Pedo AMA thread V2? Therapy guy here from last thread. AMA.
FOR CLARIFICATION, NO TRADING CP, POSTING LOLI, ETC. This thread is for discussion and support, as well as Q&As if anyone offers them.
>pic unrelated but cool
euthanize pedophiles
What's your IP?
Sorry for this unrelated post, OP...
To the anon who posted this image:
My FC: 3797-5817-2902, name is Afrit.
>>713054360
What am I even looking at?
>>713054700
Ovipositor. Its a dildo that let's you lay fake eggs inside of yourself. Cool, right?
>>713054614
Meh. The pic was in the last thread. IDC.
>>713054700
Its a egg laying dildo. It lays eggs inside of the user so it feels like an alien is laying eggs inside of you.
>>713054910
>>713054823
What the fuck man
>>713054910
We heard you like spooge in your ass so we got you a dildo so you could spooge in your ass.
>>713054972
Avp2 hospital scene. Welcome to scary town
>>713054360
booru: hihipuffyamiyumi.booru.org/index.php?page=post&s=view&id=163
I was about to post something, but then old thread 404d. It took a while to write. If I try to write it again, it will 404 before it posts.
>>713054972
Its hot. There's a few vids up on different sites. Idk if you'll like it or not, so check it out.
YOU HAVE SELECTED... "NO"... INDICATING THAT YOU HAVE COMMITTED A CRIME, BUT DO NOT WISH TO REPORT IT.
AN FBI VAN IS NOW SPEEDING TOWARDS YOUR CURRENT ADDRESS.
>>713055183
I'm gonna be here for a bit. Type away, amigo.
>>713055306
Oh shit. How do IP change?!!
I'm addicted to going on omegle, and spamming my kik saying I'll rate nudes. I always ask for everyone to be 18 but get excited when I can tell they aren't. Like immediately more excited.
Do I need therapy?
I'm not attracted to girls that are not developed at all.
At what age is it considered unacceptable to be attracted to underage women? how does your attraction just disappear?
>>713055788
>get excited when I can tell they aren't. Like immediately more excited
>I'm not attracted to girls that are not developed at all.
I got bad news for ya
>>713055788
No. You might just be a thrillseeker. I'm no professional, but you might just enjoy the fact that its a little illegal to do something. Its a dangerous tendency, but nothing too serious.
>>713056018
I'm not society. Ask them. Most of them will say 16 or 18. Maybe even 21.
>>713055788
>spamming my kik saying I'll rate nudes
How do you do this?
>>713055788
You are most likely an ephebophile
do you realize how fucked up your fantasy's are? would you never actually do it in real life because its so fucked up?
>>713054431
agreed
how do you gain the confidence of a child before you destroy their life?
>>713056742
If you're a child as well and have sex together no one's life will be destroyed
>>713056638
Its weird, really- all the terrible fantasies I have can't compare to real life. I mean, I'll think of a kid and all the sexual stuff I'd do, and then when I see a kid in real life, my instinct isn't to immediately fuck it, its to take care of it gently.
>>713056742
I don't and never plan on doing so.
Do you think we should kill pedos?
op has to be 18 or mods should ban him
how young do you go for your fantasies? whats the oldest you would go for kids? boys or girls?
Serious question
Why wasn't I molested?
cute little whiteboy btw
>>713057151
If I was to be completely honest, to further the advancement of humans, yes.
As a human myself, hell no.
>>713057428
Any chick under 30. Yes, 30. Boys, sometimes.
>>713057466
Protection of dubs, probably.
>>713055788
does that actually work?
>>713055101
I loved Avp2 for many other reasons, but I do know what you're talking about
>>713057466
It isnt molestation when you agree with it.. that's why
>>713055333
Thanks.
originally wasnt going to, but changed my mind.
I think I might be a pedo, but I am not sure.
I got a lot out of scouting, and that is where I started noticing things. I had this urge to touch some of the kids (before I aged out) (and not touch sexually, like pat head/back/rub back/piggyback ride) I have aged out and am now a registered leader in my local troop.
I feel like I am attracted to kids, but it doesn't feel sexual in my head. Like I have the urge to hug a kid around the age of 10-12 ish, but I dont want to have sex with them. Nor do I really have any desire to touch their parts either. As an example, one time before I turned 18, on a scout outing, I suggested we play chicken (a game where you pair up and get on each others backs, then try to knock the other people off. Last one standing wins) because I liked the idea of this one younger kid getting on my back. This urge didn't really FEEL sexual, but I had an erection the whole time.
I have tried to write this off as an early paternal instinct or something like that, but I just dont know. The idea of violating the trust of the kids, parents, troop, and both scouting in general and its ideals... it just feel so wrong to do that. The adult leaders have to take a youth protection training program online every 2 years. I automatically find myself calculating how much I can get away with. I hate myself for it. Even if what I end up doing is totally OK with society (a head pet, kid falling asleep leaning on me, rubbing a kids back when he is distressed over something, that sort of stuff) I still feel like I am betraying all that because of my motives, even if the action itself is acceptable and it is helping people.
Does this make me a pedo? should I feel bad about this? is this OK? I can rationalize it to make it OK, but that doesnt mean it IS ok.
(more to come,)
Waiting for her return...
Can we see your face op? how old are you?
>>713056288
Who would say it is acceptable for a 21 year old to be attracted to a 12 year old
>>713057644
Actually yes
>>713057858
was she a pedo?
>>713057858
that's meee
>>713058000
Nice trips
>>713058026
Said they had some fetishes or something, was pretty cool to talk with and see them yell at other posters. Would hangoutwith/10
>>713057774
I think you having an erection kinda straddles the line more to one side...
>>713057774
You have good intentions, but you definitely are a little 'deprived' of some sort of deeper desire. Perhaps you're right with the parental instinct theory.
>>713057858
Doubt it. She was cute, though.
>>713057864
Nice try.
>>713057873
I'm not saying that. Hell, I think that's a little disturbing, to be honest.
>>713058097
Oh, hey, nevermind. You're back.
>>713058484
Hii
>>713057858
I'm lurking.
>>713058097
lying fucking baiter.
>>713058563
>lying fucking baiter.
[spoiler]it worked[/dontwork]
>>713057774
Dude, you are a pedo... not every pedo wants to see a kid riding their cocks relentlessly. it is kinda sad to feel the way that you feel, but taking in consideration the society we live on, i suggest you look for some kind of therapy before you start to want something more than that, because it will happen. I dont want you to feel bad about it, i really think these think this stuff is serious, but it is a path that leads only to sorrow. society will NEVER accept pedo stuff, and i think we're better off that way
>>713058294
>would hangoutwith/10
:^) thanks
>>713058000
damn, wish i would've thought of that back when i went through the effort to get win on omegle
>>713058563
sorta cute
need to see more/10
>>713054360
Where did you get???!!??!?!!!!??????
>>713058563
post soles
Is it hard to go balls deep in kid pussy?
>>713058563
>>713058617
Welp, shit. Color me baited.
>>713058801
Use Shamchat. Way more fun, if you're into roleplays. Less bots, too.
>>713058848
What?
>>713058879
I have no experience in that, but my best guess would be yes.
>>713058900
never used shamchat, will check it out
I do have a few RP friends that'll like it too
>>713058627
You never know, in 50 years being a pedo might be has hip as being gay/bi is these days
>>713054431
chemical castration
>>713059211
As a pedo, I hope not, at least not until children are educated enough to make wise decisions about consent.
>>713054360
>veiled cp request
>>713058617
Oh well it's easy to pretend you're somebody you're not on the internet isn't it.
I'll be the one posting fictional underage cuties, just fyi.
>>713058865
no.
>>713058900
shamchat looks interesting
>>713059482
I dunno how to respond to that without seeming suspicious.
>>713059491
especially when you're anon, gotta give her credit for the timestamp though.
>>713059211
You sound like bait to me, but anyways... it is not the same thing. All I could handle was teens of about 15 y.o being allowed to do porn stuff because i know a lot of boys and girls are very sexually active at that age, but would be way too wrong to allow porn with toddlers and children because they would only suffer... at least teens can enjoy it.
>>713057151
i wouldn't mine if one of those teachers raped me.
>>713057774
Continued
The other thing Is I have these scenarios in my head. I will create a mental movie where I create an entire situation in my head, and it will involve a kid who is distressed or upset about something and then trying to help them with it. A common example is a kid who wets the bed and I try to make them feel better about it.
I also have a diaper fetish, and I will not lie to myself and say that a 10 year old kid wearing/using a diaper doesnt get me excited. But I am just as attracted to adults in diapers, so I WANT to think it is the diaper I am attracted to, not the kid wearing it.
(it is at this point that I wish I hadn't closed the other tab after the old thread 404d because I ha this written the way I wanted it and am now having trouble reproducing it coherently)
I really like helping kids, making them feel happy/secure/safe etc, etc. again, it doesn't FEEL like a sexual drive, but it IS a drive. I would never want to hurt them, or touch their parts or anything like that. Even if the impact I have is positive, (and people give the impression that it is as far as I can tell for the most part. A bit weird at times, but beneficial overall) I feel like it isn't OK for me to do stuff that I am driven to do only because of the fact that I am doing it in part because of this quasi-sexual drive.
Im just getting mixed messages from my penis and my brain, and I dont know what to make of it.
I really cant even fap to the idea of touching a kid or them falling asleep leaning on me or stuff like that. In fact, I generally will only fap with anything underaged in mind if it involves diapers.
>>713058900
actual win? or will i be jerkin to words
I don't have sexual attraction to undeveloped females, but when they begin to develop and it isn't completely new to them, they become appealing; like 13-15.
It's not the fact that they're children that attracts me, at all. It isn't the thrill of illegality. It's not like "Ooooohhh, god this one's YOUNG! YES!!". Quite the opposite.
I think it's the innocence most 13-15yo girls display. They're developing, but aren't yet whores in most cases. The world hasn't tainted them yet. I believe I'm attracted to that aspect; that they're still "pure".
Maybe, psychologically, this is due to previous relationships.
>literally got cheated on 100% of the time by experienced, mentally unscrewed women.
Normal women literally don't even interest me anymore. If I meet a woman I'd like to date, I almost immediately picture it 3-4 months later ending badly.
But a young, inexperienced girl who is at least mostly developed, that's still appealing. Knowing she's trying to find a guy to actually accept her, knowing 150 guys haven't fucked her up yet, knowing she hasn't been around, THAT'S ATTRACTIVE.
This is how I try to perceive my attraction.
Either way, the bottom line remains: it's not simply because they're children.
>>713059811
Like, pegging? What are you, gay?
>>713059797
That... was me timestamping though....
>>713058820
>sorta
KK.
delivering anyway.
Surprised this hasn't gotten taken down yet, very.. interesting thread
>>713059884
You can get actual wins if you find the right people. Happened to me a few times. Just be careful about age and stuff. It helps if you have a kik and actually RP with them.
>>713059839
Oh, man, dude. I think you are a pedo. No shame in it, but you know, damn.
Maybe you aren't. Maybe you are. Maybe its just diapers. Maybe its Maybelline. Hell, I dunno, man. My best guess is that parental shit is getting confused with your sex drive because your brain is slightly fucked up. Talk to someone. Believe me, I waited until I got into trouble until I got help, and I still regret it.
>>713060213
show feet
>>713059839
I like twinks because they are the best I can get from legal porn, considering most of them look like teenagers (google Joey Mills) and yes, I do have and enjoy sex with adults
>>713059806
Attraction to teens is hebephilia, not pedophilia. Hebephilia comes off as creepy more than"sick fuck."
>>713058617
Looks like the same bitch
>>713059903
Psychologists say that pedo's use words like angelic, pure, innocent a lot to describe why they're attracted to minors. It could be some bullshit, like how horoscopes are designed to be "true" for all zodiacs but it still makes me wonder when I see it.
I've even said it in my heads a couple times. Pure and raw, they're not dragged down by lifes depression, they're not jaded and apathetic.
Although for me, it's usually me wishing I could be that age again and have the confidence I have now.
Is that still on the pedo level?
>>713059903
Yeah, you're a Holden Caulfield if I've ever seen one. You love innocence and the joy of life, like me. And all these modern women just don't have it, right?
My only message to you is to look harder for a healthy alternative. In my book, its worth it.
>>713060356
There was a bigger one earlier that 404'd BC it was full (I think).
>>713059904
as long as shes give me good grades she can stick anything up my ass
>A guy dealing with a pedofile problem makes a tread asking for advice
People starts insulting him saying shit. Is this how people treat others searching for help? He hasn't even say that he has comit a crime yet you are already treating him like if he he had.
>>713060427
How did you get in trouble, anon?
Genuinely curious how you got caught up.
>>713060427
how am I supposed to tell a therapist that Im a pedo though? I already talk to one for different reasons, but I just don't know how I could bring this up. I would assume that confidentiality would still apply, but Im not 100% sure about it. Not trying to go against it, just an honest question. And can anything actually be done about it?
>>713060762
>wishing you could be that age
What do you mean by that? Like, a yearning to be young again? Wanting to experience the carefree wonders of youth?
>>713060427
I'm a soviet spy and everyone keeps leaving...
>>713060213
ugly cunt
>>713060924
I did, a while ago, actually. Just possession of CP. I was still a juvenile and got probation for two years and a dickload of therapy. Thank the lord I was still young and stupid.
This thread, and my ultimate goal concerning my 'condition', is more of an embracing of what I am and the desire to get over it to make healthier choices.
>>713061015
If it's a good therapist, he/she will keep it between you guys... just make sure it is not a religious person, otherwise you will not be helped at all
>>713060213
Cute
>>713059705
just fap
nobody can see
>>713058026
Actually I'd like to touch on this, to stay on-topic with the thread.
I'm not in-tune with my stance on whether I'm a pedophile or not. Like most cases, it's complicated.
I'm attracted to both males and females, but I am very very picky with my girls. If they are dreamy and have very girl-ish or impish features, and they are typically fun and innocent I fall hard. However I've never been sexually active with any girl.
But I do find myself really attracted to young girls. If they're loud and fat and the result of horrid parents then not so much, but every so often I find a girl who's curious, and happy and pretty and I really like just watching them.
It's the innocence. And I'm into symbols of innocence too, like lace, and ribbons, and toys, and baby products, etc. etc. etc. Not in a fucking Melanie Martinez way though. That shit's absolute cancer. But things that touch on my youth I am very sentimental to I suppose.
It goes deeper but I could be talking for hours about this. I suppose it's the purpose of this thread but meh.
Honestly I believe there's a pedophile within everyone. Even with the trend of girls shaving, the idea of being completely hairless is like a girl being closer to pre-pubescence. Still, it's up to preference, but which looks better? Hairy or smooth, pale and shaved?
>>713061293
The sad truth is that we will never stop liking them, right? as a minor I also looked for that kind of porn. Thank god I can enjoy adults as well
>>713060958
See >>713061293
>>713061099
Be a regular person. Start off the convo with a question, asking what they'd like to roleplay/any RP suggestions. Put some of your kinks in the interests bar. Also include 'srp' and 'rrp' in there, for good measure.
>>713061015
You just do it. Its better to tell them than no one.
One thing my therapists always say is that this isn't a disease. It isn't contagious, which is good, but you can't get rid of it. Its always going to be there. The best you can do is condition yourself to make healthier choices.
>>713061293
How did you get caught, I got cp on a encrypted external hhd. Do you think it is safe enough?
>>713060924
This is 4chan! What were you expecting, a cake?
It would be a shame if.. your ip was about to get dropped
>>713061580
Yep. Sadly. Good thing I can like older women, too.
>>713061037
Being able to experience that young love again and do it proper, maybe it is wanting a youthful carefree attitude. Being able to braid her hair while we watch a movie or something. That shit doesn't happen when you're over 27+
>>713061692
Well, since they cannot/will not torture you, yeah, it is safe
>>713061692
Everyone better roll or else ops IP Address will be released.
>>713061692
Dude, get help. Immediately. I'm not joking.
And if you don't, well, at least try to clean yourself of it. I thought I was a straightedge kid for the longest time. No drugs. Great grades. Didn't go to any parties or fuck around.
The thing is, we all have our own sick desires. I'm not straightedge at all.
Please, Anon. Get rid of that, at least. Talk to someone. You won't regret it, I swear on my life.
>>713061730
Good point.
>>713061844
Sad but true. We may as well all kill ourselves once we become adults. It's better than being labelled a pedophile and having to shut up about it because it's taboo.
>>713062049
What was your sick fucked up thing that will be perfectly appropriate for 4chan, cmon tell me dad
>>713060762
I mean, I feel absolutely zero attraction to undeveloped girls' bodies. It's not that, I'd say.
For me, it's a true love of the idea of not being with someone who isn't rotten from the world yet. Such a hard thing to put into words while dancing around a difficult subject.
I've been exposed to pizza, thanks to this board before, and don't find it interesting. I don't go out of my way to find pizza, I actually despise the idea of someone, likely a family member or close friend, using that status to abuse a child. And when the child isn't consenting? Fuck that in it's entirety, it makes me sick.
>>713060835
You're absolutely spot on, I'd say. It isn't, and I just can't stress it enough, it is NOT because they're children. But because they're children, they display the qualities I could only wish for in a grown woman.
That's sensible, right? I mean, I'm the guy that would start dating a girl at 14, and not have sex until it was legal and she was completely mentally prepared.
As for your question, I don't think so. I'd love to be 13 again with my current confidence. Not to just slay all the underage pussy that I can, but to seal a lifelong relationship with a girl who's literally just getting started.
>>713061844
That's innocence, amigo.
Its sorta pedo, sorta not. You can fall in love with precious women of legal age, right?
Ayy
When I was 13 or 14 I decided I wanted porn of people around my own age, not really knowing anything about cp. I couldn't find any thank god but I did find lolicon and shotacon. Before shota I was very much straight.
The past few years I've been dating a girl that I ended up telling her about my mild pedophilia out of guilt. For her I stopped calling to lolicon and shotacon, but have since aquired a fetish for traps, and most other porn doesn't do it for me. This makes me question: Am I really a pedo or was that a phase in my fetishes?
>>713062179
I went over that here: >>713061293
>>713062204
Ask yourself this question: If this 20 year old girl had the fun and innocence in her of a 13 year old, would she be better than an actual 13 year old?
>>713061535
>But things that touch on my youth I am very sentimental to I suppose.
Do you think it has anything to do with what you said last thread, about being abused? Was it violent or more subtle?
What looks better? Pale is always best but I actually like a bit of hair. I knew a girl once who had peach fuzz running down her belly button and I was in love with it, really turned me on for some reason.
I might have a hair fetish though cause some hair styles will give me a hard on. Going to a beach or a theme park I catch myself staring at younger girls because of their hair.
>>713062049
Kek dude, its just a sexual preference, I'm not hurting anyone except your mental state.
Its like saying to gays that liking man is a sick desire, gtfo.
Im not gonna hurt any kids faggot, Im not a sadist.
Shit I felt bad for this anons dealing with this "pedo" thing Maybe they bodies age doesn't fit their mental age. I think I can understand that.
>>713062439
13 or 14? If I'm going to be honest, you might have either just gone through a phase or exposed your growing mind to something that'll stick into it forever. It isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it definitely isn't good. Talk to your girlfriend. If she hasn't left at this point, she's worth talking to.
>>713062439
I think you may masturbate waaay too much and has a constant need of new things to fap for. Am I right?
> being this afraid of other people calling you a word
I know why the mods didn't 404 this, it's because they see us helping each other, supporting each other, this is why I love 4chan, even though we all are faggots in our own ways, we help eachother, /b/ros till the end.
>>713056570
Tell me more
Pedophiles being people too is something I never thought I'd struggle with. I mean you're fucking disgusting, but you've still got rights and I believe they should be upheld.
What the fuck, /b/?
>>713062485
>If this 20 year old girl had the fun and innocence in her of a 13 year old, would she be better than an actual 13 year old?
Not the guy you responded to but my answer is yes, although I am attracted to shorter petite girls, love smaller breasts...hmmmm, I think I'm more confused now then when I entered this thread.
>>713062688
I mean. I fapped to lolicon pretty regularly until like age 19 or 20. Haven't fapped to any for like 2 years. And she's still with me.
>>713062598
Its not a problem of whether or not you like hurting kids. Its a matter of legality.
Once you're caught, it isn't what you think. It isn't helicopters everywhere, spotlights shining in your window as twenty SWAT guys bust in and take you down. Its watching several officers give you judgy looks as they tow your computers away, and getting in handcuffs, getting tossed into the back of a dinky car and leaving freedom forever.
The worst part? You don't feel bad. You don't feel mad or sad or anything. The only thing you feel is shock. The shock of 'how did they get me?'
Please, once again, I beg you to stop. For your own sake.
>>713062485
Yes, absolutely. If I were to meet someone of age that displayed the fun, innocence and moral integrity of your standard 13 yo girl, I'd probably settle down for good.
To clarify, when I say moral integrity, most 13 yo girls aren't hooking up for money or other malicious purposes. They haven't thought about that stuff yet, so they're driven purely by actual attraction to their partner with no ulterior motive, generally speaking.
>>713057467
>Further advancement of humans
>By killing people
How is this logical?
> I like thing
> Then you are word
> oh no
>>713062806
Sexual desire for pre-teens/teens
>>713062820
I am not sure if I am one, but I think they are disgusting, including myself. I hate myself for it, and I am not 100% sure I even AM a pedo in the first place.
>>713062712
Yeah pretty much until I find a fetish to settle on for a while. Problem is I don't want to get back into loli, and I consciously don't want to be falling to traps every day.
>>713062497
That's right I was going to answer a question about my abuse but the thread got pruned before I could post.
I've shared the story once or twice already on 4chan. It was in no ways violent. Essentially what happened was my cousin, who was in his 20's, made me sit on his lap while we were alone together watching a movie. He began 'tickling' me under my dress and when I told him to stop, he manipulated my child-mind by saying 'no touching, no movie' so I just sat there and dealt with it for the sake of Star Wars, of all things. Eventually I knew when to walk out once things went to far, he didn't stop me. The details are blurry, mind you. This happened 8 years ago.
Affects were it sat on my shoulders for a couple of months. I got increasingly moody and lashed out to my family and cried a lot, until I told my mother. She took no action but to tell my cousin not to do it again, and now it's like nothing ever happened. I still see him.
I now suffer from depression and anxiety, which could come from that or family history of it from my fathers side. This is a different case entirely.
But I think that and the lack of a father figure, since my mother and him separated when I was 3 all have something to do with it. I'm currently seeing an actual therapist but I haven't talked to her about pedophilia, just mentioned in my last session I'd rather be with older men than guys my age.
I think pale and smooth is better, but I have to admit I'm a pretty hairy girl. I have a snail trail that I get rid of because I'm very self conscious of it. I shave obsessively but waxing makes me cry.
<People baffle and surprise me on /b
<One of the only places I've ever seen make a conjoined effort to help people
<would love to beat a pedophile to death with a rock
<ignorance is bliss
Lots of creatures on /b
>>713062620
Thanks, man. But I just wanted to point out this thread isn't for pedo sympathy. I admit, and all other pedophiles should admit, that its a disgusting mental disorder that we all are struggling to overcome.
>>713062793
<3
>>713062820
Yeah, I know. We're fucked. Thanks for understanding, stranger.
>>713063034
Talk to her. She sounds loyal.
< succ
>>713062620
Ever read Lolita?
>tfw you are the only adult in this thread
>succ you retard!
>>713063431
Talk to her about what? She knows I used to fap to lolicon, and she can probably guess the trap thing since I got her to peg me and it's a semi regular thing. Long distance relationship though, so I fap a lot
Guys I have to get something off my chest, I'm a teenage guy, same age as moot when he started this site, so there's a little insight,. But it all started last year, I remember getting sent a big ass text file of Dropbox links by this group chat of anons, I just fucked around and clicked them all, most 404, I saw one and it was filled with sea pea, and idk, I just started fondling my dick, being a bored young guy, I just played around, but I saw that this made me super hard, and I NUTTED way more than usual. Ask for cont.
>>713063774
Legal
>>713063774
gtfo useless lurkers.
>>713063139
Well, evolutionarily speaking.
>>713063084
Are you a pedophile? I dunno. You're teetering, but you seem to love innocence more than just pure children. You're a few steps above, friend.
>>713063281
Tell us about it, Anon.
>>713063380
I love you so much, Anon, but dear god what the fuck is fuckibg wrong with goyhihfgbx
>G R E E N T E X T
>>713063376
That's harsh, man. You should definitely tell your therapist. They need to know absolutely everything to help you.
>>713063817
Cont plz
>>713054360
>discussion
>support
>4chan
>>713057858
>her
>>713063795
Problems. That's what relationships are for.
>>713063817
Just tell us your problems. Don't go too far into detail.
>>713063911
> Gimme the succ dad
>>713063308
It will most likely keep evolving... soon you might start enjoying zoo stuff, or maybe scat stuff
>>713064032
You'd be surprised, Anon! I was baffled a bit, too.
>>713059797
>timestamp
>which can be 12 hours old
Cont. Story
So as I got into this, I decided to delve deeper, im regularly not a pee do at all, I fucking am disgusted matter of fact, but sometimes when I'm horny it's like cravings, I just can't help it, can any of you anons help me please, I still do it man, this is why I found out about tor, and I had a recent one where I came to look for Dropbox threads, and I look for that shit, man I don't like this, help guys.
I've been looking at stupid jailbait sites and lolis for a little bit now
It's exciting, and it also disgusts me
I am seeking therapy
But I just wanted to know if there have been any instances of people getting in trouble for doing so
I don't save anything and I've never looked at cp. The thought of getting carted away has always been in the back of my mind
>>713064313
How do you do it safely? As a harm reduction procedure of course. I'm assuming you just use tor yes?
>>713064313
Bro, I feel you, it's like cravings you just can't help. Im deciding not to fap for about 2 weeks nor look at any sexual things, in hopes that it helps.
>>713064189
>he has the same problem as me
>i feel better xD
>actually thinks this shit helps
>remember when we had actual CP?
back when most current users where still getting their estrogen shots in kindergarten
>>713063911
>>713063281
>>713059839
>>713057774
These make me seem more pedo-y than I am I think. Im half asleep so I think I keep missing stuff, but cant think straight as meds for ADD have worn off long time ago and I havn't eaten recently and have no sleep or blood sugar or meds to keep my head on straight. I got most of it in though.
>>713063911
I can accept teetering. I'm okay with how I am and how I perceive things because I don't do anything illegal and would never, EVER do anything to harm a child mentally or physically.
Maybe one day I'll have my petite, fun, innocent girl. One can only hope I suppose.
Good luck anon, thanks for the chat, and continue to stay on your current path.
>>713064536
Lmao
>>713064274
Yeah, I know. Its hard wanting to quit /b/ because its dangerous, because its super fun as well. It's probably embedded in your head by now, and the best you can do is talk. Venting gets rid of a lot more problems than you'd think.
>>713064313
Therapists have to keep confidentiality between them and their clients. You should be fine, especially if you've never viewed CP.
>>713064433
I mean, through proxies and private tabs, the sites are clearnet and claim to follow the law but I always wonder
>>713064436
Yeah I feel you brother, I was able to quit for about a month or so, but i found myself isolated and fell back into the trap. It sucks, it really does.
>>713064433
Stop.
>>713064569
Stay safe, Anon. Best wishes to you!
>>713064274
Pornhub and Twitter are filled with cheese pizza, you just gotta know where to look (this is me influencing your sickness... sorry)
>>713064652
Oh i got you, cheers m8
I possibly had some stuff from bad placed deep inside the onion, but then one night police were at the building I was in, and it is not impossible that I had downloaded < 200 Mb of vids that day, and I freaked out inside. Turns out someone got stuck in the elevator. I didn't care. I deleted it all. The Problem is that I kept 1 or 2 that I just couldn't delete. And then I started getting more. And now I am deleting again. But I know I will want to keep those same 1 or 2. and even if I didn't, I could always go and get them again. What do I do?
>>713064815
Deeper into this
Guys on top of my addiction, it's completely not embedded in my mind yet, I just am finding it really hard to speak up or vent, I'm scared that a counselor or therapist will judge me and I'll feel like a piece of shit.
>>713063376
At the risk of sounding like a white knight, I hope you can find some resolution and I'd enjoy staying in contact but I'm sure I already know the answer.
I have my own story that's a bit like yours, only it didn't go as far and I know I've been punishing myself over it but I don't think I told anyone over the guilt I've somehow managed to control.
>>713064815
It's just b8, get your shit st8 m8
QUESTION-
If you were to find a girl of age, who was accepting of what you're into and supportive of your disorder, and subsequently agreed to doing age-play or little/carer stuff with you, is that what you'd want?
Or would you rather be fully cured of your pedophilic nature?
>>713065004
I have the same feelings mango, but ultimately I think people in our boat end up feeling like an even bigger piece of shit as we feed these negative habits
>>713064815
OP here.
It would be in your best interest to stop.
>>713064918
If I told you to get rid of it, you wouldn't, would you?
Think about how you'd feel if those officers were there for you. Even if you did delete them, they'd find it.
Stop while you're safe. Talk to a therapist.
>>713065048
>>713064854
Interesting
>>713064918
You get rid of it. The fear of the police being around you was enough to delete the files. It's not worth spending years in jail or being a sex offender.
Smae thing happened to me, I had some files and one day I noticed a cop car sitting outside my house. I can't tell you how paranoid I became but it turns out a neighbors driveway cracked from a dump truck and they filed a police report about it.
Going through that fear man, never again.
>>713064918
You're taking overwhelming risk doing what you're doing. Viewing is one thing, but to actually download anything is beyond dangerous. You're essentially walking through a gigantic minefield with no exit right now anon, you can chose to either stop where you are, safely, or continue and eventually step on one.
The choice is yours, though. If you're okay with taking a risk every time you step, then go ahead. But just know that every single time you do, it could quite literally be the end of your life.
>>713065123
Not OP but i would rather be 'cured' it gets very lonely living as a ped
>>713065048
You would be very happy to know it's not bait(tip: philipines and koreans are the main posters of this stuff on twitter, but it is obviously very volatile)
>>713065151
I see what you're saying man, I really think most of us need to keep in contact in hopes to help eachother out, I fucking do not want to get V&, I want help. Not a jail sentence.
>>713065004
Therapists are meant to judge you. You'd trust them, though. Wouldn't you? You're trusting a bunch of random anons right now.
>>713065045
Whiteknighting =/= Agreeing with someone that happens to be female
>>713065123
If anything is consensual, then people should be allowed to do what they want. While ageplay promotes pedophilia, its still consenting adults. I dunno, touchy subject.
>>713065314
there's only one cure
>>713065123
It cannot be cured, for it is a sexual preference, not a disease. If it werent a taboo people wouldnt be crying in threads like this one and would be fine with it.
>>713064924
Don't go very deep though... remember your internet provider can see all you findings
>>713065429
The thing about anons is, you guys and I do not know eachother face to face, but you do know what I'm saying, and I can trust you guys because this is my home for a number of years now.
>>713065350
The first step is admitting you have a problem, Anon. Good job.
Please, talk to someone. There may be local therapists that are willing to help. Look them up.
>>713065329
>>713065509
Ik fucker.
>>713065350
I hope you find peace and the help you need anon, I really do.
>>713065508
When you call it "preference" it sounds like you choose it, but you did not. It migh be a disorder or at least a variation, but we might never know cuz it will never be deeply studied
>>713065303
>>713065311
>>713065168
yeah, I know what you are getting at. I just deleted about 90% of it all. I think my next step is to delete the tor browser I have been using to get at it. After that, I begin scrubbing my hard drive like mad.
>>713065563
Yeah, but we're ANONS. Therapists are trained. They know what they're saying. Hell, half the stuff I'm saying is just parroting what I heard in my counselling sessions.
>>713065734
Man, this shit is getting to me, and I feel I need people to talk to, I wonder if my of you guys want to make a group chat or some shit, im too afraid to seek a counselor, but I know I can trust you guys.
>>713065853
Sure officer, where should we meet?
>>713054360
Any pedos in here want to fight me? FYI 6'6 260 professionally trained boxer. If any are willing to fight me I will fly to your city and fight you in the airport parking lot. I will also live stream the fight on YouTube so /b/ can watch. Dead serious I have plenty of cash so I'll fly anywhere.
>>713065787
>it will never be deeply studied
Kinsey did.
>>713065853
I'm down honkey
>>713066021
Man, I can tell you guys don't take it seriously, but oh well let's keep it anon anyway, I might as well just seek a counselor.
>>713065853
Terrible idea. As much as I love you guys, chatrooms never end well for many reasons.
I'll maybe make this thread two times a week or so. You guys make it, if you'd like.
Please, dude. Seek a counselor. Chances are they've heard worse shit from someone else.
I sometimes fap to older lolis, like 14 15 in anime but would never think about fucking a 14 15 year old or never even looked for / at cp am I pedo or on the way of becoming one?
Night anons
>>713066131
if you're in this thread, you're a pedo.
deal with it or eat a bullet.
>>713066075
OP here. I'll shove that ovipositor so far up your ass the eggs will replace your eyeballs.
>>713066180
Night.
>>713066131
You may be becoming one, or you're one in denial. Maybe you're just being decieved by jailbait-y looking girls. You should just stick to hentai, friend.>>713066180
>>713066087
Not deep enough. Plus, kinsey says some shit that makes zero sense, like everyone is bisexual
>>713065045
Honestly I feel at peace with it. I'm accepting of what's happened. It all just makes up a part of my life and there's nothing I can do about it. I have never looked at or downloaded or sought out CP before in my life. I've lurked on loli threads every now and again but never saved any of it. I never consider myself a threat to any child.
What gets me is the ageing. What gets me is that eventually I'll be disgusting and boring and forced to have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I just want to be able to be a youthful, desirable and happy child for the rest of my life.
A way of coping with this is through my art. I always draw young girls to keep myself from getting old. I surround myself with toys. I still eat from baby bowls. Eventually that will have to be retired, but through my art I can keep that.
I suppose what I'm getting at is I don't see therapy as the one and only way of getting over what's happened.
Pic related is by artist Paula Rego. Love her paintings. She paints mainly girls, but they are often presented as older looking, but with childish features. I could talk for ages about this picture in particular but I digress.
pic didn't fucking upload for some reason
>advocating therapy
You realise they're bound by law to inform police if you're expressing interest in children right?
It's one of the few legal clauses that exist with breaking patient doctor confidentiality.
Seeing a therapist could literally be your own ticket to prison if you're not extremely careful
Getting help is impossible it doesn't exist
Goodnight anons, it's 2:15 am here, I'll head to sleep, and again, until the next time this thread is started.
>>713066118
I agree, not a great idea. I'd much rather have this thread to come to every so often.
>>713066462
Caught in immaturity. Yeah, we all wish for a simpler life. We take the first ten or so years of our lives for granted, don't we?
I keep making TCITR references, but seriously, I feel like we can all relate to it. Someday, we will grow, and nothing we can do can stop it. We just have to embrace it.
>>713066238
Give me your airport then tough guy
>>713066569
I don't thinking admitting you are attracted to children will land you in jail but admitting to actually being a degenerate and doing stuff to kids or watching will. I saw a vid of this guy who went on to saying on record he was attracted to kids in a documentary but he didn't go to jail. Tbh I respect someone who can admit they have a problem and control themselves.
Hi all. I'm a psychiatrist. My main area of clinical work is emergency psychiatry, and my main research interest is functional brain imaging. I'd like to start a discussion about the pedo thread, which I see as a serious danger. In a nutshell:
Child molestation is a crime which sometimes hinges directly on feelings of power over the victim.
That power often loses its meaning if the victim is unconscious. Many Pedophiles typically need a victim who knows they are being victimized.
This victim is the rapist's audience. This is crucial.
The audience gives the rapist pleasure, euphoric delight from unfettered, witnessed suffering. That euphoria is intense and is possibly driven by the same neurobiology involved in a drug high.
Now, when 4Chan invites Pedophiles/rapists to retell their stories, they offer an audience of thousands. The possibility that individuals reading these stories will be horrified afresh is very appealing to some rapists/child molestors. It’s neurobiologically very much like anticipating drug use.
>>713066601
Night.
>>713066569
I think of myself as a nihilist, but I'm going to be optimistic about this.
No matter how much officers break down criminal doors, or how much judges sentence people to death, there will still be someone out there willing to help. Whether it be a therapist, a friend, a family member, or a spouse, someone will be there. The world is shit, you're damn right. People are there to punish. People are there to kill. But some people are there to help, and if we can talk to them, we can fix ourselves into becoming better people.
>>713065803
Tell me how that makes you feel
Ever wonder what makes addicts keep using? A major factor is the craving that comes from recalling the feelings associated with the pleasurable activity or drug. Cocaine addicts, active or in recovery, who are asked to think about using cocaine have measurable brain changes precisely when they report cravings. We haven't actually measured this in rapists, but we suspect it's highly analogous.
Thus, the 4Chan rape forum is very possibly triggering rape/molestation cravings in rapists/pedophiles.
It is also teaching pedophiles how to molest better via shared stories, the same way we teach new participants to improve in any field, by sharing our experiences.
I plan to be available to discuss this, so jump in.
See you later guys! Stay well, dont rape and don't suicide! I love you all
>>713066980
Mm no it's pretty cut and dry, they'll ask if you ever felt like molesting a kid if your answer is yes it's immediate report to the police, you can easily be baited into giving incriminating answers.
Seriously seeking help could fuck you over a lot more than just suffering in silence.
>>713067036
OP here.
If I recall correctly, not a single time have we talked about raping a child. You can't assume that all pedophiles are rapists. Some of us are genuinely trying to get a grasp on ourselves and get over pedophilia.
>>713067036
Your research smells of bs.
It's closer to a fetish than anything varying degrees of severity.
>>713067323
As Depeche Mode wisely said: "Words are very unecesssary, they can only do harm"
>>713066462
I think we all want to stay in that innocent bubble but exiting it doesn't need to be traumatic, it's a lot easier if someone is there by your side too. To me, therapy is seen as a last resort, when you have no other options to cope or deal with residual pain.
And I've seen some of Paula Regos paintings but never really analyzed them, they are interesting though.
>>713067179
Huh?
>>713067237
I welcome any discussion available.
>>713067256
<3
>>713066569
>>advocating therapy
>You realise they're bound by law to inform police if you're expressing interest in children right?
that's why we advocate it.
how else are you going to get rid of the vermin.
>>713068085
By having effective therapy and psychiatric medicine?
Lock away 1000 2000 others get smarter and create more.
>>713066569
>You realise they're bound by law to inform police if you're expressing interest in children right?
no, they are obligated to contact police if they believe you are going to commit a crime.
OP here. Threads getting slow.
Nighty night to any lurkers. <3
(God i feel like a fucking tumblr faggot)
>>713054431
Why?
Will pedos kik me ? TillSheCums I'm a dude btw
>>713057858
She's pretty amazin
>>713068546
Yeah...everyone left.
Sleep well satin-chan, it was interesting talking to you
>>713065123
Cure me.
>>713068541
And what part of being attracted to kids looking at cp or wanting to a fuck is not a crime?
Here is no possib,e discussion u can have without admitting to wanting to commit a crime
>>713067468
>Some of us are genuinely trying to get a grasp on ourselves and get over pedophilia.
>"hurrrr imma victim i can't help myself"
>"i'm totally lost"
>"woe is me"
playing the victim isn't going to help with your "recovery"
>>713068961
>attracted
not a crime
>wanting
not a crime
but nice b8, m8y
>>713068961
I don't want to fuck kids, I just find myself attracted to them more often than not. They're pretty.
I even feels the same way about adult women that look young.
>>713069184
Wanting to is a crime, viewing is a crime, possession is a crime.
I think my problem is that I awoke sexually very early. I used to sit in a cupboard with a cousin and we would "do it" we didn't know how and nothing worked right at 7 but we would get naked and she would AIT on my dick and rub it up and down with her pussy. We even got a neighbour involved once. But I digress. Having to feel sexual urges at that age I was looking for girls my own age and my taste never really matures. I'm with a girl now. 21 and 4'2 looks 12
>>713069454
The dream.
>>713069311
>Wanting to is a crime
cite the code
>>713061535
No there is not a pedo within everyone you are just sick, kys. Thanks.
>>713064815
ExplAin. Secret lingo?
>>713069865
Expressing a want to kill someone immediately invokes police report
It's the same for kiddy fuckers
>>713070250
that's called a "death threat" and is a crime.
"wanting" is not a crime.
>>713070250
>I want to kill that man
>I'm going to kill that man
Two different things
Anyone starting a cola???
>>713057858
who is her?
>>713070564
Wtf does that mean
>>713054360
Did you kill yourself yet?
>>713070725
>her
Pedophile/Ephebophile =/= Rapist
Why does everyone think this? I'm also attracted to adult women but you don't see me going out and raping people.
>>713071120
She's turning out so nice
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>>713071120
I guess because anything involving kids is called "statutory rape" so you can't not be thinking about rape when thinking about children. Mind that's what the law says and people are stupid.
>>713071120
I think its people feeling better about themselves when sharing hate against minorities.
I am having trouble controlling urges, I have been on /b since 09 and seen cheese pizza and it never interested me, the 13-18 developed range was more interesting to me but still not something I would seek out
Then I got a second job for a bit of extra cash at a fast food place. The manager always had mostly 14-18 year old girls on his staff for nights when I would work and over time I ended up becoming friends with a few and then really close with a 15 year old who worked there. The more time I spent with her the more I wanted to have sex with her and the more I would manipulate and flirt with her before I even realized what I was doing, the same thing I would do with women my own age but i never thought about it before.
We eventually had sex and it was amazing, she wasn't a virgin but I was the second person she ever had sex with and i enjoyed watching her experience almost everything for the first time. We never dated or anything but we hooked up for few months before she quit and I had to distance myself because we were both getting too many feelings.
After her I stared wanting ever younger girl I worked with and ended up in the same style relationship with two more but both were 16
I was fine for awhile but I started there again and I really, really, really want to hook up with a 14 year old who just started working there the same time I did, I have already started the normal routine and I really don't want to go there, sometime soon something bad is going to happen with my situation, I feel it.
>>713071120
>stop using words i don't like
when did tumblr invade /b/
>>713072145
Actually some time ago
>>713072145
Huh? What do you mean? They're NOT the same things.
How long until pederasts are accepted just like the homos are now?
Disgusting.
I just want to marry a girl who has an will never bean sexualized to others. What's so wrung aboot that?
>>713072916
not long
it's about time, too
>>713068780
>>713071263
OP here. Came back one last time. This thread went to shit. Abandon.
My last message is for you guys to get help, or at the very least stop what you're doing if you currently own CP. Its for the best.
I'm talking to a therapist. I'm not really religious, but I've been praying to stop. I never messed with anyone. I don't want anything to do with any of it. I just want it to end. I'm scared everyday. Horrified. Its no way to live. Might as well be dead. I know I'm going to hell anyway.
Ironically enough /b/ was the thing that exposed me to it. Thanks FBI for not shutting it down. Thanks for ruining my fucking life.
>>713073336
>went to shit.
>implying it wasn't always
>>713073333
>>713073452
Yeah fuck /b/
OP is saying goodnight for real this time
>>713073480
Oh shit, he died? Fuck.
>>713073452
>i can't handle my thoughts
>i'm too scared
>i'm just the poor victim
>>713060213
>>713058563
Where in NSW?
>>713054360
my thread
>>713070424 is more interesting.
And yes, I'm shilling.
>>713073821
thanks dad! you always know the perfect thing to say!
