Feels thread? Feels thread
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Feels thread? Feels thread
Bump because I just cut myself and I still can't feel anything :'(
>>675223737
Can't feel
>>675224249
Kek
>>675223737
>Haha, how yer sister?!
>>675223737
Obligatory
>>675223737
Oh Schmitty. He was number one.
Any Anons have anything they wan to talk about tonight?
>>675226409
> mfw my name is jason
>>675225348
Dam I read thru out the whole thing shit Is fucked up
>>675227097
I confessed to my ex wife that I desired reconciliation. I know it's a bad move, but I want the pain to stop.
>>675223737
He was number 1
>>675228097
Did she file or did you? why?
>>675228600
She filed, but it was a mutual decision. We fot married without really knowing eachother, and woke up one day with a stranger.
He was #1
>>675228828
Why do you want to get back with her? Lonely?
>>675227097
Really want to contact my ex but I don't know if it's been long enough yet. I don't want to alienate her further or piss her off again but I've been a wreck for a while and I feel like I'm just going through the motions.
>>675224249
this is a feels thread not ylyl
>>675225857
Sad as fuck
>>675229416
What did you do to piss her off the first time?
This is the first time I've posted in a feels thread and I'm wondering if anyone has this feeling too
Sadly I lost the genetic lottery and was born with a small dick, and with no proven medical way to change it I'm stuck with it for life. The hardest part for me comes from knowing that the woman I end up with will never be fully satisfied by me and in 20-30 years will probably end up cheating on me for someone larger and it's just an inevitable fact I'll have to face
>>675223737
How the fuck is smitty werbenjaegermanjenson feel thread material
Seriously what the fuck
>>675229897
You'll just have to find a way to pleasure her in a different way. Get good at giving head so shes the one that cums first
>>675229897
At least you'll end up with a woman
Gf of three years broke up with me two weeks ago.
FeelsBadMan.jpg
last one
>>675228799
Feels hit me dead in the chest
>>675226147
Not sure why this almost made me cry
>>675230188
You will too but you have go and find one they don't normally come to you
>>675230152
Yeah I guess that's my only option at this point I just wish I was a little bigger because it really does fuck with my self esteem
>>675230188
There's someone for everyone anon just keep looking
>>675230320
Shit man that's rough wanna talk about it
>>675227097
I started regressing to my old state of not caring about anything
School work not getting done except i the eyes of people who care, spend all day watching or playing video games, no gf no friends i can depend on for advice
I dont like this, I want to stop it but I dont know anything else
>>675229694
Very long story. Suffice to stay we're both afflicted by severe anxiety/depression/self-esteem issues and I fucking suck at talking about anything that I'm insecure about without sounding accusatory so we broke up on a bad note.
>>675230871
Trust me I know I also lost the genetic lottery
>>675227097
My ex recently just broke up with me. Was absolutely amazing when we were together, were together for a little over a year. We also just went to Spain during our winter break from school. Absolutely perfect trip for almost 2 weeks. Felt perfectly in love, had no idea a relationship could ever feel this "right" (past ones were shitty compared to her). Three days after the trip she stops talking to me as much. Starts avoiding me, only talks on the phone if I call her, stops the deep conversations. There's no reasons that relate to why she would be doing this after such a perfect trip... never knew if I did something wrong. Then she just broke up with me out of the blue 2 weeks later. No closure, no reasons, then blocked me off everything. Don't know how to feel, still trying to process everything but I can't. It's all so fresh and I have no way to understand what went wrong.. can't focus on school, work. I drink to get drunk and party with friends and people I don't know and it's great until I'm alone. After that I'm just a mess again with all these thoughts.
>>675230356
Shit i was in that thread
>pic related is op's last post and my checking
>>675231170
It gets rough sometimes doesn't it
>>675231385
You didn't do anything that you did during the trip? Were you with her the whole time during the trip? It could of been something that she did and it was easier for her just to block you on everything than to talk to you about it.
Have to drop out of university due to my own retardation, my mother has liver cancer, I lost my job for nonsense reasons, and my final backup plan of joining the military is in jeopardy because of past medical complications.
My whole life is going to hell.
>>675231817
I dont know what country you're from but if you really want to join the military there are other countries that would be willing to take you
>>675227097
I really do anon. Long story short I fought my friend of many years because he fucked the girl he knew I was dating and out of spite I informed his ex of what happened since their relationship was iffy. He fucked me over so I decided to do the same. He told his ex that he loved her and all of this bullshit the day he fucked the girl. His ex is a good friend of mine so I wanted her to know what happened, knowing it would hurt him.
>>675232433
He wasn't a real friend you're better off without him, and you stopped him from hurting someone else you care about.
This is a real experience that I have had, no bullshit "tree-fitty" or anything, and no greentext, because it's easier to do without.
It all started at the beginning of last year. My family recently divorced, and soon after, my mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. For months I hardly saw my dad because I had to focus on school and taking care of my mom, and the only for of communication that I had was over text, or calling him for advice. During this past summer, my mom got good enough for me to go to high school. I was a total mess by the end of 8th grade, because of what I had gone through, I had even shaved my head for her, and all that I got, wasn't sympathy, but insults and bullying, which led to closeted depression
Cont?
>be me
>be plague doctor in medieval times
>making potions in my castle
>some fucking peasant accuses me of witchcraft
>ohfuck.scripture
>whole town at my castle
>whole town trying to burn me at the stake
>threaten to give town the plague if they burn me
>mfw when they have the plague anyway
>mfw when they die of the plague
>mfw when I have the plague
>i am a doctor
>>675232791
always cont in feels threads thats what they're for
My parents divorced because my mom cheated on my dad with 8 other men the day I found out they were getting a divorce my dad showed me a file full of porn staring my mother, it was a little intense for a seven year old who just had just found out mom and dad hate each other. Almost 12 years later and I can still see pictures and recall the names of the other men like I saw them an hour ago.
>>675232381
I'm Canadian, and I've looked into it: my options aren't great.
>>675224610
do you have the pic?
Hey /b/.
I hate to sound like the enormous faggot, but here it is: How do you keep your humanity? I can feel my morals slip, things I once cared for are moot, and all-round I just feel numb.
I've tried to keep hobbies, socialize, and even get a girlfriend but lately, none of that matters anymore.
>>675233164
Routine performance of them, and value yourself less in comparison to your core values and morals.
>>675226606
That puts me in tears
>>675226850
Damn, that's fucked.
>>675232729
Thank you anon, my group of friends found out and feel similarly. Funny thing is that I feel a bit guilty since this event hurt my friend, his ex, but I learned it wasn't a healthy relationship after talking to her. He was too embarrassed to let his "friends" know what happened because we would make fun of him or some shit. After talking to her I found out how much of a lunatic he really is.
>>675233164
What are somethings you enjoy doing now?
It's funny, in it's own way, the magnitude of destruction that can be achieved in what would otherwise be an insignificant slice of time. It would take a lapse of judgment of less than twenty seconds to vault the safety fence on a tall building and send my body flying through the air, untouched by the burdens of my monotonous and insignificant existence. I would fall freely to the ground, maybe while falling, I'll actually feel something other than empty. After I hit the ground, there would be just a half-second of suffering. Not even a perceptible amount of time, really. And I think even in that split second where all my body can feel is pain, I still won't regret a thing, because I'd rather die for nothing than live for the sake of living.
>>675233164
Sounds like depression so take meds if you can. They can help you feel something. Try to enjoy the little things in life, it can make it easier.
>>675231780
We were together the entire time for 10 straight days. The only bad thing was that I lost my wallet but she was more sad than I was. I had to console her lol which is why the trip was pretty much perfect in terms of looking for a reason for the breakup. Just don't get it. She was saying very emotional stuff while we were together, stuff like our future. But then she just left me cold once we got back..
>>675232791
>Cont
8th grade ended, and I had one or two real friends, none of which went to the high school I was going to attend. I was a total loner, was very depressed, and had no clique that I could just join in to. I would spend my free time either doing homework, taking care of my mom, or playing xbox. During 8th grade however, I was in the choir program at my school (inb4 gay, etc). During this, I was actually happy for that one period of the day, looking forward to it. So naturally, when it came time for registration, I signed up for choir. In this choir, I met Ian. Ian was the nicest, most genuine, down to earth man I met at my school, except for one other guy, but we'll get to him later. Eventually, he convinces me to join the theater company, and I join the sound crew. Doing this, I actually make new friends, and things start looking up. It wasn't until after they had decided on the cast and crew members were decided, that they would tell us the production that we were doing. The production was Les Miserable.
>>675223737
She feels, she feels
http://frtyb.com/go/gQ0i_bAaEj/Omekle
>>675233765
Have you ever suspected her of cheating on you at any point in the relationship?
Only because it's late, I'm drunk, and it's hard to remember.All of the start is what people have told me, I can't fully, correctly remember anymore.
>Be 15, good kid, good grades, no trouble whatsoever
>picked up longboarding as a passtime to remain in shape
>start hanging around with the "wrong crowd" i.e. Skaterbois
>Still retained goodness, was teased, but held up
>decide to go for a night ride
>one of them convinced me to take off my helmet.
I hit the concrete face first at about 25/30 MPH, no helmet, was unconscious for about a minute, according to the witnesses.
>Wake up next morning
>zero memory of event
>1/100 memory of my entire life
>have to have family retell my life to me, including my childhood, I forgot most of my friends inside jokes
I retained names and some faces. I forgot most of my early childhood, if not all. The memories that lasted through are very fuzzy.
>Tell nobody except doc exactly how bad it really was
>Have a radically altered personality vs. what they described what I was
>I smoke now
>I drink a lot
>Fuc school, amirite?
>I can't even get back to it, my family is getting more and more disappointing in me as the days go on
It hurts /b/. I want to go back to the good child I once was, that they loved. I don't feel like I belong, I'm not who they all remember me as. It hurts to not be the person they all expected me to be. And there's nothing I can do to fix it
Wear your FUCKING helmets.
>>675233766
> Cont + Check 'em
While doing this production, I met Brennan. Brennan is more down to earth, more genuine, and kind-hearted than Ian, which I thought was impossible. Brennan was a senior, which I knew would suck come this may, but I knew that it would happen to Ian anyway, so I just buried that thought down inside. Brennan would always give me rides home from rehearsals and performances because my mom couldn't because of her cancer. I told her about how much fun I was having being a part of the production, and for once in MONTHS, I saw her smile. After i was done talking to her, I went back to my room and sobbed.
>>675234225
Dude... I'm really sorry.
>>675226512
Just moved from Michigan to Nashwauk Minnesota but now at the end of May I'm moving Virginia to be with a girl I've known for five years, only problem now is I gotta tell my best friend that I'm not gonna stay here, this is rough.
>>675234200
She's done questionable things like she will think certain things she does or wants to do are okay because I was her first real boyfriend so she would say she doesn't know how to act in a relationship. For the most part they're just barely crossing the line and caused fights but nothing physical to hurt me on purpose. I always believed when she said she wouldn't do something to hurt me because we were that much in love. Keyword, were. Like I said, idk what happened
God guys I can't deal with this
I'm in love
And I read all these stories
About their loves dying prematurely from disease/disaster
About their loves dying bc of other guys
About their loves dying from personal faults
And I'm so fucking scared
Bc I want her to love me when I'm old, and to wake up next to me every morning, and to smile every time we lock eyes.
How am I supposed to live with myself if I can't truly believe that that's how it will be?
>>675234225
Do they still not know how much you forgot about yourself after you fell? If they didn't its something you need to tell them, because it would explain to them why you are like you are now so they can get you help if thats what you think you need.
Sorry for English, not my main language
Not really a sad story, but i want to share it.
I have a gf, probably, it doesnt matter what other people say. She is a 10/10 for me.
We are both Black belts in Tae Kwon Do, shes
2nd Dan, im 1rst Dan. She wants to open a tkd school.
I would leave everything for her, im thinking in drop out university to work, because her family doesnt have a lot of money. She is in university right now. She really wants her school and i want to see her happy.
So thats my situation, i have dreams, i have aspirations. But most important i am with her, and i know she loves me.
>>675224249
Shit happens
>>675231424
Fuck man, that killed me
>haven't eaten all day
>grade 9
>go to get my egg sammy out of locker
>in hand
>walking to go eat it alone
>friend walks up
>oheybud
>knocks sammich out of hand
>other guy stomps on my egg sandwich
>noooooooooooooooooooooooooo
>they laugh and walk away
>pick up the remains of my fallen comrade and eat him
>floor egg has dirt in it
>pretend it's pepper, anon, pretend it's pepper
>hottest girl in school sees me
>start running away
>knock into a big guy
>he throws me into a locker
>start throwing up egg all over myself and crying
>everyone pointing and laughing
>piss and shit myself
>have to change schools
>kept the underwear
>>675234746
Take a leap of faith, anon. Don't let your worries keep you from what you want.
“Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been.”
>>675234746
I struggle with that shit too man just have faith that whoever you end up with will want you to love them as much as you want them to love you
>>675234446
>Cont, almost done.
We start doing performances, and the crowds love us. For those of you who don't know, Les Miserable is one of the saddest productions out there, and at the end of the shows, audience members are leaving in tears. Time comes around for the final performance, and as everyone comes in to get a talk from the director, I can tell there is a mood change. Everyone is sniffing, and the theater director is getting choked up. By the end of her talk,everyone is in tears, including me. I'm crying because of my mom, and being depressed for almost 9-10 months, and finally being happy, and knowing that it will be over after this night. I look at brennan, he is in tears, almost bawwwing, and he grabs me by the shoulders, and tells me something I will never forget.
"This is your place now."
I lost it, and hugged him as hard as I could for what felt like an hour.
After the final show, Brennan dropped me off at my house, and as usual, waited for me to close the door. As I walked in the door, I could tell something was wrong.
>>675234622
Maybe she did something shes not proud of and she took the easy way out of it so she wouldn't have to face the decision that she made. was it a LDR? Is there any way that you could get in contact with her so you can talk about what has happened between the two of you?
>>675234802
Do what you think is best for you and makes you happy Anon.
>>675227097
sadly yes, love of my life for the last 6 years has put me through hell, being too beta to realize that she could have actually loved me, and being too insecure i would give her up because i thought that would make her happy
then i see >>675226719
and all i can think about is how ill never get to be the one for anyone, because nobody will be her, theres not a single other Alex in the world, and i fucked up so badly that now ill never have anyone because nobody else will be her
>>675235348
>Probably the last one.
I walked around the corner and saw that my mom was dead asleep. I checked he pulse and felt nothing. I ran outside to brennan's car and told him to wait, as I called 911.
Brennan stayed with me that night in the hospital, he held me as I sobbed into his shoulders when the doctors told me that there was nothing they could do, that the cancer took over, and her body went into shock.
>TFW I couldn't cry actual tears when my mom died
>TFW I saw my mom smile for the first and last time last week
>TFW After this year, I'll never see Brennan again
>TFW I'm contemplating suicide.
>>675231385
Jack??????
>>675235161
>>675235224
We've been together for a couple months. I've been in a relationship before, but it's never felt this way. We lost our virginity to eachother. My mom cheated on my dad. I have trust issues. I hate it bc I know it hurts her that I don't trust her entirely, but she also knows that it's not her fault I can't trust her fully.
I just don't want to go off to college and get my dream job but lose my dream girl
I'll try to have faith anons, I promise to you I won't let my trust problems ruin it
>>675235511
It is LDR for the time being which is also another reason I have questions that go unanswered. But still I go back to thinking she wouldn't do anything to hurt me on purpose. But maybe she cut me out so she could do things while we are not together, that way I am not hurt? I just don't know man. Too many questions with 0 answers.
>>675236224
No I'm not Jack lol, hope your friend feels better too tho. Sounds like we're in the same situation apparently
Bumping because My Chemical Romance broke up 3 years after tomorrow.
>>675234789
I guess I need to explain myself a little more.
When it first happened, I told my parents everything that had happened, I spilled the beans on everything that I could. My aprents knew, my best friends knew, the doctor knew. That was it. I tried explaining to my extended family my situation but they're held onto the "you were the golden child, you're just in rebellion" or "You were so set to be perfect, this COULDN"T happen to you, stop faking"
I'm nineteen now, I drink once or twice a week, no girlfriend. Smoke a pack a week or so. I failed my last three college classes for no good reason other than I've been suffering from crippling anxiety and just all around not being motivated. The medications don't work, the therapy doesn't work, nothing works I feel like because of my one screw up, I've broken something that can't be fixed with anything, not duct tape, not love, not the power of god. It's been three years, and the memories come back once in a while. And then I found out late last year that I was starting to remember incorrectly, so now I can't even trust the memories that i DO have.
It's a tormenting hell that I'm stuck in. The only reason I haven't quit is because my mother hasn't quit on me yet. My dad is indifferent to me, as well as my brother.I love my mother to death, but the second that she stops believing in me, I'm not sure what I'm gonna be able to do.
I got diagnosed with cancer today (not the meme kind) that feel when you'll probably never see your long distance girlfriend because of all the upcoming treatments
>>675236531
I stopped posting after everybody ignored my feels. I'll never bump this shitty narcasistic thread. Fuck you, commie.
>>675236136
>Tfw im sobbing now. Thanks for sharing anon, sorry for your loss
>>675236268
I know what having parents cheat is like man >>675232993 it puts strain on my relationship but my girlfriend understands and helps get me through the bad days
I'll be 20 years old next month and I haven't really ever felt any form of attraction towards another human being. Literally every person, song, book, movie, etc. talks about how love is the best fucking thing ever. I couldn't even fucking begin to pretend I know what love feels like. I'm really starting to worry guys.
>>675236835
Good, die faggot. Your first mistake was dating a girl long distance, your second mistake was getting fucking cancer. ahahahahhahahahahaahhhahahahahahahaha. hope you die meaninglessly and alone.
>>675236136
Live on for your mom she wouldn't want you end it.
>>675237051
no worries anon, I will
>>675233060
Foreign Legion my friend
>>675237051
Troll somewhere else fucktard
>>675237051
What's clearly troubling you, anon?
>>675235785
Thanks, anon, you too!
>>675231385
Damn dude. I'm in the EXACT same boat with my life. Hang in there man, the worst part is questioning what went wrong
>>675237335
Looking into that. Also, looking into volunteering with the Syrian Kurds to teach CPR\First Aid. I just need to get away for a while.
>>675236999
You'll feel it one day and you'll know what it is as soon as you feel it and checkd
>>675237401
My dad died of cancer last week and I haven't stopped thinking about it. Sick of losers making up fake cancer stories on /b/.
I still think constantly about how i ruined my last serious relationship by being a selfish idiot. It's been about 5 years and it's still the biggest regret of my life. The silliest things will remind me of her. I was in a car with a friend when some stupid song by daft punk came on that made me think of her and it took all of my strength not to break down into tears.
I can still clearly remember how perfect she was. Her deep green eyes, he long black hair, he slender pale body. She was great for me. I was crazy about her and she was about me.
In the end I broke up with her over a rumor that wasn't even true. When I found that out i guess i was too proud to admit the mistake i made, and of course she wouldn't take me back. The worst part is that the guy who started the rumor was ostensibly my friend. Of course, i haven't talked to him since.
We'd been together for two years at the time. We both lost our virginity to each other. We had so much in common, and she was smart as hell too.
Mostly i just try not to think about it. I'll tell myself it was just a stupid high school crush and nothing would have come of it, nevermind all of my friends who ended up marrying their high school partners. But i know the truth is i'll never find someone who is even half of the woman she was. What's more i'll never find someone like her who is actually interested in a fucking sperg like me.
Pic related. Isn't she just perfect? Everything about her. Of course she found someone else since then. At least she has a shot at a happy life.
tl;dr i'm a retard and i deserve every bit of this loneliness, pain and embarrassment.
I don't expect anyone to read this wall of bullshit text, but it's nice to get it off my chest for once.
>>675237811
lmao he probably killed himself you fucking cuck I would fucking kill myself too if my son was such a fucking degenerate
>>675237807
I sure hope so Anon. Thanks and goodnight.
>>675237588
That's why I try to do whatever I can to not think about questioning her. No matter how much I try, the moment I am alone, the thoughts, memories, questions (mostly this) flood back in my head. Drinking is temporary, chilling with friends is temporary, partying with randoms is temporary, chilling with my puppy is temporary. Eventually being alone puts me back into this thought cycle. I'm fucked. My grades are shit, I bombed this entire semester at college
>>675237811
I'm sorry to hear that, but a lot of people here aren't making up cancer stories. I'm not, and I don't think anyone else here is either.
>>675238206
oh my fucking god...
After reading through this thread, this is gonna be weak shit, but I want to get it off my chest. I'm in an indoor marching band with my univ, and there's a cute girl who plays clarinet. We went to a competition last week, and I was able to speak a few sentences to her. I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder last year, so it's hard for me to make friends, and even harder to do it proactively. In the show, there was a set where everyone dances. I started on trombone, but now I play bass. Another trombone player is dancing with her, and I realize I made a bad desciacion. Everyone in the front ensemble with me has a significant other, so I feel I need to get to know her, but I have no idea what to do, or what she's into besides marching band. I've been sad ever since the trip and I have no idea what to do, because I can barely talk to her. Sorry for a rambling.
>>675225348
holy fuck that's heavy
>>675237815
ah fuck dude. I was reading this thinking "It's okay, it was years ago, you can mend things now that time has passed!" But I read she's got someone else.
It's awful. Sometimes we lose chances for the wrong reasons but you gotta realize that you're still young (judging by her picture) and that you have time to meet someone who will be worth more to you than her. Just need to believe and not wait for it to happen. Live your life and it'll come when the time is right. Don't think about how long its been since you found someone like her. Think about how you can be a better you anon. We're all going through breakups. I'm rooting for you man
>>675236818
try your best to quit smoking. Going cold turkey isn't going to help were you're at mentally so try vaping, patch, or gum so you can get off the cancer sticks because they aren't helping you either. If you put the effort into bettering yourself your family will see and they'll change their mind about you.
>>675236975
Yeah, my girlfriend is like that too. And I'm glad someone knows my pain.
My dad never showed me anything like that, but he told me all about what she did and the lies she told.
It's really heavy for a young kid
>>675225487
ok, I'm done. going to bed now.
>>675226764
fuck, why do i read this one every fucking time
>>675238387
Just try talking to her more, and try not to be too autistic. If you must, look up good ways to start convos. Girls won't suddenly hate you for saying something weird once or twice, so don't be too shy. Good luck anon
>>675238387
so you wanna talk to her? like thats the issue here? just want clarification
>>675238307
>>675238020
I just did and look how tilted everyone got hahahaha
I really do hope you die of cancer quickly. We're wasting our resources on you, you sick cancerous fuck. Go die!
>>675238387
That's not weak shit at all bc having an anxiety disorder is tough shit. You gotta be a fucking champ to live your life like everyone else does and I applaud you anon. Think of it this way. You like her, you like her a whole lot to even be this worried about talking to her. That means something. When an opportunity like that comes in your life, you gotta take it by the horns and try the situation out. Make a move, talk to her a little bit again. Maybe that's all you need to do at first, just work on another few sentences to her like you did before. Make slow progress and keep working on it. Don't give up on something that makes you happy thinking about a what if scenario. You choose your path man, go see what happens
>>675238846
Well, you DID write these comments.>>675237051
>>675239041
Yeah and it's true. Go cry about it.
>>675239109
Why would I cry about someone so pathetic they need to shit on others to feel better about themselves?
>>675239222
hahahahahhahahahahahahhaha
Seriously do you all have vaginas?
>>675239109
If theres something you want to get off your chest? this is the thread to do it in go ahead and tell us what wrong in your life.
>>675238922
fucking this
>>675239400
Nope.
>>675239408
Nothing really.
Just livin' man.
This song.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUja5B8ei2U
>>675239490
There has to be something. Why else would you attack the vulnerable?
>>675225528
retarded adults having retarded kids making retarded decisions ending in retarded conclusions. Huh, weird how that doesn't make me feel sad.
>>675238560
Thanks anon. We're all gonna make it
>>675239838
hey man did you know your edge is showing? You should cover that up before you really hurt someone.
>>675239715
Some people are born to be wolves while others are born to be sheep. One is no better than the other. But often times I assert my dominance and privillage onto another to prove to myself that I am worthy of the wolf title.
Why doth a bear bite thy hand when I feedeth my meat? It is because thy's meat is dead!
-William Shakespeare
>>675223926
I hope it never gets that bad, fuck
>>675240449
>But often times I assert my dominance and privillage onto another to prove to myself that I am worthy of the wolf title.
Thanks for the laugh I needed that
>>675240449
Jesus christ you're edgy. You're not a wolf, you're a coyote searching for scraps that the alphas leave behind.
>>675240449
kek thanks for the lulz you fucking faggot
My friend caleb said he was going to kill himself today and I was totally unprepared when he finally called me.. The call ended with "goodbye man" and I fucking bawled my eyes out harder than ever before because I realized Im so socially inept that I cant deal with a serious crisis like this. Luckily he ended up not going through with it and was baker acted(which isnt going to help things for him at all). Been a feelsy day guys
>>675240802
I love when fucking loser betas take my posts seriously. It's awesome to know some fucking halfwit somewhere in the world literally believes my posts are legitimate. Funny world.
Today I was sitting in a cafe drinking a coffee and started thinking about retards. With my college degree and my high I.Q I am probably more privilaged than your fucking retarded ass who can't even tell real life from fiction. But I digress.
You're clearly a mountain turd. So, I'll slow it down for you. You're shit to me, you fucking moron. You're words on a screen, not affecting me. Even if you were in my life, you'd be making my fucking hamburger when I drove through arby's after fucking your wife.
Just kill yourself already.
>>675241015
Hello newfriend :)
>>675241323
why don't you just leave you fool
>>675241323
>aha i was only pretending to be retarded
>>675240449
Ignore the newfaggots
>>675240802
>>675241015
That post was prime solid 8/10
Superman dies after flying doomsday into the sun. That's how BvS ends.
Also, by the ungodly chance that she'll read this
Mattie, I'm so fucking sorry. I should have followed you out there. I've made such a mistake. I miss you so fucking much, and I probably always will. I hope you've at least found a guy that makes you happy. -Your sun and stars
>>675241668
>shakespeare quote
>retarded
Just give up you worthless piece of shit, not OP btw
>>675241323
lol, no one is taking you seriously. No one is butthurt but you and no one believes your alpha projection bullshit. Fuck off and let the neckbeards get back to their feels.
>>675241024
"Goodbye man" wasn't a good thing to end on. Your friend is still alive and, now you know how not to end a suicide call.
>>675241668
Have you googled the "shakespeare" quote you fucking moron.
The funny thing is I just threw random doths and thy's into a sentence.
I love being smarter than you. It makes me cum buckets.
>>675241782
Now this is some cringe right here.
>>675241860
"thou art retarded"
-Will I Am Shakespeare
>>675241925
Sorry anon i didnt clarify, he managed to get out "ill get over it" and i asked him to promise me that he will be okay, and there was a bit of pause and HE said goodbye man and hung up and wouldnt pick up after that
hahahahha feels threads are the cancer of /b/ and most posts are about cancer? Irony?
>>675242003
please sir stop
>>675241766
Good I didnt plan on watching the movie anyways
>>675242289
hhahahaha just keep falling for the lie you dumb fuck. I remember when I was retarded. THen my uncle hit me on the head with his massive donkey cock and now I think good.
>>675228302
aqworlds player since the beta here and I call this story bullshit because guilds were released in 2012 not 2008
http://www.aq.com/gamedesignnotes/guildsphase1-2124
>>675227097
It still hurts knowing that I couldn't make her feel happy anymore.
Here with feels
>gf loves me
>I don't love her
>stuck in relationship
>don't want to leave because seems cold and lonely
>girl 3 hours away in love with me
>too far for me
>got drunk this weekend
>she was there
>started talking about past girlfriends
>made her cry
>I dont even remember because I was blackout drunk
>>675242423
Bro, no one is falling for "the lie" kek you're not fucking dominating anyone over slash bee slash in the small hours of the morning.
>>675242506
HAHHAHAHAAHHHAHAH oh my god! That's fucking pathetic innit?
>>675242633
wut.
>>675242634
But lowkey I got some from her older sister.still sucks I couldn't make her happy anymore.
kek you think the fact that your little white trash gf left you for some other beta faggot is feels worthy? Try actually going through some real shit like holding your child in your arms after as he or she breathes their last breath after being in a car accident or watching helpless as your child slowly withers away from cancer get the fuck away from me with this "Please come back to me girl" fuckboy shit.
>>675242634
See you in a few years freshman edge lord when you experience life and join the rest of us
>>675227097
It's strange, life has been pretty good lately, I'm struggling in school, but I feel I can pull through. Sure I still don't have a girlfriend, but at least I have a great group of friends.
For the life of me I can't figure out why i'm sitting here at 3:00 am feeling bad for myself.
Every way I feel i'v been wronged by the world, and every way I'v wronged it, is washing over me right now. I need to go to bed.
>>675243034
>fuckboy
smh yolo tbqhwy familia
>>675242791
>Admits to cheating on her with her sister
>Sad he could no longer make her happy
You are a legitimate, raging, late stage fucking FAGGOT. The only cure is suicide by fire.
>>675243129
yes you do. Overthinking will lead you to nothing but problems, goodnight Anon
>>675243099
That's hilarious!
Yeah cause we all end up not satisfying our women and being left. Fuck yourself.
>>675243230
But trust man I tried killing myself but honestly am not going to be busting my balls over someone who can't be happy with me.
>>675243393
All this overcompensating and you haven't even gotten dubs once
>>675226850
that nigger 14 wtf
>Developing feelings for a bitch
>Judging your self worth by whether or not you have a bitch
Ask me how I know ya'l dun goofed?
>>675243645
Fucking Kek!
My I.Q. is so high i can tell 4chin to give me duds
>>675234225
that what you get for riding long boards you faggot. get a real skateboard
>>675244135
Thats what i like to fucking see good shit anon
>>675243961
Apparently not.
>>675244135
The only thing with wheels that you own is your computer chair
>>675244432
Fuck you m8 not even op and i know he has a board hes probably hesh as fuck and has mad style this is so exciting i never encounter skaters on this board
>>675244432
ur badazz bro so cool plz teach me how to be cool like u
>>675241323
Lol chill out, my man.
>>675229897
Not true at all anon. The few women I knew that really cared were pretty much worthless as mates. Very few women are satisfied by intercourse, its the other things you do that bring them off.
Srsly, its a tough thing to weather, but gain other intimate skills, and most women would be quite happy. You have to be happy enough with you to take those steps.
You can.
>Be me
>Be a kid and and a newfag
>Never had a relationship
>Be a furry, hate people
>But always feel alone
>Participate to a "feel thread"
>No self-estim
>Should i kill myself /b/ ?
>>675234746
You can be a coward that dies a thousand times a in future where things go as wrong for you as they did me, or you can live this day, this hour, this moment, which is all we really have, and love for that moment.
Choice is yours.
>>675223737
Here's a pretty long story. I mean, it is kind of like the summary of my life, but here goes
> Be 17, high school Junior or whatever
> Transfer student, not super familiar with the neighborhood. Have a small friend group that I hangout with
> Beta fag, plays vidya all day
> Two girls in the friend group. One doesn't matter, but the other one is pretty cute
> The shy type, but once you get to know her she's pretty funny to be with
> Hang out a lot, mostly with the group. Eventually we start to hangout online too, playing vidya and what not
> Few weeks in, I'm feeling good
> She says yes
> MFW
> Goes out for a year, everything's smooth sailing. We hit it off really well
> A bit too well
> Being the immature kids we were, we decided it was a good idea to bang
> Dunno if she's good in bed, nothing to compare it to
> But she touched my diddly and it feels good man
> Eventually her parents caught us
> Big shit storm
> Her mom didn't make a big deal out of (Big surprise), but her dad was furious
> Threatens me shit like "Get the fuck away from our daughter or I'll sue ur ass"
> Decided to drop it, but I still definitely love her
> I try to keep in touch, she does too, but it's just not working on
> I graduate two years before her, and gets into some shit college because I was so depressed at the time
> Finally breaks it off
> I took it surprisingly well, and it became sort of a drive for me. I applied to better college and picked a good major, studying my ass off
> I want to prove myself, I want to be able to look at her parents in their eyes and say
> "I am worth your daughter. I am no longer the shit head kid from four years ago. I have changed and I can support a family. I can support her"
Continue?
>>675248877
Continued
>So college, whatever
>Works hard but I still have a lot of free time
>We still talk and stuff, sometimes play games too, but it's just not the same
>We keep drifting apart further and further. I don't know what she thinks of me, how she feels about me
>I just keep working hard. Going to the gym to keep in shape, study outside of school so I can nail my first job
>Half way through my junior year, I started to be confused by my own feelings
>I don't know if I truly still want her back, or am I just obsessed
>After one night of drinking, I decided to text her
>We haven't talked to each other for more than 4 months by this point
>My half-drunk brain decided it was a good idea to ask about her life
>To my surprise she replied
>"Oh, my boyfriend and I are doing pretty well. He's a really nice guy, and he..."
>FuckMe.jpg
>I kept going with the flow, but deep down inside I felt like something had been drilled out of me
>People say "If you want to do something, do it. Better regret it later than never have done it in the first place"
>Fuck those people
>You say those things because you have never tasted something truly worth regretting. Not getting that haircut is not the same as missing your soul mate by a few inches
>Anyway, I got drunk off my ass and passed out
>Wake up the next day, somehow still not demotivated
>I was just used to the pace I guess
>Maybe somewhere inside me I still had hope, maybe if I show myself in front of her again as a better person she'll fall for me again
>After all, it's just a boyfriend. People break up all the time
>And they did, and I was trying so hard, SO HARD, to not show any sigh of happiness
>In fact I felt guilty about secretly being happy. I want her to be happy, but I also want my heart to be not broken
>Fast forward a few years, I graduate
>She had went through maybe 5 new boyfriends by the time
>Never once asked me
>FeelsBad.jpg but whatever
>Lands a decent first job
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>>675223737
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVyjRbYIyJw
this vid is my life
thanks for this guys, i haven't cried in years, but this finally broke me, feels nice.
>>675249664
>First job doesn't pay super well, but it's good for entry level
>A good position in a pretty big company with decent benefits
>We kind of drifted apart again, not really talking much
>At this point all my friends are talking me into giving up on her
>I tried, not sure if it really worked
>I dated a few girls, they are all cute and everything, but just doesn't feel right
>Doesn't last long before something goes wrong and we break up, and I go back to being alone
>By the point I was getting tired of being alone, but on the other hand I wasn't entirely sure if I want her to come back, or I am just obsessed
>I work my brains out, fill my time with work-related stuff as much as possible to avoid thinking about her
>Fucking stupid, I know
>Boss saw my work and was immediately impressed
>Promotion
>This goes on for another 3-4 years, not really talked at all with her
>Eventually I got tired of the job
>I am not super rich, but have enough to afford a small house for a few years.
>I wanted a break.
>Quit my job, my boss was fucking baffled at why I would do this
>Didn't give a shit
>Move to some small rural area and bought a small house, starts my own little garden and farm
>Nothing amazing, I can barely get by with my savings, but it was really fun actually
>Made sure there's good internet though
>Browse 4chan and play vidya most of the time when I'm not working
>Eventually, a friend from the company calls
>Asks me if I am interested in joining his team that's making vidya right now
>SureWhyNot.png
>Joins the team. It's a pretty small team of maybe 12 people, but everyone was really nice
>It's a remote team so we work mostly through conference calls
>First meeting
>Turns on webcam
>She's there
>It took everything in me to not freak out at the meeting. I was barely able to introduce myself, the rest of the time I just sat there, staring at her picture
>It's been about 8 years since I last saw her
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>>675250487
Keep 'er goin' anon, I like your story.
>>675250487
>She apparently graduated with a music degree and was a piano teacher at some high school
>I didn't know what to say
>She was super surprised too
>After the meeting, we decided to catch up
>She had settled down with a new boyfriend, things seem to be going well
>I didn't know what to say, but "That's great news!"
>It was actually genuine
>Lots of things had happened, and I had already buried my feelings for her
>I am not even sure if they were feelings. Maybe I was just obsessive, or maybe I was just too stubborn to give up. Maybe I don't even love her, and it's just a dream that I refused to wake up from
>But it's fine. Now, I am content with watching her from a distance
>We chat for a bit, and it felt like I haven't felt any happiness until that point
>I felt like I was just working so hard for her, but in the end it was like a joke
>I didn't regret it, I like the life I have right now. I have enough money to get by, and I am working with a team of loving people to make things I enjoy
>And the girl I loved is doing well in life
>I felt happy for her.
>Another year goes by. We didn't really make anything too amazing, but it's a new team and everyone is getting used to making vidya
>The games we made gets better every year.
>She gets married
>I went to her wedding. Her fiance is this pretty average looking guy
>We had dinner together before, and he was a pretty chill guy
>The kind that would be kind of a push-over, but she wasn't the kind to be pushing in the first place
>Congratulate her on her wedding
>Swallow sadness
>Just kidding, there wasn't any sadness. Just mostly nostalgia.
>Seeing her kissing her fiance just reminded me of the day when we used to make out after PE behind the locker room
>Not really jealousy, but just
>Feelings
>I didn't get drunk. Kept sober and just had a really fun time with friends and families
>Things are finally settled down, and I feel like I am finally happy
>No GF or wife, but I don't feel that alone.
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>>675229897
Stop watching porn all the time. Take it from a 30 year old, the vast majority of women wont cheat on you for having a small dick. They will cheat on you for being a shit boyfriend and any decent girl will just dump your ass first before cheating.
>>675234225
I think you're just Johnny Mnemonic. Find Jones, he can help you get the code out of your head.
>>675247395
>Be a kid
You're a kid, you should be in a relationship until you know you can handle one. Give it time and you'll stop being a newfag. Live with the fact you're a furry, other ppl already do. Everyone hates people, you'll be fine. Every oldfag has been in a feelsthread atleast once, otherwise they aren't an oldfag. No self-esteem? Make your own. >Should I kill myself /b/ ?
Answer it yourself anon.
>>675234746
Honestly, it will probably end in a divorce where you both hate one another. At least if she dies or you die early, you'll have those memories. Look for the positive in these stories.
>>675235039
>kept the underwear
>>675251414
>I am always with my friends, and she's among them
>Nothing else I could need
>Happy end
>Except not
>A few months pass by
>Her fiance moved to a different city for work, and she couldn't follow him immediately because of school semesters
> I had also moved, the rural life is getting boring. I sold my farm and made a small profit, and moved back to the city, maybe an hour and a half away from where she lived
>We hang out a few times and grab dinner, but both of us knows that it's just friendship, and both of us were okay with it
>In the team, we have meetings every other week, and each of us kind of summarize what we've done and point out what needs to be done by who in the next two weeks
>I say meeting but it's super fun, you can have a beer and not wear pants. Nobody would give a fuck
>But one day she wasn't at the meeting
>Not sure what that's about, her fiance knows nothing
>Thought she might just not be feeling well.
>Text her after the meeting
>No reply
>Something seems off, but I didn't think too much of it
>I didn't want to think about it
>Another two day passes by
>Her fiance calls me in the middel of the night, and immediately I know something is wrong
>He's usually a really chill and relaxed dude, but he did NOT sound like his usual self
>She hasn't been answering his calls
>It was 4 am
>He begged me to go check on her. He was literally across the country
>I said sure
>Grabbed my keys and drove to her place.
>She lives in a pretty small house alone
>Knocked on her door
>No answer
>Knocked on her door louder
>No answer
>I walked over to her garage and opened the door
>She never locks her garage door, her neighborhood is super friendly
>Her car isn't there
>I went inside her house. I didn't give a fuck if I seemed suspicious.I just wanted to know if she's safe
>I was so paranoid that I felt like the anxiety was going to burn a hole in my stomach
>I searched through her house.
>No one is home
Contiinue
>>675237815
I wanna tell you its not that bad. But black hair is my heart killer. Sorry for your loss anon. Hope you can move on someday soon.
ITT: beta cucks
>>675252434
>Call her parents
>They know nothing
>I went to the police as soon as we found out that she's missing
>Btw, the 24 hour time period that you have to wait before filing a missing person report is total BS
>You can file a missing person report when the fuck ever
>Police asks a bunch of question
>When she was last seen, what kind of friends she had, where does she work
>I answer everything, and more, things that they didn't ask
>Of course nothing about how we fucked
>Finally was able to get home, it's about 8 pm
>The adrenaline fades and I literally collapse to the floor and falls asleep as soon as I locked my door behind me
>Twelve agonizing days
>Finally, a phone call from her fiance
>They found her
>Her car was found abandoned in the woods between her house and the school she works at
>The car was almost totaled
>Someone crashed into her from behind and pushed her off a small cliff into the forest below
>She didn't die immediately
>Someone dragged her out of her car and applied first aid, but it wasn't enough
>But they didn't call the cops
>As soon as they found out that the medical attention wasn't enough, they just left
>Maybe too poor to pay for insurance, maybe too scared that they had hurt another human being.Or maybe, just a moment of panic
>She was unconscious and bled to death
>Her fiance could not finish in one continuous speech
>He didn't break down and cry, he just falls silent every time he had to mention her name
>It's just two grown man on the phone completely silent
>I just wait for him to be ready to speak
>Because I am waiting for myself to be ready to understand
>The phone call took more than two hours
>He finishes and just hangs up
>I don't remember what I did for the next week
>I just remember that at some point, I had a moment of clarity and I was just putting hotdogs into my hot ramen
>Why hot dogs?
>Why anything?
>It was such a sudden realization that I almost wanted to laugh
>Fuck, she's gone
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>>675253756
>What am I doing here?
>Why am I making ramen with hotdogs
>With the realization, comes the pain, and heartache, and sadness, and everything that a human can possibly produce
>And much more
>She's dead. She's gone forever from the world. She can no longer smile, joke, play the piano, play games, make music for our little game team, have dinner with me, watch a movie with me
>All those things that I enjoyed doing is now no longer possible
>It was like another me had been cut off and was watching me from above
>The world was so familiar yet so strange, I look at my computer, Visual Studio is running
>Who wrote these code? Was it me? How did I do this?
>I am confused. I didn't know what to do
>Everything I was familiar with suddenly collapsed all around me. Nothing's the same anymore
>I wasn't even confident in my ability to use the keyboard and mouse. Had I been always doing this? How come I don't remember any of it?
>For two weeks I just shut myself in. I pulled all of the cords out of my socket and the battery from my phone
>I just lived, trying to get used to everything again
>Finally, the pain went away
>Not really, I just got used to it
>I decided it's enough and I reconnected with the team, and her fiance
>He's had it much worse than I have, apparently now he's taking some sort of therapy to cope with his wife's death
>I don't know how to feel about this
>Her family calls me
>Something about her funeral
>I don't remember how I answered, but I must have said I'm going, because I found myself on a plane a few days later
>How the fuck did I pass the security check point in my state of mind remains a total mystery
>Gets there a week early
>Decided to take a walk around the town to take my mind off things
>The city's pretty close to my old high school
>Decided to drive there too because why the fuck not
>Walk around campus, it's summer vacation and nobody is there to stop me
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>>675254748
>Fences are nothing when you can hop them
>Or when you feel dead inside and nothing matters
>Walk around the classrooms
>They did some renovations and added more buildings, but all the old stuff are still there
>Walk around the same classroom we were sitting in, maybe 12 years ago
>Desks are in different spots
>I put them back to where they were 12 years ago
>One too many desk and a few too many chairs
>I put them outside the classroom and close the door
>I sit in my usual spot, the one closest to the door
>So when the lunch bell rings I can be the first there and beat the rush, get two meals for both of us
>I close my eyes and try to imagine what it was like, 12 years ago
>It felt like it was such a long time ago, but it also felt like it was just yesterday
>It felt like I'm still in High School, surrounded by idiots
>Idiots that bother me and idiots that I call friends
>And an idiot I call myself
>And that's when it finally got to me. I started crying
>No one around to hear me, not that I cared
>I cried and cried and just, cried
>Like a little girl who had lost her favorite doll
>I am a big boy who had lost his favorite girl
>I never knew I still liked her so much. I thought I was over her, I thought it was done, I thought my disinterest in other women is because my own problems and perhaps asexuality
>But that's not true
>I just missed her and wanted her to be happy
>So when I found out that she had moved on, I gave up
>No, I gave in but I never gave up
>I cried until finally some security found me
>I thought they would be more alarmed, but they were more confused
>They were almost scared to approach me at first
>I explain everything and apologize
>Wipe the tears from my face and starts to clean up, putting the desk back where they belong
>They were nice people. They could never understood but they didn't ask too many things
>They did escort me out, but that's just their job
>I drove back to my hotel
>The 1st night I have gotten good sleep in a while
>>675255512
"Babies don't sleep this well"
>>675255512
>A week later, the funeral
>Everyone is there
>Her family, her parents, her fiance, and our entire team, and many more people I do not know
>I had forgotten that she had a life of her own as well
>Somehow I was so arrogant that I thought I knew everything about her
>What a fucking asshole I was
>Someone gave some speeches
>I didn't listen, too busy zoning out and thinking about nothing
>Felt a tap on my shoulder
>"May I sit here?"
>It's her fiance
>I nod
>He sits down next to me
>We didn't say anything for a while
>There were no needs for words of comfort, we both know that our losses far outweighs anything we can possible come up with
>After a while, he spoke up
>"She told me what happened.... between you two"
>Not surprising, since she's not the type to keep secrets to those who she love
>"It's always been kind of bugging me. You are one of her best friends, and I have to admit I get a little jealous sometimes."
>I just sat still without a word
>I hear someone sobbing the distance, in the background. I didn't care enough to check
>"They never caught the person who crashed into her"
>I nod
>"I know"
>"But it doesn't matter now, does it?"
>I chuckle
>"Of course it does. It's not revenge or anything, but I want to see the person responsible get what they deserve"
>Then, there's just silence
>I don't know him all that well, but I knew he also loved her very much
>And the loss also hurt him very much
>I stand up
>"I gotta go now, have to catch my plane home."
>It was an obvious lie, I just didn't know what to do
>So I ran away
>He said something, I don't remember, probably like "Take care" or some shit
>I waved goodbye to her parents and friends, and secretly, I said goodbye to her
>To all the years that I was in love, and all the chances that I didn't take
>Farewell
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>>675256405
It took a while, but eventually I recovered. I am now married with two kids, and I love my wife very very much. She was nothing like her, and I am very happy about my life right now. Looking back, it was more like bitter distance memories, kind like the gross feeling you have after waking up from an unpleasant dream. You know none of those is real and none of it matters, but it's just that lingering feeling
