I'm bored as fuck this is happening now:
Step 1: Ask a 33 year old kissless virgin anything.
Step 2: Feel better about your own pathetic life.
>Do you have constant repeating thought everyday?
"Make this fucking thread".
>Do you have any regrets about something?
Lots of regrets. Everything what happened since high school was just an accumulation of regrets.
>Wanna talk about something or you are satisfied with answering questions?
I'm okay with both.
>Also, why do you want social contact? You don't seem that type of guy
Because even the most introverted people need social contact sometimes.
Molecular biology always interested me. Did my Bachelors, Masters, PhD and became a part of the snowball system which is academic research. The cancer aspected was linked with where I did my theses.
I don't know, seems pretty fine to me. Relationship and primitive reproductive needs are for weakling primitives, who find their life meaning in basic evolutionary mechanisms, they're the ones who're truly pathetic. People like us are the vanguard of progress among all the fools controlled purely by their hormonal and emotional systems like lowish beasts.
I've had many crushes in middle school, high school and university. When I was young, I was too shy to approach my crush directly, but with age, I became more proactive (had some of the obligatory friend zone stories where I approached only after months) and usually approached her asap.
Honestly I might as well kill myself now. because I don't see it happening. I dropped out of highschool when I was 16 and never had a girlfriend or job or anything. I cant even speak to the mcdonalds cashier without being awkward as fuck.
Ok OP. I have very limited time and/or patience for this thread.
But honestly, why not just go out and socialize? Surely its not that hard to just be near other people? Eventually you'll make 1 friend, maybe a female one.
Because it adds some tension when one party has feelings for the other party. I tried to do the same when crushes turned me down. Better than obsessing over her and causing unnecessary drama.
>Surely its not that hard to just be near other people?
No. I can easily go to a bar. In fact, I still regularly do. Having more than a merely physical proximity to people is difficult.
I couldn't handle the anxiety every morning i'd shit my brains out everyday cause I was so fucking anxious. and believe me ive trying to get a job I applied at a fast food place and they called me back but i couldnt even answer the fucking phone because i was so anxious
I'm sure at 33 you've already researched any and all ways of picking up and/or making friends.
But honestly, approach life with a "fuck it" attitude. Strive to better yourself in everything you can.
When people put blockades in your way, just say "fuck it" and blast through.
Make yourself BELIEVE that you are the boss and give no fucks, then you will be king.
I don't know. Heavily considering suicide, I don't see why I shouldn't honestly. and to top it all off lately ive felt slightly attracted to 'traps' which is pretty fucking disgusting.
Shitloads of alcohol. Benzos. Hitting head against the wall.
>But honestly, approach life with a "fuck it" attitude. Strive to better yourself in everything you can.
Isn't that a contradiction?
Negative. A "fuck it" attitude does not necessarily mean a nihilistic approach.
When my best mate started fucking my ex, while knowing how badly I wanted her back, I was on a fucking warpath. Eventually I just told myself "fuck it" which put me in the mindset of fucking them both off and focusing purely on bettering myself.
tldr: the "fuck it" mindset is essentially getting rid of all unnecessary bs to better who you are in any and all ways.
>When my best mate started fucking my ex, while knowing how badly I wanted her back, I was on a fucking warpath. Eventually I just told myself "fuck it" which put me in the mindset of fucking them both off and focusing purely on bettering myself.
>tldr: the "fuck it" mindset is essentially getting rid of all unnecessary bs to better who you are in any and all ways.
But you didn't say "fuck it" to the hole situation. You were just rechanneling you lust for revenge.
Want some advice? Also >>684162960,
it's a certain way of thinking. For example, whatever thought makes you " stiff and neurotic", you just have to say "Fuck it, it doesn't matter" or any manner of words that you prefer, I can't really express how to get to that state but overall people tend to make a big deal out of things while everything in the world is actually pretty mediocre.
How is that "rechanneling"?
I raged out for a while, in various forms, but a few days later I came to the realization that they weren't worth my time. And certainly not worth my sanity.
So I said "fuck it".
Immediately got past it, and started to focus on the next best thing.
I still think about it OCCASIONALLY. But it has no physical, emotional, or mental effect on me. Moreso just the cutesy positive memories of her.
Moonwhile, my new gf is pure sex.