my family isn´t there for me. Please help me
I have a strong urge to jerk off to Bowser (that turtle that breathes fire) porn even though I've never done it before or seen it and I don't know why and this feels incredibly weird.
I should propably just do it
It's six months I don't date any girl and I do not care anymore. Once, I would have done anything to get in one chick's panties even if I was not really interested, now in my 30s it's like the thrill has gone. I'll die alone.
I love going to social places with a lot of strangers. Hobby groups etc. And then act out a role. I maybe have aspergers, really bad OCD or some weird tics. Sometimes im mute or deaf. Other times i only speak english (not my native language).
Fuck i am so sorry man. I strongly suggest you seek professional help. Talking about it for a long period of time is shit but keeping it all inside will break you. At least that is what i think.
No dice this time, hope you will get to do it soon anon.
Meh it still has some live in it.
Have you tried professional help? Oor do you not believe that it works? Can't blame you if you have that opinion.
I have the opposite problem. I am 20 and a KV. I want a sexual /romantic expirience really bad. I hate myself for caring so much about it.
I first had sex in 8th grade when I was 14. Sex was what I craved and it was a priority, I really wanted to experience it. I was more chubby back then but not a lard. Honestly just talk to girls. She wasn't a 10/10 but not ugly either. Her best friend at the time ended up sucking my cock after we broke up.
Honestly for some reason now my social anxiety has gotten worse and I just feel uncomfortable trying to talk to a girl because I don't want them to think I'm weird or something like that. I've been trying not to care but I remember when I was younger I had no fear or shyness of talking to girls.
it's midnight, I'm thinking of microwaving some spring roll. I just binged on snacks and purged some of it in the toilet. 155cm/53kg Not ugly but having constant complex about my body since my friends are all pretty and slender.
I wish i could tell you that it does and completly mean it. Truth is i am a fucking moron when it comes to life knowledge. I have no idea man. Whether i get the motivation to get off my ass and start putting more effort in or not...i will just have to see. Keep having hope though pal.
I do a mixture of truth and lies, with varying degrees each time. In the end, it ends up being nothing at all.
Even this post has a hint of falsehood here and there, In varying ways.
thanks for listening and sharing. it's the least we all can do...
The only time I feel good about life is when I'm high on something. Doing literally anything while I'm sober kills me inside. Even doing things I used to enjoy is just awful.
I collect pissjugs
Collection got well over 100 gallons
If you would not have gotten sexy time so early you might have had an issue of caring too much. Then you would have had that problem. I hope this does not come over as "it could be worse"argument too much since that argument is shit. Just raising the point that once again the grass seems to always be greener on the other side. You avoided one issue but now have to deal with another. I hope you can find the strengt to do so.
Planning on drinking in a vew days as well. Hhaven't done it in a while, cheers.
Thanks for being in our thread anon. The fact that you are here is appreciated. I am planning to make more of these after a while. Making them back to back will make it stale. Maybe someone else will do it as well but i will def make this thread myself again soon. Hope you can be thee to chill.
Tell me about your favourite game anon. And how is the workout going?
I've never really been into games, unfortunately. Working out is going great. I look awesome compared to 2 years ago (skinny drug addict). Most days I can focus on working out and enjoying the little things but I'm just having a bad week I guess.
I have a friend. He's above average in intelligence at best. I'm a lot more knowledgeable, intelligent, and skilled, than this friend.
He's a lot more extraverted than me, he's likely an extravert.
He's bi-sexual, and I'm physically attractive, so he might also find me to be physically attractive.
One time, while I was in high school, and it was summer, he invited me to the beach with some of his friends. We get to the beach, and the friends all seem very extraverted, impulsive, and average and or below average in intelligence. So, a bunch of normal people.
He knows I have social skills and knowledge, skills of social manipulation, but I'm a good person and don't apply those manipulative skills.
I have a habit of generally being socially awkward, and not really being interested in the impulsive conversations about nothing, I ended up getting lost in my thought, and not socializing much, and ended up being seen as "quiet."
This led to delusions based off of ignorance from his friends.
One of the females, said something about "forever alone" and made half of a heart with her fingers for me to complete. I don't really care about pop culture, and didn't know what she was referencing, but I completed the heart impulsively, as it seemed like that was the socially acceptable thing to do.
It seemed as if that referenced some group or portrayed group that is lonely, depressed, and can't find romantic and or sexual partners.
At the time, I gave no fucks. I didn't want a romantic and or sexual partner, I didn't want to have sex, I wasn't lonely and had too many people in my life too much of the time, and found that shit to be bullshit and not worth my time.
I had spent my earlier youth being an immoral, impulsive, self indulgent, fuck head. I partook of sex, manipulated, generally fucked around.
I thought myself to be above that bullshit during our time at the beach.
I smoke and shoot it at home. Mostly smoke.
I was married for a bit. Teeth are fine, don't believe what the media says about meth, it's such ridiculous bullshit.
I'm lonely sometimes, but then I remember what it's like to be in relationships; it's a lot more trouble than I'd like to take on right now. I'm working on my career.
I suffer from anxiety and depression, but I've stopped taking any medication for it about 2 years ago; I've been a lot better off, too.
While I'm sure the 'yeah life must be so good if you're doing meth and drinking all the time' is an obvious reply, I just like the feeling. I don't actually do drugs at work, by the way. Not usually anyway. Sometimes I'll smoke a bit before I go to work depending on how tired I am.
Fuck man i started training but was too pussy to continue it. This random dtranger is proud of you. I can not make you like your life or solve your problem with words, but please at least realise that what you did was awesome.
I used to want an aftrlive after death. I consider myself a weak winer but now i am just kin dof tired. Not wanting to kill myself tired (yet) but i kind like the idea of oblivion a lot. Would you mind telling me more about your almost death expiriences?
I probably understood her delusion shortly after, but didn't bother to correct her, because I just didn't give a single flying fuck about what other people think about me. They could stay ignorant and delusional for all I cared.
I still don't really give a fuck now as it is.
But she was ignorant, and delusional based off of that ignorance, and all based off of a few seconds.
That's bullshit. It's not how she was delusional about me that's bullshit. The ignorance and delusion in general is bullshit.
At least you have a realistic real dream. The closest thing i have to that (aside from wanting a gf tbh) is being the owner of pic related and owning shit.
I still wouldn't take relationships if they were thrown at me, but that's probably because I don't find most people to be worth it.
Furthermore, a romantic relationships is nothing more than a friendship with kissing and sex, and I don't really care for that bullshit.
If for some reason I agree to getting a girlfriend, I'd probably just put out because of my lack of selfishness.
But I don't pursue that bullshit.
I've had small bit parts in hollywood movies on the past 2 years.
Millions have seen my face and heard my voice but I'm not at a point where anyone recognizes me. Odds are, couple of you already have.
Also I fucking love the MGS games too. But I don't consider MGS5 to be any good and it has absolutely no bearing on the story other than to adds a lot more convoluted shit. For this reason, it's not part of my personal canon.
I often think about how stupid racism is when im on chans
I'd love to see how everyone realizes that it is not the race that defines the person, but the thoughts and ideals that are in a persons brain
its utterly ironic how you see the same personalities in every race, country or anywhere really
still they bitch and ignorantly stereotypethink all over the place
That's kindof the beauty of the chan. All you know of a person is the text they write unless you're on /int/ in which case people have ammo to stereotype. Think of all the jews and blacks on /pol/ right now being buddies with American History X-tier neo-nazis.
It's amusing. 4chan is, at the same time, the most racist and the most racist-free zone. You will always be judged by the content you contribute.
Correlation is not causation, but there is correlation.
A lot of Americans are Christian, so a lot of Americans will try to do something generous, some Christians do end up strongly applying the bible's rules to their lives.
A lot end up being average people, and averagely selfish, but like to focus on their kindness to help them feel better about themselves.
But you end up having a lot of Americans valuing charity and the like.
Yeah well, it'd be a lot easier if taking a license wouldn't be so fucking expensive. i payed $1800 to get it, plus a lot of extra fees. I just got told that i also have to pay additional fees of $500. and if i fail, retaking it will cost $100. So i'd prefer being a pussy with money than one with even more fees to pay
Exactly this anon. That mech would listen only to me and protect me from the big bad world.
I heard MGS5 has a shit story as well. Partially becauce of conamy. It is kind of peace walker HD though which makes me cum buckets.
I am afraid to drive as well. You are awesome for beating your fears and going for it. Stay awesome anon.
I'm sorry but you can't ignore how hugely advance white and East Asian civilisations were compared to the rest of the world. Africa and the Middle East are practically stone age in comparison.
Thanks man. The issue here is that there's two tests, there's the theory part, with the "watchu gon do?" multiple choice questions. I already got through that. the next is the actual driving test, which i can't really study for, because while i can drive around on private property, the car i'll be driving for the test is completely differen't and the clutch is shit.. But thanks a lot for the encouragement anyways
That's the plan, although I live in a small country with little industry, so I'm forced to auditions for the few roles that come here. I planned on gathering enough experience and roles to try my luck in England, but with Brexit that will become far too difficult. I'm going to bide my time, make some short films to beef up my showreel and see how the situation unfolds. I might end up moving to Scotland if they go independent.
Last year I had a handful of roles, this year I've had nothing. I did a voiceover for a startup company here for peanuts, that's about it. It's all about luck, you have to be ready for a dry spell.
Then stop being stupid. You should objectively identify the parameters for passing, objectively identify your skills, and compare your skills relative to the passing parameters.
Then, once you've identified that you're capable a large majority of the time, then you take the test.
Better safe than sorry.
MGS5 from a gameplay perspective is fun and it IS kinda like PW HD in that it's got a lot of grinding and shit to collect and build. But story-wise it introduces a lot of completely whacked out bullshit that is literally needless because it's introduced and taken care of in the game itself with no other game mentioning it. It also goes to retarded lengths to simply explain the reason why Big Boss is still alive in MG2 after you offed him in MG1, a story point that is so old and needless that it's laughable to think that Kojima actually thought people gave two shits. Even hardcore fans never gave a fuck, it's literally nothing.
Because of that, it genuinely does not do anything at all for the story as a whole. It can be safely ignored 100%. It's more of a messed up spin-off with a retarded story. I'm not kidding when I say Portable Ops did a lot more for the backstory of the MGS series than 5 ever hoped to do.
Heh, thanks. If only i'd have any money left for gas afterwards. It is incredibly expensive here. But if you want or need to drive, you could maybe get a friend with a car, and go out in the sticks on some dirt road and do some practice runs. that's what i did to practice before the actual driving lessons. The actual lessons will be terrifying at first, even more so with a stereotypical step dad like i got as my teacher. And i still make colossal fuckups sometimes. But it's really awesome if you can overcome the terror that is driving around in a crowded city. best of luck with driving, whether you have a license or not
How is the Middle eEast stone age?
Their infrastructure differs immensely from ours, but they are not that uncivilised at all.
Africa is mainly fucked up because of the imperial race for resources down south, it'd look a lot different if they would have had a chance to develop
I grew up fat from early childhood.
I didn't end up getting skinnier until middle school.
I dressed nice in high school out of peer pressure.
From high school, there were a lot of things that the opposite gender would do that would suggest romantic and sexual interest in me, and that they found me physically attractive, but I didn't notice at the time.
As high school went on, I noticed more of that in public when I was out and about doing things, and identified those things, and identified how it suggested that I'm physically attractive, but I didn't accept it at the time.
I still didn't think that I was above average in attractiveness.
Now, looking at the evidence and information more objectively and with less bias, I accept that I'm attractive.
But I still don't give a fuck.
I remember reading part of a book on human behavior, and behavior of females among the general social settings in America in times that would be considered modern at the time of the book.
Generally, it was the male's role to initiate things when it comes to interaction between those of the opposite gender who are heterosexual.
Generally, American females wouldn't actively engage the opposite gender.
But females would adopt various more passive actions in an attempt to get the male to initiate the interaction.
I noticed those things happening to me. I thought about it at the time, but it wasn't enough to convince myself that I was attractive.
I am actually playing portable ops with a friend. We are going through all the mgs games. Iis is really meh but i still like it. It is like a demo to peace walker. Makes me appreciate the latter even more. Thanks for the info btw. I have to admit now i am even more curious as to how shit the story is.
Thanks for the ecouragement. I am not learning to drive right now, but shit i will have to at some point. At least i will know i am not the only one who was scared the first few lessons.
>How is the Middle eEast stone age?
Stone age in comparrison. They treat their women like cattle and execute gays ffs.
>Africa is mainly fucked up because of the imperial race for resources down south, it'd look a lot different if they would have had a chance to develop
They had thousands of years and didnt grow out of basic tribalism while other cultures had guns and were conquering the world. I believe every person should be treated equally, but that doesnt mean every race is the same.
My life has been spiraling down the drain ever since the age of 22. I'm 27 now and I'm watching almost every single person surpass me in accomplishments. Even though it makes me guilty, I take daily naps. I constantly look for ways to improve my life, but have zero energy to actually stick to my resolutions. It's an uphill climb everyday, OP, and watching everyone succeed makes it all the more difficult.
Don't let the thought of failing hold you back from your full potential of trying. The worst thing that could happen is you kill an entire family of people leaving one 6 year old boy to grow-- no I'm totally kidding. If you fail, you get valuable experience on the road, you'll learn from your mistakes, and the next time you tackle it you'll have a license.
I assume you have a driver's license. The issue is that i still don't have all the timing bits quite right and sometimes forget small things like looking over your shoulder before passing parked cars and things like that. Sometimes i don't really reserve enough time to look at signs, watch for pedestrians, work the clutch and the gears properly (fucking stick shift) But that's just me being slow
Some things you NEED real-world experience to be able to get better. You can't learn everything from a book. Everything else will fall into place. You may have some people honk at you in the beginning, but fuck them, you'll most likely /never/ see that person again. Plus if you do, you can run them over.
I've been in a relationship with a guy for almost 2 years (distance relationship, ocean between us, met a couple of times) and now he's broken up with me to take a break because I have low self-esteem and felt like he was so much better than me so I tried to gain some of his qualities. I lied to him about flirting with others, even though I never meant anything by doing so. I just found it interesting. And he says I haven't been myself but just turned into him. I've also had to break up with a close friend of mine, and even though I think it was right, I can't seem to let it go.
It's been a about 2+ months now and the entire time, even after he said he would emotionally support me if need be, he's not been there for me at all in my "quest to find myself" which he put me on. I feel very lonely.
On top of that I don't have a job, been trying to get one for more than a year, but it just never seems to work out. Planning to go to school again to study the only thing I can imagine having fun with. I think the world is pretty shit overall.
Gained some people I can talk to, kind of becoming my friends. I feel like I like two of them more than just friends, but I think it's just me being lonely.
I don't know what I want to do with my ex, because all I get as feedback from him is always negative. Never praise.
Everyone is scared in their first lessons. you should see the girls when we went on the on-ramp for the highway, she was shaking and almost screaming in terror. It was pretty great. The highway is the best place to be because it is a hell of a lot smoother than city traffic. But remember that almost everyone is scared shitless, some people are just better at hiding it. And some people are cocky idiots. Those are always fun, because they usually get too cocky and screw up massively
>You can't learn everything from a book.
You can, you just need a good enough book.
When people read a book, and then do something, and then find that it's different from the book, it's because the book wasn't detailed enough.
But often, it's just more efficient to just practice the thing and make adjustments based on how it was different.
Some people, generally speaking, just learn more easily through tactile means than visual means.
>I lied to him about flirting with others, even though I never meant anything by doing so.
Communication is key in a relationship. Don't like to him.
It's not too late to tell the truth. Talk things out, but just don't get emotional and lash out and say things you don't mean.
You can learn what you SHOULD do but until you practice doing it in the real world, you aren't going to be an immediate expert. I know this doesn't apply to everything, but for something like this, yes, it does.
Yeah, you're right about learning with practice. That's what i'll hopefully be doing really fucking hard at the last drive next week. Good think you can both mourn and celebrate with beer.
I was lost after high school, and as a result developed some pretty bad anxiety. I pursued a degree I didn't care about just so my parents would get off my back about becoming an uneducated hobo. For the past 4 years, I haven't been able to find decent work, but now I have student loans to worry about.
My friends who didn't go to college, and just about everyone else for that matter, is excelling at their careers. I've been to countless interviews, but never seem to land a full-time gig. I'm also slowly watching my body deteriorate from lack of use.
Life's not going so well at the moment.
Well, when i take the test doesn't really increase the amount of practice i get, since it only really affects how close together my limited number of drives are. I can't really learn how to pay more attention to everything on the road by reading a book. So i'll try my best to avoid drowning in the deep end and just get out alive
The breakup happened because we talked everything through. So he is aware of everything. I agree that communication is key and I tend to do the typical fight or flight thing. Where I just want to get away, but I stay and keep trying to talk. I just get too emotional and then I start crying and then I can't think clearly while he is very good at staying gathered. Although he turns to passive aggressiveness instead, which in turn makes it worse, too. He thinks he's right in the things he says and I only wish he wouldn't be so harsh because he knows that I am sensitive.
Yeah, I have cycles of working out hard and then getting injured and losing my momentum and ending up where I am now. It helps to have lifting buddies, but my friends are lazy as fuck.
The guy who's taking the test here
I agree. And you can't learn how to drive a car only by reading about it. You gotta practice. And you bet i'm gonna practice my ass off after i get the license
Focus on the small good things. It's way too easy to focus on the bad, especially the past. Focus on one day at a time, set goals and do your best to make them a reality.
No problem man.
Solid advice. I'm just super competitive and have always set the bar pretty high for myself, so I get really discouraged when I see other people doing better than me... which would likely explain why I've sunk so low now.
I know part of your feels becauce i am also studying something i do not give a fuck about. Thing is i do not care about any study. But you need a job later so i will bend over and take it. Life is shit sometimes anon.
Don't have too many people like that anymore.
Well, 21 years old, birth father died on Halloween when I was 8, never knew him. Lost faith in people after that. I'm depressed, but not clinically proven. I've lost a lot of the strength I managed to get by stagnation. My first moment of being consciously aware was when I was 4. Everything before was a literal dream.
I can understand that. When you feel that way just know there will always be people out there who are better at something than you are, but there are also a lot of people out there who are much worse. Just gotta keep pushing on. Rather than feeling down because someone is better at something, turn it into a force which drives you to become better.
im mostly a downer guy myself, but i can understand the fix. i'm not in a relationship for similar reasons and i've never considered medication as an alternative. but i've always subscribed to the reasoning of "do what makes you happy so long as you're not hurting others" which i guess would be the same measure i would resort to in this particular situation even though i've never indulged in meth particularly. at a certain point i believe it's the drugs that make us more susceptible to depression and anxiety as opposed to living a clean and sober life, but where's the fun in that? there's a fine line we all live on and i guess there comes a point where we have to decide whether the things we're doing truly decide our happiness or rather are just distractions from the sad reality which is our lives. it's a tough choice but for now i'm fine with smoking weed and being more happy than not
I've gained about 40 lbs since high school. A lot of it is muscle though (I'm about 22% body fat). I'm almost certain that, if I were to get back to my goal weight, I'd feel confident enough to not wallow in my own sorrows and get back into the world again.
Never let go of that hope.
I am sorry about your father anon. My father left when i was born. Saw him only a couple of times in the span of years. I am not pretending it is the same as dying but i also did not really have a father figure. That seems to fuck people up a bit huh. I fully realize that text on a screen from a random can not change your outlook on life. But when you encounter the one person you want a connection with , please do not give up on them because of the past. you might regret it later. Of cource that is easier said than done. I hope you can restore your faith in people somewhat anon.
You could also learn about the human brain and mind and how that applies to learning and applying knowledge.
Please, educate yourself before you formulate an opinion, because your opinion is wrong.
I hold not an opinion, I hold facts based on scientific research and experimentation.