feels thread?
The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
feels thread?
>>685332241
I wish I could feel something so that i could post it.
>>685332527
Thank you anyway for bumping
I'm pretty sure tonight or tomorrow me and my gf are gonna break up. She's amazing and I'm ok myself, but she's a depressed anxiety ridden schizophrenic that's not looking for anything long term. And I've been digging a huge whole for myself continuously since Sunday night. We work together so I'm putting applications in other restaurants. But I'm not too sad, she kept me from moving to Colombia and I had fun with her. The end.
>>685332241
honestly i cant be on /b/ anymore, its all just a big mess here, i cant remember if its always been like this but now when i browse the main page in catalog mode only this song goes through to my head https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zLfCnGVeL4
its over /b/
>>685333335
So close
>>685333333
>>685332527
Source?
>>685334967
thats the worst of all.
>>685334900
I've been holding it in, but now I don't care anymore. The girl of my dreams made me feel a horrible way as she kissed a guy in front of me and ignored me the rest of the day. What do I do now?
>>685336572
Don't do shit, you move on
>>685336572
really not much you can do, if she did it intentionally she sounds like a cunt, does she know you like her and regard her as the girl of your dreams?
>>685332527
he would have just blown his nose off, didn't aim it correctly to kill himself.
>>685336572
if you cant move on just tell her how you feel no matter if its face to face or over net important part is to just say it, once its done youll be free and feel free in a few weeks you gotta say to yourself that you dont look back, dont fall for her again, they asy you cant control who you fall for but thats a lie you just gotta try, she is behind you now and your path goes on untill someone else stumbles on your road
I used to be fun and relatively outgoing. I freaked out in a hotel with my boyfriend in 2014 because of anxiety, even now I'm still terrified at the idea of being out of the house, or going somewhere that requires a an overnight stay. I'm only fucking 22 and I jump when someone knocks at my door. Anxiety sucks. I wish I could just be fucking normal again.
Tl;dr: I'm a complete shut in, cry alot and feel like I can't be out of my comfort zone for longer than a couple hours.
>>685337502
>>685337362
don't make me more depressed as i already am.
>>685332241
>when I was 18 I met gf
>we got along great
>6 months in she hides dinner plans with guy from work
>I find out
>she cancels making me out to be horrible
>guy gets a new job elsewhere, end of that
>2 years in she goes to university
>one night she confesses she kissed some guy whilst drunk on a night out
>dumps me when I'm saying "it was just a kiss, you wont do it again"
>2 months later begs me to come back
>blowjobs on demand, anal, dressing up, bondage, anything I like
>I think with my dick and take her back
>a month later she confesses she fucked 2 guys
>I dump her
>a month later she begs me to take her back again, says she has grown up
>a few months later she starts cutting herself
>later on she starts hitting me if I try to leave
>threatens to kill herself and write a letter claiming I raped her if I break up or stop trying for us
>I'm stuck in this relationship with nobody to turn to
>getting punched while I sleep, punched for forgetting something in her food order, anything so she doesn't cut herself
>reach 5 years together
>"Anon you had better propose soon"
>I do propose, she cries and screams with joy, shares pics to fb, calls family
>decides that is the best time to confess that she slept with 8 guys throughout our relationship
>I go to toilet and get my phone out
>set it to record video
>I go back to her
>"If you leave, I'll claim you raped me and then I'll kill myself, my family will never forgive you"
>I show her recording phone, she cries
>I leave
>tell her that its up to her how she tells her family
>its over
>should feel great, but I don't
>she kills herself a month later
>I panic when I see women who look like her
>I flinch when women try to touch me
>its been 2 years
>I'm just "that guy whose girlfriend killed herself"
>known to seemingly everyone in my county
>>685337431
this was spoopy because i can't tell if it's true or not and maybe reading it was the dream and at the end we died
>You are a disgrace for our entire family
>Nobody loves you, noone will ever love you
>Why you keep dissapointing us?
>You can't do anything right, can you?
>Go away you freak
>You failed again, didn't you?
>We shouldn't date anymore
>It's not me, it's you. This isn't working for us. I need to know other people, other places...
>Why are you doing this to us? Where did we go wrong?
>>685333335
How did I know it was going to be that song
>>685336572
Don't be a fucking cuck and kiss a girl in front of her
>>685337680
i'm sorry anon. she was a crazy bitch and it's not your fault
>>685337645
>>685335502
dude...
>>685337502
got 20 a few days ago atleast me mum asked me if i wanted a party with relatives n the sort, its best to just forget that these days have meaning
>>685336022
>>685337915
Jesus
>>685337502
literally turning 20 in an hour and half and I feel like killing myself, my life is getting worse every year. Don't know how many years I can/want to live like this anymore.
Feeding the void I have
>>685335502
You're killing me man
Weird reason to have feels about, but I'm pretty sure I fucked up my final exams on vocational training. It took me 1 1/2 years just to get the position, and it took so much help to get me out of the fucking gutter. And now I fucked it all up because I just can't bring myself to care.
Best thing is I'll only know in late june.
>>685338487
Happy birthday /b/ro, I hope things turn around for you
They sell painkiller by the gallon you know?
>>685337680
BPD or bipolar or something.
The other guy is right, she was crazy and would have needed up that way anyway.
Nothing you could have done man.
Time to forgive your self and move on.
Go to live in another county, state or country.
Or save up and travel for a while in some cheap countries.
Help some people out, go volunteering for six months.
Do different things, experience new things.
I had a relationship with a crazy girl for 3 years, she went off and didn't think twice about me, at the same time, my health failed and hasn't improved, balls atrophied, libido gone, doctors don't know what it is or how to fix it, my life is ruined.
Still think about her, afraid of women touching me I think for physical reasons. I don't feel human.
If you have your health, find a way to move past it.
>>685338487
Happy birthday, anon.
I just moved hundreds of miles from my parents' safety net to be with my girlfriend, but I'm suddenly finding myself unattracted to her both sexually and romantically. And to top it all off I have a major crush on an internet friend who lives across the country and is already dating someone
>>685339034
More of a whiskey-man myself, but in the end it's all the same right? cheers (sort of?)
>>685339034
It doesn't work anymore anon...nothing works anymore
>>685332241
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3HydRGIwt8
dont be upsetti
have some spaghetti
>>685338921
>>685339182
thanks man means more to me than you can imagine
>>685338487
Do something about it.
You are old enough to raise yourself now.
Be your own father, read a lot of advice and stuff on how to be a man, how to be happy and successful, more than that, to feel fulfilled.
Practise taking risks, work hard, make decisions, stick with them, make new decisions, improve.
Challenge yourself, you will feel a lot better.
Exercise, eat healthily, study, work hard, learn new skills.. Treat life like an dog game, stop hesitating, stop thinking, just do it.
>>685334900
that hit a little too close home
>>685336572
move on just like everyone else in the world... we all get our heart broken it's normal now you have to start picking up the pieces and enjoying life by going out with friends and doing whatever it is that you enjoy
>>685338817
Work on something else in the meantime, start learning another skill, or doing some short courses.
Build contingency plans, don't wait around.
>>685339376
?
End me
Hell, its been a while, might as well jump in
>>685338487
Happy birthday anon my kik is biscuitman2801 if you ever want to chat :)
help
>>685332241
Time for good feels
>>685338487
Happy birthday man, please don't do it. I hope you get many happy birthday wishes from your friends and family
>>685339291
Ouch.
>always pretend to be happy/normal in front of friends, family and girlfriend
>well paying job
>only 20 years old
>life should be pretty good right?
>always feel something is missing
>always feel exhausted
>considering suicide frequently, just because I feel like I need to
>search suicide on Omegle and begin encouraging people to kill themselves
I'm a fucking monster guys. I know I should kill myself because I'm an abomination. Worse thing is, I can wake up one day and decide there's actually nothing wrong with me and that I'm perfect. And then go back to suicide the very next day.
The fuck do I do?
Its taken 6 years for me to finally decide to turn my life around, Its just a start but I'm hoping things do get better if I try hard enough. Wish me luck /b/.
>>685340160
Go!
>>685338487
Happy birthday anon,hope u will be better soon
>>685340492
Wrong thread /b/ro
ITT we wanna kill ourselves
>>685340452
>whishing for anything but depression and anheroing thoughts
wat
>>685339747
Daily reminder that there's always one solution.
>>685339517
can't thank you enough, you're the first person in over 3 years who cared enough to give me some type of advise... I'm literally holding back tears thank you anon.
>>685340070
don't have a kik but thank you anyway, I appreciate it alot
Wat do when it's been 6 months and you can't get over that Fucking heartless bitch who brought you down in every opportunity and shaped you skillfully enough so you can barely have a normal conversation without her?
I mean, my loving ex.
>>685340630
I'm sick of feeling like shit, I don't want to live my life like this. Yes I'm still as depressed as ever but I'm in therapy and trying to change all that.
I realized drinking when you are truly unhappy doesn't works.
You head may be numbed and a bit happy cause of the Ethanol but your heart still hurts
Can't find original picture so here goes the pasta
>"Room is empty. Realize that you're adrift in an uncaring world, in which everyone is only out to help themselves, that all human interaction is based on lies and selfishness. Realize you'll never find true love because love doesn't exist. Realize that your entire life will not leave a lasting impression on the world, and your entire legacy will be reduced to an empty, soul-less corpse. Realize that, no matter how many people you surround yourself with, you will die alone."
>>685332815
Dont ever stall your life over a woman. They will leave.
>>685340424
For one thing stop being a cunt to people that are also suicidal.
Look at the things you have, a job, money, friends family gf. Not everyone has that for one thing, also most people end their lives if they have nothing, yet you have what a lot of people would kill for.
If you are seriously unhappy, try and find something different, maybe a different job, new location, I'm not really good at this but you'll get there anon don't give up.
>>>/gif/8598141
I've lost 4 of my friends in Afghanistan. I'd been to Iraq with most of them a year and a half earlier. It took me awhile, but I dealt with it. Painfully, but dealt with all the same.
Since I got out in late 2013, 6 more of my friends have died. Not from IED attacks or firefights, but by their own hand. Everytime one of them dies I feel a piece of me die too. I barely reacted this last time, which was a month ago. I feel hollowed out. The only time I think about it is when I'm drunk, which just makes me drink some more. I don't care about anything, and it's impacted me financially, and with my relationships with my family and my wife. I think she's going to leave me soon. I don't care about that either. I don't know what to do, or if I'm even strong enough to do it, but part of me wants to be normal, have the family, the good career, the white picket fence.
The other part wants me to sit and drink until I die, alone, unloved, with the soft glow of a computer the only spark of light in my miserable existence. I'm losing to this part anons. I really am.
>>685340977
me and my ex-wife.
Abusive and fucked up traumatised girl
>>685341003
Well... I can't help but wish you the best of luck, trying to leave the shitzone, it's gonna be hard and you WILL feel like shit from time to time, but keep doing it hard enough and you may find happiness at the end of all of this.
I couldn't
>>685341102
My father always told me that drinking amplifies the emotion you're experiencing. I didn't believe him at first, but I later found out that it was somewhat true by experience. Going outside for a jog was a great stress relief/antidepressant in my case, I'd recommend that over alcohol.
>>685340379
>>685340545
thank you man, probably won't get them since I lost my only friend this week because of a stupid fight and my mom is the only family member who's still in my life.
You guys are the only ones who make me feel a little better so thank you anon
I really hate myself. can't even sleep. I wish it would just end
>>685341453
Suicide pact? I kill you, you kill me. I live on happily.
>>685340452
Just find something you love doing and do it.
>>685341498
Please dont tell me this is a real place
If it is... send name
>>685341498
fucking sad
>>685334347
Shit.
>>685341453
>year and a half ago
fuck that's gone fast
>girlfriend calls me on phone, wants to talk about relationship
>to elaborate I met her about 2 years before this
>instant connection, end up fucking after drinking too much one night
>she's pretty messed up, more self harm than you would believe.
>she teaches me how to be confident
>she makes me feel attractive
>she's beautiful and helps me get my life in check
>overtime her mental health problems become too much for me to cope
>I start being horrible to her
>practically rape her a few times after getting drunk
>we go on a break
>get back together and everything starts to improve
>fast forward 2 months and here I am, away for 2 weeks for uni exams
>she's back home, calls me
>at first I laugh it off, things have finally been improving
>she's more serious than I realised
>out of the fucking blue
>finally can't take it anymore and hang off
>text later and decide to stay and talk more when I get back
>on train home
>snapchat from gf
>she meant to send it to her friend or some shit idk
>other guy, bigger than me, more muscular than me
>his dick inside her
>"mmmhmmmmmmmm"
Attempted suicide, drank enough to kill a horse and then got over it, met someone else and here I am today. I am happy now, genuinely that's true.
But she was honestly the love of my life, I don't think I'll ever feel the way I felt about her about anyone else ever again.
>>685334900
this isnt a cringe thread u faggot
>Be me in college late 90's.
>Have on again off again gf at another school. Currently off again.
>Meet girl in IRC chat.
>Lives close by, everyone in chat jumps my ass when I enter.
>Her ex is abusive similar IP addy.
>Goes to my university. Fuck me what are the chances.
>Had classes together, know each other, remember her, cute girl solid 7/10, outdoorsy petite cowgirl type.
>Shes not enrolled, figured maybe ex situation.
>Talk on phone, get freak on, decide to meet up.
>Not enrolled because chemo treatments but going good no treatments has short hair, still cute little thin but recovering.
>Shes going to re-enroll, tells me meeting me reenergized her.
>Starts riding her horse again. Her parents and roomies thank me all the time.
>Dating now even take to see Titanic. Being girl she loves it.
>Go horse riding with her even though I dont trust the beasts. She is so happy doing it.
>Holidays arrive spend time with her, still see other on off again girl but as friend no hook up.
>Really in love with this girl, she says it first crying and I tell her back. Best love making ever on New Years Eve.
>Spring semester time for her to enroll, but starts getting sick again.
>Remission over, stsrts fading, has to withdrawal or get extensions.
>Chemo is kicking her ass. She starts pulling away.
>One day tries to ride her horse again alone falls off and is in woods hurt. Parents call me and I rush from class and find her.
>All she does is apologize for meeting me while I carry her.
>I wile her eyes and tell her I love her no matter what.
>Finally has to be admitted to hospital.
>Hold her hand on my bday as shes dying.
>Tell her I love her and she smiles weakly and is about to say sorry. Says to let her go and like she did in Titanic and live my life for is both.
>Bawling like a baby as she dies on my bday.
>Her parents tell me how they love me and are grateful.
>Couple of weeks later college girl returns.
>End up back with her because I am defeated.
>cont.
>>685336022
>>685341365
Thanks. I can't help it sometimes. The more I think about it, the more it makes sense that normal people don't have suicidal thoughts and that people that are having suicidal thoughts should probably just die. Because they can't belong or cope with this world. Or something.
>>685341999
Well the trips dont lie..
>>685341498
Good caption for this picture?
>>685334153
Tell me about it
>>685336572
shoot up a planned parenthood centre then off urself after.
>>685342218
Huh, you are pathetic as humanity gets.
Does anyone have the one with the family guy dog drinking and the text about the only reason for your life being so shit is yourself?
>Fuck captchas, this photo ones are worse than the text
>>685337915
> Parents
> Me after my ex cheated on me
> Parents
> Me/Parents
> Don't get called a freak so clear here.
> Parents
> Uhh haven't had this one, did more than date.
> Me with my ex, bit of both idk, but it tore me apart....
> My ex
>>685341740
Always happy to make someone feel better. Remember that we actually do care. The ones who pretend not to are probably edgelords, ignore them.
>>685342594
As if I had more than 10 minutes before the shit thoughts start to settle in
>>685341999
I actually don't daydream about suicide. Furthest I've ever gone is laying down a Fronking on some scumbags and most likely getting killed in the process because there's really no other outcome. I want to feel something again, and there's nothing quite like a good firefight to make you feel alive.
Would be nice to feel before I died.
>>685342245
Well I kind of think of it differently, which is maybe why aren't neccessarily suicidal like most of you on these threads. I look at these threads when I feel in a feelsy mood - can't really describe it, but I like going on these threads and seeing stories and it gives me a new look on life, overall it makes me sadder but I kind of feel happier in a weird way too. However seeing the comments such as yours makes me feel bad though. I don't know a lot of people that are "normal" anon, it's certainly not an uncommon thing for you to be suicidal unfortuantely, but the way I think of it is that no one should die if they haven't killed someone or something, if you just happen to be a dick sometimes because you can't deal with your own problems, then you just need to find what makes you happy and what can stop you from feeling this way. If you could never find anything that makes you happy, then no there is no reason to stay alive truely, but only if you've tried and it can take years anon. Just try not to give up.
>>685337680
that sucks man. just kill yourself please though.
drink bleach or something.
thanks.
>>685334347
Fuck...
I miss her...
>>685342229
I know your feel anon.
December 23rd, 2015.
Lost the love of my life to leukemia.
For all those wishing to an hero, go for the ten minute suicide guide
>>685342229
>cont
>She never has never knoen about other girl.
>She never knew I would go and take the horse for walks when i needed a break.
>She thinks holiday cards I get from her parents are some aunt uncle, even though I never explained that.
>She doesnt know why I really suggested the name i did for our daughter.
>Wife thinks Rose was from Titanic and because wife is redhead and looks a little like Kate did in the movie.
>She doesnt realize that the true love of my life was named Rose and died on my bday 18 years ago next week.
>Hopes my daughter lives life as much as her namesake wanted.
A girl and I have been fooling around recently. She's here on her student exchange, and has a boyfriend back home. They've had some stupid argument or something so basically this girl can meet other people guilt free. Thing is, I'm falling in love with her. She basically told me we have no future together, because she's going back home soon.
It's heart breaking.
>>685342893
Yeah bro.
Fuck leukemia
>>685343163
>she has a boyfriend back home
After months of working towards it I just today finally managed to manipulate my MILF coworker into leaving her abusive husband.
Time to get some of that fine ass.
But wait
>tfw I'm married and probably will not cheat, thus missing the opportunity
>>685340756
Suicide?
Ravioli ravioli end me
>>685339191
Fuck off. Just because you cant feel intimate with someone unless there is the buffer of a fucking computer screen between you does not make it a valid concern of anyone else. Go to fucking /soc/ for bullshit like that. Otherwise let the rest of us enjoy being able to get beyond numb dystopia for a change.
>>685343163
stop this shit right now
not because of her boyfriend, but for your own sake
she is absolutly right, you have no future together, and what would you want with a whore anyway?
>>685343650
/thread
Don't die on me, fucker
>>685341660
That's true.
Imm'm forced to go outside several times a day wirh my dog and go for a smoke.
It's gelping me a lot.
But when I come home its back to usual
>>685339222
how bout dem trips doe
>>685334196
this
>>685343163
Dude. Don't fall in love with a fucking whore. She has cheated on her man with you, what makes you think she won't do the same to you once she get's bored with you?
Get over this slut. Go find yourself a quality girlfriend instead. One that will cook, clean and suck you dick and your dick only.
Am I weird faggot if I just want to hug someone?
>>685344488
ill hug any faggot who gets repeating digits <3
>>685344488
Definitely normal to feel that way, definitely gay to say so
>>685338569
>>685338569
Fucking hell that's a story for another day
*Saved*
I read the first and last post in this
Is it worth reading it all?
I will any way
Am i a weird faggot if i get boners for guys but not girls anymore
>>685344488
Hugs.
There you go anon.
I don't post much but I suppose I could share. Found out on Tuesday that I have Lymphoma. Doctors are positive and say i have a strong chance of beating it or whatever. I'm only 24 and I have never smoked or anything like that. I just haven't had anyone to talk to about it. Parents are going through a divorce and don't want to burden friends too much. Just want to get off my chest that I'm fucking terrified.
>>685334196
Fuck, that's kinda relatable for me
>>685344591
>>685344798
Thanks I guess...
>>685337680
Sounds terrible, i hope you'll get over it. Where you from? never heard smth like that
>>685344847
Anon, go tell your parents. Fuck their divorce, their shite should not make a bollocks difference and make you feel like a burden.
And good luck with the treatment.
>>685334967
I'm actually experiencing this...for 16 years now. So far, I didn't prove it wrong.
>>685338487
Chill whats wrong
>>685345024
Thanks mate. I'm speaking with a specialist on the 2nd. But they are currently leaning chemo.
>>685340894
You man the fuck up, and become the complete antithesis of what she wanted you to be. If for nothing else than the fact that knowing you are happier without her, being the man you want to be, will fucking KILL her inside!
>>685342733
I think it goes further than this actually. I want to fucking kill someone again. I've got all this rage and violence pent up, and I just have to bottle it down and smile and so my paperwork. I want to fold somebody up like a lawn chair again after squeezing a trigger.
I know a few dindus that push junk at a hotel. I know they're armed, and I know how they operate. It wouldn't take much for me to kill them. I've got the gear and the weapons, all I'd have to do is a little recon and planning. Probably take less than 5 minutes. I think about it a lot. I drive by there at least once a week. Maybe start there and work my way up. Maybe snatch one so I can figure out where they get the shit so I can go there and keep working. I want to so bad /b/. I won't go to jail. I won't commit suicide. But maybe I could go out in a blaze of glory, one last fight.
>>685342333
Even trips don't make feel anymore
I can't let go of the past and move on. I still think I'm the same little kid who's getting made fun of everyday. I understand intellectually that my siutation has changed but emotionally I haven't gone anywhere. I still beat myself up and ruin myself over the smallest mistakes or if I don't know something or get it right away. I don't understand how to have fun or enjoy myself in any way. I feel like a horrible person for just existing on this planet. I hate myself everyday and I don't want to do it anymore
Your Lie in April
>>685344529
PART 3 ?
>>685345142
I really don't feel like they'd consider divorce as nearly as important as losing a son, but that's just me
I constantly feel like a waste of space no matter what I do. I've tried maintaining a job but I'm constantly doubting myself causing me to be pretty shit at any job I do so I end up getting fired inside a month, tried exercise but can't stay motivated, can't find a girl that'll tolerate my low self esteem and depression issues. I fucking hate myself but I'm too much of a bitch to kill myself and see what happens. I've thought about it, once leaving a note with instructions on who to contact and what to do with some of my property.
I need help. I don't know what to do with myself.
Just spent around 4 or 5 hours waiting for a girl to show up and she didn't. She texted me about needing surgery and hasn't texted since. So i spent the rest of the night getting high and walking around town in the early hours of the morning alone.
You girls really need to man up and grow a pair.
>>685345320
Well I could get into that but that's a lot of typing. Let's just say they haven't always been the best parents. I had to leave home at 16 due to abuse so I'm used to being 'on my own' on these types of things I guess.
>>685339383
Dudeeee i believe this is my gf this is so fucking terrible im having nightmares now for sure
I won't make it through this Summer, guys. I am 100% sure I won't if it will be same as a last year.
I don't want to get back to that state when I just sit here 24/7 not doing a fuck.
I don't wanna have to look at pictures of my friends on facebook. How they went to that party/that festival/that club without even thinking about inviting me.
How I will have to watch groups of friends whenever I'll go somewhere alone.
How I'll have hundreds of hours of free time to think about things I have never done.
How my loneliness will be way worse than usually.
You /b/ros will be my company for the fucking summer.
not really feels but this pic makes me feel really reassured
Kind of pissed, depressed, and then happy story
1rst real long term gf. Meet her on dating site. Profile says add my xbox gamertag. I do it. We talk for about 4 months. She always cancels plans to hang with me. Dates a couple dudes meanwhile. Still a virgin. Me still a virgin. So i proceed to shoot for it. Finally meet up. She acts like she can keep up the friendly "dude" attitude around me. Doesnt. We hang out again and i kiss her. We are together. Find out she was canceling because her mom had diabetes and is in oretty bad shape. Cant walk. Love the fuck out of her. Drive 20 miles to her house and back every night to see her. Gets a little deeper. I help her take care of her mom. With household issues (dads not around). One day about 5 months in. Find she still talks to her ex. Dont like it. She says its just a friend. I know she cant go out so im cool. She talks to her gamer friends as well. Some i really dont like who have been fanboying her for some time. 8 months in. Mom becomes ill. Shes in the ER more than at home. Spend countless nights in ER and critical condition waiting room with her. Leaving only to go to work and shower. One night shes feeding her mom. Had a little argument earlier that day. Her phone is lighting up like crazy. See its from gamerfag. See the text headers. Get curious. Open phone. Shes talking MAD shit about me to him and other guys. Like personal shit. Hurt. Love of my life (i thought at the time) Confront her. She defends herself without a sorry and i just put up with it (i was stupid at the time) soon after that her mom is about to croke and in a room full of crying family im the only person holding back a smile. So we go on. I lose interest. I build confidence. She slides into a pit of depression. I see other girls looking at me and im surely staring back. Decide to pull the ladder out of my gfs pit and leave her and tell her im not into her anymore. Start dating and having the time of my life. Get promoted. Girls. Happy
>>685345769
makes me feel really comfy
>>685337362
well, i am relatively open but i tell people rarely. I never start crying except when i hear a sad / moody song (i stopped listening to music tho). Most of the time i am just scared, mad or bored
>>685345546
who hurt you?
i think i'm getting pretty fucking close to actually killing myself.
i'll probably go out in a hedonistic bang, doing as many drugs as possible and just doing whatever the fuck i want for a few days, then i'll just end it all after i burn out, or maybe i'll be lucky enough to OD and die before that happens.
there are just too many loose ends in my life that i'm worried i'm never going to tie. i just wanna let them all go.
the more life goes on the more i realize i'm never going to be happy. this world isn't for me. i'm fucking defective.
>>685340133
i want this to be true so much
>>685335502
Good thing i didn't.
I didn't fuck my teenage girlfriend though. She was too christian for that, but not christian enough to do everything else.
And when I was almost 17 and I did fuck some other girl, she decided she was ready.
Girls are idiots.
>>685338480
this actually made me laugh. good reaction image.
>>685337680
I have a similar albiet different story.
>be 20
>play mmo
>meet mexifag that I end up dating (I'm amerifag)
>relationship starts very smoothly
>falls in love with each other
>start to have problems in relationship
>we sharescreen via skype and he gets extremely jealous and ignores me for 5 days
>try to confront him but he is dismissive
>break up round 1
>300 text messages and 10 phone calls after morning
>we get back together
>relationship starts to take a turn towards mental abuse
can continue if you guys like
>break-up round 1
>>685332527
This shit has so many feels I even subscribed to this shit channel
https://youtu.be/ZY2XH_E-F0I
>>685345383
The worst part is knowing what is in the other side, bro.
I can tell you what to do, but you won't believe me, I guess.
Just leave.
Sell everything you own, buy a bag, buy one week of clothing and leave. Just walk around the world. Work where people accept you, for a living, but never end to walk, you'll find a place which fits you, that's a promise.
Or you can kill you. The other side isn't that frightening, but finding a way to deal with life worths the small first effort.
>>685345546
So what do you think anon, should I do it?
>>685345167
>>685345183
I used to be like this, hell I still go back to that place from time to time, and right now, I'm just slightly above the worst place in my life.
But you know what? It's worth it, no matter how much life shits on you, how much you have to deal every day, and how much nights you may spend cringing over that stupid mistake 15 years ago that nobody besides you can remember anymore.
It gets better.
Usually when you never expect it. One day you will be coming back from home and find a puzzle you really like, or hear a random song in the radio that may change your life.
For me this happened twice, one for the song, and one for a girl I met.
After my break up I went into an endless spiral of rage and alcohol which, in the end, made everyone I cared about go away from me. I had to suffer, something even worse than it was before, because there wasn't nobody to support me.
But you know what? It got better.
It took weeks, months, but eventually, even by myself, I managed to pick myself up, I managed to raise my head and face those I've hurt, I manage to feel like a living person, rather than a piece of thrash again.
And it all came to me after my friend I've know for more than half my life told me to stop bitching and man up.
I realize I got carried in my own story here but the point is.
You only need the courage to pick yourself up and face reality, no matter how bad things get, only YOU can make them get better.
>>685332527
>>685346381
> Will you fight? Or will you perish like a dog?
That line always makes me kek
>>685340084
as a cop, i would be scared that the dude pulls me down with him. Nice how it turned out tho
>>685339383
Goddammit anon...
It's kinda sad that something like 4chan is the only thing that can make me actually feel something
>>685346810
>Feelings
HAH. They're nothing but ticking time bombs that cause suicide.
>>685332241
FTFY
>>685346926
>>685345575
Welp, damn, hmm... try french fries?
I guess I really can't opine since the only experience I've had in this is one close friend that went trough something similar (the parents part), but I think she's okay since she's doing great now that I've finally talked to her.
Anyway, if everything goes wrong, you can always shitpost
>Fuck you captcha, salad is not real food
>>685341453
You should concider to take a shitload of meds and/or drugs. You've got nothing to lose. Just dull your senses and see if you can keep moving on. If so, maybe it gets better over time
>>685346910
More like biochemical reactions in you brain, mate. You can try to deny as much as you want, but we all have feelings.
>>685346998
>TLDR
Rather be a faggot on /b/ than deal with the mess of life.
>>685333333
ebebebrinininininininininininininnihugybmi7byubi
>>685345762
Just Go With Them.
You're questioning yourself far too mutch.
"Hi pals, what are you doing this weekend/week/summer, can I come ?"
That's how hard it is. garanteed
things don't get worse
things don't get better
they just change
>>685346251
obviously not. go seek help
>>685346926
>>685347008
AVE NEX ALEA
>>685344716
it is
>>685346926
>>685338487
happy birthday man
>>685336022
Dude...
>>685339034
At a certain point I realize that drinking changes nothing. But I cant stop drinking. I know my life will not get better. Im 23 and want to die.
>>685346810
It's not only sad, it's fucking miserable. Do you ever feel sorry for people that are not involved in some sob stories?
>>685332241
>A few months ago I lost her as a lover
>A few seconds ago I lost her as a friend
This woman has fucked me up. I'm glad she did
>>685341498
Holy fucking shit I want to murder these fucking kids and the people who let this happen
>>685338487
Happy birthday. Try to make it another year
>>685347854
That the fucking spirit
>>685342794
Same anon.
I fucking feel that feel every moment of every day.
I found a way to supress negative emotions to a certain extend. The problem is, i feel like i am getting a heart attack in the near future..
>>685342794
try rolling
>>685337680
onision?
>>685339637
Oh fuck. I do that sometimes. It just makes me feel pathetic so I try to stop it
>>685347854
interesting how she says she (suddenly) doesn't want to talk but keeps talking. Watch out, when you ignore her, someday she will start contacting you again just to see if she has still some influence over you. Just be solid as a rock and ignore her (or tell her to fuck off and THEN ignore her)
>>685344847
Fuck, anon.
I'm hoping the best for ya.
>>685347300
I don't want to keep wasting my life. A guy once told me, "the ghosts don't go away, you just get used to their faces," but I have ghosts that leer over me, telling me I failed them. Telling me that I should have reached out and helped. But I didn't. I lived my little cracker Jack life and let them fall into the abyss.
I don't want to waste my life. I want to make some motherfucker pay for it in blood.
>>685335502
I'm 18, is this really a big deal ? I mean only 5 poeple per classes had this happen, it wouldn't change the fact that I still have so homework or test to do to pass, neither problems I have actually, you can still have plenty of time after school, at least I hope
I know what I should be doing. I know that I should be sleeping about 8 hours every day, exercise about 3 times a week, study about 1.5 hours every day and a bunch of other shit.
I have researched all the methods, all the strategies that I could use to achieve what I want.
Yet I still don't do a single fucking thing to get it. It's not that I don't reach it, it's that I don't even extend my fucking arm towards what I want.
And somehow, all this self pitying feels justified, deep down. It drags me back into warm complacency, where I can just pretend that I'm not good enough, that I don't get good grades because I am stupid.
It feels easier that way.
But the thing is, if I think about it logically, I have nothing to lose by trying. Even if it turns out that I am not capable, I will still feel better, because at least I have tried.
It's not even fear of failure. It's pure, elemental laziness.
"Fuck that, it's too difficult. I don't want to improve."
I used to run regularly for a solid 2 months without missing a session. I worked myself up to 25 minutes of non-stop running. I felt awesome, as if life is about this. The constant pushing of your personal limits and the enjoyment of success.
Then, I missed one session.
Then another, and then another one.
And here I am now, where I haven't been running for 3 months now, haven't even been doing the bare minimum of sleeping enough and studying a bit every day to maintain a good level.
I just went full self-sabotage. It's always how I dealt with my problems since I was a kid.
My days consist of surfing the web like a lazy, lethargic ghost, looking for scraps of temporary distraction, so that I don't have to think of actual responsibilities.
I hope anyone who sees this just remembers that if you start something, stick to it and fucking grab onto it as tight as you can, because it is easy to say fuck it and just make excuses.
We can all do something to improve our lives and it starts with small steps.
>>685336572
there are other girls, stop caring about this one
>>685332241
Having a good life. Parents divorced when I was young, no biggie. Life is good, do okay at school eat my emotions a little bit but nothing serious. Find my passion in art, work really hard to get acceptance at one of the best design collage in the city. Shit is expensive though but my dad pays for it.
Doing good in college, then my father gets a stroke on the beach and in December vacation, almost drowns. I'm with friends in another city so I rush there to find my father in ICU looking at me and trying to talk but only "uhm" over and over and over again.
We have Christmas in the hospital and when we go back in land my dad has to go to the hospital because he has a clot in his heart and gets triple bypass surgery while he can't walk or talk or know what's going on.
Comes out fine but later has complications and has to go under again. Dad comesback to real life, he can only ly on the bed and watch TV, gets very depresses. My step mom decides to move him and her kids to the ocean away from all of this. I move in with my mom. Visit my father a couple times, he's very depressed and asks us where the key is for the safe, he wants to "look at his gun". Don't know what to do, but gotta get back to my studies. Things go okay, mom moves to another country. Later my father comes down to visit and my stepmom calls and tells him he should stay here because she is leaving him.
My dad with no job and can barely speak moves into a flat. I have to move in with him like a flat mate and pay rent and everything. Dad gets SERIOUSLY depressed constantly talk about ending his life, constantly crying. This causes me to flunk out a year because now I also get depresses trying to keep my dad from killing himself. Have to pick up another job and work nights and go class.
Live with him for a year or 2 and then I get engaged. As we are getting closer to the wedding date I realise I have leave my dad all alone to be with my wife.....
>>685338487
Happy Birthday Anon, recently had my 17th one but there were no family members around to celebrate it.
>>685338487
>I'm not a motherfucking robot, it's hard to choose flowers drunk
>>685345762
yeah, you cannot wait for people to ask you. They have their own problems and since you declined when they asked you, the initiative is on you buddy
>>685347837
No. Nor I feel sorry for people in those stories. But the fact that I can be myself and don't have to pretend or hide anything here makes me feel.
>>685348529
are you me?
>>685346172
pls cont
>>685348695
I go to my dad and tell him that I don't want to go, but I have to be with my wife.
My father with no one in his life but me and my brother looks at me and says "I understand, when I was your age I didn't even want to see my parents! Don't let me hold your life back, always remember to smile and enjoy, because tommorow your dead, then you can't enjoy anything anymore"
And I just fucking cry
>>685348829
>>685345762
This dude is totally right, sadly, I just learned this the last few days, now it hurts me to think how stupid it was to hope for people to just ask me out when I wouldn't ask anybody
>>685348390
thanks anon, I think you are right or she would have removed me by now
(pic unrelated)
>>685339397
my god that fucking webcomic reference
>this thread
>>685348829
>>685347239
I have never neither declined nor didn't come when they invited me.
But whenever I ask them, I usually get something like "Yeah, well, I don't know" or "I think I'll stay at home" and other day, boom, facebook full of pictures from there. I think I just need new friends
i made this for you fags
>>685336572
dude, tell her to fuck off
>>685349497
www cracked com / article_15658_the-ten-minute-suicide-guide.html
>>685349493
Thanks. saving that shit
>>685349651
Of mice and men. Good book.
Well,
My fiancé died last year from a complication during surgery.
I've only just come round to the idea of taking my ring off my hand.
There's this CYOA story and one of the female characters is so much like her, and when the character found love I felt my heart breaking all over again
It's a really strange state to be in, I'm not sure how I want to progress in getting over it all.
/b/ has been one of the only constants in my life.
>Was working full time & going to school
>busy all the time
>stressed out
>but there was reward in the struggle
>end up going to part time to make life a little easier
>instead of 2 hours at home before sleep it's nearly 8 hours
>I'm having to come to terms with what's inside my head
And I ran out of poppy seeds. I want to die.
>>685334153
fucking hell, second time i see this shit in here
who is the fucking disrespectful idiot who made this? Robin williams never said this, he never wrote this fucking shit
it's from a fucking movie for fucks sake, that's why people don't get into writing
people have absolutely no fucking respect for writers
the guy who wrote this is a fucking ghost, but robin williams, who just used his vocal cords to say it (yes, it's an speech in the movie, just voice acting) gets the credit? fuck you people
that's why people get fucked by lawyers and shit because of copyright and shit
don't complain when the big guys fucking sue you for using their shit, when you don't respect it
>>685349111
People are nice and willing to help but they need at least a signal that you also want it. Don't feel stupid, you learned that lesson yourself where other people are still stuck. nice trips of posiutivity tho (1 means yes)
>>685332241
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CnEaPgNo4w
the first song really fucks me up
>>685350012
woah
>>685336572
If you want to stop thinking about her then every time you find yourself thinking about her just imagine her smelling her fingers after itching her arse or something that disgusts you
>>685336022
Why would someone be such an asshole? I always wanted a little sister to protect.
>>685336572
Fap
>>685332241
Just 3 classes away from finishing my degrees in Fall, and the school's threatening to take away my financial aid for it because I have 'too many credits' as it is. I am beyond pissed, but saddened too, because I've been going to school since 2010.
>date girl
>fall in love
>she gets pregnant
>find out she was cheating on me, don't know if its mine or the other guys
>break up with her
>she gets an abortion and starts dating another guy a month later
Shit kinda fucked up my view on women for a long time
>>685335963
Right?
>>685349221
Own experience with a shitty (and mentally unstable) ex gf. I just have the impression that this is some backdoor plan / power game she is playing, but i can be wrong of course. Just watch out for yourself and dont run into a trap out of desire / need for love
Not only can I see the finish line but I am standing right next to it, and yet I find no reason to cross it.
>>685350571
I have never understood the illogical fear of death. I can relate to the concern of the ones left behind but the fear of death itself is illogical. Whatever more you might have wished for you will no longer need the moment you have taken your last breath. Only the living hold regrets.
>>685338487
Happy birthday man, your life is as significant as you want it to be. If you need any reassurance, I'm one more anon that thinks you're as valuable as any other person out there and to have a great day
This is my 3rd year at high school idk how to fucken study or move on with my life besides that im fat im going to be 20 next month i think i should end it before
>>685350642
If there is such a thing as perfection in the world then I believe it will be forever outside our reach.
>>685339281
dont understand
>>685337500
I thought I was the only on noticing it. Also, nie dubs man.
>>685349398
Oh, that's harsh.. seems you've wasted your energy. With the internet, it is super easy to reach out and find like-mindet people, give it a try and good luck
>>685337133
Lost
>>685348999
i used to have all these reasons for staying 'on track', doing my duties in different areas of life. The usual stuff, like how proud I'd feel if I did it, how proud others would feel, how fun it is to truly succeed, all that.
Then, somewhere along the line, I got obsessed with stupid philosophical concepts, mainly how we don't really have free will.
Thing is, I am fully aware that I probably have a really bad perspective on the issue, but I convinced myself for quite some time that I can't really change.
Before this limiting belief, I learnt two languages, did well in school, exercised and just felt like a happier human being all around.
After it, I am left confused as to what the fuck I want to do.
I read up on Stoicism, which helped for a while, but the laziness set in again.
at this point, there really isn't much more to say for me. Either I will face my responsibilities like a fucking man or I can come back here tomorrow typing out the same block of text.
And I guess I am you, because people like us, who are too afraid and paralysed to actually COMMIT themselves to a single thing in their lives are all too similar. In terms of our attitudes, we are very similar. We are afraid.
But we must overcome all the facts and probabilities of life and admit that the single thing we have all our lives is ourselves. Thus, we determine the outcome in all events of our lives. Sure, not to 100%, but to a respectable extent.
For me, I need to work on not using this as a way of blaming and loathing myself but rather as a reminder that I have a duty and (thankfully) time to fulfil them.
After all, what else can you ask of a man than to do his best?
>>685347873
To be fair it's hardly the kids' fault the bear is trapped in a concrete box
>>685350700
Suicide is a reaction to modern society.
>>685337133
fucking hell man :c
>>685338487
Happy birthday, man
>>685350829
they have used so shitty airlines in the past they did not get the whole can, that common thing impressed them
>>685339383
Holy shit, hit me
>>685349932
it is still pretty early... will take some time till the wounds heal. Hope you will find joy in life again, i guess she wants it as well
>>685334967
cringe
>>685335963
I kind of have this situation right now.
I know this girl, she's literally the only person i trust and tell everything to.
She lives far away, and we haven't talked or chatted with eachother outside groups for almost two weeks now.
I've grown a bit attached to her, not sexually, but just like real close friendship.
I know that it isn't abnormal to not talk to someone online for two weeks, but i'm silently panicking about losing my best friend.
I have trust issues and she is the first person i actually trust, it's very hard for me to establish and maintain friendships.
What do i do?
>>685345980
>>685346251
Honestly, I've been hurt many times by everyone who means something to me.
But crying and whining won't help me for SHIT. The only thing that can help me, is MYSELF.
To try and become the best fucking version of myself as fucking possible. No amount of tears and whining will heal these wounds.
The only thing I can do is to constantly improve my self in every way possible. Stop drinking, stop smoking, stop doing drugs, stop watching porn, stop staying inside all day, stop complaining.
Hit the gym, lift some weights, eat good food, start taking care of yourself, read more, meet new people, go on adventures into the forest, listen to other people, tell yourself "today is gonna be a good day" every morning.
BE THE MAN THAT I KNOW YOU CAN BECOME, ANON!
This is Blu. My good friend. Sure he was a mutt. Took him straight from the ghetto streets of southern California, he always annoyed the fuck out of me. I never wanted to take him out and he always shit in the house, i couldnt really get upset cause i didnt take him out yknow? But he still loved me. He was there when i was puking my guts out when i tried to an hero. He was always there when i broke down. I left last january after my grandmother passed away and had to leave him behind. He stayed with my mom so i didnt worry. I went back for winter break in 2015 and he cuddled up right next to me every night. I could tell he missed me, and loved me the most. The next break i came back, my mom told me he had ran away from the house he was kept at. She was moving at the time, and couldnt keep him in a motel room. We found out that there was a dog who was matching his description that was hit by a car and died at the emergency vet. I'd like to think he died that day, because i know ill never see him again. He wouldve been 3 about this time of year. I miss you Blu. Sorry for no greentext im on mobile.
>You're not funny Anon.
>Why are you even here?
>>685338487
Happy birthday anon! Sorry that things aren't going well in your life, hope that they get better soon
