Been thinking about killing myself all day because it is very likely I will fail out of college this semester and I hate existing. Having thoughts such as "of course I shouldn't kill myself, because it would cause my family too much pain," and then realizing "wait a second, my only reason I shouldn't die is because I don't want to inflict pain on OTHERS? What reason do I have to live for MYSELF?" Then having thoughts such as "Perhaps the purpose of life is to find gratification through pleasing others. But then again, why should I try to please others when I will inevitably fuck up, and their lives are futile as well??"
TL;DR: I'm having a suicidal, existential crisis. I'll post dumb nihilistic memes in exchange for advice.
>I hate existing
That's a good of reason as any.
noooo dooooont, ur necessary
>>678256475
The world needs suicide. It keeps everything in balance.
just make sure to periscope it
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Humans are a cancer on this planet anyways? What kind of contrived "meaning of life" could make up for the burden I will place on this planet?
The problem is that there's no way to reach a true conclusion on whether suicide is the most logical option. Obviously each one of us on our own don't really have a huge impact on the ultimate development of humanity and the world. But at the same time there's some sort of force that keeps driving us to stay alive. I think that we've become too smart for our own good.
>>678256218
Dude it's rough but suicide is 100 percent irreversible. I'm trying to drop out of a class because I'm failing, but it's a corequisite with a class I'm doing well in, so I might have to drop both. I feel you OP
If none of it matters then who cares if you fail at anything
If you kill yourself you're still being a fuck up for inconveniencing everyone, they'd bury you on Saturday and you'd ruin people's weekend.
We all hate ourselves and we all cause eachother pain.
Here's your fucking party hat welcome to it.
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I also spontaneously stopped taking my antidepressant meds about a week ago. I feel sane as ever, but maybe getting, back on an SSRI will give me some time to find a decent reason to live?? Also I'm kind of drunk.
>>678257125
>they'd bury you on Saturday and you'd ruin people's weekend.
They'd cremate him.
boooooorin'!
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>>678257125
Good point. But why should I live a life of misery so I won't cause inconvenient pain to others? I just wish I could spontaneously die without being blamed for it.
4/??
I just feel powerless. The only scenario I can imagine where I feel true autonomy is if everyone else in the world spontaneously disappeared. How can you reconcile being in control of your life with the expectations of others?
congratulations you are the new superhero
>>678258150
At the end of this you'll realize it doesn't matter what anyone thinks, because on your deathbed, it's all you, and it's only up to you what you do to live with few regrets. Which means not caring what others think every now and then.
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>>678257459
So mister "secure with his existence-having thoroughly explored and come to terms with his existential dread" man, how do you justify your ultimately pointless life?
Just fucking do it, your just another little bug like everyone else on this world that no one cares about
>>678256218
I would recommend you to read books from Camus, it really helped me at the time, I won't lie to you it's not easy but at the end of the day you'll find out something that's worth living for. If not then be happy because you can do whatever you want, you're probably the only free person in this thread, all others are scared of death failure or loss, whereas you're not. Because you know that whatever happens life has no meaning so why bother. Good luck.
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>>678258822
My death might not mean much to the world, but it would mean the world to my family. Am I that much of an asshole to inflict so much pain upon them? Probably, I've already let them down this much.
hey bros
i started a relationship to a girl who is really cute, sexy, kind and sexual active, while i am the typical /b/tard - ugly, not real;y sozial, muscleless
On the other side i am very Inteligent (IQ 140) and well educated, while she is average smart at best, and her knowlege doesnt go much beyond popmusic.
is it a good Idea to go further, even someday marry her?
>>678259434
Fucking do it never mind I tried caring but you just respond to trolls and bitch, so just fucking do it
>>678259434
It's just a prank bro!
>>678256218
Give up anon. The point of life is to suffer. But you need to enjoy every last but of that pain like a fucking masochist. Because once it's done its just the eternal void, and fuck that shit.
Op here, 7/??
>>678259483
Maybe you didn't mean to post that here...but go for it. A relationship with her is your shot, don't blow it.
>>678259652
Nigga I'm just trying to bump this thread enough so it's not pruned and I matbe feel a reason to live lol.
>>678260240
I just found my new desktop wallpaper. Thanks bro.
>>678256218
don't do it bro, just think of all the memes you'll be missing out on
right now we're on a downwards trend but we should be approximately a month away from another Damn Daniel!
do you really wanna miss that OP?
ayo op. fellow current flunkie here
either accept defeat or just try until you can't anymore
>>678256218
If you're sad, that means something good or valuable in you is being invaded
You are indicating that you know what will make you happy
>>678260270
yeah i know wrong thread, but i was so often depressive and or threads like this, that i just feel comfortable here
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>>678260396
True, maybe dank memes are a good deterrent for killing myself.
one time, i was ready to die, i decided to do a headon collision, i was going about 120 and at the last second i swirved and hit a tree. im so glad that i didnt kill myself. in that moment of luck i realized that no one who kills themselves want to go through with it at the moment of death
If you're going to kill yourself dont do it in a messy way. Think about the people that have to clean that shit up
>>678256218
>fail out of college
Nigga, I did that too, because I got bored with it and oxycodone was more fun.
That was 5 years ago. I'm an electrician for Ford now. Make 32 bucks an hour to do nothing.
Failing college isn't the end of the world.
>>678259434
>>678260270
Fucking do it
>>678260342
no prob
>>678261333
Dont worry dude
b always offer sound advice to suicidal attention whores
>>678259483
lol
>>678257154
that picture needs a "honk honk" at the end.
btw, was Skeeter black?
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>>678261290
What plan of action would you recommend for someone after they fail out?? I also have a drug prob, but it's just alcohol and weed (opiates are enjoyable, I just haven't had easy access to them)
>>678261739
His real name was Mosquito Valentino, remember?
Sounds like a guido to me
>he also had a blowout before Pauly D
>>678261884
>after you fail out
Real simple nigga. Get a job.
>>678262100
I am enjoying these very much. Keep going.
>>678256218
Don't do it, man. It's only a bad moment, and it will pass. There isn't just one, but actually there are two certainties in life: we'll die one day when our time comes, and everything changes permanently.
This thing you're going through will change and go away. You'll find a purpose in life, I promise. I've been in deep, dark moments in life, thought about ending it many times. Now in my early 30's, got my shit together, and I sure am glad I didn't do anything irreversible.
Living is hard, but it's worth it, anon. If I've been able to find what's good for me, so can you. Just be patient, open your mind and heart, exercise, find activities that you like, start your studies again in a field you like or find an apprenticeship in an activity you like doing: it'll solve itself just like that, and you'll remember these days of doubt and crisis, as I do sometimes, and you'll be grateful you've had the ability to pass through them.
College is not essential
College is not where everyone belongs
College is not required for an interesting career
If that's your only reason for an heroing, then don't do it and even if it is, don't do it. I dropped out 'cause it was hellishly expensive and found better things to do. Life is long. Live it. There's plenty of time to find out what is better.
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>>678262084
Not gonna lie, this is maybe the most useful post so far. I could def get another job; I currently make about $120 working one day a week. The short term is not that difficult...I just can't imagine a long term plan in which I feel satisfied. Who likes working a dread end job? I need an upward path.
>>678260240
who did that?
>>678262455
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Bite it you scum. I do play in a punk band. Maybe that is reason enough to keep on living.
>>678256218
Life is all about making more life, man.
Have kids, and give them your everything.
Kids are the one thing in my life that give me genuine happiness. Everything else is a steady stillness.
If you don't want kids; Create. It's win-win. The greatest artists were deeply suffering on the inside. Either your creation is mediocre and you are happier for it or you pour you soul into it until you die, al la kurt cobain.
Do it, men
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>>678265286
Fuck man, having a child seems incredibly stressful. I am a musician (specifically a classical musician) and have been trying to justify my craft as a reason to live. Thanks for the titties.
Hey homie, keep digging; you have to solve this or your reason will be artificial. I live to make live a better place for other people and animals because its responsible and a real purity for gratification imo. I still have waves, but at least I don't live for superiority. Good luck man, I hope you forge something awesome.
