Ok /b/. I don't know why but i feel empty inside and i want to kill myself. The reason i'm here its because i'm hoping that someone talks me out of it, i don't give a fuck about myself but i have parents that love me and a girlfriend that loves me also. I just cant keep trying to pretend i'm ok...
>>676815229
get help, anon. tell someone for fucks sake.
Find a goal in life that you can aim for. Live for that goal; maybe you'll find something else along the way.
Worst possible place to post this - but I hope you're alright anon. Go talk to your family and your girlfriend about this. They will help you. Depression and suicidal thoughts aren't something to be dismissed, I've seen friends go through a lot without telling anyone for no reason. There's always something spectacular round the next corner.
>>676815444
this man got'em
do what he says and get some fucking help
>>676815229
I've been there anon tried to OD one some random meds one year ago same situation loving family and gf and yet you feel dead inside. It's not worth it. Find something you can indulge in be it hobbies or drugs or something else. Talk with you gf about it. My gf helped me out alot since we both had a suicidal past. Life is worth living man thinking about it more then you should wont fix it. Just live it. And dont ever fake anything dont lie to yourself.
>>676815444
I'm afraid to tell anyone and they'll just laugh and tell me to go find god or some shit
>>676815515
I already do, have a masters in engineering, but i just feels irrelevant if i have this burning pain in my soul.
>>676815695
I post it here because you guys are the most real people i know (without actually knowing)
>>676815827
Thank you, my girlfriend was suicidal too, but i don't know, every day i try to pretend i'm ok but lately i feel like i cant anymore.
>>676816592
Don't pretend, scream from the top of your lungs that you need help there is no shame in that. You know people care about you they will do anything to help you get over this. I care and im a random person. Life is worth living nothing lasts forever not even the emptiness inside you.
Live for the people who love you if you cant live for yourself. Even if you think your life is disposable, people around you dont.
Talk to your gf faggot
>>676816592
what do you have to lose, anon? tell someone and get some help.
>>676817205
Ever since i'm around 12 ive never really felt the will to live, ive allways been an A+ student but still. I really think its a real mental disorder that needs to be medicated rather than depression.
>>676816592
>I'm afraid to tell anyone
In the UK there is a charity called The Samaritans that run a confidential phone counselling service for people feeling suicidal. Maybe there's something similar near you?
Sometimes it's easier to talk to someone you don't know, as you never have to speak to them again if you don't want to.
One thing is certain; repressing it won't help. In the long term it makes it worse. Hope you find somewhere to let it out /b/ro.
>>676817286
This is whats kept me alive for so long, but i just cant stand it! That .gif make me smile btw >>676817416
How do i approach my parents and tell them?
>>676817804
Thanks for the info, ill look into it. Honestly just talking to you guys about something being held in for so much time makes me feel good.
>>676815229
>>676815229
>>676815229
>>676815229
>>girlfriend
>>want to kill yourself
Go fuck an anthill you ungrateful piece of shit
>>676816592
>they'll just laugh
Then they don't love you.
>and tell me to go find god or some shit
Unless they're fucking retards, a shrink would take precedence.
Or, just go to a fucking shrink.
>>676817871
I wont lie faggot, id be scared and maybe a little bit ashamed to tell my parents just like you probably are, but my gf is cool.
Your gf was suicidal aswell so she will understand and she can help you get over it
>>676817871
just flat out tell em. dont pussyfoot around
>>676818145
Not OP, but having a girlfriend doesn't solve life's problems.
>>676818066
No probs dude. It's good to let it out.
>>676815229
I'm in the same boat... except my dad just left my mom and I've got no gf.
>You're doing better than me at least.
>>676818719
yup, if anything they are just another responsability
>>676818145
Sounds fun
>>676818399
Ive allways been an athiest and they allways tell me when something bad happens its because i dont believe
>>676818419
I really don't want to make her feel like its her fault, if i ever decide to an hero ill probably be a huge dick and cheat on her (she'll find out and dump me) and then ill overdose on something
>>676815229
stay alive but pick up heroin... it really fills that empty feeling.. its worked wonders for me and if you have any will power at all it wont cripple you.
source: been doing heroin daily going on 10 years, still have a job, still have friends and family... just about everyone close to me knows and doesnt like it, but i am old enough to make decisions and i support myself + my habit so they cant say shit. i dont live a glamorous life but im happy as can be and not even considering an heroing
>>676818797
Ik how it feels to have your parents split, my dad cheated on her.
First time posting on phone
Take some psychedelic drugs before you decide to do it. It might change your mind.
If your life is so bad, why not just end it?
Until you have given everything to fill that void inside you have no right to complain about it
>>676818999
Don't you think one a week would be enough? Not a big drug smart ass cause i only take morphine once in a while.
>>676818915
>its because i dont believe
There's a difference between something bad happening and wanting to blow your head off for no reason. Tell them and explain that you want to see a professional and need their support.
Or as I said, just go see a fucking shrink.
This article helped me out a bunch. You need to come out as depressed.
https://www.thecalmzone.net/2016/02/your-voice-depression-pathologising-my-own-identity/
>>676819263
I'm so pathetic i tried... and failed
Used a glock and it jammed
>>676818719
>>676818915
Im a complete MGTOW but understand the pathetic depression "poor me" victim mentality. Now I just FBGM. If he has someone that he can call a GF and still hasn't lost his faith in that and still wants to end everything. He ought to appreciate what he has, and hasn't been robbed of
>>676815229
OP, text your girlfriend. Right now.
I know you feel scared and you're nervous but you need to trust that she loves and cares about you as much as you do her, and if you're going to commit suicide anyways you might at least give getting help a shot.
I hope you reply to this you damn fool
>>676819703
I honestly don,t consider myself depressed because i know someone who really is, it would be insulting for them.
>>676819883
I will, i love her so much and i don't want her to waste her time on me.
>>676819361
no one a week, for me, makes that empty feeling worse because you spend 6 days waiting for that one. to be honest i dont do heroin every single day, i couldnt afford it, but i am prescribed suboxone and i dont use before my dr appointments so i always have suboxone incoming and on days i dont have the money for dope, i eat a suboxone in the morning and another in the evening and im good. sometimes its a few days in a row of suboxone, then a day of nothing, then back to my d.o.c.. i work my ass off to keep bills paid and support my habit, work 5 nights a week and usually make cash every single day doing odd jobs. the cash to get high, and the legit job to pay bills. i dont have a family to support which makes this possible, i dont think i could maintain this lifestyle with a wife and kids.. im 27 yo, live by myself, and fuck junkie sluts when im in the mood. life is pretty good, as far as im concerned, but you must understand i dont want a wife or kids either. if i did, this definitely wouldnt work.
>>676815229
It doesn't matter how many people love you when you don't love yourself.
That being said, I hope you fucking kill yourself. Plenty of people die every day than fight tooth and nail to hold on as long as they can, and here you are in a first world country bitching because "I feel empty inside." People are dying right now because they are literally empty inside, haven't had food in weeks and are in the final stages of starvation.
I'm not joking. This isn't about anonymous internet hate. This isn't about being edgy. I seriously fucking hope you kill yourself. You have squandered the gift you've been given.
Kill yourself. Fucking do it.
>>676820135
Good. Thank you.
You should text her immediately, and let us know when she replies. You could show us the chat, or me, and I could help you through talking to her if you'd like. If not, it's of course alright and completely your choice.
I'm here for you, /b/ro.
do a flip faggot. tired of all these stupid threads. instead of bringing your problems to us, solve them yourself.
FUCKING DO IT.
>>676820351
Not saying your life is wrong or anything, cause if you enjoy it then what the hell enjoy the shit out of it, but isn't it unhealthy to be on it every day?
>>676820135
And also, you are NOT wasting her time, no matter what you think. You're in a vulnerable state and I've been in a similar position you are now, and making that decision to text her is not a mistake. I promise you that.
>>676820371
Yes this is exactly what i told my girlfriend to explain why i don't know why i feel how i feel. I'm sorry if i pissed you off.
>>676820564
I'm sorry, i rather not, but where talking things through and i feel like crying.
>>676819936
>not depressed
>feel empty
>want to kill myself
cmon guy.
>would be insulting for them
fuck off with that noise.
>>676820371
only thing you forgot to say is to live stream it faggot.
>>676820681
Just in case if i do, how do i stream it?
>>676819936
First of all, you need to stop comparing your feelings to everyone else's.
It's not a measuring contest. Pain is pain regardless of how severe.
You have suicidal feelings and you feel empty. That's enough to say you're depressed.
>>676821053
All good man. One last suggestion before I head of to another thread, you should probably call instead of texting her haha
Good luck, /b/ro.
>>676821304
>>676819936
You're here because you want someone to talk you out of it. That's your survival instinct kicking in. Listen to it, and stay alive man.
>>676820736
not really.. iv heroin is one of the safer drugs you can do.. if your source is trustworthy and you use clean gear. its the cuts in heroin as well as dirty needles that are unhealthy. and you have to eat somewhat healthy as well. i know the dope i get isnt always the cleanest, but when i get it im certainly not going to throw it out and cant return it. but its also unhealthy to eat a bunch of junkfood everyday, or smoke cigarettes, or drink excessively, so i dont think im any worse off then the rest of the world. i try to eat decent, but there are periods where i survive on raman noodles and microwaveable meals and those are the times i feel "unhealthy," meaning weak or drained for energy.
![latest[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/alQeRpX.jpg "latest[1].jpg")
>>676821210
>>676819936
Not the anon you replied to, but I disagree. Whatever illness your friend has, it is not the same illness as you have. Your illness is unique to your brain, and as incomparable to them as your personality, or sense of humour.
>>676821310
Thanks, man.
>>676821112
>offbyone kenobi
>>676815229
Otter babies are so fuckin cute.
>>676821738
my kung fu is weak
>>676821560
Might try it sometime, thanks /b/ro
>>676821610
I still don't know, he had it rough this last year, i haven't experienced anything to feel how i feel.
>>676820736
this guy here again, >>676821560,
i forgot to add, im slightly underweight and i know that is because of the drugs, and i dont go for regular dr appointments or check ups, but im always active and the work i do is physically demanding so i believe for the most part, that im either as healthy, or slightly more healthy, then the average 27 yo male. my fridge is often filled with leftovers from my parents, but they would waste it if i didnt take it so i dont feel guilty for often depending on them. otherwise, when i have time i do go grocery shopping and often cook for myself.
>>676821873
That's a duck moron.
>>676815229
ey yo my mans kill yourself deadass no games no gimmicks sick of cowards like yu
>>676816592
Talk to a therapist. They get a bad rap sometimes but they will listen and offer legitimate solutions to your problems
>>676822169
>>676821873
thats a platipus
>>676822169
Its an otter
>>676822154
Don't worry, i'm also a little underweight
>>676815229
If you're not just low from drug use and its some serious shit, whether a genuine pathological chemical imbalance or a reaction to shitty life circumstances, the key is to communicate with others and seek help. Isolation is an incubator for these feelings, getting an outside perspective will help you through it.
>>676822438
>>676822169
It's a beaver, look at the tail.
>>676822438
>>676822434
Ducks live exclusively on salt. As you can see the duck is being fed a cup full of salt, retards.
>>676815229
I'm living in a friend's garage because both my mother and my father got busted for stealing pills from the nursing home they worked at. 19 and somehow i have to finish college with literally no possessions since everything got confiscated.
>>676823037
Dang, i'm so sorry man. I know you'll make it through though
>so many autists who can't tell a duck when they see one
>>676822685
>>676822909
Its a fucking platypus, dont they still teach this stuff in school?
>>676823349
Have you ever seen a duck?! My grandfather had a little farm and ducks are definitely not like that.
>>676822152
same poster again, >>676822154,
alot of factors have to fall in place for this lifestyle to work. if you let heroin take over your life, if you dont work hard to maintain your lifestyle, if you dont have at least a little outside help (like moms cooking).. heroin can easily get the best of you. also, you must be happy where your at, like i am. i could completely see myself falling into serious depression and letting heroin get the better of me if i one day decided i didnt like my life and i wanted more, like a wife and kids.
also like i said, nobody has turned their back on me, probably because i am not a scumbag. i dont steal, i dont do people wrong.
if i devoted myself to heroin and began commiting crimes to support my habit, my life would quickly go down the drain and i probably would hang up. ive "seen" it when i try to play out in my head what my life would be like as a family man. as long as you dont mind going against societies "norms," saying that you have to work a 9-5, get married, reproduce and raise a family, you'll be ok. if i worried about what my co-workers and outsiders thought about my life, id probably be in a dark place. but i dont give a fuck what they think because fuck them, heroin wont ever judge me or turn its back on me. the only factor that i have no control over, is the very real possibility of getting busted picking up drugs and catching a possesion charge, because a period in jail would cost me a job and alot of money and from there id pretty much be on my own. thank the good lord that hasnt happened yet, and all is good for me as of now.
>>676823227
thanks bro. it's not so bad just a tad lonely at times. one day I hope
to move away from this place and never come back.
>>676822152
If he's had a particularly bad year then it's possible he's suffering from Reactive depression, which is normal and a different disease to Clinical depression, which doesn't need a trigger event.
>>676823750
Then don't risk it! I suck at helping people out so idk what to say but i care for everyone on /b/ somehow, even the cringy "faces of /b/" "trap thread" people.
>>676824011
welcome to being alone, your not the only one
>>676823675
I worked on your grandfather's duck farm, trust me, I've seen a few ducks in my time
>>676824043
How does depression not need a cause?
>>676824011
You're not lonely when you have us autists around
>>676815229
Some serious advise OP
Go fucking skydiving. It's only a few hundred dollars to get certified and make your first tandem jump. After that, you're qualified to jump solo.
Thinking about killing yourself? Just don't pull the rip cord and it'll look like an accident. But you will pull the cord. Your heart will be pumping and your adrenaline will make you shake and you'll never forget the feeling.
If you're going to try to kill yourself, jump from an airplane. You'll never think the same way once your feet touch the ground.
>>676824418
Because in the end we all die alone. You want to know why babies cry so much, its because being alive hurts, we just learn how to deal with the pain by the time we are 2 or 3. Life is pain. We search for companionship to fill the void of knowing we are alone, and we try and reproduce to continue our cellular immortality. But in the end we all die alone
>>676823415
Apparently you didn't attend Bait 101. Fucking slacker.
>>676824240
i cant "not risk it" im very aware id be miserable without dope. id be miserable trying to live a "normal" life. at this point, i need dope or id go thru withdrawals. im one of those believers that its nobodys business but my own what i put in my body, as long as im not commiting crimes to do so. the only crime i commit is possesing drugs, and thats only a crime until the US gov't decriminalizes heroin (lol i wish) but i dont feel like its wrong and as i said i dont do anybody else wrong, so in His eyes, im not a bad person. I will continue to live as i please, until the law steps in and ruins my life. as i said, if i end up in jail for more then say, a weekend, id be screwed. Id lose my overnight job, and all my cash income. losing my jobs would make me stop paying rent and id lose my housing. then id be just another depressed homeless man with a terrible junk habit, basically, a statistic.
>>676824898
Always wanted to skydive
>>676825055
Holy shit man, i really liked that quote. Did you make it up or is it from somewhere?
>>676825219
that being said, ive enjoyed bs'ing here, but i have to do a shot and head off to work.
>>676825323
just made it up......... have been living it for awhile
>>676824418
It can be a symptom of a neurochemical imbalance. Strictly speaking there is a cause, of course, but this need not be an external event.
It has been said that depression is what repressed anger becomes.
>>676825219
With our police development you wont get caught
>>676825574
Enjoy! Thanks for the company bro i really enjoy it.
>>676825055
This also explains religion.
Checked.
Are you gonna do it OP? My nipples are vibrating in anticipation at your faggoty answer.
Well im going to go. Ill do a morphine line and then try to calm down. Thank you everyone, you kept me going when i wanted to cry and kill myself. Ill do everything you guys told me to do. Just think you might have changed a lurking fag's life
>>676825941
last post... stay alive OP, its worth it.. SOMETHING will fill that void. im not sure if its necessarily a moral thing to do to tell somebody to pick up heroin, but i was just letting you know what filled that void for me. i was alot like you. i had (and still have) loving parents, have had "loving" girlfriends but always felt empty, no matter what i did, until i found heroin. maybe it wont be heroin for you, but it was for me.
>>676826542
>might have changed
k, captain attention whore
kek
>>676826666
last post for real i really really got to go now, just had to say
CHECK EM
quads for truth
>>676826896
I'm trying to be positive after i wasted peoples time by posting.
>>676825976
I've seen muslums run planes into buildings, and christians chop off muslum's heads off, with a radial saw and rape there families in front of them. Religion is a moral weakness to an ideology to try and convince the weak minded sheep that they are safe in the end, when in truth we all live our own story, if your good, your good, if your not ........ well thats on your own measure of humanity.
>>676815229
you and me both anon. its like the regularness of life is too much for me.
>>676826666
>>676825941
satan thinks it's not your time yet.
>>676827129
Stop being a fucking doormat, you cock sucking queer homo faggot.
My last piece of advice. Have a good night, anon.
>>676815229
What kind of dog is that?
>>676815229
can I actually own one of these as a pet?
>>676828014
Thats a new combination of insults... Thanks
>>676828333
trips..... nice
>>676828314
idk but i think it was a platypus or otter, look up your state's laws or where ever you're from to see if its allowed.
Go see a doctor and tell him that. He'll give you some SSRI's and those may help. They helped me out a lot. Life ain't so bad, anon. Even when it's shit.
>>676815229
It's OK if you feel like that. Just live stream it when you get to the bottom
>>676828333
"Fuck you," was the proper response, but you'll get there. You cock swilling butthole tonguing rectal pirate.
>>676828714
Yeah i want to know where do i live stream my suicide if i get that low?
