I see these threads all the time, and I always wonder if the op is serious or not, and I'm even more curious of the outcome. Regardless, I've decided that my life has run its course, and it's time to end it. I've been coming here everyday for years, yet I've never made a post on /b/ before. I think I am now because I obviously can't tell anyone else my plans, (not like there is anyone to really tell) and I'd like to just tell some human beings as fucked up as me about it. Also, I guess we can make this a feels thread. I love you guys for making me laugh even when I didn't want to. You guys are the best. You will be missed dearly /b/.
Pic somewhat related. If I'll be enjoying some music during, this will be it.
What's going on?
>>674335647
Love you too anon dont leave us stay and lurk more
NIN The Fragile yeah?
>>674335985
Same guy. I was in a really shitty spot this time last year. My mom was dying of cancer, I was facing legal trouble from drinking myself into oblivion daily, risked loosing my job, lost a girlfriend, etc...I was in the psych ward twice and even 302'd. So, I know what it feels like to truly want to die.
>>674335985
Idk where to even start. I'm an ex heroin addict, now hooked on prescription methadone, and I've made a lot of big mistakes during my junk days. My family hates to even talk to me, I haven't spoke to my girlfriend in over 2 weeks, so I'm assuming we're done. I'm broke, crashes my car, have to go to jail because of it on Friday. I could type forever. I just feel like it's time.
>>674336335
Yes indeed. Nin seems appropriate.
>>674335647
Even in the midst of all that seems bad, there is always something good to look forward to. My opinion on the matter is that searching for that thing, even if insignificant compared to everything else, is far worth it compared to what you are considering.
Do you have representation for your legal problems? If your car collision resulted from drug use perhaps you can attend a rehabilitation center in lieu of jail time if the judge/magistrate sees fit. Is it definitely going to happen or are you just picturing the worst possible outcome? I did that with my legal problems. Imagined only the most horrible things and it basically didn't happen like that.
Don't 404 on me.
>>674337571
Downward Spiral maybe a bit more... but seriously, living has to be better than nothing yeah? Just listen to "A Warm Place" over and over. That seriously helped me quite some years back.
>>674337766
No, the case is closed. I am to remand myself Friday morning at 9:00 am. I don't feel like going to jail and withdrawing off methadone in the clink. Of course that's not the whole reason I've made this decision, it's been in the back of my mind since I could remember. If anything, it just gave me a good reason to fallow through and a date to do so.
>>674338452
That's actually my favorite album. Funny you say that too. I was considering listening to that exact song while drifting away. I love that song.
>>674339014
Mine as well. Of all the songs on the album though, that has to be the most uplifting as it represents his last glimmer of hope. It's should inspire you to keep on, not the opposite.
>>674338608
It's really difficult to see past your current situation - I know. You can repair your relationship with your family. You can live a happy, healthy life. You will look back on this time when your reached out to complete strangers on an anonymous image board and found support. I do that all the time. I think back to my difficult past and realize how far I came and how it made me stronger. Don't stop fighting.
>>674339566
Seriously, and if positivity from fucking 4chan isn't a sign, I don't know what is.
>>674339566
You know what's fucked up, is you're right. And I know your right. I don't want to sound like a pussy, but I just don't have any more fight left in me. Idk what else to do anymore. I keep trying, and things just keep getting worse and going wrong. I'm out of options and resources. Out of people, hope, strength. I'm just empty. Out of everything. The only thing I look forward to is getting fucked up on Xanax so o don't have to feel. I figure why not just do myself and everyone else around me a favor.
>>674340883
Cmon OP take a breather. Clean your house or something. Look at this from a different angle.
>>674340883
The problem is you're not doing them a favor by ending your life. I had a friend in high school named Vinny who committed suicide. Happiest kid I knew and my first friend in high school outside of the people I came in with from grade school. He took me under his wing because he was a class above me. Anyway, one day he hanged himself. The complete shock and grief everyone felt and showed at the funeral was overwhelming. You can't fill that hole left when someone kills them self. Doing your loved one's a favor is getting back on your feet and saying "I was beaten down, but kept on getting back up." There's always another option other than suicide - it just seems really attractive because it immediately ends problems in your life that have the potential to be resolved and lead to betterment.
>>674341519
That's honestly why I'm here. Not for a pity party or to have people feel sorry for me, but to hopefully get some perspective and like you said try to look at shit from a different angle. That and I've got no one else to talk to bout this shit.
