Feels thread Whats on your mind /b/?
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Whats on your mind /b/?
>>708323243
>>708323168
im kinda peckish bit its 10:16 and Its to late to eat
>>708323289
>>708323301
have a light snack anon
its never too late
Anyone get to the point they just want to hit rock bottom so it can't get any worse?
>>708323594
yeah man but unfortunately it only gets worse before it gets better
>>708323168
Alone as always. F u c k l i f e .
>>708323815
>>708323704
It only keeps getting worse. Just so quickly. I'm hoping I've hit the bottom
>>708323594
I kind of can't wait at this point. Really getting sick of the monotony of wasting my best years. At the point I'm waiting for something to happen that disgusts me so much I start to turn this around.
Who am I kidding, the only reason I haven't an heroed is because of my family and all the faggots who hated me but would use me for sympathy.
>>708323887
Life sucks and then you die... but it doesnt have to
you aren't alone as long as you're here
>>708324444
I got quads..
too bad my life is worthless still
>>708324444
Quad
>>708324086
Im in the same boat man, but its never too late as cliche as that sounds
>>708323168
My father died 4 weeks ago from cancer. My best friend from college just went into hospice care for cancer. An old friend I've known since middle school just told me he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. He sat in front of me with tears running down his face saying, "I don't want to die." I feel so lost right now.
>>708325301
death is a path we all must take bro
>>708325301
Holy shit anon, that is very very troubling, all you can do is show them love
sending you some feels
My mom is addicted to so many things, and constantly fights with my dad. He brings in 99% of the income and I'm worried what will happen to her if they split. I sound like such a baby but that's all I've been able to think about.
>be me 16-17
>have depression and a bit of schizophrenia
>hear voices and shit (not often so don't need to take meds)
>help multiple people with their depression
>stoped a girl from killing herself
>I'm acting like a therapist
>no one noticed I know a lot about their depression or the fact that I have it too
It's funny how you can offer so much help but most people don't even realize what your going though.
I don't know why I do it, at first it made me feel happy to make others happy but now that happiness is only given to them.
I still help because I don't want others to feel the way I feel
>>708325537
>>708325576
Thanks. The fact that you took a moment to respond means a lot.
>>708325752
You're a good person, anon. Keep it up.
>>708325644
Just hope that the love is enough
If its true love it will be, sending some hope man
>>708325752
Doesnt it suck being so insightful for others? I dont know why its so easy to give advice that helps someone but when it comes to taking your own advice its near impossible.. your a good person, keep on keeping on and you'll be a okay
My crush is a nice guy, he has a girlfriend and all but he wants to fuck me anyway
I feel bad because he is just looking for sex whenever he is horny and I want a relationship with him cuz i'm in love with him and it makes me feel like a sad manwhore
can i share a feels story with you all?
>>708326507
Absolutely
>>708326507
Go ahead anon, I'm here
>>708326507
Go ahead anon.
>>708326507
I didn't know we were supposed to ask permission before posting on /b/
>>708326490
Don't indulge him. He'll learn there's more to life than sex. It'll take time though
>>708326490
He might just be using you for sex and it isnt healthy to sleep with him if you want a relationship .. theres a chance something could come of it but thats a cold calculated risk that could end very bad for you
>>708326507
Go ahead. It's late, but go ahead.
>>708325985
I don't feel like it though
I feel like I'm doing it for me
>>708326507
Go on ahead
And make us feel
>>708326898
by helping yourself you are helping others and that still doesnt make you a bad person
>>708326898
If they're benefiting from it, it's not just for you. Anon, you're better than a lot of people because of what you've done.
do you guys ever just feel like you're going to be alone for the rest of your life?
>Im addicted to heroin and it causes manic depression daily
I will be dumping a few sad ones down.
>>708324081
There have been so many times when I thought "this must be the bottom." It hasn't been yet; I think there isn't a bottom.
>>708323289
that last one panel tho
>>708323168
>Whats on your mind /b/?
The same emotional despair as always.
Should have just killed myself the day she left.
Im pretty dead anymore anyways emotionally
>we'll only know what was worth living for once we die
>we'll only feel truly alive once we die
>>708327351
i was taking like 90-120 mg of oxycontin daily a couple of years ago. managed to get off of it thanks to weed. you'll get through it /b/ro
>>708324086
Anon, the world would be a far shittier place for a lot of people if you suddenly weren't in it.
>>708327572
Ive been clean for 2 weeks its just shitty mang..
>>708327369
I think you just wanna hit the bottom so theres only one way but up and its true that theres only one way but up but you still have to try to get out, theres no sense in waiting for something that might not ever happen, you got to try and dig yourself out and unfortunately you and only you can do it
>>708327779
>this
what the fuck is this retard shit lmao
ohhh shit motherfuckers, I've got some real feels tonight. would you all like green text or a block of text?
I'm coping with the fact that I will probably never meet someone that I can share my life with and will love me. At this point it feels like it's useless to keep on dreaming for a girl that doesn't exist.
>>708327704
i feel you. the first month sucks in my opinion
>>708327932
greentext it bro
>>708324537
Your life isn't worthless. If you keep saying things like that, you start to believe them. Figure out what would make life "less worthless" in your eyes, and take the first step to make it not be that way. Nobody is going to help you if you won't help you.
>>708327707
I'm there already and hell only goes down not up.
Theres no up for me only further down.
Im ending it on my 30th. One last haz-zah to celebrate what actual life I had.
>>708328028
this one literally makes me cry everytime.
>>708328095
True enough man, I understand you manifest your own destiny, i just dont have much will right now. You are right though and hearing
>take the first step to make it not that way
actually might help me.. slow and steady wins the race
>>708328492
Any pace is a good pace as long as it's towards the right goal
>>708325301
You're grieving, and nothing in your world will be right until you aren't. At least none of those people was you.
>>708327962
You're probably wrong, but thinking like that will most likely help insure that it happens.
>>708323168
I kind of want to study Korean and Mandarin instead of continuing with Japanese. Buuut, I've built so much with Japanese, it'd be hard to just...turn it 'off' at this point. Still, I have so much nostalgia from living in Korea for years, and it's easier to live there and/or China than it is to live in Japan. Plus, the JLPT's coming up in December, and I'm still struggling hard with the reading comprehension, not to mention forgetting key vocab (I'm doing N3 this year). I'm just stuck.
And yes, this pic's OC.
Stole my housemate's panties out of her laundry basket.
>>708328046
>be me
>always been lonely
>I've only wanted to be loved and accepted
>have girlfriend now
>she isn't good
>relationship sucks and I'm miserable
>she might not even like me
>need to leave
>we share a workplace
>live in small town
>if I leave her it will cause a bunch of shit
>I'm scared to be alone
>I'm still lonely even when I'm with her
>I'm so tired of being lonely
>it hurts
>all I want is a girl to hold and say "this girl is mine"
>I want a girl that will love me and just be mine with me
Fuck it, I'll post what's going through my mind
The first thing is that ever since I started going to uni, I have been feeling real fucking lonely. I tried to make some friends but everyone is either too much of a Chad/wannabe Chas or they are a chink that only hang with other chinks.
The other thing (this also is a part of me being retarded around others) is that I fell for a girl. I've loved/lusted for girls in high school, and I have even hanged out a lot with the girls before but this girl just gives me complete different feelings when I'm with her. It feels right when I'm with her, everything she feels like is an imperfection on her just adds to her beauty. We knew each other since primary school but only became close friends towards the end of HS. We both have many things in common(similar levels of autism) but I still find myself in shock when even asked what I am to her. This is because we have been hanging out a lot in the past 2 months (in her closes friend) and she is real antisocial (as am I at times) but with her I helped made her meet people and have her continue doing what she loves. And since we have been hanging ppl would ask if we were a thing, I wouldn't answer and she would say I'm her close friend. She doesn't know how much I care for her but I get way to beta when trying to tell her.
>>708329201
I feel you anon. If you keep searching, you'll find that girl.
>>708326898
You are doing it for you, but that's ok. The reality is that everything that everybody does, they do it for themselves. There isn't anything wrong with that. You're still helping people. Think of all the people that hurt other people. They're doing that for themselves too.
>>708329352
Thanks for letting me vent that shit out
>>708329201
Girls aren't possessions man, Ill assume you mean otherwise and just dont know how to explain it. Either way you got to get out of that relationship its not healthy
>>708329060
Whatever is gonna happen is gonna happen, try not to scared cause what happens should happen. It sucks to give up on something you've gone so far with but it sucks even more to go through with it and regret it.
>>708323168
>>708323168
It's not feels but what i'm thinking about is what i would do if i had a time machine.
I would go back in time and hang out with my younger self and guide him plus bang/rebang all the 15 year old girls i used to hang around with.
Thinking back there's a lot of times when i could have done something different, i would totally go back in time, tell my younger self that i'm from the future but no one else can know and to just say i'm his older brother and we would just have a kickass time.
>>708329553
You got it right man, I don't have the words to explain.
>>708329445
please tell me how I stop the loneliness and hurting. I'm begging you. It's like there's needles in my heart all the time.
>>708328155
I'll counter that one by saying that sometime, someone has masturbated thinking about you.
>>708323168
>Ex gf contacted me
>says she fucked another dude
>that dude likes another girl, she likes dude alot
>wants advice
>calls me beautiful, lovely and shit.
Whats she tryna do
>>708329352
I have a feeling she knows how you feel and feels the same, its tough dating your bestfriend though because it could work out and be fireworks all the time but it could also fail miserably leaving one of you super fucking hurt
I just got out of a relationship with my bestfriend. She broke up with me and im fucking devastated. All im saying is be careful
>>708330284
Use you.
>>708329746
So you're saying I should stop? Mind you, although I lived in Korea for years, I didn't become fluent in the language (for a number of reasons). Now, not a day goes by where I don't think about Korea, nor a night where I don't dream about it. Japan seems to be filled with so much conflict, yet I've spent so much time and energy on working on getting there...
>>708330379
For what?
>>708329815
was in this thread, i recommend you read this
9/10 feels for sure
Lost the woman that I thought was the love of my life. Been together three years, the she switched universities and says that she doesn't feel anything anymore. She's probably out fucking guys, probably why she left. It's been a month and I still love her and I miss her. You'll all call me a faggot, question my masculinity, but she was my best friend. I had been putting back money for a ring for after we graduated. Now she's got new friends and I'm so fucking alone
>>708330453
Advice and attention.
She'll use you to get some attention and use your advice on some guy she's trying to fuck.
>>708329815
>>708330455
haha holy shit that's my story. can't believe people capped that
>>708330218
Talk to people. Reach out and help people. Keep going until you meet someone who really fills you. You'll know when you meet them, anon.
>>708328760
trying to stop letting these hurt me
and just accept the fact that its true
maybe use these as a tool to let her go but fuck who am i kidding i still love her to death and thinking of this shit kills me
>>708330704
How do I start? I'm scared of people and I hate them.
I wish I never said anything. I wish I could've just been content. But I was ballsy and said something. To die, and relive the days we were together, sounds absolutely blissful. I would take my life in a heartbeat to relive those days. It hurts knowing she'll spend life with other men, instead of me. I pray to god everyday that she'd return, because its affected my health. I've been more sluggish, unmotivated, eating less, sick, dying slowly. Only hoping it'd speed up. Its amazing what happens to somebody once they get their chance at life. The same person who would tell me she'd always be here for me. And I'd always be here for her. To tell her I love her, to protect her. To cherish her. But now its too late. The times have changed, and history repeated itself, I sit in my room, questioning what I've done to deserve this torment. Ironic that she had nightmares of me leaving her. And was always fearful of me leaving. And she leaves me like that. Taking a part of me with her. I told her I'd always be here for her. It looks like the deal was one ended.
>>708328760
Ouch. That one cut fucking deep.
>>708330584
Knowing her, i cant believe her story, she detailed it out like a 15 year old child. 50/50 if its true or not. If her story was false whats she tryna do
>>708330423
I cant tell you, you should stop thats up to you.
but if you love korea you should do that shit man, ive heard amazing things about korea.
It also couldnt be the worst to follow through and finish your japanese stuff and then do the korea thing... life is looooong man
>>708331189
I'm so lost...
>>708330796
Well stop hating them. Everyone is a good person until proven otherwise.
>>708330651
of course man, regardless of if its true or not it still has dem feels dawg
>>708331337
you and me both anon, you and me both.
Im trusting it will all work out though, for you and for me.. hopefully
>>708330295
That's the thing I'm scared about asking her. She's told me stories of how a lot of guys in the past, guys that she thought were good friends, have told her that they like her. She would turn them down and then she would stop hanging with them either cause they started acting weird with her or she just started getting a different vibe when hanging with them. I don't believe in that whole friend zone bs but she has told me many times that I have been one of more "chillest" friend to be around. I would love for our relationship to be something more but no matter what she feels I don't want to stop being there for her and stop being her friend
>>708331517
alright
>>708331517
>Everyone is a good person until proven otherwise.
That is complete and total fucking bullshit.
Kill yourself.
Sickening that someone actually believes this and tells it to other people.
>>708331764
Its better to shit your pants than to die of constipation
Just got to be humble as fuck about and show her your intentions are of the purest form, let her know you have no expectations and that you are only letting her know cause its how you feel because how you feel is valid and if she wants the same thing well than fuck yeah and if not its okay you can still be her friend..
If you can love her as a lover, love her as friend, but you'll never know until you try
>>708328760
This one is seriously fucking with my mind. Already happened to me with 1 girl and probably with another right now.
>>708331925
Why aren't they? Anyone and everyone has the power to be nice. Some people don't. Give me an example of someone who breaks my theory
>>708331850
Just be careful out there. I can give you my number if you ever need help or something
>>708331581
its true. godspeed anon x
I just want to be happy. I'm sorry mom.
>>708330470
Feel for you, similar situation as you
Just want to be with her because she's been everything for me and yet I feel like I may be just a phase for her as she adjusts to her new life. I'm afraid to lose her because she's been the closes friend I've had in a very long time
https://youtu.be/vnKZ4pdSU-s
>>708332600
dubs of truth
i believe you and hope you are coping well.
>>708330295
Yea Im with you %100 do not date your best friend.
Because if shit fails your gonna be out of a gf best friend, your entire life. The ride is amazing though but in the end lonely.
>>708331764
Oh she likes you. she may not know it but she does.
You can make it whatever you want.
Just finished reading Tashas Brother and I'm having typical post-book depression
>>708332904
The friendship doesnt have to die but it will never be the same.
>>708332518
>Why aren't they?
Because thats reality and the nature of the world
>Anyone and everyone has the power to be nice. some people don't
That is so very untrue and in conflict with human nature. Humans are greedy, paranoid, and selfish creatures.
That only live to justify their means.
>Give me an example of someone who breaks my theory
The mechanics of the entire world
>>708332267
Fuck, you're right, but that first step is scary as hell. And I should tell her before it's too late
>>708332904
I get the feeling that she does too but because of my lack in self esteem I convinced myself that she is like that with all her friends
I read the graphic novel edition of Fahrenheit 451 at the bookstore today.
"Are you happy?"
>>708333703
>jooz
>>708333703
who shit in your cornflakes
there is shitty people everywhere but there is also some pretty awesome people out there
>>708333433
K tell that to my "friend" who I knew since kindergarten. Despite everything they said and all that good bs about still being friends.
Dropped off the face of the earth and disappeared.
>>708334638
sounds like they have some issues of their own man... that seriously sucks but hopefully wherever this person is they are living a good life.
>>708323168
Just how weird my life has been honestly.
I feel like my best friends are these anonymous strangers online. I share more interests with you all then my actual closest friends. Its like anonymity gives you this extra layer and allows for you to completely expose what you are thinking without fear of judgement.
I went from a really happy videogame addicted 90's kid. Getting home afterschool to my grandma's scootering around with friends.... playing in their backyard... playing nintendo
Then it turned into Middle and HS and I lost all those people and suddenly lost my innocence within a year or three. I became indifferent to the world and decided to just check out. Life was too hard and I no longer had energy like when I was a kid.
now im out in the real world in this fake reality barely hanging onto sanity using drugs, food, and technology to keep me living. but its nothing compared to how i felt as a kid and evena teenager. When i had to worry about Homework and Not actual work bills taxes insurance girlfriends and relatives.
Do any of you mask your depression with apathy? I have friends, and im married. Ive always had friends, but ive never felt close. Everyone always says "well dont ask anon he doesnt give a shit" .Not to mention I've cheated on anyone that cares for me. Even going as far as breaking up a marriage to try and find just some kind of feeling in someone. It all turns to ash the second its done.
Nothing is right. Thinking more and more about the movie "into the wild" every day. I just want to be gone.
>>708335265
Yes yes yes.
We are of the same mind and if I can relate completely so can so many others.
I really feel like everything is so FUBAR that its better to pack a small bag and withdraw some cash and move to a new place and completely rebuild ground up.
My current life and location and social circles are toxic and have bad memories associated with them.
>>708335262
Its pretty shitty how you are told how to do everything for 18 years of your life then all the sudden, its just like nope you're on your own now kiddo and your just like wtf?? It definitely turns a bright man dark but then again you need darkness to see the light. It gets better, not tomorrow, or the next day or the next week maybe in the next month maybe in the next year who knows but i can tell you that feeling the way you do now will make the joy feel oh so great
>>708335544
Exactly. I've got years of memories piled up that i cannot stand my life. I cope with drinking, and im about to start doing drugs. Don;t get me wrong i have money and girls to fuck, but unless youre happy while having those things its all moot.
There are times where ill just drive for hours. fantasizing about not being me. If it wasnt for my mothers cancer and my need to not hurt her i would be long gone by now. maybe even dead. Who knows.
>>708324555
checked
I miss you so much Andrea ...
fuck
>>708327962
Just buy new clothes, go to parties perhaps change looks
>>708336233
>There are times where ill just drive for hours. fantasizing about not being me. If it wasnt for my mothers cancer and my need to not hurt her i would be long gone by now. maybe even dead. Who knows.
I literally do this all the time. Driving has become a fucking relaxing thing to do. Same with fantasizing where I'd move to... packing all my items into my car and just heading somewhere meeting new people.
I stay because its familiar but as they say complacency kills. Ive become so used to just shitty living no amount of friends and girlfriends and fucktoys will change that.
Are you sure you would hurt her? You could still come to visit no? Although I guess that would defeat the purpose.
>>708335981
Yeah darkest before the dawn and all that.
Its like I've been told this by so many people but now I'm just alone and stuck... I cannot imagine how my life could get better. Ive been waiting for atleast 5-6-7 years in this state.
But like you said "It gets better" is all you can tell yourself to get through it
Failing three core classes and im a senior, so much pressure is put onto me and the term is about to end. My head hurts so fucking much for over thinking things.
>>708339106
pretty much man, its up to you and only you to change it
ive been told it a million times too and it aint easy, cause easy aint a thing.
>>708329060
What place is that?
>be me
>attending uni
>insanely hard classes I barely handle
>work wagecuck 10/hr job with 10 hour days 6 days a week
>get 4 hours of sleep or less a night
>cant focus in school fail almost everything
>live in a place that is way too expensive because of people who gave up on me
>can afford rent and thats it
>cant bring myself to accept help from family because I feel like a weakling
>So depressed everyday it gets worse
>get increasingly often nervous breakdowns where I am thrown into a fit of rage so violent that I break everything around me.
>legitimately terrified that i might kill someone if they approach me while in this state
>gf is becoming scared of me and distancing herself
>just want to die and have no will to do anything, the only thing that keeps me going is the will to prove people wrong
>stress is literally driving me insane
i want off this ride im not sure how much longer I can go /b
>>708339560
same but im a sophmore, i'm lucky if i make it as far as you did
>>708340124
i feel you anon
life sucks and then you die
Her, always. Ended things a month ago, she had no feelings and im completely in love still.
>>708323168
I've met a girl who may well and truly be what I need. She may actually change me into a better person. But I may have to cut off ties with people I never thought I'd have to cut ties with in order to do that.
>>708340451
Same man
If we can't love her as a lover we gotta do the humble thing and threaten to kill ourselves ..... just kidding the humble thing to do is realize that you can still love her as friend, not right away but in time.
