Why are you depressed /b/? >Also feels thread.
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Why are you depressed /b/?
>Also feels thread.
>>681013224
>depression is real
You are just mental midget.
>>681013422
shit wrong thread. sorry
>>681013422
>inb4 im not depressed
then fuck off.
>>681013224
that's a beautiful pic
This girl I'm really into might be leading me on. Not sure how to deal.
>>681013739
found it a year ago on /b/.
>>681013863
These days you need to be an arogant asshole the get woman.. Just ignore her.
>>681013876
i've been sad most of the time past this year.. like, 90%. does this count
>>681013224
because I'm still waiting for my drugs to work
>>681014106
No, you don't. Just be confidence and go talk to her... Just because guys that look good gets girls pretty easy and you don't, doesn't mean they are assholes. Stop being such a pussy for once and deal with the shit...
>>681014249
Do you sometimes think about suicide?
>>681014443
Confident*
>>681014350
What kinda drugs do you take?
>>681014614
sertraline
>>681013224
yeah sweet pic..looks like a wicked place to smoke a fatty and chill...
>>681014505
pretty much everyday
>>681014775
For how long now?
>>681014967
a few days
>>681013224
Cuz I don't drive a crane for a living
>>681014443
I've attempted to deal with it. But I can never get a straight answer from her, hence "leading me on"
She made a comment about hoping I move with her for this job that we're both applying to but hasn't really said much else. She basically doesn't talk to me anymore and that comment was made on like Tuesday.
>>681014923
Its the same for me.. but i never feel like I am actually gonna do it.. only if something really bad happens..
I'm not depressed. Because I'm alpha as fuck.
Go out and do something with yourself. Improve yourself. Learn something. Go to the gym.
Whining about it on 4chan solves exactly zero of your problems.
>>681015133
Then move on, forget about her and go see someone else... She seems to be a bitch, stop being stuck up for no reason...
>>681015014
I sometimes feel like they arent helping at all..
>>681014443
don't take this guys advice.
be yourself. being a dick only attracts slutty daddy issue having skanks, not worthwhile women.
you have to tell her how you feel though. otherwise you're just being her friend, and you have no one else to blame except yourself.
>>681015240
This guy knows what's up. Crying about being "Depressed" on 4Chan ain't gonna make things better.
Everybody is fucking depressed nowdays, deal with it and find something to do...
>>681015240
I really felt great before she left me.. no i dont feel like doing anything.
>>681013876
That's an even better one. Saving it.
>>681015240
I'm alpha as fuck to brah but have still battled depression at times the big D doesn't discriminate
>>681015240
And?
Your advice soves nothing
>doc gave me sertraline and olanzopine to help with depression and anxiety
to scared to take incase they fuck me up,
somone tell if they have, or do take and if they help,
alsi i smoke weed
>>681015600
>>681013224
I'm 27 and still haven't achieved my dreams. Doesn't look like I will in the near-future, either. I'm also not up to the same level of 'success' my mother keeps comparing me to with other relatives and such.
>>681013224
Someone please tell me, if you're clinically depressed, are you 100% sure that a certain mental illness is present, or is it possible to be doubtful about it?
>>681015916
What is your dream?
I kinda hate myself and my inability to express my emotions. Also my issues regarding laziness and social anxiety. I hide behind humour which makes me look like a happy and easy going person, but inside I'm just sort of dead.
Maybe not dead, but just comatose.
>>681016022
I feel like depression is another word for being alone and sad. And no matter how hard you try you always feel alone. No matter how many people are around you.
No friends, never kissed a girl, loneliness and looks like that will never change
>>681016289
How old are you?
>>681016066
To live and work outside of the U.S., never having to come back here for good. I want to live my own life, make my own money, and just be as far away from where I am now as possible. I often go on Google Maps to look at far away places at street level.
>>681016135
pretty much describes me exactly. you're among friends.
>>681016135
Hmm.. thats a really hard thing to live with.. cant really help.
>>681015133
Tell her you feel like she is hitting on you and that you need to understand how she feels about you. had the same issue with a girl myself. turns out she was leading me on and didn't like me, but who gives a flying fuck? If all she wanted to do was to complain about stuff to me and only talk to me when her other friends are busy she might as well just be alone.
>>681016289
me too, anon
>>681013224
Because life is annoying. You're born into a world that has already been claimed by others and a ruleset applied onto you without any option to influence it, you're not asked whether or not you accept what and for which reasons, you're born with no knowledge and it's essentially random what happens in your first helpless years of life as you can't act for yourself in any meaningful way. While you grow up people try to manipulate you with their order, views, beliefs etc. without actually being honestly open and accepting all possible of your reactions but instead they try to force an answer.
Later you come to realize that there are so many people on this world that your single existance is close to meaningless. Same goes for your value in society because while there are so many people resources why care for a single one ? Everyone is replaceable.
On top of that you'll realize that you aren't special, unique, whatever. I guess most people initially think they're superior but in reality that can't ever be possible for everything. Great. So now you're not just feeling replaceable but also valueless.
Well, you can still try to find your place in this world. WRONG. You need money to travel the world and get some impressions, time.
You either may or may not figure it out. The point is: When you have ordered your life you are so fucking old that you don't matter anymore.
Stupid life.
>>681013224
Not depressed. Too busy and motivated to be. I refuse to let myself get mired in self-pity these days, these threads are great warnings to myself to stay focused.
>>681013224
what is souce anon
>>681016729
/b/ro that's basically the exact thing I'm going through. I really only seem relevant when she needs something. But finally actually good advice. Because I left things alone when she was trying to move but since there is a great chance we'll both get this job and she said she hopes I can go with her I'm just left wondering what's good.
>>681016275
I see
Not to be edgy, but I feel as if I've become careless about improving my life and have zero willingness to go for anything bigger than my routine. I do often be alone, yet the sadness that I experience is definitely occasional and not eternal.
>>681016602
I always wanted to do something with astro physics.. But i feel like my dream is never going to be reality. This life is so sad man.
Because everyone hates me and I don't even know why.
>>681017081
Dont know.. found it in a old feels thread.
>>681017250
Do you talk about yourself a lot?
>>681017134
I wasn't smart enough for astrophysics. I wasn't smart enough for computer science, either.
>>681017250
Maybe you are a bit to arogant without noticing it just like me.
>>681016808
But just going through it once before you dive back into the eternal void just for the happier moments isn't that bad, perhaps?
>>681017577
I feel like im not not smart enough but just too lazy to make my dreams reality.
>be 25 male
>broken collar bones, dislocated shoulder, massive chest trauma, shattered wrist bones.
>Not able to use the right side of my body.
>Doctors say can't be fixed must go on disability.
>younger brother died 2 years ago.
>No mom, H.A Dad in prison since 4th birthday for raping baby sitter and beating me as child.
>Being tested for cancer.
What's your excuse?
>>681016491
18, you probably think its young, but always i have tried making friends i have failed and when someone discover that i dont go out with anybody, they back out from me and think im a weird or freak and i really never have had a good relation with anybody
Asked a girl to prom, said she doesn't want a date. I don't get it.
>>681017504
>>681017585
I think that Im the kindest and the most emphatic person in this world. I cant see whats so wrong about it.
>>681017753
Thats really hard.. I feel so sorry for you.
>>681017703
I see.
>//why do I keep sharing these pics....
>//they're just taking me back to better times
>>681017823
I have the same thing.. it started when i was 14.. since then i sit in my room everyday and play vidya..
>>681017993
But do other people think that too? Otherwise it doesn't really work. Do you talk with people or to people?
>>681018085
Did you take this pic yourself?
>>681017823
this is pretty much me
23, I just watch TV and play vidya all day
I haven't seen /b/ so warm and hospitable before.
Yes, I'm a newfag.
>>681018397
Yes
>>681015364
Ive been on sertraline for 5 months now, first anti depressant ive been on, I feel like its helped me with anxiety but aside that all its done for me has made me nauseous, Think im gonna switch next week frtom what ive been told its pretty much trial and error till you find something that works
i refuse to think about my feelings , refuse to question my conviction i refuse to admit i'm depressed. Thus i will continue.
>>681013224
Jesus christ have you got like 20 minutes?
I'm a 35 year old virgin, i'm fat, ugly, short, every single part of my body is flawed from my stupid thinning and greying hair to my ugly ass toes and peeling soles. I've been hugged a grand total of 8 times by non-family members because you better fucking believe i count every single one of them.
I work a shit, low paid, stupidly stressful job that i'd rather get run over than continue to do but i have such terrible social anxiety i fuck up interviews all the time (i only got this job due to nepotism). My house is the size of a shoebox, my car is a pile of shit, my fucking body is falling apart - arthritis in my right elbow, nerve damage in my right shoulder + shoulder blade, arthritis in my left thigh meaning i can barely lift it high enough to step into a bath. My skin is so greasy i have to shower twice a day.
I'm so fucking alone yet i'm so utterly terrified of people and the outside world i can't do anything about it.
I've been waiting for my parents to die so i can finally kill myself because i don't want to hurt them, but i'm so fucking scared i'm not even sure i'll be able to do it when the time comes.
I can't continue doing this for another 40 years; i just can't.
>>681018611
Fuck the pills. Smoke weed
>>681018456
The world is hard and everyone knows that on this board. But sometimes we have the help each other out.. on /b/ there are people i sometimes like to call my friends.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFUPIuHayRo
>>681017081
>>681017260
Here you go:
http://mildlyreactive.deviantart.com/art/Taking-Control-342771815
>>681018760
Oh yeah and i have PROP sensitivity meaning i can't drink alcohol without literally physically gagging meaning i can't even drink my fucking troubles away.
>>681018219
Me since 13-14 too and yes, play videogames, watch movies/series and listen to music, just that is what i have to evade, and some day i dont even feel like to do nothing
>>681018598
Those are some beautiful pics anon.
My wife left me with the kids because of my cancer
>>681018760
Sounds like it's your fault. You allowed yourself to get to that point, you fucking autist. Just kill yourself now.
>>681017823
All you faggots that are the same gamer hermits should be friends. Duh
There's tons of you out their complain on /b/ about how you can't make friends.
You think your the only lonely gamer in your area? Niggas please
>>681019052
Yeah....I took them in South Korea when I lived there from 2009-2012. I went back again last December for a week's vacation.
Now I'm stuck back here, in Georgia, wasting away with friends and family turning their backs on me. I can't keep living like this.
>>681018760
I always feel so sad when i read shit like that..
Im pretty fat too but i started going to the gym.
But even when im no more fat.. its still hard to find friends when everyone thinks you are super weird.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_P-v1BVQn8
>in a little while from now
>if im not feeling any less down
>i promised myself to treat myself and visit a near by tower
>and climbing to the top
>will throw myself off
>In an effort to
>Make it clear to whoever
>Wants to know what it's like When you're >shattered
>Left standing in the lurch at a church
>Were people saying, My God, that's tough
>She stood him up
>No point in us remaining
>We may as well go home
>As I did on my own
>Alone again, naturally
>>681019063
dude... im sorry to hear that
>>681019452
Can you speak Korean?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tW9h3GOz3Gs
I'm a pedophile and no one will ever accept or love me for who I really am. AMA
>>681018760
A sad story, but friend - dont give up on me. There are always people who will listen - even if we're not able to help. I care and so do others.
I'm supposed to call the doctor tomorrow to schedule an appointment, so I can get a diagnosis.
Since October '15, I feel like my life has taken a dramatic turn for the worse.
Everything that impacts me negatively feels like an escalation, as if there's no going back, no way to dig myself out of this slump. My mom has been on antidepressants and has made a fairly good recovery, but I'm afraid I'll have an adverse effect or worse yet, that I'll become addicted to them instead.
I think what I really need is to see a psychologist, someone outside my social circle, that I can tell about my existential crisis and who can (hopefully) show me a way out of this strange, deflated mental state.
I want a fresh start.
>>681019413
Are you afraid of dying? Or do you feel like its a release?
>>681018611
Find out if your insurance covers genetic testing. Could be the best advice you get in a long time. Takes pretty much all the trial and error out of drugs.
>>681019644
I can read it, and can speak a little of it. I *would* be fluent, but I placed my trust into the wrong people during my time there, and because I was too young and stupid to just focus on staying there instead.
>>681013224
A Back injury is preventing me from Lifting and running.
Doing those things are fucking amazing.
Makes me feel so good.
I love hiking, I love being outside.
Instead i sit here and can feel myself wasting away, I go for a walk, try and keep as active as i can but i'm in constant pain with every step. I know i used to lift more. I can feel my clothes getting smaller, so i cut my food intake but that doesn't help me i still feel trapped,
I feel old, im 30, but feeling like this is just draining, i don't ever want to be this again, but i will when im older, thats just the facts of life man.
I'm so desperately alone
>>681019429
You know.. I dont know about the other but i have this weird feeling that i want to have friends..
But as soon as i have some i just feel like being alone again.
>>681017069
Thats a nice angle, im in your boat at this point.
>>681014175
Picture has always made me sad, especially her finger.
>>681013876
Where is this pic from?
>>681019846
Atleast you already did something in your life im still in the same dark room.
>>681019750
>AMA
Why?
>>681015185
source please?
>>681017753
>THIS is real pain.
Most of you are all just fucking lazy.
Fucking new generation of pussys. You guys don't understand real pain.
your biggest problem is you can't make friends so you just stay home and game.
Lazy spoiled faggots.
Geezus fuck
Not diagnosed as depressed but have some feels, I've come to realize that I have no real true close friends although this allows me to be friends with everyone it kinda forces me to not connect on a deeper level with others. Oh well I may just be single forever and also only a filler friend I'm growing to accept these things.
>>681020110
Its my favorite one.
"He wanted to fly. Just once"
I'm a girl and I'm ugly.
>sometimes I look at you fall in love you lose threads and imagine how great it must feel to be one of those girls
>>681020168
>>681020246
Sorry for all the guys asking for source..
I just randomly picked them up in feel threads.
>>681020173
True, but I came right back to this dark room...in fact, the room now is even darker than before, because I know there's a world out there, but I can't seem to get back to it no matter what I do.
>Lost dream job in london due to drug problems
>girlfriend who was meant to be the one didnt trust me because she found out about drug problem and losing job.
>moved to ireland with her to get away from drugs and London because we both hated it
>Ended up fighting because LoL No Trust Issues
> broke up because I couldnt deal with being the bad guy anymore
> now live back home with parents and cant find what i want to do with my life.
> now fight with parents all the time because mother is an alcoholic who has no understanding of anything
>now 30 with no job prospects outside of London because work in music.
shall i just kill myself?
>>681013224
Cause i can't be who i want to be, mostly cause i dont really know what that is. I wanna move somewhere else and start over, if that makes sense.
>>681019802
I feel like death is a pussy way out of shit unless if you're already dying and you see it as just a quick escape from the inevitable.
But, yeah. I fear death. I love the Earth and I wouldn't want to leave Her. But at the same time she's ruined too due to humanity. I dunno man.
>>681020234
Because I am. Like asking someone why they're gay or straight or what have you. I am attracted to young girls. Can't help it.
>>681020419
Can you post a picture of yourself?
Im literally the guy who is okey with everything.
>>681015240
id object.
speaking to someone, anyone, is better than bottling it up.
1 problem solved.
>>681013224
>Why are you depressed
I spent my younger years (18 - 23) in a toxic relationship with someone who abused me physically, emotionally and financially, I stayed on a career path I didn't like to keep my (now ex)gf happy, I spent silly amounts of money taking her to cities for weekends away, she cheated on me and told me that she was the best I could do, she had the cheek to tell me that she knew how I felt because a guy she cheated on me with dropped her for someone else, I was always criticised, my family picked at and she would manipulate those around me, I only got the balls to dump her a couple of weeks after proposing to her, in return she lied about me and turned my family against me, I haven't spoken to them in 3 years, but her instagram shows pictures of her having Sunday roasts with them.
Since then I've tried changing my career path twice to varying success, I've picked up new hobbies and even competed at a regional level in some due to the sheer dedication I'm putting in (I spend about 15 hours a week training for something).
I've been at an emotional score of about 4/10 for about the last 5 years, while I'm at a physical level of 10/10, I run half marathons for fun and am in the best shape in my circles of friends, women approach me and I freak out.
I'm afraid of women given my experiences with my ex, I flinch if any try to touch me, I have panic attacks if I spend time alone with any, the last girl I kissed left my flat because I had a breakdown thinking she was about to attack me, when she was just trying to move towards a little bit of heavy petting.
I've been miserable for years, my friends think I'm being modest.
I'd kill myself if I wasn't a coward.
>>681019885
I'm in the same spot as you. I got in a car accident with an animal that I was entirely not at fault in. Took 2 weeks off and felt better. Then after a month of training I had sharp pains, went to the doc and was told I couldn't work out until they said so...now it's 4 months later and I'm only just now being allowed to go back to my sport. I too have literally felt myself getting smaller, noticed my binges so I've corrected by trying to add day(s) of fasting. It'll take time but once we're fully healed we'll be able to get back to working at and staying fit. Just hang in there
>>681020654
I had some good times on earth too man..
But im more in love with the memories than with the current state.
>>681020419
I'm a guy and I'm ugly
you love you lose threads make feel like shit because I know I could never even get a girl that's kinda cute
>>681020419
You definitely don't think like most girls. Usually an ugly girl would look a pretty girl and think: "I wish she was ugly."
Anyway, you can find some kind of solace here knowing there are plenty of guys with low standards who are willing to fuck any girl given that they aren't fat hambeasts.
>>681020587
I know that feel.. i had a girlfriend 2 months ago and since she left i cant think of anything else.
>>681020704
I'm not asking why you're a pedophile, I'm asking: why should I ask you anything?
>>681020768
Have you gone to therapy or something? Because you legit sound as if you have some sort of PTSD from the shit your ex did to you.
My mother is mentally abusive and my father dealt with that shit for 23 years. His mental health state is not the best, and he's ultimately damaged due to the shit my mom's done. You gotta get yourself evaluated man, otherwise you're going to hurt yourself.
>>681020283
Of course that is painful, more than mine, but my loneliness is painful too, just another kind of pain
>>681021146
I've been single since 2005. :/
I'm 27.
>>681021282
IDK but apparently you had a reason to ask me why, so ask yourself that question.
>>681020768
An Hero sounds so easy but in real life its almost impossible..
>>681021429
I've been single since 1992
Both of my siblings and all of my friends are in committed relationships while I remain single to the point where nobody can imagine me with someone.
Plus I fall for girls pretty quickly, even when I'm trying to hold a lot back, and my family is pretty judgmental about who I date so my standards are skewed as fuck.
Anyone I do bring home that I may have had an inkling of attraction to they'll view as a product of my low self-esteem and that just makes me angry.
Well, I've thought about killing myself more and more lately. I'd want to do it in a way that it's not a "suicide" to all my family and friends. However I also don't want people to just think I'm even more of a fuck up. I'd also want to beat the shit out of the people I have problems with before I killed myself, making the "non" suicide suicide thing an issue. I haven't been able to work out for months, I'm 15lbs overweight (imo), I always get a month in to a relationship with a girl and it cuts off because of reasons, and I'm shit at school (2.7ish GPA) despite scoring a 1350+ math+reading SAT. I want to enlist but everyone tries to chuck me in to thinking its a horrible decision. Any ideas?
>>681021429
I wish i could just not have any feelings.. its so hard to achieve something in live when you love someone but she doesnt love you back.
Dealing with being trans and scared I wont ever pass because manly jawline.. Im confused as fuck and it drags me down like hell..
>inb4 mental illness
Also some illness I have fucks me up
>>681021436
But I don't have a reason to, that's why I'm wondering.
>>681020591
What was your job?
Because I feel stuck in my current situation and don't see things improving in the future. I never take chances as I'm afraid of failure.
Hate current job and don't want to pigeonhole myself into doing it for the rest of my life. Don't likely have the grades or money for grad school. Would be fine if I could distract myself with hobbies,a relationship, or anything. Don't really find pleasure in anything anymore.
Never been in a relationship, though never tried. Can't really complain. At this age, the fact I've never been approached and have no real meaningful relationships has led me to believe something is wrong with me other than being reclusive.
>>681020591
Not yet. Things can get better
>>681013224
OP here.. Posting random pics.
>>681021960
Well you've gotta have a reason for carrying on the conversation. You sure there's nothing you're curious about?
>>681022222
I never had quints.. woho..
>>681022222
Fucking checked
>feel bad
>find feels thread
>pour out inner feelings
>hit post
>wait for replies
>no replies
>no replies
>no replies
>feel even worse now
I'm going to bed, fuck this gay earth.
>>681020768
You're not a coward. Thouse who stay alive in difficult times have balls. Balls of steal. Only cowards kill them selfs. Things will chance, anon.
>>681015240
>posting on /b/
>Alpha as fuck
pick one
>>681022400
Noo, which post is yours?
>>681021291
>Have you gone to therapy or something?
I had a fair bit of it after being on a long waiting list, but I don't think I got any further than I did on my own.
I've had 3 different therapists, none of them have been any help if I'm being honest.
I'm not going to hurt myself, I enter kick boxing contests and spar, that's all the pain I need, it reminds me that pain is temporary and it doesn't hurt to have a plan if you get hit in the face.
>>681021525
It still doesn't stop me from telling sad cunts to do it though
>>681013224
She don't want me mayne. Rip
>>681022460
this
nice image op, makes me feel at-home.
>dont really hangout with people, but i do talk with people in school
4chan and osrs comfort me and distract me from my severe loneliness outside of school.
>>681022367
I feel like there is something missing inside of me, love and care, i feel cery upset about not having a girlfriend i like
>>681018085
Seoul?
>>681021598
Why do you care what your family in your household thinks as long as you're happy with the person you're with?
Is being judged more of a priority than being happy?
>>681022654
>>681022452
i ment to say Change*** fuck
>>681016289
Sadly, I'm in the exact same situation.
All I do is play video games and when I leave my computer depression hits in. The reason I still haven't killed myself are my few good internet friends and video games.
>>681022817
>>681022325
No. Nothing I can think of. I'm a pedophile too, but I'm not depressed about it in the slightest. Maybe we can share our likes.
>>681022515
I hope you can sort out your emotional issues in the very least. You gotta find that right woman who will atleast listen and understand what's happened and how it's affected you. If she doesn't, well then she's just another cunt who probably believes men can't get raped.
>>681022925
Same here
>>681022506
Not the guy you're replying to, but take your pick from any post above, longer than three sentences and without replies.
>>681022400
You are forgetting all the lurkers.
>>681022989
>>681022012
organised gigs for relatively famous bands.
I got accepted to my dream university of UBC and I feel empty. My goal is Med School, but am losing my motivation, idk what to do. I work out 5 days a week, play games and talk to friends, but I still feel depressed. Life is hard, having to constantly keep my grades up
>>681023043
Pedophiles are worthless in my eyes. If i ever met you, i would beat the shit out of you.
>>681020283
>implying this doesn't just further put people in the hole
Why bother asking for help and getting better when people like you exist?
>>681023043
I'm happy for you, stranger.
>wasted all of my 20's working bars
>now realise i dont want to work in bars because i cant stand being around drunk morons.
>dont know what to do with life now.
>stuck working in shit bar jobs because I make relatively good money as a manager.
>too scared to leave job and find new career.
>she'll never love me back
I want off this ride.
>>681023433
Ooh fucking tough guy. Protip, anybody that makes comments like these couldn't beat the shit out of a guy in a wheelchair.
>>681023302
Exactly the same here. (except law school)
>>681023433
Why do you feel this way? We weren't talking about rape or cp. Just an attraction. And people like you are why pedos hide and sometimes end up hurting children because they get no help. So thanks for perpetuating the problem.
>>681023890
Are you a pedophile in a wheelchair?
>>681014443
1 off
>>681013224
OP here.
This is the first time i made a post on /b/ that got so many replies..
Kinda sad considering its about depression and lonliness.
>>681024075
Nah, I just think people that want to hurt someone with a mental illness are filth. Not all pedophiles act on it.
I always compare myself to others. And even tho I am not at the bottom, in any aspect, I kinda freak out inside when someone passes me in some aspect of which whom I have never thought he/she might.
I guess I have a fear of wasting my life or not living it to the full potential, and when I see ppl who pass me, it hits me where I have failed.
>>681024294
Thanks, stranger. Appreciate the open mind.
>>681024274
Well that's /b/.
A bunch of depressed and lonely people(exluding the few exceptions that actually do great in life).
>>681013863
wahhhhh a girl doesnt like me wahhh im depressed there are more important things faggot
>>681020283
there is no excuse you fucking retard, people are depressed for no real reason a lot of the time.
not like I can help it, do you think I WANT to be depressed?
>>681023433
I honestly doubt it, but whatever makes you feel more alpha about yourself. This reminds me of the 80's when guys who hated homosexuals would wait at a gay bar in the bushes and beat the shit out gays for being gays. I'm fairly sure that if you lived in that time you wouldn't be amongst them but rather a social reject who isn't even smart enough to own much less use a computer.
>>681023578
Much thanks senpai.
>>681024538
Gives me a weird feeling.
>>681022774
Yes
Goodnight my friends..
>>681024788
Why?
>>681023081
>You gotta find that right woman who will at least listen and understand what's happened and how it's affected you.
Pretty hard to believe that I'm scared of women when I have regional championships under my belt.
>>681022784
I care what almost everybody thinks a little too much, and that's why I'm confused as to whether or not I should be dating goddesses or uggos. I have no way of determining my social value other than by using the judgments of others as references, so I'm caught in a bit of a massive clusterfuck in that regard.
Family judgments are just a tad more piercing. I can't seem to compete with my siblings and feel like a failure.
>>681020768
I don't know what to say, I don't get that kind of anxiety. It sounds like you're doing the best you can, Try setting up an online dating account and get to know a girl that way, so you trust them a little more before you meet them for real.
>>681024046
You're sick. Sorry for acting like a tough guy. But if you accept that you're sick and seek help, then i do not see the point of hurting you.
But if you ever did something sick like most pedophiles do... You feel me?
>>681013224
I want to fuck a little girl, but I´m not a criminal.
I want money, but I don´t want to work, I´m scared of going out of my house/interaction with peopl.
I need to go on a die, but I don´t have stamina for working it out.
and so on.
I don't want a woman to have sex with. I want someone to talk to.
>>681025022
Most normies out there dont even think about these kind of things..
They probably wouldnt believe how many people actually have this problem.
i feel so fucking sad
Half my family died from cancer(my dad , 2 uncles, 1grandpa, 1grandmother)
My other grandfather just found out he has cancer.
Entire family is depressed
Feel like shit since 5 years ago
Probally gonna fail college
>>681025214
Can't get help. >50% chance I'd get in trouble for something I haven't even done. This is how people with your previous mindset hurt things.
>feel like shit
>post here in hope to have a conversation
>no one replies
>feel worse
fuck my life
>>681025202
>Try setting up an online dating account and get to know a girl that way, so you trust them a little more before you meet them for real.
Tried it, women on the internet literally lie about who they are, when I do meet them and they realise I'm disappointed with them lying (about their identity, height, weight or even interests), then the insults come and I crack.
Why does sadness and suicidal thoughts feel so comfy in its own way? its hard to resist to feel like piece of shit
>>681025164
>I care what almost everybody thinks a little too much
Well, I guess that's where lies your problem. No one can make you not-care about something you care about, so no amount of therapy/counseling is going to help you. I suppose my best advice is to move out on your own. It'll be a much more lonely life, but you'll be free from judgement.
>>681013224
I just feel lonely...not that depressed, but shit...i 'd really like someone that just cares for me a little.
>>681016602
Sorry to break it for you Anon, but running away is no dream.
>>681025383
Normies are too busy with their OWN life.
They barely think about their best friends, all they care about is themselves.
Also they consider people like us miserable and unacceptable which is really sad, honestly.
>>681025633
I would love to have a conversation with you..
But sadly im to tired rn so im just gonna cry myself into sleep.. good luck anon.
>>681025928
Oh, but it is. It's better than the *nothing* I have here.
>>681025625
So you're basicly fucked?
What is it about kids that turn you on?
>>681025633
Hey, you can talk to me. What's up?
>>681025804
It's because those thoughts are your own...even if you feel they are bad for you, you still know that feeling and in an ironic way, you feel safe when you feel sad instead of being happy which can be scary sometimes.
>>681025965
The only time they really care about us is when they watch TV and they hear that someone killed himself.. but its way to late to help him now.
>>681025891
where are you located
vienna here
you can stand here as long as you want and we eat bbq and play some pool and stuff
>>681025633
I'll talk with you anon. What's the matter?
>>681013224
Damn. I'd work as a crane operator for a day if I could see that kind of view.
>>681026000
Iktf.. Goodnight
>>681026170
Laying in bed depressed af.. You?
>>681026249
i'm in paris...thanx. sounds cool. nice to think about.
>>681026243
Exactly, also after bullying and criticizing everyone different from them society still wonders why do school shootings happen.
What society became is retarded.
Just don't get it. I hate people, and lonely at the same time. Took some pills of Kavinace and litereally said fuck it. Fucking too awkward to make friends in my mid 20's which is why I keep falling back to square one.
>>681025633
>complain about no replies
>get replies to complaint
>feels like they're just faking interest now
>feels bad that people didn't want to reply to your original post
I don't have any friends, literally. I had a couple of good guys around me but then they all started talking to each other and I Stayed alone. Somehow I got used to it but it still feels weird to be alone all the time.
>>681026394
Whats the matter, Anon?
>>681026394
Trying to help a sad anon on a mongolian carpet weaving forum realize there's so much more to life than being depressed in bed.
The girl that I love and I know for a fact she loves me too, she's told me, is hooked on dope and when she gets low on drug money she whites herself out to others.
I don't know why I like her, but she won't go off with me because she doesn't want to hurt me.
I haven't talked to my friends in weeks, I'm lost, I don't know what to do. I can't think straight /b/
>>681026139
Depends on the girl. Just like most people there are even some I don't like cause they aren't good looking.
>>681013224
My psychiatrist is telling me that i have Depression. My Life is great, i dont know why he is thinking that. Have a good Job, have Money, no Girlfriend but thats okay. The only thing that could depress me is my Anxiety Dissorder. I dont talk about "Social Anxiety" bullshit. Its Generalized Anxiety, so i am probably afraid of nearly everything. But i can life with this.
So, the Fuck i know.
>>681015548
You never really felt great, then.
Find your own happiness.
Happiness cannot truly be given to you by other people.
>>681026394
Nothing too notable going on right now. What are you depressed about my friend?
From a guy who spent most of his young adult life depressed and now considers himself "cured", I want to tell you all something:
Being sad and miserable is part of being human. Depression as a condition takes root when you start giving those doubts that constantly whizz past your mind randomly the time of day. Once you're in, it convinces you that you're a helpless victim and the longer you stay there, the stronger this pull is. One you're there, the hole is all you know.
Don't look for things or events to make you happy, because I spent 8 good years doing just that, never worked. You just enjoy yourself momentarily at the best of times and then bounce back to misery and self-loathing in record time. Instead... reason it out. Go for a walk and talk to yourself, really dig deep. Realize that it will affect you for as long as you let it do so. It's a part of you, now and forever, so realize that beating it is not the answer. Seek to understand it and control it, it's like any other emotional overload. anguish when someone close to you dies or other loss, anger when you're slighted or ignored, joy and hype when something great happens.
Learn to ride the wave as it comes. It ends eventually, then you can enjoy life.. until the wave comes again, but you know how to ride it. You will always get these bouts of utter misery, so learn to handle them well.
>>681016602
>sorry for english.
im planning the same thing.
im going to move to the u.s thou (since i have citizen)
im leaving so i can try a fresh start from people and the personality i developed here mostly (small country) - you are leaving a huge country instead of moving to a diffrent state.
and since im planing on moving there then
>why are you leaving the u.s?
>>681026687
Fuck she whores herself out not whites herself out
>>681013465
dat pic.... pure kek
Since I graduated from uni I haven't been able to find a job in my field. Nobody wants a business intelligence specialist without at least 3 years of field experience.
Every once in a while while, even thoug I've lived here for years, I'm out walking somewhere, coming home from my shit part time job, or about to fall asleep I think I want to go home
>>681026687
Love is not enough, if it's not based on actions. She clearly is not thinking about how she loves you when she is on drugs.
Save yourself, bro. Cause she won't love you if she can't save herself.
>>681013224
It has just always been there, not shure where it comes from, but I can deal with it most of the tine. Also I'm dating with this girl, kinda qt, but also kinda ugly. She is hyper shy, and I might be the first guy she ever made out with, but Im not really interested, still sfh it would kill me to break her heart, 'cause I had this girl breaking mine a month or so ago
> she is 97 and I'm coping
>>681026787
It's easier to just know all this than actually move on and become happy out of nothing.
Thanks anyways for not being like the faggots that are trying to act "cool" and actually helping.
>>681013224
I miss her.
Since Aug 2, 1997.
>>681026611
Me neither. Only socialization i get is from uni.
>>681026787
Well said.
>>681017703
You don't need smarts to do astrophysics.
You only need a passion and a will power to not give up learning. Every bodies brain is different. There is no stupid. Stupid is when you try to use the parts of your brain that are not as good as the other parts.
i.e. instead of studying hard words use audios
or if you cant do either, look up what a mindpalace is if you like to imagine worlds in your head
There is literally a million and 1 different ways to learn using your brain. Each one is different for every person.
For me its where I am in life. I want better, I need better. I just don't know how to get better. I plan on a do or die move. I am gonna try to move to a place I've wanted to live for years now. I don't even now if ill be able to live there. But I feel like I NEED to try. I don't wanna be stuck in this job anymore/city.
>>681013224
>inb4 edgy
I'm despressed because i'll never be able to openly punish stupid people.
Not because of strength, because im strong enough to fucking destroy their asses, and even if i wasnt i'd shoot them.
But because it's now frowned upon to punish stupid behavior, if you teach people why they're wrong, you're "being a dick" or its "illegal"
Not only is this preventing me, i will just never be able to magically appear at every stupid fucking persons household and beat them for their stupid shit like they deserve, if some black girl is rude somewhere, i'll never be able to punish her, if some white guy is racist, i'll never be able to fuck him up.
Now i dont mean this for jokes, everyone can joke about this shit, but when people are authentically, rude, stupid, and or outright fucking autistic, they need someone there to beat them to borderline crippled status
I know
>teenage angst
>lol go listen to linkin park
But this shit really should be taken care of in the most brutal way possible.
>>681026915
There are a number of personal, deep reasons why I intend to leave this country. Of course, there are the obvious ones like the country 'going to hell in a handbasket,' but other ones are well...I don't belong here; though I was born in the U.S., it is not and have never truly been my home. There's nothing left for me here.
>>681027034
She says she's going to quit, I believe her but I'm sort of blinded.
I don't know how I'm feeling, my emotions are just... blank
The feel when you just make a barrier in front of all your feelings to make everything easier. After all these years of doing that I can't take it down, my Nan is currently in hospital and I don't feel shit other than its a minor inconvenience on my life.
Threads like these remind me of how shit of a human I am, for that I'm grateful.
>>681026787
Thanks man
finally someone who doesnt say "just cheer up"
>>681027227
Well at least something. Do you have any friend here? Like some real friends?
>>681027345
At least you're going to do something about it, which says a lot more than these fucks on this thread.
>>681020310
Fuck that movie got to me.
Poor Gene.
>>681015916
Then fuck her and do whatever you want. Your 27, thats like what? Barley more than 1/4th done with your life, you got time bro
>>681026721
>Happiness cannot truly be given to you by other people.
only time in my life i was happy, when i had someone.
>>681018924
I thought this was a vidya
>>681026261
>>681026642
>>681026763
See: >>681021841
I know, it doesnt seem like much, but it fucks me up really bad..
I also feel like im annoying everyone I talk to about it (online) which makes it worse.
Especially my BF, I dont want to annoy him with my bullshit
>>681027643
That's what I keep telling myself. If I haven't achieved those dreams within 5 years from now though, I'm considering suicide.
None of you are irredeemable or broken.
You just lost the light somewhere.
I know you'll find it again.
I still have faith in you.
You deserve better.
>>681027355
The quickest cure is to stop being an edgy little faggot, trust me
>>681013224
I'm trans
>>681013224
my dreaming process so strong at night stronger along days
>>681027888
At least suicide in a creative way.
I hate non-creative suicides. If you are going to say fuck it i'm out then mas well make it something they'll put in the news papers. Or go the route where you go to the middle-east and kill as many shit skins as possible.
>>681027686
I don't know that feel, but I'll still listen if you need to vent.
>>681027888
27+5=32, thats not even 1/3 done, quit whining, keep pushing forward, and fuck your mother
>>681027447
This
>only emotion im able to feel is anger AT FUCKING VIDEO GAMES
>haven't legitmately smiled in years
>>681027978
Thanks, Anon.
>>681027204
What happened anon?
>>681027630
ya he seemed like a great guy.
I wish I could've been his friend.
>>681027605
Like I said. I feel like I have to. I'm in my early 20's so I am young enough to do some stupid shit.
I don't wanna be 40 years old thinking "what it?" If I try, and I fail then I can say well, It wasn't right.
>>681028054
natural lucid dreamer here. i lucid dream EVERY time i fall asleep almost without choice. I can control the varying amounts of lucidity.
End goal of life is to allow every one to choose their dreams.
entertain me with your thoughts.
>>681028109
Shotgun seems the easiest route.
>>681028136
I think that's what the suicide would do, but I'm not trying to intentionally hurt her.
>>681027355
You're in the wrong board. This place is full of stupid people, keyboard warriors, hypocritical moralfags, and bigots. You should be at a bar with your friends fucking some drunk idiot up for saying something stupid. And it's important to have friends with you, since no one fights fair or one-on-one like they use to.
>>681027888
Dreams are also just dreams. I'm 40 years old, and i had dreams too...but sometimes you try and take a road to your dream and it leads you somewhere else, and you can either fight it or think it's the natural course of events.
Achieving your dreams in itself should not be your aim...but taking the road towards it is much more interesting than the finish line.
>>681028238
You're welcome Anon.
>>681028405
Nice pic
>>681016135
same boat here
>>681027104
>>681027255
>>681027522
It's no problem. I mean, to give you an example, today I spent the entire afternoon with close friends. I had a picnic in a wooded area in beautiful sunny weather. Good food, better company, it was a great day.
Yet as soon as I came home I got struck by a massive hit of melancholy out of nowhere for no reason. My head hurts, my ears burned, I felt like crying, I felt lethargic and I just wanted to ball up in a corner. I recognized all the thoughts running through my mind were just a byproduct of how I was feeling and weren't real and rode it as best I could.
I'm still kindof in it honestly, that's why I actually replied to this thread. Now I'm going to get my own me-time. got a hot cup of tea and I'm gonna read something.
Good luck everyone.
>>681017823
>>681018219
>>681018429
you guys just need to become pick up autists.
I sit in a ball having a schizophrenic freak out until I eventually pass out every night. I have two best friends who care about me but I can't return the favor. The woman I love is far from here and I feel as if I'm living life inside my head. Other than that, life is great.
>inb4 kill myself
>>681028522
I've been on this road for far too long.
>>681028599
Thanks.
>>681028628
I'm already an autist
All of my friends put me down and I no longer have the self-esteem to stand up for myself so I avoid them instead.
I repress a lot of anger because they always manage to put me at fault for defending myself from character attacks, or whenever they get butthurt from me tearing theirs down.
All in all I'm pretty resentful of human beings I general because I have to compete for literally everything and always come up short.
I feel like I'm in Hell and life is just here to coax me into suicide again.
>>681028664
How far away is the woman you love?
>fellow LDR fag here
I know some of you migjt be going through some hard times, but there is literally no reason to kill yourself.
There is always something positive in our lives, even if it is just something little like a beautiful sunny day.
No one needs friends to be happy, the only thing that is necessary is to find something about yourself that will make you happy at some harsh times and stick to it.
Keep it up, anons! I really appreciate you're all still here.
It's not really depression but more of a mindfuck I guess; a girl I used to see messaged me for the first time in months saying she felt down and had no one to talk to, and when I said 'oh that's a shame' she flipped her shit and blocked me on Facebook. The next day I text her asking what was up (I was out drinking the night she messaged me and I gave sort of blunt replies) and she's all nice about it saying that she's fine/not to worry etc, what the fuck does this all mean? Not trying to chase up the past and relive it but I don't understand a single thing going on
inb4 there's more to life than girls/faggot, just want to hear other opinions to be honest
>>681028052
How do you deal with it?
>>681028125
Thanks.. The peoblem is that I dont always feel like that (though it gets more often) so im really confused. Sometimes I want to transition really badly, but the next day I think its stupid or that it wont make me a "real" girl so Its useless anyways :/
