Feels thread /b/. I loved her.....
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Feels thread /b/. I loved her.....
I feel you Anon. Wanna tell me about her?
I was trying to go to sleep and i really need to talk to somone about this shit
Was going to make a feels thread but there was already one
Anyone still lurking
>>678758248
his name was bill
>>678758274
I am
>>678758029
I have a crippling fear that my gf is gonna leave me for someone else bc my mom did it to my dad when I was 10
Thanks mom
>>678758248
Yes please. She was so amazing. Literally the perfect girl. Oh god im gonna cry. Same tastes in music and literally everything. She was the best kisser. Her giggles were the cutest. Her everything was so cute. It was the first time it felt like they actually loved me too. She is the kindest thing ever, so sweet. Innocent face, but very naughty. Never left my side.... until the other guy came out of nowhere... I was left with nothing. I fought for her so hard. I screwed it up even more and now she never wants to talk about me again. I want to die. She is my sunshine, my only sunshine. She makes me happy when the skies are gray.
>>678758029
i miss ur mom too OP
she'd come over every once in awhile while her kid was staying at college.
she'd get naked as soon as she came in, put on her favorite song and start fucking me while crying. she said the song reminded her of raising her child, and motherhood. she told me it reminded her of how much she missed her child. it made her and me cum buckets.
this was the song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVI4Knz24CQ
>>678758756
This sounds exactly like my gf as described above I'm terrified about that happening
Fuck me anon your life is my fear
>>678758756
I had the same thing happen to me
I feel for you, my /b/ro
I feel for you
>>678759294
It is a living hell. Hold her tight brother, never ever let go.
Last year… around the end of the year. I started talking to this girl. She was cute, seemed nice. Well. We talked for a while. Got kinda close. And of course I fell for her. One night we were talking and she told me that she was molested as a child, raped and abused. and had serous Depression issues
She also told me that she cut her self every-night. I asked her if she was cutting at that moment and she was.
Cont?
>>678758756
Same happened to me. She was so sweet and loved holding my hand. She even put up with me during all the times I went full autism. Then she left me for some other fag who didn't nearly care for her as much as I did. She's been with several other guys by now, I still haven't had anyone besides her. She refuses to acknowledge my existence now. Won't even say "Hi" to me.
>>678759702
I am afraid im going down that passage too now... She has been jumping guys too. If only she realized what I realize
Does anyone feel like people are just NPC's?
>>678759698
>cutting at that moment
She was literally cutting right in front of you and you didn't notice?
>>678759962
That doesn't even make sense you fuck
>>678759698
sure
>>678759979
We were on the phone. and it was around 2 or 3 in the morning
>>678760088
The dubs has spoken.
>>678760088
Why not?
I miss my wife.... regardless of everything... I miss her.. and I want to go to her and tell her how much I love her..
your guys problems are that you care too much and seem over emotional. girls could care less about you and all your feelings. they only really care for the ones in their immediate bloodline. they leave cause you couldn't satisfy them in one way or another. they will drop your ass in a second as soon as the next best thing comes along so don't go loving too much.
>>678760484
At the time. i had huge feelings for this girl. So i told her that if she didn't quit i would start cutting (i know it was fucking retarded) She refused to so of course i did it and she said she quit for the night.
A couple days go by and we dont talk about it.
Then one day. while talking we started sexting. (this bitch was into some kinky shit) and i thought i had won her over.
>>678759890
The best advice I can give is to move on. Don't let her win. She's the one that left you. She doesn't deserve anyone better than you do. You are much more loyal and caring than she was. She should be the one crying to herself, while you are out making yourself happy.
>>678760666
Nice trips.
Cont.
Everyone I have cared for has left me... All my friendships end... I am destined to be alone? Will I ever find a human companion to stick with me? The only friend I have is my dog and he has a year or two to live... Jesus Christ I'm surprised I haven't deepthroated a shotgun and painted my brains on the wall... Fucking hell...
>>678760666
The Devil has spoken.
>>678760769
She already has a new bf that she loves and cannot stop talking about
>>678760990
I say those exact words to myself every single day, Anon.
> be me
> just turned 18
> get drafted to Vietnam
> stationed near a couple villages that the locals live in
> every night rape and kill and steal shit from the locals
> lifeisgood
> dont boast about it but don't hide it either
> everyone in my squad hates me but is too scared to do anything about it
> war ends, go back home
> constant nightmares and PTSD
> constant suicide attempts
> worth it
>>678760847
>>678761004
We would sext every night. There was no secrets between us at that point other then i had the feels for her
(She was a 8/10 Great ass and nice Rack of tits) We made a game out of it, we would make each other horny while we were with out family and couldn't do anything it was alot of fun
>>678758756
Sounds exactly like my girlfriend, mine killed herself Nov 28th of last year . Still occasionally contemplate joining her, but lack the balls to.
>>678761485
Go on...
>>678761574
Guy you responded to you here (OP). Mind telling me why she did it? And do not do it, its not worth it my /b/rother.
I just want to go home..
>tfw I joined the military
>tfw the women I legitimately wanted to marry dumped me back in HS and I tried so many times to get back together throughout the years.
>look on jewbook
>see a pic of her going on a date with my best bud.
I just dont expect anything good anymore. My life has just been more of "disappointing" and "less disappointing" moments. The girls I rejected waiting for her are all married. I used to work with kids way back teaching them to swim and it was my passion. I stopped because the pain of not having a child of my own just hurt too much. I became more of a parent instead of a swim coach. Now I'm just here in the military living weekend to weekend just to shitpost on 4chan and wait to leave this shit hole. The thing is I dont believe it will get better when I get out. The only people who have truly cared for me is my family I have never experienced true friendship or companionship. It always hurts realizing that your dreaming is whats keeping you up at night because I know that this would never happen
>>678761326
Not gonna lie, Anon. I'm actually envious.
>>678761574
Its not worth it
90% of people that survive Suicide attempts Regret it
Be strong for her and dont cave in. She lives on in you and you cant disappoint her.
>>678761574
>>678761800
What the dubs says, goes, Anon,
>>678761800
She was just depressed, she never told me why. Said she was strong enough and that I helped her through. Just a damn lie to comfort me for a while. Pic related, it's her. I have more pics of her than myself on my phone, why the fuck can't I just get over her?
Never had any real friends that stuck with me.
The closest thing I had to a friend ended up destroying my ability to be social. In which later he ended up fucking his life up because of getting caught with drugs
My gf lives in Finland and I live in Argentina, fucking 15000 km. Shit's hard, I'm going to see her in October but fuck, love her so much.
>>678761574
I've attempted twice in the past and believe me that it will never be worth it. I still sulk and somber around but I promised to never do such a cowardly thing again. As much as it hurts anon I just pray that you find what you need to continue.
I feel like my mom enjoys tormenting me by comparing me to other relatives around my age who are "doing well." Sometimes when I'm talking to her, I just want to scream
>If you fucking love ____ so goddamn much, just go and fucking adopt them already!
I know I'm not 'successful' like my other cousins and siblings, but I'm trying goddammit.
>>678761769
It was Good. i Loved it
But in the back of my head i know it wasnt going to last.
Arguments started over stupid shit she started cutting again her depression came back
So did mine i started cutting
Then one day she comes to me crying and says she tried killing her self. That she made a bad choice and took a bunch of pills
She said she didn't want to die
That she was sorry
I didnt know what to do. I asked her what she took, how much and the Milligrams of the pills
She said she was sleepy and was going to sleep
i couldn't get a hold of her for the rest of the night, Then she messaged me the next day. She cut it close but didn't take enough to kill her
She wouldn't tell me what caused her to do it.
OC
>>678762797
I know exactly how you feel.
>>678762535
Put your self out there Anon. Make new friends
>>678762549
Keep focusing on October.
>>678762438
Because you love her and she never really said goodbye.
>>678762993
The worst part is, she ignores the fact that they were able to go off and do whatever they chose to during and after high school, while SHE on the other hand took it upon herself to make all of my decisions *for* me (she didn't want me to go to college, for example, because she was afraid of student loans SHE wouldn't even be paying back). Her plans for me didn't work, so now she's upset because my own plans haven't quite happened yet.
:(..
>>678762049
I didn't really plan on failing when I did it, but I guess you're right. It just feels like.. Idk like maybe life isn't worth it. Not just because I miss her which I do, but because life is this shitty cycle of falling in and out of love, getting crushed emotionally, going to a job you hate half the day, doing house chores, then sleeping. No enjoyment, just a pointless cycle.
>>678761846
dude are you me?
i wasnt a swim teacher but still
what branch are you in brother
>>678763318
hits way too hard.
>>678759607
This. Fucking this. She loves me. And i love her. But she is asexual and thinks that it is something that prevents us from being together. We really do love each other. But she will only be my best friend. It sucks so bad. Im gonna have to drink tonight just to be able to sleep.
fuck this literally happened to me yesterday kill me now please
>>678763279
Fuck I know that feel. I see everyone doing much better than me and being constantly reminded doesn't really help but I just keep going bro.
>>678762663
basically the only reason I haven't tried is a lack of balls and like 3 people.
>>678763879
I want to be a 'success' too. She thinks I *like* the way things are for me, that I somehow enjoy always being broke and having to watch as EVERYONE ELSE, even felons, get jobs before I do (and I do apply, mind you). Meanwhile, she herself can't even get a job, but she luckily doesn't have to since she's retired military. Unlike her, I can't afford to live in 2016 with the same mentality she had in 1982.
>>678763994
God damn...
>>678763346
It's like running a marathon. You start off strong, but then as you get tired you begin to slow down. Everyone else passes by you with ease. You try to push forward, but can't muster the stamina. You just fall further and further behind. It ends up causing much more pain than the end goal is. What's the difference between stopping now and stopping passed the finish line? You only keep going because if you don't, there is nothing.
lots of quotes, worth the read
>>678763431
USMC currently in Miramar
I'm gotten so lonely I don't care anymore. I don't care if I have friends. I just want to see someone smile. If I know I can make someone happy, it makes me happy. I care about others more than myself... I couldn't care less if I die, I'm not suicidal or anything... I just don't care
I'm just really afraid of my gf leaving me, we have pretty much everything in common and she loves fucking me but I can't shake the idea that for some reason she'll leave me... Pic related she's 15 bc I'm a senior in highschool and basically a rapist according to the law
>>678764404
Thank you for this poem short story thing. It describes the desperation and near pointlessness of life perfectly. This is honestly the first time I've opened up to /b/ so thank you, /b/ros. I was actually having a panic attack earlier but you all are helping a lot. I'll make it, but damn this marathon sucks at the moment.
>>678764185
Holy shit are you me? My mom is the same, doesn't work, thinks I like being this way, currently in college and working a shitty low paying job and she always talks about how well other are doing. It's really frustrating but it also motivates me to hit school hard cause I'll admit I've been doing real shitty.
hits so hard
>>678765570
Is it bad I relate to this?
>>678765673
No because I do too
>>678758756
>"She is my sunshine, my only sunshine."
Got me in tears bro
>>678765065
USAFRC in cali working on C-5s
went in at 17 at the behest of my dad
chose crew chief because my granddad said it be good for me
>>678765324
This soo much. I've pretty much decided to devote my life to helping others especially those that like us, are always forgotten. As long as I can make one person smile, I'll keep going.
>>678765817
Then get ready for this. I say that because her brothers used to sing that song ot her when she was little and it almost makes her cry too. I got her a necklace that reads "You are my sunshine , Laura"
>>678765768
At least we can be alone... Together... I hope you live a happy life anon. Go out and greet people, make friends, do stuff. Don't dwell in the past, it just creates more pain. Good luck friend.
>>678761149
second this, wonder why that is though. do we all need to consultor is it just the way we are. who knows.
>>678766225
That means a lot to me. Your words, thank you. You do the same. I believe in you
>>678765501
Why do they do that? I mean, I can kind of get the whole, "it should push you to do harder" bit, but if I'm consistently making the President's List and actively looking for (but not finding) work, what more does she/do they expect? I don't know how she expects me to be some big success already, when she did everything in her power in my youth to stand in the way of that success.
And I know she'd like to say, "well, that's all in the past, forget about it," but you CAN'T just *forget about* never getting the help you needed in your math and science courses, especially when math and science are pretty much needed in today's world. I want to help change the world and contribute to society too. I want to help program robots and other shit, but I can't, because I don't have the certification I need. I don't have that certification, because I never got the education or upbringing I needed. But even still, I'm TRYING to work around it so I CAN contribute and be a 'success.'
>>678765501
My mom acts the same way. Except I'm not doing worse than my brother. He was in remedial classes in high school, no extra curriculars, went to community college. Now works some pleb job but makes money. Lived at home for 8 years after graduating high school. Mom thinks he's the shit. Meanwhile, I'm working my ass off, I did quite well in high school. My ambitions and aspirations are much higher than his. But she couldn't are less. She started calling me by his name after he moved out because she'd rather i be him than me.
I just want.. one last hug... I want her in my arms..
>>678762438
So sad anon I dont have words
>>678762535
exactly me right now..
>>678758029
That feeling when you fall in love with a different girl every semester but they don't even know you exsist even tho you sit close to them. I'm getting old the pain only gets worst. I want to die because I know I will be looking back years later and ask myself why I didn't go for it. The reason is because I'm scared. I'm scared of girls and don't know how to talk to them. I'm a fucking wreck. I'm nothing even that ugly.
>>678766012
I got something similar for my girl before she left. She dumped me before I even had a chance to give it to her. I don't know why I haven't thrown it in the ocean yet. Every time I see the damn thing, I feel like bursting into tears.
>>678762797
>>678762993
would both of your parents happen to be of Asian descent?
>>678763225
You couldn't be more right. I said good night, went to sleep, and she wasn't there when I got up. Fuck I'd give anything to be with her again.
>>678762549
Just wait anon
>>678758029
>Loved
Past tense, your already recovering
>>678766817
https://www.reddit.com/r/TheRedPill/
>>678766878
I find it hard to get rid of her stuff too, I just cant bring myself to it.
>>678766904
no, mine are black
>>678766422
>Dubs
I feel you EXACTLY! I love programming robots. My biggest dream is to develop software for aerospace technology. I want to bring humanity to Mars so bad. But the lack of certification is what's holding me back from contributing the most I can into society.
I never knew that was the last time I would kiss her
I never knew that was the last time i would hold her hand
I never knew that was the last time she would say she loves me
I never knew that was the last time I would be able to put my arm around her
I never knew that was the last time I would get to call her mine
But now I know
>>678766904
White.
>>678766709
Neither do I, I just wanna sleep but that never works out well, I dream about her every night and dread it every morning. That is if I can sleep.
>>678767381
>>678766525
Damn, that's harsh. But that's what pisses me off too all that you have accomplished and plan to accomplish isn't enough for them it's the act of being "successful" that satisfies them. They think it happens instantly and that there's no progress towards it.
>>678766817
same...no confidence in myself whatsoever. Think its cuz I look young for my age
>>678767911
The dubs speaks the truth,
I hate that I still love her, I can't love anyone else.
I dated her for 3 years. Our friends thought we were going to get married, our families saw it happening, but most importantly, we saw ourselves spending the rest of our lives together. Beautiful blonde, gray eyes that turn a light blue in the light. Perfect body, she was the the essence of perfection. Her love was real, sublime, and deep. I could feel how much she cared about me, when she said I was her everything I could feel she meant it. Our time together was something out of a novel, I gave my everything to keep her happy. Well after 3 years things started to fall apart, it took time for me to realize my part in the mess we were in. The breakup ruined me, not us breaking up, but how it happened destroyed me. She came to my house one day and told me she wants to take a break to clear her mind. I wanted the same, so we hugged and kissed and she drove away. That was the last time I ever saw her. 3 weeks later, I was in pieces because she hadn't called me yet. I went on Facebook and noticed that she changed her relationship status to single and deleted me. I'll never understand how someone could love another person for 3 years and then do something like that. She never even told me it was over. I raged. My confusion turned into anger and I lost my shit. I demanded that she tell me she hates me because I thought it was impossible for someone to do what she had done to me and had loved them for three years. I wanted to hear her say that she never loved me. The next day I realized I fucked up.
>I'm sorry, please let's talk this through.
>"Not after what you said. It would never be the same."
Cont?
It's been 2 weeks since my boyfriend that I probably didn't even love anymore and I broke up.
I have had a crush on someone for a couple months and he'll never like me back.
Yes I liked someone while dating someone else. I'm a hypocrite and a horrible person and I should just die already.
He's never gonna love me back.
>>678767433
You never know its the last time until it is the last time
>>678768059
CONTINUE. sad as all fuck. Am in a similar situation too
>>678768059
Holy shit anon. Cont.
>>678765065
>we didn't issue you feelings
Fucking pogs
>>678767381
>But the lack of certification is what's holding me back from contributing the most I can into society
Fuck, I don't know you yet you've just described exactly how I feel.
>>678768079
You never know.
Your relationship was getting old to you and feelings for someone else developed while you were finding away to break it you your boyfriend the easyway
>be me
>junior high
>start talking to a girl
+1year
>Senior year
>Start falling in love with her
>Flirt like a madmen
>She flirts back.
>feelsnice.jpg
>Confess to her that I lover her.
>You make me blush.anon.
>think its still good
>tell her I lover her almost every other day
>she never says she loves me back but reacts as if she does.
>drops hints all the fucking time
>confused.jpg
>Everything's stil nice
>one day all of a sudden
>Sorry anon, I can't talk to you anymore.
Cont. ?
>>678768498
contcontcont
>>678768498
Cont.
>>678768498
Yes please
Still wide awake, it's been 5 fucking years. I've dated, fucked in between but it's not the same. I am not the same. She fucking cheated that's all she did.
>>678767381
Hey m8, dont get scare but u r from LatinAmerica?
>>678768775
Nope.
>Come to feels thread
>See greentexts talking about girls, relationships, harsh breakups, dead gfs etc
>Never had a gf, still virgin
>Can't relate to any of this
>Can't feel
>Get angry when there is any mention of romance/sex
>Slowly grow apathetic in general
Now whenever someone bitches about relationship problems, I just end up losing sympathy for them. I think to myself, at least this guy has somebody who likes them, whereas I never had anything like that.
>>678768431
Wonder how you grunts are able to access the internet....
He realized it then. He was in love with time. Not the concept of it like some philosopher fantasizes about or the human representation of it you’d find in childhood fiction. No, he loved time. He fell in love with memories and parts of his life that he would never truly relive, constantly personifying them into whatever he could rationalize in his head. He raised women to these pedestals to represent to him his childhood, happiness, and countless other emotions he never truly understood. To represent all the good times he had long since left behind. He remembered the first girl he could ever say he fell for. Her name was Diane, a sweet girl filled innocence and ignorance of the world around her. He remembered when he moved, how he would visit and how he would use her like a tool to go back to those wondrous days of childhood. No, he wanted her as one wants a memory. He felt for her as one would feel looking through a photo album. All the women of his life fell to the same fate, to represent a point in his life one which was never truly as great as it once was. Lonely times represented by sparks of hope, angry times represented by moments of sight, and apathetic moments mistaken for the gaining of maturity and knowledge. He was helplessly, head over heels, and blindly in love with the great delusion of time. Lost time, spare time, old times, and new times, but goddamn him if it wasn’t the good times that were slowly killing him.
>>678768832
tks god, because im theraping this guy
>4chan isnt good for depressed person
>>678769149
gah damn that hurts
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UgG4rxq8DhY
Uncultured faggots.
>>678769149
>>678769149
I feel like I can relate to this on some level.
>>678768498
>Sorry anon, I can't talk to you anymore.
>why?
>I don't know.
>dafuq.jpg
>Walks always
>deactivates all social media
Left me in such a shit state that I was literally begging for her to talk to me.
+2months
>hi anon
>Start taking again
>ignore what she did and get happy again
>cares like gf
>fights like gf
>talks like gf
>just isn't gf
Cont.?
>>678769601
Keep going.
>>678769601
Sorry, I'm taking a dump right now I'll complete of in a bit.
>>678769528
Those fucking feels man...
>>678769775
this is 2016 shit while you shitpost
Hey /b/ros, dude with the girlfriend who killed herself Nov.28th here, I'd really appreciate if someone would just kinda talk to me, I know it'd be a chore to put up with me right now but I think it'd help me a bit. I don't think anyone here cares but please anyone. I just want to confess to you guys, I feel like shit still and you seem to help a lot. sorry if it's a burden or whatever but I seriously need some anonymous confession.
>>678769082
Same here
>No gf
>3 or 4 friends
>no social life
Life is bored
/b/, I love you all.
I'm just gonna admit this now, I'm 16. Big fucking whoop, doesn't matter because we are all /b/ros.
That being said, you all are more than anons posting behind conputer screens. You are all family. I said I was 16 earlier because that means I'm still living with mom and dad and sister. Just a few minutes ago, here comes drunk fucking dad trying to give me a lecture on losing weight and how God wouldn't allow this in heaven (he doesn't know I'm agnostic (yet)) and blah blah and such. Out of anger, I told him I didn't believe in God and he decided to break a TV and 3 windows. I could give less shits if they were broken, but HE broke them, along with whatever "family" we had left. I went to my room to call my mom to tell her I love her, and she was crying over the phone too, then she opened my door and we just hugged eachother in our tears. During that time, I felt something. My family is being torn apart by this drunk man we call "dad", and we can't do a thing about it because my mom can't pay bills, my dad does. He pays for the house and pays for the bills. We will end up homeless if he is rid of our family. I'm not calling the cops because my mom said not to, that she'd talk to him. She is really brave, I'm thinking. But nevertheless, I'm typing this while crying behind a phone (posting thru phone) and just telling /b/ that I love them. Please, I beg of you all to love the peolle you have in your life, whether it be some hobo off the street or your girlfriend or your mother. That's an order, not a suggestion. I hope you all live happy and prosperous and such. Just passing along advice I couldn't embrace.
Thanks for reading the whole post. It seriously means alot, knowing someone is listening. I fucking love all of you brothers.
>>678770110
have kik?
>>678770173
amen
>>678770251
No, sorry. I wouldn't trust putting it out here anyways, no offense.
>>678768011
Crazy thought but would you like to coach each other? Plan out approaches and strategies and learn from each others mistakes. It's worth a shot. Hit me up on kik if you're interested @ anon4you2015
Not trying to be a typical troll.... but stop being a fucking pussy. Most women are fucking scandalous dude. All they careally about is materialistic shit and money. And once they use you up they hop to the next mother fucker.
If you can find yourself a woman who's happy with a couple tacos and your unconditional love then you have a keeper.
Smoke some weed, have a few beers and play some video games. Perfectly GTA5. Pick up some hookers, imagine them as your ex and blow their brains out.
I'm lonely. I prefer it sometimes and sometimes I wither in lonlines. My mother tried killing herself with a steak knife and a concotion of pills after my father cheated on her. The last words I remember my grandfather say was begging someone to kill him as he died of cancer. My longest romantic partner was six months. I was raped by my brother, and this is the first time I've said that to anyone. I've cut my throat once, and poisoned myself another. I have an IV scar to remind me daily that I almost died. I've given up on my happiness in exchange for putting my resources into medical school so I can help anyone I can, and even this dream is beginning to fade as I lose my grip on sanity.
>>678770685
(281) 909 7997
>>678768059
Well for 2 years after that, nothing happened. We both went on with our lives but I never stopped loving her. I was just too afraid to call her. Well 5 or so months ago I met another girl. She made me happy at first, but things went downhill quick. Now she treats me like shit, she treats me similarly to how I treated my ex. I realized how horrible I was and I couldn't stop thinking about how I just wanted to apologize and try again. I wanted and still want to give her the best life I possibly can. It's 2 a.m and I can't do it anymore. My mind won't let me sit still and my stomach was turning.
>"...Hello?"
>Holy shit it's 2 a.m and you actually picked up.. It's me.. Anon.
>"Anon? Oh my God! How are you?"
We talk for 10 minutes and I tell her I have to go.
>"What made you call me anon? It's really late, why couldn't you wait until the morning?"
>Oh.. I was just working on an essay and the topic made me think of you.. Anyways, I'll see you around.
The conversation was great. I asked her how her life was going and what was new. She was happy to hear from me. We texted for a little bit afterwards and I asked her if she wanted to get together sometime and catch up. She said yes and that was that. At this point I'm pretty confident that she's interested in trying again. The next day I call her and to sum up, ask if we can try again.
I hear her start crying.
>"Oh anon.. That's so sweet.. But I'm engaged.."
I was ready for yes, and in all honesty I was ready for a no. I just wanted to know what she wanted. Now I can't stop thinking.
Why didn't she tell me she was engaged when I asked what was new?
Why did she cry when I asked to try again?
Was I too late?
I don't know if I want to know the answer to that last one. If it's yes, then I have to live with knowing that this is all my fault. If it's no.. then it just means my dreams were just that and nothing more.
Pic related, some of the texts we sent.
>met a beautiful brown haired blue eyed grill
>fell head over heels for her instantly
>think she's way out of my league but decide fuck it and get talking to her anyway
>we click and it turns out she for some reason unknown to me likes me back
>we stay over at each others houses constantly
>whenever she's sleeping beside me i'll just stroke her hair and savour the moment before she gets up and leaves the next day
>i have so much i want to show her and so many places i want to take her
>unemployed and whenever i find a job i end up depressed because i feel like my life is going nowhere and i'm going to be stuck in some shitty office until the day i die
>end up spending all of my money on booze and losing it after a few months
i'm trying to find work now so i can take her off somewhere nice but it's hard. i've decided this is the moment i get to choose whether i'm a complete fuck up or not. hoping she doesn't start to realize she can do better before i work something out.
>>678770110
What's up bro. You Aight man? Vent as much as you want until this 404s and then make a new thread, I gotchu.
Im 21
I was such a good person but everyone makes my life imposible.
I had only felt in love one time, and that was when we were in school. We were the best friends ever.
I spend at least one minute of every day remember that the only person that makes my cold heart warm doesnt love me back.
I date girls and boys and all of them are just copies of her. Copies of copies of copies.
My heart just doesnt beat for anyone, except her.
I even stand her horrible fake red hair when she have the perfect blond-brunette hair or her useless carrer in Letters or even her feminist stuff.
My family even help her family when her dad dies and we were making free reparations in her farm.
Not even thanks.
https://soundcloud.com/avantgvrden/breakfast-is-a-scam
FUCK BREAKFAST
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feels music
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXbSfl0O3qU&nohtml5=False
>>678770962
Im so sorry to say this, because its my worst fear too. You were too late.
>>678758756
I literally did this to a guy i'd never met before about a month or two ago by accident I'm sorry friend. I hope he has no hard feelimgs against me.
>>678770862
not the anon you're talking to but also in houston area
>>678771088
You have it good and just need to work on your confidence. Just breathe and learn how to be ok without alcohol. You sound young and have a whole life ahead of you. Just find a job, stick with it or start a new hobby or get into a niche. Make yourself stronger. You got this bro.
>>678771535
If you give me some details I can give you a good idea on how he feels.
>>678761326
Were your superiors just kinda tacitly cool with this? Also why the PTSD, sounds like you enjoyed war.
>>678770173
I read you anon
>>678771645
nice. what area? if you dont mind. still in school?
>>678770173
I love you too little /b/ro
>>678771527
I still wonder if I should try again.. Her fiancée is better than me. I'm not shitting on myself, he actually is. Smarter, more attractive, cares for her properly, and has a much brighter future. He can give her what she wants without her having to settle. Her family would hate me for coming back into her life and she wouldn't be nearly as happy as she used to be. It's selfish, but I still want her.
>>678771798
I'm getting my associates next month. I'm in pasadena
>>678771996
Its not selfish. It doesnt matter if you think her fiancee is better than you, it matters if she thinks that.
>>678765351
Fuck the law you do you and support her and be the best bf u can be man
>>678772131
oh nice, im over by the galleria
>>678769601
>Always sit near each other
>both have the habit of dropping pens
>pick them up and touch hands 4+ times in every class.
>go out
>confess love again
>blush.jpg
>changes topic
>still going good, I guess?
>go to a party together
>fall on her while dancing.
>oh anon you kinky nigger.
+2 months
>Start getting frustrated as to why she isn't officially gf
>I love you anoina, can't live without you.
>don't you feel the same?
>I think we should end this.
>I don't know how I feel.
>I don't want a relationship.
>We won't talk now every again.
>but anoina, pls
>No anon. I can't.
>blocked.jpg
>dafuq.jpg
I had been with her all her high school, dealing with her problems as if they were mine. She had never had a boyfriend and I was the closest person to reach but wtf guys.... She just blocked me without even thinking of all the favors I did for her, time spent.
>heartless bitch
I'm never falling in love again /b/
>>678770173
Kill that bastard and get the insurance
>>678772177
And the only way I'll know is if I try again, but once again, I don't know if I should.
>>678772234
you finish school already? I assume being in galleria and all
Sloth has consumed me and I don't think I can function socially properly for extended periods of time. I can't hold down a job because of my laziness. I work my hardest only for me to quit because I hate myself enough too much to go to work. Constant voices of people telling me to get a job but for what? There's no future for me that I see thats worth living. I really see no point in continuing to exist for the next 10 years let alone for the rest of average human life span, and im only fucking 20
>>678772306
I will never trust myself again after letting her die. Youre lucky.
For anyone who listens to music while they're feeling, this should help you:
https://m.soundcloud.com/deadbattery/sets/recovery
>>678772488
Well not exactly,,, in high school lol
>>678771692
They'd been together for a few years apparently and split up around 7 or 8 months ago but still spoke on social media and stuff as friends.
I met her and within a month or so pictures of us together at parties and sleeping over at each others houses started popping up on facebook and stuff. From what I hear he took it oretty badly and got mad at her and she decided she didn't want to speak to him anymore. I've never seen or spoken to the guy before so I don't have any hard feelings against him, I actually feel kind of bad for him
>>678772355
It is always worth it. If she is your everything then you have nothing to lose.
>>678762549
Don't fuck it up anon. Please don't. For me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3QmIX1Ye3Bo
>>678771271
Fuck man thanks. Means a lot that you'd take time out of your day to help a fag like me. I miss everything about her, her smile, all the silly roleplays, her special lil kinks, her voice. Just everything about her was perfect to me. I'd do anything to be with her again. I've thought about ending myself but realized there may be hope but every day it just seems like it never gets better, like I should have been over her by now and be starting a new life where I don't break down in tears every time I hear her favorite song, or see someone with a crown the empire shirt, or just little shit that reminds me of her. It just feels like it's fucking hopeless to try. I mean just look at this smile though, she had me fooled into thinking she was happy. Why couldn't I see past this shitty lie? Why couldn't I have been more there for her?
>>678772727
You quite possibly killed him, at least the person he was.
>>678770173
..... dude. Just call the cops. There are procedures that WILL help you and your family. Food Stamps ISS government help.
>>678761845
where you at?
>>678772701
Ah. That's all good man. Keep on chugging. Good times will soon come
>>678771675
Thanks mang, i'm only 21 so I guess I do still have a good bit ahead of me. Just that feeling of seeing something you want and having to grab it before it gets away
>>678758029
Why are you here instead of dead op?
>>678770782
Good night. No one listens to me, and no one has. I'm just a whisper, no matter how loud and clear I make my voice. Here's a water color/color pencil drawing of a bear.
>>678773147
Lets just pray you are right.
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>>678771923
Thank you all, it means alot. I love feels threads so much. I feel so welcomed and at peace. Thank you all.
>>678772336
Hahaha, thats a good laugh :^) Thank you too, and honestly, I would if I could...
>>678772997
I honestly want to call the cops so hard right now, but as I said before, my mother doesn't want it, and I don't want to disobey her and probably dissapoint her further thsn she already is. She is probably as broken as me. If not, twice as much. But thank you for caring.
>>678773221
Because the gun jammed
>>678773265
You may pray.
And you may also take action.
Both surmount to an action of faith
>>678773476
I am taking actions but I also know I cant really control much because I didnt see her leaving me form a mile away.
Who /procrastinate/ here? It is 1:30 in the morning where I am and I have to finish an English essay. After I finish this essay, I need to write a paper which is overdue. After the paper, I need to write another essay which is actually a take home exam. After that I got my finals to study for. But instead I am ITT, feeling feels
>>678772890
Damn anon I know this is Hard for u but try to be strong I mean go to her grave and say everything you want to say, cry, scream, do what you need to do
>>678772355
Think about it this way though. If what you say is true about this other guy and how happy he makes her, cares for her etc. Then why cause havoc in her life, if you really do love her then you wouldn't risk her happiness so that you can finally happy. If she wants to get with you, she'll call/text. She moved on once, you can too.
>>678773341
Dude just do it. I was terrified when my dad came after my mom. I remember the yelling and mom rushing to my room along with my other siblings in there balling our eyes out. Dad on the other side screaming and trying to kick in the door in while mom was holding a knife in her hand crying with her back against the wall. If I had the mental capacity to call for help I would have. You should call the police, hiding this won't help anyone.
>>678773229
Its a good draw anon
I wish all these feels dissapear like when this thread get 404.
>>678773619
I should be sleeping, have to apply for some shit job with ok pay to prove im not totally worthless.
>>678773606
Sorry if I sound dickish. but I am trying to offer advice.
Do not let your life revolve around another. Start with the basics. Secure a career, future, living all that stuff. Then you can worry about girls n stuff. OK man? Besides you have your whole life ahead of you, don't let this distract you from the vast horizon before you.
>>678774136
Oh god
>>678765351
Fuck the law. Love her with everything you have.
>>678774291
Seriously follow this advice anon. onetis is a thing. AND to sound dickish on my part.. DONT put the pussy on the pedestal
I do believe I have lost sanity. Does it really matter what happens in this world? Did it matter when millions of people died from all sorts of different things last year? Their names are remembered for a few years, and sometimes looked back by loved ones. I just find it hard to believe at times that this world matters. I've loved, I have a great job, I own a house, but all the relationships I have had went sour in different ways. Used me for my money, cheated on me because I work 3 jobs and she didn't have to work if she didn't want to. One chick had an anger issue and I didn't want anything to do with that. I'm not sad. I am just neutral. No happiness. No sadness. Just logic. I'm currently trying to patch things up with my ex, but she wants more attention than I can give her.
In short, My life is amazing, but just devoid of emotions. Would get into the past of why, but really I want to learn how to feel things again.
Just wanted to get that off my chest. Thanks b.
I dont even know how to use a gun but i dont even think twice to kill that bastard.
My grandpa did the same with my father, i know how traumatize is he.
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the galleria mall?
>>678773944
Thank you again.
And I'm sorry for your experience. If I had the choice of calling the cops: in a heartbeat. I think everyone is asleep though, so I think I missed my chance. Everything's settled, in a way, so I don't want to do anything. It's just, my mom man. She's so broken and she told me not to do it, so I didn't. I just got so fragile at that moment because, ugh.
I'm not trying to repel your opinion in any way, I'm just saying why I decided not to. I sincerely appreciate the input, though. It means alot.
>>678758029
And now shes loving someone else. Typical woman. Not much more can ever be expected from them.
>>678774291
I know. I just care more about love than I do a career. Not that im throwing all the rest away bc i am sad. Its just between a great relationship and a great career, i would choose the relationship
>>678773739
I would go to her grave, but it was long distance. I say what I want to say to her old number which has since been given to someone else. They can expect a text every other week from me just, babbling about stupid shit like how much I miss her or how much I wish I could have gone with her, etc.
>>678773229
The world is cruel but i love you with all of my simple human sympathy anon.
>>678774763
Well in the end things are up to you
you may choose a wise path
or a dumb one
in the end
you need
only
be
happy
>>678774551
Minus your work ethic, and string of relationships, Im on that same boat. I know the feel of not seeing the point. Im a cynical asshole so seeing the beauty in life is terrible difficult for me to grasp.
>>678767858
Love you anon
>>678774751
But you need to talk someone that can actually help you and your family. You are responsible now and it's a burden on you but thats the hand you were dealt. It wont stop. It wont stop.
>have pectus excavatum
>no girls I talk to
>receding hairline
>bad back acne
and I couldn't care less about any of those things. The one thing that keeps me up at night is the tiny little amount of chin fat I have. Funny how God makes our feelings work.
Pic is my wrist
>>678775029
Only reason I work so hard is because I want to buy the things to fill a void, but I am reaching the point of does filling it really matter in the long run. Humans are distasteful and often times animistic. I try to be a positive cynic though.
Fuck. I was the 1st person to reply to this thread. No idea I was getting on an express feels train for 2 hours. I have school tomorrow so I must bid y'all my farewell. I love all of you anons as if you were my own /b/rothers. peace.
I want to kill myself
>>678775627
Don't we all.
>>678775627
>/b
>>678775370
What's wrong with your wrist? Looks normal to me... Like any other thin wrist. I've never had to take an anatomy class, so forgive me if I'm missing some subtle skeletal nuance
>>678775627
I wish I had the balls
>>678775525
>Buying things to fill the void
Shit Im broke and I do that.
>Try being a positive cynic
Eh, I try but it's mostly a front for everyone else so they don't totally hate me.
>>678775961
Me too. I envision myself hanging from a rope in the garage daily. I don't own any guns though.
>>678758029
As someone who has to pretend to have emotions to seem like I'm "normal", I can genuinely say that you should feel lucky to experience the feelings that you do, without them, life becomes so terribly mundane. I believe because of years of depression, I trained myself to stop feeling, but that's been quite the double edged sword, as I haven't felt truly happy since that transition
>>678775944
Not really related, just felt like throwing it in there to show how much I exaggerate my flaws to myself
>>678775359
I understand. This is a family matter though, and police won't do anything except issue fines and do legal actions, when really we need moral actions. Besides, you are all being of help to me. I feel a little happy whenever I'm in a thread like this.
Safly, I have to get off 4chsn because I have school and its late right now, and my battery is low and my chsrger is in the living room, where the drunk asshole is sleeping. Thabk you for all the advice. i've screenshotted your replies for refrence because tomorrow I will talk to my mom about taking legal action if she wants. Thank you so much.
>>678776162
We have a multitude of shotguns and a .45. I'm home alone 80% of the time. I could do it so fucking easily, I'm just too much of a fucking pussy
>tfw
>>678776340
What's wrong with us
>>678776552
We're fucked up. Normal people don't feel like this. Normal people ridicule us. And I honestly can't blame them because from the outside we probably sound like pathetic cunts. And that just makes me want to end it more.
I love you anon. You're worth more than you realize.
>>678776248
Ah, cheers
>>678776679
I'm not worth shit. I'm a failure and there's nothing for me to contribute in this world.
>>678776095
More money means less people you have to deal with. Means you can stop giving a damn what others think or feel towards you.
>>678777018
I feel like this too. And my family reaffirms this.
Fuck them. You hear me anon. FUCK THE PEOPLE WHO TELL YOU THAT SHIT. They're miserable and they want you to miserable. The world is a shitty, unfair, miserable place, but you can contribute goddamn it. I know you can. I'm a fucking NEET. It's too late for me. But goddamn it, you can escape that shit. You can be something. Even if no one else believes in you, I do. I know I'm just a faceless faggot on /b/, but I'd rather have that than nothing.
You guys wanna know the cool thing about life? It never gives up on you, so do your best not to give up on life.
I've been sulking in sadness for over a year. Something happened a few days ago. I got a boost in confidence. The girl I love also said "its not too late." Though your moment of clarity may not show up as mine did, it will show up. Life is there for you. You're here for life. We all are. I dont know who you are or What you've been through anon. But you will make it. You will be happy. Don't give up. Fear is a trap. I love you anon.
we laugh about the caveman drawing deers in their caves
Imagine how ridiculous we would look by future generations speaking about suicide because we sacrifice social interactions for Pepe's memes
>>678761846
I feel you. I wish you luck man :(
