Feels thread? It's gonna be a long night for me.
>>694515702
What's on your mind, anon
>>694515702
What do you want to talk about? I'm a feels expert!
>>694515999
Nice trips
what are some good movies?
>>694515971
I've just not been having a good week. I'm not gonna see my girlfriend for 2 weeks. I've been really depressed lately but I didn't tell her because I didn't want her to worry about me. I've been thinking about hurting myself and killing myself and honestly it's been a bad ride up to this point and I figured that no one on 4chan would care but hey its somewhere that I can let it all out.
>>694515971
I'm pretty popular in my town, everyone knows me
I just still feel lonely, and don't trust anyone.
not even my closest friends
>>694517192
but wont you see her again soon? its only 2 weeks right?
>>694517192
It's not worth hurting or killing yourself. Why would you do that? People do care
>>694517456
>>694517535
I'll see her soon.
And no one really cares. I'm just "that friend" that's really just around to be a joke and made fun of.
>>694517192
You can see a therapist and he/she will let you air out all your fears & concerns, and help you see the good side of everthing. Depression is real, so I encourage you to reach out locally for some assistance. No shame in getting help, bro.
Sittin on the edge of a bridge rn
>>694517799
boy do i get that. you feel like people use you to get a laugh, and that theres so much more to you than just being the "stupid funny guy". i get it man, but putting yourself out there can make a change. like acting more outwards to your friends, being who you want them to see you as.
>>694517799
Try not to be hard on yourself. I'm sure you're a cool guy
>>694518090
Why?
Hey, guys. Hope you're well. Anyone want to chat, kinda need one?
>>694518410
Need one what?
>>694518573
A chat.
>>694518410
What's up bro?
Just kik me on my throwaway xX_GetGoodScrub_Xx
-OP
>>694518655
OK. 5,4,3,2,1 GO!!
>>694515702
I miss my life in the military
College life sucks, I get bored easily, working out alone sucks, friends I had in HS are all gone, connecting with other college students my age is impossible.
>>694516882
>Downfall
>Das Boot
>V for Vendetta
>Fail-Safe
>Come and See
>>694519056
>>694516882
whiplash
american beauty
jarhead
>>694515702
i haven't had sex since december
I think my GF is cheating on me. But I'm afraid to leave her. I really don't wanna be alone again.
She's the only reason I'm still coming home from work and not killing myself.
>>694518990
I just turned 50. Finally finished my bachelor's a year ago, and working on Master's now. You have to keep going and never give up! Oh, and don't be hard on yourself.
>>694517192
why kill yourself you got a girlfreind
>>694519380
being alone can be better than people who make you feel alone. sounds stupid and probably doesnt even make any sense but man there are so many people out there who will gladly take her place. fuck her if she is cheating on you, thats degrading and youre worth more than that man. so much more.
>>694519383
I can do the school work just fine, life just feels empty right now. It's fucking weird because I hated it when I was in the military but the week after I got out I wanted to go back in.
>>694519380
Why are you afraid to be alone? You can eat all the snacks, rub one out whenever you want, fart wherever you want, and nobody nags you. Being alone is rad!
>>694519705
being alone is fine sometimes, but people need human interaction, being alone isnt for everybody so dont encourage it so much it can lead to depression and isolation
>>694518770
>>694518855
I just feel myself slipping away. In my mind, everyday is so hard. It's all scrambling fucking much. I have to take great effort and time to piece together every day. I'm just frustrated or sad all the time. You know? Outlets have been smoking more and burning more. I don't know. It's just really fucking hard. It's 05:14 now, haven't slept for a few days again. Is there any advice, any opinions any criticisms you could give me? I have no direction or guidance right now.
Sorry if it's hard to understand what I have just written, format wise.
>>694519380
stop being a cuck move on if she's cheating on you bury urself in your job if thats what you got to do
>>694519319
I've never had sex, hows that
>>694519618
Listen to this guy, Anon.
>>694517799
We all are
>>694518789
was he ever proven guilty or something?
i read he admitted to druging some girls.
did he ever serve a punishment?
>>694520350
You got me
>>694520075
no way
>>694519319
I havent had sex ever.
>>694515702
Are you in withdrawls?
If not it could be worse OP
If so it will definitely be a long night
>>694519920
Honestly, try to find inner peace. You need to ask for professional help. You seem to be really beating yourself up, and you're probably clinically depressed. I encourage seeking help. Smoking, drinking, & drugs are not going to help. Friendships develop best when we're at our best. I'm saying this as a person with a degree in psychology.
>>694520636
wtf
>>694515702
Can't imagine feeling bad having that kind of landscape available to me. Especially with that fog. Laser pointers+fog=twice the fun
>>694519380
>>694519705
I know being alone is great. I guess I just wanted her to keep me company, I'm not that attached to her, at least not anymore. I'm probably going to cut her off this weekend. Thanks for the kind words.
>>694520718
But, what can professional help do for me? I can talk about things, but talking about things don't get them done exactly. You know what I mean? In all honesty, the other thing is that I hate admitting to problems regarding myself. My thoughts, feelings, actions are all so scrambled all the time. Will it help me?
I want to fucking die.
I've had undiagnosed depression for years, and it wasn't that big of deal and I think I managed it pretty well and was happy most of the time. Now, I'm 22, and as time goes on I just feel reality and the hopelessness of the world and my future setting in. Everything I was familiar with is disappearing. I starting to not recognize myself anymore. I left home several months ago to live and work at this rock climbing haven in the hopes I'd be happier. I should be so thankful to be here, but all I am is stressed. I'm miserable. I just want to run away but I have no where to go. I'm slowing disassociating from my surroundings and life and I can't actually imagine myself ever being happy. I want to kill myself, but I don't want to put that grief on everyone I know. I just feel trapped in some kind of idle hell. I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I'm scared what's going to happen next.
>>694518056
I hate therapists. My last one sucked because I was forced to go
>>694519380
you have no clue how powerful you feeel when you ditch people like that. it takes a while to get there, but you come out born again hard.
>>694515702
I'm stressed so fucking much right now.
My dog may be dying and there's nothing i can do.
>>694523126
Shit Anon. Really sorry to hear that. What's wrong with him/her?
I think I'm gonna go cut myself now
>>694517192
The best thing you can do is get help for yourself, even if that means getting a prescription for some anti-depressants. Don't lose hope. And communicate your feelings with your girlfriend if you can, including the fact that you don't want her to worry about you, at least keep her in the loop with what you're going through.
>>694517799
This is me, except I have never had a girlfriend for over a week.
Fucking goddamn that hurts to read.
>>694518575
Sauce? What is this from?
is it possible to be self aware during a psychotic break? Once in a great while when the stress really turns up some scary stuff seems to happen to me. One time it was mild but very tangible hallucinations, like flashes of light or color distortions. Lately it is more introspective and fatigue based stuff. This might not make sense, but have you ever been so tired that you feel tired in your dreams? Like when you are dreaming you can barely open your eyes to accomplish anything? If that is familiar to you, you'll know. Lately I've had that sensation while awake, but it's so familiar to me from my dreams that it makes me question reality occasionally. I'm not just tired, I feel out of body and scared. It feels like cliche descriptions of insomnia, except i get decent sleep at night and it only happens when I go through rough shit, which I guess I have been lately.
>>694522643
Seeking a good therapist is a process. I've had some that were not a good fit, and a few that helped me move forward. What really helped me, though, was learning to like myself, believe in myself, and stop being hard on myself. Bottom line, go talk it out if you want to change the way things are - or - wallow in negative thought patterns, and go deeper into the abyss. I hope you choose to forget the past bad experiences (therapy) and open your heart & mind to trying to make progress. Baby steps, my brother.
>>694521559
For the record, there is absolutely no shame in getting a prescription for antidepressants.
I think the simple act of getting help for yourself shows that you are at the very least doing something for yourself and that you do want to improve yourself and that means a lot.
>>694523479
Him and im not sure actually i was out of town and left him at my moms house. She said that one day he just couldnt walk straight or lift his head up. I took him to the vet and they said he might just have an ear infection but hes been taking his perscriptions for a few days and hasnt gotten better
>>694523538
take pics
this was on here the other day, it was god like feels
What's the point in living when you're already beyond dead inside?
>>694519319
my last time was valentines day.
>>694519319
>>694520636
>>694520075
I never had a relationship that went past friends.
I dont know why i keep trying
>23, no job, no insurance anymore
>no money for rent on the 1st
>only booze painkillers and guns to my name
>not able to work due to injury and anxiety from said injury
>applied for ui
>noone can help me with my bills
>not about to ask for help
I usually lay awake at night until my tinnitus stops and i lose conciousness. I want this ride to end
>>694519319
I feel ya anon i haven't scored since yesterday
>>694525680
To make matters worse, this could've been prevented. But little ol' me decided to become the most autistic person I could be until my junior year.
I didn't see how bad I fucked up my social life until this point.
I need some advice /b/. This feels really dumb to be asking because I'm usually here talking about the past issues I had with my ex girlfriend and falling in love. But I think the root of this issue is my infantile/petty mother. Im not trying to be like an edgy 12 year cuck that says that he hates his mother becuase she wont let him on xbox til 12!!! I have observed along with my 22 year old brother the petty and resentful acts of my mother and Im just stuck in it. Has anyone ever had this issue?
>>694526164
I know that feeling. I cut my mother out of my life after ahe tried to get me to lie in court about my dad after the divorce. Some people are just toxic. Get rid of them when you find them.
>>694519200
Good taste anon. I love whiplash most out of all of those tho.
Hey.
>>694526386
Thanks for the reply anon. Im probably going to do the same soon. I always liked my dad better than my mother when I was a kid because my mom favored my brother. When they divorced she turned into a very manipulating and petty human. Im sorry you had to deal with that court incident thats the tought situation
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JQRz8QKCGE
touching stuff
>>694526743
Well after that she tried to break into my apartment, so she is green light in my new neighborhood. If she shows back up skinheads and meth addicts will rip her apart
>>694526632
I feel this on a spiritual level
:^(
I dont feel miserable but I'm not happy either really. Just numb. A good 80% of the reason I care about friends and women at all realy is because they give me validation. I try to ignore thats why but it is. Thats why I miss my ex is because her beauty gave me validation and it kind of felt like a shield. wew that feels good to let out
>>694524420
help
should I?
>>694527363
Oh god I feel this. Im fucking stuck too. I can't get out.
>>694519319
I haven't had sex in over a year and a half. I had an opportunity to get laid about 4 months ago but passed it up because the girl turned out to not be my type (I realized after going to a party with her that she was much less intelligent than my first impression indicated). I was also depressed around that time, which lowers my libido, so I figured she just wasn't worth the effort. I regret nothing.
>>694527929
Yeah the only thing that really has helped me is when I'm in a really restricted environment away from my normal circle of friends. But its got so bad I cant even drink or smoke weed because that just takes away the little mask ive made
>>694528485
>oui
let's do this
Since i was a kid, i was always that kid who made jokes and talked a lot, and everyone laughed with him and everything. As time passed by, i made my own group of friends, that i love, i love each one of them, and they love me back. But they think that i cant take things serious, because im always that person who laughs at everything. I want to talk about how i feel, what are my problems and everything, but when they get together to talk about those kind of things they think i won't fit, because "im not serious". They are good people, the most amazing i've ever known and will know.
But i will always be the "funny guy", that doesnt feel sad or have problems, because he doesnt stop making jokes and laughing, right? And if he does, he will stop beig himself...
Sorry for bad english, i rushed all of this, but i needed to let it out.
>>694529358
Are you worried if you let it out with them that they wont see you as the funny guy anymore?
>694522797
Thanks dude. I'm getting there.
i can't believe there have actually been some decent, positive responses here.
>>694529494
Yes. I feel like I would stop being myself, just like this post.
>>694526632
>>694525538
I know how it feels...
>>694529694
>>694529651
>>694529610
>>694529567
>>694529500
I stopped celebrating my birthday a long time ago.
>>694515702
Everything i touch turns to ash.
>used to be fun, attractive guy
>realized how fake i was
>slowly detach from shitty friends
>realize i have no real friends
>realize nobody is genuine
>fill the gap with drugs
>try to get clean
>cut off "friends" completely
>crippling depression
>begin lucid dreaming nightly about dying
>holding knife
>giving up hope
>realize nobody cares
>comes to /b/
>takes 5 benadryl
>refreshes page
>>694516882
Some Kind Of Wonderful
trust me, anon
>>694530005
17 July here
Still not sure what should I do
>>694529858
Amazing how we can find feels on everything :(
>>694515702
>>694525962
i feel.
>>694522522
Don't worry man. You need to get help. You may think you don't want help, but you really need it.
>>694529907
this one really hurts
>>>/wsg/1185362
Burning whispers
>>694517192
Heyo OP. We put up a hard face because anonymoose. But some of us really do care. I care about you, and I can understand that depression can hit real hard.
My fiancée has had depression for years, and even got baker acted last year just because it's hard to get over things and it was a moment of weakness.
Try not to feel so down, I'm sure she cares about you and your family too. Maybe see about joining a weekly group, maybe you'd like boardgames. It'd keep your mentail health in better shape to have interaction from friends and partner in addition to some therapy.
Let those feelings out, you don't need a reason to feel how you feel.
Is it wrong that I want to break down and cry like a child? The past 72 hours haven't been fun for me and all I want the most is to just cry and have someone coddle me and tell me it's alright. I'm at war with myself and I'm losing; I don't want to be like this forever
>>694525538
I'm high and I keked really hard at that
Wow, this is the best shit I have ever smoked!
I fucking keked my whole way through this thread!
>>694530728
if its your birthday, throw your own party and give people enough notice.
if no one shows up after three weeks of notice and you actually planning one (as opposed to saying 'nah its no big deal i dont eve like birthdays!!1!' then getting mad when they didnt throw you a surprise party'
then perhaps reflect on that and realize why no one wants to be there. hint: its not that you are unique.
>>694530983
don't steal mah job man
>>694527795
Yes
>>694531064
lol
who I have to notice?
>no gf
>no friends
>no family
>>694529878
Well I cant speak for your friend group anon but I know in mine if they can open up with eachother you can open up with them. Its not like after that you still wont make them laugh. You dont make them laugh because you're seen as 'the funny guy' but its because you actually are funny. You'll still be loved by them (:
>>694531244
right... so ur insisting you have literally no one in your life. so you still fall in to category b. reflect on that. improve.
you've got one year.
>>694531113
I already start
Serious question for people who are depressed in this thread not trolling, have you tried getting into the gym and training? Lifting heavy fights depression, learn how to do it properly ofc.
Saved my life after I lost my dad at 17, give it some thought bros that are struggling, you can all find something worth living for, take each down turn as a challenge, dont let life beat you down, and when it does, stand back up!!!
you have been givin the chance to live on this incredible planet and experience everything it has to offer, find your fucking dream, FUCK anyone who doubts you, and chase it from sun up, to sun down. be a lion mother fuckers
>>694531408
I don't worry.
I'm still young and look 7/10, I'll find someone...
Maybe
someday
>>694529414
>last one
Fuck
>>694531439
I'm in high school.
Five friends.
I'm fat as fuck. I'm depressed but haven't told anyone. I'm ugly. Girls talk to me but none find me attractive.
Brother is a total shredded alpha.
Should I start lifing, /b/ro?
>>694531598
the fact that ur sole response was about a girlfriend is very telling.
maybe you will find a girlfriend. but that doesn't mean you'll find happiness.
good luck on both though.
/b/, I'm having a hard time. I found this girl on Facebook and, as fate has it, she's friends with all of my friends, I just haven't met her yet. I told my friends, and they convinced me to message her on normie book, so I did. I'm currently waiting on her to message me back. I know she's got her own life and everything, being a normal girl and shit, but holy fucking hell. It's taking either 45 minutes or 45 hours for her to respond to anything I send her. From everything I can tell so far, she's not repulsed by me and isn't just pretending to be nice, she's actually apologized a few times.
Anyway, that's not the biggest problem. The problem is that I've fallen for her, really fucking hard. Like, every single time I hear my phone sound a notification I'm rushing over to look at it and see if it's her, but it never is.
This sounds really pathetic, and it is, but fuck /b/. I just want her to respond, to talk to me. I am so fucking elated when she does and I'm jonesing for my fucking high.
>>694525962
You can Rob honest hard working people
>>694531734
>i already know lifting has good results
>BUT SHOULD I START?
the question is, why not?
also
>five friends
neverj udge yourself by the number of friends you have, its dumb as fuck. its normal to have five friends.
I went through my list to invite only my closest friends to my birthday. i had two. and thats great. i am very very close with two people.
>>694530693
as if crying wasnt a natural human being thing
>>694531285
Thanks. I've been really down these months, with some kind of depression but i don't know why, it fucking sucks, i lost all my motivation on the things that i like.
But thanks for that boost anon, i appreciate your help.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9D05ej8u-gU
you're all so much more than you grasp. We are so fucking lucky to be alive and conscious and capable of feeling these emotions, and complex layers of thinking. live guys, live. find your dream, chase it. don't ever, ever give up, the night is darkest before the mother fucking dawn.
>>694530941
So sad how she reaches for him
>>694530941
I have a little girl
This one kills me
>>694532337
woof.
things are not going well with my dad.
I just took a beating for my friends, they were shit talking to two gangsters. So, since they wanted to fight, I brought the gangsters behind a building with my friends to fight them. I proceeded to get beaten to within an inch of my life as my fucking /friends/ watched and did nothing.
>>694532337
this one always hits me the hardest, fuck.
>>694532548
>this one kills me
a bit ironic, yeh?
>>694531734
I was 303 lbs in highschool before my dad died. After that happened I threw myself into working out, im now 226 lbs jacked as a fuckin house, and have never been happier in my entire life.
You have a lot of growing up to do bro, don't worry. You don't need more than 5 friends if their good ones. Reach out to your brother, you'd be surprised how excited he might get if you show interest. get fucking swole, get your confidence, become alpha, and SHIT DOWN LIFES THROAT.
So i like this girl, im not shure ive ever liked someone so much and pretty shure i leve her, but im an idiot around her cos nerves and betafaggness. Shes told me she likes me kindda into me, weve been talking for a while now, about 6 months, and she knows i really into her. We use to talk a lot, but lately we dont. We were going out last week but she "forgot" (I think she ditched me). Were suposedly going out tomorrow but no answer. I dont think ill find someone like her
>>694531910
>fallen for a girl you never even met
fuck my generation
>>694515702
Hang in there anon.
>>694529610
nigga thats liam payne from one direction
I really like this one
>>694532256
Maybe they haven't shown up yet? Maybe the party's already over? This might not be as sad as it looks.
>>694531734
that was assuming your brother lifts, and not just shredded doing nothing. either way start lifting with him, read a lot, and then read some more. and ask lots of questions to anyone who you think in your life that can teach you.
my mom died today and its hitting me hard /b/, im not even sure what to do.
>yesterday, get home from uni
>old man comes in and asks if I have any plans for the night
>unsure, usually dont go out on weekday nights
>really seems to want me out of the house, so I say I'll meet some friends for bowling
>mom comes out of her room and shes dressed to the nines
>old mans taking her out to dinner, wants me gone by the time they get back
>take the money he left on the counter and go get some pizza
>have texted a few friends but everyones busy, just drive around
>end up not finding anything to do (small college town)
>race home and figure if I park my car off the block I can just hide in my room
>would jsut put in some headphones so they can do their business thinking im not htere
>i get home, and see my dads car is already there
>literally nothing to do so decide to sneak in through my window
>literally sneaking into my own fucking house just to sleep
>dont want to get caught so sneaking past their window
>i decide to peek in for sexual reasons (im in mom/son threads a lot, dont judge)
>eerily dark, but it just looks like shes asleep in the bed
>i see their door open and my dads standing there, naked
>never wanted to see that so i make a run for it
>head over to my window and slide it open
>ever so quietly pull myself up and try not to thump on the floor
>rest up for the night
>>694529610
>>694526014
>boo fucking hoo, I haven't had sex since yesterday and now I'm severely depressed and part of the /b club
Kys faggot
>>694533162
>see dad the next day, no mom
>look into her room, shes still asleep
>edge over to her yelling her name trying to get her to make me some breakfast
>eventually start shaking her but she wont wake up
>practically screaming to wake up while shaking her, dad runs in
>totally obviously dead at this point and im crying while dad calls the cops
>ordered to go wait in my room while they look around
>not sure what to think, crying all day
>i can only reason one of two things happened
>gotta believe my dad killed my mom
>he fucking murdered her OR
>the thread i was in yesterday, just like this one, that said: 'read the ifrst letter of every line' came true
after its last line it also said 'unless you respond to this post'. and I didnt. so did my dad murder my mom? or did I? im scared /b/
Alright /b/ros, settle in. Been feeling extraordinarily shitty recently and just need to vent about my life
>be me
>11-12 years old
>chubby, nerdy
>just moved to new school knew literally no one
>really awkward and nonsocial, only 2 friends in elementary school
>befriend a couple of decently popular kids somehow
>these guys are assholes to me but I put up with it because I wanted friends
>peer pressured into smoking weed
>end up smoking almost weekly
>one day went to a birthday party one of them had
>playing basketball in their backyard
>get pushed into some trashcans really violently
>get up and notice blood streaming down my hand
>finger had nearly been sliced in 2
>this is where my hand issues began
>go to hospital
>get 13 stitches in my right middle finger
Will continue in next post since this is getting long
>>694533065
lol
I know
>>694533252
SOO funny i did a double take
>>694517428
go fuck yourself, you faggot.
>>694533120
Maybe
but I like that kind of pic
1
Guys, how do you stay away from someone who you have been practically sharing a life with for the past year?
Why is it so hard doing the right thing? It's not even been a week and I am struggling, why is it this way? She's just a friend for Christ's sake.
Why do I no longer have any dreams?
>>694533201
i wish your family the best
2
>>694533519
the reality doesnt matter much. its the implied story. doesnt matter if its real.
>>694533226
>go home after a bunch of questions of what happened
>two days later my friends come to my house asking if I'm alright and if I wanted to go out
>parents say no but I beg them because I was an idiot
>walking around town trying to find something to do
>friends start throwing rocks at each other for god knows why
>one whips a piece of gravel directly towards me
>hits me straight in the fucking head
>start screaming like a bitch and tell them to call my parents
>go back to hospital and get 3 staples in the back of my head, along with a mild concussion
>stop hanging out with them so I'm stuck with no friends again
>start getting really depressed about being a lonely fuckup
>start developing agoraphobia and social anxiety due to those fuck wits
>start highschool
>still no friends, don't really talk to anyone
>one of my brothers friends convinces me to join the tennis team
>reluctantly join
>start exercising and
>>694533680
> I can't wake up
>>694533574
Sever the connection. Find other people.
>>694533574
my piece of advice is pretty simple but when i heard it its hard to listen.
you move on. eventually, one day, you just accept it or find another source of happiness. then the next it gets better, then the next gets even better, it just slowly morphs you into no longer feeling sad over someone. youll be in the most heartbroke state of your life but it will ALWAYS get better.
>>694529172
should have worn that seatbelt
>>694533201
I LOL'd fuck you anon I'm trying to be sad here
>>694533978
Stop posting these ugly pics, no one fucking cares.
>>694532652
My humor is usually misunderstood and lost
Glad someone picked up on it...
>>694533201
fuck off faggot
>>694533999
Powerful. Saved.
>>694534195
>>694534025
it's a bit too late for that
>>694533162
hang in their bro, lifes a bitch, but keep on fighting.
there is always light at the end of the tunnel if you wish it so.
>>694524908
damn thats worthy of being an anime
>>694533190
u mad?
>>694534303
:( read part 2
![Screenshot_2016-07-12-02-24-57[1].png](https://cdn.randomarchive.com/b/image/1468/475/1468475230237.jpg "Screenshot 2016-07-12-02-24-57[1]")
>>694532923
I've got a really addictive personality type, and anyone talking to me for more than 20 minutes involves me being best fucking friends with them. To be completely honest, I'm not in love with her, I just don't want to be alone anymore.
>>694516882
Drive
newfag so idk how to greentext and i dont really want to find out.
just broke up with my girlfriend and talked to her everyday and saw her almost every day and did everything with her. Never been so heartbroken
No one to talk to now or hang out with so i sit on this site to make my day go by somewhat quicker with less things on my mind.
Never thought leaving her would be this bad over a reason so stupid.
>>694524908
>tfw this will never be you
>>694534232
It's all yours my friend
>>694527795
Delete that folder. You don't need to constantly remind yourself that your life sucks
>>694534465
Maybe I'm the single one who think that
but I find that really sad actually
>>694534566
Hey anon, stop being a giant pussy and bust a nut.
>>694534519
Umm pretty sure that's a guy
