Why do I not see a Feels thread... I could use one tonight guys
will self-bump for a while
What's going on buddy?
>>697851530
Everything just kind of fell apart and I lost hope in my future
Well I got nothing to do so I don't my listening to you story, and I'll try to help if I can
Because the nice thing about the future, is that it hasn't happened yet so you don't have to worry to much bud
>>697851853
It's not really that long of a story, and if I retell it it'll seem silly why it did so much damage, but it hit me all of a sudden. Kind of like watching a car-wreck than as you step towards it slowly it explodes in your face.
You have an audience.
>>697852070
The problem is it's not that far away, and it's more of a stressor than anything else. but if I fuck It up now my life is finished.
Anyway i'll start the most likely one post story I have to share
>>697851530
haha rekt
>>697852116
Tell it anyway. You were still part of the car wreck.
Every thread.
>>697852407
>>697852559
To begin it starts out about two years ago, Freshman year in college. I was a bio major who hoped to become a teacher. Even after watching movies like Detachment (A great movie) and hearing it first hand how much it sucked to be a teacher I was still gung ho to do it.
My issue came in a bit later about second semester. See I had met this girl. TL:DR I liked her she didn't like me back. Same ol' same ol' Not the story (I can tell it if people want), but I think this was part of the problem. because I was so focued on my feelings of loneliness and whatnot I didn't focus on my studies enough. So I flunked out.
Then I went to a community college for a year. cleaned up my act switched my major to English (still want to teach) did 1000x better, (I think it was actually 200% better when I did the math) and I recently got reaccecpted into my old college.
>>697852826
We listen.
>>697852826
At least you got out of the dump. Most anons can't even dream of getting that far
>>697852826
Ok I was wrong, two post story.
But the more work I do to transfer back in the more I get worked up. like I can't do anything right. the problem is mostly that if I don't get A's basically then i'll flunk out again. Then the carrier and the hopes for my future I've had since I was 12, all I worked to be and become are all dead.
That is why I have no hope. Because I don't think I can do this
>>697850975
So when your feeling down OP talking is for me the best thing, even if it's with strangers over the Internet, I mean you might get a few people who might throw Fag out there, but most people can relate in one way or another
>>697853065
career, not carrier.
I'm just out of hope and just want to move on, get all this shit over with
>>697853065
>>697853224
It's alright anon. Take one day at a time. If you're good in what you do (Like you said you were), A's will be easy to get. If you see your grades are going down, just forget everything, girls, social life bullshit and focus on this.
Focus on your dream anon. You can get pussy for 50 bucks if you want. And even more after you get your degree.
You don't need to sell your self short bud the mind is a amazing thing follow your dream believe in yourself, I myself grew up with a learning disability, pretty much everyone all my life told me to quite or kill my self you know what I did I got 2 degrees and rubbed it in their face
“Heard joke once: Man goes to doctor. Says he's depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain. Doctor says, "Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up." Man bursts into tears. Says, "But doctor...I am Pagliacci.”
>>697853998
OP here
That was a Robin Williams joke if I remember correctly
I cleaned up the apartment today...at least started it. I've been way too lax about this lately. Yeah, it's not like anyone's coming over to see it, but the principle is there. It's like shaving on days you're not working.
>>697854104
It was in Watchmen too
Don't stress about the future it hasn't happen yet and forget about the past mistakes that's why we learn from it believe in yourself and make it happen
Just got out of a relationship a few months ago and right after I ran into an old friend. We swapped numbers and have texted some since then. She hits me with the I love you pretty quick, and I knew she had feelings for me even a long time ago. Thing is I don't see it working out, which is why I didn't act on it before. There's a tiny part of me that wants the affection and the rest of me knows better.
I just want to meet a girl who I can hang out with and will occasionally sit on my face.
>>697854104
Movie about the special janitor or some shit, cant ever remember the name but it was truly marvelous.
I was in a car accident last week and I wish it took me, now I'm just in more pain than I usually am. Is there something wrong with me, Anons?
>>697854265
OP here
From experience I know that not every relationship is destined to last forever, so why not just try it and see what happens? you might be happier than you thought
>>697854329
Good Will Hunting?
>>697854369
NO
THAT WAS NOT COOL
THE SIMPLE ONES GET ME
THE END JUST
FUCK
>>697854519
Yehhhhh
>>697854369
Nope, I feel yeah I failed 3 suicide attempts Im pretty much dead inside
>>697851484
Look at the cunt in the foreground, obviously laughing at that old man.
>>697850975
Shittiest bat man strip ever.
"And oh what an overwhelming strife,
To be at the end of your life,
Looking upon its contract and
the many elements you did not fulfill,
All the times you should have stood up,
and done something,
but simply sat still."
Let's cheer up guys
https://youtu.be/jHPOzQzk9Qo
>>697850975
If you sympathize with the Joker you're a POS that needs to do shots of bleach.
Since everyone is posting their feelings. Here we go.
I don't have "dreams". I don't have any idea of what I will do with my life. I like to spend time playing games, but I know they won't take me anywhere.
I also like to write and Draw. Even if my drawnings are shit, I like to do it. I know that if I practice my drawning will get better. But I'm too lazy to do it. I give up whenever there's something a little harder. I just stop writing for months and don't even try to keep doing it. Even if I did, I live in a 3rd world shithole, and I know I can't live with art and/or my stories. I don't have any hope of working at a big company.
Each day I look at my parents face, and see pride I don't deserve at all. Each dat I look myself in the mirror and see that I'm one day closer to death. And even knowing all this. I don't move my lazy ass.
I have a shit-ass job. And I think I will have a shit-ass life, with a shit-ass family, in a shit-ass place. Why can't I even achieve mediocracy, anons?
>>697855148
Monty Python always makes me happy due to the comedy in reality, thanks anon. :')
I've been mostly lurking on the thread, dont have anything to contribute but I'm gonna head off to watch some more and look on the brightside of life <3
>>697854804
Wanna talk about it? I mean I'm drunk as shit but I'll do my best
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XS9gUUFz6Ps
>>697854459
Because she has a ridiculous amount of issues and problems that I am not equipped to deal with. Because she now has a child. Because I don't want to just use her and dump her at the earliest convenience with yet another problem for her to deal with. Last and most importantly I just don't feel that way about her.
It just shitty that right after I get dumped "Hey here's another person to love you."
>>697854825
She laughs, but deep down she know in her heart she may not be able to go it alone. Thats the irony of her selfie using that old man as a prop for her joke.
Im one of those people that middle age crept up on while I was busy with stuff: Drinking, doing a meaningless job, wasting my time doing nothing, standing for nothing, no great friends, no great passions in life
my Mom is 82 and after smoking for 65 years is still ticking along. I sit here with T1 diabetes and ponder the thing that is my fate and know I probably wont even live as long as her and I feel a bitter nothingness inside me over this.
I can see a huge monolith outside my front window and know that it and myself will have one fateful final day together before I step off the 1,500 foot drop in the front.
>>697855695
Well those are valid reasons to not get involved then. I'd just positively acknowledge the feelings but let her know it just can't work out.
>>697852826
>>697855501
I just got out of a physic ward, I chased 4 bars of Xanax a hand full of sleeping pills trazodone case of beer pretty much I work up in a physic ward and I fucked up my liver so I can't drink anymore
>>697850975
killing joke spoilers faggot
>>697856162
FFFUUU
>>697856162
What a bitch
>>697855957
That's what it's going to end up as. I can be there for her as a friend so hopefully it's not quite as shitty for her, but I can't be anything more then that.
I wish it could be some other way because I know what it's like to love someone that doesn't love you back but I can't lead someone on like that.
>>697856120
Wish I could keep in contact with ya but I'm sure this thread will die soon but fuck, hang in there, Anon. I', in no position of saying "It get's better" but hang in there, friend
>>697856120
Pretty much my ex fiance left me a few years ago and stole 30,000 from our joint account, and legally I couldn't do anything, so my life spun out of control, and then my best friend died of cystic fibrosis and I felt so much guilt from not spending more time with him, and now my dad had a stroke and he can't work and now he's getting worse and I can't handle it
>>697856675
It's crueler to let it go than to corral it quickly
>>697856567
I really enjoyed that show
>>697856679
Thanks bud I'll try
>>697856847
Here, a cideo that usually cheers me up https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RnAMDg7IVWs
>>697854144
this is actually sort of nice. so positive, idk man just helped make me feel better
>>697851867
they must have had to write that backwards
My girlfriend of three years, she has, issues. Severe mental issues. And for the past six month it's been getting worse and worse. And sometimes I wonder if I can handle it. She's left me three times because of it, and I took her back every time.
It's so hard when you feel like you're on the backburner in her life, for so long.
story time
ive been in love with this girl for almost 5 years. the realization just hit me that in 5 days woulda made it 5 years we would have been together... anyway i met the love of my life at band camp
>this one time at band camp
it was both our first Real relationship, we had an instant attraction and it stuck
fast forward a year, we were on and off the past year and we took the summer off, we got back together at the start of the year and it just went right back to as if we were dating all through it, i was in love. madly in love, 3 months later i fucked up bad to the point her mom made her switch schools and get a restraining order. she told me it would be alright and she still loves me and we would get back together when the order ended.
cont?
>>697851484
So much feelsings
>>697852826
Mr. Morris was the name of one of my favorite teachers. He was my english teacher in my sophomore year of highschool when a friend of mine died of an accidental overdose. That guy fucking saved my life.
>>697857391
I hate having to rely on little victories like that, but you take what you can get sometimes.
>>697857792
This is so close to a past relationship of mine(minus the restraining order), please continue.
>>697858004
Let him know. Being a teacher is often a thankless job. I say this as a former shithead who thought it was funny to be a nuisance all throughout class for my teachers in high school.
>>697852664
hnnngggggggggggg
>>697852664
I almost feel bad
>>697851867
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KotlCEGNbh8
not perfect, but it does give me hope once in a while. simple math really for even a life long addict like me.
I just need to get some stuff out and I'm too afraid to tell anyone, so being the fuckass I am... I'll post it on the goddamn internet.
Honestly, I should be happy. My life is good, my friends are nice, I'm good looking and I'm athletic to some degree. So why the hell do I have to take pill after pill to drown out my own thoughts? I hate this. I hate this I hate this. I just want to be normal... I just... Fuck. Why the fuck can't I just stop and focus for ten goddamn minutes instead of having to deal with my fucked up head? It's not fair... And I know, the world isn't fair but why me? I stay up till 3, wake up exhausted, my thoughts get even more painful, and I just give up. If I could just fucking sleep I'd feel better but that'd be too easy. I don't want to be this way. I just want to be happy. Is that too much to ask? To appreciate the people who care about me? But I can't. I'm not depressed, I'm not quite dead on the inside, but I'm just broken. If I could just reassemble the parts, maybe I could feel again. Maybe I wouldn't start sobbing uncontrollably every time it's just me and my thoughts. Maybe I should just stop babbling. But I've fucking tried to be normal. I've set schedules, taken my meds, gotten a job, all that stuff. And yeah, it helps a little, but when it's 11 at night, the meds have worn off, and there's nothing to distract me from my own head... It just hurts. I want to keep on letting all this out, but I don't have the words for what this feels like. Maybe I should change my friend group, or just ditch her... But I'm all she has. So now what? Let her silently tear me apart from inside and have her happy, or leave her broken and still feel guilty???? The worst though... I can't believe my own thoughts when they're right. When the thought there's more wrong with me than the inability to focus hits, it's immediate denial. Even writing all this shit I still can't accept there's something horribly wrong with me. I think I should stop now...
>>697857610
What do you mean the backburner? she always comes back to you.
I'm some poor guys mentally ill girlfriend, and its hard to say thank you for all the support he gives you, but theres nothing im more grateful for. it means a lot to her man.
>>697850975
I just watched the killing joke as well
>>697857792
>>697858253
so the restraining order starts and school begins as normal i willingly wait for her to come back we talk even though we shouldn't and can easily get arrested for it but w/e i love her she gets a new bf (who looks just like me i might add) i get new gf time goes on. mine doesnt work out hers does. the restraining order ends and i go see her. she's still with him and very happy, almost as much as when she was with me, im heartbroken but keep my hopes up cuz she kept telling me "if it doesn't work out between us ill come back i promise" i believed it and kept hoping she would. we talk on and off for the next few years him and her break up but she doesnt come back cuz her family hates me and she doesn't want to be disowned by her family due to having nowhere else to go and i respect that. they date on and off. fast forward to this past june, my works is having a job fair who comes to apply both her and him they get jobs. neither in my position (thank god) at this point theyre dating again and are happy and such. he works overnights she works afternoons. she breaks up with him cuz shes afraid they will never see each other. i get my hopes up but don't ask to be respectful and be there for support. soon after he quits cuz nobody likes him
>>697858338
The truth right here. Hell I'm not even a teacher. I'm an aide working with students with special needs. I work with all of them, all different disabilities. Get paid less than the janitors. Get paid less than a McBurger flipper. Full time job with health insurance and I can't even afford to live ina cardboard box becauase I can't afford to buy the thing that comes in the cardboard box.
And then parents come in and bitch at us for the most incredibly insignificant things. Things that they want us to do that were never put in a plan, so we don't know about them. Teachers have it bad, but if they are careful, they can live on their own.
Aides? Like, full time 40-50+ hours working possibly a second full time at night while suffering sleep deprivation because they love the kids? We can't afford the pillow to rest our heads on and dream about being self sufficient.
>>697859661
i talk to her to maybe get to hang out, as friends to just hang out with zero intention to try and get back with her. she says yea but doesnt know when "we will find a day" i say and we roll with it. fast forward to this past week. they get back together. i don't know whether to wait because she is the love of my life or move on knowing i will never be happy like the way she made me all those years ago.
i still remember everything her and i did together. every. little. detail. almost down to what she was wearing those days
>>697852826
I did that
>>697852689
That dog knows whats up
>>697855414
Maybe you can't live off your art, being able to do that is just a lottery really; but you can always do what you love even if you have to do your shitty job to live. Start a blog or a tumblr to share what you can do, keep practising and your following will grow. Your audience might grow or it might now but at least you can enjoy the journey. My music is terrible and will never get me anywere but at least when I'm going to die I will know that I spent my life writing and recording songs, even if nbody listened to them.
Good luck anon,
you've had the spine all along, you just need to stand up a bit straighter.
>>697859175
this
My pc shut off today after i plugged in a powerbank, and now wont shut on. Power supply is competely dead, and i ts ok. I can replace it. I fear for the motherboard and cpu, i dont know how to test wheter theyre fried or not. Going to have to find some pc guy to take a look at it tomorrow unless i figure out whether the power surge also took my motherboard or not. Either way, feels bad as a poor college student who lives alone.
>>697860213
Stop waiting man. It's one of the hardest things you can ever do but you've got to let go. Some part of her might genuinly love you but she's keeping you around as an option incase the relationship she clearly prefers doesnt work out. IF she wanted you over him then she would be with him. Sorry to sound cruel but it's true. I honestly upset telling the facts that bare but you need it. She just wants to know she has options, that doesn't make her a bad person, everybody wants to feel secure and in the end of the day, she just doesnt want to be alone. Do the best thing for yourself anon, I belive you can.
You've had the spine all along, you just need to stand up straighter.
>>697857947
Thanks. Saved
Bat-apologies that you're having the feels op
I just wanna put this out there for anyone i guess who may come across it because im proud
ive been struggling with suicidal thoughts for many years. not special, i know, but for the past few years so many things in my life have just gone wrong, and the thoughts became things that i did to hurt myself, emotionally and physically. separating myself from all my friends, giving up on my dreams, because i felt like i needed to punish myself. but for the past month or so, i've sort of come to appreciate all that i went through. Yu go through a lot, you know? suicidal thoughts in and of themselves they can be traumatic. and i still dont want to live, i still dont know if i can become who i want to be, but i survived. it sucks, but im okay and the world isnt ending, and all in all, i want you all to remember that it hurts and it sucks but youre surviving it too and youre alive. you may not have a reason to live, and there may not be one, but your here anyways so why not keep living?
>>697862334
good man
>>697861960
i want to so bad but it even harder now that she works with me i don't want to quit cuz ive been here so long and i dont want to start from scratch somewhere else
>>697862605
you dont need to quit your job. Just treat her like a normal person and think of her as a normal person. She may beautfiul, kind, intellegent, whatever bullshit but she's still just a human. Don't romanticize her. Just see her for what she is and don't let yourself feed the fantasy. If she wanted you she would have you so get on with your life.
>>697860586
hahahahah
>>697862334
I'd estimate, over a ten year period, I had about 1000 nights where I lay in bed, desperate to not wake up in the morning. I've mostly recovered from it the last three years or so but it does creep back in. I'm a very fearful man; I wilt under pressure. I know I couldn't go through with anything.
All you can do is the best you can and hope it'll be enough. That what you did mattered, if only in some small way.
>>697863002
it'll be hard but i will try my best thanks anon
>>697863303
it'll be hard as hell at first but it will get easier with time. You just need to build momentum. It's about getting out of the habit of thinking about her, you've conditioned yourself to think about her and she she's so amazing. One day at a time anon
>>697863121
yeah. the more recent stuff has been going on about a year, but i do have days where its clear and i feel calm, sort of like the eye of the storm. only problem is those are the only days where i can feel i can talk about it its so exhilarating to not want to die and to feel awake and alive that i question wherther its real. its like i cant describe it when im out of it, and it forget all the stuff that caused it and how and why i felt like that so i cant get help because its all gone and then i feel like a liar. at this point, queue my roll back downwards into the hole
>>697859175
Damn anon ;_;
>>697852826
sorry, but that comic made me laugh
>>697850975
sleep tight kitter
hope you have a restful sleeps
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
thank you for sending good vibes to sad bros
>>697864461
Sleep tight kitter
sleep tight kitter
>>697864461
That only helps for one night.
Try Heavenly Pete.
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
is this feels thread dying? :(
>>697865538
Feels threads never die. They just start weeping in the corner for a little while.
>>697865734
would a bump cheer it up? :p
>>697865877
I've been giving advice but I'll tell my story if it helps
Am I going to do well in college, Grade wise and socially? Also will I finally lose my virginity? Will I get over cigarettes before classes start? I've been having some anxiety about all this and it really stresses me out because I fear that I won't be good enough. Unfortunately, I would have to kill myself because I can't stand not being happy with life.
>>697865045
Kill me, Pete
>>697850975
>>697850975
tfw energy can't be created or destroyed merely transformed into another form of energy
tfw heat can't flow from a cold location to a hot location (naturally)
tfw stars are huge fusion reactors that jettison millions upon millions of Joules of heat into space every day where they will never be used for anything important
tfw eventually the universe will grow cold and silent
tfw my gains will not be eternal
So some of you guys may remember me from two weeks ago last Sunday, I was the guy who tried to help when I drove up on where the biker wrecked. In the past two and a half weeks I've slept a total of maybe 20 hours. I have no appetite and have been moody and depressed. How can I sleep at night? Every time I shut my eyes I see this poor guy's face as he's laying there dying and I'm helpless to save him. And I found out his name was Rick Wright. I'm depressive and having my first suicidal thoughts in almost five years. Hold me /b/ros
>>697863121
forever man sometimes you just need someone to shoot the shit with and drown in your sorrows and get fucking smashed. just knowing theres someone else like you is fucking amazing. btw im talking about the image you posted.
Me and the girl of my dreams actually like each other , but we can't be together due to distance . She hit me with this today, hurts a lot /b/
>>697866505
shit
My feels now at work.
Dear Jill,
You are an inconsiderate womanchild who cannot calm your own tits. You don't do that to me. You should burn coal or never speak to me again.
>>697850975
Hey everyone, I don't usually post but here goes something. I am young won't say how young but I am. I want to be a wrestler but I am just scared I'll get outed. I'm not very athletic and I don't have "the look" I might just become a failure when my father was a former champion. Don't know what to do. Considerimg my mother and father are the only ones embracing my dream, the rest of my family thinks wrestling is a waste of time.
>>697867374
If you're cool with yourself, it works well.
For those of us who have a part that despises everything we are and everything we've done (for whatever reason) it doesn't quite work out like that.
>>697867800
As a failed wrestler myself, go for it. Even if you fail out, keep doing the practices and stay in shape. You don't want to end up like me
>>697867800
If you want to than do it who cares what people think follow your dream
Life's a bitch and a half that doesn't ever seem to stop beating on ya. i honestly haven't found a good response to all the shit that gets thrown my way and i'm pretty sure at this point im just numb to the pain of it. My lifes so fucked right now i should be sobbing in a corner right now but i think i've taken so many beating even the most shocking out of the blue punches dont faze me any more. Not sure if life gets better but i think if you can survive long enough you just get strong enough to deal with its crap. Maybe not but that's hat i tell my self to keep going.
>>697867800
I know a dude who's 32 and not in that great shape (not too bad, but not conditioned, either) and he's going for it. It's a struggle for him, but he wants it.
>>697864461
Sleep tight kitter
>>697868307
>>697868188
Thanks guys, I want to break anonymity to tell you my name so you know if I make it but I know it's not a good idea
>>697868095
Shit man I also have thoughts like that most of us probably do. The key is to eventually use those thoughts in a productive way and put yourself in a situation that minimizes that shit. Thats what I try to do but fuck its hard to do it alone man, having a brutally honest friend like that would help. Shit that's basically what these baww threads are for me..
>>697869490
keep yourself anon, anon. Some of us aren't ready to see you or anyone here as a real person, We're all just anons Anon
>>697869490
Well you can always let us know by a clover on your forehead/uniform>>697869490
>>697869764
Shit didn't mean to click yours too sorry. Plus side, free (you)
>>697868341
Mind sharing?
>>697869683
Indeed. I feel awkward with friends; I'm the one who has to start most conversations and I feel like I'm coming across as desperate. So I wind up becoming more and more distant. I've had a couple potentially very healthy friendships slip away from me because I've just stopped talking.
>>697853555
This hit me too hard.
Pokegen deleted my soulsilver savegame
>>697869764
Will keep that in mind. I will always have that as a signature of my attire.
Brother couldn't even be bothered to send me a "Happy birthday" text today. Have 3 gifts and a 4th on the way for his wedding in 2 months. Also have to write a speech. Now I know for sure he only picked me as his best man because he felt that he had to.
Also heard nothing from the person I considered my best friend. Happy 21st to me.
>>697869714
Now that I think about it you are kind of right. I feel like an idiot now.
>>697859933
I appreciate what you do.
>>697870672
Glad i could help. Stay strong anon
Test
>>697870168
I'm the same way man it's sad because you never know if they miss you or are happy you fucked off so I just leave it as it is. Fuck it tho life's a never ending adventure I guess, hopefully we make it /b/ro
>>697870573
Sorry to hear that. Id say fuck em. Return what you can
>>697871146
I mean, if that's what I gotta do to maintain a relationship with anyone (effectively bug them until they pay attention) let me know and I'll do it...but it just seems wrong as fuck for some reason.
>>697860213
what did you do to get the order wtf>>697857792
>>697859661
>>697867365
Guess no one can help me, if you faggots can't. I don't know why i thought help was here.
>>697870981
Fuck man.
I'm on the toilet shitting stomach acid and now I'm crying.
Thank you for caring. Really.
>>697870573
You have steam?
So I've lost any connection with my family emotionally. I'm in the process of losing the only person i can be intimate with, and i don't necessarily mean being sexually intimate. To top it off i go to court tomorrow for a violation on my probation and i might go to jail. That scares me, but the fact the i hope i do go to jail because i feel like that's what's best for me scares me even more. Coming to the realization that you're nothing more than a worthless criminal and never will be is hard. It just feels like one of those days where the world decided to take shit on me. So that's how I'm doing /b/
Wrestling dude here. If I make it and you recognize me and you somehow contact me I'll make sure you get something nice if I don't make it, you have my infinite gratitude.
>>697871651
The world didn't shit on you. All this shit happened for tangible reasons. You can always do something to improve you/ your situation, but most of us don't because idk humans suck.
>>697865045
Kill me, Pete.
>>697871575
More people care than you think. I respected you guys back in my high school more then anyone else. Most of us are just to awkward and don't see this side of you to ever mention it. Shit the people that probably cared for the kids most were you guys and the custodians.
>>697870573
Hey...honestly...happy birthday man i wish you the best
>>697856567
Where is this from?
>>697867365
God damn.
I still remember the faces of all the family that I've lost on the day they died.
Hell I remember watching my dog be put down and all the vomit seeping out of his nose. You can feel when they're gone.
I'm sorry.
Animal feels always seem to get me
>>697871638
Nice of you, but no, I don't. Only game I play on my laptop is Osrs. Thanks though, anon.
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
sure, last years or so has been a particularly ugly shit storm. woman i adopted as my grandmother (she didn't have any kids or family so looking after me for most of my life was as close as she got) got cancer didnt tell any one and died. i was the one to find her at her house barely alive the day she got rushed off to the hospital and then didn't hear anything for a few weeks until legal folks came to inspect her house. turns out sense she didn't officially have any family on record (we aren't blood related) they they just cremated her and had her ashes stored some where. had a funeral with out body and had to go back to college.
couple of months later had a brake down at college, forced to go to counselling for suicidal thoughts and actions. tell them i'm not suicidal just having a hard time. they don't really except that and insist i continue seeing shit school therapist trying to push deppession medication on me. so i drop out and come back home to find out another grandparent has cancer. . .it had only been like four months sense the last one died.
Continue?
Anyone want someone to talk too
i need to clear my mind of shit
>>697866395
Is this going to be your first year? If it is, man, don't worry. You can meet so many new people. Just try to be social. Join clubs. Talk to girls.
It's your one opportunity to be someone new.
>>697871976
What's your name?
>>697872445
Continue
>>697872210
Thank you very much. Sorry if I sounded like an attention seeking faggot. I just needed to say it to someone.
>>697859933
My mom does the same job you do. Thank you so much, my friend. I hope you know you're making a big difference, even if some of the kids don't show it.
>>697872209
I hope you have some idea of how much this means to me.
We try so hard to make sure everyone has nice things and feed people. I can't tell you how much of my earnings went stright back to buying food, clothing, and supplies for kids.
>>697871572
Im sorry /b/ro...i really dont know what to say...it must be horrible to stumble upon such a depressing situation...all u can say is hang in there man...we're here for you...do you wanna talk about it more?
>>697870573
Happy birthday man. Remember this is just a fucking stage in life and we're all gonna make it.
>>697852689
MY WIFES SON
>>697872445
>>697869958
lol sry forgot to reply
so ya turns out he has a year and some odd left but he has pretty much given up and all the family just trying invain to keep him going. He moves in with us because well me and my mom have helped take care of the last 4 people to get cancer in our family. decide i've hit fuck it and im going to go try do what i've always enjoyed and wanted to make a career of, cooking. i mean every one seems to be dieing off around me who knows whats gonna happen next right?
>>697867365
>>697871572
What do you want to talk about dude? I'm here.
>>697873012
Its fine...im here for you...better yet were here for you...and eachother
>>697873170
And I thank your mom for being right there. Where ever she is, I thank her.
>>697850975
i have no fucking sympathy too anyone, and you ain't going to be an exception op, i'm pretty sure you pretend too be a character when nobody is around, please don't feel any better, makes me smile.
>>697873230
I hope so, anon. Thank you.
>>697873543
fuck off kid
>>697873400
>>697873012
Thats what we're here for...atleast what im here for
>>697851527
Is there anything gayer on this planet than "word porn"
>>697873603
Listen man, be honest with yourself and others and positivity and positive people will be attracted to you. Obviously those people aren't your friends but if you spread love around you'll only receive it back, no matter how negative circumstances look now.
I've been through some shit like that, and everything turned out fine in the end. You just have to press on.
>>697873959
Twilight.
>>697873359
>>697872868
start school i love it. not sure if im happy but dont hate life for the first time in a long time. i even try to start a relationship again (cant ever hold one cuz i have issues from being sexually abused as a kid) turn out girl is super lose and well just kinda wanted to fuck. think im finally gonna lose my virginity. . .i fuckin freeze up in bed. (again issues) cant do it. girl calls me a fag and says not to talk to her when i see her at school. . . fuck but hey life still aint to bad. (this has happened before) a teacher at the school even offers to help m get a job. despite the set back was feeling pretty good, until this morning when predictably shit got fucked in a way i couldn't even see coming. the school got sold.
>>697873616
>>697850975
I think im pretty much broken up with my first real girlfriend. She was a dime too. It felt so good having guys just fucking stare at her when we walked together. Still not sure if i was lying to myself about loving her or if it just felt good having a girl so attractive and so cool saying that she loved me.
>>697850975
If you sympathize with the Joker you're a POS that needs to chug a gallon of bleach.
>>697850975
watching shit qoutes made by low-life basement dwellers and seeing plain text on the monitor written by someone half away around the world, is it going to help? I think not,op.
>>697864461
Sleep tight kitter
>>697874293
Aide guy again.
What...
How the fuck....
A friend of mine barely managed to graduate from a program that used to be a colleged that got bought, assimilatedv then cometely phased out before it closed and fucked him out of his Bachelor's,
...but...
...how even.
This is the kind of shit that was happening to me. Things coming from left field's left field. Shit so far out of anyone's normal consideration. I've never had a school close on me, but god damnit.
I am sorry.
>>697850975
That movie was kind of a let down
>>697874426
Same thing here, except mine wasn't a dime. I think I just really wanted someone there for me.
I've gotten over her, but I miss having someone I can depend on that I feel genuine love from.
its gotten to the point where im dreaming about laying with a girl, or a girl rubbing my head. i dont even think about girls i like sexually anymore because it seems so distant. tfw no gf is so cliche but its so hard to deal with..
>>697850975
you wanna know why i smile, when i think of people like you, it's because of that awfully dread feeling you have inside, like there is no way out, time passes quickly, you lose the sense of time, everyday becomes another day with no real meaning. op.
>>697872342
>>697874293
went to school after looking after grandpa and got half way through class before every one in school gets gathered for announcement. turns out the company that owned the school sold most of the buildings and hadnt told anybody until this morning. so with out cermony the dean and bunch of teachers tell us basically "sorry but ya gotta get the fuck out but we well give u a refund" well shit but hey still got that job i had pretty much lined up. go to teachers office after announcement. . .he quit after hearing the announcement that morning. well fuck i mean thats what i get for getting my hopes up that shit was all fine for once in my life. getting in car to go home aint shit i can do. see girl i tried to hook up with crying at her car. not sure what to say, she sees me and we just kinda have a awkward stare moment. she screams "what. . . limp dick motherfucker" i cant even summon up the hurt to be mad at the bitch i just dont care any more. drive home to find out grandpa had to be rushed to the ER some shit. nobodies around to talk to or at least no one can be bothered to care about m shit when someone my be about to die.
>>697850975
you walk around tired, no drive, no fun in life, you feel like this is going to help, talking to strangers on the web, but when you go to bed and wake up in the morning, today was just another day to you, and empty feeling isn't it. op.
>>697859175
Anybody know a cure?
Every night, I get off work and walk to the train station. I blink slowly as I drown in thoughts of death for the ride. The train stops, and I get off to a dark, empty station. I slowly walk back to the little ghetto I live in, taking each step with a slow hesitation. Each and every night, I make a small stop on the way. I stand on the sidewalk of the overpass, watching a street that has no cars. Should I jump? How long until someone found me? Will it hurt? Why am I still standing here? I then peel myself off of the railing. I finish my walk home, open my door and say hi to my roomate. I go out to the porch of our little ghetto apartment, and smoke a cigarette. After an hour, I fall asleep, and repeat the process the next day.
>>697872826
Not doing that now but I'll have something like pic related on my attire
>>697876242
You've got to find a way to put it out of your head.
Try however you like but just realize that the sooner you get over it the sooner you can move on to other shit.
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
>>697876615
>>697875747
>>697874293
>>697873359
>>697872445
>>697868341
sry for shit story telling. don't get to talk to any one so just kinda poured my problems out on the internet.
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
>>697876902
Well shit ill look for it man
>>697875523
I'll never get my dog back. The worst part about losing him is that he forgot who I was. He didnt even know his own name. He was just a husk of what he used to be. I didnt even get to say goodbye
>>697876642
He's kinda my best friend. I've noticed that I'm closer to him than any of his other friends, but that's as far as it will ever go. I know because we've talked about it before. I don't want to drop him from my life, nor does he want me gone.
me in the very last place I was happy
>>697850975
you aren't as clever as i expected you to be, what a waste.
>>697877726
AY U IN JERSEY?
>>697877904
nah New Zealand /b/ro
>>697857947
Is that a firefighter stripper sandwhich maker?
>>697878009
Ah, we have very similar looking trees
>>697864461
Sleep tight kitter
>>697855742
How can you think that when you live somewhere so beautiful?
If you have nothing to live for, you're free.
Go build a log cabin.
Fuck all of your feeling no one cares about you shity ass dog go find a new fuck buddy and shut the Fuck up you pussy
>>697865045
Kill me, Pete
My cat died a few years ago. He wasn't young; over 10 years old at the time of his death.
I'll never forget how we found him; we stopped to go to the bathroom outside a small town in wyoming, when something tiny ran under our car. It didn't take much effort to catch it; it was nearly starved, its tail was broken, and only a few weeks old.
We took him home with us. For ten years, he warmed my legs as I slept, hunted mice that tried to get into the house, and loved us all.
Then one day he started sneezing blood.
We thought it was his teeth, at first. Kibble isn't what cats are born to eat, after all. We thought if we got him better food, some tooth-cleaning treats, he'd get better. For a little while, he did. But then he got worse.
Eventually, I took him to the vet. Just a tooth extraction and cleaning, I thought. He'd be fine, I thought.
Mouth cancer. Terminal.
They wanted to put him down, but I couldn't do it. He'd been with me since I was barely a teenager. I took him home.
Over the next few weeks he got progressively worse. The sneezing had created a mosaic on the wall next to my bed, where he slept nearly all the day now. When he was healthy, he'd come to me maybe once a day; now it was hard not to find him more than a few feet from me at any time. I could always see him from the corner of my eye; sleeping, but watching me quietly.
One day, he couldn't eat anymore. He lay on my lap, licked my hand once, and stopped moving.
I buried him out in the woods. I built a monolith there, made from stone and concrete. Maybe someone a thousand years from now will wonder what it is. Maybe it won't even exist anymore.
But I still see those tiny movements out of the corner of my eye. And though I've halfheartedly cleaned that part of the wall, the shadow of that mosaic is still there. The blood of my friend.
I miss you.
sleep tight kitter
>>697872264
Stranger Things on Netflix, it's amazing
>>697852664
this every year
>>697860067
>via 9gag.com
Kill yourself.
>>697852689
the guy is kind of light skinned but he's black
This. holy shit I can't deal with it anymore
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
>>697865045
Kill me, Pete
>>697861559
I hope that computer guy doesn't find all your CP you had saved on your hard drive
>>697864461
Sleep tight kitter
>>697857610
I feel your pain, brother..
Im the other woman that you've been so afraid of. Yes, you're losing him that's what you get for being so mean to him. I've loved him for 10 years and he's never said he loves you within the two years you've been together. He'll probably leave you for me and that would make everyone in the situation better off. If you weren't such a bitch about everything, you wouldn't have to worry about things like this.
...
It still breaks my heart to give you back to her. I'm better to you and for you, but we're both young and although I've already made mistake, you have only a few to account for. I'm waiting for you, and my patience is of course even more ongoing because the sex and your almost intangible sweetness has me wrapped around your skinny, awkward finger. Right where years have always led me.
...
Fuck.
>>697864461
Sleep tight kitter
>>697855742
At least you live in a beautiful location
Also you write like poetry. I'm 20 so it's good to have people write like this so i don't make mistakes in my life. You've made a difference
>>697872826
His name was Robert Paulson
>>697860213
As much as I hate to be the cunt dude, it ain't gonna happen. She's stringing you along as a fallback plan, that she isn't going to put into effect.
Time to go out, get on the beers, find some sloot for a one night stand, and then slowly move on.
>>697864461
Sleep tight kitter
>i touched a cute girls hand as a cashier today
its dumb but it doesnt usually happen and it felt forced the way she pushed her hand into mine, maybe im just a lunatic and trying to imagine things now
I think the people of this thread may enjoy the music of Michael Larsen, better known as Eyedea. Really check him out if you get the chance.
>>697852664
Thats so sad. Wish him the best in life
>>697850975
AYE OP wake the fuck up man, you're letting this freaky fucker right here >>697873543
in too you're head! Last time i saw a fool like that, he was sadder than a motherfucker
STEP UP YOUR GAME
Involve yourself for christ sake, go to the nightclub if that fucking spiffens your life up
i don't give a shit, whatever makes you happy man
and don't go over that fucking bridge again
take another fucking way, i don't care if you can't order a busticket home or walk 15 miles to get home another way.
>So I worked with this girl until recently and for the past year or so I would talk to her at work.
>When we would talk, we'd talk about our interests and we have a lot in common.
>I look forward to seeing her at work and eventually I realize I have a crush on her.
>try to get closer to her ask her if she wants to hang out
>"she agrees
>but every time I try to make plans she doesn't respond.
>I don't think about it too much, just try to think of a reason why she would ignore me.
> I'm fully aware that she doesn't want to hang out, but I'm trying to hold onto hope that maybe she does want to hang out
>She's going out of the country for school and doesn't want to return.
>still keep myself delusional and keep talking to her at work, and trying to make plans to hang out.
>her last day at work was a few days ago
>as she leaves "Hey Anon, It was really great knowing you"
>instantly crushed at her saying this, can only say "Yeah" in response, and sadly turn back to my work
>couldn't confess to her that I liked her, and I'll probably never talk to her again.
>she doesn't even want to continue being my friend, so I guess I wasn't even that important to her.
>I know she lives near me, so I think of just spending time in places she might be to see if I could see her once again.
>I've finally given up on it working out between us, I just wish we could have been more than what we were.
And so the incredibly depressing story of my love life continues.
>>697867800
>You've had the spine all along, you just need to stand up straighter.
dude, just fucking work whatever style you want to work
people shit on the young bucks style, but there is a whole section of fans that think their great
get trained in secret and then see about working in ROH or PWG or the indies..stay away from TNA.
read JTG's book about heat
any other questions hit me up [email protected]
been listening to wrestling observer for 5 years now..i used to be really into wrestling as a kid and teen but as a adult idk, is it my depression why im not into it anymore? not into anything?
if i keep doing nothing on this planet i want to be able to at least spread my wrestling knowledge to someone who needs it..but if you are really second generation then, maybe you got better connections to the historians themselves
>>697872342
>let you onto sofa
It hurts anon, it hurts...
>>697882220
fuck off, ratchet shrimp dick.
>>697851484
Was expecting the banana
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
Broke up with my GF a while back. I've been getting shit done, feeling good about myself.
I still think of her every once in a while, but I'm good with not being with her anymore. Fuck me though I get lonely in the wee hours. I want to find somebody even if it's not a serious relationship, just someone to hang out with so the downtime isn't as monotonous.
>>697882336
ooh someone's mad, not my problem you're fucked in the head freak kid
>>697882336
HAH, someone think they can make me mad, WHERE ON THE INTERNET, little mental fucker
>>697876363
i mean youre a decent writer fam.
>>697864461
Sleep tight kitter
>>697857610
Literally me? Are you me?
I had a great friend at school until it all went horribly wrong. Since then, the only time I've ever felt like I was...a person, I suppose, someone worth talking to or being with, was when I posted on 4chan and got guys to jack off to stories of what we did.
That was years ago. No-one cares about my shitty life story reposts any more and I don't get along with anyone in person. I just drift along on the internet, making friends that last a little while online before they drift away and move on.
I feel like the most meaningful thing I've ever done is make people masturbate on an anonymous website.
And that's fucking pathetic.
>>697882336
fuck off to where you came from, go spurt your lovecream to some roadkill, someone should give you a spanking kid
>>697882897
Roll
>>697882895
people gotta fap. i mean shit, you could have been one of those sad fucks that just stepped on peoples backs to make tons of money their whole lives. selfless fap inspirer is a much more noble pursuit
>>697883324
Might feel more meaningful if I could keep it going. I don't know, maybe I just stopped being good at it. Well, that and the stories just stop once I never saw my friend again.
I suppose it's better than nothing, but come on. It's pretty shit-tier.
>>697864461
>>697865045
heavenly pete, maybe someday. But for now- sleep tight kitters
>>697864461
Sleep Tight Kitter
Long read but a classic.
>>697883682
if you want to scrape some enjoyment out of life easily, just volunteer or generally help people.
even just running people through shit on videogames or giving lunch to a homeless person. helping people is the only cheap good feel i find. that or give em free fap material lol
>>697865045
Kill me, Pete
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
at what height is adequate enough to jump and die from
Feel this faggot
>>697864461
sleep tight kitter
>>697885370
im gonna say at least 80 ft, just to be super safe about it.
sorry anon.
tfw your about to ask your crush out and before you can she straight up tells you she likes someone else
I remember when these threads had the dog next to the dead guy, or the dog in the rain.
Now it is chock full of summer fags and new fags.
any anons have their parents divorce while they were in college? my dad just left my mom out of the blue, and I'm not really capable of giving her emotional support
>>697885747
wallpaper res if interested.
>>697854369
This repost made me start crying... Holy fuck.
