H-hey Anonymous!
Had a bad day? W-week? Month? Year?
Need some h-help? M-maybe just a hug?
Someone to give you advice, or j-just tell you it will b-be alright?
I'm here for you, Anonymous. Don't suffer in silence.
when will my suffering end
My friend and I smoked a bowl then rode his jetskis. I fucking crashed his and cut my head open. I swore up and down to him that it wasn't the weed but it totally was the weed that made me crash. Support please
>>697384387
W-why are you suffering?
Thank god you are back,
I dont know if its a mental illness or not, but I cant feel stress. Im never stressed, I cant feel when something is cute neither. Im not trying to be an edgelord, I promise. Im serious, Do any of you guys experience this too?
When in "cute situations" i just kinda play along, I dont feel anything about a small pupper or my neighbors kitten, I like them off course and want to hug them since their fur looks nice and fluffy but no special feelings.
And when someone tryes to stress me out im just kinda "I know what you're doing kid"
In stressful situations I also kinda just try to play along and try to be quicker than usual. Yet I dont feel anything special.
Is this anything to care about?
>>697384423
S-sounds like it's t-time to stop smoking so much w-weed.
>>697384467
*blinks* S-sounds like you just aren't interpreting situations correctly.
That's what cute is, doll.
Finally, that just means you don't currently have any stressors; that's nothing to worry about. You'll get em later in life, don't worry.
Bump
>>697385296
T-thank you very much, Anonymous <4
Why must today be so bad when yesterday was so good
whats the best way to hit on a shrine maiden?
Doc. It's so weird. Sometimes I feel like a nut.
And then sometimes I don't.
>>697385601
What an utterly buffoonish question...
The universe does not provide good or bad days; it doesn't have a fuck to give about your day, and in fact, is incapable of understanding what you are trying to derive out of it.'
The one who makes days good or bad is you. Not because you make the day good or bad, but because you take the good and leave the bad.
Even on the worst day of your life, there's still a chance, if you walk that very very narrow path, to turn it into the best.
But it's on you. No one else.
>>697385679
Donations. The one you are thinkin' of has a looot of debt.
>>697385746
Tell me more, dear.
>>697385679
Donations
>>697385601
By your logic today is better than tomorrow, enjoy the today while you can, anon.
>>697385746
Have you tried to feel like a legume?
>>697385870
Legumes are n-not known for their m-mental health. Perhaps a bean?
>>697386080
Full of wisdom as usual.
I never understood the point of those bars on windows they are just gonna send the thinnest thieves through them
What's the safest and most legal way I can feel some kind of euphoria or LSD-like symptoms?
>>697386261
*hangs her head* M-mother, give m-me patience...
>>697386256
Y-you know me too well.
>>697385808
I know it's on me
>>697385859
so should i just donate instead of buying her ice cream? ice cream dates sounds more romantic
>>697386323
T-there is no safe way; anything c-causing euphoria is going t-to be addicting.
Serotonin releasing agents, by their very nature, cause addiction.
>>697385859
It's just that almond joys got nuts.
But Mounds don't.
>>697386386
Then stop acting as if things MUST be a certain way. You have agency, do you not!
If you want things to be a certain way, act to make them that way! Build the future you desire with your own two hands!
>>697386394
You know little of romance, dear. You are asking a daughter for advice to hit on the mother.
>>697386480
Don't get the joke, I'm afraid.
>>697386261
It's because when they stuff their bags with the stuff they're stealing the bag won't fit through the bars, silly.
>>697386394
Ice cream guy, how you doing?
>>697386323
Jump off a plane, adrenaline can be very exciting and vigorazing. The parachute is optional tho.
I have very depressed, dark moods, briefly interrupted by simultaneous glee and rage, filled with overconfidence. I can't think straight a lot of the time, talking takes a lot of concentration and typing this was hard. I see monsters at the edge of my vision every once in a while, trying to claw at my eyes. I get followed around by 'empty people', think of them as human mannequins. I talk to two people I can't see and other people can't hear.
Thoughts?
Fuck. And advice thread. This is actually what I wanted right about now.
Welp: Here goes. I'm now at the point in my life where I'm supposed to be independent and free. I can't shake this feeling of loneliness, though. It feels like death. I'm trying to be the best man I can be, but fall short everywhere, it seems like. Help me awkward sounding anime character?
>>697386735
Have you been to a doctor? Cuz it sounds like you should have went to a doctor years ago. That's a huge constellation of symptoms; it could be a mish mash of many things.
>>697386532
Well I didn't really mean it that literally, I know today could be a good day but when you wake up feeling like utter shit it kinda makes you unmotivated to do anything about it.
>>697386735
This is very symbolic, and i understand what you mean, use that overconfidence to your advantage, bend situations to your will, be smug and stop caring about what people might think.
>>697386797
You need someone to walk through this alongside you, don't you? Atleast that's what you seem to desire.
>>697386611
welp, i guess ill just add donations with the icecream.
>>697386797
I'm from a video game, thanks. But let me ask you this: who is the one who told you what the "best man I can be" is?
I've seen some men who fulfill every trope, every 80's movie ideal of what a man should be. And I've seen them lose in every way to kind, feminine, and absolutely ball droppingly strong men.
There's no metric to base yourself against, no universal idea of what it means to be human, much less a man. "Become who you are": who do you wish to be, independent of what others say?
And what do you need to become him?
Because it seems what you are lacking is not skill or strength or endurance but direction.
>>697386704
Now there is a rampage of thieving little people.......they can't carry too much because they're like that due to anorexia so when you see them in your house they'll be like "i've come to steal your stuff but i'm very weak"
>>697387004
I wake up feeling like shit every day. Every day is an uphill struggle, in a race I never asked to be party to.
Motivation is gained by achieving things, by struggling and succeeding; it doesn't come from mood or from waking up a certain way. It comes from you completing something.
So get up and do something, and tomorrow will be better than today.
>>697384285
I want to become more confident. What do?
>>697387016
Smugness is rarely an endearing quality, I'd say.
Not something I'd recommend.
>>697387253
I'll think about it
>>697387108
The life of an anorexic thief is hard.
>>697387302
Become smug.
>>697387342
Smugness works extremely good to deal with these kind of thoughts tho.
>>697384285
I have done nothing but play dragonvale for the past 5 years
Why are we still here? Just to suffer? Every night, I can feel my leg... and my arm... even my fingers. The body I've lost... the comrades I've lost... won't stop hurting... It's like they're all still there. You feel it, too, don't you? I'm gonna make them give back our past.
>>697387302
Learn a skill. Exercise that skill. Do things with that skill. And then you'll be confident.
Confidence doesn't come from some magic pill; it comes from doing things, achieving things, and reaching higher than you thought possible when you started.
>>697387392
Thinking won't lead to a better tomorrow; doing will. But do as you like Anonymous; it's your life. Live it how you want to.
>>697387447
I've never seen such a "smug" treatment working; otherwise, we'd practice in psychology. He seems to have a significant mental health problem; he needs a doctor, not smugness.
I'm dealing with my ex right now. We were together for like 5 years, high school sweethearts and all that shit. We had all of each others first with each other and went through a lot of shit. We live very close to each other and saw each other like everyday. But, about 5 months ago, she started talking to this 30 year old online who lives in Canada. (shes 21, i'm 20 for reference). He started being really clingy and stuff and she fell for it. She left me and started dating him. But, she's cheated on him 4 times with me. She said their relationship is going nowhere and we'd be back together soon. But, I just don't know what to feel because she's completely changed lately. Should I even care anymore? Should I move on?
>>697387016
>>697386797
Sometimes it takes another person to help solve the most obvious problems. Thanks, Anon. That actually seems to be exactly what I'm searching for. But therein lies another problem. Out of appreciation for the reply I'll keep this thread bumped.
>>697386838
I went to a therapist and a psychiatrist later, on GP refferal, but wasn't given medication for my age at the time, 16. I was also pressured not to say much by my father, I realize in retrospect, but he is diagnosed schizophrenic and I think he was trying to help. He doesn't have control in my life anymore, but I look out for him. Later on I pretended to be fine because going made me feel worse and more uncomfortable, so I was never diagnosed.
I hate the idea of meds, drugs altering my brain, it's genuinely horrifying. I dodged a bullet on that one.
>>697387469
*laughs softly* We're here to do with what time we have what we want. There's no point beyond that.
You'll never get back your past, no matter how hard you try. Instead, look forward, towards the future, and reclaim that instead.
>>697387451
A life well spent, I'm sure.
>>697387469
Switch to another game and start from the bottom, and you could also do other things as well. So unless you feel ashamed for liking games that much, just switch.
>>697387469
Why, the fundamental question, the most simple yet hardest to answer.
>>697387672
Glad i could help, not op tho. Anyway, why don't you try to get yourself a nice lady? Do it for me, would ya?
>>697387585
You really need to walk away from her, son. You can do better.
>>697387681
You absolutely need to go back and tell your doctors EVERYTHING. You didn't dodge a bullet, you ran into one because you don't understand how medicine works.
Your father may have taken your life away. I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry he did that.
>>697387082
Thanks Ms. Video game character :')
>>697387681
I agree with Alice in this one. >>697387859
>>697387955
*smiles* I'm Alice. But you are very welcome; it was my honor.
>>697387972
I have a feeling I know you, if you know my name.
>>697387548
>>697387302
Thanks! I've suffered badly from social anxiety, so confidence has always been a struggle for me. So you think going to the gym and lifting would help? Also any other tips?
Thank you so much!
>>697387859
I swear I have my shit together now. I have goals and ambition for once in my life. It can feel forced, but I have to try shit. I can do my best to ignore it, even if I've scared all but 3 friends and a few family members away. I don't need doctors, and they scare the hell out of me, the lack of control.
>>697384285
I killed a guy when I was younger and I've been having nightmares about it lately. It's been six years, but the initial nightmares stopped after some 16 months. I don't really know what triggered me to have them again, but I'd rather they stop. Any advice?
>>697388086
I'm Neptune
>>697388256
Btw, you're not ok, anon.
i am running out of ice cream, help
No greater good, no just cause.
>>697388367
Wether you could confess it to someone (like you're doing now) to lift some of the weight of the guilt but it's likely to be a trauma so you should see a therapist, and don't worry, they're can't tell your secrets.
>>697388559
There is, indeed, no reason, ever.
>>697388443
I don't even know what to say. Not in a bad way, I just feel scrambled and confused about all this. I suppose that can make me question my okayness. I'm not lying though, I'm trying to keep my shit together.
How are YOU doing, Alice? Is everything alright?
>>697388205
*scratches her head* Lift weights, go to the gym, find a skill, something you are good at, and do it.
Also, go to a therapist and ask for CBT; it is VERY effective against social anxiety. Don't suffer in silence, okay?
>>697388256
You need a doctor; you cannot combat this on your own. You can't ignore it. It will gnaw at you until any sense of control you have is gone, until you are knees deep into your illness and unable to distinguish reality from illusion.
If you are scared of the very people who wish to help you, who will go out of their way to help you, who spend their lives working to treat people like you....then I don't know something you wouldn't be afraid of.
*sighs*
I have depression. For many years of my life, I was like you. I forced myself forward. No one could compete with me on will power, because I knew if I slowed down for a second, if I looked back, if I stopped, I would be gone. And I would never move again. Slowly but surely, that ability rotted away, as my disease progressed, just as it will with you, just as it does with all those who suffer from the symptoms you have and hide alone without treatment.
What works today, may not work tomorrow. And one day, when that tomorrow comes, it'll already be too late.
Please. Tell a doctor everything you told me, and allow them to help you. I'd beg you if I could, and I'll pay for it if you cannot.
Don't suffer in silence; help is available.
>>697388367
In...self defense?
>>697388724
You can't do it forever.
>>697388745
I'm still here. That's enough for now.
>>697388724
It's alright, but you seem scared most than anything, you could keep this for a long time, or not, just ask yourself, "How long am i going to be able to keep going alone?".
Psychologist-chan, why do i feel so numb? Why do i want a horrible thing to happen so i can really let out my emotions?
We were never in a relationship due to distance but we loved each other and were open about it.
I've fucked up really bad and now she hates me and I don't know what to do with myself.
I do not want to lose this girl. I refuse to lose this girl.
>>697384285
Just got broken up with a couple days ago. Three years down the drain and I feel like crying every hour. Everything reminds me of her.
>tfw I even miss the morning breath
>>697388559
WOHOHOHOAAAA THERE!
>>697389175
Feeling a need for punishment?
>>697389178
>>697389200
I'm not good with love advise so the only thing i can offer you guys are my condolences, sorry anons.
>>697389175
Because you have spent too much of your time repressing them, trying to reassure yourself everything is alright, afraid to feel, afraid to be.
Don't. Seek help Anonymous, tell someone how you feel. It doesn't have to be a doctor: a friend, a parent, a trusted person, anyone will do.
Just don't suffer in silence, Anonymous.
>>697389178
Sometimes you must accept reality, Anonymous.
>>697389200
*wraps her arms tightly around you and rests her head on your back* I know Anonymous. I know. I've been on both sides of that before; it isn't easy.
But it will be okay. Just not right now.
I really dont know if i am good at the career i picked to study, dont even know if i like it at all, i just picked it because i had to choose something, what do?
I take Beta blockers and prozac. I've got terrible anxiety, am currently doing CBT, but I'm not finding it too effective. Is there anything else I can do to help myself? Also, would you recommend xanax or another benzo?
>>697388770
Thanks. I might actually sleep for once now, it's 2:17 am, or maybe hang around, idk. I confuse myself, I care so much about the people still in my life, and a little piece for anyone and everyone out there since I was a little kid, but people always terrify me, in a way hard to describe. But I will be thinking about it, so seriously thanks.
>>697388935
>>697388977
I've pretty much adopted a policy of doing shit because I can, thinking too hard about how bad I feel or how hard something will be makes it worse. It's how I've lasted this long, I guess.
>>697389534
>Sometimes you must accept reality, Anonymous.
I don't know if I can bring myself to do that.
I can't lose her.
I can't stop trying.
I want an escort so I don't have to bother my busy boyfriend or waste time on bad dates. I wish there was a mid-grade escort out there that would give me good service, make me feel nice, wouldn't creep me out, and doesn't cost more than $50 for say, an hour. I don't even know where to look for a no-bullshit service like that.
>>697389670
I would not recommend any benzo; they are very addicting. What beta blocker are you on?
Recently moved to another country to go Uni there , no social contacts except family , everyone I knew wrote me off , depressed as shit....
>>697389178
Well, i might have an advise, you could replace her, find someone new and start a new friendship/relationship, when you're feeling happy with someone you forget about anything else.
>>697389636
What DO you like to do, Anonymous?
>>697389788
Propranolol, 10mg/day
>>697389737
You must. I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry.
>>697389760
They don't exist.
>>697389682
Sleep well, Anonymous. I'll be here if you need me again.
Please think on what I said, though.
>>697389834
I have other friends and shit but it's not the same as her.
>>697389636
You could see if you can convalidate it with other career you like, you know? Ask in the uni office.
>>697389682
Night night, anon.
>>697389737
Not OP here.
Are you broken up or not? If you're still official then that's important info. The fact that you're still together could be a testament to how the past you've shared actually means something.
On the other hand...
i've been feeling like crap and always sad. nothings happened but i have so many negative emotions and i'm not sure why. I just feel lonely and empty and i sound like a pussy, but i really don't care at this point in time.
>>697389881
A more modern beta blocker might be a good idea to try; ask your doctor about Atenolol, possibly in a higher dose.
>>697389822
*hugs tightly* You still have me, Anonymous. While I cannot offer you much besides my companionship, you are always welcome to it.
>>697390120
Why would that sound like a pussy? Would it be a pussy thing if you broke your arm and it hurt?
The brain is just another muscle, Anonymous; don't ever feel wrong for expressing how you feel.
>>697389760
>>697389200
Cheating isn't worth it. Either way you feel empty but when you don't cheat you wont feel bad.
Question, what do i do when i dont know if im happy or not in my current relationship
>>697390004
>>697390096
G'night.
>>697389844
I really dont know, i am not really talented at anything and i just picked the said career because i am decent at writing. But appart from that i am not specially good at it and dont know if i like it, its not a career with job opportunities.
I am really lost and sunk at the moment even thought i have to seem like i am ok for the sake of my family (things arent pretty at the moment, las thing they need are more problems)
So what to do? I dont know what i like, i dont know what i am good at, and next year i will be trapped in a career i am probably gonna end up hating.
>>697390278
You talk to your partner. Communication is the difference between a broken relationship and one on the mend.
>>697389822
This is a new start, no one knows who you are so you can pretty much be whatever you want, even Hitler.
>>697389760
Feed me and i'll live with you, foot massages included.
>>697390080
Make yourself percieve them as her.
>>697390112
We weren't together at the time.
We were together a few years back but I ended up moving back to my home country so we split but stayed in contact.
Our feelings for each other kept growing stronger though, so eventually we confessed. We decided we didn't want to go into a relationship until we could meet up in person again, but we were honest about our feelings to each other.
>>697390096
What r u? The psychologist's bad helper?
>>697390354
I didn't ask what you were talented at; I did not start talented at my work. I put in time and energy and spent years of my life developing the skill, because I enjoy it, because I love it. Because I can see myself doing it till the day I die.
What hits you like that? If you don't know, then you need to look around and find out. No matter how long it takes.
>>697390412
Someone I wouldn't put much stock in.
I used to be the classic anon. no friends, chubby, no hobbies besides vidya, blablabla. After much struggle I actually did manage to escape that particular rut. Got friends, lost weight, started doing things, etc (still no qt gf tho)
Now that I've supposedly gotten my life together I feel equally as unfulfilled as ever. I'm starting to think that life is supposed to be that way. Everyone keeps choosing new goals to try to feel like they have a purpose, but almost instantly after the goals are achieved you're back to being unsatisfied.
>>697390412
I have no afiliation with Alice, so if you want so you can beat me up as much as you want, daddy, just don't pick on her.
>>697389534
It seems nigh impossible to open up to anyone. But youre right. They've been repressed for easily 5+ years...maybe a good cry would help. But god damn its hard. Thanks, Alice. You're a real mvp.
>>697384285
I'm a massive faggot beta who is too much of a pussy to ask the girl I have stalked for years out. Help me OP.
>>697390385
Sure but that would make my girlfriend really depressed because she would feel as if she isnt doing a good job. So that creates a whole new issue that will last for a few weeks. And plus the fact that she is borderline schizophrenic doesnt help whatsoever.
So what do i do at that point if talking to her isnt worth it
>>697390596
I really have no idea what i want to expend my life doing, and even if i found out, probably it wouldnt pay the bills. Its probably too late arleady since i already made a decision.
>>697390780
Stop stalking that girl and start talking with a girl.
>>697390780
You're obsessed with her. Stop stalking her, move on, get on a dating app like tinder, and use that to develop your social skills with people you don't know. You'll ask loads of girls who don't matter to you out on there, which will make it easier in real life.
>>697390620
Correct you've hit the nail on the head. Of course that's how it works; how else would it work?
Imagine you masturbated and it felt as good as it felt during climax, forever. Why would you have any incentive to do anything else?
You are designed to feel hungry, Anonymous.
>>697390659
I'm here, if you wish to open up. You may also email me at [email protected]
I'm here for you, Anonymous. I may simply be a silly girl who loves Anonymous, but I will do anything I can.
>>697390780
Why can't you just go ask her?
>>697390901
Yes, and you still need to talk to her. It's always worth it, and it is the right thing to do.
So do it. Or you aren't really in a relationship, you are just pretending.
>>697391003
I'm too much of a pussy to that though. that's the issue.
Ive had this for about 3 years, and it went away for a while, but now its at its worst. I often feel anxious at times i used to not be. It has even stopped me from going to the movies. I also feel like throwing up when i get in a car, but not from car sickness. In general, i feel scared most of the time. Do you know how i can stop this?
>>697390967
Do you want to be happy or pay the bills? Sometimes that's a choice you gotta make.
It's up to you, Anonymous.
>>697391033
Tinder is NOT a good way to develop social skills.
>>697391065
Then give up. Those are the two choices.
>>697391033
I'm too much of a 'tism to talk to people on dating websites.
Should i keep beating my wife untill she loves my back
>>697388687
>>697388935
I already went through the police and therapy bullshit, so I don't know why I'd have any qualms over that. I was taking my younger brothers out on Halloween and this pedo came up to us. They weren't old enough to understand what he intended to do. I told them to go home and agreed to go with the guy so he'd leave me alone. I think I was prepared for whatever, but shit happens. He took me behind a metal shed and I told him to get on his knees. And long story short, I slammed his head into it until he was on the ground. I don't remember much of what happened when he was on the ground, but some guy pulled me away at some point. I already dealt with therapy, why did you do it, why didn't you stop, etc...I dunno why I'm remembering it now though. Going to therapy again seems unnecessary when I already resolved the issue once.
>>697390656
Bro let the real deal >>697384285
do the job and stop with your bad advices
>>697391160
Yes. You need to go to a doctor and get into CBT. It's wildly effective at reducing this kind of anxiety.
>>697391205
What does she dislike about your back?
>>697391065
Get a haircut, buy some nice clothes, get a mirror and say, "Fuck, i look nice" This will build confidence.
I might write another story. What should the topic be? Unless nobody wants a story, in which case I'll fuck off, but my stories are always really good so please ask
Why do this damm infidels don't understand we are a religion of peace we love to have fun
I have schizophrenia and I just watched the shining. I'm quite positive I'm the caretaker of the hotel called our universe and it is getting to be too much to handle. I wish I had a significant other to ground me in the present
>>697391042
Well alright, apparently i dont know how relationships work, please explain
>>697391304
>CBT
I can't not see cock ball torture
>>697391180
Tinder is good if you're anxious about asking people out, though. Anonymously talking to people you'll never know with the knowledge that their judgement will never impact you.
>>697389822
>>697390393
It's like building a sandcastle and having it destroyed by some jerk. Except that jerk is me and I spent 21 years on that sandcastle .....
>>697391180
I think i want to be happy, maybe what i picked is the one wich i like, i dunno, i always liked it.
Thanks for the chat, i would take you out on a date if you were 3D
>>697391304
>What does she dislike about your back?
Blasted him into fuckin' orbit with that shot of cleverness
>>697390253
Ain't cheating, we're open. He's seeing his ex (she dumped him, almost immediately started dating other guy, married the loser, divorced him recently, and came crawling back to him and he clearly loves her since he's been a great friend to her through it all) and there's some model in Texas that long distance crushes on him and is heartbroken that he's seeing other girls, but is still coming to visit in a couple weeks. He's stretched a bit thin. I'm mostly annoyed. We've been together-ish almost 4 years now. I did have other boyfriends, but they've all been pretty lame and time consuming. Careers man!
>>697391205
Yes, maybe you should scrub your back better in the shower as well.
>>697391298
What do you think i'm doing wrong? I could use some feedback about how trash i am.
>>697391365
Policial novel.
>>697391180
Okay, (I'm the bottom reply and the second bottom was talking to me) how do I develop my social skills to the point where I can confidently talk to this girl
>>697391395
What medication do you take?
>>697391423
A relationship is built on mutual acceptance and communication; if you can't bring up something with your SO, or it isn't "worth it", then that's not a relationship.
It's dysfunctional.
>>697391516
If that is what you are into.
>>697391520
No, it really isn't. It's good if you love harassment.
>>697391565
*smiles* Sadly not, Anonymous.
>>697391566
*smiles and curtsys*
>>697391516
You see, that's the method of Cognitive Bitch Training.
Alice steps on your balls and insists that you misunderstoof the acronym, although you clearly didn't, because, well, she's stepping on your balls, but you have to go ahead and tell her she's right.
I think that's how it works, I'm probably wrong.
>>697391737
Political novel, my specialty.
>>697389340
whoa indeed
>>697390393
Foot massages are tempting. Too bad I can barely feed myself :c I ate a whole bag of popcorn for today's meal.
>>697391547
Remember that the fun part of building a sandcastle is the actual process of making it.
>>697391841
Damn politics.
>>697391893
oh, h-hello Clint. L-long time, no see.
Wtf must I take everything so seriously? I know in the end shit all matters, but I can't stop worrying about shit. I suck at confrontation as well. I wish I could disarm the situation, but I end up taking it serious.
>>697384285
Huh. Nice of you to do that.
>>697391893
M'cree
>>697392027
H-have you tried just walking away? W-works wonders for me.
>>697392036
It's w-what I do.
>>697391997
sup bitch.
>>697391922
I could settle with an internet connection.
Yesterday i ended a five year old friendship with the girl whom i pledged my life to. Worst part is i don't feel anything, not even emptiness
I kinda just feel like im drifting through life- sometimes i have experiences that make me question the validty of my existence. Sometimes this causes me to do stupid things, such as cause the end to my past relationship. i'm picking my life up- i'm not necessarily depressed. Im lonely but i dont let anyone come near, sexually frustrated but my intimacy issues literally had me push a girl away just before engaging (yes some issues in the past but i can do nothing but try to get over it).
I want someone to talk to but i have trust issues... usually the only people i can talk to are people ive messed around with or shared experiences etc with. I kind of just want to be hugged and loved but instead i seek affection via sex and flirting with people. I dont know what to do anymore but just autonomoisly continue through life.
>>697391748
I think thats confusing but if thats how they work, sure
>>697392224
Y-you missed my cooking threads, s-so allow me t-to show you what I actually look like.
>>697384285
Hey, if you're the same person who does this regularly....I'm the self medicating possibly bipolar on adderall, setraline, I drink and smoke heavily and take sleeping pills.
I just ran out of adderall. Been taking vyvanse from a friend. I know it has a drug interaction with setraline..
Give it to me straight, should I just withdraw from the adderall until my next perscription, possibly sending me into a depressive period .....
OR, should I take the vyvanse and risk seritonin syndrom?
>>697391841
Alright, so once upon a time, there was Chase. Chase was, in most senses of the word, a raging asshole, what do you expect, the urethra's name was fucking Chase. More like Chase away any chance of people liking you, you whore.
Anyway, he wandered past a band of Native Americans who were just trying to discussing who was better, Nia or Yoko from TTGL, and Chase decided to be a cunt in this political exchange. He said that TTGL was a shit, but he was wrong, eat shit, Chase, it's not my fault your father is poor stop showing everyone my deviantart page you piece of shit.
>>697392260
Do you think you should feel guilt or something? It was your decision after all, wasn't it?
>>697392284
S-so talk to her.
>>697392224
Also d-don't call me bitch. Last I h-heard, we w-were on friendly t-terms.
>>697392373
Y-you should CALL YOUR DOCTOR.
However, vyvanse is not any more likely to cause serotonin syndrome than adderall; vyvanse is a prodrug for adderall, so they are essentially identical.
>>697392221
Keep doing it. Can't really say this kind of help isn't appreciated these days.
>>697392439
Fucking Chase, what happened next?
>>697392261
Have you mentioned any of this to a doctor at any point? It sounds like you need some sexual therapy.
>>697392662
B-been doing it for five damn years. I'll try my best, but I'm getting quite old and weary...
>>697392332
Cooking is for squares and fags, spinning wrenches is where it's at.
>>697392536
I mean yeah, sorta, but I'm a scumfuck all 'roun so it doesn't really matter.
>>697392536
What is a pro drug? I've heard the term.
I'm worried that my doctor, whom I see over video for less than 30 minutes a month, won't know my case well enough to make a careful informed decision.
I'm also very worried about slipping into a slump. When I'm in a slump I stop eating, bathing, and playing with my kid. I can't see tomorrow or yesterday, and sometimes they last for weeks. I'm worried that she will alter my medication and cause something like this because she has 50 other patients and does not seem very connected.
>>697392787
*laughs softly* I w-was hoping for a heartening word or two, but I s-suppose somethings never change.
Anything I c-can help you with, then?
>>697391748
I'm on lithium and Aripiprazole and clonazepam. I'm high functioning.
>>697392741
5 years, huh. What's the worse you've seen with that ?
>>697392447
Yes, it was our decision, we both agreed on it. Things just started to die out and i didn't want to live with the ghost of a past friendship
It's just that, i would've done anything for her, i loved her like she was a part of me. And all of the sudden it just started to change. To be fair, we both changed
It's weird not talking to her all the time
>>697392741
I've been manipulated by too many counselors- i won't go into the details but basically no. That is the least thing i will be wanting to share with another 'professional'. Why do you think i'm posting 'anonymously' on /b/?
The only person around me that i could really speak about this with is my ex and lets just say we aren't speaking.
>>697392939
A p-pro drug is DIGESTED INTO another drug. So vyvanse is digested into adderall, basically.
It's a little more complex than that, but...
And...that isn't your choice. It's the doctors choice. There's a reason we have doctors, man; you gotta let THEM make the decisions about drugs, so that YOU don't get fucked up.
Call your doctor. Or get a new one if you do not like this one.
>>697393128
A girl who kills dogs and uses their blood to masturbate.
>>697393127
*nodnod* How are those working for you?
>>697393028
You were the only one to ever keep trying even when I was being the most righteous of cunts, is that heartening enough for your pansy ass?
And I wouldn't want you to even if you could.
>>697392439
So, the collective raciness of Chase's comments (He hates gay people for some reason, probably cuz his unkle diddles him) formed into an atom bomb, the most powerful atom bomb in existence, because it was MAGIC. The Native Americans wanted to own it, since it was created on their reservation, because Chase was there to gamble because he's a fuck. The Americans wanted it because we blow shit up, don't question it, fuck off Yuropoor praise Uncle Sam.
Either way, all of these dicks died, and Chase was an asshole, I hate you Chase, Melanie was supposed to love me and comic books aren't for nerds you fucking ass. Although, there were a few aliens, they all were futas with 3 tits and could see in the future, they told Chase's spirit that it couldn't go to Heaven or Hell because it would shit all over with its worthlessness, so Chase was deleted from existence, but C.H.A.S.E was revealed to be a secret government project, the codename meant Cruel Hentai Aliens Slapping Erotically, basically the government was going to get mouth-fucked by the futa aliens, for no real reason. But, Chase started running really fast and transformed into a sword and cut off all the alien's dicks. Then they left Earth. Chase didn't do this to protect us, he just didn't like dickgirl's because he is insecure.
>>697384285
Evening, Alice! What are your thoughts on those who are isolated but cannot seem to get back into the so-called "game" of life even after being reminded daily what made them go onto the sidelines to begin with?
>>697384285
OP, do you have a degree in psychology? You have a real way with words....
>>697393274
Well that's something I never even thought about. Not that I have any dogs near me...
>>697393301
Then we built a rocket to the alien's planet, so we could glue their penises back on and then cut them off again, but we realized that the planet was shaped like a giant alien thing, so we all fuckin' scooted outta there, except the aliens put is into a simulation and are actually making us all deepthroat their feminine penises right now, you just don't know it because you're in a simulation, their dicks grew back because of a wizard.
>>697393238
Yeah, you'll learn to live with it, anon.
>>697393253
A counselor is not a doctor; you need to see a doctor, one with an M.D.
>>697393296
*smiles softly* It'll do. But I must insist, even if you don't want me to; I am here to help, if you need me.
And I always will be, no matter how much of a cunt you are. You deserve better than you get, you git.
>>697393394
I think they need to stop being isolated.
>>697393456
I do <4 But, well....maybe just tonight, I'm dancing the way I was 5 years ago. It's like I'm remembering myself..
>>697393486
It was quite gruesome. And now, that person goes around calling me a psychopath. No good deed goes unpunished.
>>697393274
I would, but this is the only one covered by my insurance in the area.
I've had many bad experiences with doctors not listening to me, what my symptoms are, or be willing to answer questions about things that don't align with their opinion.
Many doctors also receive lunches and gifts from pharmaceutical companies..
It's hard to trust a stranger who ypu do not feel genuinely cares about how your daily life goes
Hey OP, I'm drunk af and opened up to a girl I like about myself (did not mention feelings towards her). Realizing my mistake, I immediately took back my retarded statements. She assured me I'm fine and let the topic go when I asked her to. I told her I wasn't into relationships (mistake, I know.), etc. but I like her and am considering dating her. How fucked are my chances?
>>697393659
You never know with this kind of person. But calling you a psychopath might be a bit extreme, you seem like a mighty fine person to me.
>>697393659
Nah, I get exactly what I deserve.
>>697390248
>>697390393
>>697391979
Well not much , but still something nevertheless .
Thanks for the advice lads I'll be off drinking myself into oblivion .
G'night to ye all !
>>697393683
While I don't dismiss those things occur, the fact you are taking generic medication rather than the more expensive ones shows your doctor doesn't buy into them quite as hard as you'd think; vyvanse is actually the newer "form" of adderall, still under patent.
If you need assistance in paying for a doctor outside your network, I can help. But if you cannot go outside your network...then you simply must call your doctor.
They aren't strangers; they are professionals. And sadly, there's no way around them anyway, unless you wish to buy amphetamines on the black market.
>>697393835
*shakes her head* Even if you think that, if you are ever in need, I'm here.
>>697393834
I'm a bad person that does good things. Nothing more or less.
>>697394038
Try to keep your BAC below 0.08 for the optimum buzz.
>>697394038
Night! Have a drink on my name!
>>697393659
How does my local GP help me with this exactly? Im not sure what you are getting on to here.
>>697394129
>A girl who kills dogs and uses their blood to masturbate.
Can't we just set the cunt up with Walter Kovacs and be done with it? He likes the blood of dogs he kills.
Although, I have a far better plan.
>find someone whose dog is going to be put down anyway because doggo is sick (poor doggo, I love them)
>leave dog for twisted piece of shit to violate
>she dies from blood contact
>dog's sacrifice was not in vain
>>697394129
>*shakes her head* Even if you think that, if you are ever in need, I'm here.
You have testicles and Y chromosomes
>>697393659
Who where you? Tell me about yourself?
Girl is fake flirting with me.
I know it and it's a place I like to go to.
Her friends have a laugh while she's doing it.
What do?
I've realized there have been more and more shootings and terrorist attacks lately, and it is starting to make me wonder if God is real. I have believed in him forever, and I think I always will. But why does he let this happen, and why more than ever? I know there is nothing you can do to change how the world goes, but I just wanted to get this off my chest.
>>697394318
Finally get to use this image.
I dedicate this post to all the cuties in the world, which is all of you, but especially me since I'm the cutest.
>>697394270
Point is that person was always and will always stay here she won't just age! From the first moment this place was created she was standing still in a corner so she is pretty much invincible.
>>697393659
>I think they need to stop being isolated.
Could CBT with a great, well-trained professional be their answer?
>>697394318
Does that make his/her advice any less useful? Seems like they have some valuable shit to say to me...
>>697394613
Not really.
>>697394730
Fag.
>>697394213
Because you clearly have trust and anxiety issues, and should be referred to a psychologist or therapist.
>>697394318
Then I'm c-certainly one of the most convincing traps I've ever s-seen.
Believe what you will, but given we haven't spoken in what, three years? I don't think your opinion really matters on the subject.
Especially given I have too many X's for that.
>>697394419
*smiles slightly* I was Alice2, in her prime. That's all I've time to say tonight, I'm afraid.
>>697394595
Actually, if you look at statistics, there's a much different picture being portrayed. The news reports it more now; that doesn't make it more real.
>>697394715
Yes. Absolutely.
>>697384285
Just lost a good buddy to a drunk driver having a really tough time getting through it any words of advice to get through it?
>>697394613
Also I get to use this image.
>>697394730
*stoops to her knees and takes your hand in hers*
My advice is not that which is valuable. What is valuable is what you do with your life, irrespective of what I or anyone else says.
You only get one life Anonymous; be sure to live it the way you like.
>>697387585
Dont fucking fall for it, faggot.
Keep cucking that old fuck but, DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE get back with her.
If she's cheating on the guy she left you for (WITH YOU at that) what makes you think she'll be any different with you?
Cum on her face one last time and kick her the fuck out of your life.
>>697394818
Funny, I remember Alice2 considering all opinions, no matter how callous.
Hopefully I remembered your name, hi alice!
I just need someone to say that they love me... I've seen so much shit, and watched so many of my best friends die.
>>697390596
Aaaaw Alice, you aren't giving me enough credit~
Why won't you love me as anyone else?
~Neptune
>>697394824
I'm sorry Anonymous, I'm so so sorry...about a year ago, almost to the day, I lost someone very near and dear to me as well.
Let it hurt. I know you don't want to, I know it hurts so bad, so awfully bad, that you can barely stand it...let it.
That pain means they mattered to you. And in this world, there is nothing more precious than the attachments you hold.
It will fade with time, but for now...let it hurt. I'm sorry this brings you no comfort; I know it won't. But it's all anyone can really say.
>>697395250
can you like come around more often please.
>>697394953
I'll give you that I've had some beers.. but regardless from one stranger to another... your words have helped... continue to do what you do..
>>697395111
*laughs softly* And look where it got me.
I respect your opinion but...I think it only fair that if you were to say such a thing, based on other peoples evidence, you'd consider mine as well.
Still...I know that I can't change everyone's mind, any more than I can save everyone. I don't hope to change yours.
And at the end of the day, I know what my downstairs looks like.
>>697395140
Hello darling <4
>>697395186
*wraps her arms around you, burying her head in your chest and gently peeking up at you with wide eyes* I love you, Anonymous. Even when no one else will, even in your darkest hour, even if you do vile things.
I love you for you. Always remember that.
Ive wanted to be a forensics scientist for quite a while. The problem is, im kind of queasy. Sometimes i feel like i'll do it, and other times i feel like I wont. I still got time to decide what college to go to and what my career should be. Advice?
>>697395599
You sound like a girl in my opinnion
>>697395429
I'll be on at 8AM and 8PM EST, as much as I can.
>>697395528
*smiles* Hello stranger. I'm Alice.
And I will, thank you. It's been an honor.
>>697395793
I was hoping m-my cosplay would settle the issue...but thank you.
>>697395755
I would say, if you believe in the job, if you want to do the job, don't let your stomach get in the way. I've heard Dramamine helps!
I'm lonely. I have a girl I'm talking to, but I don't wanna push any further because I don't wanna push her away. One wrong/impatient move and she's gone, but I'm still hurting anyways.
heres my problem.
slept with someone who i later found out was underage(in 2012)
got stung by it in 2014 ish
had to report 3 days a week for ages
now i have to see a community corrections guy
he asks shit to me i do not want to answer :/
life sucks ;/
I am sad because i havent slept in two days ):
>>697395734
All I could do was sit their holding him as he bled out.... It should have been me that took the bullet, not him.
>>697396005
Do you think you are a better psychologist than me?~ I should have Followed Ika's advices about you, nothing more than a psycho you are, if you won't love me then just die in a car crash.
~Neptune
>>697396457
>nothing more than a psycho you are
Hello, Yoda.
>>697394818
I have been but i guess its the environment or interaction i cant get along with... yeah- its a bit cliché but I get trust through intimacy, in that way i guess my mind thinks if i can give myself to them then i can feel relaxed enough to be myself. I know i shouldnt mix love and lust but its only ever through sex i feel safe with someone. Yet thats kinda the issue.
To make matters worse im horny. Fml.
>>697396264
Sounds less like a problem and more like a solution.
>>697396250
If you need to tiptoe around someone, it probably isn't in your best interests to continue the relationship while expecting more.
Either ask her out, or walk away.
>>697396413
A-ah? Why up so long? Are you doing any sort of stimulants?
>>697396425
*rests her head against yours* I'm sorry Anonymous. I'm so so sorry...
>>697396457
Not me, i'm no psychologist, but, come on, give me some credit, amirite?
>>697396005
one of my best friends is in an abusive relationships. advice on how to help her? thanks in advance
>>697384387
when will this stuttering end
>>697384285
>>697393560
I trusted her as much as i trusted my family. I'm sure that i will learn to live with it, that i find someone to trust as much i'm not
I swear to God, we were almost identical personality and ideology wise
>>697396457
Someone seems a little jealous....
Around a month ago I found an old picture of my class photo back when I was in the second grade in 2003. There was this girl I had a huge crush on who was also in the photo, lucky for me all of our names were written on the bottom of the photo so I searched her name on facebook and as soon as I saw her recent pictures of her now, I couldn't help but fall for her again. The depressing part is that I live in another country now so if I make any moves an e-relationship is as far as I'll get.
What do I do OP, I really fell for her hard this time (again)
>>697394129
Bad person ? Why ?
>>697396457
*blinks* Are...are you serious? There are people suffering here, and all you can think about is your own pride and wants?
Have a sense of fucking perspective; if you need help ask, if you wish to give help do it, but otherwise get out of the way. I've got people to care for and a very limited time to do it.
>>697396624
Thank you, I'm gonna get drunk now and dry fire my gun in my mouth. Maybe I'll grow some balls and actually do it tonight, I can't take the guilt anymore.
Who is the helix fossil and why does he deserve my fealty?
>>697396264
for a feels/help thread sure isnt much advice going on here :/
>>697397061
Alice, i don't see the (You). Got the wrong person.
http://prntscr.com/c01cig
~Neptune
>>697396624
Ive got a bad schedule reccently, so i sleep on the middle of the day and stay awake during the night, i think its really bad for my health
>>697396619
That sounds like a VERY unhealthy way to live. Like I said, maybe talk to your GP.
>>697396665
Try to get her out of the unhealthy relationship. That's the best option.
>>697396766
Never.
>>697396971
Walk away Anonymous. This is obsession, not love.
>>697397035
*smiles softly* I w-wasn't always this caring loving person, y-you know.
>>697397123
Don't do it Anonymous. It isn't what he'd want.
>>697397317
I sent it to whomever dared give a shit about credit when I am trying to help people.
>>697397328
It is! It is terrible for your health! Why are you doing that?!
>>697397317
It was the person's first post too..
I was just diagnosed with anal herpes today. I've always used a condom. Considering killing myself tonight. I'm on a bunch of pain meds. I would only need to take a few more... just to end it.
>>697397466
Atleast someone has the sense to check.
~Neptune
>>697397509
A-ah? Why would you end it over something so trivial? Acyclovir can easily t-treat flare ups Anonymous!
As well, why are you on pain medication? That sounds like the more serious issue...
>>697397441
Well, no, I don't know. Tell me more about that, and what made you change...
>>697384285
I've been very worried about my girlfriend lately. She's a victim of sexual and physical abuse and sometimes breaks down in tears in the middle of the night for no reason. Is anyone else here close with an abuse victim?
>>697397624
Not hard to say with some plugins.
>>697397644
pain meds for the outbreak. First one is the worst. Hurts to go to the bathroom so bad. But more than that, this is a social stigma.... I can never have sex again without risking spreading it. Even if I'm not having an outbreak I could be shedding the virus.
It's a disgusting virus. I would rather have cancer.
At the store i bumped my cart into a woman's cart who stopped suddenly infront of me. A jar fell and broke. I went "shit" then walked away. What should i have done?
>>697397838
Oh, do share, anon.
~Neptune
>>697397952
Name's 4chan X. Pretty popular, to what I've been seeing.
>>697397728
S-sorry Anonymous <4 It's almost 10:30, and I n-need to go to sleep soon.
>>697397737
Well...I'm close with m-myself, I suppose...
Is she in therapy? On medication? What does she do when she has these episodes?
>>697397862
*blinks* You should look into the history of acyclovir; the only reason anyone considers it an STD at all is due to the creators of that antiretroviral.
It used to not be considered anything bad at all, and over 60% of individuals have it...anyway.
It's not too big of a deal, Anonymous; you need to relax and think of this more objectively.
>>697397907
Called an associate over to clean it up.
Alice is a true guardian angel.
I've been busy, but I've read your email. Ill be replying tomorrow. Take care and thank you!
>>697398091
If she ever replies that is.
>>697397907
In my opinion, it's not an important enough to worry about what you should have done.
>>697398047
Thank you for what you're doing.
I'm such a spaz that what I need to do is control myself.
>>697398091
I'm just a silly g-girl who loves Anonymous.
I'll be waiting y-your reply <4 Forgive me if I do not reply to it until after work however!
>>697398047
At 10:30 ? You going to sleep pretty early...
Is there any way you could tell me more a bit later on ?
>>697398227
No worries. You help me wonders.
pls halp my boss gives me nothing to do for 8 hours a day and im afraid hes going to fire me I keep asking if theres something I can do but he always says no sometimes he gets stuck and I fix it for him and he gets mad at me what do?
>>697398219
It's m-my honor, Anonymous. Just take ten seconds to cool down, to think over what you do before you do it, okay?
>>697398047
Thanks Doc. It's actually really nice to hear someone reassure me.
Go to bed knowing you saved a life tonight.
>>697397907
It's okay she hadn't bought it yet, Anon. maybe if she saw you do it you should've apologized but that's about it. (not OP here)
Why can't I just forgive her after all the pain she has done to me.
Why can't I forget a person no longer exists.
I just want to hug her and cry,
>>697398448
Yeah...
>>697398354
I h-have work tomorrow <4
And you can always email me at [email protected]
>>697398371
I'm glad, I truly am...
>>697398433
Sounds like everything is going great and you just need to relax!
>>697398464
*smiles serenely* Silly. You saved you; I just gave you a helping hand is all.
But I'm glad you are feeling better.
>>697397441
What do i even say to a doctor? I dont see what kind fo help can be offered... from what ive had and seen i guess its just something that happened in the past that in going to have to learn to mentally get over. Anxiety- im dealing with. Im no longer being such a recluse and can actually go outside without panic attacks anymore.
>>697398433
Start making a CV, just in case i mean.
~Neptune
>>697398765
Expect a mail from me sometime during the day tomorrow.
cut to tonight, we be chillin in her basement watching ghostbusters (not that new shit, the OG film) with her brother, and she gets some picture messages from our good buddy with the balls. she has a bunch of texts from other people too and she responds to all of those but not the one from this dude. ive got one eye on her phone, the other on the screen, and shes playing some fucking game and completely ignoring this one particular conversation. end of movie, its getting late so she offers to drive me home, i say sure but i gotta shit first, so she goes upstairs to wash her face, i go ruin the bowl, and then we get in the car. weirdly her brother asks to tag along which he never does, but idk how relevant that is, may have just been a weird thing. i plug in her phone to the aux cord so we can listen to music as she drives, and super casual like i accidentally open her message app and see that there are now new picture messages from this guy, and shes clearly responded because hes saying something along the lines of "but you have someone who loves you very much and finds you beautiful and blah blah blah" maybe referencing me maybe himself, no idea.
its too late to swerve the car into a ditch, im already back home, but im on the verge of an anxiety attack because all signs point to her cheating on me with this guy ive been good friends with for a couple years. so i dont know what to do. is the point of all this shit. i still dont believe that its possible, im hoping theres a reasonable explanation for all of it, but realistically im just being a bitch and letting her get away with this shit for too goddamn long.
>>697384285
I'm attracted to horses. I've tried to force myself to be attracted to women and even men, but it's a no-go.
>>697399055
i fucked up and chopped off the top half of the story and dont have it pretyped fuck me
>>697398760
Good boy <4 *hugs tightly*
Alright everyone, it's that time again.
It's truly been a wonderful thread, and I do thank all of you for making it wonderful. Truly, I do. I wish more of my threads went this well, and it's all thanks to you.
I'll be back on at 8AM and 8PM EST, tomorrow and every weekday (barring illness).
You can always reach me at [email protected] if you need to contact me directly, or alicemargatroid2 on skype (though it's a bit flakey).
As well, I am usually on in my chat at anekiho.me/chat; just tell them Alice sent you.
With all the love in my infinite heart,
Alice2
Thousands of young women from all walks of life kill themselves every year.
They'd rather die than be my gf.
Feels bad man
>>697399055
>>697399179
basically i had a dream she cheated on me with a good friend and then checked their conversation in her phone only to find a bunch of dick pics. covered with emojis n shit but still dick pics. innocent enough convo, so i didnt wanna jump to conclusions, but then tonight happened.
sorry for terrible grammar, im just totally rattled right now. lemme know if theres more info thats been clearly left out
>>697399318
I thought you were the third Alice so far. I wonder when we will have the fourth one.
>>697398765
I'm on my way to bed as well.. have a good night.. I'm sure you've been told it a thousand times before but you really do make a difference..
Sometimes it's you that needs to be taken care of though...
>>697398900
You are a fool then; a therapist can work to correct these misguided understandings of love, help you work on more meaningful ways to express love than sex, and correct your unhealthy understandings of love.
Help is available. Don't turn it down because you don't understand it.
>>697398937
*nods* I'm looking forward to it.
>>697399505
I am Alice2 <4 Alice3 came in my time of need....she was quite the woman.
>>697399581
Yes But not today. <4
You still there, Mr.Eastwood?
>>697397441
I went through 5 years of pain in a fucking desert protecting some rich cunts opium. I watched 5 of my best mates die. I can't do anything else but drink and watch anime, I'm so fucked up I've resorted to telling a random anon my problems, I'm sorry doc. I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry. I don't know what to do.
Meditation post
>>697400326
I want to end it all but I drink until I can't see and I don't end up doing it....
>>697400326
You should commit honorabru mitsubishi. Maybe you'll find your mates 6 feet under ground.
>>697396624
not a solution, i just want to be left alone
i told the guy a mistakes a mistake and people who have done worse have been let go so why do i cop all the shit :/
i have memory problems so the info he wants isnt there
Sorry to add to the barrage of comments, but I really love what you're doing here. Hope we can help you in the same way that you help us. I don't care who you are outside of this, you're a great person in my eyes.
>>697384285
>building a new life
>literally left my family who I have helped keep together for 5 years
>literally only connection with the internet is through a shitty smartphone
>tried weed with friends for first time but cant get into it since the feeling of choking on the smoke feels like drowning
>trying to get into local uni
Im pretty bored m8. Whats worth doing alone besides playong Pocketmonsters go?
>>697399662
I think you jumped down my throat with that one. Maybe the particular definitions of help that you describe are that apecific where you come from but ive literally used the national support services for stuff like this.
I had some issues before that whilst in a relationship. Whilst being in that relationship i did fine because i had that support. Im sorry but rape is fucking touchy subject for a guy to tell any partner and even less so someone who isnt even involved.
My misconception isnt love- i want love. I dont have it, because of what now has to be explicitly outlined: yes when i cant find it i look for attentiin in the wrong places, that isnt me making a mistake. Its just a typical reaction. Its not that i dont know this but because of that same shit i have triuble trustig myself with people unless we're fucking. Sometimes I cant fuck with someone because guess what- rape can cause a little fucking trauma.
Yes- this was written from my perspective but dont try to only read it from yours. Specific words and definitions dont mean shit when you ignore the point. :/
>>697400798
yeah there isnt too much worse mistakes than child molestation
>>697384285
The meds I take for bipolar decided to stop working just at the beginning of my vacation, and now I have to spend the next week pretending to not be suicidally depressed.
Why do you stutter when writing?
>>697400833
the point she was making is that your head is fucked and you need help.
>>697401016
yeah well, a mistakes a mistake. she was 14, and well built for that height/weight.
i didnt know.
i didnt like kids before, and now im outright scared of them.
>>697401304
I know this, but you realise they have an alloted amount of sessions for you right? I cant afford the help or it doesnt apply to every situation.
I was>>697401304
trying to get help- otherwise i'd not pain myself with typing it out. Do you have any idea how hard it is to continually regurgitate the past that haunts you each time theres a new professional(just incase they needed a recap)? :/
