Feels thread?
>I get depressed when I'm not at work, even when I'm doing things I like. When I'm at work, I long to have some time off to do the hobbies I like, the same hobbies that make me depressed when I'm doing them. Everyone I meet seems to leave me. I have no goals other than to make movies and I'm sitting on fifty thousand dollars worth of an inheritance, (which when I didn't have that money I dreamed of buying many fanciful things with) only to do nothing with it than pay bills. I swear, unless something fantastic happens that turns my life around for the better, I'm probably gonna bite the bullet after I make my movie.
>>674480185
What is your idea for the movie?
>>674480185
Hey anon, I've gone through the independent film process as an actor, and as someone who's filmed for hbo, I have to say it's one of the best experiences I've had, everyone on set was a friend, a part of a team that was making something cool, it was a great experience, and I think you'll enjoy it
>>674480928
It's a compilation of the crazy shit I see at my pizza delivery job animated in SFM. Pic related, one of the sets.
>>674481520
Shame is though I'd be doing all the animating myself other than voice work.
>>674480185
>friend dan is ugly asshole
>friend hannah is a literal goddess
>have a crush on her since i meet her pretty much
>she just told me 20 minutes ago that she has hada thing for dan
>i thought i was falling for her
>she drops this on me literally the day before i was going to confess how I felt
I'm a highschool faggot idk what to do.
Should i tell her anyway?
Should i pretend i have no opinion?
help /b/
>>674481965
how good of a friend is dan?
>>674480185
WEll i have some problems... my therapist quit therapy cuz she thought im psychotic... but i dont have any paranoia nor Hallucinations...
I'd rather say im borderline with a hate and distrust for Psychological institutions... why? because of my fucking childhood trauma... My older brother physically abused me when i was between 2 and 5, when i cried hysterically they didn't listen to me, they put me under cold shower or locke dme away in my room... sometimes with my brother who abused me... i Dissociated completely and started crying in school on several occasions... i developed psychosomatic Abdominal pain and my mother got me to the doctor... They gave me a clyster(2 times, which was the reason i stopped crying about it)... my brother noticed i get attention with this and as attentionseeking faggot he started pretending having pain... he did it several times and one of the doctors took him into therapy... Me not... its like in a car accident.. where they tell the victim to get over it and accept it(without any paymnet) and help the Alcoholic driver to escape without charges... also giving him a enw car...
I have been raised with pure hatred. I havent been seen for 23 years.... and now when i finally decided to get help they tihnk im psychotic :(
>>674481811
Where could we find it when finished?
>>674482513
On youtube.
>>674482313
The only thing i want is some fucking payment for the amount of damge they did to me... they left me as a complete emotional wreckage. Not only that... they told me to take antidepressants and i developed an chronic pancreatitis from them. Im fucking disgusted how psychatry treats people in my country
>>674482313
if you caused a therapist to quit theres probably something wrong
>>674482962
Yeah, I mean specifically.
The tube's a big place these days
>>674483102
Yes i became fucking angry when she wanted me to project my parents onto her and during that projection she expected me to get over it and accept it. And i didn't want to for exactly those reasons i wrote... not any Paranoid hallucinatious phantasies... . Its like a fucking mistake by her.
>>674482189
could you say that he is... the man?
>>674482962
Can you give us a potential title maybe so I can screenshot it and find it a few years later while going through my pictures?
>>674480185
You can bite the bullet and transfer that cash to me. Its the complete opposite for me. I just want things to enjoy. It fills that void of too much time and no way to spend it.
>>674481811
Gay as fuck faggot an hero before u do a disservice to the planet and finish that shit
>>674483430
and that is the difference between PSychotic and Borderline... I have the urge to cut myself because i hate myself... i dont think any illuminati are after me... i either don't think anyone else wants to kill me... its jsut i kinda want help but i can't trust anyone, i lost my trust in humans. So i sometimes accept help and sometimes not...
>>674483196
>>674483453
I'm still thinking of a title, "Losers" is a thought but I'm still up in the air with it.
If anything, just follow me on facepunch since I post a lot of shit on there about it's progress and send a message or some shit. Now on with the feels
https://facepunch.com/member.php?u=706738
I just want someone to validate my existence. I really only have one friend left at this point, and he's been cancelling plans on me more and more often. I'm not sure how to meet more people, either. Like, I'll meet girls, maybe a few a month, and we'll hit it off and text for a while and plan a date. Every time, without fail, they cancel on me last minute. What I keep coming back to is that either the rest of the world consists entirely of assholes or there's something seriously wrong with me that scares people off, and I'm not so arrogant to think that the rest of the world is only assholes.
And so I try to actually do something with my life. Right now I'm training so that I can go climb Mt. Baker later this year. The goal is to do Everest in a few years when I get a sabbatical for work. But there's nobody to train with me. There's nobody to think it's a cool idea with me. There's nobody.
>>674483897
>I want someone to validate my existence
I'm this x 100. If a tree were to fall in a forest, does it make a sound, or was it even there?
>>674483777
i kinda Project the shit on the people around me... im fucking desperate
>>674483508
Boyo, I remember when I was living paycheck to paycheck and I was having all these wild dreams of getting a new car and a shitton of computer programs and other nigger rich things, but all I do with that money now is just use it to pay bills and rent.
I mean I don't have to worry about how I'm gonna pay bills anymore so that's good but that's about it.
>>674482189
kinda my last really good friend at my school not counting Hannah Literally was tryna fuck hannah on friday.
They didn't but then right after he started going out with this other girl
He made hannah fucking cry because of his absolute disregard for anyone else's desires or needs.
>>674483441
also yes. yes he is
>>674480185
Holy shit, this is me, everything except the movie. Were in the same boat
>>674484957
Welcome then brother
If it weren't for the movie, I'd literally have nothing keeping me going.
>>674484368
Well when you croak, I'll happy live a fulfilling life with nifty things to tinker with. Screw blowing it on cars and nigger rich things.
I'm dating my best friend... she moved across the country years ago, but somehow and for some reason, we ended up as a couple when she was staying here like 3-4 months ago.
My last girlfriend was borderline crazy, we we're together from our early teens to early twenties. We both ended fucked up, but I still miss her for some reason.
I feel alone when I'm with the "new" one, and alone when she's not here... Idk man, guess I'm just a depressed pussy
>>674485488
I'm sure you will boyo
19 and feel life is just passing me by. Same routine every single day. Get up go to class and then sit at home and shit post on /b/. Weekends I wait around until I have to go to work then hang out with the same few friends and do the same things over and over again.
>>674486910
do something else, then.
>>674487288
I could but I don't know what to do, just feel empty and the future doesn't look too bright.
>>674487653
Do something, anything, I've kinda realized that making and pursuing goals is what makes me happy, just do something you really like, set a goal, and work towards it
>>674487653
Find a new hobby, be it models, following a series, history, etc.
Learn a new skill, be it knitting, cooking, shooting, etc.
Variety is the spice of life.
>>674488384
>>674488650
Makes sense I do have several hobbies I take part in on a daily basis but still feel like shit at the end of the day. Met some cool people through these hobbies but never form a real friendship through them. I've been trying to set some goals for myself too.
>>674486455
im still having a hard time getting over my girlfriend I dated from 17-23 ... im 25 now.
I've seen pictures of her with another dude recently too... but honestly there are plenty of other fishies in the sea ..you just have to grow the balls and courage to believe in yourself and go for it.
Don't do what I did for 2 years and try and play video games and smoke weed all day to numb the pain ..go do something productive that will make your life better... you will be happier in the end.
Not too major of a problem but still fucks my life up, I'm socially autistic, here's a story that happened today
> math class
> called to answer question
> question is literally the easiest basically have to put numbers into an equation
> insist I can't read the board even though I can
> walk to front of class to read it
> stutter the whole time while mixing up every other word
> eventually some girl who is dumb as fuck has to walk me through saying it
> face red as a albino in florida
> go back to seat and put my head down for the rest of the day
Why am I like this
>>674489140
Find another aspect of the hobby.
Model trains? Try another scale or region to model. War reenacting? Try WW2 instead of the Civil War. Knitting? Knit jackets instead of blankets.
>>674490128
Kek not into any of that but ww2 history is pretty cool. Now that I have more hobbies than I thought at first. Most of them are outside activities but new hobby maybe wouldn't hurt.
>>674490573
Now that I think about it***
>>674490573
WW2 Model trains.
You get to work with your hands as well as your typical history.
