Feels thread
>be me, at my friends house
>just watching movies.jpg
>suddenly hugging her and kissing he
>she has a boyfriend already
>i feel to attached to her
>now she rarely talks to me
>and im sad because its like 40% chance i will never have someone so loving as she was that one day or never feel the same as i felt
>now i cant think or look at her without feeling depressed
Cant do shit. Everything feels so wasted afterwards, i try to take my mind off by going outside and doing something active like running or rock climbing, but its hard when the cycle continues, i fall in love, i dont get rejected or that, i just slowly get ignored as time goes by.
>gf and i broke up 3 weeks ago
>i cant move on, guess she has because now she's with her best guy friend who she told me not to worry about during the relationship
>have to see them every day at campus doing all the cute shit we used to do
>have never felt so beta
>>674775617
Must feel bad to know that you were her short term option
>>674775851
we were together for 1 and a half years so it stings
she said we should break up as when we left college she'd be getting a job somewhere different to me and she said she couldnt bear to make the relationship long distance
i know for a fact this new guy isnt going to work at the same city as she wants to work at
>>674776073
Damn.
Only time i feel like dumped is when im always the second option, or the last one.
>gf left me for the second time
>feeling depressed
>cant sleep, cant eat, cant do anything
>already lost a lot of weight
>start fail my university classes
>nothing makes me happy anymore
I dont know how long I can still do this /b/.
I miss her more everyday and know that she already has a new dude.
Everything I did for her. I feel like the only purpose in my life left me.
The fact that she does all the things we used to do together with somebody else now makes me so sad.
I feel so empty, hurt and the worst thing is alone.
I need somebody to hold me, to hug me, to love me.
>>674776073
i feel you bro
>>674776389
i realise now she was the only thing helping me keep my head above water because now in just 3 weeks ive gone from being content and productive so a quiet grumpy lump who cant find motivation for anything. i know maybe i'll get better when more time has passed but still, it hurts
>>674776655
I know how fucking shit it feels when you get depressed and start failing classes, you just feel like nothin lasts anymore, nothing makes you happy
>>674776949
yeah, thats exactly how I feel.
Everytime I wake up, I wish I didnt.
I dont the when the last time was I actually laughed or felt happy
bump
i wanna wallow
>>674777237
Yeah, and when i usually laugh or be happy either roght after that i feel like shit or i feel like its only to mask the sadness, hardest times were when i felt to depressed and cheated that my eyes started watering, its not fun trying to hide that for rest of the day.
![390-pawpaw-0317[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/88cUM1M.jpg "390-pawpaw-0317[1].jpg")
Anyone else looking through ylyl threads to try and get some happiness ?
>>674778289
Usually yeah
>>674778299
I feel this
>>674777535
i know that you mean.
holding it back is the worst>>674777535
. sitting on the train, trying not to cry because of the people. and as soon as my home I start crying my eyes out and sometimes I dont even know why.
>>674778622
Yeah, only reason i walk to home usually is to cry while walking
>>674775295
Sorry bro. Here's an honest suggestion that will work for sure.
First, save about $600.
Get a passport, go to the Dominican republic. Go to the beach. Go get something to eat. A very pretty woman will approach you and want to hang around you. Ask her to cook for you. Take her home and do whatever. When you want her to leave, nicely drop her off, and she might want a few bucks for her family. Give her some. The avg wage down there is like $100/month, and whatever you give is really appreciated . She is your new friend.
Repeat process. You should meet your first woman within an hour of being in public. Literally the first woman I said hi to came home with me.
It won't fix your broken heart, but you'll definitely forget about her for a while.
>>674775617
Semi related.
>be sophmore
>help freshman girl move in to dorm
>three weeks into semester, date.
>fuck all the time, she has more experience but I learn quick.
>shes a wreck; drugs alcohol hookups... Im straightlaced
>shes got it bad on drugs, I clean her up. I get her to stop drinking crazily and I get over her sluttish past.
>fast forward two years
>living in an apartment together
>love each other so fucking much
>talk marriage, future house, kids
>fast forward another year
>I'm in my internship year for nuclear medicine
>shes a senior
>over past year, we begun sexual exploring
>started anal, some domination, had a failed three way.
>in new apartment
>shes freaking out its her last year
>didnt do stuff like make friends, hung out always with me
>makes a friend, asks me if she can hang out with him.
>whynot.gif
>barely see gf now, working long hours for program.
>stressed out because mounting student loans, also paying fro engagement ring.
>fast forward to Feb 20
>Breaks up with me
>cites stress, family issues (both sides), and need to not have stress due to stressful application year coming up
>im determined to win her back
>also cites i was suffocating her (she liked tattoos and piercings and bacon, me being a jewfag)
>tell her ill buy her a tattoo, took her to get her nips pierced, and always let her have bacon she chose not to.
>fast forward last thursday
>her imessages pop up on my pc
>i see shes been fucking that friend numerous times a daysince december
>they love each other
>they officially started dating a day after she broke up with me
>i confront her, shes pissed i read the messages
>i tell her i forgive her and just want her to be happy
>truth is i want her back badly
>we still live together till july (lease), so i see her when shes here texting him smiling (based on messages i know its shit like "ima make you cum so hard tomorrow")
>>674777417
Wallowing feels so good sometimes man. I honestly think it's good sometimes.
Go have a cry mate, curl up and bed and just get it out. You will fell better I promise
>>674779237
>I know this shitfuck got some anal, and is getting some kinky play like handcuffs and shit, shit i spent years getting her into.
>I still love her
>So i tried to an hero
>failed
>she found out, came back and spent all weekend and most of the week this week with me in the apartment.
>dont talk much, shes here to make sure i dont an hero. But she started to hat me now.
I feel your pain. I get to see her texting him about sex while smiling all the time. And get to go to sleep alone knowng theyre fucking each others brains out 4 miles away.
>>674775295
Dude a similar thing is happening to me right now,
some advice I got told was just think of it as experience, sure it might be depressing to think nothing else is going to happen, and it sure as hell distracted me from everyday life and work thinking of her, but look on the bright side, at least you can say it happened, something is better than nothing right?
As for not speaking much, im guessing just like my situation it is just because it is awkward now, the awkwardness will pass with time hopefully and one day you two might even be able to laugh about it and hey you might even get a second chance.
I still think about girl from my situation and it makes my heart feel something it hasn't felt in a long while. Its hard but it will sort itself out.
Stay strong /b/ro
>>674779237
that's so rough dude. i feel for you... any way at all you can move out?
>been feeling great for months
>doctor has me off antidepressants
>suddenly sleep for 18 hours
>put it down as my body catching up from a week of 6 hour sleeps
>suddenly happening every night
>can't eat or get out of bed
What the actual fuck. I have worked so hard to shale off depression and now I'm back to where I was a year ago.
It's not fair.
>>674775554
Yeah, that must be it. Retard.
>>674779775
Cant afford to, I'm like 20k in the hole with student loans and no steady income until the program ends... Shes starting to feel the economic pressure too, now that I'm not buying every single meal like I used to.
>>674779564
Well i kinda went past the akward part but i get too attached to certain people, i got really angry when she ignored me a little bit and just followed my Other friend, thats when i got angry , but that passed so i guess i just try to accept the faith, which is hard, and usually it loops, when one thing goes by Other comes
>just over a year ago
>senior year of highschool fuck yes
>kinda cute girl, not really my type asks me out
>never had a GF before, say why the fuck not
>fast forward to 7 months later
>get the sex, fuck yes
>nearly daily humping until I leave for Uni
>she has breakdowns every now and then because distance
>only really a 3 hour drive but whatever
>christmas break
>came home for spring break a few weeks ago
>daily humping like usual
>everything's smooth sailing
>back to uni last week
>she acts weird and sort of depressed
>pretty normal, she gets like this when I leave
>calls me two nights ago
>"I need a break"
>manage to convince her to wait to do anything drastic until I'm home in a week
What the fuck do I do?
>>674779936
do you talk at all or is it just cold all the time between you?
>>674778299
I used to be this guy, i eventually stopped caring for people, ironically thats when everyone noticed how much they "liked me"
Fuck people
>>674779237
shitty situation dude. I feel for you
but just remember what she is without, and what you are with, or without her
>nuclear medicine (i dont even know what that is)
>>674780274
I hate it when that happens, "I just need a break from people"
Bitch i see you ignoring me and following others
>>674780373
Yeah it feels bad,Right when you start to say fuck you, somekind of switch goes on others head to start acting or something
always been an introvert loner at heart. When i moved to uni last year I suddenly had the hottest girl around, a group of friends that liked me, i felt like i was on top of the world. My girlfriend adored me we were together for a year, but when we broke up she lied and made all of my friends hate me, now I'm adjusting back to loner life. It's depressing
>>674780355
Depends. Shes still pissed at me for reading her messages (no idea why they were on my pc, and it was wrong of me to read through the thread once I realized it, but it gave me all the answers of the cheating and relationship).
She tries every so often to talk to me when she is here, and sometimes she will text me and we will have a convo, but I cannot tell if it is because she genuinely wants to be friends (she says she still loves hanging out with me, but not romantically) or just to be cordial because we live together. At the same time, anything can set her off and make her mad at me and not talk to me. Of recent Ive been semi avoiding her in my room, purely because I guess I want to see if she would make an effort to talk to me, or maybe to see if maybe she would somehow miss me.
>>674780274
"I need a break" is the universal sign that she's already cheating on you and has already weighed her options
Sorry /b/ro
>>674780483
and what's really fucked is that over this "break" she wants me to keep talking to her and pretending nothing has changed because her mom would kill her for this shit
>>674780651
Wow, i would feel so fucking angry.
Anger is such an intense feel, it feels good because its stronger than depression, but it like a drug sometimes
>>674780465
Thats the fucked up part. Im the one that gave her her future (without me shed be completely drunk and drugged up all the time with her then friends). I took her and made her the marvelous person she is today, helped her work on her appearance (and she on mine) to make us better looking... And opened her up sexually to a lot of things. And now, before I get the fruits of my labor, someone else is getting everything while I am cast aside...
>>674780885
she's now dating my old flatmate, and ex best friend. None of them mind though. I was so angry, I saw it happening, I knew what she was, how everything was. But they didn't see, and when it finally happened they didn't care
>>674780746
Either cheating, or found someone nearby who she has been leaning on for support and believes she has feelings for now (as you are too distant to have feelings for).
I know, since it just happened to me.
>>674780746
in her words
>The only dick I want is yours, I'm too scared to let anyone else fuck me
>I just want to be able to be a teenager and fuck around
I should note she's 17 and I'm almost 19
>>674778924
yeah, same.
And it sucks not to have anybody to talk to, or who understands you...
>>674779237
Move on
It will hurt like a bitch, but you will eventually end up in a better place than what you are currently at.
Something similar happened to me, sadly, i was the other person.
>>674781243
Damn
>>Girl broke up with me a week before Valentine's Day
>>Itsfine.jpg
>>She lived 8 hours away, and we were being distant
>>Ends alright. Decide to stay friends. I'm good friends with my other ex's
>>Tell best friend who moved to a city near her for work
>>Such a good friend. Spent nearly every day at his house last year before he moved. Even made a summer band with him and played some parties
>>Know she will start dating which is fine. We are people with needs
>>Go on dates with a few people. They go okay.
>>Two weeks later, he is telling me how another friend is mad at me for something dumb
>>I'm about to go out drinking with my friends
>>He drops the info that he is dating my ex
>>No time to process this
>>Try to have a good night but it is ruined because of this
>>So pissed
>>He would hang out and smoke with her. I made sure they would get along because it was awkward dating someone who hated him
>>Remember how they each said they would never date one another since they cared about how I feel
>>Send them messages saying they lied to me and are awful friends
>>They don't give a shit
>>They say they shouldn't feel guilty and they didn't lie since that was made then and this is now. Apparently a short bit of time can change a promise between best friends?
>>Complete 180 on friendship, and suddenly have a sworn enemy
>>Try to get over it by cutting them out of my life
>>Find out he is making up stuff about me how I was a bad friend
>>He is literally doing damage control to not seem like the bad guy
>>Went to a concert last night
>>Saw the same band with the two of them multiple times
>>Nearly break down crying but hold it back for my friends
Moving on sucks, especially when you lose more than just a girlfriend.
>>674781243
In my exes words;
"I would never cheat on you.
You and you penis are my life, together and always <3
You are the one Ive been looking to marry my whole life.
If I could I wouldve married you yesterday"
Words mean nothing. Their meanings are as variable as the events of an average day. I say this as she cheated on me and fell in love with ehr lover and left me for him (greentext up above, samefag).
>>674781428
How did it feel being the other person? I lie awake at noght wondering if this son of a bitch has any thoughts on how he pried the only thing in my life I was living for and loved away....
>>674781243
That means literally nothing
>>674781521
My girlfriend was my best friend, my confidant, my everything. So I hear ya, when she left I lost everything.
>>674781389
And usually when someone understands,either i cant tell it to them or they suddenly dont care anymore
Got catfished in KIK
life sucks man
>>674781223
Thing is, I come home every 2-3 weeks, call her every night, and text her all the time. All of this at her request might I add, she gets mad at me if I don't text her or call her
>>674781537
>>674781837
I still want to give her the benefit of a doubt, and she's promised not to do anything retarded until we get the chance to talk about this face to face
>>674778622
I get it. People think I am a happy person because I am always smiling. Truth is I am depressed as hell, especially now, so I smile even more otherwise I basically would be dead inside.
>>674779237
wtf is nuclear medicine?
some fallout buisness?
>patch me up with a can of beans
>>674782187
>>674782211
An imaging modality to acquire video data of body processes. Imagine an xray, only instead of radiation being shot through you its injected in you and is shot through your body as it moves around, and those photons are picked up by a camera that circles around you.
>>674782174
Okay but still, so you see her what, 4-8 days a month? There could be some other person she sees every single day. She might be growing fond of this person, and using them as a support beam while clinging to you. But feelings do develop that way. And that person would not be a support beam and stick around if he didnt want her too...
>>674779892
Need to get a job pal. That's sorted me out. Work decides whether or not you have a good day or a bad day. And you get moneys to help you on those bad days and boost the good days. It's really needed.
>>674779227
only works if youre white and they just want u fro ur cash
>>674781937
Exactly the same position I'm in. It sucks so much.
>>674776655
if no one else will love you, /b/ros will always love you.
>>674781827
With "the other person" i mean your gf/ex current position, not her lover/bf.
There was this girl who helped me get over depression, been together by 2 years (and 5 more as friends), considered marriage... i ended up cheating on her and eventually broke up with her.
Felt fucking horrible for everything i did to her, but i think it was better for both of us (i didnt love her "that way" any more so she deserved someone better, and the girl i cheated on her with is an old friend from grade school and now, 3 years later, my fiancee)
>>674782465
sounds intresting, gonna dig into the topic later on
thanks anon
>>674781956
damn dude, you are litterally me. I hope you can get out of this misery soon and live a good life. I hope you find somebody you can be happy with
>>674782946
I was feeling pretty shitty today and obviously that's why I'm just lurking here but seeing this made everything seem a little bit better
>>674780649
fake and gay
>>674783202
Been searching for past 3 years, only to end up runnin in circles
>>674783673
i feel you.. don't give up. I' trying too
I saw a thread "post your mom" earlier, it makes me feels so :
> this is my mom
> she died exactly 22 years ago today, I was 8 at the time
> it's the only pic I have, it was 1975 or something like that
> I don't know if there is a link, but I'm unable to talk normally with a girl since, I'm a fuckin' wizard...
Does some anons lose his parents here ?
>>674784620
What the fuck is going on? is that your dad showing his dick to her or something?
>>674785001
kek no, it's on the beach and someone run in front of them (my dad is on the left, I cut him off)
>>674785217
Well, it literally looks like the guy on the left was exposing his dick and you tried to blur it out.
Anyways, sorry for your mom anon
>>674782703
idk man, we're gonna have a few long talks over skype between now and next friday. then a few long talks in person
>>674781243
>>674781537
>>674781837
I have to agree.
Words mean nothing. They will tell you shit like that all day, but when ACTION counts, they will sit on someone else's dick and cite
>muh feelings
>muh alcohol
>muh learning experience
>muh maybe I wanted you to find out
>muh people make mistakes
>muh I didn't mean for it to happen
>muh I'll never do it again
Women will do all sorts of mental gymnastics to justify their cheating on you, and will lie to you to make themselves feel like they're not a total sack of shit.
Women do not have real convictions like how a man does. A man's word is everything, but a woman's is meaningless.
Now I don't know your situation, but you should look at their actions, not their words.
>>674785817
She's said she's felt "pressure to perform" ever since we started having sex. So for the last 7-8 months she's been caving into any advances I've made and never told me this shit. I'd just assumed that she was happy and fine because she never acted otherwise until now
>be on exchange program
>meet girl
>hit it off, but she has a boyfriend
>decide to act cool about it
>otherfish.rar
>sill seems like she's interested
>various things at various points
>New Year's eve she suggests the two of us do something
>I should mention here that I'm retarded
>suggest we go to mutual friend's party and go elsewhere if we feel like it
>think she's still in relationship
>we go to the party
>nothing happens
>fastforward a couple weeks
>find out she broke up with boyfriend a month ago
>goddammit.png
>decide it's time to act
>ask her to go visit a nearby town with me
>we go, have a great time
>absolutely fall in love, head over heels
>next week we see a movie
>feel I should make a move but pussy out
>next few times I ask her to do something she's busy
>still see her in classes, so it's not so bad
>on Valentine's I ask her to be my Valentine
>try to be humourous because I'm shitty at expressing my feelings
>100% neutral response
>fucks me up a bit but carry on
cont.
>>674787044
>a couple weeks later we actually do something
>at her place, we just talk the whole evening
>we were going to watch a movie but we're having so much fun we just never get around to it
>start opening up a bit, say how much I enjoy spending time with her
>she says the same
>didn't really feel right to make a move, plus I'm a pussy
>go home without anything happening
>again.wmv
>last week I ask her if she wants to go hiking this weekend
>she accepts
>hope to finally say something to her
>fastforward to a couple days ago
>overhear her say something to her friends about fucking some other guy
>heart sinks
>anyway after class I ask if she's down to go hiking
>she says she forgot.
>finewhatever.gif
>haven't spoken to her since
>been in a funk thinking about it
I didn't ask for this, /b/
It's threads like this one that remind me that many posters here are actual people and that 4chan is not just assholes and racists
>>674775295
there will be others, man. Just work to enjoy your life through things that you can do, and look to do things that you're interested in. Find specific questions to ask that are able to be answered specifically, and then as this continues to make up a greater portion of your everyday life, you'll find another person with whom being around them is just its own reward.
But first you have to handle yourself. You're more important than anybody else, man.
>>674787256
the beauty of /b/ is that I can be calling someone a massive faggot in another thread, and in another thread spill shit I don't talk about with anybody
>>674787163
Yes you did beta boy. Suck it up cause you won't be making the same mistake with the next girl, just don't get too hung up on the fact that you missed this one.
Good luck /b/rother
>>674787478
I see what you mean man, I'm personally pretty new to 4chan, but these are by far imo the most interesting threads just because of the huge contrast against the other ones y'know?
>get invited out with workmates to local clubs
>not my scene but I enjoy alcohol
>they forget about me
>that night get a message asking if I can give them a lift home
Ended up drinking all the booze in the house and passing out on my desk. Fuck people
>>674787841
newfag scum
>>674788524
Hence the reason I rarely reply, I leave that to those who know what they are doing
>>674788370
lol this happened to me, twice
When you start rejecting people is when they start caring for you.
>>674788677
>I leave that to those who know what they are doing
>>674787749
Fuck off with your beta/alpha shit, I don't need that right now. I was getting mixed signals the entire goddamn time, I wanted to take it slowly so I didn't fucking scare her away
>>674788962
But hey, at least I'm not that newfag that complains on how 4chan used to be so much better right?
>>674788677
We need more people like you.
On my 'home board' /o/ we get people posting with names or trips and then later saying it's their first thread. When did the anonymous culture die?
>I see everyone talking about losing their gf
>can't feel for those guys
>not because I do not want to
>but just because I can't
>I have never had a gf
>And I will never have one
That's why I come to these feel threads, so I can imagine what it's like to lose someone that cared for you.
>>674789802
Much Appreciated, I'm just more of a lurker than a poster simply because I would clearly be seen as a newfag if I did post
>Be me
>Average life
>Lower middle class family
>Parents fight pretty often, didn't think much of it.
>We move around a lot, I'm talking different countries all around the world.
>Severely depressed
>Try to live a normal life for a while in high school
>Meet some nice girls
>For some reason I get bored of them
>Decide to isolate myself
>Parents split
>Younger siblings go with mother
>I stay in this new country to pursue career in boxing
>Things looking somewhat promising
>Start thinking more and more about life
>I end up throwing myself into a spiral of self doubt and hatred
>Quit boxing
>Coach keeps calling me asking me what happened
>Tell him I'm done and that I can't do it anymore
>He comes over to talk and try to find out what's wrong
>Doesn't work
>Now I'm a neet, living in a beautiful house with my bipolar, materialistic father
>Every day I feel this profound sadness, like a shock running through my chest
>No desire to do anything
I just sit at home and sulk all day. I used to have ambitions and goals but it's all gone now. I don't want to live but I don't want to die, it feels like I'm in limbo.
The fact that I've been gifted with such an easy life and that I've thrown it all away makes it hurt that much more.
Pretty attractive, used to have good grades, was "sporty", now I'm just a nobody sitting in my room all day on my computer.
Why did this have to happen?
>>674789248
We're all shitty newfags newfriend
>>674790265
You will have brother
>>674790368
>Don't want to live but I don't want to die
Same here /b/ro, it's odd because when I'm with friends or doing things I enjoy like performing, I love life, it couldn't get much better, but the rest of the time when I start thinking deep for no reason I just think to myself, 'Life would be so much easier if I were dead'. If it weren't for these hobbies or mine, or my family I would an hero right now
>>674790444
Nice trips, but any ways, I'd prefer to stay a lurker than post something and instantly get called a newfag y'know? But in threads like this everyone seems to listen no matter how long you've been here, it's a nice change
>>674790968
feeling exactly the same. But I cant even get up to do something with my friends. all I do is stay at home and wonder how it would be if I wasnt there and if anybody would miss me if I an hero
>>674790968
Just stick with those friends anon.
I cut all of mine off because of how much of a downer I was.
I know the feeling of being so carefree when with friends, and the seemingly genuine love of life that comes with them. In my opinion though, it's just a distraction from the sadness, not a cure- but again, that's strictly my opinion, probably not even true for most.
>>674791284
Don't an hero, you can achieve anything you want if you just put your mind to it. I know all too well that when you're in a trench in your life it's waay too easy to see all the negatives and the positives are almost always hidden. If you put your mind to it and try to focus on the positives of what you are going to do today you will soon be back on track.
Easier said than done I know, even though I'm saying this I still find it hard to do.
Hope everything turns out alright for you dude
>>674783069
Basically the stress from my life now coupled with my depression drove her away, and the guy whos shoulder she leaned on "as a friend" she ended up fucking (a lot) for three months while falling in love with him and out of love with me...
>>674783075
Always happy to educate. It is interesting stuff, really...
>>674785613
Im not trying to convince you one way or the other, but keep your mind open there could be a lot happening behind the scenes. For all I know could just be a family thing idk
>>674791284
>wonder how it would be if I wasnt there and if anybody would miss me if I an hero
I feel the exact same way. Everyday I hope I get in an accident and get badly injured, just to see if anybody would care.
Only thing i cried to on the internet.
>>674792616
Literally this.
Everyday I hope a fucking semi hits me and I get sent to the ER, just to see if I wake up if my ex would be there or not.
