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Hi
>>713923251
Hey.
>>713923334
Hey Diesel.
>>713923355
Howdy. How're you?
>>713923515
Pretty shitty, how about you?
>>713923556
About the same
>>713923162
that looks pretty gay to me
>>713923302
How's it goin?
>>713923860
Awful, how about you?
>>713923938
I'm doin pretty good, just got a copy of the next book in a series that I really enjoy.
Why you doin awful?
>>713924081
It's a long story. Basically, I've had my eye on one person for about 8 months now. They were waiting on someone else to turn 16 so they could be together. Turns out their birthday is this weekend, so they're probably going to fuck. It makes me very sad because I truly love this person. I wanted to be the person to take their virginity.
>>713924350
Ah, been in that kind of situation before or at least pretty close. I ended up cutting it off, I regret nothing. It helped tbh, was a pretty toxic thing I think. Have you considered something like that? They don't sound very interested
>>713924615
They like me quite a bit. They say I'm not the right type in terms of personality, but I hide my true self, even in text. I know what they want.
Do you feel Christmas in the air?
I can't wait
>>713924744
You shouldn't have to do that, hide your personality. I used to do that, not much anymore though. You should just be yourself
>>713924968
Kek
>>713925285
I know I should. But it's hard. I hate myself. For fucks sake, I can't even force myself to say "him" because I'm a fucking faggot in love with another dude, and I hate myself for it.
>>713925437
Yeah you do sound like a faggot, real gay men are proud of who they are.
>>713925581
Any kind of pride in something out of one's control is stupid. I have no reason to be proud of myself, and all the reason to be ashamed of myself.
>>713925437
It is hard, I know. Not many people would say it is, but it is. There's nothing wrong with being a faggot and some good advice right now would be to reflect. Find what makes you YOU, what experiences made you the way you are. You might hate yourself because of your past and you have to come to terms with that
>>713925669
You have control over how you handle what's given to you in life, and you clearly don't have anything to be proud of because you act like a faggot crying about your situation, stop acting like a faggot, be proud of not acting like a faggot despite being gay, THROW THE VICTIM COMPLEX OUT THE FUCKING WINDOW.
>>713925669
Beat your thoughts to the mould of your will.
>>713925804
I can't come to terms with it. Never. I was abused in multiple different ways throughout my whole childhood. They made me hate myself and everyone else, stabbed me in the back when I was just a child. They permanently damaged me. I can never forgive them.
>>713925937
I'm not gay. I'm bi, and I hate it as much if I was gay. And I'm not crying for attention. Someone asked how I was, and I told them the truth. That's not being a crying faggot.
>>713923355
Diesel? As in diesel wolf? I know you. You shaved your beard today
>>713926510
What the fuck?
>>713926083
There's your first problem. You can't blame other people for being the way they are. No one can ever "damage" anyone, the change the way you think. It's human nature, to do what you know how to do. But what you can do is this: Remember, never forget, always forgive. I can say that I was sexually a bused as a child. Until recently, I hadn't told anyone and that was a mistake. It was having to admit that it happened and it changes you, it really does change you. But you can't let it rule your life, you can't let it affect the way you perceive yourself. Trust me
>>713926625
Bullshit. I was abused enough for my sweet, sensitive personality to become a jaded, cold prick. If that's not damaging then I don't know what is.
>>713926217
>I'm not gay
Irreverent.
>And I'm not crying for attention
Still crying though, your attitude needs some serious adjustment, I suggest pic related, your give a shit meter is off the charts, turn that shit down and tell more people to fuck off, including any part of you feeling "ashamed"
>>713926762
How old were you when it happened?
>>713926547
Ya dude. hope you have fun drinking with racket next weekend haha
>>713926762
>Victim complex.
>>713926510
>>713926547
meh, some makeup around the pussy to blend it with the suit and it's fuckable.
>>713926889
About age 5 to now.
>>713926915
You're a fucking idiot.
>>713927047
Your irrational and in denial.
>>713927301
Whatever. Fucking dipshit. You don't know a god damn thing about me.
>>713924597
o fuk
>>713927047
Sounds about right, I was somewhere around that age. I have no idea what I'd be like today without that experience, so I don't think you can say much about being sweet. I don't mean any of this in a hostile way, only observationally. Being jaded is a side effect, hell I'm cynical as hell and everyone calls me out on it. But anger and hate only breeds more, leading into a downward spiral. It happened but that's the past. Live in the now, live for the future
I also have herm version if anyone wants
>>713923066 OP is a faggot
>>713927375
Don't really have to know anything about you, just stating the truth, take it or leave it, in the end your only cheating yourself.
>>713927472
Well the now fucking sucks and I hate it. I want out. The future is even shittier as time passes.
I think we all should just relax a bit.
>>713927580
What's it like being that fucking stupid? Is it hard?
>>713927647
Mmm that lack of any intelligible conversation beyond angry name calling, just proving my point famalam.
>>713927622
Wheres the fun in that? these threads are just boring porn dumps without a little drama in the mix.
>>713927616
And what know what you can do about that? Everything. MAKE your life better, you are the only one who can. If this guy is interested in another person, go after him. If it's clear he's not into you, leave him out. It'll hurt but it's healthier than sitting on it
>>713927824
phat
>>713927791
there's no need for drama
we can have a normal conversation
>>713927809
No no that simply wont do, none of that falls in line with his evident self hate and depression, he cant see through his fog of victimization he has surrounded himself with, as long as he is stuck in it he is doomed to inaction and decay.
>>713928007
boooooorrrinnnnnng, no one wants to hear about what you had for breakfast or hows the weather like or whatever boring shit people talk about in "normal" conversations.
>>713927719
You don't have a single point other than making yourself look like a retard. I was physically and verbally abused by literally everyone around me. I was beaten with a belt every week by my whore of a mom. My dad never even gave a shit, and my 4 siblings, from 3 other fathers not including my own, were all cunts. I grew up in the ghettos of Atlanta where I was literally the only white kid in my classes. I was abused by every fucking kid there. I was once accused of making a racist remark, and every single nigger in that class said that I did, and I was suspended for a week. That made me into a misanthrope right there. Oh, and I had to constantly fight other people because I was picked on for being much smaller than everyone else. So don't you fucking tell me your "point" when you have no idea who the fuck you're talking to.
>>713928127
i said normal conversation, not normie conversion
>>713928070
That's exactly what I've been saying, let go of the hate. That's the first step to becoming the person you want to be
>>713927809
I guess so. I just wish I could see him this weekend. I was going to tell him how I feel about him, but this just fucking breaks my heart.
Looks like that shut him up. Fucking twat.
>>713928142
Your missing the point, its not about what happened to you in the past, or even whats happening to you now, its about your outlook on it, you wear all of that shit with you like its a free ticket to give up and wallow in self pity, maybe you have been through all that hard shit, maybe your life does suck a whole lot more then average joe, it still doesn't change the fact of the matter that YOU control how you act and feel in the present not your past experiences, YOU do.
>>713928713
And no, no it didnt.
>>713928334
Do it now or don't do it at all. Either way, you have to do something. You can't stand around in indecision. Ask yourself if he really needs you to be happy and if you need him to be happy. If the answer is no to either of those, then it's not good. Let him go if you need to, the heartbreak is less when letting go. Keep that in mind
>>713928852
No, I don't. I literally cannot control myself. I know you're just going to be a cunt about this, but I know for a fact that I have BPD, and I exhibit every single symptom of it. I literally can't control what I say or do.
>>713928962
I need him. He doesn't need me.
You guys want to have sex with animals?
Seek medical help (therapists are pros, they wont judge you). You know you need it.
>>713929202
Then it might be best to let him go. It's healthier for you, healthier for him
>>713929202
you don't need anyone other than yourself
>>713929327
>nicefeet.jpg
>>713929289
No. I can't. He's the first person I've ever met that I could truly connect with, and the only one. I know what he wants, but it's my fault that I haven't shown him who I really am.
>>713929412
If you haven't shown him who you really are, then how do you know you can truly connect with him? If you don't show someone who you are, you can't connect with them properly. Once you start showing yourself to everyone, then you'll find people you can connect with. Those are the people who will be your close friends, maybe even partner
>>713929048
except thats bullshit, assuming you do have BPD it does not "literally control" it may influence you and fuck you up sure, and of course (theoretically) meds can take the edge off of said issues, but in the end mental issues can only be solved mentally, and your obviously not helping yourself with the massive defeatist mindset you have going.
>>713929626
I mean that he's into cute boys. I don't act cute because I hate that side of me, so I hide it. Again, I know what he wants.
>>713929673
Whatever. I never even asked for your advice in the first place. Cunt.
>>713929695
Then let it out, once you do you won't hate it so much. Literally nothing can stop you in life, only you can stop you
>>713929794
Yeah. I know.
>>713929754
Indeed, but i'm a nosy prick who tells it as i see it, I know that, I accept and work with that, try to do the same and you might find you can get somewhere good in life.
>>713929830
Then DO something. Also, >>713929673 does have a point even if it is worded aggressively
giving advice to people with not perfect mental health only makes them feel worse,
I suggest you to stop.
>>713930248
You're not wrong
>>713930248
cept thats literally what therapists do, not that I'm a therapist, and lets be honest with where we are here...
>>713930448
i know, that's why I keep going to therapists and stop after three sessions.
the more I go the more I want to isolate myself from the world
>>713931183
That's because therapy requires a commitment and a true desire to fight to get better.
>>713931183
Three sessions is nowhere near enough for them to even begin to help.
>>713931289
i do want to get better, but that desire disappears when they start talking.
>>713931292
i know, that's why I still have SPD.
>>713923908
>remove tissue from sensor
>remove husky (place in cab)
>fly away
that's a nice Cessna 172 there
>>713931521
That's because fixing shit hurts, its painful and uncomfortable and makes you want to curl up in a dark corner with your fingers in your ears, but if you truly want to get better and your willing to fight to get better you have to work through it, it might make your stomach churn just thinking about it but that's the ugly truth of it.
>>713926762
>I was abused enough for my sweet, sensitive personality to become a jaded, cold prick
>sweet, sensitive personality
Lost any and all sympathy. Cut yourself in another thread, faggot.
>>713932101
Oh shove it you nigger people are trying to have a conversation.
>>713931772
it doesn't make my stomach churn, it makes me want to kill myself, and I can hear every single cell of my body screaming for me to stop thinking about thinking about it.
>>713932192
I've read through the whole conversation and it's hilarious as all fuck. This guy is a fucking pansy who just wants a sympathy fap.
>>713932284
>it makes me want to kill myself
JUST DO IT! DON'T LET YOUR DREAMS BE DREAMS!
>>713929048
You sound like an attention whore.
>>713932284
Yeah that's the stuff, it tears at you until you wanna stick a knife in your skull, avoiding it only makes it worse and worse and worse, meds can take the edge off that feeling for some but others have to muscle through it, its not fun buts what needs to be done.
>>713932415
>>713932478
please, he wouldn't even be talking about it if it wasn't being pro-sued, its only attention whoring if its unwanted and pushed on others, your the only attention whores here so suck a dick.
>>713932703
And you sound like a tumblrfag.
>>713932703
>He wouldn't be talking about suicide if he wasn't suicidal
Because no one has ever, EVER, gone on the internet and claimed to be suicidal to garner attention. Fucking genius...
>>713932801
And you sound like a dirty nigger, no one wants to here you speak.
What the fuck are you people even arguing about? I left this conversation 45 minutes ago.
>>713932926
Well some of us are still here and having a jolly fuckin time, but it looks like the shitposters are here so im probably going to just say fuck it and go to bed.
>>713932926
Let them fight, I like it
>>713932877
>here
I'm pretty sure they can't here a damn thing since here isn't a fucking verb you dipshit.
>>713932926
Suicidal faggot attempting to be an attention whore. That's pretty much it.
new bread?
>>713933066
>hurr durr grammurr nazzii
Now who sounds a like a fuckin tumblrfag.
>>713933128
Yeah man. Way to show how not baited you are.
>>713932877
Seeing as how you can't even tell the difference between hear and here, I'm starting to think that you're the dirty nigger you keep ranting about.
>>713933206
>I was only pretending to be dumb!
>>713933075
Why not? There's pretty much only two shitposters in here. Why it wasn't done sooner I don't know.
>>713933128
Tumblrfags are the first to misspell even their own damn names.
>>713933303
Well then you can go back to some other shithole that you so deem appropriate for your grammar needs faggot, because this shithole has never onces cared about grammar.
>>713933418
Shows how new you are. I suggest you go back to Tumblr before you're eaten alive by the people on this site.
>>713933524
okay my dood, whatever keeps you comfy, seeing as its nearing 5 in the morning for me I think I'm done, enjoy your porn and autism.
>>713933649
Cool beans. Enjoy your suicide, faggot!
>>713933649
Enjoy autism? But you're leaving!