How did you stop from killing yourself /b/?
>be me in last semester of university
>want to be a pilot
>have no motivation
>getting good grades but 0 social life
>gf cheated on me with good friend
>too much of a sperg to use tinder and fuck random girls
>only thing I enjoy anymore is lifting
Outside of school and gym I do absolutely nothing but sit in my room and feel bad for myself. I know Im a loser but I the more I sit in there the more I can't do anything. Ive lost all my friends, no more gf, my car is broken and Im out of money. Pretty sure if this keeps up Im going to kill myself before graduation. I just went out and bought a shotgun last weekend but decided not to go through with it just yet. This is rock bottom for me.
Anybody here go through this? What stopped you from killing yourself?
fuck it im out
Don't commit suicide yet, finish flight school or whatever and see if being a pilot makes you happy, take out loans if you have too, it doesn't matter since you might not like flying and shoot yourself, but definitely reconsider until after you started your career.
>>674440841
Guess I was to late?
>>674439842
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>>674439842
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>>674439842
thats how
>>674439842
Not joking OP I've heard that pilots get mad pussy. I don't know if it's actually true but it's worth a shot. Plus if you become a commercial pilot you can an hero with a decent number of people.
>>674441683
> shitposting on /g/
> watching anime
> trolling freetards
> studying
>>674439842
do you only like fat chicks?
How I stopped myself from commiting suicide is weird.
Basically I woke up one day and started saying to myself I'm a pussy for wanting to do it and that it's the bitch way out.
2 years later and life is pretty legit.
>>674439842
>my car is broken and Im out of money.
>I just went out and bought a shotgun
Fucking pick one asshole
>>674441913
its just the folder I decided to dump
>>674440904
probably a good idea
>>674442183
I know killing yourself is the bitch way out but Im in such a fucking rut.
>>674442234
It was 189 dollars on craigslist
>>674442183
Kinda same for me Everytime you're gonna do it, you don't it's that simple and retarded. It's like "you didn't manage it last times, why waste your scripts, you're too Bitch to do it any other way, you like living, shut up Bitch, be a man" something like that thinking
watch anime or some shit.
>>674442234
>credit
>>674439842
After some serious shit went down in my life and went through a heavy alcohol/coke dependence that lasted about a decade. Saved myself by almost dying actually. I was with some skank who cheated on me and I was still drinking heavily so I decided to go to bar and drank myself stupid then try to drive home.
Plowed into some road construction equipment on the side of the road and split my skull open. Doctors told my family if there was any way of my living through the coma that I'd be brain dead, but my family wasn't ready to pull the plug and a week or two later, I woke up. Gave me a new appreciation for life. I still drink, but I'm in control now instead of the other way around. I also do my best to avoid women. Working pretty fucking amazingly so far.
>>674442786
Strong mental walls are developed through time and care and patience, you're not gonna be instantly good overnight and you're always gonna have a bad day here and there. Get off anti depressants and psychs when you feel you can and live as a normal human whose a shade or 2 off
>>674439842
alcohol
>>674442786
I sat there with the shotgun in my hands for a few hours. That was pretty much the dialogue in my head.
Im feeling a lot better today but it doesnt take much to send me spiraling. I wish I could just stop thinking about killing myself but I feel like thats not possible.
>>674442966
never been a fan of chinese cartoons
When you reach the bottom, the only way to go is up.
>>674443276
oh and fluffy abuse threads
>>674443372
faggot
>>674443151
Well glad to hear you're alright now.
>I also do my best to avoid women
Ive been trying that for the past few months but it is only making me more depressed. Can't shake the loneliness ya know?
I think you have too much potential as a human being to killing yourself, if that helps???
I mean, I feel better about myself by reading about the suffering of other human beings.
>>674439842
My Story
>No Friends
>Zero outlets to express my emotions
>Trapped by stupid fucking family
>Broke, pretty sure I'm going to quit my job
>Have no clue wtf to do with my life
>20
This is my current situation. I might just snap the fuck out soon.
>>674443151
>i do my best to avoid women
easy when you love dick, faggot
>>674439842
Hey man I feel you sometimes it's pretty hard.
My girlfriend just dumped me a week ago because I'm a jobless piece of shit. I've been trying to get out of the situation but without success so far.
Worst thing is she says it's gonna be radio silence between us for months but just before that says that one day we might be together again if things change and that she misses me. Just enough to keep me emotionally tied you know. Now everyday I get to wonder in the dark if she's fucking another guy and cry myself to sleep.
I've been a failure pretty much all my life and the thought of ending it crossed my mind more than once. But in the end I know that if I kill myself I'll cause so much sadness in my family that I can't do it.
Figured a pretty good way of doing it would be to breathe helium. Painless and efficient.
>>674443340
It's not you it's a pathetic part of you, that's been set up either by people or experiences or matters of the heart or mind.... It is so far removed from you both as a person, an entity on this planet and a concious being as people see you. Stop striving for self worth or comfort or whatever it is that lurks deep that you truly desire, it's not at the bottom of a glass nor the end of a sawn off it's in you being you and enacting that change for yourself and not others. Always be good not because of Karma but because it's the right thing to do. Never forget at the end of the day people will just view it as someone who took the cowards way out...and you're not going out like that! You're bigger stronger and better than that. So chin the fuck up and stop the nonsense, go do something you really want to do, now.
>>674444081
OP here. When I was 20 I was in the same boat. I had no idea what I was going to do so I just randomly picked a major in school. I ended up finding a good job and got a gf and became a much happier person. 2 years later it all came crashing down even harder. Try and snap out of it man.
>>674444012
thanks
>>674444387
yeah I've heard of the exit bag. Considered doing that but it takes a little while to work right? I got a shotgun because its instantaneous. Besides, nobody gives a shit about me right now so why should I give a shit about the mess they have to clean up?
Glad you got a family keeping you together man.
>>674444508
I mean I definitely see what you are saying anon. I really appreciate the message but Im having a hard time seeing things the way you do right now. I havent done it yet so maybe thats a sign things will get better? I just have approximately 0 motivation to do things anymore. Makes it hard to work on my pilot career when I can hardly leave my room except for the school and gym.
>>674439842
Listen here the lots of you killing yourself isn't gonna solve shit I have had an atrocious couple days that I won't get into but it's never the fucking answer, as someone whose tried multiple times it's always the greatest feeling waking up like I got another chance at this. I'm holding out hope something that I know will not will happen but it's what I got atm but I don't let it get me down because I got other shit going on. If you've got no friends make some it ain't hard, if you got nowhere to go just grab a coffee or a book and sit there someone is bound to talk to ya if not maybe approach someone as long as you're not a creep about it it's gonna be ye/Na and you've heard both of those before. Just live fuck ya
>>674439842
I won't tell you my situation, because I'm too much of a pleb, but what I can say is that I get what you are going through, and you just have to tell yourself to get up everyday and keep going, for any reason, even a bullshit reason you don't believe. If you can't do it, you got nothing left, and just can't take it, and you honestly just wanna die, an hero if you're really down. But that's your call
>>674439842
i was a suicidal sperg too
was also raised a religionfag
wanted to top myself, but thought, fuck it, only person going to save me was me and not some bearded sky fag
joined online dating sites, went on some terrible dates, realised there are TONS of sperg girls way more sperg than me, now i have a gf and regular sex, la vie est belle
top yourself if you really want to, but if you're doing it out of self pity you need to wise up and forget that bitch. go travelling in some shitty asian country, or go to europe. italy and germany are really worth seeing. try some drugs as well. if you're DEFINITELY going to top yourself, at least do some heroin first
Mate, life is much shorter than you can even imagine.You wil die anyway.And life of course worth losing.But if you have shit to do - get it.If don't - don't be a plant ant an hero.
>>67444525>>674445257
Man up until a few weekends ago I hadn't left my room for like a year maybe work when u had it that was about it, then I thought "by now boys will think I'm fucked" whatever kicked it with the crew and it was like nothing had changed I'm different maybe they are too but we still brahs at heart and that's what matters man. If you got no motivation go look in the mirror do you recognise the reflection? If not why? Once you have a list of that instead of going "I wish I was like I was when /like so and so' instead walk out your front door and go grab a coffee with a mate talk you'd be surprised how much people understand, pick carefully coz some people will take kindness for weakness but If you are in a bad state you are the most aware of that kind of shit and can see it clearest. The motivation will only come if you fill that fuel tank, and do it for you coz you're worth something you're going to be a pilot a respected career with infinite prospects.
>>674439842
Welcome to absolute freedom. I would guess you're reasonably fit, you have a shotgun, and are borderline suicidal. You should use your mortality to better the world rather than simply bow out and become nothing.
Find a target, anything from a dirty politician to a drug cartel. Someone whose death would objectively bring positive change to the world. Plan, stalk, kill. If you get killed in the act then you got what you wanted and are dead. If you kill them then you've made the world better, and depending on how good your plan was you'll either be caught and get to commit suicide by cop or you'll never be caught and can find a new target.
Welcome to absolute freedom, and a new purpose in life. Best of luck OP.
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>>674445313
just took the time to write out detailed responses to you two but my shit fucked up and im not going to re-write it. I appreciate the responses btw.
>>674445632
Raised a religionfag here too. If I end up not killing myself maybe Ill try the online dating sites too. Yeah its mostly out of self pity right now. The fact that I have all this self pity makes me want to kill myself even more. I feel like a piece of shit for feeling this way. I dont know what it is man but Im having a hard time getting myself out of this way of thinking.
>>674439842
this is not rock bottom you fucking faggot. You are in college. Talk to some people in your classes. Or just sack up. It is 4 years and then you will get a job and meet people that way. Your life sounds a hell of a lot better than parts of mine so find a hobby, quit acting like a pussy, and tough it out.
>>674446221
Thanks for the advice anon. Its that kind of thinking I need to practice.
>>674446343
Lol good plan but Im definitely not ballsy enough to go through with something like that. Except for maybe hillary clinton.
You know what stopped me from killing myself?
When I was dragged into a hospital and drugged up for months on end.
Fun times.
>>674446943
Just so you know I'm not the most stable person myself and I struggle daily with my own shit but it's just balance bro that's the key
>>674447164
Struggling to find that balance man. The fact that Im still here and didnt die last weekend is testament to the fact that I want to live. I just don't know how long I can keep the shit show goin.
>>674447056
that doesnt sound fun at all.
>>674446858
I know anon. I know. And the fact that some people have it worse than I do yet I still feel this way, makes me feel like an even bigger piece of shit.
>>674447394
I got a bit of a handjob in there, so it wasn't ALL bad
man, I've never been good with talking, but you seem like a genuinely good guy. I don't know what to say but just remember that if you do kill yourself you will never be able to make life better and move on. again I'm not sure what to say but you sound like if you just get over this you can live a great life. just remember to focus on the small things that you complete rather than trying to tackle all the things you don't like at once.
Thanks for taking the time to respond guys. Im just thinking out loud here really. Im going to give it a few more weeks before I make my decision. I want to live but Im stuck in a rut. Gunna try to find that motivation.
>>674447921
Thanks anon. Im definitely going to try.
>>674447961
Going into hospital really isn't all that bad, as long as you behave and play by the rules. Otherwise, you'll be sectioned and forced to stay there for as long as they want to keep you.
Otherwise, it's a good way to keep yourself safe.
>>674447921
oh, and I struggle with feeling that my problems aren't as bad as others and that I'm just being stupid. but everyone has their own struggles and no one deserves feeling suicidal. no matter how bad life is you'll always think someone has it worse, but in the end it isn't about everyone else. I don't know how to end this but I'm pretty sure that someone might understand my shitty paragraph.
>>674447961
This might sound like a cliche but find that inner strength in you and fucking do something to save yourself. Life is a hard fight and it's no walking through park. My father saved my life once. Was on my way to kill myself and he did something that gave me hope. I never said to him what I was planing to do that night.
21 year old depressed fag here,
I've been second choice all my life and can't handle rejection. Everything that happens in my life fucks me over, every fucking time again and again. Tried to kill myself at 18 after my ex dumped me after a 3 year relationship without a proper goodbye or anything. Have been experiencing schizophrenia and bi-polar disorder ever since. I'm an emotional fuck up because of all the fuckovers i've had in my life and can't seem to be happy anymore or even act positive or relate to anyone. I try my best to not think negative but i can't help myself.
Everything I do now is without any emotion or hapiness, even sex. I'm an alcoholic and drink about 5-6 glasses of wine each night to forget about my shitty life and schizophrenia takes over at night. Will probably be in a mental hospital in a few years if my schizo keeps progressing like it is now. Might aswell just kill myself now.
>>674439842
Sounds like a good life, stop being a little faggot or kill yourself
