Feels thread.
I'll start.
>There was a girl that I've never felt more for in my life.
>I met her when we were kids.
>I was maybe 15, she was 14.
>We had so much in common, we could talk to eachother about anything, I was crazy attracted to her, it was more than just hormones.
>She had developed mental health issues, was on several medications, literally lost hair over the matter.
>Call her mine for 3 years.
>I honestly thought she was perfect in any way, I could want nothing more than her, I thought she felt the same.
>She stops taking meds, starts to act weird, very fickle and tries to look for things to make herself feel occupied and happy.
>cheats on me (sex) a few days after my 17th birthday, stayed with her because I loved her so much.
>She wants something new and exciting, leaves me for someone 6 years older.
Fast forward to present day
>I haven't seen or talked to her in 3 years.
>I turn 20 in two weeks.
>She's still with older guy
>I'm in a relationship that I'm growing tired of, not nearly as happy as I was in the early days of last relationship.
>I'm in my second semester of my second year of college.
>I go to a community college.
>Turns out she transferred to the same college, I'm forced to walk passed her 3 times a week.
>I feel like I'm being haunted by a ghost.
>We're aware of eachother's presence, but neither of us will approach the other.
>I want to, but it will do me no better.
>I just accept the silent reminder of my former happiness 3 times a week.
>It's bittersweet because she's grown into such a beautiful woman.
sigh
>pic not related
>BE YOU
>SEE GIRL THAT BROKE HEART
>RAPE HER FOR NOT WEARING HIJAB
>IS OKAY BECOUSE ISALAMI
>>678071821
kek
>>678071821
Top kek
>>678071821
OP here,
kek
>>678071357
srsly tho, feels bad.
>>678072333
Checked
>>678072812
Forget her. Be sure where your heart really is. She's still with him for a reason.
>>678071357
ISALAMI HERE
are you going to talk to her OP or you just gonna let it be weird?
>>678072920
>Filthy
>>678073379
Nah, we've made eye contact and she looks away. If she really wanted to reconnect, she would go out of her way to do so. It just sucks when you were so close with someone and just one day you become strangers all over again.
>>678073802
looked*
>>678073316
I figured. I just hope he does right by her.
>>678071357
I should hope that pics not related
>>678073802
Forget her anon. She's not interested anymore.
>>678074041
plot twist, OPs ex was a furry
>>678074056
I know, the semester is almost to an end anyway.
Shoot up campus OP
>>678074730
I can't, I'm half Hispanic, I'll be tried as a terrorist and not as a mentally disturbed white person.
>>678074988
Dubs of truth
Sorry anon
It wasn't meant to be
>>678071357
The fact that she cheated on you so long ago means that her feelings were not genuine at all, either that or they bagan to deminish crazy quick. Personally, I see cheating as the ultimate betrayal in a relationship espcially if you were nothing but loyal and supportive. If she, knowing this, would cheat and be ok with it, then she's not the one for you. You can talk to her to get closure maybe, I'm sure you'd have a lot of unanswered, tortuting questions that would be pretty difficult to bring up in casual convo, but other than that, it's not worth it.
>>678075476
/thread
Sorry anon.
>>678071357
>Mental health issues
>cheated on you
>ditched you for an older dude
>you want her back
WHY
You're blinded by nostalgia. Go find somebody else who isn't guaranteed to both be out of your reach and bad for you.
>>678075476
I was very angry with her the longest time, I've thought about saying very awful and hurtful things just to level her down to how I felt, but then and even now, I would still never do anything to hurt her. I know for a fact she regretted it and felt awful. I like to think by now she's rectified it within herself. I still sensed sadness in her eyes when we made eyes met though. Like she was embarrassed or ashamed. Maybe that's why she looked away.
I feel like I do it to myself I just wallow in sadness because it feels good. I kinda just feel like I'm drifting in an ocean of melancholy emotions for no particular reason.
>>678076070
It's not that I want her back, it was the happiness that she gave me so long ago. I realized she could never give me that same feeling again after she cheated. I'm openly admitting that this sense of sadness is purely based on nostalgia. The purpose of this thread is to just talk about it.
>>678076159
my advice get a hobby, something that allows to to create something. youll soon forget about her
>>678076523
OP here,
>>678076159
this isn't me.
>>678076159
You need to understand that this state is not your normal self. You have to get out of the blue and live
Live exciting things, do new stuff, be able to feel happy and sad about stuff without losing control of how you feel (aka always sad: depression)
Try and don't give up
>>678076623
this describes my love life
>>678076623
Bullshit
We're selfish, we want it all
>be me
>middle school
>grade 8
>transfer in middle of school year
>I've always been loner
>couple weeks go by no one talks to me
>im fine, i prefer it this way
>one day in language Arts
>girl ask to swap papers for revisions
>assume teacher asked her to do it
>fine whatever i dont need a handout but i do need a proof reader
>fast forward a week
>we are becoming good friends
>talk everyday
>all day
>parents get mad because i go over my text limit
>start developing feelings for her
cont
>>678076451
Let the memories go anon
Give yourself peace.
>>678077911
Nice GET
Continue
>>678077911
9/11 get
>she gets biyfriend
>tells me every intment detail
imokay.jpeg feelingsareforloser. wav
>stay friends into high school
>she goes through two more boyfriends
>cant stand being in the friendzone
>one day decide to stop talking cold turkey.
>i just nee some time.
>time=1 school year
cont
>>678078416
Continue
>>678078416
senior year
>we start flirting a lot
>like way more than playfull banter
>me feelings get even stroonger
>always miss school functions cause of band
>finally get to go to homecoming dance
>this is my chance
>ask her to dance
>set up plan with friends to ask her out
>dance comes along
>on the dance floor
>she seems a little evaisive
whats wrong femanon
>...
>.....
>.......
>i didnt know how to tell you this
>but
>i have a boyfriend now
>heart proceeds to break.
>cant show emotion because was raised that way
>feel betrayed.
>take her home right then and there
cont
>>678078925
Keep going
>>678078925
>we talk sporadically
>fast forward to last year
>she has some crazy shit go down in her dorm
>she reaches out to me
>decided that i need to man up
>start talking again
>repress all feeling for her
>she is still with boyfrined from high school
>im still single
>cant let go
>she asked me to be a braidsmaid in her wedding
>but im a dude
your like brother to me anon
>fine
>its all fine
>i just sit here on 4chan
>browse reddit
>work on cars
>been on a few dates
>only think about her
>sometimes i wish i never met her
>she doesnt even know that i think about her almost everyday
I wish i could meet someone who could make me feel the way she does.
>>678079625
also sorry for my shitty story telling
i barely pasted english
>>678079625
Did you stopped talking to her after that?
>>678079996
no we still talk
I couldn't be that much of an asshole because of how i feel.
>>678079625
>browse reddit
Beta cuck spotted
>>678080378
ill own that.
>>678080185
Let her go
She's the "I just wanna be friends" girl
She's not into you and she'll never be
>>678080623
im trying man, im trying.
ITT Highschool life
>>678081092
Still it's your desicion if you wanna keep being friends or not
>>678071357
say hi and move on. why is this so hard? suck it up and stop playing the victim
>>678081382
*decision
ITT First love always fucks you up
>>678081382
i want to still be friends. she isnt a bad person, and we have a lot of history. i just need to move on emotionally.
>>678081631
this guy gets it
>>678079625
then go find that person. their are billions of people on the planet. at least one is for you
Tolerating strong feelings for my second cousin that I can never even let slip. I think about her constantly. She is only 15, 16 in a month. And I hate myself for it so much. Your life is better than mine. I'll probably kms soon. I cannot live like this.
>>678081503
did anon ever finish his birthday story from the other night? I did not get a chance to see how it ended.
>>678081949
im still searching. i havent lost hope.
>>678081746
JUST DO IT
YES YOU CAN
>>678081962
>strong feelings
Wdf is that? Strong feelings can range between "I wanna fuckin kill you" to "I love you so fuckin much"
>>678081962
an hero
>>678082084
You will find her anon. I'm sure you will.
Just listened to an acoustic live version of Outside by Aaron Lewis. Serious feels now. Fuck.
>>678082711
Dubs confirm
>>678082490
I guess I hate actually typing it. I love her.
Few people feeling tonight huh?
>>678082981
How old are you?
>>678082945
I heard that shit religiously when I was younger but you never understood it. Now it fucking hurts.
>>678083143
Too old for her. I'm 27
>>678071357
Feels bad man.
I was with some chick for a few years, we argued here and there over dumb shit, but it was nice nonetheless.
We would fuck all the time and her parents eventually found out. Her parents are Jehova's Witnesses.
RIP the best relationship I've had.
>>678083556
Which is why I hate myself. Anon above was right. I should an hero. Do myself and everyone I know a favor. I think I'm in a dark enough place to go through with it.
>>678083556
I'm 25 man and date a 16 yr old.
True love has no boundaries. Teenagers are not children. Too old is only said by people whose feelings are touched.
>>678083556
>BECOUME ISALAMI
>RAPE KEDS
>SJW WILL DEFEND BECUZ DEY DUMB
>KILL THE JEWS
>>678083556
I've gone out multiple times.
Just be mature about it, never force anything, and be as open as possible.
The ONLY way it will work.
>No one knows what it's like to be the Moonman
>To be the true man behind blue eyes
>And no one knows what it's like to be hated
>To be hated to telling only lies
>But my dreams
>They aren't as black as my neighbors
>Just seems to be I have powers
>Only hatred
>My love is white
>That's never free
>No one knows what it's like to feel these feelings like I do
>And I blame jews
>No one bite back as hard on their anger
>None of my pain and woe can show through
>>678083171
Don't kill yourself. That doesn't solve shit. You need to understand that she's not for you. And move on. It's hard to get rid of that feelings, but you must. For her.
Why would you associate with girls? You do realize that they poop, right?
>>678083861
Yeah, nah you're just a pedophile.
>>678084200
THEY POOP
!!!!HOLY FUCK!!!!!!
>>678084122
>>678084200
Checked
How the fuck would she shit? She's beautiful, so this pic is obviously misleading. Either that or she has a dick.
>>678084121
Yea. That ought to go over real well with the rest of my family. I fucking hate this. Thanks anyway anon
>>678084405
Two words: human nature
Now GTFO
>>678084297
Kek, the age of consent in my country is like 14...
>>678084200
GIRLS DO NOT POOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
/b/, my life peaked about one year ago and it's gone nowhere but down ever since. I feel tired all the time and miserable as hell. My only real enjoyments at this point are drinking/doing drugs with my degenerate ass friends, and the fact that I'm moving away in a few months. I hate myself. I'll post greentext of how things got this way if anyone wants it.
>>678084552
And no, I'm not the 25 year old anon.
One of the feels of my lifetime
>>678084547
She doesn't look like she would ever have to take a shit
>>678084200
For me there's nothing like actively talking to a female. For me it's therapeutic.
Money, nice toys, free life doesn't matter.
Nothing takes the stress away like simply hearing her voice does. I've never been in a relationship so shit never hit the fan with me in that way, but having a girlfriend always seems to change me. My overall demeanor changes completely like a new person. I walk taller, have more confidence and it's like my face is a lot brighter.
>>678084679
But they poop
>>678084552
Doesn't change the fact like you like children you sick perversion of a human being.
>>678083861
share more texts
Hold up your head high and try to act like you don't give a single fuck about her. Walk with a friend or something, just make her think you are happier than she will ever be and that she missed out on you
>>678084498
All of mine know. Her's know. Everyone knows and I'm more respected for my age than anyone else from my family to my (few) friends.
I've accomplished more than anyone my age and all.
You say you love her, but you put your mother/father before her?
They gave birth to you. They should support you - no matter what as long as you're happy.
>>678084942
Top fucking kek!!!!!!!
See young one, I personally don't date anyone in the moment. In my country you are not jailed just for kissing or having sex with a girl/boy if he or she is at least 14 or 15. It's just laws man, you have to understand that not every country is like yours.
I have seen 22 year olds date 16 year old girls here. Nothing wrong with that. Understand that you were raised different than me, you were born in another society, so that's why we think different.
>>678085128
What does that accomplish?
This was a girl I went to school with who saw me talking to the girl on fb.
>>678085283
You saw where she was my second cousin, no? My mom is dead. My dad is a thousand miles away. But her mom, and my aunt and uncle (her grandparents). It'd be fucked. I don't feel like I have any options, save one. Because I'm losing my fucking mind over this.
OMFG HOW CAN YOU PEOPLE ACTUALLY GIVE A SHIT ABOUT GIRLS???? THEY MAKE HUGE SMELLY TURDS FOR FUCK SAKES!!! GIRLS ARE NOT PEOPLE!!!!!!!!! THEY GO POOPOO!!!!!!! AND IT SMELLS NASTY AS FUCK!!!!!!!!
Well, I guess I'll share my pitiful story.
>be in the Marines
>boot camp
>parris island sc
>suffer injury on aframe, only three weeks from graduation
>be broken and on the edge of death
>recover and be discharged
>dream crushed forever
>return home, depressed but call gf
>she breaks up with me over phone
>jody struck
>gf of only six months
>hurt and just stressed me out
>cant find any kind of work because I'm unable to work fully due to injuries
>broke
>living with parent
>talk to girl from my childhood
>honestly only girl I ever loved and still do
>she wants to hang out
>wow my excitment was through the roof
>hang out with her
>she breaks news
>shes engaged
>I'm crushed
>pretend to be happy
>she doesn't contact me again after that
>I'm nineteen years old
>I'm unable to walk, nor bend correctly anymore
>My life long dreams are ripped away from me.
>Living with parent
>Can't find work
>Got cheated on while in basic
>Love of my life is getting engaged
There are things that happened in basic, If anyone went. I was in third battalion. If you we're there, you know what I mean. Stuff that happened to us, I have nightmares about, I still scream in my sleep. My own father things I'm suicidal, of course I deny it.
>consider suicide four times a day
>starving myself
>weight 159 currently
>don't sleep, haven't for nearly five days now
I'm beyond the point of depression and stressed out. I hate what my life has become, I would rather be out there with my fucking brothers and die for something I believed in, and know I have a beautiful woman to morn my death back at home.
>I'm antisocial
>I bomb on all my dates
>cry every fucking night
I hate my life.
>On and off with love of my life for 3 years now
>Just 2 days ago find out shes been fucking someone else (went through her phone)
>Was under the impression that we were working on things
>Hate life more and more
>Feel depressed and want to leave her but i dont like the feeling of being alone and shes the only one that helps me with that
>I forgive her but cant really just get over this
>Not sure what to do or how to feel anymore
>Wish i was just dead half the time so i wouldnt have to go through this
>She keeps telling me that she loves me but shes not in love with me
>wut?
>Still basically acts like were together though and says she needs time to sort out her feelings
>Sitting here on 4chan while the only girl i really have feelings for decides if she cares about me or not anymore
>>678085455
Wanting to have sexual intercourse with a CHILD is okay because you can get away with it? Nah fam, you're a sick monstrosity that I hope gets severely but plugged by Bubba in jail. Faggot.
>>678085918
You need to overcome your current situation.
Be strong, accept that things happened, nothing can be changed and start a new life. Death doesn't solve anything. Past is past. Try. Give yourself the chance of a new life.
>>678085701
at least i can say it here and not be entirely dismissed. I snap with her a lot but I have to be very careful. I'm even decently sure she's crushing on me hard, which makes this even harder. I go over there all the time when she's around, just to be around her and talk to her, but again I have to be very careful. Last week, she was going off to her stepdad's for the week, they do every other week or some shit. She got pretty touchy feely with me. Came up behind me and draped her arms over my shoulders and pushed her body up against my back, right in front of my uncle. I played it cool, but my heart was about to explode out of my chest. It was really pretty great. I guess I'll always have that. I still think about suicide multiple times a day. I'm very fucked up in the head right now.
>>678086297
I'm laughing so much, you are making my day!
OmygodImdyingfromlaughing.mp4
As I said, it's just laws, people with 14/15 are not considered children anymore. You were raised in a different society and that's why you think of anyone below certain age (laws of YOUR country) to be little children. But thanks for the keks.
>you will never know how it feels like to hang out with a qt girl in New York
Just...
>>678086191
See
>>678075476
Move on. Sorry anon. You have to face this
>>678087144
Bro, you're trying too hard to fit in faggot. Stop fucking little kids and be a real adult you sicko.
>>678071821
>Isalami
My sides
>>678087134
Still have to be careful here.
Some other screencaps of messages I posted were reported to the FBI by another anon.
Wasn't the overly used reported pic either. Had a new screencap and all w/ even a screencap of the notification bar pulled down showing where he screencapped it.
If I'm ever picked up the war will begin. I will take it to the State Deparyment like all the faggots do for rights.
>>678087600
I haven't done anything. And won't. Just need to get it off my chest.
>>678087440
It's okay bro, I know that you are just shitposting.
>>678087742
I do things and always will. No fear.
>>678087818
maybe for you. I'm going back to contemplating suicide in the darkness, by myself.
You should definitely tell her how you feel. Chances are it will not change anything but if i were you i'd feel relieved to have said it.
My first love left me to be with her ex 5 years ago now, and I wish I could tell her how much i still appreciate her even though we haven't talked for nearly two years
>>678071357
You see the truth is if you were a real bro, you'd say hi. No need to even be friends just acknowledge her existence to show you're not a total pussy and that you're cool with everything and you're over her. That's if you wanna feel good.
If you truly can't get over her, then keep mentally blocking her out, but you won't feel any better you piece of shit
>>678087801
Teach me to get better senpai.
But seriously, stop kiddy diddling.
I fuckin' tell you, you fuckin' failure—you ain't no leader!
I never liked you, forever despise you—I don't need you!
The world don't need you, don't let them deceive you
Numbers lie too, fuck your pride too, that's for dedication
Thought money would change you, made you more complacent
I fuckin' hate you, I hope you embrace it
I swear.
>>678088084
I do not agree with this post but i agree that op should at least be saying hi, you're only embarassing yourself by ignoring her
>>678088148
Do the following:
Listen to Just Forget from Force of Nature.
No, I don't fug kids. I already told you that.
>Know this girl, we'll call her Sidney
>Become really close, try dating, doesn't really work out
>Breaks my heart
>Whatever, shit happens, get past it, stay friends
>Things are alright
>She starts flirting
>She wonders aloud if we should try it again
Kept on the edge for a few weeks, no straight answer from her, get more and more concerned, frustrated, hurt.
>Talk to a very good friend of mine throughout all of this, call him Max
>Max has been telling Sidney lies using what I've told him
>Max and Sidney get together, tell me at a christmas party
>They get in Max's car to leave, I go to grab my friend because I couldn't be there anymore
>Friend is manning the map
>I see them
>On the side of the road
>Outside Max's car
>Look at my friend
>Look back
>Accelerate
>Accelerating
>Accelerating
>Realize what I'm doing
>Swerve into a turn, pedal down, get out of there
Time passes, things mellow out, I accept it, still stay friends with Sidney, don't talk to Max
>Sidney and I hang out alot
>She is always too close
>I let it slide
>She gets too physical all the time
>I let it slide
>She kisses me
>Feel like a dirtbag
>Break down, tell Max what happened, can't stand him but I can't live with myself
He gets upset, tells her she can't hang out with my anymore. She still does. Max hated me before this, doesn't know what to think of me now
Over a month passes
>Sidney tells me she cheated on Max
>They'll break up if he finds out
And here we are. Present day. I told a good friend of mine and Max's, and he said he is gonna tell Max if she doesn't. So I just ruined that. And I don't feel very good about it.
>be 17yo me
>highschool
>new girl arrives, fall in love with her
>she don't know
>i was a lone knight so i tried to hide my feelings
>she gets a boyfriend
>congratsyoulostyourchance.wav
>try to hide it again
>fail
>senior year
>i meet some alpha folks, we only laugh and work together
>Let's call that girl Radiance
>Radiance is very outgoing and made plenty of friends
>she is very popular
>70% of males want to bang her
>the fact i know that makes me morose
>one of my alpha friends flirts with her, even knowing she has a bf
>thismustbeajoke.jpg
>Let's call that alpha guy Milkweed
>Milkweed and Radiance hang out a lot and people say they are lovers(she has a bf but idk)
>"ARE YOU SPASTIC ANON? STAND UP AND FIGHT FOR YOUR LADY" says anonbrain
>"b-but what can i do?"
>"play the same game"
Continue?
>>678088167
Kendrick Lamar's lyrics hit hard man
>>678088628
Also I'm 18, Max is 17, Sidney is 17. Still in HS lmao
>>678088380
How about I tell you to kill yourself, and you stop fantasizing and/or molesting children.
>>678088628
Moral: Stay away from Sidney and Max: she's a whore and he's not a real friend.
>>678076451
The happiness in your life didn't fade because of this girl.
Happiness in your life faded because, as you got older, your adult self came to the undeniable understanding we all do at some point -- that life in general is just fucking awful.
>>678088628
I was going to say
>1.Tell max
>2.????
>3.Profit
Until i saw the end of your post
You did precisely what you had to do, except you should have told max directly to see his face when he learns. Stupid bitch and fake friend, you should not miss them
>>678089008
Love the shitposting! Let's continue until the thread ends.
>>678088675
Continue
>>678089158
Haha, yeah, basically the best option at this point. I've gotten over it, and I really wonder what she's going to do
>>678089253
I probably should have. I still can. Maybe I will. He is home right now, but I don't think driving over in the middle of the night is the best option
>>678089282
Hope you're getting some good reaction images onii-san. You fucking pedophile, you.
>>678089478
>>678089331
>>678089282
>>678089253
>>678089234
>>678089158
>>678089008
>>678088798
>>678088788
>>678088675
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>>678088148
convince me to not killmyself with music like this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXbSfl0O3qU
>>678089478
Go tell him in the morning. You should feel great knowing if you had dated Stacey you'd be the one she would have cheated on. Congrats Anon
>>678084626
Hold out until you move; your life will improve 10-fold when the time comes.
>>678089679
>/mu/
>>678088167
Post more sad lyrics
You the reason why mama and them leavin'
No you ain't shit, you say you love them, I know you don't mean it
I know you're irresponsible, selfish, in denial, can't help it
Your trials and tribulations a burden, everyone felt it
Everyone heard it, multiple shots, corners cryin' out
You was deserted, where was your antennas again?
Where was your presence, where was your support that you pretend?
You ain’t no brother, you ain’t no disciple, you ain’t no friend
Ever consider she took the meds because of you and now that she's with another man she's happier, doesn't need her meds, and has hair now?
>>678088675
Do continue my friend
>>678087600
The FBI has better things to do, they don't give a fuck about a couple of kids within a +6 year age range. They're much more focussed on how to circumvent the Constitution to hack into people's phones and then somehow blame Apple for it.
>>678089663
Yeah, but this of thomas the train was the best yet.
>>678089679
>be me in high school
>only experience i have with girls are kinda bad
>not really beta, just average looking, a tad awkward and have a bit of bad luck
>last relationship was shits
>still hadn't gotten over her
>don't date anyone for a while but start turning in to a reckless fag
>start drinking, smoking, hooking up with random bitches at parties
>one day meet a really cool bitch
>she cool af
>if there was ever a time i had love at first sight, that was probably it
>first impression 10/10
>throughout that summer i would see her at parties and events and shit and we would talk
>i really like her
>have something to look forward to in life
>start getting more popular at school
>finally ask her out
>im becoming a total fucking chad
>get bored because im an idiot and i feel like there's nothing worthwhile achievable
>i did an icarus
>start partying way too much
>gf getting distant
>family member dies
>family getting fucked up
>mom starts getting in to debt
>dick dad shows up out of nowhere
>why are bad things happening wtf
>start drinking more heavily, smoking hella bud and missing school a lot
>gf cheats on me
>forgive her
>but then i cheat right back
>she breaks up with me
>family is getting messed up and in debt
>ex gf hooks up with one of my bros
>get fucked up
>go out and hook up with random bitches but it doesn't make me feel any better
>drink and smoke myself in to oblivion
>fail school
>despressed af
>me and ex gf don't talk anymore but im over her
>still think about her sometimes
>i don't think my social life ever recovered tho
i know i sound like an emo fag but i'd say i lost about 80% emotion from the whole thing and am now a borderline autist. how do i snap out of this /b/
>>678085918
I'm sorry, anon. That's really shitty. If I could hug you, I would.
>>678088675
>"but that's foul play, she has a boyfriend...i just can't"
>"don't be a betafag anon, most men want to fuck her, do you want that?"
>"no"
>"very good, bery good indeed"
>i was determined to get her, but first i have to wipe out my way
>Milkweed has a dubious past, he fucked an underaged girl...well several underaged girls...a lot...
>fox news mode ON
>tell everyone about it, people is disgusted
>underaged girls say he forced it
>mfw Milkweed is called "rapist"
>Radiance decides to keep away
>or that was what i thought, they meet secretly very often, idk what they did
>Radiance's bf is informed, she gets in trouble, everyone blames Milkweed
>streetfighteryesssss.jpg
>my turn
>Radiance loves films and books, we talk about it the whole day, she becomes more friendly, i am shocked so i decided to be friendly too
>inb4 friendly=/=filthy
>party time
>i meet her friends, they are very kind, i tell them abou history and novels, they are enthralled
>become popular among her friends, one girl want to talk with me
>"listen up, anon, Milkweed is still lurking, he is an asshole and we prefer you
>mfw hee friends prefer me as a lover/cheater
>mfw she agrees to help to counter Milkweed
>Radiance is drunk, i am aware of any scavenger
>I ask her about Milkweed
>she says he kissed her....very often.
..fortunately no sex yet.
>MILKWEED APPEARS
>i must protect her
>He grabs her arm, he wants to go to a comfy place (translation: FUCK)
>fortunately a friend of mine puke due the drunkness
>i am the only one who isn't drunk, but Radiance wants to help him even beong drunk
>sex avoided
>after that party i becameore outgoing, Radiance's friends wanted to hang out with me and stand close...to stop Milkweed
>"what if i am being like Milkweed?"
>"blimey anon, you are not him, he is bad, you are the good guy" says anonbrain
>"but...but what if i b3come into Milkweed, i am doing the same....am i good enough?"
Go on?
I think somethings wrong with me guys I don't think I'm depressed but things don't feel the same
>>678071357
Hey man that's really shitty, im kind of going through something similar i was with this girl for 9 months but we were seeing each other before that for 2 years
we had some issues but i'd try to work them out with her and make things work between us. on new years i go over to my friends house for his new years party and we all get drunk and what not while were all getting drunk my girlfriend at the time starts talking to this guy i know him through a friend but hes just an acquaintance i don't think much of it because this guy is pretty nerdy looking and i know he has alot of mental health issues about things like this.. kind of stupid looking back on it.. anyways she starts messaging him a few days later i told her that i don't like her talking to him and that its causing me anxiety. she ignores my request and says that i dont let her have any male friends. she used to talk to her ex and i told her that i had problems with her going and seeing him but it was strictly because she had a relationship with him. by this point in our relationship we had a lot of problems but i really wanted to make things work so i'm really trying to make the time we spend together good and meaningful but its to no avail roughly 2 weeks later she breaks up with me and i'm really attached to this woman we had so much in common i feel as if i had really strong connection with her. im not taking it well. she blocked me on fb i text her a week later asking her to unblock me so i can talk to her we start talking she wants to come over to get her things i allow this but when she came over i treated her really well i made it obvious that i still had feelings for her and if she still wanted to work things out we could. things are good for a little while were not together but she comes over everyday or every other day Things look pretty good for the next week or so.. Cont. ?
>>678092123
Continue
>>678092132
Lack of joy for things you used to enjoy?
My boyfriend's currently sleeping in my bed and it's taking every bit of willpower not to wake him up and tell him that I love him. Idk why but it makes me really sad.
>>678092561
Excatly, how did you know?
>>678092351
Continue
>>678092638
Wakeup that faggot and tell him you love him
thread theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9O6e7cgkeqw
>>678092715
Go to a psychologist. It's nothing to be aware of, but you need orientation about what is going on. Tell him/her everything you feel
>>678093249
Thanks anon
>>678093249
>paying some jackass thousands of dollars to tell you what you already know
>>678093517
>implying self-diagnosis is always correct
This thread literally gave me cancer please fucking kill yourselves
>>678085737
My sides
>>678093517
Anhedonia is serious. It should be managed by someone trained on these cases, something that you can't solve normally. That's why you need help: you know your shit, but you don't know how to solve it out.
can someone make OP's pic a wallpaper plz :)
>>678093990
Who broke you anon?
>>678094379
No one did fgt I just dont get cucked
>>678092123
>once mates, Milkweed and me are now enemies
>cold war
>i try to enthrall Radiance with my knowledge while i keep away Milkweed
>Although Milkweed uses his "alpha powers" to enthrall her
>i guess those alpha powers are double-edge, npw everyone blames him for everything, it's raining, MILKWEED FAULT
>even teachers blame him
>more people want to be my friend, girls are now friendly, alpha dudes invite me to anything
>"am i an alpha now?"
>"wondrous anon, now it's showtime"
>and showtime means the last year's camp
>alpha folks invite to their tent, i am with Milkweed too
>thanks to the self'steem gained, i went to the gym during the summer, so i became more athletic
>and girls are now more interested....but i have a mark
>Last night of showtime, they play a wird game
>Radiance is between Milkweed or me
>btw remember her boyfriend? He cheated on her since they met....several times...tough times for Radiance
>"Radiance, your turn, tell us who is your lover or go to the forest(sp00ky btw)
>most people knwo about their adventure
>most people think i am her friend, not her lover... except from that girl(my allie)
>silence
>....
>...
>...i love Milkweed, we are....kind of dating...
>are you asking about that sound? Well, that's my heart, self-steem, courage and sanity break sound.
>everyone claps
>allie and i don't
>"But i think anon is handsome....."
>says Radiance....like a silvwr medal...
>she looks at me, she sees my pain...she realizes what she did...
>i go out, wandering in the forest
>after all this time....you prefer him....after what i did, how i changed and how i evolved....you...you...did it....
>"i failed"
>".....i know anon...we failed...."
Final part?
>>678094913
Tl;dr
>>678094913
Yes
>>678093187
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gGdGFtwCNBE
>>678092351
Fast forward to Feb she starts seeing my friend. i'm going to refer to him as my dealer because he is and i don't want to use his real name
I'm really close with my Dealer Ive known him for 5 or 6 years now i consider this guy to be one of my best friends he used to help me with anxiety and he was someone i could confide in.
hes one of my best friends at this point, So when i ask him about why shes coming over to his place he tells that shes coming over to talk about her anxiety and her problems and to do homework and stuff i believed this because i trusted him at this point and that he knew how i felt about her and also there's a huge age gap in between them shes 17 at the time and hes 28 i trusted him but in the back on my mind i was always sketched out by it and i thought something was going to happen between them but at this point were not together thees nothing i can do about it. she keeps making time to see me every day or every other day but a week later she left at 930 saying that shes going to my dealers place i thinking shit was up and that shes just going there to fuck him she comes over to my place 1 more time after. I tell her that im not going to have her over just for her to leave at 9:30 to hang out with my dealer she says that's fine i don't see her for 2 days but we message in between i make plans to see her on the 3rd day so the third day come around and im waiting around for her to message me to say that shes coming over i get tired of waiting and i just call her she says that she cant come over because my dealer is sick with the flu and that she was going to go over to take care of him and im pissed because im thinking shes just going to bail on me to fuck my dealer and i make it known that im not impressed about her bailing on me she says if i have a fucking problem with it then i should just talk to my dealer about it so i hang up and call my dealer he says yeah hes feeling like shit and that Cont.
>>678095408
https://youtu.be/Qok9Ialei4c
>>678095680
Continue anon
>>678077911
> be me
> cont fag
> say 'cont' for attention, despite the word limit barely being hit.
> I'm a faggot who loves attention
> tfw literally can't stop sucking dick
>>678077911
Just write the full story you fucking retard. Enough with the cont bullshit.
>>678079625
I'm sorry to tell you this anon; but you just have to accept the fact that you're a pussy faggot.
>>678095700
Thank you.
>>678085261
THIS. Underrated post.
>>678081092
Personally I wouldn't be involved in her wedding I might attend but that's it. What I would do is just tell her how you feel because it's just going to keep lingering on your mind. It sucks and there's so many things you'll think about. Actually doing something though has a definitive solution and at the least you're not repressing this. Good luck
I'm tomorrow, or some future day, what I establish today. I am Today what I established yesterday or some previous day. - James Joyce
>>678092987
I'm afraid that it's too soon. It's only been 6 months.
>>678085918
That's harsh. Hope things get better for you soon anin. God speed, and uhh, keep your chin up, as cliche as it sounds.
>>678094913
>"alas, anon, we ought to rise the white flag" says anonbrain
>"......no....no...NO....THIS IS NOT THE END OF THE LINE, if at least...i can kiss her...i am not defeated....if Radiance shows love with me, i didn't fail"
>"reckless anon.....follow your dreams"
>damaged and disturbed, i rised again, trying to get at least a love drew
>i departed from alpha friends, they are now a burden
>each time Radiance and me meet, she speaks....weird...like hiding something....but Milkweed arrives always and i have to go
>We get along, but she is now shy, she feels guilty
>We don't talk about the camp....
>Prom time
>Big loudy party, everyone is dancing, i am reading a book and stealing their food
>Allie appears, she knows about that....she tries to make me happy, she can't
>"anon.....she is....well.... she break with her bf yesterday, why don't you try it in the afterrun?"
>with a bit of hope, i decide it
>Afterrun time
>"anon.... don't expect a lot, be careful...we can't stand more damage...." says anonbrain
>"i know....i do know...she is guilty...maybe...she loves me"
>Radiance want to talk with me, i am drinking alone in the rooftop
>"hey anon...are you happy? Last year, last day, maybe we shon't meet again....we were accepted to different college...why don't we enjoy this night?
>ohboy.mp4
>gazing the stars, we drink and talk, making a good blanter
>"and Milkweed?"
>"that bastard...she only wanted to fuck me....asshole...i don't"
>"oh...and..."
>"anon... i want to....well...do you love me anon?"
>"....yes...since the day you arrived"
>"and why don't you do anything until now?
>Radiance takes my head and we ge5 close...she closes her eyes and tries to kiss me
>"YOU DID ANON, YOU DID"
>i refuse
>"what happen anon?" says radiance
>"you don't love me....you just want someone who cares about you...your boyfriend, Milkweed, me....you are not in love, you are in need"
>i stand up and leave her.
Maybe i was a fool, but i don't want charity love, i want what i gave
>>678097979
Ok. Well, move on and good luck next time
>>678095018
Some shitty story of a loser liking a girl and manning up to impress her but he still fails. Finale imminent tho.
>>678097979
Your writing is fucking atrocious. Story hardly makes sense. Anyway, good for you, hope you foun someone deserving of your time and affection, faggot.
>>678095680
My ex was coming to take care of him. i say alright angrily and hang up he calls me back a few mins later and he asks me why im so angry i explain that i get anxiety when she goes over because im attached to this girl and im fairly sure shes coming over for a banging He then says you know shes fucking other people right? at this point i didn't know but i had a suspicion he tells me that him and his boy dropped her off at that nerd from the partys house late one night and then goes on to tell me that hes been fucking her since late Feb when she turned 18
im obviously really upset about this because i had really strong feelings for her. my dealer who was one of my best friends is now banging this girl i have feelings for. and acting as if there's nothing wrong with it he says he didn't know i have feelings for her which is bullshit because when she had problems she would talk to him about them secretly he knew almost every detail of our relationship stuff that he shouldn't have known. He knew that i was trying to make things work with my ex and that i had feelings for her but he denies knowing but that doesn't change anything i haven't talked to either of them since. he doesn't want there to be bad blood between us because i guess he wants to remain friends either that or he wants my weed money its been a while since then and he messaged me today i haven't replied im still not okay with this im deeply upset by what has happened i wont be able to trust him anymore and im sure as fuck not going to forgive him for it.. from what ive heard hes just banging her they aren't in a relationship but she wants to be in one with him and hes fucking bitches on tinder. i don't think i can be friends with this guy while hes fucking my ex hes one of my best friends but i just cant do it.
Boooooooooooring
I won't buy into your guy's sap stories about how your life is shit.
The only time you deserve to be sad is if you're in an amazing relationship and the girl dies. If she left you for someone else, get over it. Start talking to more grills, especially pretty ones, and you'll learn that they'll take your pain away. That's what I did. Fuck my Ex. It's been two weeks and I don't give a fuck what she does. She can be a slut all she wants. And he can enjoy the sloppy seconds i left him. I hope she cheats on him too.
>>678099265
Change dealer, get over it, continue your life
>>678099614
>tl;dr thread
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