Beta Feels thread >Be me 19 >Live in a boring village
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>Be me 19
>Live in a boring village
>Same usual friends that I hang out with
>Same usual shit that I do, play vidya, watch anime ect.
>Life seems to be an endless loop of the same shit over and over
>Suddenly father has to go to the mental hospital, want to visit but can not find the courage
>Mother starts drinking
>Autistic brother starts fighting at everychance he gets for each discomfort he finds in his life
>friends fade away cuz I have become NEET
>Monday strikes, go to school
>Everything seems so futile
>Same old this, same old that
>Friday comes, last hour
>German class, 3 other chicks are absent so it's just me and a Muslim girl
>Get to know each other good
>Start being good friends, she can tell me everything and I can do to
>start falling in love
>Slowly but surely
>make her smile a lot
>Make her laugh when she was down
>make a list for her with 100 reasons why she should live (she told me she didn't want to live anymore)
>She started pushing me away
>Get mad but never show
>2 Weeks ago go on trip to Antwerp
>she's paired with a friend of her a friend of mine and me
>Depression kicked in cuz we haven't spoken to each other in a week accompanied by my fathers absense
>just be useless the whole trip, didn't say a word just walk, stare and haven't said a thing.
>Notice something
>She became close with my friend
>Haven't heard her laugh so hard
>Haven't seen her smile in that long
>hit me like a truck
>wandered off during the noon break, needed alone time
>When I came back they were up to the shenanigans we never had to share.
>I felt happy cuz atleast he could make her smile.
>But it still hurts to know I've been replaced.
>Be now
>still can not sleep
>still don't dare to visit my father
>and back to the endless loop which i escaped when I met her.
tl;dr
>kill yourself
>>678356225
Soon..
It will be okay anon, you're still young so there's tons of time for you to get out into the world and explore, meet new people, and have fun. It sounds like you live in a very small town so it's likely you haven't gotten to meet very many people in your time. I'm not saying you can't be isolated while surrounded by tons of people, there's loads of people in cities who share your feelings. Still though new experiences and places and things that as time goes on you may find you love to do are all out there for you.
Also, try to find the strength to visit your dad if you can, it might not be pleasant and it might not seem like it when you visit but he would likely appreciate it very much if you showed you care for him.
Hey dude, i feel so sorry for you.
I've been through a shit like this for about 2 years.
I liked a girl for two fucking years. I didn't had the chance to talk to her. Seems weird i know, but it hurt me so bad. I tried some approaches but nothing really happenned. I was friendzoned even before talking to her.
I'm beginning to overcome this. But I don't feel that sad anymore. I just realised that not everyone can love us. I mean.. that's life.
Take this as an experience you lived. Don't try to forget it but just learn from it.
so smile dude, not for her, but who knows, maybe someday a cute girl will notice it.
>>678357559
Thanks anon, I'll keep that in mind.
>>678357942
Thank you for your sympathy
I hope that sooner or later that girl will realise what she has lost.
But you're right, we can't always get what we think we need. Perhaps it's just the illusion that is meant to keep us going.
Hey dude it's fine.
My father passed away 3 years ago now, soon after I was diagnosed with severe depression. But I gave it time and had people helping, I'm a lot better now.
Time will heal it anon.
I feel you bro
Was in the same situation as you
Things might change sooner or latwr tho and you'll get over these hard times
You need to take the wheel tho, start doing things or stuff won't happen
You need to move on, actually do something with your life, actually meet more people. Do something engaing with your life instead of just passively sitting back and watching anime. Start with your diet, you will need energy, then get fit, you will start feeling better, then take up a sport or hobby outside of your home which you can meet people through. Sounds impossible right? Well its literally not your just a lazy shit. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and make a concious change. Thats the difference between neets and people who do something with their life. People who do something make that concious change in their life. They actually put effort in, and if your not willing to put that effort in you deserve all the sadness you get. And you may think im speaking from a position of privilege, bullshit, i was just like you, but i made a change, and so can you
Thank you for sharing. I love you
