Feels thread.
>be me
>reminiscing about better times with an actual gf and when family wasn't broken
>pre-2008 financial crisis
>crying
>sinuses get stuffy
>start sniffling
>dad comes into room
"Hey, your allergies sound worse, you need anything?"
>wipe tears and muster up a calm voice
"No, I'm alright. Thanks"
>he leaves
>go back to crying
You forgot
>Post about it on /b/
That's sad too
Bump
Bump.
With my story. Sorry for the long read I'm on my phone and green texting is a bitch.
I'll share. This summer was shit. In may me and my girlfriend went on break. It was a mutual decision because I was convinced that it would make us a better couple.
I wasn't always the best boyfriend. I mean I love her unconditionally and did everything I could to show her that. I was the nicest person to her and was there in the best and worst of times. but I was still a lazy, unmotivated piece of shit. And I think the days before we went on break that's when it started to hit me. How much of a let down I was and how accomplished she is I started getting worried that she wanted to replace me and became overbearingly jealous to the point where we got into an big fight. I have been sslowly getting my shit together using my alone time to get into school, get a drivers liscense and make some new friends. Seeing her here and there but when we see eachother I feel the spark is gone. What we had just isn't there and I know she feels it to. She's probably found someone else or at least wants to. We're both young and fell in love as teenagers so I can see overtime why she'd get sick of me. Everyone else in my life has so it's nothing new.
We were supposed to meet up yesterday and talk. I was going to call her out on shit and break up with her just cause there's so much better for her and it's best for us.
I'm confused as to why I feel like this because I fucking love this girl but I just feel like I'm making her life harder.
She hasn't replied to me at all since Thursday when we made plans.
I don't even know. I'm just so torn up over this. Fuck /b/ros
>>703418235
You're not alone bro. I can't help you, but I know how you feel.
>>703418235
I remember when my senior girl girlfriend broke up with me. My older friend told me something like this: "Dude, look at this. You're finally done with high school relationships." It put a lot in retrospect for me. Hopefully it does for you, Anon.
>>703418235
Fuck, man. I know this feel. Things will get better.
Fem-anon here. Met a girl online about 3 years ago. It was through an online chat room where you find people who have common interests and talk. Over the months we started video chatting and eventually began developing feelings for one another. It got really serious and we really loved eachother, even though we had never had the chance to hold one another or see each other in person, the feelings were undeniable. But in the last month I realized that the chances if us actually being together were little to none. I was in Canada while she was in Australia, we both had 3 or more years left in post secondary, and neither of us had any money to spare to visit during the summers. 3 nights ago I called her one last time. I told her that I didn't think we could ever be together and that before it gets any more serious than it already has, we should just cut ties find people we could actually be with. She completely broke down and begged me not to leave her and that she would do anything for me to stay, but I couldn't let it go on any longer. I could tell not being together in the physical sense was hurting both of us. The call lasted 3 hours. Eventually I couldn't take it any more and after hearing her say she loved me one last time, I said the same and hung up. I blocked her from everything we used to communicate, blocked her phone number, etc..
I probably cried more than she did, but I new that it was the right call, no matter how much it hurt. She deserved someone better than me. I just hope she is okay. She's strong, and I know that she won't do anything stupid like kill herself, but I definitely think she is going to hurt for a while.
I however don't know what I'm going to do. I feel empty and broken. I can't even cry over it anymore because I just feel so hollow. I constantly think about unblocking her and picking up the phone just to hear her speak to me one more time, but I know if I do I won't be able to leave her again.
It hurts, /b/
It really fucking hurts.
>>703418752
>>703418624
>>703418457
Thanks guys. Maybe that's what it is too just a high school relationship we thought could carry out for our lives. I mean it sucks what it's come to but maybe it's for the best.
>>703419314
or you know, get a job, save up your money, and go live with her once you get a plane ticket there.
you played yourself
>>703419411
I felt the same way, dude. Chicks in college or working are a lot cooler, imo.Glad to help, /b/ro.
>Be me
>18 high school
>Had two girlfriends in middle school
>One cheated on me and left me
>the other... well we mad out, finger banged and she broke up with me a few hours later over text.
>Been alone ever since
>no friends
>sit alone everywhere
>Sometimes I feel like sitting by someone but can never get the courage to talk
>I would much rather be alone.
>I think it's because I think to much and can't focus or keep a conversation
>Eye contact is a difficult task
>eyes always shifting
>every girl I see I think of what we could be but never will be
>every guy I see I think of what friends we could be and pranks and jokes and shit like normal teens
>Work shitty job for little money
>money is always spent on pointless things that I am bored with days later
>bawl every night
>No one knows about this
>my parents think I have tons of friends and are one of the greatest guys in schools
>Constant asking of "oh you got a girlfriend yet?"
>"when are you going to bring her home and introduce us?"
>"It's a nice night, here's some money call up some buddies. You can borrow the car"
I'm so fucking tired of living.
>>703419314
Is there any chance that you would consider doing anal with me?
Oh, and sorry about your girlfriend.
>>703420435
You won't care about this shit in 5 years.
its my birthday, i got my wish, one year closer to death
>>703420843
Maybe...
>be me
>dad left a while ago
hes a a piece of shit on so many levels but he is in my siblings lives still just not mine.
>essintially im "man" of the house
>everything i do is never good enough for my mom and sister
>every thing i do thats nice i get shit back
>mom gives me shit for not taking trash out but she was the one drinking and i was the one making sure my little brother did his homework and was fed
>i was the one who fed my little siblings for weeks and didnt complain even when they gave me shit for making them go to bed
>i was the one who fixed the door she broke
>i fixed my little brothers blinds
>i fixed the leak in the bathroom
>i fixed the fucked up macbook she has and made it work again
i do this shit everyday /b/ and im still in high school
>i have other things more important like what am i going to do with my life
>i dont know how to handle this
>im basically addicted to xanax and oxycodone/contin
> i cant go to sleep without 50 mg melatonin and 2 beers.
> what the fuck is my life. im on route to a fucking trainwreck
>as im writing this my sister came in to tell me to shut the fuck up even thought the only reason she gets to live with me and my mom is because i went to court and was forced to see 3 thereapists against my own will for a year. im the reason my little brother gets to see my mom everyday. im the reason everyone on my dad side hates my mom and me. im the person who gets shit for everything they dont do and no thank you for the things that i do. i honestly hate life and ive stockpiled enough oxys and sleep pills for when the time is right.
just help me get through tonight /b/
>>703422313
if its any consolation, my birthday was the 4th,. and i got no happy birthdays. i got 100 bucks from an aunt and no one else even knew. i guess thats my reason for never liking birthdays
>>703423222
Thats rough brother. my advice stay in school get good ass grades get into a good college and get the hell out.
>>703418235
The only girl that I ever loved to the point of forgetring about myself is currently having sex with a guy she met earlier this evening.
Knowing that someone else can get so easily what you're giving your best to get fucking breaks my heart.
>>703423725
i have good grades
but it wont matter because my dad and mom are pretty much assholes to me.
but my dad is taking all my moms money away from legal fees, hes suing her for abot 950,000 right now and a second suit for god knows how much . the marriage was a bust and me and my older step brother knew it was from the second i was born, and even if i get a scholarship all the money i make wilol just go back to my mom because in my family i always get guilt tripped into doing everything for somoene else. i dont know how i can get out at all
>>703424088
Maybe you could take some student loans, apply for financial aid, cut the negativity from your life man.
>>703424088
Endure it.
Basically do what this anon said. >>703423725
Save up some cash and bail.
Get a one way ticket to wherever and build up your life anon.
>>703423222
To be honest you sound like the coolest guy ever. Seeing how you manage to keep so many lives together makes me think thay you'll go beast mode as soon as this living hell finishes for you. Now you have to hold on, slowly get that drug shit out of your life, and maybe soon enough things will change. Be strong. You're the man.
>>703424452
ive been thinking about that. i have too much to risk here. a little brother and sister. they get to live comfortably because of the sacrifices i make, i let them eat school lunch everyday and i eat one meal a day, i go to school everyday and dont skip becasue i need to. they dont know the importance of it, my sister is a typical teenage cunt. she always is on her phone. she yells at me all the time. she needs me for everything and just doesnt care about me. she has no idea that i go to sleep at 4 and wake up at 6 just so i can catch a bus to school. she has the convieince of waking up at 7 30 and just walking 5 minutes to her bus stop. everyday im the one who usually makes dinner and lunch for my siblings. my older brother is 24 and hes getting his life sorted out too, he has a great job and apartment but hes accorss the country and i never bother him. my sister talks to him and just says im an asshole to him. maybe he knows i try my hardest and things are hard for me but i just toughen up and do them. i never stop and cry for bullshit reasons. i fucking hate my life and wanna end it so bad but i have younger siblings to take care of, my mom just drinks half the day and i have to make sure the house is kept in order in case children protective services makes a surprise visit. life is so fucked and the only reason i havent ended my life is because i have 2 others i have to care for, once they can hold their own im done,. never thought id be the one to end it all but i guess theres a first time for everything
Maybe not as heart breaking as the usual, but
>18, fresh out of high school
>friend one year younger is rich and holds her 17th birthday in fucking disneyland and takes me along with 4 others
>qt curvy asian also tags along
>we start talking in disney, catch fireworks on the 4th of july in the park
>shit was cash
>get really close over the few days we're there
>on the 3rd night we all decided to just stay up all night bc we had passes to let us into the park an hour before it opens
>other friends all pile onto sofabed
>all thats left is the cushions
>I set them up on on the ground
>room for 2
>qt was showering while everyone piled onto the sofa
>she comes out and lays down next to me
>we cuddle all night
>eventually everyone passes out, I sleep sound with her in my arms
>fast forward 2 months
>happy active relationship
>first healthy relationship of my fukkin life
>we see each other daily over summer, eventually she starts up school (1 year younger than me)
>have to sneak around her strict viet parents
>having the time of my life
>fast forward to today
>leaving for college, 10 hours south
>we talked long and hard the past week over whether we should stay together
>ultimately decided its best not to let it drag out and die because of the distance
>we had a good time, why ruin it with a bad ending
>cried a lot last night after dropping her off at home for the last time
>drove 10 hours today, am ready to move in to my new life tomorrow
>should be excited
>empty instead
>fuck I miss her so much
Who else hides their crippling depression behind dry dark humor and ironic sarcasm?
>>703425256
im far from the coolest.
i only take care of them becase most of my life ive been doing that with no help. my parents fought constantly when i was growing up and my other siblings have no idea about it, they have the privilige to think our parents just didnt love eachother but for 10 years it was pure hate. i have no idea how im gonna keep dragging my self along till i just say fuck it, moved on from self harm when i heard that children protective servies were coming around soon. my siblings are the only reason im still alive and there taking the piss out on me just like my dad did . fuck life in general
>>703423222
melatonin doesnt work like that, the more you take the less it works
>Be young me
>On Windows xp, playing minecraft
>I fucking loved it
>I got a camera and skyped people online
>Meet a girl
>around my age
>we start to date
>It was even official in game (there was an option foryou do date or marry people in the server)
>a few months later...
>gf breaks up with me
>says we can be friends, just going through stress
>about a week later, she talks about how her dad hits her
>I think she's going to make a joke, but the punchline never comes
>one day she says she is done with life
>I ask her not to, but she logs off
>I skype her, and she answers
>She gets a noose set up
Jesus fuck
>She fucking hangs herself
Im only like 11 at the time Im fucking scared.
>I told nobody before today
>Since then I just fucking held the emotion in
>>703419615
This. You probably are 15 or 16
>>703429587
Damn that's a lot to go through at that age, I'm so sorry.
I had a friend who killed himself when he was only 13, he had so fucking much to live for, I miss him... I've dealt with loss so much.
>>703429587
that sucks man, hope you feel better now
>>703423222
It'll make you a better person down the road. Once you're gone they'll see how much you did, and only when they actually grow up will they understand how much you did for them.
Try to get some cash coming in and start saving so you can move out, and focus on you for a while, you don't need pills or a bottle to feel better, you need to turn 360 and walk the other way.
Work on yourself.
>>703429587
Sounds like low quality bait bro
>>703420435
my god you were me back then, hopefully you fix up that act of not socializing and get a hobby dude
>>703431990
i guess turning away from pills and booze is harder than it seems. when everyday you know that no one fucking cares about you, the only release i have is pills and beer
Days are a blur for me, the only thing I can tell one day from the other is what I ate. Nothing happens in my life is seems. Almost like Im a ghost, lost in thought. I have nobody to talk to, nothing to do, living my life the same day as before. I know if I look in the mirror at myself I wouldn't even recognize myself. I get really frustrated at myself, and I don't know how long I can't control myself.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tvzu8QLjLWk
>>703425792
don't take this the wrong way, but our family's a step family with three teenagers in a small house, so there's a lot of hate. sometimes the adults have to yell to get their point across, but we try not to because it hurts all of us. i'd just say, maybe one day try to tell your teenage sister how much you do for her (not exactly yell, just a more firm tone). anyways, best of luck to you man. just keep on going
im the kind of person that doesn't actually have depression but jokes around about it, but these threads make me feel bad for doing that
im so fucking furious i could stab a stray
>just turned 20, a few months of retail experience, 1 month as a janitor
>apply for all entry level jobs, all pay min wage
>compete with around 8 other persons
>most of them in their late 20s, early 30s
>1 or 2 of them underaged
>again, this job doesnt pay over 8/hour
>most of them have years of work experience
>i dressed better than them, wore formal shoes and dress shirt
>doesnt matter, i spent more time sending applications than actually working
>this has been the cycle for about a year now
>cant get licensed for a less competitive job because no money
i'm not white but holy shit this job stealing mexican meme is real. i dont think i could file for unemployment because i live with my parents and they are refusing to buy me groceries. i am trapped
>>703434124
my sister came down earlier and told me to shut the fuck up because my game was too loud,she doesnt understand anything i do for her. its what ever. she fuckin hatesme all becasue i dont like my dad. even though he abused me , yelled at me, for about 8 years but no one seems to care about that
>>703434377
man, that sucks. i don't even know what to say man
>>703434224
who cares. im depressed , suicidal, and used to cut, i make those jokes all the time to make myself feel better. there just jokes and unless they have some real meaning it isnt hurting anyone unless its like an insult, odd enough im a thick skinned depressed kid so nothing fazes me,
Dumping
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>>703435561
Forgot 4/?
This is 5/?
This was one of the first ones I saw
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>>703434416
jesus christ, super long but SO good
>>703435922
wait i was reading this for like 20 minutes whatd i miss
>>703434671
well, at least you can see it as a joke. i have some actually depressed friends who say it too, so they're pretty chill
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I have the Grand Canyon story but I haven't bothered to put it in a single image
there's too much feels, i cant read it all before this thread 404s
>>703423222
>Still in high school
V@
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I miss you every day bro
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>>703419314
I know that feel. Two months later she was at my doorstep. Let's just hope you'll be as lucky. Pic unrelated, it pulled me out of crippling depression (looooooooooooooooooooong story)
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>>703423144
rip
>>703435276
not gonna lie, i want to punch the step mom in the face
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>>703437777
These quads were needed to stop a Gigga Nigga. What a waste.
>>703437889
>offbyonekenobi
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>>703423222
Ok m8. Listen up. Stop taking all the drugs and drinking. I know this sounds impossible, and you will want to kill yourself (I have the scars on my neck to prove it), but if you don't you ain't goin' nowhere. Then, follow another anon's advice, get really good grades or an atheltic scholarship, or join the military. Just get out of town.
>>703437777
Thanks, he fucking killed us.
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>>703424088
Join the fucking military
>>703437889
>>703438131
Those quads are in honor of Nelson and Max
I would like some honorary checks for Max
Either way, 28/?
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lol so, this just happened a few hours ago. met a female friend in college, we've been good friends since (its been like a month since college started). she's funny, and i like hanging out with her and stuff. i'm rarely interested in girls and the whole relationship bullshit but i think she's good looking about 5/10 (my ratings are very highly standardized) but i'm starting to like her in person
last night we were just hanging out eating food and stuff, then tonight we were just messaging each other and she was like
"hey i forgot to tell you something"
me : "what?"
her : "I kinda like you"
me : "uhh..."
"I like you too buddy"
her : "sike, im playing dawg, chill."
i didnt know what to feel lol, it wasn't really funny, not like disappointing or anything. so by having no feel, im posting this on a feels thread
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnKZ4pdSU-s
>>703438766
Finally
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>>703433228
We sit here, the sorry lot of us.
Making jokes about things that anywhere else are nearly taboo
Posting porn only one small step away from bringing in the FBI
Laughing at people being maimed and killed.
Why?
Because underneath that thin shell of hate, cynicism, and disregard, lies a broken thing
Cast about in the sea of life, to drift up on it's shores, alone, forgotten.
And sometimes, the shell shatters
The hatred and depression, the sadness, the emptiness, it builds up and bursts forth.
But then we move on.
Back to the rekt thread
Because once we have rebuilt the shell, the carapace, we cannot let our weakness show
Because that is why uncle came in, and came inside.
That is how the depression so bad that you are to apathetic to kill yourself sets in.
Welcome to 4chan.
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I keep forgetting to correct the typo in filename
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Running outta shit, any lorkers of the 4cham?
>>703439758
Forgot image
ive been binge reading feels stories for an hour now, how is this thread still alive
>>703439758
also hey
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>>703439867
shit, this one again. gets me every time
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>tfw no gf
Shit hurts, /b/.
>>703432138
Fuck off
>>703440067
my friend pressured me into asking my crush out a few days ago, got turned down. didnt even know what to feel, just hollow
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>>703440067
Trust me mate, having a gf isn't the only way to not be lonely. Sometimes I wonder if I should just leave my gf. I don't want to break her heart though...
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God dammit dubs where are you
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My favorite number
But fucking dubs c'mon
>>703440215
Feelings not so strong anymore?
>>703440377
ayy
Check 'em again, Max
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>>703440431
Definitely not man. I know I love her, and she loves me. But I don't know... Is this it? There's just so many issues. I'm gonna push through, but sometimes I wonder what would happen
>>703435059
Wanna cuddle anon, I'm home alone
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>>703424088
Do what i did. Remove yourself from the situation. Never speak to them again. Cut every form of contact with them asap.
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>>703429587
Damn.
Minecraft was on Windows xp.
Crazy.
>>703440791
Fuck...
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I'm looking around for a person on a search for revenge, and he had a pic of a man shedding a single tear as pic related... Anyone got it? I'ma keep looking for it
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>>703438321
Reading all that and then seeing the ifunny.co banner at the bottom is just... wtf
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>>703441393
It's the plot twist: the dog had autism
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>>703425498
Stay strong homie, you'll find a plethora of qt3.14 Asians in college
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This is one of them, I think there's another story. Maybe this is it. idk
>>703441765
wtf wrong image how the fuck did I fail that
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The most scary thing in college is not the money, classes exams,or the professors. It's the lonely feeling,when you get back from class and no one is there to say hey how was class, or how was your day anon. Now I understand why so many go back home, because we need it
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I'ma post the thread killers at 59 and 60
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Honestly in one of the best situations of my life and I have no idea how to accept it without self-sabotaging. Family's stable, back in school, have a great girl, a tight circle of friends who genuinely care about me. I don't have a single thing to complain about right now, but despite all of that there is still this carnivorous wound way in the back of my mind that comstantly fumes these aching, sinister critiques. It's been there for as long as I can remember, and now that things are going so well for me I can feel it snicker in the corners of my head, like it's just waiting for me to implode again. I just want it gone and have no idea how to relieve myself from it.
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FOUND IT FAGGOTS
Extra 10 for win
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>>703425498
You made the right choice anon.
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>>703439603
Can't differentiate "to" and "too".
Welcome to 4chan.
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>>703423222
This pisses me off so fucking much. Confront them and tell them how much of an asshole they are being. Completely cut off helping them at all and focus on yourself. They mistake your kindness for weakness, make them sorry they ever did. You can fucking do it, Anon, I believe in you.
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Good night, /b/
>>703443782
why did i read this fuck
