Lonehearts thread. Why are you lonely? Lets talk /b to /b
>>677433809
Gay in a small town where no one is gay.
>>677434439
Got any friends? Or sole surviver?
>>677434439
well you need to infect someone with the gays
>>677434896
This could work. Tried to convert anyone?
>>677435035
For sure, show them some bondage and your good to go
>>677433809
Sadist with a fetish for beating up furries. Furries scared shitless. Won't come near me.
>>677433809
better no person than the wrong person
have mostly given up, focusing on my business instead.
The person I'd say is my closest friend often seems annoyed with me and like he doesn't actually find me interesting and funny. I try to so hard to fit in, and always just come to realize the impossibility of me fitting in somewhere.
I can't find any place to actually speak as myself and not some mask I put on to seem like a better version of myself. The only place close enough I've found is the internet, but nobody ever gives a shit.
And the only places I find solace are in music and photography, but still I don't get noticed. This biggest break I've had was making it into a pretty well know orchestra. (Won't say a name obviously)
And this keeps cycle going on and on, I try to share something, like an opinion I have, an idea, a photograph I've taken, but nothing ever comes of it.
Honestly, I've thought about suicide, but I don't believe in an afterlife, so even then I still have no hope. So I'm just going to keep on trucking and hope I ethier find something I'm passionate about, or somebody/something finally does the deed and kills me so I don't have to.
medical school outside US and my girlfriend back home is too much of an sweet little angel to break up with her. So we talk every day online, and I'm a loner now and don't participate in any real world social life. we kept to ourselves in the 2 yrs we were together before I went away too, so my social skills are dramatically reduced compared to before I started dating her. I am socially withdrawn but she is much much more so. I'm just putting up with it. I have a job to do. I can survive with no social life except my long distance girlfriend.
I purposefully isolate myself, because I find 95% of people to be boring/stupid.
I'm lucky to have a small group of trusted people that have helped me stay sane and move ahead in my career. Always hoping to find others I can trust and who I can similarly help. But it almost never happens.
>>677435380
>i rely on other people to make me happy
found the problem
>>677435312
About at the same stage. Youve given uup on making friends?
I feel angry with myself for not doing more with my life every day, despite the fact that I'm in the second year of my bachelors degree with intentions to move onto my Masters degree with good job prospects. I feel angry at the world for allowing itself to fall into the decay it inexorably slides into, but then I realize I'm just projecting my own flaws onto everyone else. I want to have a relationship, but I'm too scared to make the first step, and the closest I ever got was a "We should be friends". I don't understand why I'm alive, nor what my endgame is. I'm not sure how I'm meant to be happy, when I cannot attract anyone. I cannot deal with my anger when I find it so easy to justify.
>>677434439
I'm the only gay in the village
>>677435992
Sounds like you would try harder without the gf
>>677433809
you really wanna know?
>>677436178
Yea, I've known that was the root of the problem forever, but even my psychologist can't seem to fix it.
>>677433809
God dumped by gf a year and a half ago, loved her, can't talk to grills anymore, I feel less and less like talking to people
>>677436462
You are 100% right and I'm well aware but I love her and want to marry her. I just have to learn how to try hard the way things are now.
>>677437676
Doesn't your loneliness spur you to want to work out? once a pattern of working out to look good and impress girls starts it self perpetuates. until you get back in a relationship of course and get lazy and totally involved with her like I am.
>>677435312
i can feel you
>>677433809
My first real girlfriend of a year dumped me 9 months ago. I have zero close friends, 3 separate 'friends' that I maybe hang out with every now and then. I'm always the one to put in effort to arrange to meet up and I'm getting pretty over it.
At the moment I'm just eating, working, training at the gym and going to sleep on an endless repeat.