Feels thread. I need to cry a bit
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Feels thread.
I need to cry a bit
might sound gay but I need a feels thread. I miss my WoW friends :(
>>677914072
bump
>>677914848
>>677914072
I dont know whats wrong with me but i havnt been able to cry in years. Give me your saddest pictures
Personal favorite
>>677914732
I miss my halo 4 friends
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOAcRKZxjy4
For you, and everyone else.
>>677915297
it really sucks doesn't it?
>>677915503
damn man. this is me
I'm an ex-heroin addict. I want to get high so fucking bad it hurts.
>>677915423
Yeah... I remember when we went through the campaign on legendary and anticipated Halo 5.... we didn't make it. It's small shut like that you miss
Ah need to cry eh, here you go.
>>677914072
Pics incoming
>>677915780
I feel you anon, same same but different. I miss just logging on to my account and seeing my guild mates and having something to do with each and every one of them. It didn't matter what they looked like or where they lived. We just liked playing a game.
>>677915423
I miss my Runescape friends. Was a couple years older then them. I played starting in late 05 when I started 6th grade. Met them around mid 7th grade. Mid 8th grade, get diagnosed with severe genetic autoimmune disorder that wreaks havoc on my intestines. They're my only social interaction. Good two years playing with them, and then they start spending time with girls, get egotistical, and drop Runescape, and I've never really heard from them again.
.
>>677916056
It works either way anon.
Whats a feels thread without this picture
I feel so lonely, 20 years old and still a Virgin.
I always feel so weird around other people and don't know how to act so i just goof around to make everyone laugh, wich works but this wont get me girlfriend.
At the same time my one year younger Brother is doing great im life, beautiful gf doing great in his Job.
Yesterday they were in his room (which is beside mine) and were laughing and having fun and stuff.
Eventually they had Sex as always and I just sat on my bed crying.
I need help, i really need help. The loneliness is killing me.
>>677916181
Exactly. Coming home after a frustrating day and the world of arguments politics war heartache and heartbreak it doesn't matter. You just need the screen in front of you and your pals on the other side
>>677916208
>>677915780
I just wish more than anything these people can be our friends again, they were our friends during our most desperate hour and they judged not. Love them all.
>>677916208
They moved on and "got a life"
>>677916405
Damn. I'd serious be friends with this foo. Goddamn
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FrOQC-zEog
>>677916587
Amen Anon. They always had our backs in whatever world we lived together in. Its a feeling I really don't think ill ever get again
>>677916705
You still play runescape?
>>677916965
I don't know if I can. But I'm gonna try like hell.
This is one of my favorite greentexts.
Gas! Quick, boys! – An ecstasy of fumbling,
Fitting the clumsy helmets just in time;
But someone still was yelling out and stumbling,
And flound'ring like a man in fire or lime . . .
Dim, through the misty panes and thick green light,
As under a green sea, I saw him drowning.
In all my dreams, before my helpless sight,
He plunges at me, guttering, choking, drowning.
This one is good too, sorry about the length, but it's worth it the read.
>>677914573
How to overcome base instinct of not killing self. Hardest thing about suicide I think.
What I'm afraid of is what comes after, really. Maybe there's nothing. Maybe you get to choose a dimension where you are happy. Maybe there is punishment. Maybe there is only sorrow. Maybe there is understanding.
Sometimes I wish that something killed me, to just be over with it. Too much of a pussy to an hero.
>>677917101
I wish you the best anon. One friend to another.
>>677916705
That's all well and good, I'd have gotten a life too if it was possible, but my situation barred it. The feels was that they were always wondering how I was doing and cared for me, but then a girl came along, and they stopped caring how a friend they'd talk with for hours a day was doing when he's been in and out of the hospital. I'm all for them getting a life, but it would have been nice to have still had some contact with them.
>>677917337
Exactly this for me as well. Well said, anon.
>>677915297
Get out more.
Jesus Chriss
>>677917455
You on Xbox one at all anon? And if not good luck to you man. One friend to another, /b/rother.
>>677916512
Hey bro. I love you man, I love you in the most homo fag way possible. I want you to know no matter what, no matter how hard it gets know that at this moment in time, someone loved you more than I've loved anybody else. I think this'll help because for so long I've wanted someone to say this to me.
>>677915503
Damn. Used to have this.
I feel like such shit im failing college, i have no friends, and im about to dropout and join the army. i feel like ive slowly rektd my life.
>>677917554
>played 4 sports in high school
>live with gf
>many social opportunities and friends
>but if I miss people I need to get out more
Go wipe the cheetohs off your face and shave your filthy neckbeard
>>677914072
Faggot
>>677917332
fuck man
>>677918021
Go to Navy or Air Force. You won't regret.
Anyone else posting?
>>677917797
no, but I might be staring up in a private WOTLK server soon though. Xbox one never really brought me in as much as my comp
>>677916301
actually love can be defined, so...fuck off with this melodramatic bullshit.
>>677918305
Hello darkness my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
>>677918075
How do you know h has cheetos on his face and is a neckbeard if you can't see him? Do you think there's a chance you're totally wrong?
>>677918513
You have a YouTube channel at all? I'll look you up if so. Love gaming vids
>>677914072
All I needed was the slightest bit of a feels thread tonight. Thank you anon for making my sad lonely existence that much more tolerable.
>>677918694
Nah. If I even consider myself aa wrong I've failed
>>677914732
just left my guild of over 2 years to move on to a world 400. It literally hurt typing /gquit; the worst part was when my black GM who was prior military and a total hardass psted me........Thanks for the help, I wish you luck in your new guild.
>mfw a video game gets me this emotional because its the only social interaction i get.
>>677916512
>so i just goof around to make everyone laugh, wich works but this wont get me girlfriend.
actually youre wrong, being funny is a huge advantage.
i know itll be hard but try not to compare your life with your brother's. comparing your life with others is one of the easiest ways to fall into depression. live life on your own terms, dont bother with their standards.
btw, i was a virgin until i was 21. its not hopeless for you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N3N1MlvVc4
Its weird how feeling sad can bring you joy, after you feel so empty all day.
>>677918760
Again no, I normally just stick to myself. That is what is so unique about WoW. We could all get together and help each other other out to strive to be the best of whatever we rolled.
I don't mean to suck WoWs dick, but its just the most genuine companionship ive ever received
>>677918917
I wish you the best as well anon. I get you more than most
>>677916512
Stop thinking about sex, don't let it be a prioryt in your life, do shit outside your house that you like, gym, run,paintball, airsoft....
Eventually you will meet someone that will like you more than just a friend.
If you never try you are never finding out.
>>677917332
That hit me like a damn train
>>677918917
how do you sink this low?
>>677917332
This shit almost made me cry.
>>677917551
>>677918075
suck it
>>677915174
me neither
>>677919999
Sorry but holy shit nice quads
>>677919535
Thank you, I hope I they do well without me.
>>677919999
nice quads. I bury my life in study. im in my second year of pre med and trying to get into ivy
>>677918803
No problem buddy
>>677920889
Fucc me
>>677916405
>
I really don't know why this hits me so hard every time..poor guy..
>>677917974
I always try to Support my friends ans family as much as possible whenever they have a problem, and I can see when they are trying to hide something.
But i'm not even hiding my Problems and no one gives a shit.
Love you to. No homo
https://youtu.be/duJk8olQ6fY
>>677921424
Kek i was in this thread
I don't cry or really like experiencing emotions. It's a waste. I only cry and let myself go is through catharsis. Calle a faggot, but gut wrenching romance movies usually do the trick. Films like The Ghost of Mrs. Muir, Casablanca, and Mr. Nobody help me cry and get it all out.
>>677921424
>>677921615
Goddammit. ...
>>677916301
Boy, oh boy does that hit home.Experienced the first two loves.Good thing is, I know what kind of a person I am.
I just want people around me be happy... Not look at me in a depressed expression...
>>677921615
For fucks sake man :(
>>677914937
fuckkkkkk
>>677921978
>>677922564
that one always gets me
>>677922665
Come on man....I just cant have it be over
Just went through me and my ex girlfriends old texts. Not sure why I did that. Shit hurt, /b/
>>677915830
wish there were pics
can i post a short version of my tragedy to triumph life story? promise it won't be long, but maybe it'll give some anons hope
>>677922665
wow im the guy was talking about how emotional i got over leaving my world of warcraft guild and damn, that hits hard in the heart.
>>677923037
It's not an easy thing to do anon but we are always here for you
>>677922829
Every girl I ever got serious with broke up with me, or I ruined it by being a confused faggot.
Now everytime I'm on dates, I feel totally devoid of emotions for her. If I hold her hand it's like a statues hand. Anytime I've tried with girls now I get painfully fucked over.
Relationships shouldn't be a huge issue with me (I'm a young fag), but it hurts seeing my friends and people my age having shit work out for them.
>>677923109
Go ahead
>>677923037
everyone does that. its normal. do yourself a favor and dont though. dont look at the texts, dont look at old pictures, dont look at her facebook, just stay the fuck away from thinking about her.
>>677916754
>>677921248
4chan saw, and 4chan gave him the happiest online birthday wishes my nigs, dont u worry.
>>677923505
Yeah agreed.
Better yet, delete them. Move on. Have a goal of meeting someone else
I've had a rough night
>Pic related
>>677923906
We're here bro
>>677923906
(I'm 'J')
>>677921615
that one got me...
>>677923037
Delete the texts, man. Don't do that to yourself.
A broken heart never mends, but a fool never moves on.
Go out and find someone who'll worship you. I know you don't want anyone else, you want her. But soon you'll find someone who is better and you'll almost cringe at the thought that you used to love her.
>>677923906
>>677923965
Always
>>677923505
Not OP here, but I've been working on that. When a friend and I were going through my Vita's photos, he came across some nudes of her I forgot I had on there, and he was about to delete them, but then handed it to me and said he thought it'd be better for me to do it. It was kinda a stupid, pointless thing, but it actually felt like there was some good closure. I used to check her Instagram, hoping she'd be in misery too, but when I saw her description said she's a feminist and drag king now, I realized she fell into a greater pit of despair than possible for me to ever get trapped in. Feels good bro.
>>677923505
Not the poster, but I can't. I think at this point it's not really about her anymore. I just see her being happy, any of my old friends being happy, and it hurts.
It's easy for them to be happy, and then there's me. I'm just an amalgamation of people's interest in the hope that maybe someone will like me. I don't think I qualify as a human being, there's really no personality to me.
Even when they were around, it never felt fulfilling.
>>677923109
>>677923343
Here we go. Posted this before, but I want to post again.
>Dad was best friend growing up. Coached all sports, burger buddy, go to the gas station together. Called every day when I got home from school.
>5th Grade, 11 years old, dad doesn't pick up office phone.
>No big deal, I'll just play xbox till he comes home
>dad isn't home, mom freaking out
>police knock on door, Amy from Crisis Team shows up
>pull mom outside. Mom comes back in crying after 15 minutes
>Dad has committed suicide.
>My hero is gone. I couldn't believe it.
>Gambled and embezzled, the FBI was closing in. over 1 million in debt that my mom didn't know about. My dad was sketchy.
>My hero has become my traitor.
>Mom becomes abusive alcoholic to me
>christmas presents from donations that year, and the year after
> 19 months after my dad dies, mom says she can't walk
>She can't move the left side of her body. Mom dies of aneurism 6 days later
>get adopted by corrupt family. Wife cheats on husband, both caught stealing from the Fund that's supposed to get me to college
>Law suit occurs, get adopted by aunt and uncle out of state
>Suffer from depression and addiction during high school, great football star status dwindles away as addiction grows stronger
> Join US army, go to basic training summer b4 senior year, placed as Entry Level Soldier
>Addiction comes back after I get back from basic training
>Can't even get out of bed to go to school
>Commit felony while intoxicated, expelled from high school, shits looking grim
>military grants me entry level separation due to inability to report to training, mental defectiveness, not fit to serve (basically like I was never in)
>What the fuck did i do?
>Kicked out of house, no money available
>Great recession. Nobody's hiring.
>Finally get job.
>Stay sober, Apply to community college. Transfer to 4 year. Get my Degree. Kick ass on LSAT. Got accepted into law school. 6 years sober!
You can do anything, anons, anything.
>>677923906
Oh man I remember when I used to argue with my girlfriend over Facebook cause I want an over emotional insecure Virgin clinger. Move on from bitches like that. Relationships are about enjoyment added to your life. Don't cling.
>>677924150
Ew sorry anon and respect,but bullet dodged my friend
>>677923296
I know the feel, man. All my friends I used to work with already have wives and kids, or just a wife. Even a girlfriend.
>mfw parents ask me why I dont have someone
>mfw they know i've never had a girlfriend and that im a turbo virgin autist.
>>677924091
I no longer feel sadness, my eyes are heavy and I feel some type of "bored-ness", my emotions are dying. I am not suicidal, the idea of suicide is stupid. But why I'm I stuck?
>>677923906
In my personal opinion, from what was seen there, you're much better off without her. If she has a good catch but won't make it official just so she can sleep around, then stuff would never end up working out with her. Better to have it end now than to get married, have some kids, both your names on a house and cars and who knows what else, only for her to sleep around, make the marriage fall apart, and still get everything while you get nothing because she's a woman. It hurts now /b/ro, but you dodged a bullet.
>>677924278
Shit was actually inspiring, thanks anon
i dont wish for an easier life ,but a bigger heart
>>677924278
Gotta add that I didn't get charged with a felony, didn't get arrested. Police chose not to press charges on me. Dodged bullet.
>>677924507
Thanks anon. I also gotta add that I didn't get charged with the felony. That was my second chance.
had a rough night anons
>>677924278
I truly love you anon. Thank you and God bless
>>677924385
I guess once you realize that love exists, you just don't know where to find it. I'd suggest totally reinventing your life.
Move somewhere new, get new job, exercise a little. Basic stuff, everything will fall into place
>>677924465
Nihilism. You've lost objective meanings of life.
>be me, 16
>hated high school
>hated how everyone was better than me in every sense of the word
>no worries, rich, have futures set no matter what
>Have all the time and money in the world, non-stop talks about it
>They could go to Britain from the U.S. for a weekend, and comeback without missing school
>Not me though.
>Not rich
>Not skilled
>Not a shining example for family name
>have few friends, not any real ones though
>the ones who make time for you, to make sure you were ok
>or when you weren't at the lunch table to save you your spot
>I had the ones who only wanted you there because it made the group bigger
>almost as if they paid for people to be there
>I was an add-on.
>Their voices were full of money
>And I hated them for it.
>>677924532
I don't wish for easier girls, but a bigger dick.
But actually nice quote
anyone have the webm from Into the Wild where Christopher McCandles realizes he ate the poisonous plant?
>>677923965
>>677924091
>>677924332
>>677924488
I've cut off all my other friends, and put my time into her. If I leave her I'll be all alone. I'm stuck, and trying to survive through this until I move in a couple of months. Then I never get to see her again. She told me people come in and out of my life, I hated her ever sense she said that, even though she's right. Never mind, I take that back, I don't hate her.
>>677924628
Good 4 u
>>677924658
Thank you. You also. So lucky I didn't get charged with anything. I got my second chance, I prayed to God, I fucking ran with that chance.
>>677924368
Exactly. When I met her when she was about to turn 15 and I was about to turn 18, she was the sweetest girl, loved manga and anime and vidya, but over time, she just turned into this twisted monster, and I ended it when she stopped saying she loved me after I said I couldn't just pick up my entire life and move somewhere across the country for her if needed. This convo happened after we saw Amazing Spider-Man 2, and she thought I could be like Peter just chasing after Gwen to another country. She thought we could be like a movie, real life don't work like that. That's not even mentioning the emotional breakdown I suffered after trying to deal with her dad having physically abused her once after being verbally abusive for the longest time.
I have nothing to contribute to this thread, no oc, no copypasta, not even a relevant image. My story's not even an interesting one: I'm a schizophrenic fuck up that would've killed himself long ago were it not for these threads reminding me I'm human and that everything passes.
No one here knows one another, there's nothing to identify us from someone else, and yet we all know each other's pain. Thank you /b for being a friend at 3am when no else can be.
>>677924867
I feel the same at times. I've got music and writing talent. But I feel angry at the world too. Just have to go beyond everyone's expectations and dominate
>>677925119
One day at a time. One step at at time. We can't climb a mountain in a single leap.
bless you anon. I know your pain of wanting to suicide. Don't do it. You're fucking worth something.
>>677925119
Nigga we always have you
>>677923505
Not op, but I can't seem to get myself to do so. She was my very first girlfriend (28m) and I fell deep.
>>677924061
I truly hope so, brother. It fucking hurts like hell right now.
I wish i wanted somethiing more, than eat sweets and play vidya.
>>677925119
Just know there's always another faggot on his tablet at 3am looking for some relief my friend
>>677924696
I'm in medical school at ivy i cant move; honestly i just dont care anymore.
>>677925393
But i dont.
>>677925405
Dude :(
>>677915297
I miss my social skills 2
>>677915727
> former meth fiend
Hang in there /b/ro, we've both been down some roads and know where they will lead.
>>677925393
>via 9gag
>>677915727
have you tried meetings? 6 years sober anon. They work.
>>677925534
Hey, at least you're getting a real degree. Once you graduate, the pussy you'll get will be intense. Then who knows, you'll find her
>>677925534
Good to see Charizard getting his sweet sweet payback and making that motherfucker suffer like he did.
>>677925393
>>677915503
But here you have your /b/ros/. You guys are my backbone when im sad etc etc. Shout put to all you faggota for being here with even when no one wanted!
>imb4 gtfo kill yourself
This one struck me hard
>>677915727
That road will take you down only one path, anon. Become master over yourself, you must not cave. One day you will best these demons, and on that day the sun will shine brighter than it has ever shined before.
>>677925889
Only the truth
>>677925257
>>677925361
>>677925507
Kindest damn things I've ever read.
Goodnight anons, tomorrow's another day and another chance.
>>677923744
Someone post the bday card for thia guy
>>677925732
I am faggot, what else can i say in my defence.
>>677925985
It's a feels thread, you're fine
>>677917974
>because for so long I've wanted for someone to say that to me.
Dammit anon I know I'm in a feels thread but this really hit me hard
Might as well pour out what I'm feelan.
The friend group I made this year (I'm a senior) has slowly stopped talking to me and I have no idea why. I talk to myself in our group chat practically and I just found out most of them merged with other friend groups.
I mean I have a back up group to go with but I'm gonna be the only one without a date. It just won't feel the same
I just want to know what I did wrong
>>677926221
There's gay and then there's faggotry.
I'm not going to bully on a feels thread, but just think about your actions
>>677917176
this is one of the best things I've ever read. as sad as it is, I'm not disturbed by it. I'm glad he and Andy were close friends. A lot of good memories in there. sorry, i was just scrolling through the thread after and couldn't focus before going back to say something.
>>677925926
What's the big deal, anyway? Have i broken some unwritten rule?
Im watching my parents relationship go downhill and I can stop it, but I dont know if I should
does anyone else feel like they're just a convenient friend? does anyone else realize that that's the best it is going to get?
>>677926517
Hey chill out homie. Just think before you meme
>>677917332
Fuck me. This is not the start to my Wednesday that I wanted...
>>677914573
You got me.
I'm mighty depressed right now. Just dumped my girlfriend of 6 years after many failed attempts (I'm a wuss when it comes to leaving her). Still love her like crazy, but I have to focus on my career right now. She cried. Then, for an hour, she begged me to take her back. Then accused me of leading her on and abandoning her. Told me that I had just changed her perspective of reality. I told her that I still love her, and that she was my only true friend (that part is actually true). She didn't believe a word. Said that she'll never talk to me again. Now I'm starting to regret this.
>>677926387
To be honest, life just happens that way. You likely did nothing wrong at all. I've moved on from multiple groups of friends.
People grow forward and leave people behind without intentionally doing so, and they assume you have done the same.
I finally found a group of friends that have led me to finally be who I truly am, but that's about to all go away since over 3/4 of us are moving away.
I'll always the cherish the moments I've shared with them, and carry that energy into a new group.
You should do the same anon. Take what they've helped mold you into and move on to another group. It won't be easy, and you might not find that good group right away, but you'll find it. Trust me. Don't be afraid to branch out.
Bumping with doge feels
>>677926387
That's natural, Anon. People eventually forget, even if you were the bestest of friends. Just move on and find other people.
>>677927124
Sadanon here.
I don't say much but when I do, I mess up.
>be me, a toddler bought into this strange world of lies.
>have a half brother, same mum, different dads. Atleast 4 years older then me.
>come from a family of social anxiety.. well the side I was bought up on.
>mother was married to an alcholic who couldnt stand straight for the weeding day.
>Being at a very early age of remembering anything pretty much blank slate, parent's stayed together for atleast 3 years, as in seeing eachother (don't know when they got divorced
>the day had
>mother leaves me and my brother for a better job/life/country "murica"
>stay with father and gets completely discconected from mum.
>brother is obviously upset and drags this into the rest of his years
>father trying to parenting but don't know how to put it.
>grow up under a condition of ADHD or autsim. Well I'm pretty sure it was an excuse to money from the government.
>have no clue about emotions but stay happy as Fuck without realizing what I had or happens.
>brother becomes hot headed air head hanging around bad crowds.
>had an evil step mother for a couple of years
>After this brother becomes friends with shit degenerates at school, couple years pass.
>open my eyes a little more, get bullied at school, dident know how to fight.
>brother friends become a shithole in my house. No sleep for school, pretty much sleep on the couch while some druggies fuck on my bed and dad being passed out drunk in the garage, because he thinks like a 'kool kid'
>time passes I become more depressed, meet kid at school over the same crush.. rivalry
>become friends with him and end up meeting his family. Gets accepted into their home pretty much.
>>677926923
I'm scared man. I have zero idea of what I'm doing after I graduate in a month.
Community college? Sure it's a start but after that? I'm average at best in core subjects
Really the only thing I can proud of myself for is grilling meat but that won't get me through life unless I'm a prodigy.
I don't even look forward to weekends anymore because it's just 2 days of me missing out on life.
>>677926899
Yeah, you fucked up man. You best be fixing this now before she commits sudoku. And don't be thr kind of faggot that "focuses on their career " and thinking that it merits dumping someone, and then claim to love them.
You either do or don't, pardner
>>677926899
1) nice dubs
2) there's a reason why you kept trying to break up with her, remember that. Don't look in the rearview mirror when you've been desperate to floor the gas pedal for a long, long time now. Punch the gas anon and fasten your seatbelt. You're on your way to exactly where you need to be in life spiritually, emotionally, financially, physically, and romantically.
The only thing you did wrong was not break up with her sooner. Other than that, you're fine. Just because you hurt her doesn't mean you did anything wrong.
>Girlfriend and I broke up about a month ago. Really wanted her back.
>Cried to her for about an hour.
>Last thing she tells me is she likes someone else now. Tells me I will never have a chance again.
I just want to down this entire bottle of tylenol and benadryl because I always fuck up the best things that happen to me.
>>677927124
I did take care of you when you got to old to Take of yourself. I love you
>>677927124
I had a lake land terrier that died in 2010, I couldn't watch her suffer..I still kind of regret not being there...
Sadanon cont.
>Father drops me off their so he can get shit faced
>Find out how to do things with friends family, still have no clue on everything else.
>being to grow a distant feeling towards my own family. Only best friend I had in the family was my grandmother, she's a bad ass oldie who loves to play video games such as duke nukem ps1, crash bandicoot etc.
>time passes, shit happens, become closed in, very secretive.
>new school new people, delt with their problems for a broken friendship. Stopping suicidal attempts and dealing with cutters.
>puts me down to know them.
>lose friends, cried, crap continues to happen, get cheated on, fall for a scam, put my own efforts to appear as the good guy in this world.
>father leaves me for a couple of months, (note; when I moved to the new school we lived with my grandparents house.)
>brother comes in and out, unstable life.
>grandmother dies of a sickness shes been throughout my childhood and teen years...held her hand and stayed with her until a last breath was drawn, father left early with my brother, couldn't bare seeing her go.
>I Didn't speak an entire month, not the same anymore...
>bottled up emotions starts to worsen with being human.
>decide to get out from under the rader for my last few highschool years.
>Live with an hotheaded pop and father.
>start to pick up some social interaction.
>my own life pretty alright, begin to travel with close friends family (lets call him E) first time on a plane. Travel to NZ bro.
>spent a month or so there. Celebrating bday etc.
>come back only to find out some of my shit had been stolen by brothers friend, Druggies.
Cont?
>>677927271
You graduate in a month. Go to community college, find your passion there. College is a lot different than high school. You can find subjects you're interested in that weren't available to you in high school. Branch out with people there, but press forward onto a four year as soon as possible. College changed my life anon. That's exactly what I did.
When I went to community college I had nobody left. I mean. Nobody. By the time I graduated, I had so many friends, and I found my passion. I'm on my way to it, and your future friendships are awaiting you. You just gotta go out and do it. One step at a time. You can't take a mountain in one giant leap.
Do the next right thing every day, no matter how difficult, and you'll be shocked with how far you'll go.
>>677927390
It's stuff I see like this where I wish I could swoop in and try to fix it. I don't know how or why but I feel like I'd be useful even to a small degree
I don't really feel anything anymore. Sometimes I cry if I happen to remember better times. But even then I don't feel sad. I don't know why I cry if there's no emotion behind it, but at this point it's probably out of habit. I don't know.
Everything feels as if it is black and white. There are no vibrancy or colors to life anymore. There is no difference between days or time really. I feel like an observer.
>>677927390
How did you break up with her (or vice versa)?
>>677927390
OR
Do what I did
Justbsay out loud, "I'm not a little bitch anymore"
This isn't me trolling, I literally said that. Then I started acting the part. Now I'll say it occasionally when shit hits the fan.
>>677927294
so basically living with anxiety is like living with my mom?
>>677927531
Continue anon, let it all out.
Sadanon cont. Part 3
>one of my friends decide to go down the drug gate pathway, didn't need that so I dropped her.
>Father moves out with my brother leaving me with grandfather.
>always kept to myself.
>find out mother wants me over to visit. Get excited, Christmas comes around and I take my free ticket to the states. Figure 15 years to catch up on.
>only realised it becomes a shit fest when E comes along in the end.
>Shit happens, mother talks about how useless I am, how broken my brother is and finds out I was brought into this world because she wanted another child while she stopped taking birth control convinced my father and got pregnant pretty early with me.
>mother begins arguments because everything is a problem to her, E side's with her and tells me I shouldn't be like this to her.
>starts giving me the silent treatment.
>come back home feeling thankful I'm out of there. Silent treatment drags out until I find out I have lost E because of my mother.
>no more close friends and I don't know how to feel when pretty much everyone leaves me, so now I hang with a small group of mates who we've known eachother for a few years and understands.
>but I don't think they know my whole story...only parts of it here and there, so that's it.
>>677927618
I just don't want to be a deadbeat like my older brother. He turns 21 Friday and he's still in the house and all he does is work and play body's for hours into the night. He isn't physically the best and I don't want that to happen to me even though the possibility is likely.
>>677927477
>>677927514
I have a dog that solely saved me from doing myself in some years back. I would have to be VERY fucking dead before anyone laid their hands on him.
>>677927688
You gotta start having catharsis in your life
>>677916405
I heard a fucktonne of /b/ros found this guy and he ended up spammed with birthday wishes and they sent cards to him and shit. Apparently he was a pretty chill guy, hope he's doing better.
>>677927776
Neither of us wanted to, but I just wanted to be alone for a little since I had some stuff to workout on my own. She stopped talking to me for a while and then I come back to her only to find out I fucked up and lost the most amazing part of my life.
>>677927629
I miss her so much.
>>677919061
Is that taken? Can somebody claim that? I want to modify that a bit and steal the shit out of it. Also, contributing:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9OqyUuCY0s
>>677927390
A month for her to find someone else? Pffft. Fuck her. You'll get there.
There's always light at the other side. Until you find that other person you deserve, and you will, we're here for you.
That goes for all you fags.
>>677927921
Dayum, sadanon. Try to do better in life and when your mom realizes that she fucked up, let her be. 387
>>677927883
If it is, you need to move out soon. (Unless you already did, obviously.)
>>677927124
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
>>677927288
You just made my day, buddy. 2 years after we started dating, she left me for someone else. I forgave her and got back with her. 8 months ago, she cheated on me. Then sort of tried to blame it on me not having enough time for her. I still forgave her after she begged me to stay with her. She used to be the perfect woman. But you've really inspired me to move on. Thanks, my friend. You are the greatest person in the world for me right now.
>>677927124
this is why i spend every moment (that i am home) with my dog around me. little fucker sleeps in my bed right beside me every night.
>>677928033
The people I know don't want to deal with problems. If I tell them anything I lose them.
Then move out and to go community college part time while you do work full time. Personally I did full time school full time work. Look and see at the 4 year universities you want to go to and see what minimum amount of credits you need to have before you transfer. It shouldn't be much. Maybe just 24 credits at the earliest (which is one full year of courses, minimum)
You'll likely get grants and scholarships, and if not just take out loans. Don't let people haunt you about loans. You'll pay them off, just find something you're interested in that pays a decent amount. You'll pay off the loans. In fact most people don't even work, the ones that take out loans. They just focus on school. The grants can cover tuition and just get loans to live off of for rent and food.
You'll find yourself independent, in college, making friends, everything. Get out of the house. I got kicked out at 18, but once I did I felt such an independence. My family wants me to move back in for law school, and I'm saying hell no. Trust me anon. You'll be fine.
>>677928266
Unless I massively fuck it up like I always do.
>>677927951
Not sure what the norm is for where you live but still living at home at 21 is nothing out of the ordinary.
Just hang in there and find something you enjoy. You'll think it's not out there but theres something for you.
>>677928347
then this breakup was a long time coming. you owe it to yourself to move forward. more than happy to help you, anon. Live well, become the person you've dreamed about becoming, and God speed.
>>677916405
If there's cake, count me in.
>>677922829
I dated a girl in high school for three years. We were going to get married and a month before we signed the paperwork, she leaves me. No explanation or anything. We were going to get married on our anniversary.
>>677928465
How do you fuck up? Unless you cheat on her or kill her cat it's her not you.
You shouldn't look at yourself to blame for someone else's fault. Stop being so hard on yourself, there's plenty out there for you who loves and accepts all your imperfections.
>>677928759
That really sucks. I'm here for you man. I'm really sorry
>>677928759
Shit. What a dick.
>>677926557
Well, in a way - but mostly i realize that my freinds are just convinient friends.
Some people you are friends with because you only see them a few days a week.
Nothing wrong in that.
>>677928513
I just don't want to disappoint my mom you know? I don't want to seem like a failure because that would crush me. The sooner I can move out the better I would feel but it's such a huge leap mentally and financially
>>677915381
Fuck this hit home hard. My dog has kidney failure and recently has stopped moving. He just lays there in pain. He doesn't have long
>>677928896
I don't know. I become afraid of opening up and being vulnerable. I push them away and basically make them leave, I guess.
>>677929290
just do it. its selfish to keep him alive for your pleasure solely. i had to put down a friends dog with a 35 in the forest because it was so old and it just was in constant pain everyday, you would be doing the right thing
Well it's close to 2:30 am here in good ol texas so I'm going to hit the hay. Thanks anons for sharing and providing some comfort for my situation.
I hope you all feel happy in the future or at least less sad/down than right now.
I really do.
A few of these really hit me.
>>677929562
which ones
i have my biological infant in my arms right now. When i was 22, I never thought in a million years that I would have dated the hot girl, maintained that relationship in a healthy way, got engaged, got married, had a baby, and be okay at the end of it.
Because being in your early 20s is like being temporarily retarded. You'll get over it.
Focus on not getting into massive debt. Distance yourself from shitty friends. Make a point to hang around people with energy and drive. Volunteer for shit. find something you give a shit about and work out how to do that for a living. You have the time, NOW. You wont have it later.
And guess what, you'll fuck up killing yourself, and everyone will pity you for the rest of your life, and think youre an asshole. Because thats what happened to me. That drive to kill yourself is just the last vestiges of childishness leaving your body. Fight it, stupid
>>677926221
Oh fuckkkk....
>>677929290
Make sure to be by his side all the time if you have the chance. Everybody wants to die knowing that somebody atleast cared for them.
>>677929547
what city? Texasfag here too
>>677915727
You probably get this every day but just try and distract yourself, play a game, read a book, maybe go outside with some friends. One of my friends started writing down his experiences to share with others, not sure how much that helps.
>>677929666
not the same anon your referring too but im in austin
>>677929751
Dallas here.
>>677917337
i feel ya
and the little things you do or don't do to keep yourself from doing it. Like.. i could go and buy a shotgun right now.. just keep it for when i think the time is right.. but i don't.. becuase i know i would use it eventually.
>>677929751
I grew up in Tarrytown in Austin. Live in Lubbock now. Might be moving to Houston for law school.
>>677929800
nice
>>677915830
It's funny because almost everyone has tapeworms. I did something similar, saw all sorts of creepy crawly shit. You never realize how much energy you have til you get those bloodsucking little shits out of you
>>677914981
I love this girl in Colorado (I knew her when I loved there). Now I live in Arizona I know she will never love me or give me a chance even though I want to so bad. All my friends have girlfriends all of them have been laid. Im 20 have no girlfriend a virgin and the only thing going for me is the slight possibility of landing a museum job. I fucking hate myself, and becuase of that I try to make everyone laugh, happy, ect. I help them with their problems always ask if they're OK and just do random quick check ups (hey, how's it going? Need help?) Yet I get nothing in return, I am hollow inside and need something to fill the void. Playing hockey again might help a lot but I feel as if I need a companion to fill the cracks
>>677921615
>>677929666
DFW
It's okay to cry, anons. We're all there for each other in the end.
>>677928321
I was LITERALLY raised by dogs. My dad had 2 Newfoundlands that had pups right around the time I was born and the mother took me as one of her pups and helped raised me. Dogs are fucking amazing, I'll take them over people any-fucking-day
>>677917487
I literally went through that. Exact. Same. Thing. Holy shit. Except I was a little older, playing rs3 when it happened to me. Don't get me wrong, I started back in 04, but I wasn't so sick to where all I did was play RS yet. Always played a lot though, looking back I never had as much energy as other people.
>>677923906
I'm sorry man, get your chin up aight?
I'm not sure if this counts as feels, but I'll share an experience.
I've been suicidal for 8 years. The only thing that really keeps me from not jumping into traffic is my mother. But, sincerely, I'm ready. It's not that my life is awful. Well, it's not good, I've got a lot of health problems, college stress, and a nasty, NASTY break-up on my back, but nothing has ever trauma'd me.
It's just the desire to live is gone. I don't know what triggered it. But I've only ever tried to commit suicide once. I was 13, I took about 20-ish of those Benadryl packs. Went to sleep 10 minutes later... Woke up after 5 hours best goddamn sleep of my life. And then I started thinking about my mom and the shitty situation we were in together... Thought about it every day, but held off for her. Tried to commit suicide once more a few years after that, hung self up with tie from ceiling fan and kicked out the chair... I slipped out of the tie, fell on my ass, and one of the fan's blades conked me on the head.
It's just that when people contemplate suicide it's usually because of an event. It's to end the suffering, it's to escape the hurt and the pain... It's a final cry and pleading for mercy. And for me it's never been like that. I don't consider myself depressed or stunted in any way. Nothing's numbed me to where I don't care, it's always been like this. It's just been the emotionless, factual statement: I want to die.
I don't want to hurt my mom, and I won't attempt to kill myself until after she's gone, but it bothers me, like actually bothers me that I have yet to be successful at suicide. I mean, in the end, I'll get a gun and blow my brains out. That's fine. It's just... I don't know. Am I the only freak of nature out there, or does anyone else just feel like their survival instincts farted and died? I feel like I never had them to begin with.
>>677931030
>I've only ever tried to commit suicide once
Dammit brain stahp it.
I meant several times. I've been up for 38 hours straight, so pardon my derp.
>>677925534
Just keep walking friend. If you walk, I'll walk along side you in spirit
>>677929927
Im going to die if I see anything like that come out of me
I don't really have anything to contribute since all my worries are very standard (gf living 2.5 hours away, scaried that she'll cheat etc.) but I'd just like to share the thought that goes through my head every time I'm on one of these threads, particularly this one, it amazes me how a group of complete strangers can be so sympathetic and good hearted, this is why I stay on 4chan and will never leave, I love you guys and wish you all the best.
>>677931719
I don't know who you are, where you're from, or what you've been through. I'm just happy you're here with all of us.
>>677917176
So much to relate. Im so happy these people had a grand time in the midst of all fucked up. Good people exist.
Did anyone screencap that mute guys post/thread?
I wanted to hug the living shit out of everyone in that thread.
I'm at work right now. By the time i get home, my 14.5 yo dog will be put to sleep. He has cancer, and had an operation 3 times already. I basically cant do anything right now, all my power is directed to prevent crying like a lil bitch. In a few hours i have a meeting with several important government dudes and i not only have to pretend everything is ok, but actually have to do my job, but im not sure i'll remember a single word what they'll say in that 2 hour time. I just want to hide from people till the end of the worktime...
>>677924278
Maybe you can lawyer your mom and dad out of the grave!
>>677916405
Birthdays coming up in 5 days... I know that no one is going to attend besides immediate family. The ones that have to be there. And even then they probably won't show. It falls on a Monday, I have night class, and they all work. I have no friends except the few people I talk to online, and one popular kid from highschool that deals with me being around. This will be the 5th birthday I'm pretty much spending alone, at home. Nothing to do but eat cake and browse /b/... happy 20th...
>>677932091
I hug would be nice, if it wasn't from a family member. I'm this guy >>677931961
>>677924809
Ripe for rape
>>677932241
This is me also anon, my birthday falls on the weekend of Phoenix comic con and all my friends are nerds s they all go. My best friend is moving to Colorado soon and the only one who normally shows up at my birthday is moving. I'm going to try and convince my mom to get into the rum and just drink
>was in relationship for 5 years
>started when I was 16
>she was kinda chubby and I was shallow
>was used to only fucking skinny girls
>she was one of those cute chubby girls
>iguessitsalright.jpg
>we did lots of drugs together, i remember looking into her eyes during this shroom trip
>it was like i saw the whole universe in that moment
>the sex was insane, dirty, but then emotional, like our minds were so fucked up but they were our kind of fucked
>prom came up
>took ecstasy
>had an awesome night laying in the field looking at the stars and just talking
>fast forward 1 year
>she turns into a total bitch.
>catch her talking to other guys occasionally
>she fucks another dude, gets pregnant
>tells me its mine, gets an abortion without asking me
>cheats on me with my 2 best friends
>gains 100+ pounds
>can't leave her because i'm a fucking idiot
>start drinking, heavily
>one night we're both drunk, shit gets physical
>don't remember the details but I put my hands on her
>was just so angry at her, I should have left
>once this started it didn't stop
>one day, she punched me in the face as I was pulling up to my house
>was really fucking drunk
>pulled her out of the car, beat the shit out of her
>that moment when I pushed her face into the concrete still makes me cringe
>after this i decide I have to leave while I still have my sanity
>start preparing to leave her
>she lives with me at family's house, has nowhere else to go, can't leave her homeless
>save up for apartment
>buy her a car
>stay there for a month, hoping maybe this is what we needed
>it's still shit, she comes home every night so drunk she pisses in the bed
>screams at me til 6AM frequently
>usually have to leave and go to brothers house to sleep
>finally tell her i'm leaving
>feelsbadman.jpg
>
>
>
>she loses her goddamn mind
cont?
>>677923037
I still got my ex's tests screenshot. A few conversations of them but they all seen to be about breaking up... got a girlfriend of 1.5 years now and we have had most exactly the same problems that were in the screenshots. It's obviously me who's the problem. But it's okay, my doctor is worried about my health since I'm 6'4 and weigh 150lb with it declining so he thinks there's something behind it, dad had cancer (NHL) so maybe it's that. But if I'm alone when I die then there will be no one to cry at my funeral, and that seems much better than the opposite.
>>677931030
I've been tired with life for a few years now... I refuse to die from suicide but if an opportunity came up, I don't think I would choose life. I have no reason to be depressed and kill myself I just don't see the point of going through life and would rather skip it.
>>677923037
why cant i get rid of these
I just love the fact that on these threads are so many good people while on other /b/ just a bunch of assholes
>>677932725
NHL has a pretty high survival rate, you need to get tested for that pronto. Also you need to learn how to just enjoy shit or nobody will want to be with you. Go find something in nature and just stare at it for a while until you find something beautiful about it. Maybe drugs will help you get there, but they shouldn't be necessary. Once you get to that point, do that with everything in your life. Brighten up your world /b/ro, nobody can do it for you
>>677932639
Go on then
>>677927390
So, do it faggot.
>>677933326
The cancer is treatable, that's true, my dad survived it, the treatment isn't always so kind. He died when I was 3 months old from the side-effects, so really is it worth getting treated when you might die from the treatment itself?
>>677929517
Why do people think it's different with humans?
>>677933083
There's a reason I don't put on a seatbelt when I enter a car. I feel you
>>677933257
We are good people, we just have a cruel humour.
>>677933667
Because it's "inhumane" says society
>>677933726
Agreed, why I also am a member of /b/ and continue to be
>>677928088
source or
>>>/out/
>>677933667
the kidney failure dog owner here, think its because people have a say in whether or not they want to go, and animals really don't
Pic related, thats the little guy
>>677933326
Also to be tested for it I was told (by my doctor) that you need to test a lymph node specifically to verify that, which he said isn't something you just do without a just cause.
I just feel so fucking ugly. I sound like an attention whore teenage cunt and I know it. (Doesn't help that I'm an actualfag + "my family is conservative Christian"fag) I have acne/cyst removal scars all over my nose/face and even without them I would be far below average. I'm also overweight, right on the edge of becoming obese...I could lose it but my excuse is studying I guess.
>inb4 pics
I never take photos of myself anymore, just cringe at my when I used to and at my entire existence tbh
>this post is pointless
>life is pointless
>being this edgy
>fuck
>>677932639
>she freaks out, I leave
>by the time i get back, she has changed the lock and added a deadbolt
>now I can't get my stuff back
>call cops to gather belongings, police is total feminist and won't let me get much without a lawyer, basically a total loss
>there goes everything i've ever owned
>she tells all my friends and family all the horrible shit i've done to her
>conveniently leaves out the parts where she's a whore
>lose all of my friends
>rather than go into depression, I start lifting
>furiously
>get pretty /fit, after a few months of being single meet this qt3.14
>totally cool, watches anime, plays vidya
>is a virgin
>so much win
>we hit it off, hang out every day since then
>never get tired of eachother, she's perfect
>never been angry around her
>maybe frustrated, never angry
>she's such a calming, happy person to be around
>she's so perfect I don't even think I deserve her
>not after what i've done
>can't stop thinking about the horrible shit I did to her
>am I even worthy of happiness after that?
True story. Real question, if you read through all that i'd like your opinion.
Also notable - sketchy drugs gave me brain damage and debilitating disorder, hard to life now
It's hard to just forget all that stuff and be normal when my life will literally never be how it was before that relationship
>>677934134
He's probably talking about out old buddy's birthday
>>677934598
Your ex attacked you as well. Both of you are at fault in many ways and its just a part of your life you just have to try to forget and live past it
>>677934288
Similar symptoms and a family history aren't a just cause? If you think it needs to be done then you have to advocate for your own health using common sense. Maybe start being healthier and figure out how to prevent that from ever being an issue. Be proactive anon
>>677934598
Dude you're good, yeah something's are less desirable but you don't need to look at that anore and just focus on the here and now and even towards the near future
>>677933519
>>677933519
My mom has this cancer and she is recovering bretty gud. Also the treatment has reall mild effects on her, she is tired for about 10 days after 1 week hospital time, nothing else. Goes to the hospital in every 5 weeks
Also we are central eu, so i guess you have much better healthcare.
>>677935168
Ps. She has no hair obviously. And only gets chemotherapy, no gamma rays.
>>677934134
>I heard..
Don't have sauce, wish I saved it
>>677915529
>i didn't cry for 5 months
Tfw didn't cried for years, can't even remember when i cried last time
>>677935168
America? Better health care? Please all the big chemotherapy corps control the cancer treatment centers basically so no one can find a better, cheaper solution than chemo
>>677935168
Yeah, after 5 years survival rates are pretty shit though. Definitely shortens the lifespan quite a bit. Not everyone takes it so well
>>677922665
Thi is happening to me at the moment.
>be 11 years old
>sifting through jungle of stray papers at moms computer
>find divorce papers
>parents had been living apart for a year and they didn't tell me or my brother they were divorced
>cry
>fast forward
>parents are fat
>mom starts taking my adderall to lose weight
>gets addicted
>smokes too (Mormon at the time so it was really hard to see my mom doing what I considered a sin)
>constantly yelling at my dad and boyfriends in front of me
>drives a Mercedes
>fast forward to Sophomore year in college (2 years ago)
>suddenly pops into my head that for the longest time, my dad came home every day from work with no children or even a fucking cat to greet him
>bawl like a little bitch
>fast forward
>mom wants to see me after months of not seeing each other
>drive her around
>shooting in local hospital causes police to cut off area we were going to
>has me pick up her boyfriend
>wants me to take her to buy adderall from her dealer
>say no, drop her off at her apartment
>cry entire way home
MFW I think about my mom
