Feels thread. Tear my fucking heart out.
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Feels thread. Tear my fucking heart out.
BUMPIN CUZ THIS IS A LONG ONE
>>688205821
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DiuTPNoRpYc
Best song on the Album Hats which is god tier
bamp
>>688205821
kinda wanna die
>be 42
>be asian
>be in japan
>be rich asf
>start looking for hookers after a late night out at the bar
>have wife
>find shemale
>bring her home
>after 30 times get wife to have a three way with me and her
>pretty boring
>stop and leave
>go get eggs
>come back into the three way
>scream at the hooker to crack an egg over my penis then eat it
>wife is turned on
>force her to eat it while giving me head
>as shes eating it my wife is touching herself screaming "OH MASSA OH MASSA"
>wife is black slave btw
>start choking hooker
>hooker punches me in my neck then steals my money and runs away
>tfw i never saw her again
>tfw when my wife screams "MASSA MASSA OH LORDDYY LORD MASSA" its just not the same
>tfw ill never have someone suck an egg off my dick that good ever again
other anons share please
This is the only truth
bumper
>>688206677
This happened to me too dog. We've all been there
>>688205821
>>688206677
Same happened to me.
grow some balls
> no friends
> no job
> very sensitive to light now from being in my room all the time
> turn screen brightness all the way down
> color blue hurts my eyes
> 8 years now and I haven't gone outside
>>688207303
>>688207185
British comedy
bumpin
>>688207383
At least you're not feeling blue.
>>688207419
The difference between US and UK comedy, is that the British KNOW work/life/strife is ultimately meaningless; Americans believe that things will get better.
https://youtu.be/nJK4ohsbs5o?t=55
Worth listening to.
Bump
>>688207637
Gold
![royal_blue__1[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/ZJj6GpB.jpg "royal_blue__1[1].jpg")
>>688207383
>>688206677
know your pain sup
>>688207959
What?
Can't you think for yourself??
>>688205821
i have the same blue nike free rn distances!
>>688208150
Excellent movie pal.
>>688208150
>copies word for word
> but im a smart!!!!
Finally got a potential relationship in my life and I'm scared to inbox them because I'm nervous and messing up.
Inb4: Dont be a pussy and message them blah blah blah (If I had the balls to message them I wouldn't be on /b/)
>>688205821
>Had it all
>Had GF, good life, was gonna go to school
>Started doing drugs, a lot of drugs
>Void never filled
>Had my first psychoticic tendencies 3 years ago
>Surely but slowly lost a lot of friends
>Started abusing drugs daily
>Psychotic break a year ago
>Put on medication that made me a zombie
>All derailed. Every day was the same
On the positive note:
>Off medication
>Back to work
>Off drugs
>School next year
>Slowly but surely getting more friends
Life can change
Some music for the feels.
https://youtu.be/b96rrbo-_Ik
What do /b/?
>>688208020
took me a second to see it. damn dude, not cool. i aint sleepin tonight.
>>688208477
Don't be a fucking slummy chum bucket and message that person
>>688208150
Thanks, anon.
Not sure if you're the retard who replied to my first post.
You know you see these "I'm leaving 4chan" posts all the time, well this is my one. Absolute fucktards (and yeah cancer cancer cancer) forcing me to.
30yo now. I will pray for you millenials, you fucking need it!
>be 23
>kissless virgin
>still living with my dad
>scared to talking to people
>cant talk to stranger
>always saying dump bullsit/lies to known people
>not feeling able to love
>actually like the most people/still be a jerk
>no job
>visit some kind of 2nd chance school
>wasnt been there for weeks
>>688208487
how has the changing started?
>be me
>die from eternal
>wake up, life is only 4chan
>this is hell
>>688209042
Are you drunk or retarded? Nigga you need to go to that school, you can hardly string together a thought.
>>688205821
this picture looks like a dream
>>688209277
Off the drugs, back in work, not psychotic (which is a thing for the better), actually enjoying my time with the people I care about. The usual shit that makes people happy, I guess.
>Inb4 drugs are totally ok
Not for everyone, after a lot of LSD, shrooms, stimulants and fucktons of weed it drove me batshit crazy after some years. Had no enjoyment in my daily tasks anymore and had problems telling reality from fantasy (hence, psychotic). So I guess everything is better if you use the analogy for hell, or rock bottom, shit can´t really get any worse. Hence, the change for the better!
>>688209370
autism but yeah actually i am drunk now
My kids picked this book out tonight to read. It's the most depressing thing I've ever read to a four year old
https://www.amazon.co.uk/Ugly-Monster-Little-Stone-Rabbit/dp/0099455951
The moral of the story is that if you're ugly nobody will like you and you'll be alone until you die
>>688209741
k i actually do weed(only with friends), alcohol. and heroine (not more then once in a week)
>>688210018
Damn, that's fucked up.
>>688210116
whats it like to do heroine?
>>688210116
Nice that you enjoy it anon! I drink alcohol and coffee, I´m laying off the weed for a while. Also psychs are a nono for me at this moment :P Hows the heroin working for you? It´s the only thing I haven´t tried and probably won´t.
>>688210116
Could you describe your Heroin experience? Does it have any psychedelic effect?
>>688210462
no, its just like a warm hug, without the annoying other person stuff
>>688210356
it helps not to cry like a bitch about lonelyness
>>688205821
>Be me, age 16, school just ended
>Break up with first gf
>The relationship had been feeling myeh and I simply wasn't feeling it anymore
>She has also told me if I ever smoked weed again she'd break up with me
>Told her I would never forget her, she would always have special place in my heart, shit like that
>A week of hanging out with friends to get her off my mind goes by, catch feels for this much cooler girl who parties but isn't too crazy,
>She's blonde with blue eyes
>Big tits
>Respectable ass
>Super fun and weird sense of humor like me
>We start sneaking out real late a lot and just talk and joke around until we hear the birds chirping
>Most fun I've had in ages
>Get a call from old gf
>Anon, I think I'm pregnant
>>688210795
I ain´t crying, just sharing my story /b/ro. Loneliness is a good thing, I have always enjoyed it. I posted my story about how a psychotic break can ruin relationships. This was a feels thread, remember? And if you think discussing life is crying, then I guess you miss perspective, anon
>>688211696
Underage
my feels folder is quite big, sadly
should i dump?
>>688211696
B-B-B-B-B-BANNNNNNEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
>>688211862
Yes pelase...
>>688212137
okay, if you say so
dumperino begin
>>688212251
1/?
>>688212251
this one is just kinda fucking stupid
>>688211811
>>688211927
>What is the past
2/?
4/?
>>688207845
Is it the telegraph pole who's talking or someone addressing the telegraph pole?
>>688211714
sry sup, i meant that i am crying the most time at home (no joke) lonelyness may be fine for you, but i cant deal with it as much as i can deal with people
Anons, if you think it's bad and you're never gonna meet her, wait. I was hopeless. Then I met her.
5/?
>>688211696
get the fuck off the internet you whiny ass cunt. 16 years old and you don't even have to worry about how to keep food on your plate. shut the fuck up and get off the internet.
>17 fem anon
>grew up alongside a guy a few years older than me
>we become best friends over time
>hang out every day and play vidya
>swim, bike, run around
>I hit puberty
>ohnoheshot.jpg
>flirt for a while, get closer
>"sorry, anon, but i dont like you like that
>well fuck
>grow distant, talk here and there
>he dies in a gruesome motorcycle accident a few months after
>I want to die
ITT: closet faggots that belong to tumblr
"waa waa gf broke up with me" at least you had a gf you ungrateful degenerate
>>688208477
We regret most the things we don't do. Do it.
Either you do it and see what happens or eventually they'll move on because you didn't do anything.
>>688213045
no, it's not that
>>688205821
dumping a few, i dont have many
>>688213358
>>688212690
aha. I see anon. what do you feel when you´re lonely? anything in particular?
>>688213413
>>688213449
>>688213506
thats all i got
>>688213429
bump
>>688212951
Same happened with me. 7 years later, it doesn't matter anymore. Rather, nothing matters.
>>688208629
What's in it?
>be colorblind
>>688209741
>blaming drugs for your fate
You're a pathetic fag anon, the only thing that probably fucked you up was stimulants and weed
>>688213702
Id rather have terrible things matter than nothing. I miss him and thats something.
>>688213964
It´s way more complicated than the drugs in it self. Probably genes and all that, but one of the factors were a lot of drugs. Shrooms and LSD went ok the first times, had a lot of positive experiences with them, but doing them on weed fucked up a lot. Not blaming anything, I´m telling a story. You´re the one putting words in my mouth, anon
Well, let's summarize it, then I'll expand if anyone wants.
> 3 year relationship
> Argue one night
> She ends it just like that, right there
> Don't hear from her for multiple months now
> I have no idea what to do
>>688211696
Always pay for the abortion.
Always.
>>688211862
Dump
>>688212340
That's some good feels
>>688212340
is it bad i didnt cry or feel anything? most of the time i choke up and tear up but nothing this time
idk
>>688213449
that fucks my heart
>>688212555
Checked.
This one hit me hard.
>>688212823
I wasn't ready
>>688208487
i feel ya, anon.
>>688214513
Tell me more
>>688212619
This one fucking hurt so much. First time I've cried to a 4chan post.
>>688214513
expand it Anon, expand it...
>>688212709
/thread
This happen to me past year, steel hurts like a bitch
>>688214513
what was the fight about
>>688214784
I was in that thread, shit was sick
>>688216392
>satanist among xians
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DVg2EJvvlF8
This song gets me into tears a lot.
>be me at first year at uni
>have best friend who is gril
>We do everything together and hang out constantly
>be happy because had no gril friends in high school
>we have been best friends from beginning of uni
>best friends enough that I have slept over at her house and met her whole family
> a week before spring break she tells me she has feelings for me
>I’m not sure if I want to do anything with her
>start developing feelings
>finally decide to make things official
>Only two months of uni left when we become boyfriend and girlfriend.
>Finally lose virginity to her
>I’m sad I’m going to have to go back home for the summer and leave her
>Even just thinking about it makes me sad
> End of uni
>say goodbye
>crying on the way home
>summer starts
>I realize I don’t miss her
>She misses me a lot
>tell her I miss her just to make her feel good
>Start to realize all the things I don’t like about her
>Start to realize we just are not compatible
>I’m starting to miss her less and less
> She might come to visit over the summer
> I really don’t know what to do
>honestly my best friend
>Don’t want to lose her as a friend
>We’ve only been together two months but I already feel bored with the relationship
Been playing “Pet Sounds” on repeat for the past 4 days goddman this is a feely album
Love how no one replies to you because you're a stupid dumbass, until now
Kys>>688212879
Everything it's OK, nothing is wrong on my life and I don't want to die
>>688216801
You are a shitty person anon, that's why
>>688212951
How did it take you 17 years to hit puberty ?
Expanding
> We were together for 3 years
Things were nice, it was a long distance relationship, though. We would see one another every other few months. It was an amazing feeling to see this girl everytime.
>1st year
Things were odd for me, first time really getting this far. Hope was at an all time high when we finally met after a 1 year wait.
>2nd year
Things were good still, just getting comfortable now. Planning for the future, it looks good, for now.
>Working onto the 3rd year
Things started to get shaky, but I was unknown to half the issues. Something I had feared finally came to light. I was getting frustrated with the online, and started to get a lot more snippy.
>Meeting each other a few months prior to break up
Everything seemed fine to me, things were odd at times, but I ignored it. I don't have much expertise, so I didn't know to worry.
>Night of the break up
Things get thrown out the window(figuratively). She tells me her grievances, but I had no idea it was effecting her. I pretty much had to watch as she burned down the relationship. I couldn't do shit about it. I've left her alone, because she wanted space and etc. There is still more, but I'm running out of room here.
>>688214154
Why don't you find someone else? Move on ?
>>688212619
cried like a bitch
>>688212951
go to a doc, that isnt a pain a single person can deal with
>>688208020
oy vey
>>688218179
what is this?
>>688219034
asshole
>>688219116
it's a simple question, you don't have to be so rude
Coming to keep this shit alive
>>688219448
I'm sorry anon. It was answer to the question.
-What is this?
-(It's the) asshole (on the picture).
Im want to deeply apologize for this misunderstanding.
I have way too much of this...
>>688205821
Doubt it will affect anyone at all, but this is why I deal with.
I firmly believe in mercy killing.
I think suicide is a form of mercy killing. That whoever does it to themselves actually loves themselves enough to do it.
I absolutely hate myself.
My depression is extremely deep rooted, I would love nothing more to die.
But I can't do it.
Because suicide is an act of love.
An act of self love I feel I don't deserve.
>>688220333
Deep shit bro. What's going on?
>>688208898
he mad
>>688220309
What¨s wrong?
>>688209370
thats all?
>>688220594
Depends on which doctor I ask.
Some say it is Major depression
Some say it is depressive borderline disorder
Some say it is avoidant disorder with ADD
All I know is this shit started when I was 8 when I would blame myself everytime my dad and stepmom got in to a violent fight.
Then I found that I get extremely hypersensitive when someo e disagrees with me or tells me no to something I want. Not because of their action, mind you, but because upon hearing that, I get this lingering voice. It screams at me. Tells me I'm worthless. Tells me I need to suffer.
Over the years, the voices get louder. I use anything and everything as an excuse to rend myself. Silently. I still hardly say anything about it.
It's worse when I see a doctor (forced or otherwise) cos I can't help but lie to them. Tell them just enough to make them think they're helping.
>>688221362
Sounds similar to me,
I don't go out, so I rarely face these problems unless forced out.
>turn 21
>get accepted to sfsu
>excited about moving out of hillbilly 1980s Ronald Reagan worshiping town
>am brown too
>visit skool in sf
>fall into diabetic coma
>out for days
>have some brain damage from hitting head and high glucose
>lose vision job and college funds for medical bills
>depressed but still go to cc
>get accepted to uni in Santa Barbara
>can get full ride if parents file taxes on time to prove poor
>parents don't file taxes a all
>lose everything all over again
>tfw...idk I just want to give up
>>688221362
damn i know this whole "lying to the doc story, to be not a burden" i was never able to break this cycle, and never strong enough to deal with my problems on my own... shit sry i wish i could help
>>688220309
>>688220594
>>688221362
The last therapist I talked to, I did mention my opinion of suicide like in my first post. But I purposely waited until the end of our session so he would put it off until next time.
There was no next time.
The only people I will listen to are those with enough of an emotional investment in me. So mostly all my lovers. Every lover I have had, I put them through hell or if they were lucky, dismissed them after a month.
I have over 100 scars on my shoulders and torso that I have to lie about every physical I get (usually got with either pissed off cat or tree climbing accident). But they are all to remind me of how worthless I am. Especially when some I did in front of a lover while she fought the knife from my hand.
>>688205821
I actually have those shoes.
>>688207748
WTF Why am I crying faggot!
>>688221939
its almost like you're suppose to fail at everything, maybe you should give up.
>>688221841
I've perfected lying to people and acting just happy enough to fool everyone. No one calls me on my bullshit, not even family who got to see me forced in to three consecutive protective holds. I guess the fact that the US still thinks the treatment for mental health issues is to 'snap out of it' makes it easier.
>>688221951
I don't lie to be a burden. I lie just to lie.
>>688208898
Pretty sure you're trolling, but you do realize that you're considered a millenial as well, right?
>>688212364
No, I get it. I like being alone, then I look at pictures that friends post of themselves partying or traveling and meeting new people and it makes me feel alone.
I've just been given Olanzapine by a mental health clinic, I am having a difficult time at the moment trying to distinguish whats real and what isn't. I think I am hearing voices running a commentary on my life in a degrading way
I am also talking to myself on a near constant basis it's gotten to the point where I sometimes do not realize this, and it's usually self loathing and paranoia, very rarely is it ever positive
I can feel myself losing that little bit more of myself everyday and to be honest guys, I'm fucking terrified of what will happen in the years to come.
>>688212364
i know its stupid but its actually my life
>>688223039
31yo here
I used to not give a shit because i evaded with games.
yfw that doesn't work anymore and you feel you've wasted your youth. Probably the girl i let go 16 years ago when she offered me her heart had an awesome youth away from me. maybe no she's married.
Meanwhile now I wouldn't deserve her: no job, no career, i live in a shit nation so i won't recover...
But hey, i work out, as if that was meaningful.
I'll die probably before christmas, my only solace.
>>688206677
i might have fucked the same hooker man
>>688223337
My point is that i used to like being alone but i hate it now. it has destroyed my mind.
>>688215191
Well fuck him for putting people on the spot last minute. Yeah, his friends and family are dicks because they didn't have an extra chair on Thanksgiving.
>>688220223
This is Actualy me fuck
>>688205821
Tare*
>>688223337
Most of us have that one love, most of us live in a place that's hard to find work. I'm not going to tell you something faggy like, "just move somewhere you love". Get out of bed, keep working out, keep trying to find a job. You may never find your purpose, but you're in good company. Life may be scary, but it's only temporary; everything in life is only for now.
>gf is prego
>we like to get kinky anyways
>one night things get particularly sauce
>i'm sticking my noodle in her when i notice weird fucking chunks coming out of her, so i turn on the lights
>wtf it's red everywhere and she's obviously not on her period
>i look up at her, she's got a glassy, jarred look on her face and she's not answering
>ohshitohshitohshitohshitohshit
>i rush her into my car and speed all the way to the hospital
>by the time we get there, she's not bleeding much more, but all the color has drained and she looks colorless and almost transparent
>oh shit, she looks like she's in a vegetative state
>storm into the emergency room and carry her to the nearest doctor and explain everything
>he takes one look at her and says
>"sir, I'm sorry, there's nothing we can do"
>"WHY THE FUCK NOT???"
>"we don't operate on empty jars of spaghetti sauce."
>mfw
Been diagnosed with major depression for about a year, nothings really helping me.
Two hours ago I confronted my only two friends because I feel neglected by them.
Got two emotional and basically told them they're horrible friends even though they're not. Now both are pissed at me and one of them doesn't even want to talk to me anymore. The other ones also pissed af but at least he wants to make up.
Scared as fuck I could lose one of them, I don't have anyone else.
>>688223942
What company? I'm carrying out a pathetic existence and I'm honestly really tired.
The other day I dreamed I was killed and that usually scared me but recently I felt happy when I truly thought I was gonna die. And when I wake up I believe "well, one of these days..."
I have certain things from my past torturing me and honestly here it's close to impossible to get a job for the likes of me (I live in Spain). I honestly see not many reasons to go on living other than playing No Man's Sky lol
Are more people like me here? Suffering over a love from the distant past? Mourning over a lost youth, born with anxiety, unable to go to college? I hope not, because it hurts a lot. I don't want others to go through this.
>>688224320
topkek
>>688224338
pro tip: explain to them what's up
Does anyone else have that feeling of depression where it's not like sadness or tragedy; it's just boredom and the feeling that life is grey. When you wake up and stare at the texture and grooves in your pillow instead of eating breakfast and going to school. When you spend your life waiting for the day to be over because you're tired of experiencing the unwavering constant of melancholy. I force myself to be happy and try, but everytime I laugh I think about how much I want to die, and such little pleasure I find in life. Does anybody else have this
>>688224702
no offence but that's probally because nothing mayor has happened in your life yet
>>688224338
You are me in 2003.
Put all your efforts into thinking straight with your friends or you'll reach 31yo and feel so lonely it'll hurt. Seriously, being lonely at first was nice but later on it'll really hurt a lot. I cannot explain why, English isn't my mother language, but it sucks. TRy to make amends with your friends.
I've always been scared of the future, mostly because I've been happy my whole life and don't have any ambition to change anything. I'm work like 15 hours a week as a pizza guy, have a pretty cool girlfriend and some really good friends. I hang out on the internet way too much and might be drinking a bit much but I love doing those things. I'm fucking terrified of ever having to work a 9to5 job in an office, watching all my friends finish college and have a family while I'm trying to be content with being unambitious and end up being that 35 year old guy hanging out with college students because his friends don't have time for him any more.
>>688224841
My cousin murdered my grandmother and I'm transgender
>>688224530
I hate to tell you this, but you are in no way special. There are more than 7 billion people on the planet, and you honestly think you're the only one in that exact position? I can guarantee you there are, in fact, by the laws of probability there's probably someone with your name who looks like you in the exact same position. You keep going, or quit. If you're going to quit, noone is going to be able to convince you otherwise.
>>688225061
I see the problem, your cousin should have murdered you.
i've been crying like a bitch all night because my grandma died yesterday night and my best friend that i've know for 24 years had a psychotic episode last week and has no real signs of getting better
>>688225020
I wish my life had been as yours when i had your age.
>>688225177
Thanks
>>688224702
what you descripe is called depression
sadness =/= depression
>>688225078
I know anon (about noone being able to convince me to go on). I'll be just another suicide for the stats. I'll just disappear and all my feelings will just evaporate.
I want to die because it hurts to be me but I wish I was apathetic and I could just let go without the drama.
.>>688225185
Sorry dude :(
>>688225241
How was yours? I'm 24 btw...
>>688225185
at least you can know your grandma is in a better place
>>688225510
I've been wondering if it's something more because I've even on medication for 6 months and nothing's helping. I'm probably just being a pussy but idk
>be me
>meet nice girl, kinda still hung up on her ex but that's cool, she's cool
>be getting along really well
>depression is decreasing, my life is getting better
>her ex dies
>queue a shitstorm
>she goes distant and cold
>depressionrelapse.jpg
>frequent drinking
>be a real shitty person about the whole ordeal, I want to blame the booze but the thoughts are there regardless
>can't tell her any of this because she is in a really fucked up place too
>delete every trace of her bar our first few messages
>cry internally forever over them
>all our plans for summer burned
>giving up hope
Morale of the story, don't fall so hard for someone so quickly
>>688208589
Become hedonist.
>>688225571
I live in Spain. Right when I was 23 and I had a job in this factory and I thought I was healing the economic crisis came and fucked me a lot so I couldn't go on with the life style you're having.
I must say I didn't have a cool gf but I was happy being unambitious.
"I can always work here" I thought, but here where I live it's impossible.
Also, I cannot forget someone from my past (from year 1999-2001), I had a frustrating life with my parents and friends, on top of having been born with anxiety without understanding it until it was too late.
My advice to you? Try to study. But if you live in America maybe you'll be ok anyway.
Hey guys, I just came here to say that I used to be all feelsy and depressed almost all of the time, too.
I was a sad piece of shit and everything always went wrong for me, and I wanted to die.
I pulled through and got better, and now I'm in a place where, although things still suck, I have hope all of the time and I'm confident that I'll never be depressed again. I'm an optimist, and life is great.
There was no simple, or even complicated solution to get me to this point. There was no solution at all.
I just gradually felt differently over the course of 10 years, and then rapidly changed fully to how I am now within a couple of months all at once at the end.
There's no moral to this. No lesson to be learned. No struggle to overcome. In real life, sometimes shit happens and there's nothing you can do, and it either gets better over time or it never gets better.
Some peoples' lives involve more of this than others'.
Looking back now on my worst times, all I can do is shrug.
>be me, gay, introvert.
>Met coolest person when I was in college, a famous Author, who needed assistants.
>Worked for next to nothing, because author became like a big sister to me.
>Author helped me "reclaim" my life, after I started drinking too much.
>Author helped me ditch abusive older boyfriend I had.
>Life started getting better, until author introduced me to a cult.
>Dramatic turn for the worse.
>I left cult. We no longer speak. Total mess for years now.
>Get LinkedIn invites from Author still, most recent one a few days ago.
>Mélancholie feels.
>Life gives you very brief moments to show kindness to one another, and then those moments are gone.
>Because of cults.
>>688225726
>>688225517
yeah thanks, still hard though cause she was healthy yesterday morning but she got suddon bleedings in her skull and it was over within 24 hours..
>>688226044
And i hate that when i come to 4chan my english skills are so low, i don't understand why my writting gets so bad here. im retarded
>>688225743
i am not an expert on depression but i had my own fair share of mental illness. i think if after 6 months it didn't get better it is time to talk to your doctor and/or propably seek a different one.
>>688226120
What hard times did you face?
>>688226293
This.
I did not treat it back in 2003 and here I am with a pathetic and failed life.
Guys, please, go to the doc if you're not improving.
>be me
>19 year old wage slave
>handless virgin
>social life is kill
>spend all my days off work alone and at home
>15 year old girl I knew, went on a date recently
>she got laid
>15 and done it
>meanwhile I'm stuck at home, wishing I could even have someone to talk too
This ride doesn't get better. I just want out already.
>>688218535
What is it? I don't see it
>>688225323
Hey don't listen to that edgy faggot just keep your chin up and use the bathrooms at Target
>>688226120
You worked hard probably to over come it, but some of us have no trigger to achieve that. I don't know if you understand me or I just sound as a lazy weak fuck but seriously, sometimes, some people are just unable to do anything about it.
>>688226689
Man, you're too young. You'll life will get better.
>>688226689
>handless virgin
You have no hands?
>she got laid
>she
All girls have to do is know how to pronounce the word "yes" and they can get laid.
>>688224860
>>688224638
That's my plan. Though they first need to be ready to listen to me. As I said, one of them doesn't even want to talk to me. The other one wasn't as pissed but still....Still scared they're going to leave me though.
I've been alone a fair amount of time of my life, with no one to even talk to. Don't want to experience this ever again. But I'm to depressed to meet new people.
These two are the only ones giving my life some kind of value.
Really considering to an hero if I lose that aswell.
>>688227011
indeed.
The girl I let go in the past when she offered me her heart probably had sex with some other guy few months later...
Meanwhile, I did not. And here i am with 31yo still thinking about my teenage crush who offered me her heart but I evaded playing Half Life 1 and StarCraft and AoEIII :(
>>688226920
This
>>688226689
Just keep your chin up, things will get better. Such a cliche but it's true
>>688226798
I don't think you read the whole post, because that was exactly my point.
For some people it just happens, and for others it just doesn't.
Things got better for me for absolutely no discernable reason. I didn't work hard for it. It's like my brain chemistry just decided to become different.
>>688227322
Yeah, sorry, English isn't my mother language. I just meant to say "+1" in a more elegant way but I guess i failed (as i failed with anything else in my life).
Anyway, I'm glad some people that suffered could have a better life later on. Enjoy it :)
Her name is Tammi.
I'd known her since primary school or elementary for those of you who're American. We never really spoke much, at least not until secondary school.
Around this time we both started talking, found out we both liked the same music, books, stuff like that. We used to go round to eachother houses almost everyday, not because I was attracted to her, I was only around twelve, it never really occurred to me that I might like her.
Fast forward a few years and me and her start dating. It was the happiest and most carefree time of my life, by a long shot. We wouldn't do anything fancy, it was just like it had always been. We'd go for a walk or just sit about talking after school.
When we where both seventeen she had to move back to China with her family. This destroyed both of us, but we just pretended it wasn't happening until we couldn't anymore. We tried to keep in touch but that ended after a year or so.
About 4 months ago I got in contact with her brother. He told me that she killed herself 3 years after moving to China.
I have a wife now but I can't stop thinking about her, I haven't been able to sleep properly since talking to him. Help me /b/
>>688225177
kek'd
>they think I've got it all
>Everyone thinks I've got it made
>How come my only friends are the ones I pay
>>688206525
That's terrible
>>688228308
Must be nice to afford friends.
>>688227282
As a guy who isn't a virgin and who is now 31 years old, lost my virginity in high school, let me just tell you-
It's all relative.
I was in love with the first girl I fucked, and so was she with me, and it was great at the time, but in the grand scheme of things it was no big deal at all.
I've had sex since then here and there, both involving love and just for fun, and it's really nothing special.
Honestly, I wish I had played more video games instead of keeping my nose buried so far up a girl's ass when I was younger, because there were some awesome titles that I missed out on that were very much the "of the time" kind of fun.
As for love, to me it has never been worth the inevitable betrayals, lies, broken trust, and ugly aftermath.
If you have some lofty idealized concept of love and sex and especially losing virginity, that's most likely just your hormones taking control of your brain to try to make you produce offspring.
It's all a sham in reality.
>>688208487
'School', next year?
SCHOOL !
bait.
>>688228133
Some people just end up dead without solace and without ever getting a happy ending.
At least she had some few happy years with you.
I got offered a hear when I was 15 but a tender girl but I evaded and now at 31yo i still think about her. I'll die soon because I failed at life but I think I would have loved to at least having some few carefree love years with her.
Hope your girl rest in peace.
>>688205821
Well I couldn't even make a suicide attempt without pussying out and going to the hospital before the pills could kill me, so I bet that makes you feel better about yourself.
>>688228133
Hey, anon.
The issue when dealing with death when it comes to someone you know or you once knew is that you typically blame yourself for the action, or you regret things that never happened.
That's not the approach to take.
Because what's happened already is the past, and that's something that's not in your control.
Rather than focusing on what you two never had, just think about the good times.
That's how she'd want to be remembered by you, right?
this thread is lit
>>688226044
Your english is fine man. I'm German btw, I guess I'll always have some kind of job, the thing is I kinda want to do something where I don't have to force myself to go to work every day, I wouldn't know what that would be tho. The job I have right now is okay, but I can't imagine doing that for the rest of my life...
>>688216801
coward, leading a girl on when you're not interested in her
99% of all the feels shit you read about on 4chan comes from what you're doing now
>>688229165
I see. There are a lot of Germans here in Spain :)
What about programming or some stuff? If I had had the stability to study I think I would have loved that. You work kind of alone and such.
Anyway, being German, you'll be fine anyway. It's not that everyone has to get a career or be that or this. If you study feeling forced to it you may feel miserable by the end anyway.
Hope you find your path and something you'd love to do. :)
>>688205821
this is my heaviest stuff
>>688220508
>arab
a hint might be his shit got bombed
>>688223066
It sounds like you are under stress. Your changing. Try and not to gain a reliance on drugs, because the drugs will end up controlling you.
Try introducing small, simple things into your life.
>>688229570
I didn't sign a permission slip for this feels trip
>>688207959
Reddit overflow=summer
I feel empty.
My anxiety is too severe for me to make any new friends and at this point it's difficult enough to socialise with my small group.
I'm failing my finals because i have anxiety attacks during them, and I'm lacking the effort to study or focus properly because of brain fog and depression.
It's not even worth living anymore.
>>688229533
thanks! Hope you have a good life too! I'd probably rather live in Spain, here everyone is pressuring me to have a career and be successful, also the weather is shit mostly...
>>688212251
That doesn't make any fuckin sense. If you're lonely then you don't truly like being alone.
>>688228469
>No one understands
>What I would do to change my life
>For just one day
>>688228657
>>688228856
Thanks for the support, I don't usually cry, but I broke down just writing the story. You don't know how much your words means to me.
I thought about talking to my wife about it, but I don't want her to worry about me.
>>688226725
try harder goy
>>688227288
I've never really know love though. Parents have been abusive when I was a child. Those who I thought were my friends abandoned me or had toyed with my emotions. These 2 things made me distrust everyone and close myself off.
I was never popular in school. I drifted between 2 groups because I was so alone. I spent my time inside, waiting for someone to say "Hey anon, do you want to join us and go out together?". But it never came.
I just want to feel like I'm wanted by someone. I want to be able to have friends I can trust and talk too, to help me and let me help them. To hang out with.
I want to be with that one special girl that makes me smile, to make me forget my worries, even if it's just for a second.
But instead, I feel lonely, unwanted, unloved. I distrust people, I don't open myself up, I feign happiness just so others aren't pushed away by my normal attitude. My depressive attitude.
And after being reminded that I have no life, that even a fucking 15 year old can find someone to be with, to embrace them and to let them embrace her, it feels bad man.
I can only dream of such feelings.
And before you say I've haven't tried, or if I just need to chin up, I have tried. I tried trusting people, that led to them misusing that trust, abusing it. I've tried being the real me, it pushes people away. I tried finding something to enjoy and love. To improve myself. Only for my problems to resurface again and remind me "there's no escape".
It's been like this for the past 10 years and if 10 years couldn't solve anything, how much time do I have to use to just fix one fucking problem, and miss out on things I should've been doing?
>>688228657
this.. most true post i've read all day tbh. not even in an emo way, plenty of people die unfulfilled, even at a young age.
>>688230342
>here everyone is pressuring me to have a career and be successful
It's actually the same in Spain.
Do you know what the first thing people do while dating here? Proving about each other's curriculum vitae (career, work, money).
>>688230514
start doing drugs, fag. work out.. get a life. youre lucky you still have time.. imagine if you were dead at 21?
>>688216392
Dude forgot to put the address on there.
>cuked
>>688224530
I had a friend like you one day. She was diagnosed with Bipolar. I knew her for two years and the amount of strain, lies and arguments that she caused and put my way was beyond a joke.
To her it was just an everyday thing. But the stuff she was doing, was discussing making false rape allegations, talking about making false child rape allegations to the police, setting the house on fire, instigating stuff with heavy drug dealers and so on.
Then one day I just warned her and gave her an ultimatum. Things calmed down, but then weeks later flared up. Rinse, wash, repeat. She'd never change from being a total bitch. I walked away and left her to live her own life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GygEAcFFMVs
No job, barely any education, all my school friends have finished university, colleges, and I'm here like a sad depressed fuck, unmotivated to do anything, too lazy to get a job, too lazy to fix my problems so I rot in my room, playing video games to hide from problems.
>>688230711
Honestly, if I died now, that'd be the greatest thing that happened so far
>>688230583
Yeah, it hurts.
At least I lived until i was 31yo...
My only concern is that my dad (51yo) has been dating a 34yo woman (for 2 years) and my death may ruin his mood a bit, but I guess he'll be fine. Besides, part of my situation is his fault (he made me feel very unstable during my youth, we moved 7 times to end up in a lost cold town.
>>688230965
ur depressed. if u were actually told ur going to die soon youd feel differently. you would, i know you would. youre dissociated from what death really is. you need to get your ass kicked.. seriously, it's called getting "checked". go step into a ring and i swear to Enki you will think differently. once you get hit you're going to feel like a man again. just fucking do it if you ever plan to take even 1 4chan post seriously. try getting ahold of some xanax, or smoke weed or buy DXM cough syrup at dollar tree @ $1.09 for 220mg..
>>688230832
Age?
> Finally met the perfect woman last year.
> Slim, petite, brown-eyed, flat-chested brunette.
> Literally looks like she stepped out of my fantasy.
> Into the same things I am.
> Even likes this one particular subgenre of music we're probably considered too old to like.
> Too bad we're both already married to other people.
you fags need to just keep busy shit posting and double your trolling. Never stop for a second because you'll just go downhill.
>>688231051
hey man what's your excuse? you've had 10 years of adulthood to see your dreams. that's more than.. well it doesn't matter. good luck pal, do drugs. that's all i can say. the grass is oh-so greener..
>>688231286
20.
>>688228133
The last time I saw this she killed herself 1 year after moving to China lol
>>688213045
Pretty much this. Fuck off to Facebook fags.
>>688208694
>>688213045
>tfw never had a real one
>>688231362
It's not just an "excuse"...
I had a lot of unstabilities during my youth (moved 7 times, had a frustrating childhood), and when I had a job at 23 the crisis came and unamployment rose to +25% Here in Spain there is +20% of unamployment now but finding a job is close to impossible still.
You'll still believe I'm lazy and it's all my fault (I admit I have some) but it wasn't mostly my fault, wish you believed me...
Anyway, I hate my past, my present and future and soon I'll die so I won't be judged anymore.
>>688231382
I'm 31yo and I'm like you. You still can fix your life though, please try. Here we have no jobs to recover but probably where you life there are though.
>>688231287
are you happy to who your married to? also whats your age i just like to paint a picture :p
>>688231483
I posted the same thing yesterday, never noticed I put one year, must've been a typo.
>>688231382
Oh, and ask for help.
I didn't and it was very destructive. I know how you feel dude, about the anxiety, I was born with it too... But please, ask for help, dude, don't make mymistake.
>>688231878
I don't want to fix my life, it's useless. I didn't want to be here in the first place. I'm fine with working some shitty job until I die. I just can't pick myself up- I have no motivation to live.
>>688232193
Damn...
I also get a lot of shit here but some few times one or two are friendly, don't judge me nor blame me... It feels amazingly good.
>>688232216
Well, if at least you can have a job where you life... It's ok. As long as you don't have pain from the past your life may not be that bad.
Gonna play No Man's Sky? :)
>>688232560
>if at least you can have a job where you life
I meant " if at least you can have a job where you LIVE"
Sorry guys, this one is gonna hurt. I suggest you watch it alone.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8JNyllXJEKY
>>688229570
This just fucking ruined me.
For every anon that reads this, I care about you.
Although I don't know shit about you, I care about you
For anyone to come in these feels threads. We all have some sort of mutual understanding.
We know what it's like to be shit on, to be lonely, empty, and to not have anyone there for us.
But we'll all still be here for each other.
That's what I like about this place. Even though the majority of /b/ is filled with autism, these threads are genuine. Where people can truly be themselves.
So whatever it is that you're going through, know that I'm always going to be in these threads to listen, and to offer help.
Remember that time heals all wounds. No matter how unlikely it may seem in your current situation.
>>688232560
Maybe if I have the money for it! It sure does look cool.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SwbdWgvX560
>>688231287
Yes, I'm very happy with my wife. Total geek tomboy, never does stereotypical female bullshit, very kind... Just wish her sex drive was as hyper as mine.
As for my age, it's between 35 and 45 and I'll leave it at that.
>>688206677
lmao
This one killed me...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FGhAcBwwpo0
>>688218109
Thanks I needed a giggle
>>688232193
Say those last lines louder for the people in the back to hear.
>>688232886
:)
I'm so glad I learnt English so I can be here... My speaking and listening skills are shit but still...I'm glad there are more as me out there.
Funny, we all come from different places but we still can understand one another... How we feel... The desperation, hopelessness, pain and such...
>>688231954
Shit. I replied to myself.
>>688233156
>>688233335
this thread is so lit no joke
>>688233335
Your English is better than my French, German, Spanish, or Japanese. :-)
>Be me
>Dating a 8.5/10
>Blonde, 38 D, Really nice ass because she played softball in high school
>We always connect and have sex and have fun
>Its been 7 years of dating
>Got her fathers blessing
>Bought a ring about to ask her to marry me
>My friend calls me and ask me to come over
>I go over because this is my best friend since 6th grade
>He sits me down
>He tells me the worst thing ever
>"You're girl is cheating on you"
>I got sad and ran to my car
>Grabbed my handgun and he ran after me
>Almost did an hero
>He tells me everything
>He shows me text
>My girl has been trying to hook up with him
>She sent him nudes
>In the texts he says "Stop, your dating Anon"
>He threatened to tell on her
>Tells me she went to his house and they ended up having sex
>Text prove he didn't want it at all, He showed me all the snaps she sent
>Go home and confront her
>Tell her I was going to ask for her hand in marriage
>She feels like a asshole now
>She says shes sorry and will do anything
>anything...
>She keeps trying to engage sex and keeps trying to grab my dick
>I eventually fall for it
>She was in lingerie and she knows that's my fetish so she wears it at home all the time
>Had amazing sex and forgot everything
>We get married
CONTINUING
>>688232560
thanks for the advice, I hope everything goes well for you- I mean- you have 30/40 years to fix your life, it's never too late to start over. Hopefully you'll have fun in No Mans Sky.
>>688233663
Let me guess she cheated on you again years later and got divorced and lost all your shit
>>688206847
no the thruth is that without that shitty civilization pic related despice, the guy who wrote it most probably couldn't get his ass alive for long enough to have those fedora/beta toughts
would such a man survive without the safety network of people having to respect him, wich they despise? if they weren't bound by the moral and social conventions that kept that weak faggot alive?
>FF to the wedding
>I see her hitting on my friend
>My friend was giving me the look
>Tell her father everything
>WorstIdea.ogg
>He stands up and confronts her
>She starts crying
>He disowns her and everyone finds out she cheated
>Everyone says I should leave her
>I stay with her because I love her still
>Her family doesn't like her no more
>She cries her eyes out to me all night
>Tell her its all fine
>I got her a present
>A horse because she rides them and loves them
>We live in a 3,250 sq foot house
>Big yard so horse in backyard with a barn I built
>Have amazing sex for long time
>FF later
>She found out I almost killed myself when I found out she cheated on me
>She feels like a complete asshole for that
>She makes me remember everything
>Feels like I got hit by a train going 100 mph and I am barely alive on life support
>I would of done anything for her
>I would of taken a bullet
>I would of jumped out of a plane with no parachute for her
>I write letters for everyone
>She was at work and I was in the barn
>I wrote a letter for her
>My suicide note
CONTINUING
>>688233179
i made that fucking llike so long ago and im still laughing about it
>>688234033
>I wrote a letter for her
>My suicide note
fuck, this is gonna get good.
>>688234075
sure you did...
Get ready to feel.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dSFVO12Srho
>>688205821
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVU4uea36iA
>>688234348
i did bro
>>688216801
I guess you just weren't made for these times
>>688234704
>>688220175
>>688234557
That fucking got me.
>>688216801
wish i had gone to college..
my teenage crush probably forgot about me when she landed there... i was the stupid ugly fuck who rejected her...
i was so stupid, hope she's happy at least (i sincerely wish her well)
>I knew she would be coming home later
>I left the letter on the kitchen island
>I was in the barn and had a rope
>Made a noose while drinking some scotch
>Left another note requesting for her not to remarry and everything is hers now
>I get ready to hang myself
>She comes home early from work that day and she sees the letter
>She runs outside to the barn
>I was about to kick the chair out from under me
>I had a gun in my hand too in case it didnt work
>I had locked my eyes with her and made solid eye contact for 2 minutes
>She was crying her eyes out and begging me not to do it
>I told her how I felt and everything and it wasn't worth it no more
>She begs me to get down
>I get down from the chair eventually and put my handgun down on the ground
>She takes me inside and talks to me for a solid 2 hours
>She tells me how she felt about the incident and she regretted it
>She tells me what I used to tell her
>"Life is short, So make the most of it."
CONTINUING
>>688234704
*cough* Baby boomers *cough*
>>688233663
>"You're girl is cheating on you"
>>688234033
You fucking piece of shit. How the fuck could you ever let anyone fuck you over like that? You know deep inside that you are not worthy such complete cancer. You need to forgive yourself- not anyone else and find peace within your soul. Eitherwise, it is not even legitimately worth to keep on living. Seriously, fuck you- you are WAY more better than that, I hope you learned yourself a lesson.
>>688235114
>You are girl
>>688234704
>>688234751
When was a kid I always wanted to grow up and have a beautiful wife and some brilliant kids.
Not any more.
