How much of a fucking failure am I /b/?
I fell in love with this girl, I asked her out and she said no because she needed time to work on herself, to find the will to live. I was fine with this, it made sense as we were in a treatment center together.
Well, now its like two months later, we're both out and I told her I haven't stopped thinking about her, that I still want her, that I'm still reall really into her.
She fucking responds by telling me she has a girlfriend now.
What the fuck /b/, how am I not supposed to see this is as all about me? How am I not supposed to see this is as me being too fat, too ugly, or just simply unlovable because I'm a fucking faggot freak trans woman. I deserve to die /b/, I'm cutting and drinking like mad and all I want is to fucking die.
pic related, it's the most recent photo of my faggot ass
>>674845041
if someone has a good way to kill themselves with nothing more than a tiny ass razor blade please tell me, I doubt this thing could breach my jugular.
If I jump off my balcony I'll just be a fucking vegetable, no way 6 floors will kill me.
Timestamp you tranny freak
![20160320_000405[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/6ymny8h.jpg "20160320_000405[1].jpg")
>>674845390
best I can do right now
please kill me
>>674845923
>treatment center
>also those cuts
>mfw
>>674846468
not a good picture of the cuts. lemme try for a better one. I've been wiping away the blood so it doesn't look quite as bad
Woah girl take it easy theres no need for that! This stuff happens to everyone, the fact that you are trans could be totally unrelated. Dont beat yourself up about, find the next one!
>>674845041
![20160320_001007[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/ielKQ4B.jpg "20160320_001007[1].jpg")
>>674846468
>>674846620
here
there are way more interesting and better things to spend your time on than someone who doesn't wanna be with you. be a person you'd want to be with. giving up now eliminates any possibility of shit getting better, and if you were at a treatment center, you obviously want shit to get better, right? so pull yourself together, clean yourself up, sleep it off, and try again tomorrow. what else do you have to do ?
>>674846903
Truth
>>674845041
Your first mistake was having feelings for a woman
Just don't do that anymore and you'll be happy the rest of your life
>>674846468
Also maybe get a fucking grip on your life.
You clearly have a fucked up life.
So what could you even offer this person
And the same in vice versa.
You wanna be fucking happy.
Learn to like yourself.
Life is still gonna throw bullshit at you(youd fucking kill ur self if If u had to deal with on a day to day basis)
But at the end of the day Im still comfortable with who I am and what I'm doing.
Not being in a relationship is such a trivial issue
>>674845041
>ugly AF
>>674845041
Kill yourself.
>>674847447
how, 6 floors wont do shit and all i have is beer and a tiny razor blade I broke out of my razor kit
>>674845041
its not about you.
stop cutting yourself.
why dont you do what she dd and get YOURSELF together?
>>674846666
Nice quads satan
>>674845041
My God get the fuck over it. She just doesn't like you. There's people out there that would like you and find interest in you. Finding them is just the hard part. I have late-onset schizophrenia and all my friends abandoned me but I'm not fucking cutting myself and drowning myself in self pity.
Life is shitty grow up.
>>674847552
This.
People are so hung up on other people that they dont even see it.
Yea I've had my heart broken before but you know what.
>%99.9 of relationships are meaningless and based on necessity
>>674845041
you know how many times i've been rejected?
just be a normal person call her a cunt a few times leave a nasty voicemail and move on to the next sloot. Bitches come and bitches go dont over react
Being this emotional is just going to turn people off even more, OP. Sometimes people don't like you, get the fuck over it, better yourself and find somebody else.
>>674845041
>>674845923
>"""girl"""
>>>/lgbt/
>>674847548
there are PLENTY of ways to kill yourself you fucking queer bitch. Be creative.
>>674846666
>>674846903
>>674847268
>>674847552
>>674848025
>>674847859
>>674848025
>>674848103
>>674848209
What the fuck is this, I came to /b/ to get pushed over the edge. Have you all gone soft?
You think I haven't tried to fix myself, to better myself? I'm almost 28 and I'm still a worthless sack of shit. I live in an appartment paid for by my father because I don't have a job, I take hormones every day because I think they make me feel better about myself but all they really do is make me fat and fucking ugly.
NO ONE could or would even want to love me. Ever. I'm going to die alone weather I try or not, that's the truth of this world.
>>674848726
Bitch give me an idea so I can work with it, I can't think of anything right now
>>674846780
Ha!
>>674848791
full bottle of aspirin followed by full bottle of tylenol. done and done.
>>674848791
Lol google it then you dumb fuck
>>674848870
ok how clean/messy do u want this to be? and do you want to teach her a lesson in doing it? if i fucking type all of this shit out you better fucking do it.
>>674845041
if you truly wanted to die you would have killed yourself already. what you are doing is just wallowing in your own misery and seeking attention. gtfo
>>674846780
>>674848791
jus go back to being a dude and try and fuck some poon
>>674848952
doesn't work, tried that long ago. The lethal dose for a 180 pound person is approximatly 35-40 grams of that shit
>>674849117
Honestly? I don't give a fuck either way. And no matter how I do it she'll get taught a fucking lesson I'm sure. The problem is I'm broke as fuck till tomorrow.
>>674845041
you meed to relax my friend.
as of now, Im still tore up about a shitty irresponsible abusive girlfriend that I fell in love with.
a girl I couldnt bring myself to love who loves me with all her heart.
and I can't muster any energy to go out and find another.
and I'm stuck in Bakersfield and I realized this week that I never get called up at all. I'm always calling.
but you know what.
it's no sweat.
I just gotta take it slow and work on myself.
I need to change my diet, excersize. amd flex my creative muscles while im working.
ive got my own place for a while, a car. and i reconnect with my parents a little more each month.
a year ago i was homeless, drinking alot, smoking a couple times a month and wearing the same clothes for months on end, and stepping on lanines with a girl i loved who cant make me feel safe or like im growing.
things can be worse op. but you need to buckup and realize the only one who should care the most about you is yourself right now.
the rest will fallow.
things finally worked out for me when I stopped caring about wanting others to care.
>>674849354
how many pairs of shoes do u have(with laces)? Trust me, im going somewhere with this.
>>674849723
1 pair boots 1 pair shoes, i doub't they'd hold my ass though. Nothing in my appartment could support my weight.... MAYBE the railing outside
>>674849723
Braid all the laces and hang herself. I see where you're going.
>>674846780
cut deeper you fucking pussy
>>674849883
oh fuck I'm stupid, I got it guys. Imma just get stupid drunk and walk to the freeway. How did I not think of this till now
>>674848791
What you need is FFS. Not killing yourself. Also, maybe some fucking therapy or some shit. If you really cared about her you would move on and be happy for her. Its not like she did it specifically to hurt you.
>>674849883
You don't need to support your whole body weight, you can lean over in a chair.
This takes me back to the day I committed suicide
>>674849354
> And no matter how I do it she'll get taught a fucking lesson I'm sure
I really don't get whats going on anymore. I mean, are you planning to off yourself finally because she rejected you?
Sorry to say it, but if that's the case then you just simply need to grow the fuck up and realize there are over 6 billion people on this planet. If you truly think there is nobody out there for you, try leaving your comfort zone more often.
Like you said, your dad is paying for your living situations, which is rad as fuck imo, I wish I had someone doing that for me. Buckle up and look for some work, even a shitty part-time job. Save all your extra money and travel and live your life like you want to.
Or if you just want to kill yourself it's no sweat of my back. Best of luck either way.
>>674850008
Yea, walk out in front of someone else's car and ruin their life. You're a dramatic little cunt, aren't you?
>>674845041
youre right, you do deserve to die
please killyourself quickly
>>674849883
line them all up side by side. tie around neck. tie knot on other end. put not on top of door. close door. take pic. text pic to her. wait for response. fall down.
>>674846666
No way quad 6's would lie. Put your big girl panties on (or whatever you trans freaks wear) and move forward.
Either that or take the 6 floor drop, if you go head first with your bloody arms at your side you won't have to worry about the vegetable thing.
>>674850373
at least tell us a general area of where you are so we can look for proof on the news there.
>>674850355
7 billion people now. Also I'm a 20 year old NEET tranny that just got dumped, in an actually cruel way, by someone I had been dating for several months. And guess what, I'm not killing myself.
>>674850029
yeah cause that's not obscenely expensive or anything. I am happy that she is happy, I'm upset that she fucking lied to me. Why couldn't she have just been fucking upfront and told me no because of me, not no because she needed to "work on herself"
>>674850195
There's nothing good to tie it over in here though, the only thing that's sturdy enough to not break is the railing outside overlooking the pool. Not sure if the lases will support me though, maybe if I double tie em around.
>>674850355
No, I'm not planning on killing myself because she rejected me, I'm planning on killing myself because my life has no purpose, I'm fat and ugly and will always be and I'm going to be alone forever.
>>674850490
I'm gonna need a no escape scenario in all honestly, hence going over the edge.
>>674850373
You have a good point, I really don't want to fuck up anyone elses life but my own
>>674848791
>taking hormones to feel better about yourself
>mood swings make you want to kill yourself.
op you need to chill your vibe or get a calming add medication to stabilize your mood swing.
they aren't just for physical shit, they're giving you insecurities and feelings.
your not even ugly.
the way your acting is ugly, you need to convert to nihilism instead of this self destructive emotional roller coaster.
maybe listen to really aggressive music?
try Driller killer . or like Tao cross or something.
ITT people who are trying to talk her/him/it out of this and should just shut the fuck up.
>>674850737
u deserve a cookie
>>674846468
Fucki gkek
>>674845041
EASY ANSWER!!
kill yourself. your kind will not be missed tumblrian baitfag
>>674850767
I'm gonna need a no escape scenario in all honestly, hence going over the edge.
then take the fucking razor to your jugular. how have you not tried to do that. and don't forget to take a pic and post it before you die. Christ man, we don't have all night.
>>674850888
oh waaah someone didn't kill themselves on the internet today. how dissapointing.
don't get me wrong, I don't care about strangers.
but I'm thinking logically.
if they kill themselves they are just like every other quitter out there.
and that's boring.
>>674850839
I'm on Depakote, Seroquil, Prozac, Estradiol, Spironolactone and Buspar. Trust me, I'm on shit to stabalize my mood
>>674851085
never been on tumblr in my life
>>674851136
I told you this fucking blade is too small for that, seriously it's a razor I got out of my shaving razor. I broke it open
>>674850737
Aside from the tranny aspect, you're speaking to someone the same as you. I'm 21, still live at home, no job.
A good friend just offered to move me down to live with him, rent free and got me a job. I spent the past 4 years in regret and self-pity. I tried to kill myself more times than I can count and fucked it up each time, and I'm glad I did.
I know most people going through shit won't believe this, because I sure as fuck didn't. But it will get better. Just go out and do you, give no fucks about others and live your life for yourself.
I don't have all the answers, but do your best to keep on living.
>>674850945
Mostly I have been lying in bed crying, watching anime like the weaboo trash I am, and today I went on a really long walk.
>>674846780
Whoa! those r some brutal paper cuts :o
>>674850692
Are you trying to reply to op?
>>674851325
Sounds depressing, well i hope you get better...
>>674845041
>that hebrew on your left arm
>>674850767
Tie it to a doorknob. Sit down and lean over.
obviously you have no desire to kill yourself really. so stop wasting our time and move the fuck on. we gave you options. stop being a worthless, tax-wasting faggot and make something of yourself.
Stop wasting our time.
>>674851284
Wow, great post. You're an inspiration to jaded tranny autists everywhere.
>>674851410
yeah an op that ONCE AGAIN isn't going to deliver.
>>674851281
oh gee, I guess they must be working!
honestly you should just quit those fucking murder drugs.
and move to something like adderall or Meth or something.
they just gave you those so you'd do what your doing right now.
trying to kill yourself on 4chan.
taking all those obviously aren't working.
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>>674851396
>>674851513
What? Right shoulder says Poet, right forearm is a dragon and left forearm is a Valkyrie wing. Nothing hebrew there dumb shit.
>>674851696
Yea I'm not op. Work on your reading comprehension
>>674845041
>as we were in a treatment center together
Yeah, there's your first mistake. Don't do that shit, trust me.
>>674845374
It can if you jump head first. Or you can get some rope and jump off. Shit will snap your neck so fast you'd barely feel it.
>>674845041
Stop wearing vnecks you fucking loser. I am genuinely surprised that she didn't date you. you do look like a bitch.
>>674849593
THis guy gets it.
>>674851491
Thank you. I'm going to go eat a kiwi and hopefully it will make me feel better. I'm still sick too, cause she broke up with me when I had a fever of several days.
Well I got church tomorrow so I'm gonna go. Ima keep this thread open and auto updating in case you decide to ACTUALLY stop being a pussy cunt and send your soul to Hell. Have fun burning for the rest of eternity. Now or later...
>>674851784
wut?
>>674850839
>convert to nihilism
Lol r u retard
>>674851831
haha yeah. that was supposed to be a reply to the same one you replied to.
>>674852010
well then, take care fam
OP do you live with your parents?
Your bathroom looks way to nice for a degenerate tranny on the edge of suicide.
>>674849117
U sound like a fucking Aries
>>674852049
lol, shut up you nigger
>>674852339
aquarius. but close!
>>674845041
You know, you'd be a pretty attractive dude. Like if you just cut your hair. I don't know if you're against that, but you could rock that
>>674852307
that was taken in an extended stay america. and if you paid the fuck attention you'd know I live in an appartment paid for by my father
>>674845041
How long have you been transitioning and at what age did you start?
>>674849348
Im rolling for this
>>674852829
Year and five months, started at 26
>>674851784
not one person has said to cut down the street not across.
smdh
op you can either care so much about what you look like to others and slice down your fore arm.
or you can stand up and come up with a plan instead of hoping some bitch or someone else is gonna fix it all for you.
dumb retard.
quit your mental drugs some "doctor" thought it best for you.
and quit taking your fucking hormones.if your gonna do anything you should take testosterone and go to the fucking gym you bastard.
if you wanna feel like you can handle the world start acting like it and make a feasible plan about it you chickenshit.
>>674850888
Obey trips white knights
>>674845041
ew no wonder she didnt ant you you look like a man with a wig; ugliest man who dresses as women ive seen
>>674852959
Did you have any surgeries done?
>>674846780
LOL
>>674851264
Yeah quitting is boring. They should be like the 7 billion rest of us. That's exciting. Logically; stfu
Smash beer bottle and stab neck or cut veins
Grow the fuck up. My bf just broke up with me because he didn't want to give me herpes. What kind of bs excuse is that shit? Who cares about your bitch. If you're going to cry about someone let it be someone you've actually had a relationship with.
Women don't have dicks.
You.Will.Be.A.Man.Forever.
OP, what kind of relationship do you have with your father?
>>674845041
DOOOOITTTTTT
>>674853799
cans not bottles =/
>>674853940
dicks can be removed
>>674853996
decent
>>674845041
You must have an extremely low self esteem to fall for something like that repulsive creature
>>674853866
tits or gtfo cum dumpster
>>674854246
I could be gay faggot.
>>674854092
it dosnt matter if ur dick is removed ur still a man in disguise whos too much of a wimp to be happy in his own skin
>>674854335
idgaf bitch post its man or women with time stamp
>>674852959
Sorry to go kinda off topic, but is that considered too late? What does it depend on?
>>674854092
Not you're chromosomes sir
You.Will.Be.A.Man.Forever.
>>674845041
A borderline shunned by another borderline. The horror..
>>674845041
>I'm a fucking faggot freak trans woman
>trans woman
>woman
>>674854443
Google "shitting dick nipples" that's me.
>>674845041
Op cut that fucking hair, stop dyeing it, hit the gym and stop being such a fucking autistic faggot. Jesus Fucking Christ its like you people don't even know how to pretend to be normal
this is the shittiest thread i have seen in a long time
>>674854613
its not let me google you or gtfo stupid hoe, its tits with time stamp or gtfo
That....that's a dude
Op came on 4chan after a hiatus still thinking it was nowthatswhaticalledgy.jpg and had enough liquid courage to pretend like he was thinking about killing himself;
Got angry cuz he realized /b/ had got flooded with summer and kids who enjoy talking about their feelings,
But started enjoying all the whiteknightfag attention he was getting and calmed down a bit and shits getting boring.
>thread
>>674854092
OP I don't really understand what you're going through, but if your relationship is decent with your father, I implore you to think about the kind of pain you would inflict on him if you took your own life.
I lost a friend to suicide about two months ago and I still miss her. I still question if there's something I could have done to help her. Please don't OP.
What happens in treatment center, stays in treatment center.
>>674855346
If it makes you feel worse; of course there is something you could have done. How often did you ask her what she was thinking about, with serious legality, not just shitposting.
>>674855346
you're friend is a stupid cunt and im glad she died you annoying piece of shit white knight
>>674845041
>>674848791
Falling into a proper social circle and/or intimate relationships are a correlation of living a healthy life, not a causation. Stop trying to dump your problems onto other people and expecting them to solve everything for you. Take some god damn responsibility and if you're gonna off yourself just do it, stop fishing for attention.
Start reading. It's good for the soul. It's good for passing time. You grasp alittle more knowledge of this crazy ride we call life and expand your horizon. It's also a good investment; 100$ will buy you 5 good books which will last you over a month, and that's assuming you read like a madman, which you probably don't.
Start writing. It's good excersise for your creativity and a great outlet. You don't have to write anything crazy, but you'll find that even a journal a day writing about your thoughts and emotions helps you really understand YOURSELF. You can't fix a problem unless you know what they are first.
Excersise. This is a must, for obvious PHYSICAL and HORMONAL reasons. If you play any sports, try joining a team, or just practice on your own. Maybe if you don't fancy any sports, skateboarding/rollerblading/running is good too. And if all else fails, GO TO THE GYM (although I personally think this is a must for everyone)!
Last but not least; try and pick something up that involves rhythm. Dancing, singing, musical instruments or even drama class. This helps tremendously with depression. Look it up if you're interested, I don't want to explain why.
>>674855765
I'm not sure why you'd go out of your way to try and make someone feel worse. Sorry, it didn't work.
>>674855853
You seem like a pleasant person
