Feels thread?
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Feels thread?
2 1/2 years in a committed relationship... Some bitch gets flirty and I just talk back and we exchange numbers. She sends me nudes on snapchat and I send her nudes back. This bitch tells her friend while all this goes down. I cut off connection with the bitch right after. Me and my girl are the happiest we have ever been. Then the bitches friend tells her about what happened. It's been a month now , she broke up with me and I feel terrible about everything. I was always loyal and committed and I fucking slipped up. Idk what to do. Which is why I'm awake at fucking 5am missing her so god damn much.
https://cosmofunnel.com/poems/man-73156
Good feels
Anyone else on here ??
>>697748924
>tfw you didnt get accepted to uni and all your dreams and goals crumble in front pf you as time and life passes by
>tfw you feel a little hope but it all disappears when you start realising about all the circumstances
>tfw you failed at life
An hero now?
At 25 I find my heart knows less than it ever did.
>>697749332
It'll hopefully get better Anon stay strong. Thanks for sharing
>>697749390
You'll find someone who will teach you how to love and open a whole new world to you. My (ex) gf did that for me, and I messed it up by taking her for granted. Now I'm with out her and I feel fucking miserable
4chan why does life have to be so fucked up. Suffering miserably when I know that other person isn't losing no sleep and has so many people there for them. Almost as if you don't matter or what you ever had with them is gone.
Wish this thread had more ppl
>>697749529
I dont know man, im 2 years late in life, i fucked up, i wanted to be a designer not a fuckin office zombie, im a fucking failure, everyone knows im one
I should kill myself, maybe i should pack some food and start wandering around untill death finally frees me from this horrible life, its just a matter of time until my parents kick me out
>>697749390
For what it's worth, you're not alone.
Life has some strange turns. Hopefully there's a decent turn for the better coming guys/gals/attack helicopters.
>>697750082
I suggest you follow your dreams no matter what sacrifices you make. Don't live life with "what ifs". Death seems like such an easy way out, I've thought about it so much. It seems pleasant almost, but I survive by hanging on to the things that make me happy. Because that's what makes life worth living
I have nothing to complain about
>>697750456
Deep man thanks
>>697750174
I'm afraid of never finding someone as Great as the girl I once had...
>>697750082
2 years? Pssshh
I've been in college for 7 years. Community college.
I'm literally a genius, I got one answer wrong on the SAT without scratch paper and I've done absolutely nothing with my gifts
I guess I play magic at a national level?
I could be doing so much
Instead I write poems most people don't find worth the effort and wallow in the disconnect I find in all situation.
A self depreciating and at once self aggrandizing prick with no ambitions overly content in muddied cots and silence
Genious is born of absence from reality.
I am absent
My parents and siblings despair but I can't bring myself to care when I'm busy pointlessly trying to build a statue of myself in atoms in my mind. Quite literally. Obsessed with pointless things
I'm not lonely. I have a beautiful girl that I've broken through my absence of heart but presence of body. I am lonely, for I am a weight to talk to. I suck joy from rooms not with anger or lashing out. Just questions.
My face, my body, my mind
They are fine
I am merely a pile of squandered resources
The epitome of failure because it was all handed to me and I did nothing.
Do something damnit.
A lazy genious is half the man that is a hardworking idiot
>>697750574
Lucky, i think I felt like that 1 1/2 ago... Wish I had that feeling back. Wish I could go back and change one decision, things would be so different.
>>697750082
2 years? Pssshh
I've been in college for 7 years. Community college.
I'm literally a genius, I got one answer wrong on the SAT without scratch paper and I've done absolutely nothing with my gifts
I guess I play magic at a national level?
I could be doing so much
Instead I write poems most people don't find worth the effort and wallow in the disconnect I find in all situation.
A self depreciating and at once self aggrandizing prick with no ambitions overly content in muddied cots and silence
Genious is born of absence from reality.
I am absent
My parents and siblings despair but I can't bring myself to care when I'm busy pointlessly trying to build a statue of myself in atoms in my mind. Quite literally. Obsessed with pointless things
I'm not lonely. I have a beautiful girl that I've broken through my absence of heart but presence of body. I am lonely, for I am a weight to talk to. I suck joy from rooms not with anger or lashing out. Just questions.
My face, my body, my mind
They are fine
I am merely a pile of squandered resources
The epitome of failure because it was all handed to me and I did nothing.
Do something damnit.
A lazy genious is half the man that is a hardworking idiot
And I mean that completely. This is what matters not my whiny self obsessive intro
>>697748955
>5am
>55 dubs
>>697750775
Sorry I'm wasted
One of the most things I fear is love. it's... scary shit.
>>697748955
i mean to be fair....... u did cheat on her.
how would you feel if she did the same thing to you, but with some guy?
>>697750950
Horrible and I empathize so much. If only things were easier. Just wish I can show her I'm still that guy who helped her overcome so many things. I've literally been there for her thru everything
>>697749638
Isn't that the most painful thing.
Its wholly different than lonely.
Wholly more agonizing
>>697750921
Love is dangerous and that's why it can be so beautiful... Love is not something to be played with.. You'll definitely get hurt if you do
>>697748924
>tfw you fell in love with a girl.
>she moves in. you live together 3 years.
>took her almost 1 and a half years to say "i love you" back
>find out it's cuz she was still on her ex's line
>forgive her anyway
>now she's getting distant
>spent this whole week at her friend's house an hour away. I know she's not lying about where she is, but she doesn't seem to miss me at all. hardly calls.
>tfw our last two phone calls, she didn't say "I love you" back
>tfw you love her more than she loves you. but she isn't doing anything to really "hurt" you....just slowly dying inside because you know she's not crazy about you like you are about her
>she probably isn't going anywhere, but only because she has nowhere to go.
>I think she loves me as a friend.
>>697750174
At least I'd feel special if I was :l
>>697751152
Break up 1st my man. move on. do it for yourself. DO IT FAG!
>>697751119
Totally agree, I feel bad for feeling like shit because I'm the one who made the mistake. But it literally feels like your world has collapsed. I think about her every single day. Sometimes I don't know what exactly I think about but she's just on my mind. I almost feel like a zombie at times. It's tough to see that they're able to start a whole new life with out you...
>>697751152
That's utterly heartbreaking in its subtle honest truth.
That is a living breathing real despair without the melodrama that in many ways muddies such things
>>697751074
which makes the betrayal feel even bigger
>>697751126
And I did. And I paid for it. Trying again but taking it slow and being more smart about it this time round. I still want it but am scared too.
>>697750921
I feel this completely anon. The fact that you could/can have such a strong attraction to someone special in your life is really scary at times...
>>697751074
i mean it's even harder getting played when you used to be in a close relationship.
it truly makes you feel like you can't trust anyone.
what does she say when you ask for a chance?
>>697751152
start distancing yourself from her more than she distances herself from you.
She is starting to view you as a puppydog, you need her to want you, you need her to need you, to make her feel like her world is in your hands.
Caring about anything is gay
>>697751152
Fuck break ups are the fucking worst. Especially because of how you feel about her. But if this continues , you have to rip the bandaid off... With the right mindset and time, you'll be better off with out her. I would probably confront her and go on a rant and really find out how she feels and if she does love you mostly as a friend. I would probably scold her for doing this to you and get it all of your chest
>>697751222
the thought of breaking up is enough to make me tear up.
idk i just don't think there's anyone else like her.
i'm not even scared she will leave, to be honest
i'm just scared that she's "settling" in her mind... or staying because it's comfortable. I'm scared i won't ever feel loved
>>697751325
You're totally right, she can't see me as the person I once was. Even though I know this will be the only time I will ever slip up...
>>697749332
>tfw you better learn a useful trade and be comfortably lower middle class.
Dude lower your ambitions and buck up. When you have a place to live and food to eat without having to worry if you will have enough for next month you're living good enough.
gf said we should take a brake last night because of my social anxiety, I get anxious when around other people that I know and it makes her feel like she is unwanted even though I would give my life for her...why do women have to be like this?
>>697751333
I'm scared too bro... I can't think of myself starting over with a new girl.
Take it slow, make sure the other person knows how you feel. Start off with little dates. You don't have to text her 24/7. Over time of you really like this person, you won't be as afraid to take that leap of faith
>>697751461
Underrated post
>>697751448
you're right man.
idk how to do it....
when i try to do my own thing or be less "available"
she gets upset....instead of chasing me she says I'm pushing her away.
but when she is distant...I always chase. I question it.
and she reacts like it's clingy. i know I'm very low maintenance though...i'm far from clingy. just want to feel loved.
maybe that's what i need to do though.
not distance myself....but let her do her "distancing" and don't chase her.
she says thats what she wants, but i think it's a lie.
for example, she didn't call for 2 days. i decided i would not call first because i wanted to see how long it took her to call me.
when she finally called, she basically said "why haven't you called?? what have you been up to? do you miss me" etc
>>697751644
Talk to her dude. Seems like a lack of communication.
>>697750674
>>697751398
She doesn't know what she wants... Brain and heart tell her different things. She has a lot going on and starting a new chapter in life and she doesn't know how to deal with all this even if she were to get back with me
>>697751792
I did man i have explained everything to her, I have told her its not her fault and that I care about her more than i care about my own life, but I guess its not enough...
>>697751644
Yeah try talking to her. It is pretty shitty when she wants to take a break because of something that you cannot control, you know? She's disregarding your feelings and is only caring about hers. You really must communicate!
>>697751495
how long would you give it?
it's just tough because....I know there's love there.
I know I love her, for sure. I'm pretty sure she loves me.
I almost think if I broke up with her, she would go crazy. but who knows if that would last after I took her back. that's almost worse than not leaving at all.
i'm just waiting for her to realize how much she loves/needs me. cuz i know she does. she only admits it rarely...maybe when she's intoxicated or going through a lot and I'm the shoulder she turns to
>>697751644
She doesn't fully understand or empathize your situation. Communication is key to a successful relationship
>>697750692
A genius huh, heard that one before.
1143
>tfw you're talking to a qt girl on skype who made dank meme references before you did
>tfw we talk every day almost
>tfw we start to warn each other when we're going to be unavailable
>tfw couldn't tell her I was going to be unavailable for a bit because sudden shit for a few days
>message her and no response yet for a day
>able to reassure myself that she's also just busy, shit happens
This may sound better than some of your situations, only issue is I have a few skeletons in my closet that make me too guilty to even bury them, and I feel like perusing her is just avoiding stuff I need to confront, it's a long story
some of you might recognize me as the 1143 anon.
I'll probably end up moving on and perusing something with her but right now it's hitting some guilt feels.
figured I ought to contribute to the thread somehow
>>697751808
Thanks anon , means a lot
>>697751893
>>697751953
2 weeks ago I saw some people from my school at a local fest , I really dont give a fuck about what they think about me but for some reason I cant breath properly and my legs become numb. I have given everything I had to that woman but I cant control this one thing
>>697751891
Then take the break and see what she says afterwards. But I have a feeling it may be over. best of luck bud.
>>697748955
dunno what to tell you anon. some women can deal with the hurt, can forgive and try to trust again. some just can never get over it, even if it was nothing physical, it's betrayal of emotions. after 2.5yrs you should know what type of girl she was, and the potential downside of the actions you took. making a stupid choice is still a stupid choice, its not up to you if she forgives you, if she had value its either - A, its worth trying to save - B, considering everything, how could he do this to me? - looks like you're firmly in the B @5am camp /b/roski. condolences.
>>697752059
its okay man I know how you feel..
>>697751841
There's certain things a person needs after being cheated on. If she agrees to try, then she has already forgiven you. the part you need to mend is her trust for you....that's what it destroyed, and that's why your relationship feels like it can't go back the way it was
to build her trust back, I say be overly patient. offer to let her go through your phone whenever she feels like it; even for no reason. even when u feel frustrated because months have passed and u thought it was behind you. just let her have complete control.
call her and check in every time you go somewhere...don't keep any secrets about where you go, who you're with, what you're doing, etc. go out of your way to explain details about your day when she wasn't there.
it may sound like overkill, but those are the things i needed when i was cheating on: a sincere apology, an understanding that I don't trust you yet, and a play-by-play. it lets her know you care about winning her trust back, and you have nothing to hide, and nothing more important than making her feel secure again.
>>697750692
tim? lol
>>697751927
I agree with the other guy, you have to make her want you. But from what I read she does seem difficult. I think it's best if you communicate with her. Say "we have been living together for this long , i love you. You mean so much to me. I just sometimes need assurance about how you feel about me. If you do love me , just please try to show it more." Something along those lines but you have to speak to her face to face. Be intimate and make her feel that you're serious.
>>697751644
huh? u get anxious around people you know? dunno if this is a 'why do women have to be like this' kinda situation..... she's looking for a partner to share life with, you cant deal and she feels unwanted. right? tbh i dont think she's being unreasonable at all based on that little description.
>>697752096
my whole life I havent cried as much as I have been crying right now, I am a fucking 1.90m dude and always look tough, I havent as happy as the last 4 months but she just doesnt feel the same way I do but I can see it in her fucking eyes she doesnt look at me like she has 1 year ago when we just knew each other...I dont know man
>>697751791
turn it into a "imma get you back thing"
every time she does something to distance herself from you, depending on if it's intentional or not, respond by making it obvious you are getting her back, or even treat her even better, you don't want her to break up with you now do you?
Also, maybe she think you don't give her enough attention, I mean, you lurk after all, so that may be true.
confront her even, be cool and collect, make the issue clear in a non-hostile manner, basiclly, you know how school counselors tell kids to basically respond to their bullies by telling them their point of view (this is BS anti-bullying but still) just do that, try to be open and honest
>>697748924
Here's my dads life OP.
Part 1
>be my dad
>born in the south, 2nd oldest of 4 siblings
>his mom loves the fuck out of her kids…except for my dad
>no one really knows why. she just doesn’t like him
>mom beats the fuck out of him daily. wire hangers. lamps. you name it.
>age 17 dad is being beat to a pulp. finally for the first time in his life raises a hand to his mother. doesn’t hit her; just grabs her arm mid swing to block the blows
>realizes he is stronger than her
>she sees it in his face. tells him he has 60 seconds to get out of her house.
>he leaves with virtually nothing. not even clothes except for what he’s wearing.
>hitchhikes to california. arrives in LA
>thinks cali is like the commercials. the sunshine state. he has big dreams of success. that’s why he picked this state.
>is homeless in los angeles. meets a meth head named mike.
>hangs out with mike. both sleep in the streets. dad looks for work but can’t find a job
>dad gets hooked on meth.
>one day mike introduces him to a lady, rhonda.
>turns out rhonda is mike’s mother. she has 2 other (young) children who live with her.
>rhonda really likes my dad for some reason. not in a flirty way. she is way older…about 35.
>she offers him a job
>”why not hire your son, mike?”
>”I don’t trust him” says rhona. “I think you’re a good person and you need help.”
>Rhonda and mike don’t really have a relationship.
>Rhonda offers dad to live with her rent-free and provide meals for him in exchange for getting clean, and babysitting 9 to 5 or when the kids get home from school
>yea sure; he does it
>>697752073
With things such as anxiety, you need someone to be caring and understanding. My gf suffered from anxiety, slowly but surely it got better over time. I will never get mad at her for the way she felt and would always tell her it's okay and I'm there for her. You really need someone supportive that is willing to make sacrifices for you.
>>697752289
dude I have let down all my walls and opened up my heart for her, its something I cant control, its like telling someone with depression "why are you sad", wasnt really social with anyone ever...I thought I would spent my life with her even though we are both young but I havent felt like this ever
Part 2
>she literally saves him. takes him off the streets. cleans him up and feeds him. he quits cold turkey, immediately, to show her she didn’t make a mistake. he turns his whole life around. Rhonda looks at him like a son. her kids look up to him. sort of see him as a dad but call him “uncle"
>he sees Rhonda as his mother. hasn’t spoken to real (abusive) mom in years.
>he goes on to get a job with a moving company
>reamins best friends with rhonda. she is his only friend.
>couple years later
>runs into a beautiful woman. she starts flirting with him.
>he mentions what he does for work. she says she is moving friday and asks him if he would help her
>he agrees (not for money). uses the truck against company policy
>be friday
>dad shows up to the beautiful lady’s house. she comes rushing outside “there you are!” and smiles
>as he is about to smile back, a man comes barging out of the door behind her
>”what the fuck do you think you’re doing Linda!!”
>ohshit.jpeg
>”I’m leaving you Ron!!!!” -beautiful lady says
>dad realizes lady is using him to leave her husband. was scared to pack up and move without a man present to protect her. also needed a truck to move her stuff.
>Ron (the husband) had no fucking clue she was leaving him until 1 minute ago when dad showed up. dad didn’t know ron existed until now.
>longstoryshort no one dies. Linda leaves her husband with my dad’s help and his truck.
>that’s the story of how my mother and father met. or their first date. idk.
>>697750692
All my life ive befn told im the best of the best, a genius, a stud, someone who will make it big, but look at me, im an obese guy looking for consolation in a thailandese graffiti e-meeting, where dud i go wrong? Its so hard to point an exact moment but still, that wont change the fact that i wasted my life in god knows what
>>697752133
Thanks man, I'm trying to almost accept the fact that it might be time to move on. But since I love her , I keep fighting for what he had. It's sad, but I don't want to just give up... Ya feel me?
>>697752333
She's worthless.
I have been where you are at the end of my own 3 year relationship and can tell you right now if you don't let go of her it's going to be more painful.
Not like there's anyway way you could possibly do that with anything other than time if you're anything like me.
Might help to realize that some people just aren't worth your time. She's thinking that of you because she's a shallow cunt who just bails at the first sign of difficulty because she's probably already got somebody lined up.
You will not find a woman worth your time any time soon.
Stay strong and remember that women should never be more than an accessory to your own happiness.
Besides, I love you anon, why do you need some sluts approval?
>>697752563
Part 3
>Linda (mom) is into all kinds of drugs and gets dad back on meth
>their whole relationship is just using meth and arguing. naturally, they decide to get married.
>rhonda hates mom but bites her tongue because dad loves her
>rhonda moves to the bay area (San Francisco) for work. it motivates dad to move there too, since she’s his best friend and mother figure.
>dad gets a new job. buys a house for him and mom to live in. he can hardly afford it but mom really wants a house.
>dad does not want kids. mom does.
>mom convinces dad she’s on the pill. well……here I am!!! she wasn’t.
>though he never wanted kids, he realizes he is excited and tries to stop using meth.
>is successful. never relapses or uses meth again for the rest of his life….for the sake of his kid(s)
>also quit smoking cigarettes.
>mom smokes through her pregnancy (with me). cuts back on drugs but doesn’t stop completely.
>when I’m born, pretty baby girl, dad realizes he is so happy to be a parent
>he’s overall a really good, honest, hardworking, genuine person.
>mom is starting to demand a lot (materialistic things)
>she wants a new car, a new house, remodeled….etc
>dad does what he can. at this point he’s a janitor working swing shifts (mostly night shifts). He’s working his ass off. mom’s never happy.
>one of the neighbors pulls dad aside
>”your wife’s cheating on you” “not possible” “I can prove it”
>every time dad goes to work, a little red car pulls into our driveway and spends the night. dad is skeptical of the story so he has to see for himself.
>pretends to go to work for the night. goes and kills 30 minutes instead. comes back very carefully and sees the red car in his driveway. he doesn’t pull up all the way. he doesn’t even say anything to her. his heart drops. he doesn’t know what to say. he pretends it never happened
>>697751604
Then what? Living a monotonous life? Not being remembered by nothing? Life is hard when youre a postmodernist
>>697752598
not the same dude but I feel you man
>>697748924
Some positive feels for you guys.
After nearly 5 years of crushing depression I see the end. Slowly days are becoming less dreary. My new job pays me more than I've ever made before with greater benefits and incentives to actually excell. My girlfriend (who's the only thing in life keeping me sane at times) are reaching new heights in our lives and our relationship hasn't been this strong since we first started dating. Moved away from my drugged out fucking train wreck of a family. And slowly losing the bad habits they taught me. Finally feel like I'm no longer a shitty human with nothing to contribute. A weight is slowly being lifted from me I can feel it
>>697752211
Thank you , I appreciate it so much... It's so hard to think of a plan or anything. Because you have to go on play by play to survive infidelity... Did it ever work out with you and your partner?
>>697752717
Part 4
>avoids eye contact with the neighbor now. doesn’t want to look beta. he obviously can’t confront his wife.
>mom is pregnant again. dad wonders if it’s his but pretends to be happy.
>the moment my brother is born, he knows it’s his. looks just like him. a little boy. his first born son.
>mom convinces dad to get vasectomy. says “we’re not having any more”
>he does.
>a few months later.
>dad is still clean. mom struggles with meth sometimes and smokes regularly
>dad is still working graveyard. janitor duty. he has one day off and it’s saturdays.
>saturday morning dad comes home around 8am. we are going as a family to breakfast! I’m excited. dad’s amping me up telling me how awesome today will be.
>he hasn’t slept at all. he doesn’t complain. says he just has to take a quick shower before we go.
>trying to spend time with his family. even though he’s tired as fuck and his wife is cheating.
>he hops in the shower
>mom tells me “let’s go to the store really quick!”
>I say no thanks I’ll wait here with dad (I’m 4 years old now)
>instead of demanding I go…she looks sad. she starts to bribe me. “what if I buy you candy?”
>its really tempting.
>you can pick out anything you want ok sweetie?
>I cave. I always cave... I’m fucking four.
>So she grabs baby brother (less than a year old) and me (4) and we get into her station wagon that dad just bought for her. she hated that car. she didn’t want a “mom car" she wanted a “sports car”. it was one of their biggest fights.
>mom starts driving to the store except we don’t go to a store. we drive to a gas station in Oakland (about 15 mins from San Francisco) and finally get out
>there are 2 cops waiting. my mom called them ahead of time I guess.
>she talks to them for a while
>me and brother are in the car. feels like forever.
>she asks me to get out and come talk to the nice cop lady.
>>697752776
Part 5
>I’m still thinking nothing is wrong at this point. mom says we’re on “vacation” the whole drive to Oakland. she says it’s ok we left daddy cuz he has to work.
>mom leans down in front of the cop and says to me: “tell the officer how daddy hurt you”
>what.
>I have no fucking clue what she’s talking about
>”You told me, sweetie. it’s ok don’t be scared. this lady is here to help us. You told me daddy touched you”
>I seriously have no fucking clue what that even means
>”I did?” it was a real question. I didn’t know the consequences of what I was saying cuz I didn’t even know what I was saying.
>long story short: mom convinces me that daddy “touched” me and it’s bad. In my toddler head I’m literally thinking “ok he HAS touched me….he changed my diapers…..he wiped my chin after I eat…he holds my hand to cross the street….yes he’s definitely touched me” so I’m thinking the literal meaning of of someone “touching” you. but I don’t say the whole thought process out loud. I only agree with mom that "dad touched me."
>she gets me to say it in front of the cop and that’s all it took. we end up in a woman’s shelter for battered and abused women and kids.
>dad still has no clue what happened. last he remembers he was taking a shower getting ready so we could all have breakfast together. he got out of the shower to an empty house. That was saturday morning….it’s now been about 2 days since he’s seen or heard from us.
>he reports us missing. the cops humor him but they have records of my mom calling so they know we aren’t missing. they can’t tell him where we are. they don’t tell him we’re ok. they act like they haven’t heard anything. they assume he’s a pedo and treat him as such.
>he worries sick for almost a week. can’t get ahold of us.
man, life is fucked.
Growing up sucks. I hope I stop soon.
>>697752598
There's nothing wrong with not giving up. I'm also not giving up right now. stay strong. :)
>>697752824
>meanwhile mom, me and brother are living with about 10 other families. all women with black eyes and shit..really fucked up…and bad ass kids. it doesn’t bother me cuz I don’t understand it. we are not allowed to leave at all. the “house mom” lady (a volunteer who lives in the shelter with us) does all the grocery shopping. none of the women can leave for any reason or they get dropped from the program.
>finally dad receives a notice in the mail for court. he is being accused of molesting his daughter (me). he still can’t get ahold of us and has no idea where we are. he is told we’re in a “safe place” that’s all
>the shelter has an anonymous address that isn’t posted online. you can’t know the location unless you are admitted there. you are fined for telling anyone where it is.
>this turns into a long fucking bloody ass custody battle that almost lands dad in jail. rhonda is probably the only reason he’s not in prison.
>rhonda tells dad to file for divorce, since mom hasn’t. it will give him an advantage as far as custody (in the moment while court is still active)
>She agrees to be the “median” which means…basically he’s not allowed to be around his kids without a third party there. to hire one is hundreds of dollars an hour. Rhonda offers and because she has a clean background (and used to work for the government) they say that’s fine.
>now me and brother are seeing dad weekly for an hour with Rhonda there. Rhonda has moved 4 hours away for her retirement, but she drives down every single week just so dad can see us for an hour. At times, she drove both ways in a single day. An 8 hour round trip. so he can visit with us.
>this shit goes on for about 3 years during the trials.
>>697752714
she told me she understands, she told me she loves and that I am perfect and she is lucky to have found me, I dont understand where its coming from
>>697752598
I've been there, took me months. it finally ended when she told me she liked someone else.. and also saying some words that cut me to the core. Ever since then I've moved on and felt 'free' from her. We are still friends.
>>697752896
Part 7
>when shit gets real, they start bringing in character witnesses. all of mom and dad’s mutual friends refuse to testify on his behalf because she got to them first. they picked sides and they ALL picked her. I think many of them were scared to be wrong. I think many of them believed mom because…who could believe that a woman would just make that up? about her husband and children’s father??
>the only people who testify for my dad’s case are Rhonda and one of her kids he watched (who was now an adult)
>they make a very strong case
>basically mom is trying to get dad locked up so she can go live with red car guy and start fresh with him with full custody of us.
>the reason her plan didn’t work:
>court decides I’m too young to testify so they think of an alternative. they send me to a child therapist. I’m told our meetings are confidential. In reality, they are being taped and will be used to prove the truth in court (whatever the truth is)
>here is the video that got him off….
>therapist: “did your dad touch you?” Me: “yes.”
>*courtroom gasps*
>therapist: “where did he touch you?” Me: I don’t know.
>”how did he touch you?” Me: I don’t know.
>”when did he touch you?” Me: I don’t know.
>therapist: “how do you know he touched you?”
>Me: because my mom told me he did.
>>697752932
Part 8
>After that the judge pretty much threatened mom that if she makes any more accusations without proof, SHE will be thrown in jail. divorce was finalized. custody is split down the middle: monday, tuesday is dads day. wednesday thursday is moms time. alternate every other friday-sat-sun
>rhonda is the one who thought of child therapy. rhonda is the only person who believed dad 100% when he claimed he was innocent. his real mother (back in his life, a little) did not believe him. his siblings hardly believed him. mom told my kindergarten teacher so the entire school gave him dirty looks whenever he came to pick me up or drop me off. rhonda is the only one who knew he didn’t do it and never questioned it
>even after proven innocent, most people look at him funny. most of my friends aren’t allowed to come over (their parents think my dad is a pedo)
>that happened 10 years ago
>to this day he talks about how much he hates mom and hates women
>mfw I’m a woman.
>dad has had it rough. after all the lawyers he lost his home and had to file bankrupt. he was so broke trying to raise us that sometimes he would look for change (at his janitorial job) to put gas in his car to get home from his shifts.
>it took him seven years to erase that from his credit. he spent 7 years living in a shack in his buddy’s backyard (that’s where we grew up when we were staying with dad). It had running water about half the time….hot water about 20% of the time… no insulation in the walls. he got a bed for me and brother but he slept on the floor. he said every kid deserves their own bed.
>>697752598
it's a completely natural thing to do, anon. just keep your head in the game and don't let the memory of what was destroy the hopes of what could be anew. you live. you learn. you do better. gl homie
>>697751644
coming from someone who used to be like you when I was younger and border lining Buffalo Bill tier crazy shit (used to put on my sister's clothes while I showered, masturbated and stared at myself for at least an hour before getting dressed) Surround yourself with stuff and music that feels more open, play games with friends, become part of a fandom if you need. if this doesn't work, find something that makes you think "this is what I must fight for" or makes you angry even, anger inspires purpose and a need to let people to know you're angry, but I don't recommend this because it will leave you sorta like /pol/ or left/pol, cancer
>>697752974
Part 9
>meanwhile, mom is living in her own apartment paid for by the woman’s shelter (even after she lost the case, it didn’t matter). eventually she moved in with red car guy and had another child with him. that child (my half brother) had autism, but wasn't diagnosed yet. red car guy paid off all the lawyers, paid for the divorce, and bought mom a big house like she always wanted. they were living the dream
>back to dad’s struggle, scraping by on microwave burritos and kraft macaroni. Rhonda remained his only true friend. she lived 4 hours away but he saw her at least every other month. whenever he could afford the time and money. She bought her dream house on the beach, and dad loved it so much. that was his getaway. it was his favorite place and she was his favorite person. i believe that’s the first/only time he’s ever felt truly loved and happy, is when we went to Rhona’s house.
>Dad turned to her for everything! he loved her more than anyone else, except maybe his kids, whom he fought so hard for.
>well if you think that’s a fucked up beginning, listen to the rest of his life…
>I’ll sum it up ok I know it’s long now
>1 of rhonda’s children (the one who testified for him) gets cancer at the age of 45ish and dies. (mind you he helped raise her, saw her as close family)
>we hear through the streets that mike (who introduced dad to rhonda) has frozen to death. he never cleaned up and died a homeless meth addict.
>next, and hardest of all….Rhonda herself gets cancer. I am devastated but I can’t imagine how dad feels. It’s long and ugly. she slowly loses her mind over 5 years and is in so much pain. she’s not going gracefully. she’s so bitter and scared.
>>697752990
kek
Love of my life was diagnosed with cancer.
>>697753044
Part 10
>She wants so bad to stay in her house by the ocean. that’s where she wants to die. the closest hospital is 50 minutes away. she’s not rich enough for in-home care with actual doctors. it’s just not gonna be possible.
>dad moves her to these low-rent senior apartments up the street from him. she insists on living alone, but is getting worse. he tries to respect her wishes but keeps a close eye
>dad promises to be there for her
>she finally has a stroke right in front of us. she doesn’t pass, but it was scary as hell to see. she just started shaking and speaking in tongues and dropped her water glass and it shattered. It’s shocking to see, especially on a woman like Rhonda. she was always so in control; a wildly warm-hearted and intelligent woman. strange to see her this way
>she never fully recovered after the stroke. she had to be moved to a senior care facility. she tried to escape more than once. she actually did escape once (tore off the ankle bracelet and everything). her sentences were no longer coherent. she wasn’t making sense. it was so sad to see, especially for dad..since that was his best friend. he talked to her about everything, all the time. now she couldn’t talk. she couldn’t even just understand him enough to listen.
>dad’s job offers a promotion. it requires him to fly to Tennessee for a weekend. he can’t afford to miss it…it’s the moment he’s been waiting for.
>Rhonda has been holding on for quite some time. Years. Surely she can make it through he weekend.
>while he’s gone:
>Rhonda’s only living child (a son) comes to visit her. he is the other kid dad used to watch. he’s been absent pretty much the whole time she was sick.
>>697752899
My ex said the same thing.
The fact of the matter is she doesn't want to put in the effort to support you emotionally. She does not care about you. She would rather just fuck off and start again with some fuckface normie and steal his money.
Have you both recently enrolled in college/university by any chance?
>>697753096
lmao which part was the most kekworthy
>>697753136
Part 11
>the son manipulates her into changing her will. apparently, she was leaving EVERYTHING to dad instead of her son, because dad was more in her life and she felt like he was her real son. she also had dad written as the person to make health care decisions for her if she’s unable to do it herself.
>Her son changes all of this in a single evening.
>Rhonda always said that if she started to slip away in her sleep, that would be perfect. she always gave us specific instructions to NOT try to revive her, since she’s sick anyway.
>of course the weekend we’re away, she starts to slip away. she’s at the hospital alone and starts flatlining. They call her real son instead of dad, since he changed all the papers.
>Normally they’d just look at her file but they can’t find the paper that specifies what to do in that situation. it’s a mess and they’re wasting time.
>her son doesn’t know what the fuck she wanted
>he says to revive her. they try. they get a heartbeat. they lose it. they get another one….she starts to talk. she’s in a lot of pain. they fucking bring her back to life for about 10 minutes and then she dies. she dies like that. afraid, confused, alone, and in pain.
>the hospital calls dad because Rhonda's son asks them to. he doesn’t want to call personally because he knows he did some scandalous shit to the paperwork. he’s avoiding us like the plague.
>hospital tells him everything that happened to her in detail. an excruciating death. he is furious that she was revived. he’s all the way in TN. he couldn’t say goodbye. A complete stranger is telling him over the phone that his best friend and MOTHER (pretty much) died and was brought back and then died again. then…..something. in all my life, I’ve seen dad cry twice. once, when he got his kids back. and once when reality hit him that Rhonda was dead.
>knowing she was sick did not make it any easier. it did not make it any less of a shock.
>>697749332
>community college
>transfer to state school
>get degree
All hope is not lost, your options are just limited. You came up short of a personal goal, you didn't "fail at life". Don't let it keep you from making good decisions for yourself. What are you, 18? You'really barely your own person. You have so much to learn, and so much to learn about yourself.
>>697752990
before her I didnt have any goals, I was worthless and a fucking failure, then when I met her she was the fuel to start studying and get good grades so I can pass somewhere nice so i can support her and me
>>697753224
Part 12
>He has no one to talk to. no friends. the only people in his life are his kids.
>I am his kid. I will be honest. I wasn’t a great one. I was a teenage prostitute at 16 and moved out around my 17th birthday. I moved out of state and didn’t speak to him or anyone for 2 years because my worthless boyfriend/pimp manipulated me into cutting everyone off. I never really thought about it….the fact that he truly has no one. it started out innocent…a rebellious phase…and it turned into something I lost control of. I couldn’t get out of that life if I wanted to.
>fuck I even showed up at dad's house once when I was in town….in a fucking maserati….because for some reason I thought he’d worry less if he knew I was making a lot of money. I was showing him all the features. He joked “ehh more stuff to break” and my stupid young mind took that as hate and went another year without speaking to him. I paid for a maserati by selling my fucking body and thought it was a good idea to show it to my dad :(
>he sent me a text a year or so into it…..literally begging me to call him or come home. he said he couldn’t stand the thought of me living that life and his heart was so broken and he was worried sick. He never talks like that. He’d never said anything like that to me in my life….he never even shows emotion. he was too proud of a man.
>I didn’t even text him back. I wanted to but I knew my man wouldn’t let me see him. I didn’t want to contact him and then end up ignoring the phone or flaking, making it worse, because of my man. he was so controlling….and I didn’t want to tell anyone. I couldn’t tell dad that my man had control of me cuz I didn’t want him to think I was a failure, or weak. I just pretended I was happy and in love and that I didn’t care about my dad but really felt horrible and missed him so bad and just couldn’t escape my situation.
>>697752266
Would laugh if were thinking of the same person.
Tim H is the weird faggot this post reminds me of
>>697752753
I'm rooting for you Anon, that made me happy
>>697753296
Part 13/14
>When I finally did escape that life, it took me another year or two to get back in contact with my dad. the day I go see him…after all these years….he literally starts apologizing with tears rolling down his cheek. apologizing for NOTHING. like, he starts apologizing for being broke…I guess he spent all that time trying to blame himself. really searching for a reason. he was so wrong and it was hard not to cry but I held it in somehow. it had nothing to do with him and it definitely wasn’t because I was raised poor. I felt even worse knowing he blamed himself.
>mfw he spent those 2 years working his ass off and climbing the ladder from his janitor job. he now makes very decent money. he doesn’t even care about material things. mfw he only cares about money because he thinks being broke is why his wife left him and why his daughter became a prostitute.
>he finally has plenty of money but no friends or family
>If that’s not bad enough….the same year I finally get in contact with him again, my little brother goes awol as a fucking meth addict. for years he had no one but rhonda….who passed. then his kids, who abandoned him. `Right now all he has is me. brother is still binging. he asks me about my brother every week because he knows he would contact me before anyone.
>I’ve heard from my brother. so I tell dad he’s ok. but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s gone. and meth makes you say some fucked up things to people that you care about, so the last conversation he and dad had was pretty bad. brother basically cursed him out and blamed him for his drug addiction and said he hates him
>idk what’s wrong with me. and brother. and definitely mom. and grandma.
>dad is literally the kindest person I’ve ever known. he loved us all so much and all we did was hurt him and abandon him :( he did not deserve the life he has lived.
>>697753224
did she drop any good loot ?
>>697753290
focus on the fact that even if she wasn't the one, that for a moment, you worth something to someone, it's not the loss that counts here, it's the insight you just gained from the experience, learn from the mistakes, improvise, adapt, overcome your past.
>>697753380
Part 14 last one
>I think about him so much. sitting in his house, finally free of money problems. completely alone with no one to call. working 10-12 hour shifts. waking up at 3 am. he still works his ass off, dedicated his life to getting paychecks, because he has nothing else and nothing to come home to.
>His life was just getting fucked over constantly. trying to please everyone. trying to financially support those he loved. and no one showed love back.
>>697753172
she is now trying to go somewhere that she likes and I am on the last year of high school where the end grade decides which university you go, she was not like other people, she wasnt like how you describe her, if she was I wouldnt have gotten into her in the first place
>>697753446
its really fucking hard man I havent felt like this in my entire life
>>697753244
Well anon, where i live there isnt sich thing as comunity college, you either get accepted into a uni or you get rekt at life, im fucking 20 and i just graduated from highschool with a minor in business, i should be in my second year in uni bit im a lazy fuck who doeant give a shit about anything
I deserve this hell
>>697753538
improvise, adapt
we're human, what you're feeling is normal, not knowing what to do is normal, now all you need to know now is how to adapt to this feeling and familiarize yourself with it.
>>697748924
>been with my gf for about 2 years
>poor as fuck so we can't go on dates very much to further our relationship
>i feel like the "love you" "you're cute" "you're so adorable" that we say to each other on skype every night is getting old and it doesn't have an effect anymore
>broke up with her once but only for like 3 hours and she nearly killed herself because of it
>can't imagine ever being with another person
>everything still feels a bit stale though
>fuck
>>697752825
Thanks for the assurance, hope is all I have. I'm meeting her for lunch this Friday, I don't know what to expect. I'm leaving to Colombia for 3 weeks on Monday... Fml worst time to go out of country, her birthday is coming up as well...
>>697753474
My ex was not like other people.
She was incredibly kind and unpetty.
If she's going off to university it's over. She wants the campus experience of noncommital sex and other fucking around. It's really not hard for women to choose whoever they want at university if they so please.
>>697748955
It's your own fault, anon. Cheaters a not forgiven.
>>697750692
gay retard
>>697752922
Fuck.. I'm afraid of this now
>tfw when you play wow again and can't find a good tbc server.
I really miss the burning crusade and corecraft is dead. Gonna keep leveling my lil troll priest on kronos II.
>>697752980
Thanks anon , positive vibes
>>697749638
I feel for you, b/ro.
Hope you get to live the good life, with a new, better one.
>Be 15
> Meet awesome 8/10 girl online
>Become good friends, not interested in her, loyal to girlfriend
>Friends for 3 years
>have dog named Joe, weird marking on eye
>18, get the chance to visit her
>Do it because she's a good friend
>She's in the shower and I'm on Phone with Gf
>She gets out of shower completely nude and tries to seduce me
>was on Speaker
>Gf heard it all
>thought I was cheating
>storm out of the house and find a hotel room
>lose a friend and my gf because I visited my best friend
>get gf back when I get back home
>convince her I wasn't trying to do anything with her
>a year later, friend apologizes
>Become friends again
>2 years later, 21, about to propose
>She says yes
>we get married a couple months later
>friend comes, meets my wife
>they quickly become good friends
>wife is bi
>friend is also bi
>they hook up on our wedding night
>I get fucking pissed
>divorce
>She gets pregnant (my baby) and gets full custody after the child is born
>they get the dog
>Where did you come from, where did you go?
>Where did you come from, Cotton-Eye Joe?…
My girl and I were together for two years. She moves to Berlin for school, I still live stateside. Keep our relationship together. While she's in Berlin she stays developing a bunch of strange symptoms: memory loss, psychosis occasionally. Find out she has an incurable disease. I have the opportunity to see her, don't jump on it because work. She dies.
I gave up our relationship for a job and now every time I get out of bed in the morning for work I hate myself, even though I make I good money.
>>697753968
hahaha
>>697752753
>weed
>kebab
fuck why isn't this me?
>>697750082
Killing your self is just a joke, anon.
Everything in life can't be a walk in the park. Man up and continue with your life!
>>697753683
Set goals , make a promise to yourself and her that you will accomplish them. Find a part time job and take her out every two weeks at least once
>>697753683
lol minus the break up I got this problem too being jobless and dating sucks.
I only see my gf like once a week at most so at least everything is great until after sex and shits boring.
>>697753683
Tell her that you will one day see her irl
That way you will feel obligated and put some spring into your step, just know it's going to get better.
Go fund her corpse and fuck it one more time
Gotta say my life sucks ass because I am a lazy piece of shit.
However after thinking hey at least I still have a girl friend for the time being.
I feel pretty good, thanks feels thread.
>>697752990
lmao on another note about my buffalo bill shit, I used to cut my knees and use the blood as lube for fapping and butt play
>>697753395
all she had was the house by the beach, and her blood son took it and sold it. didn't share the money with my dad or with Rhonda's grandkids. none of us have heard from him since then...was about 2008
OP here Sleep or no sleep have to be at work in 5 hours?
I guess thread just died?
>>697754929
Well self ful-filling prophecy right there
>>697752770
We're still together...the infidelity happened about a year ago.
tbh I don't trust her though, because she did not do those things for me. She DID completely cut off the person she cheated with (her ex). She apologized about a zillion times. And she makes more of a point to answer her phone...I see her behavior has changed a lot.
honestly, she wasn't cool with me going through her phone. too awkward. I have done it twice that she doesn't know about, and I didn't find anything, so I decided that she's not hiding anything anymore. That's how I'm able to keep my sanity and stay with her.
>>697754249
Idk man, by the time i graduate everyone else will be 3 years working already and i wouldnt be as employBle as i could, but i dont want to be a low life all my life
Idk what to do
i posted this in feels thread two days ago, but no one replied sadly
i guess someone here has experienced this and can tell me what to expect
>be me
>broke up 3 months ago with gf
>no contact since then
>thought i got over it, then feels hit me while i was out drinking
>end up at her door in middle of night, drunk as fuck
>tell her ive been missing her, and it still hurts
>turns out she didnt miss me at all, got over it and actually fucked with another guy
>
>lets me sleep at her place, cuz i was so drunk - "but no sex"
>wake up, get horny, started fucking
>feels so wrong, like im being used, but theres a bit of hope we could be together again
>fucking her as hard as i can while holding tears back
>finish with the most intensive orgasm i ever had
>lying in bed, her in my arms
>i asked "did you feel anything?"
>i thought this was just sex "dont think its more"
>slowly start realizing she just fucking used me like a toy
>WHY DID I DO THIS
>i take a shower, we drink coffe and eat breakfast - its awkward
>"we shouldnt do this again, we can get a coffee if you text me someday"
>went home later
>on my way home i thought a lot about this and got to the point shes a bitch and didnt care at all about how i felt
>BITCH
>fuck yeah, i fucked her, now im outta this
>feelsgoodman.jpg
this happened 4 days ago
i still feel fucking awesome, cuz my training starts paying off and im motivated as fuck to do all kind of stuff
so heres the question:
will this continue? any feels to expect?
>>697753683
try some cheap dates:
-do some active shit like going on hikes
-go to the beach
-surprise her with a picnic. bitches love picnics
-if you can buy some liquor or drugs get intoxicated together somewhere
-sneak into a movie. it'll be more memorable anyway
just try to spend time in person. of course it's getting stale on Skype. If you're right for each other, then spending time with her company should be fun in itself. it it feels forced, or if it feels like a waste of time, then you're probably with the wrong person.
>>697755479
maybe she will catch feelings now come back.
Hopefully bye then you have already found a new girlfriend, lawyer-ed up, deleted facebook and hit the gym.
>be me
>meet girl at some party
>start dating
>6 months pass, start noticing fucked up behaviour from her
>gets mad over anything, like starting to cry because I cut myself a big tomato and only ate half
>getting worse, trying to help her as much as I can
>2 years pass
>one day she gets mad over the fact that a gift that I have her was bought by my dad and not me, even tho I picked it out and told my dad to buy it because I didn't have the time
>have get a phone a few days prior cuz she had one of those shitty ones with qwerty keypads
>throws it to the ground breaking it completely
>starts crying out loud in the middle of the day
>6 people gather around us yelling at me not to hit her anymore
>Wat.dll
>>697755878
i immediately deleted her number when i got back home. got no facebook in first place.
hitting the gym, and i feel damn motivated to do more.
i hope she doesnt catch her feelings come back tho. i mean it'd clearly be fun to see her suffer like i did, but i dont want to deal with her shit at all.
My gf has been shitty with me for most of the day. She opened and read one of my messages on messenger but the app glitched and I didn't get her reply. I know it glitches as its done it before but I jokingly sent 'no reply huh' with a wink emoji. She then assumed I was annoyed (despite this happening before and telling her I was joking) and got shitty. I explained to her that I was joking and not annoyed at all. She has been grumpy ever since and I asked her what was wrong. She said 'just the comments today and you getting really defensive'. I once again explained that I was joking and that my defensiveness was simply explaining that I was not annoyed (I literally said 'I'm not annoyed and I know you wouldn't intentionally ignore me'). Is she being shitty or am I at fault? I really feel shes just being grumpy but would like a 3rd person perspective on it
>>697756424
Part 2
>her mom hears the commotion and comes to pick us up
>go inside her flat, her parents see the state that she's in
>her dad starts crying talking about her dead grandpa (has been so for years)
>they all start crying out loud
>isthisreallife.whatthefuck
>awkwardly sir there not having a clue what's going on
>shortly after I leave and break up with her
>2 weeks after she calls me telling me she went to a shrink and that she is depressed and bipolar
>at this point i was just feeling relieved I wasn't dealing with crazy shit for a change
>start feeling like shit and like I need to help her very through it
So there's this girl I've known for about 10 years now, she lives about an hour and a half away. We met online originally, at 12 years old, but never really got a chance to meet up.
After a while of talking online, we start to get feels for one another, about as much as you can at the age of 12, and as things go on, we become more and more attracted to one another, but then just kind of fall out of contact. We reconnect over the years, end up figuring out we still have feelings for one another, but nothing ever comes of it. As a side note, every time we've tried to meet up in person, something happens that prevents it. Not made up little excuses, but serious shit, like I had a semi-truck switch lanes on top of the car I was in and total it.
Fast forward to last year (2015), we're 22 at the time.
Around August or September, we finally get a chance to meet up. We hit it off really well, and and are instantly attracted to one another. We start planning more visits, one thing leads to another, and we start having sex, and becoming attached to one another.
However, the distance was a bit rough and she'd just gotten out of a relationship and didn't want to commit to one. She wanted to "experiment and find herself" because she'd never really had a chance. Sucks, but I roll with it.
Months go by, we meet up from time to time, Valentines comes and goes, we have another meet up.
Time goes on and we make plans to go to this convention, and for her to stay in my room, as well as her other friend. However, her truck has broken down so she has to find a ride.
Well eventually she tells me she found a ride, days go by, and convention comes up.
She texts me to come meet her at the convention floor, and she has her friend with her, as well as the friend that gave her a ride.
Well, as it turns out, the guy who gave her a ride is a room mate of hers, and also one of her bed buddies. (There's more but character limit, sorry for poor typing, it's super late)
>>697757100
bitch detected
>>697757100
The long and short of it is everything goes to hell over this weekend. I don't handle the fact that she brought this guy, he doesn't have anywhere to stay and because I was raised to do the right thing I relent and let him crash in the main room of the hotel while we use the bedroom, however as the weekend goes on more shit happens, she ends up in the hospital briefly, things get really tense.
It basically comes to light how he wants her as more than a bed buddy, and when I talk to her about this, she basically says that she likes me romantically, and only likes him as a platonic bed buddy. Well, whatever I roll with it. Things keep going wrong, she gets depressed because Im pissy, tells me this wasn't how the weekend was supposed to go, shit like that.
I'm too tired to really go into much more detail, but the long and short of it is I haven't talked to her in several months now. Shit sucks, I really did like her and hoped things would work out better after all these years. But that's the shit you deal with when you put someone on a pedestal in your mind I guess.
>>697757310
Haha, me or her? Because I was definitely a push over for her and should have stood up for myself more.
>>697757485
>when you put someone on a pedestal
exactly.
I've found that this is the worst possible thing you can do if your goal is a healthy relationship. Either you get hurt because they don't like you back, or you get hurt because they see how guaranteed you are and walk all over you.
>>697757485
also....a lot of people are actually LESS attracted to you the more you're attracted to them. it's fucking annoying as shit. even I'm guilty of it at times tho
>>697757023
Part 3
BTW typos are because of SwiftKey autocorrect
>feel like her problems came from me and I try to tell her to not contact me anymore so that it doesn't get worse for her
>3 months pass, silently checking up on her
>found some other guy
>find out he's known for fucking girls and leaving them afterwards
>warn her about it
>bigmistake.avi
>we get back together
>she lost a ton of weight and looked like a crazy person
>feel very guilty
>find out the doctor have her some strong pills
>those make her feel like she's invincible and act like she's on her period and pregnant at the same time (very emotionally unstable)
>she found a new group of friends, only guys, all of which hitting on her
>tells me the things they say to get her away from me and into their arms
>"they said that no matter what they have to do they would always find at least 3 hours per day for me " (I had a lot of work that time)
>two her they're taking advantage of her mental health to fuck her
>she had none of it
Gonna dump my stuff here. Maybe i'll contribute something useful after, dunno...
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>>697757955
Yeah, I partially blame myself for it. I should have seen the red flags of "Well I really want to date you, but I'm not ready for that, but I don't want you to date anyone either," but at the same time, she could have also not been such a shitty person. Loving someone for so long makes your brain put up with stupid shit though.
Shits hard, but I'm trying day by day to try to convince myself that I deserve better than that shit, y'know?
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>>697758021
Yeah, I've had my experiences with it. I didn't do well conveying it in the story, (Damn near sunrise here), but I wasn't one of those types who was always up in her face or anything, just we had it clear that we both wanted each other in that way. Although, for her it was after she fucked around I guess.
>>697758285
me irl
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>>697758361
i was in that thread
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>>697758630
listening to this right now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMyDK3VHYPw
just feeling very tired fam
>>697750692
Goddamn anon..... Just...... damn......
>>697758652
>>697758568
Man... t.. that's true.. so painfull
>>697758652
This hit pretty hard when i first saw it.
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>>697758666
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SO7_AAzD2oc is what I'm listening to right now.
>>697758863
Well anons, i'm done dumping and i don't feel any better. I'll just lurk around a bit more and i guess i'll play some vidya or something after.
>>697757552
her buddy
you actually did the right thing. forget about her
>>697759120
Yeah I keep trying to tell myself that, but sometimes at the dead of night it's hard to convince yourself of that. She was pretty typical of my taste in women is the unfortunate part, but since then as I've mentioned I'm working on trying to believe I deserve better than that, because going through the first month or two after that sucked ass.
>>697758040
Part 4
>2 weeks later she kissed one of the guys there
>old high school buddy of mine
>instant hatred towards the fucker
>nomore.flac
>break up with her again
>fast forward 1 year
>she contacts me again
>forgiven but not forgotten
>go grab a beer with her, spend the day keeping my distance
>at one point animal instinct kicks in
>by the time I figure out what I was feeling my head was already down her pants (haven't had any the entire year)
>i'mstraightfucked.ohshit
>out of guilt for confusing her emotionally yet again I say w/e let's see where this takes me
>4 months with her I find out she gave me candida and chlamydia
>she let that guy fuck her without a condom (the guy is in England and still in a relationship with her, so now she's cheating on him with me, going against a lot of my principles)
>she never allowed me to see her naked body in lit room, always fucked with the light out, let alone let me in without a rubber
>fucking livid
>don't talk to get for 1 month
>calls me and tells me she went to a gyno and came out only with candida
>what...
>to and check myself again to a better doctor
>false alarm
>sonofafuckingbitch.killme
>don't want to be with her anymore cuz I don't live get anymore
>tell her that
>starts crying and treks me she was convinced I was the one for her
>no idea what to do now... How to make it bearable for her cuz I still feel guilty
>also, thinking everything was over I started talking to some other girl and found out that I want someone else other that her
Yesterday I went to the hospital to say goodbye to the girl I've been with for two years. I spoke to her the day before, she complained about her headache, I told her to rest and I loved her. The next morning she was gone. We don't even know what killed her.
>>697753459
Thanks for the story.
>>697759396
wow...stay strong man I hope I never experience anything like this but you are so fucking strong if you have
Today I tried out warmane and everything seemed great till it logged me out. When I came back shit was so choppy I almost threw up.
When are we going to get a decent WoW bc server so I don't have to play choppy wotlk servers.
>>697759396
Shit man, I'm sorry to hear that. How are you holding up?
23 kissles virgin. Once I met a beautiful girl online. He had crappu boyfriemd who was hirting her. I cared a lot, gave a shoulder to cry on and ear to listening to. Some day they broke up. Thought it's my chance to dinally get a girl. I was so in love. We talked all day and all noght. I met her few times and hugged with her. It was so awesome. Once i also played with het hair, best moment of my life. But there was that guy. A faggot who can't change a lightbulb by himself. She started talking motr to him and meeting with him. They even went to zoo togerher, se never wamted to go with me. Not so long, he duped his boyfriend and she became couple with him. I was so distracted. Cried all night. Became friends with her. When i heard they had sex on women's day my heatd felt apart. I couldn't sleep all night. Someone fucked MY girl. Now im deep in friendzone. I still love her but it hurts so much that he is with guy who loved penises.
Tl;dr poster is a omega faggot
>>697759619
What did I just read
>>697759828
you could read it?
>>697759877
It took me longer than I care to admit.
>>697752932
>>therapist: “did your dad touch you?” Me: “yes.”
>>*courtroom gasps*
>>therapist: “where did he touch you?” Me: I don’t know.
>>”how did he touch you?” Me: I don’t know.
>>”when did he touch you?” Me: I don’t know.
>>therapist: “how do you know he touched you?”
>>Me: because my mom told me he did.
Fuck dude.
Absolutely BTFO.
>>697753204
I think the story is contribution enough.
You of course wouldn't know, but the chans have an abnormally large female population. Tits or GTFO is for attention whores only. As if having tits was any get attention for free card.
>>697759828
Sorry for the shitty keyboard. I can't even write a story correctly
>>697759609
poorly. part of my soul died with her.
>>697749332
I know that feel
Took Physics, maths and biology at a level and so people think I'm smart gonna get three Es
She left me for good this time , and now I'm scared to face the world again without her
>>697759619
This is a weird post.
>>697759960
Yeah no shit man... I can't imagine going through that myself... I've had people I love walk out of my life, or as shown in my story up above, basically show that they're not worth having around, but to lose someone the way you did... Shit man... I wish you all the best, and I am so sorry.
>>697750692
Jim Davies, pls go
>>697759953
You might have a shitty keyboard but some proof reading would have gone a long way.
Cheer up bucko fap your pain away.
>>697759609
If you don't let her you you will die a little everyday
>>697760851
wat
>>697750674
Man, I'm worried about not even getting the girl
>>697753521
made me cry
>>697753459
Sorry for your dad. This story literally makes me think over some stuff with my dad. How are you now?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WXTVDUYIZs8
I sit out on my balcony with my laptop the only heatsource near me. The cigarret my only friend nowadays. I'm four months sober now and it's nearing my birthday. My family is either busy working or just refuses to respond to my phonecalls. My friends are all gone. I realized that I'm alone and I've been alone for a long, long time now.
What do /b/?
>>697762030
I hear you man, my friends have all moved out of the city I'm in, and due to the economy I have no way out. Haven't seen any of my friends in months at his point. Best friend moved clean across the country, closest friend after that moved several cities over, and I'm stuck here not able to get out of a dead end town because even a damn McDonalds won't look twice at my resume.
>>697748955
fuck you man, nothing more to be said
>>697762030
Embrace. You aren't sad because you lost all your friends. You are sad because you are a failure. Better yourself, find something you are good at and aspire to make money from it. Start exercising. Stop smoking. Being successful is the best cure for your issues.
This sums up my feels
>>697762326
My friends didn't move from what I know, they just cut off all contact and hell, my ex took off with my best friend. And yeah, nobody wants to hire me. My work experiences are: helping my deadbeat dad sling meth, fliping burgers in McD's, enforcing some shitty gangsters rule on crackheads and 2 years of active combat duty in the military.
>>697762521
You think I don't exercise? It's the only way I keep myself sane when I'm not working.
>contract worker
Smoking is the only way I can relive stress when I start thinking about all the military buddies I had that died.
>>697762602
that makes me sad
>>697748924
I'm under psychriatic treatment for depression. Love of my life, 3y gf, breaks up with me. Half a year had pass since. Even pills get me from waking up in the middle of the night dreaming and thinking in her. I've spend time with several girls but ended thinking of her while fucking them. I'm quite fucked up in the head and need some help
>>697752211
Not anon but going through a similar situation. This post helps me a lot. Thank you.
>>697762602
This goes out to all the "funny guys" with "perfect lifes" and "joyful families".
We can't afford to be sad.
>>697750921
Love is nothing to fear, it's just the best thing you can experience.
for sure you can get hurt but every wound will heal and no one has ever died for love-ache (unless you kill yourself).
But when you are in a relationship (a serious one) you always have to think that you are 2 people not just one (see the example of anon sending nudes to another woman), if you do something wrong sooner or later she/he will know.
And when you will find the right mate you will understand it.
>>697762841
>Love
>>697751152
stop being a insecure cuck, fuck her, get to know people live for yourself
> I am 30
> I am unemployed
> I have dropped out of uni 4 times
> The longest I've held a job is 1 year
> I live with my mother
> She resents that I live with her
> I have a son and an ex-fiancé
> They left with my son was a baby
> He's 6 now
> They live in another city
> I see him twice a year
> He hates talking to me on the phone
> I have nothing to say
> I have no friends
> I am overweight
> I look homeless
> I have nothing else to say
I just miss her
>>697763070
How did you break up, or how did it happen...?
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>>697762996
and your black you forgot that part.
Ausfag here, so sorry about the things you may not understand because you call them different things eg. primary school here is like your elementary school and year 7 is like the 7th grade for you American lads
1/???
>be me, Year 7
>meet the girl of my dreams at the time
>talk to her a lot, but she's dating one of my old buddies from primary school
>have so many feelings for her, but can't do anything about it because I might fuck up my friendship with my old buddy
>she knows that I like her
>ends up fucking us both over, dumps old buddy for me, and dumps me literally 2 days later for some year 9 Chad
>fuckme.mpeg
>takes months to patch friendship with old buddy
>year 8
>even though what had happened the year before I still loved her, or what I perceived as love I felt for her
>old buddy dating her again, and I'm getting none
>try to get over her by dating some Asian qt
>fail.pdf
>girl is friends with Asian qt, but still flirts with me when she is single
>gives old buddy a handjob
>shattered.exe
>year 9
>still have feelings despite being fucked over many times
tomorrow is my little sisters 18th birthday. she took her own life when she was 14. goodnight..
>>697762934
i'm sorry i'm not a chemist so i don't get it.
But if it's endorphine or something similar well you are partially wrong
>>697757485
>"this wasn't how the weekend was supposed to go."
Well, maybe she shouldn't have brought her fuck buddy when she came to stay with you.
Is this bitch retarded? What the fuck did she expect?
>>697763186
God, that's harsh. Hope that's faked...
>>697763315
Her fuck buddy was supposed to be staying with another friend of his but I guess that plan fell through and he didn't bother to tell her or some shit.
>>697763186
Shit man...atleast I hope she didn't go for your best friend like my ex did...
Don't start smoking or drinking, that's the worst thing you could do. Talking from experience. work out more, alot more. It'll ease the pain
I'm this guy if anyone's still intrested.
>>697762326
>>697762687
Here's a bit more about me
>I'm 34, gonna turn 35 in four days
>Most of my family resents me for trying to be someone
>I had criminal ties and had to cut them for my ex
>My ex decided that's not good enough and left me for my best friend who I saved when we both were serving in the military
>>697763070
I know you miss her so much you can't actually stand your feet but "hey man!" find something to do work, study, hobbies, buy a pet, go run, learn to play an instrument or fucking something, just do something else apart from thinking of her.
You think you are the first one to break up with your long term relationship gf?
After the first time i broke up with a serious gf and felt shit for months i've decided something very important for my life:
i would keep my interests and my friends along with a relation, so you have a back up, i had and will suffer anyway if my relation go wrong but i have something else to think about
>>697763285
The point is that it's just a chemical reaction in our brains. It's an evolutionary byproduct to help ensure the continuation of our race. If we form long lasting couples our offspring has a better chance at surviving. Maybe not as much in our modern days since we turned our world into one that favors us. So now long lasting relationships are not as necessary.
The point is. Love as we have come to know it is just made up and governed by the media. We're made to feel like we need LOVE to live happily and we crave it. Even though it's just a figment of our imaginings. It's just a chemical reaction.
>>697763244
>butistillloveyou.gif
>we're talking every day, and flirting
>despite my social anxiety I decide I'm going to ask her out
>"today is the day anon, you're doing it today" I keep repeating to myself
>I know she'll say yes
>but wait
>some of my mates decide to try to force it
>backpedal so hard
>ends up being a shitshow
>she never knew and still doesn't know I was gonna ask her out that day
>her friend told me about a conversation they had earlier where she said "I'm not looking for a relationship, I don't know if I'm giving the wrong idea to anon"
>fuckmesideways.webm
>year 10
>she tries to pull the same shit, but ignore her
>year 11, I put my trust back in her because "I've changed"
>we start the yearly process of flirt and almost date
>literally a hair away from asking her out
>BUT WAIT
>THERE'S MORE!
>mfw she starts dating a Chad, and I get fucked over yet again
>year 12, start dating after she dumps Chad
>fuckyissss
>6 months strong
>never held a relationship for that long
>BUT WAIT
>THERE'S MORE
>mfw she fucking cheats on me
I told this story because she's messaged me after all that. We're both single and in different universities. What do?
Have felt like killing myself for a while now. Last year I thought I'd do it in 20 years, 6 months ago I thought i'd do it within 5, so its getting closer a lot faster as time goes. Finally get the girl of my dreams and she's perfect in every way. Still can't be happy with that and only see it as life giving me one last good thing before I kill myself
>>697751927
Move along man, fuck dealing with that shit, tell her how it is, if she doesn't change kick her out, fuckin tag along for a free house and food, naa fuck that, if you keep saying shit like it will be ok then you haven't got the balls for a relationship in the first place.
>>697763936
Don't do it anon. Be strong for her. If you do it, it will break her.
Fucking betas in this thread. Get your shit together. Stop your whining, nobody cares.
>>697764089
I really don't want to hurt her. I wouldn't do it until after we've broken up for whatever reason
>>697764199
Have you seen a little kid getting shot with a shotgun?
That still haunts me you faggot
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIWFGeqn8CM
>>697764289
Oh, did i hurt your feelings?
>>697763936
Do it faggot. Live stream if possible.
the REASON some of you want to die is because you you have too much feels. not saying there is a limit, but it's at a rate where your mind just wants to end it. and the first idea is to kill yourself. you want to kill your ego. return home. return to yourself. get in touch.
>>697764253
For what it's worth, if someone like me can stay strong, so can you
>>697764289
Story??
>>697764289
>oh wow i saw a kid shot by a shotgun, my life in ruined for the next 20 years !!!!1!!1!!!
Seriously stop whining beta faggot
>>697753459
Thank you for the story, it must have been one hell of a ride to write. How are you doing now, if I may ask? How are things as of late?
>>697764199
True this, fucking 10 years who think they know how a relationship even works.
>>697749772
*fucked up?
*isn't losing any sleep
>>697764289
Saw your mum get shot with a load of dicks
>>697764528
No. They want to kill themselves because it seems like an easy way out. 99% of these faggots don't have the guts to end it.
The thought about suicide is comforting though. Rather than working hard on fixing their problems, they would rather log onto 4chan and moan about their 'suicidal tendencies'
It's disgusting
For all you pussy faggots that talk about suicide, i give you this ultimatum; Do everything you can to improve your current situation/life. If you truly believed that you have done everything you possibly could do to make yourself feel better, and it hasn't helped, then go right ahead and end your sad existence.
>>697763740
the sensation of wellness is just a chemical reaction yes, there's no doubt about it.
But the memories and experiences are not just that (you can reply that they are some different chemical reaction which is true but not the point).
No one can neglect the biological aspect of procreation and so on, but i don't feel like i strictly need to be loved by a mate to live my life, i have both plans, long time plan and short time plan with and without my loved one.
living a life with a person is not just one chemical reaction is a fuckin' billion chemical reactions and all of that is just called life
>>697758781
Likewise. Saw a different one, but holy shit, did it make me cry..
>>697764387
dis muh jam
>>697750692
Genius* clearly you aren't
>>697752568
>Those mistakes
>Genius
Dudes my IQ is 140 and I don't make mistakes the way this supposed genius does.
>>697763847
Is that a serious fucking question? What do you think we'll tell you to do.
Drop her you dunce.
>>697755153
with half a brain you can easily hide a side dish. i wouldn't give her the benefit of doubt. i'd cut the ties and move on.
>>697764945
tru. lifting is a good one
>>697750692
Your a fucking faggit with a fedora collection, how fucking beta do you wanna be right now, holy shit
>>697750775
>orange tip
Would you do it if it was real?
>>697764406
I get it that 9th grade was fun, but don't be so edgy you faggot
Have you served in the Military, fagot?
If you had, you'd know the shit that happens isn't pretty.
>>697764749
>Out on patrol with my squad in Iraq
>Were just walking, talking among eachother untill we hear screaming
>Locals start screaming, running the fuck away
>We move towards the scene of trouble
>There's two men standing, one armed with a AK, one armed with A shotgun. I never really cared for guns, so I can't really name the shotgun as such.
>They have grabbed a group of kids hostage
>We move in closer slowly, my buddy (Who took off with my ex) radios this in.
>Both of the cunts start exicuting the kids, yelling as I later found out about glory of Allah and shit.
>One kid saw us and cried for help as the cunt blasted his head full of lead.
Fun memories from Iraq.
>>697764765
>Seriously stop whining beta faggot
>beta faggot
You fucking mongolian, you do understand that beeing forced to serve in the Military isn't for some beta cuck like you, right?
>>697764878
That's necrophilia mane...
>>697765522
>got cucked
was that really info we needed to be privy to?
>>697765522
kek
>>697758863
Could you kindly post the source of this webm?
Its been almost 6 months since she left me
we were together for almost two years
She lifted me out of a bad depression, she cared for me unconditionally, for almost two years, without getting the same treatment back.
I loved her with all my heart, i just didn't act like it.
And when things got hard for her I couldn't lift her up the way she did me. Shed become so tired of making sure I was ok while she was falling apart.
I fought so hard to get her back.
I wasn't enough, and I never was.
We don't even talk anymore, i thought I'd be with her forever.
Sometimes I think I'm ok but I can't forget the way she truly gave me her whole, and i took it for granted.
Sometimes I think I'll never find another girl like her.
if you want to kill yourself but something in you is not letting you pull the trigger or whatever, listen to it. it's you. you know better. don't get so caught up, just chill and open up your fucking mind.
>>697765522
YHH MAN ME AND MY SQUAD ARE WALKING IN DA IRAQ, EVEN THOUGH I HAD AN ASSAULT RIFLE THAT CAN SHOOT FUCKING DISTANCE, I GOT CLOSER!!
The kids blood is on your hands faggot, beta waves are strong with this one.
>>697765522
Why do you post fake war stories on 4chan? dude i feel for you
>>697765522
dont bother, most of the scumbags you are talking to never had a life beyond gaming and smoking weed. they do not know.
>>697765203
Same I have a 140 iq with a very high average in high school. I just hope I don't mess up my life and waste my opportunities
>>697765704
Got cucked? When I found out she left while I was going for my M16. And hell, the faggot ran to his car when he saw me.
She forgot her phone, they were just in the start of the affair, hadn't fucked yet.
>>697765934
I know it is, but hell, I wasn't the one leading and giving the orders. Our orders were to investigate and to not engage combatants. I would have shot the cunt when I saw him, but orders are orders
>>697766257
Eh, it's worth a shot to try and educate them, right..?
Strange things are afoot at the Circle K.
I've always been single, but in two hours I have a date with a girl who's the sister of one of my coworkers. Of course, I'm going to be very careful with this.
I've got the blessing of the sister, but it feels odd doing anything with any romantic inclination. I occasionally watch anime, but apparently she's really into it, and Nightwish, which I also enjoy.
Any advice would be welcome.
>>697766416
Where are you two meeting? If it's a bar, take it easy with the drinks. If it's a cafe or something don't act like a snob/cunt
I've been with a girl for a few months, but then we broke up because her ex was getting in the way. I still really loved her so i fought for her for months and we stayed really close, and now she blocked her ex on every social media for me. A lot of shit happened because of that guy, and he was the root of most of our problems. Now I'm just hoping it won't be the same as before once school starts, but I have a bad feeling. I'm still not over the past and she gets mad at me for that. I could say I'm protective of her, but that's only because I know there's so many other guys that are better than me. I'm very smart and I play sports, but I'm not the best socially. Every day I worry that she'll leave me for a better person, but I love her so much that I don't want to let go. I have contemplated suicide but I stopped after counting my blessings, so what should I do?
>>697766415
Whatever helps you sleep at night, I am sure they told you this to not crush you.
You said it yourself you where going for your m16 I am glad you didn't an hero.
>>697766548
I'm picking her up at her home, I'm 19 and she's 20, so a bar is totally out. The plan thus far was winging it. About the first place that popped to mind was Panera Bread since there's one that's semi-local.
>>697766754
>once school starts
what are you son? 15?
I broke up with my gf of 2 years which also was my roommate 2 months ago, had no contact for that time, few days ago got a friend request from here in fb, didnt accept, ~1 hour later she declined a request, maybe she still wants something, idk, trying to hit the gym as hard as i can and not think about her..
>>697766970
Eh, it hasn't been shitty enough for me to an hero yet, but it hasn't been good enough to not consider anhero. And I know that, but hell, one of my CO's actually said this: Anon, try to communicate with them!
He said that a minute before the kid bit the dust.
>>697767042
Maybe take her to a movie? I know it's cliche as fuck but it might turn out great that way. First some place to eat, like you said, Panera Bread and then a movie should be fine. Try and act like yourself, but hide the shitty parts of life and such.
When I cheated on you at field camp, it wasn't because there was something wrong with you. Over and over I re-analyze the situation to try to figure out how I could let something so amazing like our relationship go wrong. I keep coming up with theories or reasons or hypotheses, but they're all mostly bullshit. I cheated on the most amazing girl in the world because I was driven by my own irrational insecurities. I feared I wasn't good enough for you and for some reason I've been too insecure to admit that. I guess in the end I was right. My regret tears up my insides when I'm hopelessly awake past 3am remembering our times together. All day I've been crying and it hurts so much. I really cared about winning your trust back, but now it's too late. I've realized I stopped taking care of myself, stopped eating, and began taking opiates after field camp as a form of self-abuse. I hated what I've done to you and I hated myself for it. Now I have no reason to get out of bed. So please don't come over to pick up your things, for I won't be able to handle the excitement of seeing you, but the pain of knowing you're not mine.
>>697767431
That could work. We've been fairly open in what little communication we have had thus far, so I'll probably just ask her about it.
>>697750692
Write us a fuckin' poem.
>>697767042
>>697767431
i don't know a movie is a place where you can't talk and know each other.
i would suggest to prepare a list of things to do (maybe dinner (not a fast food shit) than maybe something more intresting where you can know the other one, then maybe a pub to share thoughts on previous activities).
More important prepare a list of arguments to talk about if a akward silence rise up:
if she has a pet/ you have a pet?
if she go/went to vacation/ yours?
place in the world she/you would visit
and so on
do not i repeat DO NOT talk about politics, other girls, your exes
>>697751644
This happened to me 3 years ago, we never came back
>>697768169
This guy knows his shit, could work great.>>697767431
Well, I'm happy for you anon. If you mess this up, I'll find you and beat you tho.
>>697768169
You might be right. I guess we'll have to wing it and see how it turns out.
Yeah, politics is something I only go into with certain people for various reasons, and we don't really have to worry about other girls at all.
Thanks for the help guys.
>Be in a relationship for 7 years
>Broke up back in April
>....Things are going pretty good
It's amazing having to care for only myself. All the problems that I encounter are for myself and not because some girlfriend made a bad decision.
I know some girls are looking out for me and shit but I dont wanna get into a relationship anytime soon. Shit I hope I dont fall in love atleast for another year.
PART ONE
I got dumped or more like replaced a couple of weeks ago.
I've had quite a rough time in my life. I was bullied from 1st to 9th grade. I was a punching bag during that time. People hit me, spread rumours about me and didn't want to have to do with me or be associated with me by any means. Those years did leave scars in my mind. This has made me very drawn back and extremely antisocial.
I've always been very lonely because of that.
Until 9 months ago when I met this girl.
We met at a party and we talked a little. We went out on the dancefloor, and it was then, out of nowhere she took my hand. My thoughts where: wow, is this really happening?
From that point we talked to eachother every single day. I finally built up the courage to ask her out a couple of weeks later and she said yes. About 2 months after we became a couple and I felt like the happiest man alive. To finally have met someone that actually wanted to spend time with me and had feelings for me.
Everything was fucking fantastic.
Though all of this just died 6 months later...
She went away on a festival with some friends. I couldn't come because I had work. I didn't get a single message from her during that time and i started to worry.
When she got back home she acted very strange around me. She didn't have time to hang out, she didn't reply to my texts or snaps. If I asked if she wanted to go out she just said that couldn't because of work.
I had my suspicions about what was going on but i didn't want to beleive it.
2 weeks later we went on vacation together, or so I thought. She went on vacation with her phone... texting this dude ALL THE FUCKING TIME. The same dude I suspected.
>>697768455
other things that comes in my mind:
don't try to be a fuckin' douchebag, to be someone who you are not, don't lie (too much at least) don't tell her the time you where a brave hero and saved someone from death (unless you did).
if you just saved a flower or a little bird it's already great and she will know.
remember that you pay, when you enter a place you go in first and then hold the door for her, when you leave a place you open the door for her and the follow.
Moreover don't try do impress her telling her how much you can drink/smoke and so on unless she brings up the argument.
if you like anime/manga and videogames it's fine just omit lolis.
if you have a good family and do some good shit with your dad or brothers (maybe built some shit) tell her.
If you help your mom with the dishes and to clean the house, tell her.
if she's a nice girl and not a stinky bitch she will appreciate the thruth and the nice gentile guy.
If she only wants the D tell her next time be direct and not waste other time and hopes
>>697748955
i hope you suffer, you should an hero faggot
>>697769148
PART TWO
The day after we got home she came home to me to break up because she said that she needed time for herself, to work on herself for a while. That was complete bullshit.
I've never been that heartbroken in my life.
A couple of days later i drive by her house to pick all of my stuff and the dude was at her house without her parents home...
I've never been so fucking mad at her before..
And she just stood there coldhearted and had nothing to say.
She cheated on me with this dude behind my back for 3 weeks. And during that time she had the heart to say that she loved me.
I gave her my whole heart and she just threw it in the trash.
She didn't want time for herself, she just wanted to take a ride on the next dick that gave her attention.
but the thing is, i'm not completely over her. Or rather, I miss the old her, what we had and everything we had planned together. i have no respect for her at all now. i can never forgive her for what she did to me.
But now I just feel lonely again...
>>697748924
>be almost 3 years ago
>date girl for a few months
>best time of my life
>always hanging out
>always fucking
>always sucking
>do everything with each other
>help each other find out who we are/what we want to do with life
>Come back from a trip with each other
>she becomes distant
>hardly says anything in a convo
>accuses me of cheating one day
>total caught of guard cause this girl was my life, obviously wouldn't dare cheating
>dumps me and accuses me of everything wrong in the world basically
>would call me for a week straight, drunk, star 67 and everything
>gets a one or two boyfriends after this week of weird shit
>my life falls apart between the stress
>became introverted as shit
>some kid that tries to set me up over weed tells me she fucked some one "cause she was mad at me one day"
>probably the guy she fucked
>claims he "declined her offer to fuck"
>she comes back a month or two later begging for me
>say fuck it and fuck the shit out of her one last time
>felt bad at first but realize what the fuck ever.
There was a situation before her. Almost the same thing, only getting fucked over at the end was the same but didnt care enough about that girl. Fuck you grace, you stupid whore. I loved you. At least things have been getting better the past year. Got another short one about another girl I was crushing hard on after this but fuck that, probably worse feeling than this situation.
