What's on your mind /b/?
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What's on your mind /b/?
>>671567695
A life of solitude
I'm a construction worker and the work culture has no room for autism, I'm only 18, I wonder what I should do.
orphans
I might have a chance to get a job in Dubai.
Im confused and lonely how about you?
>>671567695
faggot
>>671567929
ops wrong thread sorry
Sweeter things now
porn
That I absolutely don't know what to do. At all.
That every minute lasts at least 20 hours
>>671567929
>says "faggot"
>bumps thread with image
k
>>671568135
your point being?
Everyone keeps telling me to look for a job.
>any job is better than no job
>go try job xyz anon!
>got a nice prospect, but i have to wait till monday when hiring manager returns to formally get hired
>already have verbal commitment
>literally ~2$ in change to my name
patience anon..patience..
>>671567917
I'm conflicted on some big decisions I have to make soon, but as long as I put it off I'm doing alright
procrastination
Fuck... Too much shit to mention, been away from my family because I couldn't get a job in my own area, doesn't look like this area will be worth it to move to, don't know when I night get a job back home, earning too little to bring them over or for me to head back often, tired of working dead end jobs, had so much potential, how the fuck my life end up like this
How to live.
>>671568409
whats that big decisions about OP?
A past relationship and I think I'm in love with a broken woman
Well i was the one who messed up and didn't admit my feelings to her and she left with another guy. Didn't talk to her for two months then a week ago she messaged me that he dumped her. I've been talking to her everyday trying to salvage what we had. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing well with her but then she tells me that she is a pathetic piece of trash and I should just forget about her. But then she calls me at night and wants me to just sleep by the phone so she can hear me breathe. idk what to do and I need some advice. Btw she goes to university 1000 miles away from me.
>>671567695
Want to quit /b/ forever
>>671567917
Can i be with you :(((
A feminist asked me how i watch lesbian relationship, unfortunately, in HD was the wrong answer
I need to find a new house or apartment to move to by the end of march
>>671567695
I'm feeling a stong connection to you guys. /b/ = my friens
>>671568711
i would be more happy come sit next to me
I am FUCKING salty. Got the flu so i mostly sleep all day. I'm getting sick of it literally.
Haven't had any sex in two months, it's driving me fucking crazy
>>671568605
I'm a youngfag and I have to make college plans soon, i have no idea what I want to do with my life
>>671568747
nice joke my friend
I met the love of my life, and she is dating a girl
I hate my life
nothing really OP, empty. like my life
>>671569084
Same here
Impulse and collision, i'm fucked on my physics quiz soon.
>>671567695
My gf is moving in with some random girl she used to fuck and I need a way to break up with her
>>671568621
Long distance things never work
She's draining you for comfort and maybe you can explain to her that you can give her what she needs...but maybe she's just manipulative and is used to men chasing her. Either way invite her out for a trip and talk, then just go with your gut.
>>671569084
Just live life, American college is a place for discovery. I had no money so I had to decide what I wanted to do immediately and this first year has been miserable. Two exs a lot of lost friends and now the second ex is back in my life.
>>671569222
Well, at least a good get today
Life sucks but it's the only one you get so why not have a go. I need a hobby when I'm not at work or sleeping I just sit here on my phone
sleep
What is dis
Literally just Donald Trump. Every waking moment and every night in my dreams. I don't know why. It been going on for about a month. I have vivid dreams all night and when I wake up they and the fact that Trump is all over the media fuel myinescapable thoughts about Trump.
>>671569376
Ya she's coming here for spring break, we lived in the same city. Thanks man
life
>>671569222
it happend to me to many times with all the same girls falling in love with each other instead of me
>I'm trying so hard to get a job, but I can't get anyone to even interview me because I have a shit employment history due to depression/psychosis. All I want is a simple mechanic job and I can't get a single company within 25 miles to respond to me.
>Met up with my ex yesterday. I still love her like the day we met, but she's not interested. Breaking up with her was the dumbest fucking thing I've ever done.
>I'm trying to improve myself to get noticed by girls. I've got a proper haircut, I've lost a load of weight, I'm building muscle, I've kicked the alcohol and cigarettes and I'm trying to get a job. Still, I'm completely invisible.
>I see all my school friends finishing up at uni, with a decent life ahead of them and it just makes me want to kill myself. I've got absolutely nothing so far and I've tried to hard to make something of myself, but no one will give me a chance.
>>671569084
go to a community college and take general education classes there (do it towards an associates in science for best transferability) , it will save you shittons of money and give you a couple years to decide what you like.
I'm 18 and everyone's telling me to get a job and finish highschool, but I have no idea what to do with my life. I also have a lot of mental problems. Pretty lonely as well
i need to start exercising because my high metabolism wont last forever. also study. im going to miss my best friend when she moves away
>>671569283
My girlfriend is against all of my college plans and everyone I know is pushing me to make a decision. I'm in that weird place where I'm being pushed to grow up but I'm just trying to enjoy the lack of responsibility now
I was hit by a car a few months ago
>>671567695
Dubs
>>671569708
Just don't fuck it up. I did and I have nothing left. No one will give you a second chance to start your life, so. Don't. Fuck. It. Up.
>>671569357
Easy
Step 1: Tell her you bought airplane tickets to her dream vacation
Step 2: Reap in rewards for at least a week
Step 3: Drive to the airport when you want to break up
Step 4: Let her follow you around for at least 2 hours so she's all pissy
Step 5: Reveal there are no tickets and she's been gratefulfucking you for nothing
Step 6: Laugh at her and say you wanna break up
(OPTIONAL: Buy a first-class ticket to Europe and high-five the ticket inspector)
>>671569879
no pressure tho
My crush will never love me
>>671569879
Well the thing is, I have a few options of what I want to do but have no idea how to do them. Need to get unaddicted to hydrocodone as well
>>671569648
but she really likes me, and i was so scarred of being rejected that i've spend all 2015 without even talking to her
I just want to hug her
>>671569657
Look up anon, things seem bad now but continue on the path youre on. Time will fix everything, just get better, work harder and prove time has made you better.
>>671569514
west coast?
>>671567695
>be me
>be friends with girl
>we both start developing feelings for each other
>We both eventually ignore each other for no reason
>mfw I think she still likes me
>mfw I want to die
>>671569773
Idk what to say man
i feel bad for whats happing
but i hope in the best of luck
>>671569657
Volunteer for something you feel passionate about. Stick it out for a couple of months then just mention it in every resume. Keep writing and volunteer on if no job comes by. in 6 months yoiu'll be swimming in cash, respect and chicks.
I don't want to die. But the premise of living feels so droll and tedious. Existence is boring.
>>671570261
Are you me
i like girl and i think she likes me back, but weŗe playing these silly games and she just won't give
>>671570035
Welcome to the 99%.
Perpare for friends betraying you, family dying on you and the rain to fall and make the road yucky
>>671569657
Start small homie. Find a decent shop and tell them you're willing to start at the bottom and work your way up. Wash and detail cars do oil changes etc.
Or you could always look for an apprentice position. Governments will help you out with tools and shit.
As for other people, just put the blinders on and look forward all the fucking time.
I had no employment history, got a job moving fucking furniture for peanuts at a conference center, 3 years later I'm in their AV department and I'm one of the companys most valuable assets (given they still pay shit but the perks are nice)
Point is, you may have to swallow your pride to get the ball rolling, but god damn nigger, posting on /b/ isn't gonna help you. Get up at 7am tomorrow, and every day after that. You have a job, your job is getting a job.
You say you've tried too hard. Bullshit. Try harder. Try until you've called every single employer in your city.
>>671570653
Just tell her, if she fucks you about never speak to her again
>>671570653
Grils are for fags
Get yourself some boipucci
My wife is pregnant, and a total bitch. I regret the last 3 years with her. I drink myself retarded nightly. I bought a hooker, and fucked her bareback as usual. This particular hooker was actually kind of cute. I have a crush on a streetwalker that I'll never see again prolly. My dad is rolling over in his grave.
>>671570649
I agree with you
>>671570650
What do you think I should do Anon? I know I heart her heart what do???
>>671570205
>>671570466
>>671570775
Thanks guys. This site may be merciless sometimes, but you guys really pick me up when I'm feeling shit.
>>671568052
this is on my mind now.
>>671570405
Thanks anon, what's up with you?
Murder
I want to fuck this girl and shes not interested
>>671571067
>Tell wife you fucked hooker
>rekindle relationship with angry hate sex
>chance to choke and beat wife while fucking her raw
>cum buckets thinking about hooker while inside your wife
>fuck her so hard she miscarries
>divorce her after
>>671567695
What if time was different, and everything allready happend for someone else? What if destiny did exist, but u would never be able to change ur outcome of life?
>>671571131
This is what overwhelming apathy feels like. I'm not actively looking to die, but i won't care if I do.
>>671571162
I have no idea man.
I'm debating on saying hi to her on Facebook after a month of literally 0 communication. I just want to know how she's doing, I want to hear she's happy.
>>671571212
Nothing really just lonely
>>671571470
We haven't spoken for a year and a half
>>671571460
My emotions are gone, are yours?
I can't sleep, not even my toy monkey can calm me down... I try a beer now and see if that helps
>>671571067
Ok. Listen to me, this is your only shot to get outta this shit - fake your own death.
Arson works, you could also dispose of the body of your cunt wife while leaving only one body behind.
Car crash - drive off a cliff, leave signs of struggle/torn seatbelts etc. if in the ocean, your body will be looked for but never found.
My fav: Kidnapping - collect he LOW! amount of ransom you demand from everyone you don't give a shit about and leave behind photos of you supposedly dead body while you escape beyond the ocean
If you change your mind you can always come back and claim amnesia or something. Be free my brother we all can be
>>671568236
>>671567917
>>671568605
>>671569283
>>671570405
LOL its the peridot fag that hates guys lol
>>671571205
>>671571778
Damn. Maybe you should say something to her, honestly. What do you have to lose?
>>671567917
Me too. Thinking about an hero. And not just thinking. Planning.
>>671571991
look at the last post of that thread
>>671571779
Yeah.
>>671571896
wtf are they doing?
>>671572153
make sure to do it on webcam
>Play Skyrim
>Play Skyrim
>Play Skyrim
>Play Skyrim
>Play Skyrim
>Maybe Sleep
>Play Skyrim
>Play Skyrim
>Play Skyrim
>Play Skyrim
>>671571313
She's fat. Move on.
>>671571727
You wanna talk about it, anon?
>>671569773
Once you grow up, the clock starts with ticking and the fun stops. You no longer enjoy your hobbies or drinking or even sex. Stay single and never have kids.
>>671572153
Dont do that!
tell me about your life in greentext and why its so bad.
>>671572068
Nothing at all. I just feel really shitty that I heart her. What do I say to her?
>>671572394
You're fat, you stupid twat.
>>671570649
Agreed, all I do is sleep
There's nothing better to do
>>671572449
Nah im ok i have you guys
>>671570955
i don't want to risk losing her tbh, she's like the best person i've ever met
>>671567695
Tanks. I literally spent my day daydreaming about tanks.
>be a useless sack of shit
>wasting time online
>find a link about Redtube Roulette
>alright, might as well fap
>you have to type in your birthday as url and fap to whatever comes up
>"this video has been removed due to copyright violation"
>can't even fucking get lucky on a fucking porn site
If I didn't have a cat that I need to take care of, I'd off myself, that's what's on my mind.
>>671572736
damn girl you are fucking in love with her picture
Just remember there are at least 1,000 other mediocre looking bitches out there that look EXACTLY like her, probably with a better body.
Get over it and go swipe a bunch on tinder and get some pity sex
>>671567695
4 hours i go to work, goddamn
>>671572036
why yes, yes. this.
>>671572629
im drifting away from my friends, one by one, but i still talk to an asian chick so that's pretty good.
>also fallout 4
>>671572629
Ask her what she's been up to, learn about the time you've missed. If she seems interested, you should ask her out. If not, you have the tough task of getting over her ahead of you.
>>671573895
I'll try. Now im gonna go fap
Well it was nice talking to you anons
Im going to study for my exams see y'all
in the next feels thread
>>671567695
She's really never coming back.
>>671567695
Dreamt about my ex I separated with few years ago.
Didn't think about her in ages.
And now I can't kick her out of my stupid head. All the fellings I had for her came back with a blast from outta nowhere.
I'm fucking not even in the mood to go to sleep because I think I'll dream about her again and feel even worse.
I miss her.
>>671573032
Your fear will drive her away.
This is on my mind. Get in here
>>671569657
Check out AC and refrigeration companies near by. They will be staffing up for the spring and summer soon. Tell them you want to be a PM guy to earn your chops. If you don't mind work out side and taking a test to get your EPA certification you can have a good paying career. I did this and got a 6 dollar raise my first year and an overall raise total of over 14 the last decade. Not enough people going into the field now, we can't find good help. You will need a clean MVR though.
>>671574678
>>671574472
>>671568747
this is a top tier post tbqh
>>671572299
anyone know?
>>671567695
at the end of the day im a delusional schizophrenic shut in who thinks its still possible to have a normal relationship and thinks he can communicate his feelings via telepathy to someone who probably, most likely, doesn't even remember he exists. i also have pressure sores on my ass and thighs and a small penis.
and i STILL haven't finished MGS:TPP
>>671575394
My guess is checking to see if it's sturdy. Asian escalator accidents are all over the rekt threads
I've had plans for a couple months now to kill myself within the next month. I just hope I go through with it
>>671575680
ty anon
>>671575725
Wanna talk about it anon?
>>671567695
Becoming one with the Art and stuff.
All of the meaningless feelings aside, most of all I just wanted to make a thread about the guys/gals in the background.
Why do they bother with it so much, we're all just maggots swarming to the lands of the death god.
>what kind of technology/knowledge do you imagine they have
I imagine they have unfinished knowledge about how to speak to the gods and other OBE tricks as well as the secret knowledge of the power of trance.
>What's with the immigrant plans, do they really want to turn this land into mindless sheeples of obedience for their meaningless plans? if we'd really want to help them we would already have destroyed their opposition, or help them with food or otherwise.
Also I still don't get the work thing, why is it essential for everyone to work at least 8 hours a day with payment they "deserve"?
Last but not least, are all the rumors true, or are they just a distraction to cover their tracks somewhere we were suppose to be looking from the begging?
A wise man once said: "Question everything!"
Now I just got a thousand questions but no answers and even so, they're all but forgotten.
"Drop down your weapon son, there is no god to be pleased, there is only thirst for blood."
But above all, I'm always thinking to myself that "I'm running out of time" and this has been going on for years, then again I also think that there is no place for me in this world, nothing good I can create, nothing that can satisfy me.
>>671567695
Getting back into school cause getting a decent job usually requires a degree
>>671576189
They are against you, they are out to get you preferentially.
I'm an idiot.
>>671567695
Life and existance are pointless and futile. It's a joke that we even care about things, yet I worry about everything all the time when I really shouldn't. Because, in the end, it doesn't matter what I do with my life, death is the same for all of us, and even if it wasn't, the whole length of existance makes us so insignificant that indeed, nothing matters.
I was thinking, does the internet make me unhappy? not using it, but all of the contradicting opinions EVERYWHERE. would I be happy if i didn't read about people yelling at each other all the time? I enjoy it thoroughly, but i still can't let go of a feeling that everyone hates each other on the internet. I don't get on with a feeling of kindness anymore. Any thoughts?
>>671567695
im tired took 3x ECA stack today plus other amphetamines... only ate a cup of cereal.
my head hurts & hr is <105 bpm.
it has to be <65 for me to sleep well...
>>671573032
I've been in the exact same position as you.
Here's the thing: if she doesn't want to stay friends with you after you confess your feelings, then she isn't that great of a person.
You have to realize that no one is as flawless as you think. There was a girl who I was friends with that was beautiful and kind, but I looked past her total stupidity, naivety, and drug use when I was crushing on her. I snapped out of it after months of hesitating and freaking out about if I should try to advance things.
Even the girl I've been with for years, that I tell is perfect almost every day, isn't everything I wish for in a partner. But that doesn't matter, you can love anyone under the right circumstances. Take your chances, move forward. There will always be someone new. Don't let cowardice control you.
>>671577564
I feel that, anon. Most things that really stick with me and male me think about the problems in the world are things that I saw online
>>671572361
i wish this was me
>>671576474
No you're wrong, they'll invite me into their ranks for no reason whatsoever, I'm sure of that!
>>671575616
iktf im bipolar 2a with psychotic features, how much disability you get?
I appear so normal until someone knows me longer than a couple weeks.
I wonder if she'll let me smash this weekend
>>671575616
If the person isn't answering, why bother ?
>>671572153
Instead of Heroing, go join the Kurds and Fight the Turks. If you live, you have the pleasure of removing Kebab. If you Die, well you got your wish.
Got an unconditional offer to go uni in september, but worried that I'm going to hate it.
Also a grill I used to speak to all the time got back in touch recently and I have no idea what the fuck I should say
Other than that I'm alright
>>671569657
Learn programming make money
>>671569780
What were your injuries?
>>671569657
what about moving then?
Can't stop thinking about ex gf who's heart I broke. (Took her virginity then left her for uni) Can't decide if it's because I'm unhappy in my current relationship, or if me thinking about her all the time is making my current relationship unhappy.
How someone hasn't sent me a text back.. nor called me. I get to see them tomorrow, but I have a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that they'll avoid me all day.
Oh well.
>>671567695
How I am going to try to continue fucking one of my exes who's in a relationship, while im trying to start a relationship with a girl who my ex hates.
>>671581077
Sounds like a logistical nightmare
>>671567868
Callum?
>>671572623
>27 have kid, sex 3 to 4 times a month, maybe less
>no full time job
>dropped out of college because I ran out of money, got full time work, never went back, had a kid (3yrs old now)
>child prefers there mother, the mother is mentally unstable
>finally get her to get help
>had a part time job but the manager who would call me was fired, no work
>recently hit with criminal charges for buying stolen merchandise
>2 grand in lawyer fees and haven't even been to trial yet
>no job, no education, depressed, might soon have a criminal record
There is no hope.
>>671579263
No money for that
My existence is pointless and I wish I would just fade away.
>>671567695
Just found out I might have a 10 year old daughter.
#fml
I would never thought that this thread would get so big. It's still alive and I'm a little bit proud, cause I photoshopped this picture of marceline which was originally splitted by a tracking shot.
So we are all connected now somehow and I send out my positive energy to you guys! 010101010101
>>671581208
Sums up to A is good pussy. B is cute AF. A hates B because that, although A is engaged to someone already
I'm feeling extremely sick. I'm hung over and it feels like I have a knife in my stomach. I haven't eaten anything and threw up stomach bile 3 times today. I feel like a fucking mess and i'm really depressed about it. Any advice or something to make me feel better/happy?
>>671581780
God bless
>>671573145
What's with the victim mentality?
I know you're out there. I can feel you now. I know that you're afraid... you're afraid of us. You're afraid of change. I don't know the future. I didn't come here to tell you how this is going to end. I came here to tell you how it's going to begin. I'm going to hang up this phone, and then I'm going to show these people what you don't want them to see. I'm going to show them a world without you. A world without rules and controls, without borders or boundaries. A world where anything is possible. Where we go from there is a choice I leave to you.
>>671582426
Gonna plan some websites and start filing complaints. Should be interesting to watch the cards fall.
>>671582210
Lol hope you believe that
Trying to figure out how to get this brick of shit out of me.
I left my live in nanny job to move in with my bf. I do love him, and totally we are soul mates. He showed me /b/ and has shared everything about himself with me. We are two pervs in a pod, we share our fetishes. He is ex military and gets disability, and he is the only spoiled son of an elderly father. I cook and clean for them. He is tight knit with his small family and I am estranged from mine. We live the NEET dream. Video games, trolling the internet, watching movies and chilling at home. Porn and sex toys galore. We go out occasionally, he just gets panic attacks at certain places for certain reasons. We mostly go out past midnight to avoid crowds.
It's been about 5 months, and though I love him I feel kinda stuck. I never really had a social life before, as a nanny it was full time and I worked that for a long time. Now we are both 25, and yeah we are happy and healthy but I want to try more. I got him to help me start a vegetable garden, and I have since grown a min zen garden. So I'm trying to get him outside more,
Just trying to help him with his ptsd and all, but it gets me depressed occasionally. And it is entirely first world problems, because we live rent and bill free together.
>>671582742
Yep. The records prove it all. Should be interesting to see if they can withstand this.
>>671582022
https://soundcloud.com/domo-music-group/matsuri
listen to this. It's gonna clear up your problems but you need to focus!
Me and a friend are drifting apart and our friendship ending is inevitable, I'm shit at having friends
>>671582270
God father died. He was a great man and yet I'm not saddened by it
Her
>>671582998
You too huh? Malpractice is a bitch.
This is gonna be the biggest thread of history.
You have to believe.
I wanna relive my childhood cause the women who molested me is the only one I love. Even tho she is straight and married and has kids now and doesn't want me around now at all, thinking back to when I was small, its the only time i truly felt loved.
>>671583485
>>671581780
Op here, thanks anon, I saw a thread with the picture and decided to make this one
>>671583585
>>671567695
how to improve my boxing skills
how to lose weight
how to act more human
my legs feel tingly from the massive amount of ritalin i took this morning
75% of all suicides are related to relationship issues
why am i single
>>671583673
>>671569579
subliminal messages
trump is NWO!!!
inform the masses!!
>>671583826
>Be me when i was 4
>Father is Alcoholic asshole
>One Night he comes in my Room because he wanted to "Fuck" me.
>He done that several times until my 6 Birthday
>Parents Divorce
>Stepdad is a bigger asshole than my real Father
>Says that i am Fat, Mother dont love me and all this stuff
>Doesnt even have Keys for the House we live in
>Start taking Drugs when i was 13 and stopped last Month (i try)
My Therapist says that i am a looser because i dient get a Job and i just want to end all this. I wish i had a Gun so i could just Kill all this Bastards. I would never kill myself. Kill your Problems, not Yourself!
i want to die
Will i pass? or fail?
>>671583926
>>671583967
do you need to talk?
how old are you?
>>671584112
>>671584262
I am 18 now. Talking is such a thing. I cant trust people.
>torrenting
>>671584613
theres a difference between talking to somebody and trusting somebody.
i dont trust anybody and im okay with it.
its normal to distrust.
>>671584743
When I'm drunk or on acid I think I'm a faggot, but when I'm sobor I don't.
>>671570653
Same, friend.
>>671584807
I know but i think i am just fucked up and this is okay. I can live with this. I just wanted to say that nobody should kill himself. I wouldnt do them this Favor.
>>671585544
I like how they put the literal daddy issues haircut on her.
>>671567695
My friend killed himself. I think I may have caused it to happen.
I have science next period and then im going to go home and wank, do homework and watch netflix and wallow in sadness or whatever
Im in a quandary.
I like these two girls that are friends, but people only know i like one of them. As far as i can tell, she doesnt care if i just vanish. The unknown one, i may have a chance with, not sure. Shes still a lil hung up on her ex.
The third one, though, is infatuated with me, although i don't quite like her like that. She is /b/'s dream girl, as long as b likes petite. Shes cute and epic, but i only like her as a friend.
tl;dr, three girls, one might hate me, one i may have a chance with, and one is a platonic relation that likes me
Wat do, /b/?
>>671586176
>>671586070
How so? Willing to talk about it?
>>671586196
play all three of them. don't let any of them know you're seeing anybody else, don't be an asshole to any of them, don't commit hard to any of them.
spin those plates until you know what you want to do.
I'm facing a class A and B misdemeanor, court date March 27. Probably going to jail, $1500 in fines or given choice of military. I take care of my grandma and my delinquent of a 14 yo brother (don't get me wrong I love them to death) I just have no clue what they're going to do if I'm not around.
>>671586472
Thanks anon.
I know what I want to do though. I want the one that ignores me, because when we actually talk... Well, she's perfect. Many common interests, intelligent, sarcastic, you know the type. And I'm already a huge asshole, i don't want to be a player too
>>671567695
A girl who i know will never love me back..
>>671586408
Maybe I shouldn't have really listed him as a friend, but he was more of a friend of a friend I talked to sometimes. Everybody fucked with the dude, including myself. 3 days ago he hung himself in his parents closet. He received a lot of emotional abuse at home, on the internet and elsewhere and I feel like I was part of the problem.
douch "friend" stole all of my games...
>>671587374
I want to beat your ass into a coma. Post a pic of yourself.
>>671567695
I CAN'T FINISH THE RE-EXPOSITION OF THE MOZART SONATA PROPERLY AND I HAVE TO PRESENT IT NEXT FRIDAY I'M SO FUCKING DEAD
The direction of my life. High school and I'm making fucking C's I probably won't get into college. I could use my college money towards my living expenses, but I don't think my parents would give me the money if that happened. There's also the problem of jobs, which all either pay shitly or is too high of an expectation of myself. I might kill myself, but there's too much I'm leaving behind
>>671587211
be fucking careful with that.
i've got this one girl that i think is PERFECT. she's a dykey feminist poli-sci major who does drugs and is smart as fuck and has the same humor style as me. i think i'd legit marry her if she would let it happen.
problem is, she's like a fucking social vampire. she has so many people around her that she just feeds off of. any sort of attention. she'll sort of let you think that she's giving you signs of interest, and as soon as you actually make a move and prove that you want her, she shuts you down.
i fucked her one time, and it was great, but i've slowly figured her out. the problem is we're still fucking friends and we've got this love-hate thing.
i'm rambling now but just be careful. don't overextend. don't burn yourself. keep your options open.
>>671587374
As harsh as it sounds he probably had mental problems and you weren't the sole source of his abuse. It isn't your fault anon. The only thing you did wrong was be an ass, which a lot of people are guilty of without the consequences.
who made god?
ashley jones
>>671587735
nah fuck you.
Recently discovered that I have a thing for trannies. Not sure how I feel about it yet.
I'm thinking about how it sucks to be trans. Either i'm unhappy and suicidal depressed or i become an intersex monster. I'm choosing the intersex monster cause i'm hoping i'll be at least someone cute.
>>671588003
thanks man
I've been thinking about this girl I've been interested in for a little over a year now,but she went off to college in a nearby-ish city. I'm not sure whether I should try to talk to her or just forget it. Would she even want to talk to me? We were pretty cool in class and my friends tell me I should go for it, but I'm not very good at the whole conversation thing and I'm not very confident in myself.
>>671588764
i don't believe in LDR's.
maybe i'm just jaded but they never end well.
if i were you, i'd just cut her loose and start on somebody else. it would be really inconvenient to have to meet her a city over. once you have a couple of new girls, each one becomes less and less significant.
do you though. i'm an asshole in real life and i'm currently fucking somebody else's girlfriend so really don't take my advice on this stuff.
>>671587978
You arent rambling, its good to get this type of shit off your chest.
I asked her to homecoming last year (was a junior in hs) and it turned out she wasn't going anyways. I don't outright say anything on the subject, but she is the one person in the squad i am always nice too, with extenuating circumstances.
So therees a possibility she knows, but she might not. Y'never know
Since going to university I dont get to see my friends much, made a few friends but I'm always broke so I cant really go out. I find it hard to really connect with any other girls because I'm still in love with one from my hometown, who I'm pretty certain doesn't feel the same way. I thought about suicide a few times, but I guess im just too much of a coward. Im not sure if college is right for me, but I cant drop out, cant put myself into huge debt for nothing. I get really lonely at night because there isnt really much to do other than sit in my room by myself.
>>671567695
I just had my first day of real work out of college. I am absolutely depressed at the thought of doing this for the next 40 years.
18 years old, School is a snore, feeling more distant from my friends everyday, I long for someone to just have feelings for. Being pressured to get a job. Wanna get back into playing Trumpet but friends say it's a lost cause for me. ROTC is probably the only thing keeping me occupied. Mild depression has the best of me at this point.
>>671589912
You'll either get used to it, kill yourself, or find something else. 2 of those aren't so bad.
I'm tired. Do anyone know any ways to stay awake? Sleep isn't an option.
>>671590443
Loud music, random drink, and an online friend to chat to does it for me. Hopefully that helps you buddy :)
>>671590443
If you have a few dollars you can go to most gas stations and get some trucker no sleep pills. My preffered is No Doze.
>>671589138
I felt the same, but everyone I know here doesn't do it for me. I'd like to give it a shot, or just talk to her. She was really fun to talk to. I could live with that. I guess its easy to say what you'd do in these scenarios until it happens to you. Thanks for the reply man.
>>671567695
>Star Trek
>can't decide to study Mandarin Chinese or Korean
>eczema or friction burn on dick
>have a paper to write
>hope my roommates don't bring their girlfriends over
>I scored too low on that Political Science mid-term
>not sure if I want a new flag or a TKD shirt
>still haven't been called for a job
>does she really like me?
>>671590443
Watch some porn. No joke your body wakes up instantly if it thinks there's any chance of sex. Evolution is crazy man.
>>671593683
Mine does, and it usually gives me a powerful urge to shit. When I do, it comes out like diarrhea.
>>671590443
pop some speed
>>671593890
Kek. I kinda know what you mean actually. Thats gotta be annoying with an actual female around. Eat some more fiber man.
>>671594264
Well, I usually (actually, exclusively) get action at Asian massage parlors. When I get within like a mile or two of one, my mind kicks my lower intestine into overdrive, and I have to find somewhere to drop the load. Afterwards, I can go to the place, get the massage, and get the happy ending or FS. Just annoying I have to void my bowels before doing anything.
>>671594486
>tfw hot gf with high sex drive
>gotta piss every 20 minutes due to lotsa coffee and water
>almost always need to piss when she grabs my dick
we eventually get there but it's a bit of a mood killer
>>671594711
must be nice having a gf at least
>>671594783
Yea. Though she's ultra clingy, which sucks because I've always been a total loner. I get super frustrated and tense when I have to interact with people for long, and though she's the least bad in terms of this (barring my parents) it gets shitty after about a week of being around her all day. Then she gets upset that I don't want to be with her. So either I'm pissed and wound up or she's upset.
Oh and she's clinically depressed and has really bad anxiety, has tried to kill herself before meeting me... etc.
Welp there goes the venting, but hey you think someone on b at 2am has a hot gf with no catch? kek
>>671567695
Tired, afraid, anger, sadness and a bit of hope.
>>671572036
got more?
>>671595169
The type whom you can't let go of (because she may end up killing both you and herself if you do). Interesting. I've been single for so long (11 years), I don't know what I'd do if I had a gf now, even if she were that clingy. I'd probably end up being just as clingy, if not more so.
>also suffer from a lifetime of clinical depression and documented suicide attempts/thoughts
>>671595464
She's fucked up (and rightfully so, the fact that she's alive is actually impressive, but I won't detail as that gets personal and it's not mine to really share) but not 'murder you AND me' fucked up. I would have been long gone if she was. Just a lot of issues, but she's amazing in so many ways too.
Honestly I'm fighting against my own inclinations to just sit and play video games be alone and whether or not I should try and adapt or just end it and be alone and miserable and risk her becoming worse. I've managed to pull her out of her depression/self harm significantly but she's still nowhere near clear... oh and she's going back to Hong Kong after uni so there's that too.
Shit, sorry to hear it man. I know from close second hand how awful that shit is now, you have my utmost sympathy. Sorry for the paragraphs, I evidently need to vent about this more than I thought.
>>671596582
It's fine...it's nice that you can have a positive impact on someone else's life.
I've been planning to move to France for the past 6 months even have a bunch of money saved up to do so. But, i started dating this chick around a month ago and now i don't really want to go. Problem is I quit my job to move. I have offers for a few other jobs but none that really interest me. I need money if i'm gonna stay. But i also really want to leave. I'm so fucked /b/
>>671596905
That's true, it is. I'm very torn as to whether I may be sacrificing my own happiness and mental well being for hers though and its really fucking me up.
I honestly don't know whether it's worse to have never loved/been loved than to have it and have it fall apart. I've already been stomped on once and I think being the one to do it would be even worse. The idea terrifies me. The consequences. What if I do it and I realize too late it was the wrong decision? I don't think I'd ever forgive myself.
And fuck, I'm not even leaning a bit towards doing it at this point its just hypothetical.
Feel free to ignore my posts though now I think I just need to get this out of me.
>>671571313
bullshit that pics old as fuck
>>671597537
Go right ahead and post if you wish; I don't mind. I'm reading this + a required reading for a class (which I'm almost done with), so it's a good break every now and then to alt + tab back here.
Better here for free than paying $60/hr for some shrink who doesn't really listen anyway.
>>671567695
I'm five sessions into an eight-session deal on laser lipolysis. I got a bad chest cold this weekend that I'm hoping got me past my plateau (which I'll find out for sure when I weigh in at work tomorrow).
But why? I mean, I know the goal is to finally get a visible six pack to prove my brother wrong (he thinks we just don't have the genetics), but let's say I get it. Then what? It's not gonna make me any more willing to go out and talk to people. It's not gonna make me any more willing or able to trust someone enough to let them get close to me or let myself care about them.
I mean, if I'm gonna die either way, why wait?
>>671598539
does he rape 4chan girl?
>>671597857
>>671597857
Thank you, I appreciate that. Yea, I enjoy having something like 4chan threads to occasionally tab to rather than big breaks too.
Very true. Ironically me and a friend of hers got her to go to open doors at Uni...
I guess the issue's core is that I'm selfish at my core and want to maximise my enjoyment in life, and I know if things continue exactly as they are I won't be able to do that. That being said, a lot is set to change: I'm seriously considering moving to HK after Uni as I wanted to live in a big city anyway and English native speakers get jobs easily (reportedly) there and even then I'm doing something programming based so I can work remotely if not; we're both going to have incomes and she'll have more interests besides me and anime (currently stuck in a shitty room at uni with an old macbook so can't even game really); I'll likely get used to constant company, she'll become more confident/happy/less needy.
But then there's still going to be so much shit, and so much unhappiness, and I'm going to have to move across the world from my family and friends (what few I have). For a reasonable while I can't just be myself.
But at the end of the day I love her a lot and I want to make her happy too. I'm far too empathetic to anyone never mind her, so I doubt if I could break up with her even if I had to for my or her sake. Perhaps for hers, not so sure about my own.
Why im such a beta fag
>>671567695
wanna die, scared to do it
I have a girlfriend who is a total bitch, who I hate. I want to leave her, but I've been with her for so long I'm not sure what being alone is like. I'm scared to be alone I guess.
I have class with this one girl who is perfect, but she is not interested in me and I can't keep her off my mind. It's killing me thinking that she is with someone else, though I am not sure if she is or not.
>>671598762
>>671598762
>4chan girl
You make me fucking mad. Really fucking mad.
God fucking damnit.
>>671567695
>What's on your mind /b/?
This:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lp7E973zozc
>>671568112
>That every minute lasts at least 20 hours
That's great. There're more than a trillion things you can do with that kind of time.
>>671599120
If you do go to Hong Kong, good luck in more ways than one. It's a beautiful place, but I hear living there is kind of rough, especially since it was handed back to the mainlanders (China) in '97. I myself want to move back out of the country to Asia, preferably China, or even back to South Korea (not Korean, but lived there from 2009-2012). Not so much Japan any more, since I've heard horrible things about the work culture.
>I love these apartments in HK
>>671567695
Why am I sexually attracted to someone I found boring last year,and why I'm so scared to be happy
>>671598539
>>671598762
Now, I'm thinking about reading some Yotsuba.
>>671598539
You have got to be kidding me
Im scared for my future and tempted on just ending it tbh. im tired of these fucking mudslimes charging into europe really hope it doesnt happen to canada
>>671599851
I've heard likewise. Her conservative christian parents probably give very good advice about nice areas to live though, so I have that going for me at least. If I had complete no strings free choice I'd go for South Korea or Japan, since I think I could avoid the work culture by freelancing or similar stuff (ideally).
They're nice looking for a picture, I'd hate to live in them.
Psychfag reporting in
>Reply with any emotional/mental problems and I will as questions and then try to diagnose you.
I am NOT a verified psychologist (finishing up second year of my bachelors in psych) so if you feel my opinion about your mental state is right, DO NOT act on it. I may be very wrong, especially because I only have a very small peephole into your life to diagnose you.
>>671600217
You'd have a better time in South Korea. Apparently, saving money in Japan is nearly impossible, since the cost of living is rising, but the wages aren't.
>>671567695
nothing's been going my way recently. it's like life wants me to kill myself. literally the only thing keeping me from killing myself right now is my girlfriend. if i lose her, i'll definitely kill myself. it's a bad feeling - i don't like feeling like there's only one thing in the world keeping me from killing myself. but it's true
