any lurkers mind bumping? at page 8 here, doing this on my own
well, to keep the thread bumped, and considering im the only one posting, aside from pokemon guy, any requests?
i dont have a large folder, but ill post what i can find
hoping shark man comes again, so i have a reason to say godspeed.
i love that word
Got a lot of h/fur but I'll bump what I can
The road seems infinitely long, and some days are harder than others, but today, today i achieved what could be called a moderate success and took a couple steps more towards succeeding at life.
Blog post over, hows everyone doin?
If you're the same fellow, glad to hear it.
Actually, glad to hear it regardless.
May I ask what you did and how it felt?
I've got a couple things lined up that might add another property to my small list, which would be an income increase in the long run, and i managed to establish a friends-with-benifits relationship with a decently good looking and fun girl.
And for the first time in a long, long while? I feel good, i felt great actually.
actually, wait a damn minute
That would have put me into blissmodo
May I ask how high are your sights set?
I thank you for the praise, but i also must tell you, i am no one to be envious of.
My sights are set on surpassing my foster father, who literally "won" at life. He works six months a year, and fucks around with his hobbies the other six, has two cars, a big house and goes on vacations to places like spain, malaysia, mexico and similar yearly.
Hes both the reason i havent killed myself, and the biggest reason i want to, for i have some massive shoes to fill.
>>i am no one to be envious of
I can hear you're used to the sight of your fosterpaps
But I suspect you are at risk of feeling or thinking you're completely worthless and derailed by any damn tiny offset or obstacle
and no matter what happens, that is no way to live. That shit will kill ya
Maybe you are right, you prboably are in fact, but i also cannot help but think that, if i cant atleast measure up to the man who took me in and even gave me his family name, when the man who put me in the world rejected me.
Then i will have failed. Messed up i know, but it's hard for me to shake that though.
An appetite for pain!
I've held myself to harsh standards to the brink of breakdown, and a lot of good has come of it.
Good job, expertise, knowing myself
Sounds like it'll be worth it in the end then.
I can't advise it in good conscience. I think I'm a special (head) case for doing it, and I know damn well it wasn't actually fair or reasonable. It was a gamble. And there's still far more pain than pleasure.