Feels thread
Don't feel like being alive right now, and the only way that I'll feel better is if i make it worse.
Can you help?
>>671488073
what makes you fee bad?
why does it make you feel bad?
was there a similar time in the past where something similar happened?
did you resolve the issue?
why?
>>671488073
>>671488073
You know why I'm still alive? Revenge. I'm going to have a better life than anyone that has fucked me over.
>mfw
>>671488333
Nice trips.
Everything. It's like every moment of every day is spent regretting something, even if it's something stupid or insignificant. I'm not sure why i feel this way, I've never done anything that bad.
It's all I've ever known. It sounds fake and pathetic, but it's the truth.
I don't remember anything before the age of 11.
I've tried everything. I've been in the mental health system for years. I've tried counseling, pills, everything.
Everybody assumes I'm lying because i say I've wanted to die for ten years now. They say, "no one is suicidal for ten years at every moment." They assume no one could be strong enough to hold on that long. Everything they suggest, I've tried.
Pills help for about a month, and then it all comes crashing down so much worse.
>>671488073
Nigger
My sister was diagnosed with IgG4
I'm stuck In Mexico because immigration is fucking bullshit, I can't get a job because I don't have enough education and the only job I've been able to find would actually cost more to get to from where I live than I'll make. I was raised in the states because my parents were diplomats and they worked over there, I lived there for most of my life and I fucking hate it here, I mean I REALLY fucking hate it here.
There's fuck all I can do about it though.
I can't help my sister
I cant keep a job
I can't get a job
I can't get educated
I can't immigrate
I'm stuck in a country I hate, surrounded by a culture I don't understand, my sister is dying, my mother can't retire, I don't have any friends, I barely get along with my family here and there's fuck all I can do about any of this shit.
Humans and society in general fucking suck.
>>671488465
>>671488985
Oh and to top it all off my dog has this cut on his foot that won't fucking heal and I can't afford the vet.
>>671488073
Wouldn't the big dog be in a lot of pain because the little dog is ded?
So saying pain is relative would mean the big dog is not in pain so when he sees the little dog he isn't that sad because his pain isnt that bad
>>671489252
I think it means the little dog got hit by one really painful thing, and it killed him, but the big dog got hit by numerous really painful things, and lived. It's asking the viewer, "which one is worse?"
>>671488537
Moar
Go kill yourself op you worthless failure of a human being.
Please livestream it.
I've been waiting for this for years.
>>671488985
>IgG4
The fuck is that?
>>671488985
I would kill someone to have a terminal illness.
At least then I would have a reason for feeling like shit
Why is it that those who want to live always die and those who want to die always live?
>>671490453
Looks like some immune system shit.
>>671490453
>2 seconds google
IgG4-related disease (IgG4-RD) is a chronic inflammatory condition characterised by tissue infiltration with lymphocytes and IgG4-secreting plasma cells, various degrees of fibrosis (scarring) and a prompt response usually to oral steroids.
>>671491021
Yeah, I read that on google too. Didn't really understand.
>chronic inflammatory condition characterised by tissue infiltration with lymphocytes
I take nothing away from that
Found this on some totse clone
>>671491680
>>671491728
>>671491743
When I was younger my best friend was a cat, and her kittens; I was about ten years old. My mother was with this guy named Shawn or something. Anyway, we lived out in the boonies, off the power grid, in the woods. We lived in a shitty house in the mountains, and the thing I looked forward to most was coming home from school, which was also fairly terrible. They were kind of racist toward me, kept me separate from the other kids for fear I might give the white kids lice of something. If I wasn't segregated I was put in the special needs class, and the teacher there was really nice, but I obviously didn't belong there. Eventually I stopped enjoying school, and then slowly stopped liking going outside and talking to people, but it was okay because I had my cats and they loved me regardless of how worthless I felt, or how worthless I was made out to be. They'd play with me if nobody else would, and they would be my friends. (cont.)
>>671493024
I used to know a guy called washing-machine cat guy. You can figure the rest out
>>671493024
I didn't like my mother's boyfriend much, or my cousin's boyfriend who live next door. They were both just kind of weird, and angry people. My mother's boyfriend also didn't like me, if I was in the house sitting in my room and playing with my cats, or drawing he would often come in and tell me to get out, and if I didn't he'd scream at me until I left, usually in tears. So I would leave and have to go outside and sit around alone, or hang out with one of my cousins, one who was a goth kid who had a crush on me, one had Tourette's Syndrome, and the other who lived near us had a speech impairment. I was fairly lonely, but that was okay, because I still had my cats, and they would love me. Mother was absent a lot of the time because she had to work so she could support my sister and I. Still everything was okay because I still had my cats, my friends. They were well behaved, and would run t the door when I would come back from school, or come in from walking around outside. After another awful day at school, it was finally time to go home, I could go and play with my cats, and try to escape from the loneliness for a while. Smiling a bit on the bus, and looking out the window, for a while, I finally got home. I walked in through the front door and called the kitties, but nobody came. I called again, setting down my backpack, and looking around the kitchen, and living room, making my way to the back of the house where my room was, calling for the cats, still no response, none of my friends were coming. At this point my eyes were starting to well up with tears, and I was getting desperate, crying out for my kitties. I ran outside, and yelled out for them, only one came, the mother, and my oldest friend that I still had. I asked her where her babies were, she came inside and was looking around, and mewing through the house. I was crying, and she was walking through the house meowing. After a while my cousin came over to my house,
>>671494213
I was still looking for my cats, and I asked him if he had seen them. He just kind of frowned and looked at me. He told me he overheard that Shawn had taken them out in a garbage bag and smashed them all with a hammer. He took my best friends and crushed them all with a hammer, and of course I just sat down and cried my eyes out and hugged my last remaining cat... at least he didn't just throw them in the trash, apparently he had buried them in the pet cemetery they had on the property. It was devastating, I had raised those cats from the moment they were born, and I was so happy that they were there, and I was able to take care of them. I told my mother what he had done, and she flipped out, and threw his stuff out of the house almost immediately, but that was little consolation, I had lost my dear friends.
>>671494735
Damn.. Is everything ok now?
>>671494735
Anywho, that's the story of how I started slowly falling into despair over the years.
>>671495345
Hah, no, it's been a bit of a downward spiral since then. I put on a face, and try not to let on that I am dying inside. Since people would end up pitying me, or something like that.
I don't want to be pitied, and I don't want people to feel bad because of me. I guess that's why I stopped myself from dying when I tried to kill myself, because my friend said that she would call 911 if she ever knew I tried to kill myself.
So I called 911. Fell down the stairs after OD'ing on ibuprophen... I have scars around my ankles because I started going crazy and attacking the doctors, screaming, swearing, and tearing out IV's so the police were called, and the cuffed me to the bed, while I was sedated.
The hospital couldn't stabilize me, so I woke up 3 days later in a hospital in a city in the ICU and was told I was "lucky" to be alive.
This was several years later though.
I fucking hate being alive
>>671495787
I hope your joking
Does any anon want to discuss feels on kik?
>>671496182
About which part do you hope is a joke?
>>671488950
you think those are nice trips?
>>671488888
>>671495787
This is Jesus. I put you through all that so that when the good times roll you will appreciate and cherish it and not take it for granted and fuck it up like in the previous lifetime.
Not long to go now. Don't give up.
>>671495875
It's a rather unfortunate time we live in.
We have what we need physically, but we are lacking emotionally.
>>671496516
God damn that was good....
Made me consider reading comics
See, this is what I get when I post a genuine feels thread
I hope the femanon from the other thread sees this, as it illustrates my point fucking perfectly
Goodnight cruel world
>>671496516
Well, actually, that's it. Hope you enjoyed.
>>671496618
Who even remembers your point? lol
>>671496516
>>671496629
I have more if you want.
>>671496396
Even the good times are steeped in a sadness that looms over my thoughts.
I laugh, and forget about it for moments and that's enough.
>>671496618
What do you mean?
>>671497095
Moar
Suicide is simple and will solve all your problems.
It'll be like stepping out into the light from your dark cave of a life.
Life is miserable and will only get worse as you get older.
Family dies, friends forget, and society will value you even less than it does now, as you get older.
There is a help group out there who will assist with painless suicides and will help carry out your will.
You should look into google for it.
>>671496516
VERY nice
>>671497474
That's rather depressing, but I suppose so are we.
I can't just kill myself though. I still have things to eat.
Maybe start a cult or something if I feel up to it.
>>671497400
He made this thread specifically to spite someone else who said they were going to an hero and turned out to have grilly bits. He didn't think it was fair how she was treated or something. I don't know how or why because im super dyslexic.
>>671497474
>>671497754
Don't listen to this guy. Look not everything always gets better, but something will always get better. Find what you love and let THAT kill you, no matter what it is, you love something. You do that until you die, don't fuck with things that will only bring you pain, don't kill yourself for nothing.
>>671497796
>im super dyslexic.
Don't worry, dyslexics are persians too.
You will be useless in 50 years.
I will be useless in 50 years.
Automation will take over, and there will be no jobs.
We will be hooked up to pleasure machines, and we will be in them from birth to death.
Robots, will secede us, and take over our world.
But it won't be the end, because it will be a new form of life, or humanities child.
The end will come when all the energy in the universe is completely equal, and at that point, nothing can or will happen.
For once, the universe will be balanced in perfect unity.
No pain, no evil, no struggle.
The end is coming, and it will finally bring peace.
This is kinda a 1st world problem... Idk, it has just crushed me...
You see... Im 18. Ive had 3 relationships, two of them were long distance ones, one of those again lasting about 7 months, the 3rd one, im still in.
Im not going to lie, im a betafag. No doubt about it, i look average and have a social anxiety. I get that that is 90% of /b/, but that makes it extremely hard to meet people you can fall in love with and even harder for them to fall in love with you.
I meet this girl im with now in a group chat with some friends and friends of friends. A guy invited a couple of people into another chat, only her and i accepted.
Some wierd stuff happened and she wanted to talk to me privatly about how she was depressed over some shit that had been going on in her life. I know im a betafag and socially awkward, but i genuinly care a lot about people, so i joined her.
You know what, we'll fast forward... some time had passed and she stayed over at my house. Ever since i started talking to her ive been the happiest person i could ever dream about being.
Im not even kidding, as i was writing before that whole fast forward thing she was telling me about this other guy that was constantly texting her, i felt really wierd about it. She asked me what i thought about it and i tried to be as open as i could, keeping in mind that not that many people knew that we were together. So i typed some awkward shit almost as if i was discussing with myself wether or not i was liking the fact that she was still texting with this guy, who for the record was her ex.
Just before i wrote fast forward she told me that she would rather give him the new chance he was begging for.
To be continued...
>>671498698
Continueing...
After 18 years of being an awkward fucker with little to none happiness in life, she comes along and gave me hope and just made me feel good about myself. She told me that the time she stayed over was one of the best times she had ever had. I was the only guy she had ever been with that was not fixated on only getting into her pants.
So well... Long story short, im now single again, feeling even more shitty than i used to feel before she came into my life.
Idk why im writing all this... Maybe its the thought that she might actually be looking in this thread just now since she is a /b/ user herself... I just need to get this shit of my chest before i so something stupid...
>>671497796
Hm, that's interesting?
>>671498123
That's a nice sentiment, and I don't play to kill myself.
There are a lot of things in this world that I could eat, and enjoy.
>>671498158
life of barely being able to read, write, listen or talk truly is suffuring. Combined with short sightedness, smarter than all my peers. I barely even feel Iranian
>>671497095
post MOAR, but Batman
>>671497754
It isn't about you.
Nothing is.
Our complex machinery inside our heads makes us want to think about ourselves, to stop us from realising what life actually is.
We are just + and - signals that form a picture.
This picture is a naturally selfish and preserving peice of art, that won't accept the truth.
>>671498785
Its me again.. The worst part is the annoying fuckface of a gf my bestfriend has, she turned against both me and my now ex who was her bestfriend...
She told her not to get into a relationship with me because she would hurt me, she told be not to get into a ship with her because of the same reason. Turned out that fucktart was right. I dont know what pisses me more of, the fact that my now ex spent a lot of time convincing me that i was her world, which i apperantly was not, when she was all of my world. She was the one person i could think about whenever i felt down or felt like beating myself for just being me.
Even after this i still cant think anything negative about her, i can only beat myself for thinking i was good enough for her. She is now leaving me for this other fuckturd that broke up with her only to figure out "Meh, im bored, let me hook up with her again". After what she has told me before, he was annoying and only trying to get into her pants. And now he is better than me.
I have no idea where im going with this, im just hoping that i can blow off all my steam before this thread 404s...
>>671496629
thanks brah. got my comicbook cravings back up.
>>671499398
Well, we can be together anon, I'm asexual, and I have issues because my mother's boyfriend murdered my cats who were also my best friends, but we can sit in bed and talk about what a shitty world we live in.
Also watch TV, and eat cereal, or whatever,
I really need to have a friend that I can do that sort of thing with.
When you sit there and the only thing stopping you from suicide is your few friends and family members that would blame themselves for not being there. Even with a suicide-note stating that they could not have changed anything, they will still sit there blaming themselves.
Fuck man, i actually felt good about myself. For the first time in 18 years i could look at myself in the mirror or have a picture taken of me without having to force a smile, i actually thought that i was worth it. I could look at myself without being sad. For only about one week i could do all this. Now, in the matter of seconds my life have turned back and even become worse than it was. Now i cant look at myself without thinking that i was just a place where she could land while she was waiting for her ex to get back with her.
I dont even know what to say or even do anymore. All that false hope, gone...
FUCK ALL THIS MAN!!
>>671500461
The moral of this story is not to be happy?
>>671499398
I know that feeling bro. I sacrificed everything for her.. for four years. And she left me for a fucking 17 year old.. we finally got away from all that highschool bullshit and somehow someone 3 years younger is better then me.. he'll never know her or love her like I do.. I dont know what to do without her.. this fucking hurts
>>671500081
Haha, i would sure appreciate that. Come over and sit here with me, we could sit here watching netflix and just cuddle.
When random people on /b/ write random shit and actually manage to cheer you up... Wow...
Thank you, Anon. Even though this is only jokes... You put a smile on my face. So i thank you :)
You guys would fit in facebook very well
I've been drunk five days straight now and I'm not able to stop drinking. I'm not normally somebody who drinks that much.
The person I care for the most told me last week in tears that her father has cancer and will be dead within the next few months.
I know cancer. My father had it, my grandfather had it and I'm pretty sure that it'll be my end as well.
I'm fine with that, there's nothing that cold instill fear of death in me. It's just part of reality and that's that.
Seeing her cry made me aware of how people that are close to me will feel when I'd get cancer. I didn't give a shit before that.
I can't help her and I just realised that I won't be able to help the people that love me should I get cancer. My grandmother still cries every night about my grandfather.
No more smoking, no more drinking. Today will be the last day on which I'm allowed to drink away my doubts and fears.
>>671500609
It is not, im not sure what the moral is. I think that the moral is that i need to think more before i act.
I always think that my problem is that i think too much, but whenever i stop thinking and just do stuff, i become happy, but i crash harder than ever in just a short period of time.
Idk... i guess im just one of the guys who thinks that it sucks to be them.
inb4: fucking emofaggotfag go fucking kill urself!
>>671500609
"Happiness is the enemy. When you feel happy, it means you have something to lose."
-Nikki Lauda
(Doubt he actually said that, but the movie 'Rush' says so)
>>671500753
explain
>>671500679
Love really sucks bro. She just enlightened me about this ex of hers...
She broke up with him because she still loved her ex. Which turned out to happen again...
>>671500753
The reason why we dont go there is that there we would get likes and people could know us. Here we can talk about it without caring about that stuff...
>>671501161
Because... who would post false personal information on Facebook right?
>>671501161
>we would get likes
All of you, you are idiots.
You constantly go for dopamine and serotonin as the only means of justification for life.
You think that these chemicals are complex emotions, but they are not. Family, friends, relationships, do not matter anymore, as we no longer need groups to survive.
Stop thinking with your brain, and start thinking with your mind, overcome nature and understand the truth.
>>671501334
Lel
>>671496516
Nice, nice.
>>671501370
haaaahahahahaha
keep telling yourself that lonely faggot
>>671497796
OP here
I didn't really post this specifically to spite someone, just to show them the difference between when an anon and a femanon posts a feels thread
Honestly, i just wanted a real feels thread myself
>>671501334
Haha, i dont feel the need to lie about it on here.. Thats why i love it :P
Its wierd. When im on there, i cant lie, which is why i dont like it. But here, where i can lie, i dont feel the need to :P
>>671501370
Shitty isn't it?
Some of us just can't realize that there is literally no difference between being in love and doing heroin.
Also kill yourself
>>671501370
I know that its as simple as that. But i dont find the fun in exploring the others. Im a hypocrite like that, i always tell people how simple life is, only to find my own a complicated yet simple mess
>>671501061
lying cunts man.. every single one of them.. theyre only loyal until someone comes along.. I really hope its just a stage, for both of us bro.. we deserve better.. we deserve fucking respect.. just like we give.. why is that so much to ask for
>>671501469
How can you be so blind?
Did you never study the brain?
Do you know how we work?
What you are feeling is your brain, your nature trying to self-preserve.
As a race we should aim for complete peace, not chase chemicals and a quick good feeling.
Do you even know what peace is?
>>671501530
>knowing this makes you less depressed
>>671501370
Don't blame me, I can just skim for keywords and hope for the best. I'm super dyslexic
>>671501370
Mind is just a temporary state of the brain
>>671501704
No, we should not waste a perfectly capable worker because of selfish needs.
>>671488889
You're going to become what you hate.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xZ6mhF-5Sk
>>671501724
This is why i actively reject relationships with other human beings.
Methamphetamine and desomorphine are both easy enough to cook in my garage, and between the two can reenact any chemical reactions my brain might feel by being around others
>>671501885
Think without the aspect of you, of us, that is what I meant.
>>671501744
Thats the worst part. It always feels like we finally get it, until just poof... Its annoying and sucks so fucking hard. I get that im not the most interesting person around. I dont go around searching for a gf/bf either, but when they randomly comes along i finally feel happy.
I really sound like a "heartbroken" 12 year old girl now, dont i?
>>671501744
Why do you deserve respect? What the fuck have you ever done?
>>671501851
>knowing this makes you less depressed
Not really, i just hope it makes others less depressed
>>671501802
those chemicals are meant for you to survive, moron. Feelings of happiness when having sex, eating or being with others help you to survive
But stay convincing yourself loneliness is okay, cuz u don't have anyone
>>671501990
Sorry, I have too many aspects to manage to not think of any of them at any given time.
>>671502023
Stop basing your life on serotonin and work.
>>671501989
I preffer to get them without drugs. I mean, im willig to try some stuff, i guess. But no drug can recreate the feeling of lying in bed just holding around the girl or guy you love
>>671502142
I have plenty of people, but because of my studies, I realised what should and eventually will happen.
>>671502186
Just wait until one of them gives up on you.
>>671501989
But anon, that's like drinking skimmed milk with lard instead of whole milk. These things come in a package for a reason. You should just drink orange juice instead
>>671502134
The other one was for you
>>671502134
>>671502271
>In this post: Pseudo-intellectual bullshit
Thanks for your input, Mike.
>>671502271
oh yeah, you're so mysterious
You don't have anyone lol
>>671502269
Close enough for me
I'm not willing to let anyone get close enough to me to feel that again
Its not worth it to me anymore
>>671502285
I have overcome that feeling through drugs and surgery. My only goal now is to produce a way of peace.
>>671502023
Usually I'd say fuck yeah you do.. but after the amount of alcohol I've drank and the pain I'm going through fuck no. Women are fucking evil, and they will take the best parts of you, intentionally, and fucking destroy it. And the worst part is I cant work out if she did it intentionally or not. She never even admitted she was sleeping with him, or the other 3 times I found out she cheated.. I always found out off other people.. I just want the fucking truth.. I just want her.. fuck I miss her anon. I hate waking up alone. I dont know if I'm going to stick around much longer. the only thing keeping me going is the slight chance she'll give me the chance I deserve.. she actually messaged me back tonight. 4 months with no reply. and now shes talking like nothing happened.. she fucking got away with everything.. I fucking miss her so much
>>671502186
Im still in school... With where im going i need a couple of more years before im good to go. The school im hoping to get into takes up so much time that it pays you so that you do not need to work while you are attenting it... But after that i will get a job that is useless... Its a job in the military, which if you think about it, should not be needed at all. But after ive finished some years there i can go off to work in almost any company i want to because ive got the most attractive papers from any school in my country when it comes to computing and communication
>>671502363
You are attacking me, and not the idea. This isn't about me, you, or anyone for that manner.
>>671502085
you dont need to do anything to deserve respect you fucking idiot. everyone deserves it, regardless of anything
>>671502335
>mfw
>>671502475
>she cheats on him
>he still thinks the's a good person
Yeah, about that - Bad actions qualify people for the title "Bad person".
She's a bad person.
>>671502510
No, you don't understand, we should try ending everything, for actual peace.
>>671502475
That means she has no one else anon
I know it sucks, but just ignore her.
It'll only make it worse if you get back together, she'll just do it again, and again...
>>671502576
Why? " I exist so I deserve things I didn't work for" That thinking is a cancerous tumor on the body of humanity. You should work for it.
>>671502524
I'm not attacking you, I'm explaining what those chemicals in your brain do for you, because frankly you're not smart enough to understand
>>671502475
You love someone you hate because you hate yourself.
I got a short story:
>be 12
>found pigeon eggs in my shitty counsel house in the UK
>take em in and raise them to the point where i can see the embreo under a light
>would lay with them every day because house was cold
>poverty.gif
>one night back felt wet
>egg on my back
no more baby birds
live much better now though so meh, was sad though.
>>671502475
Its me again. I get you, even with my gf telling me that she was leaving me because she think that the ex that she left was better than me, i still cannot make up one negative thought about her.
With all this talk about the chemical stuff in our brains and shit i cant help but think how ironic it is. All life on earth has evolved and is now better fit for survival than the last generation. Humans feel attracted to other humans because those humans that do will create new ones and therefore create more people with feelings. Yet, so many people, including me, is almost commiting suicide because of these feelings that has made them more fit to survive... Its an inside joke created by nature
>>671488073
Are you a nigger?
If yes - shoot yourself
If no - life is good
I feel like the world is moving around me too fast.
There's things I want to do but can't because I don't enough money. I work, I got the degree that interested me. But I can't get motivated to change things around me because I feel like I'm about to get left behind.
I used to take my prescription pills for bi-polar but I've worked around it.
I'm not bitter, nor am I lonely. But it's hard not to feel alone in the routine I fell into.
The day I stop using 4chan will be the day I know I have something to do.
>>671502753
please enlighten me to how I should achieve this respect. Because a stranger on the internet who I have, for some reason, let into a very small fraction of detail on my life thinks I dont deserve it.. so why do you deserve it anon?
>>671501370
One can philosophically justify either way that emotions or logic are the more important of the two. Nobody cares about -your- opinion but yourself, and thats the way it ought to be,
>>671502942
fuck that chemical shit bro.. unless you have the capacity to understand it it doesnt matter, because at the end of the day we'll all end up in the ground.. life is what ever you want it to be, whether thats chemical, spiritual, simulation, whatever. React how you feel and nothing will change
Knowing that people actually seek comfort in a thead like this, and that i am one of them... Fuck dude...
>>671502893
Why is this so relevant
>>671502786
I know what they do, I know that.
You didn't explain anything, but a basic concept, and you did attack my personal character, if can read your own writing.
Machines, better ones than us, should take over, or a better version of life, one without art, media, or the need for chemicals, just one that operates.
>>671503027
I don't, and I don't expect it, as I am small, and others are big.
>>671503232
Don't you think it is?
>>671503147
Just the way i think it is. Its so complicated, yet so simple.
>>671503067
No, none of that is important. Both are just trillions of + & - signals. We need peace, the complete equalisation of energy in the universe.
>>671503329
I think your big anon. I think you deserve respect. I think you deserve loyalty and happiness. Only for the reason that you havent given me a reason to think otherwise. respect shouldnt be won, only lost
>>671503329
Not the anon you responded to, but you just haven't read enough actual philosophy if you believe this.
Kant for example has a great explanation as to why every human deserves respect if you accept his assumption that there god exists (he never tried to prove god, he only assumed his existence for practical reasons).
>>671503152
I've been posting in threads like these on and off for just over 21 hours now. Just watching the world go by. hardly eating or drinking. It's the most content I've been in a while.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BblbMtvwfCY
>>671503152
What a weird world we live in, where we have chosen to abstract our presence into these anonymous online personas and send bits to one another across an inferior medium for communication...
What the hell are we doing here anyway?
I suppose its a symptom of our problems.
>>671489374
wouldn't the person who has to live through so much pain be worse off than the one who died from one painful thing?
My friends actually warned me about getting into this relationship ive been mentioning here and there in here.. Doesnt matter really.
Anyways... They warned me because they thought that i would get hurt since she was mentally unstable and were using antideppresants and was constantly seeking comfort in new dudes all the time.
I kinda listened to them by going slow. Time and time again i could help myself but think that she genuinly like me and that i genuinly loved her. Then poof, out of nowhere, she is back with her ex instead of me.
I thought that i could make her happy, it even seemed like i did.
I need my best friend to support me right now, but im too emberassed to tell him because ive finally convinsed him that we had made it work...
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>>671503489
Respect is a concept. Machines don't need respect and they will eventually take over, and hopefully they will get rid of biological life.
>>671503646
Your bestfriend will understand bro. Just like we do.
>>671503510
Indeed.
If natural selection would've run its course, neither of us would be here right now
"Marked for demolition, I'm
Just a time bomb ticking inside
No hope for the hopeless,
I can see the pieces all laid out in front of me
No point even asking why
Couldn't help even if you tried
Step aside or you might just be the next contestant
To feel the Brutality!"
>>671503710
Your mum is a concept
>>671503545
That's the point of the picture
>>671503510
We are so fucking wierd, which makes this so fucking great :P
We show each others and even ourselves that we can care about others feelings without knowing them or even knowing if they are real or just trolls
>>671503710
Only if you believe that machines of the future were unable to develop the concept of individualism, which is a ridiculous assumption.
>>671503646
Its not you, anon
It might not even be her. It's the BPD.
>>671488889
No you wont. Even if you will earn money and shit you are still a worthless piece of flesh.
>>671503722
Deep within i know he will... But the first step that is telling him, its so fucking hard to take
>>671503510
This is the great age of communication. An individual has never before had such an opportunity for liberation.
Knowledge is power and the people have better access to knowledge.
I like the anonymous thing because it removes the problems of prejudices of identity, the old popularity contest.
>>671503860
I know, but it still sucks big time
>>671488889
One off....
I sent my best friend a big care package across the world for his birthday, which was 10 days before mine.
He didnt even remember my birthday until after it had passed and I vaguely mentioned to him that I went out to dinner wih my father for my birthday.
Sometimes I just want to rationalise it away with some sort of logic but thats even worse - he didnt remember because he was too busy spending time with his gf and having fun.
Should I begrudge someone who I respected because they were enjoying life too much to look beyond themself?
>>671503840
We only developed it because we are individual animals. If they are connected what would the the point of individualism? I am going to sleep, but please keep pondering.
>>671488073
as long as you feel that way its only gonna get worse
>>671503896
fuck the first step. do it and dont give a fuck. I posted a picture of an actual person on here tonight which is probably the dumbest thing anyone could do. Just do it
I recently lost a cat that has been with me 14 years
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byA3JAdqPQk
this poem is about a dog but pretty much the story is the same
>>671499398
My phone is constanly going off because of the chat i have with her...
I want to not answer, i want to tell her that i dont want to talk to her anymore because of the way i was treated... But i just cant...I Jump every time my phone makes a sound and i cant ignore her, i want to talk to her... Im such a fucking mess right now
>>671504180
Yeah and you can't actually prove that machines will become an actual Singularity.
It's ridiculous to assume something this far into the future, just as it was ridiculous that people assumed cars to be flying in the future.
It's just assumptions of the ignorant.
>>671504173
You don't get to choose what you begrudge anon. Either you do or you don't.
>>671502475
dude don't be stupid.
fucking cut off contact with her.
You deserve better. Don't let her step over you again. Fuck man don't do this.
>>671504463
I suppose youre right anon. I guess I just dont want to throw away the only real friend I think I have. My self esteem has been in the dumps for years.
>>671504943
If he's that good a friend he'll make it up to you anyway, otherwise, what are you going to do? Send him dogshit in the mail? Be silently angry at him for years?
This is the only queen song that i like
And its only because of this line
>>671505336
Pic didn't post for some reason
>>671505293
of course you should probably just tell him he upset you or something if you havn't already
>>671505336
>>671505391
>he doesn't like https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CEjU9KVABao&index=23&list=RDazdwsXLmrHE
>>671503232
Have you loved someone you felt hated you in the past? Like one of you parents?
Stuff like that really can effect you,not in a symbolic Freudian way, in a practical way. Maybe you're appropriating your feelings to the wrong people.
>>671501370
you need more serotonin
>>671505402
Thanks for the advice anon. I wish I had more friends like you to talk to about these sorts of things but loneliness isnt one for company.
Best of luck overcoming your own challenges.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3cpguutW8U
Polski rap potrafi czuć i uczyć
>>671506124
<3
maybe you feels for this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iazTQVi1CEE
>>671506947
Why does real life have such shit physics? lol
Anyone have any stories about heroin abuse, or any screen caps?
long but worth it
>>671507837
I'm too dyslexic for this shit. Synopsis?
Hey, again guys...
I spent about an hour here just typing shit with tears in my eyes.
I dont know if this only works for me or if it may work for some of you too.
I saw no hope with myself, i was embarrased, i was a lot of things.
What i want to say is that do not fight it, let yourself hit rock bottom. I was sitting there with my knife, literally ready to open what i needed to just to leave this shitty life once and for all. Only... i didnt... I bounced back up, now feeling that the girl that left me actually liked me at first and that i could go on without any big problems. Idk how it happened... but im back on my feet and ready to move on already.
I dont know if that is me going insane or whatever, but going from writing a suicide-note to be all good in about 3 hours... damn... thats is so fast its almost scary.
I guess it is that i could talk to you guys on here, i could blow of all my steam instead of keeping it in. So for that, i thank you anons. No matter how pathetic i sound, you saved a life today.
do what makes you happy
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>>671488985
Damn just when the g5 is about to launch and she gets the g4
>>671508190
Nice knowin that, too bad ur a fag
>>671508190
Good stuff anon. Hang in there. Shit WILL get better.
>>671508190
love you bro
>>671508190
it's called pussying out
>>671508190
>It was girl problems
>you were going to use a fucking knife
You wern't in any real danger anon. Well you might have hurt yourself if you were really determined, but there's no way your brain would let you kill yourself over such trivial shit. Not when you arn't drugged up and certainly not with a knife
Thanks anyway I guess
>>671510236
can we fuck this fucking bullshit snoopy shit off aye. I'm fucking done aye
>>671490453
It's a smartphone made by a Korean company
>>671510605
I will put my dick inside your head
>>671510664
>I'd notice
>>671511139
I don't get it
>>671510236
It was not just girl problems. She was my gateway out of my regular life... The life where i dont dare to talk to anyone, where i have to live with a literally insane mother, a dad that is unstable due to him quitting drinking.
She was the one that made all those thoughts go away. And then, when she bailed on me... Things looked darker than they ever were...
Believe me or not, what im telling is the truth. The reason that i would be using a knife is that there are no guns around and due to the fact that there are people at home, finding alcohol and my mothers pills would require more luck than i have.
Things seem simple because one does not know the whole story.
>>671511548
because I miss her anon. But she doesnt miss me
>>671502942
Sounds like you are complaining that you are not better adapted to the world although you are the product of billions of years of evolution. The answer is simple, your competition is also the product of evolution and has improved as well.
>>671512740
I know. What i wrote was some words that sounded really clever in the desperated mind i had at the time. Ive snapped out of it now btw...
eep
>>671488073
The only reason why i am not killing my self is becuase i dont wanna go down like a bitch. Also i dont want my family to feel guilty about it
>>671514797
You can't be both seriously suicidal, and give a shit about what society decided makes you "look like a bitch".
>>671514797
>I want to kill myself but I don't actually want to kill myself
I don't care who just someone fucking kill themselves on live stream already HOLY SHIT.
I need to beat down this hardon and I can't do it unless I see someone hopelessly sobbing and ending their life.
WHAT THE FUK IS RONG WITH U GUZ
>>671514797
dont go down like a bitch then. join the military and 360 no scope some terrorists. If you die then whatevs, if not then you'll be legend among men.
>>671504291
This is me every time my ex can be bothered to message me. Except every time he does, he's either angry and/or treating me like shit.
>>671488985
Join the narcos you pussy and help your sister
>>671488950
My bro. Meditation. Not to sound like a new-agey fuck, because most new-agey shit is nonsense. But fucking meditation. Meditation detaches you from mental bullshit in a way that you would have never thought was possible before simply sitting down for an hour, and focusing on looking at an object without thinking. You will literally feel better after trying this, than you have in your entire life.
I swear to God, meditation is like discovering you've had a billion-dollar check inside your asshole since the day you were born, and you just had to pull it out with some tweezers and cash it.
You don't have to be like *pic related* to meditate. The way that I pick up girls now is that I meditate before I go out to the bars. Instead of needing to drink, meditation does away with all of the mental bullshit.
I have a plan, albeit a not very well thought out plan, but still a plan.
I'm tired of fighting, I'm tired of being afraid, I'm tired of knowing that I'm nothing. Whether I go through with it tonight or not, I will do it eventually, and then everyone in my life will be happy.
