Feels\ bawww thread.
My life's going to shit, is yours?
Just got miserably rejected. Haven't had a girlfriend in 6 years. Not too well man.
>>675012926
What's up with you then mate.
>>675013937
I have to drop out of university because I'm an idiot who never should have been admitted in the first place, which will disappoint my terminally(?) ill mother, lost my job because of nonsense reasons, and my last way out (joining the army) might not happen due to medical technicalities from years ago.
>>675013839
Fucking sorry, man. Getting rejected hurts, especially if you haven't put yourself out there in a while.
Yeah. I'm going to be fired at my job pretty soon, I have one last chance but if I screw up then in fucked. I wasn't even getting enough hours to afford food for the just couple of weeks. I've been trying to find a new job but so far no luck. It's a fast food job, too. I feel like if I can't do such an easy job then what chance to I have at anything else? I spent most of today holding back tears
>>675014366
Fuck man I'm sorry.
>>675014937
Try a labour gig? It might help you out a fair bit.
Baby's mom told me she was 6 weeks pregnant. We do not have a good relationship.
No need for feels, I fucked up amd just wanted to share.
>>675015229
She's going to keep it?
>>675015178
Like construction? That might be alright. I really want a job that's Monday to Friday all the time and the weekend off. That would be nice.
>>675015731
I recommend landscape work, I did it for years. Not too bad, but can get pretty monotonous.
I come to these threads when I'm feeling down or what but I feel like shit when I think about it everything posted here is way worse and sad than my life. I'm sad for no reason as I have no major problems and I don't know what is wrong
>>675014366
Damn man..... sorry to hear that.
>>675016084
>>675015973
Loss of ambition? lack of a real goal in life? Try asking for something existential along those lines. It might be your issue.
>>675015369
Yes, and won't listen to any logical reason. Some months ago I told her I would hang myself if I had another kid so lols are to be had.
>>675016247
Oh my fucking god...
>>675015950
Meh, I could handle that. As long as it's not super exhausting
Man you know what sucks? When you're watching something (especially something funny) and you forget about your shitty situation in life and then right after the video/movie/show ends you remember and you're like, aw fuck.
>>675017429
I know how that feels all too well these days.
>>675016980
If you want money it will be at first but you get used to it. Good exercise too.
Am I the only one who doesn't care about being happy?
>>675018307
Probably not.
>>675017650
Same here :^(
What's your situation? I'm >>675014937
>>675018947
OP and>>675014366
>>675017786
Nice, I'll try looking more into it.
I wouldn't mind something like engineering or plumping, mechanical work, or something along those lines sounds like they would be decent.
>>675019304
Good luck man
(I'm >>675013839)
>>675020597
>>675013839
Ohh shit man, that's a tough feel. How long have you liked this girl? What's you relation to her?
I'm severely underweight, all but one friend abandoned me (thankful for that one friend, though), over-depressive thoughts and stress overwhelm me.
It's also tiring how no one that knows me thinks a person can change. I wasn't the best person there is but I try to get better as a person everyday even if I myself feel like shit.
>>675020958
pic related, a similar feelspasta. Hang in there, my friend.
>>675020879
Ahh just some bitch that goes to my school. Only mustered up the courage to ask her out today but I guess I'm not good enough. But whatever it bothers me a lot but I didn't even have any expectations so I'm good
Just dumping...
>>675021912
>...because I heard it all before, and it wasn't funny the first time.
>>675021535
Man I have sort of the same feeling with my job, like, if I can't do something so easy as fast food then how the fuck will I ever be able to accomplish my dreams or do anything else? It's just one job, and it's just one girl. We both have to move on and try something/someone else that will be good for us. I need to find a job that I can enjoy and help keep me happy, you need to find an awesome girl that will treat you great and like you for who you are. At least you went for it, and that was brave of you. Just keep trying and eventually you'll get there
...so lonely...
>>675022681
I wish I could have some one to talk to , that could give me advise , could give me cheers , could help me as far as he can... someone that could smile and say don't worry , it will be better
That could say that he like me and will support me
Just having someone...
>>675022067
fuck i almost cry there, i'm always like the same, i never get out of my room and i have to pretend i am having fun playing videogames all day because my parents are fighting , sometimes i don't even eat during the whole day
>>675022299
Bro you don't even know me but you feel sympathy. Thank you man. I know you can do it. Just keep trying and eventually you'll get there. :)
>>675023053
Feel you
I experienced that , then when they break up , my dad (where I lived) had sexfriend all the time , like one different girl per week
So that was the same except fightint was sex time in theire bedroom...
I lived all my life in my bedroom , never got real friend too hang out
Now I'm alone , living in a appartment and going out 40min per week just to food shoping...
No one ever call me...
>Sorry for my bad english , i'm sick and I'm curently crying...
Do you guys ever finish work and then just go sit somewhere random outside and stare off in the distance? Or go home, lay on your bed, listen to sad music from your phone and then start crying? I do it quit a bit. Or well, the first one more so but it sucks either way. Or you're so sad that you can't even tell anyone why it is that you're sad. Do I have depression? I keep telling myself that I don't but I'll go all day at work not talking to anyone and looking like I was to kill myself. (which, I don't want to) I'm >>675014937 and the reason I'm probably going to be fired soon is that I'm not quick enough while doing my job but I'm so dead inside that I can't get myself to do better.
Is this depression? If it really is, I think it's only temporary. Like, once I get a better job, I'll not have depression anymore. Right? :^(
PLease don't stop at the pony aspect... just listen to the lyrics and replace pony by person/body...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hb31SUYVSuw&feature=player_embedded
>>675023093
No problem, and thank you. You will too.
>>675023027
What are your troubles? What do you want to talk about?
>>675023053
How old are you? I was experiencing this as well until I moved out. So, my home situation is better which is nice. If you're not old enough, than just hang in there. You've got this. Do you have friends you could hang out with?
I was so fucking excited /b/ and now I'm just fucking sad.
I'm having an awful fucking time in New York. I booked a trip up here to see my family, but also to see one of my old best friends. We We're going to see Chinatown and Central park, but I would have been fine with something small like coffee, as long as she was somehow present. I planned the trip around meeting her Saturday but when I landed she cancelled till Sunday and she never texted me back about a time. Finally she juat bailed and left me in an awkwardly planned trip with a not so friendly family.
![Firewatch].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/Ln2xkhV.jpg "Firewatch].jpg")
I wonder what working in the woods would be like. Like, being a firewatcher or something like that.
>>675024770
Oh fuck man, that sucks. You need to try your best to enjoy the trip anyway, try not to let yourself get down too much about it. I'm sorry this happened /b/ro
>>675025146
I wish that was even a career possibility where I live. I'd love to do that.
>>675024282
The fact I'm alone , the fact my dad never were here for me , that I never had friends, that my mom was a whore (not in the figurative way , she was a prostitute some years before 'cause she was alone and can't buy food for her child ) , the fact I had much psychological torture when I was younger, the fact nobody ever give me a single hug , sayind kind words for me , I never counted for anyone , my own dad told me I was a shit and idiot a asshole and shit like that , I don't know what to do with my life , I failed at everything , last year I lost 9 000€/$ to a draw school that I failed because depression it me hard in the middle of the year (despite beeing good by what teacher and anon here told me) , that I have no more passion , that I'm alone in my apartment , no one ever give me a call... and 2-3 more thing I won't tell because I don't want to to think it's fake and I troll (despite this is the very truth)
Sory to dump a big text all in once , I don't even know how to explain , I'm just exhausted...
Thanks for asking and reading if you did...
>>675023620
fuck dude, i'm so sorry to hear that, atleast i'm here for you, i remember puting earphones at max volume because i didn't wanted to hear them fight, almost everynight, for atleast 2 hours, now my ears hurts when i want to listening to music because of that, shit isn't it?
>>675025427
I'm trying. I did the cith by myself today and it was fun, but I felt lonely and just kind of empty wansering around by myself in a weird city. Kind of like an unhappy ghost.
>>675025607
Feel sorry for you , I know that feel , I always used (and continue to) listen music very loud 'cause no one ever talk to me except for shit insult...
I always wonder how I can find big enjoyment in the smallest things (ordering a pizza, sitting somewhere staring at the landscape, helping others etc.), even though I've been severely depressed for years and years.
I like drinking too but I can keep that under control as well, even when I'm feeling extremely down.
Is there anyone else like this or am I weird?
>>675013839
At least you're not a KHV you fucking normie
>>675024734
i'm 16 right now, but they use to fight when i was 10-14, i never had friends to hang out with, as soon as i turn 18 i'll move, i promess
Anyone ever had a feely song play on the radio at a time where you felt your worst?
>>675026139
Not weird. The secret is fake it. Smile anyway. Make others think you're happy and eventually you'll border it. There are no smart, lucidly happy people so enjoy the thoughtless moments anon.
>>675024770
I always liked and found it a bit depressing how sometimes the littlest things can mean a lot to some people. Things you might not even think about like going out for a coffee, visiting them when they're sick or just even asking them how they're doing.
I remember my dad telling me a story about how he had a teacher who didn't really like him in college that got sick, so he decided to go visit him in the hospital. Apparently he was the only that visited him and his professor really appreciated that.
It sounds like she's kind of moved on and pushed you aside, so maybe you should too. Try not to feel bad about it, it happens.
>>675026372
Not that anon, but you really should wait until your 18 to actually post here. It's a dangerous place, this site.
>>675026607
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CjDw6NVQDjA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eht8_rhVMOs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_d0HRTx5CAI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hb31SUYVSuw&feature=player_embedded
>>675027224
>>675016247
Just the jimmies dad posts were getting to me then that final paragraph....shit
>>675025500
put your stories out there that is what this thread is for
>>675025500
Man, I actually also wasted $9,000 going to school. For Visual Arts. Don't worry, finishing wouldn't have made a difference most likely because it didn't for me. You just have to move on from it and accept that it's another monthly bill and fins something you enjoy doing whether it's to do with drawing or something else. As far as feeling lonely goes, just try to go out more often, I guess. I know it doesn't sound easy but I have anxiety and I'm able to do it. Even if it's just going to the bar or a restaurant by myself. Do you have nobody from the past that you could message? Like, an old lost friend? Even someone that you just used to talk to a bit? Just message someone and say that they came into your thought and that you would like to hang out sometime. Also, if you don't have a job, that can be a great way of making friends. Just ask one of your coworkers if they want to go for a beer sometime or something like that. You can do it, man. You've got this. Also, we all have stuff from our past that upsets us. Some worse than others. We Just have to keep fighting and move on from it.
Best of luck to you, friend.
>>675025928
I can understand that :^( Maybe try talking to someone while you're out? Or hell, just enjoy being by yourself. I do it all the time, I've had some really fun and enjoyable days that were spent with just me alone, out and about doing my own thing.
>>675027242
Nah, I mean songs that played at a bad time.
Ive bin deppresed for a long time. everything ive worked for is gone im failing in everything. I try my hardest at everything i do but i still fail. My failers are tearing me up inside. I thought if i was nice to everyone that somthing good would happen eventually but it hasent. Now i just think "if i keep smiling some one will smile back eventually right".
>>675026852
Yeah. It's been an expensive eye-opener I guess but it's ok. People don't realize the weight of thier impact on people. She got me out of a depressive rut and showed me how much I was worth, which is why I think this ended up catching me so off guard. I wanted to formally thank her, I even drew her something...
She's moved on, I see that and I'm happy for her. I just wish she didn't act like this was something she also wanted. I would have gone somewhere fun like Colorado had she said anything about not having the time or wanting to see me...
>>675012926
Conquer. Its your life \m/
>>675026139
I'm like that as well. Some of the memories that I've stored in my head were just me going out for a bike ride, or going out to the city by bus by myself. It sounds depressing, but it was a nice sunny day, I stopped and drew every once in a while, I listened to music and I really did enjoy myself. Sometimes, the littlest things can be the biggest things in our heart.
I like these threads. I don't have the energy to type out my story or why I come here to seek comfort. /b/ just... *gets* me. Anyone else feel like that? Like, a few years ago I found out my dog needed to be put down and I posted a photo of her here asking for a feels thread, and within 20 seconds someone had added a speech bubble saying "My master is such a raging faggot" to the photo, and in all honesty it was the only thing which could possibly have made me laugh in that moment. People say we're sick, we're twisted, we're a stain on humanity, whatever - I say we have a unique way of looking at the world, and it's because of that, that shit which would repulse, upset or depress anyone else is something we experience a sense of community from sharing with eachother.
I'm rambling here. Just basically saying that Anonymous has got me through some of the darkest moments of my life, and whether it's a feels thread, an operation where we fuck shit up, or just an IRC chat full of dick jokes, in my view you Anons are some of the finest hidden gems humanity has to offer, and it's a damn shame that more people don't get to experience or appreciate you.
>>675028053
OP here, I was and still am trying. It's just that everything has gotten in my way thus far.
I've though of killing myself more and more often to the point where it seems normal. I have a shit pay job, my moms got cancer, I can't sleep any more, and Im growing deeper and deeper into debt cause college. Other than that I guess life is ok.
>>675027562
I think I want to visit the woods tomorrow. I want to be away from people for a day. It just snowed tonight and there should be a dusting. I'm from Florida so it's a different experience
>>675027562
Fact is i tried to contact ex coworker and nobody replied to me so I just gave up , but thanks for the reply and advise
I hope I will find something one day
>>675026372
Do it, anon. Is there nobody from the past that you can come into contact with? No old friendships or people that you used to just talk to? Getting a job can really help with making friends as well. Or you could just join a group in your city or something like that
>>675026139
I'm depressed about all the big shit in life, and yet I can literally have myself in stitches laughing at a Bail Bondsman prank call. Who knows why, I think a lot of us are like this to be honest.
>>675026862
i've seen my dad kissing with random girls, i've seen my dad hitting my mom, i've seen how my mom cries, i've seen how guys from my school beat the livin' shit out of my brother because he tried to defend me, 4chan is nothing, i'm not a kid anymore
>>675012926
I was told that I was perfect for the girl I had been dating, but it's not a good time in our lives with me entering school again, and her becoming a travel nurse.
I had more feelings than her, and it's pretty rough.
Feel you OP
>>675028204
You can do whatever the fuck you want OP. I've had friends murdered next to me, depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety disorders, etc. I now own my own business and dont take any shit from others, but more importantly my shit. Its all in your head, your game, you hold the controller. It gets better OP, do you for a while. Stay strong brother
>>675012926
posting stuff from last nights thread
>>675028310
Nice, man. Do it. That sounds like it would be fun
>>675028298
Minus the job, which I lost, you and I are pretty much in the same boat.
Tried killing myself twice now, and both fucked up.
>>675028347
Good luck to you, anon. Remember, we're all here for you.
>>675028693
>Stay strong brother
You too.
>>675028716
I'm so afraid of commitment but here I am moving into an apartment with my s/o in the fall.
Life just feels like it's moving too fast, guys.
>>675028781
Fuck it. I am going to the woods.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22S5zZpuKfo
>>675029051
>>675029058
Life is all about commitment, my friend. You seem to be in a decent situation with your s/o right now: Assuming you really do love them, make sure to be careful about how your settlement goes, and don't have kids until you're both relatively well-off financially.
>>675028372
not really, few friends i've had betrayed me so, i like to being alone, i actually do
>>675027878
You try your hardest and that's important. Many people try their hardest but fail, I've done that too.
People can be really appreciative of your nice deeds, but aren't the smiling type, besides being nice is a nice trait to have.
If you're tired of trying hard, maybe take a break? Treat yourself to relaxing and resting, and after a while try again. Eventually you'll find something that you will succeed in. Hang in there, friend!
Does anyone remember this scene from "Gravity"?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f46GwvQHmOs
This scene speaks to me so, so deeply for some reason. It's like someone took my deepest coping mechanisms and displayed them in hollywood form just for the craic. Here, she's giving up on life, she's decided to let herself pass out and die in space rather than fight anymore to come home, when Matt (George Clooney) who had floated away and presumably died earlier, comes back. In contrast to her misery, he's cheerful and friendly, joking about breaking space-flight records and asking why she hasn't drunk the hidden vodka stash under their seats yet. She wants nothing more than to give up, but he's having none of it as he cheerfully lists the things they have going for them, and eventually when she continues to be pessimistic he tells it straight. She LIKES being alone up in space, because "there's nobody up here that can hurt you - you can turn off all the lights, close your eyes, and tune out everything". He tells her that if she wants to let go, then to stop pretending she wants to survive - or else get busy saving herself. And then she wakes up, and he's still dead, and it was all a dream.
Does anyone relate to this? I go through life wanting nothing more than that kind of friendly pat on the back. Everyone in my life is caught up in their own shit, or has expectations of me but doesn't actually care if I'm happy or not. Even my family. I watch this scene and it makes me bawww because I imagine similar conversations every day, with someone smiling and telling me everything's cool, and just joking around and cheering me up, when in reality the world is a cold, dark place devoid of that kind of cheer or colour. But the scene is company because it makes me realise I'm not alone in feeling like this.
Anyone else?
>>675028915
Like my mom keeps saying, "This too shall pass. Although it is our now it will not be our forever"
>>675012926
My life's going great, thanks.
>be me
>23
>loose girlfriend over stupid bullshit
>couldn't do anything about it
>hit real hard by it because I fucking loved her
>try to resolve issues with her one night
>she pretty much tells me to fuck off and don't come near her again
>be in my car later
>song comes on radio
>song is 'Against All Odds'
>"How can you just walk away from me, when all I can do is watch you leave?"
>I had to pull over just to cry like a little bitch
Anyone have the one of the pokemon being deleted?
>>675030049
I was in this thread, have my OC screencap, not this jpg artifact bullshit.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5dMJMSSb4LM
>>675030340
thanks anon
>>675030173
I'm glad.
>>675030178
She left you because you said loose instead of lose. Chin up and try again.
>>675029357
>>675030173
>Literally being this retarded
Kill yourself.
>>675012926
>>675029712
thank you friend
>>675030686
I'm exhausted and miserable. Can you excuse my poor grammar for once?
>>675030888
>>675028180
Me too, me too, I feel this so much
Thanks for being here, buddy.
>>675030975
This is a father-daughter dance.
>>675031151
>>675022067
>>675023053
My childhood in a nutshell
>>675030899
Just giving some advice. Want something more substantial? Exhausted and miserable? Get off the computer, go do something to fix your problem. The only person keeping you in this moment is yourself. You have agency to change.
I'm ready to fucking end it. My life was shitty and then I made it even shittier. I'm 20 and I've had really bad depression thats been unresponsive to everything I've tried for 8 years. I've gone through at least ten therapists, three group therapies, support groups, out patient programs, tons of medications, and nothing. I started smoking weed with my friends when I was 14 and then turned to hard stuff when I was 17 because I gave up on being happy. I've been a slave to opiates for coming up on three years now. I've stopped before but the horrible depression just comes back and makes me wanna kill myself, even after the withdrawal stops. I had a kinda shitty life growing up. My dad had a lot of anger problems and took them out on me and my brother. Only hit us a couple times but he yelled a lot. Once he got it treated he's an awesome guy and I love him but it still took its toll. I was bullied and beaten up a ton when I was younger. High school started to look up but then from junior year on things turned to shit. Miraculously got into my college of choice and I'm here now, and I'm still depressed although not using drugs as much. I just cant take it anymore.
>>675031271
I love you Cahlager
I make good money, have people that care about me, just bought a house.
I haven't been capable of feeling positive emotions for about 5 years.
My health is rapidly declining but I just can not give a fuck.
Hobbies hold no interest for me any more.
My memory is getting very, very bad.
I'm starting to lose important conversations, critical information, entire days.
It's a special kind of hell.
>>675031271
>>675031374
Your life seems like its about to get better why would yo want to end it now?
>Been doing the long distance thing with a girl for about 6 months.
>Flew out to see her over spring break
>Lost virginity, had amazing time.
>First week back and she breaks up with me. >Says the distance is going to be even harder now.
>Try to convince her that we can make it work
>We're both graduating, I can move there
>After an hour of arguing my case, she says she'll keep trying.
>Now it feels forced and there isn't as much emotion.
Basically it ended, now I get to watch the wreckage smolder until she really calls it quits.
>>675031800
>>675031829
My depression came back hard and I'm on the verge of failing all my classes. I still don't know what I want to do with my life and I'm just fed up with never being happy.
My life feels like some bullshit teenage drama right now, anyone care to listen?
>>675032226
yes
>>675031998
>>675031831
Why not take some control and end it yourself? You said yourself it is over. Save yourself the pain of a cold relationship.
>>675032226
shoot anon
>>675031998
That one hit.
I don't live a particularly bad life, 19, still live at home. but i don't have a job because the town i live in is saturated with junkies that only apply to meet the human services job application quota so i'm thrown in with them and never given a chance. I could probably do labor work but i eat maybe once a day and drink all the time. i have maybe 1 friend, if you could call him that. I know he only wants to hang out so i piss away my soc service money on beer for the two of us. I lost the only girl that cared for me because i remained too detached. when i'm not looking for work im playing vidya or attempting to write code, coding is something i've been enjoying. but i've reached a point where i don't know why i'm learning it, or what to make. There's just something about my life that fucks me. pretty pathetic i know. but I've got nobody to talk to and you guys understand what it's like to be alone.
>>675030932
shit man
Im too afraid to make a connection with a person out of fear of rejection. Yet I crave to be connected with a person. I want to die every morning but force myself to work so I can afford booze to sleep at night. I am caught in a cycle and want to end it. Please help
>>675032567
>>675033009
>>675033072
>>675032014
Im right there with you minus the college because ive always hated school decided early on in HS that i wanst going to go. So these last 2 years i sat in a chair packed on weight and was depressed, but im trying to better myself by losing the weight and eventually finding a way to get myself out of the house. If i can find away out of where im at you can do the same i believe in you
>>675012926
i miss my girl.
she'd come over sometimes while her boyfriend was away after school.

once the door would close she'd almost instantly get naked. most times she'd put on her favorite song and start sucking. then she would cry. her tears and makeup would drip down her face onto my dick. its surprising how cold tears are. eventually i finally asked her what was wrong. in between licks she told me that her favorite song was also her bfs favorite song. so even though she loved hearing it and it totally got her pussy wet, it also made her think about the fact that she was cheating on her boyfriend. i dont think i ever came harder down somebodies throat then right after she told me that. she was beautiful. we dont hang out anymore. wanna get lunch?

this was the song:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2tgwFpMA61c
I had a story to tell, but I just don't feel up to it.
>>675033174
>>675033331
>>675029795
I wish I knew you personally
You deserve that pat on the back for sure
I don't know you're situation and I can't even pretend to know how to advise you
But if it means anything, I'm rooting for you anon
I'm sure many people you know are too, often times I tend to overlook those who do because of my negative emotions and believe me it's easy to do
Even if not, a pat on the back is just a confidence boost, if you can do it with a pat on the back, then you have it in you to do it anyways
Good luck and godspeed
>>675032861
Gotta address why rejection terrifies you. Universe is built on things beginning and ending. Rejection is a natural part of every relationship. 99.99% of relationships, friendship or otherwise, end in rejection.
>>675012926
I thought my jacket got stolen
I called the bar today and it's in the lost and found
My girlfriend of 1 year broke up with me today. She said that for the past 4 months, she has felt no attraction or feelings for me. I dont know what to do, she was the only person i actually wasnt awkward and nervous around. I dont feel like i can ever connect to another person in my life the way i did with her.
Met this girl at my college. She's hot, gets good grades. Start texting her. She likes me back. We start dating. She takes me to her parents about a month in. I meet parents. Dad is a Bible thumper. Asks if I'm religious, I say no. He chases me out of the house, and my girl too. Now I, unemployed and neck deep in student debt, am basically forced to take care of another body. However, that body does give me good head.
>>675033573
better vesion
>>675013839
I haven't had one in 21 years, at least my 22nd birthday is coming up soon.
>>675033711
Well that's a relief
>>675032861
Im with you on the first part anon. Ive stayed away from drugs and alcohol because i know if i started that i would never be able to stop. Try to cut the booze out and try to befriend some of your coworkers they might be able to find someone that you can connect with
>>675032312
>>675032582
Alright, I'll go to the begging. I'd greentext it but it'd take too long.
I was always one of the betaest fags of my class, probably of the whole school. Had a couple of friends, mostly other betas but also some normal people. However, having been quite fat my entire life meant I'd had no luck with girls.
When I was around 13, I realized the boners I got wrestling with my best friend weren't casual. During this time, I had a thing with another boy, nothing important, just pubertal experimentation. When I was about 15, I somehow achieved what I wanted most: I fucked by best friend. Over the course of two years, we'd have sex regularly until he just decided he didn't want it anymore. During this time, he hinted he wanted something more than just BJs at sleepovers, but my retarded teenager brain didn't pick it up then.
Cont.
>>675012926
my life has been shit for a long time. most of the time I have that big knot in my throat like you get when you're about to cry and I can't remember the last time I was happy or even smiled
>>675031374
tell me about your brother. how is he doing
Hey /b/ I've been talking to this really cute girl but she's been slowly responded less frequently and she told me it was due to her parents arguing everyday and such. Also she has depression the fuckboy I am only talked to her because I heard she fucked guys all the time. But now I really feel a connection to this girl but I don't know how to understand the fact that she has depression since I've had bad times in my life I am right now but I always smile and I always joke around even when everyone is serious you know joking around and such just a joyful person. Apologies if I sound conceded but any advice on dating a girl with depression /b/? I was thinking of randomly picking her up if I ever feel that she's in a bad place just so we can hang and talk
I once had dream sex with the cancer Banana.
> be me
> fucking Taylor Swift
> I look away
> TAYTAY says "thanks lori"
> I look back in horror
> Cancer Banana cocked blocked my dream
Fuck you guys. It was an amazing dream and /b/ ruined it.
Sorry>>675012926
For coming in late. What's the status?
>>675034402
As years passed, he pretended our thing never ever happened and our friendship became increasingly awkward, at a time when people still knew us both as two really close friends, the occasional insinuation of our relationship dismissed with nervous giggles. We were still a couple of betas, but I started to make more friends, though with no luck with girls still.
Cont.
This is def gonna get buried but, I fell for my best friend, 99% sure she doesn't like me back, I feel like she's perfect for me, she's a 8/10, I'm like a 6/10 and idk if I'll find anyone ever who will date me :( never had a gf never been kissed never knew what it feels like to have someone genuinely love you
>>675036102
what a faggot
>>675012926
Yes, I'm probably going to get kicked out my house in a month, and i don't have a job at all. How about you op?
Does anyone have the "You're waking up from the dream" screencap?
>>675036333
the only way to find is to ask her.
>>675036379
U wit?
>>675036333
Not buried, I feel you my friend.
>>675036510
>675014366
That's me, and >>675028915
>>675036897
Yeah I don't know what I'll do exactly, i have no money saved at all, so I'm thinking I'll live with a friend for a while, then convince a few friends to move out with me since they wanna move out too, that way rent will be cheap. I don't want to kill myself, but i just hate myself for my stupidity.
>>675036734
But then I'm scared I'm going to ruin our friendship Bc she's told me before she doesn't want her close friends liking her Bc she feels like that ruins the relationship
my last one
>>675037605
Your contribution is appreciated, my friend.
>>675030711
I would go to a bbq with papaw
>>675028053
Jokes on you. I torched a veteran today.
I'm supposed to go get my blood tested today and I'm hungry as fuck and feeling down (can't eat overnight for blood test), but because of my sleep problems I've been without food for over 20 hours. Do you guys think it's okay to postpone it to a later date when I get sleep at a reasonable time? I just feel like I always postpone everything and can get nothing done, so I can't judge anymore.
>>675035658
>>675037524
is the friendship any different since you realized that you liked her?
>>675030825
Their life's going well. Let them enjoy it, faggot
>>675038225
Eh not really. Like her and I still talk everyday and whatnot and tbh I think she's suspicious that I like her. But I was thinking about it and I realized that like I'm always the one chatting her up first and I'm always the one leading the conversation :(
Anon, u got a throwaway email I can hit u up at? This thread is gonna 404 soon
>>675028053
That's my problem though in a nutshell. I don't give a shit about anything. If I were storming the beach maybe I would have a reason to keep living
>>675038694
i'll make one real quick
I miss my friend so much I just wish they would text back.
>>675038994
Thanks anon, I REALLY appreciate it
>>675035970
Goddammit I just realized how badly I derailed. Long story short, I'm still in love with him and he ain't, and only recently I came to realize how many opportunities I'd wasted, but that's not even the point. During my last year of school I made a solid group of friends with my bestie and two more dudes (Tim and Dan), both of whom I eventually told how I felt about my best friend (let's call him Matt)
Matt somehow found out I told them, and that made our friendship even more awkward.
Getting to the point, lately my other three friends have started to hang out without me more, mostly because they go to the gym together, and now I feel like I'm left out of the things they know (I.e. I found out by accident that Matt had broken up with his gf, -who just happened to be Dan's ex and a very good friend of Tim- while everyone else knew a while ago)
Cont
>>675038360
Are you some kind of nigger...?
OP here, the thread is dying down. Thanks to everyone for sharing their thoughts; I may not have responded to you all, but I read everything.
>>675040091
Thanks to you OP, needed this thread today. Wish all the best to you.
>>675039179
To make things worse, Matt loves keeping things from people to seem interesting (as short people are wont to do) and Dan loves to jump on his fucking bandwagon. This has been happening for a while and made me teally paraboid. The last few days something in particular seemed to be happening, and the three of them keep denying everything, while keeping an air of awkwardness when I'm around. So here I am, unable to sleep, burdened with paranoia and being mad at myself for being so fucking obsessed for someone I have 0 chances with, and I came to a horrible realization: my life was much simpler when I was a beta with little friends than now, surrounded by friends I can barely trust and who probably feel the same about me.
>>675029562
Wait, that date at the end doesn't add up. Am I wrong or just stupid? Got invested in those fucking crabs and now this seems suspect.
>>675040091
Hey man I just got here, like right this moment. Haven't been able to read any of it, not one word.
I don't know what the hell's going on but I want you to know that you're a fucking beautiful guy, alright?
Look at this, look at all these people here making a connection. I guarantee some would people here would pitch in to do some real world help. Dude I don't know you, I don't have a lot of resources, I don't know your problems, but I'd write you a goddamned letter, stamped and addressed and everything, just to cheer you up. I'd write you a poem, man. I'd write you a story. I know you'd do the same for others, too. That's heart. We all have heart. Help people, help yourself.
>>675041104
was probably a mistype
I had a failing grades. Feels bad man.
>>675041216
Good.
>>675041068
Well that was it, sorry for taking my sweet time, I know y'all are gonna ignore it now, but I just wanted to get it off my chest. Thanks /b/ros
This is for everyone in this thread. I'm going through some rough times of my own, and I want each and every one of you to know that even if you feel worthless and meaningless, and like no one understands you, you still mean the world to me. I love you all. No homo.
>>675041631
are you an anon or femanon?
>>675042410
Anon, kinda forgot to clarify, though I did mention boners
>>675041631
Don't mention it.
It's sad to know that what I'm about to say would be taken for granted due to its repetitive use; if you cry wolf eventually one would stop believing, especially when the wolf is really there.
The following sentence, if considered properly, could dramatically increase one life's wealth, health and overall being:
"You are absolutely in control of your life if you actually try".
>>675042955
I do try, but sometimes life just gets in the way. Medical issues, troubles, what have you
>>675027224
>>675027301
I hope that new nurse got fired fucking immediately.
>>675042825
have you talked to any of your friends about whats going on between them? If you really dont trust them you are probably better off without them
>>675019304
if you're having a hard time at a fast food job i would not recommend engineering. getting through the school is hard enough but my days are spent constantly scrutinized by everyone else in the office because i'm the new kid fresh out of school. the work wouldnt even be so bad if i wasnt constantly being micromanaged
>>675043623
she was put in jail according to the anon who posted the story
>>675031985
>he commited suicide to a lil b instrumental
>>675029330
I am fucking seething with anger.
>>675043284
I remember what arnold had mentioned in his book 'Total Recall' about how the university business professors were driving vw beetles instead of Mercedes.
He said that the more you know and worry about a certain thing, the less actions you will take towards it. In a nutshell, you create your own difficulties. Walk into life like a stranded puppy, adapting to its environment each step at a time, instead of spending years on years trying to calculate the best move.
Charles Darwin had said it himself, it is not the strongest or the smartest that survive, it is rather the one who is more likely to adapt.
>>675044364
Good. Cunt can rot there.
>>675043855
It's not as much as I don't trust them, I just feel they don't trust me, and my paranoia is acting up and I somehow feel like this has something to do with me and Matt. I haven't talked to them yet but I'll face Dan tomorrow if I manage to "casually" go to the gym when he does.
>2011
>be awkward high school senior
>lonely nerd with near-divorce parents
>have 3.9 GPA but not much else going for me
>girl asks me to prom
>fall in love
>she makes life not suck so much
>feel true happiness for the first and only time
>graduate
>spend the summer together
>fall comes and I leave town for a big university
>we try to make things work but after a few months I get dumped
>gradually fall into depression
>rejected by every girl I take interest in
>eventually drop out and move back home
>be now
>she's married and coaches softball for high school
>I go to the HS gym after work every day trying to improve myself
>can hear her voice
>she doesn't know I work out there
>the pain fuels my workout each day
>>675028430
Not to belittle your experiences m8 but you haven't seen shit. I would agree with the previous anon if this were 2007. Whew. So many times I'd seen what seemed to be a home turn into something horrific.
>that guy in the forensics lab who fucked corpses
>that one dad who used to post his 10 year old daughter giving him a bj
>actual hackers
>baseball bro
>Christmas cum bottle bro
I came to this thread to feel sorrow
Reading some of these, all I feel is rage
Fucking christ I hate people
When I was 13 I started to feel really bad with no reason, feeling sad all the time, laying in my bed sleeping or feeling bad the entire day, I tried to kill myself many times and my mom didn't even know because she spends the entire time working, everytime she sees me crying she just say ''fuck off you're just a kid'', all this years I tried to feel better by my own and it worked. Now I'm 15 and it's getting really hard to me feel fine, sometimes I think I can comitt suicide but I don't do it because everyday I swear to myself that I'm going to get out of this shit, but you know.. it's really hard when you're feeling so much shit inside you, and you don't have anyone to tell, when you are so alone, I know I'm just a kid but I don't feel fine,I don't know what to do or why I'm feeling so bad.
I know I'm mentally ill but I dont care, i just wanna be a girl
>>675014366
Can't join military because of medical technicalities, too. It's the worst. Been trying to find something to die for, but I got no friends and family. I was hoping the army was the way out. Being the anemic shit that I am, I've got nothing now. To much of a pussy to kill myself. I always prepare but never go through with it.
>>675035081
WHAT IS HER LAST NAME!
>>675035221
don't
>>675047778
Currently 14 my dad fucking hates me, beats me for no reason, strict overall and ive got a small sibling in which every chance she gets she throws me under the bus, my mom is the only one that sits down and talks with me (she works all week) and all that I would share with dad, I share with mom. She doesn't know I've been trying to end it. But the thing that has kept me from doing it is just imagining what me mum would feel like seeing her only son dead.
>>675047778
i felt the same... being 14 to 16 i had a hole in my stomach i felt couldn't be filled... i got hard into drinking and it seems to hold me over that hole has since disappeared. now 27... nothings gotten better. Still though i continue to hold on but i feel like 30 wont be coming for me.
>>675048204
Try joining the french foreign legion, or another foreigner-open military group that you aren't opposed too. For me, I'm in contact with the Syrian Kurdish YPG trying to volunteer overseas for 5 to 6 months.
>>675016247
This one hit me so hard, but instead of my father that I lost contact with and died of cancer, it was my 12 year old son...
>>675023620
Ill be your friend :(
>>675048666
>underage
MODS MODS MODS
>>675049080
>>675049080
>pretending you've never posted when underage
>666 trips
Really, you're that guy? Fuck off on calling on mods.
Been super depressed today.
I am 7 months pregnant with twins, can not work, my husband supports us, just lost our house and had to move in with husbands cousin. Feeling really alone and lost. I have always wanted kids but now I feel like I am going to fail as a parent. Had a full time good paying job, but being high risk I am not able to work. I hate life right now.
>>675036372
Ouch.
>>675049637
I'm gonna take a shot in the dark here.
You're under 18. Come on, you can tell us.
>>675022273
I hate this. Kill yourself or don't; that fuck is wasting countless people's time.
>>675037605
No god, not this one. Still haven't found out if its real. The pain is still too fresh.
I tried to go to sleep but I couldn't stop thinking of life.
And my waifu.
>>675049080
>inb4 the mating call of the newfags
>MODS MODS MODS
Drink bleach please
>>675028053
It isn't one bad day that I need to man up for; it's 40 more years of life not getting better.
>>675049699
when i got my g/f pregnant i dint have a job... took me over 4 years to get the job my family deserved... was working b/s jobs to pay for life but i made it after my daughter turned 4.. as soon as i made it and then had a son as well... i all of a sudden am not a good father and haven't seen my children now in 5 months... enjoy your situation now b/c for me it was the best of times even though it seemed liked the worst
>>675014366
Youll be ok man. I'm 28, alcoholic, heavy smoker, no girlfriend, dropped out of college. I can feel my body turning to shit by the day (also 270lbs). I'm getting too old to bounce back from it with just a lifestyle change. And I'm afriad I wont change my lifestyle in time. If you're just dropping out you sound younger than me. You have plenty of time to fix shit and enjoy your 20s. Dont become like me, dont start smoking or drinking. Before you know it youll be almost 30 with a pickled liver and shitty lungs and heart.
>>675012926
Whenever i'm in these threads I can never tell if the stories are true or false. Maybe we're not supposed to but it pains me. Partly because the stories are sad, but mostly because the people in these stories feel and experience both such extreme emotion. Life just doesn't work that way. For me at least. Its just dull, pointless, anxiety more often than not. I can relate to caring for someone that doesn't for you, but I have literally never been loved outside of family. I don't envy the terrible things that happen to the people in these stories. I just wish I could experience some of the good. over half of my life has been either void nothingness, or misery. Each time a thread like this 404's its just back to the same.
>>675012926
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWQUs7S0bYo
